#one day he will dare to ask him

[reginrokkr]

❝ people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it. i want to be that person for anyone i can…but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen. ❞ (from neuvi because this spoke to me)

To find someone whom there is certainty that betrayal will not happen even under the influence of demonic heavens and corruption of this Star's darkness at every corner is hard to come by, even more so to entrust them your life— to have a sense of serenity and safety in their presence, a respite from daily activities each to contribute in their own manners to defy this world. In all the lack of self-worth Dáinsleif possesses, he treats their meetings as an exchange of shared ideals that sets his heart at ease, of course of actions to be taken towards a common goal from their respective positions in this world: Neuvillette from the light, Dáinsleif from the shadows.

Nevertheless, something he would not expect to occur began to blossom in their encounters— each time more frequent than the last out of, Irminsul forbid, newfound selfishness. Conversations about the world at large and their own concerns aren't any less important and relevant, but a new variable in their time shared together has sprung some time ago: the concept of ego.

Dáinsleif doesn't know what a dragon's common sense is like or what are their predominant feelings and instincts, yet he is not blind to the longing in Neuvillette's eyes in times of intimacy where they no longer are however they present themselves to the world— but their pure and raw sense of themselves. Twilight Sword would pick on details that speak volumes that the Iudex's lips won't dare to for, descriptors that point towards a sense of alienation that Dáinsleif understands well. For he, too, knows of the heartache that comes with loneliness, hypocritical as it may be from his end— he whom willingly decided to walk down the path of self-imposed solitude. Alas, never said it is an easy one nor one he desires to tread, were he dare to look after his own desire.

As a means to respect Neuvillette's privacy, he feigned ignorance out of the kindness of his heart —lest he may feel exposed, thus giving birth to negative sentiments the lunarescent seraph doesn't wish for him to have—, only ever acting upon his own observations when the sovereign aware or unaware gives him clues to be more direct. Such as this moment, when at long last he dares to vocalize that which Dáinsleif long ago noticed in him and his story despite being apart fighting his own battles.

◜But you already are that person.◞ How must his self-perception be in order to not realize as much, even after all these centuries? ◜Tracing back time all the way to when you listened to the Melusines' wishes to live among humans, to this day... you always made everyone in your sphere feel visible and accepted.◞ It is true what they say that hero is whom brings a ray of light into an otherwise dark world, brightening people's lives out of the goodness of their heart. But who kindles a light of salvation to the hero? Sapphire irises narrow in lament and mourning, for bright as Neuvillette is for others, he won't see how much value he has— human, dragon or both, it doesn't matter.

For someone like Dáinsleif who long ago gave up on himself, only thinking of himself as naught more than what he will leave behind more than the personal value he has, it would stand to reason to think that he has a difficult time finding values in others. Nonetheless, that is far from reality. For in Neuvillette's words, he sees nothing more than a cry for help— a plea to be seen and accepted back when he won't do it for himself.

And unbeknownst of him, he always was— from the very beginning when they met in that graveyard of ships amidst the Cataclysm, Dáinsleif always saw him for what he is, respected him for his original authority even if at the time he lacked it.

◜Forgive me.◞ Starry pupils seek to find draconic ones, earnest and sincere. ◜If only I had more spare time in my hands, perhaps that would change... no.◞ Platinum blond locks sway gently with a slow shake of his head. ◜It was an oversight from my end that you necessitate to hear it.◞ Perhaps out of disbelief that someone ever would, or that would know him sufficiently to know about the woes of his heart. Dáinsleif doesn't expect him to have noticed, for he isn't the most direct man as opposed to be filled with subtleties.

