#or the memories he has with atsushi specifically.

[hesperidia]

can we talk about this line. can we please talk about this line.

i've a half-assed theory here: Bram bringing Aku back to life via special vampire powers (and him keeping vampiric traits, apparently) meant that he gets to start over as a near blank slate, with only the primal instincts (more or less) of protecting Aya and the rest (or how Bram and now Aku called them: Princess and commoners) because that was Bram's last order. However he does not have memories of anything prior, hence "who the hell are you?"

2- He is messing with Atsushi in order to fool Fyodor. (unlikely scenario) But the way he used to speak all old timey and polite-ish until he faced Atsushi and was instantly rude caught my attention. Maybe his "not hatred" for Atsu trascends everything after all

[romance-incubomp3]

aghhhh:(

[illugremlins]

I have a lot of fun making headcanons to add a grey aspect to the morality of objectively good (in he sense of morals) characters.

For example, Atsushi Nakajima. He values the lives of everyone and thinks that everyone deserves a chance to live. Unless he is put into a situation where he has no other option, he considers taking a life to be, objectively, one of the worst things someone can do. To the point where he firmly locks out the memory of him killing Shibusawa even though it was an act of self defense to keep him alive.

This is an ethical train of thought, and specific and special to Atushi since he is one of the very few characters of BSD who believes it.

A conclusion can me made:

Atsushi is good. He cares about others lives. He thinks everyone should have a chance to live.

But, if we look into it more, the belief isn't as 'good-intentioned' as it can be initially read. Atushi hates himself. He firmly believes the world would be better off without him, and that everyone else is more worthy of living than he is. However, despite this, Atsushi isn't suicidal. Being suicidal would, in my opinion, be entirely out of character for him. Yes, he does not really value himself or his life because of his upbringing, but Atsushi still desperately wants to live. He wants to survive.

In that case, how is it fair of him to want to live when his life is worth nothing compared to others? What right does he have to live if people who matter more than him, who are better than him, who are more valuable and useful, don't? (And again, to remind you, in Atsushi's eyes, everyone is more useful than he is.)

So, what if I re-frame the conclusion:

Atsushi is selfish. He cares about others lives because he cares about his own. He thinks everyone should have a chance to live because he wants one, but the only way he can swallow the guilt of wanting to be alive is by doing everything in his power to make sure that the people around him, who are all better than him, are alive too. If they are dead, why isn't he, who does not matter and should not matter?

Re-thinking characters in this light makes for a much more interesting read of the story and a lot of good material for fanfiction. (And it doesn't have to just be characters in morally grey stories, like BSD. This sort of thinking/adding of HCs can be applied to much more light-hearted mangas/works like Haikyuu, where the worst the character can be is a bit of a bully or jerk.)

[hermy-97]

i find it so funny in that ep where atsushi attempts to make a deal with fitzgerald to prove the ada's innocent (i forgot the specifics) where atsushi's all like

"wow he's so powerful i can see why he's the head of the guild"

MY GUY- YOU LITERALLY HAD A WHOLE ASS BATTLE WITH HIM ON THE MOBY DICK

then atsushis like "wow now i remember that he's the guy who attempted to crash into yokohama with the moby dick"

YOU WERE ON THE MOBY DICK WHEN HE WAS DOING THAT-IT WAS YOUR MISSION TO STOP HIM

there are literally so many more instances where atsushi has convenient memory loss lmao

[that-fangirl]

Today I came across an interview Atsushi had, back in June 2019. And there was a specific part of it that almost gave me shivers.

"―― Right (lol). Our conversation has taken quite a turn but whether it’s about being healthy or about being able to perform on stage, neither can go on forever. I believe that is what you got to feel firsthand this time.

S: Yeah. How long I can keep doing this…… I thought about things like that. Especially recently when there are those who choose to voluntarily retire. Although, of course, I, too, wish to keep going as long as my body and my voice permits. But, well, it’s not something that is within our control. If we can sever off what naturally happens, it would be easy but that is rarely the case. Because being born human, we have emotions, and memories, and blood relations after all. It’s difficult to sever things away. But despite that, time still goes by. Right…… Very recently, I decided that I would do whatever I wanted to do. And I wouldn’t do what I didn’t want to do.

―― You’re saying this in a positive light.

S: That’s right. Because, really, just recently, a friend who I’ve known for 30 years passed away. He went suddenly and it felt like, ‘…… Ah, that’s it?’. That person lived his life as he liked, so I guess that was one thing my friend taught me.

―― Was your friend sick?

S: Nope, he suddenly collapsed. Cerebral haemorrhage or something. Mm…… It was a little too abrupt. Even now, it still hasn’t sunk in though."

It feels rather strange to read this interview and to find the similarities, doesn't it?

Either way, I believe for most of us, it still hasn't sunk in that he is gone. But I also think Sakurai-san would want us to live our lives to the fullest as we like.

We still miss you, Sakurai-san. It still hurts. But it will get better some day...

[lnkedmyheart]

Call me delusional all you want but...

I think Dazai giving Chuuya that gayass goodbye speech and then trying to drown him may have a reason. Chuuya was clearly vamped before the speech and drowning. Its entirely possible that he is still vamped and the normal eyes were just foreshadowing or a hint.

We know that Aku is able to control himself because of his promise to Atsushi, therefore we know that the vampirism allows some level of influence from their bond to seep in.

Now we know that corruption usually involves Chuuya's consciousness and control taking a back seat and him killing without discrimination. Friend and foe all are at risk. However we also know that Dazai is always nearby when he uses corruption and Dazai is never injured even when the whole building blows up etc. Of course Dazai might just be super great at dodging or staying out of Chuuya's way.

But I have another theory. In Dead apple Chuuya manages to scream out Dazai's name in the middle of corruption when it has gone on for long enough for him to murk a dragon. He then not only proceeds to actively look for but also find Dazai and then he manages to be gentle enough with his punch mid corruption to only snap the pill in Dazai's mouth and not his neck or spine.

