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Catboy Satan this- Catboy Satan that! Well what about catboy Asmo?????
#i’m having thoughts#and ughhh I’m too high to make sense of them 🧍🏼♀️#but wanna share a bit ig-#or maybe come back to this‼️#NOT HIGH LMAO-#BUZZED! I think-#hmmm#obey me!#obey me asmo#obey me satan#ro’s dumb stuff tag!
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saw this on instagram (yes, instagram) and i can’t stop thinking about steve recognising eddie at a bakery and immediately falling in love with the guy he kinda had a thing for in high school but never allowed himself to think about too much. like, he’s always had eddie in the back of his mind since finishing school but suddenly seeing him has him all heart eyes and also kind of surprised with what eddie ended up doing with his life. idk, you can think about the statistics, i’m not a writer (please someone write something and tag me 🙏) but THIS will be in my head all day at work
#steddie#steve x eddie#steddie fic#steve harrington x eddie munson#steve harrington#eddie munson#someone please write this 🙏🙏#i don’t care if the upside down is involved or not#or if it’s modern au or not#just#baker eddie#and lovesick puppy steve#does eddie recognise him too?#steve maybe keeps coming back to the bakery just to see eddie#maybe he’s allergic to something and is to in love to say no to the free muffin eddies trying to offer#the possibilities are endless#‼️‼️#mine#(?)
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sometimes, I convince myself that my taste in romance in media is """sophisticated""" and """complex""", but then I remember that I am, in fact, a single celled organism and my only real qualifier for a good romance is if they can do the reze kiss
#wehhjjhhhhh durgetash and vika 😣#(actually i think every ship with rika can do the reze kiss actually lmao)#cephy talks#should i tag the ships 🤔 fuck it why not#v x rika#rika x mc#holy fuck this with jumin x rika would be fucking crazy 😭😭😭 jumin wouldnt see it coming and wouldnt deserve it at all whatthhefucjjjfj---#durgetash#<<<honestly the cutest first kiss idea 4 them hsjdjfjf#durge has proficiency in medicine they can patch gortash back up its fine#its enrichment for them#(and gortash deserves it😒😒😒)#shakarian w a renegade shep would be insane 2....... if there is a fic pleaes alert me asap‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣🗣#CHROM X GRIMA ........ fuck ues#byleth x jeritza#byleth x hubert......... they r so kyute.....#byleth x sylvain also....... ****explodes🤯🤯🤯#hmmmm maybe the only way i can enjoy m/f ships is thru polarizing moments of senseless violence and gentleness.......#ok enough yapping ‼️‼️‼️#feel free 2 bash me on anon 4 my taste id love to talk about it anyway :D#csm part 1 spoilers#tw: violence#tw: gore#HOLY FUCK HOW COULD I FORGET PHANTOMQUILL ???????
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winter solstice
#roku#avatar roku#avatar: the last airbender#atla#atla fanart#might re do this one bc hmmm#didn’t come out the way I’d pictured sadly#skill issue ig#maybe it if was a little looser??? ISK#I need to get my groove back‼️‼️#me art#oh b t dubs landscape based on black sand beaches from Iceland#bc that’s also what a lot of the fire nation is based on too lol
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cup.head isnt even like a big big favorite media of mine but (netf.lix) cu.phead is such a comfort character to me you have no idea man
#I SEE CUPHEAD IN MY TL I GET SO GGRLRRKKL I GET SO#MYMOM MODE IS COMING. MY GRANDMA MODE EVEN#I WANNA PINCH HIS CERAMIC CHEEK THE LITTLE GOBLIN GRAAGHFHGGH ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#pls. the cuphead show is such a fun series to watch#ok maybe the show is a comfort series to watch. the game is fun but the show is my happy pill#i see myself a lot in cuph.ead esp w his dynamic with mug.man (and i def see my sister in him too) so its so fun to see#i literally act like cuphead HDHFHDHDGSHDJ#SORRY. I KNOW I OCCASIONALLY BRING BACK CUP.HEAD BUT AGHHGHH ;–; MY GOOFY BOY...
