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one thing about me is i'm certifiably unhinged and instead of prioritizing a normal yarn weight for a blanket i instead prioritized COLOR (typical me i'm afraid but i wanted it to give 2022 reverse retro) and now this blanket is 325 stitches across and has tiny cute little stitches and i am going to develop carpal tunnel syndrome for real instead of just joking about it
#this necessitated several things including: doing a straight stockinette stitch instead of something more complicated#for the sake of like. not having to strenuously count bc this is a blanket for working on while watching television LOL#also because stockinette inevitably curls at the edges i Will need to decide at some point whether that is just a charming feature#or whether i want to add some sort of lining when it's finished to both give it more weight and to prevent that#but i kind of like the idea of the very lightweight blanket like i live in TEXAS u know. we'll see we'll see#i could of course also add a garter/seed stitch border but hand on god i don't know if i bought enough yarn for that LOL#meg.txtpost
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Afterword: Will there be a sequel to GHD?
After almost four years, GOL HAH DOV is finally a finished project. 50 chapters, just shy of 375K words (about 4-5 full novels’ worth of writing) and I don’t want to know how many hours of furiously typing, here we are at the finish line. As we started getting near the end a few people asked whether I was going to write a sequel, but the answer was too complex to put in an author’s note, so I thought I’d discuss it in more detail here.
Unfortunately, the short version of this is probably not, but let me explain why.
So, there are many things that could go in a sequel. Off the top of my head, I’ve yet to write about: the events of the Dawnguard DLC. The truth about Chrysanthe’s past. How they contend with Hermaeus Mora, who is still gunning for them. How the civil war unfolds when the First Dragonborn looks at both the Empire and Stormcloaks and says ‘nah, I’ll make my own faction’. How the Thalmor react to this. Miraak’s rise to power when he’s not allowed to use his mind control powers, and Chrysanthe’s general struggle to keep Miraak on a morally good path.
All of this could definitely make for another longfic but what I don’t have is any sort of romantic development. The trouble with writing a soulmates fic is that once the couple have overcome their personal issues, there’s very little further tension. Chrysanthe and Miraak actually got together very early in the fic (about chapter 12 out of 50) and the rest has been about them learning each other, becoming more intertwined… but I’m not really sure how they can get more intertwined, after the events of GHD. There are many external points of tension (politics, Thalmor, daedra) but there’s nothing internal - only Miraak’s dubious morality, but we already know that he’ll change his course for Chrysanthe, so what else is there to add?
Essentially, I can’t see how to further develop the relationship, and to me the romantic tension is what makes a fic worth writing. Without it, I just know that even if I started a GHD sequel, I wouldn’t have the enthusiasm to see it through to the end. Now that may change, and I might think of something new… but for the time being, I’m going to put GHD down and focus on other things.
Those other things are: 1) The Tav/Astarion Baldur’s Gate 3 longfic I’ve started, Tooth for a Tooth, which has all my attention at the minute. It’s darker than GHD but the protagonist has the same steely-stoic paladin vibe, so if you liked Chrysanthe you might like him too 2) A while ago I posted a fic idea in which the Last Dragonborn (Chrysanthe, or a totally new character) ends up in the past with pre-Apocrypha Miraak. Again this is a longfic that I’m not sure I really have the spoons for, but I’d say I’m more likely to write this than a GHD sequel 3) Various other bits and pieces, unfinished oldfics, etc.
I know that might be disappointing for some to read, but I hope my reasons make sense at least! And I hope that you still enjoy GOL HAH DOV as its own piece of work, and come back to read anything else that I might write in the future. Thank you again for coming on this Skyrim adventure with me!
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An ask game for writers to procrastinate working on your WIP(s)
Hey all! Thanks so much for tagging me @wellbelesbian, @aristocratic-otter, @valeffelees, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe, @ivelovedhimthroughworse and @iamamythologicalcreature! You’ve all correctly determined that I am procrastinating writing.
1. 🐬Tell us the name of your/ one of your WIP(s)
I actually don’t have any that are named at this point. Titles and tags are really difficult for me and I put both off to the last minute and second-guess myself into hell
2. 🍄Decriscribe your wip/one of your wips in the format of “___ + ___=___”
Popular movie retelling + flying goats = Baz and Dev have A Spot of Bother
3. 🌍What tags or warnings will your / one of your wip(s) need if you intend to share it?
Wraaaugugh, see #1 :P. I don’t know, in seriousness, I think the WIP mentioned above will end up getting a tag for sexual harassment or something like that given the nature of one necessary scene in the movie it’s based on. It’s not going to be worse than the source material, which is PG-13
4. 🧭An alternative title to your/ one of your WIP(s)?
Oh, to have so many ideas for titles that there’s ever an alternative lying around to spare :(
5. ⚠️Which wip your most likely to finish or update next?
I’m pretty likely to finish a sequel to Field Trip of Dreams (SEE WHAT I MEAN about titles?) this week. The eighth years are off on another field trip—this time it’s a weekend training excursion with the Mage. Baz and Simon have been dating for the short time that’s passed since FToD, but they manage to get in a fight on the bus trip to Scafell Pike, and when it turns into a sort-of-tussle the Mage mistakes it for actual animosity and sends them off to a secluded cabin to bang (I mean work🙄) it out. Absolutely everybody but Davy—including the other teachers—knows exactly how much of a “punishment” this is
6. 💾 What is your document of your wip/ a wip called? (not the stories actual title but what you've saved it as)
Practical magic au
7. 🖍️Post Any sentence from your wip
“Shut up, Gareth!” we shout as one, Snow adding a few brutish threats as Gareth pales and turns back around in his seat.
8. ♻️A scrapped idea for your current WIP
I actually can’t remember. I don’t plot my writing out very extensively so in a sense there’s hundreds of little scrapped thoughts rather than anything huge. I’m eliminating a lot of things with my crucible marriage fic, but it’s hard to say right now what’s actually gone or just being moved around. I know a major one I’ve been battling with is that prior to getting dragged off to Pitch Manor by his new husband Baz, I want Simon to have been living with Penny in a flat of their own, but for another aspect of the story I want him to have been living with the Mage in Watford (which is an au mage’s settlement in the fic) as well. There’s ways to work around it for the results I want, I just haven’t written it out yet.
9. 🤔What's a story you'd love to write but haven't even started yet?
I’m pretty sure I have at least a few lines written down for everything I want to write
10. 🤡How many Wips are you actively working on?
Oh, man…actively, probably the field trip one and my COBB. Somewhat less actively: a reverse COBB fic, a sequel to Monsters Under the Bed, a sequel to After Hours where Simon makes good on his promise to despoil Baz on his office desk, and my unending crucible marriage fic. Less active than that: a fic response to a prompt for Simon being the one kidnapped and Baz has to rescue him. There’s probably (cough*definitely*cough) some pretty messed-up OOC smut stuff lying around in my docs as well, that I add to when I’m in the mood and have zero plans to ever post
11. 🛠️Is there a scene or anything in the WIP you are struggling with right now?
I keep telling myself to just write and stop worrying about this for the moment, but I’m kind of bumming myself out worrying about whether I want to use first or third person, as well as past or present tense, for my COBB. I think the issue is that some scenes are bound to play out better one way while others would be better served differently. This is not usually a thing I struggle with.
12. ❤️Not a question, just a second kudos to send.
🥰
This was fun! (Once I stopped putting it off, lol). No pressure tagging (and sorry if I get anyone who’s already done it): @cutestkilla, @mooncello, @artsyunderstudy, @prettygoododds, @drowninginships, @hushed-chorus, @bookish-bogwitch, @thewholelemon, @brilla-brilla-estrellita, @youarenevertooold, @ileadacharmedlife, @facewithoutheart, @imagineacoolusername, @ic3-que3n
#ask game#ask game for writers#procrastination#tag game#SnowBaz#SnowBaz fanfic#works in progress#wip
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Doug Eiffel and/or Milligan for the Headcanon Ask game <3
Thanks Sophie! To thank you for all your wonderful comments on my fics, I will do both:
First: Doug Eiffel
Headcanon A: realistic
Doing headcanons for Doug is tricky because I haven’t finished the podcast so what’s realistic or not remains to be seen. But I do think it’s realistic to say that if Doug made it back to Ann, and she was open to having a relationship with him as an adult and giving him a second chance, he’d be an amazing dad. He’s be so grateful to be back on earth, wouldn’t relapse, and would be the best dad/grandpa ever.
Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious
I don’t know how Wolf359 ends. Is it too much to hope for Doug getting to yell some catchy pop culture reference catch phrase at Cutter as he’s dragged into the back of a cop car? Like “my how the tables have turned” or something like that, you know since Cutter got him out of prison and now Doug is testifying to put him in prison.
Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends
Despite being the one character in Wolf359 who seems to consistently be able, even under pressure, to stick to his morals and try his best to avoid killing, Doug is never able to view himself as a good person or a person whose life is worth saving. The whole “no one who matters ends up here” is something Doug would never apply to Minkowski or Hera, but he still applies it to himself because of what he did to Ann.
Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.
When Doug makes it back to earth, Hera gets to live with him and be part of his family. I don’t care if you ship them or not, or if it’s a ship or not. I don’t care if you want Hera to be the house, still part of the ship, put in a human-like body, I don’t care. She is family, and she lives with Doug and Ann now.
Second: Milligan
This vary depending on book or show version of the character so I’ll keep it vague.
Headcanon A: realistic
Milligan would do his best to help the helpers and everyone else who had their memories erased find their long lost loved ones. After being separated from Kate, he wouldn’t want anyone to live with that level of pain. In the show, he’s also do it out of some degree of guilt, since he vaguely remembers working for Curtain and is unsure if he was involved in the brain sweeping or not. Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious
I have a REALLY good one for this. But I don’t want to spoil my own stuff. So I won’t. In my defense, Milligan would 100% do this and the only reason it wouldn’t be in the show is because they just don’t have enough run time for the plot line. Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends
Milligan having to grieve his wife again. He lost her three years before he lost Kate to some sort of illness (we can only speculate). He loses her, loses the memory of her, and then he has to find all her old stuff, see traces of her in Kate, and lose her all over again. Whether you head canon that he was able to move on and have a new relationship or not, either way, he’d have to go through this pain and it would be absolutely awful.
Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.
Show Milligan being friends with Curtain. I might add in my SOS authors note more detail about how realistic I think SOS actually is based on the show, and I do believe based on what they gave us that a storyline involving a backstory Garrison, Curtain, Milligan, and SQ’s birth parents working together was something that they might have planned for future seasons. But I think it’s slightly more likely they were just coworkers and that Milligan got used and stabbed in the back by Garrison and Curtain (who later stabbed each other in the back) rather than the (in my opinion) much better angst parade where they all actually cared about each other once. But a show’s run time can only take us to flashback land so many times, especially when you can’t get actors back and your show is on the verge of cancellation. So I get it.