I feel like Chuuya fixates on Dazai during corruption and it subconsciously ensures that he wont end up hurting Dazai and this would also lead to Dazai being able to save him without being at direct risk. There is no guarantee that it would work but its a risk they both take. This fixation idea seems logical to me because not only does it reinforce Chuuya being very human and never being a fully mindless killing machine even in the midst of going berserk, it would also set the stage for the skk duos subconsciously trusting each other.

Onto the current arc and Dazai's speech. Dazai and Chuuya had not directly interacted till that point in Meursault and Dazai used the comms to basically let Chuuya hear his voice which would in theory possibly help him fixate on his voice. By invoking their connection with the intention of triggering Chuuya's memories of them and specifically him Dazai might be attempting to get him to remember him in particular. Because Chuuya has undying trust in Dazai and fixates on him during corruption its entirely possible that Chuuya would be able to recognize him when they do meet later much like how he does during corruption. As for the eyes and his ambiguous vampirism, I dunno how likely it is for Fyo to be so ignorant of Chuuya possibly having been cured during the drowning, on the other if he is still under Bram's influence, maybe the clear eyes and no fangs in that crucial drowning shot was foreshadowing that Dazai's attempts to get him to fixate on him again had worked.

So now that he has potentially triggered Chuuya into fixating on him, he drags himself to the area under surveillance and gets Fyodor to send in Chuuya to kill him. A Chuuya who we know refuses to actually hurt Dazai even during corruption.

[merriclo]

ever since reading A Day at the Detective Agency, i’ve always wondered about Jun’ichirō Tanizaki’s entrance exam, entirely due to this quote from page 14, in which the members of the ADA are discussing ideas for Atsushi’s entrance exam.

“Democratically, huh?” Yosano raised an eyebrow. “How about we do the same thing we did for Tanizaki? How’s that?”

Yosano glanced in Tanizaki’s direction, and he instantly turned pale, shaking his head.

“I—I don’t ever…want to be reminded of that again.”

When Tanizaki was new, he had to pass what could be called a very harsh entrance exam. However, it was so harsh that all of Tanizaki’s memories of that day ended up buried deep in his subconscious. Remembering what happened would only bring underlying trauma up to the surface.

Tanizaki’s entrance was so deeply traumatic that his own mind blocked it out for the most part. this is something that is entirely unique to him, and is never mentioned again outside of this short story, if i remember correctly.

however, i was rereading BEAST, and Tanizaki does say something interesting in v.3 ch.12 [translation source here]

this may absolutely be a reach (i’m honestly just spit balling ideas here,) but maybe Tanizaki’s referencing his own entrance exam here? his wording, how he learned such a thing soon after joining, basically everything about the moment.

it also might not be in reference to his entrance exam specifically, but instead the exact moment he realized that he was a member of the ADA, as he said. it’s implied that those two moments were different for him, as well. the Akutagawa’s and the Tanizaki’s have lots of interconnected moments within BEAST, and this is one of them. it wouldn’t shock me if the moment Tanizaki fully became a detective was similar to Akutagawa’s.

i think what happened is that, either during his exam or very soon after he was accepted into the agency, Naomi was put in some kind of peril and Jun’ichirō had to rescue her, resulting in him almost being brutally killed in the process.

now, narratively, the purpose of the dialogue in BSAST is to adequately foreshadow Ryūnosuke and Atsushi’s fight on the roof. there is absolutely a possibility that Asagiri meant nothing more. it could also just be Asagiri referencing the multiple times that Jun’ichirō has had to defend or avenge Naomi in the main timeline (namely, when Higuchi emptied a clip into her back and when Steinbeck and Lovecraft were attacking her and Haruno.) but i thought it was interesting, and i have a lot of faith in Asagiri’s writing, so i just wanted to discuss my thoughts on it

please let me know your stance and if i’m missing anything at all !!

[ragingstillness]

Finally caught up on the bungo stray dogs manga today. Here are my thoughts in no particular order.

Massive spoiler warning through ch 114.5!

Gotta say, I don’t think any of us guessed “functional immortality” for Fyodor’s ability. It does explain why he’s completely crazed and has such little respect for human life. The face peeling is gross but a little funny in how wacky and wild it is. Genuine questions: does Fyodor then gain that person’s body shape? Has he ever been killed by a woman before? Or a child? Does he get to steal Bram’s height now? What happens if he turns into an old person and dies of old age? What happens if he kills himself? When was he born and when did this ability manifest? Does he gain the new person’s ability as well as his own? Also, I have to give Asagiri credit for taking the most literal interpretation of Crime and Punishment ever. The Crime is murder of Fyodor and the Punishment is he becomes you. He takes your space in society. Delightfully literal.

Gogol’s sadness over Dostoyevsky felt really real my poor clown. However, with the reveal of Dostoyevsky’s ability, they are now the perfect couple. Gogol can kill Fyodor, achieving his goal of killing him, then Fyodor can become him, achieving Gogol’s goal of losing himself and Fyodor’s goal of having one less person constantly trying to kill him. Poetic cinema.

Gonna be laughing forever at Mori gluing the fake vampire teeth into Chuuya’s mouth and Chuuya’s inability to get them out. This is especially funny because this genuinely happened to me with my mom one Halloween and while we did get them out I was picking glue out of my teeth for a week.

I hope Bram isn’t gone forever because his relationship with Aya is beyond cute.

Is Aya’s dad that grumpy police detective? It looked like that in her vision.

I’m still not super satisfied with Fukuchi having good intentions. He’s been far too sadistic and blatantly evil for me to change my mind on him now. Little Fukuchi I can defend but I’m not changing my opinion on adult Fukuchi.

Fukuzawa stays the smartest man, taking the sword to the heart then pulling it away with him. Very “can I keep this” when someone gets stabbed meme of him. Also using it still as a blade? Inspired. All hail silver fox dad.

Ranpo is clearly still injured but doesn’t seem as injured as Asagiri teased us with. Aku still appears to be a vampire, we’ll see how that turns out.

Damn, Fukuchi will not die. This man has been bleeding from the neck and heart for several minutes at least and still is talking.

