#order Euthanasia

[nembutalaustralia]

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Buy Nembutal in Sydney Australia a short-acting barbiturate typically used as a sedative but gained prominence for its use in voluntary euthanasia and assisted suicide. For euthanasia, Nembutal is taken alone, or in combination with complementary agents such as phenytoin, in commercial animal euthanasia injectable solutions where it causes death in high doses.

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Why terminally ill elderly Australians buy Nembutal

Terminally ill people and elderly Australians buy Nembutal because of its use in Euthanasia. Nembutal can cause death when used in high doses and the lethal dose is 12grams. It is used for euthanasia for humans as well as animals. It is taken alone, or in combination with complementary agents such as phenytoin, in commercial animal euthanasia injectable solutions.

In countries like Switzerland where euthanasia is legal, Nembutal is administered to the patient intravenously. Once administered, sleep is induced within 30 seconds, and the heart stops beating within 3 minutes. Oral administration is also used. A Swiss pharmacist reported in 2022 that the dose for assisted suicide had been raised to 15 grams because with lower doses death was preceded by a coma of up to 10 hours in some cases.

[papeldeestraza]

As an active catholic* seeing people be surprised that the pope is heteronormative, anti abortion and anti euthanasia is crazy. It just proves people put Francis on a pedestal and projected their ideal church onto him. No pope has ever been pro-abortion, euthanasia or pro-lgbt marriage. Get your heads out of your asses please

*(An active catholic who advocates for ACTUAL progress in the church, something that we're far from achieving and requires a lot more fight than pretending)

[savageboar]

there's like. a weird platy in the tank. that looked normal before. but like. the shape of its belly looks overly round. and the spine looks bent? and despite looking pregnant. the anal fins look male??? idk wtf is up with it but it doesn't swim around most of the time it hangs out at the surface. idk if i should cull it or not.

[yossariansliverpain]

so i cant get a job, when i do have a job it makes me so exhausted n miserable i wanna die, and even if i worked fulltime ill always live in poverty with a high likelihood of becoming homeless if one thing goes wrong. at a time when even ppl w good wages can barely afford housing food bills etc. its literally impossible to survive in this country and i give up

[apas-95]

news headline: democratic mayor signs order to put all immigrants and gay people in concentration camps

liberal blogger: lmaooo this is so misleadling please actually read the article. he's working to relocate at-risk populations into humanitarian facilities where they can receive state-funded euthanasia

[quinnydoll]

Mothballed

It used to be one of the best mech pilots under its handler, that is, until its mech was cored. Its handler listened to its cries of agony as the interface ports all around its body were simultaneously fried as the death rattle of the machine permeated the pilot's full perception. It likely wouldn't have been able to do anything, its sensations were just so overwhelmed. Miraculously - or not, the pilot managed to survive the engagement. They say however, that a part of it died that day, and maybe it did.

The handler remembered seeing their pilot wide eyed and speechless, watching the corpse of its machine being carefully disassembled in the mech bay. It looked like it wanted to cry, they should've told it that it could. This, however was not an uncommon fate for pilots. The typical procedure often came off from the outside as draconian, as cruel. The handler themselves was against it in this case, and opted against euthanasia. This wasn't the first time they'd lost a pilot, and they couldn't keep the tears from welling up as they picked up this one, cradling it as they left the bay.

The pilot felt it cruel at the time for the handler to have its interface ports filled in with resin. It took several days for it to stop picking at the plugs, but after it had resigned to their presence, the futility of attempting to excavate the ports with blunt instruments, its handler without any anger helped it smooth over the ugly chips in the material with more resin, a file, and polish. All of its ports had been filled, aside from the biological ones, which it was told everyone has. This, of course, didn't help; and the saddest part was, it knew it wouldn't be able to use the ports again even if it did manage to remove the resin. The ports themselves were busted, and the nerves they'd been grafted to, fried.

"I know you feel useless, 843. I know, but you aren't incapable of serving a purpose, still." The handler shot their pilot a sympathetic expression.

The pilot said nothing, it simply allows its gaze to reach up towards its handler, its blank expression inadequately hiding the volume of its emotional pain.

The handler sighed as it looked into the puppydog-like eyes of their pilot, "Would you like to be my doll?"

"Doll?" The pilot mimicked the tone of its handler's pronunciation of the word, with its raw and under-utilized voice. The act of speaking itself felt alien to its mouth, as it wasn't accustomed to speaking for itself.

The handler nodded compassionately, "That's right. You'd still be following my orders, but not with a machine, and not for combat. How would you like to be a service doll?" "S-service..." The pilot wasn't able to formulate the words it wanted to respond with as it stammered.

The handler picked up one of its hands in a gentle gesture they hadn't expressed to it before, "It's okay. You don't have to speak. Just nod or shake your head, okay?"

The pilot sat in consideration for a few minutes, before gingerly nodding its head at its handler.

