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if I wanted to actually make a bunch of money at these craft markets I have a vague idea of what sells and I COULD just batch make those small, easy to make pieces made primarily of cheap plastic which is largely bought in bulk and assembled except I'm a fucking artist with fucking integrity and I want you to buy my fucking detailed-ass doll I designed from scratch because I was mentally unwell about the television show black sails at the time and now I don't have room in my house anymore. i'm so glad your daughter crochets did she agonize over the exact shade of orangey red to make captain flint's hair because sure you want accuracy but a doll is a sort of a caricature so it's gotta be KINDA over the top. did she invent a new way of making doll hair to mimic spiky anime hair. does she also cross stitch. and paint. and draw. and 3d model. and design. does she know how to work with clay. with watercolor. with fabric. does she weave, francis??? does she??? does she francis??? no she doesn't she makes woobles from the package and you think that's the same thing as the tens of hours that went into sculpting a REMOVABLE PROSTHETIC LEG FOR A DOLL
#i am actually a mixed media artist#but because people SO undervalue textile arts#I am pigeonholed to be a crochet vendor#even though I only make the little crochet guys because that's what sells!!#I don't want to do crochet professionally I want to be weird and not poor!!!!!!#to be clear there is nothing wrong with crocheting woobles#or any of that really basic bitch stuff#it's good to have hobbies#but your daughter who crochets cannot do what I do#i have been doing this for TWO DECADES FRANCIS#god I don't want to be doing any of this for money I just want to make weird things#but CAPITALSM#screams
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anyway here's wavewave
#transformers#transformers g1#wavewave#shockwave#soundwave#deeco art#idk why this pairing tickles my brain so much#the idea of two of the decepticons' loyalest members who at first glance seem to be the same type of quiet logical no-nonsense type#but when you really look at them you start to see their differences and how they actually work well together#but also like design-wise. romance between two robots with no visible 'face' is so sexy RAAAAAGGHHH#anyway i enjoy wavewaves dynamic in any continuity#but my personal make-believe (delusional) favorite dynamic is where shocky is just an Evil Science Nerd and soundy is her sexy goth gf#Me and the Bad Bitch I Pulled by Being Autistic kind of stuff basically
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I love how some of the Deadfire companions don't like each other. I love how things can get so tense between Xoti and Pallegina or Maia and Tekēhu that they boil over into a big fight with harsh words and hurt feelings. I love how Aloth doesn't get into a fight with Tekēhu but absolutely will bitch about him in an aside to the Watcher. I love how the endgame has some companions drawing lines in the sand and, depending on your choices, basically tears your party apart. I'm so invested in the Watcher's inner-party conflict, and the fact these arguments are triggered automatically after banter makes it feel like you're watching their nerves fray in real time. It's sooooo spicy, i love it so much
#pillars of eternity deadfire spoilers#and like it makes characters like serafen and eder#who as far as I can tell don't dislike any of the other characters enough to get into fights with them#stand out even more as like dudes who are just vibing#also when I say Aloth is “bitching” I 100% mean it positively bc it feels like how I complain about stuff with my friends irl#the relationships in this game are so well done#and I'm using the 8 party mod so I really feel like I'm seeing the full extent of the party dynamics#anyway yeah I got an argument last night with Maia and Tekēhu and she basically made him cry and it was so!! i eat that shit up!!#pillars of eternity#marie speaks
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I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.
#christ alive dhdhhsjwhddj this is so dumb🫠#I'm sorry#had a lil bit to drink and I'm feeling affectionate okay#also my brother had his last day of school and he's been telling me about his plans with his friends while-#- he has free time and I'm literally so nostalgic rn#like that free time was so nice#i was basically eating dinner with them out qnd about and been going to bars and stuff#also sitting at a lake and the park and the river almost every day like. those were the times fr#those were the times i wasn't a isolated bitch lmao#well i was. just not that much#hhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss my irl friends😭#if they're all back in germany we have to meet up literally omg🥲#but also... they've so different lives now. I'm such an outsider somehow and idk#i can't really connect with them as much as i used to#which is fine but. i don't have any other friends with whom i could meet up#maaaaaaan life's so complicated 😔#johnny's silly rambles#(also yes this is the kind of qp love i want plsplspls#)
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Anon from the karma flower ask here, just gotta say i have no regrets, hows sparrows recovery going?
