#or maybe im just okay with accepting other theories

[wayfinders-coven]

Hi there. First off, I’m sorry my DNI was not posted on this blog but outside of this discussion, do not interact with me. Feel free to respond though. Other endos, go away.

I am having this discussion in good faith, but I have a poor opinion of the endogenic community and I am not trying to be polite about it. The way i say things might sting some, but I have too much to say to take the direct autism out of my tone. I apologize in advance and thank you for your understanding.

Also, i will be putting “non-disordered plurality” in quotes because… i still don’t believe in it, but there’s an explanation for everything and I’m not trying to deny the experience you do have, but I would like to highlight that it may not be what you think it is.

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First: you can say all you want that all of the above is true, and honestly I do not really care because endos do not keep me up at night. But even through your entire rebuttal you call endogenics with disabled terms, all while claiming that you’re different things.

System is a disabled term, for disabled people, not for “endogenic plurals” or anyone non-disordered.

Using it as a “non-disordered plural” is ableism. You are taking words away from people with real and serious disorders when you use them to spread information about “non-disordered plurality”. Those words are not for you. Please respect that. Use your own words.

On a similar line, endos also use tags containing “system”, “alter”, “split”, etc. Anecdotally, you haven’t seen it, because maybe you stay out of our way, but others don’t.

[Edit: Checked your profile: you *personally* use system! Please stop doing that. And please don’t say you don’t, it is all over your profile!]

Also, A LOT of you guys love to use “traumascum” when (disordered) systems don’t want to interact with you! That is top tier ableism, bordering on entire slur usage at this rate. You guys as a community *invented a slur* to be ableist to systems. Just be aware of that.

To sum up this section: Endos are generally an ableist group, either stealing our words or using a slur they made for us. They should not be doing that regardless of the truth of “non-disordered plurality”.

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Next: The ICD recognizes spiritual practices an example of multiple *personality states*. It does not recognize the “plurality” most endos claim to have, which are either real symptoms of a CDD, or mimicking a CDD.

Also, I hate to be this guy, but when something is normal for someone, it can’t always initially be reported as “distressing”; It doesn’t become distressing until you realize what happened to you, and sometimes it becomes undistressing after you accept it. I know clinicians wont diagnose unless you show distress, but I firmly still believe that if you have all the symptoms of a CDD and yet don’t feel distressed, you’re still disordered. CDDs are traumagenic neurodevelopmental disorders, that doesn’t go away because you become okay with it.

Another thing about this: The cut off date is a theory, and only works for otherwise-NT kids. If you have a neurodevelopmental disorder (like autism for example), your “cut off” date is a lot later. Also, your small-T traumas count too; You don’t have to have been seriously abused or anything to need to cope with life by developing a CDD. Kids brains are the ones in charge; ‘serious trauma’ is whatever your kid-brain fet it was. Just think about that.

(The “im trauma-endo because my trauma happened when i was 10” crowd are the ones i worry about the most, because you aren’t endo just because the trauma happened ‘late’, I’m sorry to be the one to tell you.)

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Sidebar, i do not have time to vet all those doc sources you sent me in addition to all this, but i will eventually rb with my findings. Thanks for understanding. I will concede that part to you as you did present something, and I can’t debunk you right now in good faith.

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You said something interesting here:

You cannot be ableist about something that *you claim* is not a disorder. Ableism is discrimination or prejudice based on disability status. This is the point we keep having to hammer home for you.

And I’m sorry that it hurts your feelings when people point it out, but it’s necessary: If you’re talking about the pointing out of delusions, I have delusional episodes and I can personally assure you, I say it with concern for some of you. I genuinely think a good amount of you are covering up whatever trauma you endured, or are possibly suffering from a delusional disorder. It is not ableist to say so.

[Edit 2: If your claim is true (your heart symptoms get worse and you experience physical pain when told these things), that is **POTENTIALLY** indicative of a larger issue! If available, please see a doctor, and if not, watch your health and stay out of syscourse.]

We ((disordered) systems) get to decide what “real systems” are because, and say it with me: SYSTEM IS A DISABILITY TERM. We get to decide how it’s used, just like nonverbal autistics get to tell selective-mute autistics to get *their* own words. Words mean things. Get your own.

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Bottom line, be “plural” all you want, but I’m sorry to tell you that what 99% “endogenics” claim is non-disordered plurality, just isn’t, and it’s dangerous to spread the misinformation I just had to debunk in this post.

For all these reasons, i firmly believe that Endos and their community full of what OP described, and predatory people who want to keep it that way.

I don’t usually interact with people who claim to be endo, because I feel this way, but I know y’all have a right to your beliefs. You need to think about them though. And you need to not steal words from the disabled to express them. Thanks.

I hope you understand and take the time to read the whole post.

-Juniper

what actually are endogenic systems?

• Endogenic is an umbrella term that refers to all systems that are not completely traumagenic in origin.

Why are some people claiming to be endo?

• people claiming to be endogenic systems may:

• be misdiagnosed, they may not have DID/OSDD and may have a different disorder.

• may not have researched. Which is not a excuse. You cannot claim to have any disorder without any level of research.

• they may be a traumatic system in denial of there trauma.

• singlets with fractitious disorders [Factitious disorders are conditions in which a person deliberately and consciously acts as if they have a physical or mental illness when they are not really sick.]

•singlets misidentifying normal experiences

• singlets who enjoy "being a system" finding it fun etc

Why can't endos exist?

• as previously stated. DID/OSDD is a TRAUMA RESPONSE DISORDER. you cannot have it without trauma literally.

• OSDD/DID occurs because of childhood trauma between the ages 4-9 (commonly). Because extreme trauma happens when the majority of your "personality" is formed by then. the trauma interferes with your personality development, causing the formation of other alters to help cope with that trauma / deal with the brunt of the trauma and survive day to day life.

• OCDD/DIDs can only be formed through trauma.

Why are endos so harmful?

• they spread very harmful misinformation. (Even the idea of being endogenic, forming without trauma)

they spread dangerous misinformation and stigma (demonising roles (persecutors for example)) impossible beliefs (alter death, sys hopping etc)There growing presence in general on many platforms

• endos trying to say that they have any experience to anything close to the serious trauma that causes DID/ OSDD is so so harmful to actual DID/ OSDD have had to live through and survive.

• WE ARE ALREADY STIGMATISED AND DEMONSIED IN ALL SORTS OF MEDIA AS IS.

• IT IS SO HARMFUL AND HURTFUL TO SYSTEMS WHO HAVE ACTUALLY SURVIVED AND BEEN THROUGH THE HORRORS AND TRAUMA THAT CAUSES DID/OSDD - OUR TRAUMAS ARE NOT BADGES FOR YOU TO WEAR.

- blurred asf

[sparklerzii]

the cassidyvictim backlash is crazy...

[milaalkhansah]

100 hal yang aku pelajari di 2024

1. Nggak ada orang lain yang lebih penting dalam hidup seseorang kecuali dirinya sendiri. Berhenti merasa spesial.

2. Berhenti berteman dengan seseorang yang menganggapmu saingan, bukan seseorang yang bersedia untuk diajak tumbuh dan berkembang bersama-sama.

3. Tidak ada seorang pun yang bertanggungjawab untuk membahagiakan dan memperjuangkan hidupmu selain dirimu sendiri. Semua orang sibuk dengan hidupnya masing-masing.

4. Mengubah hidup terkadang sesederhana mengubah pola pikir.

5. Satu-satunya waktu yang kita punya adalah saat ini. Later or tomorrow isn't a promise.

6. Everything takes time. So be patient for what we have been trying and wishing for.

7. Kebanyakan orang seringkali hanya ingin mendengar apa yang mereka percayai, bukan apa yang sebenarnya terjadi.

8. Tidak perlu menjelaskan sesuatu. Orang-orang yang mengerti tidak membutuhkannya, dan orang-orang yang membenci tidak akan mendengarkannya.

9. Hidup tidak akan berubah kalau bukan diri sendiri yang memulai untuk mengubahnya.

10. You vs you. Not others.

11. You deserve better.

12. Tidak ada kezaliman dalam takdir Allah bila kita beriman.

13. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Baik dan cuman bisa berbuat baik. Jaga terus prasangka baik kita kepada-Nya.

14. Done is better than perfect.

15. Nobody can understand me better than Allah and myself.

16. Reality is what happens. Not what i think will happen.

17. Dream isn't what I'm thinking of, but what i create, build, and fight for.

18. if i don't wake up to pray qiyam, then i don't want it enough.

