#overall negativity tw

[spidrboots]

xxx.

[quietlyblooms]

it really does feel like one thing after another sometimes and i’m just

[suniside-crossing]

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[bloodmoonlich]

It really surprised (and disappointed) me that there were no good pictures of the stage during august/illicit affairs in the photo book. That's my favorite stage light moment and it felt kind of bare in the book

[whileurmine]

i don't have it in my rules but like,,, i dont have bc i think its common sense,,, pls dont god mod my muses, dont say they invited ur muse somewhere or they made ur muse do something or they forced ur muse into doing something. specially not without checking with me first. like its one thing for in our thread we both say they are going to a place or eating a food or doing an activity and u write them Getting there or Finishing or Starting next activity. its a whole nother thing for you to say my muse led urs somewhere or my muse decided to end it early or my muse forced urs into without checking with me first. like its my muse ,, u dont ,, u dont know if they would. maybe next they would drop to the floor and break dance. u dont know. if u wanna write that into the reply just send me a quick message saying 'hey would santi/frank/james/whoever do x?' or 'can i move the thread to x place' like its that simple.

[lesbian-gnf-archive]

Those Inniters are genuinely so funny, like I can't even put into words why but dear God how are they so delusional to real life - 🐑

I'm honestly mostly appalled. As a victim of what they think went on it's disgusting to see that THIS is how they choose to "support" victims.

If they truly thought Dream committed that heinous crime and they continue to support Tommy who is clearly not changing his mind any time soon then they do not care about any fucking victim. They just want to feel better about themselves so they make up shit in their heads so they can keep watching but still hate Dream.

I need them to fucking die.

[visceraeffectget]

seeing ppl still following this blog is so weird. there are much better artists to archive the works of 🙏seek them out bc ghost sucks 🙏🙏

[notsooriginaltrash]

One of the most gut punching things that has happened in 2023 so far is my childhood best friend of maybe 15+years who knows very well that I self-harm coming to me for advice how to deal with it for some random girl, despite never asking how to help me

[mcltiples]

{ OOC } so i'm feeling sick today and i woke up in a bad mood (also my neurodivergent ass is experiencing symptoms that are just... not good) so i'm probably going to stay away from people today bc yeah --- so anyway, i'll be back on tomorrow

[shallowseeker]

Awhile back, I got an ask about "how I would rehabilitate the fetishism of Asian culture" with regards to Dean, and while I was reading about Jo Harvelle today, I stopped on her losing her father when she was FOUR.

Dean lost his mom when he was FOUR, too. And well, I think you could carry the theme of four being unlucky a bit further.

While not traditionally considered an unlucky number, 4 has in recent times, gained an association with bad luck because of its pronunciation, predominantly for the Cantonese. The belief that the number 4 is unlucky originated in China, where the Chinese have avoided the number since ancient times.

Tetraphobia is so common that even some elevators skip this floor number, the same way some Western cultures skip floor 13 in the count.

Anyway, if I were a showrunner, I think you could do a lot with the number 4 with regards to Dean (and other characters too).

There's already a swell of themes with FORTUNE and LUCK, and this would allow the flavor to be playfully kept but be more interesting.

[hereticallyeverafter]

There really is an unspoken, mystically selected window of time where, if it closes, people just won't give af about what you have to say or the severity of what happened to you.

I'm listening to all this Danny Masterson stuff, and I'm glad the victims got their justice, but you always have those gremlins in the wings going, "Why did you wait so long?? Prooove iiiit!"

As if the waiting negates the trauma, instead of being a direct symptom of it.

It took me a long time to admit that my past relationship was actually abusive and that my ex raped me- at least one time that I know of- but nobody in my circle cares. Or looked up really when I finally worked up the courage to say that I had been a victim.

But I get it. He was popular- he had all the friends in the relationship. He told me to my face he'd fallen out of love with me a long time ago, then slandered me to his friends and stalked my socials for a while.

But he's okay. The window closed on me, though.

All that is to say, when someone is hurting you, do not be quiet about it, if you can help it. I don't care if your friends share the suicide hotline number or your mom has a ribbon magnet on the back of her van- people will stop caring if you stop yelling, no matter how good you are or how good you think they are.

[wawhii]

Wanting to make new friends and bond closer with existing friends gets. So much fucking harder when you not only have 16 layers of autism, only 10 sentences you can say without burning yourself out, and now! Guess what bitches! What I'm pretty sure classify as trust issues!

[super-duper-stupor]

I was scheduled for an appointment with a psychiatrist that was recently brought here at IHS (we havent had one here for years). So I checked in about a half hour before my appointment was scheduled and 2 hours after my appointment was supposed to happen i asked one of the outpatient reception nurses to see if my appointment was even scheduled and it was so i was told to just wait a little longer. Problem was that i needed to be home by 3 and it was already 2:45 and it wasn't gonna be a quick appointment either so by then I had no choice but to go home. So idk what the deal was but not only was my scheduling cutting it way too close but I was hallucinating as well, the longer I waited the louder and more vulgar the voices got plus I kept hearing whistling in the trashcan next to me. yeah I ain't dealing with that shit in public dude so best thing was to nope it out of there.

[foreverxdaydreaming]

saturday was overall abysmal from start to finish, and the rest of the week prior wasn't any better.. sunday won't be enough time to recover from it all (plus this now two week ongoing cold) before having to do it all over again on monday.... so tired of this cycle ffs.

sometimes i wish the ground would just swallow me up in my sleep, cause im damn tired of doing this shit every day. i don't even care about the future, dunno why i even bother. irl has been super disappointing for so long now that looking back on it sometimes im just like... wow how has every bleak day felt the fucking same yet years have gone by now ...that's crazy. anyway not to be all depressing on main but i needed to vent into the void for a min bc i can't even drink on these fucking meds but i can't manage any sleep cause of my stress. and since my days have been ruined by people lately, ive kind of undergone that tvd humanity switch thing and no longer have the desire to be social or my bubblier self.. so even media that revolves around (gasp, you guessed it) 🚫 People tm 🚫 has me mad annoyed. im probably so pissed/stressed rn that just someone breathing (loudly ig?) would be the straw that broke the camel's back..... and mind you, i am back in therapy, have been back for awhile, and yet........ i seem to keep repeating the cycle of mistakenly trusting and opening up to those close to me (or just the family fighting again) and then just deciding ive given up on humanity as a whole and that i regret ever being born bc i literally never, not once, asked for this shit. i have, however, repeatedly asked any deity out there to do me a solid, and yet.... no help in making things better or doing me off in my sleep. anyway i'll probably be back to my regularly scheduled personality that was carelessly collaged together over the years soon, but ive been tossing and turning for hours with all of this shit just going at it in my head nonstop, so i needed to vent. tldr; fuck everything.

[vihrago-a]

me suddenly feeling like a failure and overwhelmed with everything on here bc my inbox is at least 70+ and i wanna respond to stuff in there but not everything but i just *head in hands* why do i do this to myself. i wanna clean this blog up and make it look nice but i cant even afford to pay anyone for graphics comms bc my hours got cut at work again just like everyone else and i have school + extra curricular activities so i just . have to suffer with an ugly as hell blog and not look aesthetically pleasing like everyone else 💀

[yoohyeon]

At first I didn’t really realize it, but my dad is saying at least 5 times a day how much days is left before him and my mom leave on vacation of 2 weeks so that mean I’m gonna be alone with Puppy for 2 weeks…I’m gonna d*e of stress 😭