Considering the last ability singularity nearly destroyed all of Yokohama and the world, not looking forward to the results of a three-part singularity.

Fukuchi’s blade allowing him control over a small period of time I could accept but the gift of prophecy? Specific prophecy too? Kind of came out of left field, I don’t like that without knowing more about the sword’s creator.

Let’s be real, One Order should just be destroyed, it’s hella dangerous in anyone’s hands.

I don’t think we got told in advance that Bram’s sword combined person with ability. Maybe I just don’t remember but I don’t think so.

Fyodor’s goals continue to be murky as hell.

Convenient, that Fyodor’s ability also comes with a bit of teleportation, as he got from mid-Europe to Japan right quick.

I still need to know more about the war and I despair of ever receiving that info.

Love that all this is going down between Fyodor, Fukuchi, and Fukuzawa (too many fs) and Atsushi is just there like oh right I have a main character oops. I really hope vampirism wipes Akutagawa’s memories so he just jumps into this situation completely discombobulated, it’d be so funny.

When will sassy grandpa (Mori) return from war?

Hey Natsume what’s up, think maybe this is a good time to intervene?

Where the hell is Kouyou?

[starlightshadowsworld]

Given Fyodor is the one who sent Shibusawa to Atsushi, and knew he was in the Orphanage.

And that his whole goal is to get the book, the thing Atsushi is the guide for.

I don't think it's too far of an assumption that Fyodor might be behind Atsushi being in the Orphanage in the first place.

The fact he's an orphan and placed in this specific Orphanage.

Given the religious imagery and the fact it's ran by a man who was deeply affected by the war. And takes that anger and hatred onto others.

Doesn't take a genuis to think that treatment would be especially harsh on a gifted child. It would test the limits of Atsushi's ability and keep him contained.

Until the right time, when he can be kicked out. Make it to Yokohama (presumably lead by the tiger which is why Atsushi thought it was chasing him. Because that's where the book is.)

And have a bounty placed on his head that will send the Port Mafia and the Agency searching for him.

To deliver Atsushi on a silver platter.

Also, Atsushi was abandoned by his parents and left in a bin... Someone found him and bought him to that Orphanage.

And Atsushi has memory loss, who's to say it wasn't Fyodor and Atsushi just doesn't remember. He's yet to see the man face to face.

That would be wild tho... If Fyodor not only placed Atsushi in this Orphanage and was the reason he's an orphan.

Fyodor's been pulling the strings from the beginning, I doubt Atsushi wasn't caught in his web from the start.

[asher-agere]

um um

caregiver atsushi with a little with ptsd,,,, projecting hard but sometimes i just want someone who understands me if not thats okay sorry to bother you

@atsumrow (so i can find it later)

Your request’s are never a bother! I loooove seeing proof that people like my writing (And my general atmosphere apparently? (๑﹏๑//)) and I love getting to write things for people to enjoy! Especially something like this that helps someone feel understood!

Also warning, I do not have PTSD, my writing will be based off of research and what we’ve actually seen from Atsushi in the show. If anything I write is inaccurate or offensive please let me know and something will be done!

Caregiver Atsushi + Little with PTSD

*ੈ✩‧₊˚

☆ Atsushi has PTSD of his own, so he’d definitely understand what his little one is going through! He’d ask what event led to them having PTSD to better understand how to help them. But he wouldn’t push! If they don’t wanna say he won’t ask again! If they do tell him then he’ll gently hold them and rub their back to soothe them as they talk. He’d never judge! He’s always there to offer support

☆ Atsushi has been shown to mainly suffer from flashbacks, so he’d be the best at comforting someone from that! He’ll gently hold them and talk to them, trying to gently urge them out of the flashback. Remind them that they’re in the present! They’re safe now, he’ll keep them safe, they don’t need to worry about a single thing. Not when Atsushi’s there to protect them! And Byakko helps of course! Mama tiger wants to protect her baby too

☆ On the topic of Byakko… Atsushi definitely uses his ability to help calm the baby down! I mean, a giant fluffy tiger? That’s gotta be the most helpful thing ever! He’ll curl up around his little one, the loud purring helps them to regulate their breathing and to ground them! The soft fur is so pleasing to the touch! The baby just gets to lean against him and it’s so soft, and warm, and so soft…

☆ Nightmares are another big one! If Atsushi notices his little one thrashing or crying in their sleep he instantly snoops them up! He’ll quietly hum to them and shush them, rubbing their back to try and soothe them! Hopefully they’ll be able to sleep peacefully, but if not he’d rather wake them up then watch them suffer! He’ll lightly bounce them in his lap and mutter quiet gentle praise, he’ll get a pacifier to put in their mouth and he’ll coo at them, reassuring them that they’re safe with him. They’re safe now. Nothing to hurt them anymore

☆ Atsushi takes note of everything that seems to trigger his little one! If he notices they seem less enthusiastic about a specific snack, a little to tense watching something, he’ll make sure to avoid it! Even if they don’t explain, or they don’t even say that something is wrong. If he notices he’s going to fix it! Or if a certain time of year upsets them then he’ll plan distractions! For example if they get sad around New Years he’ll set up time to go visit a shrine or something, maybe a festival (๑•̀ㅁ•́๑)✧ He wants to give them new happy memories of whatever season is causing problems!

☆ So much praise and affection! Atsushi loves getting to hold his baby and tell them how much he loves them! He’ll rub their back and run his fingers through their hair, whisper about how precious they are to him, how they’re safe, how he wishes he could take all their pain away. A little baby doesn’t deserve to go through this! He just wants to take allllll the pain from them! He’d take on the pain if it meant they didn’t have to deal with it. Sadly that isn’t an option though ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა So he praises them a whole bunch instead!