"Then, you can be my doll, and I'll be your witch. We should get you into a uniform more fitting of-" The handler, now witch, reached around to the top of the zipper of their doll's pilot suit, which adorned its body in a skin-tight non-porous material, only exposing its head and interface ports.

The doll frantically covered the zipper pull with its hands, shaking its head in a panic. Tears began to well up in its eyes.

The witch's hands receded from the back of its doll's neck, "That's okay, I should've asked first. You can wear your new uniform over it, if you'd like."

It slowly nods in response, as its tears are gently wiped away by its witch.

Its orders were are unlike any it had received prior to its dollhood. These were far more gentle than any tasks it had been given before. No, these were not orders, but requests, expected to be followed, but simply requested of it nonetheless. It insisted on wearing its pilot suit underneath the maid uniform, to its witch's disguised dismay. It didn't know why they didn't like it continuing to wear it, though they seemed to resign to it at the very least.

One day, it came home with groceries in tow, setting them down on the kitchen counter. As its witch came in, their nose wrinkled, and they approached it, their hands grasping the zipper pull of the suit before the doll could react. As it felt the downward pull of the zipper, the two sides of the material separating and freeing themselves from its skin, it tried to fight back. It cried out as its arms tried to angle back around, before moving back to the suit, attempting to pull it back on frantically.

Then, the witch's voice assumed the stern tones of a handler once again, "843. It's going to tear."

With that, the doll slowly resigned itself to allowing its witch to remove its pilot suit.

"Sorry doll. I wouldn't force this, but you've kept this suit on non-stop for weeks. I need to clean it, and you need to practice better hygiene. I'll take good care of the suit, I promise." The witch reverted to their gentle tones as they continued removing the suit from the doll's body.

As the witch left to clean their doll's suit, the doll slowly trudged its way to the bathroom for a shower. It sat in the bathtub, letting the flow of the shower sprinkle it with warm water. It probed at the smooth black resin filling its interface ports, now far more noticeable without the similarly textured pilot suit. They stood out, making it more obvious at a glance that this doll was useless as a pilot now, decommissioned, mothballed. It felt tears well up again as it resigned to ignoring the plugs and cleaning itself. It remembered the feeling of becoming one with its machine, the body it used to control as its own, a feeling it would never feel again.

By the time it left the shower and dried itself, its witch returned with the newly cleaned pilot suit, just as promised. The doll took it, immediately slipping it on, as quickly as the material would allow it. The witch helped it zip it up at the back, brushing its hair gently afterwards. Once the doll was finished being tended to, the witch guided it to the bedroom of the home, coaxing it into the bed.

The doll began to blush, "I-is it okay? B-being here?"

"Doll, I don't want you sleeping on the floor anymore." The witch pulls it in close, "so sleep here with me from now on."

The doll hadn't slept that peacefully for a long time, it didn't even remember if it ever had. Even when it was a pilot, its dreams had been full of conflict, of feelings of fear, of anger, panic. This night was simply comfortable. It allowed slumber to take it. It allowed its witch's embrace to comfort it. Perhaps, this was better.

[lurkingshan]

Spare Me Your Mercy is a mystery BL for grown ups and I am so excited to dig into its themes unpacking morality and ethics around palliative care and euthanasia, caretaking for terminally ill loved ones, health care in under resourced communities, and policing.

I love that rather than having a long drawn out arc around whether someone is mercy killing terminal patients in this rural town, it's already clear in episode 1 that this is exactly what's happening, and our prime suspects are all laid out clearly. We've got Dr. Kan, the one (1) doctor who manages palliative care for this entire community, his colleagues who all clearly have some degree of knowledge about what is going on here and are helping to cover, and the coroner's office, where the loyalties may or may not be mixed. Into this fray we throw our protagonist, Tew, who is returning home on a transfer that he took so that he could be with his mother in her last days, only to have her mercy killed the night before he made it home.

And this is where the tension between Tew and Kan gets really interesting. Kan clearly believes that death is a kindness for these patients who are in pain and whose families are overburdened or fully neglecting them, and he is confident to the point of arrogance when questioned about his patients. He is unwavering in his conviction that what he's doing is right. At the same time, we opened this story with Tew's grief over not getting to see his mother before she died, which presumably is because Kan killed her. Kan did that to Tew, and despite knowing he is the reason Tew is grieving not only his mother's life but also his own chance to say goodbye, he keeps needling him about it. Kan is not a nice man, and I am always wary of doctors who deem themselves the ultimate authority over other people's lives. And on the flip side of that, Tew is a cop and trying to play at bringing order to a community he abandoned and doesn't really understand anymore. He mercy killed an animal in the opening sequence, and while killing a human and killing an animal are certainly not the same, I don't think it's an accident that we've seen Tew take this action.

I expect this show will have a nuanced and thought-provoking perspective on these issues, and I am so excited to see it unfold.

