#eh whatever its 11 pm and I am feeling the feelings

[friendofflowersandfrogs]

I love you, and I'll tell you all the time, but I worry you don't understand how much I mean it. I love you like the moon loves the earth, distant but ever present. I love you like roots love soil, finding safety and a sense of groundedness with you. I love you like a heart loves its body, ever supportive and attatched. It doesn't even need to be romantic; it is slightly to the left, but just as powerful.

But I'm too scared to tell you this. Maybe it's because we've never met (though I feel as if I've known you since childhood). Maybe it's because everyone I've ever loved this much never felt the same, and ended up drifting away. I've always been the girl left behind, the one walking behind on the sidewalk, the one the others won't remember when they graduate. And the funniest thing is, I think you know the feeling. I think you know what it is to love with every ounce of the blood in your veins, only to be left bleeding. I think we are both terrified of feeling like that again, and so we don't admit it to each other.

Then again, I don't really know you, do I? I know your soul, but not your life. Maybe you're not bleeding anymore. I hope not, honestly (you deserve only the best). Maybe it's just me who wants to text you my every random thought. Maybe it's just me who thinks of you every time I see the moon. Maybe you don't think of me back. And that's okay. I'm used to this one sided love. So long as you're happy.

(p.s)

[celestialmancer]

❌ // 11:20 pm, tbd ;

low filter bs, i'll delete this later

Emotions come & go in waves, just ride them out, I'm told...

...

Yet it feels lately like the metaphorical tidal waves of emotion I feel are more on par with tsunamis, with the intensity of the way they hit, with how extreme they are, & the fact that they just keep coming in relentlessly has been hard.

& for some reason this shit has decided to target me via just... Finding myself getting. Legit angry with myself anytime I ramble a lot about things I'm passionate about, especially things with my own characters. Lately there's this festering self frustration that tells me I need to shut up, quiet down, knock it off, whenever i just prattle on & on unnecessarily about shit w/ them, & this whole urge that I need to shut up, stop talking, "Stop going on & on about something no one fucking cares about, you're annoying the living shit out of them", so my mind tells me. & I hate it, because it feels like i'm not allowed to even talk anymore wrt my own stuff or muse things w others because the moment I start typing a little too much or talking a little too much, I already am mentally berating myself like "here we go again, how long til they get sick of your ass eh?"

...

Lately I've been getting exhausted, exhausted, exhausted, with the way I seem to immediately turn aggressive with myself for talking ab it too much. Being so hyperaware of how much I talk, of how intense my emotions can run in general over stupidly small things wrt creative work & things w my chars & whatnot or stupidly excitable over things regarding chars I like, is... Its almost like I just have this hatred towards myself for being so overly excitable, so intensely fixated on these things, & this whole ordeal that I just..

I'm, overly anxious over appearing too pushy or something, overly anxious over how I express myself, this whole feeling that I need to dial it back, tone it down shove everything down shove everything down shove everything down stop talking, stop feeling things too much over those things I mentioned, just stop. fucking. being this way. Because its fucking shameful.

The talking on & on & on is also fucking shameful because why the fuck do I think any of what I have to say on my own creative shit matters, right? Stupid to think this means anything & me rambling on & on is probably making ppl drive me away or shut me out or do anything to not have to fucking listen to my insufferable yapping.

& its...

I feel like i just talk too much. In general. I... think this is just connecting to a deeper seated issue of just the fact that I find myself absolutely fucking insufferable when I'm "too much" or whatever I feel is me showing too much emotion & passion on anything. Because I'm supposed to be dialed back, I'm supposed to not let myself show I feel intensely, I'm supposed to not be so excitable over something so small & insignificant because its fucking stupid, I shouldn't be so... Like this.

I mention things w my characters or also w chars i like because that's the main thing rn that's fucking w me in this way & esp w my own lengthy rambling, & watching myself be a fucking embarrassment when i have chars that make me feel things also can cause this shit to rear its head in because of how I've been shamed before over this shit but this also has applied to t hings I like in general, hobbies i ramble on about or interests--& ngl, its bc of this factor that I can't handle just having someone go "ain't reading all that" or anything that insinuates that @ me because it's just a reaffirmation of the very nasty shit i'm telling myself in my head wrt any moment I get even a little too carried away & passionate w these things.

I'm... so accustomed to being dialed back & i find genuine shame & anger when I show anything because i don't feel i'm allowed that. & When it DOES come out when it DOES show because i seem fucking incapable of suppressing it as well, I just can't help but feel instantly like I'm being looked at through a lens of shame, of disgust, of just... repulsion, & like I'm inadvertently driving people away over my intensity of my emotions. This is in ref to my pos emotions but applies to all really. All my emotions. & hell, could apply to subjects im passionate about or that I go on & on about that are rants or what have youk, or just... anything in general I want to express.

Hatred. Hatred. Hatred. I don't know why I'm defective like this.

Was it better to just be emotionally numb like i was years ago? Where I could barely react or express excitement much? Where I didn't have as intense reactions to things wrt the things I like or things that make me happy or things that I am fixated on or attached to or feel things towards or--just, anything? Because this shit just feels humiliating & shameful. I feel fucking humiliating sometimes when I'm so emotionally expressive or something over these kinds of things but that's bc that's all I've been taught I am.

I get reacted to with disgust, with aversion/avoidance, & its just... I get it. I get it, you don't like me being like this. I get it. I'm too much. I don't know. I don't know, I don't know. I think its worse yet when i have had my intensity be treated as some sort of... well, I won't get into that on here, that's more for me to talk abt w friends ig, but its just me being painted in some weird sexual light.

& Hell, the issue of me feeling like I say too much talk too much am too much also extends into when I vent too--watching my vents be lengthy makes me legit feel nasty towards myself because I can't help but feel like I'm too much, yet again, & just... a sries of other things that come out that just...

...No surprise my sona carries the them e of feeling they're too much when I feel that at my core wrt myself.

i don't know how to stop myself from being this way. I don't know how to change. I wish I did sometimes.

it pains me that I can't just be more emotionally stunted like i was years ago after the things i kept going througj (well, stunted yet simultaneously emotionally haywire bc emotional bs always has been intense for me but, my numbness is what showed instead of being overly excitable when it came to pos feelings), before I started going through trying to heal shit.

Because now i get. this shit slipping out from the cracks & im just struggling, struggling, struggling to know how to keep myself composed throughout it all.

i know i'm too excitable. I wish it didn't drive people away. I wish ti didn't put people off. i know i'm overwhelming, i know im a lot. I mean, at least it feels like i put people off for coming on too strong. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

& just. I don't know. This whole thing is a lot of messy self hatred that for once is coming out I guess. Normally I can manage my own view of myself fine but lately that too has been... hard to really figure out wher e I stand in terms of self image.

[euphoricdumpsterfire]

To the Moon and Back (Peter Parker x Stark OC) Chapter 3

Master List

Warnings: Curse words

Word Count: 2218

A/N: Guys, I’m so sorry I know I said I’d post by Friday but I had a lot of schoolwork. But the good news is, THE ORANGE MF LOST! I get to keep the small amount of rights I have as a WOC. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter and have a great day <3

Summary: Spiderman and Moonflower know each other’s identities. Nixie realizes she has a thing for Parker.

“So...” Peter trailed off.

“So...” Nixie did the same thing. Awkwardness filled the air as they both sat on the edge of a building in the middle of the night after they had fought a bunch of bad guys. 

“How’d you find out that... I’m Spiderman?” Peter asked as he looked at the mask that he was holding onto.

“Oh it was actually simple. I saw you in Chemistry mixing up something and I kinda stalked you the whole day-”

“THE WHOLE DAY?!” Peter cut off Nixie and she glared at him for not letting her finish, “Sorry... Uhm continue.”

“So anyways, I saw you lift up that whole row of lockers, and your stash... But of course that wasn’t enough, I stalked you for several days after school and found out where you hide your backpack and put on your suit.” Nixie said.

Peter looked at Nixie with a confused face but he was also impressed that Nixie simply found out about Spiderman in a matter of days. “But why did you do all of this?” Peter asked.

“What specific thing are you talking about?” Nixie replied

“The whole stalking and showing up as Moonflower...” Despite things starting to unravel, Peter still can’t comprehend what exactly was happening. It’s as if he was having a fever dream.

“Oh that! It’s all part of my mission that my dad assigned.” Nixie answered. Peter’s jaw dropped as he finally started putting the pieces together.

“W-wait so you’re telling me... THE Tony Stark sent you here to go look for me?!” Peter exclaimed and Nixie nodded plainly, his heart felt like it jumped off a building. He never expected that a billionaire/superhero would set his eyes on a simple friendly neighborhood Spiderman. But one thing still didn’t make sense to him. “If you’re Moonflower, how come you never told the public like your father?” Peter asked.

“Because then the world would have their eyes on me all the time, and I don’t like that. I’d rather separate Nixie from Moonflower, it makes me feel like Hannah Montana.” Nixie smiled and Peter chuckled at her statement. While they were having a casual conversation, a car slowly drove by the building and stopped. Nixie looked down and realized it was a familiar car. The door opened and a huge man got out wearing sunglasses. “Hey Happy... Isn’t it too dark to be wearing sunglasses right now?” Nixie said cheekily.

“Your dad called TEN times already and I said you were at the grocery buying whatever it is that you need for your period. Now GET DOWN NOW and let’s get you home!” Happy said impatiently.

“Sorry about that, he’s always pissed for no reason.” Nixie said looking at Peter who seemed intimidated by Happy. “Happy, I met Spiderman!” Nixie said looking down. 

“That’s very nice, but we need to go NOW!” Happy exclaimed.

“Geez, alright...” Nixie rolled her eyes as she put on her eye mask and looked back at Peter, “See you tomorrow?” Nixie said.

“Yeah, see ya.” Peter waved goodbye and Nixie used a vine to climb down the building and finally left. Peter looked down as the car drove away making sure his friend traveled safely and then, he went back home.

***

“You should’ve seen it Happy, it was so COOL!” Nixie said as she sat at the back of the car trying to explain what had happened earlier.

“You know what would be cool? If your dad would stop calling because he’s been awfully suspicious of your whereabouts and sooner or later he’ll find out, and we’ll get in trouble and...” Happy continued to talk but Nixie couldn’t focus because she started seeing another vision. This time it was with Peter again but they were at an airport in full suits going against an extremely tall figure the size of two tall buildings stacked together. Nixie couldn’t see it well but it was making her head hurt. 

“Nix? Are you okay? Did you get hurt while fighting those guys?” Happy’s angry tone turned softer as he looked back at Nixie with concern.

“No, it’s alright, I think I’m just tired...” She answered. 

They eventually got back to the Avengers Tower at 11:30 pm. Nixie and Happy hopped on the elevator and got to the top. The doors slid open revealing Tony with his arms crossed. The tv can be heard playing the news as the reporter said, “This just in, Spiderman and Moonflower were caught fighting armed men on a street in Queens. CCTV footage shows Moonflower tying up all of the men next to a stoplight. Thanks to this surprising team-up, our neighborhood is saved once again!” Tony held the remote and turned off the tv as Happy and Nixie got off the elevator.

“Grocery eh?” Tony said looking at Nixie as she held onto the strap of her backpack. 

“I may or may not stumbled upon a serious situation and decided to help out our golden boy.” Nixie suggested with a grin on her face,

“I would suggest celebrating but now’s not the right time...” Tony trailed off as he walked back to the tv and Nixie jumped on the couch.

“Why not? I found Spiderman, so I get to be an Avenger now!” Nixie said confidently.

“Well... It had just dawned on us that the government doesn’t exactly trust us superheroes. Now we have to sign a contract.” Tony said as he handed Nixie an ipad showing the contract. “The huge problem here is that Cap won’t do it.” Nixie scrolled through the multiple pages of the contract and stopped halfway.

“I mean, I get why he won't... This contract basically makes all of you guys government puppets.” Nixie said as she noticed her dad looking more worried as ever.

“That’s not the point Nix, we don’t want innocent people involved in whatever it is that we do. With these accords we can make sure not one civilian gets hurt.” Tony’s usual smug face was gone and it was replaced by anxiousness which Nixie rarely saw. From the action packed news about Moonflower and Spiderman teaming up, the news switched topics on the Sokovia Accords. 

“I’m just gonna head to bed now.” Nixie got up and grabbed her backpack,

“Night Moonie.”

“Night dad.”

Hours have passed, it was now 3 am, and Nixie lied on her bed in complete darkness as the visions kept showing up. “Maybe you should tell your Dr. Banner.” A voice said. She turned to the small succulent that stood on her bedside table, whom she had named Grizelda. 

“For the millionth time, Banner’s not here Griz.” Nixie answered.

“Then what about Peter? He is the one you see in your visions after all…” The plant replied.

“That’s fucking stupid. I can’t just go up to him and say “Hey dude, I’ve been seeing visions of you and me together and it’s kinda weird!”, he’s gonna think I’m into him or something.” Nixie said glaring at the plant.

“Well aren’t you?” The plant retorted.

“JUST SHUT UP!” Nixie exclaimed as she covered her ears with the large pillow beside her and ignored her plant friend. After that quick banter, Nixie spent a sleepless night, rolling back and forth trying to fall asleep, from white noise, to sleeping pills, none worked. She wanted the visions to stop but it seemed like it could go on forever until she died. Then came the morning. FRIDAY turned on the lights and opened the curtains revealing the bright sun that hit Nixie’s tired face. She sighed and got up from her bed, she did her usual routine and headed to the kitchen where she only saw Natasha.

“Had nightmares kid?” Natasha asked without looking up at Nixie who was walking sluggishly to the dining table.

“Not necessarily.” Nixie replied as she sat down and poured herself a bowl of cereal.

“Saw what you did last night with Spiderman, how was it?” Nat asked,

“Turns out I was right, Spiderman’s Peter Parker.” Nixie shoved a spoonful of cereal into her mouth.