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sorry‼️ but i AM still thinking about an au where batman died in the helicopter crash along with the joker
#krow kaws#NOT a writer NOT a planner NOT knowledgeable enough about any of the characters involved to give proper opinions#but‼️my ideas for this au are:#batman is definitely publicly known dead and there was a funeral so no dick running around in the batsuit#or maybe he does idk but ppl definitely know it's not the same guy#jason still comes back from the dead but bruce doesn't. he probably has feelings about that.#dick too maybe#anyways everything about this is just for me to imagine main world jason having to confront this other world where bruce DID kill the joker#in another world he did do what you wanted him to do. in another world he is dead#does it change anything to know that he couldn't live without you? does it really matter when he stays dead anyways#not tagging anyone cuz this is NOT meta NOT writing it's not even about any of the characters that are still alive in this au#it's about bruce. cuz that's all i can think about. i lub im.#anyways my personal opinion on the “what happens when batman kills” question is that he's killing himself too#sometimes it's metaphorical but i love it when it's literal
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hi tumblr. been gone a bit how are you
#been stressed w college and i've just#forgotten to post rlly#think i'm gonna come back here though i miss it#‼️‼️#i've also finally gone back to drawing#art comeback might be real maybe#also gotten back into fire emblem and started watching one piece so expect those from me 👍👍#yay joy whimsy and fun
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again ‼️#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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Wait I can pinpoint the Exact place I dropped it. That's so fucking funny
#i feel like i've said enough already i hit my quota for being slightly pathetic online.#but it's the first time he says 'i love you' to her (BITCH YOU'VE MET HER LIKE TWICE??????)#and she says it back (okay. fine. you have severe abandonment and have constantly been treated as a threat or resource.#i can understand that.)#then next page SHE SO SWEETLY. SO SWEETLY. calls him 'my first friend and only friend'#and ofc romance tropes this is played off kinda funny like oh ouch i was friend zoned but i'll walk it off like a good man about it#BUT ME. ME. BEING INSANE. WAS LEFT SO FUCKING ANGRY ABOUT THIS. AND I'M STILL UPSET#like DOES FRIENDSHIP mean NOTHING to you sazan?!?!?!?!?!?!??????!!! HORRIBLE. I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU#HOW ARE YOU GONNA HAVE LOVE WITHOUT FRIENDSHIP.............#I KNOW. I KNOW I'M JUST BEING DEMISEXUAL ABOUT IT. DEMIRO TO JUST MAYBE SOLIDLY ARO ABOUT IT#but COME ON‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#i have so many problems. i should play shadow of galleria the labyrinth society about it#MAYBE. IDK. I DON'T WANT TO ADMIT DEFEAT YET. but also i don't know if i wanna still draw today........... 🧍#i love being killed in the scary labyrinth.......
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jrwi httyd au ? more likely than you think
#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi riptide#jrwi gillion#gillion tidestrider#jrwi gillion tidestrider#httyd#jrwi au#httyd au#Worm Draws#the idea was;#chip is hiccup#gillion is toothless#jay would be astrid BUT PERSONALLY I VIEW THEM MORE AS SIBLINGS#COULD BE IMAGINED AS ROMANTIC IF THAT FLOATS YOUR BOAT BETTER ‼️‼️#personally isn't my cup of tea but I won't judge#edyn would be the lightfury but again#instead of ✨DRAGON ROMANCE✨ they're siblings#and edyn shows up to bring gill back home :`]#if you can't tell- dragon gill has scars from the ropes#much like toothless in the actual httyd movie (if you look closely enough)#one of his coral horns is also chipped from the net and crash landing#ooo maybe stormfly could be like. ensa ???? kira ?? idk I'm coming up with the stormfly bit on the spot#I didn't really think about that part all too much xd#anyhow back to tagging#gillion jrwi#traditional art#art#just roll with it gillion#gillion
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literally still thinking about that post but the only reason luke succeeded at all was because of padme. the child he fell to save showing up echoing the words of the mother he killed. he didn’t stand a chance.
