#or the grace of exile

[incognitobird]

you know what I AM gonna make a post about chants of sennar and I don't CARE that only my 3 friends and a handful of pornbots will see it.

IT IS SUCH A FUCKING GOOD GAME

I am incredibly baised by the fact that Linguists is my autism special interest. but I also must state very very clearly

I HATE PUZZLE GAMES AND PUZZLES IN GAMES

they make me frustrated and and angry and more often than not make me feel stupid and I do not like them. I power through them when I must (breath of the wild I love you but fuck your shrines) or bribe friends to do them for me (viz I will sell my kidneys for you to do my puzzles)

but chants of sennar? even when I was frustrated (and incredibly sleep deprived, it was 3 am when I finally went "ah shit I need to go to bed") it only made me more determined to figure it out without help! I REFUSED to look up a guide and only caved twice, once because I fucked up my own written down notes, and the other was because in my sleep deprived state I had missed an entire room with a teleport spot and stone plate before the alchemists, making it so that I had done the ENTIRE ALCHEMIST FLOORS MISSING 3 WORDS I SHOULDVE JUST HAD. my last 3 hours of play through went soother with the help of my friend but those first 9 hrs? even sleep deprived and frustrated I was having fun!!!

even when the game took its detour into being a fuckin HORROR game I couldn't stop being FASCINATED by the language and the people and the cultures

and gods the ending made me CRY and I have so many fucking thoughts.

and the best part about ALL OF THIS?

I want to get back into learning Linguists

I had one semester in college of a gen'ed course that taught you the basics of feild work through creating a language. I loved that class. however I was actively suffering the effects of a debilitating depressive episode that ended in a mental breakdown resulting in me not attending any of my classes BUT that Ling101 class and in my second semester I dropped out. I wanted to major in linguistics but now between trauma and financial issues I will never being going back to college and it's not something I want anymore.

but I still want to learn linguistics so badly. I have a shelf full of books from the Ling section at my local bookstore (calling it a section is kind it's literally just 2 shelves). I haven't read a single one of those books because I can't bring myself to start.

but now? after spending 12 and half hours playing chants of sennar? I want to read all of them because it reminded me of exactly why I love linguistics.

in conclusion:

CHANTS OF SENNAR IS A GREAT GAME AND I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY SLANDER OF IT IN MY PRESENCE.

[aroaceleovaldez]

once again thinking about my au of Alabaster willingly getting possessed by Jason as a bargaining chip for Camp Jupiter/Olympus to try and get around his exile...

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Ghostbur: but I only have good memories with Technoblade :(

Tommy: aw, okay. Well I’ll give you some bad ones.

Ghostbur: wh- there are no bad memories with Technoblade.

Tommy: oh, I reckon there are.

Ghostbur, after a pause: no? Technoblade, we’ve only had good times together, right?

Techno: only good times. We were bros, man.

Ghostbur, overlapping: yeah!

Ghostbur: exactly!

[pigeonstab]

Crazy how one of the stories thathave affected me the most ever was the Dsmp.. lmaoooo I'm sorry c!Tommy makes me cry

[doomedgrrrlblog]

purple albums from the 90s

[eruverse]

Ivan when he sees humans die:

[pandorafallz]

Dreamer Spider: If you took a shot for every time you made a bad decision, how drunk would you be?

Exile Grace: Maybe a bit tipsy?

Scatter Norm: Drunk.

Exile Jake: Wasted.

Waif Lo'ak: Dead.