“The Star Wars dude?!” Nat exclaimed, she wasn’t totally surprised that Nixie’s hunch was right, but hearing the kid from her stories, he seemed like he would just be stuck in the lab making experiments or just plainly binge-watching every single Star Wars film there is and not the type to go out at night fighting crime. But of course, some people are just plainly good at hiding their powers. 

“Nat, when do you think Banner’s gonna come back?” Nixie asked

“I-I don’t know. I’m not even sure if he’ll ever come back after what happened in Sokovia.” Nat’s face turned gloomy at the thought of him. 

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have-”

“Kid, don’t worry. I know you miss him, we all do.” Nat’s eyes started to tear up.

“But not as much as you.” Nixie felt bad she had ever brought up Banner, but with whatever she had going on, she had wished he was here.

Later that day, Nixie was in chemistry sitting next to MJ. She was listening to the lecture intently while taking notes but then she felt something hit the back of her head. She looked around and saw a paper airplane that had a small note on one of its wings that said “open”. Nixie unfolded the paper airplane and inside was another note written down. 

Wanna go on patrol tonight?

She looked behind her where she saw Peter looking at her with bright eyes, hoping she’d agree. “Fine, but only until 9:30.” Nixie whispered loudly.

“11?” Peter pleaded,

“9:30.” 

“10:30?” Peter suggested again,

“Ugh, 10, take it or leave it!” Nixie said and Peter had a huge grin on his face as a sign of approval.

“DEAL!” Peter whispered loudly.

Nixie turned back to face the board but she noticed from her peripheral vision that MJ was looking at her. “Are you and Peter…” before MJ could even finish her sentence, Nixie immediately replied.

“No. NO! Definitely not. It’s just that we’re volunteering at a retirement center in Manhattan.” 

“I would ask if I can go, but talking to old people isn’t really my thing.” MJ said which made Nixie feel more relieved. 

***

It was 9:50 pm, there weren’t really any extremely dangerous situations for Moonflower and Spiderman to stop. The most they did was help a bunch of kindergartners walk across the street, stopped a guy from peeing on the sidewalk, and returned a lost cat to its original owner. As for the rest of their remaining time, they sat on the edge of the same building once again, talking, laughing, and getting to know each other.

“Wait, so you’re telling me Flash Thompson got kicked out of your preparatory school?!” Peter exclaimed,

“Yup, he was caught cheating several times and I was outside for cheer practice when the whole team heard his mom yell at him.” Nixie said and Peter laughed so hard he almost fell off the building, luckily for him, Nixie caught him right away. “Dude you need to chill.” Nixie laughed.

“I never really asked you about it, but how’d you get your powers?” Peter asked.

“It kinda just… Showed up. I was 11 and I was in Washington with Pepper when I just found out I can literally just make a plant grow out of nowhere. My dad and Dr. Banner eventually found out that I’m a mutant.” Nixie answered.

“Is there anything else you can do besides the whole plant thing?” Peter asked,

“It only happened once and it was during one of Banner’s tests, I was sitting in a small clear box and I sat there for hours until I started to have trouble breathing… I wanted to get out but Banner left to go to the toilet. It felt like every second my lungs were getting tighter and tighter and it was getting hard for me to breathe. I used up all my strength and then suddenly the blonde streaks on my hair glowed and I blacked out. Once I woke up, Banner told me that everyone heard a loud explosion from the lab but when they got there, the box was gone and the floor was just covered in moonflower petals.” Nixie replied,

“So that’s where you got the name!” Peter said and Nixie hummed in agreement. Nixie looked over at her watch and realized it was time for her to go.

“Welp, that’s all the time I’ve got for today. Gotta go now.” She said as she got up.

“Nix, is this gonna be a regular thing now?” Peter looked at Nixie with his doey eyes and she couldn’t help but melt at the sight of it. It was a weird feeling she had, she couldn’t comprehend it, but she liked it. She smiled at her friend and nodded. 

“Sure Spidey.” She said, 

“That’s great!” Peter exclaimed, “I guess I’ll uh… See you tomorrow, partner!” He waved goodbye and swung through building by building. Nixie looked at him from afar as she still tried to comprehend what she was feeling. 

“Looks like she has a thing for the human bug.” She heard whispers from the nearby plants, she rolled her eyes and ignored what the plants were saying and headed home...

[srbachchan]

DAY 4217

Jalsa, Mumbai                  Sept 23,  2019                Mon 11:59 PM

In the shadows of time .. may we all live and exist in the absence of the ugliness that some reflections penetrate us .. or attempt to ..

.. the dark lights up the hidden faults .. the light darkens the hidden benefits .. much that can be seen is often the shadow of that unseen fault .. and much that is unseen is the light of beneficial benevolence .. 

.. hide then dear light the beneficial benevolence, for it shall ever remain hidden from the travails of the seen .. be not in despair of its reality .. there is very little that can come under description of that .. 

.. let it remain in the dark shadowed vaults of your inner truthful self .. the self that is reckoned with each morn, forlorn, and desolate in the mirrored imagery of the first reflection ..

ALRIGHT mr B .. enough of this philosophical bumphf .. open thine arms and welcome another day in the coloured light of awareness ..

.. and let the festivities of the lights bring us together towards an abundance of love affection and the simplicity of our tenderness ..

OK .. thats getting too mushy .. !! 

ERR .. Nothing else seems to be finding its way in this darkness .. I should never have initiated that shadow light junk .. but there .. its before us now and shall remain embedded for posterity ..

Shooting for an Ad., campaign is an exercise in itself .. an exercise that defeats all that you may encounter .. or should I say one would encounter on a normal film shoot for a film .. 

The presence of the client, the team that interprets the creative, the technical stalwarts that exhibit the preciseness needed, the sound lady - yes the sound Lady - the set management, the lighting instructor, the DOP guided and conducted by the Director of the event .. the swab team that spends hours in giving the cleanest look on the floors .. the set designers and their input in keeping with the theme of the product .. and finally the product .. its angle , its polish, its facing , its positioning and its prominence .. 

.. AND the puppeteer , the hidden face that pulls the strings of that ‘kathputli’ , which shall tell the story in its inimitable style guided of course by that gang of the C Chaukadi ..

.. the Brand Ambassador ..

Go back stand still left a little right a little face up face down take the light position on mark repeat hands within frame hands expressive voice greater aplomb voice too soft the feel wrong the clothing flabby the force of impression the naming of script the comma the full stop the gaps in expression the less the more .. 

.. and after all this ..

.. that wait till the C Chaukadi .. groans and moans in that silent private corner, discussing whether that one millionth light battery flame, had moved that 1 cm from where it was required to be in an abyss in the background  ..!!

.. whispers .. consultations .. animated conversations that only those that be there can hear .. and finally .. the Director coming over to selectively inform the BA .. of how the right bottom fold of the ‘kurta’ as you walked the second step and a half , towards the camera, could be less flamboyant ..

EH .. ?

.. a bevy of lady helps converge upon you with adequate equipment - pins, scissors, needles, clamps that could catch a crab, brushes of different sizes and weights - several pretty hands working assiduously , to make sure that that wretched fold behaves .. 

.. IT all began at 8 am through miles of traffic and flyovers through tunnels to the location and finally without a break for lunch, by the end and in the vicinity of around 4 pm ..

THAT ONE LINE GETS CANNED .. err sorry gets digitalised on chip .. or whatever or wherever it does .. 

the line ..

“ज़्यादा का फ़ायदा” 

‘thank you so much Mr B an honour to have worked with you ..’ 

a million selfies and .. driving home ..

Amitabh Bachchan

[slythmyth]

Except The Unexpected

Chapter 1

Wanrings: Not a happy ending, Kinda Strong language, alcohol,

Sorry For some english mistakes

*Gifs Not Mine

Pairing: Reader x One of BTS members (Secret)

Summary: Its almost 2019 and you want to hang out with ur bestie at the club. But u have a very nice encounter with someone.

It was the 31th December and you planned to go on a New Years Party with your best friend (y/bf’s/N). It was pretty cold, but u didn’t cared cause nothing was going to stop u to dress up in your velvet dress. “So how was your day?” asked your bf. “Pretty good i guess and your day?” “Kinda stressing because i needed to search for a certain dress for a certain person”. “thanks for that again sis!” “yeah yeah whatever, sooo who’s going to be your new years kiss?” I froze, cause everytime on new years eve something dumb happens to me. “Y/N? “„sorry hon eh i mean I dont need a new years kiss c’mon every year its the same and nothing good ever happens to me afterwards soo whatever i rather kiss my bottle of Malibu”.„Anyway sis look I have such a good feeling about the new year, I think its going to be Legen -Wait for It!” „Pls stop quoting How I Met Your Mother” I said with a serious look. „Oh come on Y/N don’t be so insular!” „Okey fine say it...” My bestie took my hand and looked at me with shiny eyes and said „ Don’t worry sis new year it going to be legendary for both of us and if not I’ll make sure you have a great time!” I wasn’t sure what to say cause she is the sweetest person i know and she’s right. „Thank u (Y/Bfs/N) but u know whats funny?” she looked at me and answered „what?” with an questionable look. „I still have the coupon that I won at the dance battle 3 months ago. We can travel wherever we want to go!” You walk down the street of New York with her and got the last things for the party. Both of stopped at the bus station, there was a very big TV at the Store window you tried to figure out which channel was showing but u were interrupted by the pop up propaganda of BTS.(Blood Sweat and Tears)

„Look at these Handsome men, gosh I would kill for them especially for this guy with the kinda brown blond greenish or whatever his hair color is”said my Bf with watery mouth. “Yeah they’re pretty handsome” „Y/N imagine having him as boyfriend”. she pointed at a man with strongly eyebrows and blonde hair.„That would feel like a dream but c’mon thats never going to happen” after that the bus came and we’re walked in and drove to my home.It was 7 pm We blasted music for dressing up, drank alcohol and had fun. „NOONA ARE YOU READY ?” screamed my bestie from the living room. „YEAH JUST WAIT A SEC AND DONT CALL ME NOONA UR NOT EVEN A MEN CAUSE ONLY THEY SAY THIS”I screamed from the top of my lungs. I finished to put on my velvet lipstick and walked down stairs. My Mom and my bestie were already waiting for me. On the way to the Biggest new years eve party in NYC we turned up the music and sang to plenty of songs some of them were of BTS.

We arrived at 8pm and there was a huge row, u kissed ur mom on the cheek and walked up to the crowd. We both drank the last bottle of alcohol on the way in. „Oh lord we’re standing here since 40 min and we’re not moving an Inch”„calm down Y/Bfs/N it’s okey” after calming down your bestie a security guard walked up to you„ Are u both alone? without any guys?” both if u nodded. „alright come with me u ladys go to the other entrance cause we’re only letting females in at the moment or men with female company”. I was lost in my thoughts until I saw a black van stopping in front of the Club 7 handsome men got out of the car„ hmm they seem familiar to me” i said to myself but my now drunken me wasn’t sober enough to remember them.So the security guard leaded them to the entrance where we’re standing and asked them to wait next to us. They were laughing and talking in a language i couldn’t understand but i knew it was Korean. 10 min after the guard left he came back with a women. She gave all of us a paper bracelet with the Logo of the club. They guided us in the ClubAfterwards. I wanted d to take a pic with my bestie, so i tried to pull out my phone but my clumsy ass dropped it. As i wanted to grab it a tall handsome men told me with his deep voice„ wait I’ll get it for you” I thanked him and started to blush cause i was so shocked of his handsomeness and kindness. I turned around like a fidged spinner. „Noona are u okey?” „ of course don’t worry i’m just getting hot because of the alcohol.” I guess she didn’t believed a single word i said but i couldn’t tell her anything until we were alone.As we entered the party, (Y/BFs/N ) started to dance to the music, I turned around just to see if the the 7 men were still there, but the only one that spotted me was the kind man from earlier. He smiled and nodded at me with his drink in the hand. My heart wanted to walk up to him and talk but before I could even take actions my bestie took my arm and pushed me on the dance floor. As we danced our souls out I still searched for the man through the whole crowd. After 5 mins of searching I gave up. “(Y/bfs/N) I’ll get us some drinks i’ll be right back” she nodded and continued to danced with a stranger. I waited for the bartender and ordered 2 tequila shots as I waited a man tapped on my shoulder he was very tall, broad shoulders and black hair. He asked me for the time. „Its 11:30” i said. He thanked me and walked back to his friends as I looked at them I remembered that they were the men fromearlier but 2 of them are missing. Before i could think furthermore the bartender gave me the drinks. I search for (Y/Bfs/N) but i couldn’t find her. I looked at my phone to see what time it was.„ I’m going to murder her for letting me alone” It was 11:55 pm and i was devastated. I walked to the balcony while having the 2 tequila shots in my hand. I just watched the city and was lost in my thoughts again until a familiar voice talked to me. „ why are you here all alone? where’s your friend”„She’s probably hooking up with someone” he looked at the two shots and replied„ and the tequila shots?” „They were for her and me but now, i guess u can have one” He took the with me as I watched at the beautiful skyline i sensed that he was watching me as i turned around he wanted to ask me something but before he could continue my now heavily drunken best friend stumbled to me she couldn’t even stand by herself.„ Is that your friend u came with? what was her name Noona? “ right after the guard said this who was holding my bestie, the Mr.I Dont Know his name started to giggle and said to the guard„ I don’t think her name is Noona cause its Korean and it means-“ before he could even finish (Y/bfs/N) started to throw up, that means its time to go.

