#one of the 1st grade boys made one of the 1st grade girls cry so now he's encouraging the rezt of them to hit him as much as they want

[boypr1ncesss]

the 1st and 2nd graders have discovered flagellation

[starsluver]

Random Facts About the Slytherin Boys

Part 1

Mattheo Riddle

In the first year, no one believed that he was related to Voldemort. mainly because no one thought he'd have a child

He also fluently speaks Spanish since he was raised by his mother (ngl I believe that Mattheo is either Guatemalan, Mexican, Colombian, or Puerto Rican) cause his father didn't want anything to do with him until he got older

Had a side part phase for most of his first through fourth year because his mom liked it until his fifth year where he learned how to take care of his natural hair and he takes VERY big pride in it, he literally spends all his money and time on it and REFUSES to let anyone touch it.

He got the scar on his eyebrow from trying to give himself a slit eyebrow in his third year because he'd thought he'd look cool but ended up with a scar and his mom yelling at him but tells everyone he got it from a fight

He got the scar on his nose in his sixth year from banging his nose on a sink but tells everyone that he got from a fight with a guy from racenclaw (Theo's the only one that knows the truth)

Secretly a theatre kid

Has the messiest hand writing, literally no one can read it.

Silver Tooth Kid activities !!!!!!

He had perfect grades until 5th year when he started slacking off cause his dad would always pressure him to get good grades

had a THICK Spanish accent and was kind of used to get made fun of for it. He barely speaks it around people which is pretty much why most people completely forget he's Latino

Made friends with Blaise, Enzo, Theo, and Draco in that exact order

Blaise thought Mattheo looked like he was gonna cry when his mom dropped him off at the train station first year. so he and Mattheo played on his Nintendo DS the whole train ride

Enzo soon met Mattheo in their second year after Blaise introduced them.

Afterward, Enzo introduced Theo to Mattheo that same year. They bonded over the fact no one else understood what they were saying and that they had deadbeat dads

"Blaise, what are they saying?"

"Don't know but at least they're getting along!"

His middle name is Andrés

He grew up with two cats and a dog. He had a ginger cat named Garfield who died from obesity because Mattheo wouldn't stop feeding him table scraps. He currently still has a black cat who he named Loki until later on finding out it was a girl because she got pregnant and had kittens, renames her Kali (inspired by Kali Uchis 😛) he currently has a pitbull named Dodger

He met Draco through Blaise again

"why do you talk like that?"

"why does your face look like that?" In a HEAVY Spanish accent

Used to bite people he didn't like

Sassiest 1st year

He was so obsessed with death note in his third year that he'd put the names of people he didn't like in the book hoping they'd just randomly drop dead. (They didn't)

He had a crush on Padma Patil since his FIRST YEAR TO HIS SIXTH YEAR. And even thought of asking her to the yule ball until he realized she was going with Ron. He beat Ron up as soon as he found out and told him to stay away from his girlfriend. (He never even had a conversation with her)

Theodore Nott

He was SUCH a cute 1st year. All the older girls would tell him how cute he was and he thought he was sooooo cool.

Didn't know English until his second or third year and barely anyone understood what he was saying.

Enzo met Theo when he saw Theo alone on the train ride. Enzo showed Theo his Pokemon collection cause neither of them understood each other and Enzo was basically his only friend at the time.

"anch'io ho quella carta!"

"🤨🤨🤨"

Eventually Enzo introduced him to Blaise and Mattheo. Where him and Mattheo bonded the most

"è un tale sollievo che qualcuno mi capisca!"

"¿que es eso güey?"

Theo met Draco long after through Lorenzo again

"why can't anyone here speak proper English?!?"

"il furetto,"

"Ki sa l menm ap pale de?" (I feel like Blaise is Haitian on his mom's side idk why but I'll explain it in the next part!)

"pinche guëro"

He was named after his father and had two middle names. Niccolo and Brando (the real ones know)

He grew up in the country side of Italy and was a VERY energetic child

He started smoking after a random 5th year asked if he wanted a hit in his 1st year

Perfect grades and handwriting

He's secretly friends with Neville and Luna because they secretly sell weed on the side but also the fact that he was also a loner and refuses to let any of his friends bully them.

Had a crush on Ginny and thought of asking her to the yule ball until Mattheo told him she was dating Dean Thomas (he cried himself to sleep)

[bluelocksource]

Nanase Nijirō’s trivia

☆ Weapons: Initiating movement to support teammates & Passing through Gaps.

☆ Character color: Cinderella White.

☆ Birthday: 1st January.

☆ Current age: 15 (1st year high schooler).

☆ Zodiac: Capricorn.

☆ Birthplace: Ibaraki Prefecture.

☆ Family structure: Father, mother, older brother, older sister, himself.

☆ Current height: 178 cm.

☆ Dominant foot: Right foot.

☆ Blood type: B.

☆ Motto: "One Kick, One Soul."

☆ Starts playing football: At age 5.

☆ Team before joining BLUE LOCK: Rei-in bō High School Soccer Club.

零院防 (rei-in bō) lit. means Zero Academy of Defense.

☆ Hobby: Karaoke with friends. "Singing 'Tamashii Revolution' with all my heart is the best!"

☆ Favorite food: "Mom's stamina fried rice."

☆ Food he dislike: Milk. “It smells funny.”

☆ What goes best with rice: "Natto! I’m the type who doesn’t mix it!"

☆ Favorite animal: Ladybug. "My last name is Nanase, so I feel a connection."

In Japan, ladybugs can be commonly referred to as "ナナホシテントウ" (nanahoshi tentō), which means "seven-spotted ladybug". The 'se' part of Nanase's name can be written as 'hoshi', thus the connection.

☆ Favorite season: Spring. "Because insects and animals start moving, I want to move too."

☆ Favorite football player: Shinji Okasaki.

☆ Favorite song: "Rewrite" by ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION.

☆ Favorite manga: Slam Dunk. "The Sannoh match is always exciting!"

☆ Favorite movie: Princess Mononoke. "Yakul is too cute!"

☆ Favorite brand: UMBRO. "They have a cool logo."

☆ Frequently read magazine: World Soccer Digest and Soccer Magazine.

☆ Mushroom shoots vs Bamboo shoots: Mushroom. "I was nicknamed Mushroom because of my short bowl haircut."

☆ What makes him happy: Encouragement.

☆ What makes him upset: Criticism without explanation.

☆ What he thinks his strength is: His love for soccer.

☆ What he thinks his weakness is:  "I lose sight of my surroundings when I get too passionate."

☆ What made him cry recently: “When I was being seen off before heading to Blue Lock. I cried alone afterward.”

☆ Favorite/best subject: P.E. & Home Economics "I'm good at soldering."

☆ Weak/least favorite subject: Japanese, Math, Science, Social Studies "My grades are all 2s or 1s."

☆ Ideal type: Someone who can lead him.

☆ Number of chocolates received from previous Valentine: 1. "I have a childhood friend who always gives me chocolate, but it's just a courtesy chocolate, so it doesn't really count."

☆ At what age he experiences first love: 5 years old. "It was my kindergarten teacher."

☆ The first time he got confessed to: “In 2nd year of middle school, a girl I was close to confessed to me, but I was so surprised that I turned her down. Is there no such thing as friendship between boys and girls?”

☆ Fixation: Eyes. "I feel like I can tell what kind of person someone is by looking into their eyes."

☆ Average sleeping time: 8 hours.

☆ How he spend his holiday: “Soccer! Soccer! Soccer!!”

☆ When taking a bath, which part he washes first: His forehead.

☆ What he usually buy from the convenience store: Anpan "If I get a little hungry, this is the go-to."

☆ What will he do if he received 100 million yen: "I wouldn’t know, so I’d give it to my family."

☆ At what age he stops receiving presents from Santa: At 9 years old. "After I found out my dad was Santa, I said I didn’t want them anymore because it costs money."

☆ What was his last wish from Santa: UMBRO training gear.

☆ What will he do during his last day on Earth: Play soccer.

☆ Favorite historical figure: Toyotomi Hideyoshi. "He rose from being a farmer to ruling the country! I’ll warm the sandals too!"

Toyotomi Hideyoshi was Oda Nobunaga's sandal-bearer.

☆ If he hadn’t encountered soccer, what will he be doing: “American football. It’s so cool! It’s a clash of souls!”

☆ If he could only take one thing to a deserted island, what would it be: Shoes. "I think being barefoot would be the most inconvenient initially."

☆ If he had a time machine, would he go to the past or the future: The future! “I wonder what soccer will be like in the future. Are they playing matches with flying cleats? It sounds exciting!”

note: i want to apologize in advance for any mistake made in the translation!

source: Egoist Bible 2.

[daisychains111]

incorrect chb camper quotes but it's actually just my sister's quotebook from Twitter

Disclaimer: This post is gonna be LONG AF

Percy: "Ahh, die quieter"

Clarisse to Silena: "Do I look majestic?"

Will: "I live in America. Cultures?... casserole"

Nico: "At-home lobotomy"

Baby Nico to Clarisse: "You look like Harry Potter, You just need a scar black hair, different clothes, and to be a boy. "

Annabeth:"I don't know if I have enough sanity for 2 Holy books"

Leo: "I've seen titties before....not really in person, but yk"

Annabeth: "Do you have ears?"

Jason: "I kinda wanna work at Taco Bell"

Piper: "I've never been passive-aggressive in my life"

Will to Apollo: "There's no batteries in my butt Dad I'm not a robot"

Clarisse: "I'm not upset I don't hold grudges"

Ares to Clarisse: "I don't like your clothes it forces me to look at you"

Frank to Leo: "It's not 'drip' it's stupid"

Travis to the whole Hermes Cabin: "I'm the Rizzington bear... like Paddington bear but Rizz" (after his 1st date with Katie)

Nico: "I love Olive Garden, I wish Italians were real"

Rachel: "Come on, you guys stop trying to cockblock the view"

Katie: "If people can smoke weed in the middle of the day, then I can drink chamomile tea"

Rachel: "You don't want to piss me off I'm witewally a werewolf"

Piper about Jason: "All my friends are boys, and one just died... he would have made a great bridesmaid"

Frank: "I was doing a silly but the funny didn’t land"

Jason: "Why am I white"

Rachel: "I am not a whore, I am a celibate queen!"

Drew: "It's not the fashion statement that you think it is"

Nico about the Ares Cabin: "They're gonna call you a slur, but they're gonna be really nice about it"

Piper to Annabeth: "If we both think it, it's not bitchy"

Grover: "I'm just gonna write a paragraph or two about global warming"

Annabeth"I have like a 7th-grade reading level!!! (this is impressive when you're dyslexic)

Jason: "Dude I love yoga"

Will: "They say that Utah is the promise land"

Kayla: *explains what a text-fic is to grandparents (Apollo)*

Clarisse: "Put that on your Twitter!" *points knife at me*

Travis: "Do you eat?"

Katie: "...um yes?"

Travis: "Oh, I mean do you want to eat." (when he asked Katie out the first time)

Hazel: "That's not gonna change my heart. That's just gonna make me cry!"

Alabaster: "I wanna find someone somewhere to impregnate and then steal the baby......Where's your Twitter, that was kinda funny"

Percy about Leo: "I would spoon that man so hard"

Frank: "The closer I get to nature, the closer I get to being a werewolf"

Apollo: "I feel like Jaba the Hut"

Rachel: "It's because you ate girl dinner"

Apollo (same convo^)"I fell asleep, and I woke up, and I ate a girl dinner, and I didn't feel that good"

Percy: Don't mind me just cleaning the ocean" *hand angrily on hip*

Will to the Stolls: "Although my bellybutton was once my mouth I don't want soda in it!!"

Connor: "Look at how majestic I am"

Clarisse: *gasps* *throws uno cards* "This is communism at its finest, and I hate your life." *Is losing* "All I'm doing is humoring you now. There is no reason for me to play anymore." *throws cards* *again*

Nico: *passes out*

Will: "We need to take you to the doctor like right now."

Nico: "No fireworks are more important than my health"

Leo about Percy: "That's a pretty boy right there... if we were in prison, it's over."

Kayla when Will came out to her: "Slay motherfucker"

Annabeth: "I hope to not run over any old ladies...old men are fair game tho."

Percy: "Main characters get bullied, Jesus....yep!"

Leo: "What if I was an astronaut!!!!"

Travis: "Banana, Banana, Meatball"

Clarisse: "I am going to break your toe shut the hell up"

Katie to Connor: "I hope you get bullied in high school."

Clarisse about Leo: "This guy's a fuckin goober"

Clarisse: "What did you do to your sweatshirt? Did you get hungry?"-Grover: *sighs*

Nyssa (Hephaestus kid) to Leo: "Dont hurt me. I'm Batman!.... You better not tweet that"

Kayla to Apollo: "It's called multi-tasking Apollo! "

Apollo: "It's mother to you"

Clarisse: "I could fight God and win"

Percy: "So you wanna fight rn"

Clarisse: "No, I'm good"

Jason; "You look gang"

Leo: "What? I look gay!?!?!"

Jason: "You look straight, but nice"

Leo: "Oh... thanks!"

Apollo to Rachel"Lie, deny, cry, and for good measure be a raging slut."

Silena: "There's all kinds of nature out here"

Katie: "Live, laugh, love, low iron"

Annabeth to Piper: "Keep backing up...Cuz you have a fear of commitment

Lou Ellen to Katie: "Does your knee affect your shoe size... or are your feet just that small??"

Travis: "The amount of testosterone in me, peanuts are allergic to me!"

Leo: "I'm cracked up on feeling sexy"

Connor to the whole Hermes Cabin: "The "10" of us? our parents sp*rm pets"

Apollo about Athena: "OH gods, a single mom"

Apollo about Kayla's dad: "I cheated on myself with a man"

Malcolm about Athena: "She's a mom boogie woogie woogie"

Nico: "I cried at Chick-fil-A the other day"

Nico: "Live, laugh, lobotomy."

Drew about Thalia: "She has no friends and a dead brother."

Katie: "I wrote fanfiction on my i-pod touch"

Lacy to Leo: "Was it a tech? or was it a human?"

Will: "Live, laugh, love, tampons"

Kayla: "Die, cry, hate, condoms"

Aphrodite to Clarisse: "Do you like being a girl? You just always wear pants"

Percy: "Chill I know how to make conversations I have Rizz"

Will: "What! no! cow!"

Frank: "Fvcking knock it off seriously you guys are acting like children!!"

Travis to Lou Ellen: "Yesss pussy-pop you slayed"

Ashlyn (Hermes kid): "Chick-fil-A is mid, Taco bell is where it's at"

Percy during tlt: "You couldn't even buy a gumball with that shit (drachmas)"

Percy (same convo ^): "A quarter? You could buy a gumball with that shit"

Nico: "Your soul and your money!"

Tyson: "You've seen fishes, fishes move fast"

Leo to Frank: "What the fvck is a kilometer"

Leo making fun of Frank: "Mua ha ha ha I'm Canadian"

Percy: "Jesus didn't give up his life he gave up his weekend"

*as seen at 2am in the Apollo Cabin*

Gracie: "You're discriminating against me"

April (the token straight): "It's cuz she's gay"

Will: "We're all gay."

Nico: You don't have any slurs about you."

Leo: "No because I'm perfect"

this was fun to make lol....there will probably be a part 2 but like far in the future. if you made it this far I love you....also if you don't recognize names it's bc I deep-dived Wiki to find canon names for each cabin.

If y'all want one-shots based on these TELL ME I NEED STUFF TO WRITE ABOUT

[the-phantom-author]

Hasan Piker | Girl Dad Headcanons

@starsyoubreaklikesugardust I didn't tell you about these, but surprise. Enjoy. It took forever to get a read more thing up, God.

Hasan is the ultimate boy dad, however, he is above all, a family man. ANd this family man would absolutely want at least two kids. Your oldest would be getting ready to go into kindergarten or 1st grade and one night he’d turn to you and be like “What do you think about having another one?” or something.

It’s something he’s been thinking about for a while without telling you, you can tell his tone and his wording. Honestly, he has a full speech written out in order to try and convince you. He also does not care if it’s adopted or not, he just wants another little baby.

The entire time you're pregnant he’s going on about how it’s going to be a boy, “Love, look at my family, it's so male dominated” he just wants a little army to follow him around like his oldest does.

