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happy bingge for gibsonrae1's donation to svsssaction! instead of amassing a harem, bingge becomes a cat dad bc happy cats make happy people! (even though the event is no longer accepting donations, perhaps consider donating to fundraisers vetted by gaza funds / gaza esims as supplies are very low!)
#svsss#scum villians self saving system#original luo binghe#bingge#luo bingge#mxtx#my art#i think svsssaction is still looking for pinch hitters for a few prompts if anyone is interested#i thought this one would be the simplest prompt bc it was just two words: happy bingge#me: NICE i'll just go in and do a sweet smiling bingge#hand: but what about cats tho??? cats ARE happiness#sj is the prisoner confirmed but everytime bingge gets a cat to choose a limb#the cat gets distracted by like a butterfly#so sj is spared for yet another day#it'd be funny if mbj had cat allergies in this au#that's why no scritches :c
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Danny moved to Gotham.
Freakshow is touring in Gotham.
Freakshow knows Danny is in Gotham.
Danny knows Freakshow is still after him.
Danny's faith in heroes has been shattered.
Danny turns to the only person powerful enough to run Freakshow out of town, hopefully for good.
Danny turns to the Joker for help.
The Joker is looking for a new punching bag sidekick after Harley Quinn left him.
Danny is just the perfect person to be shaped by the Joker's hands.
Danny becomes the new Joker Junior.
#pondhead blurbs#dpxdc#how we feeling about this fellas#i think it's an ideal angst fic#but i don't wanna write it lol#the younger danny is the worse it gets#someone said that danny shouldn't be afraid of the joker because he's a clown and freakshow is a ringmaster. not a clown#if i find that post i'll tag the creator cause i can't remember rn#but i'm imagining danny who is heavily traumatized and scared and lonely#finding out that one of his worst enemies he hoped to never see again is hunting him and is so close danny has to check his eyes every day#just to make sure they haven't turned red#his anxiety is out of control and he's not about to go find a Bat or Bird to talk to#who would believe him anyways? he's a monster#but danny needs help cause he will not survive this on his own and he knows it#freakshow haunts his every waking dream#but freakshow isn't from gotham. he doesn't have the city's curses engraved into his blood. he never died and he's not truly teasing death#so danny chooses to plead for help from the only predator bigger than freakshow (in his eyes) who IS from gotham#danny goes to the Joker. prepared to offer everything but his free will and free mind. he can't give those up. it's all he has.#danny is a feral house cat asking a tiger to take care of a mountain lion for him by offering the tiger his own liver on a silver platter#joker is...delighted? maybe? no one is quite sure. but he takes what danny offers.#here is this little boy. almost the same age as the second robin when he died. pleading for the JOKER to be his savior. this will be fun
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get tackled, moron.
plus extra comic that i did not think was worth posting on its own. my bad. (this was just to play around with designs.)
#cult of the lamb#cotl#my art#cotl comic#narinder#the lamb#heket#narilamb#once again. if you SQUINT. they have wedding rings idk what you want from me#narilamb (in parenthese) like that#cotl heket#i was staring at my canvas for like 3 days like hmm i should draw. but then i didnt.#one day i'll get a consistent way to draw the lamb. one day.#something something about cats chasing laser pointers#leshy#shamura#kallamar#cotl leshy#cotl shamura#cotl kallamar
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"Allies should be okay with hearing hard truths that we have been suffering through for years, because if a child has to experience it, they as an adult can take the time to understand it with their adult brain and their adult emotions, and if they cannot handle that, I shouldn't have to be okay with handling their feelings gently."
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"Sometimes we go too hard on allies because they're the only person who benefits from the problem who will listen to us, and the anger that we have carried from being wronged for years should not be put solely put on the shoulders of people trying to help us, and they should not have to be okay with being mistreated with the same hatred that people have aimed at us."
Can and should coexist actually.