☆ Atsushi is always careful to explain everything he’s doing! He never wants to set his little one down, and even when he’s holding them! He’ll explain that he’s moving around so much to make them a bottle, explain that he’s putting their blankets in the dryer to make them nice and warm, explain that he’s pressing a pacifier to their lips. He never wants to catch them off guard and accidentally scare them! Always explains exactly what he’s doing so they don’t get startled

☆ Kids shows are already pretty easy to follow, but Atsushi makes sure to pick ones that don’t have much plot! Sometimes it can be tough to focus on and remember things, so if there’s not much plot it’s easy to follow! Plus that means if they fall asleep or walk away they can get back into the story really easy! Even less stress factors to worry about! Because Atsushi never wants his baby stressing out

☆ Atsushi is super patient during outbursts! He understands that it’s not like his little one is mad at him! No negative feelings are directed at him, and if they are the little one would never really hate him! Sometimes emotions can just be hard to express, he gets it! Atsushi will just calmly let them have their tantrum then he’ll comfort them! He definitely explains how what they did wasn’t nice. By no yelling ever! Just some gentle guidance!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚

I’m doing very good in my schoolwork so I got some extra time to chill out, that means answering requests! And I’m getting kitty cat snuggles („°0°„) I’m so lucky!

[serialadoptersbracket]

Round 2, Match 59: Fukuzawa Yukichi vs. Optimus Prime

Submitted kids:

Fukuzawa Yukichi: The entire detective agency (in order of acquisition— Ranpo, Yosano, Kunikida, Dazai, the Tanizaki siblings, Kenji, Atsushi, Kyoka)

Optimus Prime: Bumblebee, then depending on continuity, Cliffjumper, Smokescreen, Arcee, Sideswipe, Sunstreaker, the Aerialbots, Sari Sumdac, Jack Darby, Miko Nakadai, Raf Esquivel, and possibly others

Propaganda under the cut!

Fukuzawa Yukichi:

1. “At about 32 he used to be an bodyguard for hire who only works alone then he met this 14 year old (Ranpo) who had no parents and was kicked out of the police academy. He ended up feeding him (I think Ranpo was homeless at this point not 100% sure tho. He is also a genius estimated iq as high as 200) and said he would help him free of charge (bodyguard) if he called. He ended up getting called and investigated something with him. Ranpo saw the world very plainly and cried to Fukuzawa about how scary it is. Fukuzawa helped Ranpo realize that not everyone is pretending not to know things they literally don't know what he does (big issue with Ranpo partly what he was crying about too i think. They have an entire episode (i think it's the first one in the 4th season) devoted to their backstory together which is black, white, and gray when it's from Ranpo's perspective until Fukuzawa helps him realize this and it turns colored. Fukuzawa ends up deciding he wants to create a detective agency (working with others!) with Ranpo not yet tho we still have one more kid first. Later when Fukuzawa's doing a bodyguard job he along with Ranpo end up rescuing a girl (Yosano!) from the man he was guarding (future mafia boss currently a doctor). Yosano ends up becoming a doctor for the detective agency when it's created. After it's created he ends up taking in another 14 year old (Kenji).

He also loves cats and has shoujo anime-esque cherry blossom flashbacks with his old childhood friend who asked him if he wanted to go to fight in war with him, Fukuzawa denied his request. They also have a like 15 min soft-lighting conversation while watching their memories of their childhood together in the latest ep.”

2. “This man literally created a whole detective agency for this one really smart boy (Ranpo) and taught him that he wasn't the one in the wrong but everyone else when he couldn't understand people. Then, he saves Yosano from the trauma this other guy was inflicting on her and brings her to the Agency. The Agency basically becomes the place where all his kids are. His special ability lets those in the Agency control their abilities so Atsushi and Kyouka don't have to be afraid of their out of control abilities anymore. He cares so much for all of them and during the Cannibalism arc when his life is literally on the line, they do everything in their power to save him.”

3. “My guy just CANNOT stop adopting kids. He went from lone wolf assassin to Dad of Many. His first (adopted) child, Ranpo, basically forced him to adopt him (he was like “I’m a teenager with no family or home. You GOTTA adopt me. Because I say so.”) From there he kept accidentally adopting every orphan he came across. Honestly the detective agency is more like a glorified orphanage except they let their kids carry guns.”

4. “A former Goverment assassin who stopped once he realized he was starting to enjoy killing people, Fukuzawa is looking for a job when he bumps into Ranpo, a genius capable of figuring out any mystery, who can’t understand how the world works. Taking Ranpo under his wing Fukuzawa tries a white lie that Ranpo has a special ability and manages to let Ranpo interact with the world without fear for the first time in years since he can know understand the problem wasn’t everyone acting like they couldn’t figure out things but that no one was as smart as him. They found the Armed Detective Agency specifically to use Ranpo’s abilities to help people and to have jobs.

He then saves Yosano from Mori, his ex something who after using her special ability to heal any injury as long as the person is about to die during the War, wanted to use it take control of their local mafia. Instead Fukuzawa and Ranpo rescue her and let her recover from her trauma and come into herself.

He then goes on to provide a place for Kunikida to fulfill his ideals, Dazai a place to do good after his own past in the mafia, Kenji a place to help people, Tanizaki and Naomi (siblings that don’t seem to have any guardians) work to support them, and Atsushi a place to work on his own trauma by protecting people. Fukuzawa later let’s Kyouka, another defection from the mafia, stay and work at the agency so she can help people and not have to kill them anymore. The entire Armed Detective Agency live in dorms that Fukuzawa provided. He also is very protective, putting everything on the line to help members of the Agency escape any danger he knows of. Like when Atsushi is kidnapped he bribes Ranpo to find him and sends Kunikida to rescue him. He sees any danger to the agency and its members as something for him to stop.”

Optimus Prime:

“#VOTE OPTIMUS HE'S THE DAD OF ALL TIME AND HAS ISSUES”

[gekkaritsu]

Notes on Atsushi Nakajima’s childhood

There's something that has been irking me in the recently days and it comes from the interpretation that some people have about this quote: 

“Compared to what your parents did to you in your infancy, this doesn’t even count as violence”

I want to stick to what Asagiri mentioned in his last interview and I'd say that there is the possibility he  may indeed have read not just his works but he may have read about Nakajima Atsushi’s life and so the inspiration for Atsushi’s life in the orphanage and the quote may have a closer connection to irl Atsushi Nakajima’s early childhood. So, first I'd like to list a summary of some facts about Atsushi's childhood and relationships with his parents, and then moving on the possible connection to that specific quote.

