#ough. god. this is beautiful. i just...

[a-passing-storm]

Ough... Moby Dick... Moby Dick... I think I have a new favorite book.

[intertexts]

oh you wanna think about muse and trickster? yeah? it's been a while since I put a heartbreaking nhw post in your inbox <3 I know u love the prime dehumanization loss of bodily autonomy defenders. << im not even remotely trying to keep the acronym the same anymore. I've lost the plot. ANYWAY

briefly mentioned this before but because I loooove the aesthetic so much I think at least one important muse confrontation should happen in the tricksters city, specifically in the amusement park. make it like a fuckign scooby door episode everything is all abandoned and run down but as the wards are walking down a boardwalk or something all the lights flicker on and some distorted fuckign. carnival music starts playing and they find muse sitting in like. the rebar scaffolding or whatever in the ferris wheel. just like grinning chin in hands kicking his feet watching them. this image is so clear in my mind. some creep shit !!!! also its like when they first go to the spirit world to get tide back from.mal and end up in the amusement park. except ashe isn't with them this time

uhhhhhh also thinking about. downtime. when muse isn't out being destructive and causing chaos for funsies. like... does he have a bedroom????? does he eat does he sleep??? idfk !!!! I would assume he has to or else he'd fucking die but !!!! man the trickster is so far gone I don't think he even realizes his puppets are real people anymore. that's a fun little doll for him to play dressup with. literally never going 2 get the image of him braiding muses hair and like. putting makeup on him and dressing him in fancy little outfits out of my mind. making myself ILL. smile! good evening I'm gently placing the knife box in your in. << as I was going to type inbox I accidentally typed out inventory. yknow what I'm keeping it. knife box directly into your inventory. watch out they're RUSTY

GOD. THANKS FOR THE KNIFE BOX MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! knife box directly in my inventory!!! u know what this means is that now i can use them :3 <- has been drawing wards stuff abt this for the past two hours ^_^

this is so fucking good though yeahhh.... i love creepy carnival shit so much. he trickster probably Knows it's very over the top and horror movie creepy and just a little absurd. he's so fucking fun 2 think abt since he's literally always doing shit simply because it is funny to him. we can swing a trickster justification for anything probably. i bet he fucking saw traps people!! anyway. ashe isn't with them this time. except..... well. he kind of is. :(

I HAVE ALSO BEEN THINKING ABT DOWNTIME. FREQUENTLY. i guess. the answer to this is he lives however the trickster&co does. the image of him coming back in his fancy intricate little outfits to some disgusting nasty bloody industrial warehouse where they're posted up & always being this very jarring contrast to the gore and violence is really good. the image of him having a perfect doll bedroom and going through a fancy little routine half the nights when the trickster is in a good mood or feeling it & just. getting thrown on the bed & the door locked to pass out for a couple hours whenever he forgets or is busy is also really good. literally anything we do to muse makes me feel some kind of way man. i also have had the extremely vivid image of the trickster braiding his hair & chatting about all kinds of horrific things excited sleepover style to muse who is just. Visibly Not There in my head for so long. not even like he has to touch him, he could be making him do all these things for himself! he's literally controlling him! he just does it for fun!!!

anyway i think post-muse ashe should get to freak out very badly in a multitude of ways whenever anybody touches his hair. like i think he's touch-adverse in general (& miserable about it because he's also so touchstarved & his brain simply whites out in distress anytime anyone touches him because. literally the only person doing that was the trickster!!!!) but i think specifically his hair being messed with is a bad trigger for him. makes him freeze up n go nonverbal for hours. dakota knows that he's jumpy about touch but he still wants to do something for him & before the everything he loved them playing with his hair (its so long!! wibby & dakota think its so pretty!! virion's the only one who knows how to braid it because of his mom!! ashe melts into a puddle over it every time because nobody's ever done that for him before!) so he goes to just run fingers through it & ashe just. fullbody locks up and goes weird and still and silent & doesn't protest or fight back when dakota shakes his shoulder or smth and his eyes are distant and sort of dark and empty like virion's were most of the time when they first met him... maybe he wants to cut it a little bit just because he hates that it's been covered in The Ooze and he can't do anything with it without thinking about how the trickster would do the same thing but also he hates the idea of getting rid of the one thing abt himself that he really likes & is a little connection with both of his parents because of the trickster also, when he's already taken so much from him. (it does have to get gross and tangled and matted because he refuses to put it back or do anything to it for a while though. maybe virion helps him sort it out & it's slow and painstaking and miserable for both of them and they both feel better at the end of it.)

[just-mebs]

I finally finished playing Outer Wilds and I'm like,, this game has completely crushed me

[minnaci]

also i came here to say that. jy girlies n boys. i get it. i get it so much. the most recent animated short has me terribly fucking endeared. his lil sleepy groans??? sleeping in fetal position???? the lil kitty licking his face??????? the satisfied sigh after his dimsum breakfast???????????? oh my GOD

[daz4i]

[masatos-wig]

HOLY OMEGA MERCH HAUL OF HELL my legs hurt so bad from traveling all day BUT. got me some actual utp merch this time 😏

[modernmanblues]

a lovely photo of Eric at a party. circa late 70s.