19. In order to make people understand i have to talk

20. My family needs 'thanks, ask, and sorry' from me too.

21. There's no benefit for anyone to know what i have done or what my kindness is.

22. Less is more.

23. World doesn't end just because i miss some people, made mistakes, or haven't learn something yet.

24. What's for me never miss me, and what's not for me always finding ways to go. 

25. Not everyone has the same heart as mine, nor think the way i think and that's okay.

26. If they wanted they would. I don't want to force anything anymore.

27. Two things I'll never forget: how someone treats me and what they made me feel.

28. Not everyone matters.

29. I will never accept any disrespect.

30. My peace over anything.

31. Time will pass anyway

32. If it’s the right time everything will be easier

33. Life keeps going with or without the people i think would stay

34. Everyone makes mistakes. Me either

35. Just because it's taking time, doesn't mean it's not happening

36. If they think they can find better, let them

37. People changes. Me either

38. Small progress is still progress

39. I don't need to understand everything

40. Growth requires discomfort

41. Im not what i thought

42. If i didn't different then nothing changes different too

43. My current self vs My old self. Don't compare myself with others cause it's not relevant

44. To be friends with me is to be privilege. And not all people have that privilege.

45. Maybe, it's a journey to finding myself, not finding a love

46. Sometimes i need to walk alone to truly find myself

47. Nobody's perfect

48. Forgive myself for not knowing what i didn't know before learning it

49. The wrong ones have to leave to make space for the right ones.

50. My new life will cost my old one

51. If it's possible for others, it's possible for me too

52. My past was a lesson, not a life sentence. Never be a prisoner

53. If i prayed for flowers don't be surprised if it starts rain

54. The way they treat me defines them. Not me

56. It has to fall apart temporarily before it falls into place permanently

58. Having boundaries is the way to have self-respect

59. The distance between my dreams and my reality is action

60. I'm much more learn from my mistakes not from theory

61. Some people won't stay

62. Words have a big power

63. It doesn't matter how good you explain yourself to others if Allah already knows how you are

64. Satu-satunya cara untuk mengetahui kita bisa apa enggak adalah dengan menjalaninya bukan dengan menebak-nebak

65. Ketakutan lahir dari ketidaktahuan dan tidak adanya persiapan

66. Jangan jadi menjadi obat bagi orang yang tidak mau sembuh

67. Terkadang, satu-satunya cara untuk bertahan adalah dengan meninggalkan

68. Tidak ada yang salah dengan menjadi lebih egois demi ketenangan dan kebahagiaan diri sendiri

69. Terkadang, respon terbaik adalah dengan tidak memberi respon

70. Menolong orang lain sama dengan menolong diri sendiri

71. My standards are never too high enough

72. I don't have to take the responsibility of everything

73. Some things are out of my control

74. I did all that i could

75. Cringe means growth too.

76. I'm stronger than i thought

78. I'm what i think

79. Love is real, because i exist

80. I deserve better

81. People are so lucky to know me

82. Never hate on previous of myself

83. I have nothing but hope

84. Be patience. Good things are coming

85. If someone isn't for me, Allah will never let me at peace with them

89. I was fine before them, i will fine after them too

90. Everything happens for a reason

91. Focus on improving not proving

92. Work in silence then let the success speak

93. Being nice doesn't mean making myself small for other people's comfort

94. Hard choice = easy life

Easy choice = hard life

95. Choose myself first before others

96. Sometimes being more heartless makes life get easier

97. Someone out there feels so grateful of meeting me

98. Wanting a sign, is a sign too.

99. I can always be a better version of my current self.

100. Look at people's actions. Not their words.

[bleue-flora]

Tbh Im just thinking of something that im really curious and doesnt let me asleep. What was cdream planing to do once he was inside the prison? Bc if it was just contain the revival book then...why he had the plan to not stay too long in there? cpunz kinda implies the plan was meeting soon after cdream was imprisionated when they reunited post prison break. So what was his plan? the little we see of cdream in prison before he kills ctommy was him just passing around the cell and getting bored and starting to be starved by csam. Was it a plan to united the server, stay imprisoned a few weeks and then come out acting as if he changed? well that'd make sense, also could explain why he insisted so much in that he changed or leave forever even with people he and everyone knew wouldnt buy that at all like ctommy or csam after ctechno escape. But that stills makes me uneasy bc he didnt try that much. He didnt try to act like he was "reformed"(meaning as what the server expected to him to act if he reformed not in a way saying imprisoment is a was okay or acceptable way to help someone), he tells ctommy he burned the books when ctommy asked him to write novels as a way to say sorry.

Im just thinking what was he planned to do inside the prison? just stay there and rot for an indeterminaded amount of time? idk if the "contain the revival book" as his only motive fits bc then why he seemed to have planned with cpunz to meet soon and also planned that cranboo explodes tnt to trap a visitor with him? And the "trying to act as if he changed" while it makes more sense to me, it also doesnt convince me 100% for what I just said. Maybe a combination of the two? it could be, a person can have multiple reasons to do something. But idk, what do you think was cdream plan once he was inside the prison?

-Cleo

That is The question isn’t it -Why put himself in prison?

And the thing is I can’t really give you a definitive answer because we just don’t know. There are lots of variables and we just don’t have enough data to determine the answer, especially when we don’t even get his pov or get to see 80% of his lore. The best I can give you is my theory on why I personally think he did it, which I have talked about [here], based on the information we do have and assuming he’s not completely crazy, and is following some form of logical plan, however flawed…

For starters, one of the things we do reasonably know based on the amount of times it comes up including the finale is his larger desire and motivation - "Always the goal has just been that it's all one united server, that everybody follows the same rules, there's no countries there's no, you know, any of this it's just one giant like family." [clip], “I want everyone to live and be happy together” forever [clip], (after spending time in Dream’s head we get Tommy saying) “You just want things to be simple.” [clip] and then of course -> “I just don’t want to ever be alone.” [clip]

That’s the base line - Dream does not want to be alone, he craves community and family, a world where everyone is happy and together.

So keeping that in mind, for starters I don’t think he did it to “contain the revival book” and honestly I’m not even sure where that reasoning came from, I don’t think I’ve ever seen it and it really doesn’t even work as you point out, one reason being that Dream’s stay was meant to be temporary.

I also don’t think the reasoning of uniting the server works either because for starters the whole server isn’t even present for his arrest and the ones who are there weren’t necessarily big enemies before that. Besides technically he already did a better job uniting people against him during Doomsday. Now maybe that was a side bonus or goal but I don’t think it’s the main reasoning.

But yes, I do think it was a means to be seen as reformed or less of a threat by the server. I go into some of that reasoning in my other post. I think it was about providing a pathway to him not being enemy number 1 anymore. Because people had been rallying against him even in a time of mostly peace with the biggest example being L’manberg planning to assassinate him in cold blood in the Green Festival. Everyone was against him, even his friends and everyone lived in such fear and hatred of him no one would even hear him out. I mean I think the dethronement conversation is a great example of this (I provide a good bit of transcript in this [post]). Everything he said was seen as unreasonable and malicious and he was left alone with no way to mend these relationships. Everyone wanted him dead, but he didn’t want to die and while he could just leave to protect himself, we know he didn’t want to be alone, so instead his made a plan to a path of him being redeemed in the eyes of the server.

That was the plan right. Everyone defeats their villain, gets their revenge, but instead of him ending up dead like they wanted he is alive in prison and now that he’s stripped of his power, fear is more removed allowing for relationships. No longer is he this unstoppable evil overseer but just a person. Or so was I think his intention. They would keep him in there for a bit, realize not everything is his fault, that he isn’t this big evil tyrant, get their satisfied comeuppance and then people would let him out. Consider Bad’s reaction to visiting Dream [post] - he’s done bad things but he deserves better than to suffer - that is a whole different reaction than the person willing to have him murdered completely - dead forever - by Tommy a few days prior.

Anyways, if that was his goal, then why didn’t he try to act reformed upon his escape? Well… that was his original plan. By the time he escapes he has spent months being starved, isolated, and tortured, his mental stability ain’t exactly top notch at that point and based on those things even happening in the first place, his belief that people would think he’s reformed or allow him back into society has likely been squashed. Clearly, he didn’t think his previous friends would torture, starve, threaten to kill him if he ever leaves, even try to kill him when he’s already locked up. He underestimated their hatred and fear of him, so I doubt he had much faith at all for them to even let him have a chance to be “reformed” or just not wanna kill him at that point, since again most of the people he’s interacted with up until he escaped wanted him dead or promised to kill him.

However, I do think there was still that underlying hope. You can hear that hope bleed out of his voice in his conversation with Sapnap as he goes from trying to reason with Sapnap as an old friend even with the offer to start over, to sounding just as insane and malevolent as he did with Tommy [clip] -> [clip] -> [clip]. He tries so hard to avoid the fight that Sapnap is setting him up for, he tries so hard for them just to not be enemies. But him escaping prison is evidence for Sapnap that Dream is still hostile and even the torture is not a good enough reasoning for that escape to be anything but proof of his violent ways. And you can hear the switch in his voice the moment he realizes the only way people listen to him is if he’s the villain they see him as, if he finds their weakness and exploits it, threatening to destroy something they love (sound familiar doesn’t it?…)

As for his encounter with Tommy, after spending time with him in prison and then Tommy trying to kill him while he was in prison, I don’t think he thought there was any world where they weren’t enemies. Tommy already proved himself to be hostile and he, despite his fear of Dream, even came to get the weapons and confront Dream in the exile area, knowing Dream was going there, proving to still be an active threat. And what does a rattle snake do when a threat appears? They rattle, they rattle make themselves appear big, they make the threat afraid and send the threat away. And that is what I believe Dream is doing with Tommy in that confrontation. He’s making him afraid, so Tommy will be too scared to come after him. I don’t think he ever intended to make good on his threats, because honestly, there are other people on his priority list to get revenge and make suffer. And he’s saying the same things he said in the finale, we know was staged, about how he’s targeting Tommy specifically and Tommy being the main fun to torment on the server.

Now this plan does end up backfiring a bit because the moment Tommy returns home he immediately starts to form a group to go after and kill Dream, fortifying Tubbo’s house to serve as a base and gathering gear… etc. It’s because of that, that I think he leaves the creepy disc in Tommy’s basement, to make him more afraid so he’s too scared to come after him… so to me I’m not sure we can say he didn’t try to act reformed, I don’t think he was given the chance. Even with people like Foolish, who doesn’t even know him, he’s on rocky terms with. It doesn’t seem to matter what he does after prison, he can mind his own business - lock himself away and not bother anyone for months or go through with his threats and they’ll still wait outside his door to kill him and sneak into his house in the middle of the night to slit his throat. Hell even if he had done as Techno had and built a cottage in the middle of nowhere, I bet people still would have come after him. He’s Dream after all…

So Dream is clearly dancing on the edges of insanity and unable to gain any credit of change from people after prison, but as you point out, what about in prison. He sure didn’t seem to go out of his way to act reformed in prison and that was before the torture so does that mean this theory of him trying to be “reformed” in the eyes of the server isn’t his goal? Well no, not necessarily. As I’ve already mentioned, we can see the way he acts with Bad is very pitiful and making himself seem small and unthreatening to be let out, and we see him apologize to Tommy in his first visit and such. This though doesn’t appear to last long, but I think that is because he was experiencing lots of isolation, and not isolation that can be distracted from with like watching a movie or something (because he has nothing) - isolation without really anything to quell it. If you’ve watched videos relating to isolation or know much about it then you’ll know that it tanks mental health real fast. Therefore Dream’s insanity sets in fast. Leading to his desperation for human contact, so then instead of acting all good and getting reformed and paying for his crimes and being remorseful and such, he starts acting out like throwing himself into lava and burning the clocks just so Sam has to come visit him. His misbehavior then I think is a symptom and consequence of the prison conditions not necessarily part of his plan. He also calls it a prank so he probably didn’t think it’d go that much against his plans of seeming better, but clearly Sam doesn’t seem to appreciate his pranks and starts becoming more hostile and such, which shouldn’t suprise us given Sam’s behavior in the prison even early on. In addition, even Sam’s response to Ponk in the tour of the prison and what he says to Bad later about using food as a means to get information, I’d say it’s fair to assume that Sam’s intense demeanor likely started early on, meaning I think Dream’s food was being withheld early on, before the dropper was added. And that’s besides the fact that going from eating steak to a few raw potato’s would be a huge food reduction and cause issues anyways. So even before things get real bad, Dream’s mental stability is dropping real fast and you can see it from each visit he gets. There is genuine mental decline there even if Dream does also seem to use it to his advantage. I mean who knows what Sam did for Dream to stop talking altogether in protest in Sapnap’s visit… bare in mind too, if we look at the timelines Exile only lasted 9 days, countries only last a month or two, things went really fast so it’s not unreasonable for Dream to think his sentence would be short. But then “forever” is being thrown around even by his own friend and that’s when he probably realizes his plan is falling apart.