[literaryvein-reblogs]

Some Law-Related Vocabulary

for your poem/story (pt. 2/4)

Admiralty - of or relating to conduct on the sea

Alter ego - second self

Attractive nuisance - a thing or condition on one's property that poses a risk to children who may be attracted to it without realizing the risk by virtue of their youth

Bequest - an act of bequeathing

Bequeath - to give by will

Bona vacantia - goods that are unclaimed and without an apparent owner

Capricious - governed or characterized by impulse or whim (e.g., lacking a rational basis; likely to change suddenly); not supported by the weight of evidence or established rules of law—often used in the phrase "arbitrary and capricious"

Colorable - having an appearance of truth, validity, or right

Damnum absque injuria - a loss for which the law provides no means of recovery

Dying declaration - a statement that is made by a person who firmly believes that he or she is about to die and has no hope of recovery and that concerns the circumstances or cause of the presumed death

Eleemosynary - of, relating to, or supported by charity

En ventre sa mere - in the womb

Euthanasia - the act or practice of killing or permitting the death of hopelessly sick or injured persons in a relatively painless way for reasons of mercy; called also "mercy killing"

Exculpate - to clear from alleged fault or guilt

Filius nullius - an illegitimate child; bastard; called also "filius populi"

Finger - to accuse or identify as guilty

Fireman's rule - a doctrine holding that a property owner or occupant is not liable for unintentional injuries suffered by firefighters or police officers in responding to a problem on the property

First blush - initial view, appearance, or consideration—used especially in the phrase "at first blush"

First degree - the grade given to the most serious forms of crimes

Hereditament - inheritable property

Homestead - a home and surrounding land

Inchoate - not yet made complete, certain, or specific : not perfected

M'Naghten test - a standard under which a criminal defendant is considered to have been insane at the time of an act (as a killing) if he or she did not know right from wrong or did not understand the moral nature of the act because of a mental disease or defect; called also "M'Naghten rule"

Mulct - fine, penalty

Mysterious disappearance - the loss of property under unknown or puzzling circumstances which are difficult to explain or understand

Pierce - to see through the usually misleading or false appearance of

Poison pill - a financial tactic or provision used by a company to make an unwanted takeover prohibitively expensive or less desirable

Prior art - the processes, devices, and modes of achieving the end of an alleged invention that were known or knowable by due diligence before and at the date of the invention

Pur autre vie - for another's life

Shark repellent - any measure taken by a corporation to discourage a hostile takeover attempt

Silent record - a record of a criminal proceeding which does not show that the defendant acted with knowledge or understanding of his or her rights (as in entering a plea of guilty or waiving the right to counsel)

Sui generis - constituting a class alone; unique or particular to itself

Vexatious - lacking a sufficient ground and serving only to annoy or harass when viewed objectively

Wrongful birth - a malpractice claim brought by the parents of a child born with a birth defect against a physician or health-care provider whose alleged negligence (as in prenatal testing or diagnosis) effectively deprived the parents of the opportunity to make an informed decision whether to avoid or terminate the pregnancy

Yellow-dog contract - an illegal employment contract in which a worker disavows membership in and agrees not to join a labor union in order to get a job

More: Law-Related Words ⚜ Word Lists

[girlactionfigure]

(1) The Axis Powers’ concentration camp network extended past the borders of Europe.

The Nazis and the Axis powers created a network of 17 concentration camps in North Africa. Some prisoners were also taken to concentration camps in West Africa. Jews were forced into slave labor, starved, tortured, and murdered. Many died from diseases. Many prisoners in North African labor camps were tasked with the completion of the Trans-Saharan Railroad, a project that was never completed. Though it was a French project, the Nazis were highly supportive of it.

(2) The Mountain Jews of the Caucasus were ultimately saved from extermination because the Nazis considered them “religious,” rather than “racial” Jews.

When the Nazis occupied the North Caucasus in 1942, the Mountain Jews of Na’alchik, Russia, were quick to think on their feet. With the help of their Muslim neighbors, with whom they had good relations, the Mountain Jews promoted the lie that they were ethnic Tat converts to Judaism. 

The Nazis took the issue to the Reich Genealogical Office, which ultimately ruled in their favor, and thus the Mountain Jews were left alone. 

That said, before the Reich Genealogical Office reached their final verdict, the Mountain Jews were treated just as poorly as their Ashkenazi counterparts. On August 19 and September 20, 1942, a total of 850 Jews were executed point-blank with machine guns in Menzhinskoe and Bogdanovka.

(3) The Catholic Church could’ve possibly put an end to the Final Solution. Instead, Pope Pius XII chose silence – and, at times, complicity.

In August of 1941, the Nazis put an end to their Aktion T4 “euthanasia” program – a euphemism for “eugenics” – in response to public uproar. The Catholic Church, in particular, was at the forefront of the protests against the Aktion T4 program. The effect of these protests was enormous, especially within Germany. In Hof, Germany, an angry crowd openly jeered at Hitler over his eugenics policies, the only time this ever happened during 12 years of Nazi rule.