[trans-xianxian]

hi ben maybe this is cheating bc you have a cry counter going but I get the sense you cry when watching other shows or movies as well...like you're deeply struck emotionally by stories in general (btw, I don't think I know your other favorite pieces of media? 👀)

my other assumption is that you love wearing big ol' boots :)

ooooh yeah big time. there are songs I can't listen to while I'm driving because they'll make me cry too much 😭 I cry all the time at everything not even just media. sometimes I just cry about like. birds in the park. the scene in my fic where wei wuxian meets the little girl with the injured bee is inspired by a video I saw about someone who had found a bee without any wings and brought it home and was taking care of it and it made me burst into tears with my love for humanity

and I DO love a good big boot. I wore big boots today in fact

[drowsystarlight]

Listening to zr musical again while working on my thesis,,,, Dont Go Far and Wait For The Light always fills me with hope 😔😔😔

[fishnoodles]

when im weak to the devil it whispers to tell me to do an entire strokes fanzine. ok

[hopecomesbacktolife]

crying weeping. this book was phenomenal. 100/10 magnificent and soooooo intense and vast and searingly intimate and heartbreaking and swoops of joy and I just. Katherine x Zera 5ever I love them so much

(possible spoilers in the tags even though I redacted the most spoilery bits)

once I’m a bit more coherent I plan to write an actual legible review (a glowing one, of course!) but I had to scream about all my feelings for this book here 😭❤️

[darabeatha]

Absolutely feral that after getting kicked from heaven and falling down for 9 whole days (and then staying burning in agony in a pit of fire down in hell for another 9 days) s.atan and his army of millions of fallen angels just crawl from the shores of hell, decide to make a hugeass palace for themselves and then discuss what the heck are they going to do now, only to come to the conclusion that the way to hurt god the most would be to destroy his newest creation (men) which from then on they can further take on earth and make it their new kingdom (bc during the council, one of the fallen angels argued that even if they made a new kingdom in hell, at the end of the day they are still essentially 'trapped' in a box, so would that even count as a triumph?)

[blood-and-better-honey]

quite honestly, the peak of humor will always be a failed backflip

[cloneboywonder]

Can I be a b*tch and say I’m a little goofed that my step brothers grandma didn’t buy me dinner when she like is always going out w my dad and he’s always always buying hers 😭

[milksnake-tea]

SUNDAY LEAKS COMPLIATION + me going insane bc WIFE IS HERE

leaks below. obviously. SCREAMS

LIGHT CONE:

EIDOLONS:

DO YOU SEE MY WIFE OH MY GOD DO YOU SEE HIM HES GORGEOUS ETHERAL WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL AHEMGFHCOUGHC OUGH STHROWS UP IM GOING TO EDPLODODOEOEOE

sunday i love you i dont care if youre a freak in face your freakness makes you wonderful you and your goddamn charmony dove but i forgive you because youre so pretty and your voice eats unfortunately and YOUR WINGS YOUR WINGS IM GOING TO BITE YOUR WINGS and kiss them afterwards also. e4. is the sun bothering you king don't worry i'll shoot it just for you wife. your lc??? are you crying? did someone hurt you or did my proposal just move you that much??? HUH????/ im going to explode SIX WINGS ARE REAL SIX WINGS ARE REAL and im biting them allthey looks so fluffy

god i wish i was that dove rn so you could look at me lovingly that. im going to explode you. im putting you in a blender.

im sorry followers who have to see me like this LMAO IM SO SORRY

[rainofthetwilight]

everyone here talking abt other realms while my social worldbuilding obsessed ass has been staring at the crossroads ever since I first saw it

like, just listen to me for a second. do you notice the satellite dishes? the cables linking the houses together?? that's point-to-point networking right there!!! the people of the crossroads depend on their neighbors to get internet and it's just so. augh. that's just one of the many indicators of the close community the crossroads is. I love how people from different realms and places all live here, causing such a beautiful mix of cultures that doesn't clash but instead just makes the community grow even more. and the way the people there wouldn't let anyone kick sora and arin out of their penthouse because it was once arin's home?? oh my god??? 😭

the mixed-use urban design is also just absolutely incredible, and it's walkable too?? hello???? the worldbuilding here is just soso good, like, do you see all those apartment buildings linked next to eachother? all the shops? the fruit sellers on the streets? the small notes left on poles? all the benches and the lanterns and the fun decorations and the colours of it all which give it such a pretty and energetic vibe?

and not to mention how they literally have an annual carnival where EVERYONE attends, a carnival where everyone from the merged realms celebrate their traditions!! their culture!!! they have an entire carnival just for that!!!! they celebrate w/ food, games, parties, everything!!!!! a carnival which brings the people of the combined lands closer to eachother, which makes them learn more about the other's culture and traditions!!!!!! it's just so awesome and soso heartwarming and I never see anyone talk abt it. plus not to mention the mech race, the amount of people attending in the audience just proves it's popularity and I love it man. speaking of the mech race, I wonder how money works in the crossroads? I assume it's the same as ninjago city's system? I mean the crossroads is next to ninjago city so that would make sense

ough. crossroads I love you crossroads I need to talk about you more