#cat chats#it's all about context#if someone you care about makes an insensitive joke about your experience#you should be able to tell them it's not okay and they should be able to be like 'sorry i'll do better'#but if all the butt of your jokes are about their experience being a majority#and they say 'hey this is starting to get heavy'#and your response is 'well you can just deal with it because i have to deal with people who are like you every day'#or 'well obviously i'm not talking about you because you're one of the good ones' when you openly condemn people like them#maybe take a step back friend#some jokes are better between people with your lived experiences especially when you're venting frustrations#i don't expect my allo friends to listen to all my aroace jokes about allo people because some of them only hit right with aroace people#especially the 'imagine having to have sex to feel human' or 'nobody knows how to be friends anymore they gotta make it weird' jokes#but they should absolutely acknowledge that american society is designed for people in a relationship with two incomes#and people aren't looking for an end all situationship where they're both friends chilling in an apartment together with no romance or sex#because god forbid we touch each other platonically in any way or people will think we're dating and in love#or how most of american society views that you can't just be friends with someone once you fall in love with them because it's not the same#or how once you're in a relationship everyone else in the world shouldn't matter more than your partner or you're 'emotionally cheating'#and most movie plots that are like 'i don't do romance' always end up with someone softening their heart and giving them a romantic subplot#or that people can't have sex and have it mean nothing it always has to be a romantic thing#like tell them how it is but don't make them your punching bag ya know?
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Jel my beloved
#palia#palia fanart#jel omiata#one day i'll learn how to pronounce his surname#since i found out Palia is pronounced payleeuh i've been second-guessing all my pronunciations#if Jel's name turns out to be pronounced 'yell' i might have to break up with him#I'm trying to get Zeki as my shepp rn#cause I love him and his walk cycle#Zeki please adopt me. Be my weird space cat guardian#I first found out about Palia about 2 years ago I think#I saw the art for Jel and Zeki and Einar and I was immediately sold#because Jel looks and talks like one of my book characters Leo#'Palia is a flawed game' 'gamers hate palia'#gamers have never set eyes upon Jel Omiata
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Is Etcetera, Electra and Jemima also taller than Mistoffelees ,like pouncival and Tumblebrutus?
Or maybe they are the same height, or is it just that Jemima is still smaller than Mistoffelees? It would be pretty funny if the youngest of the tribe is taller than Mistoffelees too lol
HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope you have a good new year <3
hhh Im getting my inbox out of order now but I think this question is great and I was too excited to answer it XD when it comes to character design I have always cared VERY MUCH about heights!!! and we love a short king uwu
so to answer your question...in the beginning, Jemima, Electra, and Etcetera, and Mistoffelees are all around the same height. however, as it has been established, the Conjuring Cat never remains on equal footing for terribly long before his younger compatriots inevitably outgrow him.
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I like the idea of little Jemima growing to be at least a head taller than Mistoffelees lmao. Victoria and Pouncival on the other hand do end up being taller than him, but not by much. I think Electra ends up being pretty tall too; Etcetera enjoys a more middling stature when she's done growing.
so yes indeed, Mistoffelees is the smallest and slinkiest cat in the Junkyard! the good news is, at least in my fanverse, he's not too preoccupied with his unusually diminutive size. he does have magical powers after all, which makes up for...a lot XD and being small makes it all the easier to be sneaky and agile
#I admit it. I love a pintsized powerhouse#also tried drawing mistoffelees more based off his 'ensemble look' for once bc I feel like I need to get used to doing that#Im a Tall Adult Jemima truther#dramatic height differences my beloved#cats the musical#cats musical#mistoffelees#mr mistoffelees#jemima cats#sillabub#(if you're a yank)#jellicle tag#my shit#I'll probably end up doing a proper height comparison one day#I was gonna include my og character line up but I now strongly dislike that design for jemima saur#nah#jellicle asks
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#IM SUPPOSED TO BE WRITING FUCK#FUCK YOU GUYS FOR SENDING ME THAT SILLY CAT WITH STICKERS#i HAD to draw megumi with stickers bruh how cOULD I NOT#dude look at him he's just so wistful and in love idk#i think this is one of my better pieces#i can FEEEEL myself slowly getting better with art and i just know that one day. i'll be able to get to a place where i am truly proud#this is more like that transitional period in between and i can feel a shift in my art#i really really like the rendering for this one idk im just proud#why can i never do backgrounds lol just give me lines fr#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#megumi fushiguro#megumi#fushiguro megumi#fushiguro#jjk art#fan art#jjk fanart#tess art
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Time for a new toy!