according to doctor (Euros) she'll be just fine after grounding herself a lil. nothing bad essentially happened, she just wasn't ready for all those feelings
#Spot says stuff#rw#oc tag#to try n explain a bit: i mentioned it in an answer to alter from yesterday but basically the physical world is a muffler. absorber.#what the karma flower does is basically like. boosts the meditation effect. assists in the subtle bodies departing from the physical body#and since the physical body becomes eliminated from the equation everything will hit stronger and More. sparrows dad is a sore-#-subject for her normally already n getting any kind of input about him while in this Seeing projection state just fucking. rowed her over#shes ultimately okay. maybe even better off. just had to confront the feelings head on without anything to make it lighter or to hide behin#lookin at moons explanation of it fuckin... 'imagined worlds'... Bitch What If Its Real Tho. i like to think that moon is kind of-#-skeptical of the spiritual. the iterators cant experience the effect for themselves ofc so shes 🤨 but nah we already have folk gods in-#-here so the karma flower allowing the user to really See other planes? aiya true dat up in this bitch yeehaw#'have no regrets' tho you ASSHOLE /lh GLSKDCLSKDMLCK
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i have planned to write a pseudo-essay or some kind of detailed look at linebeck in phantom hourglass and how he can be interpreted as autistic but thats not going very well right now so here are some autistic linebeck headcanons
He has low empathy and as such has a hard time responding very well to emotional situations, but he can take advantage of his lower empathy in situations where empathy could make things harder, like tending to wounds or rationally handling emotionally-charged situations
His coat is a comfort object and he made it specifically to act as a very slight accommodation; it’s heavy and barely lets any light through it, and he can keep all kinds of little things in pockets sewn into the inner lining, but larger objects do make it more uncomfortable to wear at times. It’s mostly good to carry around things to fidget or stim with and can be helpful in trying to recover from overwhelming sensory experiences
He doesn’t usually stim in public, but taps his fingers on tables quickly and tends to rhythmically snap his fingers when excited, and on his ship is more vocal and more willing to stim, even if around others. One of his main stims that he’ll do for no particular reason is that he’ll hold his arm or back of his wrist/hand up to his nose and mouth for the smell.
He masks frequently to please people. His default mask is that arrogant and brave front he puts up for islanders and other he may come across. Usually, if that mask doesn’t work, he tends to double-down because it usually works and, in his experience, dropping the mask has usually gone badly (non masking he’s rude and blunt but more outwardly excited about adventure and his ship and all of that, i consider it where overseas in the game is when he usually isn’t masking. this shifts his arc to be about him learning to stop masking and feel comfortable being himself)
His special interests could include stuff related to treasure hunting but it could really range from stuff about adventuring or the ocean or engineering (relating to his ship) to stuff not at all touched in the game like music. He really enjoys music, listening to it, playing it, and writing it. He also enjoys and is fascinated by shellfish.
When busy or otherwise occupied, he doesn't usually notice when he's hungry. He doesn't have as much of a problem noticing thirst or exhaustion, but feeling hunger is a problem for him, and often leads to him going a long time without eating. On the other hand, he doesn't mind eating the same thing repeatedly and is perfectly fine with blander foods, so handling food supplies for when he'll be overseas for a long time is easy for him.
He knows he's autistic, he's known for a pretty long time, and he has books on it; he also knows that Link is autistic, but doesn't say anything about it and instead waits until someone else tells him. Until (and after, I suppose) Link actually learns that he's autistic Linebeck just makes sure to keep note of what accommodations he might need and if there are any textures or tastes or smells he can't stand. He doesn't have much of a problem helping out during sensory overloads, even soon after meeting him. It's more out of understanding how it feels to not have your needs met and a sort of solidarity rather than actual friendship.