That being said, when Hasan finds out it’s a girl he bawls. It does not matter where he is when he finds out, the ultrasound room, the car, his house, he is in tears. It starts the second you look somewhere else, even if its only for a second to hear what the tech said, the next time you look at him he’s just crying and murmuring to himself “I’m gonna have a daughter” with a little smile on his face. Good luck trying to convince him not to tell people that by the way.

So I imagine his son being like a normal weight, if not a little heavier. His daughter on the other hand, she’s a bit underweight. Like it’s nothing concerning, she’s just tiny tiny. He’s in awe, because his boy was small but his daughter could fit into the palm of his hand.

He would be so confident during the newborn stage, I mean he rocked it the first time y'know? But then it hits him that he has a daughter and he gets worried. Not that he'd be a bad parent but, he just doesn't know what to do with his little girl at first. I mean he has a brother, and a son, not to mention he's a guy as well. Raising a girl is foreign to him.

Which is why he has you take lead on a lot of raising her at first, just so he can get an idea of what to do. He gets the hang of it eventually.

He is the worst when it comes to her getting bigger. Every time that you have to get her new clothes and get rid of the old ones that don’t fit it does his head in. “She can’t be this big, have you seen her? She is so small, absolutely tiny, those new clothes will drown her. “ “When she wakes up we can have her try on these, because i honestly don’t think they fit, it they do i owe you” the minute she’s in the new clothes he’s holding her in the air and staring at her while asking “When’d you get so big, stop it, stay small please.” She smiles and babbles at him and he’s just like “That was a deal, she just made a verbal contract with me, she’s staying this size forever. He would then proceed to hog her for the rest of the day. This happens everytime she grows enough to need new clothes.

Absolutely mentions it to her when she’s a teen, and they have a little argument. It’s how he starts off most apologies with her, “You know we had a deal when you were a baby, you were supposed to stay small enough for me to carry everywhere and only really able to babble at me or your mother.” just something to test the waters a bit, and let him figure out if she’s still mad or not.

When her hair starts growing out, she falls in love with the idea of her father and her having the same hairdos, So not only does she convince him to grow it out, but its also not uncommon to see them both rocking a ponytail with a braid on the side. He’s just the biggest pushover when it comes to her. She'll get a bow in her hair and bring one out for Hasan to wear and he caves without hesitation.

Also big man in tiny plastic chairs having a tea party. Like he'd go all out to, he'd wear a dress, have make up on, hold his pinky out. The whole nine yards but he wants it done right, she has to have a theme, he also makes it his mission to take her out with him and help him find htings to wear to these tea parties. She is also doing his hair, no one even has a say in that, he does however get you to do his makeup. It was something your daughter did but that was reconsidered when she ruined all of your good stuff.

I also imagine her being the shy and quiet type, no matter where you go she is clinging on to one of her parents. Like her other loved being around people, even as a baby he was always smiling and giggling when other people held him, she is almost the opposite. If Hasan is still streaming after she is born, she’s almost never on camera, especially if people who aren't her family are in the house. When she is on camera she is like curling into her father and he’s not allowed to leave the room without her.

She'd be the type to always want to be around him. He doesn't even have to be paying attention to her, she just wants him in her eyesight. Sometimes she'd demand he plays with her, like she'd drag him by the hand to where she wants him to go and play with dolls or read or whatever. Other times she just wants him to be on the floor with her while she's playing by herself. When in these moods and he sees that she looking at him he always waves and says “hi”.

Daddy daughter date nights, he's worried about how he’s dressed and if it's a place to go, asking you if he looks good or not, dressing all fancy, only to take her to get some nice tacos.. Sometimes to watch a movie, or whatever really, he does it to make sure she knows how a man should treat her. One of his favorites is going to a library and just reading to her for a few hours.

Who would i be if i didn't mention Jewelry when talking about Hasan. He does not let her touch his ring, they are much too big and would fall off her finger far too easily. He only lets you put them on chains to wear as necklaces, Won't even entertain anyone else doing it, even if that person is his daughter. Instead she has free reign of his necklaces, and would even go out and buy her matching ones. When she gets older she starts to think it’s a bit cringe but once she moves out and starts to see y’all ever so often she notices he’s still wearing them. She also starts to wear them, the day she buys him a necklace like one she has he starts bawling.

The bracelets that you, Hasan, and your son have that match? She gets one as well. Your son has a lil’bear bracelet and obviously he keeps it and the title of lil’ which means she gets called baby bear.

He’d start to get really into making those family Christmas cards. I;ve said it on multiple occasions, and I'll say it again, he’s a show-off, and he wants everyone to know that he has the perfect family.

He’s always the one she goes to ask to paint her nails, and he takes great pride in that. Later when she’s older and starts to get them done professionally she sees that it makes him a bit sad and decides to ask if she can paint his. It becomes a permanent thing as she becomes a teen and if she goes to a college nearby, she paints his nails while they shit talk the people in her class/people that she works with.

Family piles. There is no way that Hasan doesn't have the biggest size bed you can get, which means plenty of space for the family. Like lil baby girl would wake up in the middle of the night and wouldn’t fall asleep in the nursery, so she gets taken back to your and Hasan’s room where she is out like a light. Then a bit later in the night your son comes in after having a nightmare and wants to be close to his parents, and of course Kaya comes joins because her people are all in one room, what could be better. In the morning it’s all a mess of people and limbs and a dog but who would he be to want anything different.

[storkmuffin]

As always just love reading your analysis and your thoughts. You've given me so much food for thought and just great discussion in general not only about Ateez but about the grander machine of the entertainment business, through the lens of kpop.

One thing I often wondered about is how much anyone gives up when becoming an entertainer but especially when aiming to be a celeb or idol from such a young age.

I've been getting into p1h recently (this relates I promise) and there was an interview where one of the boys was asked what comment/compliment does one of the boys remember/keep close from fans and the one he cherished the most was,

"Thank you for giving your youth to us",

Which to me, a very sentimental human being, would just cry into a puddle of tears. Obviously child stars and young stardom is everywhere in the world but the perception of training to be an idol is you're giving a lot up for potentially very little. Even if you are relatively informed of what being a celeb can bring, the good and the bad, it can still be very overwhelming if you do exceed expectations and be potentially crushing if you don't. There's a mini documentary about someone who was actively in training and was a part fo BTS and was cut before they were even debuted and you can see so clearly what he feels he lost but even in the case of Chappel Roan, sudden and intense stardom can be so jarring.

I don't necessarily even know where I'm fully going with this line of but even in the general public we often give up a lot of our youth for a future we hope for, I think it's more normal than it should be. Obviously Ateez enjoy their jobs and I think for the most part many idols genuinely enjoy their jobs, so I hope this isn't too gloomy, I guess I'm just very appreciative of the sacrifice in general. I'm also a very emotional person so I tend to be sentimental about very strange things 🤣.

Oh man. I - Hmmm. I feel reluctant to do this, so maybe I shouldn't but uhhhhhhh my view on that sort of comment by that fan of that group, and that sort of backstory about The Suffering of Idol Trainees in general, is that they are extremely insidious and clever parasocial marketing strategies. I am not judging your feelings or the act of finding multiple layers in ways to love the artists that you love. I too find personal connections to members of Ateez a lot (especially San and Hwa because of where they are from) based on glimpses and snippets and crafted presentations. So I'm in the same boat as you. But I do have to say some things.

Please please don't read on if you don't want the feeling of sympathy and connection that I think gives you joy punctured.

Because I might puncture it.

Seriously, don't read, but I do need to say what I'm going to say.

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[warning siren one last time]

SM Entertainment's founder, Sooman Lee, is a graduate of Seoul National University, and he invented the concept of 'Idol' and the "idol training system,' and made the act of publicizing the Idol Training System part of promotion of Idols. He did all this to make it respectable, or at least, more respectable than it had been, to enter the entertainment field, especially to become a Sing-and-Dance-popular-easy-listening music specialist (as opposed to say, the world of ballet, Martha-Graham kinds of high-art modern dance, opera, concert pianist/violinist etc, which were all already respectable).

The idea that Idols, who look glamorous and are exciting to contemplate went through a rigorous training system that caused them hardship was a major breakthrough in fomenting parasocial obsession by the core initial audience for Kpop, which is Korean teenage girls who are all in a death match with everyone else in their birth year to get into university from when they're in literally 1st grade. It was a way to make being into Idols something the parents of such children could accept - the Idols didn't say, Break free of society and adult authority that drives you to be a part of a capitalist machine! It said, I'm exactly the same as you, and we all have to work super hard, and I know your suffering because I'm going through the exact same thing as you, just in another part of the machine! It's a very specifically Korean and academically obsessed way of saying, The Stars, they're just like us!

It sweeps the immense wealth and social power that someone who is a successful (or even halfway successful) Idol can acquire under the rug. Compare contrast to say, the prima ballerina of the Korean National Ballet. SHE had to train just as hard from when she was literally 5. She can't eat, she can't live normal life, she has to uphold the image of an ethereal ballerina all the time, but she doesn't make, and will never make, the money that a Suzy or a Hyori will.

This form of storytelling makes the ordinary person forget what exactly they're talking to. The ordinary person has to work just as hard in Korea as any Idol for much less lifetime remuneration - suffering long hours, little pay, little opportunity for advancement, and increasingly, a depressingly low possibility of simply launching into what many people think is 'real' adulthood (such as never getting to own your own home no matter how much you scrimp and save). For people in the ordinary economic situation to thank Idols, who get to pursue art, be adored, potentially make millions, for 'giving up' their youth when in fact, being allowed into the echelons of being able to pursue an Idol career is a glorification of someone's youth is some heavy duty parasocial twisty turny stuff.

I am not sorry for Idols, no matter what, qua their being Idols. I am sorry for exploited young people in the workplace. I am sorry for people who get sexually harassed and assaulted at work, etc. But if you tell me someone is an Idol, I see them as essentially someone who is pursuing self glorification through art, first and foremost, and my sympathy is reserved for literally anyone else. If you've ever sat through a Korean 공채 process, an open job interview, where they seat four candidates in a row in front of a panel of older office workers and make you compete in real time with who comes up with the 'best' answer in response to a question for a job that pays $20K a year, I think you'd agree no sympathy for Idols or Trainees is actually warranted.

Godamn it, I feel like such a bitch.

Again, if you did read this, I really really hope it didn't hurt your feelings or make you feel told off in any way.

[gor3sigil]

“Me, Myself and I”s

When I was a kid, I was reckless. I was playing around, my long hair free as soon as mom turned her back and head first in the bushes. I found a hole in the cypresses around our home where nobody could see me, but light was passing between the branches. I called it my clearing and I would go here everytime I could. I imagined that every little particle floating around me was a fairy, that this place was their home, and that to go here and see the fairies meant that you were special and the fairies deemed you worthy.

When I was a kid, I stay locked in the house because my mother was scared I’d get sick. While she was ironing clothes I sat on the floor and looked at her while listening to the radio. Or I helped her and dusted the floor with a broom. I remember that every wednesday afternoon, the sky was gray. The lights were yellowish in my parents bedroom. The singer in the radio sang a breakup song. And my mother sang along.

When I was a kid, I was lively. In family gatherings, I loved to chat with every adult, hopping on knees after knees to tell stories that popped in my mind like fireworks. I could make out the craziest back stories about any piece of jewelry, every rock, every tree, always something to do with magic and heroes in ancient caves plotting an attack against some evil forces. A red or orange ring was the Ring of Fire, an odd shaped rock was an artifact belonging to a civilisation that didn’t exist anymore, a pretty flower was to be infused in hot water to cure illnesses. And I drew these sacred objects in action, giving away pieces of my imagination to amused people or making amulets for them to wear and have good luck.

When I was a kid, I was jaded. That’s what one teacher said to my mom when I was in 1st grade. That’s what another wrote in my report card in 2nd grade. During recess, I went to sit alone against the school gates and watched as my imaginary friends were playing outside, calling me, asking me why I couldn’t go with them. I was distracted and easily startled. But I was often praised for how calm I was. How you couldn’t hear me. If you put me in a place without toys and with only grown ups around, I’d go in a corner, sit and hum to myself until it was time to go. The only issue was getting me to break from my daydreams.

When I was a kid, I was blunt. I spoke my mind, sometimes a bit too much. That was how I made friends. I’d go see a little girl crying and told her how pretty she was, then we’d be playing together like nothing happened. I could spot someone who needed help just looking around in the room and go ask if I could give them a hand. I was generous and loved to make little gifts for the people I loved, for kids who needed comfort, for parents who let me stay at their house to play with a friend. Everyone was welcomed in my heart.

When I was a kid, I was gloomy. I was often busy, alone, in a corner of the playground, talking to myself, rocking back and forth, shaking my head when one of my invisible mate would say something stupid. I laughed out loud to nobody, and when asked what made me laugh, I’d lock myself back in my mind without answering. I let people walk over me. I got my favourite toys stollen. A boy I didn’t like would sometimes take me by the hand to a hidden corner and kiss me on the mouth, even forced his tongue in it a couple times. My mother called me a disgusting bitch.

When I was a kid, I was an orphanage. When I try to remember it’s like my brain is split in two. Which kid was I ? The bubbly one, the empty one, the angry one ? Was it me who shout at my brothers and sisters ? Was it I who laughed while watching cartoon ? Did I cry myself to sleep ? Was I the one who comforted me ?

Why is my mother so warm and feels so safe in one memory but if a child-me draws the scene she has red glowing eyes and sharp fangs like she’s going to eat me ? Why is my father ugly and scary and screaming in my mind while another child-me cries for him to take me in his arms and never let go ?

Grown up me doesn’t know how to tell a story, because there’s a thousand I shouting to tell their sides everytime “I” try to. And I’d give anything for my brain to be a pile of books I could read, sorted by authors: me, myself, and Is.

[thomatri]

Y’all uh I had a submission but I accidentally deleted it I want to cry but uh enjoy they sent me a Haikyuu randomizer pintress pin so if that’s You pls comment,dm, or send me an anonymous message because thank you sm❤️

Synopsis- Haikyuu random life

Paring - Tsukishima,Ushijima,Ennoshita

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1st life

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“God I’m so nervous for tomorrow” I say laying down on my bed FaceTime with Watari

“Why are you nervous your not even playing?” Watari asks laughing

“Oh hush I’m still nervous this is like the first practice match and I gotta do my manager duties to T or they’ll kick me off the team!” I say and he laughs again making me glare

“If you came to Aoba Johsai you wouldn’t have these problems” he says shrugging with a smirk

“Haha very funny” I say rolling my eyes

Watari been my friends since 5th grade ever since I saved him from some bullies and we’ve been attached ever since that was until for my first year or high school my friends got the bright idea to move.

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“You ready ?” Tsumu asks ruffling my hair

“Yeah…no” I say

“You’ll be Fine your an amazing manager does do what you usually do and you’ll do great” Samu says and I give him a big hug

I don’t have a favorite brother but if I did it’d be Osamu

“Hey! Where’s my hug?” Tsumu says smirking and I roll my eyes playfully giving him his hug as I depart from the subway

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“Alright Karasuno on there way is everyone okay?” I ask and I see nods and hear agrees

“Nah I think I broke my arm” Lev says smirking

“Lev I’m gonna actually break your arm shut up” I say glaring, he knows how nervous I am

“Don’t worry your pretty head Y/n everything gonna go fine”Kuroo says smiling at me and I smile back

“Thanks Cap” I say and Karasuno walks in

My eyes dart to them and my heart feels like it’s beating 10x faster not because the practice match is about to start but because of a certain blonde haired boy

“Woah” I say and Kuroo laughs

“Oogling at the other team?” Kuroo asks and I walk away embarrassed

“No” I grumble

They say there thank you,s shake hands and start

“Hi im Kiyoko” a Beautiful Girl with raven colored hair says smiling at me

“I’m y/n!” I say smiling back

“What year are You?” Kiyoko asks

“First” I say and she nods

“I’m a third year”

“Woah”

She laughs and it’s beautiful what about her isn’t pretty

I hear celebrating from Karasuno

I think the blonde guy made a good block

“That’s Tsukishima “ she says and I’m shocked

“Are you a mind reader?!” I ask and she laughs again

“I wish nope I just noticed you glancing at him” she says smirking

“Nope!”