So by the time, Tommy visits again Dream is not in an optimistic and good mental state. Plus if I remember right, I believe Tommy said he’d visit a lot and even suggested being his like “therapist” but then didn’t come back until a month later on Feb 21st. So maybe Dream wrote the books but in his frustrating of being left alone and Tommy not coming back, ended up burning them.

In other words, I think originally the plan was for people to come visit and talk to him and see that he’s not such a bad guy and that his punishment has been sufficient to then be let out. But things fall apart fast. Isolation and boredom starts to set in, food starts to be limited, and people don’t visit. He just didn’t want to be alone -> and now is left entirely alone.

Then his plan to trap Tommy happens likely way later then it was supposed to because I doubt he expected it to be a month before Tommy returns, and he aims to make some form of amends however minuscule or least have them learn to cohabitate, but that doesn’t go to plan at all, in fact Tommy calls him names and bickers and whines the whole time and 9 days later after Dream expresses his love for the cat, Tommy kills it as well as starts doubting the existence of the Revive Book (the only reason they left him alive in the first place). So after spending weeks in boredom, isolation with low levels of food, and after over the week that was supposed to happen (based on the prison waiver signed) of listening to Tommy bitch and dealing with his punching and calling him names, and even while experiencing the terrible conditions still being adamant that Dream deserves this, Dream beats his head in in a fit of mania. And that I doubt was planned either, and certainly helps ruin his bigger plan.

So what was he planning to do in prison? I think be visited. I think write notes and letters to people and such. I don’t think it was about being reformed or redeemed per say or that Dream believed he needed that (though a fair argument could be made that that was part of it) but about just not being enemies. In an ideal situation he’d become friends again with people, but I think he’d have settled for just being seen as some guy again and not having everyone trying to kill him. Like how Bad didn’t become his friend during prison or after but isn’t necessarily actively seeking him out to kill him. Dream just didn’t want to be alone and I personally think the only way he saw a way to not be was to put himself in prison to be let out by the server when they were ready to not want to just kill him… but as it turns out they never stopped wanting to kill him, they were only held back by the knowledge of a book he had. And instead of going from big bad villain to just some guy, he became nothing more than a book instead. Instead of gaining friends to not be alone, his friends became his enemies and he was left to rot completely alone… and after almost an entire year of suffering, he’s still enemy number 1, he’s still hunted down like a dog, they still want to kill him. Only this time, instead of stabbing him in the back at a festival, they make a deal with god just to kill him and break into his house in the night to kill him. In the end, if his plan was to be let out and let back into society as no longer the enemy, then his plan failed so spectacularly. And whether there was a moment specifically in prison or out where his plan became no longer feasible or whether it was unrealistic from the very start remains unclear. Though you could make an argument for each, I’d say both are probably true… I think it was perhaps the only option at least in Dream’s mind to have his family back and yet I also think it was probably damned to fail from its very conception…

[ultimate-marysue]

Magnus Protocol ARG

Im not sure if someone else has already done this (most likely) but I've been re-readin the magnus institute excell with all the kids names. Since the tests where psychological in nature I thought maybe I could figure out if the "Connor" Dyer profile worked for Alice. But I think I've found out something about Sam. This might be the most tin foil hat theory I've had in a while but it makes sense! I've connected the dots!!!!!

There's a couple of things I need to stablish first:

The names seem to be ranked from lowest to highest score on the empathy test.

Sam scored the highest, Gerry the second highest (Dyer is closer to the middle of the list).

The tests seem to relate to cognitive development, especially related to morality and empathy.

The Asch test measures your "conformity" aka, how susceptible you are to peer pressure. Basically, they ask you a question, everyone before you gives the wrong answer, and the test is whether you would give the correct answer or go with what the others said.

The Milgram test measures your obedience when in conflict with your morality. The (very) abridged version is: they tell you tu punish someone by shocking them with increasing voltages and if you refuse they ask you to continue. The experiment goes on until reaching 450 volts or if the participant completely refuses even when ordered to continue.

We know the Institute was trying to find Subjects, Agents and Catalysts (there's an amazing post about this from @alice-apparently )

Okay so I made a little excell with the relevant info:

Both Gerry and Dyer show low conformity and obedience levels. Which, knowing Gerry (and maybe Alice??) makes complete sense. We can assume that they both chose to give the correct answer even if everyone else answered differently, and they also refused to administer the punishment even when directly ordered.

Sam on the other hand, mr "would rather die than complain about being forcefed cake" did in fact go with what most people said instead of the correct answer. He also finished the Milgram experiment, going against his moral compass to obey the instructions.

I think they were trying to find viable subjects to groom into avatars for the eye. Hear me out. The kids with the lowest empathy score show high scores in the Milgram test (makes sense, they don't care as much about hurting people) but from 80% empathy forward no one scores high. No one except Sam, the one with the highest empathy score.

Why not just pick the one's with the least empathy? the least empathetic kids were also the youngest and the ones with lowest cognitive developement (I do not go in deph about the other test but you can see the scores for yourself here). This kids aren't useful yet, because maybe they'll become more empathetic (And as such, more resistent to the Milgram test) as they grow up/develop.

Not Sam. He has perfect scores in every single development test, he has the highest empathy and yet he's the most likely to be influenced to harm other people.

In episode 10 Sam confirms his obsession with finding out why they didn't chose him despite having the highest scores. Gerry was the second highest and he didn't get picked either. My theory is that Sam was indeed chosen, and the fact that he shows no survival instincts when it comes to figuring this mystery out is prove.

His test results show someone whiling to file useless papeworks with extremely personal information because "well, you're supposed to even if no one reads it". Also Teddy leaving for a job that somehow didn't actually exist smells like somebody trying to free a spot in the very Eye-coded OIAR. A spot that Sam is more than happy to accept.

I don't know if this is an incredibly long con to condition Sam into the perfect vessel for the eye or if the Magnus Institute had to change plans after burning down. If it's the latter I can see them being very happy when their specialest little boy signed up for the OIAR and fell right into their laps again. Either way, Sam's fucked.

[unlovablelover]

is it okay to ask for a gn reader w a specific body type? i'm sorry if it's against your rules, i may have forgotten.. i got that fog in me.

i wanna request a reader, who is very skinny.. like.. where are your organs babe. their organs are there, they're just built like that for some reason. just some general headcans of Mr. Crawling's, Mr. Silvair's and Mr. Gap's reactions to finding that out.

(do you think Mr. Gap could appear in-between their thigh gap when they're sitting down?)

i hope you're doing well! also, happy early christmas :3

ans: hello, thanks for asking. u're good to go, don't worry. the only rule i have is i won't be writing nsfw no matter what, not even a little bit. im js not interested - sorry in advance for anyone who wants those kinda stuff :{

this was fun. i made the reader have something like an almost skeletal form...is that fine? anyway let's get started, shall we?

SKINNY READER

Homicipher men: Crawling, Silvair, Gap

Part1(?)

(i was reminded of Skinny by rebzyyx when i saw this request, haha)

Mr. Crawling

-when you first appeared in the building, he was very surprised to see you

-you looked so small, frail and possibly weak (not)

-his first thought is definitely him thinking you're weak but not in the degrading way, just his assumption

-because of that, he's determined to help you, he thinks you're in need of protection and possibly some food

-cmon, he'll definitely try to feed you things, i think he'll think you've been starved

-might take him a while to fully accept that you're js built like that

-i think what'll make him accept is if he saw you fighting off a monster w ease, he is shocked, but not surprised, at least he doesn't have to worry about you getting hurt by others since you've shown him you're perfectly capable of protecting yourself

-when it's time to relax in bed after a long day of walking around, he'll definitely take his time to observe your body more closely (not in a perverted way, he's a gentleman!)

-might trace his fingers on parts of your body, maybe your arms, your hands

-might compare the difference with his

-i think he'll feel "ehehehe'" about it for some reason

-definitely appreciates the way your slender fingers run through his loooooong hair

-will be careful if he gets on the bed with you tho

-he's afraid he's gonna crush you if he makes one wrong move

-avoids being on your arms because he thinks he'll snap them in half

-yes, he still has doubts about how strong you (or i think your bones) are

Mr. Silvair

-not a hint of surprise at the first sight of you

-just a mild sense of curiosity

-i don't think he'll really care about your wellbeing unless you're injured with an open wound, i think he only cares for those who r close/spent some time w him

-definitely wants to know how you're so skinny

-his theories are up and going

-maybe you're starved? maybe you have an illness? can it be cured? can he cure it?