#like if luke was just A Guy it wouldnt have worked at all. Who Cares. anakin’s redemption begins the instant he meets luke#palpatine says they should kill him and vader comes back with ‘what if we turned him?’#its the fact that PADME!!!!!! is still alive in luke#the ‘i havent felt that presence since…’ in ep 4 is about obi wan#but i also love the take that vader can sense padme especially now that both the twins are on board#STAR WARS IS ABOUT HOPE AND THATS ALL PADME HAD!!!!!!#star wars#also just. something something obi wan asking yoda not to send him to anakin. something something obi wan not wanting to kill him#something something never even thinking that there was an alternative… that maybe he could just love him#and also something something yoda not listening#and the fact that the jedi order never Really listened to anakin is what always pushes him to the dark side#WHICH IS WHY LUKE REDEEMS HIM!!!!‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#luke escapes the cycles 😌
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just got the durge reveal..!!! screamnnn it’s saur good when you actually have a durge specific character and not just an au of the char you previously made lol. anyway I’m just imagining yves admitting that she’s one of bhaal’s children and then her going like oh btw I was his bride too 🧍♀️
#I was watching corpse bride earlier (bc of yves lol. it’s inspo) and now I have a vision#of yves wearing her old vein again (gifted by gortash) maybe in her old dress but idk if she’ll manage to find that#but anyway yves in her old veil walking back to bhaal’s temple with her flail humming here comes the bride#it’s a whole ass visual in my head ok LIKE THE girls who gets it gets it ‼️‼️‼️#but I’m like 🤭🤭 at the reveal then waking up to jaheira watching you#bc yves is not revealing anything!!! she’s not saying that she’s gonna turn away from bhaal nor is she saying she’s gonna embrace him#she’s being very sly rn… keeping her cards close to her chest …#her dialogues are getting more calculated too… unlike in act 1 where she was mindlessly following whatever people were telling her#(like she literally smeared shit on her face lol) she’s now being very careful of what she says …#and I just imagine her demeanour changing completely after the reveal … she’s not that naive cleric anymore she’s someone else entirely ….#her eyes are hardened she is more shrewd and reserved … but there’s moments where she lets her guard down#and she becomes that sweet girl again ..#anyway start of act 3 is yves starting to plot…!! and to scheme ..!!! 🤭#/IM/ particularly excited bc I’ve been planning to do this particular thing and it’s the sole reason why I’m doing her playthrough#so I hope it works out LMFAO like I’m hyped for it personally feels like a fitting climax to her story#shut up about bg3.#bg3 spoilers
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I am trying so hard right now to maintain focus on work
And yeah I feel like work and employment and stuff? That it's upsetting. It's a bad stressor.
I'm pretending it's not.
But also. I just started crying because research led me to seeing something that reminded me of the training program I was doing, all the notes I took that I don't HAVR anymore, because I couldn't collect them before I had to leave.
It hurts. I learned as much as I could, I would still be if I didn't have to leave, I had to leave a friend I made. I have to hope that I can get the money I was supposed to get for the first week by next week.
I was finally comfortable in the class's environment. I was progressing with what I had established as routine in that city. And.
God I just don't think I've had enough time to grieve it. If I ever did. And I know B has been grieving it. I pushed it away because I knew if I dwelled on it, I couldn't do anything. *And yet when I try to do something I get reminded of it.*
I'm technically doing unnecessary stuff. I could go in the same as when I tried for the cookie place. I tried then. I think what held me back is mainly that I was too late.
Idk. I need to stop thinking about this. It's depressing :(
#sepiasys.txt#Getting stabbed in the heart somewhere with the memory of coming back after trying to ask about if I got the job or not#That S probably would've been encouraging early on. But I didn't make progress fast enough. I wasn't prepared. I didn't have what I needed#I was still trying. But. I took too long.#That he was probably hopeful for me only to come back with a negative. And I don't remember but I feel like he laughed. he would've.#That taints the memory. the impression.#Theres an idea where he's have been supportive. But then there's the idea he just wanted me to get a job so I could pay him; even early on.#And then the idea I failed my first attempt makes him laugh. That both him and B had a job at the time and I was the only failure.#That he'd laugh at me and his reason may be assuming I wasn't prepared. Like the 'welcome to the real world' rhetoric.#I HATE IT SO MUCH‼️#I'm gonna stop now. I need to keep reading stuff and mentally preparing. Even though I feel hurt now so it's not ideal.#Maybe I need comfort. Yeah; I need that. I'll be able to afford a therapist if I can get a job anyways. I can get food. I can feel better.#More secure. These aren't as comforting bc it's motivation to get a job but it would be nice.#sepiasys.priv