#I hope you like these Sophie!#milligan wetherall#doug eiffel#bods wolf359 reactions#wolf 359#Bods answers#tmbs#the mysterious benedict society#mysterious benedict society
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hey! this is chance & here’s week 3’s prompt. share an excerpt that you’re very proud of from any of your wips.
Thank you for the prompt chance! As always there's a voice in the back of my head that wants to share nothing because nothing I create is good, but that's a jerk I've been suppressing for years now, so let's go, yeah? This bit is too long for the "x lines" tags that I normally post and it's hard to divide up honestly. For context, Jake is working on repairing 13's shoulder, and 13 has something important to tell him.
“Hey Jake?” 13 asked, “yeah 13? Feeling something resist?” Jake had become hyper-vigilant to his gears’ flaws, and whether they added up to resistance or other problems. “No, no, you’re doing great, as always,” there was a smile in 13’s voice, but Jake didn’t dare to look away from the precision work he was doing on 13’s elbow. “I, uh, I’ve been thinking about something,” “Yeah? What is it?” Jake could hear this was no idle comment. 13 had something on his mind, and whatever it was, it was important. Jake finished up on his current gear and looked away from the all-consuming work, towards 13’s apprehensive face. “I wanted to ask you if you can do something for me,” Jake nodded, he didn’t want to interject and add additional difficulty to what was clearly a challenging ask. “Can you… uh, no...” 13 stopped himself and allowed a moment to pass as he gathered his will before he spoke again. “I don’t want to be called 13 anymore,” he said, once those words were out the rest came like pearls on a string. “It’s not the name I was born with, it’s not a name I care for, and it’s not a name that was given to me by anyone who actually cares about me.” Jake nodded, it made sense to him to rid oneself of any ties with a man so casually cruel and demanding as Creator, who, Jake reminded himself, he should find some sort of disparaging nickname for time permitting. “Of course. What, uhm, what would you prefer I call you?” Jake asked. “I’ve been thinking Adrian if that doesn’t sound too stupid to you…” Adrian said, a shadow of a blush on his cheeks. “Adrian, yeah, I like it. Good sound to it,” Jake said. “It suits you.” Adrian looked away, to not give away that he was crying if Jake had to guess. “Thanks…” Adrian said. A slight silence fell over them before he spoke again. “Ok, this is stupid,” Adrian said with sudden urgency. “But I got to let you know now or I’ll never be able to stop thinking about it, or worrying if you’ll ever ask me if I’m named after someone or… anyway. I got it from the Olimar Trent books. Adrian Disimila is this little wimpy filing clerk at the judiciary who keeps helping Trent out although he’s both too weak and too cowardly to do much but be in the way, he keeps trying and he never takes the easy way out even when Trent offers it to him and I think he’s just…” Adrian took a deep breath. To the best of Jake’s knowledge, Adrian didn’t actually need to breathe the way normal people needed to, but there was more to breathing than staying alive. “Sorry,” Adrian said. “I just think this character is interesting and admirable, and thinking about how being out of your depth is no reason to give up has really helped me through all of this. That probably sounds really stupid, but at least now you know.” Jake didn’t want to smile, not because Adrian’s bashfulness around the origins of his name wasn’t adorable, but because he’d loath to give the impression that he was mocking him. “I don’t think it’s stupid,” he said. “I think it’s cute how bashful you are about the whole thing right now, but I don’t think it’s stupid.” “Shuddup,” Adrian punched Jake lightly in the shoulder with his functioning arm. “No, no, I’m serious,” Jake said. “It’s sweet that you’ve found strength when you needed it in those books. I’m not much of a reader myself, but maybe I should have a peek one of these days” “Yeah sure. if you manage to pull your nose out of my parts for five minutes maybe,” Adrian said. “Cheeky little clockman,” Jake responded in mock outrage. “Watch out or I’ll reverse your knees, see you bounce around then.” They shared a laugh. It was a stupid little joke, but it felt good to share things that just weren’t all that important once in a while.
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Fic Graveyard 🪦🕊️
Herein lies a collection of my Abandoned/DNF’d fics, as per someone’s CC request. I have no current plans of continuing/writing these fics so read at the risk of your sanity. (I would rather DIE than let anyone see these trash fire monstrosities in their current forms; I would have to completely restart if I ever wanted to post these concepts 😭)
I also decided to omit the official names I had planned b/c i may use them for other fics and don't want to cause confusion.
The order of these have no meaning, just random. I included notes for each fic with bonus info, why I DNF’d, how far I got, or other ramblings.
1. After the disbandment of izone, each member goes on their respective path, some together, some apart. Four specific members join two different groups— IVE and Le Sesserafim. Or at least what had been IVE and Le Sesserafim. but what happens when Starship is absorbed by HYBE?
Condition: This is one of the only idolverses I’ve ever written. I wrote about ~12k words of this over a year ago.
* Honestly the premise of this one is still appealing to me, but as I collected “dead” fics for this list, I used a certain criteria to decide whether to keep it as a *maybe I’ll write this later* or to toss it. One of those criterion were “Can I think of a good ending?”.
Good doesn't necessarily mean happy, just something I would personally be satisfied with, and the reason most of these fics are on here is because the answer was No—I had absolutely no idea how I would end this fic, so I probably would never finish writing it, either.
2. Assassins AU: wherein Yujin and Wonyoung are both separately tasked with killing a target, like any other run-of-the-mill job for the notorious assassins, except there’s one catch—Their targets are each other. Finally, they’ve met their match.
I was debating whether to add a prior relationship between them or to have them be wayward souls—strangers that feel oddly drawn to one another. This fic was lowkey an excuse to write a knife-to-throat/gun-to-head scene (or sex scene) with LOTS of tension, but the urge to do so passed and I ended up leaving it as a draft.
3. ANOTHER Assassin AU wherein Annyeongz are from rival families that have a blood feud.
I planned for Wonyoung to seduce Yujin while knowing who she was as a sort of “spy”. She lied about her name and developed close a relationship with Yujin, but when her family found out she was faced with a choice: Betray Yujin or betray her family. She chose Yujin, but unfortunately Yujin found out who she really was before she got the chance to confess on her own terms.
*Fic devolves from there, this is all I recall from a brief skim of it*
Condition: Wrote 56k words of this a little over a year ago, abandoned because I didn’t know where to take the story (from what I saw scrolling through it was AWFUL… please trust me)
4. Vampire AU: Yujin and Wonyoung are high school sweethearts, but one day Yujin goes to try out for a strange audition and becomes a vampire.
I think they have vampire sex? Yujin definitely feeds on Wonyoung’s blood to stay alive though, and I think she eventually has to turn Wonyoung into a vampire to save her life despite Wonyoung SPECIFICALLY telling her not to (Basically Yujin had promised never to turn Wonyoung, only to break it when Wonyoung’s life was on the line).
Another thing I recall about this fic is that Yujin goes missing for ~5 years when she leaves for the audition, so she I guess she spent 5 years as a vampire before going back to Wonyoung? I don’t remember how Yujin survived for those 5 years, but I know I remember Wonyoung dating Sunghoon (she moved on and eventually got with after Yujin “left” her), and the second Yujin came back, she broke off her years-long relationship with him to be with her again. Also I think Wonyoung *liked* having her blood sucked… (Random details, but I thought they were cute things to mention)
Condition: Wrote this a little under a year ago, DNF’d at 31k words because I didn’t know where to take the story/lost motivation.
5. A/B/O AU where Yujin is a submissive alpha and Wonyoung is a dominant omega. Classroom sex occurs.
I started writing this because of a recommendation on CC (I think it was just an ABO rec but I wanted to put a spin on it) and abandoned it at ~3k words because my omegaverse writing skills are abysmal.
6. Grey’s Anatomy AU where (basically) Yujin is Derek and Wonyoung is Meredith.
If you’ve never heard of Grey’s:
Yujin is an attending Surgeon and Wonyoung is an intern, which basically means Yujin is who Wonyoung wants to be when she’s older. Before Wonyoung’s first day of work, she meets Yujin in a bar and sleeps with her. She finds out the next day that Yujin is one of her bosses and the fic is a cat and mouse game of Yujin chasing her and then backing out and Wonyoung chasing her back until they finally get together—it’s a terribly written fiasco, but was sort of fun to imagine nonetheless.
Their age gap is about ten years, which is ignored in the show but I addressed it in the fic. A commonality between the fic and the show, however, is that the power imbalance is largely ignored (because that’s no fun! [to write about, anyway. The fic was 90% lighthearted])
Condition: Wrote this over a year ago because I started watching Grey’s, abandoned at ~91k words (How the hell did I write that much?! I need to manifest that type of motivation and free time NOW😭)
7. Wonyoung is home for the summer, back from her office job in Seoul. Yujin, however, had never left their small town. Wonyoung pretends that her life in the city is super fulfilling and perfect but that’s a lie—she hates it and her boyfriend is NOT as great as she makes him out to be—but she’s too proud to admit it. Yujin, a doctor at a local Pediatric office, is much happier. Wonyoung secretly envies her. And maybe still loves her a little bit, too.
The plot mostly revolves around their past and skips around in time, eventually revealing that the feelings Wonyoung had for Yujin as a child weren’t merely friendly, and somehow she missed that while Yujin was fully aware of it. (Double) Eventually, they kiss and Wonyoung has to wrestle with cheating on her boyfriend (family problems make that difficult for her, b/c her father was a cheater and left her mother when she was young [Daddy issues ftw!!]) and also being gay in her small town wouldn’t be taken so kindly.
Condition: This was a DRAFT I planned out earlier this year, so I had an outline of events but didn’t write beyond the first chapter (~3k words). I think it was inspired by a K-drama, can’t recall the name. Abandoned b/c I just wasn’t in the mood for it anymore (I think this made me realize FULLY plotting a story down the dime ruins the fun for me, sadly).
8. Chef AU
I had the idea of making Yujin an Executive Chef and Wonyoung a Commis Chef (like fresh out of culinary school her first job is under Yujin), but I couldn’t come up with a good story, so I changed the plot to make them both mid-level chefs vying for the same higher position. I wanted there to be this enemies to lovers thing where they hate each other because they’re both the best and the other one is “holding them back” but also urging them to better by merely existing, with trust and betrayals and sabotage and reluctant teamwork.
This was one of the first fic ideas I had and it was well before I realized I couldn’t easily write about things I had no experience with. I was (and still am) sorely lacking in the Culinary knowledge required to take on a project of this calibre😭. I would’ve had to research & plan everything out to be accurate, which I realised about 1 chapter in… but at least I learned that “write what you know” is good advice to follow, at least for a beginner…
9. Yujin is a developer for a company that makes AI bots. One day she creates Wonyoung and slowly, after many tests and trails and tribulations, falls in love with her. Obviously the only logical course of action is to steal her and run away.
This is another based on a CC request, and I honestly still think if a cute idea as a one shot, it’s just I liked the idea so much I wanted to make it a long fic with Detroit Becoming Human vibes, but of course that’s a little too advanced for me.
