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I love you, and I'll tell you all the time, but I worry you don't understand how much I mean it. I love you like the moon loves the earth, distant but ever present. I love you like roots love soil, finding safety and a sense of groundedness with you. I love you like a heart loves its body, ever supportive and attatched. It doesn't even need to be romantic; it is slightly to the left, but just as powerful.
But I'm too scared to tell you this. Maybe it's because we've never met (though I feel as if I've known you since childhood). Maybe it's because everyone I've ever loved this much never felt the same, and ended up drifting away. I've always been the girl left behind, the one walking behind on the sidewalk, the one the others won't remember when they graduate. And the funniest thing is, I think you know the feeling. I think you know what it is to love with every ounce of the blood in your veins, only to be left bleeding. I think we are both terrified of feeling like that again, and so we don't admit it to each other.
Then again, I don't really know you, do I? I know your soul, but not your life. Maybe you're not bleeding anymore. I hope not, honestly (you deserve only the best). Maybe it's just me who wants to text you my every random thought. Maybe it's just me who thinks of you every time I see the moon. Maybe you don't think of me back. And that's okay. I'm used to this one sided love. So long as you're happy.
(p.s)
#you probably know who you are#hehe...and you'll probably see this#*sweats nervously*#eh whatever its 11 pm and I am feeling the feelings#I want to know you better#and that's my fault#im so happy that you're finding people#I hope I do too#I love you#thank you for being my friend#im sorry if im clingy#or maybe im distant#haha#im sorry in general#im so socially clueless lmao#anyways#hemera rambles#love letter.txt#love letters#love poem#prose poetry#spilled emotions#spilled thoughts#dark academia
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I'm once again thinking about the missed opportunities to have Klaus and Kol bond more. Part of Klaus' whole motivation as a vampire is to get his werewolf part back and to finally be stronger than Mikael (sort of, I'm simplifying) both of which can be obtained by breaking his curse. But Kol? Kol is the only other original that can relate to having a fundamental part of themself ripped away from them. Klaus might not have known he was a werewolf until he killed, but he likely still had a connection he couldn't explain, as evident by him going to watch the wolves transform. And something he'd never been able to explain was now gone. He might only be able to realise the connection afterwards through its absence.
Kol though. Kol had grown up with magic, a connection to nature and the world around him in a way the rest of his siblings supposedly didn't have. And then he gets turned. And not only has his baby brother died, his father has just murdered him and the rest of his siblings after forcing them to drink human blood, which he'll later learn. Now, not only does he have to deal with the grief of Henrik's death and also his own but also the loss of his magic. A loss that's likely only worsened by Kol being a self-proclaimed child prodigy.
Kol is pretty much the only one who could understand what Klaus is going through with the binding of his wolf. We know Kol searched for ways to get his magic back/carry on practicing magic in the same way that Klaus was looking for ways to break his curse. While Klaus likely could still feel his wolf there despite being bound, Kol has no access to his magic anymore. I just think they should've been able to bond or connect over their shared loss of an intrinsic aspect of their selves at the hands of their parents
#TVD#The Mikaelsons#Kol Mikaelson#Klaus Mikaelson#briefly back on my the originals shouldve gotten to be a family goddammit and as someone from a big family im personally offended bs#i did right a lil snippet about them bonding over this that i havent posted yet for the joml verse but still think its an unexplored concep#need more witch!kol acknowledgement honestly. just need more content of my boy#anyway. klaus having a fascination with the moon and kol telling him about celestial events and how it affects his magic when theyre boys#klaus losing that connection to the moon feeling lost & extra tempermental feeling his wolf claw at its binds and vowing to break his curse#kol determined to get his magic back at any cost relating to that devasting loss and promising to help him find a loophole for his curse#kol who becomes extra reckless and determined when he learns that theres a way to break klaus' curse so maybe he can get his magic back too#that knowledge and recklessness combined with his loss of magic driving him to become the volatile vampire that we see#that leads to him being daggered repeatedly but that first time breaks something in that bond between him & klaus that never fully recovers#it makes him bitter and resentful only fueling his reckless behaviour particularly when there seems to be no leads on reclaiming his magic#that he becomes distant from his siblings in the process especially with finn still daggered but that distance only cements the idea#to his siblings that hes a danger and cant be trusted that he needs to be daggered if theyre to stay safe from mikael#the loss of his magic leading to his spiral as a vampire and him being ostracised by his family > actual tvdu kol canon#klaus being trapped in a room staring at the corpse of his little brother knowing he never repaired that relationship with him#and now he never can so he refuses to look away as penance and a reminder of his failings to his little brother#*edit: one of the reblogs on this post is the author of big bad wolf and honestly she does an amazing job at portraying the mikaelsons#as actual siblings if you havent read it its one of my favourites for characterisations but we need more 😭 i want it to be the norm
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THE SUPPLEMENT AT THE END OF EPISODE 65 “Binary” AAAAAAAAAAA
#the magnus archives#tma podcast#mag 65#jonathan sims#tim stoker#IM SHAKING#THAT WAS OS SO SO SO HYPE OH MY GOD I CANT#THEY CANT LEAVE#JONATHAN AND TIM YELLING AT EACHOTHEF#*THEY CANT LEAVE*#‘I suppose I’ll see you tomorrow…’#‘I suppose so’#OMGGGGGG IM FERAL#THIS IS EVERYTHING TO ME#IM SHAKING SO BAD LOLLL#maybe this will cause Tim to be… lighter? with Jonathan?#maybe it will cause him to be way more distant with Jonathan instead?#IDKKKK IM SOOOO EXCITED TO FIND OUT HOW THIS GOES ITS SOOO GOOD#THEY CANNOT LEAVE IM FERAL
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For the trikoto believers, how do you guys characterize mido?