Seems like skateboard is the clear winner! (Doing it a little early this week since I didnt mean to leave it so late last time, hopefully there isn't suddenly hundreds of votes for something else after I post this lol) Tomorrow there will be a skateboard in the garden :D
So now it's time to decide for next week,
("Nothing" is an option that will still yield a cat, it's not just there like a trick lol)
#UTDR#UTMV#Neko Sansume#Got the special guy all tested out and ready to go in the morning ^^#I think like last week I'll reblog this post once he's live and then maybe again later in the day so nobody misses it#I hope you guys like the specialness of this one :D#I also have an idea for like. an event?#Event isn't really the right word but a special thing for this#You'll know it when you see the poll options :3c#But in the meantime I might need to have less options in the poll as I build up towards it#We'll see how it goes#I wanna make sure all the cats get to show up at least once so I need to plan it out#But I'm excited to see who gets picked for next week!! :D
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what’s up with BB! Puddleshine? been having thoughts about him recently lol. i find it funny that rowanstar grabbed this random child from the nursery and was like ‘bam here’s our brand new doctor and spiritual leader everyone’
(*shaking twelve year old in the background*)
You know what's pretty cool about AVoS, buried underneath the slog of it all? The thing I keep going back to about this arc, in spite of how annoying it is to be forced to say in ThunderClan as everything interesting happens off-screen?
The way that so, so many young warriors are horrifically traumatized by both the structure of the Clans, and the Kin that they turn to.
It's a shame that the Erins were so committed to the idea of the Clan social structure NOT being the problem, because this whole arc is a perfect time to show how flawed it structurally is. LET these kids have a point, that maybe they were rebelling against something broken, but Darktail was a malicious actor who exploited their naivety to serve HIS ends.
A recap of what's happening in BB!AvoS before I explain my intentions with the Puddy Boy;
The big problem that I want Rowanstar to display is a problem that ALL the leaders of this time period also have. Commitment to Clan rivalry.
After Firestar was killed in AVoS by Dark Forest warriors, Bramblestar considers diplomacy secondary as a tactic. "ThunderClan will not be bullied any longer. We have been too soft with the other Clans for too long; and they have humiliated us by taking advantage of our kindness." (Note: Harespring and Breezepelt being part of the assassination patrol is not revealed until TBC. For MAXIMUM drama reveal.)
He escalated a border dispute that Firestar had worked closely and intimately with ShadowClan to resolve; a fight for a knoutberry patch on their border, just before Winter.
After Russetfur died in this painful battle, Blackstar backslid hard from his redemption arc. This caused the Thunder/Shadow alliance to dissolve towards the end of OotS, ending a friendship between the two Clans that had lasted through all of Po3.
He was open to Sol's manipulation, and while Tawnypelt was trying to fight the Dark Forest trainees who took over ShadowClan in the meantime... Rowanclaw became deputy by organizing a patrol of cats to remind Blackstar how much he means to them.
So Rowanstar inherits the Clan with this in mind. ShadowClan solves SHADOWCLAN'S problems. "ThunderClan had a quarrel with WindClan, but decided that we were their enemy. Leaving ourselves open for betrayal was a mistake; if we cannot handle our own problems, we will inevitably succumb to them when our so-called 'allies' don't come to help." (Note: he isn't completely wrong. His words are borderline prophetic for what's about to happen.)
Onestar has a smug chuckle at this. Since taking leadership, he's been appealing to the strongest, hardest members of his Clan. Those who once tried to kill him for his "weakness" in the Civil War. The "lesson" ShadowClan learned is one that he's known since the day Onewhisker died and Onestar was born, on the night of that sabotaged muirburn. "That so-called peace was always a farce. We are warriors of the four Clans; it was always going to come down to honor, and putting ourselves first. My WindClan isn't foolish enough to pretend like ThunderClan ever acted in anything but their own, hidden self-interest."
And Mistystar respects the direction Bramblestar has taken his Clan in, and approves of the "honesty" that the Clans are now showing. "As the branches of the honeysuckle fight and win the light for themselves, sometimes there are beautiful flowers that die in the shade. We can mourn the end of an era, and prepare for a future that will be made all the sweeter for our shared struggle. This is the way of the Clans, and StarClan's solemn light shines upon us all." (Note: god I love writing Misty's speeches)
In the family tree reworkings, Rowanstar is now the brother of Littlecloud. Sons of Brokenstar, honor-sired for Newtspeck.