Condition: I wrote ~3k words of this, so not much, but I think this one of the only fics on this list that I could still see myself making something out of, just more goofy and lighthearted. Still, it’s here because I don’t currently have plans to do so.
9. Bridgerton-esque AU where Wonyoung is deemed the “diamond” (most vied-after woman during the courting season), but she can’t quite find someone who she wants to marry. There’s a seemingly perfect guy—a prince—but it’s actually his cousin that Wonyoung has eyes for.
She and Yujin actually end up having a relationship, although in the beginning it’s more of an older sister thing for Yujin where Wonyoung’s love is one-sided, until at some point Yujin stops seeing her that way and takes her feelings seriously, and their relationship became intimate and dangerous.
Condition: I abandoned this at ~19k words because it was getting sad and I couldn’t handle the angst. The ending I had planned was hopeful but still depressing and I don’t think my mental health can handle making that any time soon (or ever. I ENVY all the authors who can spend hours and days and years writing a story with a tragic ending. I just can’t do my babies like that :( )
Side note: I actually came up with this idea BEFORE the most recent season of Bridgerton (like I started writing this idea before even FINISHING season 1), which doesn’t really matter at all, just wanted to claim lesbian bridgerton I guess? I’m just yapping at this point, I love the ending of the latest season despite all the hate it got
LIGHTNING ROUND FOR IDEAS THAT I ONLY WROTE AS SINGLE SENTENCES or failed to write but wanted to mention (all from different times, MOSTLY a year ago but some more recent):
- “Streamer AU Wonyoung accidentally exposes the relationship on cam”
(Cute but lacking plot)
- “Enemies to lovers flower shop x event planner AU”
(this one has some kick ngl…I still see the vision)
- “I like older girls.”
(??? No idea what the idea was, maybe a CC rec? But slay!)
- “Band and cheer.”
(Classic. Succinct. I like it.)
- “Enemies that are secret lovers.”
(I just wrote tropes down and hoped the fics would write themselves I guess.)
(wait, I lowkey still do that…)
- “They meet in a dog park and flirt and go back to her place.”
(I SWEAR I remember someone giving me this idea on CC but I only started making a list of reccs relatively recently so if this was you helloooo, I tried fo write this!)
- “Princess x bodyguard”
(nah because this one still has me trying to write it every once in a while… I’ve dreamt about this AU but can never think of a good plot)
(also a CC rec and I might still write this one now that I’m looking back at it😭)
- “Time travel AU where Wonyoung is a researcher who goes missing and Yujin searches for her in multiple timelines”
(I think I dropped this b/c it lacked romance; was more about Yujin solving the mystery)
- “They’re soloists who are rumored to be dating. A scandal threatens to ruin their careers but they have proof to deny it, but the whole situation brings them close and they bond over how terrible the industry is etc etc…”
(Interesting but I didn’t think it through enough. How does it end??? I can’t handle all that angst😭)
- “Wonyoung bullies Yujin for being a lesbian but it’s just her own internalized homophobia and religious guilt and they fuck in the locker room(or not idk if the vibe is smut).”
(I have so many ideas like this.. but those others are still in my TBD pile)
Other:
- I tried A/B/O outside of the fic I mentioned in the main list and it’s pretty stilted. I think I can do it eventually because I genuinely like the trope, just need more practice for it not to be completely garbage. Also I really struggle with plots in ABO Aus when brainstorming
- Hybrid fics—I also like the idea because it’s so CUTEEE, but I don’t really know how to write them as animals… I think I need to read more
Sorry if these ideas kind of SUCKED but I had to choose fics for this Graveyard that I am (as close as I can be to) 100% certain I will never pick back up again, which made the pickings slimmer compared to my entire “WIP”/Draft list.
There are plenty more drafts I consider “Abandoned” (I have a whole tag on my Notion for it), but I didn’t put them because I could see myself still using them in the future, so they don’t fit with the rest.
If you asked for something on CC within the past couple months but didn’t see it on here, it’s probably because I’m still considering making it and is sitting in my Notes App list, but just to be safe you can always drop by there and leave the same idea again since it doesn’t hurt to make sure I see it❤️❤️
Maybe I can make a separate list of fics I MIGHT write (What separates those fics from these are that I actually planned proper endings for them), but the problem is I don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up by saying “Hey, any of these can be fics,” when tomorrow I may decide I hate the idea… It feels a little cruel 😭
If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading my yap and I love you!! See u next fic (hopefully soon) ❤️❤️
(By CC request I started a Ko-fi where I may or may not post small fics (idk if I’m allowed to do that on there??), but I’ll cross post here too) [might do proper commissions in the future but currently I don’t have the time :(]
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7, 20, 64 for the ask 💌
Hi, hi!! Thank you for the ask! 🫣
7 - How do you choose which POV to write from?
It's totally dependent on what I want to convey for that portion of the fic/the particular scene. If a certain character's viewpoint will be a more interesting read I will always go for that one! And that's based on factors like what information the character knows (if it's the same as what the reader knows/will reveal new things to the reader/the character doesn't have crucial information that the readers already have etc.), whether the POV character will be as reliable/unreliable of a narrator as the scene requires, whether they're more insightful/analytical/funny/impacted by the events of the scene compared to the other characters present, and so on! Sometimes I will specifically avoid a certain character's POV simply because they know too much and that would just be spoonfeeding instead of creating questions for the reader to follow along with 👀
20 - Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc.?
I do have a couple of quirks that get pulled out often in my writing! For example, I like to represent what's going on in a character's mind with a combination of both third-person narration of their thoughts and lines from their actual thought process (first person and italicised). I think it helps with flow since it breaks apart what would otherwise be a lot of text in the same tone/format! Another thing I've noticed that I do a lot is, when there are parallelely-happening scenes in different locations, I line up similar things that are going on when breaking the scene to accommodate the next one– for example if a character is waking up and doing their thing in location A, when I next cut to location B, the character in that scene is also waking up or going to bed or in a similar sort of position.
Another thing is– I love quippy little dialogue exchanges that don't really add much besides a laugh xd
64 - Something you love to see in smut
// NSFW so below the cut!! 🔞🔞
This is such a fun ask! It varies a little between ships and characters, but off the top of my head, some things I always enjoy:
I mean, this doesn't exactly apply to characters who don't. talk.? (looking at u Corazon from one piece) BUT! in that case the equivalent would be the unspeaking character being very reactive, or their every slight reaction is given great emphasis in the narrative 😳😳 yeah very important to mention that bc. listen I love corazon being in smut. he gets his own system
Noise. I love when they're being noisy and talking during the scene. Smut scenes with a lot of description of the acts and sounds with limited use of actual dialogue definitely have their own charm! But I really eat it up when the characters are actually talking to each other and maybe even there being "dialogue" of the other kinds of sound they're making (like...instead of writing that they gasped, an "Ah!" explicitly written out as dialogue, lol, if you get what I mean).
Another thing I really like is when the narrative takes its time!! Unless what's going on is a really fast quickie, I want to be able to read every detail leading up to the...erhm, finish line, rather than a rushed ending close to that point. This always feels like a nice cherry on top to wrap up a smut scene so I love when writers do this!
Thank you so much for the asks, this was really fun ❤️❤️‼️‼️
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Something I personally really enjoy about your take of Tess and Joel (but especially Tess in particular) is how morally gray you've made them, even before the world ended and before they really had an excuse. I feel like so often people try to make them into these really outstandingly great people pre!outbreak who had to completely start from scratch to adapt enough for survival, which is totally fine!!! am definitely not saying people can't see them how they want especially in regards to a chapter in the story that has no canonical basis. But I just.... really really really enjoy the version you've created where perhaps it actually wasn't that hard to adapt for survival because they already weren't all that great in the first place. It just makes them feel so incredibly human and i just love it so much. Like I never would have came up with Tess have a bit of a drug thing pre!outbreak. I never would have come up with them both being TOO comfortable with the idea of cheating on their loved ones. I never would have come up with Tess not being able to connect to motherhood and the difficulties of that. it's just so interesting and a rather different vibe than what I'm used to seeing in pre!outbreak tessjoel and I love it a lot
Also, I'm super curious about what tour writing process looks like if you're inclined to share! with how you weave your huge stories together so beautifully I'm just curious how you organize all that and all your thoughts, you know?
Honestly, I have the loveliest anons. ���💛 Thank you for sharing this with me! The feedback really does encourage and inspire me - I mean, I write what I like to read, so it's a huge boost to know that it is landing with readers, too.
I love writing grey characters because there's so many more places you can take them. Sure, it's fun to write about the white hats tumbling into/resisting darkness but we see that a lot and I don't feel there's much I can add to that fun trope. But grey characters? There's so much you can do with that moral flexibility. I also really like writing characters who are in flux in some way - nobody's ever finished cooking, there's ups and downs and progressions and regressions - exploring that is like crack to me.
I think giving my version of the characters that grey blueprint as a foundation to their personalities helps me to ground them realistically, because it's not such a fantastical leap for them to be able to do certain things or act in a particular way. I think if you're going to survive any length of time in this kind of situation you need to already have a certain set of tools at your disposal (whether that be an arsenal like Bill or a mindset like Tess) or you get lucky (Rachel).
My writing process is kind of ... organic?? I'll have notes for a particular story that I'm working on but I don't have anything bigger than that other than a piss-poor spreadsheet. That just lists significant events, when they happened and the season/year/story/chapter they occurred in. Most of it just lives in my head.
I don't want to sound like an asshole but I don't really have a big plan. Most of the time it just sort of happens. I think it helps that all the characters are fully mapped out in my head and I can reach back into them when I need something. There's so much that has never gotten to page that's in the background to give credence.
So for example, Ricardo might say something that's just a line in a story but I know why he's chosen that particular way to say it. I know Iotama's journey from Outbreak day to Sioux Falls. I know why Tess doesn't talk about her brothers (but that can't come out because Tess doesn't need to explain that to herself or think about why that is, and Joel just flat out doesn't know) but with those details cooking in the background everything is ... I don't know, bigger in my head?
So when it's time to write I just think about what I'd like to read and then build some basic structure around it, think about what I've written before and if there's any way to link it in (most of the time, that just happens when I'm writing) and then if there's any way to "power it externally" with the stuff that's in my head as per the previous paragraph. Then I walk my dog and everything starts to come together.
(Actually, "powering it externally" - you've made me realise something, anon. I'm always writing two stories at once. The one that makes it to page and then the one with that doesn't, all the motivations and backstory that are fuelling what's going on but are never articulated. I hadn't thought about that before, but I'm pretty sure that's what I do).
And then I'll get stuck somehow and think, "That's it! The magic is gone, no more words are ever coming." And then I just either go to bed or write through it, sometimes writing and deleting thousands of words until I find a pathway.
This is why I really like accepting prompts because it challenges me to consider things I might not have otherwise thought of, and stops me getting lazy and just writing what I think I like.
I hope that answers your question anon, and I don't sound like a total nut.
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Alright, so I mentioned in my rambles lately that this other game idea and OC (named Rain, for now) have kind of infected my brain, right?
