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I LOVE THEM. I LOVE THIS SCENE. BUT ALSO I CRIE. CAITLYN'S SHRUG ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#arcane#arcane s2#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#caitlyn kiramman#arcane vi#vi arcane#vicait#violyn#piltovers finest#sapphic#spoilers#duh#my post#my gifs#I CANT GET OVER THAT SHRUG#also I just realized the entire scene is so good#also regarding colors#cause like Cait got rid of the cloak#so less red for her#just her choker#but then also Vi who has mostly black except some red from her hair (and her shoes)#and both of them are mostly in a dark tone#while in Ambessas tent it's mostly red#and I kinda like the thought of Cait finally freeing herself from Ambessas grasp#returning to what she had before (Vi)#and there fore unifying or at least coming close in colors#to like symbolize that#I should probably make a post for that instead of just yapping in my tags xD
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Trying to find nice stuff for Wish but everywhere you go people are being painfully wrong in their interpretations of the movie
#i don’t care if people don’t like it but i want people to at least stop being so wrong 😫#i shouldn’t have to explain that hoarding the most important part of people’s souls under false pretenses is bad#his trauma does not make the person he became any less bad and his way of ruling is not reasonable and morally better#free will to pursue your dreams is good. a soul should not be locked up by a man who is likely never to give it back.#i’m sure he STARTED as protecting rosas or believing he was but absolute power corrupts absolutely and all that#magnifico by the time we see him is controlling and paranoid and selfish#and asha is not bad for *reads notes* wanting people to have a chance to actually live their lives for themselves and not be deceived#she never asked him to grant all wishes and the movie never tried to say that all wishes should be granted#it’s not saying that you should always have whatever you want. it’s saying you have the right to your agency and choice to pursue your wish#without someone else controlling whether you can ever have it and even making you forget you wanted it so you CAN’T choose to pursue it.#this is literally just a free will vs control story. how was this movie so lost on so many people.#you can debate until the cows come home about whether it was executed well but what they actually tried to say shouldn’t be so hard to grasp#and then there’s people spreading misinformation about star boy and various behind the scenes factors and you can’t escape it and i just…#i am in pain. everywhere i go i am in pain.#disney#wish#mini rant
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the whole mess about lucanis becoming first talon is, well, a mess no matter what, but im kind of obsessed with how much more of a mess it can be with a rook that doesn't know how royally fucked lucanis is until later.
like obviously a de riva rook knows what's up with the crows and their hierarchy and all the awful shit that happens as a part of that life -- not even just the parts that come about because, say, a house is staging a coup, but all the terrible aspects that come with being a crow when everything goes right. the training (a form of torture), having to compete against other fledglings (another flavor of torture!), the risk of death, the reality of injury, the possibility of betrayal from someone you thought was close to you just to gain power or favor, and all the trauma that comes from having to use seduction as a part of an assassin's repertoire. fun stuff!
and i as a player know all this and am looking at the path before lucanis with horror (oh no baby you're right where you started -- in a position you never wanted to have, under your grandmother's thumb without having learned how to say no to her, except now you don't even have your cousin to lean on)
but my mourn watch rook is not in the know at all.
like. she definitely picks up on the fact that all is not quite right and satisfactory with the way things go with lucanis and the crows throughout the game, and with the way that technically wraps up, but. that's kind of The Usual Vibe with lucanis.
things happen and he buries them down instead of processing them. gotta show him support and trust and kindness and hope he eventually feels comfortable enough to work thru it enough to talk about it (or do something about it). pspsps-ing at the feral cat who's scared to approach. she's unraveling his trauma little by little but she has not gotten to all the bits that make it click that this is a nightmare scenario until well after he's technically accepted the position of first talon.
