#only to have it completely disappear

[new-haven-psych-ward]

Kamen Rider Geats episode 38 poorly summarized via memes with as little context as possible:

[foxyfexyll]

omori tslb au comic

started this a while ago when i came up with shattered and scattered au (post omori bad ending where headspce bleeds into faraway and they have to figure out what's going on) remembered and decided to finish it today of all days. now i'm calling it "the shattered light bulb"

i am in no way a fic or comic writer so i doubt i'll ever make this into a full on series but i might post a couple more drabbles/ short out of context comics if i get to it. very welcome to any thoughts or questions ppl have

[teallicht]

I tried to make cookies for the birthday boy...

[zerosocialskillz]

Y’know all of this made me think of a version of Inanimate Insanity but it’s actually a killing game like Danganronpa instead of a reality show

Like if MePhone4 watched Danganronpa and tried to host one himself and shit. Complete with pretending to be a despair-loving freak and all of that jazz

[jalboyhenthusiast]

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[rudnitskaia]

yay a week until my 29th bday ✨🔥😎🔥✨

[shirogane-oushirou]

no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

[tunapesto]

you guys ever go thru a stage in art where it feels like everything u draw is solely for socmed and that ur interest in something is not genuine and ur just overall burnt out in art and draw like once a month. lol lmao xd

[studentbyday]

week 4 / small commitments challenge

I read a tumblr post talking about how our experiences in young adulthood are so varied that while we aren't alone in those experiences, we are actually so alone...Maybe that's why I sometimes find myself thinking of the future more than the present because surely by that stage, I won't be so alone in that sense anymore. I felt that way in high school about university and I feel that way now in undergrad about whatever lies ahead. But what if I just took time to enjoy what there is to enjoy in my current category of experience? Stopped thinking happiness and belonging of that type lies never now but at some future destination? Perhaps I will stop feeling so behind in life because I've stopped thinking there is only one right path to follow to live a life that is satisfying to me. Perhaps I will feel less alone.

🪴 tomato garden (50/10): M: no timer today bc it's annoying to keep pausing and unpausing whenever smth happens irl that doesn't neatly fit the timer T: better to get as much sh*t done as i can than to have the pressure of a timer (never enough time 😭) burning a hole in the back of my mind 😪 W: 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅+(1/2 🍅) (felt better today, hence the "tomato planting") Th: 🍅🍅🍅+(1/2 🍅) F: 🍅🍅🍅🍅 I also studied on Saturday (😭) and tried and failed to on Sunday (couldn't bring myself to focus...felt so drained 😪😭) but saw no point in tracking my time. I get things done when I get them done regardless. Sometimes a timer is just discouraging.

😎 side quests: 🐸 yoga: 🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️ (fell off the bandwagon with this, but oh well) 📝 journalling: 🖋️🖋️🖋️🖋️🖋️🖋️🖋️(this REALLY saves my gears from spinning too much late into the night when i'm anxious. also serves as my main and important form of catharsis during the struggle towards semester's end ❤️‍🩹 i can't wait to feel alive again)

[biracy]

Are we honestly really truly doing "stupid anarkiddies think they can literally make INSULIN in BATHTUBS!" discourse again. I love you all but so many of you are pulling strawmen of anarchists out of your asses that have never even come close to existing in real life

[wanderingmausoleum]

mostly-finished the dlc last night which really made me realize how many npc quests i fucked up or locked myself out of despite trying to be really careful to avoid that lmfao

[freebooter4ever]

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[mvshortcut]

hey. hey uh. just wondering what happened to all the children Curtain barged and brainswept. I'm assuming he didn't have a child services worker politely waiting at the dock for them. uh. where did they go.

[poughkeepsies]

gonna be honest there's actually been so many times when I feel like giving in to my instincts and stomping my foot and crying about how I don't want to do my work and the ghost of christopher diaz appears to me going "I complained once but it didn't work [so I] just kept on swimming" and suddenly I'm like fuck i guess you're right

[catboygirljoker]

I'm really curious: if Xigbar and Lamia had kids (adopted, biological, secret third thing, doesn't matter), how good would they be in parenting?

AWFUL AWFUL BAD AWFUL NO-GO ABSOLUTELY N

okay the full answer is that. lamia did Not have a good childhood (as per my most recent piece of art!), and neither did xigbar. some people respond to that by trying to be better parents than their own parents were. xigbar and lamia respond by going "yeah, we'll never be good parents, so we're not going to inflict that on a new generation lmao"

lamia isnt great at dealing with people in general, so trying to deal with people who are smaller and less experienced and less emotionally mature/aware than the average person is...even more difficult for him. he's decent with teenagers, he has a pretty cute friendly relationship with Yuffie, but kids in general...nope

xigbar has a stronger paternal instinct, kinda baked into being a keyblade master—i think that's what we see with him and roxas and xion in Days, and to some extent with him and dark riku in 3. but like. [gestures at how we see him treat roxas in Days] that's how that instinct manifests. that's what he's like with kids. i think if he were someone's dad that kid would NOT turn out okay. he does eventually take apprentices; that's the closest he gets to being a dad, and even then, not just anyone can be his apprentice.

so neither of them are particularly inclined to be parents in the first place. combine that with having firsthand experience with how shitty childhood can be with subpar parents...yeah, neither of them want kids. there is no fanfiction trope or sudden magical circumstance that wouldn't result in them just handing a Found Toddler or Forced Baby or whatever off to more qualified people

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

finally watching channel zero and i immediately have so many thoughts in the first ten minutes