“Sure Sure”

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They have a like a million sets but I have to admit I’m seeing them go

Yamamoto and the bald guy from Karasuno say something about protecting pretty managers or something like that

I feel Kiyoko grab my hand and pull me towards Tsukishima away from everyone

Shit

“Tsukishima this is y/n Nekoma manager” Kiyoko says smiling and he nods

“Hey Y/n would you like to exchange numbers” he asks with a stoic expression and I nod

Holy crap!

I walk back over to my team to see Kuroo and Yaku smirking which makes my happiness melt away

“They grow up so fast” Kuroo says fake sniffing

“Oh shut up” I say rolling my eyes with a smile

“We’re proud of you Y/n” Yaku says giving me a hug gosh I love him he’s so amazing

“Thanks Yaku senpai” I say with a smile

“Is Alisa picking us up?” Lev asks and I nod

Me and Lev are classmates. One time I was talking to Lev after school and Alisa his pretty older sister spotted us and offered to drop me off. I declined of course but when I explained I rode the subway she wouldn’t take no as a answer explaining girls my age shouldn’t ride the subway alone and she had a point prior I had rode the subway with my older brothers

It definitely helped strengthen me and Lev friendship and he’s probably my best friend but I’d never tell him

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2nd life (won’t let me add text after a image 🥲)

Classmate - Sasuka

Mentor - Oikawa

Lover - Ushijima

Best friend - Ennoshita

Childhood friend - Hinata

Rival - Aone

Siblings - the Yamamotos

School - Itachiyama

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After ease dropping of Oikawa little argument with Ushijima I rush out from my hiding spot

“Ushijima!” I yell

He looks behind him eyes soften

“Your not Even gonna say hi” I say fake sniffling

He walks up to me and gives me a hug

“I apologize” he says with a soft smile and I return it

“Eww get a room” Oikawa says fake gagging

“Way to ruin the mood Oikawa senpai” I say rolling my eyes reluctantly letting go of Ushijima

I give him a kiss on my tip toes making him stunned of a second

“Don’t wanna keep up your team see ya Ushijima” I say waving

“Wakatoshi” he says and I giggle

“Sorry, Wakatoshi” I say and he has a ghost of a smile and walks away

“I can’t believe your dating the enemy” Oikawa says

“Correction your enemy” I say

“I’m positive it’s a one sided beef anyway” I say shrugging and he gasps dramatically

It hurt to see my Oikawa team loose but I can’t lie I was rooting for Karasuno I mean all my friends go there and I got to see Aone loose this has been a good week. I don’t hate Aone or anything we just have a little middle blocker rivalry. I play middle blocker for It Itachiyama and he plays middle blocker for Dateko. We accidentally met after I went against there girls team and we stayed and saw there match. I challenged him to be my rival which he nervously agreed to

I met Ushijima in my first year after Itachiyama beat them at nationals. I fell in love at first sight and after hanging out and a few dates we started dating.

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Monday

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“Oh my god and he was sooo hot you don’t understand Suckusa”I say smiling laying my head on my desk

“I really don’t” he says disgusted. I can tell even without his mask

“Your a hater” I say rolling my eyes and he shrugs

“I don’t even know what you see in him, he’s such a dead inside guy” he says

I give him a look

“That’s the most hypocritical shit I’ve ever heard” I say laughing and he glares

“Whatever”

“Oh and you need to retouch your roots your starting to look like Atsumu” he says

“You ass hole!”

I grumble

“Whatever I’ll ask Yamamoto to touch up my roots when I get home” I say rolling my eyes

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In orchestra we had a sub no nobody ain’t playing shit

“Who you texting” Komori asks. He’s Sakuka cousin

“Wait let me guess Sakusa,Hinata, Yamamoto,Ennoshita, or Hinata” he lists with a smile

I deadpan

“Is that seriously all who I text” I say looking at my phone like it’s gonna comfort me

“I mean…” he says with a smile looking away

I glare playfully

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3rd life

Lover - Ennoshita

Mentor - Aone

Classmate- Fukatachi

Rival - Ukai

Sibling - Sugawara

Best friend- Iwazume and Oikawa

Childhood friend - Asahi

Team - Dateko

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Ding

“Hey Mr.Ukai”

“Hey coach”

“Ugh why are you here” Ukai says groaning

“That’s not nice Mr.Ukai” I say fake pouting

“Suga is your player” I say hand on my hip with a smirk and Suga glares at me

“He’s obviously talking about your annoying ass” Suga says smirking at me and

“HAH?!”

I cough trying to gain composure and not cuss Suga tf out

“Anyways Mr.Ukai when is yall Next Match” I ask looking at the candy in his store

“Why dont You ask your brother who,I don’t know goes to Karasuno”Ukai says glaring at me

“Well your the coach shouldn’t you know these things” I say glaring back

“How about instead of bothering us at practice matches you just ask that boy out so you can get out of hair” Ukai says laughing

“SHUT UP I DONT LIKE HIM” I say and Suga laughs too

“Fuck you” I say glaring at Suga

“And for the record I don’t just come to matches for Ennoshita he doesn’t even play no offense to him I go because of my amazing baby brother” I say smirking at Suga who gives me a disgusted look

“We’re twins how the hell am I your baby brother?” He asks rolling his eyes grabbing him and I some candy

“Well I popped out first so I’m older” I say smirking

“Mom only told you that to make you feel better” Suga says laughing

“SHE DID NOT”

“STOP ARGUING IN MY STORE”

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“Look you got us kicked out…again” Suga says sighing

“I did not! It was your fault” I grumble

“n/n?!” I hear an annoying voice call

“Why are You stalking me Oikawa?” I ask smirking

Oikawa gasps

“Hey Sugawara, hey n/n” Iwaizume says with a smile

I walk up to him and give him a big hug

“Wowwww how come he gets a hug and I don’t” Oikawa says with a pout

“Sorry I dont hug stalkers” I say and he gasps again but even louder

“What are You two Doing out here?” Suga asks

“Well Iwa Chan and I wanted to sit back and relax and enjoy our evening when all of a sudden I hear this agitating,grating voice” Oikawa says and Suga bust out laughing

“Oh shut up Shittykawa” Iwaizume says and I laugh

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The other two btw

[songs-about-girls-like-me]

chapter 18: "that's your hand" (gaslighting your ex-crush)

So this is a story about how I realised at age 10 that I could take a situation and not only react to it, but to plan out a reaction to try to steer things to whatever place I prefered. 5th grade was definitely the year where I figured out my emotional reaction could be used, and therefore, faked in my advantage loll. Which is crazy! The year I learnt how to fake cry, fake sneeze, fake laugh and truthfully scream at someone. Years later I realised that was manipulation ig. But also, most of these Times I was not playing a fair game and this was my resource lol "where does being cautious become too much strategy? When does defending yourself become manipulation?"

The scene is this: I'm walking to the other side of the classroom cause Mick asked me to, and I see Brody standing there, talking to some of the frienemies (Rick, Mick, Max and Percy). They are sitting in their school desks talking to Brody, but he's looking at me as I make my way there. I casually roll my eyes at him, knowing he has asked Mick to go fetch me for him. Which I find dumb and annoying.

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When Brody and I were still friends in 1st grade, there was this nickelodeon show called Wayside School that we both liked. In the show, the cafeteria lady was always talking to a dead rat and it was peak giggles, eyes closed and tummy hurting and all, for both Brody and I. There was an episode where the rat would get stucked inside her ear while she tried to teach math or something. There was also an episode where the two main characters were on a boat, a boy and a girl, and the girl really tried to make them hold hands and it was kinda really romantic to me lol. "Todd, hand me that rope" "That's not a rope, that's your hand". "Todd, hand me my hand" "That's not your hand, that's- your hand". And that also made us fucking laugh so much cause we were 6 and sintaxis errors were so funny.

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At the beggining of this school year, being 10 now, we read a story from Wayside School in class and Brody and I were sat next to each other and happy to see that we both remebered that show from 4 years ago. We even laughed again about the dead rat and all and it felt like we were friends again. Only this Time it felt like camaraderie, not like "He was a boy, and she was a girl" on Avril Lavigne's voice. But we had barely had an actual conversation since, and after the Disco Night when he curved me, we hadn't even crossed stares. Just because we had such different friend groups. So it was weird to be having one-on-one communication, even more cause it was staged. Not to mention: him and Mia had broken up like that same week and suddenly he's asking his friends to go ask me to go talk to him. ???

"What's up?" I asked him, all his friends also looking at me.

"You like me".

My blood went cold.

Why? Fuck. How? Max sniggered, her dark eyes as mocking as always, making me feel like I'd been caught in a crime scene. An ebarrassing one. I had still only talked about him at the sleepover when my want to have some love interest felt okay at 1am. How could him and his friends know I had been making it sound like I liked him? Ugh that was so embarrassing. I was about to kill a bitch. Cause Ella had been trying to tell MJ and Poppy. It had to be Ella. Ugh!! I had a big mouth. Wow. Fuck me. I hated that he could think I was sighing over him, going around talking about him. And I really hated him for doing this to me. I thought we had a peace treaty over this, what a fucking traitor. "1, 2, 3, laugh" I thought to myself. "Laugh, Rees!!!!"

I dragged air in,then pressed my diaphragm and there it was: suddenly I was laughing and some of the smugness on their faces faded. It even surprised me: it was a good laugh, as if this assumption could actually make me humorously giggle.

"What?" I asked with humor. Great, Rees. "Where does that even come from?" I sounded surprised in a chill way as if the idea sounded ridiculous to me. So unaffected. But I was looking around for Ella to confirm my guess, my blood was running fast and angry inside. Fuck Ella. And fuck me! She was actually close by, with Poppy. She was close enough to hear this if she paid attention. And maybe she was cause she was quiet, avoiding my stare. I remembered her "Oh, ReeRee has a crush!!" voice. I felt so dumb and messy, and busted and I was fuming.

"Somebody told me, Rees" It sounded factual, my soul dropped for a second. He sounded like he was ready to put me on blast and I was trying to not blush either in anger or nerves.

"Sure" Sarcasm. I was shaky. This Time I could start to hear the anger in my voice. I couldn't calm down. "Who told you that?"

"Doesn't matter" But I knew if he had a real source, he'd be rubbing it like salt to a wounded pride. So he had to be lying...

I was making startegic choices in the span of a second: Ella wouldn't do that to me. Maybe she had spilled his name to Poppy or MJ, maybe someone just overheard. I still wanted to kill her but Brody had to be bluffing: no good source had outright told him, and therefore he could not be sure of anything and I had to use that unsureness to make him doubt his own guess: just deny deny deny. Even if it meant blatantly lying. Cause maybe I thruthfully did not like him. But yea, I defnitely had been saying I kinda did. It was his word against mine, and why the fuck was he doing this in front of his friends?

"Well, I'm not lying." I shrugged and let out some left over laugh. "Whoever said that, idk, they made it up or something ?" The back of my neck was hot, my heart racing. But I knew they were not expecting this reaction and I was looking chill.

"Rees, I know you do" He wasn't having fun anymore.

"I don't. I don't like you" Maybe they could tell I was embarrassed but I was dead serious too.

"No, I know."

"Well, you know wrong" I forced a snigger and shrugged. I was not letting anyone think I liked him. Not happening.

"No, but-" he paused, stumbling a bit on his words. Great. "Please, I can see it." His friends agreed. He was unsure.

"I don't know what you see, cause I really don't like you." I shrugged and laughed looking comfortable, even with the nerves racing through my heart. I felt like a scrambled mess, but I was getting more pissed at him for trying to make fun of me and so I forced myself to smile. "You're imagining things, Brody." And I realised it was my Time to take the offensive now, and make it sound like he was the one thinking about me. "I'm sorry. I don't have feelings for you" I heard his friends react to that and I let out a laugh, as if him making this scene between us weirded me out. He was flustered, trying to deny it now. His friends were looking back and forth at us and my heartbeat was crazy loud I couldn't believe I was looking at Brody from 1st grade in the eye talking about this.

"I'm not imagining things." He had lost terrain, bad enough to call in his friends. "Right guys?" I could tell he was tense by the change in the wind.

"Yea Rees" Percy was his own type of annoying.

"Just admit it. We all know" said Max with a laugh. "Go on"

"Yea" Brody nodded. "We heard. You like me. It's been going around" Wtf, wtf. I was going to punch Ella. "And you- It's how you act around me"

That last thing had sent me off.

"Well, yea. I liked you when we were 6 but you already knew that." This was CRAZY. I faked my nonchalant laugh, feeling the heat on the back of my neck again. The shock in their eyes was clear and I shrugged like it was chill but I was shaking. This was CRAZY, i was INSANE. All the sirens were ringing inside me, i was really admitting to this and i knew it was making me look so cool and so easy going and grown-up, yet I felt my heartbeat on my throat. What girl confessed? "But that was ages ago" I laughed and moved my hair with a flick of my head as if this was normal to say.

"Yea, you did" It sounded like half a question.

"Yea? And you liked me. I know. You know?" I knew I was being a crazy bitch but I decided I had to. I bet they did know about me liking him in past tense, so confessing as if it was chill was such an unemotional power move. I never thought I could be that type of girl. I wasn't, I was acting. "Wow i might CRAZY". Wow. I could see it in their eyes, and my knees were shaking and my insides were turning. But it was NOT going to be "going around" that I, Rees [LastName], had a crush. That I, Rees, liked Brody. I didn't know how my friends did it, but I just couldn't be a girl with feelings for my classmates like this. It was killing me. I couldn't take people having this upper hand over me.

"I didn't like you."

I looked him in the eye, a quizzical stare. We all knew. I had admitted it, and I found it childish that he didn't.

"Ok"

"No, I don't like you. And I didn't. And you like me now, Rees" but he didn't sound confident, he sounded flustered.

"I don't really care about you now, Brody" A bit harsh but he had gotten himself in this argument with me. "I don't like you."

"No. You ¨*do* like me. I don't like you"

"I don't care if you do or not! We don't like each other!" The conversation was taking a turn again into something else, and it was actually weirding me out now. "I have stuff to do, yea?"

"Yea?" He took a step forward. "If you don't like me, hold my hand" I didn't have Time to hold it. He had already taken mine making me hold my breath. Our palms touching, our fingers not intertwined but together. He was more so holding it up , for me and the rest to see it between us, and it was clamy with sweat, but: Brody and I were holding hands. I was trying to kill my pulse so he couldn't feel it.

"What?" I laughed to distract myself.

"If you don't like me, why are you sweating?"

I knew it was NOT me who was sweating and I giggled a genuine giggle this Time. If the category was sweat, I was free. Never in my life had I had clamy hands, and Brody's palm was covered in sweat.

"Brody, I'm not sweating. You are." His hand was sticky and wet, and I wouldn't have cared but now he had brought it up, it felt gross.

"No, you're sweating Rees." I shook my head, a bit amused.

"I'm not. That's not my hand, that's your hand." I broke the physical contact and we kept arguing for a second, letting him check my palm while he kept denying the obvious humidity on his hand.

"Please" I offered my hand to his friends who were paying attention all this Time, almost looking nervous too. Mick stood up and we both handed out our palms for him to be the judge. I still prayed I was correct. He needed just 1 second.

"Yea, bro. It's not Rees. You're sweating."

For 0.5 seconds, his friends and I seemed to be trying to make sense of it. Brody was sweating. It couldn't be. It better not be. I shook the idea off my mind before even thinking about it.

"Okay, so I don't like you." I was pretty shaken up but smiled. "Can I leave now? MJ and I have stuff to do." I added, making me sound a bit pissed on purpose, to sound as if I was cooler than this stupidity. And I left, and I purposefuly didn't hear whatever they were talking about cause I didn't want to know whether or not the conversation was still about me.

My heart jumped in happiness for the victory. I felt a bit crazy still, a bit cutthroat, and a bit like a liar. I didn't know I could be so strategically unkind, but I was glad I had let them know they could not have a laugh at my expense. I was shocked, but not schocked enough to not remember Ella. Brody scaped my mind, for I was 100% more invested in my friends. I was about to kill her for being so messy about MY stuff. I walked back to my desk, knowing exactly what to do to finish the poster we were doing. I was about to write our "Friendship Rules, Follow them or leave" and I was going to write down "KEEP EACH OTHER'S SECRETS!!!" and ask Ella in front of the rest if she had anything to say about it and let her know what a crazy situation I had had to fix.

"What was it?" asked MJ.

"You know them. Brody was just being an idiot."