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okaaaayyy finally watched I saw the tv glow :^)
#liked it a lot on a lot of levels. visuals n soundtrack n acting was great. rly subtle n cohesive n effective#i wanna sit with it a little to digest it and maybe rewatch#but unfortunately i didnt get the same emotional resonance a lot of ppl did from it.. possibly bc i was watching w other ppl#but i dont think its that i think i just struggle to connect meaningfully w things that are like. what if the choices u didnt make#alienated u from the world and ur sense of self n what if the life u were living was a hollow bubble separate from the real world etcetc#bc like yeah man im very aware of how unreal my life n the world around me feels at times. and it isnt bc im holding myself within#tight limitations/constraints in order to hide parts of me from myself or forcing myself to be smth im not in order to engage w society#like im just mentally ill n the dissociation n derealisation are symptoms of that..#i can 100% understand why so many queer ppl feel so strongly abt it n the gender stuff implied in it#but thats just not my experience of queerness personally. its never been smth ive had to grapple with much#like yeah i havent fully figured out my gender shit. but im ok w that its not holding me back from living the life i want to be living#my sense of self is just so far divorced from my physical body and the physical world around me..... idk im too tired to articulate this#but that aside i did rly like it as a movie! and it was very heartbreaking.. just not in a way that struck me super personally#which i was rly hoping it would ahh sorry everyone 😔 but hey maybe thatll come after i think abt it some more#lots of cool effects too i liked the different ways they did the moon face thing. i liked how effective the whole distortion of memory#and nostalgia etc was done visually.. aesthetically very yummy. aw man..#i didnt even cry i was rly hoping it would make me cry...... :-(#makes me feel like im missing out on smth cuz everyone else ive seen talk abt it got hit so hard by it#just made my peace w being on the outside looking in i guess.. i shook out all my regrets and what-couldve-beens as a depressed teen#n now im just here to vibe forever..... 😌 i am toooooo tired to be typing i just keep saying the same thing over an dover probably#maybe a 7 or 8 out of 10 movie for me i think which is still pretty damn worth it#okayyy brushing my teeth and going to bed cuz i wanna go climbing tomorrow so need to rest up ‼️#sorry i dont want to rain on anyones parade genuinely did think it was a great movie im glad others are feeling it so intensely#ahhhh!!!!#.diaries
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need someone to take the ex RO trope away from me
#every single time i’m like Yes. Yes This Is Helping. Yes I Feel Stronger. Y- [passes out sobbing]#i mean it’s delicious angst but i’m a hurtcomfort demon and hurtcomfort is not the genre of my life so it just ends up making me feel crappy#but it’s sooooooooooo. like i love it. and the. like the lingering sense of But Maybe and the way it’s validated in games. and th-#like i need someone to come over and blacklist all lovers to strangers to lovers content it is NOT good for me ‼️ [continues reading]#anyways everything feels bad again and i can’t do anything about it and my escapism all reminds me of it and the news is horrible and home#is horrible and uni is horrible and social stuff is horrible#and being this hopeless and negative about everything makes me feel entirely un-myself but i haven’t been myself in weeks#and i don’t know what being myself looks like in tbe midst of all this#and i’m working really hard to be good about it but then i think like this and it crumbles HDJDHD#going to my highschool reunion tomorrow where not a single teacher or classmate will remember or recognize me. that’s exciting#also been repeatedlyjaving the thought that id just be fine with it now to be some random mans nonsexualhousewife. family would ve happy.#and i wouldnt have 2 get a job and id just have to take care of a house. like as long as i can find sum1 who doesnt want sex it could work#and id never have to worry abt being alone again even if itd suck and id hate myself forever. but no job. n happy family#idk i promised myself i wouldnt like. give up like this. but i dontsee any other situation that doesnt end in me#like left entirely alone? i either give up family for the possibility of a fulfilling life as a lesbian but only certain ill be alone#or i try and make the best of things and make like. doing what they want. livable#anyways. back to the same dilemma as 14 year old me but this time knlwing im a lesbian and not bi. so theres not even a chance ill be happy#fun times#mano.mindtalk#neg
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YOU'RE TOO SWEET FOR ME | Spencer Reid x Sunshine!Reader
Request: @avis-writeshq says -
HELLO HELLO jumping on your 2k celebration reqs because 2K OMG SO DESERVED ‼️🫶
may i perhaps request a spencer reid x fem!reader fic please 🥹 maybe him post prison w new reader and she follows him around everywhere because she’s just instantly enamoured to him 🤭
thank you so so much lovely and congrats again !!!