By contrast, the Catholic Church refused to publicly condemn the German persecution of Jews, even after the Nazis’ plans for the Final Solution had long become public knowledge. Claiming “neutrality,” Pope Pius XII rejected the desperate pleas of the Jewish community and even refused meetings with rabbis. This despite the fact that the Vatican was well-aware of the Nazis’ plans for the Final Solution as early as 1942.

(4) The Nazis primarily targeted the Scientific Humanitarian Committee because Magnus Hirschfeld was Jewish.

There’s recently been an attempt to reframe trans individuals as the “first victims” of the Holocaust because the Nazis burnt down the library and archives of the Scientific Humanitarian Committee in 1933. The Scientific Humanitarian Committee provided a plethora of medical services for LGBTQ folks, including contraceptive treatment, gynaecological examinations, treatment for STDs, marital and sexual therapy, and other treatments, such as treatment for alcoholism. Most significantly, the organization pioneered gender-affirming surgeries, including one of the earliest sex-reassignment surgeries in 1931. Other surgical and medical services included facial feminization and masculinization surgery and early forms of body hair removal.

What’s imperative to understand is that the Committee was targeted, above all, both because Hirschfeld, its founder, was Jewish, and because the Nazis associated homosexuality and “sexual deviance” with the “Jewish race.”

(5) The Nazis devised of the gas chambers because Nazi soldiers found it too “psychologically taxing” to execute millions of Jews face-to-face.

Early during the Holocaust, Jews were predominantly murdered via machine gun execution. However, the Nazis considered the method too slow and inefficient. Frustrated with the “inefficiency” of shooting Jews, the Reich Security Main Office soon ordered the use of gas vans for murder on a mass scale. The first extermination camp to use gas vans was Chelmno; by June of 1942, there were 20 gas vans in operation, with many more being prepared. Some gas vans could hold up to 60 people, while others held around 30.

Soon the Nazis found that gas vans, too, were not efficient enough. A big problem was that gas van operators experienced high levels of mental distress due to their proximity to the victims. Sometimes gas vans broke down due to bad roads. Ultimately, they simply couldn’t exterminate Jews quickly enough, so the Nazis built permanent gas chambers.

(6) Before the Nazis’ rise to power, Jews in Germany were the best-integrated in continental Europe.

One of the most historically shocking facts about the Holocaust is that it was devised of in Germany as opposed to somewhere like Eastern Europe, where Jews were much less assimilated into general society. Before World War II, Jews elsewhere in Europe often joked that German Jews were “more German than the Germans.”

In 1929, for example, Dr. M. S. Melamed wrote for The Jewish Criterion, “The German antisemites have a much deeper hatred against the Jew than the Russians, but the German antisemites do not pogrom the Jew. They write articles and books to prove that the Jew has no right to live, that he is wicked, that he is dishonest, and that he should not enjoy any rights and privileges but it would not enter his mind to embark upon a policy of murder, loot and rape.”

Yet by 1945, the German antisemite had exterminated 2 out of every 3 Jews in Europe.

(7) The international community did not assign a day for Holocaust remembrance until 2005.

The Jewish community began memorializing the Holocaust yearly as early as 1949. The Israeli Knesset officially observed a Holocaust remembrance day for the first time in 1951; by 1958, the observance of Yom HaShoah had been codified into Israeli law. 

By contrast, the United Nations did not assign a day to Holocaust remembrance until 2005, when it passed Resolution 60/7, establishing International Holocaust Remembrance Day to coincide with the anniversary of the liberation of Auschwitz on January 27th.

(8) There was one group of Jewish partisans that sought revenge after the Holocaust.

As the Allies closed in on Germany, the German population listed “Jewish revenge” as their biggest fear, owing largely to over a decade of Nazi antisemitic propaganda about how Jews were a threat to Germany. In reality, Jewish acts of revenge in the aftermath of the Holocaust were extremely rare, especially in comparison to vengeful acts from other groups like Poles and even the Allied forces. Jews were far more concerned with finding family members and rebuilding their lives. 

There was one group of Jewish partisans, however, that did devise a plan for revenge. The group was named “Nakam,” meaning revenge in Hebrew. Their plan? To murder six million Germans. 

In the end, the plan was obviously entirely unsuccessful. Only about 2000 SS members got ill with food poisoning, but none died. Many Nakam members reflected many years later and were thankful their plan failed, calling it “a Satanic concept” and “an utterly lunatic idea.” Simcha Rotem said in hindsight that he guilt of murdering so many children would've driven him to suicide.

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[thatisaloaf]

Todays mental health advice: listen to tomcat disposables, euthanasia, and becoming the lastnames in that order and cry

[checkoutmybookshelf]

Dr. Seward. John. SIR.

Can we talk about your journal entry today for a hot second??? Because like...broski doski. What the actual fuck do you MEAN that "'Euthanasia' is an excellent and a comforting word! I am grateful to whoever invented it"???

