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paw-padss · 8 months ago
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i tried to a fancy theme bc i realized i had the meowbahh pfp
not sure if i like it tho... (._.)
which it would suck if i didn't bc i spent like an hour on it 😭
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starbuck · 1 year ago
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i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’
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spacerangersam · 2 years ago
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well. there was an attempt
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thefrozenbunny · 4 months ago
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|| Inktober Day 8 Cheat Day || If it wasn't for inktober, I would have just scrapped this drawing, because I did draw this in my inktober sketchbook and I did ink it but I just couldn't get it right. The poses were looking all wrong, the shading was wrong and probably it would have also fitted better in landscape format and ugh.
Usually this is a case for "throw it away and start all over with a new concept" but there's no time for that during inktober. And I really didn't want to post the drawing at all so in the end I decided to go back to my digital sketch and fix what could be fixed until 11pm and then I gave up 😅. I think in the end it turned out okay-ish. Not my favorite but better than before. Anyway, moving on to the next one.
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sirenofthegreenbanks · 1 year ago
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mongwoo playing baduk against the qing ambassador is . very symbolic. THEYRE GONNA TEAM UP IM CALLING IT. (she and the king.) they compliment each other incredibly well, were one has a weakness the other is strong. mongwoo is frankly shit at schemes when real people are involved, and the king is too laden by real-people events and a certain kind of viewpoint when playing baduk. he cant entirely free himself from the strategist he needs to be as the king of a court of vipers, making him worse at baduk than mongwoo. meanwhile mongwoo has the mental flexibility and freedom to see things from unsuspecting angles; she seems to have ingraved the baduk rules in her heart and is now applying them expertly. but a baduk board is different from a real country with real people; her stakes when playing were never big enough to carry that burden. but should they team up they could compliment each other‘s strengths and weaknesses and they could take advantage of mongwoo‘s unique position as a woman crossdressing as the king‘s favourite official. she can go to places the king cant. she has access to the common people, his countrypeople, in a way he hasnt and never will. if they apply their combined smarts, cunning, and good heartedness to handle the precarious situation with the qing things would start to take a turn
#my thoughts#ep9#captivating the king#even though mongwoo is technically playing for her own freedom#it FEELS like more#so far she doesnt seem like shes spent much thought on any of these things#what happens after she has assassinated the king?#who will take over? who is going to suffer for it? how is that going to affect the fragile peace with the qing?#no thoughts head empty just personal revenge#shes a far cry from the woman who sold her baduk skills to free prisoners of war#who risked her own life for the things she believed in#i wonder whether she thinks this is still the same (it isnt)#shes so unhinged im honestly baffled#is she simply overestimating herself?#where does she take that confidence from?#is she aware this is not righteousness?#is the only one who is fooled by her lies she herself?#why would she choose to overthrow the government before talking to the king?#maybe to her this is not a political assassination or staging a coup#maybe its the murder of someone she once thought of as a friend#and who hurt and betrayed her#maybe she is not viewing the king as the king in this . maybe hes simply the person who disappointed her#and who happens to be the guy at the top of the social and political hierarchy#maybe everything else (power vacuum. infighting. political destabilization) is just collateral damage to her#maybe she thinks theyre gonna clean up her mess and everythings gonna go well#(is she stupid?)#maybe she has too much faith in her own judgement because she confuses this to be a game of baduk#reading & watching
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swordmaid · 2 years ago
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want to make mango cheesecake at this ripe hour of 3 am….!!!!
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guinevereslancelot · 2 years ago
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the bad news about getting a concussion is that i can't remember the hilarious joke i came up with on the way home that i was going to share with you all but the good news is i just checked my notes app for something else i thought was important enough to write down and it didn't make any sense at all so the good news is it probably wasn't funny
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nexus-nebulae · 6 days ago
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so many of my doctors will say stuff like "oh you're very self-aware you're so good at introspection you're very articulate" nah i just had to be my own doctor my whole childhood
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rockingthegraveyard · 1 year ago
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First day of my job and I hope I have a heart attack and die actually.