#writing him in fics is a pain of he has no canon personality to go off of and the joy of he has no canon personality to go off of!!!#milgram fic writers you get it#hes pretty rational nonchalant calm quiet sarcastic to me#also very organized#hes not emotionally distant i think just. chill.#theres a very specific term im thinking of but it’s in chinese and i cant find any tl thats close#chill is the closest to it i think#i feel like he prioritizes emotional stability in the kayanosys#strong believer of if mikoto is too stressed john fronts but if john is too stressed mido fronts#hes also somehow very hopecore to me#maybe it’s the green idk green is a soothing color for me#not like ‘it gets better soon’ blindly optimistic hopecore#more like that friend that usually doesnt say anything but suddenly says the most profound advice when you’re having a mental breakdown#and for no reason at all. hes a true crime guy#i think he doesnt front much and mkt and john probably dont even know he exists#hes just there#luna’s ramblings#milgram#midokoto
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question that I could look up but im lazy: do we know (from the comics or otherwise) what charles’ parents occupations were? or their household’s economic status (ie; middle class, working class, etc)? if not, does anyone have any good guesses based on the details we see of charles’ life?
#im obviously also very interested to know what edwin’s family was like since its a complete mystery beyond: probably quite well-off#and canonically emotionally (and physically) distant (steve yockey’s said ‘his mother never touched him with an ungloved hand’ so.)#but charles’ household seems more possible to make inferences on since we see his parents and some looks at their house and so on and so on#from what I can see I imagine his parents are somewhere between middle and working class but I guess it sorta depends on if the school at#that point was private and if so how much it costed to attend. or if it did cost a decent amount to attend maybe charles’ father#paid for it regardless as a way of ‘straightening him out’. it wasn’t a boarding school anymore but it still seemed probably pretty#rigid and catholic#idk. his father looks working class to me and their house seems to mean that way too but what do I know#im an american raised in the 2000s I don’t know shit about england in the late 80s#well at least when it comes to socioeconomic trends and such#rambling#charles rowland#dead boy detectives
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just found this aaah so wonderful!! she plays Red Door, Distant Solar Systems (!), Song in E and a cover of Thirteen by Big Star. i did cry at this rendition of red door <3
#also isnt distant solar systems the song everyone says she only played like once live?? i think yes? anyway she plays it HERE too#everyday im like why wasnt i on this jb train while it was happening :(( so sad. oh well!#julien baker#maybe youve all seen this before but i have not haha THIS is MY HOUSE#Youtube
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i’m not even gonna lie i have like 4 ideas for how to fit the goat into nomadic faith but 2 of them won’t work with the concept of the other one one, and one is the ‘alternate universe excuse’ ™️
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl au#cotl lamb#cotl goat#cult of the goat#strangling that lil guy#i love you but where tf did u come from#like… distant tribe? i think ill have to go with that#even tho i’d love to make a swap nari design#maybe i can make them a new bishop#OOOO THEY WORSHIP A DIFFERENT GOD THAN TBE DEATH TRIBES#nvm im cooking#cotl nomadic faith au#nomadic faith au
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when i think about it, i can’t imagine most of magolor’s time scheming was all that satisfying. not really.
it kinda depends on where you place him, but with the helper magolor feature in rtdldx i think it’s more interesting to imagine him traveling alongside kirby and the others. and how lonely that must have felt.
y’know, especially with kirby around. someone so earnest and friendly.
anyway, just a concept i can’t let go of
the phrase “you are my deepest most tender wound” has been stuck in my head lately. i think it fits. not perfectly, but enough.