I get that staking Lucy was traumatic for you, but maybe don't dissociate so hard from the idea of staking Mina if she turns that you start getting comforted by the term euthanasia. No freaking WONDER Jonathan is hiding his thoughts and intentions from you and Van Helsing and won't let go of his big-ass knife. He is getting ready to DEFEND HIS WIFE FROM YOU.

And yes, I know, Mina specifically made you promise to stake her if it becomes necessary. But like...SHE IS TRANSCRIBING THIS AND YOU KNOW THAT, SO MAYBE THINK TWICE ABOUT THIS MUSING???

Also, the fact that Van Helsing had to order you to write with a pen and paper is hilarious.

[drferox]

If you’re a parent of a teenager, there is something I need you to understand.

Getting your 14yo human a dog, especially a high energy, high intelligence breed like a German Shepherd/Kelpie/Husky, in order to teach your child ‘responsibility’ will not actually teach that child responsibility unless you are the one being responsible.

This is especially true when you tell me something like “I’m the discipline one at home, and my child is the enabling one,” and I can see the bite marks on your arms already from this little puppy, who’s going to get five times bigger before you get five times smarter.

At best, your child will discuss how you set them up to fail with their future therapist. At worst, this dog will become a behavioural euthanasia.

At the very least, if this dog really is your child’s responsibility, you should be bringing the child to the vet appointment where we discuss the dog’s health and behaviour.

Because I’m quite confident you’re not going to pass my advice on to the person you’re pretending is responsible for that dog, you might even lie about what I’ve recommended. At least give them the chance to get some good information.

[maxdibert]

“Sirius killed people-“ so did Snape, supposedly loved Lily but betrayed her location to Voldemort because he was jealous of James actually winning her heart, not to mention convincing Harry the abuse was his fault, nearly giving Neville PTSD to the point where his boggart was Severus Snape himself, being a racist pos to anyone born of muggle parents, and becoming a high ranking member of the death eaters so what? He could protect Harry?

“It’s easier to cry in a Ferrari-“

it’s easier to defend a terrible character and play the racism and eat the rich card when you can’t understand context and inference clues that JK Rowling laid out.

What’s easy is inventing canon. What a load of made-up nonsense, mate.

1. Learn to read. I didn’t say Sirius killed anyone, but he did attempt murder. And he did it because he thought it was funny to torture Severus.

2. There’s no evidence that Severus killed anyone before Dumbledore asked him for euthanasia. This is made quite clear when Dumbledore talks about his concern for Draco’s soul, and Severus immediately questions him about his own soul. If Severus is so worried about it, it’s implied he hadn’t killed anyone before—or at least not in cold blood.

3. Have you even read the books? The only person who knew the Potters’ location was Peter. He’s the one who betrayed them.

4. There’s no evidence he was a racist. First off, equating racism with the concept of blood purity not only trivializes a serious social issue but also makes it clear that some of you have no idea what racism is or its history. The discriminatory dynamics and their foundations are completely different. But anyway, putting that aside, there’s no evidence whatsoever that Severus discriminated against Muggle-borns. The only time he makes a comment is during the incident with Lily—which, conveniently, happens when James and Sirius are sexually assaulting him, and Lily seems to smile at James. I don’t think you can judge someone’s ideology based on a comment made in an extremely tense moment. Canonically, Severus doesn’t treat Muggle-born students worse in class or make comments about their heritage. Nor does he badmouth Muggles. At most, he makes condescending remarks—which, let’s be real, all the characters do, even the “good ones,” because they’re ridiculously patronizing toward Muggles.

5. Severus was literally a double agent and reached the highest ranks of the Death Eaters to, yes, protect Harry. That’s literally why. He’s following Dumbledore’s orders. Like, have you read the books, or are you just pulling this stuff from fanfics? 99% of what you’ve said so far is pure fantasy, mate.

6. Yes, love, it’s actually pretty easy for me to defend people whose actions are a direct consequence of their life circumstances, and whose poor decisions were directly influenced by a lack of opportunities, security, and the violence of their environment. In fact, that’s literally my job. That’s what I do for a living.

Look, I don’t give a damn if you’re a Sirius fangirl. You can love a character while admitting he was a massive piece of crap. I love The Penguin, and there’s no way to justify him at all. Like, it’s fine, you know? You also have every right to feel sorry for him—I’m not going to judge you for that or anything. I’m not invalidating other people’s feelings if they think Sirius’s life was super tragic and feel a lot of compassion for him. Everyone has their own feelings and points of empathy. But that’s not the case for me. I don’t feel sorry for him. There’s no excuse for being an abusive bully with sociopathic tendencies toward someone who was canonically in a position of social and economic disadvantage. If Severus had come from a good family, with money and power—or if Sirius had been someone without a name, wealth, or status—then I’d view the situation differently because they would have been on equal footing. But just like the Black family chose Muggle-borns to torture because they knew they could, Sirius chose Severus because he knew he could. He’s a hypocrite and a piece of garbage. At least Bellatrix admitted her tendencies.