The other guard was holding you stuff so you took them so they could drag your bestie out of the club on the way. It was 11:58 pm and the friends of the boy who was talking to you earlier dragged him inside. He resisted first because OH SNAP he didn’t even know your name. He turned around and rushed to the exit but u were long gone. „ Best new year eve ever “ u thought.„Noona did u find a new years kiss?” said my bestie with closed eyes while laying on my lab. “no cause i need to get u home, but its okey” “its all my fault noona i’m so sorry i can give u a kiss” „ I rather kiss someone that ate onions earlier than u that threw up like 10 minutes ago and don’t call me noona or i’m going to let you sleep in the backyard. “ We arrived at 1 am of the 1th Januar 2019. I changed (Y/bfs/N) clothes into something comfy and led her to our guests room she slept 5 sec after i left.I couldn’t sleep a bit cause I thought every second of him. My heart ached... a strange feeling but before i could even thinking any further I passed out with the thought that i’m never going to see him again.

Next Chapter: Once you met someone you never really forget them.

[b00bconnoisseur]

Sooo

Its 9:25 pm now. Birthday over. But today's wasnt actually that bad. At 11:30 i had lunch with my fren at buffalo wild wings. Then a bit after that my family and i looked around the mall and i bought stuff at hot topic. You know those makeup sales ppl in the mall that are always tryin to get you to buy stuff well i encountered one today. Hetes how it went

Sales guy: *hands me a packet"

Me: thanks *trys to walk away*

SG: what do you use?

Me: huh? Like makeup stuff for my face?

Sg: yes. What do you use everyday?

Me: umm nothing. I dont wear any makeup *try to walk away*

SG: what?! Don't you care about your face?!

Me: *palm facedown in air* eh. Not really no *trys to leave*

SG: not even a little bit??!

Me: no. Not really. *keeps tryin to walk away*

SG: can i show u something? Would you like to test our products? Just one seconds

Me: ehh sorry no im good. I don't care abt that stuff really. *trys to walk away again*

Sg: *wont leave me alone* you sure?? Just one second real quick. If you dont like it forget about it i promise

Me: nah im good. Im good really. Im good im good im good. Thanks. Im good. *Finally gets to walk away*

Sg: okay thanks

Whats up with sales people??? The whole time i was uncomfortable as heck. He was acting like an idiot cause i dont wear moisturizer and makeup crap. But whatever. So yeah we looked around some more. Encountered more damn sales ppl. Then left. Got taco bell for dinner. Now im abt to take a shower. Not a bad day actually ^^

BUT i am still sick so all day my throat has been hurting. Like rn, its worse. Near the bottom of my throat feels like a huge knot or whatever that i cant swallow tho ik nothing is there. I think i just pulled something in my throat or something

But, a plus is i got all those happy birthdays!. Tysm guys! They made my day :)

In a bit I'll post my shirts to show yall what 3 i got

Anyways, birthday over. Thx guys ^^

[hgfstreamchats]

The Nightmare Before Christmas

Jakson 10:00:54 PM good evening!

Knock Out10:01:02 PM Good evening!

Jakson 10:02:00 PM I was worried I missed it!

Knock Out10:02:13 PM Oh no, we're just making a late start tonight.

Jakson 10:02:39 PM ah. Busy with something?

Knock Out10:03:18 PM It seems I always am these days.

Jakson 10:03:58 PM reconstruction. Right

Jakson 10:04:49 PM where's Smokescreen?

Knock Out10:05:19 PM It's Smokescreen, he could be anywhere.

Jakson 10:05:54 PM and how is dear Breakdown?

Knock Out10:06:37 PM Unchanged, and thank the Allspark for that.

thenightetc10:07:02 PM Ah, whoops! Forgot it wasn't via discord

Jakson 10:07:25 PM hello!

Knock Out10:08:01 PM CHANGED THE VIDEO TO Knock Out's screen

thenightetc10:08:07 PM I got too used to just *noting* the post and heading to the server, rather than actually clicking the link.

Knock Out10:08:37 PM It's an exhausting lack of consistency. Someday we'll find a permanent home for this.

thenightetc10:08:43 PM Someday!

thenightetc10:08:46 PM I hope.

Jakson 10:09:05 PM it's stuck

thenightetc10:09:08 PM You muted it?

Knock Out10:09:25 PM Better?

thenightetc10:09:31 PM Yes! Working fine.

Knock Out10:09:34 PM Excellent!

Jakson 10:10:00 PM no, it's still kinda glitchy

Jakson 10:10:19 PM maybe it's me

thenightetc10:10:42 PM Video and audio are both working fine for me, no skipping/freezing

thenightetc10:11:31 PM Okay, I want to know how he DID that.

Jakson 10:11:47 PM magic

Knock Out10:11:59 PM He's the best character and can do whatever he wants.

thenightetc10:12:36 PM ...Oogy?

Knock Out10:12:39 PM Yes.

thenightetc10:12:55 PM Well, he can certainly sing.

Knock Out10:12:55 PM I'm fond of Oogie.

Jakson 10:13:33 PM why does that not surprise me?

Knock Out10:14:25 PM Is that an annual Halloween ritual, they corner him and rip his clothes off as keepsakes?

Jakson 10:15:13 PM you think that's bad? You should see our news media

Jakson 10:16:48 PM if you see any singing, that's me

Jakson 10:17:58 PM so, Knockout, you dressing up?

Knock Out10:19:36 PM I hadn't planned on it.

Jakson 10:20:37 PM no he isn't

Knock Out10:21:11 PM Can't imagine why he feels caged and depressed.

thenightetc10:21:17 PM Right?

Jakson 10:22:15 PM well doing the same thing for millennium will do that to you

thenightetc10:22:30 PM Interesting implication, there.

thenightetc10:22:40 PM That christmastown somehow... wanted him to be there.

Knock Out10:23:07 PM Christmastown wanted him, nobody who lives there would agree.

Jakson 10:23:08 PM ooh that's pretty

thenightetc10:23:14 PM Ha!

thenightetc10:24:36 PM Jack please

Jakson 10:24:46 PM too much

thenightetc10:25:09 PM Something wrong?

Jakson 10:25:27 PM hey, what happened?

Knock Out10:25:37 PM CHANGED THE VIDEO TO Knock Out's screen

Knock Out10:25:54 PM That will probably happen again.

Jakson 10:26:06 PM alright

Knock Out10:27:33 PM I love how useless these creatures are.

Jakson 10:27:43 PM Smokescreen?

Jakson 10:28:18 PM eh, must be busy

Knock Out10:29:55 PM His little stolen cart.

thenightetc10:30:01 PM Let's all take a moment to imagine how Jack got that sleigh and its contents

Jakson 10:30:11 PM it's cute!

Knock Out10:30:13 PM It's a beautiful image.

thenightetc10:30:51 PM The grim reaper in the back there

Knock Out10:30:57 PM Just...there.

Jakson 10:31:07 PM and how we can take over it!

Knock Out10:31:37 PM "Everybody look at these things I stole!"

Mimic10:31:52 PM hello@

Mimic10:31:55 PM !

Knock Out10:31:56 PM Hello!

thenightetc10:32:01 PM Hi!

Jakson 10:32:07 PM aren't they beautiful?! Hi!

Mimic10:32:54 PM No one gets but I identify with every one of these weirdoes.

Mimic10:33:10 PM and the ways they don't get christmas

thenightetc10:34:23 PM I love the spiderweb

Jakson 10:34:49 PM uh, Science method?

thenightetc10:35:18 PM "The scientific method"

Jakson 10:35:57 PM dang

Knock Out10:36:22 PM CHANGED THE VIDEO TO Knock Out's screen

thenightetc10:36:51 PM I get the feeling he's not even sure what he's trying to find out, ehre.

Jakson 10:37:00 PM me either

Knock Out10:37:15 PM He's just making a mess and not recording any of it.

thenightetc10:37:36 PM His questions aren't clearly defined!

Jakson 10:37:49 PM I don't know. Thoughts, Knockout?

Knock Out10:38:19 PM My thoughts are he's breaking things and waiting for an epiphany to happen.

thenightetc10:38:27 PM Yeah.

Knock Out10:38:28 PM That's not the scientific method, that's the Breakdown method.

Mimic10:38:36 PM I mean. there've been worse methods of brainstorming

Jakson 10:38:51 PM I'm sorry that's funny!

Knock Out10:39:48 PM I've never been entirely clear on what she means to send him here. It doesn't look like food.

Jakson 10:40:13 PM love letter perhaps?

thenightetc10:40:16 PM Well. It's fishbones. And he's a skeleton. Maybe he does eat bones?

Knock Out10:40:16 PM It actually looks like multiple bottles of booze.

Mimic10:40:22 PM pretty sure it's some kind of fantasy absinthe

Jakson 10:40:37 PM uh?

Jakson 10:41:21 PM he's already dead

Knock Out10:41:32 PM Maybe she hoped he'd drink the fantasy absinthe and whatever else was in those other two bottles and fall asleep for a few weeks.

Jakson 10:42:01 PM I'm not gonna ask

Mimic10:42:14 PM or, give him a helpful hallucination to guide his musings. pretty sure she chugs the stuff herself

thenightetc10:42:54 PM Maybe the bottle isn't for drinking--could be that the little butterfly effect is the whole point

Knock Out10:43:21 PM I like how he just has that.

thenightetc10:43:25 PM Right?

Jakson 10:43:57 PM alright, let's just settle this. It's booze. Good?

Mimic10:44:44 PM one of many terrible ideas of Jack

Jakson 10:45:06 PM one of a thousand

thenightetc10:45:42 PM I love this song.

Mimic10:46:33 PM it's the gleeful nasty scheme song. that's a vibe

thenightetc10:46:58 PM And then when it comes down to it they just knock on his door and throw a sack over him.

Knock Out10:47:21 PM I still say it sounds like "and then Jack will be just black and green."

Knock Out10:47:26 PM And that it's funnier that way.

Mimic10:47:26 PM I mean why get overcomplicated

thenightetc10:47:36 PM It really does.

Jakson 10:47:37 PM I'm just waiting for HIS song

Mimic10:47:42 PM YES

Jakson 10:49:07 PM sounds lovely

thenightetc10:49:26 PM oh that absolutely IS your christmas, jack

Knock Out10:49:53 PM Jack's good ideas in this movie can be counted on one hand.

thenightetc10:50:08 PM They can be counted on the thumbs of one hand.

Knock Out10:50:16 PM True.

Jakson 10:50:20 PM uh, I got nothing

Mimic10:50:46 PM "Instructions unclear, kidnapped giant rabbit."

thenightetc10:50:46 PM Hehehheh.

Knock Out10:50:59 PM They just feed the rabbit to Oogie Boogie.

thenightetc10:51:11 PM ...They probably did.

Jakson 10:51:21 PM oh thank you for that image

Knock Out10:51:26 PM You're welcome.

Jakson 10:51:54 PM I like this song

thenightetc10:52:02 PM They sure will.

Knock Out10:52:09 PM I love the rats casually occupying the background.

Jakson 10:52:39 PM making Christmas!

Knock Out10:54:16 PM Just a human skull he had laying around.

thenightetc10:54:31 PM Hey, who doesn't have one of those lying around?

Knock Out10:54:35 PM Point.

Jakson 10:55:03 PM I do!

thenightetc10:55:33 PM So. Did the three kids just... wait a month to try again?

Jakson 10:55:43 PM I don't know

Knock Out10:55:53 PM They had to wait for Oogie to finish off all that rabbit meat.

thenightetc10:56:01 PM Ha!

Jakson 10:56:14 PM again, thank you for that

Knock Out10:57:10 PM You can honestly do better, Sally.

Jakson 10:57:33 PM try the vampires

Knock Out10:57:39 PM Or the werewolf.

Jakson 10:57:57 PM or the mayor.

thenightetc10:57:59 PM This is how he reproduces.

Jakson 10:58:05 PM ew

Knock Out10:58:24 PM Here we go!

Jakson 10:59:01 PM ah and here he is ladies and gentlemen!

Jakson 11:01:04 PM brava!

Knock Out11:01:10 PM I love that song so much.

thenightetc11:01:18 PM [This goes on for hours while Jack terrorizes Christmas town, gets blown up, and makes his way back]

Jakson 11:01:33 PM what does?

thenightetc11:01:47 PM You know. The song and dance number.

Jakson 11:01:52 PM ah

Knock Out11:02:28 PM He's making the most of this captive old man audience.

thenightetc11:02:41 PM He doesn't get too many visitors.

Jakson 11:03:13 PM he practices that song just in case

Knock Out11:03:24 PM "Goodbye my dearest Jack, who I love for some unfathomable reason."

Jakson 11:03:38 PM plot

Knock Out11:04:21 PM I've never envisioned their post-movie life together as a terribly happy one.

Jakson 11:04:43 PM I'm sorry to those who like this song, but get on with it

Jakson 11:05:15 PM thank you

Knock Out11:07:32 PM At least they were happy with their toys before that happened.

Mimic11:07:41 PM maybe their romance makes more sense if you drink the butterfly-booze

Knock Out11:08:10 PM Sally's going to go through a lot of butterfly-booze as she realizes he never remembers her birthday.

Jakson 11:08:12 PM here's something a little disturbing. On the soundtrack, there's a epilogue where apparently Jack and Sally did the dirty and have kids.

Mimic11:08:28 PM yup

Knock Out11:08:34 PM Well, no, the epilogue just mentioned skeleton children. It never said they were theirs.

Mimic11:08:35 PM Santa gets to meet them

Jakson 11:09:04 PM I thought it was their's

Knock Out11:09:23 PM People generally assume they were but they could have just been skeleton children who were there.

thenightetc11:09:35 PM Maybe the professor made them

Jakson 11:09:46 PM hubba hubba

Knock Out11:09:52 PM Exactly.

Jakson 11:11:16 PM really?

Knock Out11:11:18 PM You did no such thing.

Jakson 11:11:27 PM liar

thenightetc11:11:36 PM Hindsight!

Knock Out11:11:37 PM If I'm ever blown to smithereens, I want it announced exactly like this.

Jakson 11:11:49 PM me too

Jakson 11:12:22 PM everything

thenightetc11:13:14 PM He put up the plaque himself.

Knock Out11:13:16 PM Got to love how his contrition lasts about a minute and change.

Knock Out11:13:25 PM And then it becomes everyone else's fault.