weeks after the fall of the gods, she's kicking down doors at the necropolis hollering "PROFESSOR HOLY FUCK WE GOTTA DO SOMETHING TO HELP LUCANIS"
#also i loooooove love love love reading about everyone's de riva rooks helping lucanis work thru crow shit#it's very fun to read!#it's just interesting to realize how much mine is. not. going to fully grasp the situation until the world stops being on fire#and also. a lot of what fucks lucanis over is the fact that he's never said no to caterina#and even tho he has support now. he still hasn't told her no. Even Though Being First Talon Is A Nightmare Scenario For Him.#and any rook might struggle to recognize that specific dynamic without more time to see it in action#but de rivas Would at least know what caterina is like#caterina who had an entire house slaughtered#and MAY have caught the vibe of The One Very Obedient Grandson#and then. again. there's ward over here. knowing fuckshit all.#going 'THEY FUCKING WHAT???' at this information she learns AFTER the gods are dead#veilguard spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#ward ingellvar
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ok there was a poll going around a while ago about whether you think your 5-year-old self would recognize you, and I'm curious:
#polls#poll#heavily encouraging people to elaborate in the tags lol i wanna hear everyones thoughts#i'll start: i'm genuinely not sure#was looking at old photos and... i look really different#there's a photo of me and my brother and one of our cousins and like#we're all in our 20s now and idk if any of us is recognizable lmao#i didnt see that cousin at all from like when he was 13ish to when he was 18ish and i don't think i would have recognized him#i think meeting current me without context would be REALLY uncanny valley for 16-year-old me but idk if he'd catch on#did i know what i looked like well enough to recognize myself?#ahgsdlkkdh if it was fall or winter he might guess just based on clothes. i still wear the same style of button up/sweater combo#it's very Me in a way that i would have instantly clocked. at least in a 'oh nice i'd wear that' way lol#and the fact that we'd be the Same Exact Height would also help#mannerisms and smile and hands and things are the same more than my face is. hence uncanny valley#there's a photo of my dad when he was like 19 where when i saw it i was like ?!??! because he looks like me#he's significantly taller and his face is different and it's just a still image but something about the way he's sitting in the picture#i do that. my posture looks like that.#i think it would feel like that#but the ways in which i look different are like... i'm not sure they're things 16-year-old me would be able to grasp as Possible for him#he knew he was trans but even so#i didn't quite look like i'd figured out how to be a person yet#would pinocchio recognize himself as a Real Boy?#there are a lot of details you can't picture beforehand#idk. but that's my ramble over#personal
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anyways. i hope byler makes out until they cant breathe n have to pull away gasping for air in s5
#byler#enough with portraying queer couples as chaste n innocent#like yes ok i do want them to have like. at least one slow sweet kiss too but like#if they arent grasping at each others clothes to pull them closer together desperate just to kiss and hold and touch like they've never-#- been able to before then whats the fucking point.#this isnt to say i want a sex scene or anything. honestly i dont care either way if we get one. but i want them to make out sloppy#like sorry you're telling me theyve been pining over each other for years and they're jsut gonna settle for soft gentle pecks???#nah. i dont buy it lmao
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now i aint ever had no one on the enemy team call me out.... lol ...... abysmal they say this right as the mvp screen pops up too.....
#marvel rivals#snap chats#the line of Thank You in the chat PLEASe ... my bad for always thanking my supports erjALKAJ#just got the mag skin so its only reasonable i focus on getting my wanda hours up JRLKJAJi i need that lord icon ....#tbh getting mvp as wanda isnt hard considering you get credit for Breathing on an enemy but we take them regardless#stats not even that crazy tbh like i avg 25-30 elims as wanda durin my good games... like surprising i didnt die more i guess but jvLEKJLAK#i think at this point ive got a healthy grasp on how to use wanda. very fun lady :) i love her very much#even with her ult im. at least good at Not Dying when using it vjLKJKLAJ when playin an FPS Not Dying is the best you can do#stats dont mean too much to me tbh like yeah they can be an indication to how much value someones MAYBE giving#but they never give the full story .... ive had games where all our stats were Less Than Ideal but we won by just playin objective..#do you know. how many people Dont play objective. jesus christ it drives me mad#i get pushing ahead if its payload but at least be NEARBY so help me lord#anyway whats funny is that i considered recording my matches today right before i went into this one#lol. lmao even. prob my best wanda game i fear .... not gonna get better than this jVLKEKLAJ#ok bye bye im gonna go finish a thing i sketched last night then ima work
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I just have to laugh at readers who claim that the Darkling was Zoya’s abuser. The text and the Netflix adaptation does the barest possible minimum to allude to such an idea and then these fans proceed to reframe the shoddy writing and praise for it’s “brilliant��� commentary.