-cue his creepy smile at the thought of experimenting

-not hesitant to ask you directly about it

-will be disappointed to know you're just built like that and there's nothing to solve or cure

-i think he'll take your measurements and stuff to see just how small/skinny you are compared to the average human

-in the name of science, he'll try to find a way to see your body under your shirt (again, not sexually - i don't think they need/crave sex...sorry?)

-wants to see the way your ribs are visible as they bulge against your skin, or the deep dip of your stomach

-revels at the sight, so intriguing....

-how easy it would be to chop you up, right?

-might secretly wait for you to get injured so he can have an excuse to chop a part of your body off

-js so he can see how much faster it takes u to heal

Mr. Gap

-i don't think he reacts/cares much about your appearance

-all he sees is someone to demand things from

-although i think he'd be surprised by how easy it is to take your (reluctantly offered) arm/leg/finger

-just like snapping a stick

-might ask a couple of questions after y'all get to know each other for a bit, but his curiosity isn't as much as mr silvair's

-i think he just doesn't care, not in a bad way tho

-js think of it as him seeing past appearances and only caring for what's inside (which is your heart)

-can he appear in the thigh gap?

-it's in his name, if there's a gap then there's mr gap

-i don't think he realizes the gaps he inhabits tho

-not that he cares, i think he's pretty carefree like that

-so whenever u want to see him, js sit down and wait for him to appear

-so convenient!

[thornswoggled]

on chises family, "a storm brewing in the east," and future arcs

hello im back from two years of not posting on this sideblog to spitball a theory thats been burning a hole in my brain since i caught up with the manga. all loose speculation, id be extremely interested to hear thoughts on this

now that fumiki is back in the picture, id like to theorize that yuuki hatori will soon follow. for the purpose of this theory im going to skip all the reasons why yori is absolutely fumiki. imo theres no point addressing all the evidence here, but id be happy to summarize if not. more attention being paid to chises life in japan, chise wondering why her father "abandoned his role," and elias expressing curiosity over the circumstances that led her to meet seth are all hints towards yuukis story coming to light

one thing TAMB does that i love is how tertiary characters are facsimiles meant to help us understand our main characters. for example, all the "toxic" pairs we see in season 1 that we are meant to compare and contrast elias and chise to, all in various ways that help us understand the ways their relationship might evolve. these minor characters may seem unimportant, but are preparing us to accept developments in the main cast. i believe there are two characters in the college arc that are prepping us for yuuki hatoris story - seth noel and adam sargent

lets first address fumiki, who ill just call yori. yori seems to have mastery over his eyes, which "have the power to bind [fae]" according to gabriella. this is a power both he and yuuki have, which protects chise and chika for a time. however, chika implies in chapter 19 that he didnt always have this ability, or perhaps didnt have the sight at all until he became involved with her. which is strange, considering yori has a "family business" important enough to require he study abroad to train for:

lets run with the idea that yuuki started off with weak or nonexistent powers. have any other men in this series been booted from their families because they lacked the skill?

its possible that this "family business" (assuming yuuki didnt found it himself, and that yori doesnt just mean the church, which i dont think he does because he seems specialized in exorcism) eventually learned that yuuki acquired his binding powers, as well as a child with the same ability. again, are there are other men who are forcibly dragged back into their family, to the detriment of their young daughters?

theres a few reasons why i think such care and time was put into the backstory of philomelas family. chise has done much of the character growth thats possible for her at this time, and attempts to "fix" philomela as a way of fixing herself. she projects on her, and for good reason too, since we are meant to compare them almost 1:1. i believe that the amount of time sunk into adam sargents story is meant to warm us up to understanding yuukis situation, regardless of whether we are meant to forgive him for his abandonment. seths story, too, introduces us to the idea of magical families booting their unworthy kin. which leads us to:

going back to the screencap for the beginning, lets give yuuki the benefit of the doubt and assume hes being truthful when he promises hell be back for the girls one day. this phrasing is really interesting, and i feel like it implies yuuki knows the place hes going is too dangerous for them. assuming hes returning to his family, or to some sort of organization (which i say because yori is part of the conclave/church), perhaps hes afraid that theyll be taken advantage of. or... maybe he was just lying! there is very little we understand about the church, so there are all manner of reasons why yuuki and yori may have ended up involved with them

so, great, okay. fumiki is here, and yuuki may be coming soon. under what context might he show his face? i have some ideas, but this soon into the arc everything is too subject to change. im also not convinced any of this will be addressed in the fiendbane arc. after all, yori was first introduced at the beginning of the college arc, and is only now becoming relevant. so all of this may only be laying the groundwork for yuuki to return in another arc, if not this one, which appears to have a lot cooking already with the dragon, the new mage, etc. but then again, we get oberons little prophecy:

i think we all understand this is japan, right. like, it has to be. it doesnt seem that oberons phrasing in the JP text matches what the great wall of china is called in japanese, but i dont think we are meant to interpret it any other way. what else could it mean, hadrians wall? cmon

all of this focus on chises family, past, and meeting with seth are perhaps warming us up to these people and places becoming relevant when the storm breaks. and i believe yori and yuuki will be the ones to involve chise in it all. now, at this point its clear yori doesnt know who chise is, and is just as likely to not know he had a sister at all. but i think this guy knows:

now... i double checked, and im almost certain this is not seths bodyguard. they have similar hair and fashion, but seths bodyguard parts his hair to the side. its been so long since yuuki has appeared in the manga that its impossible to know for sure if this is him, and im not confident at all that he is. they share some qualities for sure, but that doesnt mean much in this medium. he certainly has yoris swooping hair, at least, so if hes not yuuki he might still be related to him. in the same family business, perhaps? all we know is that hes been here before, and may have been keeping tabs on them in the same way the church does

the use of "wrest" in the above panel is notable here. to wrest is to forcibly take something, and what kind of "blessing" would they want to seize from elias' possession? maybe a useful slay vega that yuuki failed to disclose? if, IF this is yuuki, his demeanor has changed much over the years, and perhaps he is more willing to put chise to use now that he knows where she is. its possible yuuki is making good on his promise, and really is coming back for his daughter like he said he would. we have, after all, seen in chapter 99 how liam and isaac are both unwilling to return to their homes, and the sudden development of philomela being taken in by the scrimgeours. again, philomela is meant to be a near 1:1 chise dupe, so its compelling that we are just now seeing her spirited away to join another family without warning. again, developments among secondary characters prep us for developments among the main cast

again, too soon to tell, and the next chapter is coming soon, so theres a chance this will all immediately blow up in my face. however, we have already seen chise get scouted by another mage, and elias considers how frightened he is that chise will desire something "he cant provide." so how catastrophic would it be if she was also compelled to rejoin her family, searching for answers and closure in a way elias cannot understand? personally id love to see it, though itll be a long way off

do you think yuuki is coming back? do you think yori is a red herring? let me know. ill leave you with this

[infiniteetcetera]

The only things we learned from SJM’s recent interview snippet being:

1. Next book is longgggg

2. Next book is super far from done…

Makes me wonder if there actually is something super surprising coming, like something she herself didn’t even necessarily plan? (especially since we know CC3 got major rewrites after it was nearly done) I do think there could be some elements of the expected story that could fall into this (I think the most obvious route is a book with Elain/Azriel/Luciens POVs and those are three characters we have the most to learn from) but everything about the ACOTAR characters in CC3 make me wonder if she won’t go in an unexpected route

The most obvious thing to point out is Nesta being so prominent which makes sense on thematic levels to some degree but also we have to remember SJM is in control of what she’s writing and if she wanted to…that could have been Feyre with Bryce the whole book??? Or Elain or Gwyn or Mor or whoever with just a few minor plot point shifts. The Azriel of it all seems to check out but the emphasis on Nesta is so curious to me because I’d argue it doesn’t even make entire logic sense (like Rhys was throwing a fit at her for how she handled Bryce as if he didn’t send her in their with presumably almost zero training) and she’s been set up for something different in more ways then one now…

Which brings me to another point, maybe it’s just my Anti-Nessian instincts talking but like…what was the need to continue to make them so gross still??? I had kind of accepted by the end of ACOSF “yeah this pair kind of sucks but it is what it is they’re getting a happily ever after now” but that’s just so clearly NOT THE CASE. The whole Rhys issue is still super prominent, but the narrative is actually finally starting to acknowledge that like, maybe this isn’t okay??? Before in the text you read the awful things Cassian says and does and the narrative is just Nesta’s POV being like “yeah but im terrible and worthless and he’s great so I deserve this” and readers just have to stomach it but Ember stepping in feels like a shift in acknowledgment that this treatment isn’t fair and the part that always gets me is THAT STUPID SEXIST JOKE THE GUYS LAUGH AT BUT NESTA AND EMBER DONT. that’s such an intense and powerful moment, especially when these are two abuse survivors tolerating it and it’s literally like three lines that didn’t need to be there if they weren’t important???

This all adds up to me for the next book as meaning:

a) something really bad is going to happen to Nesta and the plot focus will be in some degree on helping her (maybe using the star sword, which would likely involve her sisters/Azriel)

b) Nesta’s POV still being a thing….

I know the second option would maybe feel wrong in a book that is probably meant to focus on her sister but there aren’t really rules about these things. SJM made a passing comment once about the new spinoffs being “one couple” focused and “each sister/her lover” focused but she really doesn’t have to stick to that. Even the OG ACOTAR trilogy was not that at all. We got maybe like three chapters in total of Rhy’s POV??? Even the text itself was first person which has been a major shift (side note people always ignore in their evil Rhys theories, we’ve only ever gotten Feyre and him in first person, we knowww this man). I think it would not be super crazy if next book is very multi-POV. It would still probably be focused on one person mostly (I am thinking Elain or Azriel and I think there are a lot of valid reasons to support that no matter who they wind up with) but having POVs from at least Nesta and maybe some other characters (dream ones here are Eris, the Valkyries, Vassa/Jurian, and a return to Mor’s POV) could make a lot of sense and be done in a way that still “focuses” on one character mostly. The most obvious examples to me are CC (those are Bryce’s book, but there are so many other POVs) and TOD (undeniably Chaol’s book, but there are other POVs).