MJ and I crafted 10 rules together and I didn't explain anything cause someone could overhear. I put "Keep each others' secrets" at number 6 to be subtle and I only stared at Ella when we went over them together to see her reaction, but I never fully knew if it had been her fault at all. I actually never talked about the incident to none of my friends, cause I figured it was better to let it fade and be sure no one could bring it up again. Romantic stuff was too nuanced for me to try to expain my feelings out loud and I figured it wasn't that important. I'd rather not really talk about it, I was not gonna get played by the boys. I didn't know how my friends did it, but I couldn't bare the feeling of people knowing about me like that. I just couldn't be a girl with feelings for her classmates.

[feuqueerfire]

When I Fly Towards You Live Blogging

Need something cute and fun and happy to wash away the DFF tragedies and decided to watch this after I saw a few Tiktoks on this last night. The Tiktoks made me want to watch + it has a really high rating on MDL. I've never watched a het CDrama before (Stay With Me was the only CDrama I've watched + 2 bromance shorts) and they tend to be really long but this one is around SWM length (24 eps w 35min runtime).

Also, I find the male lead's demeanor/way of carrying himself really attractive lol and the female lead is round-ish face girl with black hair and bangs like ah my weakness

Ep 1 (Mar 13)

Another ill-advised time to start a new show, I have so much homework etc to catch up on.

seems like they don't know each other from the beginning? but she's into him lol

her name: Zaizai

oh, her diary. found by the dude

who is this guy who got mistaken as Zhang Lurang supposed to be? are they all gonna get detention together or smth and meet again?

his name: Zhang Lurang

oh lmfaoo Lurang's friend borrowing his books

so this is a new school and they're in grade 10, so did Zaizai and jiang jia (?) transfer in? It feels like maybe high school starts in grade 10 (searched it up and yes). that's also why many people don't know each other yet ig? though there are apparently at least 9 classes per grade so makes sense to not know e/o anyway

oh, her wallet, not her diary

omg she thinks Lurang's name is Guran

I forgot the dubbing kills me

she's so cute, already daydreaming about her and Guran.

they're going to the military base... the tiktok wouldn't already happen would it? I thought it happened after they started dating already

this show is funny heh

pls okay Enough with the mismatched names cuz when other people get involved I become nervous

Cute so far and funny, I hope the name thing gets cleared up soon

Ep 2 (Mar 13)

they do keep meeting each other

pls Lurang just not correcting Zai when she calls him Guran

Zaizai is literally so bold omg volunteering to sign a song in front of everybody + dedicating it to the boy she likes (even if she doesn't know his real name lol)

pls Lurang smiling while looking at Zai wanting to sing with Guran while knowing she means him... menace but he is endeared

Guran is kinda annoying, I think Jiang deserves somebody a little less annoying

ah not him using the "Run if it's raining. Fool" like that she used on him in their 1st encounter at the beginning of ep 1

lowkey also into Jiang and Zai yuri

not into Guran and Lurang yaoi cuz Guran irritates me

Zai is so cute "You're here alone. Do you need me to protect you?" says the one who's afraid of the dark

okay I could get into Jiang and Guran enemies-to-lovers if Guran stops being annoying

Zaizai is sooo cute also hah Lurang following behind her when he'd realized that Zai was scared lol but his nonchalant act is fun

Oh, is the year already over? They're in grade 10 and 16 years old here, does it follow them for a couple years? I know they apparently get married at the end

Ep 3 (Mar 14)

nvm still grade 10

usually in a hetship i like it when the guy likes her more (and that probably is gonna end up being the case here too lol) but i love how bold and proactive Zai is here! Like following Lurang is one thing but she’s also not shy about the fact that she was trying to fit into his ideal type (ahh his smile when she’s crying into her braids) and last ep when she was saying she’ll protect him and this ep paying for Lurang with her bus card ahh it’s cute idk

and then her speaking up when the man was being creepy and when Lurang asks, her being like yeah I was scared but I knew you’d back me up! and then Lurang being the one who gets shy saying he wouldn’t back her up and her being like but you diddd hehe

Ep 4 (Mar 14)

i remember the edit where Lurang is a bit mean to Zaizai and tells her to be quiet had comments about Lurang's step(?)-mother, so yeah ig she doesn't treat him well and compares him to her younger son

ahh they're gonna tutor each other yess

her tugging on his short sleeve is crazy woah i love hetshipping <3

Okay, yknow what Enough! Stand up Zaizai, how are you down bad enough for a teenage boy that you let him finish your whole food? esp one that's meat, i'd offer the guy and be waffling down the rest. He should buy her something now

okayy she at least got him to agree to treat her to a meal later

and Zaizai got him to smile in front of her + also getting his WeChat so true

loll Lurang literally seeing in slow motion when she shows up in casual non-uniform clothes

oh Lurang calling her Su-laoshi (Teacher Su) killed me omg

I guess the Class 1 girl (Ye Zhenxin) will end up being a problem? The one who made fun of Zaizai for being from a non-key class and now also has to stay behind for basketball?

okay fine the boys can defend the girls from the bullies and show off by beating them in basketball

Ep 5 (Mar 14)

At least the Guran and Jiajia misunderstanding got cleared up

hehe rain and umbrella scene

umbrella scene hehe ofc

nooo is Zhenxin gonna accuse Zaizai of stealing the money? Because she saw her treating people to snacks + saw her leave Class 1?

ahh Lurang coming to her defense

plss Lurang seeing her pretend cry with her friends through the window but thinking Zaizai crying for real

glad it got finished quickly within the episode

Ep 6 (Mar 15)

aouuu Lurang waiting for her

plsss not Guran overhearing Jiang Jia telling his doctor dad about her hair loss but thinking she is deathly ill or smth and confessing every time he's wronged her T.T silly af

does Guran's doctor father kinda ship him and Jiang Jia lol

omg a roundabout way of the "MC has love interest running errands for them" trope

heh here's the scene from the edit of Zaizai getting caught by Lurang cheering for another student by calling him "handsome, jjayo!"

Ep 7 (Mar 15)

Ah, Zaizai realizing Lurang's habit of rubbing his neck when he's shy/lies heh

pls not Zaizai's homeroom teacher Mr. Lin being Lurang's uncle

I don't fully understand why Zaizai was so nervous like it's not like she's nervous about the fact that she was studying alone with a guy in his home because she was fine and eager to see Lurang's uncle. Is it because Zaizai thought that Mr. Lin wondered if the two of them were dating that one time before?

the dancing after the play, are they trying to sell me on Guran and Lurang yaoi?

Ep 8 (Mar 15)

omg poor Jiang Jia with a period stain on her skirt but at least the nice girl told her

prince Lurang... I want to be you but also you're attractive

ah Guran fr has a crush on Jiang Jia fr

and yet helping her by letting Qianyu know that she brought all that food for him ah

I'm way more into Guran and Jiang Jia now than I was in the beginning

The grandma telling Guan Fang (?) that he doesn't have to be the focus and the center to shine :(

Ep 9 (Mar 15)

ahh can Lurang or Zaizai just confess like they know they like each otherrrr just date already and I have no hopes of even getting a kiss bc the wedding kiss from the starting credits seems like an angle kiss

omg?! not Zaizai saying she saw Lurang with the kid and saw them in 10 years, that's a crazy thing to say but if you can say that, why can't you confess properly and start dating T.T

ah 2012, end of the world

alksdfj not Lurang purposely making Zaizai jealous heh

hmm okay but spending most of the time with the girl when he knows Zaizai is sad/insecure is >:(

not Lurang's brain turning off practically when in the room alone with Zaizai and leaving ASAP

glad that ended well

Ep 10 (Mar 15)

ohh Guan Fang seemingly easy-going and bullyable but not actually

pls Enough funny misunderstandings for Guran where he's accidentally seen as the hero, i'm just not somebody who can handle the joke being that somebody sees himself as better than he is

omg D: randomly a touching story amidst the jovial mood so far

Ep 11 (Mar 16)

ah, they're apart for a month for New Year's break and Lurang's going back home instead of living with his uncle

loll Zaizai's reaction to Suyang

The way every child is Zaizai's nemesis lmfao

not the gaggle of gossipping aunts and uncles

Started doing 1.25x this ep or the previous ep because 1x was taking a long time rip

Ep 12 (Mar 16)

pls i too initially thought Guran was hiding porn

Aw, ep 10 about Guan Fang and this ep about Guran feeling neglected by his doctor parents who are heroes to other patients but leave him alone.

Are we gonna get smth about Jiang Jia in ep 14? And then delve more into Lurang afterwards? and possibly some Zaizai too? I wonder when the part where Lurang tells Zaizai to be quiet and then she avoids him is gonna happen

Ep 13 (Mar 16)

Guran is so obvious in his crush on Jiang Jia loll

ahh Lurang being jealous thinking it was Su Zaizai righting the love letter to someone, I love jealous Lurang

ohh the jealousy during pull-ups, this was in the edits

Guran, ow "it's not like you'll ever be [Qianyu] anyway"

Ep 14 (Mar 16)

I've really liked thus far how supportive Guran has been in Jiang Jia's crush on Qianyu, like telling her to confess and helping her and encouraging her even though he obviously doesn't want to because he likes her. He just wants her to be brave and chase what she wants. It's a very kind thing to do I guess because like I'm used to fuckass Han Seojun (True Beauty) type characters who insist their their female friend date them and not leave her alone until she does

Y'know idk why I thought it was his step-mother? Feels like I saw it in the comments of a real but I think it's his bio mother maybe since Lurang lives with her teacher brother

now Guran gonna get got by Jiang Jia apparently crying when she didn't cry

"Turns out the sun and sunflower shine for each other" is so true like the connection immediately makes me think of the sunflower facing the sun always but indeed the sun is also shining brightly for the sunflower, not a one-way relationship

Ep 15 (Mar 17)

girl why are we Singing?

ah, grade 11 begins

ouch, Guran always having to help Jiang Jia with Qianyu or the other way around

"Report to me if you notice anything" girl

bro the way we're having problems about Lurang and Zaizai dating or liking each other or spending time together or whatever at school but these fuckers aren't even properly dating yet T.T

omg D: is this gonna be the start of Lurang telling Zaizai to be quiet but she's gonna be hurt?

aww poor Zaizai who was already facing the rumour that she's some girl who's bothering key-class-Lurang and now Lurang being rude to her

Ep 16 (Mar 17)

immediately started this new ep, which doesn't happen with this show usually because the eps tend to end well but i'm too into the angst rn, I've been looking forward to it since the edits

but Lurang's not the one who told them about the transfer D: T.T

and omg Lurang's so bad at speaking too

I'll guess that this guy is her cousin or smth?

lolll not him fueling the fire talking about how he didn't tell an annoying girl in the next class about his transfer

indeed he's her cousin

ahh Zaizai getting Lurang to act cute for her

So, Lurang's brother is younger than him but is gonna be doing grade 12 test even though he's in grade 11? i'm confused girl

oh I see, he's a 10th grade age in 12th grade

aghhh like I can understand Lurang's frustration esp since he's a teenager but also Luli is also just 16 and in a new place where he only knows his brother and is also the focus of gossip even though they're praising him T.T I hope they become closer or at least more friendly :(

bruh, call Lurang to let them know that Luli's been found

Oh man, the bias and favouritism is wayyyy too much fr

I can handle this much tragic backstory for a male love interest like it's sad but not like every tragedy piled on

Ep 17 (Mar 17)

aw he's really leaving for a year :(

I really don't fully get what the status of this relationship is cuz she's saying happy 1 year anniversary lol like they both know they're lowkey in a relationship but they just... don't Talk about it I guess?

Ep 18 (Mar 17)

plss not the girl thinking Zaizai edited the pic of her and Lurang lmfaoo but at least Zaizai's happy and excited knowing he doesn't accept gifts from girls or anything

"Let's not give up on our dreams for the other" so true

I read a comment that said the grandma will be okay so that's good

Ep 19 (Mar 18)

I'll be honest, it's kinda hard for me to keep picking up this show cuz I just wanna watch a BL with dubcon/weird/uncomfortable dynamics instead.

ah, so they're talking about Confessing now like girl I wish I knew why your situationship is like this

pls not Lurang being like hmm Su zaizai, act normal *nods nods*

plsss not her signalling by saying my parents want me to get married at 30, so much get engaged by 29, should meet my partner's parents by 28 and need to have dated 10 years for that, so I need to start dating at 18

this tarot reading lmfao

bruh not the Guran and Jiang Jia

ahh confession finally and a cute one too hehe

hug !!!

oof, Guran leaving fr

Ep 20 (Mar 18)

ahh that's not even a kiss but so true i'm giggling

omgg a kiss hehehe esp bc Lurang learned copy-and-paste

Doraemon reference

Ah, she said "Rang-rang, you're the best" and it sounds like ZB1 Zhang Hao's name

ahhh no way both Lurang and the senior tried to say "here" for Su Zaizai to cover for her absence byeee

but i do like it when either of them get jealous cuz it's like cute but not Too Much lol

This ep had the military scenes from the tiktok that I'd watched. Also had the fantasy of everybody finding out that the FL is dating the cool handsome ML which is fun, we love.

Ep 21 (Mar 18)

and Zaizai cleverly letting the senior know that she has a boyfriend

why is there no fucking music during their kiss scenes is it because of youtube? is there music on Viki?

Ah, there is indeed music in the Viki version, I'll just continue watching that one

hah paying rent for staying in Zaizai's heart via kisses

Okayyy now it's Lurang's turn to have somebody interested in him while perhaps Zaizai is a bit jealous hehe, though I hope this girl also ends up bowing out gracefully like Zaizai's senior and less like the catty girl from high school

smh the girls in these really are Very Meddling huh? i guess there's appeal in that too even if I'm not super into it

loll saw these moments in tiktoks too

I really like it when Lurang sometimes widens his eyes when looking at Zaizai in a teasing way

Zaizai's parents are sooo funny lol

Ep 22 (Mar 19)

"You match my bed so well" while sitting him on the bed and grabbing his face like this, oh Su Zaizai you get me

dang, we've gotten multiple kisses and an allusion to sex and they also live together, idk why I expected it to be more chaste. Ig since they started out in high school + literally didn't start Dating until graduation, I thought it'd remain that way. obviously it's still not hot and heavy or anything and the kissing scenes are just closed lips pressed together but still

Did Lurang just notice Jiang Jia and Guran tension or did Guran tell him?

i don't remember who this Wan Nan is unfortunately lmfao I thought the senior that Jiang Jia liked was the prince charming in Cinderella play but maybe not who knows

had to pause to scream a little at the boss touching Zaizai's hand/leg >:(

Let's kill this boss wtf

Ep 23 (Mar 19)

my poor Su Zaizai, I hate this evil boss man >:(

ah Guran having to be told by somebody else that Jiang Jia likes him while Jiang Jia also never made a move despite thinking that Guran probably maybe likes her

Ep 24 (Mar 19)

last ep

man I'm gonna stop being practical or thinking because the thought of Lurang buying a house By Himself for them to live in just gave me the ick like why...?

ahhh proposal so cuteee also interesting to see a proposal that's not "Will you marry me?" "Yes" "yay she said yes!" even though the beats are the same

oh, scandelous, Lurang opened like one shirt button and slipped the sleeve off of Zaizai's shoulder lol

ahhh the wedding cuteee

Su Zaizai angry face and then biting Luran's arm heh

oh they're having a baby

ahh, them in their school uniforms again from the last scene, sooo cute

Overall:

This isn't the show's fault at all but I think I'm just in the mood for a BL, so occasionally I'll think of just pausing the show to watch a BL in the middle lol or to go watch some BL edits (esp because I'm using this fluffy cuteness to try to get over Dead Friend Forever TeeWhite tragedy). This doesn't tend to happen when I'm actually watching the show because for more of the eps, I'm watching it like :D ^.^ :) :> happy smiles and giggles, so it's not the show's fault but rather me craving some yaoi cuz it took like a week to watch this lol

This was so cute, I liked the characters and their characterizations, I liked the friend group (more than I thought I would at first bc I was annoyed by Guran in the beginning), I liked their romance. I liked how they were mutually helping each other achieve their goals and paths in life. It was just cute. They had a 1 year long-distance thing in the middle where they were obviously sad but they got through it. I like that they trusted each other and liked each other and were nice to each other. Su Zaizai and Lurang, you're so cute!