Well, I did end up slapping together a playlist for him. No cover image for it, so far, since I'm planning to finish the PPB ones at the moment, but still. It felt like it would be good to put something together.
I can't say I'm 100% mapping out his character or anything like that, but I'll talk about some of his musical preferences and a few other things underneath the cut. I might add in more songs later on, maybe, but he has more than enough to make a decent little time-waster.
So, first off, what are some of Rain's musical preferences? Some favorite types of instrumentation for him are chiptunes, lo-fi, and/or interesting guitar work (he especially likes a fun bassline). He also likes the occasional classic goth song; he wouldn't call himself goth since he knows he has a basic bitch enjoyment of the genre (same hat).
His name, whether it's temporary or not, also has a song chosen to reference it. See, when the idea for him started solidifying more, it was on a rainy day and I was deciding on a nail polish color for later. I ended up choosing a rain-themed color called Pour Your Misery Down, named after a line from the song Only Happy When It Rains by Garbage. I like that song, so there we go. :p
I think one of the songs that probably sticks out the most, despite having a bassline that slaps, is Forget Me Nots by Patrice Rushen. I put that one in because forget-me-nots are Rain's favorite flowers. Is that important? Not at this point. He mostly likes them because he loves the color blue the most. Guess his name fits because he adores a sky blue shade. Honestly, the song Superfresh might sound a bit more out of place, but it has some great energy to it and you guys already know I have a Jamiroquai bias that I lovingly inflict on character playlists sometimes.
There are actually a few songs I chose solely for the titles, since I wanted references to the embarrassing nicknames he can potentially give to the player (I have an idea for an extremely arbitrary system for deciding which it will be, which would also go for Oberon's potential 2nd game, albeit with different nicknames). The nicknames Rain would give are between Hot Stuff, Baby, Darlin', or Sugar, so the 4 songs are clustered together for that.
I'd say the two songs I find the most interesting in the list are Duvet by bôa and Acting by Sweet Trip. Some of you slightly older anime fans may recognize Duvet as the song that was licensed and somewhat edited to be the theme song for Serial Experiments Lain. That show was so iconic and something made me want to put it in for Rain's playlist (I guess his name is similar to Lain's, but I think more of what drew me was both the sound of the song and that the show was just a very interesting perspective on the relatively young but growing internet culture of the time). The song Acting feels like it has Rain vibes and, considering people only have my word to go off for that, it probably doesn't mean all that much for the time being. It's a pessimistic song about regrets, but I still feel some degree of hope. I don't know how to explain it or if this sort of thing will interest anyone until the character materializes proper.
Last little fun fact is that, at a mere 31 seconds long, inversion by Ichika Nito is the shortest song in any of the playlists at this point. Her guitar work is gorgeous, so I had to put in some music from her.
Honestly, I thought I would make a more solid list for Oberon first, but I don't really feel as comfortable choosing genres for him, since he lives in a cyberpunk future setting. Rain feels like someone I can feel more comfortable assigning some degree of musical tastes to.
#original character#oc#spotify playlist#spotify#character playlist#rain parker#name is subject to change
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How I made my assets with GIMP - By RPG.
I will show how I created one asset (using similar methods to create the others) in GIMP, and how I used detail to create depth within the asset.
Here are the steps:
First, I decided to set the resolution for this asset pack at 64x64; a suitable, but small resolution.
I did this by making another canvas, and setting the resolution at just that:
After, I went straight to configuring the grid size, gridlines and spacing for my asset. I did this by going to "Image" then "Configure grid":
When the prompt opened, I decided that I wanted to have the horizontal and vertical spacing at 1; meaning for every 1 pixel within the 64x64 resolution, there would be a block:
To display my configured grid, I went to "Show" and then "Show Grid":
Now my canvas looked like this:
Immediately, I decided to add an "alpha channel"; a layer of some sorts that lets you take away the background. This was important because I was working with lighter colours and its harder to see them with a white background.
Using the fuzzy selection tool, known otherwise as the magic wand tool, I removed the background.
Now, to place the first pixel.
I started with the basic shape of the asset, which was supposed to look like a court document:
Then I started bringing depth into the equation:
And then I started placing text:
I finished up with the text on the side, shaded it to give it depth and decided to add a stamp and more ingrained lines; to check if everything was good, I took away the grid.
Everything looked good, but for the stamp I decided to give it some more depth during the creation of this asset so that's what I went with.
And the final product was done!
A reflection:
Overall, creating the assets was done with relative ease; however, there was one issue which I encountered just before producing the assets, and this was the fact that I had started them off on Photoshop but then transitioned to GIMP. This was because I found that Photoshop's grid formatting wasn't very concise for getting the right spacing for each block; and this is something that GIMP had that was better, the fact that I could change the spacing horizontally and vertically without the need for changing gridlines.
Another issue I encountered was with asset creation was the fact that Photoshop's magic wand tool relies on tolerance levels to get rid of background; testing Photoshop to see whether or not it was good for pixel art found me making an example and then seeing if some of the pixels disappeared in the process of removing the background, this turned out to be a thing and when I removed the background and some pixels had either faded or just completely went. GIMPs fuzzy selection tool worked a whole lot better with removing the background around the actual pixel art itself and I never encountered any pixels fading out.
One way I counteracted both issues with Photoshop was to see if any other programs were to work well with pixel art creation; and I was surprised when I found out that GIMP could be used for it, because I had only really known it for being a program that you could edit textures on for games. If given the chance, I would've used Aseprite; but because it is payware, it would've required me to be able to properly invest in it.
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Dolasach has never felt more flustered in her life.
Perhaps it was just the sheer difference in their cultures—Rafayel seemed like he was used to this, and didn’t me look at all phased by both feeding her and being fed. But Dolasach… She couldn’t even put a name to what it was about seeing him eat off of her spoon.
Was it the domestic sort of intimacy it carried? Was it how casually he leaned in and ate the fruit? The fact that he ate it in the first place?
“I’m glad you like it,” she said, doing her best not to stammer. She grabbed the bottle of honey and offered it to him. “This is honey. Add some of it if you want to sweet your food even more.”
Him warning her nearly achieved the opposite effect, startling her with both his voice and movement and making green energy briefly spark out of her hands. The only context she’d ever seen and heard such urgency was when there would be actual danger around her; she gave Rafayel a bewildered look before she fully processed what he was trying to do.
“It’s… Just some cooked fish…”
But she didn’t fight him beyond that, letting him take over and just settling for watching him as he handled the fish. She wanted to try and take them from him to finish the job herself, but his explanation made sense, and nothing she could recall reading told her of how to handle… A guest. Those parts of Eolchaire’s writing never stuck to her—she never thought she’d ever need them.
She began eating, but not before giving him a small heads up. “You don’t need to eat the lemon and herbs, by the way,” she said as she picked them out of her fish. “You can, but they taste quite strong in their own.”
As she chewed her first bite, she wondered whether this would actually satisfy Rafayel—the fish was almost overcooked, and a bit burnt on the outside, though was still nicely flavored. Surely his meals in Lemuria were of another caliber entirely, worlds different from her humble, somewhat clumsy meal offerings?
Despite fearing the possibility of seeing mockery or disappointment, or even disgust in his eyes, she still observed him as he ate.
Then as he spoke, she listened closely. Relief washed over her when he agreed with her suggestion.
“Alright, good to hear. If your handlers were to find out that we’ve met before we make much progress, then you wouldn’t even be able to return here to hear me scold you about it.”
Just the imaginary scenarios she envisioned of the elders finding out filled her with dread, fear, and sadness. She didn’t want them finding reason to come up to the surface themselves, nor did she want them finding justification for barring Rafayel from ever leaving Lemuria.
They didn’t need to know that the Sea God and Forest Goddess have once again met. And they didn’t need to have any reason to find out that this incarnation of the Forest Goddess was the weakened she has ever been—with a following that didn’t know her face, and detractors that spread fear over reverence.
She could fight off a few, sure. But all of them? And if they had somehow prepared counters to her abilities in the years since Lemuria’s last fall?
It was hard to hope for a good outcome.
But such concerns were for when they finally come to pass. Right now, Rafayel’s voice pulled her to the present, and made her think back to what she had read in Eolchaire’s message.
“I think there is something there,” she agreed. She scooped up another spoonful of honeyed fruit, but didn’t eat it yet.
“That passage from Caspian’s message is similar to something in Eolchaire’s, although her words were... Less outwardly reassuring. She said, ‘There is a cycle of tragedy that befalls each pair of gods, always beginning with the sea meeting the forest, and ending with one or both having conceded to tragedy…’”
Reminded of how utterly depressing that line was out of context, she quickly added to it.
“Then she says that I should trust what she and Caspian left behind because they want us to live. So that confirms that they’ve left more than just this scroll for us.”
₊❏❜ ⋮ i'll chase you to the ends of the earth. ⚬𓂂
@dolasach
He is used to it; however, that didn't mean he accepted it.
Rafayel sighed as he let his head rest against his palm, the same thing being drilled into his mind by the endless sea of words spewing the history of Lemuria and the world on the surface repeated like a broken record from the elders. He seemed to be falling asleep and was immediately scolded for not paying attention.
Evidently, something came up that had the elders leave the vicinity for the time being and this served as an opportunity for Rafayel to escape. He had attempted in doing so a few times, but he was sure that this time he would be able to be successful.
A blue fish swam around him and held his hand out, allowing the fish to swim over his palm.
"Shall we head to the surface? It's a little boring right now and I'm tired of hearing the elders saying the same thing over and over again."
The fish continued swimming over his palm before seemingly directing him toward an opening to which he was able to squeeze through. It was then he realized that he was out of the city walls of Whalefall City and was able to swim to the surface.
He thanked the fish before it disappeared back through the city walls and Rafayel didn't have to think twice as he turned away from Whalefall City to swim up to the surface; however, before he allowed himself to fully come out, he swam slowly as the damn words from the elders rang in his head.
"The world on the surface is dangerous, even if those people worship our Sea God, there is a chance that someone will try to capture him."
"As the previous Lemurians have..."
"Rafayel, you must never venture out to the surface world. Your people are here, that is all that should concern you."
And the annoying part of all. "The Sea God will one day meet the Goddess of the Forest, and when that day comes, should he fall in love with her, it will be the beginning of the downfall of Lemuria."
Rafayel always thought it to be those stories to be something a parent would tell to their child to make them listen. And besides, Rafayel had always been, not only a rebellious soul, but one of sheer curiosity.
Once he peeked out from the water, he spotted a woman by the shore. And he had seen a few other humans before, but something about her was different and he couldn't help but to swim towards the shore, closer to her. Who could she be? For some reason... he needed to know and while he doesn't know why he needs to, he simply just has to try; in a way, it felt as though there were residual feelings, feelings that weren't from him and that in itself baffled him.
So without thinking, his mouth opened to speak.
"Who might you be? You don't seem... human to me, although you do appear to be." He tilted his head briefly before letting out a laugh. "Ah, apologies. This is bold of me, I will admit."