#loz#legend of zelda#phantom hourglass#linebeck#OBVIOUSLY he experiences some nasty rsd and he's a bitch about it that's like. basically canon so i didnt mention it#a lot of linebeck’s autism is based and referenced off of my own with some extra additions#which is why i have an easier time writing him as autistic than link#kindness is a choice and having low or no empathy does not in any way make someone heartless but linebeck does abuse his own low empathy#to be a mean bitch with minimal emotional consequences#i think linebeck would call link a dipshit to his face and then not feel bad about it for like a few weeks until he starts caring abt him#linebeck stimming by smelling his arm is actually my main stim. its probably why i sit all fucked up bc i sometimes do it w/ my legs lol#the masking bit does kinda fuck some stuff up but i personally enjoy that take on him#one of his comfort objects is an old orange cat plushie named copernicus and if you know what that is specifically from thank you im sorry#linebeck being way into music has no canon backup i just like the idea of him playing piano and composing some form of his own theme#piano is a mad sensory experience btw i dont yet know how to really play it but when i did keyboard in pit it was a fantastic feeling#bangin' out the tunes. it was a really good sort of stim if i was feeling a bit overwhelmed by all of the new tech and music too#salty talks#not entirely an autism headcanon but he thinks gender is a sham and less identifies as a man and more specifically considers#his gender identity to be 'real man of the sea' which is initially kinda silly but kind of a fucking gender move tbh#i dont think he's explicitly trans or nb he's just having fun fucking with his own gender and doing whatever he feels like doing#he isnt a man but he is a man. kind of like how im a dude but also not. yeah.#these were initally going to be call 'quick' headcanons but you can see why i uh. didn't end up going with that
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rant <3
#so i told my friend im thinking abt engaging more in my christian community again starting w going to church more and visiti g exchanges etc#she kniws abt basically all my other friends being more than less religious and active in their respective communities#+ my family being religious even during soviet times and she even kniws abt the orthodox side of my family#so this shouldnt surprise her this much#why is she trying to talk me out of it saying christianity is evil and she cant agree to creationism like ok bitch me too#she acting as if im gonna become some republican american blonde woman or an primitive medieval peasant wthhh#and like i get it she and her family have always been agnostic and she doesnt have any personal experience with believe and faith#but that is even more reason to shut the hell up?? especially bc i just told her as like a life update i didnt want to start a discussion#w an agnostic no less#ppl like that make me so uncomfortable and then she kept saying things like this person is godless as a joke like stfu???#and kept bringing up she csnt believe in god at random times it made me so umcomfortable#especially bc now i feel hesitant to invite her to hangouts w my more 'strict' friends like idk what she thinks abt them and i dont want to#expose my friends who have to listen to enough shit to someone like that like i want my home to be a safe space for my friends#anyways thats the same girl who keeps telling me she doesnt think im white and when i tell her her saying this makes me uncomfortable#shes argues its ok bc she is not white herself ok wth im literally german/slavic how is that not white im crying#cant really articulate what exactly makes me uncomfy abt this but feels like she wants to enable me its really weird#also with tge christian stuff like ive always been religious she kniws abt me reading religious texts its so weird to me#why are you my friend if you disagree with a foundamental part of my life#maybe she thoight i was an ok one bc me and my familys approach to believe and faith is very relaxed but wth man
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just realised something random: I've always been kinda sad that there isn't any media that my parents liked and shared with me, that sort of thing. I know of things that they like, of course, but it was never something they showed me or anything.
and I just realised that's because it was never something nice, something fun, something they wanted to share - no, they only ever brought up things that they liked as a way to say that everything I liked was bad.
