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This is from my old blog <33
#girlblogging#just a girlblog#coquette#girlblog#hell is a teenage girl#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#this is what makes us girls#boarding school#girl interrupted#dark coquette#smarty lana del rey#opened up to the wrong person#back to the old house#daisy randone#sensitive#sweet girl#kate moss#lilly rose depp#coquette dollete#dollette#bambi doll#lolita1997#american lolita#messy coquette#coqeutte#pink winter#pink christmas#baby pink#light pink#teddy bear
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infantilization
#dungeon meshi#aj art#kabru of utaya#Thinking about the way Kabru is regarded by the elf community he was raised in#Even when he’s pretty clearly an adult#As a spoiled child who needs protecting#Bc they don’t view the short lived races as serious humans who deserve respect#And Kabru recognizes this because he grew up with elves#Adding art detail tags bc I put an embarrassing amount of thought into this#I tried to give him duller and rougher colorjng nd shading#And gave all the plushies soft cartoonish shading and bright colors#To illustrate how he actually is vs how he’s being categorized by the elves#I also tried to give him more specifically adult features like arm and leg hair#Eye bags shaven facial hair and scars#To make his body look lived in#Again illustrating that he’s an adult who has lived a life#Which makes him contrast to the cutesy childlike stuffed animals he’s surrounded by#Bc to us and to him the way he’s treated by the elves is really weird#He shouldn’t be lumped in with childlike things when he’s a grown adult#Also I made it so that all the stuffed animals eyes are closed#And his are open#Bc 1. the elves don’t really see him as a person and 2. They don’t really recognize how they’re treating him or why it’s wrong#But he does#He sees it clearly and knows why they’re acting like that
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[sharing/rb appreciated 💛]
my silver artbook is FINISHED and will open for preorders on 8/31 at 12pm EST!! it's been almost 3 months of work and i'm so excited to finally be able to share all the art i've worked on, PLUS a small bonus charm!
if u know silver fans,,, tell them
#FINALLY! i'm finishing up setting the shop this week and orders will open on da weekend <3 couldn't be prouder than i'm doing it#i went back and found my first statement of wanting to draw this series and it was end of MAY and now here we are!!! hes REAL#ive always wanted to publish some sort of artbook or personal zine but showing unrelated pieces felt wrong i need it to be a PIECE#so this series was perfect. im making this book for all of us. silver fans must win we have to we must. but also. im making it for me#i love him so much i crave more work for him desperately so i feed myself. and i love the diasom community i love us i LOVE US!!!!#no crumbs. no. only a full meal. the finest i can offer. silver my son you are sleepy and wonderful and i love you dearly#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#diasomnia#silver vanrouge#if anyone has questions feel free to reach out however!! qs or dms or whatever. i got ur back <3#suntails
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Sometimes a take about a character is so bad and so widely accepted by the fandom at large... it drives you crazy sometimes...
#this is about ketheric thorm's entire plot being boiled down to “homophobic father” which is literally not the case#i don't even think homophobia happens - if it does it's so rare - in BG3 everyone seems pretty open about being gay if they are#ketheric thorm didn't hate aylin for gaying up his daughter - he hated the demigod child of a goddess who failed him sweeping up his baby -#a dangerous divine immortal with a whole different perspective to living#yes ketheric thorm did wrong and he knows it!#but it's not because he's a homophobe#it's just sad especially as a parent myself because his plot is so interesting and it's like honestly I'd probably done much the same as hi#i know it's probably mostly a meme in regards to keth being a homophobic dad and not meant to be serious but there are people -#who will take it seriously and think that's the plot because no one can think deeper than a puddle on this site sometimes#sorry he's my favorite villain in the game#personal#sorry to rant!!!!
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I think the Knight of Dawn being "a coward who is unable to stand up for what is right and does as he's ordered to" and "someone who cares deeply about his family and did everything he could so that Silver could live a happy and normal life in the future" are two statements that can coexist.