I don’t know I think all the clues we’ve gotten so far suggest something bigger and less expected for ACOTAR 6 then just a “Elain’s version of ACOSF” sort of deal. If it were just that simple I feel like by now SJM could just…say that? Like call me crazy but I don’t think announcing it’s Elains book would be new information at all if it’s that simple?? it doesn’t tell us who she’s gonna wind up with and it’s perfectly in line with what people expect. Now I know there’s a whole slew of people who believe in a “just an Azriel” or Azriel/Gwyn book next but I just don’t see that for a lot of reasons (I mean I could be wrong and all the theorizing was for nothing but I don’t think I am). This really is not a point against Azriel/Gwyn either but I don’t see the logic in addressing their story before Elain/Azriel and Elain/Lucien. Chronologically it just doesn’t make sense to me and I actually think having them together first would detract a lot from an Elucien story (it’d just feel gross to me if Az finds his mate and then all of the sudden elains like ‘fine Lucien let’s figure this out🙄’ like if she’s going to choose Lucien let her choose Lucien please).

Im always curious to know other people’s thoughts, especially since we continuously have so little to go off of🙃 I do think there are even broader economic/practical elements it’s easier to ignore when your in a fandom space like…does any of this matter since it happened in CC3??? Do the bonus chapters even matter??? Would SJM be right in expecting people to have read them to “get” the next book. I think we all have very different impulses about this and actually think next book could be a rude awakening about it (like is there a world where nothing about the necklace/Elriel kiss/Gwynriel/Rhys is ever acknowledged??? it seems crazy to think about given fan discourse and theories but if SJM turned around and said “those bonus chapters are silly deleted scenes like” how could the people argue???) but I think it’s more likely there’s an acknowledgment most people have read all these series and she’s sort of priming them to do so with all these references. I just don’t know how much self contained ACOTAR related plot next book will have and how much of it will address these broader issues with the multi verse (like again Azriel can hear the star sword and it affects truth teller??? he lives in the same house with Nesta and that sword and can presumably use both, how could it not be acknowledged???) but I am curious to find out and honestly not even sure what I prefer

[teenagedracula]

Otherkin headcanon post because mine never get accepted into those headcanon accounts

// Starting with the most conventional ones

Luz, from the owl house

A LOT of people say this, but i fully believe it. She's canonically very versed in internet culture. I believe it would stem mostly from hyperfixations (i believe it does for alot of headcanons since im projecting alot)

She'd have several kintypes. Possibly snakekin, catkin, otterkin. Maybe a few fantasy ones, possibly griffinkin, MAYBE dragonkin. An azura fictkin would also make sense. She'd do quads, cosplays, make masks, moodboards, kinedits, the works.

Again, another very very obvious one

Hunter, from the owl house. This one again is so popular. But hes very important to me (I kinsidered him before i even knew what it was) but obviously i hc him as wolfkin, maybe even werewolfkin. For similar reasons to Luz, but also heavily for coping reasons. He'd be much more spiritual and closed in about it, i cant see him doing quads but i can see him making a mask or two. He'd mix up wolves and coyotes alot tho aswell

Getting the last obvious one out of the way

All of them. At least most of the vampkids from Southpark as vampirekin. But i also believe they'd all have different related animal kintypes. like bats most commonly, then wolves. And other animals like crows and rats and spiders. All for different reasons

This one is a bit more of a stretch

Anne, from anne with an e. If she had lived in the modern day she'd ADORE therian tumblr. She'd have a few kintypes, possibly some animal types like foxes or doves. Maybe a few fantastical/religious types, i can definitely see her as fallen angelkin, possibly fairykin. And ockin aswell. Partially a coping mechanism, mostly spiritual. Shed write poetry about it definitely. And she'd write so much about her past lives.

This one is just a bit more of a stretch, and has been taken as a troll submission before

Sheldon, from the big bang theory. He is canonically very versed in fandom culture, and he wouldn't know of kin culture in the way people on tumblr do, but alot of internet kin culture arose from the lord of the rings fandom in the 90s, he'd definitely be aware of it. For kintypes, i can see him very vividly as vulcankin (star trek) or even possibly a spock fictkin. Maybe robotkin as even more of a stretch. It's nearly canon in some kind of way. It would stem as a coping mechanism heavily, but also from special interests and a deep personal connection from dehumanized his whole life, very often compared to spock and robots and aliens, and using them as a way to express his own emotions (i have a lot of thoughts about tbbt i apologize.)

Lastly (and the biggest stretch)

Herman, from the vampire bat. This is the biggest stretch, mostly because the movie takes place in the 1930s at the latest.

Again, a poorly done, demonized portrayal of an autistic man with a special interest in bats. Extremely protective of them, extremely connected to them. In short i headcanon him as batkin. Vampirebat specifically. Which is entirely a projection but its okay

Thanks for reading goodbye

[immissingmaxx]

My Mascot// Tendou Satori

Chapter Seven: Too Much

Summary: When testing a theory goes south, Tendou steps in to save the day

Warnings: Partying, drinking, drunk reader, whipped Tendou, MrBeast videos

Word count: 1544

Im starting to think this was a mistake.

The loud blaring music resonated through my ears as sweaty, intoxicated bodies bumped around me. Kanna made sure i stayed by her side as she made her way from the front door, to the kitchen, to the couch, back to the kitchen, back to the back, the bathroom, the back porch, and back to the couch.

The whole thing has me contemplating why i had the whole "maybe there are times i can like being around other people" thought.

This is not what i wanted.

"When you asked to join this was not what i was expecting." Kanna leaned against the couch next to me, carelessly cradling her cup to her hip. "Granted, I wasn't expecting to join at all."

I nodded. I sat bunched up against the couch, carefully cradling my own cup close to my chest.

"I guess this wasn't what i was expecting either." I glanced to my phone, Tendou's contact lighting up my screen.

"That's my fault. I should've bought you to a more tamer party for your first time." Kanna took a sip of her drink, the smell of alcohol tainting her breath. I looked down to my own cup. Maybe i wasn't having fun because im not doing it right. Everyone else here is socializing, and playing around, and.. drinking.

"No.. no i should be having fun." I stretched my legs from their bunched position on the couch and sat up leaning over to see whats in Kanna's cup.

"What are you drinking?"

"Oh, you don't want this. Really if your not having fun we can go home." Kanna held her cup to her chest.

"I want to have fun." Kanna furrowed her brows. She sighed and stood up, taking my hand.

"Okay fine, but tell me when you're not having fun, then we'll go back okay?"

-

Tendou's Pov

Staying up has never been a terrible habit for me. Sure most nights id get too invested in a YouTube video, or a game but otherwise i sleep just fine.

Sure staying up until 1 am waiting for a call or text from someone sounds ridiculous but she could be up too.

"I have built the most deadly obstacle course in the world. And my friend Mac here is attempting to complete it, without falling 200 feet to the ground."

This is ridiculous.

I sighed, tossing my phone next to me and shuffling under my blanket. Maybe it is a bit stupid to wait for a call when i just gave her my number.

I closed my eyes, readying myself for sleep. Just then my phone rang.

I almost jumped up, checking to see who was calling me. An unidentified number. I sat up, cleared my throat, and accepted the call.

"Hello?"

"Uh, hi? This is Tendou?"

Its not L/n's voice. The background is a bit muffled but still loud. Sounds like a partyz

"Uh yeah. Who is this?"

"It's Kanna. F/n's friend. Im sorry, i know its a little late but your the only contact i could find in F/n's phone and none of my friends were available-"

"Is L/n okay?" I tossed my blankets off of me, still holding my phone to my ear as i one handedly made my way down the ladder of the bunk bed.

"Um, she's a bit.. pretty drunk. She came to a party with me and insisted on drinking. I didn't know she'd be like this."

She's drunk? I hurriedly kicked on my shoes and threw on my hoodie.

"Where are you? I'll come get you guys."

"Not too far. Some kid's house party I'll text you the address." Kanna hung up. I sighed and walked to the window. I've snuck out before. The DM's lock the dorm doors after bed check so everyone always sneak out the windows.

I climbed down threw the window, just as i made it down I received a text from Kanna. As soon as i knew where i was going, i was bolting down the street. It really wasn't too far so i could make it. Im not sure what i was scared of. She's just drunk, she's not in danger or hurt. Still, that doesn't stop me from running to her as if she'll evaporate if i don't make it to her in time.

-

"Oh my gosh, thank you so much for getting her." Kanna thanked me as i heaved L/n onto my back.

"What happened to her?"

"She insisted she wanted to drink. She tried talking to a few people but whenever she felt like she wasn't doing something right, or felt awkward, she just kept drinking." Kanna trailed next to me as we began to make our way back to our dorms.

"I should've been more watchful over her, i just thought.. maybe this was what she wanted, maybe she needed this, maybe.. i-i dont know.." Kanna rambled on, clearly feeling guilty for how this night turned out.

"Its okay Kanna it's not your fault." I looked back at L/n as she slept soundly on my back.

"Ah, she passed out on the porch before i called you."

I nodded, lifting L/n onto my back more to ensure she didnt slip out of my grasp. Me and Kanna continued walking in silence. I could tell she was still feeling guilty, or maybe it was the alcohol that stumbled her walk. I took a breath, summers not quite over but the nights are still pretty warm.

"So, have you known L/n long? I mean you call her by her first name."

"Oh, we've been roommates since second year. So Yeah i guess its been a while." Kanna chuckled a bit to herself as she thought back. "It took a while for us to get like this. When we first became roommates all she did was study and sleep."

"Sounds like her." I chuckled thinking about it.

"Even though she's changed alot, it really surprised me when she asked to come with me to this party."

"She asked you?" It surprised me a bit hearing L/n was the one to ask to join. I may not know her much but from what i do know it sounds a bit out of character.

"Yeah she did. She seemed pretty outgoing about it too. Like it was the best thing ever, though i guess i was the same way at my first party too."

"Im guessing you go out alot." Kanna laughed nervously at that. It doesnt take a detective to figure that out.

"Thats not bad though, you like to do what you like to do."