#like.... my dad loved musicals. but he only ever mentioned them when he was telling me how bad everything I like (and basically all modern#music really) is.#my mother likes whatever songs are played on the one radio station she likes#literally that's her taste in music. always has been.#but still everything I've ever liked is just awful.#especially movies and shows. I'd try to show her things I was watching when I was younger. I'd record episodes on VHS specifically to show#her when I'd visit her next.#and she never said a single nice thing about any of it#and then I *had to* watch movies that she liked with her because she'd say she was tired of watching all this stuff.#so it was never a good thing.#idk I just feel like that really sucks. first of all it's just mean as fuck. but also like. I'll never get to listen to a song and think 'aw#my dad loved that song!'. it's only ever 'he hated this one. said this one was terrible. hated this singer's voice.' etc#and my mother's shitty comments have ruined things that I used to love (can't watch corpse bride anymore because it was my favourite when I#was like 15 and I begged her to watch it with me and to this day she brings that up as an example of what a great mother she is - 'I watched#that HORRIBLE movie about the dead people with you and didn't complain about it once'#bitch you complained the whole damn time and you have been complaining about it for 17 YEARS NOW.#ugh shitty people shouldn't have children.
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my total admiration for nurses and caretakers. I’ve spent a couple of days taking care of my grandma because my aunt and mom are on holidays and I ended up crying out of frustration
#like i take care of her sometimes but not usually the heavy stuff like hospital admitions and stuff#it’s just so much work? and I’m physically and emotionally exhausted#she’s old and i adore her because she basically raised me#but fuck it’s hard to deal with someone who doesn’t listen and want things exactly the way she wants them and won’t accept other options#I’m just really frustrated right now after spending 1 hours between calls because she touched something on the tv and it didn’t work#i ended up sobbing and with a little mealtdown and my cousin managed to fix the issue via phone call#i feel weak and a failure but i mentally need a break agter yesterday#it breaks my heart but I can’t spent more than a few hours with my grandparents without ending up being very very frustrated#which makes me feel like I’m an ungrateful bitch#anyway i don’t have any more energy today and it’s not even 1pm#i wish i could call someone to give me a hug and hold me while i cry for a bit#but i feel guilty about bothering the few friends i have so yeah#im gonna pour my feelings in a tumblr post like i used to do 10 years ago lmao
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PROMPTIS IS SO BOYFRIEND CODED!!!!! 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫
#angel’s altar 💒#ffxv.posting#square enix in the studio deciding to make two characters that are so bisexual#just got the motel scene and 🥺#noct really is kinda closed off n emotionally stunted 😭 but the way he’s able to show that vulnerability to his friends when they need it#HEEEEEEEEEEEE#like yes noct can be a lil brat who won’t eat vegetables#but he’s also incredibly kind#telling prompto to “think what he will. i think you’re good enough for me”#that it didn’t matter what he looked like in elementary school. he would’ve been friends with him regardless#that even if prompto isn’t royalty he isn’t any less deserving#THIS ALL SOUNDS LIKE BASIC BITCH STUFF BUT I PROMISE THE MOMENT IN THE GAME IS MORE HEARTFELT#also in episode prompto when noct is like “i’m gonna change the world and make it a better place. you with me?”#and prommy is like “ever at your side”#“I TOLD MYSELF I COULDN’T DIE. NOT UNTIL I COULD SEE YOU”#HELPPPPPPPPPPP#“every moment i’m desperate to earn my place. to prove that i’m good enough”#“think what you will. i think you’re good enough for me”#also their banter when in battle 😭#“so this is how it feels to be rescued by a prince”#“go back to sleeping. beauty”#ANYWAY! i’m done
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I officially completely unplugged myself as much as I can 🙃🙃🙃 I’m way too reliant on my phone and waiting for people to talk to me is super unhealthy and has made me very anxious. I literally turned off ever single possible notification and will purposefully not be responding to messages because I just need time a space to figure out how to navigate myself without validation from others.