Love that so much of this was them while in a relationship! Like they were in a "kinda relationship but we don't talk about it or define" for a while there during high school but even after officially becoming a couple after graduation, there are many eps of them in uni and at jobs and such. I love an established relationship situation and this delivered (want this for my BLs so bad). They got through situations together, no unnecessary breakup or terrible miscommunication, ah just feel good and cute but entertaining without becoming a bore.

It's just good and cute and endearing. Liked it. I don't necessarily think I'll think about them a whole lot, especially because everything is wrapped up so nicely, but I think the show did a lot of things well.

Rating: 6.5/10 [May 12, 2024 Update: Decreased by 0.5 stars when rerating shows I've watched in 2024: 7 -> 6.5]

Tiktoks - Before watching:

Saw this Tiktok edit while going through an account for TeeWhite (DFF) edits and

the most popular Tiktok of this show made me wanna watch

+ this one like omg idk why I’m so excited to see him get jealous/grovel I don’t know this man

Okay wait I saw this (pretend crush) on a reel before, I didn’t know this was from the same drama, no wonder the name seemed familiar.

[zabuivayuvseivsyo]

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letters to myself first before i deep dive into my childhood journals

mom always said to write positive things, not just the negative things

lol fuck that

to infant emmy: i'm not sure what to say to you. i remember the story of dad crying when the eczema on my cheeks cleared up and i was smiling for the first time. i wonder how mom and dad dealt with your eczema as a baby, besides just putting socks on your hands so you wouldn't scratch

to toddler emmy: you must have been scared. you must have felt abandoned in the crib and in that room and at the foot of the door. someone should have come to you while you cried instead of waiting outside, listening for when you would stop so you could go back into the crib. you were so friendly to people, even at that age, maybe because you wanted connection and you looked every chance you got

to 4 year old emmy: this must have been when you became "fascinated" with evil men taking advantage of girls. in hawaii on the floor downstairs you drew a girl on train tracks with an evil man standing behind, smiling and waiting. you drew a girl trapped in a clear glass tank with an evil man, still smiling and waiting. you crumpled up or hid those drawings because you knew it was wrong. what happened to you,

to kindergarten emmy: you vowed this year to be a boy, you vowed this year to be bored, upset, over it. you didn't get why you weren't white, or blonde like everyone else. you had to recite "the cat in the hat" and you vowed to do it as deadpan as you could because it was so childish. you wanted to wear black that day and i think all you had was a dark blue long sleeve. why did you feel that way when you were a child? you were excited to learn "algebra" in the dark classroom because it was for older kids. 5 - x = 3. it's 2. you felt older than everyone. it's not your fault, you're not dirty. you didn't know what masturbation was but you felt like you were the only person in the world that it happened to. you felt alone and dirty. if something bad happened you don't have to remember, i will for you eventually, and when i do, i will take care of you, i will hold you, and it will be okay. i don't remember anything from home.

to 1st grade emmy: you were so mortified when mom took you late to your first day of first grade. you were so mortified when mom made you wear something you hated for the mother's day performance and you had to hold your teacher's hand at the very back of the line because you were crying. your face stayed straight and sad that entire performance. you hated how your mom dressed you and you grew up to "like it eventually". i'm sorry, you must have tried to speak up for yourself and you must have been told no, that you had to. no one's making you do something you don't want to anymore. you were proud to be avery johnson's best friend. i don't remember anything from home.

[somewhere around here you get caught because you forgot to clear your browsing history one time, you had been lying for a long time already. "why were you looking at that? were you just curious?" i remember them being surprisingly nice about it. i remember intense shame and horror. but i don't remember anything else]

to 2nd grade emmy: i wonder why you felt like this was the best year of your life, you do have good memories although you were always losing recess for talking too much. rachel kosic's house - it was always messy and you always had fun there. mrs. patricia rowe - alliteration, benjamin's mom, st. patricks day treats. you believed in fairies at this time and you would look for them in the grass. chris saiki was nice to you and you would play star wars. you prayed to god to make you a jedi knight. it was probably because dad showed you star wars. by this time you loved fishing too, but did you? or did you just want to be like dad even more? was this when you got made fun of for a lie mom told you - that eating dry ramen would give you words in your stomach? you were feeling so embarrassed when they made fun of you. blonde girls, one grade older. but you met courtney this year. the first day she came to church she colored her nails with markers. you thought that was amazing. it was in the classroom in the small building at church, the first classroom when you walk in. i wonder what that building looks like now, or if it's even still there. shinu's dad was our sunday school teacher then. that's funny now, and really sad. i don't remember anything from home, except for praying to my ceiling for powers and a lightsaber.

to 3rd grade emmy: this was the year auntie keeae died. you cried in mom's arms even though you didn't know her. i'm sure it was because you felt sad for her, that she lost her big sister. at some lunch you gave some kid an anonymous note and you watched him rip it up and laugh. he had curly brown hair. this was also the year you became friends with emily weerheim. this was the year mom called you pathetic for crying when she broke up with you on fantage or club penguin or something else for "leaving her while she was crying". you found the "everyone hates emmy book" in that room, with the boxes, it was bright and daytime. you never spoke about it to anyone until you grew up. i'm sorry you felt like you had no one to tell, i'm sorry you felt shame for something that was unfair to you, i'm sorry that this was your first memorable "abusive" relationship. her mother cried and said she didn't know what was wrong with her child, but that was later. she always embarrassed you, she was always mean to you, she made you scratch her arms when they were itchy even though you felt weird doing that. you found her so odd for dating boys. trace tempesta. the only memory you had from home (maybe it wasn't even this year) was the red couch, sobbing, sobbing so loud and mom came. she put medicine and cold paper towels on your neck. all of your skin was raw. she held you and blew on your neck until you feel asleep. this was when you started feeling very ugly, especially your haircut and your teeth. you were not ugly, just a little awkward and gangly. mom made you wear more stuff you didn't like, but only on the days we would get student awards. they were supposed to be surprises during assemblies but you always knew you were getting one. because mom dressed you up and because you hated it

to 4th grade emmy: you liked mrs. taylor. i remember you writing your entire essay with a synonym finder so that you could sound smarter. i wonder why you did that. it's silly to look back on now, you used words you never heard before. the classroom was darker, a trailer, the last one on the field. "don't you feel bad?" when we learned about world war 2. i don't think you said anything. when the boys were using trees and trucks as an innuendo for sex, and a group of the girls told on them. by now you were always the last kid to be picked up from school. that day it was just you and brock hampton left. he asked me why you told on them. you shrugged and said "don't know". i don't know where maile ever was, i only remember me sitting out on the concrete bench waiting and waiting for mom. you became friends with ilah berry, another tomboy, and you both got suspended for sticking up for emily when alex made her cry. "i'm going to beat your ass" "yeah she's going to beat your ass" - you even apologized to alex that day, his brother was the one who told on us. you cried so hard in mr. devich's office, you sobbed all the way home, you sat in bed sobbing and mom and dad were not happy with you (even though later you found out that mr. devich said you were a good kid, and that you weren't actually in trouble). this was when you and maile shared a bed. you started hating yourself for being ugly, especially when dad was taking pictures of you and courtney at mission bay and he told you to look more natural, like courtney. of course you didn't look natural, you were so insecure already, you were so sad already, you hated being in front of the camera. your hair was long and you were positive you were gross. a lot of friends came and went around this time, a lot of girls that never meant anything. you must have been confused,

to 5th grade emmy: megan becomes your new best friend. you liked her a lot. you thought it was cool that she could penny board all by herself to your house. you liked how she wore snapbacks. you made the best cookies of your life with her. her mom would call you "immy" with her south african accent. i remember the stairs up to megan's room, blurry images of her room. megan's brother matthew was frightening and terrible. you forced megan to watch lawrence of arabia, because dad liked that movie or dad showed it to you. that movie is almost four hours long, emmy. you are silly. you wanted to be mature for your age. that might be sad but it's also cute. emily fiasco this year, i was jaded by then, i remember telling her we weren't allowed to be friends anymore in mrs. simpson's library (i remember exactly where the bone books were) and not really caring anymore. mr. southerland was nice, we played the keyboard in his classroom, he told the boys that they couldn't say the word faggot and our class that it was time to start wearing deodorant. you read books a lot, you liked maybird. it was melancholy. you started using that word a lot. by now you took on sadness as your primary emotion. jeyla aranjo was your friend but she also annoyed you, she was an overachiever and she cried whenever she got a 5-. she seemed spoiled to you. she ended up going to stanford (and i'm pretty sure she started a year early). you see her in adulthood once. some of your "friends" weren't really your friends, like megan bomgardner who ditches you a year later as soon as you introduce her to julia hayashi, who was also your friend first. you didn't know how to be wary then, you wanted to love and get hurt anyways instead of never loving at all. you tried being "girly" this year and you felt uncomfortable in your skin. don't force yourself to be anything you don't feel comfortable being anymore. it's okay to be emmy - you don't look ugly in that picture from promotion. that dress was nice and you liked it. it had a lot of colors.

to 6th grade emmy: except for when your phone got taken away and waiting for an hour in the cold for school to start, this was a good year at school for you. good job for making friends. you meet a lot of new people. you are kind of mean, but in a sarcastic, deadpan way. especially on facebook. you didn't try on purpose this time. you flipped nef off and the mr. ecker asked you "aren't you dishonoring your family by doing that?" straight to my face. i found that fucking annoying and ridiculous. you actually have a lot of memories from sixth grade. you loved ms. hall. i still do, too. on the last day of school you and your friends walked by yourselves all the way to baskin robbins. you got an ipod touch at some point and now you can look at your pictures from then anytime you want. you got rich on tinierme and met daryl, your first "boyfriend". you thought you were feeling love for the first time in your life, you were so happy but you also knew it was bad. you didn't tell anyone. at all, until you became an adult. it lasted for at least a year and a half altogether. you talked about running into each other so much. that was dangerous. thank god you were too scared to meet him in person. he talked about taking you in the bathroom at tea n more. thank god it never happened. you felt heartbreak for the first time "i don't love you anymore" - you never loved him either, if i ever find him i will kill him, he's a sick fuck

to 7th grade emmy: you have memories here too, but less. you adore kenny and kevin and antoine and minh despite them all being annoying. you especially adore kenny. kenny is still your friend but now he's closer to maile. i'll tell you why when you get older. kenny liked you a lot and you were embarrassed. you really like kpop now, even more than in 6th grade. you also have an online friend group but that never amounted to anything. i think you dated jason won online this year, he was a grade older and he was in that facebook group. he went to exeter academy. he cheated on you and you experienced heartbreak for a second time - for some reason you meet him in person on your way home from russia, because you had a layover in new york. probably because you were manic and insane at this time. he was cringe and you never spoke again. one of your saddest memories happened this year. carlsbad outlet, mom not saying anything to you despite pleading and sobbing and being too scared to touch her, her back was turned into the bed. i don't remember anything else from home.

to 8th grade emmy: i don't remember anything from this year. i don't remember graduation, i don't remember anything. i don't remember any teachers i had. except for ms. hall. i can't remember and i don't know why - i don't even remember what church was like. in fact i don't have a lot of memories from church at all in elementary and middle school, besides being so frightened and hating youth group at first.

oh wait church memories are coming back. 5th grade retreat, 6th grade bringing karen to church and everyone in the room was crying and i wanted karen to believe in god too. courtney and i in the guest room bed having a "profound" god conversation. seeing elly play keyboard. but none from 8th grade for some reason. i met faith around that time. i think that friendship was hard from the beginning.

high school next time, i want to let myself rest . and now i can read my journal

[geodasher1324]

My 3 Day Intramurals

This year's Intramurals was filled with amazement, fun, laughter, and thrill. In this blog, I will tell you my experience during the 3-day Intramurals 2023.

DAY 1.

On this day, October 25, 2023, at about 6-7 in the morning we had some preparations. I was the first in line for the boys in our team, so I was to hold the banner, with a 5th grader, who was a girl. We had a little parade. We chanted "Let's Go Lightning!" all the way to Ma'am Songcal. There was a band of musicians from our team and the other team. Their music was ecstatic and lovely. After that, the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th graders presented their energetic dance performances. Then, the candidates for Mr. & Ms. Intramurals were introduced. Soon thereafter, there was a banner run, Lightning Jamz versus Golden Flames. I was a Lightning, and our team won. Then in the afternoon the ball games Volleyball and Basketball were held in the Ma'am Songcal court, with a few Badminton matches, either Doubles or Singles. This day was pretty much fun, but then three students, all from the 5th grade went through a short struggle. One student almost passed out, another had a severe asthma attack, and another experienced nosebleeding. Then after all these events, we all went back to school at about 3 P.M.

DAY 2.

We walked to Songcal and another Basketball match was held, this time Elementary versus Elementary. I was one of the Badminton players, with Princess as my partner in the doubles game. We lost, but we had fun. At about quarter to lunch, we saw our choreographer crying. I guess it was because we have failed in two sports already. Some students, during the afternoon, went back to Songcal for another basketball match. Also, this day was the birthday of my classmate! We had spaghetti, chicken, and some drinks. In the afternoon, we made props, and we took about 2 hours for the props and then I was picked up.

DAY 3.

This is the most awaited day now. We were absolutely excited, at the same time terrified. Another prop making took place. Some students paced to the field. They were going to have Soccer-Baseball there. We walked to Songcal a quarter to lunch to have a short practice. Fast forward, we changed to our costumes and walked towards the field again. Next were the preparations, Mr. & Ms. Intramurals 2023 Walk, and the Farewell Walk of the past year's Mr. & Ms. Intramurals. The candidates had a Sports Demo, and then, the cheerdances. I was utterly shaky because of terror. But we made it through. Next was the awarding ceremony. And you know what? We emerged as the champions! I could not believe it! All the tears, setbacks, perseverance, and camaraderie turned into one great success.

[messers-moony]

One in the Same | R.B

Paring: Regulus Black X Wife!Reader

Summary: Reader notices Draco going through the same pain as her ex lover and desperately wants fix her faults.

“Mr.Malfoy, can you stay after class, please?” 

“‘Course, Professor Black.”

An average day in second year. Professor Black - Y/n - taught History of Magic after Professor Binns decided his time was up. Too long of teaching sleeping students who could care less about his lessons. However, once Y/n took over the position, kid's grades improved and people were no longer sleeping. She made things fun and inventive.

After class time was up, everyone filed out of the classroom aside from the blond Slytherin boy. Draco has always been on the good side of Professor Black. She was always extremely kind to him despite his rather sour attitude at times. But Draco was always hesitant to initiate a conversation to really speak his feelings to her. But this was the first time she had him stay after class. 

Y/n pulled out the chair in front of her desk as he sat down. His white-blond hair and gleaming blue eyes. His young face, not yet defined. Y/n with her h/c hair and curious glinted e/c eyes. 

“Draco, I want to start this by saying I don’t know what your home life is like.” Y/n began, “I went to Hogwarts with your parents, though, and he wasn’t always kind. Your mother was cordial with me, though.”

“If you don’t find me intruding, what’s your home life like?” 

“I- Um- It’s good.” Stammered Draco, “Father and Mother are always kind.”

Y/n’s eyes glinted with curiosity, “Lucius tolerated me.”

“Tolerated you?”

“I married one of his best friends.” Y/n chuckled, “He didn’t have a choice.”

Draco tilted his head, “Sirius?”

“Oh heavens no!” Y/n exclaimed, “Regulus. Sirius Black's brother.” 

“My- My dead cousin?” He queried. 

She nodded, “Yes. I married Regulus right after graduation. His parents weren’t thrilled, but he loved me so, here we are.”

“May I ask a question?”

“Shoot.”

“What were his parents like?”

“Horrible. The worst.” Y/n spat, “Sirius got the worst of it, but Regulus did occasionally too.”

“Walburga and Orion were awful. Using the crucio curse is not a great punishment for kids.” Draco’s eyes widened, “Both of them had scars from the curse. Sirius ran away at sixteen, and Regulus was used as their puppet. So used that at the age of eighteen, he felt like he had to prove himself. Which inevitably got him killed.”

“How did you deal with it?”

“Well, would you like my honest answer or my Professor answer?”

“Honest, please.”

“Between you and I, I still haven’t gotten over it.” Y/n shrugged, “I see something that reminds me of him, and I’m back at the start all over again. It takes time, and it’s taken plenty of time, but here I am, doing what I love. Teaching kids.”