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nyxitycatboy · 1 year ago
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i got oni recently and i've been using zanshin tactics on a few other killers and i genunely think that the perk mechanically Perfectly serves it purpose, being a chase perk that works really well on low-middle strength chase orientated killers, and that especially helps low-above average skill killer players, but zanshin tactics also completely and utterly fails to accomplish that goal, since because it has no direct mechanical features and is identical to a survivor perk, its severly underused by the section of players / killers it would most benefit
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pansyfemme · 4 months ago
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sometimes i get hung up on things like my height and my t-voice as dead giveaways im trans to strangers (i’m not stealth by any means, but at times passing can be useful.) but then i remember that one conservative guy in highschool who had to be told i was not in fact a cis guy three seperate times to process that i wasn’t just “extremely gay” when i had discussed my transition with him in the room and also had h-cup tits I didn’t bind. i think at times we overestimate the perception skills of the average cis person
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crescenthistory · 25 days ago
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analyze regulus black sunshine reader? like reader is js such good friends with ppl and socializes sm? maybe he gets jealous over how close she is with people? like how does he bring it up to her? :)
hi there darling<3 i would love to! i have also already written several full-length fics about sunshine!reader with reggie, including "you occupy my every thought" (where reg doesn't understand reader's love for him) and "are you falling asleep on me?" (where reader spends late nights in the library with him), if you want to see more 🤞
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i will ANALYSE regulus black with a sunshine!reader
carina's 2k celebration
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cw: gn!reader, reg's mental health struggles
regulus had always used his cold demeanor, family reputation that preceded him and lack of social skills as a shield to protect himself
it's better to keep everyone away than to risk under- or overestimating anyone he chose to let in
he had a close knit group of friends in the rosier twins, barty and dorcas, and he told himself time and time again that he didn't want or need more
which is why you walking into his life and choosing him effortlessly was so disorientating and hard to swallow for him
someone who was considered lively, beautiful and pure like you had no place in regulus' orbit, he was certain of it
yet you just settled down like it was the most natural thing in the world
sunshine!reader who loves regulus not just despite every obstacle he has thrown up to keep you from doing so, but even specifically because of it
sunshine!reader who looks at him and sees him instead of looking past
sunshine!reader who is not just bubbly but emotionally intelligent and willing to hold space for regulus in that way he desperately needs but is unable to convey
everything that regulus thought it a given that people dislike in him, you adored -> his deadpan humour that most people found rude, you found hilarious, his quiet and reserved self that sirius always called boring, you found serenity in
and you were so painfully patient and kind with him, never demanding, just showing up and loving him in a way he thought impossible
how could he not fall for you?
it took him a long time to get used to the feeling, let alone act on it or speak it out loud
i believe most romances with regulus, especially from "unexpected" people, would have to start as friendships that he slowly builds up trust and comfort in
which any sunshine!reader would fully understand and encourage him in, making him all the more infatuated
i think regulus would view sunshine!reader as kind of holy, someone who can do no wrong and is perfect all the way through
so if you were to ever reference or communicate any insecurity about being too much, too loud, too bubbly, etc. he would be just so thoroughly confused
i think he might not even understand what you're trying to say until a while later
at which point he would approach you and be like "hold up, what?"