Bardugo and the Netflix writers could’ve done that (with proper planning and thoughtfulness) but it’s obvious that they couldn’t be bothered to put the effort in. Sorry- Zoya’s just not all that interesting and cramming in some subtext about how she was supposedly the Darkling’s victim is pure fanfiction. Particularly when even in the show, we see Zoya pursuing him of her own volition and that relationship is never meaningfully explored or elaborated on after the fact.
#lol they literally just made Zoya into his side piece (sorry but it’s true) it’s all as shallow as it seems#What I’m saying is that I don’t think that the text has enough evidence to support such an interpretation and it all just seems like a grasp#for Zoya to have at least SOME shred of meaning in a series where she’s so….bland and irritating#shadow and bone#the darkling#lb critical#grishaverse#s&b critical#anti leigh bardugo#aleksander morovoza#fandom discourse#grishaverse fandom#anti zoya
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the weird very abstract elden ring themed cake i was requested… not pretty but it was earl grey flavored which turned out nice
#if it wasn’t this id have used tons of edible flower and herbs for decoration but my herbs were dead#and stores near me dont sell edible flowers or at least ones that haven’t touched pesticides#t.#also ive never played elden ring i barely grasp whats going on in it
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Hello superfallingstars - from one marauders fan to another, care to answer these too? Some will be repeated, but I want to know what you think!
- Which marauder likes a big city, and who prefers the countryside or a small town?
- Who got the most free drinks or pub snacks from Rosmerta?
- Who handled their drink the best?
- Who couldn’t handle their drink?
- Who gave the best romantic advice?
- Who learned the patronus charm first?
- Who swears the most?
- I suppose this excludes James, but we can swap him for Lily: who enjoyed watching Quidditch matches the most?
- Who had the coolest childhood bedroom? (This is very subjective, I know)
- Who’s the most likely to be a good cook?
- Who’s good at fixing things?
- Who was always getting caught and who never got caught?
- Most likely to be a vegetarian
That’s what I got for today! I hope you all don’t think I am a creep. I just like to come up with questions that dig a bit more into the personalities of my favourite characters.
Hi I would love to answer these!
Which marauder likes a big city, and who prefers the countryside or a small town?
I think James and Sirius would both prefer the big city (so much mischief to get into!), Peter would prefer the country (is overwhelmed by the city), and Remus would be somewhere in the middle. Maybe Remus would find the city more enjoyable, but he would feel safer and more at ease in the country (for obvious reasons).
Who got the most free drinks or pub snacks from Rosmerta?
James. For all his faults (of which there were MANY), I think he was probably very charming…
Who handled their drink the best?
I think Sirius. I imagine James could also drink a decent amount, but he would get sillay with it, whereas Sirius would just seem slightly less coordinated. It’s because one of them is drinking for fun and the other one is drinking to cope. Who said that. Speaking of, I think Remus would also partake in some self-destructive substance abuse post-Lily and James death
Who couldn’t handle their drink?
Boring answer but Peter. I think he would be such a lightweight, to the point that everyone thought he was faking it and that he was just trying to seem cool by acting drunker than he actually was, and everyone found it really annoying. And then like an hour into the party he would just fall asleep in the corner (and James and Sirius would write/draw profane things on his face)
Who gave the best romantic advice?
Remus but only by process of elimination. His advice was still not very good.
Who learned the patronus charm first?