#And Lilia knows this too which is huge#I love the complexities brought up in this chapter#I love how it really weighs in on Lilia's desire for world peace because war turns normally compassionate people do to terrible things#and no one wins when babies are orphaned#I love how far an act of kindness can go too#The Knight warned Lilia about Henrick's plan to kidnap the egg and gave Lilia an opening to escape#and 400 years later Lilia rescued Silver from his blessing turned curse and raised him and loved him the way his parents would've wanted#I love this fairytale#and the Knight is in the wrong but its kind of sad to see him being reduced down to his worst action#He's a tragedy but there's more to a person than just who they are at their worst#I'm gonna lose my mind when part 5 comes over here im sorry for what I become#twst#twst chapter 7#twst spoilers#twisted wonderland#twst silver#twst knight of dawn
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Broke (2016): BBC Sherlock is a phenomenal piece of media and anything that seems like a flaw just hasn't been fully explored yet
Woke (2020): BBC Sherlock is an incredibly flawed series run by an egotistical writer, it never deserved the hype and is actively bad on so many fronts (especially representation)
Bespoke (2024): BBC Sherlock is flawed and bogged down by increasingly poor writing, which many fans refused to see while it was airing, leading to hugely misplaced expectations (particularly for the final series), AND it has the seeds of some compelling characterizations and portrayals, some genuinely solid performances, and touches--albeit imperfectly--on complexities that are still being discussed today (particularly as it relates to the relationship between Sherlock and John). The huge cultural impact of the show has created a massive pendulum effect in its public perception, leading to most people today remembering a caricature of the show (whether positive or negative) rather than appreciating its nuanced merits and failings...that being said Season 4 sucked
#these just sum up my personal takes at the years in question and also what i'm seeing on tumblr/other social media#bbc sherlock#sherlock holmes#and i actually have a lot more thoughts to share on this series#specifically relating to the cultural impact#there is SO much about the show that goes unappreciated in hindsight because of how public perception of it has soured#and i totally fell into this as well--i still regularly rewatch hbomberguy's video absolutely dismantling the series and he isn't wrong!!#but what i'm saying is that i think it's easy for us to look at a piece of media (especially one so massively popular) like sherlock...#with very black-and-white lenses. it wouldn't have become so popular if there wasn't something inherent in it that resonated with people#and that's being buried (and i totally forgot it) because 'sherlock is cringe and problematic. can't believe i liked that'#which again it IS full of issues and those are well-documented as they should be. future portrayals should not repeat those mistakes#BUT being able to impact so many people is a merit in itself. and that's only possible because of other genuinely good things about the show#yes the way they handled the relationship between john and sherlock was riddled with problems YES it was often queerbaiting#AND the way they portrayed that relationship had a deep effect on me. i saw a lot of myself in sherlock and the complex way he loved john#the nuanced feelings he had about john's marriage to mary. the part (in s4!) where john calls him inhuman for not feeling romantic love#there was genuine intention and care put into some parts of this show and it comes through in scenes like those. they impact people.#and because of this realization i'm going to (eventually) do a rewatch of the show. i'm much older and i want to see how i'll view it now#but i want to go into it--and i want everyone who engages with it still--to have an open mind and evaluate it for what it is#not what we expected it to be (secret episode anyone?) or what the cultural drift has turned it into (the tiktok of sherlock's mind palace)#but the messy problematic somewhat-heartfelt massively significant and ultimately meaningful piece of media it actually was#anyway that's my thoughts would love to hear y'all's perspectives#funny how after all this time making a sherlock post still feels like i'm poking a bees' nest lol please be kind!#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#kay has a party in the tags
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i tried so hard to fight it but im just actually so disappointed with veilguard.
as a video game, its fine! the gameplay is fun and it’s visually stunning. but as a dragon age game it’s… not good. even if we somehow ignore all the massive world breaking lore inconsistencies, it’s supposed to be a story heavy RPG. but it’s so shallow, so surface level. there are so many issues with so many of the decisions the devs or ea or whoever made leading to the final state of this game and it’s actually so sad.
I feel like im grieving what could’ve been, making new saves in hopes it’ll somehow be better this time around, and it just isn’t.
#dragon age critical#veilguard critical#dragon age#spoilers#dragon age spoilers#the more i think about it the more i realize how much is wrong#even little things like why lyrium is red#or like why is neve/bellara just fine after being completely blighted?#why do we get a little -blighted- status effect that means absolutely nothing?#why are all the factions sterilized#why can’t I be an asshole? why do all my choices end up coming out kind of snarky goofy like they chose my personality for me?#why can’t I even be a properly SERIOUS or stoic char like#I know it’s not an open world but it actually feels like it too. there are other way better games that are closed world but it doesn’t FEEL#closed world#only arlathan felt open. every other location was so underwhelming#idk it’s so sad bc i’ve been waiting so long and I rlly tried to give it a chance but it’s just so disappointing#idk there’s too many things to even list here#im just sad :/ and I think im done playing#da:tv
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realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.
... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.
#idk if ill ever open up completely about that shitshow but#i think 8 years is past the statute of limitations to vaguepost about it#late tag addition but man now i'm thinking about it all at 4am#how did in the good goddamn did i witness that and still not only let them make me an officer#but also let them put me functionally in charge of their guild IC#while those two fucked off and erped in instanced zones or played overwatch#and i and my then-rp-partner took the heat for the meandering plotline#until my partner vented to the wrong person about the abuse#and it got back to them#and we got to experience the surreality of an honest to god guild coup#all to salvage the image of some egomaniac abuser#certified fucking wra moment#its been 8 years and thinking about how i was treated in the end makes me feel sick lol#they made a new guild discord and invited everyone but us#and when i noticed the channel had gone quiet i asked what was up#and was met with gaslighting about how i'm 'thinking too much' about the channel being a 'little slow'#and it took pushing to get an early admission of what was about to happen#so we logged on and quit ourselves#which fucked up the narrative they had constructed#and they lied in the new channel that WE were the ones doing a 'coup' and that we stole the members who left with us#i guess i am opening up after all#i had to play the fucking villain of that scenario for the past 8 years#all to protect the mental health of people who hurt me#why#if you were there and know what i'm referencing with all of this... there's the fucking story#the person in question is a massively popular artist#i just dont have it in me to fight that fight
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Happy EDS awareness month!
I'm a webcomic artist with EDS. be aware.
EDS affects many parts of my life. I have chronic fatigue, chronic pain, and I need to use a cane! I often find myself ruminating on themes of chronic illness in my work, whether or not I am intending to include them.
I already can't paint anymore, it hurts my hands too much... Anything that requires small details or precise motions will hurt me for days. I have a lot of grief around it. But working digitally allows me to still create!
I animate, I illustrate, I get to tell my stories. I have to go slow, take huge breaks (often against my will) and recover slowly. But, working in this space allows me the grace to do this.
So, I just wanted to share a bit of my experience with my audience, and say thank you for reading my work and supporting me! It means the world to me, and I hope maybe someone in my audience feels a little more seen through me sharing this. It causes me pain, but I love myself; and that includes my disability.
#I thought about putting my comic patreon and kofi links on here but it felt wrong#I really want this post to just be for my audience!#just so you can feel a little seen and just learn a little more about me#I am NOT inviting invasive questions#this is NOT opening the door to discussion on ways it affects my life#this is me sharing a limited glimpse into a part of my personal life#the real pain that this has caused me is shit like my bfs mom telling him to break up with me over it#and people calling me slurs and whatever#I mean obviously the pain itself too but#yeah.#I dont want to talk about that trauma to my thousands of followers in a way they can reblog it and share it around#so#this is all just for you guys#I love you!#thank you for being here#it's the only reason I'm able to create#is because of the support people give me.#well. I mean actually cause of the support webtoon is giving me tbh#I do NOT make enough to quit yet#but the support from my audience keeps me going and makes all the shittiness of my job worth it#it reminds me that creating stories is worth it all#the physical and emotional pain!#so thank you for keeping me motivated and going
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Hey y'all! I think I've asked this before, but do you have any home remedies/advice for handling muscle cramps, knots, and/or spasms? I'm staying well hydrated, taking electrolyte supplements, and using a hot water bottle as my current management method but it's not working super great this time Also, crafting updates may be delayed on account of ouch
#the person behind the yarn#woke up this morning with a solid line of muscle knots and cramps from my right eye all the way down to my right knee#I can now open my right eye all the way! so that's an improvement#but the muscle just under my knee keeps twitching when I put weight on it#in a way that make my knee feel like. very unstable#like going to buckle unstable not like dislocate unstable if that makes sense?#and the knot on my temple is pushing against the arm of my glasses#that one's not painful it's just weird#the moments when I move wrong and my back spasms are painful#and the muscle currently twitching on my shoulder blade just feels bizarre#like. get back in your assigned seat. stop twitching. I am unused to sensory input from the middle of my shoulder blade#and would like that particular bit of feedback to stop#wait nevermind just had a muscle spasm on my scalp oh my gosh MUCH weirder than the shoulder blade#time for more salt