Knock Out11:14:03 PM Well, as long as YOU had fun, Jack.

thenightetc11:14:08 PM oh yeah, they're going to be telling THOSE stories for a LONG time

Knock Out11:14:42 PM "I almost got an old man killed, probably got a giant rabbit killed, but at least I had a good time."

Knock Out11:15:26 PM "He almost certainly died screaming, everyone! Incomprehensible, unearthly agony! Terrible, terrible news!"

Jakson 11:15:38 PM you're not letting the rabbit joke go, are you?

Knock Out11:15:45 PM Never.

thenightetc11:15:56 PM Honestly, it's not like Jack checked up on that.

Knock Out11:16:08 PM It's a small miracle he's even checking up on this.

Jakson 11:16:37 PM what the?

Jakson 11:17:34 PM eugh

Knock Out11:17:41 PM Just sew him back together, he'll be fine.

Jakson 11:17:52 PM or not

thenightetc11:17:55 PM Hehehehehe

Knock Out11:18:05 PM Oh no, he'll be fine. He won't learn anything from the experience, but neither did Jack.

Jakson 11:18:25 PM meh, true

Knock Out11:18:38 PM I can.

Jakson 11:18:54 PM yay

Knock Out11:19:07 PM At least Jack gave her a non-gender conforming teddy bear.

Knock Out11:19:14 PM That tried to kill her, but still.

Jakson 11:19:34 PM teddy bear?

Knock Out11:20:27 PM The vampire bear.

Jakson 11:20:35 PM ah

Jakson 11:21:01 PM forever

Knock Out11:21:32 PM You're going to regret this one, Sally.

Knock Out11:21:43 PM You really do deserve better.

Jakson 11:21:45 PM not really, but you do you

Jakson 11:22:06 PM well! That was fun!

Mimic11:22:16 PM indeed!

thenightetc11:22:38 PM ???

Jakson 11:22:44 PM what is this?

Mimic11:22:54 PM Kingdom Hearts

thenightetc11:22:59 PM Ohhhh

Jakson 11:23:22 PM no no, the commentary

Knock Out11:23:40 PM OneyPlays.

Jakson 11:24:07 PM I see.

thenightetc11:24:17 PM Hm.

Jakson 11:24:21 PM alrighty. Anything else?

Knock Out11:24:27 PM I've got nothing.

Mimic11:24:31 PM I have a suggestion!

Knock Out11:24:34 PM Hm?

Mimic11:24:43 PM there's a Pitch Meeting video for Nightmare Before Christmas

Jakson 11:24:43 PM yes?

thenightetc11:24:51 PM Yessss.

Mimic11:25:02 PM CHANGED THE VIDEO TO https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-h6O6zZt6OM

thenightetc11:25:51 PM To be fair, it seems like he works more than one day a year. Seems like the entire year is spent planning

Knock Out11:26:10 PM Alongside smothering, overpowering people.

Jakson 11:26:36 PM 😆

Knock Out11:29:32 PM PAUSED THE VIDEO AT 0:04:24

Jakson 11:29:52 PM dying of laughter?

Knock Out11:30:04 PM These are always cute.

thenightetc11:30:09 PM They are!

Knock Out11:30:20 PM And that's an excellent note to end on, I think.

Jakson 11:30:23 PM yes!

thenightetc11:30:43 PM Thank you for hosting!

Jakson 11:30:47 PM alrighty, thanks for having me!

Knock Out11:30:49 PM Thank you for being here!

Mimic11:30:59 PM thanks for the stream night!

Knock Out11:32:27 PM Always a pleasure! Enter a message...

[channoticedmeuwu]

hi. its loafy bread here.

at this reasonable hour of 11 pm, i'm crying because of something stupid.

i shouted at my brother lol he was the one who did this shit and i am MAD

buT fucking hell thank goodness i learnt the art of ✨not giving a flying fuck✨ BECAUSE more stress will be added if i get bothered by little shit !!!!!

anyhow, how r u loml? was your day good? still breathing? did u eat?? WELL I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD DAY AND ATE AND STILL BREATHES!!

also didnt u say u had tutions or somethng,,, yeha how was that??!?!!

ALSO I WILL BE SENDING ASKS IN THIS FREQUENT HOUR CUZ I FEEL SO SAFE WIRH YOU LMAISHDBS

i love u so much kai!! whatever is going on in life, i hope ur doing good!!

song rec for 2day ㅡ martini blue by dpr live qotd ㅡ how many pillows do u sleep with?

~jaehyun's sad angsty loafy bread anon, 🍞

(BTW NINGNING IS AMAZING I CANT RVEN )

:00000000

OML BREADY listen I love seeing these in my inbox bc it feels like we're penpals 🥺 and u sent me a letter 🥺 I read and I get so so so so so happy 🥺🥺🥺🥺

now let's get into it

so, you say your brother made you upset :((( I'm sorry about that beloved, I get that brothers can be a handful oof, mines staring at me as we speak look away satan

But it's good that you don't stress so much over it :D stressing is bad for you smh >:(( remember to occasionally drink some cold water, it helps!

And yep, my day was good! My mother was actually fasting today (but ramadan is over) so she forgot to give me lunch bfkrhd I didn't remind her either bc she seemed stressed dhdj so when she woke up from her evening nap, she asked me if I was hungry and I was like "oh a lil bit" and then she's like ".... :OO I FORGOT TO GIVE U LUNCH AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME >:[[[[" ehe but I ate with her when she broke her fast so BDJDGDJ ITS OKAY

My tutions were good, on the way there my kidneys starting hurting so I drank some water as soon as I got there fjhdjd my teacher was concerned when I walked in she's like "why are you leaning like that" when I was like DYING fjdh

The rest of the time there was a lazy afternoon, doing math while sitting near tinted windows and just scribbling on the desks while staring into the ceiling man it hits different t_t

ALSO you know seokjin's iconic "hey stOb it!" ? Well, I set it as my notification a LONG time ago so everytime I get a text, my phone goes "HEY STOB IT" and t_t my mom texted me, telling me she was there to pick me up and I forgot to put it on do not disturb, SO THE PHONE SCREAMED "HEY STOB IT" and EVERYONE STARED AT ME AAABAHDVDJDB

And yeaH BUBS send me as many asks as you like, I enjoy them a lot :(( but I know it's like past 12 there so you should be tucked under those covers soon >:((

I hope you're good too bready >:))) see u 🥺🥺

[greetingsfromthebottomofthewell]

PLEASE DON’T ACTUALLY TRY THIS (ALSO KNOWN AS: THREE KINGS RITUAL)

[source] [triggers]

i’ve become somewhat fond of researching things like this lately

Hey /r/nosleep, long time no see.

I've been posting bits and pieces of my life here, but I find them a little boring and self-serving (the last one about the juvie incidents was already like 70% made-up, to my shame) so today I'll post a recipe instead. This is not Creepypasta (at least not yet) and I'm writing it from a train in the NYC area.

What I'm about to share with you today is one of the many relatively safe ways in which you can access (not quite enter) a place I call the "Shadowside", and its effectiveness depends on how seriously you take me; your mileage may vary, refer to title.

I won't tell you that you shouldn't be afraid of the Shadowside; chances are you've already seen it after all, and merely think it was just a "recurring dream". I will tell you there is no need to be ignorantly afraid of it, though. There is a difference. Ignorance fuels fear and fear can give that place a lot of juice to run on. You have to be big on preparation if you want to try this. It's like sky diving: if getting it right on your first try is not something you're good at, then this is not for you.

If you do drugs or alcohol the night of the event, you're going to have a bad time. If you're going through some serious issues in your life and are not feeling mentally or spiritually stable, or if you're doing this just to escape, you're going to have a bad time. And if you don't follow my instructions (particularly the multiple backups I'll give you, which trust me, are there for a reason) you're going to really have a bad time.

The name of this game is THE THREE KINGS, btw.

Ingredients:

A very large empty and quiet room, preferably without windows. If windows exist, you need to be able to cover them and ensure total darkness. Basements usually work well, if they're roomy enough.

A pack of candles (you'll only use 1, if all goes well), and a lighter.

A bucket of water and a mug.

A fan.

Two large mirrors (like the one on your dresser. Don't worry, they won't be harmed. Or if they are, it'd be the least of your concerns).

Three chairs.

An alarm clock.

An active cell phone (don't forget to charge the goddamn battery!)

A loved one willing to follow rules and go along with all this madness.

A small toy or dear object from your childhood.

Setup:

Start setup at around 11 PM. Place one chair in the center of the room, facing north (this is important). Place the other two chairs exactly to the left and right, facing your throne. The distance between your throne and that of your queen and fool should be about the length of your arm to each side, more or less. Place the two large mirrors on the queen and fool chairs left and right of you, facing you (and each other). Try your best to have them stand at a 90 degree angle (or else you may get more or less than three kings). If you sit on your throne facing straight ahead (north), you should be able to perceive your own reflection in each of the two mirrors without actually having to turn your head nor your eyes to do so. If you see your own reflection in the corner of your eye, just barely there, then you've done it right.

Place the bucket of water and the mug in front of you, just barely out of reach.

Place the fan behind you, turn it on. Don't set it to maximum power- medium or low is usually enough. Leave it on.

Turn off the lights, leave the door open and go to your bedroom.

Set the candles by the side of the bed, next to a lighter, your alarm clock and your cellphone (leave it charging).

Set your alarm clock for 3:30 AM.

Turn off the lights and sleep while holding your power object, get some rest. Showtime:

Wake up at 3:30 AM with your alarm clock. Turn it off, but don't turn on the light. You have exactly three minutes to light your candle, grab your cellphone, and make your way to the dark room to sit in your throne. You should be seated by 3:33 AM. Don't forget your power object! Check for potential red flags: if your cellphone didn't charge for whatever reason, abort the mission. If the alarm didn't go off exactly at 3:30 AM, abort the mission. If you find the dark room door closed (remember you left it open) abort the mission. If the fan is turned off (you left it on) abort the mission.

(Side note: if you have to abort the mission due to any of the above, leave the house with your loved one. Go to a hotel or something. There's no need to run; you have time to grab a jacket and your keys and what not, but leave. After 6 AM the coast should be clear.)

If all is going as planned, you can proceed and take your throne. DO NOT look directly at either of the two mirrors besides you. DO NOT let the candle go out. The fan is behind you. You must protect the candle with your body, which is standing in between (there's a reason for this; as you'll soon see).

Look straight ahead, at the darkness. Not at the candle, not at the mirrors, just straight ahead. Eagle-eyed readers surely noticed I didn't say during setup which chair was queen and which chair was fool. That's because it's your job to find out. And from their point of view, you are either their queen or their fool, too. Hence threekings.

I won't spoil what happens next. Suffice to say, you won't be alone and if you have questions, you'll get answers. Sometimes in the form of new questions, but hey, that's the story of humanity eh? Just stay put and try not to move. Again, DO NOT look directly at the mirrors, nor the candle. Just straight ahead, trust me. Don't chicken out either; you need to wait until 4:34. By 4:34 it's all over. It's okay to tremble a little bit, just try not to. Not because it affects the ritual or anything -it's just a pussy thing to do while in polite company.

Did I mention not to let the candle go out? That's what the fan is for. You're protecting the candle with your body, but if your body were to be suddenly moved then the fan would turn off the candle. That's backup number 1. Your loved one is backup number 2: at 4:34 she has to come in the room and call your name. If that won't work, she has to call your cellphone. If that won't work, she has the glass of water and the bucket. She can't touch you though -that's a newbie mistake. Backup number 3 is your item of power, the toy, or locket or whatever object of strength you brought along for the ride. It'll show you the way if SHTF.

Multiple back ups. You gotta be like a boy scout if you do these things. If you half-ass it, half-ass it all the way so that it won't work. Worst you can do is take it seriously enough for it to work and not seriously enough to be prepared for the consequences.

If in doubt, refer to title.

[joonbts]

get2knowme

rules: answer 30 questions and tag some blogs you would like to get to know better

thanks for tagging me @busan-qt :^) sorry i took 16+ years. school is hectic and i get on this computer every night only to write 1 sentense in my numerous essasy then fall asleep. i m s o r r y p ls love me 

1. nicknames: bb, bri, bri bri, BUT I LIK E JOON more people call me joon nowadays and thats awesome tbh

2. gender: female

3. star sign: Gemini :^)

4. height: 5′5 ½ ;^))

5. time: 10:26 pm

6. bday: june 8th...hense joon

7. fav band: not counting the legends themselves then Hyuk Oh hands down best bois, and epik high (how could i n o t )

8. fav solo artist: 6lack, Russ, Logic, KENDRICK, loco, joji, beenzino, atlas, lee hi,olnl..i could go on forever lets be honest

9. song stuck in my head rn:  so its either Eureka (zion t and zico) or Aint no party like an aomg party (jay park and ugly duck).....eh hey with simon d is a bop too tho tbh

10. last movie i watched: ice age but with dinosaurs

11. last show i watched: bts run episode 35

12. when did i create my blog: my main blog sometime in 2012.. But this one i think sometime in 2017

13. what do i post: bts , bts, bts memes, occasional fic recs, other groups. Rarely i spam oh hyuk or another hip hop arrtist, but this mainly a kpop focus blog. Its my trash side blog lol

14. last thing i googled: person wrapped in vines..listen hear me out. It was for art

That make s it sound worse tbh

15. do i have any other blogs: i titled all of my blogs with joon

Good luck

 Haha nah

Main: batistabombingdatass

Side1: this

Side2: joonfam

Side3: notcturnalclub

And my laast is just for art ref and tips

16. do i get asks: no, no one loves me. Istg i’ll draw whatever you want. I cant draw porn tho. Plz love me

17. why i chose my url: joon is cute plus it also refers to namjoon. Win win basically

18. following: 704

19. followers: 152

21. average hours of sleep:  even tho i lov e sleep i refuse to sleep for more than 6 hours. If i even graze 6 hours and 1 minute i feel like i killed all my chances of advancing in life with my bare hands

22. lucky number: idk i think its 7

23. instruments: i can barely sing i cant do anyhting else

24. what am i wearing: 8th grade hoodie, leggings, socks

26. dream job: comic artist with my own private office like that german guy on netflix. He’s cool

27. dream trip: somewhere cold but cozy. Norway maybe

28. fav food: WA TER MALONE

29. nationality: american/ black

30. fav song: Joy olnl and Love. Kendrick, everybody Logic...IF I KEEP GOING I WONTSTOP IM SORRY

im tagging: @kpop-kk, @lookinforalpaca, and @namjoon-moon

[gingervsblondie]

Blondie Has Servant Trouble (1940)

11:51 PM, Saturday, 19 October 2019

What a title, eh? The biggest first world problem of the 20th century. Needless to say, there are bigger problems in the world in 1940 than Blondie’s servant trouble, but here we are. I’m not in the best mood so why not take it out on this totally well-meaning but inconsequential piece of light entertainment from 80 years ago?