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besties / headcanons
𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖋𝖚𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖌𝖚𝖗𝖔 𝖙𝖔𝖏𝖎, 𝖌𝖔𝖏𝖔 𝖘𝖆𝖙𝖔𝖗𝖚, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖓𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖒𝖎 𝖐𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖔
𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖙: 1.4K words
𝖘𝖚𝖒𝖒𝖆𝖗𝖞: how toji, satoru and kento would act as your best friend
GOJO SATORU
- Gojo may not be very loyal as your boyfriend, but he would definitely be one among your most loyal friends.
- Whenever you're sitting down at some place, literally anywhere, be it at a cafe or on some random stone ledge, he'll let you lean back into him.
- Gojo is tall, and he's somehow always so warm, so treating him as a platonic cuddle buddy would be so nice.
- So imagine you're exhausted from a long day and you find this stout little ledge to rest on. Gojo would sit down with you there.
- You could lean onto him, press your head into his shoulder and Gojo would actually feel very relaxed to have someone he trusts and holds dear next to him.
- Knowing that one of his closest friends is safe calms him to an impossible degree. He knows he's lost too many already.
- And if the day has been too long, he'll let you sleep on his shoulder. Let you enjoy having a little power nap while ignoring the little line of drool that will wet his uniform.
- Hip to hip, your head to his shoulder, it does not feel as romantically intimate as it could be, but he loves that you're here with him all the same. He's always been scared of losing his friends, no matter how well he hides it.
- So he'll keep you warm as you nap on his shoulder.
- PARTING FROM OUR ANGSTIER PARTS... Gojo would be the best hype-man.
- You wearing a dress that barely reaches your knees and flaunts your ass whenever you jump? He'll cheer for you and scream, "THAT'S MY HOT BESTIE!!!"
- You have a crush on some dude? Some gal? He'll get very close with that guy or gal and tell them all the good things about you.
- If you like someone from the school it'll be even worse for you. He would blatantly skip missions just to set your crush up with you as your partner.
- Gojo would be a great, awesome, amazing BFF and you cannot tell me otherwise.
NANAMI KENTO
- Nanami as your friend would just be. Aw.
- He would be the most attentive friend out there.
- You just come back from a mission, hair and clothes a mess, face streaked with blood? He'll let you use his handkerchief to wipe the mess off. And he'll fetch some bandages for you if you need it.
- If you're bed-ridden, he'll stay by your bedside and talk to you there. Silence with him is also just... so nice. So peaceful. So serene.
- Nanami would even make you coffee, tea, whatever it is you like just so he can help you feel more refreshed after whatever tiring mission you went on, or whatever complicated job it was you had to finish.
- He knows what your favorite drink is. What your favorite food is. He also knows the best place to find both.
- Will eat lunch together with you every day at the school, or at yours or his favorite restaurant.
- He can't really make food for you... so he always buys something for lunches at the school with you.
- Sometimes he'll just stand in front of one of the school vending machines, in undeniably deep thought about what your drink of the day could be.
- Whenever he visits your favorite coffee shop, or whatever place sells your favorite drink, he'll ask the cashier to add the specific extras you like incorporating into your drink. He knows all of them.
- AND OKAY. LISTEN. NANAMI WOULD TOTALLY CALL YOU AT THREE A.M. TO RANT ABOUT WORK.
- Of course he would first say something along the lines of, "I must apologize for bothering you. I promise to buy you (insert fav. drink) and (insert fav. food) and (insert fav. dessert) tomorrow. Promise." Then he finally reveals how stressed he is, "But. Are you aware of how much I want to wring Gojo Satoru's neck and kick him off a cliff?"
- It would turn into some sort of comedy, where Nanami mocks every single person who has stressed him out (Gojo Satoru for once in your life just STFU) in that sonorous, baritone rumble of his.
- Imagine hearing something like that at three in the morning. Sometimes it makes you question why it is no one has asked the guy out yet. (AND WHY YOU HAVEN'T DONE THAT EITHER.)
- Nanami would also be the BEST listener.
- You have a problem with something? With someone? Okay. He'll hear you out. Will not interrupt you while you're speaking. Not once will he do that.
- If it's something serious, and you start sniffling or maybe even crying, okay let's be honest he wouldn't really know what to do...
- SO. Because he doesn't know, he'll do what he sees everyone else do.
- He'll hug you. His arms will be stiff and that deep pit of awkwardness will definitely form in his stomach, but if it helps you, he'll do it all the same.
- If this is your first time crying in front of him, he'll only pull out one of his handkerchiefs and hand it to you. Sorry, but he wouldn't know how else to comfort you.
- He'll also comfort you with words of logic. Nanami has that perspicacious outsider's perspective that lets him see the rational portion of everything.
- BUT HE WOULD ALSO BE SO UNDERSTANDING. If you voice that you think your feelings are stupid, or dumb, he would FIRMLY insist that no, no (Y/N), your feelings are not stupid. Your feelings matter to me. And nothing that matters to me is "stupid."
- And he would proceed to help you find a solution to your problem, or would just hear you out some more. You can be honest with him and he would not judge you for any of your feelings.
- In conclusion, Nanami Kento would be the most caring BFF out there.
FUSHIGURO TOJI
- Okay HEAR ME OUT ON THIS. HEAR ME OUT.
- Toji would be an AWESOME best friend.
- He would be the guy you could punch in the arm with abandon.
- Toji would ALSO be the mean tease of a friend who is able to bed you at least once.
- After getting you in his bed though he'll let you go back to the casual thing you share, if that's what you want. But if you want to be together, well... he would be willing to try, but only because you're his friend.
- It may or may not work out. But he does try to make it work. Whether it does in the end... depends.
- MOVING FORWARD, again, Toji would be the friend you could punch without being hit back for it. He'll just be like yeah, okay short stuff then move on.
- He's just someone you could debate with, have fun with, and tease and test to no end.
- AND TOJI is the type of guy who would be super casual about letting people stay over at his house. You had a tiring day? You want to crash at his house? He'll let you.
- You open his door and he'll look at you like he was expecting you, but maybe that's because you'd just ranted about how someone at work had treated you like shit.
- You know. Through the private messaging app only assassins like him use. But since you're his bestie he let you download it too.
- HE CALLS YOU EVERY SINGLE PET NAME OUT THERE TOO
- And he always greets you with, "Something wrong, short stuff?" when you come through the door
- AND HE WOULD EVEN CALL YOU "PRINCESS" WHEN HE REALLY FEELS LIKE PUSHING IT
- And listen bitch even if you're tall... this asshole is literally as tall as Gojo (I think?????) AND he's a DILF. So shut your mouth, short stuff.
- At his house you can either: 1. Order take-out and eat together on the dingy old table someone's great-grandfather used to eat on; he might pay if you really aren't feeling it but he's also an avaricious, money-hoarding bitch (in other words, broke) soooo don't expect much. Or 2. Just sleep on his couch while he watches TV. His bed smells like shit and really his couch isn't any better buuutt at least it doesn't have... stains.
- And please, don't even think about venting your feelings to this guy. He would either laugh his ass off at you or only nod with a tight smile of discomfort on his face.
- Princess, he won't be tucking you into bed, but he'll definitely have some leftover pizza ready for you in the morning. His love language is lazy as hell, but it's love all the same.
- Though your pizza will most definitely be either burnt or cold as shit.
- But either way, he cares.
- So if you're feeling down because someone looked at you wrong in the streets, expect to see a "Missing Person's Report" on the news in the morning.
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Diluc, Kaeya, Xiao, and Childe Finding out That You’re Being Abused HCs
cw: mentions/descriptions of (physical and emotional) abuse, injuries, depressive mood/thoughts, implied violence **please proceed with caution and do not read if this is triggering! note - submissions are confusing for me, so I wrote it in this format. I hope that was okay!
@tuestika said: Hi! Sorry that I send my request through submission, tumblr has sometimes eaten my asks either wholly or have omnomned whole ask xD Usually my requests sent through submissions arrive intact so…. I saw that you had done Scaramouche reacting finding out their s/o is being abused headcanons, may I request headcanons for Kaeya, Diluc, Xiao and Childe finding out their their s/o is being abused? Keep up good job! <3
🔥 Diluc 🔥
Diluc might not be the most vocal person in the world, but he’s definitely observant. He’s gotten rather skilled at picking apart your social cues because he’s spent a lot of time with you.
So when you barge into his tavern one evening, looking absolutely disheveled and asking for one of the Knights, he’s feeling two emotions: confusion and irritation.
For one, you shouldn’t even entrust your issue to those inadequate Knights. Nevertheless, you are his friend and he isn’t going to kick you out just because you mentioned them.
He waves you over to the bar and is thoroughly shocked when you beg him to let you hide behind it. Then he notices your split lip and the fresh injuries on your face and forearms, and he wastes no time in getting to the point.
“Why were you out so late fighting hilichurls? I hope you haven’t led any here. We don’t need that sort of trouble right now.”
“Sorry. No, that’s not it. I just—you’re the only one...” You’re struggling to piece a coherent statement together, too busy looking over your shoulder to keep track of your thoughts. “I didn’t know where I could go. I mean, I thought of you and—“
“Please slow down. Start at the beginning.”
More concerned over your safety than professionalism, Diluc allows you to slip behind the bar counter, where you cower on the ground to avoid being seen.
You gesture for him to come down to your height and he sighs, silently complying when he finds there aren’t any new customers to serve. Bending down to your level, he holds onto the countertop to keep his balance and then he locks eyes with you.
“What exactly happened?”
You inhale a shuddering breath, wrapping your sore arms around yourself for comfort. Tears are gathering in your eyes as you recall the event. Your abuser had found you after you’d left to get some fresh air, they’d cornered you in a secluded alley, and—you can’t finish the rest of the story.
Diluc doesn’t expect you to continue. He nods as he lets the information sink in, already harboring a deep resentment for this despicable individual.
“Wait here. I’ll close the tavern early. In the meantime, we should see to your injuries and then we’ll look for that person.”
“I really think we should tell the Knights...” you mumble, knowing he’ll disapprove. “They’re more suited to these types of cases.”
“The Knights are incompetent. The investigation will take days, if not weeks. What happens if your abuser knows they’ll be coming for them? They’ll try to escape and then there’ll be no telling where they’ve gone.”
“I know, but it wouldn’t hurt to—“
“I’ll take care of it.”
You try to object because it’s dangerous and you don’t want him to get injured on your behalf. But he’s insistent in his decision, claiming that if the Knights can’t help you no one can. And you really wouldn’t feel safe if your abuser was still roaming free, so you have no other choice but to allow him to carry out the investigation himself.
And Diluc can be quite clever at times. It won’t be hard to traverse the interior of Mondstadt at night, where his identity melts away into that of the sneaky Darknight Hero.
He’s going to protect you no matter what. Your abuser won’t receive an ounce of sympathy from Diluc. All he feels is cold hatred when he catches them. Someone as precious as you does not deserve to be put through such torment, and he’ll see to it that your abuser pays a hefty price to make up for all of the damage they’ve caused.
