#other times....... oof.
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one thing i really miss about writing with a keyboard is that it's Critically important to my writing process for the flow of words to leave breathing room for mental detours, and for details to occur to me, as i go. i need space to gather material to weave in, and usually the bits and bobs that i pick up or introduce when they aren't technically The Driving Point of the Scene are what ends up actually guiding the scene to the end.
that left its own weak spots i needed to work on--relying on this too much made it near impossible to actually work within an outline, and therefore to write things with any kind of length--but it was a strength of my writing, and it was certainly what made it fun. and i was starting to settle down to focus on filling in that skill gap, because i wanted to make longer more structured works (and still do). i was getting better at articulating myself outside of prose contexts, too. i was making progress.
and then my hands happened. and now writing, prose or otherwise, feels like dragging myself across the floor from one sentence or paragraph to the next. or talking around a mouthful of marbles. there's no space or energy left over to play with the words and imagery, or let them breathe, and the best i can do is slap whatever clumsy placeholder phrasing i can grab for into the gaps and hope it's not too hard to read, much less good to read.
who knows how much of it is that, versus potential cognitive issues from longterm malnourishment/ongoing stress and trauma/that one bad concussion i had a few years ago/being older/having caught covid a few times by now, versus being rusty, versus being in the awkward painful stages of getting my hands into art/communication skills i hadn't developed before, versus survivorship bias from giving myself permission to Post More Imperfect Bullshit, versus just straight up having a distorted view of my writing from where i sit because hooray stress, isolation, extremely foreshortened future, and depression.
but it fucking sucks regardless, and it fucking sucks even more how many of those factors are irreversible, whether completely or at all, even before factoring the likelihood of the technically reversible stuff being fixed either.
i miss writing, man. the kind i used to do. the writing i do now has worth, absolutely, and i don't regret doing it, but it's something different. part of me is missing and i feel it every day.
#whosebaby talks#not fandoms#writing tag#medical issues cw#personal stuff#grief#sometimes looking back at my old writing inspires me and lifts me up; even when it's not always what i'd consider quality now#some of the stuff i thought wasn't well done at the time genuinely wasn't and that's okay; duds happen and they're not the end of the world#some of the stuff i didn't like at the time i think is Really Good Now in Hindsight Actually; and i'm glad i didn't delete it or something#some of the stuff i wrote that i liked at the time doesn't so much hold up in my eyes nowadays; and that's just proof of getting better#and some of the stuff i wrote that i liked and thought was good at the time *did* hold up; sometimes i am in fact a good judge of that!#all of these things are affirming and encouraging; and make me appreciate the craft and my journey in it more than ever; in their own ways#it's a reminder to give the artist i am now; and the artist i used to be; some grace#other times....... oof.
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some silly book 7 doodles that i looooved so much
#twisted wonderland#twst#ツイステ#ツイステッドワンダーランド#mmarts#twst spoilers#twst oc#twst yuu#twst grim#azul ashengrotto#jade leech#floyd leech#twst silver#ortho shroud#sebek zigvolt#theres more scenes that i really liked ww#but ughughu my powers ---- i cant draw them rn#oughu loved this update#also that scene with the firsties gettin laughed at NOOoonooo i loved that scene cause they were doin a lil dance#but their bubbles combined so oof#these are prolly out of order or not idk#also those are just some random mushroom designs lol but they were really carrying a large one... it might be bigger than that actually#gah might draw the kings roar scene!!! some other time... im really fillin up the tags wtf
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hiii im sure you’ve answered this before but in regards to your twst x Pokémon, how do you choose which Pokémon go give to the cast?? really curious since your choices are unique :O
unique in a good way, I hope? 😅 (jk jk I haven't come across too many pokemon AUs, so I was going in without preconceptions, I guess!) I was sorta aiming somewhere between doing, like, a full AU with internal consistency and everything, and just picking entirely based on theme/character, so maybe that's why! basically I just set some arbitrary rules (no legendaries/no repeats/evo stages based on year) and then went on ~vibes~. a couple were also suggestions (thank you guys!) and last-minute decisions, so it was a bit of a delightful mess of ideas!