11:55

Hey so: the mailman Dagwood runs into in the intro isn’t the mailman he runs into in the movies proper. I don’t know if it ever was. Maybe in the first movie, I honestly don’t remember, but I don’t know who that guy in the intro is. He’s not the mailman I know and love from these great great flicks.

11:58

Hey, noir detective newspaper guy is back! I guess whatever drama I decided was going on behind the scenes last time is resolved now.

We may never know how much blood he has on his hands, how far he went, interrogating petty criminals in alleys, following the trail that ended at the dog-catchers, God rest their souls.

12:01 AM

So… I think a lot of what I’ve seen so far is stock footage, which isn’t something they’ve done to any noticeable degree in the previous movies. Maybe it isn’t though? I don’t know! I don’t trust myself. Maybe these movies are just so repetitive that I can’t believe that they filmed this stuff a second time anymore.

(Future Euan note: I’m pretty sure it wasn’t stock footage.)

12:03

So far, this entry seems to be about superstitions. You know, black cats, walking under ladders.

I’m kinda checked out. Which I can only apologize for. If you’re reading this I want to give you my all, but I mean YOU KNOW WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN. YOU’VE SEEN OLD CARTOONS. Man I miss Dagwood and Blondie just chilling on the train.

12:07

Blondie: “Poor Daisy. Maybe she’s tired of doing the same thing over and over. I know I am.”

Holy shit, the movie heard me. I’m scared now. I’m feeling very vulnerable and I’m not ready for Blondie Has Servant Trouble to Sonic.exe me.

12:09

Dagwood just electrocuted himself atop a ladder at the top of a flight of stairs, which he then fell down. And all I can think is “man I wish Dagwood could die.”

12:15

Alexander Hamilton Bumstead has a kite.

Kinda like how Charlie Brown flies a kite.

...

You know, What Have We Learned, Charlie Brown has a really interesting sequence of World War II footage that’s hand-tinted in bright stylized colours. I could be watching that right now.

https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x3x6rhf

12:28

I promise I’ll go easy on the next movie. I’ll look on the bright side for that one.

12:30

The mailman says he transferring. It’d be weird if the movie where I finally notice that there’s a different mailman in the intro is also the last movie with the mailman that actually is in the movies.

12:32

There’s a gag where Dagwood, through a series of hilarious events, runs into the mailman while caught on Alexander Hamilton Bumstead’s kite, and we see the kite flying in the air with the mailman’s hat stuck in its string. And all I could think was “that must have been a very hard shot to get and it was not worth it.”

Dark Side Euan has entered the chat.

12:38

Apparently people said “no offence” in 1940. Did not know that.

12:39

You know, I was in a good mood last night. Maybe things’d be different if I did this then.

See, like: Dagwood just kicked his boss in the ass so hard that he slid clear across the room. And I feel nothing.

12:44

Turns out the mailman transferring was just more “ooh, is the mailman gonna avoid getting run into this time? No. He’s not.” The mailman’s transferring to a neighbourhood where Dagwood’s boss is going to put him so that he and Blondie can have servants. Shenanigans. Malarkey. MALARKEY I SAY.

12:48

Somebody died. I’m pretty sure this is the first allusion to death in the Blondieverse. So people can die. By that token, Dagwood can die, assuming he’s a human.

But you know what they say about assuming: don’t do it if it’s not funny.

Is Dagwood an alien? That would explain what I’ve taken to be the strangely pointy bits of his hairdo, maybe they’re actually antennae. Perhaps he’s some kind of god, or an angel, a being from a higher- wait I’m just doing the Mr. Bean lore now.

12:56

Dagwood, Blondie and Alexander Hamilton Bumstead (to say nothing of the dog) are on the car-ride over to the house they’re going to stay in, where a magic trick manufacturer died (more malarkey incoming.)

While Blondie was getting all horny at the thought of having servants (I don’t know how else to describe it, she just keeps saying the word “servants” with satisfaction,) Alexander Hamilton Bumstead cut her off and said “Daddy, are we still in the United States?” I thought, true to his abolitionist namesake, he was condemning his mother for indulging in the privilege her position in the class hierarchy provided her. But apparently he was just commenting on how long the car-ride was taking.

1:08

They’ve arrived at the house, and it doesn’t have electricity.

Alexander Hamilton Bumstead: “This is a mess, how are we going to eat?”

Blondie: “We have plenty of candles, dear.”

Alexander Hamilton Bumstead: “Only eskimos eat candles.”

Never mind, Alexander Hamilton Bumstead isn’t a progressive in the realm of race politics after all.

1:16

Alright. The movie’s acting like there’s a ghost in the house. They’ve shown us someone under a cover, cartoon ghost style. I’m betting you right now it’s the magic trick manufacturer and he’s still alive and that’ll be the shenanigans and in fact death remains an unconfirmed theory in the Blondieverse. And if I’m wrong, I’ll just go back and delete this paragraph.

1:18

I’m wrong. But anyway I’m pretty sure they used stock footage for real this time, for a shot of Daisy running into a door and hitting her head because there’s no dog door. Unless maybe Daisy had a catalogue of tricks she could do, and so they’re filming them more than once to get the most out of having trained the dog to do that.

1:23

So! The guy under the sheet was a black man by the name of Horatio Jones, played by Ray Turner. I note that he’s black because of our experiences with Willie Best, the only other black representation in these movies up until this point. Horatio’s in the house because he’s being initiated into a lodge, and he has to spend a night in a haunted house. So maybe these movies are improving at representing black people?

(Future Euan Note: Horatio is still a pretty stereotypical character, and has his eyes wide practically every second he’s on screen, but he’s presented as equal in class to the Bumsteads so I guess I can count that as progress.)

1:36

Shenanigans alert: the servants just arrived, or rather two people purporting to be the servants, but they reacted oddly when Blondie said “you must be the servants,” and haven’t said anything, instead letting Blondie talk for them, so I suspect they’re not actually the servants. Maybe they’re there to rob the dead magic trick manufacturer’s house? I’m determined to figure out the shenanigans before they happen.

1:40

The “servants,” on their own:

Servant A: “This is my house, it always has been my house.”

Servant B: “But those young people are harmless.”

Servant A: “Harmless? No-one is harmless!”

Servant B: “...Sometimes I think your mind is-”

Servant A: (Turning, putting his hands on her neck as if to strangle her,) “You’ll never say that again!”

These bastards are straight out of a completely different movie.

1:45

Blondie has her fur coat from the last movie. Continuity! Wooooo.

1:47

Please make this movie be over.

1:51

I hate you

You hate me

Let’s team up and kill Barney

With a baseball bat and a two-by-four

No more purple dinosaur

1:54

Dagwood got a flashlight stuck in his mouth and can’t get it out. Which is upsetting more than it is comical. Reminds of that one bit in The Empty Child.

Gross.

1:57

After getting it out, Dagwood promptly got the flashlight stuck in his mouth again, while demonstrating to Horatio how he managed to get it stuck the first time ‘round.

What a fucking dipshit.

2:03

Eric the fake servant dude just grabbed a kitchen knife and walked menacingly in the direction of the Bumsteads, before fake servant lady stopped him.

Don’t tease me like that, Flournoy!

(Future Euan Note: Wow that’s dark, I’m sorry.)

2:07

The guy playing Eric, the demented mystery man masquerading as a servant and repeatedly holding his head in anguish, is named Arthur Hohl, and a cursory glance at his Wikipedia tells me that he’s a fairly serious actor. And I mean I’m down. I’m struggling with this one but I am down for the introduction of a thespian playing a violent and dangerous man losing his grip on reality.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s Dick Flournoy’s self-insert character.

2:15

There was just a bit where Dagwood ran to get water to douse on fake servant lady, who’s unconscious.

...Which reminds me of this one scene in A Boy Named Charlie Brown, which I’d also rather be watching.

https://youtu.be/E7ID_E-SYbQ

Snoopy’s an asshole and I love it.

2:24

15 minutes left. My eyes are doing that thing where they feel bad to keep open. You know. When one is sleepy.

2:28

https://youtu.be/AQE4bwA6EF4

This movie is weird you guys.

2:30

Welp, the movie broke me. I laughed.

Blondie: (reading a newspaper clipping with a picture of the crazy fake servant dude) “Man eludes police after knifing attorney.”

Dagwood: “Euh- with a knife?”

2:35

This movie’s never gonna end I wanna SLEEEEEEp

2:37

Ignore this entry, I’m just typing something so I don’t fall asleep.

2:38

Dagwood just yelled “Blondie, I’m shot!” What actually happened is he burnt himself with a candle, but if I was a real sociopath, I could edit that line with gunshot sound effects either side of it. Like Dagwood’s Crazy Frog and I’m on Newgrounds circa 2005.

2:42

I think Dagwood just got stabbed. I think Dagwood has a knife in his back. I think Dagwood just got STABBED.

2:43

Nah the knife was just stuck in his jacket. But if I was a REAL sociopath, I could- 

idk, edit in a punchline when you’re not so tired, Future Euan.

(Future Euan Note: I dunno, painstakingly animate CGI blood dripping from his back? I don’t really know what you were going for here, Past Euan.)

2:47

Okay it’s done! IT’S DONE! It’s done.

Quick quick quick, wrap up: This movie was good, probably, maybe? I was miserable watching it but it had weirdly life or death stakes and a psycho killer (qu’est que c’est) which is almost interesting by Blondie standards. It’s even the kind of movie I could see myself stumbling on and enjoying if it wasn’t a Blondie movie, or if it was but I wasn’t on this crusade. The kind of movie I’d find on some weird DVD collection of public domain or cheaply licensed old movies, like a favourite of mine, The Answer, a 1955 episode of Four Star Playhouse that felt very profound when I was little.

My Dagwood Sandwich rating is: one sandwich containing ice cream. You appreciate the ice cream, but you weren’t exactly expecting it in your sandwich. And when somebody asks you how it was, you’re like, “Well, it was ice cream, so good I guess.” And they say, “Did you enjoy it?” and you say, “Well, no.”

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I’m gonna go to sleep.

[toricrypticice]

Lets get personal

No one tagged me but why not?

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (Lmao, no)

THE LAST:

1. drink: Iced Tea 2. phone call: My mom 3. text message: “?” 4. song you listened to: Pretty Girl -Cheat Codes X CADE remix 5. time you cried: 7:35 pm today  6. dated someone twice: yes 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yep 8. been cheated on: sort of 9. lost someone special: yes, I lost an important friend as of kind of recently. :( 10. been depressed: yep right now but I’m getting help  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Nope

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12-14. - Maroon, seafoam green, and Teal.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: Yeah and they all are pretty great (≧▽≦) 16. fallen out of love: kind of  they broke my heart once and I was stupid enough to get back with them only to realize I had gotten over them between the time we were apart. 17. laughed until you cried: Yes XD 18. found out someone was talking about you: not really no one does. 19. met someone who changed you: Mmm, yes. in real life and online. 20 found out who your friends are: yeah, a lot some people don’t stay I guess and some are closer than others.  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yep 

GENERAL:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them except two actually  23. do you have any pets: Not myself but my family has four cats who I love but I want a dog 24. do you want to change your name: Ehh unsure yet I like Tori but I also like Marsh. A lot of my friends call me Marsh.  25. what did you do for your last birthday: Well the day of my birthday not much I mean we had something I picked out for dinner. But two days before my B-day I hung out with my other family and they got me a cake, brought me out to eat, and walked on the beach with me. I missed them a lot.  26. what time did you wake up: Today around 3 but went back to sleep until 9 am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Chilling on my phone, mostly instagram and Snapchat 28. name something you can’t wait for: FOR ME TO GRADUATE  29. when was the last time you saw your mom: today at 3 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Money issues. I wish we didn’t have to constantly worry that we might lose the house and the roof we live under. 31. what are you listening to right now: A fucking Spotify Ad (ಠ ∩ಠ) oh wait well now Broken Strings by James Morrison 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yep,  33. something that is getting on your nerves: A lot and really there is no reason. Acne, my body, my anxiety, my depression, summer school (눈_눈), and of course my family. 34. most visited website: Youtube 35-37. lost questions?? ?Wat 38. hair colour: Naturally brown but dyed partially blonde 39. long or short hair: Short but growing it out  40. do you have a crush on someone: Right now no but I kinda wish I did. 41. what do you like about yourself: Creativity 42. piercings: None (my ears closed on me) 43. blood type: Fuck I don’t know lmao 44. nickname: Tori/Marsh (Tori short for Victoria, Marsh short for Marshall) 45. relationship status: Single 46. zodiac: Taurus 47. pronouns: Any 48. favourite tv show: hmmmmm idk I don’t watch much but I like the classic teen titans not the sucktacular new one, oh and Steven Universe is super good. 49. tattoos: Nope    ....But doesn’t mean I won’t be getting some ฅ•ω•ฅ 50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: nah 52. piercing: wat....this was already a....aw whatever 53. sport: Sports don't agree with me. I mean I’m good at frisbee and badminton, other sports are fun but I’m not the best. I do like watching Hockey and Ice Skating though. 55. vacation: Nah my family doesn’t have the money. We never go on vacation. 56. pair of trainers: .....oh this is talking about shoes XD.... I was like trainers who gets two and why is this a common thing. lmao welp guess I answered that with a big fat nope!