which hits even more if this happens pre-relationship while he's still getting comfortable with you, but his reaction just couldn't be contained
it was simply unheard of to regulus that you view yourself as anything short of perfect
similarly, if anyone made jokes at your expense, he would wield every bit of his harsh facade and reputation that precedes him to ensure it doesn't happen again
barty and evan understand from pretty much the first week of your friendship that you are not to be messed with, and they respect both you and regulus for it
they need to tease someone though, so instead they focus all their energy on how lovesick regulus is becoming
when it comes to jealousy, i think regulus would be more jealous of what sunshine!reader can do than who they're with
it seems to him that everything is easy to you, that it just comes naturally to you to be such a kind individual
i believe his love for you would be permanently settled when he comes to understand that it's not easy for you, but that you do it anyway; it's not natural, it's hard fought for
yet, as he goes on his own healing journey, a part of him would be so envious to hear you navigate through difficult feelings with kindness and logic or see you get on so openly with those around you
he would be so glad you are able to do that and that you get to be completely surrounded by love – he just longs for it for himself
i think he would also be jealous of your friends for being able to match your energy so well
there would be many many conversations where regulus goes "you deserve better" and you go "but i want you"
seeing you and sirius shoot banter back and forth like it's nothing or see you run up to braid lily's hair at a moment's notice would both heal and break something in regulus
he's once again confronted with everything he could be, feels like maybe he should be, but can't
because regulus' personality, no matter how healed he is, is never super outgoing and sunshine-y – when he's with close friends, he is much more lively and filled with banter and jokes and even some physical affection. but it's never the same as your friends.
he wonders if he should be more
you keep showing him every day that he doesn't need to be, that you love him because he's him; he doesn't need to change for you
when he becomes more comfortable in your relationship, his ideal time of voicing any such feelings would be at night in bed
with the lights turned off and his face buried in your skin somewhere, he feels safe enough to be vulnerable with you
you'll drag your fingers through his hair and talk him down every time
the best part of being with regulus is getting to love him through the healing process and see him separate his personality from his coping mechanisms and fully blossom
i think it would be a bumpy ride, but what he needs throughout it all is a rock
his sunshine!reader
i also believe he would call sunshine!reader for sun related nicknames, particularly in french (soleil anyone?)
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rizzanon · 2 months ago
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You know what would be even funnier than Adrien dying every five minutes, for that to become a Wayne mannor top expense, like Bruce looking at what did they spent most that month: galas, gadgets, donations, Adrien's hospital bills,... wait what, who tf was Adrian again??
Bruce: (scrolling through the detailed monthly expenditure reports) Gadgets… expected. Donations… as usual. Galas… Alfred, we really need to cut back on those.…Hospital bills? Adrien? Who is this Adrien again?
Bruce: (presses the intercom button) Alfred. Can you come here for a moment?
Alfred: (arrives, a tray of tea in hand, ever composed) Yes, Master Bruce. Is there something you require?
Bruce: (gestures to the screen) I was going over the monthly expenses, and… do you know anything about this? Hospital bills for someone named Adrien? Thousands of dollars have been spent on him.
Alfred: “Ah, yes. That would be Miss (Name)’s friend. He’s rather… accident-prone, to put it mildly.”
Bruce: ???
Alfred: I believe Miss (Name) felt it was urgent enough not to bother you with the details. Though I must say, Adrien’s brushes with death have become rather… frequent.
Meanwhile
Adrien: (grinning weakly) Sooo… I might’ve overestimated my parkour skills.
regressed!reader: (deadpan) You don’t say.
Caitlyn: (exasperated) Adrien, that’s the third time this week. Do you have a death wish, or are you just trying to bankrupt (Name)’s family?
Adrien: (sheepish) Hey, it’s not like I plan these things. Life just… happens to me, y’know?
regressed!reader: (still deadpan) Right. And somehow ‘life’ always involves falling off buildings or getting hit by moving vehicles.
Adrien: (chuckling nervously) But hey, at least I’m still alive, right? Besides, you seriously think the Waynes are ever going to bankrupt?? They’re loaded, their banks probably have banks..!
Caitlyn: (under her breath) He has a point.
regressed!reader: Don’t encourage him???!?
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yandereworlds · 1 year ago
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Dantae's reaction to Darling who wants to cook for him but really sucks at it, like "almost burnt the house down" level of bad 🔥🔥🔥
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If Dantae had a darling that would almost burn the place every time they cook, I think he'd be fairly disappointed, probably nudging his sweetie to level up their culinary game, especially since he's quite skilled in the kitchen himself. But if the mishaps kept happening, you can bet he'd pull the plug on your oven privileges.