I have to go with James… ugh. I think he is such a complicated character (as you may be able to tell from the fact that I write an essay every time he comes up). I have a really hard time reconciling how spoiled and nasty and cruel he was with the near-reverence with which Sirius and Remus speak of him, not to mention the fact that Lily eventually deemed him worthy of marriage, or that he died fighting honorably for the Order... He's a mess of contradictions. But because of all that, I imagine him as someone who was almost delusionally optimistic, with relentless confidence in himself to achieve the impossible (though this confidence was also kind of a cope, since I think his bullying of Snape points to some deep-seated insecurities). It takes an impressive amount of nerve to try to become an animagus at age twelve, and it takes an even more impressive amount of resolve to actually achieve it… Like, James was the type of guy to make impossible promises and then somehow manage to pull them off (at least, until he wasn’t). And I think this inability to be deterred was kind of infectious – deep down, all of the Marauders wanted to believe in themselves as much as James believed in himself (and to be fair, as much as James believed in them!) – and it was this magnetic personality that made him a such a big influence on his friends’ lives, even after his death. All that to say: I think James would be able to pull off the Patronus charm first out of sheer willpower alone
Who swears the most?
Sirius or James, I could go either way here... Sirius being super reserved and barely cursing as a result of his posh upbringing, or Sirius having a huge pottymouth because he’s rebelling against his posh upbringing... I could also see James swearing a lot, because my best explanation for his contradictory combination of awful personality + great politics is that Euphemia and Fleamont were rich old money hippies with overly lax parenting skills, and they would probably let their dearest baby boy curse up a storm at home. But I think the real answer to this question is Snape.
I suppose this excludes James, but we can swap him for Lily: who enjoyed watching Quidditch matches the most?
I think Peter. Though he would also be the most scared during Quidditch matches. Like he would be shrieking and ducking and covering his eyes and Sirius and Remus would be like “dude what’s wrong” and he’d be like “I thought James was gonna fall off his broom!” D: But his joy at Gryffindor winning, his pride in his talented Seeker friend who he looks up to (and let’s be real, likes being associated with), and perhaps most importantly, the feeling that he belongs to something larger than himself, a group of winners – yeah, he'd be into that. (Sidenote, this is why I think Remus wouldn’t really give a shit about Quidditch; he is incapable of seeing himself as someone who “belongs” to a group any larger than his close circle of friends. Not that he would never have moments of House pride, but they would most likely be brief and fleeting.) I could maybe see Sirius being into Quidditch too, if only for the competitive aspect, but I think it’s also possible that he could be rather indifferent about the whole affair. Maybe Sirius enjoyed Quidditch the most only if Gryffindor was beating the pants off of Slytherin (can I say that phrase or is it too similar to, well, you know…?). And Lily was probably just a casual Quidditch enjoyer imo, though I'm sure she enjoyed having an excuse to stare at James for a few hours when Gryffindor was playing.
Who had the coolest childhood bedroom? (This is very subjective, I know)
Honestly I don't think this is subjective at all because it's gotta be James, EASILY. Mommy and Daddy will buy him anything he asks for and they live in a gorgeous old manor. His room would have posters of famous Quidditch players flying nimbly through blue skies, hung up over ornate crimson wallpaper… a plush red and gold carpet over dark, lustrous wood floors… a huge window stretching almost to the tall ceiling, opening up to a lush garden, that he could leap out of on his broom whenever he pleased… oh my god, imagine his bedframe is gold and the headboard is like the three Quidditch hoops?! Yeah it’s James for sure
Who’s the most likely to be a good cook?
Maybe Sirius? Only because he canonically makes breakfast for the kids on Christmas morning? Hey, maybe he was cheffing it up for the Potters as a way to thank them for taking him in, who knows. I also like the idea of Lily being good at baking and bringing homemade cookies back to Hogwarts after every winter break (and of course, bringing some to Snape nearly every day of winter break).
Who’s good at fixing things?
I’m gonna go with Sirius because he’s a motorcycle guy. Idk, I could see him as someone who likes tinkering with things.
Who was always getting caught and who never got caught?
I mean, James was notorious for being a troublemaker, so I think he must have gotten caught a fair amount of times… And I think I have to say that it was Peter who never got caught, if only because it’s rather poetic.