“Anyways.” Y/n smiled, “You’re dismissed. I’m sorry I took up your time. However, if you ever feel the need to speak with me, let me know. Okay?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Draco picked up his bag, rustling as he stood up. The blond boy was still digesting all the information he gained. He couldn’t believe that his cousins got the crucio curse for a punishment. He thought his parents were bad. Theirs was way worse. Draco was about to walk out of the classroom but turned last minute to look at his Professor. 

“Professor?” 

“Yes, Draco?”

“There’s-“ He swallowed, “There’s a Quidditch match this Saturday. Slytherin versus Ravenclaw. If you have the time, I’d like you to come.”

“Of course. I’ll be there.” Y/n smiled. 

He walked out of the room without a second stop. He felt better about himself now. He had someone who genuinely seemed to care about him. Draco didn’t trust her just yet, but he wouldn’t be opposed to speaking with her as he had just now in the future. Professor Black had always been open and honest with her students. Perhaps that’s why kids liked her so much. 

Saturday arrived quicker than Y/n would’ve hoped for one reason. She, herself, didn’t own any Slytherin-colored merchandise anymore. But there was a box in her quarters that she brought with her to Hogwarts every year. Regulus’s old clothes meaning all his scarfs, ties, button-ups, pants, hats, etc. Y/n couldn’t seem to get rid of them. Frankly, she didn’t want to get rid of them either. 

Carefully she pulled the cardboard box from the top of her closet. Taking a pair of scissors and breaking the tape seal she had put on it multiple years ago. Inside laid many pieces of the evergreen and silver cloth. Y/n’s hands gravitated to the green and silver scarf. Bringing it to her nose, she was shocked. It still smelt like him. Godric, this was going to be more challenging than she initially thought. 

Nonetheless, she put it around her neck along with her button-up and tight-fit pants. Y/n put on the green gloves, much too big for her but had fit Regulus perfectly, the tie, and the scarf. It brought her a sense of nostalgia. It made Y/n feel like she was a fifth-year going out with Regulus on a date to Hogsmeade. But she wasn’t fifteen or in fifth year. Y/n was a Professor and a full-grown adult. And Regulus was dead. 

The game was going well for Slytherin at the beginning. But like most Quidditch games, things can change rather quickly. Ravenclaw was studious. That was for sure. They played skillfully. Y/n sat in the Professor stands with the rest of her colleagues. She sat between McGonagall and Flitwick. But white-blond hair caught her attention in front of her. Lucius Malfoy was here spectating his son. 

McGonagall nudged her, “Where’d you get the Slytherin gear?”

“Regulus.”

“How have you been, dear?” McGonagall questioned softly, “It’s been a whirlwind, but nothing I can do will bring him back, so ‘m still here for him. It’s what he would’ve wanted.” Y/n replied. 

Minerva placed a hand on the girl's knee, “If you need anything, let me know.”

“‘Course, Professor.”

The game ended tragically. Slytherin had just tied the game when Cho Chang had caught sight of the snitch. Sadly, she was able to grasp it before Draco. Leaving Slytherin with two-hundred and thirty points while Ravenclaw ended with three-hundred and eighty points. Lucius seemed furious with this conclusion and stormed off the stands. Y/n knew something was up, so she followed him. 

She came up in a deserted hallway in Hogwarts. Draco stood - now changed into the usual Hogwarts robes - and his father stood before him. From the view she had, Draco’s back was to her, and his father was towering over the boy. 

Lucius had a cold and icy voice, “You are insufferable!”

“You had one job, Draco! One! Catch the damn snitch.” He scolded, “Perhaps you were too daft to figure that out?”

“‘M sorry, father. I didn’t mean to. Honest.” Draco was pleading and begging for mercy; it made Y/n’s heartache at the familiar words. 

“Mum, Dad, I seriously didn’t mean to!” Regulus had cried after breaking a vase, “Excuses, excuses, they won’t get you anywhere in life, boy!” Orion shouted. 

Tears collected in his silver eyes, “‘M sorry! ‘M so sorry!”

Walburga pointed her wand at him, “Crucio.”

Lucius scoffed, “Malfoy’s don’t cry, wipe those tears.”

“Should‘ve sent you to Durmstrang. You come to Hogwarts and forget everything I’ve ever taught you.”

“Father, I really didn’t mean to! She just got there faster than me.” Draco begged. 

Y/n saw it before Draco did. Lucius raised his palm slowly, and Draco flinched. Y/n saw the pale hand rise into the air, and without a second thought, she ran in front of the young boy, taking the blow that was meant for Lucius’ son. Draco heard the sound but never felt the impact. Carefully he opened his eyes to see Professor Black standing in front of him, a hand on her cheek. 

“How dare you get in the way!” Lucius yelled, “How dare I? How dare you for trying to leave a hand on your son!” Y/n retorted her bright cheek red from impact. 

Draco was appalled, “Draco is your son! Not a toy or a puppet, and I will not stand for this!”

“You don’t have to, half breed.” Lucius seethed, “As you said, he’s my son. Not yours.”

“I could give less fucks!” Y/n exclaimed, “Draco is my student. I will not be having you lay your hands on my students.”

Lucius scoffed, “Where’s your child, mm?”

“Right, you don’t have one.” Lucius answered, “Because your blood-traitor of a husband decided to get himself killed!”

“Regulus was not a blood-traitor for trying to right his wrongs!”

“Regulus and Sirius were no different from each other.”

“Leave them out of this!”

“Oh, so it’s still a soft spot for you?”

“So help me, I’ll-“

“Petrificus Totalus.” Draco stated while holding his wand, causing his father to fall to the ground, paralyzed. 

Y/n stared at the body in shock, “Draco.”

She didn’t even have time to reprimand him before he burst into tears. Y/n turned quickly and embraced him into a much-needed hug while the boy sobbed on her shoulder. Y/n’s hands went through Draco’s white-blond hair gently while he let every emotion out. She pulled away and wiped the tears on his cheeks. 

“You’re going to be okay, I promise.” Y/n informed, and Draco nodded, “Th- Thank you, Professor.”

Y/n smiled and sent him off to the Slytherin common room, leaving her to deal with Lucius. The Professor dragged him to Madam Pomfrey to deal with. Later that night, in her quarters, while brushing her teeth, she noticed the considerable bruise covering her left cheek: Blue and purple hues mixed to create a dark blue-violet looking color, almost grey. 

Sixth year was now here. Y/n’s fourth year of teaching at Hogwarts, and she couldn’t have asked for a better job. On September 1st, she went through the floo-network to arrive in her teacher's quarters. Looking at the time, it seemed that students were just about reaching onto the grounds when a knock sounded at her door. 

“Come in!”

A blond boy, much taller, defined face, and grey eyes had just walked into her teacher's quarters, “Good evening, Professor.”

“Good evening, Draco.” Y/n greeted smiling brightly, “What's on your mind, sweetheart?”

Draco didn’t know where to begin as water collected on his lower lash line, and gently he pulled up his left sleeve. Godric, it felt like deva Vu all over again. 

“Y- Y/n.” Regulus called through his tears, “What’s wrong, baby?” Y/n asked, sitting beside him on the four-poster bed. 

Regulus couldn’t help the tears that helplessly fell down his cheeks. His eyes were silver and blurred. Cheeks flushed and hair knotted. This past summer had been a shit show for him with Sirius running away and just everything that had gone on. Regulus had never felt this hopeless before. 

“I- I need your help.”

“Of course, anything, baby.”

He swallowed, “Just know that I’ll love you forever. Okay?”

“‘Course.”

Gently, he released a breath of air and pulled up his left sleeve. The combined snake and skull only meaning one thing. Regulus was now a death eater to the Dark Lord. Tears sprung in Y/n’s eyes but not because of disappointment but because of worry. She didn’t know what she would do if Regulus were to be gone. 

“They forced me!” Regulus pleaded, “Please, please don’t leave me.” 

Regulus was weeping, and Y/n took him into her arms, “Shh, shh, I’m not disappointed. I’m just worried about you.”

“I don’t wanna- I don’t wanna do this.” Regulus whimpered, “Please help me.”

“I’m gonna help you ‘m love. Don’t worry.” 

“What happened this summer?” Y/n asked as Draco pulled back down his sleeve.

“Auntie Bella.”

Draco was trying so hard to swallow his tears as his Professor was now face to face with him, “Draco.”

How was her voice so sweet and calm, almost like she had done this before, “It’s okay to show emotion. It’s being human. Let it go, darling.”

Just like that, the dam broke, and Draco was a sobbing mess again. How was it that Professor Black had always managed to feel more like home than his actual parents? What had his mum done for him while Bellatrix was giving him the mark? She had just stood there watching pain contort on his face. Y/n felt more like a mother to him, more like family to him. 

“Shh. Shh. You’re safe here, Draco.”

“They- They want me-“ He was choking on his words, and Y/n placed her hands on his shoulders, “Take deep breaths and then explain. Okay?”

He began to inhale and exhale air at a slow pace, “They want me to-“ Draco swallowed, “They want me to kill Dumbledore.”

“Okay.” Y/n stated, letting out a breath of air, “You and I will get through this.” 

“You- You promise?” 

“I promise.”

Perhaps it was instinct now for Draco to stay after in her classroom. After every lesson, Draco would visit her in her classroom just to be in her company or to talk. What was it about Y/n that drew these people close to her? Ones with broken souls who believed that couldn’t be helped. Was it her kindness? Perhaps it was her caring nature—too many variables to pinpoint. 

The moment Y/n heard crying in Moaning Myrtle's bathroom, she knew something was wrong. Approaching cautiously, she saw Harry Potter doing the same behind Draco, who stood facing the basin, dried tears on his cheeks. Everything happened too fast for Y/n to understand. But when Harry spoke an incantation that left Draco bleeding out on the floor, everything changed. 

She was jumping into action hastily, falling to her knees beside the blond-haired boy while Harry was almost in tears at his mistake. Y/n took her wand out and began muttering spells to heal the boy's chest. Harry was now in a heap on the floor, tears filling his glorious emerald eyes while the Professor took care of his harm. It took ten minutes before the bleeding stopped, and Y/n turned to face Harry. 

“Harry.” 

“‘M sorry. I- I didn’t know…”

“It’s okay. I’m just glad I was here.” Y/n replied, and Harry looked like a mess, “I need you to go to the Gryffindor tower and not speak of this to anyone, okay?”

He nodded and stood up sluggishly. Harry left the bathroom, leaving Y/n with an unconscious Draco. Sighing heavily, she picked up the boy and lugged him to the hospital wing, where he was taken care of. The following day an owl was pecking at Y/n’s window, leading her to wake up and take the note from the owl’s foot. 

“Draco won’t stop calling for you.”

Y/n freshened up, brushing her teeth, hair, and a change of clothes before making her way to the Hospital Wing. It was quite a ways away from. Her section of the school, but if Draco needed her, she needed to be there even if it was six o’clock in the morning. Her shoes made a light tap along with the wood as she walked and hesitantly opened the big door to the infirmary. 

“Oh, thank Merlin!” Madam Pomfrey said with her hand over her heart, “Draco has been asking for you, my dear.”

She gave a tiny smile as Pomfrey pointed to where Draco was lying. Carefully she stripped back some of the white curtain and pulled a chair beside his bed. Y/n took his hand in his. It was cold and pale. If she closed her eyes, she could imagine holding Regulus’ hand in the same exact way after a horrible Bludger accident. 

An hour later, Draco finally woke up, “Mornin’ sweetheart.”

“Professor, you- you came.”

She smiled, “You called for me, of course, I’d come.”

Draco pushed himself up into a sitting position, his grey eyes locked on her warm e/c ones, “Sorry, I just, didn’t expect you to come.”

“How are you feeling?” 

“I feel okay. Little sore but nothing I haven’t been through.” 

Y/n smiled sadly, “I knew a boy just like you, you know?”

“You did?” Draco asked, and she nodded, “I did.”

“Could you tell me about him?”

“Well, he was strong, smart, and closed off. His home life wasn’t too great either and was forced into being what his parents were too.” Draco looked eager for more, “Eventually, he realized that this wasn’t the life he wanted. He no longer cared about his parent's approval. He just wanted to be him, but by then, it was too late.”

“Too late?”

She nodded, “He was already in too late, so he did the only thing he thought of. Betraying his parents, his family. He was so caught up in what he was doing he didn’t realize what he was doing, and now, because of that, he’s no longer with us.”

“But you aren’t too late, Draco.” Y/n stressed, tightening her grip on his hand, “Let me save you. Let me help you.”

Tears ebbed at the corners of his eyes, “Please.”

Y/n took him in her arms and rubbed his back soothingly, “You aren’t alone. I’m here for you.”

It took months, but everything was over. It felt like time had stopped. Y/n could remember the terror standing outside of Hogwarts as the death eaters stood on the other side. Narcissa was calling for him - the boy who had no choice - and Draco was panicking as Lucius began calling his name. 

Draco swallowed and shook his head. 

It was the feeling of relief that brought Y/n solace. Draco took the step that Regulus took, and she would make sure he didn’t pay for it. The relief felt like a breath of fresh air now that the war was over. Y/n had stepped into the Great Hall panicking, hoping, praying that he was okay. At that moment she saw it. 

He was crouched in the corner. People were glaring at him all around. Draco saw. He saw the Weasleys crying over Fred. He saw Harry look empty, staring at Remus Lupin and Nymphadora. The way Lavender Brown’s parents sobbed over her dead body. He saw the way Dennis Creevey was yelling and screaming in pain at seeing his deceased older brother. Draco could remember how close they were. 

Nonetheless, he stood up and ran into her arms: his solace, home, and safe place. Draco couldn’t remember what it felt like to be held this tight. He dug his nose into her neck and just remembered to breathe. She pulled away to see a small smile playing on his lips. Y/n cupped his cheeks gently. 

“I’m so, so proud of you.” Y/n smiled, “I can't explain how proud I am of you. You did it.”

Draco smiled and leaned into her hands, “Thanks, mum.”

[berryvjakey]

Enhypen x Yandere!reader🫀💋

warning: yandere theme, mention of death, mention of suicide

Heeseung:

You and Heeseung were a couple for over a year now, he was your high school sweetheart, the love of your life!

Yet he still wanted to leave you!? After all this time? The pain you felt because of him was unbelievable, but you still love him, so obviously you won’t let him go that easily

You CAN'T let him go, if you do then you will be left alone in this cruel world, without him you have no reason to be still alive

He is the reason why you're still breathing, why you’re still eating, and why you’re still existing

“Please Heeseung, don’t do this to me! I love you! Why did you stop loving me! What did i do!?” You cried out on your knees before your boyfriend, you know how pathetic you must look, but hey! This way you can show him how much he means for you, how much you are willing to do for him

"Y/N stop please… get up" he said, looking down at you with a pity in his eyes, he’s starting to feel bad

"You don’t understand how much you mean to me! You’re my only reason to live! If you leave me, then i will kill myself, cause i can’t just move on from you!! You want me to die?!" your cries got louder, tears spilling from your red eyes like a fountain

Your words + the way you look right now made Heeseung feel extremely guilty, you broke him, just like you wanted to :))

He crouched and hugged you tightly, one of his hands on your waist, the other stroking your head to calm you down from you histeria

"Please forgive me baby! I love you…. I wont leave you" he whispered and you nodded, hugging him back as tight at he does, but you knew, deep down, that his words are straight up lies, he’s still gonna meet that slut behind your back

So, if you want to be 100% sure about his loyalty, you have to get rid of the main problem….

You have to kill that bitch, who tried to take Heeseung away from you, she’s not worth living anyway, and when she’ll finally disappear, everything will go back to the way it was before she ruined it

I mean, every action has consequences, she worked for what will happen to her, and you’ll make sure that she’ll understand that

Jongseong:

Is it normal that best friends are jealous about other people? Or is it normal that best friends want to kill for each other?