That's not to say Dantae wouldn't let his darling help out, though. He'd probably stick you on veggie duty - washing and chopping, while he takes over the heavy lifting of actually cooking. Not his first choice, but hey, at least it's a fun excuse for the two of you to spend time together, right?
"Geez, darling... I thought you were more capable than this, but maybe I've overestimated you, my sweet? Obviously, the art of cooking isn't ready to embrace you yet... So, how about we stick to the slicing and dicing for now, love?"
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razorblade180 · 4 months ago
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Together again
Carmine:Mom? Can I ask an odd question?
Ruby:If an odd question is asked by an odd girl to her odd daughter, isn’t it just normal? *flips pancakes* All ears.
Carmine:Hypothetically, if I met you at my age, who would win in a fight?
Ruby:Hmmm good question. You’re fifteen so, you kick my ass. Even if I’m thinking about me in Beacon.
Carmine:Really?
Ruby:I was scrappy but very kick-able unfortunately. Your birthday is close so if we’re entertaining this seriously then I think my journey to Haven still wouldn’t be enough.
Carmine:And Atlas?
Ruby:I fear I kick your ass. I was really hitting my stride at that point. Plus I was pretty temperamental then. We might punch the spit out of each other for a bit.
Carmine:That’s interesting. Guess I’m not as far behind as I imagined.
Ruby:I wouldn’t compare your progress to mine. Life is pretty different from when I was your age.
Carmine:I can’t compare myself to my peers since they all suck! You might’ve saved the world a little too hard. Not many cream in the crop anymore.
Ruby:Ha! You overestimate me. Sure, I killed Salem in a pretty fantastic way, but I don’t think i curved the skill level of the world. There are plenty huntsmen that were underwhelming growing up. Then some of them are late bloomers.
Carmine:Do late bloomers survive?
Jaune:*walks in* I did. For the most part.
Carmine:You were a late bloomer?
Jaune:Yeah I sucked.
Ruby:*scrambling eggs* Don’t listen to him. Your father did not suck. He was painfully average for quite a while.
Jaune:That doesn’t sound any better.
Ruby:You were starting from scratch; it’s only natural. I’m not a fan of trail by fire but your father made every experience that for himself. Paid off in in the end.
Carmine:How did you keep up before that?
Jaune:Your mother was in love with me so she stuck to my side.
Ruby:*red* That is not the reason!
Jaune:I mean it kinda is.
Ruby:Carmine, as a leader and someone who influenced others to go with her, I wouldn’t leave them behind. That’s bad leadership and a recipe for disaster.
Jaune:She was mostly worried about something happening to me and being too far ahead meant potentially losing me, the person she loved.
Ruby:….*flips pancakes* It was a valid fear.
Jaune:*kisses her head* It was.
Carmine:Hmm, that makes sense. You would be more effective together.
Ruby:Am I sensing a bit of longing to have a team?
Carmine:Nah. Not really. They’d definitely make things more of a hassle. Although, I will admit aimless chatter around a campfire and meals makes me a little envious. The past two years at Beacon were pretty dull solo.
Ruby:Friendship feeds the soul. There’s people here in Vacou I know that will be happy to see your face around. Even of the conversations are awkward, make sure to greet them. I know Aero probably misses you~
Carmine:Heh, is that so? Guess that should be more first stop. *stands up* I’m heading out.
Ruby:Huh!? But breakfast! It’s almost all done.
Carmine:Yeah, but….it’s not dad’s breakfast soooooo.
Ruby:What’s wrong with my pancakes! They’re awesome!
Carmine:I never said they were bad. It’s just that compared to dad’s, I fear they’re painfully average.
The girl smiled as she slowly grabbed one anyways and held it with her mouth as she waved goodbye before leaving out the front door with an apple.
Ruby:…..