[waitmyturtles]

Final Thoughts on Spare Me Your Mercy, Thailand's Biggest Queer Show of 2024*

(*domestically!)

Due to the holidays, I was behind on watching last week's finale of Spare Me Your Mercy, but I got it in, and I'm glad I did.

I am mucho on the record that I thought, throughout this series, that the romance portion of this series was done weakly. I throughly enjoyed and appreciated @clairedaring's objective and appreciative commentary throughout the airing of this drama to provide all of us with context about novel!SMYM versus series!SMYM, helping us to understand what of the many bits were missing between the two versions of this story.

There has been a nice lot of debate online about the ultimate success of the telling of the SMYM story in drama format, both pro and not so pro regarding the script. There was also quite the revealing interview with the screenwriter Lux Sirilux, who revealed that the show's design purposely excluded NC scenes to favor more time being spent on the euthanasia ethics debate (thank you so much to @clairedaring for reblogging so much, I wouldn't have these references without you!).

I want to note that even despite the recent holidays, that the heightened online burble of debate around SMYM indicates to me -- like the ensuing debates after the airing of the 4 Minutes finale -- that the story of the SMYM drama format didn't land for everyone. If it was universally successful in its storytelling from all the classic narrative markers, then much of this debate would not be happening.

I first entered the SMYM world understanding that it was a part of a storytelling trilogy of sorts, connecting Sammon's previously adapted stories in 2020's Manner of Death and 2022's Triage (I haven't reviewed Triage yet, but I watched it in 2024 and it is absolutely one of the five best Thai BLs I have ever watched.)

To go back to the Lux interview quickly, and to note fan commentary in defense of Lux's position: what Lux Sirilux posits is that the show essentially decentralized NC scenes and intimacy in favor of giving the script more time to dwell on a debate about euthanasia -- the ethics and morality of being a part of a person's death, and the ethics of a person deciding to die in the first place. The defense of this position essentially stated: well, because the show wasn't intended to be about romance, then why criticize it on its romantic context?

When I think back to the show's original positioning as a part of the MoD/Triage trilogy, I think to myself: the couples of TanBun and TinTol were absolutely central, as romantic pairs, to the success of those two stories, and both shows absolutely balanced their mystery elements so as to leave us fully satisfied on two (!!) genre fronts. At least, before SMYM premiered, to be excited about the TorJJ/KanTew coupling was therefore a reasonable expectation.

As well: there was a lot of implied attraction and romance in SMYM. A lot!

All these scenes! And we had more.

As soon as this show started airing, I was pulling for it to work as well as Manner of Death and Triage had. And I was side-eyeing to my drama homies about what I was smelling, when I started to feel like SMYM was NOT working. While a defense that the show was never meant to be a romance is... an interesting postscript to ponder: I don't buy it, because many elements that were clearly designed to otherwise communicate romance actually failed. I squinted heavily at the middle episodes of this series, really wondering, ".....so......are these guys.... DATING? Just feeling things out?!"

If these elements weren't actually intended to be in the show, the attraction between Kan and Tew, then -- why did we get them?

What was missing, narratively, for me? It was emotional context based in the reality of how I understand intimacy to function between two humans -- an understanding that, in the very best of art, I don't need to suspend in order to make a narratively unsuccessful show otherwise work.

The progression of emotional (let alone physical) intimacy was choppy in this series, to say the least. @clairedaring gave us the very important context early on that the novel version of SMYM had two volumes -- the first of which focused on KanTew's dating, before the ethical clashes of euthanasia entered the picture. If we had had that narrative context in the drama, the drama would have worked wonders, and I believe the crew was working throughout this debate in the writing process, from how the script turned out.

The script here did not work, because even if romance was intentionally deprioritized to focus on the euthanasia debate -- many episodes still spent too much time on KanTew, without giving us viewers an emotional journey for us to understand where they were in their emotional intimacy. And I posit, because the script seemed to be so indecisive, that the euthanasia debate got lost for much of the show as well. Up until the end, in the final episode, with that utterly fabulous attic scene.

If only the show had the strength of dialogue and conflict as that attic scene! I wrote yesterday that Tor and JJ will win awards for the whole series, based on that scene alone. That scene finally held the full and holistic scope of the tension between Kan and Tew totally bursting out in all its glory.

Let me just note, though, that we had to get through the first half of the episode to get to that scene -- a first half that really, REALLY made Kan look like an AWFUL LYING SCUMBAG to Tew (HOW COULD YOU LIE TO TEW LIKE THAT IN YOUR HOSPITAL BED, KAN, AND TELL HIM THAT HIS PAIN HE WAS FEELING WAS GUILT, YOU MF'ING ASSHOLE, okay I got it out of my system). Really, with all the lying Kan was doing to Tew about Tew's mom, I was praying that Tew would do the full COPS treatment on Kan, "Bad Boys" and all.