About the author's childhood and teen days

He was 2 years when he was returned to the Nakajima family after his parents official divorce. He has no memory of his mother. In some of the old letters that narrate this episode of his life it's quoted that he whined "where did kaachan go?" 

He was raised in his early years by his grandmother, aunt, and cousins at his father's hometown. His father took care of him when Atsushi was 5 years old.

Atsushi lived with his father and two step mothers during his childhood, but he did not get along well with them.

During his childhood he moved constantly from cities, so this developed in him a lack of sense of nostalgia for his hometown.

Katsu Konya (his 1st step-mother) was a very strict woman, some memoirs of the author mentioned her tying him to a tree as punishment and that he did not received snacks from her but only a caramel. 

During his teen years he got beaten by his father due his rebellious behavior and despise towards his 2nd step-mother.

Some studies consider that not knowing his mother and the distance between him and his father caused Atsushi to grow distrustful of the world. This may be why Atsushi's written works showed a feeling of  "uncertainty of existence" too.

Personally, I believe that the quote is not trying to imply something grotesque per se. I'm aware there's a theory going around TikTok in which the interpretation of this quote has been twisted into something else, but skimming the manga and even watching the anime we get to watch the Headmaster constantly reminding Atsushi he is an abandoned child who may or may not be in fact thrown away by his parents and taken in by the orphanage’s staff,

When child Atsushi is seen crying in those flashbacks he is reminded that he has no rights for crying, because again, he has no parents who can be accountable of him

Some panels from the manga also show the Headmaster reminding him that he has no right of having belongings or a place in this world too, because according to the Headmaster he’s a forsaken child by everyone

Considering one more time the quote: "Compared to what your parents did to you in your infancy, this doesn’t even count as violence”, it feels more like a reminder (from the headmaster's perspective) that there's no other bigger act of abuse and violence towards an infant than "abandonment" from their one very own parents. They were supposed to provide infant Atsushi with a place to call home, love and care rather than just throwing him away in the garbage (as the Headmaster mentioned, but still nothing of that is completely confirmed tho).

Taking into account the author's childhood and going back to each time Atsushi remembers the orphanage and the Headmaster, it feels more like the last one justified the abuse imposed on Atsushi merely on the fact that nothing else can be worse than being thrown away and forsaken by those who brought him into the world. 

Asagiri Kafka commented in that new interview that he reads the written works from the authors as well as he takes inspiration from the authors themselves. As I see it, Asagiri experiments with the work and life of each author he included in bsd and he has this sort of "what ifs" so I don't doubt he has used some nuances of Nakajima Atsushi's life. This may be why he created a torturous past for the character by adding the coming up with the concept of an abandoned child Atsushi Nakajima, a little Atsushi who lived through hell at an orphanage that abused and neglected him based on irl Nakajima Atsushi's early childhood and teen years, where he was in a way abandoned by his mother after his parents's divorce, raised in a very strict environment by his first step-mother and living in a huge distant from his father.

I do recommend checking out the jp article for Nakajima-sensei in wikipedia as well as following the Nakajima Atsushi's Association profile in twitter and in note.

[dazais-guardian-angel]

alright I've thought about it for a while, and I'm fairly confident that is in fact Bram, and that Aya isn't hallucinating/seeing an illusion.

The biggest thing casting doubt, aside from the obvious different outfit, is the fact that the chapter ends on this reveal, suggesting it could be a cliffhanger bait. However, BSD's cliffhangers always involve something terrible happening that gets rectified in the next chapter(s), to scare us before giving us back hope; there's never been a case of the other way around, where something good happens to get our hopes up, only to have the rug pulled out from us at the start of next chapter to show that we were foolish for hoping. Asagiri is never that cruel. He loves his death baits and his dangerous situation baits before letting us know that everything is okay, and he'd never suggest that it was wrong for the audience or the characters to have hope, when BSD is quite literally about having hope even in the most absurd situations.

But more specifically, just.... what would a fakeout like this accomplish? The only way I could maybe see it was if this is Fyodor, and we think Aya is safe but she's actually not, but there's no way it's him, because we see him with the singularity and Kunikida/Tanizaki at the same time as this, he's wearing Bram's outfit and not the one this person has, and we've established that he wants to protect Aya, not hurt her. Granted, he obviously doesn't care enough about protecting her since he let her escape and get hurt all on her own lmao, so that's exactly why I ask what would be the point of him suddenly showing up just to save her from the rubble, only to then just hurt her anyway? None of that is logical.

And then, if it's Akutagawa, then that means we had our emotions played with for a twist that is just.... mildly disappointing but also not outright bad for the characters? Disappointing because Bram isn't back after all, but also not a net negative because Aya is still being rescued by someone we know and trust. If that were to happen, Aya hallucinating Aku as Bram, I just can't see it happening as a chapter cliffhanger fakeout at all; it would just feel cheap and cruel, playing with our feelings (not to mention Aya's feelings!) regarding a character we want to come back, for a reveal that isn't really worth it and doesn't change the status quo (because she's still safe regardless if it's Bram or Aku).

Aside from the lack of narrative justification, I also believe that if Aya were to hallucinate Bram, she would see him exactly as she knew him back when he regained his body — I mean, she basically does see him like that when she's remembering his last moments with her in this chapter and in the previous one when she's yelling at Fyodor; sure they're just repeated panels as flashbacks, but they're still her memories of how she sees him. I was unsure for a while about the figure's identity, but it was seeing it pointed out that Bram no longer has his nails that was really the final nail in the coffin haha get it, it's a multilayered joke, please laugh- for me: why would Aya hallucinate Bram not only not in his own outfit, but with his body altered from how she knows it? There'd be no reason why she would, and no way she could. She's never seen him in a different outfit, with different nails. Note that every other instance we've gotten of characters hallucinating significant figures in their lives (Atsushi, Mushitarou, Dazai), they're always wearing the clothes they're most known for and what the person knows them to wear. There's no reason to assume this would be different for Aya, and that she'd imagine him wearing a completely random outfit from the one she associates with him, and randomly without his signature long black nails.