yes this is like 95% to be apart things. i have brainrot
#kirbyposting#my art or something#kirby and magolor are such siblings to me but in like the most distant way possible#it’s the combination of knowing each other so well#not knowing each other at all#and loving and hating each other#i made a post about having magolor thoughts a few months ago well they’re back#meta knight#kirby#magolor#to be apart#‘ah yes i will take it easy tonight and maybe write tomorrow’ i drew for hours lol oops#not even what i had set out to draw#i have a bunch of posts almost done and i was hoping to focus on that but here we are#i still don’t know how to draw magolor tbh it’s the face#i couldn’t be satisfied with the eyebrows so im just gonna say they’re hidden in the uh#hood shadow???#we’re going with that#I saw that quote on a post here and i haven’t been able to find it again
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Wartihog has SOME girls he won’t flirt with for…varying reasons.
#clueless thinks he’s protecting hsi big sister from the annoying Wartihog#scarl thinks he’s (clueless) adorable#Wartihog watched Scarl toss a guy her own age bothering her twenty feet#(she tossed the guy into a flock of sheep so he had a soft landing)#(but point being)#needless to say he leaves her relatively alone#maybe a few comments and compliments here or there#but he’s usually met with a disinterested or flat stare#Wartihog: flirts#Scarl: (doesn’t respond)#i almost made Wartihog and Camicazi related#like#distant cousins#still not sure if I will#but I never really pictured him flirting with her as they’re generally thick as thieves#so at the very least they’re close childhood friends with ultimately zero romantic interest in the other#im not sure he ever would flirt with her I just don’t see it with the way I’ve been writing them#the deep 2015#the deep cartoon#httyd#httyd/the deep crossover#httyd oc
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thinking about cinderlion kits and how hollytufts reaction to flywhisker and snaptooth leaving to become kittypets was to aggressively call them traitors
#i speaku#rotating these six guys in my brain#i know i said i wish cinderlion had way smaller litters and i still feel the same way now but i can still think about them#w a dynamic of having drifted apart due to the shit theyve been going thru as well as the distance bet the two litters bc of age and stuff#nd spotfur feeling so ostracized from her fam bc of 'gestures at everything'#im ngl the first lotter really genuinely are kinda just there 😭#litter*#i wonder if you couldbe just made them be one singular cat and it wouldve worked better#thats an interesting dynamic i think... a one kitten litter being excited over the prospect of having siblings when cinder n lion announce#the news and getting devastated when two of the second litter decide to leave#maybe they n spotfur couldve beeb close once but the hypothetical only child just xouldnt get rid of those feelings of betrayal and anger#that their sibs left just grew very distant bc of that#i like sibling dynamics have i mentioned that yet
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national treasure 3… save me national treasure 3…
#it remains a distant wish hope and dream tho#no release date yet#nick cage was asked about this and he was like “goddammit there is no national treasure 3! WHY DOES EVERYONE WANT NATIONAL TREASURE 3”#and like yeah its a very mainstream franchise i can see why cage would be frustrated by being constantly asked about it#but also im really looking forward to it. if it ever happens#crush and i made an agreement to tell each other our thoughts on nat3 and i intend to uphold that. maybe i could even watch it with him#yesterday = the last time i see him for a long time. still maybe someday…#national treasure#nick cage#m rambles
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someone commented on an old post of mine that sonia wasnt fridged bc shes relevant to the plot and i have been thinking about it for an hour bc i dont think thats an actual get out of jail card for that .... also ... what does she do? be raurus way to cement himself as da king? give some half assed advice to zelda, that has no pay off unless you count zelda time reversing a bunch of weapons*, and then immediately dies just so zelda can essentially replace her and make rauru regret he didnt stab ganondorf right when he showed up in their temple i guess ?? (which is questionable on its own imo)
(*its not a good pay off for powers she was suddendly revealed to always have had(tm) and also is only ever used to .... welll, get zelda out of the way back in time, reverse a few weapons and .. idk create a ham fisted way to give the player her gimmick?)