"Yeah. I mean i like having all these friends, and being able to go out all the time and always having someone to talk to." Kanna played with her purse strap the more she spoke. "But sometimes, i want something.. less."

"Like, being alone?"

"Well not being alone. Partying with all these people is great and all. And when i hangout with people is always a huge group, with alot of people i dont know.." kanna played with her purse more, seemingly at a loss for words.

"I know what you mean. More isnt always better. Sometimes just hanging out and talking with a small group you consider your close friends is the most fun you can have. Y'know?"

"Yeah.. i know what you mean."

-

"Our dorms here." Kanna stopped us at an open window outside the first floor of the dorms.

"So thats how you get out so much." I gently slid L/n off my back and held her in my arms.

"Yeah, im lucky its this easy for me. Ill go in and get her bed ready, then you can hand her to me." I nodded and Kanna climbed through the window, disappearing behind the closed curtain.

I looked down to the sleeping girl in my arms. Her messy (h/c) hair falling gently from her face. I placed the back of my hand to her cheek, as her usually rosy cheeks burned red. She was burning. I pulled her closer, the scent of her

(f/s) infiltrating my nose. I couldn't help but hold her tighter, as if she'll disappear into thin air if i let go, letting her scent absolutely intoxicate me. I couldn't get enough. I don't think i could get enough. If i could just.. have more..

"Uh Tendou?" Kanna's voice snapped me straight out of my L/n induced trance.

"Oh, sorry." I scooped L/n up from under her legs and carefully bought her over to the window, carrying her through and into Kanna's arms."

"Oh, she's lighter than i thought. And here I thought you were just strong. Thanks again for your help Tendou. See you tomorrow."

"Wha-" Kanna once again disappeared behind the curtains, not letting me register her passive insult. But I'll remember it. I'll remember this Kanna.

I mindlessly dragged myself to my own dorm window, the memories of the events that has just occurred running vividly through my mind. The way i held her, the way she looked sleeping soundly in my arms. So calm, and peaceful. So.. beautiful.

I guess we both had too much tonight..

[trippin-over-my-fandoms]

So since I predicted that Sloane and Luther would get together from the day she was announced as well as a couple of scenes- I feel obligated to share w y'all my batshit crazy idea of what I thought might happen in season 4 and like now that we have TWO trailers why I think it might happen. In other words-

Me being delulu about tua s4 and y'all gotta deal w it

So my initial thought was that in this new timeline they are themselves slotted into lives they don't initially remember, that the longer they dwell in the timeline the more they remember and some come to accept. Up until the inevitable happens and the world is at risk again for whatever reason. However, saving the world means giving up these perfect lives for accepting their shitty dysfunctional reality to save each other. Because the more they stay and accept the more they lose of previous timelines.

I was gonna write a fanfic but then my resident evil obsession started and if y'all have read any of my fanfic y'all know my history with long-fics.

Why do I now think this could actually be the case you ask?

At the end of season 3 Luther takes off after our girl Sloane with Klaus following but everyone else is just so calm. Soooo which leads us to

Trailer 1

Viktor might own or work in a bar. Which the fact that he seems to be somewhat settled for sure tells us that some time has possibly passed between season 3 and 4

The sign says "home for wayward boys" implying that Allison may not have been in the group and maybe neither Viktor before the transition. I'm also wondering if now that his wife is back maybe in this new timeline they both fostered/adopted our main characters.

Oh yeah did I mention Reginald's moon wife is alive? His whole thing with the children was his alien (literally) way to save her. Now she's alive.

Allison is with claire so she also possibly has her life back.

Ben is getting out of jail and like it could be a "time has passed between seasons" thing or something happens in one of the episodes where he winds up locked up.

Diego is at a kid's party and either has his own kid or a niece or something. it's not claire and the family behind him is not his umbrella fam.

MY BOY IS SO SMALL ITS GONNA BE SO WEIRD SEEING HIM "NORMAL" THIS SEASON also he looks kinda sad. trailer two debunks what I initially thought of his reveal in this trailer because I thought oh haha what if it's a Halloween costume but like we'll get to my season 2 crazies hang in there.

Klaus is upside down in an interior (proven by the radiator) so he is either stuck, meditating, in a trance, or it's Sloane holding him there. I also kinda wonder if he's going through a clean streak or something OCD like with his addictions from the whole blue gloves thing. tbh i saw those in the promo and thought it was blue screen and his hands were gonna be effed up lol.

ben shouts "lets go kill this bitch" and allison corrects "this is a rescue mission" sooooooo is reginal and or his wife the bitch in question? and like sloane is the only one missing from our group so maybe she's the one being rescued? or maybe one of the new characters (like gene and jean).

which brings me to a theory I'll get to after my trailer break down and before the second breakdown.

side bar but the xmen stile jet is great lol

the subway is 100% a metaphor for the timelines AND that house diego and luther are at is the one from season two where they see reggie and grace at that party

the mind thingies in the blue room are so fucked up and i cant tell if thats sloane or wife hargreeves or a grace return in the bg but im wondering if it connects them to other timelines? Im wondering if the woman is sloane bc abigail has such curly hair but it does remind me of grace so idk.

upside down umbrella is insane okay

starting to think the jet might be flashbacks

A SPACE SUIT HAND REACHES INTO A RED FORCE SOMETHING FOR ANOTHER HAND AND SLOANE MAYBE????

fuck organization if you have read this far welcome to my brain- anyway- theory is that her place got swapped for abigail hargreeves' on the moon and now our beloved moon boy has to save her from that place. so symbolic.

now i was half put down a few shots later when we see victor emit a similar color power later but trailer 2 kinda backs some stuff up.

so trailer 2

opens with ben alone and confused and vicktor calls ben at the phone booth leading me to 100% believe they have split up again and have to find each other. very nostalgic of season 1 and 2

"there's something happening to you and it's only gonna get worse" so this is either about just ben OR its about all of them. either way ben did look confused so his eldritch horrors are either hulking out or he's losing memory chunks like my theory suggests. but it might revolve around ben bc vicktor specifically says "you" in the next time about the world ending.

(wondering if luther nervous farted in the car lmao)

Gene and Jean are possibly conspiracy theorists or agents posing as them but its interesting they are bringing attention to the altered timelines.

okay yeah world ending revolves around ben im tired okay and not proofing this you're stuck with my ramblings

the white violin is for sure abi hargreeves no doubt it doesn't look like sloane and plus the violin viktor got was bc reggie gave it to him that he got from his wife before she died okay. fanfic rn where viktor is the chosen child fanfic rn where abi loves all the kids fanfic rn where shes alive but shes just as much of a dick and we could have an epic trans story for viktor and expectations and yeah anyway-

whoever said it was jenny in trailer two i wanna kiss u on the lips ur prolly right and i love you for it

"ben died because we failed as a team" "and-" "and what" FOLLOWED BY LUTHERS CONFUSED FACE LEADS ME TO ONE OF TWO THINGS AND YOU ALREADY KNOW ONE OF THEM memory loss my beloved or something shocking occurs to him or like he seems something idk

more blue room stuff and uh maybe its not mind stuff maybe its power stimulation like what if they dont have their powers but ben does idk.

who TF is klaus digging up

OH GUYS NO I THINK LUTHER IS A MALE DANCER THATS WHAT THE SPACE SUIT IS IDK WTF IS THIS SHOW I LOVE IT

anyway they keep showing that one scene and like idk im delulu about sloane im so tired and i am not ready for this show to end in 8 days im sobbing y'all

[kxinv]

I finished iwwv a few days ago, and obvi cant stop thinking about it. Here are my thoughts.😵‍💫

‼️Spoilers‼️

Specifically, I can’t stop thinking about James and how upset he must have been, for all the multitude of reasons he would be.

Everytime I think about how he didn’t want to stay in the Castle, and def didnt wanna stay in his and Oliver’s room alone (whenever oli stayed with Meredith), always on walks or somewhere else we don’t know, I felt sooo bad for him.😭 And how Oliver explained that he hadnt seen or barely saw James for a couple days before the combat class.

I was so upset I felt sick.😫 Like— James is grappling with keeping two secrets from Oliver: one, that he’s in love with him, and two, the murder. So he watches his best friend end up with Meredith and he can’t do anything about it. And then there’s the fear of letting the truth out about Richard and potentially not being accepted by Oliver anymore, not as a friend, let alone as a lover.

Just… how isolating that must have been for him. Not being able to tell—I assume—the only person in the world he’d want to speak to about what happened, and also how he clearly felt unworthy of Oliver bc of what he did. While oliver didn’t believe that he was worthy of james as well—always the sidekick. GOD I HATE IT😖😖

(Sidenote, that point when Oli realizes why James was never at the house, and didn’t want to be alone in their room, bc James asks Wren to come to bed with him. Like yeah, Oliver, catch up. That shit fucking hurt.)

For context, I read through the whole book wondering when they would kiss bc I read a spoiler about it and I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR IT TO BE 16 PAGES FROM THE END WTF. So many times throughout they were literally this close 🤏 from each other and I was like, “this has got to be it, right??” lmaoo

And I’m sure that for both of them, maybe more James than Oliver, they were afraid of messing up their friendship or afraid of being rejected by the other. Which I usually love that about the friends-to-lovers trope, but I could not handle the angst in this fucking book, i was, and still am, distraught😭😭

“‘I never wanted you to look at me the way you’re looking at me right now.’”

FUCK

And then Oliver calling James a prince in that iconic line!!

(seriously tho, Richard used the term “prince” numerous times and meant it in a derogatory way, but Oliver saying it with acceptance, forgiveness, and affection, I—🫠)

Then when the both of them notice Colborne is off to the side, they know things are not going to be the same, and James realizes he might not see oliver again (at least not out of prison, knowing he would be forced to confess im sure), so he cant hold back anymore and kisses oliver. And in that one moment, they experience all the pain and emotion of this is our first kiss, but also (likely) our last.☹️☹️☹️

I get the point of the slow burn and gay tragedy, but MY GOD I just wanted these two boys to be happy.