Description: thirteen years in the fbi and ten weeks in prison does a number on Spencer, only when he arrives back in the office he meets the sunshine rookie that seems rather taken with him.
word length: 2.6k (this really ran away from me)
warnings: post-prison Reid, slightest age gap, Spencer dealing with coming home from prison, gun shooting?
authors note: hozier’s new song 'Too Sweet' + post-prison reid is a need, not a want.
He smelled her french vanilla perfume before he even knew she was there. But then again, it was all he could smell the minute she waltzed into the office with a tray of coffee, like someone had stuck a sweet dessert in the oven and baked it on full.
“Good morning!” She chirped, winding an arm over his shoulder and setting down a take out cup and a little chocolate donut on his desk, “Pen said you like chocolate, and I mean who doesn’t like chocolate, right?”
She was potent when she was so close to him, and in one single breath he caught a whiff of her shampoo, before she had flitted over to her side of the desk that sat opposite his, where Morgan once sat. Noticing his hesitance, mistaking it for discontent she paused, almost spilling her own beverage over the potted plant she kept by her keyboard, scrambling to set it on the surface.
“Y-you do like chocolate right? I mean they had strawberry too, I can switch yours with JJ’s, I’m sure she wouldn’t mind-” She splurged, and her face was much too worried considering it was a matter of a donut, particularly considering he was already eying up the way the thick chocolate was melting in the pastry bag.
“Chocolate is great, I love…” He held up the bag to read the label with squinting hazel hues, “Cocoa Caramel delight,”
He had never heard of it.
He had never even seen this brand, but he wanted to quell her nerves even in the slightest. The BAU didn’t have the funds for a new keyboard, let alone time to send her to the ER if she ended up spilling her coffee over her hand.
She seemed convinced, and he offered her a small smile, not exactly his most enthusiastic, but then again he hadn’t been much of a morning person since he’d come out of prison. He liked quiet, he liked a moment to himself before Penelope called them into the round table for briefing. But she was sweet, too sweet perhaps for the dark nature of their job.
He could already see it chewing up her perky disposition and spitting her right back out within a year. It happened to the best of them.
But she smiled back at him, a million watt grin that made him think maybe he was being a little cruel. She was still brand new, still trying to make friends and he remembered how hard he tried when it had been his first few weeks on the team. He turned his gaze away from her in shame, reading the way she’d written his name on the cup in a pink sharpie, framing it with two doodle hearts.
She all but skipped away, sensing he didn’t feel like talking much anymore, and he heard Emily exclaiming she was ‘A caffeine angel sent from the heavens,’ as she handed her the drink. He watched her braided hair disappear down the hall as she bounced over to Penelope’s lair.
He picked at the cocoa caramel delight with a kind of self loathing he was familiar with, the french vanilla still a saccharine sugar in his nose.
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She caught him again; though this time he felt her bristle past his arm, watching the bullets pierce the target paper with an accuracy that only came from fourteen years of practice.
“Do you reckon you could teach me how to do that?” Her cadence was light and airy, and he had to stop himself from jumping, from slamming the butt of the gun into her nose on reaction, because he knew she meant well, even though she had no idea how damaged he was.
He was still out of sorts from having to look over his shoulder at every second of the day, and he was surprised he was holding it together so far. He supposed shooting the shit out of a target helped.
Because it was just her, looking at him with soft eyes and a smile that could start wars, and he knew she had no idea the effect she had on the walls he’d tried so hard to build in prison.
She must have mistook his look for annoyance, because she was quick to fumble with her own loaded gun, taking a step back in retreat, worried that she crossed some line she didn’t know he’d drawn.
“Or I could get Luke to show me, I didn’t mean to bother you, I just am really a shit shot and I know that’s pretty useless in the field-” It wasn’t until he flicked the safety on and took a step to follow her did she look at him again hopefully.
“No, I’d be more than happy to show you,” He cleared his throat, setting his pistol in its holster and stepping behind her as she lined herself up for the fake body meant to resemble an unsub, “We all have to start somewhere. Show me your form,”
She raised her arms up in front of her, aiming for a few seconds for the spot in the centre of the chest cavity, her finger reaching up for the trigger.