even if she doesnt technically meet the requirements(lol?) to be called fridged like .. she is spiritually at least for how irrelevant and cheapely killed off she was
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#totk#idk man#be honest were you surprised by her death?#she first time she appeared she basically had a sign around her that said murder me VILLAIN#also i guess you can count her i guess having never mentioned babies with rauru off screen or sth#bc how would zelda have both their powers beign a super super distant relative#i guess there are ways to do that with other relatives and whatever was going on with the ancient hero (uuuugh) reveal#but the way she said it was like#das our 10 000 times removed grandkid or however that works in english#nhjdfkgfjknkgf#like maybe im misremembering something#but you cant tell me she didnt at least FEEL fridged#like when i saw the cutscene i thought at first oh she was just punched no way shes gonna die from one punch-#-i wonder what she will do no- oh she is dead lol#totk is all just subverting ma expecations by making me hopeful for something interesting only to reveal it is the most boring way actually#i cant get over the intro giving me the tiniest crumb of oh thats how zelda being your companion could wor- aaand shes gone bye bye zelda#for the rest of the game
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Happy Mexican heritage day, by the way! Thanks to my whitewashed-ass mom I didn't grow up with that much of the culture, but I'm proud to be a part of it nonetheless!! 💖🇲🇽💖🇲🇽💖🇲🇽💖🇲🇽💖🇲🇽💖
To celebrate I'm gonna imagine showing my f/os things from Mexican culture where applicable > u <
#jane journals#self insert talk#crush: ❓️#I MEAN...SOOS IS MEXICAN TOO#my partner and i were joking about their s/i claiming to be his distant relative when we arrive at gravity falls#just cause their last name is also ramirez. they're puerto rican 😂😂#BUT I STILL REMEMBER#being a child at family gathering with those grandparents who ONLY spoke spanish#even if i didnt understand them they gave me treats and hugs so i still felt loved 🥺🥺#the food! the drinks! the music!#ugh it makes me miss that back home even though i know things arent the same with my irl family#maybe they never will be. but i can still look back on it fondly#ok sorry to be all serious in the tags#im gonna think about making enchiladas for the pines family!!#just bcs my s/i is a werewolf doesnt mean she loses the culture she was born to 😂😂#i imagine her family when they were around had a little spot they lived in to tell her stories#before they were chased out and she was raised by ACTUAL wolves#once she got old enough to reintegrate into society im sure she reconnected to her roots 😂😂#just like i wanna do irl tbh!!#i gotta....get duolingo or smth ajfkgkgk
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I’m kinda sad cause the Sleep Token obsession is ending on my end but not in a ‘I don’t love them’ kinda way, they are still my favorite band ever, I just……. Am not as obsessed.
#very much so#and maybe that’s a good thing but it’s also breaking my heart#cause I love them but also I can’t listen rn cause I wore myself out#delete later#edit: did i post this and then FILL my queue with st pics??? yes. why?? I have no fucking clue tbh#again it’s not that I don’t love them… it’s that I’m worn out and my every waking moment isn’t about them anymore#but I love them??? it’s so complicated.#I’m sure if they announce new music soon I’ll be right back in the trenches but like…#I’m not taking a step back. cause there is none to take besides leave completely#but… yeah.#im still here. still love them. it just feels distant right now??
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One throw-away line about Vi being a bad class president from her ex, I have cork boarded so many narratives.
#twdg#twdg violet#twdg minerva#losing my mind actually#nobody knows how delusional i am about vi and minerva's past#this stuff has been brewing since 2019 im actually so cringe#Maybe its the writing#maybe i have a poor grasp for social cues#but the way vi described her relationship w minnie always felt a bit distant#yeah she lonely shes grieving#but the bond wasnt felt#i used to find a way to queerbait myself i know an inseparable and healthy bond when i see one#also hi to the new people that passed by#if this passed your feed again im sorry but i am really like this#anyway have a good day i have a review class this week#my art
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Listening to the mgs peace walker tapes and then listening to the mgs V tapes has done irreparable damage to my brain
#so this happened WEEKS ago ok#and still it's#it's.#it is quite something#ok here's the thing#we know how Kaz and BB were like during pw#and then you have Paz saying stuff like 'Kaz and Big Boss came up with the idea' 'Kaz and Big Boss made this decision' and blablabla#it's all Kaz and BB doing stuff together and making plans and etcetcetc#and then you listen to the fucking mgs V tapes and it genuinely makes me crazy bc#Im pretty sure BB doesn't even say Kaz's name. At all. Not even once.#he doesn't ask how he's doing#he doesn't ask if he knows about the plan. what he thinks about it. nothing#and yeah maybe there wasn't time or whatever but to BB. that relationship that he had with Kaz? It's recent.#he's been in a coma for 9 years. to him running motherbase with Kaz is part of his most recent memories#and you don't get to hear him ask about Kaz#and then you get to Ocelot's reports and of course he calls him Miller instead of Kaz#and it feels SO distant and cold to talk about Kaz in this manner#and what truly makes me crazy is that BB never says 'Kaz' while you have ocelot and BB calling each other by their real names#and then. and then you have venom snake#who's constantly calling his name#Kaz?? Kaz! Kaz......#INSANE#m(ysterious) g(ay) s(ex)
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