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oilith · 3 months ago

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The fact that you can get hurricane lanterns off of temu is concerning to me. Those things can NOT be durable, OR work properly

#fuck temu #you could probably get one that's good for just as cheap from a local hardware store #or whatever those are called in english #lanterns #kerosene lamp #ramblings #my post

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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Have you been assesed for adhd?

nope, though im pretty sure i got it ... or its something similar bc although also not officially diagnosed there is no way im not autistic OTL

the only things i have been .. 'diagnosed' with is anxiety and chronic depression, though both of which by a therapist that got arrested for fraud and harassment (hahaha .. ._.) and im not sure how much weight that can hold both bc of .. THAT and bc i honestly have no idea how much a therapist can do (its been many years since then too) and the only meds he ever offered me where like .. drugs ('herbs')

i have been thinking of asking our family doctor about it but im rather afraid of whatever process i gotta go through to get anything that might help since im sure its also not JUST adhd that causing all this (and ... im afraid it could impact how i am treated ... like if they know im autistic are they not gonna take me seriously anymore or stop me from making choices about myself.. welp theres the anxiety ndfjkgndfknvgfdk)

(and a new therapist is pretty impossible bc theres a really big problem of not enough therapists around ESPECIALLY where i live ... also fear bc of the previous one .. haha ._, )

#ganondoodles answers #ganondoodles talks #personal #i am german so whatever process it is in america is not gonna be how it is here #.....also doesnt help that i nearly got put in a ... mental health .. facility (idk what its called in english) when i was younger #and uuh .. barely managed to make them not do it #one of the scariest moments in my life #mom made the plan with my oldest sister in secret and drove me off to the doctor .. idk if they told me just before and forced me to go #or literally on the parking lot of the doctor .. i think it was the latter #being out on a parking lot and being talked down to by my sister (who never tried to talk to me about anything mental health wise btw)#AND by the doctor .. i had to convince him to not do it .. literally so scary #-and mom about putting me in some facillity .. cant even describe it .. to me it was pure horror #im sure those facilities arent that bad or soemthing but i felt like they where trying to kick me out and into a prison #i do NOT do well anywhere that isnt home #AND doing the thing i haven been trying to make it clear makes everything a thousand times worse-#-talking about it behind my back and then just doing things without me gettign any say in it and then given no choice #its literally the worst thing you can do!!!!#sorry TMI perhaps but!!! many things have happened!! bad!!

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 8 months ago

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watching a video on youtube abt making zines and shes like "i have a full exciting life that i create for myself every single day that has nothing to do with zines. and i think that when you have more things going on in your life youre less likely to become hyperfocused on the reaction you get to your work" and im like damn outgecalled, no wonder we get neurotic abt it here on the hyperfocus no life website

#not to call everyone here a loser just myself but i dont think im the /only/ one who....doesnt have a full exciting life outside of #[whatever youre doing on here]#hfkghgjh #most inspiring way ive ever been told to get a life t b h #or maybe just first time im open to hearing it #i was already sorta thinking that. just. not in those words exactly fhkhgj #(watch me remember in 5 minutes why my entire life is doctor who)#(<- suicidal as fuck when not thinking abt doctor who)#anyway #might fuck around and get a life #if only so i can speak smth other than english every now and then

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just-wublrful · 2 months ago

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not to be obnoxious on main but classic literature is not global literature. it's western literature at best

#not to vague but like. name one book from my country i dare you guys.#sorry this set of posts just makes me so fucking mad. like i'm also guilty of this because my ass can't speak any other language but #books of importance from other countries outside of the western hemisphere. especially if theyre in a language which is not english #go largely ignored by the western world at large despite their importance to their countries of origin #and its a double standard to have to expect to know like. for the most part the literature of native english-speaking or european #countries. when i'm certain a lot of these people don't know any of our literature or their importance to us #its so fucking pretentious. like i wont say im not guilty of it as a monolingual english speaker so that list of classic literature #is whats most accessible to me but like christ. get your head out of your ass. they didnt even say something bad about the book. holy fuck #sorry im just so fucking pissed. and i know these people are white or some form of american canadian whatever #im not denying the importance of the book in question its just Your Experiences Are Not Universal. why dont you respect our literature #before demanding the same respect for 'yours'#'uhh but i didnt know about those bools and their history-' YEAH BECAUSE THEY DIDNT HAPPEN IN YOUR PART OF THE WORLD. ITS THE SAME OVER HERE #BUT IM NOT CALLING YOU OUT FOR IT AM I? EVEN THOUGH THOSE BOOKS ARE THE CENTER OF A MAJOR HISTORICAL EVENT IN MY COUNTRY #im so pissed.#woe be upon ye

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andy-clutterbuck · 2 years ago