#plz no sexyleon#life update basically#I’ll still be using tumblr and stuff and I’ll probably reply to things on here#but I likely wont be responding to direct messages#I just???? I’m too clingy and needy and I feel reliant on the people I talk to for any sort of social interaction to be happy#I gotta figure it out because my mental health is in the shit and I can’t be reliant on others for stability#and I didn’t even really notice that’s what was happening until all my friends were busy on the same day and I really just needed someone#anywyas sorry this is complicated I just needed to vent in the void#also for my mutuals who I talk to all the time this is why I’m afk and I’m sorry I love you very much I just have to figure it out#why am I insane and hoping people try to reach out to me anyways??? just to say they are here if I need anything?? like I do to them????#idk this is why I gotta stop#im the loneliest bitch in the world but I really can’t be anymore I gotta be alone in this bitch but not lonely#or I need to make friends with my loneliness and we can tackle the world together#otherwise im not going to survive#my anxiety is out of the roof and I constantly feel like I’m having heart palpitations#I literally think I’m going to die sometimes#I used to say I’d prefer the anxiety over the depression because I know how to navigate anxiety#well guess what my anxiety evolved like some sort of mega Pokémon and now it’s kicking my ass and I don’t have any idea how to defeat it#sorry for venting
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something you don't learn until you get really far into the making and tinkering life is that there's no such thing as "glue" really. there are so many kinds of substances that stick other substances together and they are all very different and if you just go look at the adhesives aisle in the hardware store the packaging never actually tells you anything useful. it's like "this is SUPER T-REX POWER GLUE" and the fine print says "good for use on wood metal and plastic". okay. but WHICH PLASTICS MY GOOD BITCH,
because SURPRISE, there's no such thing as "plastic" either. every kind of wood is basically the same on a chemical level, but the only thing every plastic has in common is "some of its molecules are long" and that is NOT a quality that determines how things stick together.
I just ordered some stuff I hope will permanently stick a circuit board to a steel sheet and withstand temperatures up to 150 degrees. by the way circuit boards are made of epoxy-bound woven glass cloth which is cool as hell but what the fuck do you glue that with? can any of the 12 kinds of adhesives I currently own do that? no of course not. if I want to stick two pieces of acrylic together so hard they become watertight to a depth of 3000 metres I have some shit that does that, but it does literally nothing else.
anyway. once you start learning how many kinds of sticking things together there are, the people at 3M start to seem like witches and I don't know if they're the kind we can trust with that level of arcane knowledge
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for those who haven't seen, a body of a Sabertooth cub was extracted from permafrost in Siberia, and we're lucky enough to get pictures.
The kitten was unearthed 4 years ago, in 2020, and the study about it came out just this week, which is why news about it is just now coming out! It's really amazing. According to the study, the cub was about 3 weeks old at the time of its death, and the body is from an estimated ~35,000 years ago. So we get to look at the face of a kitten born 35k years ago? CRAZY. I love it here. This offers a unique opportunity to compare this cub against its relatives from the current era's big cats, and measure the differences. WHICH IS SO SO FUN. You can read more about it in the links, and I'm sure more will be written about the baby than what I've shown. Details of note have been the difference in the paws, with the Sabertooth cub's feet being big and wide, without carpal paw pads, unlike the Lion cub of a similar age.
They also noted other big differences in the kitten, with it having very small ears, a large muzzle, long forelimbs, and a massive mouth opening. (room for those future teeth?) and a different muzzle shape. (When compared to Lion Cubs)
so yeah!! pretty cool! Ancient Kitty!
did you guys see the shit about the sabertooth kitten!!
#sergle.txt#that's all I have for you today!#i hope you find this as cool as i do and hopefully i didn't misrepresent any of the information#I'm just summarizing the parts of it that are basic and that I think are neat. I'm sure there's more significance#but I look at this and go oh she's built thicker than lions!#but no I think it's really so amazing to be able to see and feel the texture/color of fur from an animal who's been extinct for so long.#a lot of crazy stuff is held inside of permafrost. some of it we don't want released#some of it though yields amazing discoveries that we can enjoy#get into it bitch.#it's amazing how much and how little can change in so much time. this is a body older than the amount of time I can#actually visualize#but looking at its body it's just a kitten. you can tell the texture of the fur just by looking. and it's all so very familiar.#actually what if i go ahead and get emotional over this
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not me "bhaad mein jaaye madarchod"-ing my way out of ""friendships"" that never seemed real.