Littlecloud... is suffering from early onset Alzheimer's.
He didn't want to choose an apprentice after Flametail's horrible death, heartbroken and stressed out, especially when he couldn't reach his nephew through contact with StarClan.
He can't remember, anymore, that Flametail was freed. He keeps forgetting this, over and over
He keeps ending up in different times of his life, where he's best friends with Cinderpelt and still calling Leafpool by her pre-Honor Title name, where he's inventing a mobility device for Wildfur, where he's still escaping the plague and before he knew his mentor caused it, where he's on the Great Journey...
Rowanstar is in a lot of pain, watching his brother forget so many things, scared and confused half the time. He doesn't want to believe that this is really the end, or that... many of these cats are now so young they can't recognize the various eras that Littlecloud is finding himself in.
Puddleshine and Slatefur are going to remain in Pinenose's litter. Either Lion or Birch MIGHT get shuffled to another one; and ALSO the shuffler might survive the Kin. (SO voice which one you want to survive, if you have a preference!)
SO, Violetshine has either two or three adopted siblings... plus another.
Pinenose's oldest surviving child is Happypaw. Happy is the half-sibling of Puddle/Slate-- the death of Weaselkit in the Great Battle caused his parents (Pinenose and Owlclaw) to break up.
(this is why I'm thinking about just reducing the litter to Puddle/Slate, so Violet has three major adoption-siblings to remember instead of four.)
And now we're ready to talk about Puddleshine.
He isn't the first young cat to be shoved into an extremely high-pressure position because of a Cleric becoming incapacitated. Kestrelflight was also forced to become the holy speaker of his people when he was far, far too young, after Barkface died in TNP. He dealt with this obediently, with only Jayfeather ever really being able to get him to think about it in a different light.
Unlike Kestrel, Puddlekit did voice that he was interested in becoming a Cleric, in BB. But he was too young to be properly making that choice, to know what he was getting into. He mentioned it practically offhandedly, and BOOM Rowanstar had rolled him into the position.
But Puddlepaw has a deep sense of responsibility. "Wise beyond his years"-- likely because of how tumultuous his home life was.
His mother's oldest child, Happypaw, was openly a bully of his half-siblings. Pinenose distanced herself from him as a result, causing Happy to be closer to Owlclaw, who was still not over Weaselkit's death.
But Puddle's Ba Spikefur is not a cat who handles his kit's emotions well. Instead, he encourages ambition, tells him to get back at his half-sibling by being more influential than that twerp could ever be.
Puddle will often go to Violet, the new POV, to vent about these things.
And one thing he mentions to her is how amazing Kestrelflight is, when he gets to meet him at the half-moon conferences. He learns SO MUCH from him, it's like he GETS what he's going through...
Puddle doesn't even feel sure that Littlecloud knows what he's doing anymore. If he's learning the right information at all.
But Rowanstar won't DO anything about Littlecloud-- and he CERTAINLY isn't about to let Puddlepaw go train under someone else's Cleric.
As a result of this, Puddlepaw becomes a VERY important member of Sleekpaw's little group. He wasn't one of their friends to begin with, buuuuut...
When he sits to chat with Sleekpaw and Needlepaw, with Happypaw good and far out of earshot, she makes a lot of sense.
A LOT of it.
ShadowClan is run by old men who don't know what they're doing. Rowanstar is too emotional to make good choices. Puddlepaw, barely even old enough to begin apprenticeship, is running all the medicine for an entire Clan.
And, sure, he doesn't have much in the way of a connection to StarClan, no, just a little more spiritual than the average cat...
But who can point this out? If Littlecloud is slowly losing his mind anyway?
"It's not right, how much pressure's on you," Sleekpaw growls, "And it wouldn't be this way if we could challenge Rowanstar. You should be training with Kestrelflight right now."
"But we're dealing with the shells StarClan dealt, and the Clan is looking to you now," Needlepaw points out on behalf of her friend, "You have much more sway than you know."
This time around for BB, Sleekpaw starts as a young hero. She's right. Rowanstar should be challenged, his emotions are affecting the ENTIRE Clan, and Puddlepaw is in a bad position because of it. Needlepaw is like her best diplomat, surely to become her deputy someday.