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get the man a fan ✨

#the english muffin is burning #Andrew Lincoln #*#andygifs #gonna make like those ancient greek fantasies and fan him with palm fronds #happy sinday #don't flash your midriff at me you tart #i'd say im looking #but that'd be stupidly obvious #hello illac furrow adonis belt v lines whatever the crap you wanna call them #that belt is really doing its job #poor sweaty thing #everyone: :) andy: *melting*#he felt like a space heater when i hugged him tho so boy just runs hot #someone pick up that paper on the table and fan the man 😂#i would have #sorry but when a man's shirt goes up like that i get stupid

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acebytaemin · 9 days ago

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why’s canned tuna so vastly different from the real thing 😔

#quick wfh lunch and didn’t have like actual fresh tuna but had poke bowl stuff #and everything else (edamame carrot cucumber nori) is good and delicious but the tuna 🥲#even with sauce she is just. eeeuuuuughhhhhh #next time quick trip to the fresh fish shop whatever the fawk that’s called in english i forget #i do Not have this problem w canned chickpeas or like canned corn #but actually those are the only canned foods i really eat so maybe im the problem here

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bsotted · 1 month ago

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ok well. unfortunate news: sometimes ur niche is so niche u've already niched the niche. this is exactly the same as the feeling of hitting the end of ur ship tag in ao3 🥲

*edit: sorry i accidentally named like every character ever in the tags so ppl are Seeing this post who dont have the benefit of so much as a single crumb of context. if i accidentally namedropped ur blorbo its bc of this post:

anyway. i was excited for recs bc i also enjoy this genre of fictional character. unfortunately as above the niche is niched, it turns out. at least for me, content enjoyer georg, who has apparently already seen or read everything anyone else has already seen or read except for a small handful of specific media properties that i do not wish to see or read for various personal reasons and also not literally everything ever... just the same things as everyone else has already seen and read... u get the idea. ok thnks 👍🏻

#*slowly morosely untucks the bib and folds it up again #smh #idk if that post breached containment in the wrong direction or what but there were like 3ppl apiece talking about good actual examples #and those were like 99% media i already reaaaadddd im tearjngn my hair out #but far and away most ppl flat out missed the brief #like i think out of almost four thousand tags about four tagged ghost. four tagged geralt. three andrew minyard. etc #sobbung im sad for me AND for yall like this is ur jam and the best u can put up for example is dean winchester????#listen i know im on the supernatural site. voluntarily. but ur really gonna tell me thats the best u can do 😭😭#like a solid handful said bucky barnes. good solid classic example i'll give it to u but its 2024 😭😭😭😭😭😭#all respect to the ppl tagging ocs tho y'all are real 🫡 bc its looking like if we want it we do gotta get in the trenches and write it 😔✊#anywya i came away with approximately one and a half recs and then 3-4 repeated vouchers for media i know i am just never gonna consume rip #and the rest of yall.. have some kinda different media literacy situation going on we went thru v different english programs i fear #😔😔#angie.txt #like i believe the boba fett girlies are right and on to something but i am simply not going down the mouse route on my own dime #so those recs are. moot #not a single trigun mention i dont think.. not vash or nick or i wouldve even given a pass to a shoutout for knives #some of u said kaz and i havent read the books but even just based on the tv series p sure i can respect that.#one i have to look into asap is whoever evan kelmp(?) is- whatever hes from im not familiar and seems promising.#izzy hands im so sorry. im fundamentally incapable of watching ofmd unfortunately i watched black sails first #wasnt aware it was going to ruin other pirate related media for me when i made that decision 😭😭#i respect the arcane shoutouts but i do think it's hilarious that no two of u called out the same character.#murderbot obviously #i just think some of yall are so close yet so far and i want better for us all so goddamn badlyyy #update: i checked and op seems to have been generalizing off of boba fett/wolverine/magneto etc and yeah that tracks #smbdy said john wick - more than one actually- and while i hear u i also invite u to consider:#that man's singular desire is literally to go back into retirement in peace all he wanted was a quiet night in a rocking chair w that dog..#i dont think id go so far as to say he wouldnt know what to do with a warm bed if he got it. or attach himself to sbdy attack dog style atp #ykwim #somebody said patrick bateman.. yall are just listing names atp. darth vader? kylo? all right pack it up folks

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syrenki · 2 months ago

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Does pretending to be fine on the outside bring you at least some sort of satisfaction? That they won’t see how bad it gets

yesss and it's so selfish and embarrassing, i keep hoping someday they'll all see right through the bullshit and then they'll say "oh my, it was so very bad all along and you never said anything? you withstood it all and never brought any attention to yourself? that's so selfless, i could never, i would have broken earlier, you are so strong. we will help you now, you deserve it now because you never asked for anything!!!" but it never happens and it never will happen and the worse it gets for me the more i put on the cheerful and selfless and carefree demeanor, i get so desperate to keep it all up because if i ever drop the act and start Acting Depressed, start wearing my arms out or stop smiling at everybody all the time, i would be acting selfish, i would be attention-seeking, i would be undeserving of any help at all since i'm simply craving attention. you see what i mean? it's all twisted but i swear there is a logic there - the more desperately i need something to change, the kinder i will act, the milder, gentler, more selfless, quieter, i have to handle it with humility because not complaining and just taking it quietly is what would make me deserving of some care, and sometimes i need it so badly that i'd do anything to deserve it. i keep thinking if i deserved it i would have already received it, only that's not how people function, people go to psychologists or tell their friends 'i'm depreseed' and that's how they get help, not through martyrdom and humility. but i do it the quiet way and the worse things get the quieter and more mellow i become and it will probably go on this way until i kill myself and then people will say "holy shit, she was always so cute and kind and pastel, nobody could have expected this, who could have had any idea?"