my one regret is that I should have given Riddle a Togedemaru after all. ...you know what, he can have one now, why not
#art#twisted wonderland#pokemon#poketwst#okay i have one other correction to make#which is that i think vil should also have a garbodor#NO LISTEN#i have thought about it a lot but i just do not want to give him a milotic#and this is because -- now hear me out#neige would actually be the one with a milotic#(it fits his personality more and it's even in his colors!)#when they were kids vil had a trubbish and neige had a feebas and vil felt superior until the whole milotic thing happened#and he's secretly kind of bitter about it#but he also secretly loves his garbodor a lot and gets mad when people make fun of it#IS HE NOT BEAUTIFUL ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF THEM#also garbodor ferments poison inside of it! it would be the perfect alchemy assistant!#I'M RIGHT OKAY#(i am also a big fan of trubbish/garbodor and i don't personally think they're ugly anyway)#anyway enjoy this drawing because it completely exploded my computer#(it was not the drawing's fault it was just unfortunate timing)#i've mostly got things working again but oof. it's been. a day. 🙃
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Hi hello! Short announcement that queue will be 3 posts a day (ask, fanart, and donation link) from now on!
#been wanting to change the format for a while#sadly queued posts run out faster than i can keep up with eek#plus i really dont wanna overspend time on tumblr when i have other things to prioritize when it comes to my projects#anyone remember when i used to post twice a day oof#anyways!!#lessening the amount would help manage potential burnout methinks#cheea chatter
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[ cw: trauma / ptsd / violence / brainwashing / ]
I’m not done talking about Raph and Leo yet because you know what kills me? How the beginning of the movie with Raph very angry at Leo to the point of lashing out at him is paralleled with how the end of the movie has the Krang very, very angry at Leo and beating him horrifically.
Both Raph and the Krang are so much bigger than Leo, both have been very angry with him, and both deem him responsible for ruining their respective missions.
To make matters worse, Raph’s body was used to hurt Leo. So it’d make sense for Leo to just…flinch, sometimes. To have his body reflectively brace for a blow that will not come because Raph would see this and just be horrified. Their fights, their roughhousing, their existing together all have a newfound and unwanted extra layer to them.
And Raph? Raph is traumatized enough having been brainwashed the way he was, turned into a monster in a way he always dreads in general. To be made into the antithesis of a hero and instead be a villain’s pawn, made to hurt his own family…poor kid, to say the least.
Can’t imagine what it must feel like, the first time post invasion that Raph gets mad at Leo and they fall into their old dynamic only for Leo to see the Krang and for Raph to feel like he is the Krang.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise raph#rottmnt raph#rise leo#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#I mentioned this in the tags of my previous post but I had to make a whole other post for it because ow#imagine Leo being more responsible largely because he learned valuable lessons and grew up some…but also because a part of him is scared#and doesn’t want raph mad at him#not really because he doesn’t want to be afraid but because he doesn’t want to be afraid of RAPH#and raph? god raph probably is so terrified of accidentally hurting his brothers - especially Leo#not knowing if at any point he’d be taken over or lose control and ‘wake up’ to find his little brother beaten at his feet#he’d probably be simultaneously so SCARED of being separated from his family and accidentally losing himself…#…and also so scared of being CLOSE to them and not knowing if he may be used to hurt them#god these kids I think about them all the time#like the trauma of it is just…oof#Leo was very very brutally beaten by both the Krang AND a Krangified Raph#and no matter what he may want the body and mind remember these things#Raph’s body and mind were taken over and used to hurt those he cares about#he always strives to be someone his brothers look to as being safe but what can he do when he doesn’t even feel safe from himself?#god these kidssss
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Tubbo: I swear to God, Chat - I promise you, if it's the last thing I do, I am going to break up Fit and Pac.
Mike passed the crown of #1 Hideduo hater to Tubbo, and Tubbo took that title very seriously.
[ Full Subtitle Transcript ↓ ]
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Pac: I have a date with Fit tomorrow! You know the news, Tubbo?
[ Tubbo's Homophobic Arc ]
Pac: I got a date with Fit tomorrow!
Tubbo: You're - no... You're kidding..
Pac: Yeah, for real! Look - Mike shaved my hair you know, and gave me a new outfit so I can be like, sharp for tomorrow. ...You guys like it? You like it, Sunny?
[Judgemental silence]
Tubbo: That's so cool man, what he hell. That's fckin' sick.
Pac: Yeah, thank you! I knew it, I knew you'd- Oh, thank you, Sunny! I knew you guys were gonna love it, you know? I knew it.