Jaune:And just like her mother, she is my number one defender.
Ruby:I put so much love into these!
Carmine, in the distance: I CAN TASTE IT!
Ruby:*squints* I don’t think that makes me feel better.
Jaune:There’s always lunchtime.
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bonefall · 8 months ago
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Not sure if this is the place to ask or if I should go to Bonebabble, but ooh, Dungeon Meshi mention! I love what you said about low-empathy and apathy, I think I’ll use that in ny own characters.
I wanted to ask why you think Shuro is autistic. I’ve seen a lot of people say it so there must be a reason why, but I don’t think it’s really obvious to me? Like with Laios, autism/neurodivergence is so integral to his story, so it’s deeply obvious. I love the way he’s written! But we don’t see a lot of Shuro, so I’d like to hear more of why people see the tism in him.
@bonebabbles is the better place to send these in the future but it's chill! The vibe right now's loose since we're all coming down from the heaviness of Mooncourse lmao
Honestly, I feel a little 'tism in a lot of the cast of Dungeon Meshi. As a very autistic writer myself, it kind of has a vibe like it was written by someone who's autistic and so it gets peppered into all of her characters. It's something I notice a lot in my own art, too.
But like, when it comes to Toshiro... I can't stop thinking about him. He makes me want to chew the furniture. With every passing day I become less normal about him.
glossary because I had a lot of thoughts about Toshiro Dungeon Meshi i guess. Oh my god this got long
He reminds me of some people I know
His culture clash is very relatable to me in an autistic way
He has a rigid commitment to his values and morals
Miscellaneous Autism Moments
THE LAIOS FIGHT
in conclusion
He reminds me of some people I know
He reminds me of certain autistic men I've met from affluent families. The type who both is taught to repress and mask their own traits, yet also not to be incredibly mindful of the emotions of other people. Because of their status, they don't have to learn how to work out interpersonal conflict because the majority of the people around them are servants or family. People who would never go away if they didn't like you.
So, his vassals have to learn to talk to him and how to carry out his orders. Not the other way around. As a result, Toshiro has a bit of unearned confidence about his leadership abilities and communication skills. NOT in a way that is smug, DO NOT misunderstand me; just in a way that overestimates his own judgement. Maybe he has encyclopedic knowledge for talking to other nobles offscreen, but when it came to his own team, he was ignoring a lot of the good advice they gave him about taking breaks.
Yes, Toshiro is from a high-context culture-- but his communication issues are bad with everyone.
ESPECIALLY his vassals, people he calls family, from the same exact culture as him. They're worried about him, most of them are desperate for acknowledgement, they'd do anything for him, and he doesn't address this until AFTER his brawl with Laios!
His culture clash is very relatable to me in an autistic way
Toshiro knew he was going somewhere that was going to be a melting pot of mostly western cultures. He knew the manners were going to be different, and he came alone, not in a group where he was only interacting with his own people.
Yet he NEVER adjusted his own social behavior.
I'm American and my partner is British. When I first went, I had no idea why they were offering me so much tea. I thought I was being polite by following them into the kitchen, thinking they wanted to move the conversation over there. My partner quickly fixed this by explaining that when someone offers you tea, they're taking a short pause in the lull of a conversation to be a good host.
I am autistic. What someone else might have just figured out through getting an awkward look, I had to be told directly. There are a lot of little things like that.
Toshiro feels like what would happen if the opposite was happening, an autistic person from a high-context culture coming to a low-context culture. He can't properly express discomfort. It's not JUST Laios, King of Autism, that he's having issues talking to. Neither Marcille nor Chilchuck know that "Shuro" is a mispronunciation, and they had no clue that he disliked Laios THIS much.
I even think it's kinda telling that Toshiro felt the most comfortable with Falin out of the rest of the party. The hyper-empathetic autistic girl who goes out of her way to accommodate others.
He has a rigid commitment to his values and morals
A strict, uncompromising moral compass is a hallmark of autism. It's everything Toshiro does!!