So I am on the delusional side of things; they deserve a happy ending. James HAS to be alive, plss omgg. (i love reading the theories in fanfics of where ppl believe James disappeared to.) (Also, didnt realize he drove all the way to washington state to drown himself btw, didnt consider where the san juan islands were, just something i looked up and thought was interesting, anyways)

They’re so in love😭😭 I can’t stand it. Espec James. I feel so fucking bad for him, just thinking about how much he was struggling.

Moments that broke me:

- When James showed up at Oliver’s house unannounced. (which ofc he would, where else would he go, who else would he go to or want to be near.)

- Alexander said James couldn’t pick himself up off the floor for like half a week when Oliver was first arrested.

- The kiss on the hand, the last time they saw each other.

- The hope in Oliver when he’s finally out and all he wants is to see James.

- Oliver breaking down at Meredith’s place.

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Okay, now this is just a few other notes I had on the story.

First is just a theory of mine, but I don’t believe James and Wren had any kind of romantic or sexual relationship. I believe it was always platonic / protective. Bc I think that James knew he was in love with Oliver way early on in their friendship, and just didn’t want to admit it for obvious reasons.

(I also think it’s possible James could have resented his feelings for Oliver bc of how Richard taunted him being the smallest of the boys and, perhaps, for being a little fruity and whatnot, so when Oliver ended up with Meredith, I think maybe he focused on Wren as a distraction, the way Oliver used Meredith.)

Also, I dont think oliver is bi, i think he is gay. I thought he was bi at first because—well clearly he’s with meredith, but i started to reconsider when I remembered how he said he’s never brought a girl home before, and he only seems to like meredith bc everyone does and everyone’s supposed to. She’s the conventionally attractive one, and yk, that’s what a lot of queer ppl veer toward. A sort of, idk if its performative heterosexuality or what, but Oliver ends up following the social script for how a presumably straight/cis person is supposed to act. Maybe there’s also the attention from someone like Meredith that feels enticing to him. How she’s considered to be “the hottest girl” at their school and all that, and what being with her would mean for him. I just think Oliver is oblivious to his superficial feelings for her.

Another thing I wanted to mention is that I feel the story lacks in-depth characterization.

Maybe that was a choice to focus on the characters’ archetypes, how they get pigeon-holed to play certain people, but I personally thought it made them feel empty and I couldn’t connect to them. I felt like I didn’t get the full or clear picture of who each character was. Meaning sometimes they didn’t feel like an actual, real person I could meet.

I wish there was more complexity to them, I wish we got to see how each of their internal conflicts—how they deal with their archtypes and their struggle to go against it or accept it, how it causes them distress. I think more explicit examples of that would’ve helped fill in the gaps of their personalities for me. There should have been more moments in the book to show the full depth of who they are, maybe compared to who they want to be. (Not to mention, some characters def got more development than others.)

To be honest, a lot of the story felt disjointed, broken, and put together with pieces missing. Apart from the lack of individual character depth, the dynamics and relationships between the friend group felt somehow superficial and empty as well. I kept thinking how they’ve been friends for three years, but it seemed as though they didn’t really know each other sometimes.

Anyway, that’s all I can think of right now, idk if anyone else felt this way. I’d like to know if someone did/does, bc I honestly felt like there should’ve been more to the story, as I said above it seems like pieces are missing that i beleive if expanded upon would have helped to really develop the characters’ identities, their relationships between each other, and also helped to connect with the audience better.

But maybe I’m just picky🤷 tbh the story resembled one of those average netflix original tv shows most of the time I read through it lol.

[rock-swag-tournament]

i just found this blog but sadly its now the quarterfinals. hyped af for this!!

(im also a rising geo major (freshmen) and was wondering if you had any words of wisdom?)

It is the quarterfinals, but I do still plan to have a rock tournament (no minerals) and another funny rock/mineral/etc tournament which you can submit things to here!

As for words of wisdom...I've had this sitting in my inbox for a couple days and the best I can do is someone else's words. One of my favorite professors has a saying. And this man, I think, is legally considered a dinosaur. That is to say, he got his degree before plate tectonics became the widely accepted theory. Anyway, he would constantly tell us "You're only as good a geologist as the amount of geology you've seen."

Rocks are WEIRD. But the more weird shit you've seen, the better you are at identifying (or at least coming up with a hypothesis about) weird shit in the future.

And I used to be like "I can never be a good geologist because I have not seen that much geology. I can't afford to travel the world, or even the country, to see more geology!"

The good news is, you don't have to travel the world to see more geology. Chances are, there are some weird and cool rocks where you are. Or at least pretty close by. Museums, parks, outcrops on the side of the road, stream beds, field trips, university hand samples, etc are all ways to see more geology.

This professor had a couple other mantras and things, some of which were his and some he borrowed. "All models are wrong but some are useful" (George Box) and "No rock is accidental" (which may be original) but I wont get into those unless anyone is dying to hear more geology philosophy.

My own advice would be 1) Have fun. It's so dumb and cliché, but it's true. In particular, field trips were some of the most fun I've ever had. Even when I was wet and/or cold and/or miserable and/or exhausted (and/or a bit hungover), they're a good time. You get to see real rocks (that sometimes aren't accessible to the general public)! Stand on the edge of highways (and sometimes people stop and ask what you're doing)! Go inside caves or ford streams to see rocks if you're extra lucky!

Also, I haven't met a geology major who stayed with the major who didn't like it. I mean there were times that I was in the basement of the geology building at midnight like, "I have to memorize the names of 155+ rocks for a test tomorrow and I am going to fail why did I ever do this?" but I passed those tests, and there was always at least one other girl in my class who would show up and put on Studio Ghibli lo-fi and we'd study together.

It isn't all fun field/lab work and licking rocks. There is a lot more math and chemistry and physics (and even biology) than most people might anticipate. But it's all more than manageable. And it's COOL to see those fields interacting. So if you hate every second of it, something ain't right!

Which leads me to 2) It's okay if the plans change. When I showed up to campus as a freshman, I was CERTAIN that being an archaeologist was my calling.

I changed my major before the end of September.

Now, I was taking both geology and archaeology classes that first semester. I intended to get a minor in geology or maybe even double major. But I switched to a geology major with an anthropology minor (and a few other minors thrown in for fun). And the best part was, I was able to do both! My capstone project was using geophysics for archaeological investigation!

So, words of wisdom: See all the rocks you can. Love the rocks. Have fun with it! I don't know any other majors at my school that had field trips! I went to museums, outcrops in the middle of nowhere, and National Parks (and Greece for my research) for FREE. I got to play with rocks and acid and big machines and draw pictures and color stuff (the stuff I was coloring was a completely incorrect cross section of the local geology, but still).

And if all that ends up NOT being what you wanted, change your mind, but try and keep your love of rocks. You can always get a minor!

Obviously I hope it is what you want and it stays what you want! I want every person I meet to LOVE geology. So even when you are confused and there's too much shit to memorize and you want to change your major, see if you can't find some of the really fun shit about this amazing field.

Also, if you get the chance to use a rock saw, fucking take it.

[quodekash]

im already about to cry and the episode hasn't even started yet, so that's a nice sign that'll probably foreshadow how tonight is gonna go

PLS I LOVE HER SO MUCH

SHE ACTUALLY LISTENS AND TALKS TO KANGHAN

SHE IS MY GODDESS

MY QUEEN

MY MILF

9GO3U4ERHDSGN9P8IO4EURBDGN980OEUVDS

I KNEW SHE WAS CAPTAINING THE SHIP BUT HOLY FRICK NUGGETS

GUEOJRKBGNUOERJDFBGEUOR

IM SOBBING SO HARD RN

lmao nice joke

based on this scene being right at the start here, this episode is definitely gonna be the one where he properly realises his feelings for sailom (if he hasn't realised them already, which I dont think he has. he hasn't accepted it, at least)

AND BASED ON THAT LOGIC, generally the way these writers and directors etc base these ones, they fully lean into the fell first / fell harder dynamic, and almost immediately after the second person realises, they kiss

SO im very much hoping for a kiss at the end of this episode (but it also might not be til next episode)

WE'RE WHAT, ONE MINUTE INTO THE EPISODE?? AND WE'RE ALREADY GETTING TO THE INTIMATE STARES????

OH BOY IM SCARED FOR THE REST OF THE EPISODE

I THINK MY GAY LITTLE HEART MIGHT ACTUALLY EXPLODE

oh yup, oh yup, we've got the heartbeat sound in the background. kang's feelings are coming to lightttt (PLEASE LET THEM KISS TODAY)

AAA

IM SO EXCITED FOR WHATS GONNA HAPPEN BC OF THIS

my theory that they're gonna run away during school hours is still going strong

NOOOOO THE SCENE WAS SO NICE AND HAPPY AND FLUFFY WHY ARE YOU HERE TO RUIN IT YOU BASTARD???

yup okay so that theory is definitely right

(the theory that saifah's gonna like steal from kang's house, and his dad is gonna get shot in the process. not my own theory, it's from @ respectthepetty and it's such a good theory, I love it so much)

OML THIS IS SO FUNNY

I CANT WAIT FOR MORE BATHROOM SHENANIGANS, THIS IS GONNA BE WONDERFUL

awh is he lonely?

he needs a hug

from kang

all through the night

it'll be insane if they do tho, its literally night one, there's no way

I TAKE IT BACK, APPARENTLY IM WRONG????

OKAY NVM APPARENTLY I WASNT WRONG

im half convinced kang is gonna walk in or smth tho

YALL IM SCREAMING, HE FULL-ASS JUST HEEHEED

THEY ARE FRIENDS

AAAA THE LYRICS

I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH

THEYRE SO PLAYFUL WITH EACH OTHER

WHAT THE HELL

what I wouldn't give to be that driver rn

THE ARM OVER THE SHOULDER???????

THEYRE LITERALLY SO IN LOVE?????????

OMG

PIMFAH

MY WIFE

I rly wish that screenshot was better but the wifi is being stupid for no reason (which isn't surprising since this is Australia and we have the shittest wifi there is)

anyway IM SO SURE JUNE IS GONNA SHOW UP TODAY

GIVE👏US👏LESBIANS👏

DID I NOT SAY IT?