🧊 Kaeya 🧊
Kaeya can’t understand why you’ve started isolating yourself from everyone. In the past, you were always such great friends with the Knights, always catching up to talk to one of them.
He’d spent a lot of time with you and has since gotten to know you through lighthearted conversations and gossip from the people of Mondstadt.
For someone so appreciated and well-known, he can’t wrap his head around why you might want to suddenly disappear, hiding yourself away as if you didn’t exist.
And then he happens to catch you in town one day while you’re out running some errands. It’s so like him to pop in with a few flirty lines, but the words stick in his throat when he notices the bandages stuck to your arms and legs.
“That can’t be good,” he says as he approaches you, leaning ever so gracefully against a wooden support beam. “Why don’t we find Barbara? I’m sure she’ll have you patched up in no time, my dear friend.”
You don’t think you’re worth it so you shake your head, nervously hoping he’ll take the hint and go away.
“I hope you’re not accepting those dangerous commissions again,” he adds, half teasing and half serious. You can’t tell whether he’s trying to sound chiding or not.
“Please just...leave me be. I’m a little busy right now.” You try to leave the stall you’re at, walking stiffly to avoid limping in front of him. “I’m not feeling well, so if you’ll excuse me—“
Kaeya pushes off from the beam, standing in front of you with a posture that appears immovable. “By order of the Calvary Captain,” he’s saying, a playful glint in his eyes, “you aren’t allowed to move from that spot until you tell me what’s bothering you and why you’re covered head to toe in bandages.”
You can easily object to such an order, but you figure it’s better to answer instead of arguing over your physical condition. So you explain a modified version of the story, telling him that you simply got into a disagreement and it ended in bruises on both sides.
Kaeya hears the tremble in your voice when you say it; you’re lying. His expression softens at once and he steps away, indicating that you’re free to leave. But you don’t; you’re looking at him with such a helpless, pleading look. It breaks his heart.
You break before him, lips quivering as you beg for his help. You’re so scared and alone, and you’re not sure how long you can suffer through this before it seriously hurts you.
“This is the first time I’ve gotten out in weeks.” So that explains your sudden isolation. “Please... I don’t want to go back home anymore. I’ll do anything. Just don’t let them hurt me again.”
Kaeya’s absolutely stunned to hear the silent revelation in your words. You’re awkwardly reaching to undo one of the bandage wrappings to prove your point, but he stops you short. That’s all the proof he needs.
You’ll be brought back to the Knights of Favonius’ Headquarters to be tended to while he gathers a team to search for your abuser. Since you gave him a solid description, it shouldn’t be too hard to find them.
And once they’re apprehended, Kaeya will subject them to a grueling interrogation. There will be no gentle punishment; it’s going to be as unforgiving as the abuse you had to suffer through.
☁️ Xiao ☁️
You’ve never really been keen on physical touch and Xiao understands that completely. He usually avoids any sort of interaction to begin with, unless it’s absolutely necessary, so it’s not a surprise whenever you shy away from large crowds.
He has grown rather fond of you, which has lead to the two of you meeting at Wangshu Inn for some Almond Tofu and relaxed chit-chat.
During one of your many conversations, you bring up a few alarming statements. They’re just personal points you’d like to change, such as your weak fighting spirit or the way your joints brokenly click when you stretch.
Xiao wonders why you’d want to change yourself. You’re not usually this doubtful of yourself. In the past, you would always play the role of his smiling friend, putting on a positive face even when he was in a disagreeable mood.
Xiao is examining your movements as you awkwardly explain yourself and when your arms move he catches the sight of a rope burn etched into your wrist.
“What happened?” He gestures to your sleeve, to which you react in a nervous manner, shyly pulling your sleeve down to hide it. Xiao frowns a bit. “Did you get into an accident?”
“No, of course not! I’m fine. It’s just a result of my clumsiness.”
It really doesn’t look like that to Xiao and when he truly looks at you again he finds that you appear abnormally tired and exhausted. He isn’t going to sugarcoat anything and he could be making a giant assumption, but he still asks.
“Is someone hurting you?”
Your eyes widen for a split second and Xiao catches that movement like a cat drawn to a laser pointer. He won’t force you to explain unless you feel comfortable doing so. The last thing he wants is upsetting you or pressuring you into something you don’t want to talk about.
Eventually, though, the story will come to light and he’ll hear all about the horrors you’ve gone through. That rope burn was just one of many punishments you’ve had to endure, and Xiao’s just about ready to snap. How dare someone lay their filthy hands upon you in such a violent way?
Xiao will calmly tell you to stay at Wangshu Inn or anywhere else in Liyue where you’ll be safe. He’ll watch over you while you take time to recuperate and heal. He’s going to make sure you’ll never have to go through something like that ever again.
Having Xiao by your side makes the healing process all the more comforting.
And when you fall asleep in a soft, warm bed, Xiao slips out into the night to search for your abuser. It won’t be a pretty sight once he gets his hands on the human trash who dared to hurt you.
💧 Childe 💧
He’s very perceptive when it comes to your health and overall well-being. After all, he’s got brothers and sisters to care for; perception is absolutely necessary in order to keep them happy and healthy.
So it doesn’t take long for him to realize your behavior is uncharacteristic. You’re jumpier than usual, always apologizing for the littlest of things, and you’ll look over your shoulder whenever you sense something.
It’s almost as if you expect someone to suddenly come at you, which isn’t all that odd. Childe has been known to keep you on your toes when he’s looking for a fight.
But on one particular day he manages to give you a spook when he comes up beside you, grinning and showing up in your peripheral so suddenly that it nearly gives you a heart attack.
You’re so frightened as you back away, practically folding in on yourself in an effort to protect yourself from an imaginary blow. Childe pauses, that silly grin fading when he realizes you’re shaking.
“Hey, it wasn’t that scary. Come on, comrade!” He’s approaching you warily, not entirely sure why you’re acting the way you are. He’s always been spontaneous; you should be used to this by now.
But you refuse to let him come any closer, having to distance yourself so that you can ease your racing heart and hyperventilating lungs. Once you’ve calmed down, embarrassment floods through you at the fact that Childe just witnessed all of that.
Childe will ask if you’re okay with him stepping closer and if you nod he’ll be on you like a hawk, pulling up your sleeves before you can stop him.
For once, you catch an expression you normally don’t find on Childe: surprise. He’s genuinely shocked at what he sees: dark bruises and shallow lacerations from something sharp.
Either you got these in your many sparring matches or there’s another factor at play here, and Childe is almost certain it’s the latter.
His voice is gentle as he asks you to explain what’s going on and once you do he’s already set on finding the one who did this. He seems to forget all about his Fatui work, wanting to capture your abuser and give them a piece of his mind—and subject them to more than a few pieces of his strength, too.
He’ll have you protected in no time, offering to take you to the best healer. You’ll be treated wonderfully and he’ll even lay off on your sparring matches for a while.
In the meantime, once he gets his hands on your abuser, everything becomes fair game. After all, someone has to handle the brunt of his anger and pent-up bloodlust from the lack of a fight. And your abuser is the perfect match to pummel into the ground. Childe shows absolutely no mercy for them.
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[NSFW] Albedo: Dealing with a brat s/o HCs - GN Reader
Remember when I just said that I think all genshin men are bottoms? I lied because Albedo is the one character where I’m like, yeah you know what? This guy can wreck me. He just hits so different. That smug face he gives you? I’m on my knees already. Lucky, lucky. Holy shit, the - fuck - my brain is going back into bark mode. You know what? Fuck it. Let’s write this.
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Warning: Albedo is mean but it’s consensual. Please no minors tyvm.
Tags: Dry humping, uncaring Albedo that suddenly turns feral, exhibition, sadist Albedo, crying, minor name-calling, rough oral/sex, boot grinding, overstimulation, unprotected sex [lmk if I missed anything].
[NSFW] Albedo: Dealing with a brat s/o HCs - GN Reader
Albedo is indifferent to your desires, he has almost no care for pleasure, so he spends most of his time and energy on his work. While it saddens you that you’re his second priority during the weeks he get’s interested in something, that doesn’t deter you from your own lust. But it’s so embarrassing trying to rile him up, only to have him just gives you a blank stare and tells you to go and leave him alone. He’ll deal with you later. But if you bother him enough, he’ll sit you on his lap and look at you expectantly. Leaning back in his chair and gesturing for you to go on. If you’re too much of a horny puppy that craves his attention then go. You have his leg so be quiet and let him work.
He doesn’t even bother to lock the door so Sucrose will more often then not accidently walks in during your intimate moments. She’s always so embarrassed and stutters as she tries to cover her eyes with her hands as you attempt to have some modesty but Albedo will grind his knee back into you and force you to continue. You wanted this so finish. The rough texture of his boots scraps against you that you have to bite your lip raw from embarrassing you and Sucrose further. He appears so bored as he moves your hips for you as he asks for Sucrose’s report. You’re desperately trying to contain your whimpers to try and save your reputation with the quiet alchemist but the humiliation and the grip Albedo has on your hips, to the point of bruises, is too much for you. You bury your face into his neck to muffle your moans as you climax all over his leg and ruin his pants. While you’re still panting and recovering from your high, Albedo is reading his assistant’s report before dismissing Sucrose. Much to her happiness as she scurries away red-faced.
When he does feel like putting in the bare minimum amount of effort, it doesn’t matter to him if you cum or not. He’ll usually try and satisfy you since he’ll get annoyed if you start crying and begging like a baby. Even when you’re whining under him, he has the most unemotional face even if he’s absolutely wrecking you. He almost looks annoyed and his eyes start to wander to his papers and his focus shifts to them. It both hurts you deeply but makes you feel so hot inside when he’s pounding into you while his mind is in a separate universe of alchemist notes.
Above all, Albedo is mean. Hard and simple. He might have a big patience for his work but when it comes to people, especially a brat like you that won’t leave him alone, if you happen to fuck up he’ll take it out on you. Whether you cum or not isn’t his problem anymore and he’ll leave you crying once he’s done. He does get a small piece of sick pleasure out of seeing your tears fall down as you beg for him to help you but he adjusts his glove, give you a sweet pet to behave puppy, and leaves you.
While Albedo is mean, but he’s never intentionally rough. He’s simply too lazy to act that way. Unless you absolutely piss him off. When his thread is really running thin and you pick today of all days to be such a brat that won’t shut up with your incessant whining that he pushes you down on your knees, pry’s your mouth open, and tells you to stick your tongue out. Not to move an inch or else he’s leaving you by yourself again for the next week. He pets your head and smiles gently which leads you into a sweet sense of comfort before he’s yanking your head forward to take his entire cock. Even when you’re gagging and crying, clawing at his boots to try and find purchase, he just forces you down further.