Kan was, in my absolutely personal opinion, ultimately rendered unforgivable during that first half of the finale (regardless of my personal thoughts on the ethics of euthanasia) simply because of his disingenuousness to Tew. The penultimate conversation in attic between Kan and Tew was a phenomenal encapsulation to the ethical conflict that Kan and Tew had danced around for the entire series -- and it highlighted, to me, again, where the script had failed the show, because it actually put a spotlight on moments when the EXCELLENT and FASCINATING nuances of the euthanasia debate in Thailand were sidelined for weak attempts at romantic development. (The socioeconomic nuances, the inequity in health care nuances, the impact that terminal illness has on caretakers, all of them! GAH!)

My takeaway from all of this is that the crew of this show did not hit the exact and delicate formula of deciding what the crux of this show should have been about, despite the commentary we received posthaste from the screenwriter. While the intention of that commentary indicated that the euthanasia debate was supposed to be the only center of the show -- too much time was spent showing us KanTew moments, and those moments lacked context and clarity to give us viewers an understanding of where they stood in their engagement or relationship at any one time. Thus, I do think the postscript commentary from the crew was also a touch disingenuous, regarding the success of the narrative itself as art.

And — I believe it was also disingenuous to the two previously adapted Sammon stories of Manner of Death and Triage as well, as both of those dramas were able to hold both mystery and romantic storylines to excellent ends, with wonderful touches of intimacy along the way (MaxTul couch scene, my beloved). There's more to say, as other people have noted, about writers deprioritizing intimacy to tell "another" story, as it were, but that's a debate for another time, that I think speaks to where Thai BL is going in general.

But otherwise, while I think SMYM was ultimately narratively unsuccessful (that last "I love you" and the rushed close were just brutal), I'm not surprised about how well it did in Thailand. No one can argue with the star power that Tor and JJ hold in Asia — the show was always going to do well, no matter the artistic success of its narrative. I just wish the show had lived up to the caliber of acting and writing that Tor and JJ got to display in that attic at the end.

[benkaben]

Regarding this interview about the portrayal of intimacy in Euthanasia...

I can't say I'm happy with any of it.

Because okay. You don't want the romance to derail from the drama? But still want it to be clear there's a romance there?

Then build it up, genuinely, show the characters grow closer and how they like each other, create moments between them that show the romance happening, not just state it for the audience verbally.

And hey, you don't need NC scenes for that! No, sexual intimacy is not the only thing that "proves" a romance exist.

I mean heck, you could even go all the way around and have all the NC scenes in the world and still present a story where the characters aren't in love with each other, because sex ≠ romance. Absolutely.

But also I'm, really tired™, of this idea that any kind of sex portrayed in media is only going to "taint" the final composition. As If sex and love stories were some dirty stain that automatically made the work lesser: Less serious, less formal, less dramatic.

I don't agree with the idea that you have to sacrifice intimacy in order to be taken seriously. I don't agree with the idea that sex is by default, just fanservice and therefore it's portrayal subtracts automatically from the story.

And don't even get me started on the way this idea is so prevalent specially when it comes to queer media.

I have never, in my life, encounter someone bashing Dark because it contains sex and nudes, I have seen more respect shown for the sex scene in Midsommar than for the explicit kiss of Catra and Adora, and I would argue we have at least a couple of good shows that discuss heavy topics without needing to censor themselves when it comes to CHARACTERS HAVING SEX.

It doesn't have to be One or The Other, and continuing pushing this idea that it has to, either your work becomes un-pure or can't be taken as seriously as you wish, is nothing but purity culture bullshit, and I'm mad, and so, so tired to still be having this discussion all over again

[malevolentlymaverick]

The Totalitarian Statehood: A Psychological Analysis

By Arnav Renge @malevolentlymaverick

You think about a totalitarian state, you think about the Nazis and their goose-stepping, every single person in the military becoming an identical unit, right? A uniform, they're all uniform, and they’re all, in some sense, imitating the dictator in an absolutely perfect way. And so, the dictator wants to impose strict uniformity on the entire population. That’s order.

And one of the thing that’s really interesting is that; disgust sensitivity is associated with orderliness, and that’s associated with conscientiousness. One of the things about Hitler was that he was very disgust-sensitive, and hence lot of his hatred for non-Aryans. Imagine this, inside the Aryan box it was all uniform; outside, it was all parasites and predators that was a manifestation of disgust, not of fear. It's a whole different thing.

If you read Hitler’s Table Talk, which is a collection of his spontaneous dinner speeches from 1939 to 1942, you see that his metaphor for the Aryan race was a body. A pure body, unassaulted by parasites or predators, and that he was trying to erect a border around it to keep all of that away. So it's an immunological, disgust-like metaphor.

There’s some work that was published in PLOS one about 12 years ago, showing that if you went around and sampled political attitudes in different countries, or even within the same country, what you found was that the higher the prevalence of infectious diseases, the higher the probability of totalitarian political attitudes at the local level.