#to be fair it is also not entirely my fault that i don't get any help at all because i've waited months for a single psych appointment #he told me i probably have bpd and to not do any substances and also presribed me dbt therapy #then i called up all the clinics in poland that offer dbt therapy and one finally picked up after fucking weeks of ghosting they told me #i do not have a ✨ prescription code✨ refused to explain what that is and told me i should have known things like that #i booked another appointment waited two months again and was told oh yeah we cannot actually get you like a prescription for #refunded therapy #or however to translate it #we can only recommend it! okay so. thanks for the recommendation. kinda wish you would have told me that before.#and they told me i should actually go to the family doctor or whatever you call those in english #but that means a woman who has treated my entire close family for like the last 20 years or so #so yeah i won't go to someone who's known me since i was an infant to tell her. Things #mind you my family has no idea about The Things and she treats them all #and anyway the worst part of the episode was over by the time i got the family doctor info and i was just too tired to keep trying anymore #so like #it's also not entirely my fault #not 100% anyway #only maybe like 97.5%#answered #anon #holy shit i never put it all in words so concisely thank you for this anon i needed to spell this out to myself #not to mention after i would get the prescription i would still need to wait for two years for the first therapy appointment

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pyrosomatic-metamorphosis · 2 years ago

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i've mentioned here and there that i made a relationships/dynamic spreadsheet. i have finally put it to use. look on my Works, ye mighty, and despair.

-extra note: i am not omniscient and i cannot watch every stream. i may have missed a sibling declaration or two.

-extra extra note: i currently speak only english and used google translate for the rest. if theres a translation error I'd love to know- i wont be able to go back and fix these, but im always so curious about how accurate google translate can be

extra extra note pt 2: do. do other languages use guardian as in "legal guardian" as in "not a family member but still Primary Caregiver of child" because i am suddenly aware those translations might not be correct. on the other hand tho if google translate decided that the parents are guarding warriors of the eggs im not going to argue

#qsmp #i should have added a ??? line for fit and philza tbh #look at just how beloved forever is <3 #his dynamics have dynamics #he and richarlyson are also part of The Issue when compiling a fucking. whatever the hell this si #maybe a chart not a graph it is currently 4 am and im gonna schedule this #anyway i did legitimately consider making one of those classic family tree charts and just sticking richas in the centre so he wouldnt caus #too many lines to overlap but i think this worked out fine #absolutely delighted i thought of the columns it saved my ass #this server is Three Months Old #look at them founding those families #philever stans i see you and im sorry #if i included a heartbreak line then this would have been completely incomprehensible #fun fact to translate the silly 'king what are you doing' i made google translate #'chad what are you doing' instead so there would still be the grammar of a proper noun #but i wouldnt trick it into thinking king is an honourary title #i might not know the grammar of any non-english language but Oh Boy i know there are Traps #or maybe english's traps have just made me paranoid #either way #also. richas was added to bad's family art wall and bad baghs and forever have called each other family enough that #i made the executive decision to just adopt richarlyson out to the other two #richas called bad basically his mom tonight i can do what i want #and baghera gets to be part of that line because. honestly i wasnt thinking about him being Extra Canon Nephew #and i refuse to change it for reasons above re: it is 4 am; they are family #tho the thought of bad having three children separately attributed to him is hilarious.... maybe if i ever remake this ill do that #also note: i do know that foolish and bad had a kid called jimmy However i do not know what a jimmy is #so #scheduled post

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butchlifeguard · 15 days ago

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ai isn't as environmentally bad as some think. i also don't care if it violates copyright because copyright don't real. i still hate ai tho because it fucking sucks </3

#how does it already feel overdone and boomer shit #we're like 2 years into it being mainstream #if you log in on any major website or social media rn some fuckin bot is gonna be like #Hi! I'm quatro. Let me know what topics yr interested in :) I can also help you search!#and every piece of ai 'art' is slop in the same tired style #i'm also not one of those people who has a superiority complex about it tho #CRAZY STATEMENT IK.. my npd knows One bound #i'm not like well EYE never used chat gpt because i'm BETTER THAN YOU #i don't think there's a moral calling to do yr dumbfuck english assignments or whatever #you just couldn't pay me to give a shit about ai yk #there's no moral reason to how much i hate it it's just that most genai things are painfully boring agonizing slop or grifter shit #because everyone who has a genai Side Hustle is the slimiest most unpleasant person you know

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bmpmp3 · 9 months ago

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i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!