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Tubbo: I swear to God- I swear to God- We need to add homophobia to the QSMP, I swear to God- I swear to God-
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Tubbo: Guys, I have to do everything in my power to break them up. What do you mean "no"?! This is awful, Sunny! This is awful!
Sunny: But why Pa?
Tubbo: THEY WERE NEVER MEANT TO GET TOGETHER! The stars told me so! They were never meant to actually get together!
Sunny: WHY PA
Tubbo: It's just wrong, Sunny! It's just wrong! I dunno how to explain it to you. It's just wrong!
Sunny: But it's loveeeee
Tubbo: ...If that's what you want to call it.
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Tubbo: HOW IS THERE GONNA BE ENOUGH SPACE BETWEEN THEM FOR ME NOW, SUNNY?!
Sunny: You're telling me you've never been in love Pa?
Tubbo: Listen, it's just not right.
Sunny: But I like bodyguard Fit and driver Pac :(
Tubbo: I like them too! They're my best friends! But they can't be together.
Sunny: I think you are projecting
Tubbo: PROJECTING WHAT? HUH!?
Sunny: I will find you someone, Pa.
Tubbo: I DON'T WANT SOMEONE! I DON'T WANT SOMEONE IT ONLY SERVES TO DISAPPOINT ME AND GET MY HOPES UP AND LEAVE ME- LEAVE ME NOTHING BUT A SHELL! A SHELL OF A MAN!
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Tubbo: Sunny - They're gonna hurt each other, Sunny- they're gonna hurt each other! And how will there be enough space between them for me now?
Sunny: Why would they do that if they care for each other?
Tubbo: People that care about each other, Sunny, hurt each other all the time! ALL THE TIME!
Sunny: But I care about you, and I don't hurt you.
Tubbo: No, that's different! That's different! The love that we have for each other is unconditional. Ok?
Sunny: Pa, I think you're just scared.
Tubbo: I'm not scared, I'm logical. All flags look red when you're wearing rose-tinted glasses.
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Tubbo: [In response to Sunny talking about Aypierre's agreement to build her a statue] You already have a statue! [Sunny hits him] Ow!
Tubbo: What about the one Fit and Ramon made you for your birthday? [Tubbo has an idea] See? Do you think Fit would have time to do stuff like that if he's too- if he's too preoccupied with his little shag buddy? I don't think so! I don't think so!
Sunny: Wait.
Tubbo: See? You see what I'm saying? You see what I'm saying!
Sunny: You have a good point now
Tubbo: See? You under- yes, exactly! We HAVE to break them up! They can still be friends! Fck it, friends with benefits! But they cannot be together. We cannot let them.
Sunny: OK I'M IN
Tubbo: [Claps] I KNEW I COULD COUNT ON YOU! I knew I could count on you!
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[Looking at fanart of Pac, Fit, and himself]
Tubbo: We- we have to split them up. We have to fckin' split them up. Oh, but I'm in this one! Oh, that's so-[Realizes it's him crying as a third-wheel] SEE?! SEE?! THEY KNEW! THEY KNEW! THEY FCKIN' KNEW! THEY FCKIN' KNEW!
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Tubbo: [In a thick "red-blooded American" accent] Wha- I just don't understand why they have 'ta keep shoving it down our throats! Goddamnit! I JUST WISH IT WASN'T MY SMP! [He hits his desk and laughs]
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Dono: Streamer becomes homophobic 'cause he can't get any
Tubbo:
Tubbo: Sunny, I'm just gonna need to brb for a moment.
Tubbo: [Stands up from his desk, walks away, and screams]
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Tubbo: I swear to God, Chat - I promise you - if it's the last thing I do, I am going to break up Fit and Pac.
#Tubbo#Hideduo#FitPac#QSMP#Edited#Subtitles#January 8 2024#I have a Hideduo edit I'd like to share too but it's a bit different#I want to get it done before tomorrow but aaaaaa I'm running out of time#Hope you guys like this compilation!#I like this font wayyy more but it's more time consuming to do it this way#I have to use Legacy text for it and it's just a pain#it does look way better though#easier to read#and accessibility is what I always aim for#That's the last time I'm transcribing subtitles my neck back and hands hurt. aghhhh#Tbh some of Tubbo's comments here are so sad#poor guy#also ''They're gonna hurt each other!'' oof#Portfolio
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Wake up QSMP enjoyers- new funny haha just dropped
W/ bonus post dryer Pepito b/c I felt bad they were the only one I didn’t get to draw
Originals under the cut
#hope no one has done this#like almost everything I’ve done recently- I’ve had this idea while ago but only just now had time to execute it#now with new eggs!#maybe I’ll do more later with all the other eggs :(#yes- the quality of the images were bad so I did redraw and recreate all the text and borders#oof#qsmp#qsmp philza#qsmp tallulah#qsmp chayanne#qsmp baghera#qsmp pomme#qsmp tubbo#qsmp sunny#qsmp badboyhalo#qsmp dapper#qsmp foolish#qsmp leonarda#qsmp tina#qsmp empanada#qsmp fitmc#qsmp ramon#qsmp pac#qsmp richarlyson#qsmp roier#qsmp pepito#yes fit and Ramon are discussing fofoca
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Just some lil guys getting ready for the day.