There’s something feral in the look he gives you that has you shaken but it absolutely burns you from the inside. You try to subtly reach to try and relieve the constricting feeling of your clothes but Albedo kicks your hand away. There’s a smug grin on his face as he stares down at your disappointed yet love-stricken eyes. Full of affection that it both disgusts him and brings him some sort of sick joy. He nudges your thighs apart as he places his boot right between your legs and waits. If you want to get off then you’ll have to do all the work. You’re sniffling in shame but with the heavy press of his cock on your tongue, the heady eyes that Albedo gives you, it’s starting to cloud your mind as you start grinding on his boot.
It’s only after a few thrusts before Albedo grows bored and yanks your mouth off. Your tongue is still out with a string of saliva connecting it to his cock which makes you lean forward and like the remaining spit off, looking up at him with your half-lidded eyes, that he curses under his breath and kicks you in the chest to make you lie down. You huff out a laugh under his boot as you lick your lips and stick your tongue out at Albedo. You can see it as something primal in him surfaces as he reaches over and grabs your tongue, shoves his fingers into the back of your throat, before ripping your pants apart and slamming his fingers into your hole. You’re gasping as he does the bare minimum prep before he’s fiddling with his own belt. Albedo clicks his tongue disapprovingly when you try and buck your hips back on his fingers before he lines himself with your hole and thrust's all the way in.
You’re crying and squirming away when he forces himself in too quickly, the stretch is burning but it feels so good. The hazy feeling starts to overtake your mind as the pain turns into pleasure but it’s too much. You’re going to break if he keeps fucking you this way. Even as you try and run away, Albedo just grips your wrists and pulls you back on him. You were so invested in bothering him and now you want to run away? You’re gasping as tears cling to your eyelashes as you squeeze around him as your tongue lolls out. You really are panting like a puppy now, Albedo amuses. He gives you a small moment to get your bearings before he goes feral. It’s the one moment where he feels alive. That he want’s to absolutely destroy you. As he pounds your sweet spot your entire body is going into overdrive, desperately clawing your fingers into the ground as you try and find purchase on his brutal assault.
You’re pretty sure you’re drooling all over his floor at this point but you can’t bring yourself to care when you’re buzzing in bliss. Albedo almost smiles cruelly when he’s watching you cry and orgasm at the same time, even when you’re mid-orgasm, he just keeps going. It’s only when you hear him growl as he sinks his nails into your skin to add to the bruises already there do you feel his seed spill into you. You’re hiccupping through your thank you’s as he slowly pulls out and watches his cum slip out of your hole. It stirs something deep inside him that he doesn’t like and uses his fingers to push it back in forcefully even has you whimper at how sensitive you are.
Albedo laughs under his breath at the dumb look you have on but he quickly catches himself. He breaths a sigh as he relaxes his body and runs his hand over the small bump on your stomach from his cum. Feels the violent twitches in your body as you try and reach for him in some sort of pitiful attempt in comfort but he simply pushes himself off and fixes his clothing until he looks presentable.
When he asks if you’ve had enough you grin smugly back, your lips bitten raw and red, and bark. He adores you.
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Oshi No Ko Chapter 160 - My Thoughts/Analysis - An Addendum
I was hit by a couple of thoughts that I had while rereading this chapter in conjunction with the last few twenty or so chapters before it and I thought it was relevant enough to add here at the bottom of my usual chapter analysis. More specifically, thoughts about the line that Aqua says to Hikaru about Ruby.
There are two ways to interpret Aqua’s line that Ruby is different from either Aqua himself or Hikaru. The first is that it’s the series fucking up again. By now, the readers are very much privy to Ruby’s black star arc and her own manipulations. That entire arc serves to highlight her own manipulations to find Goro’s killer and avenge him in the same way Aqua wanted to avenge Ai. Now, why would the series choose to hammer in the point that Ruby is somehow different from either Hikaru and Aqua when she herself has manipulated people for some end goal—whether that was a net positive or negative for the people she manipulated—and have Aqua emphasize this point during the confrontation with Hikaru?
It could obviously be a thematic fuck up. The series has fallen into numerous pitfalls in the last act of the manga so it wouldn’t be very surprising that it’s dropped the ball yet again. Even if they wanted to hammer in this point to the readers I’d argue that it simply wasn’t executed very well for this point to be made in the context of the Aqua-Hikaru confrontation. It falls flat if you think about it for more than five seconds.
The second way to interpret Aqua’s words requires a bit more critical thinking to achieve. Bear with me for a moment while I go on a slight tangent. There are often at least two—three, if the writer knows their shit—layers of information that exist within every conversation between characters. The first layer is what is written as text. Simple enough—everything the characters say in a conversation.
The second layer is subtext—the stuff that isn’t spoken aloud but instead relies on inference based off of what we know about the characters. An example from the series I love to point out to people is when Mem confronts Aqua about avoiding Kana. Over the course of that conversation Mem comes to the conclusion that Aqua is obsessed with Kana—but Mem isn’t aware of all the facts. Aqua has seen Ai die because of a stalker, and in his mind he can’t be around Kana because he’s afraid of a similar thing happening—not because of some sort of obsession or love, but because he’s concerned with her safety. This subtext is further reinforced both before and after this conversation happens by both Akane and Aqua, lending credence to these facts this subtext is trying to highlight.
Now, back to the Aqua-Hikaru confrontation and the second interpretation of this line. Aqua saying these words to Hikaru certainly hold meaning. We know that Ruby has confessed to Aqua during her black star arc about the extent of her manipulations. Aqua knows just what Ruby is willing to do for revenge and what she’d done to avenge him. If Aqua is still saying these lines knowing exactly what she’d done—he’s willing to look past her manipulations and everything Ruby’s done during that period of her life and is still saying that she’s different from both Hikaru or himself.
Did the series intend this kind of ambiguity? Absolutely fucking not. This is a series that refuses to show key reveals to the readers, that refuses to take the time to flesh out our characters’ mindsets half the time, that simply wants to speedrun to the finish line to the detriment of the story itself, and most importantly of all, doesn’t pay me to fill in its narrative pitfalls.
The segways well towards the third layer of information: What the narrative wants to communicate to the readers. We see this well with how the narrative has positioned Ruby as someone who will surpass Ai. Discussions about whether or not it’s a good decision or not or whether or not it’s earned aside, it’s quite clear that this is the direction that manga is taking. I’ll be honest in my own opinions in that I don’t quite think that they executed that plot beat well enough, but the fact is that this idea has been consistently been hammered in time and again by the narrative itself, for better or worse.
This is what the narrative is telling us about Ruby: That she is someone who will surpass Ai. In spite of the fact that the execution of that fact leaves much to be desired in some aspects. The narrative is telling us that Ruby is to surpass Ai without the sufficient buildup or required time for such an idea to organically breathe within the scope of the series itself.
This disconnect between what the narrative is telling us and what we as readers see throughout the series is the reason why the first interpretation of Aqua’s words to Ruby exist. While the subtext gives a believable explanation behind Aqua’s words to Hikaru in this conversation, what the narrative is telling us here contradicts what readers have already seen throughout the series.
This leads into an interesting train of thought. Does one place the subtext implied by a single line over the contradiction of what the narrative has to say versus what is actually being shown when crafting interpretations towards the series? It’s simply a matter of how a reader views Ruby—and by proxy Aqua’s—character. Assuming that one doesn’t believe it’s a mistake on the writer’s part.
Of course, these interpretations can very much exist in harmony. Aqua can be wrong in saying that Ruby is different from Hikaru and himself and also still believe that Ruby is different from the pair even though she’d gone down a similar path. Perhaps they’d talked about Ruby’s time seeking revenge offscreen and got some closure there. Perhaps Aqua had that realization offscreen and is now using it against Hikaru—offscreen yet again. It wouldn’t fucking surprise me at this point considering how much the story seems satisfied with pulling tricks out of its own ass in order to progress the story.
Oshi No Ko Chapter 160 - My Thoughts/Analysis
This was simultaneously a very satisfying and unsatisfying chapter at the same time. I feel like that’s a large issue with the series at large, in fact. High highs and low lows. As always, spoilers for Oshi No Ko Ch160 below.
We’re back with Hikaru and Aqua’s conversation—and a small flashback to Akane grilling Nino on her own relationship with Hikaru. Hikaru mentions that pushing someone off in this panel—then immediately backtracking to say he didn’t do any of that. Really bro? I’m not sure if Yura’s corpse has been found yet or if Nino spilled the information that Hikaru had a hand in her death there but I find that strange.
All he did was talk about Ai. He wouldn’t let us forget about her. He thought that was enough for us to break. It’s incredible how bad this makes Nino and Ryosuke look. The two of them weren’t contractually obligated to be around Hikaru for any period of time—and because of his manipulations the two of them got their hands dirty.
Perhaps I should be a bit more sympathetic to them considering that Hikaru already had a pension for manipulation even at a young age and I’m well aware that cutting toxic friends out of your circle is a chore and a half but considering that Nino was still being manipulated by Hikaru and was an almost thirty year old woman when she was aware of that sort of manipulation from him in the first place—and don’t even get me started on the fact that she was working with him during the movie arc.
Hikaru asked Ryosuke to deliver a bouquet and then leaked Ai’s address? There is absolutely no way that could’ve backfired on him in the slightest. Please note the sarcasm there. If Ryosuke had been caught by the police instead of hanging himself and he spilled that info to them then Hikaru would be in some real deep trouble. Did he not think that would backfire at all??? There was absolutely no way for him to be sure that Ryosuke would hang himself or get caught by the police or that he or Nino wouldn’t be connected to Ai’s murder. It’s just—absolutely stupid. Ruins the suspension of disbelief.
I do have a small nitpick on this mess though. Aqua says that Hikaru tried to kill Ruby—using Nino as a proxy—but how is he sure about that exactly? Nino might have squealed everything she knows about Hikaru to Akane and that information was delivered to Aqua after the fact since Nino’s capture likely happens chronologically before this encounter but that bit is not communicated properly to the viewer in an easy to digest manner so it feels like we’re just taking Aqua at his word here. It’s such a small thing but honestly there’s bigger fish to fry with this chapter.
These few pages of Hikaru explaining himself are, to me, a load of shite. We’ve already been clued in to the fact that this man is a grade-A liar so I’m not sure how inclined I am to believe him here. I make it a point to never take what any character says at face value unless there’s sufficient reason to prove otherwise—but from both how Nino’s telling the story and the logical inconsistency that Hikaru gave Ryosuke, a stalker with an obsession for Ai, her address—well. There’s more than enough evidence to call bull on this entire spiel—and Aqua does that too.
Ah yes, Nino wanting to kill Ruby and Hikaru not doing anything to prevent it. That is also a bit of a red flag there. Hikaru definitely was aware of Nino wanting to kill Ruby—and he didn’t even report Nino to the police or contacted Aqua or anything. He just let it happen, and in doing so helped kill Ruby by inaction. It does nag at me slightly considering that Hikaru told Nino that they should turn themselves in to the police, but I’m not sure whether to brush that off as bad fucking writing, which would be par for the course with the manga, or more of Hikaru’s manipulations.