Most likely to be a vegetarian?
I like to imagine Remus as a vegetarian because of my headcanon that one time as a kid he escaped from whatever werewolf containment he was in (I have sooo much more to say about the logistics of Remus’s parents dealing with his lycanthropy but hoo boy that’s another post) and in his excitement unknowingly killed a rabbit, and then he came to in the middle of the woods with blood all over his face and the taste of raw meat in his mouth and now he’s disgusted by meat <3. Though idk if that headcanon actually works because it still has to be true that werewolves don’t kill animals (otherwise that defeats the whole point of becoming animagi!). Idk werewolf lore is kind of fucked anyway (why does lycanthropy make Remus weak and ill but Greyback seems to be doing just fine?), so maybe I can chalk it up to erratic behavior as a result of being cooped up unnaturally, or because he was a baby werewolf so he was maybe just killing stuff out of curiosity, or maybe I don't even need a reason… idk. If this sounds bad just pretend I said James for hippie reasons and he’s always really annoying and pretentious about it
And no omg I do not think you are a creep, in fact I was watching some of my moots get these asks and I was like… sigh… I wonder if someone will send some to me… so thank you lol. Perhaps unsurprisingly I enjoy talking about the Thing I Like, and I am always happy to do so!!! (Even though sometimes it takes me awhile to respond.) And these questions in particular were really fun!
Thank you for the ask!
#rereading my answers was so funny to me it's either [detailed character analysis] or just [idk maybe sirius or something?]#can you tell who my least favorite marauder is lol. i'm not a sirius hater by any stretch but it must needs be remarked#that i have a hard time with him... i need to continue my reread and figure out what his whole deal is#a lot of times when i think about sirius as a character i feel like i'm just grasping at straws. idk i hope i'll figure him out eventually!#asks#my post#hp#marauders#james potter#sirius black#remus lupin#peter pettigrew#lily evans#marauders era#mwpp#mwpp era#hp marauders#the marauders#harry potter
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[GRABS AT YOU THROUGH THE BARS OF MY CAGE]
DO YOU GET WHAT IM SAYING??? DO YOU????
#i watched trolls 3 and became undeniably obsessed so now im grasping at straws trying to mash it together with bsd#BUT THERES A VISION HERE TELL ME YOU SEE IT TOO#no one will understand me but at least i understand me#bsd#bungou stray dogs#mushimizo#trolls#trolls 3#trolls band together#veneer trolls#kid ritz#does he need the trolls tag#kid ritz trolls#ritzneer#venritz#what the fuck is their agreed upon ship name#yokomizo bsd#mushitarou bsd#trolls posting#mushimizo posting
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an old gif i made that not even i understand. like, i do but also like, nope! nada. there COULD be meaning in this tho. besides like MONKISES
#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa art#danganronpa makoto#makoto naegi#danganronpa kyoko#kyoko kirigiri#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#tis the trio of them!#i get that past we was doing the 3 monkeys but dunno what it represents for these three tbh#know the speak no evil makes sense with byakuya#guy talks so much crap#byakuya be like that#maybe see no evil is makoto cus of all the stuff he's seen#and he's tired of it#not that he'd ever NOT be tired of it#and maybe hear no evil is kyoko cus like...#reasons?#maybe cus of all the stuff she's heard in her past and stuff#i am grasping at all the straws now though at least they are in my fingies instead of the ocean
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Part two of the thing and uuh also final one
Of this interaction. Because this is far from all I can give, my brain almost imploded from all the ideas
#after some very heated talks between the two brothers Vash said he would leave the house for a good time#suggesting they both needed time apart and Vash needed to learn how to live without Kni#very reluctantly Kni agreed (even if he didn’t V would have done it anyways) with the single condition of letting him know the general#details about his livings. the adress. who he was living with if he decided to room with someone and at least their phone number in case#of an emergency. Vash agreed to this and put the limit there bc Kni wanted to know more but he said no I won’t tell you about their life tf#WW who is comfortable living at the orphanage doesn’t find convenient commuting for over 2 hours everyday to get there#so he is looking for a place to stay. Vash mentioned wanting to share a rental home w someone to split the spendings#and so the stars aligned and they were already planning their moving four days after meeting each other#because that’s Vashwood for you#imagine the delight of being either WW or Kni and finding out about each other thanks to Vash again#neither of them want to tell Vash about what they think of each ither. Kni to keep some sort of face and ‘peace’ with his brother#and WW doesn’t want to leave a bad impression saying he was the cause that the brother of the guy he was planning to live with couldn’t see#with his right eye for a whole week. so they hate their guts and Vash doesn’t know the why though he can grasp a general idea.#but he always hits bullseye making both WW and Kni glance at each other silently with their eyes saying#“DID YOU TELL HIM?’’ ‘’DID-YOU-TELL HIM??’’#trigun#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun stampede#vashwood#trigun fanart#vash#wolfwood#nicholas trigun#nai saverem#millions knives#Trigun Uni! AU#lenssi draws