They would have made an excellent set of leaders for ShadowClan. But they trusted the wrong person, and were exploited. When Darktail and The Kin came to the lake, they were swept up by it, and WindClan began an embargo.
Puddlepaw eventually oversees the Yellowcough Outbreak, and at first just thinks it's Greencough. He has no idea about strains, or the special types of Color Cough that Clan cats have historically dealt with. Even when he finally does learn it's not JUST Greencough, he's powerless to do anything about it. A lot of cats die because of the lack of mullein.
After that, with ShadowClan so weak and the Kin so strong... he's one of the cats who calls for the merge. The most important one, in fact, leveraging his position to say that this is StarClan's will.
Sleekwhisker and Needletail were right all along, and he's happy to stick it right into everyone's faces. Onestar's tantrum of an embargo killed his Clanmates, Rowanstar stopped him from properly training, he's been under pressure from the time he was small with Littlecloud not fit to be a mentor, and he's ready to welcome in ShadowClan's new era as something that is not a Clan.
...unfortunately, it turned out to be the wrong choice. Not because his thought process was wrong. But because Darktail had other plans in-mind.
#Also I did decide on it being early onset alzheimer's for BB!Littlecloud specifically#It means a lot to me... my great-grandmother had it in her last days. And it's very likely I'll get it someday too#and the line that leads from her down to me#it scares me. So I want to explore it. For myself#especially in such a terrible situation like this#BB!Puddleshine#obsessed with all of these children making big choices for their Clan and the way it's going to make them turn on their IDEAS#They were right. They were right to be mad at what they were mad at#But it was a bad actor who ruined it.#If I have to deal with a born-evil foreigner in BB. Then I'll lean into it. I'll reveal he wasn't such an outsider after all.#And I'll show that the xenophobic backlash was the WORST possible route for all of these cats to take#and yet... they do. They attack the one thing they felt they had control over#When the truth is that it wasn't their fault.#BB!Rowanstar#Better Bones AU#BB!AVOS#Their biggest mistake was being mislead. I hope Puddsy realizes that when he looks at Shadowpaw#Kindness for himself through kindness for another.
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Well that marks the end of jjk.. I'm not really happy with how all this turned out but the story will always be close to my heart. Though a lotttt of questions went unanswered and apparently everything is fine now. Most of the dead and injured are back and dandy moving to live their lives in normalcy. Our main trio is back to their work. I will admit it was quite nice seeing them being dumb and just normal(their happy faces are all i could ask for) But it did feel lacking...I picked up JJK because of how it dealt with "trauma and the effect it has on a person".
We see Geto's spiral and his downfall because of how he decided to cope with his despair, We see Gojo's struggle because he couldn't come to terms with his own trauma and was struck at the age of 17, going out in a glorious fight yet living an unsatisfied life, alone. Toji's trauma making him unable to live a good life. The narrative always had consequences of how these characters chose to cope and process their griefs and traumas.
We see Yuji and Megumi go through the same path but Yuji finally coming in terms with his grief and finds value in life without any proper role, Megumi's monologue about wanting a simple life without any burden of being the future Strongest and just wanting to live for people who cared for him, these felt cathartic because we finally got the resolution of these characters' unhealthy coping mechanisms blowing up in their faces leading them to their worst nightmare and forcing them to face and come in terms with their traumas and i was in awe watching these characters still look forward for future.. whatever it may hold. But now coming to present after such a long physically and mentally exhausting fight and everyone's...just fine? These are the characters who faced near death experiences and yet there's no sign of any traumatic consequences of that. Yuta is perfectly fine after body hopping his beloved (dead) sensei with no lasting or any trauma at all. Higuruma, Kusakabe both are on their own paths free from any repercussions even the law has been taken care of. No one is going to stop Mei Mei exploiting her brother, not even question it. The world was in chaos and now it's fine. I'd even say more like in pre Shibuya stage and that's something i'm not able to accept. After ch-268 it seems every other nuance was dropped to just finish it..
I can see Yuji's arc ending with a good resolution and a fresh start for Megumi's arc ( I'm bummed we barely got any of his thoughts or a proper conversation between him and Yuji..his arc kinda became "yeah all that happened...moving on") but all this feels so...unsatisfying. I was waiting for the manga to end before making any judgement hoping Gege was actually messing around but it seems he was pretty serious. It just feels in the end JJK lost track of what it was.. i can't believe I'm saying this..but I don't really feel anything. It concluded yeah.. everything is tied in a neat little bow.