MORE GENERAL

57. eating: thirty minutes ago 58. drinking: Been drinking a lot of over sugared ice tea, monsters, and water lately. 59. i’m about to: Push all my clothes onto the floor so I can chill on my bed instead of chilling on the floor.  61. waiting for: this shouldn’t be a hard question but somehow it is, uhhhh oh for all my friend to be free so we can get together I wanna go to Quassy for $0.50 cent night 62. want: To get to my goal weight :P 63. get married: I do XD   I hope to meet someone that I can hangout with to recharge There’s a Youtuber I watch who has a great relationship with his wife. I want that. 64. career: I’m so unsure. Being a YouTuber has been a huge interest but everyone shits on that along with my acting dream so I guess anything to do with art  65. hugs or kisses: I love both but I do like hugs a lot even though I act rather stand offish I appreciate hugs

66. lips or eyes: i think it depends on the person honestly, but probably eyes 67. shorter or taller: Hmmm I don’t know   it doesn’t matter to me I don’t get why people say they NEED someone who is taller. If the person is sweet, acts like a child, enjoys games, and loves movies they are my kinda person.  68. older or younger: I don’t know I like people who are rather mature but can also horse around 70. nice arms or nice stomach: Eh Don’t care much for either. 71. sensitive or loud: Both, and they need to know when loud is appropriate and when it isn’t, because I have no patience for immaturity in that way. Idk maybe that’s just me 72. hook up or relationship: Relationship. I don’t think I can hook-up because I’ve been realizing I’m pretty sure I’m on the demi-sexual side of things. Plus i don’t know a hook up just seems terrible. You hook up and give someone a part of you and then you never see them again I don’t know maybe its just not for me. 73. troublemaker or hesitant: i prefer someone who is hesitant, but with a slight troublemaker streak because I am very hesitant myself. Yeah as long as we don’t get arrested/expelled/fired I’m up for it. 

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. kissed a stranger: nope. 75. drank hard liquor: Yep but just a sip  shhhh 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: Yep and then you can’t find them because you need glasses to see but thats what you lost. 77. turned someone down: Yeah, but it never gets any easier I just feel so bad cause I know what its like to be on both sides. Both sides are horrible. 78. sex on the first date: NOPE!!!! 79. broken someone’s heart: Yeah God I felt so bad :(    But I think they are over me, we are still friends.... but I still feel bad.  80. had your heart broken: Yeah twice and both times were horrible 81. been arrested: No and I hope it stays that way 82. cried when someone died: Yeah but not usually when I first get the news it takes awhile before it sinks in. I’m bad with emotions. 83. fallen for a friend: Yeah all of them. They all didn’t work though :P

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: Not really, I rather mean to myself but kinder to others. but I’m also a jerk at times to people I care about.  85. miracles: Uhm. Only because I’ve seen some, tbh.  86. love at first sight: Kind of.  87. santa claus: Nah man its not possible.....wait unless he’s a wizard OH SHIT___!!!!! 88. kiss on the first date: Maybe, idk, probs not, but there’s a chance. 89. angels: not really I don’t believe in god sooooo 

OTHER:

90. current best friend’s name: Mikayla and Michelle   They are the closest people in my life.  91. eye colour: blue/green with a brown ring around my pupil 92. favourite movie: UGh I can’t really choose, I love movies so its super hard. like there are musicals, dramas, romance, thriller, animation, comedy- I could go on forever. My favorite movie changes. Right now its Winnie The Pooh Piglet’s Big Adventure but tomorrow it will most likely change. Dude I should watch that. 

Who’s Tagged? (I chose most of them randomly)

@seashell-calling @theauthorolive1215 @i-ship-septicplier @i-did-it-because-i-can @elentori-art @konoira @queer-coffee @planet-pastels @peachymints @ethan-works @lemememeringue

[thewanderingamalgamate]

Calm Between Storms

Some logs from Camp Undersoul that have been sitting in my drafts for a while. Its been some time, but I still want to preserve the moment on here so, here it is! A little scene after the first Parasite Tentacle fight involving @seraphofretribution @prancing-pacifist and the goop a bit early on. The logs are unedited and unformatted, so keep that in mind. (Little reference to this at the beginning heh)

Wander-wanderandward - Today at 3:57 PM

-...backpack into the world and filled it with memories...- Seems to be muttering the words as a hums.

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 3:58 PM

Emmy looks like she wants to say something... but frowns instead, sitting on the grass on her knees.

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 3:58 PM

"You know us souls are capable of evil, so it's better to do nothing than kill and slaughter. Buuuuut if you wanna mope, you should have a good chat with 'died as soon as he fell underground' in the yellow cabin."

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 3:58 PM

...I have to focus.. It needs to die.. it needs to die.Even if it really doesn't know what it's doing.(Amy...)Ressa just hugs Amy.

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 3:58 PM

[ * Frisk couldn't help smiling, knowing that their song's been remembered. ]

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 3:59 PM

"...? Amy?"

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 3:59 PM

"Fine, my insecurities are a joke- I get it-"(edited)

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 3:59 PM

.... He's spacing out a bit.

Dia (vines-and-pellets) - Today at 3:59 PM

"W-well.. i'm glad  you appreciate it, though!!" They giggle again as they see wander stashing the candy, not passing up the small glint of happiness in his eyes.

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 3:59 PM

* [Angelo had never heard the song before...]

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 3:59 PM

"Hm? No. I'm just saying. It's better to do nothing than to do the wrong thing. At least it is in my eyes."

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:00 PM

"And plus, I didn't actually do anything during the attack either. I feel bad about it, but there's nothing I can do."She shrugged.

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:00 PM

Would probably be easy enough to snap him out of it, though.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:01 PM

"Hmph, Well I never done anything useful- at least you've BEEN useful at least once here-'"Liam bit his lip "Nevermind, just ignore that-"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:01 PM

"In what way?" She blinked.

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:02 PM

"Ressa, is everythin' okay?"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:02 PM

"Useful in doing nothing but standing around?""How is that useful?""I did nothing!"

Wander-wanderandward - Today at 4:03 PM

-...always with me, by my side...- Might be easing his frayed nerves, but certainly not his anything else. Voice just a bare hoarse whisper but he carries on.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:03 PM

"Before you were- you coud've easily replaced me multiple times here!"

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:03 PM

(Uh, yeah.. He just had a talk with someone and came back rather shaken.)(I'm just comforting him for now.. I'll ask later.)

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:03 PM

"Seriously? Are you kidding? Is that about the fishing thing?"

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:03 PM

"No-! You could've replaced me at that temple thing too!"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:03 PM

"How?!"

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:04 PM

"You could've attacked- You could've put your hand on the statue- you gave better points than us- but I guess the fishing event could be added too!""Wanna know what I did?! I failed EVERY time! And I just took silly notes nobody would evne look at!"

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:05 PM

Emmy nods lightly, then looks at all the cyan stains. "..."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:05 PM

"Notes that weren't even useful!"

Wander-wanderandward - Today at 4:05 PM

-...Angelo. How is the volunteer?-

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:05 PM

"Hey! You beat me in something I've trained at for months! And those notes can be useful if used right."

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:05 PM

* Hmmm? Oh.* {Frisk. Wander wants to know how you are doing. You want control of my hands?}

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:06 PM

"And, and. You could've easily caught the salmon, you put your hand on the statue when I was idiotically sleeping, you took notes that could be extremely useful, and you aren't freaking useless in this!."

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:06 PM

...Amy's still out of it. He weakly takes his helmet off and lets it drop to the ground, but stands up a moment later.

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:06 PM

[ * Sure thing! ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:07 PM

* {Then the controls are yours. It is normal if you have trouble controlling them. Every other SOUL did for a while.}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:08 PM

[ * Ahhh, `kay! Thanks, man. ]

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:09 PM

"The only reason I BEAT you was because I got LUCKY! AND NO I COULDNT'VE- I FAILED ALMOST EACH TIME AND I ONLY GOT THAT SALMON BECAUSE IT WAS GIVEN TO ME- AND YOU'RE THE ONE WITH ACTUAL FIGHTING SKILLS- ALL I GREW UP WITH WAS ALL SOFT AND INNOCENT- AND YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT THAT GOT ME?! KILLED! IMPALED! AND I BARELY USED THOSE NOTES ANYWAY- IT WAS JUST SOME STUPID DISTRACTION!"(edited)

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:09 PM

[ * Frisk kinda struggles a bit using Angelo's left hand, they're trying to make it into the

shape. Their SOUL spirit's smiling, still a bit shaken up. ]

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:09 PM

He's tearing up

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:10 PM

"--!!" Liam's yelling startles her out of whatever thought she was absorbed in.

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:10 PM

* That is Frisk controlling my arm right now, Wander. That answer your question?

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:11 PM

And he seems shaken up"I-I was supposed to prove I was strong.."

Wander-wanderandward - Today at 4:11 PM

-Heh. Heheh. Yeah, thanks. Good to hear, Lintu. One down. The other six will be easier. We got this.- That was definitely a weight off his mind. Wander visibly relaxes and nods at the angel.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:12 PM

He clutched onto his ribbon "T-to t-them"

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:12 PM

[ * We do, yeah... We'll beat the crud outta that beast. ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:12 PM

* All the crud.

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:13 PM

...hff..

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:13 PM

[ * Ehehehe!!! ]

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:13 PM

"Strong? A...And?? I'm... I'M A FREAKING MURDERER! THAT'S WHAT MY TRAINING AND STRENGTH DID FOR ME! GAVE ME THE ABILITY TO KILL! AND I FREAKING DESERVED MY DEATH BECAUSE OF IT! I'M AN AWFUL PERSON BECAUSE OF THAT! I SLEEP ALL THE TIME, I'M LAZY, I'M AN AWFUL FRIEND... ANd... And..." She trailed off, face covered as she stared down at the ground.

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:13 PM

Amy leaves, followed by a slightly concerned Ressa a few moments later.

Wander-wanderandward - Today at 4:13 PM

The goopman could certainly guess the other half of that conversation, chuckling at the thought of it.

Dogamy and Dogaressa (ask-dogi) - Today at 4:14 PM

Amy's helmet is still on the ground.

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:14 PM

Emmy watches them go... then moves over to pick up the helmet ever so gently.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:15 PM

((I agree with Adie,,))Liam is breathing heavily "A-at least you TRIED to make me feel better, all I ever do is make people feel worse about themselves!""and at least you're TRIYNG to change! for the better!""All i'm doing is making myself worse! I don't want to fight things and yet I DO IT ANYWAY- I DON'T WANT TO BE ANGRY ABOUT EVERYTHING""Y-you aren't a awful friend-"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:17 PM

She stared down at the ground. "...."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:18 PM

He stared at the ground, ruffling his hair as he cried "S-see? Even now i'm making it worse-""I-I over reacted like I always do-"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:19 PM

She took a few steps forwards, and gave him a tight hug. "...Hmph."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:20 PM

Liam was surprised by the hug "E-eh...?"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:21 PM

"Yeah, well those are flaws. Everyone's gotta live with 'em." She grumbled, letting go and stuffing her hands in her pockets.

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:21 PM

Emmy hugs Amy's helmet to herself, sitting back in the grass and watching the others.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:21 PM

"S-same with you-"He sniffled loudly, he didn't even try to seem angry thereHe just rubbed his eyes

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:22 PM

She smirked. "Heh... Yeah." Kamaria wiped her eye, looking off to the side.

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:23 PM

He sniffed, looking at the ground "S-sorry for being a awful friend.."

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:23 PM

"P-pft. S-Seriously?"She smiled. "You're a great friend."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:24 PM

"H-how?"

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:26 PM

"Well, for one, you have a brain. That puts you above most people I know."She snickered."Two, you're a good person."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:26 PM

"I-It's not m-much of a brain-" he rubbed his eyes

Kamaria {SevenDeadlySouls}- - Today at 4:26 PM

"Three, you're cool to hang around.""And four, you actually put up with me for more than a minute."

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:28 PM

"H-how am I two or three- p-plus what puts me above t-the rest with four? Y-you aren't annoying or anything-(edited)

Emmy (two-littlesouls) - Today at 4:32 PM

She feels a little awkward being here as they have this serious conversation, so she stands up with Amy's helmet, and wanders off to go find them to return it.