I WAS RIGHT YALL

AAAAAAAAAAA

LITERALLY IMMEDIATE

AS SOON AS THE OTHER MAJOR FEMALE CHARACTER WAS INTRODUCED, B O O M, LESBIANS

I VERY MUCH APPRECIATE THIS

although I wasn't expecting it to be teacher/student

she is just a trainee teacher, but its still a bit ick

idk tho

I guess we'll see what they do with it

gay panic in real time

ooh yes ive been waiting for the familial need for an heir thing to crop up, yesyesyes

making me think of drarry now

OKAY SO MAYBE I WAS WRONG

MAYBE HE DOES LIKE HER

but the things I said are still true

the evidence we've gotten before just now havent really felt solid enough to argue that kang likes pimfah

but now... I guess I have to agree

pimfah knows/suspects/ships it and no one can convince me otherwise

IM WHEEZE-LAUGHING THIS IS HILARIOUS

THE MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND?????

I CANT RN

SO THIS IS DEFINITELY A DREAM SEQUENCE, RIGHT?

I wasn't expecting imaginary scenes from this series but I deeply appreciate it

I CANT STOP LAUGHING

THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING, SAILOM

YOU SHOULD BE EMBARRASSED

BUT ITS ALSO SUCH A MOOD

also I like kang's shoes

Y E S

I WAS HOPING FOR OPEN HOUSE VIEWJUNE

again, I wasn't expecting it to be teacher/student, but anyway

OH YOU LESBIANN

G3I4ORENHGKLS

I would do the same tho

June is so pretty

and so is view

and so is chimon

and so is Perth

(and so is satang)

(no I will not shut up about my satang and perth siblings agenda, its too good to keep to myself)

NO IM OUT OF IMAGES

on the bright side, it took a lot longer to run out today than it did last week

[teddy-feathers]

Me all my life: i guess i dont care about the gender or genders of my future partners or soulmate/s or whatever because it doesnt matter what matters is their personality and also i hate people likeing me romantically it ruins everything and makes me both angry and trapped feeling

some guy in college: yeah so im ace. like ill do the family thing but im not into sex

me laughing my ass off: yeah thats not allowed especially for you cause youre a guy

someone in like 2018 hey you said youre trans what type?

me struggling with the the idea that im allowed to be a man for some reason saying this because it seemed just as far fetched and ridiculous to me at the time and i didnt believe in it for me anymore than i believed i was allowed to be a man: would you believe gender fluid?

**proceeds to ghost that person so hard**

me on the internet a few? years later: hey yeah i think im non binary because i dont think im man enough to be a man

a nice kind soul on the internet: its okay youre man enough

me for some reason terrified: I SAID IM NON BINARY GET BLOCKED

closet trans friend trying out girl voice for the first time: something something

me irrationally afraid and angry: stop that you sound weird

anyways all this to say that uh. we - or at least I have a lot of internalized shit ive had to get over to learn and accept about myself and others

and like in theory i was like "people can be gay or trans or whatever" but when faced with actual real life people i freaked. and when i was done freaking i was envious.

like in theory sure its fine but in reality? who the fuck is that special? and i always figured id know if i were special and i wasnt. i didnt feel special. and like. if youre not special youre just a normal person then you arent allowed to be this thing that is different. maybe?

idk. there wasnt much thought just emotional recoil.

[plus-i-miss-you]

HI CAN I RQ . WJAT UR THEORIES FO R 01 AND04 WILL BE LIKE IN T3. IM VERY NOT SANE ABOUT THEM .

▷ listening to:

"praise me when i'm by your side and then you'll say goodbye"

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♪ note: (i didn't forget about this blog i swear i just didn't have the time to sit down and write something for it jdkdlssl) HI HI YES I AM ALSO VERY INSANE ABOUT THEM. I AM NOT THAT GOOD AT MAKING THEORIES BUT I HOPE THESE MAKE SENSE.

♪ summary: just some thoughts about how 0104 are possibly going to act in season 3!

♪ warnings: unhealthy relationships, mentions of suicide and self-harm, mention of cults.

♪ first of all, let's get this out of the way: i don't think muu is being abusive to haruka. actually, i don't think this relationship is toxic only on "one side". both muu and haruka need each other. both of them have something the other wants. both of them need attention, but in a different way: haruka wants to feel like somebody needs him and loves him and sees as useful, muu wants someone who will listen to everything she says, will do as she says and will never leave her. on the screenshot below, we can see that both of them are connected by chains. sure, they may have a "queen and slave" kind of relationship, just like jackalope says, but haruka still needs someone to depend on just as much as muu needs someone to control. so yeah, they both suck (affectionate).

♪ it definitely may seem like haruka "likes muu more than muu likes him". we all know just how desperate he is for love and attention and muu is right there to give it to him and he's obsessed with her to the point of seeing her as a mother figure and threatening to kill himself if es doesn't forgive her (and oh well.). it also should be mentioned that they had kinda interacted even before the whole t2 thing.

♪ however, even if both of them depend on each other for one reason or another, i think muu is still a bit more.. rational, maybe? or cold? haruka seems to genuinely believe there might be some kind of connection between him and muu, meanwhile muu simply mentions how kind he is to her and when she gets asked if there are any prisoners she likes, she says there's no one like that. so yeah, i think if haruka really does like muu, in the best case she sees him as a friend, but refuses to admit it for now and in the worst case she simply sees him as a guy who can follow her around if he wants. and he definitely wants that.

♪ it doesn't mean that muu hates him or thinks haruka can easily be replaced even if she's okay with him killing himself for her sake (and she's either pretending to accept it, doesn't understand how bad it actually is or she really does see it as a "proof" of his loyalty to her. i see it as the third one). she does bring him food after he got voted guilty. she also makes sure to praise herself for that though, haha. and he got those hairpins he wears now from her as well.

♪ so! now, let's finally get into the theories! to be honest, i did think that there can be a possibility of muu either refusing to give more attention to haruka or even completely "leaving" him because of her guilty vote but now i feel like i understand muu's character better and considering their timeline convos.. maybe. just maybe. i feel like there's a possibility of them becoming even more codependent?

♪ i'm pretty sure muu is the only one who actually takes care of haruka at the moment. sure, maybe shidou and kazui will help out somehow if haruka really does try to hurt himself, but i think he will still see her as the most important person to him. yes, fuuta showed that he's worried about him but also.

dude at least try to be more open about it.

♪ i feel like haruka will feel like he has "let muu down" because of him "breaking his promise" and even if he manages to hurt himself in some way, he won't be satisfied with it. he feels like he needs to actually die for her sake. so, maybe he will try to come up with some kind of new plan to try and blackmail es into forgiving muu. maybe his injuries will be too bad and he will use that to make es feel guilty about it? sort of like "if you don't forgive muu-san this time as well, i'll definitely kill myself next time".

♪ i think haruka definitely won't be happy with his verdict and maybe he will even feel betrayed by es and will call them out for it, but muu's verdict will still bother him more because in the end he still sees himself as someone who doesn't deserve love and forgiveness, so.. maybe his second verdict actually wasn't that surprising to him. muu, on the other hand? she needs to be saved.

♪ what really worries me about recent timeline convos is that muu.. hasn't changed at all? we can definitely see that haruka is going through it, we can see fuuta potentially becoming amane's cult's new member, but muu is still.. muu? i've really tried to find any, even very subtle changes, but i really think she's still her usual self? and to be honest, i feel like it could possibly mean that if muu really did feel guilty about her crime and was just trying to hide it with her "it's not my fault" attitude, maybe she could become much more apathetic in season 3? maybe she will just stop caring about everything. what's the point? even es hasn't forgiven her. both es and muu know she's guilty. oh well, she will stop fighting for now.

♪ i also think if haruka ends up hurting himself, muu actually will feel bad about it, but will still try to hide it and say that it's not her fault yet again. it was his choice, right? she didn't ask him to do it! so how can it be her fault? are you just going to blame her for everything again, es? she has a guilty verdict to deal with already!.. that's probably how it would go.

♪ if somehow, kotoko ends up being voted innocent (i feel like she will get that guilty sweep, but also. i believe in people who have yuri feelings for her. i am also not immune to hot wolf girl.). i feel like these guys will become even more obsessed with each other as the only guilty prisoners. it's just them and their toxic codependent relationship against the world! maybe one or both of them will bring it up, sort of like "really, es? you really had to ruin one thing that made us happy, huh?"

♪ and if kotoko does end up being voted guilty, i honestly have no idea how these three could interact, but i am excited to see it. i still think they can possibly hold some sort of grudge against the innocent prisoners, especially the ones who were voted guilty in the first season. like, what did they do to make es forgive them? are haruka and muu really that bad compared to them? is it es admitting that they've done something wrong and agreeing to forgive those prisoners? does it mean that there's a chance of haruka and muu being forgiven again?

♪ about other possible relationship dynamics: i think it'd be interesting to see someone saving haruka and muu being a little afraid of losing him. come onnnn, show us that she is dependent on him too!! imagine shidou treating haruka's injuries and haruka suddenly going "does that mean.. shidou-san.. is my mom?". this guy called a nonbinary 15 year old his mom. imagine what will happen to him when he recognizes shidou's milf energy /j

♪ also i've just said that i can imagine them isolating themselves from the inno prisoners, but i think it'd also be cute to see mahiru feeling sorry for them and trying to cheer them up and take care of them :) i would gladly throw both of them in a blender (i love them i swear), but they also deserve some happy moments. imagine these two following mahiru around with nothing but a tbh creature look in their eyes.

♪ speaking of another innocent prisoner who got voted guilty in s1.. this most likely won't happen, but i think it'd just be a fun (and terrifying) concept. imagine if amane also manages to get these two to join her cult. muu is more logical, so it would most likely take some time, but haruka? he believes in god, very easy to "break" and is overall very trusting and naive. and according to his t2 interrogation, he isn't afraid of amane anymore. do you see what i see.