#bumfuzzled art#tokoyami fumikage#ojiro mashirao#darkshadow#mha#they’re very precious to me#have a lovely day guys no matter how you start it <3#and now for my regularly scheduled rambling#I should draw more self-indulgent slice of life stuff#and on the other hand#I need to stop drawing smear frames but I can’t help myself#sometimes a boy is just zooming and I can’t visualize it any other way#redrew the second Ojiro panel three times before I just decided to add 11da in it. He deserves a morning buddy#also#Darkshadow working hard#we love to see it#srry for inconsistent artstyle it will happen again#oof the quality got destroyed#edited: 29 August (fixed eyebrows)
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bumble bby bee -- Kofi | Patreon
#bumblebee#fanart#oof drew finished this back in early january#had a sketch of him I didn't end up using for my fanart colour wheel challenge#decided to clean up and colour separately c:#i kept a couple other scraped option sketches to maybe finish up in my down time-- so maybe expect more of those~
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it's just a silly habit i swear,
#assigned furry since childhood oof#octis#oc#fursona#sillyposting#also figured it was time for octis to come out and have a moment because i don't draw my other sonas enough#enjoy him he's a very bitter very old man#furry art#comic#2024#godbirdart#godbird#july 2024#art#selfie
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Please tell us more about Bordel Patriotique?? 👀
Bordel Patriotique is that one political porn pamphlet from 1791 that features a bunch of political figures of the time. The author claims to be Marie Antoinette opening a "Patriotic Brothel" meaning a brothel that embraces the revolution and serves the people. It's all very satirical. There's a few pages about the importance of fucking in a Republic-honoring way or whatever, usual porn pamphlet stuff, but at the end there's a few scenes of dialogue (and sex) between real public figures. Here's the cast of featured characters and their roles:
Danton fucks Marat at one point. Also whoever wrote this REALLY hates Marat.
You can read it here
#Its anonymous. I mean the author claims to be Marie Antoinette. but lol#whoever wrote this 🫡 god's work seriously#I can only imagine what other stuff was being written about public figures that was lost to time#but if it was anything like this.... oof#I realize that the author was most likely a random Parisian but IMAGINE if it was Mirabeau or something. girl....#Mirabeau comes out of this pamphlet looking pretty good is all I'm saying#or maybe it was Marie Antoinette. that would be the plot twist of the millennium#ask#anon ask
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You cannot argue with the draw. One might as well argue with the ocean
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#oof. thought i would have these done by the end of the year#but you know how it is#syndromes hyperfixations and other such things got in the way. basically been saving all my energy for Real Life Shit#gif#cotl#cult of the lamb#also six this time !#if this is too much of an eyestrain lmk lol#22/56
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@ Your analysis about how the P:EG cast is full of hypocrites:
Another huge contrast I thought of between them and the casts of the Danganronpa games is that with the DR casts I could see certain scenarios where all of them make it out alive. But with the Eden's Garden gang it feels like a murder was bound to happen.
And a big part of that in my mind is because the majority of murders in Danganronpa are due to the characters being manipulated by Monokuma & the Masterminds. Even Korekiyo who didn't even kill for the Necronomicon motive was still manipulated by Team Danganronpa into being a serial killer.
With the first case of Eden's Garden though that isn't the case. The motive didn't even factor into the case other than Eva stealing the taser gun from Desmond's room. Yeah Eva was on a time crunch because of the Traitor Perk but she was already planning to commit murder beforehand due to being worried that someone will kill her. The perk just made her quicker to put her plan into motion.
Honestly if one of the students had tried to say that "the one to blame for Wolfgang and Eva's deaths is Tozu" like what's usually done after executions in Danganronpa I feel like Tozu would have an actual leg to stand on unlike Monokuma.