This closeup panel of Bram's collar right when he first begins speaking pretty much proves my point. It's inconsistent with the new outfit (Aku's outfit) we see him wearing on the last page, but with the framing of this, with him being entirely in shadow in the rightmost panel when he first appears, it's clear to me that Aya can't see him clearly yet, so she's imagining him the way she remembers him. And then he gets closer/lifts the beam higher so that the shadow starts receding from him, and his feet and hands and different outfit become visible. The tone of this moment and the way it plays out is exactly as I've seen in numerous other visual media, where a character thinks they're on the brink of death and has lost all hope and is ready to accept it, before the slow, grand reveal of the person they thought they'd lost rescuing them, often with them posing a philosophical question to challenge their current despair or their belief that their loved one couldn't possibly still be alive, just as Bram does here. If you've seen enough movies and TV, you can probably imagine exactly the kind of scene I mean, and exactly how this moment would play out if it were animated I say "would" because it's never a given that Bones will adapt it with the right tone like I imagine.

This is framed as a triumphant, hopeful scene, of a knight coming to rescue his princess after he was thought to be dead. Aya has hurt her leg here, she's trapped, she's realizing she's about to die, and she's at last fully convinced herself that everything she so staunchly believed in was wrong and that everything she fought for all that time was for nothing; firstly, why would she suddenly hallucinate Bram if she had already lost all hope, but most importantly, why would the narrative have Bram defy death and return to her and challenge the idea that all her ideals and actions were meaningless, only for it to turn out that it isn't really him, when she misses him so bad? That just.... wouldn't be right at all, that's not the feeling this scene gives at all. This is their moment, Bram has to be the one to say these things to Aya with their history together, not anyone else, and I can't imagine Akutagawa saying something like what Bram says to her here, about royalty carrying out their pledge to protect someone without fail, even if he has inherited Bram's protectiveness towards Aya like Fyodor has. No, I'm 90% certain that is indeed Bram. It can't possibly be anyone else.

...And so, all that to say that yeah, I believe that Bram has Fyodor'd himself into Akutagawa's body, since he's wearing his outfit. We don't really know the extent of Bram's powers, but it's looking likely that he can bodysnatch any of his vampires for himself if something ever happens to him, or perhaps Aku might be special since he was the first vampire Bram created at the start of all this. Needless to say I'm not at all worried about Aku though; this is probably the beginning of why he ends up with that suit of armor later on, since Bram has his clothes... I just have no idea how we get to that point. But Aku will be fine, I'm sure; this may even be the only way he can come back from being a vampire.

[be-not-defeated-by-the-rain]

Kenji headcanons

Okay so first he has dissociative amnesia so his memory just blanks and gaps lot of the events since his friend died and just in general

Audhd(self explanatory)

transmasc (his village didn't really have a strong concept of gender anyways tho)

Dyscalculia- so he's not great at anything to do with numbers or amounts or distance or direction or anything adjacent to that

So he actually would get lost probably as much as Ranpo except he's constantly asking people on the street for directions (it helps him make friends)

Has absolutely been scammed many times before because even in bartering he does not know easily how to tell a fair deal

Does not know how to tell time at all if you ask him what time it is he'll say something like 'still light out'

Technically doesn't live in the agency dorm (his main job is farming afterall) but he does grow plants and flowers outside the dorm because he want his friends to have some nature with them in the city

He also tends a smaller garden on top of the ADA building roof (like in WAN but I think he does more that that eventually)

he really likes bugs and spiders.

High pain tolerance (that boy has been shot and stabbed and works hard in fields he knows how to withstand physical strain and injury(not that he gets injured often(if he's hungry or angry most blunt force things cant injure him unless they're from an ability and also neither can animal bites)(if his ability is strong enough at the time he can also have some resistance to non-ability based stabbing slicing/slashing affects him like anyone else)

He's a bit of a "I know a guy" person for everything. Even like majorly concerning things that this child should not know a guy for

Sends weird city things back to the village (like stop signs and lunchables and a scooter and a manhole cover and a security camera and a flashlight)

His body doesn't know how to metabolize foods or drinks with too much sugar or artificial stuff in them or overly processed foods so eating or drinking them with make him really sick

Also cannot handle spicy food. He can handle spice, just not spicy

On the subject of food: he has really unhealthy eating habits (will only really eat at night before going to sleep(if his poor internal regulation skills don't make him forget he's hungry) or if it's with other people after he's done everything he needs to do)

Will take anything his friends say as gospel if he doesn't already know otherwise.

Drinks milk straight from the carton like a madman

Strong tight hugs(boy is restraining himself to not hurt peopl, unless it's Dazai. Dazai he can squeeze)

Does not like overly loud or cluttered noises(unless he's causing them)

Accidently gets the ADA in trouble for so much collateral damage.

His parents are fully still alive (he was mostly raised communally though, a lot of things in his village were group efforts)

Fully does not to hesitate to ask for help when he needs it but because he's oddly capable on his own he often doesn't actually think he needs it unless it's specific things that he already knows he's not good at

Very overconfident in his ability to physically withstand things

Not very curious if it's not city related actually. He's content with his own knowledge. (Widlife documentaries are like cocomelon to him though, he will not look away)

tends to be either really late or really early to things. No in between

He has so many freckles

After his friend died he developed claustrophobia and a fear of drowning(though the latter isn't as strong as the claustrophobia)

Bites his nails and pencils and erasers and stuff

Gets sick pretty often. His immune system isn't used to being around so many people and the new environment

He can cook really well from scratch though (like literally bro can make flour from wheat)

Can't really use most technology well.