You can imagine, what happens if there’s infectious disease? You want to put borders around everything. You don’t want free movement between ideas or people because that’s partly how the disease spreads. You're going to have much more strict sexual rules for example, because that’s a great way for diseases to be transmitted.

Before Hitler went on his rampage against the non-Aryans, he cleaned up all the factories. He went in there and fumigated them. It was part of the law. He went on a public health campaign to get rid of tuberculosis. And he got rid of the bugs in the factories as well. He used Zyklon B, that's an insecticide, and that’s the gas he eventually used in the gas chambers. So first it was the bugs and the rats. And then it was people. Then it was euthanasia that was the next move. Forced euthanasia. And the rationale for that was compassion. It’s merciful to put these people, who are burdensome to themselves, their families, and the state who are living second-rate lives, it's merciful to euthanize them.

That was a huge campaign in Germany. It was after that that the more racial purifications began. And so that’s the disgust thing. That's unbelievably important.

Lots of times, people think that conservatives are more anxiety-sensitive than liberals, and that’s why they’re closed in terms of their ideas. But that doesn’t look right. First of all, conservatives are less neurotic than liberals, although the effect isn’t that big. They actually score higher in measures of well-being. The most unhappy people are liberal men by the way. But you know, people are often accused, if they're conservative, of being fearful, and that’s why they suppress other people’s viewpoints. But that doesn’t look right. It is low openness and high orderliness. And that looks like it’s associated with disgust. And that looks like it’s associated with something called the extended immune system, which is the proclivity of people to keep themselves away from potential sources of contamination.

It’s really terrifying, because one of the things people often said about Germany was that it was a very civilized country, and yet it descended into barbarity. But conscientiousness is a very good predictor of long-term success. So you could say, well, conscientious societies are more civilized. But they’re also more orderly, and that makes them more disgust-sensitive. And so what it might have easily been in Germany was that it was an excess of civilization rather than its lack that produced exactly these consequences. And that’s a far more frightening proposition. And one that’s, much more likely to be true.

Hitler bathed four times a day. And he was also an admirer of willpower. That is the thing about conscientious people, they’re very willpower-oriented.

So if you’re unfortunate enough to be sick chronically in the house of someone who’s conscientious, especially if it’s a mental illness you’re more likely to relapse, because the conscientious person is going to be judgmental. They’re going to say to you, if you’re schizophrenic: “Well, if you just organize yourself, and get up in the morning, and try a little harder, you could overcome this.” Which is, of course, true, except you can’t, because you’re schizophrenic.

So the pressure put on you by the anger and the contempt is going to increase the probability that you’ll relapse. Orderly people are very judgmental. And orderliness is highly associated with things like anorexia. The anorexic is basically someone who’s so disgust-sensitive that they become unable to tolerate their own body. And they see it as a source of corruption and imperfection which, of course, is exactly right. It is. And it’s a very difficult thing to maintain order around.

There’s always been some antagonism, for example, between the Catholic Church and rationalism. Everyone knows that. It’s a very longstanding antagonism that sort of runs its way through at least the last thousand years or so of Western civilization. The people who regarded Catholics as antithetical to science take the Catholics to task for that, describing it as prejudicial, superstitious. And fair enough.

But there’s something else going on there that’s more important. And that’s the observation and this is at a deep level again the observation that rationality has one big problem. It can easily become arrogant and believe in its own theories.

So if you’re smart and there are going to be some of you people who are like that too, some of you, your primary trait that distinguished you from other people over the course of your whole life was that you were more intelligent than most. And you may have staked your identity on that, and overvalued intelligence and rationality. And the problem with that is you make a theory of the world, and then you tend to assume that it’s 100% correct. That’s the tendency; to fall in love with your own theories.

And that’s what a totalitarian does. The totalitarian says: “Here’s the damn theory, and it’s exactly right. And you’re going to act it out exactly. And if you don’t… well, we’ve got some special treats in mind for you.”

One of the most terrible things about totalitarianism, and this was even more true of the Soviet Union under Stalin, was that the true believers who were many of them, were in a terrible position. Because according to their own doctrine, they were already involved in the process that was going to bring utopia to mankind. The problems had already been solved. But many of them were still suffering terribly as individuals.

But if you're a totalitarian believer in utopia, your own suffering becomes heretical, right? Because your suffering is an indication that the damn theory isn’t correct. And so then you’re in a terrible position, because you either admit that the theory isn’t correct, and fall apart because of that, and maybe face terrible punishment as well, or you have to separate yourself from your own suffering and lie about it, fundamentally.

And of course, that’s exactly what happened in places like the Soviet Union, where everyone lied about everything, all of the time. To themselves, to their family members, to their friends. The entire system was completely permeated by lies.

And that’s brought about. Sometimes that hell doesn’t rise from chaos. It rises from too much order.