He didn't start anything, he was merely fanning the flames that the students started.
I agree with this too because even though the rest of the class didn't take Eva seriously, when she was ranting about how "Any of you would've done what I did!" I kind of believed her. They're already so distrusting of one another, and them pretending that everything's okay while holding onto this serious distrust amongst each other is just fueling the Killing Game. If Tozu had left the puzzle for Desmond and it was a bullseye or something, would Desmond had shown anyone as well? If it was some special law puzzle that only Wolfgang could decipher, would he have shared it with the rest of the class?
I truly don't think so. I also noticed they blamed Eva for a lot of Tozu's actions, like when Tozu introduced the motive, Grace said "So we're in this mess because of the math girl? Typical..." because Tozu said he became inspired by Eva's outburst in the pharmacy over the watches.
But it's NOT Eva's fault, she's not the mastermind after all, she's in the same boat as them. But they still put the blame on her instead of being mad at Tozu for spying on all of them. I think the motive itself not factoring into the murder is a good plot point in the story, because you at first think that someone will kill to keep their secret hidden. Or maybe someone has a terrible secret that they don't even want another person knowing about.
I remember hearing that this is the type of Danganronpa where only 2 survivors will make it out, and usually that's not the case but I can definitely see it happening with this group. They're not killing each other or hating each other over the motives the Headmaster gives, it's because of how they treat one another instead T_T
#p:eg#p:eg spoilers#eva tsunaka#project eden's garden#tbh I am of the opinion that if Eva were stuck with the THH group or the SDR group#that she wouldn't have murdered first#Some people say eva's true issue was that she was too insecure#however counterpoint they'd only been there for 5 days and by day 2 she had been shunned#for lying about something once#day 2 and you're already ostracizing people and participating in borderline group think? oof#Byakuya was an asshole the whole time and Hajime “didn't have a talent” but nobody in their groups ostracized them#with the exception of Nagito but his odd behavior wasn't enough for others to exclude him either#I could see Eva thriving in a group that's all about support instead of hypocrisy#she'd be besties with Aoi and Chihiro or Kirigiri#and Nagito would make her feel better about being a mathlete or having multiple talents#Naegi would give her one of those inspiring hope talks and she'd be fixed I swear /s
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favorite solo videos: dan // dpgdaily's dnpaw - day 6/7
#had such a hard time choosing these oof i like so many others equally as much :(#mine#dnpaw#daniel howell#dan howell#danisnotonfire#dnp#dan and phil#dpgdaily
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[ cw: experimentation / slight body horror implications / ]
Every time I think of the “Bad Hair Day” episode, I’m always a little thrown off by how off-putting it is when looked at from a distance. Like, in that episode Leo is just wanting time to rest for once. That’s it. He just wants some rest and relaxation.
And he’s so desperate to get it that he makes a deal with some random guy to basically uh. Be experimented on. In a way that definitely doesn’t seem all that pleasant in the process!
But hey, at least it works out well and Leo’s happy with it, right?
Then, finally thinking he’s getting the rest he worked for, he instead essentially becomes a host for a parasite that is embedded into his skull. And gets blamed for the actions of the adult that took advantage of his wish for rest.
Like????? I can’t help but feel just a touch of horror at the theming here. Leo just wanted a trip to the spa…
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#nah i talked about it before and i think others have too but this is still an oof moment to witness#my poor boy wanted to SLEEP#i don’t dislike the ep tho it’s genuinely a fun time if you don’t think about the kinda horrific theming#don’t mind me just being unnecessarily angsty about random comedy episodes
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[ID: A Naruto comic. Sarutobi stands in a bright white void and says, "Mm, so this must be the after--" He looks forward and sweats. "... life." Looming in front of him are Minato and Kushina, fists in palms and their eyes shadowed but expressions coldly furious. Sarutobi says, "Ah--" End ID]
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‘I promise to take care of Naruto.’ He said before ditching a four year old pariah alone into an apartment, tossing some money at him, and telling him to figure it out.
It’s a love/hate thing with the Third Hokage when it comes to me.
My art
#on one hand he did some nice things and was generally kind#on the other he let way too much messed up stuff happen and oof#minato namizake#kushina#kushina uzumaki#Naruto#third hokage#hiruzen#funny#afterlife#it’s danger time#uh oh spaghettio
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