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Hi it's me. I just wanted to throw it out there that if you are unable to explain a philosophical or ideological concept clear enough that the average young child can grasp the basics of it you actually probably aren't well versed enough in the subject to lecture people on the internet about it.
It's actually a great practice to learn how to express complex subjects in pretty clear language. When you do it you're far more likely for people to grasp the idea and consider their take on it. The alternative is either people presume you're intelligent and then ignore what else you have to say because your thesaurus abuse renders every sentence near incoherent, or they know the vocabulary and immediately catch that you're taking a pretty simple take and gilding it into oblivion.
#Hot takes I guess#I'm not anti-intellectual#Mainly because I don't consider this behavior a sign of intelligence#I've known people who's basic way of speaking is VERY eloquent#But at least they were also patient enough to clarify their points and not get pissy when people don't know what they mean#Also they tended to have a way better grasp on more ornate ways of speaking#And they were. Like. Nice people.
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“Mei! You have to stop. I know you’re upset, and that’s okay! I know what it’s like to have a power you don’t know how to control—
—to feel like the fate of the world is in your hands
and you have no idea what to do!
((How do you still not see that he has no idea what he's doing? How about this for a plan: stay down MK, or I will put you down.))
But you always have my back, and help me through it. We, will figure this out!
Together!”
#I think about MK's words in relation to SWK a very normal amount!#Before s4 came out this was one of my main ''holy shit MK isn't human'' points. Like#If the fate of the world is in SWK's hands....and SWK doesn't know what he's doing...and MK was LITERALLY in SWK's grasp...#and SWK doesn't know how to be a good Mentor to MK...#It's 2 + 2 bud#MK = Fate of the world = ''there is a reason you are at the center of all these stories''#Glad I got to put a cliff/sitting next to each other motif comp in here they do that a lot#Except Macaque also does it sometimes#At least in regards to ''sitting next to each other'' motif#Like hmmm there's probably an example in 1x09 and then 2x07 he pretends to be Wukong which was. You know that was fucked up#Then 4x09 and 4x10#If/when the SWK V Mk fight happens. If there's not fucked up shit next to a cliff-side what's the POINT#anyways#lmk#lmk parallels#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lmk MK#lmk SWK#lmk Sun Wukong#i bring a very ''tdp fandom'' vibe that the lmk fandom sometimes likes#like lol oh the sweet sweet ''person said baller shit in this show and you make a post about it with screenshots'' type post#I'm doing my part! o7#could write a meta about MK's words and how it relates to SWK's relationship with him OR I could just screenshot conspiracy board it
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sign that says i dont know what milchick and natalie were thinking when they looked at each other like that and at this point im too afraid to ask
#ive seen like at least six posts about their humanity coming out#and like the way they silently communicated with each other#but i fear i am too autistic to grasp what they were communicating….. :/#severance spoilers#severance#mrrow
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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder
#akio and utena#m#long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human#he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims#he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios#(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her#i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing#not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did#but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway#idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims#the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive#but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her#but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had#reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly#wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.
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