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:33 PM

[ * So... I'm kinda wonderin'. What's your timeline like? ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:34 PM

* {...It is...Complicated.}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:35 PM

[ * Ahhh, how so? It's alright if you don't wanna, like, answer. ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:36 PM

* {It is more like...A very long story. But it is not a happy one.}* ... * {You remember the Determination lesson? How I explained how one can have too much Determination?}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:38 PM

[ * I hadn't forgotten, but, yeah! I do! ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:39 PM

* {I encountered a person just like that. One who had extreme amounts of Determination. Their path set on...Destruction.}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:40 PM

[ * Oh jeez. Wh... What made them do that? Like, all that Determination and it was to destroy things? ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:43 PM

* {...It is very hard to explain. But they were a menace, a villain. Set on destroying and killing everyone...So they did. They took away all my friends, everyone I loved...} * {And the only person I could call family in this entire world...}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:44 PM

[ * ... ][ * They really shouldn't've done that... It's so meanin'less, like... I'm sorry. You didn't deserve any of that and neither did your friends. ][ * But, is that why..? ]

Liam (asksixsouls) - Today at 4:47 PM

Since the person rping as Kamaria is offline, I'll pretend the whole thing ended and have Liam go back to the sanctum and rest

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:49 PM

* {Why I absorbed the SOULs? Yes...But I did not force these SOULs to join me. Just like with you, I asked, let them join only if they wanted to. And well, they all did, as you can see. I just...Simply could not bring myself to force them to help me, despite everything taken away from me.}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:52 PM

[ * `Cause, that'd be wrong. That... person got rid of those dear to you, it wouldn't make sense if you did the same to those souls. ][ * And y'know, since they wanted to help, I'm glad they did! ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 4:54 PM

* {Heheh...I am glad too. They even stayed after we...Took care of that person. There were still people we had to take care of and lead. And who else but me, right?}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 4:58 PM

[ * Yeah, who else? ... I'm sure you're takin' good care of them, though. I can feel it, like, you saved a lot of people by gettin' rid of that person I bet. ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 5:00 PM

* {Sometimes I wish I could have stopped them sooner...Hmph...But what is done is done.}* {...Frisk. Do something for me, would you?}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 5:02 PM

[ * What is it..? ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 5:06 PM

* {When camp is over and you return to your own timeline...Don't lose sight of yourself, on whatever path you choose. And don't become blind to others around you. Always remember you can choose another path or turn back...That theres always a second chance. And if someone offers that chance to you, don't be afraid to take it.}* {Don't think of it as giving up...}

Frisk [ prancing-pacifist ] - Today at 5:09 PM

[ * I'll... try my best. There's still a lot I need to learn, about everythin'. I ain't gonna promise it, but, I'll be sure to stick to that. I'll remember your words and tie it to my sleeves, to never forget any time. ][ * I never believed in second chances myself, since there is... I'll be sure to look around me and know that if I'm doin' is wrong, I won't do it. ][ * For your sake and everyone else's. ]

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 5:10 PM

* {Thank you, thats all i'll ask.}

"Angelo" [seraphofretribution] - Today at 5:12 PM

* {That rumble...The next one is on the move. Time to go.}

[tea-and-toblerones]

I hijacked this.

1: Name:: Deanna 2: Age:: 24 3: 3 Fears:: spiders, being told I love you when they really don't, utter failure 4: 3 things I love:: Video games, music and art 5: 4 turns on:: Dorkiness, awkwardness, kindness and a sense of humor 6: 4 turns off:: flip floppy behavior, narcissism, arrogance, and thinking yo ass is better than everyone else. 7: My best friend:: @bestiejessie 8: Sexual orientation:: Hetro, but with an appreciation for the female form 9: My best first date:: pff, I'll let you know when that happens, yeah? I've never really been taken out 10: How tall am I:: 5′7" 11: What do I miss:: being as carefree as I was 12: What time were I born:: Monday, August 24, 1992 at 9:18 PM 13: Favourite color:: Red. Blood red. 14: Do I have a crush:: My heart only poops it's pants for celebs and fictional characters at the mo'. It's easier that way. 15: Favourite quote:: “I may be an asshole, but I'm not a 100% Dick" Peter "Star Lord" Quill 16: Favourite place:: By the water. On the water. Floating in the water. I love water. 17: Favourite food:: PIZZA IS LIFEEEEE 18: Do I use sarcasm:: Nah mate, not at all. 19: What am I listening to right now:: The Final Fantasy VII Soundtrack 20: First thing I notice in new person:: eyes, scent, timbre of voice, and their vibe 21: Shoe size:: 8 22: Eye color:: gunsteel blue 23: Hair color:: medium brown. For now. 24: Favourite style of clothing:: Grunge queen in the fall/winter Cute and lacy in the spring/summer 25: Ever done a prank call?:: not that I'm aware. I have terrible anxiety 27: Meaning behind my URL:: I just love tea and toblerones mate. 28: Favourite movie:: Howl's Moving Castle 29: Favourite song:: Yellow by Coldplay 30: Favourite band:: Imagine Dragons 31: How I feel right now:: Chill/excited 32: Someone I love:: EVERYONE. Cept for one single person. 33: My current relationship status:: Emotionally attached to a fictional character cos I'm trash. That answers that, eh? 34: My relationship with my parents:: Me and my mam are tight. My dad...nah mate, not so much. 35: Favourite holiday:: HALLOWEEN BITCHES! 36: Tattoos and piercing I have:: My gauges. 37: Tattoos and piercing I want:: Sylleblossoms and a sword from FFX, Calcifer from Howl's Moving Caste, a sea scape, trees, a dragon... 38: The reason I joined Tumblr:: I needed an Ed outlet before my friends murdered me. 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?:: He cut his face open to be more like Ed so I would take him back. I don't hate anyone, but that boy is pretty damn close to it. 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?:: My brother texts me WAKE UP from time to time. Do those count? 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?:: Texted, yeah. Messaged, nah, just licked their face. 42: When did I last hold hands?:: romantically? Last year. In general? Last night. 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?:: pff what is this morning you speak of? 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?:: Sure have. 45: Where am I right now?:: In the FFXV/Ed trash heap where I belong. 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?:: Jessie if they're not already passed out. 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? :: loud 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? :: unfortunately 49: Am I excited for anything?:: THIS WEEKEND 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?:: yes 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?:: 25% of the time? Ish 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?:: earlier today 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?:: I be surprised he grew a spine and kissed a girl other than me, but that's about it. Probably cheer him on. Get him a drink. I'm such a bro 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?:: nah mate, I hardly trust anyone 55: What is something I disliked about today?:: almost falling outta a chair cos I fell asleep 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?:: Ed Sheeran 57: What do I think about most?:: that I'm trapped in a stagnate place and I'll never get free from it. 58: What’s my strangest talent?:: I can remember exactly how people/ feel. Like their skin and whatnot, like I'm physically touching them, but im not. And their scent and their voice. And their eyes. Is that a talent? 59: Do I have any strange phobias?:: the snuggle bear creeps me the fuck out. 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?:: behind 61: What was the last lie I told?:: that I was gonna go to bed early. Does it count if it's to yourself? 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?:: video chatting cos I have a fear that people can't understand what I'm saying due to the fact I used to have an impediment with a lisp so at least they can read my lips. 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? :: sure do. Seen em. Felt em. Have one thats attached to me. He's cool. Chases away the bad stuff. And yeah this universe is way to big for us to be the only ones 64: Do I believe in magic?:: yep 65: Do I believe in luck?:: very much so 66: What’s the weather like right now?:: kinda coldish? But not terrible (I'm horrible at judging how cold it is. I never wear a jacket) 67: What was the last book I’ve read?:: King Killer Chronicles 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?:: I'm weird so of course I do 69: Do I have any nicknames?:: Nanna (which I always go by) 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?:: um, well one of my insides got very angry with me and hurt and I couldn't move and was fevered and puking and made my back hurt. I was too stubborn to go get checked out so I dunno what happened but it got better on its own. 71: Do I spend money or save it?:: both. Usually save though 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?:: I've got quite the long tongue, I can actually stick it up my nose if I tried. (Drunk me has) 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?:: Not that I can see 74: Favourite animal?:: Foxes, Ravens, and raccoons 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?:: Partying with my ladies getting ready to bar hop with the band 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?:: Morningstar. He owns a nightclub called Lux in LA. 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?:: Thrift Shop 78: How can you win my heart?:: by being an adorable awkward dorky nerd like me 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?:: something utterly ridiculous probably 80: What is my favorite word? :: probably a swear. 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr @weareedsobfg (imma cheat too) @ferskendag, @tenerife-lucy @lordedsheeran, uh....I'm sure there's more I'm forgetting 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? :: pterodactyl noises and arm flaps cos social anxiety 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?:: it would be quicker to list the ones that weren't. 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?:: the power of imagination (whatever I can imagine happens) 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?:: How do you feel 86: What is my current desktop picture?:: A picture of graveyard I took in New Orleans 87: Had sex?:: yeah 88: Bought condoms?:: yeah 89: Gotten pregnant?:: no 90: Failed a class?:: math. All the math 91: Kissed a boy?:: yeah 92: Kissed a girl?:: yeah 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?:: I have in the snow 94: Had job?:: yeah had job 95: Left the house without my wallet?:: almost everytime 96: Bullied someone on the internet?:: Nah mate 97: Had sex in public?:: Sure have 98: Played on a sports team?:: INDOOR PERCUSSION BITCHES 99: Smoked weed?:: Not smoked it, but had some pretty delicious banana nut pot bread. 100: Did drugs?:: besides the pot bread, nah mate 101: Smoked cigarettes?:: No 102: Drank alcohol?:: Oh yeah 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?:: Once upon a time 104: Been overweight?:: very much so 105: Been underweight?:: when I was born 106: Been to a wedding?:: I've been to so many 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?:: ALL DAY, ERRYDAY 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?:: I'm a binge watching mofo 109: Been outside my home country?:: no but I wanna 110: Gotten my heart broken?:: yeah 111: Been to a professional sports game?:: Yes and I don't even like sports. 112: Broken a bone?:: surprisingly no 113: Cut myself?:: all the time on accident 114: Been to prom?:: no, I was the weird loner outsider kid. You know the one. 115: Been in airplane?:: Sure have 116: Fly by helicopter? :: no but I've been in one 117: What concerts have I been too?:: Alice Cooper and Watch Them Rot 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?:: Kinda ish. 119: Learned another language?:: I used to know a lil Spanish but now, not so much 120: Wore make up?:: every time I leave the house even though I don't need it anymore cos I got my eczema under control (the miracle of aloe yall) 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?:: Nope 20 122: Had oral sex?:: I have 123: Dyed my hair?:: so much. 124: Voted in a presidential election?:: No 125: Rode in an ambulance?:: Nope 126: Had a surgery?:: Nope 127: Met someone famous?:: uh, mickey, minnie, goofy and pluto? 128: Stalked someone on a social network?:: who hasnt? 129: Peed outside?:: so many times 130: Been fishing?:: yep 131: Helped with charity?:: yep 132: Been rejected by a crush?:: *laughs to infinity* CAN'T BE IF YOU NEVER TELL EM (yes, yes I have. Indirectly) 133: Broken a mirror?:: So many I'm cursed forever 134: What do I want for birthday?:: the same thing I wanted last year. A hot ginger. (And video games. Always video games) 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?:: 2 boys. And maybe like William or James or something weird cos I love weird names 136: Was I named after anyone? :: Deanna Troi from Star Trek: the Next Generation. 137: Do I like my handwriting?:: yeah it's pretty okay 138: What was my favourite toy as a child?:: MY PINK POWER RANGER ACTION FIGURE 139: Favourite Tv Show?:: Supernatural, Sherlock, Doctor Who, American Horror Story, Arrow, Flash, Legends of Tomorrow...don't make me pick one. 140: Where do I want to live when older?:: with someone I care about. 141: Play any musical instrument?:: piano, marimba, xylophone, vibraphone, bells, drums, guitar (not well, I have ZERO rhythm) 142: One of my scars, how did I get it?:: playing with my dog 143: Favourite pizza toping?:: If I had to pick one, pepperoni but mushroom olive and pineapple please 144: Am I afraid of the dark?:: nah, that's where all the stars are 145: Am I afraid of heights?:: nah 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?:: no, I was a mild child 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?:: Oh you mean my life? 148: What I’m really bad at:: everything 149: What my greatest achievments are:: well I stopped someone from killing themselves. I also tend to make people laugh and feel better. 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me:: I only said I loved you so you would stay (though literally already knew it but worst fear right there) 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery:: get outta debt. Get my friends outta debt. 152: What do I like about myself:: people say I'm sunshine. I like that. 153: My closest Tumblr friend:: @ferskendag and @tenerife-lucy 154: Something I fantasise about:: being happy with someone I care about, being financially stable while doing my dream job and traveling the world. 155: Any question you’d like? Do you know the muffin man?

[idosurveystovent]

5.

Do you feel comfortable wearing tube tops? nope, plus now that my upper arms are disgustingly huge, I'm scared they will get to flapping around and ill fly away

Has something someone said today annoyed you? yeah, more like anything anyone said today. I'm fucking tired

Can you hear the crickets chirping at night? yes

Do you like listening to new music, or just sticking to your favorites? favorites

So far, where have you been on vacation?

Cozumel, cali, gulf shores, Colorado, Utah, south Carolina...there is more, I just can’t think of them

Did you ever feel that there was something you couldn’t tell anyone? I'm sure

Do you tend to gossip, even if you don’t mean it to cause harm? ugh, I am terrible about it. we have a real problem with it at work and I am just as bad as everyone else. sooner or later, they will be gossiping about me and it will be my feelings that will be hurt

When was the last time you were bitten by a bug? idk...last summer?

Have you ever gotten your hair permed? yeah, when I was young. My mom made me do it

When was the last time you were in the wilderness?  well I went into a cave in a natural forest last weekend so...

Do you have a pair of sunglasses that are worth over $200? fuck no, I haven’t kept up with a pair of sunglasses for more than 2 weeks, ever. 

Would you ever go on a trip to Europe? sure

Are you brave when it comes to trying new foods? more now that I am with seth than I was before. He has definitely made me more adventurous when it comes to food

When was the last time you saw your significant other? right now

Is there a friend that you can always go to for advice? eh, not really. bad thing about having a small (nonexistent) circle of friends...the only person I care enough to be mad at is Seth...the only person I have to talk to is...Seth. lol

Have you ever been to a town/place where the people were just creepy? fucking atlanta

What’s the fastest you’ve ever driven in a car? like 115 mph or so

If you see a piano, are you tempted to go over and play a little something? nope, never learned piano at all

Is there someone you know who bakes amazing sweets? not a big fan of sweets so....

Are you ashamed of your singing voice? I can’t sing for shit, but ashamed? hell no, I will belt out those tunes all day long

Has anyone teased you with the “K-I-S-S-I-N-G” song? not in like 25 years

Have you ever had a dream where you could understand a foreign language? nope

What time is it where you are? 7:17 PM

Do you have anything important to do tomorrow? nope, and if anyone expects me to do anything besides lay in my king size bed with ALL the pillow, with Netflix, hulu and youtube, they can kiss my ass

Have you ever owned a beanbag chair? I have

If you own a laptop, do you have a case for it? don’t have one

What was the last movie you purchased on DVD? I have no earthly idea...haven’t bought a DVD in years and years

Are you a fan of retro things? I don’t have a sense of style

Do you do your own laundry? yep. 