[maddiesbookbag]

percy jackson edit to the haunted/exile mashup…thalia & luke & annabeth on the run cut to luke’s betrayal (you’re not my homeland anymore / can’t go back im haunted) annabeth’s POV of the betrayal or even holding the sky (come on come on don’t leave me like this i thought i had you figured out) percy sacrificing himself for annabeth and grover at the arch just like thalia on the hill (i think i’ve seen this film before and i didn’t like the ending) annabeth and luke in the throne room scene with luke’s eyes flashing between blue and gold (you and i walk a fragile line/we always walked a very thin line)

[narrated]

so here’s the thing about matthias

the entire time between the conclave explosion and the fall of haven, he is actively trying to get the fuck out of dodge. he is not the herald of a religion he doesn’t even believe in, he wasn’t even meant to really Be there, he is woefully underqualified and does not belong in this world. he says it over and over and over, hoping someone finally listens and takes charge of the inquisition instead of everyone deferring to him.

after in hushed whispers and seeing the alternate future with his companions hurt essentially because of him, matthias is so shit scared that he does run away. disappears in the night, doesn’t get very far out of the frostback mountains until one of leliana’s spies finds him and manages to convince him to return. his single hope at going back to his life (whatever that is worth to him now) is successfully closing the breach and nothing else bad happening.

and he does close the breach. and then corypheus and the red templars arrive and he is like a scared halla running on pure adrenaline. he barely comprehends what’s happening. he barely registers running into burning buildings to try and get people out (but he does register seeing a burnt beam crush someone’s body). when roderick shares the information about the secret path, matthias has already made his decision. he can give the inquisition a chance to save themselves and also get rid of their pesky problem, being himself, for them. prior to this point, he wouldn’t tell any of the advisors his age, though he obviously looks young. his final words to cullen before leaving for the final trebuchet are “i’m twenty-one. someone should know.”

after haven is buried and he awakens, it feels like he treks through that snow for hours. he ends up with a broken collarbone and bruised ribs from the fall, plus the pain of the anchor tearing through his hand and the cold setting in. matthias is fucking miserable and in agony and moving on survival instinct alone. he ends up collapsing further away from the camp than in the game because at that point there’s no fight left in him. he had hoped that his death would be quick and painless, but at least he did what he could to save the people in haven. he can’t let the inquisition down any more. they’ll find someone else more capable to lead. he can’t hurt anyone else. he can’t hurt anymore.

he doesn’t know at what point cassandra and cullen pull him from the snow, how close he was to finally being rid of the pain forever, but he thrashes and kicks and screams his throat raw telling them, “let me go! let me go! i can’t take this anymore, i can’t, just let me go.” he uses up whatever energy was left in him fast and is reduced to nothing but broken sobs as they haul him back to the camp.

[kaerinio]

also, following dany's return to meereen, she's done being tamed. she is done being tamed by the forces around her, done being tamed by the expectations around her, done being tamed by herself. quaithe told her that the dragons know who she is, but questions if she knows. daario expresses the same sentiment. following the second rebirth, she finally understands. it is time for her to drive herself and trust her own intuition more, of course while taking counsel ( that will NEVER change ), but she will not allow herself to become a bleating lamb ready for the slaughter again ; she will be as the targaryens are destined to be . . . a dragon. not just the mother of dragons, but the dragon who stops at nothing to protect her people. the dragon who leads her children. and like her dragons, she will answer to neither gods nor men.

[autistme]

DYSPHORIA HOODIE ENJOYERS REJOICE

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Tommy: okayokay *inhales* okay.

Ghostbur: it’s Technoblade! :D

Tommy: politely- politely, die. Politely-

Techno, overlapping: yeahhhh!

Ghostbur, overlapping: Technoblade! Technoblade, I’m here! I’m here! Have some blue, have some blue, please, please, calm yourself! Calm yourself! Calm yourself!

Techno, overlapping: yeahhhhhhh, yeahhh! Have some fooood, my mannnnn!

Ghostbur: whoa!

Ghostbur, muttering: that’s a very expe…

Techno, overlapping: I have a dealer.

Ghostbur, sounding impressed: that’s expensive food.

[innocentiusxiv]

grace dpdl should have become a vampire hunter

[icyfox17]

Foxie. I was not expecting so much wholesome in the freaking EXILE STREAM of all things aksgaksgkagsjsgshs

And Techno is such a comedic genius he is SO FUNNY AAAAAAAAH

AAAAAAA :((( I MISS TECHNO SM IM GONNA CRYYSYSJDJFKDJ