She shot once, her face hardened for the first time he’d ever seen, and they both watched the paper rip about half a foot down the unsub’s leg.
“See, in my head it’s hitting dead centre and then by the time I shoot it’s wiggling all over the place,” She explained, scratching her neck and frowning at the paper body, “I don’t suppose unsubs are willing to stand still and wait while the rookie figures out her shot,”
“Your hips are perfect, wide stance means you get more stability against the ricochet,” She tried not to simper at his words, or the way he sidled up behind her, his hands coming up to her shoulders as if he’d known her for years, as if JJ hadn’t told her how much he hated other people’s germs, “It’s in your shoulders you’re losing balance, try relaxing a little,”
But she couldn’t not when he was breathing down her neck, rubbing those long fingers over her shoulder blades trying to get her to straighten out her posture, hoping he couldn’t feel the way her chest rattled with nerves.
“Relax,” He reminded, trying not to chuckle when he felt her shake her arms out as a means of hiding the way her skin had warmed under his rough touch, “You know, my unit chief taught me how to shoot. I wasn’t at all good at it when I first started,”
“Oh really?” She asked, her breaths feather light as he reached around her and adjusted her grip on the gun, “H-he must have been a good teacher,”
“He was the best,” Spencer agreed, brushing off the fact she was all but putty beneath his hands, “Three steps for the perfect shot; front sight, trigger press, follow through. Always keep your head forward, always keep your dominant finger ready, and wait until you’ve shot to drop your stance,”
She looked up at him in admiration, and her soft smile was back as his own musk of laundry detergent and chamomile soap encompassed her as his arms did.
He brought one of those big hands to the back of her head, moving her with gentle ease to look back at the target, a slight chuckle in his voice as he spoke: “Focus, what’s step number one?”
“Front sight,” She echoed him, fixing her shoulders with determination as he dropped his hands and stepped away from her. Taking a deep breath, she murmured to herself under her breath the next step as her forefinger rested over the trigger. She pulled it after a moment of courage, and froze in spot as she watched it hit where the stomach would sit.
Not a perfect shot, but certainly a lot better than she had been doing.
Her eyes widened behind the thick protective glasses, and her hands became fists above her head as she squealed in delight.
“Did you see that- did you see!” She yelled over the sound proof ear muffs they both wore, and he was quick to grab the gun out of her swinging arms, clicking the safety on for her before she could end up blowing a hole in the ceiling.
“Very good, give it a few months you’ll be a natural,” He complimented with a smile as she clapped her hands in glee, buzzing on the spot as if she’d chugged five energy drinks or doubled up on her coffee for the day.
He tried ignoring the way his chest warmed seeing her so happy because of him, especially when she looked at him like that.
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“You said you needed those files, Dr Reid,” She’d appeared again, like she always did, and he had barely enough time to glance up from the paper he was already inspecting before he was hit by the perfume again, and he looked up to see two bright eyes watching him hopefully. Her arms were piled high with easily a box full of folders he had asked Anderson to find for him, and he saw the way she strained slightly to keep them held tight.
“Jesus! Let me help you,” She prayed he couldn’t feel the way her heart thumping against the manilla folders as he leaned over to take them out of her grasp, the way her eyes fell to his light smattering of facial hair as his lips were little more than a few inches from hers. Even when his hands brushed hers, and he seemed to realise she was staring, watching her scramble to look somewhere else other than his amused eyes, embarrassed he’d caught her, “Thankyou. And just call me Spencer,”
“Thankyou,” She echoed, shaking her head with a girlish smile on her face, her cheeks warm with humiliation, “I mean you’re welcome, any time,”
For the sake of her self preservation he waited until she turned around to smile to himself, pretending he didn’t see the way she muttered under her breath, or that she almost walked straight into the filing cabinet on her hasty exit out of the office.
“Seems like you have a shadow,” Emily’s voice met him as he heard her heeled footsteps approach, and they both watched their newest team mate almost bump right into JJ as she kept her head down, stroking her hair nervously, “She was super excited to meet you when you were away, said she went to one of your guest lectures you did with Hotch a couple years ago,”
His brows shot into his hairline, something warm flourishing in his chest when he saw her peek back to see the two of them watching her, and she immediately darted for her seat for an excuse to turn her back to them.