#yes its still about that friend that didn watch my reels#but its become more than that#i suspect theres more to it#and i dont like the possibilities#so will just silently distance myself#striaght out of any and all drama that might be happening#because i feel there is#and he's so cryptic about it probably wants me to ask more when he says shit like “oh im waiting for smth first” bitch i dont really care#how come ive never met with a genuinely nice person#i can be a bitch but at the core im genuinely nice#i feel like whenever i do come across a genuinely nice person i end up fucking it up by like talking too much maybe?#feel like i did that recently#oopsie daisy about that#omg now that i think about it i have actually met with some genuinely nice ppl#only thing is the best bond that can be formed at this stage in life is like just a friend#bc everyone alr has best friends by now right#not that i am looking for a best friend but i guess#you gotta be a bit more closer than friends for the shit i come up with#which really is just ranting about stuff and reels basically#i really am a loser#fucx
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Whyyyyy would I have a romantic dream about my former coworker. I really woke up having soft thoughts about this stupid man 😵💫 absolute idiocy!!!!!!
#i didn’t wake up just now. i’ve been awake for hours. but i’m still thinking about this dream because whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#i think this is my mom’s fault honestly. ‘why don’t you just call [redacted] and ask if they have any hours for you’#because i’m ashamed. alright? i’m ashamed that the TA position i rejected them for fell through#i WILL do it if dry cleaning also falls through because i don’t think i can handle working from home any longer but give me one more chance#to find gainful employment before i run back to my old boss like ‘hiiii girl i fucked up. help?’#anyway. so i had a crush on this guy (this is the age appropriate one not the 20 year old) basically the whole time i worked there#he is so catastrophically fine. he’s like 6’2 with tattoos and floopy hair and wire rimmed glasses and he gave me full on brainworms!!!!#but he was kind of a dick. he flirted with every woman but me (6’1; overweight; bad case of resting bitch face) and had literally JUST#separated from this woman who he was only married to for 3 months. we got on okay as coworkers and we had a similar sense of humour and were#able to laugh together and stuff; but i always got the sense that he loved himself first and foremost#and also doesn’t fuck with fat women. which is 100% his choice but also. 🫠#so i always remained professional and then i left and haven’t really thought about him in months. but then proceeded to have a dream#last night in which i was working there again and he was flirting with me Relentlessly and at one point had his arm around me#and was kissing my neck. 🥴#i have GOT to ask. why is this happening to me. why now?? this is ridiculous#anyway if you need me i need to get ready for my stepdad’s birthday lunch thing#personal
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the best engagement i get is w.illiam a.fton and specific h.atter gifsets when they look slutty (affectionate) so logistically i should make more of those, but ima do what i want which is why theres been sm general h.atter n a lot of d.anielle— also bc big gifs receive more traction for some reason i’m gonna redo those s.eb in a bathtub scenes in big form at some point
#i need to do d.anr.ad too tho bc like i have nothing to rb of him#i have stuff to rb of him but you go in the edit tag and its all fucking hoory patter and until that bitch is dead i aint going there#plus i use dans newer projects anyways the full beard is more miseris than clean face#like hes a fookin do.rmouse hes meant to be floofy#‘brina why havent u done guns a.kimbo for da—‘ so fun fact#i already owned that movie bc s.amara was in it and even thoni dont use her as a fc#shes really pretty and im gay (probably bi but who knows i only like actors and fictional men)#and ive collected her discography since i saw her in p.icnic at h.anging tree which i got for the same reason basically except n.at d.orner#so i like did not know dan was in it until i put it on#bc i saw it was coming on her page when i was seeing if there were updates i needed to get#bc i do that periodically w some actors like okay i had jenna c.olemans entire discog including em.merdale until that garddrive died#so now i dont have it but i still go to find the new stuff ok occassion when i remember#i dont watch almost any of it but i own it#i forgot where i was going w this i have work today but my adhd has been really really bad the last few days#tbd
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