Not a headcanon but just a timeline reminder: Kenji joined the agency two months before Atsushi

Back to headcanons:

Kenji only got his ability after his friend died(I'm still tryna timeline this. Kunikida says the flood was "a long time ago" but Fukuzawa investigated it and found Kenji and Kenji looked the same and I doubt he found him then left and then awhile later was like "hey let's go back and get him actually" so I'm tryna decide when exactly it was. I like to think maybe 4 months before the start of canon and 2 months before he joined max? Idk id love feedback)

He doesn't remember the days surrounding his friend's death either

His memories resurfaces about a week later after the wreckage of the house was already clear and the villagers wouldn't tell him the details of how it had happened except for how he had saved them from the flood

Would break stuff on accident a whole lot way more often before joining the agency and passing his entrance exam like it was a very very common occurrence

accidentally hurt a number of farm animals this way, some chickens got worse than that cuz tiny

Spent a lot of time sleeping for the first bit because normal eating schedule would knock him out three times a day and also because he was scared of hurting people

without his ability he's still pretty fit because his strength ability is a recent thing but since getting it his actual body has slowly been getting weaker and weaker(and as he loses muscle mass, has also been losing weight at an unhealthy rate, not that his eating habits help with that)

Gets really bad motion sickness in vehicles

Uhhh other stuff I'm forgetting

[vypridae]

9!!! 10!!! 11!! 12!! 13!!! or pick and choose <3

IDK WHICH FANDOMS U MEAN BUT IM GONNA DO EACH ONE AND ILL JUST PUT MY HAZBIN/HELLUVA ANSWERS UNDER A CUT SO U DONT HAVE TO SEE THEM

9. worst part of canon

ok the worst part of dgrp canon has to be the way they handle characterization, like especially with trauma. specifically in mind i have korekiyo rn, like they mega rushed his entire Thing and wrote it in a way that paints HIM in a terrible awful light when it very likely (or definitely) wasnt that at all, but the way it was written just fucks up so, so much. also the Danganronpa Repitition TM (flashbacks to

bsd uuuh oh my god i have to think about this one cuz i love bsd with a passion BAHAHA its hard to find flaws with that one (in part i havent consumed the media in forever), ik it might be just bc the series is still being written but its irritating that some things from like the first seasons are just not touched upon again? and maybe its because ihavent read the manga but like. did atsushi join the ada and suddenly the bounty on his head is just Gone? am i misremembering if they went back to that or not its been like a year since ive watched bsd i need to rewatch it but thats about all i can think of. im not even mad about the not killing any characters because fyodor is alive still

10. worst part of fanon

dgrp has a TERRIBLEEEE shipping fandom. i hated oumasai for the longest fucking time because i encountered this one rper way back when that like was a mega red flag SBGJKFDHGKA i hated them for a while after that (then they grew on me). you get shit on for liking, like, the more toxic ships in the fandom no matter your reasonings or whatever, and i feel like its just a really negative place to be a shipper that likes to explore bad dynamics (such as i)

i think the worst part of bsd fanon is similar. shipping sides of fandoms are ALWAYS bad i feel like, and there are a lot of people that will be like "skk is real fuck you for shipping anything else" or like "if u ship nikolai with anyone but fyodor i dont trust u" or something like??? its a fucking ship chill out its fictional it doesnt hurt anyone irl CALM DOWN

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

for bsd uh . only two surprisingly, and its two ships that i cannot physically make myself like?? thats all apparently

for dgrp i have uuh two and its literally also only two ships that i dont like BHASFKAHSK

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

for bsd am i allowed to say fyodor? idk if he necessarily counts as "unpopular" but i see way more hate of him than i see people liking him, but god fucking dammit i love him with my whole heart. hes so evil and those kinds of characters litearlly just make me gravitate towards them, hes so smart and cunning and you can do so much with his character, especially learning his ability oh my god? jhes so complex and i love him

for dgrp, i feel like every character is "unpopular" BAHSAJKAHk but for this i think i wanna go with chiaki. people hate chiaki because shes "boring" or at least they Did back when i first got into the series but shes so different in the game compared to the anime because the game shes based on her classmates' memories of her! shes only this "perfect" individual because thats how her entire class saw her, like she was made the class rep for a reason

13. worst blorboficiation

ok this one im trying to figure out what the fuck the definition is BAHAJSHFAJK from what im SEEING its like, the character that doesnt deserve to be liked as much as they are. (i dont think i answered this one correctly but shh its fine)

for bsd thats really hard for me to think of because i like literally every character but uuh if i had to say one ig i'd say uuh . maybe dazai? i feel like this is in part because people typically take away from dazai's entire complex everything because he's too complex for a lot of people (including me) to truly understand, like im not saying i understand him but i feel like a lot of people will take the wrong parts of him/exclude anything they dont like about him and go with that? if that counts but idk i still like dazai so i cant say that too much

for dgrp its the exact same situation with kokichi. they take his character, of which is incredibly complex, and dumb it down into the typical fandom woobification of "uwu baby who cant do anything wrong" LIKE!!! STOP!!! NO HE IS NOT!!! HE IS SO COMPLEX AND YOU'RE LIKING HIS CHARACTER FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS!!! people that dont understand the complexity behind certain characters and are incapable of taking that as their blorbo and instead creating this silly incorrect version in their mind and making THAT their blorbo i just. thats not ur blorbo atp thats ur oc my guy

hazbin/helluva answers

9. worst part of canon

both of these shows are kinda not the best when it comes to being serious???? like there are some topics that shouldnt be joked about i feel like, and there are points in the shows that joke in relation to these topics. also theres not enough voxval but thats a criticism for another time

10. worst part of fanon

not even just the ships tbh, its liking any character thats either painted in a negative light or is just generally unpopular. the ships too but i could get to that another time. for EXAMPLE, me, i like valentino. a lot. he's one of my favorite characters. i feel like i cannot express the fact i love val because i will get called an ACTUAL rapist for saying it because "if you like val you condone his actions and thus are a rapist/terrible person/etc" when thats absolutely not at all how it works. i acknowledge that val is terrible, i understand that its bad, but i can still enjoy him as a character otherwise. his actions are what i dont like, ive never liked him (i actually hated him at first because of it but then i saw him being more silly in the series with vox and he grew on me), but you will actively get told to kys if you say that you even REMOTELY enjoy vals character