Have you ever used pastels? don’t guess so

Is there a song you’re listening to at the moment? nope.

Would you be considered to be knowledgeable about World War 2? not really. I wasn’t really interested in history, unfortunately 

Have you ever been in possession of a hundred dollar bill? at one point in time

Is there one food you cannot give up, even though you know it’s unhealthy? chocolate and peanut covered salted caramel peanut butter cookies

Will you bother having a party for your next birthday? and just go ahead and tell me who the fuck would come? lol

If you’re with someone right now, do you think it will last? its made it 4 1/2 years so far. I think we have both given up and settled because who the fuck wants to do the dating bullshit in your thirties

Who was the last person you flipped off? couldn’t tell ya

Do you currently have a job? yes.

What was the last movie that was unable to capture your interest? most of them

Have you heard of the Irish actor Jonathan Rhys Meyers? nope

Do you have something to do, that you would rather not do? most things lol. work especially

Are you, in any way, feeling hopeless right now? I'm clinically depressed so, like, yeah, but the meds help some

Is there someone you just need to call and talk to? nah.

Are you one of those people who can eat anything and not gain a pound? bahaha yeah right

Are you nails painted at the moment? nope

Is there a song you’ve been listening to lately on repeat? nope

Do you know who you’re planning to ask to your grad prom? that was like 11 years ago

When was the last time you went shopping? Tuesday night

Is there anyone who did something absolutely hilarious today? can’t think of anything off the top of my head

Are you having one of those days where you feel unattractive? every day

Do you like hot dogs? no

Do you ever get bored of your music collection and get new songs? not really

Have you ever bought a designer purse? no, but my mom bought me a knock off Michael Kors in Mexico a couple years ago

What’s the limit on how much you would pay for a shirt? yeah, like 35 bucks

Would you ever like to see the Walk of Fame? went there my junior year 

Is it currently humid where you are? fuck its the worst. especially since I have hyperhidrosis (self diagnosed)

Have you been in any sort of physical pain today? no

Have you ever heard of the German movie Das Boot? nope

Who were the last people you hung out with? seth

Has someone ever called you “obnoxious”? probably. they obviously didn’t know me very well. ;)

Most commonly, do you obey rules, or break them? idk, I am a good person, I don’t commit crimes other than like smoking weed. speeding in my car...that's about it

Do you like making funny faces in pictures? no. I hate pictures

Is there something you look back on and go “I can’t believe I did that”? there are lots of things that I regret in my life

Are you good at offering advice? I try. a lot of people at work come to me for advice; as a matter of fact, one girl just told me earlier this week that shealways came to me for advice because I gave advice that was common sense and what was the right thing to do and not something like “just pray about it”

When was the last time you had to resort to a map? I use google maps on my phone any time I am going somewhere new

Your significant other: have you told them you love them lately? I don’t know that I have told him today...maybe when I left this morning for work but I don’t remember. I'm sure I have told him in the last few days anyways

What was the last thing to confuse you? I can't remember

How many different colors have you dyed your hair? red, black, blonde highlights, platinum blonde all over (that was a huge mistake) 

Do you know someone who always spells “bored” like “board”? nope, I wouldn’t talk to them 

Are you wearing make up right now? whatever is left over from 4 AM 

Is there a phrase that you use a lot? probably but nothing comes to mind

Are you old enough to vote? yes.

Do you have a favorite pair of earrings? no, my ears are gauged out to 2, but ive not found a good pair of earrings that I love yet

Have you ever been to Disneyworld/Disneyland? disneyland

Have you dated someone more than twice? yes

Are you a fan of Keira Knightley? don’t know who that is

Have you ever resorted to alcohol to make you feel better? yep

Do you own a full-length mirror? bahaha funny story about that...no I don’t

Do you ever go on PerezHilton.com to get all the celeb gossip? sure don’t. don't keep up with celebs

Have you heard about Mel Gibson’s rant/freakout? the time he got caught saying the N word?

Do you wish your bedroom was bigger? yes.

Are you aware of the significance of the date April 14th, 1912? titanic sunk

Do you ever just lay back and watch the stars? um no

Lately have you had much time to relax? again, I have worked 10 days straight, so no. but I plan to change that starting tonight

Did anything important/changing happen to you in March 2009? nope

Have you ever felt like a “new person”? don't guess so

Do you own any expensive jewellry? just my engagement ring

What size is your TV? 50 inch and 32 inch

Do you occasionally creep on people on Facebook? yup. I am notorious for it

Has there been someone in your life that just wouldn’t leave you alone? no.

Do you hate to use public bathrooms? nah, gotta go when you gotta go

Would you consider yourself to be loyal? too loyal

Do you find most remixes of songs to be good or bad? usually they are shit

Write something to someone who means a lot to you: Seth, you are everything to me. Husband, father, and best friend. I owe you everything for saving my life 4 years ago. I didn’t know that I could love someone so much until I met you. I love you. 

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[2/27/2015 6:53:38 PM] Evan: so... [2/27/2015 6:53:39 PM] Evan: sup [2/27/2015 6:57:27 PM] YV??~: Nothing I guess. I stopped working like 2 something hours ago. mostly because a lot of these answers required too much thinking for me to concentrate on it. [2/27/2015 6:57:53 PM] Evan: haha sorry [2/27/2015 6:59:00 PM] YV??~: weh, its fine. [2/27/2015 7:00:17 PM] YV??~: i guess i should ask the same out of courtesy [2/27/2015 7:01:03 PM] Evan: The answer would be pretty similar. Not doin a whole lot at this moment in time. Jus the usual procrastinating while I should be doing Update. [2/27/2015 7:02:27 PM] Evan: How are things going for you? [2/27/2015 7:03:55 PM] YV??~: pretty much the same as last month but with 99% less anyone. exactly the same stuff just theres no one it is only me. i am the one.... who will never get any work done [2/27/2015 7:05:23 PM] YV??~: you? [2/27/2015 7:06:20 PM] Evan: Eh, not the greatest, but it's whatever. [2/27/2015 7:06:28 PM] Evan: How are you liking the silence? [2/27/2015 7:08:04 PM] YV??~: i dont know. i think its kinda annoying that people will say things about how important I am when literally no one talks to me and i just spend most of the time alone. *shrugshrug* [2/27/2015 7:08:24 PM] Evan: Ah. [2/27/2015 7:10:57 PM] Evan: I think a lot of them aren't great at socializing, to be honest. I'm pretty much the same. It's always hard to approach people you don't necessarily know that well since you don't know how they'll feel about it. [2/27/2015 7:11:10 PM | Edited 7:11:18 PM] Evan: I'd guess they're afraid they'd be bothering you? [2/27/2015 7:12:34 PM] YV??~: weh...hell if i fuckin know whats up with people. [2/27/2015 7:13:00 PM] Evan: Yeah. heh [2/27/2015 7:13:36 PM] Evan: It's been pretty slow in the main group lately, though. It seems like most people have split off into smaller, separate groups of people they're more comfortable with. [2/27/2015 7:14:09 PM] YV??~: good for them i guess [2/27/2015 7:14:54 PM] Evan: Indeed. [2/27/2015 7:15:23 PM] Evan: I just kind of wonder if there's anyone you'd still care to hang out with or if you're done with the entire community [2/27/2015 7:17:15 PM] YV??~: Weh, i didnt really come away hating anyone but im wary of jumping back into any space with most of these people lest they say things that make me end up hating my other series as well. [2/27/2015 7:17:57 PM] Evan: Are there just a few people in particular? I know there weren't THAT many involved in that particular conversation. [2/27/2015 7:21:24 PM] YV??~: eh, really anything one person can do the other can do just the same. Its either never talk openly about my work again or never people. I really dont think it would be possible for me to put a gag on all work related statements, so its easier to just forego people altogether [2/27/2015 7:22:37 PM] Evan: I don't think it would be a problem, though. It had been nearly a year before that happened, and it was a very specific situation. [2/27/2015 7:23:04 PM] Evan: Even though they misunderstood you and ended up hurting in the end, they had good intentions. [2/27/2015 7:26:31 PM] Evan: No one can predict things like that happening, but is it worth isolating yourself in case something like that happens again? I don't mean to sound pushy, but I'm kind of worried about you. [2/27/2015 7:30:41 PM] YV??~: Yeah but it ultimately is better i take cautions side. because I dont know, Ive always been alone with minimal friends and I was never 1st choice for any of them. Ive never really gotten angry of fought with people besides my siblings and considering my sister once choked me in my sleep for snoring and i could have actually killed her at one point in some fight, i think that hints at what kind of destructive anger i tend to get. While now i try to point it towards me so as not to harm others something still ends up broken or destroyed. usually art of some kind. [2/27/2015 7:34:28 PM] YV??~: im not saying thats not a nice sentiment but i guess i just wasnt made to be around  people [2/27/2015 7:35:21 PM] Evan: I don't think that's the case at all. [2/27/2015 7:38:38 PM] Evan: For all the time I've been around you, I haven't seen you hit anyone especially hard. You tend to be blunt about things, but I don't think you've hurt anyone. Even when you left the chat was relatively tame during the actual interaction. What's more troubling is you hurting yourself, and I feel like that's primarily what's being accomplished right now. [2/27/2015 7:39:03 PM] Evan: I know I've said this before and you seem to not like it, but you aren't as bad as you think. You still deserve to be happy. [2/27/2015 7:43:56 PM] YV??~: Eh, at this point im used to it. I mean i only ever get people being nice to me and complementing me and id otherwise have nothing to keep them in check or balance them out if i didnt turn the abuse up to 400 on myself. *shrugshrugshrug* [2/27/2015 7:45:07 PM] Evan: Then let me be harsh for a second. [2/27/2015 7:45:09 PM] Evan: That's stupid. [2/27/2015 7:48:11 PM] Evan: People are nice to you because they think you deserve it. No matter how terrible you think you might be on the inside, it's what you project that determines who you are. If you never act on your terrible thoughts, then how can you be considered bad? Even if you have things to work on - as everyone does - you aren't going to make it any easier by hating yourself. [2/27/2015 7:52:18 PM] YV??~: Weh, I mean ultimately i doubt anyone even wants to talk to me anyway. [2/27/2015 7:52:36 PM] Evan: I've been talking to you for the last four hours. [2/27/2015 7:53:44 PM] YV??~: closer to 4 and a half but yes i noticed [2/27/2015 7:54:14 PM] Evan: And I think you're a very unique person with an interesting perspective. [2/27/2015 7:54:45 PM] Evan: Others may not have gotten to know you that well, but I think they'd absolutely want to talk to you as they did. [2/27/2015 7:58:43 PM] YV??~: Well, I mean thats all based on other peoples opinion but i dont think many people get to interested with people who ramble for much too long on one thing. [2/27/2015 7:59:06 PM] Evan: Is that a thing you do? I haven't noticed it. [2/27/2015 8:03:11 PM] YV??~: Well I decided to answer questions that could be a short to the point answer with a paragraph. But there comes a point where, when you frequently find yourself gasping for air in the middle of a word, you begin to question whether you let other people get a word in on something youre interested in, or if its just you talking to yourself. [2/27/2015 8:04:49 PM] Evan: haha [2/27/2015 8:05:14 PM] Evan: I don't think it's as bad as you think it is. Cause there are some people that have it bad, but I've never known you to be one of them. [2/27/2015 8:05:46 PM] Evan: If anything it seems like you didn't talk much at all during the interactions we've had. [2/27/2015 8:06:45 PM] YV??~: I try not to. I usually dont have anything worthwhile to say anyway [2/27/2015 8:07:36 PM] Evan: But the point is I think you do just fine. You could have plenty of friends if you let yourself. [2/27/2015 8:10:53 PM] YV??~: i dont know. People tend not to listen to me even when i do have something to say. Even when i was a wee tot eager to be at school i only ever had one friend until 7th grade. [2/27/2015 8:23:22 PM] Evan: But people CAN'T listen if you don't talk to them. You don't have to make a bunch of friends. Hell, you don't have to make any. But you should be happy, and if being around other people contributes to that, it's absolutely worth doing. And if you play nice enough you might find some people that you really like. [2/27/2015 8:28:31 PM] Evan: And trust me, I know what it's like. [2/27/2015 8:29:32 PM] Evan: Until last year I never had anyone I considered to be a friend. There were people I talked to, and people I sometimes hung out with, but it never lasted more than a few months, or maybe the school year if they happened to be someone in class. [2/27/2015 8:30:25 PM] Evan: It took twenty years for me to make a friend, but it happened. If a social wreck like me can meet people and be happy, I think you have more than a chance. [2/27/2015 8:30:30 PM] Evan: :D [2/27/2015 8:35:49 PM] YV??~: eh. Im really tired of thinking whether or not to go back or whatever, and ive got too much stuff to get done this weekend to worry about it. [2/27/2015 8:36:40 PM] Evan: That's fine. [2/27/2015 8:38:42 PM] Evan: You don't even have to go back to that particular group. Hell, I'm not even in the main chat anymore. But you should go somewhere - find people to talk to and most importantly be happy. [2/27/2015 8:39:12 PM] Evan: Though you've spent a lot of time getting to know us fanime people. So it's certainly a good place to start. [2/27/2015 8:39:41 PM] Evan: I could also probably direct ya toward one of the smaller off-branch groups if that's more your cup. [2/27/2015 8:39:46 PM] Evan: But yeah, good luck with the things. [2/27/2015 8:42:57 PM] Evan: And I know it sounds generic as all hell, but [2/27/2015 8:43:16 PM] Evan: if you ever need to talk to someone - about ANYTHING - I'll be here.