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'arcane forgot what the main story was and only focused on the arcane" bestie I'm gonna need u to reread the title of the show for me
#arcane#arcane spoilers#they didnt even forget the themes about family n class disparity#that just was never gonna be the climax of a story called. arcane. sorry#dont get me wrong i wanted to see more of that too#but i knew they wernt going to wrap all that up in this season#i dont think i wouldv wanted them to since it wouldv probably felt very flat#this ending is a little more open ended#especially if u believe the theory that jinx survived#which im impartial about personally
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we sang in the aeroplane over the sea tgth ☆
#27% circle line with a lovely friend of mine rail tracks screeching etc etc u know the usual. im just gonna write down memories#a few weeks ago my friend read thus spoke zarathustra by the fire to the music she was dancing it was her silhouette#against the flashlight lit up gold and royal blues and tiger's silk i tried not to fall in love with her. in bordeaux we searched#for pomegranates he sent her 300 quid by the beach she cut it open with a knife her hand covered in red we each had a taste of her work#sweet red wet the sweetest grit. too barely clothed to go into the cliffside church they painted my eyes we painted hers#8 shots of gin she screamed joyfully IT'S ALIVE! at the book she said become the child i said i feel like a monster she said i was insane#i tried to believe her. fortified wine and later a red pen crossword defiled by humidity her hair in my hands two king sized beds#pushed next to each other she took her top off she told us to watch her arms raised up the musculature on her back was precise cut from#marble we saw oceans we saw the birds take cold baths the midnight sun over a wasp-infested pool our chemicals in their bodies#gold flakes dark skin gold cross shoulders against mine drawing some form of each other on the train i didn't hesitate#to say her eyes were beautiful over and over monks at the soapshop with titanium credit cards i loved you like i loved no other#he tied his hair up and walked us into the river he held a bullet between his lips i never held his hand he said what an honour#you own too much capital your mother thinks i'm a natural i realised i haven't told my mother i loved her in years she's always been mother#never mom i'll watch you watch seaweeds this is terminal akrasia i'll feel your fingers smear perfume on my lips your girlfriend grins#bite into the straw take the shot hold my hand get it all wrong draw in the sand kiss him right stab through leather shower in chlorine#you're the determinable vicissitude is all yours we won the Game AND the Battle AND the War i'm proud of you like crazy we feed each other#saffron cliffside lovers well-fallen brothers fat cats blue windows southwest sun ALife SynBio design aXAA grow us a city in silico#we've grown to the ends of glee fire-jumper ocean-eater sure-footed lists on lists hands on eyelids не устану искать тебя#...anyway ive put my face on this blog b4 but hiii again#feel free to rb btw the rants r not personal
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#some thoughts incoming idk if i should share but i need to put them somewhere#it's hard being in the yr fandom since the finale when you don't share the same vision and opinion as the rest#and people make future wilmon posts or write post s3 fics (which many exist now) they just don't align with your idea at all#and they're not exciting to me at all and the whole concept just makes me upset#i don't wanna imagine Wille as a 'normal' person (not that that's ever possible anyway which the show loves to ignore)#like I'm sorry but i didn't come to the show to watch an ordinary love story and have them lead an ordinary life#the idea of Wille being a future king and them navigating that royal life together is so much more interesting#i hate that that isn't canon anymore and when ppl make posts about them it's not about that or that would only be seen as a negative thing#i don't wanna imagine a life where they are 'normal' that isn't appealing to me at all and it sucks seeing everyone embrace it#and it's like you're not allowed to want something else or think differently bc that makes you the bad person and you're just wrong#i can't be excited about their future (also bc i don't really see them going strong in the future with how they messed them up in s3)#(i also didn't want to know what could possibly happen in the future i wanted that to stay open and just be in the present)#and seeing everyone else excited and happy about it makes you feel horrible and very alone and disconnected in the fandom#i don't wanna take it away from them but i also would love to see other takes but that's basically impossible now#am i the only person who feels this way or are there any other who can relate? pls let me know#i already feel like ppl are gonna attack me for this but it's been hard especially now with Simon's month and seeing so many interpretation#navigating ao3 has also become difficult now#it's hard finding fics to read where wille stays crown prince and you don't have to be scared for that to change#i just can't read any canon compliant fics anymore and i hate it bc i hate to disagree with canon#i normally don't do that bc canon is important to me and i don't want to reject it and create my own fantasy#and that's what's upsetting#anyway sorry i had to write this#personal