When Falin was eaten, he bolted off to assemble the best team he could think of. He believes that love is sacrifice, so he pushes his body and his family to the limit to try and prove how much he loves Falin. Chilchuck freaks out when he finds out that Laios told him about the dark magic, because "HE'S THE WORST PERSON TO TELL!"
LIKE, YEAH! HE SURE IS!
Maizuru also explains that from a very young age, he's been incredibly compliant. He never asks for anything, he's always been a bit sickly and uninterested in eating. He always tries to be on his very best behavior, even if that means not asking for accommodations he might actually need.
In fact, the only food he seems to LIKE eating is what Maizuru makes him. To the point where she ended up getting pulled into the kitchen even when she was on a "mission." Senshi makes a cute comment that it's "love" that Maizuru puts into those meals, but... what if it's actually because she knows the textures and flavors he likes?
Miscellaneous Autism Moments
There's so many little moments that are so incredibly autistic to me.
He sees Falin with a bug and he proposes right on the spot. The other characters are like, "oh that's just how they act in the east" but no the fuck it is not. They don't even know "Shuro" is a mispronunciation, how the hell do they know anything about eastern courting traditions?
I know EXACTLY what happened. I'm beaming you this information directly from the truth.
Toshiro was TOLD that you're supposed to 1. make your proposals a surprise, and 2. you will know the right one when you see them, and NO ONE elaborated any further because he comes from a high context culture. He popped that question the first time both of those boxes were ticked off.
In coming from a high context culture, what he does is strictly follow rules and conditions he was taught.
And that's absolutely why he handed Laios that bell. Because he does care about him and the party, and he's taught that doing these acts of service is a show of that... and he didn't even think ahead to the fact the bell was going to be ringing constantly.
And yet. In spite of that, he ALWAYS keeps it near him.
Before it clicked and I realized why, I used to think Toshiro was kind of an asshole for running off to get his vassals without even telling Marcille and Laios about his plan. Like... how could you not know they were going to do something drastic? The three of them were the Falin Fan Club and he was the most normal member of it. It's so obvious to me that Laios (brother) and Marcille (""Gal Pal"") were going to get themselves in danger.
So how could you just run off like that without telling them? Even if lack of supplies meant they couldn't go back in, how could you just leave them worried sick in the town, thinking you abandoned Falin?
And then it hit me. The man just has low empathy.
There WAS no malice, just like how there wasn't malice in how he was pushing him and his vassals to the limits, just like how there was never malice against Laios. It simply didn't occur to him like that.
He's never been taught to consider the thoughts and feelings of others very deeply and they don't come naturally. He's still compassionate. There's a reason all of his vassals love him!
But THAT'S WHY he never put himself in Laios' shoes, or anyone else's. Empathy does not come naturally to him. All of his good behavior is as a result of his moral code, NOT empathy.
So with that said, why does he love Falin so much? Aside from the wonderful, positive traits he lists when he's asked? I mean, what's really deep down at the core of why he finds these things so lovely?
Well... Falin and Laios are not all that different from each other, to the point where Toshiro gets gently ribbed in a bonus chapter about how if one of them was a girl, Shuro might have loved Laios instead. He waxes poetic about the ways she's different from most women, how she's not afraid of things like insects, her compassion, her face, her laugh.
These are all things Laios does too (in fact in one of the panels where Toshiro is appreciating Falin, she's trying to check if a caterpillar is a male or female), but Falin's personality expresses in a more subdued and introverted way. Closer to how Toshiro is, as a person. So... I think it's because he relates to her.
To both Touden siblings. But Laios makes him see things he doesn't want to.
THE LAIOS FIGHT
We established that Toshiro has a strict commitment to his values, he probably has low empathy, and even taking his cultural differences into account he's bad at communicating.
So then, why was one of his complaints against Laios' obliviousness that he "knows he doesn't mean anything by it, and that makes it worse"? Isn't that kinda specific when you think about it?