Though I'm still happy I got to experience this story for what it was. It has been a hell of a ride and one i enjoyed a lot.
#i don't think I'm in the right headspace right now#i don't know what I'm yapping again#maybe after few days and after reading the official release I'll feel better about the ending#but starting chapter 269 I've been feeling little detached#i hope the one eyed cat gets his well deserved rest and time to work on the idol manga#though i would forever be grateful to Gege for creating Sukuna and giving me the lifetime obsession#the best part of this chapter soft Sukuna canon guys! though i still have my reservations about this specific part.#i'm happy i can atleast slap this panel to anyone who says “he's so evil” “he'll kill his fans in an instant”😤😤#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk spoilers#jjk leaks#jjk 271
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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if you ever feel unlucky, remember a time when you saw a bird. those things can fly. and they do fly! all around. they go to so many places at so many different times, but you were at the right place and the right time to see exactly that bird on that exact day. isn't that so fucking lucky?
#don't take me seriously. maybe it isn't. maybe im just projecting#i guess the same could be said about people and dogs and cats#it's just that birds can FLY#i guess a close comparison is a plane to me.#ok I'll tell u the context tho maybe you'll get it: there's a small group of white water birds that live in a lake at the edge of my town#they might be egrets? or herons? idk they seem too small but that's not important#there's about 100 of them and they all leave the lake during the day to get food i presume? and then they go back to the lake#after the sun sets#there's no real schedule tho. so when i happen to be outside and i look up and see them going back home i feel extremely lucky#because what are the chances i would see them? i had one chance to see them that day bc they only go back to the lake once#and i happened to be outside and looked up at exactly the right moment to catch them#isn't that fucking incredible? i think it is#microblogging#.#reminders#birds
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finished redoing the aki shrine.......
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#it was honestly relaxing to do... I feel a lot better after doing it.....#and I think it looks so much nicer now#still need to cat proof but I'll do that in a bit#the terror is napping so aki is safe for now lol#I'll take a better picture tomorrow or the next day#so I can get better lighting#I needed to buy a new set of lights because the ones I have burnt out#I love my akis... my shrine gives me so much joy.....#it was nice to spruce it up...#aki <3
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”having cats is so cozy :3 they’re so cute aww look at her purr aw what a sweetheart”
i’m collecting pieces of a bird into a plastic bag on this fine sunday evening
#catsitting rn for my family’s cats and like they’re not even fully outdoor cats but somehow still manage at this (the other one is actually#a good hunter & as grossed out as I am abt this I feel like a proud mom#like yes u go my lil beast#they have like a limited outdoor access but sometimes birds fly in and like she’ll get them if they do)#(good thing I've watched lots of House md recently so obv now convinced I have every parasite & bird disease etc. under the sun)#(in abt a week I'll have weird symptoms and go into a hospital and they'll think it's lupus or something until the cranky middle-aged#vicodin addicted malpractice man runs into the room and goes ''were u !! around dead birds???!!!! recently !" and that's how I won't die#I'll just have a lungful of worms or something (which is a very real episode in that show that horrified me to no end))#anyways I digress: everyone say ''good job'' to her she's a great hunter and bois we're feasting tonight! (gave them extra chicken wet food#in hopes that'll fool her into thinking that was her catch-of-the-day (felt bad abt collecting away her trophy))#july 2024#2024
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mapleshade + 49!!
i'm doing one of those spotify wrapped pick a number + give me a character[s] art challenges except it's not from my wrapped it's actually from a curated little playlist i made and the numbers must be from 1 to 80! feel free submit an ask [can be anonymous] or a comment with both of those requirements !! much appreciated :]]]
#warrior cats#wc#art#artists on tumblr#mapleshade#mapleshade's vengeance#blood#starlingpaw's art#music based kitties#music art challenge#bcnr#black country new road#this took so long [3 days] but it was so so so fun. i wanted to get better at rendering. originally this was gonna be much simpler#but i just started adding details n stuff#anyways you are free to submit a wc character + a number from 1 - 80 and i'll try to pair them up somehow!!#artworks may not be as detailed as this one though!! i just wanted to make a silly little comic since i got this bcnr song and it kinda fit#maybe????
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