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seeing all the houses downtown with their lights on in different rooms made my chest ache but it's all good 👌
#imagined coming home to someone who loves me for the real person i am and took immense psychic damage. but we stay silly#i don't want a man and kids but. damn i just want all this stupid work to be worth it#or i want it to be easier to be perceived. to just hate it a little less so i can get coffee with a friend twice a month#or i want people to not get this look like i'm making them uncomfortable any time i open my mouth to talk#like there's something off#i'm always standing in the wrong place or making the wrong expression. i can't imagine being seen in person daily and loved#well maybe i can move up north to where they rent out the big ancient houses as split apartments so then i'll hear other people in the house#i could learn to parallel park. i could wear coats
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stranger things fandom never heard the phrase "every saint has a past and every sinner has a future" and it shows
#the way yall can NOT grasp the complexity of the human experience never ceases to baffle me#if you go around with the attitude of 'if you do anything wrong ever you will always be a Bad person even if you try to make ammends' it#will genuinely ruin your life#AND what kills me is yall tout yourselves as these open minded liberals who are anti cop anti justice system#we need to be more accepting !!!#until the SECOND a person you personally dont like starts acting up#and then the republican comes out REAL quick#the evangelical conservative bible thumper JUMPS out#you know how to be an open minded accepting person?#listen to the people you dont like#hear their stories#offer help#a good person does not only extent a hand to people they like#which... you all watch stranger things i understand why you dont get that message#cuz this is the show of 'the only good guys are the ones who think and act just like us'#so#i see what we're dealing with
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i'm pissed off about a meaningless situation with a stranger and need to think it through:
when i run, i usually run on the sidewalk. if it were very early in the morning, when there's not much traffic, i would consider running in the street, but the streets are pretty cambered, i would need to run right in the middle, and i prefer not getting hit by cars. i also generally can't duck into the street to avoid something on the sidewalk, because there's a wall of parking. on the rare occasions i've suddenly had to sidestep dog shit, etc, i have about a bad track record of slamming into (parked) cars, miss-stepping and injuring myself, etc.
if i encounter people ahead of me who are walking on the sidewalk, we have to share! this is normal! this is part of living in a semi-urban environment! i tend to shout GOOD MORNING! from about 50 feet away (10-15 seconds), and then PASSING!, then ON YOUR LEFT if they haven't responded in any way. i have to be pretty loud in order to be heard from 50+ feet, and because many people wear noise-cancelling earbuds. i am, sadly, not loud enough to be heard over the earbuds. earbuds-wearers tend to be pretty surprised when i go by.
anyway, most people seem to get why i'm not suddenly jumping in the street to go around them. they enjoy not being buzzed unexpectedly by someone moving at 3-4m/s, some of them recognize me at this point and cheer me, it's really funny when it's schoolchildren because they will obediently and without feeling chant GOOD MORNING! so I think I'm correct when i say that 'most people prefer or are neutral that i give them a loud warning that i'm about to pass'.
when i have not done this in the past to people walking dogs, the dogs have a habit of lunging at me, which is dangerous for all parties.
this morning, some person walking their dog got pissed that i said GOOD MORNING! from 50 feet away, and we got into a shouting match about it.
there was no chance of either of us changing the other's mind on the spot! i'm pissed off! why did i bother with this person! i'm still angry about two hours later! i don't want to be a hothead like this!
for the sake of harm reduction, i think i need to practice 'you're wrong! have a slightly worse morning!'; at least that would be over faster. i could get someone to come with me to the track so i could practice shouting it at them.
#burns me up that this person who is SO OBVIOUSLY WRONG has probably come away from the situation thinking that i am SO OBVIOUSLY WRONG#i will grow emotionally. eventually. sometimes people will be wrong and i must accept that.#perhaps i'm the one who is wrong... but tbh i'm not really open to that right now.#i mean. i shouldn't have gotten into a shouting match with them. i was wrong there.#but i'm going to keep telling people i'm coming up behind them! that's a matter of safety!#fake jock bullshit
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