The answer is simple: T O T A L L Y !!! After all, that’s just different way of showing the other one you care for them

Jongseong was your best friend since kindergarten, he was the first kid who talked to you, he was your super hero when a boy pushed you of the swing in the 1st grade, he was there for you after your first break up (that night you realized that he would be 100 times better boyfriend for you)

And then, he wanted someone else? He wanted a girlfriend? You are his girlfriend , maybe not the one he meant but you have no problem in becoming one if he wants! Can’t he understand that he only needs you? You know him like your own hand, no one can replace you! It’s so simple yet he can’t see that

That night, when he came to your house, crying about his crush dying in a car accident, you obviously comforted him the best you can, you were there for him, just like he was there for you every time you needed him the most

But you just coudn't stop the smile on your face to appear when you hugged him…

You did it! She wasn’t a threat anymore! Now your Jongseong can be REALLY yours, only yours

Jaeyun:

He is YOUR boyfriend and you are HIS girlfriend, your were loyal to him, and he sweared that he’s loyal to you too, but then he’s still looking at other girl, greeting then when you go for a walk with layla, even texting some of them, it doesn’t matter if it’s only for study purposes

Men are just liars, you shouldn’t believe him when he confessed his true love for you, when he told you, you have no reason to be jealous

"Do you even love me? You’re probably seeing someone else without me knowing, huh? How could I be so stupid and believe you!" you yelled at him with anger visible in your face

"Baby, stop those nonsense! I love you, you know I do! I swear to god!" he reached for your hand, but you knew better that that what he’s trying to do, he thinks one touch and you will be on your knees for him, but you’re not that dumb

"Liar!! Who is it?! I bet it’s that Jennifer girl! Am I wrong?!" suddenly your voice changed dramatically, from female rage to hysteric cries “Why are you like this Jake? Am I not enough? I’m trying my best!” you cried in your hands, your knees getting weaker and you just felt like passing out

"I'm sorry Y/N! Please don't cry! I won’t look at any other girl ever again if it means you’re not going to cry because of me ever again!" He hugged you to his chest, kissing he the top of your head, and caressing your back

You smiled, cause let’s be honest, you’re not the stupid one in this relationship

Sunghoon:

Perfection.

This word can describe Park Sunghoon and his ice skating perfectly, his style and skills are just amazing, everyone knew that

You- as his skating partner- have to be as perfect as he is, if you’re not, your imperfections can ruin his image, and that’s something unacceptable

You were sure that you weren’t enough for him, but someone else was, the only problem being her looks- she just didn’t much him visually, but you did

That’s why your coach told you that Sunghoon will be paired up with her till you improve, you felt like shit after hearing this but you just nodded, it’s not like there’s anything else you could’ve done

That week you practiced super hard, motivated by the sight of Sunghoon with this stealer, your exhaustion was pretty visible, but you didn’t care, not when your partner is holding her hand instead of yours, not when his hands are on her waist, lifting her in the air

You have to get your position back, no. matter. what.

The jealousy was eating you for the inside, and you knew that you can’t live like this any longer

I were thinking about the plan to be Sunghoon’s pair again, and then, like a gift from universe, the opportunity came to you by itself: she was walking down the stairs to the skating ring, no one around to caught you, no cameras, just a perfect chance you couldn’t loose

You weren’t thinking straight, it’s like something had clouded your mind

You pushed her with all your strength, the push was fully personal, all your jealousy and rage was putted in it

She fell, and you watched as her body rolled down the stairs, then you watch her unconscious body- she was alive, but she won’t know who did this to her, you were supposed to be home at this hour so you’re out of the suspect’s list

The next day, as you expected, your coach told you and Sunghoon that she broke her leg, and you will be paired up together again, a smile made it’s way to your face, the coach even praised you, telling you, you’ve improved enough to be Sunghoon’s partner again either way

“I missed you, I couldn’t wait for you to be my pair again! She wasn’t as pretty as you, you know” Sunghoon said, as soon as the coach disappeared from your sight

Your smile became bigger, not only because Sunghoon said he missed you and called you pretty, but also because pushing this idiot down those stairs was worth it

Jungwon:

Your brother started attempting taekwondo classes after school, which you didn’t really care about, till he called you one monday afternoon, and asked you if you could come by and drop him his lunch that he forgot

You were about to tell him to piss off and buy something near, or to not waste your time, but then you thought it over- he would probably snitch on you to your parents- so you agreed

You stepped into the practice room, and the second you layed your eyes on the circle your brother was sitting in, your heart started to beat faster

Right next to your sibling, was the most breathtaking and cute guy you have ever seen, it was a love from the first sight

When he looked at you, a blush appeared on your cheeks and you looked away, hurriedly giving your brother his food and making your way out of the room

from that day, you started to bring lunch for your brother every monday, sometimes even staying longer to watch Jungwon their practice

After quite some time of crushing on Jungwon, you decided to tell him about your feelings- the worst thing he can do is reject you, but he won’t do that, right?

“I’m really sorry Y/N, I like you and I think you’re awesome, but I’m not looking for any relationship now” He shrugged, with an apologetic smile on his face

You froze, blinking was the only think you’re body could do in that moment, your brain stoped working

You couldn't understand that, it’s clear that universe wants you two together, that monday when you saw him for the first time, it’s was destiny who told her to go! Can’t he see that?!

He’s just lying to himself! He must feel the same way! Was he leading you on this whole time?! It’s not possible, he’s not like that!

"Oh… okay" you said with a blank expression

He’s probably playing hard to get, he wants to know how much would you do for him, how long can you wait for his love, but you’re patient, you will be together at the end, you’ll make sure he will understand that you’re made for each other

Sunoo:

You were just shy,quiet worker in small café

It was August 2nd, 5 pm., really warm, summer day- the day you met your soulmate, your lover, your obsession

He ordered ttaebokki with coke zero- kinda weird combination but you didn’t care, all that mattered is that he smiled at you and even said you have nice hair, he was obviously flirting with you, even someone blind would notice

You hated him for how flustered he made you feel by this simple interaction, and you hated yourself even more for not flirting back

Since that day, you’re like his shadow, you even befriended some of his friends so now you’re kinda in a same friend group

Only recently you have confessed you love for him in a letter, where you have confessed everything you fell for in him

When he called the cops and told them he has a stalker, you were a little confused, you didn’t see anyone around him who would possibly stalk him, but you promised yourself that you will find this motherfucker and made them regret scaring you lover

Riki:

In Riki's eyes, you're just his nice desk mate, but in your eyes he’s your whole world, and every time he asked you to borrow a pen or a pencil, you knew that he’s doing that only to get your attention- you found it really cute

every glance he send you made you warm inside, he really is in love with you

You were so in love with him that you didn’t care When he told his hyungs that you're a little weird, what you cared about was the fact that he talked about you to them! It’s not important what he had told them! Maybe he even talks about you to his family!!? That would be like a dream!

Your final push to confess to him was when he complained your outfit: “You look great today” he said and smiled, he has to like you back

What’s confused you is his reaction when you told him you’re meant to be, because if he likes you back, why would he tell you to stay away from him and run away? I guess you just have to give him some time! :))

[haymarketvtubestuff]

The Crew of 2-E, Chapter 1: The Misunderstanding

// Imabari was quite a choice for a family to move to for work, but when the money gets a little tight and your mother finally gets a teaching job with her special education training and your father is a remote IT specialist, you don't get to complain as to the options.

Reon Hasegawa arrived with his mother and father shortly before he would enter middle school, and his parting with his friends was bittersweet - he only made a few friends himself at that point, and he lost one friend already with a botched attempt at a confession. His mother, Miriam (the daughter of a Lebanese-American expat), wouldn't hear of that story until well after the move, and her loving support, along with that of Reon's father, Takumi, helped to ease some of his pain. "It does explain", Miriam would add, "why you were also more able to make friends with girls, but you need to be careful who you say things to, and how." The lesson stuck with Reon. He kept only friends he could trust with his secrets and usually kept to himself, instead helping teachers and volunteering for projects.

Reon met his best friend Daiki Murata in 7th grade when his science club was tasked to work with the student council for setting up the the annual science fair. Reon and Daiki hit it off quite well, and even with Daiki flatly stating his being gay to Reon, to the latter's shock, the two had even more to connect over. They attempted a few dates, even some intimacy, but a private confession between the two made it so they would be best friends who shared something genuinely special. The two would occasionally share a kiss and a hand-holding, but only Daiki would be open about his being exclusively gay.

Reon eventually told his parents as to the brief relationship and the confession. He was too scared to have all the words come out, but after the terror and the crying and the words spilling out, all he heard was assurances, statements of love; all he felt physically were two bodies surrounding him and providing warmth and a needed embrace; all he felt was a release of tension, of a secret he hid since elementary school, of shame.

Unfortunately, the government at large, even the prefecture's, was considerably conservative. Reon's and Daiki's queerness would become a sticking point at school, but not much of one where it would impact their grades. In fact, it was thanks to Reon and Daiki being near the top of their class where they were both were approached by reps from Masataro High School, a private coed STEAM academy in the area, and offered scholarships for tuition. Their families would be on the hook for room and board and books, but at least the boys would be at a nice school and could spend more time socializing.

By the time the two entered high school, there were only rumors of their having dated and broken up. Nothing that could be proven or justified outside of their being chummy. Daiki's introduction to his classmates was nowhere nearly as reserved regarding his being gay as Reon would be about his own relationship with the queer label, but the two found their new friends and clubs while still keeping connected.

There was one class that Reon felt most comfortable in, but couldn't place why at first. 2-E - Mr. Ueno's classroom - was where 1st years would learn more about local history, as well as a bit of government studies. Mr. Ueno seemed a bit more relaxed as a teacher, compared to Reon's other instructors, but that didn't cancel out Mr. Ueno's more passionate discussions on social justice and the importance of ethical and just behavior, contrasting it with a few existing laws that would serve as lessons on how to create rules that would be fairer for everyone.

When looking for clubs, Reon spotted 2-E being used for something he felt was missing from his middle school experience. Something he and Daiki both wanted to request but were too scared to, due to their lack of experience with making a formal request and due to fears of how it'd be received. Daiki would join the school newspaper, occasionally getting in trouble for putting singles ads for himself in the paper, but somehow never getting kicked out because of his passion for words, and Reon would join the chemistry club, but the club in 2-E met on Wednesdays and didn't conflict with their other interests.

2-E became their regular haunt, with Daiki being the self-appointed Queen Queer of the First Years (absolutely no one used that title) and Reon gaining a reputation for being an ally and an unintentional charmer.

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It was a rather rough day for Reon, which was saying something regarding how things were going for his second year with homework and entrance exam prep. Gathering his belongings from the locker became an emotional chore due to his getting confession letters, words from secret admirers, and even outright statements of "I love you, please go out with me" with their names written on it. Rather than make a public show of it, he asked his parents for a paper shredder that he kept in his dorm room. He was lucky in getting a single-bed in the raffle for room assignments, and was allowed the privacy he wanted to decorate and be himself that having a roommate might endanger.

However, there were a few letters that stuck out to him. He recognized who they were written by and carefully observed the authors. For some reason, there was a connection to be made with ten or eleven of them. No, ten.

Every love letter he received, he shredded.

Every meeting for a confession, he politely turned them down, saying that he had "too much going on" to be dating.

His problem was his being too polite - even with the bad news, Reon always thanked the girl (or boy) for their choosing honesty with their feelings over being scared to talk about things and never shamed them for speaking up. He somehow got even more positive attention for it, and it was getting overwhelming.

Reon just wasn't sure how to do it, but he needed to do something crazy in order for things to happen, for a misunderstanding to be made clear.

Daiki was the perfect man to pitch ideas to.

----

"Okay, that's absolutely fucking nuts."

"Yeah, but it might work, right?"

"It could. Do you have your marker?"

"Yep. This should be quick work anyway."

----

The next morning, a large group of students surrounded the school's community flyer board. A rather large poster took up the whole of the board, and on the poster were love letters, wishes to meet up, and confessions written to Reon. The identifying markers had been blacked out with permanent marker, so the students could only send rumors flying about whose was what. The writing styles were all different but not easily discernible as to who wrote what and how - only the author of the letter would know who sent it.

Beyond the notes which were glued onto the poster, there was also a clear message with a cryptic instruction -

The rumor mill kicked up quite a storm - Who was this directed to? Where would they meet? Is it a club room? Which club? What meets on Wednesdays?

IF YOU SEE YOUR LETTER,

YOU KNOW WHERE I AM ON WEDNESDAYS.

MEET ME THERE TOMORROW.

I WILL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING.

The message got out before it was unceremoniously torn down by the principal for the 3rd years. Reon hoped he would have the chance to talk.

----

There were a few students outside of those invited who sussed out the location, but they were turned away seemingly randomly by Daiki. Those spurned were treated to a rare instance of his mean side - Daiki was known for being a comedian and a man of well-chosen words, but he knew how to make an insult hurt. The tone choice was risky but necessary. Too many people were claiming to be one of the ten students Reon wanted to speak with, and those who saw a student being admitted occasionally tried to force their way in, only to be more sternly turned away by Mr. Ueno.

Once all ten arrived, both of the self-appointed bouncers cleared the hall of stragglers who were wanting to listen in on the conversation and soon shut the classroom doors, locking them so to prevent entry except to administrators.

Even with the sense of privacy and the guidance of his best friend and his teacher, Reon was nervous. What he was about to say was either going to make his life in high school hell or make it an absolute hell.

Around him was quite the motley crew of students. They were taking the time to absorb their surroundings in the classroom. As this was a history classroom, there were the usual government flowcharts and historic figures biographies, and a few encouragement posters to boot. What was unfamiliar to them was the presence of flags that they knew weren't for countries - there were pride flags as well.

In retrospect, what else could have been expected from the school's GSA meeting room?

The students were as varied as the flags.

Iori Furisawa, the art club president, was the lone boy out of the 10, and not only that, but also the first to be clued in personally as to the rejection being complicated. It was Iori's confession letter that impelled Reon's arranging the meeting, because it was thanks to talking with Iori that Reon had figured out how to say things.

"I'm honored that you could trust me with telling me you were gay, but there's something I can't tell you yet that would help you understand why I said I like you as well ... but not in the same way."

It wasn't exactly a rejection, but Iori felt that the phrasing was hinting at something important.

Haru Shirokawa, a first year, also from the art club, was present, but she, like all the others, with the exception of the delinquent in the room, was visibly nervous and trying to understand the context.

Haru spent an equal amount of time between worry and trying to understand why so many people she recognized were here: Emu Kazetani from math class and the manga writing club; Osami Musada, the soccer club manager; Tama Naegi, the softball club manager; Esumi Kozuke, a senior from the literature club; the Hamada twins, Kaede and Yurisa, from the fashion club; Natsuki Araya, the first 2nd year to become the kendo club captain; and the delinquent in question - Aneko Suda - who was more often skipping class or spotted working with her gang to fix older cars.

Introductions weren't entirely necessary between the students, but still felt like a requirement. At the first opportunity to get attention, Reon called for the meeting to start.

"I'm sorry that I needed to resort to something so dramatic as the poster, but I needed to try and get your attention because this was something important to me."

Student and teacher alike didn't immediately parse it, but the second instance made clear that they had heard correctly - Reon was using watashi to refer to himself. It didn't dampen the feeling offense at such a public display. "What's going on here?" "Why here?" "What's the big idea for the poster?" Reon waited for calm to return so to answer.

"Again, I am sorry for how I did it. But, in my defense, it was better that I tell you all at once and have you all in the same room." His face betrayed nervousness, even with the even speech. Suddenly, he lost his nerve, but couldn't move. The words didn't want to come. His breathing started to quicken, his heart racing. Then he felt a hand tracing lazy shapes, a hand holding his.

Daiki's. Reon felt tears running down his face as the tension left him. It had to be said, and he still had his friend who knew how to help still the nerves. Reon whispered a quick thank you, briefly leaning his head onto Daiki's and feeling the warmth return.

Feeling more resolved, Reon continued with a clarification. "Daiki is my ex, and we're still good friends, but the reason he and I broke up was my realizing that while I liked guys ... "

He waited for his audience to process the information. Iori was more visibly confused. It was better to go in with a one-two punch instead of trying to drag it out.

"I couldn't date Daiki because I was straight."

Stone silence.

The first to fully understand it was Iori. Soon after was Haru. Then the Hamadas. Then the rest.

The only person who otherwise kept a cool visage was Aneko. Incidentally, she was the first to speak up.

"So you're saying you're only presenting as a guy right now."

It wasn't quite the summary Reon was expecting - in fact, it stunned him that it was put so bluntly - but it was the gist of it. If he weren't still nervous about how these people would react, he'd laugh at the bluntness. All he could do was smile.

"Pretty much. Now, if you would allow me to properly introduce myself to all of you ... While my school ID says one thing, the name I carry in my heart is -"

----

"Mom, Dad ... I need to talk about me and Daiki."