Spencer smiled again, running a hand through his curled locks as if he was trying to think of something else other than the joy that had over come his features.
She certainly was charming, in an incredibly girlish way, and he wasn’t the only one who thought it. He hadn’t heard Penelope giggling so much since Morgan had left, nor did he miss the way Rossi and Emily watched her darting around in the field, chasing after her as if she needed one of those leashes people had for toddlers.
Or the way Luke had had to talk her out of bringing a stray cat back to the BAU just two days ago because ‘it looked sad and lonely’.
She was only eight years his junior, and yet he felt like the job had made him too hard, too mature, too tough against a softness like hers.
Girls had never really been interested in him, at least not for him as Spencer Reid, not as SSA Dr Reid. He had the occasional fling, even Maeve in the grand scheme of things had been a budding romance at best, and just the thought of Cat Adams viper-like eyes had him shuddering.
He barely wanted anything to do with women at the moment, at least that was what he’d told himself every night he’d been fighting for his damn life in prison.
But it was almost too easy to feel this way about her, like he couldn’t drink in her sweet smell or even sweeter voice fast enough, or bathe in her gaze that melted like rich chocolate when he took a glance her way.
He didn’t bring it up with her until they were the last few people filing out of the office.
“I can drive you,” She chirped, almost dropping the contents of her bag everywhere as she rooted for her car keys, and before he could protest, because it was like all he could see now was how eager to be around him she was and he wasn’t too sure he could keep himself from opening pandora’s box, she jingled her keys, that of course had crochet bluebells hanging from them and all but danced past him into the elevator. “Come on, you can have shotgun,”
“I’ll be the only passenger, doesn’t that mean I automatically have shotgun?” He asked, following behind her as she stood in the elevator with a beaming smile, her finger clicking the ground floor button a bunch of times even though it made no difference how fast the doors closed.
“Well, yeah, but it’s going to be the best shotgun you’ve ever had. I’m talking you can be Miss Daisy and I’ll be your Morgan Freeman,” And as if her spirit was infectious, he shook his head with a hidden chuckle.
There was a minute of silence between the two as she played with a loose thread on her cardigan, and it was then he took the chance to ask her the question that had been burning on his lips all day.
“You didn’t by any chance go to University of Pennsylvania, did you?” Spencer asked, noting the way her eyes fell to the floor and how she licked her lips nervously.
“Yeah,” She replied cautiously, fingers clenched tightly around her keyring, “I know it’s not Caltech, but it was pretty good-”
“Didn't you see my lecture with Hotch?” He asked, and his smile widened tenfold when her hands slapped over her cheeks that burned with horror, moving quickly up to cover her eyes, “Little birdy told me you were quite excited to meet me-”
“Oh, Emily,” She groaned, burying her face in her palms, avoiding his teasing expression like the plague, “I knew, I knew she was going to tell you, I’m surprised she didn’t tell JJ first, unless she did and our whole team know I was some crazy girl who liked the FBI agents so much she switched her major,”
“You switched your major for me?” He asked incredulously and he only laughed harder, one of the first times since he’d come home, when she groaned louder, turning away from him entirely.
“Shut up, I did not swap my major for you,” She bit back, and she finally met his gaze, her expression an embarrassed wince, “I just… liked the material. You were very compelling,”
“Did you have a poster of us?” Spencer wanted to stop teasing, knew he was being a little cruel, but how could he resist when she shrieked in between laughter, shoving his shoulder with mortification.
“No,”
“Did you kiss Hotch’s picture before bed like an obsessive fangirl?”
She gestured to him vulgarly as they left the elevator and headed for the car park, and it made a huge difference to the usual adoration she watched him with, but maybe, he thought, it made him like her even more.
“No more shotgun for you, you’re going in the trunk like an old rug,” She snapped, though he could tell she was still horrified by the way she avoided his delighted hazelnut gaze.
“Like an old rug?” He feigned hurt, but when they sat in her car, she finally looked over at him with something vulnerable and yet affectionate, like he’d seen her for all she was worth. He reached over the console to squeeze her hand gently, not missing the way her palm clammed beneath his and she struggled for words, so he continued for her, “That’s really no way to talk to your idol, you know,”
Spencer swore his chest felt lighter than it had in months watching her laugh like that.
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