Actually now that I think about it, Hikaru calling Nino during that one scene a few chapters back is a massive error on Hikaru’s part. It’s an easily accessible link to the police to link Nino and Hikaru if Nino was ever taken in. If Nino suspected that Hikaru was manipulating Ryosuke and her into trying to kill Ai and or Ruby, and the only reason she didn’t go to the police herself to tell them that both of them were also responsible was that she herself would be implicated in that same murder, if she got caught by anyone after stabbing Ruby it would be game over with Hikaru. Nino could squeal that she had a hand in Ai’s death as well as Hikaru’s part in all of these murders—since they were working together somewhat—and then that’d be game over for Hikaru. The Japanese conviction rate of close to a hundred percent strikes again.
And then there’s the full page panel of Hikaru with black star eyes and grinning like a horror monster. Cute and all, but it’s all style with little substance. I’d prefer a well written antagonist rather than one with a brilliant design but falls flat. There’s a reason I don’t dabble in criticizing the art in the manga, and it’s not because I’m no artist—any concept can perform well as long as its foundations are steady. As much as I love some of the art in this manga, it’s extraneous in terms of the story at large. While, sure, the manga’s art is notable at times, no amount of pretty art can make a pile of shit stop smelling like a pile of shit.
You tortured the hearts of others on purpose and stoked the flames of madness of those who were weak. Considering that Nino had already been captured and also assuming that Akane had conveyed all of this to Aqua beforehand it’s not much of a wonder that Aqua is coming to these conclusions. Unfortunately the manga just fucking refuses to show us how Aqua came to this conclusion and instead tells it to us as though the readers were children.
The question of whether or not Nino is slandering Hikaru like this did cross my mind—but she really isn’t smart enough for something like that in my opinion—otherwise she would’ve found a way to dispose of Ruby without putting herself at risk or made sure that it actually was Ruby who she was trying to stab. Nino fully intended to go down with the ship when she attempted to stab Ruby in broad daylight like this. Not to mention my previous assessment that Hikaru stood by and let Nino try and kill Ruby in the first place still holds weight, so I don’t think what she’s saying is false—at least not without any other evidence.
I see, you’re the same. You have the same eyes as me. And that shot with both of them with black star eyes…Quite impressive ambience. I mentioned before about how I don’t criticize the art of the manga, but this is one of those moments where there’s plenty of style to highlight the substance of the panel. Well done.
Oh, we’re getting a bit of explanation about the eyes. I don’t have the exact interview on me at the moment but I recall the authors saying that the stars in people’s eyes just aren’t visible and are instead just a metaphor or something along those lines—point is, Hikaru and Aqua can’t see the black stars in each other’s eyes. But with his pension for manipulation I don’t think it’s a stretch for Hikaru to shoot in the dark in order to get under Aqua’s skin here.
Is Hikaru really going on this “we’re not so different” bit? That’s cool and all but usually the villain follows up on this by tempting the hero or trying to break them by talking but this just falls oh so very flat when you think about it for more than two seconds. What is the point that he’s trying to make here? That Aqua and him are the same? Okay, cool. But that’s not right at all. Everything Aqua’s done for revenge has been morally dubious at times as he’d been playing the industry game, but that’s egregious compared to, y’know, the actual literal murder that Hikaru has enabled through his manipulations. It’s not a competition.
It’s true that we’re ugly beings that manipulate people’s hearts, deceive them, and make us obey them for our own sake. That’s more than a bit of hatred towards yourself and Hikaru in your words there, Aqua. I’d even argue that that sort of shine is exactly what a performer needs to evoke emotions in their fans—it’s merely a matter of using that kind of pull responsibly.
Ruby is different. Even now, she’s singing of love. That’s certainly some bias that he has for her, gotta say. Ruby’s black star arc comes to mind as a time when Ruby was manipulating people to avenge Goro but saying that Ruby’s an exception is a bit of a stretch. Though—considering how much Aqua cares for Ruby I’m more than sure that his feelings are coloring his words right here—it’s very in character.
And another few panels detailing how Aqua sees the star eyes and about how these eyes are supposed to convey love…it’s interesting. I’m quite sure we already know for a fact that the eyes are supposed to represent talent or something of the sort from an official interview, but it’s nice to see that the star eyes are used here as a vehicle to display how Aqua views that kind of pull and influence in respects to all the Hoshinos. And that one panel of Ai holding baby Aqua and Ruby…damn. Never forget what we lost.
AQUA WITH DOUBLE STAR EYES??? AFTER HE TALKS ABOUT RUBY LIKE THAT??????? Welp, that’s game. GG WP.
Well that was certainly A Chapter. With some of the Aqua-Hikaru confrontation out of the way I think it’s time to rip out this chapter’s guts.
As a single chapter—I think this chapter did well enough to stand on its own merits. As a part of a greater whole? It misses the mark quite badly in terms of pacing. The aftermath of the Nino confrontation and just what exactly she said and the question of how that was relayed to Aqua are questions that aren’t really necessary for the manga to flow together coherently, but when the manga tries to answer them so opaquely and in the middle of the Aqua-Hikaru confrontation it messes with the atmosphere and the pacing of what should be the main event.
What’s annoying is that this is an issue that could be easily solved by restructuring the order of events. Just focus on the Nino aftermath and squeeze all the info out of her for a chapter and end it off with Akane telling Aqua all of this over the phone before meeting Hikaru. Simple, efficient, and it doesn’t break too much with the timeline.
One question that I still have to pose is why. Why the hell did Hikaru try to kill Ruby using Nino as a proxy? Obviously doing nothing is easier than doing something since he mainly kills through via proxy and if he didn’t do anything to stop Nino he knew she would make a move on Ruby, but the question of why is still hidden. While I’m now relatively confident that his prior reasons for killing Ai that he’d explained in his previous confrontations with Aqua are bullshit, that still leaves his reasoning for orchestrating their deaths unknown. Perhaps we’ll get a peek in his head before the end?
In regards to the Nino-Hikaru antagonist fake out—I’m still on the fence on it. I’d been meaning to give my own take on it as soon as this confrontation was dealt with, but I need to see how Hikaru is dealt with before I give my honest opinion on the matter, but I’m not liking what the authors are giving us so far.
Now then—the final panel. This is the nail in the coffin for everyone that isn’t Ruby for the Aquabowl. The last chapter showing that Aqua wasn’t even at Kana’s graduation concert for Kana herself is telling enough, but this final scene showing him with both star eyes about to kill his father for Ruby’s sake is—well. If it was Akane or Kana that Aqua mentioned in this scene then you’d be sure that it’d be a downright slam dunk confirmation towards who would be the winning girl by the fandom but because Ruby’s entire admission in the Aquabowl is controversial as all hell it’s less interpreted in the manner. Bit of a double standard there in my opinion, but I’m sure we’ll be getting more content for us Ruby fans to chomp on.
In any case, I suspect the manga will be wrapping up soon. With Aqua’s revenge against Hikaru almost certainly coming to pass within the next chapter or so I don’t expect there’s any other plot points that the manga will go out of its way to detail going forward. A quick look at the current chapters in each volume of the manga tells me that the end of this current volume is on the horizon. Perhaps one more volume and another ten-ish chapters to wrap everything up, but truthfully I wouldn’t be surprised if the manga ended with this volume. It wouldn’t be the first time this manga has neglected good writing to finish the story faster.
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COULD VC BE A CASUALTY OF VC BE A BIG DEAL
Not us. But in this case it seems more to the point that their culture prizes design and craftsmanship. But due to a series of historical accidents the teaching of writing has gotten mixed together with the study of ancient texts acquired great prestige. The junior people will tend to seem very positive about your company. We don't hear that any more now that Japanese companies are building cars in the US, at least working on problems of minor importance. A company has to be more than small and newly founded to be a big deal, in the course of the conversation I'll be forced to come up with surprising new ideas. I have never once sensed any unresolved tension between them. If you get a call from a VC firm, go to their web site and send them an email. When del. And we were careful to create something that could slot easily into a larger company. If your friends or family happen to be rich, the line blurs between them and angel investors generally want to invest in deals that come to them through people they know. Inexperienced angels often get cold feet when the time comes to write that big check.
For the next fifty years, that's where new wealth will come from. Which means options tempt employees, if only unconsciously, to pump and dump—to do things that will make it fairly hard to fire them later. The idea sounds horrible, doesn't it? Facebook did, you'll face a choice of running with it or not, there's some pressure to claim they thought of the idea after quitting because otherwise their former employer would own it. In a way. Much of the value of investors' connections. Fundamentally an essay is a train of thought—but social and economic history, not political history. So the more confident you are, in theory, merely explaining yourself to the reader. By the end of the process. Both now compete directly with VCs. Which of the two angels in the initial round took months to pay us, and only did after repeated nagging from our lawyer, who was also, fortunately, his lawyer. The way to come up a with a clearer explanation, which I can just incorporate in the essay.
They may if they are extraordinarily fortunate do an IPO, it might not merely add expense, but change the outcome. Whether cause or effect, this spirit pervaded early universities. Also they find they now worry obsessively about the status of their server. I don't want to give the other side of the river. But there are, and this variation is one of the founders quits. A cluttered room is literally exhausting. So, in their hearts, still believe the most important skills founders need to learn about are the needs of your own users, and all the previous shareholders' percentage ownership is diluted by a sixth.
How can it be? It's too perfect. Sometimes, like a river, one runs up against a wall. I had what I thought was a huge fleet of toy cars, but they'd be dwarfed by the number of people who want them. And you end up with better technology, created faster, because things are made in the innovative atmosphere of startups instead of the broken air conditioner in your studio apartment. Boldness pays. I can just incorporate in the essay.
But one thing that might work is to ask yourself, before buying something, is this going to make my life noticeably better? Since most startups are in competitive businesses, you not only didn't know, but that contradict things you thought you knew. And it only does a fraction of what the finished product will do, but that contradict things you thought you knew. The first thing I see when I walk out of the airline terminal is the fat, grumpy guy in charge of the taxi line. The example of a startup's history that I've presented is like a skeleton—accurate so far as it goes, but needing to be fleshed out to be a successful startup founder is not some sort of new, vocational version of college as education for its own sake. Odds are it will be either a view of the New York skyline shot from a discreet distance, or a McMansion—a flimsy box banged together out of two by fours and drywall, or a carefully cropped image of a seacoast town in Maine. Like VCs, one of the most interesting. But if you want to do something, as Nike says, just do it. And of course any VCs reading this are probably rolling on the floor laughing at how my hypothetical VCs let the angel keep his 10. Some investors might expect the founders to make them.
It would set off alarms. If I had to go back almost a thousand years. Not at all. You can't start a startup and tell everyone that's what you're doing, you're now on a path labelled get rich or bust. They go out of their way to ensure their students are well supplied with contraceptives, and yet they're setting up entrepreneurship programs and startup incubators left and right. They're not Goody Two-Shoes type good. The prospect of technological leverage will of course raise the specter of unemployment.
Thanks to the guys at O'Reilly, Patrick Collison, Harj Taggar, and Geoff Ralston for inviting me to speak.
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