If you're neurodivergent, I want you to think back to points in time where you dealt with people who have the same issues you do. Autism, ADHD, PTSD, DID, whatever. Did you ever have a moment where they did something harmless or mildly inconvenient, definitely as a result of the same exact thing you have, and you just... HATED it?
You HATED it even more than you would anyone else doing the same thing. You probably know your response was disproportionate. But YOU don't do that THING they did. Or if you do that, it's less bad somehow. Or you used to do that but don't anymore and it reminds you of when you did.
If you're reflective, you might have realized it might be internalized ableism. I feel like that's a huge part of why Toshiro finds Laios SO. ANNOYING. Laios is like this stupid, idiot, blundering caricature of things Toshiro has been taught to avoid, which violate his moral code. Shuro comes from a place of so many more rules and subtle cues, and it's like Laios doesn't respect any of them.
What STARTS this fight, causes Laios to finally hit back after being smacked, shoved, and shouted at, is being told "YOU'RE NOT TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY."
It's so obviously wrong! Laios, who ran back into a dungeon immediately? Who Toshiro himself called rash? This is NOT a logical conclusion to make about Laios or his party. I think it came from frustration that Laios "does things the wrong way." That it's projection, stemming from that low empathy.
He's not like Kabru in the same chapter, who's desperately trying to get a read on Laios' inner workings and failing. Shuro's just extrapolating his own feelings onto him, because he's recognizing that same "sense" within him. If TOSHIRO didn't follow the rules he sets down for himself, that's not "taking it seriously."
Toshiro follows the rules. Laios does not.
...and Laios is FREE.
He's open and honest in a way Toshiro can never be, not as a noble, not as an easterner, and not as an autistic man. Hell, Laios was ALSO a noble, he gave that up! Threw that away, and then came back to his village and took Falin away from it. If Laios is acting like an idiot, he's acting like an idiot who does everything Toshiro has ever wanted to do. Laios cannot mask and Toshiro resents that.
One of the things Toshiro even explicitly says he HATES about Laios is the fact he's willing to be a burden on other people. Maizuru said earlier that he's NEVER made a "selfish request" before-- but Laios can just open his mouth and ask for help, feeling no shame, just as he did in this chapter when he asked him not to tell the Island Lord about the dark magic.
And then, after they literally come to blows, Toshiro tells Laios some incredibly brutal things, revealing he's NEVER been his friend and he has resented him this whole time. This actually sits with Laios well into the later chapters, but the fight ends and then they're just CHATTING FRIENDLY LIKE IT DIDN'T MATTER.
More honestly than ever before, because Toshiro is returning the effort. He eats some food (the narrative's metaphor for making connections). He thanks his vassals for the first time. He talks about how he wishes he'd told Falin about all the things he adored about her when he still had the chance.
I have to take the panels of his response right out of the manga actually because this little expression here is so subtle, but so meaningful.
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Look at the way that when Laios makes that genuine movement, assuring him with passion that he will be making sure Falin receives this message, Toshiro's gut response is annoyance. But then it softens and he pauses, like he's reconsidering what his response is going to be.
To admit that he envies "this side of Laios" is also admitting that the earlier fight was based on envy.
Laios was like this the WHOLE time. Making these grand speeches about his plans, what his party's been doing, how Toshiro needs to eat something and take a nap. He's ALWAYS been like this. It was Toshiro's mindset that changed.
In conclusion
Something I really like about Dungeon Meshi is HOW MANY of its characters can be read as autistic. Laios is just the most obvious one, with his special interest in monsters and inability to read social cues being central to the plot. His is a more "well known" expression of autism-- it's rare you get characters whose masking is central to their characters.
But it's really refreshing to see characters like Kabru, Falin, and Toshiro. Autistic people are rare enough in popular media to begin with, but we NEVER get characters whose autism intersects with their trauma, gender, and culture quite like these three.
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