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

i have none for helluva but for hazbin i have four. three of which are for the sAME SHIP and one is another ship i dont like

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

MIMZYYYY dude she gets so much unnecessary hate. like, everyone sees her as annoying and terrible and i GUESS i can see where they're coming from but a. theyre in hell, everyone's terrible, b. people just see her as annoying because she interrupted hells greatest dad and they dont like that because they want their radioapple song or wtvr. i love her and no one can convince me otherwise

13. worst blorboficiation

ok THIS one i might actually be able to answer with the correct definition of blorboification. i feel like alastor gets way too much unnecessary love, and maybe thats just because i think hes too popular for being what he is but hes just not all that to me. like, hes a good character, yes, but some people like him to an extent that i feel like doesnt do him justice?? its like i said with uuuuuh the dgrp side of this question, they dumb down his character a lot and are just generally bad at making him ACCURATE to the point its irritating. (hey so yk how i said i could answer with the right definition of this i lied)

[moccabunie]

things I actually like from bungou stray dogs anime adaptation

Bones hasn't been my biggest joy lately, so I'm doing this to cope and remind myself why I am here

so! I have to start mentioning that the anime was my first contact with the series. I thought it had kind of a cozy vibe – the lighting there was REALLY GOOD. Generally, bones is pretty good doing backgrounds, and I love the ambients they usually make for BSD (side note: this is one thing I don't like about the current season, but I'm not here today to talk about the things I don't like).

From the start I have loved the colors, the lights and the vibe in each episode. It makes everything stunning in a way that from that point on, there are a lot of scene that gain a lot just because of the light used. I'm not mentioning the color symbolism because it's not really my thing, but it's another asset that is present to identify characters. I personally like the shade of blue used for Dazai's no longer human and I LOVE the purples for Fyodor. And I also have to mention the blacks, because sometimes it's just deep-black, but another times they put shades and textures inside the black (rashoumon, for example) and it makes everything a lot more vibrant. I like a lot of scenes just because they are vibrant.

And, another view I have about how Bones use the color is that here they manage to complement the manga for the good. The light/dark discourse is a present thing in the main plot and it's important to show characters's psychology and development, so this aspect really adds in the anime and helps to illustrate the message in the story.

ADA is the light. Port mafia is usually night. Sometimes they mix up. And in the middle you have twilight, when you have no good or bad, just picking the most convenient or less damaging option. I reallyreallyreally love sunsets in bsd.

It's Atsushi discovering he has the right to cry a man he hated. It's Atsushi deciding that an alliance with the port mafia is the better option. It's sskk coming to terms.

So, in the same way, I don't think that the comeback of double black was settled during night time by far causality.

Also twilight and pink shades are used for life-changing-core memories, and it's just the way it adds a extra nostalgic vibe that these scenes are so precious to me.

second thing; the filler/extra eps

This would not be typically called filler, I think, but it easier this way – I'm talking about scenes that they took/mixed from the light novels, and I am specifically talking about Sasaki here:

Plus, I enjoy a lot Dazai, Kunikida and Atsushi as a group :") the series started with the three of them and I'd love to see more of them solving silly detective cases.

The anime adaptation for Fifteen and Dark Era were good to me (speaking now as someone who hasn't read this two novels yet). Dark Era is pretty much my comfort arc (?) and I rewatch it anytime I can. I just love to have the perspective of this Dazai in contrast to his current self – moreover, I love to see different shades of him in a way that one can't say who is his genuine self.

Honestly, the one thing I loved about season 5 was the anime adaptation of Ranpo's backstory in Untold Origins. I haven't read the lightnovel just yet, and to this point I think that could be the trick since I didn't focused on what they were not animating, and instead I enjoyed the things I liked.

I found myself doing exactly this along the chapters for this season – until I just couldn't do this anymore, it makes me sad but I was really getting upset, and if a thing I love beggins to not bringing me joy I would rather take a step appart (and yet here I am lmao).

So I'm gonna focus now on specific things I like about this season, both parts 1 and 2.

things I'm thankful bones did for bsd season 4

the opening. VIBING!!! THIS PART was specially beautiful, like? I love how both of them look a little insane here.

my mind went blank when I saw them, I paused and replayed again. They had no reason to do this but they did it anyway and I am so grateful for that.

the use of grey tones in Untold Origins, I just love the vibe, it makes the animation here really special for what I have told about how bones play with the color.

Mushitaro! Mushitaro!!! My little babygirl. He is easily one of my favorite characters and I honestly like how they animated these chapters. He looks pretty and smackable. He is so dramatic, he wears the drama. HE is the moment.

this moment. Forever changed the trajectory of my life.

Sigma. Sigma falling from the sky casino. Sigma giving up. Sigma's interaction with Atsushi. Sigma with Fyodor. Sigma as a concept.

Obsessed with his eyes btw. I love Sigma's grey eyes from the manga, but I also like a lot anime Sigma's gold ones.

the siblings ever ♡

There are way more things, but I'm stopping here with just my top favorites. I'd say that I like most season 4, but we must remember that season 5 is still incomplete :") even if we feel dissapointed now, there are still more chapter in their way. I think that the anime can be enjoyable for those who haven't read the manga, and I completely understand that we are upset with the things they took away with no apparent reason. I'd like to know more about this, honestly, because I'm aware that animation is just a different media with different rythms. Anyway, hopefully I'll edit this later when the season had finished and I could add more scenes I have enjoyed!

things I'm thankful bones did for bsd season 5

the second op. man, that was insane. I love everything about it.

I would forgive the entire season just for this moment. I haven't recovered yet.

I choose to focus in the sskk we have instead of the sskk we don't. This moment felt amazing to me.

and...

Can you give me a reason to live?

Sir? I think my entire personality has been rewriten just seeing this interaction between them.

I'm gently sobbing, what the fuck is this.

That would be everything. Please, take into consideration that I'm writing this the very same day bones decided to take away dazai's naked elbow... I had to make a concious effort to ignore that they broke my heart today and speak nicely anyway. Have a nice night :)