=

Reon had felt something was wrong. He was fine with liking guys romantically and being around girls, but there was this extra sensation that was bothering him. He knew it wasn't sexual feelings, but it was just that sense something didn't line up about him. Something that felt like a total mismatch that he didn't have the name for. He was already out to his family as gay, but was that even correct?

He loved Daiki dearly, but something deep inside Reon made him feel like he was lying to his best friend, his boyfriend. He needed to meet up with Daiki about this, but he wanted to make sure of a few things. Reading through books at home and articles online all but confirmed Reon's suspicions and made even more necessary the discussion ... discussions to be had.

=

"I ... I never ... I'm not ..."

Reon couldn't get the words out. He was too scared. Even with all of the research he did, finding the words that more easily came when speaking with Daiki, stressful as they were, even more difficult to say. He remembered how he felt when he was angrily rejected that one day. He ...

No.

She wasn't sure how to tell her parents. She knew they promised to always love her, but they promised it to a son, not a daughter. The tears flowed with heat and self-hate and fear. The arms surrounded. The voices soothed. The words spilled. The fear escaped, the fear escaped, the fear escaped ... and love raced in.

=

"Daiki, I'm a girl."

"Dude, I've seen your fine self in PE. You don't have a vagina."

"No, I mean ..." Reon paused, too frustrated to speak.

"I never felt like a boy in the first place."

Daiki stared at his boyfriend - girlfriend? Friend? - trying to process this news. Daiki still liked only boys, so does that mean he's bi now? No, he still only had crushes on his male classmates.

This was different, painful, special. And Daiki could see the pain in Reon's eyes. The two sat up from Daiki's bed, Daiki sitting on Reon's left

"I haven't ever felt like a boy, really," Reon continued. "I think the word for me is ... transgender."

The silence could physically be touched. It was broken apart by the sound of Daiki scooting over towards his friend and the sound and sensation of a thud, a head leaning onto Reon's shoulder and head, the sensation of two hands holding Reon's left hand, Daiki tracing lazy shapes like he usually did, the sensation of tears running down Reon's face unbidden.

"Do you still want me to call you Reon?"

Maybe the two wouldn't be boyfriends, but the two felt a genuine love for each other.

=

"You need to be extremely careful about who you tell this to, but we're going to support you all along your journey, and your mother and I want you to know we love you and we want to learn with you."

=

"Only at school and around my parents, unless they're cool with it. In private, you can call me ..."

----

"Reina. The name I go by is Reina. I use feminine pronouns when I am around my family, several teachers, Daiki, and, well, all of you now."

Silence again. Thick tension. Fear crept back in. Daiki's right hand returned, holding Reina's left tightly, letting her know she still had support.

"I see now why I never had a shot." Iori's voice broke the ice. Reina looked towards the art club president and saw a loving smile. The other students had similar expressions.

There was no anger in their hearts - maybe about how the meeting was called, but not towards Reina's being true to herself. Even Aneko was tearing up. She would deny it later, of course.

"Actually, can-"

Reina heard two voices, and saw two hands raised. She acknowledged the two girls - Haru and Yurisa. Yurisa spoke first after Haru deferred to her senior.

"Not to take away from your moment, but I was wondering if I had a shot if I didn't identify as a girl ... or a boy." Kaede held her sister close, whispering something that seemed congratulatory.

Haru was now less nervous about her own addition. "I was wondering the same, but if some days I felt more like a girl, and other days like a boy."

Reina felt the tears coming back, but it was clear to her that they were tears of joy and relief. She was being offered the same gift of trust as she offered to what would eventually be called The Crew.

"I'll get back with you on that." They were, after all, good questions, but Reina felt more relieved to tell these people. She was right to trust them.

The discussion had to end eventually, with the PA announcing that all students should leave the school building if not involved in clubs. The ten invited had left, with Reina and Daiki staying behind with their teacher. Reina offered a formal gesture to her teacher and a private word.

"Thank you, Ms. Ueno, for your help."

----

(< Girl, you knocked that out of the park!)

(Shut up, that was a near disaster. >)

(< I mean, it was, but they don't hate you for telling them the truth.)

(I guess. >)

(But we also got a larger friend group out of it. >)

(Have fun, and thank you. >)

(< For sure.)

(< I'm going to work on an article for the paper. Proud of you.)

(< Good night, the one one and only girl I'd go straight for ;) )

----

(Get back to your writing, jerkass :P >)

(Love you too >)

"'We're so proud of you telling people, sweetie!"

"It's so nice to talk to more people without having to put up a front."

"Thanks, mom and dad. I'm still scared about how this is going to work, but I know I've got more people in my corner."

"I hate to repeat the advice we gave a while back, but you're still going to have to live a double life around your classmates. Don't burn yourself out."

"I know, dad. But thank you."

"Get some sleep, kiddo."

"Will do, mom. Love you both."

----

Reina was burned out from the entire day - going to dinner in the cafeteria with ... she wasn't sure how to name the group she was out to. All she could think of for now was The Crew. But between dinner with her new friends, catching up on homework, texting Daiki, and talking with family, she had no social battery left. All she wanted to do was shower and sleep, and she was about to do just that.

The chaos in her mind was filled with fears for the future - how others would react was the big one. Students were relatively easy to predict, but teachers weren't as easy. Just because an adult was older didn't mean they were wiser or safer to talk to. Little things like presentation, transition, and college prep filled in the gaps, but she had a strong craft to navigate the turbulent sea.

For the first time since she came to school, Reina went to sleep with a smile on her face.

[thatsthetriick]

Y/n looking at Jojos as competitions/rivals (hcs)

Summary: You consider the Jojos a rival, and competition when it gets to grades and all, they never did anything to you but you’re just generally annoyed at them because you think they’re better than you and you’re annoyed that they are better than you, you’re not jealous just annoyed that they exceeded you. (basically enemies to lover for short) Inspiration: Based on real life thoughts with a person honestly lmaO I really think they are a compeition(they don’t know) but in the end it’s just a friendly thing. Disclaimers: Underage smoking (Just because this action is being done here it doesn’t mean you should do it too, for both my adult and teen audiences i rlly don’t recommend this and just because I used it in this fic doesn’t mean you should do it as well) , and  mentions of violence, or implied violence, drugs are also mentioned( i repeat i do not encourage these behaviours in real life) Header: Orange Other writings: Masterlist/Taglist Requests/questions: Ask/Request Box

Jojos as your Rivals

Jonathan Joestar

  ✧ God. To you he was really annoying, teachers praised him and he was a top student in the rankings and a teacher’s pet, you’d never see him complain, cry, or anything at all.

  ✧ Of course he was the class president and a student council so it annoyed you more since he was kind of like a mary sue in your eyes, the fact that he got good grades and doesn’t seem to have a hard time in the things he does really annoy you.

 ✧ You were in the top 3 top students except you’re in 3rd place and you could never beat Jonathan, moreover he’s also an athlete and you were bothered that girls were practically drooling to him. But despite this you’ll never do anything to seek revenge, you won’t embarrass him or frame him because you still have morals.

 ✧ Though you were just grumpy and passive agressive to him sometimes whenever the teacher asks him to help you, you really didn’t like receiving help from him because for you, you think that’s a sign of weakness.

 ✧ Of course you get parterned up with him a big project that was considered as your examination and you hated it. You treated it more of a individual work, but after knowing him a bit from that project you kinda like how he acted, polite, kind and patient.

  ✧ Everytime he sees you struggle and you decline for help he’ll just go behind you or besides you and either guide your hands to fix it or he’ll fix it himself and he’ll just smile afterwards, it was really cute and you’ll mentally slap yourself for liking him, were you forgetting he was rival?

 ✧ He’ll slowly consider you as a friend and he would really really feel guilty for assuming that you were a rude person base on you act towards him but he eventually thinks that you’re a kind person in the inside but a bit stubborn and he finds that cute.

 ✧ If it’s a love story you and him will secretly date and its not obvious to the world that you two are dating, you were never touchy with him in public, you two still acted the same honestly, a bit stubborness coming from you and stubborness from Jonathan because he’s really willing to help you with everything, eitherway you two only have playful fights and a few REAl arguments here an there but you two eventually make up again a few days later.

 ✧ If it’s a platonic relationship you two would be the bestest of friends and you two would have playful arguments and some people would literally ship you two because of your friendship.

 Joseph Joestar

 ✧ This guy was intelligent but lazy and yet he still gets 1st place in the class as a top student with A+ grades, and you found it also annoying that he was naturally talented and effortlessly got them, you sometimes wonder if he cheats.

 ✧ And because you think he cheats you go out of your way to site his essays and public works to see if he uses references or anything, but no this guy is just naturally talented and you felt like he didn’t deserve especially with his laid off attitude.

 ✧ Now you don’t show your passive aggressive side to him because you know better not to make him think that you’re literally angry at him, for you he’s just a competition and another boss level to defeat, it’s not personal just a fun thing you do so you don’t take out your anger out on him.

 ✧ He is also an athlete, of course the Joestar bloodline and legacy literally revolves around the sports they take, so it was no surprise, you on the other hand is also an athlete and you would most likely take the competition seriously whenever there’s a boys vs girls basketball game, you were the MVP let’s just say, sports was like your whole life.

 ✧ Of course there’s an annual event that the high school hosts where as every student will be competing against each other, the remaining 4 players will be the ones set out to compete to another sports festival in a different school. They will choose 4 players per sport.

 ✧ Of course you chose to marathon since you were honestly swift and that was more on your main sport, running. And it was Joseph’s as well and you two had to compete with each other among other students, he’ll say something cocky to you that is enough to motivate you to defeat him.

 ✧ Eventually you and Joseph were one of the 4 people chosen to compete in another school, and though it took awhile for you two to agree on things you two won the tournament with teamwork and ever since then your friend consists of constant and non stop teasing and playful banters.

 ✧ “What do you mean? I clearly made our team win!” he’d say and you’d just roll your eyes at his cockiness. Though you’d retort with something cocky as well.

Jotaro Kujo

 ✧ You honestly don’t know why this guy was even a top student he often gets into fights and the teachers just shrug it off,  you find it annoying he gets to answer everything before you and finish quizzes before you and you get so pissed and can’t understand why is he quick and he doesn’t seem like a type to review.

 ✧ He’s pissed at every fangirl he has and he is pissed at you sometimes as well because you try avoiding him, yeah he’s aware of your competitiveness and he doesn’t really care that much.

 ✧ But you do so you basically you’re like legit pissed at him and you think that he also doesn’t deserve his intelligence since he’s just wasting it away by smoking cigarettes at the back of the school and fighting people it was honestly annoying and you wish you had his intelligence at the same time.

 ✧ Unlike the others maybe in this one you’re being constantly pressured by high grades so you started smoking as well to relieve your stress, you’d somberly sulk at the back of the school as well smoking your problems away it made you feel calm for some reason.   ✧ He sees you there and mumbles a “Tch” while he adjusts his cap and walk near you and light up his cigarette and doesn’t say a word, he doesn’t honestly care what you were doing, anyone was allowed to do anything they want to do so he left you there.  ✧ Honestly he started getting concerned of you when you were often doing it, even he knew that too much is too much. “ That’s enough” he’ll say and take your cigarette pack away, “Touche” you’ll just roll your eyes and walk away. He’d always stop you from smoking, you were getting addicted honestly and it’s not helping since every minute you were getting stressed out.  ✧ When you’re not listening to him he’ll agressively tell you to “cut it off bitch.” or something along those lines, and you didn’t really know he was a person who hid his feelings so you snapped and scolded him that you were a mess because of him  and took out all of your anger and left honestly.  ✧ He couldn’t care less what you said about him and tried to accompany you at the back of the school or in the rooftops everytime it’s break or the end of classes, he didn’t speak that much but he was a good listener and constantly listened to your problems, eventually this is a routine and you treasured every second of it.  ✧ It became a thing that you two basically  sit on the rooftop talking to each other, from then on he’d accompany you outside of school as well and you two would hangout and it would be nice quiet moments when he’s around, he’s also a very protective friendship. Josuke Higashikata  ✧ This guy really doesn’t care about his grades and yet he gets high score it was also annoying that teachers adore him, and that every girl adores him as well. Unfortunately you two were partners for a spelling Bee. Only professors were allowed to choose who participates, and though Josuke might not be accurate with his english pronounciations and spellings he still had high grades and it annoyed you that he got to participate his weak subjects just because he has high grades.  ✧ Honestly he’d hate it as well and would just play games all day long instead of studying or anything, and during the spelling bee he didn’t help at all and you were pissed at him. Even though you were softly and passive agressively scolding him he didn’t get mad back and just said a “Okay okay! I’m sorry.” he’ll apologize and try to study but he’ll get distracted.  ✧ Teachers still continued to praise him and gave no praise to you at all even though you carried your partner to the finish line, that’s why you hated Josuke, he was loved by everyone and you never understood why, was it his personality? Smarts? What was it?   ✧ From that then you’ll break into his house with no permission and catch him playing video games. You’ll scold him to study the words and act like a strict teacher towards him, he dozed off a lot and was laid back and distracted, yet he was still able to answer some of them.  ✧ This is why you didn’t like him he was too laid back and didn’t seem to take things seriously, because of this you suggested a break and he went back t o playing his video games and getting frustrated, and even though you were tight while teaching him he was kind enough to still offer you to play with him. You were going to decline but you still accepted it.  ✧ This is where you saw his true personality, he talked about a lot of things and you two ended up having fun as you two play, you didn’t mind this moment and you’d want it to treasure it forever honestly. You brought up your personality as well to him, you started showing your true colors and he really liked the fact that you weren’t an overbearing person at all.  ✧ ever since then you two manage to win the competitions and manage to play at the same time. You two became the bestest friends which was unexpected since you considered him as a rival, though you’re still annoyed because everytime you ask him to teach you he’ll teach really badly and you wouldn’t understand anything from him. Giorno Giovanna   ✧ This guy was a quiet yet smart type, he often sits at the back of the class dazing off the window and yet still able to answer questions of the teacher even when not paying attention.   ✧ Though you compete with him you know not to mess with him honestly, though a lot of really negative rumours constantly spread about him. Like his family problem and things like that so you pity him at some times.  ✧ Girls adore him, something about the Joestars getting fangirls annoys you a lot. They baby him, and even though sometimes he gets annoyed and straightforwadly tells them to go away sometimes he’d entertain them and be kind. Teachers always saw him as a role model student it makes you barf.  ✧He’ll also probably hangout with his school gang, nobody knows what this gang does honestly, the teachers just leave him be just because they want to just leave him be and they’re too naive; thinking that it’s just a normal innocent gang where it’s a group of kids hanging out.  ✧ You caught up his ‘gang’ beating up someone and since you were a witness he saw you as a immediate threat(or so you though) and this quiet kid did a whole 180 with his personality and looked at you menacingly.  ✧ You don’t know how to approach him that you won’t tell anyone you’ve witnessed and always ran away everytime he approaches you or everytime his gang approaches you. Now your rivalary and competiting against grades is now ruined because this guy could always beat you anyday when it gets to physical fights, or so you thought.  ✧ You always ate lunch at the rooftop so he kind of took this opportunity to calmly sit besides you and talk to you about what you saw, he just wanted to give you context so that you wouldn’t get the wrong idea. Apparently that guy was an adult selling drugs to a bunch of graduating elementary kids.  ✧ You were relieved he wasn’t gonna beat you up and put you in the sewers, you took this time to also talk to him to actually see he was a nice guy, a gentle man and that you thought he was a cocky student because you always assumed him like that, not only that but you assumed him being a playboy as well since he gets so much attention.  ✧ You confess all of this to him and he let’s out a quick chuckle and you just laugh as you confess all of your thoughts and competitiveness against him, he was a good listenered actually, and didn’t take it really personally, he knew deep inside that you were a good person even though before you used to give him a scary glare when you two didn’t talk yet.  ✧ From that day on you start catching up to him in the hallways and talk and all his fangirls would practically hate you and give you glares as you two are having a good time.  ✧ He’ll make sure you’re out of his school gang businesses and arguments with other gangs, he may not say or sometimes express it but he always cares for you and tries to be supportive in littliest ways such as listening and remembering to every detail you tell him.  ✧ you’d still playfully compete with him and if he wins you’re okay with it unlike before

Thanks for reading! Reqs are open! My only requirements is no nsfw and probbably not part 5 yet since im not there hihi.(P.s I do canon x oc :) ) Sorry for not uploading for awhile