◜The truth is, I do not expect my words to have any impact. But I must correct your statement: you are not unseen.◞ Not by me, he means— yet he lacks self-value enough to even consider that it would matter at all. Everything he wants is to bring solace to his heart... in finding out that there is someone that does see him and accept him for what he is. ◜Let it be known that I do not mean to invalidate your feelings, I'm aware that it won't suffice to wash away the feeling of suffocation.◞ A pause. ◜Standing on no man's land betwixt human and dragon... you must know that you are Neuvillette. Leviathan Judicator, a rightful dragon sovereign over Hydro in this world— not to be mistaken for a shadow of your past life for being reborn under unique circumstances of reincarnation. And the Iudex of Fontaine, fair and equal as the rain that doesn't discriminate who it falls upon.◞

Then, against all odds, Dáinsleif dares to reach out his left hand to rest it over the spot of Neuvillette's heart. ◜You may believe that you don't fit in any: for not holding millennia-worth grudge over the creations of an Usurper that wrecked havoc your homeland and took away from you what was yours... or for not fully understanding human heart, even if your own bleeds exactly like one's does. There will be one day when you realize that you needn't fit in any to find purpose in your life, to find out that you are just Neuvillette and it's all that should matter.◞

And when you do, your light will shine brighter than what any of those so-called demonic gods would desire to feign in order to continue with this farce.

@maquiscursed ✦

[voidcat]

leaning in for a peck on the lips and telling your windbreaker darling they're so sweet they give you toothaches... only to be hit by a real toothache hours later

[senseearly]

cw: suggestive

The Domestic Life of Kabru and Mithrun (and Fleki)

Fleki lives with them 'cause she is still technically Mithrun's ward. It's hard for Kabru to find some 'alone time' w Mithrun so his first plan is to send Fleki to do errands

[ratatatastic]

"Battle of Alberta, right? It was my first game: Calgary, Edmonton. We would play them in the preseason, and you know—trying to make the team I'd always be asking him to fight in preseason, always. I'd be runnin' my mouth—like, tryna fight the biggest, baddest guys, tryna make an impression.

And he would never fight me. He'd always tell me, like If you make the team, I'll fight ya. You don't have to worry about that, but I'm not fightin' ya preseason. And I totally respect it, I'm not gonna chase him down. It is what it is. He's established—I'm looking for my chance.

So I get called up, we're playing Edmonton in Edmonton: Battle of Alberta. [He's] over there on the other side, and it's like the coolest thing ever... you know, the buildup was crazy 'cuz I knew if the opportunity presented itself—if the game went the way I hoped it would, I would get an opportunity to fight him.

I remembered in warmups tryna skate by the redline initially just kind-of gettin' a feel for it—to see if I have to say something or whatever... He's got no bucket on, his big, bald head is glarin' around, he skates by the redline with the biggest smile on his face, and just gives me the biggest wink...

At that moment I knew Okay, he remembers. It's gonna happen at some point.

We were up 1, I think it was 2-1 going into intermission or whatever—Oh, no, I think it was 1-1 and we had just scored so the position I'm like Yeah, I don't know if I can fight him now because we have the momentum and we're winning the game. I don't want to lose a fight, then we lose a game and now I'm, like, never getting a chance again.

You kind-of gotta play the game within the game like [...] there's an opportunity to fight, and there's an opportunities where you shouldn't fight. Things weren't looking good, then they score and now we need a spark. I'm like Fucking perfect.

I just skate by their bench and I'm like It's time, big boy! He jumps out, we line up, and he goes We squarin' up or we goin' right away?

I'm like I'm not fuckin' squarin' up with you right now! We're goin' right away!

Drop em, we go right away, grab each other. I know he's a lefty so he's gonna let go—let's go of my right arm before he throws one. I threw one. Big boy went down, he jumped back up pretty quick. I don't know, I tell people all the time, I'm like I would've been in the league fuckin' 2 years earlier if there was good footage of this fuckin' fight!

For some reason—For some reason, the cameras cut out. I don't know if [he] had his cousins working the cameras or something that night, or if they're in the video room or what happened.

That was my first NHL game.

It's funny 'cuz Chucky was there—Chucky's there and he knows, he saw, he always laugh when I say that I would've been in the league earlier 'cuz he knows how things like that go. You get a little bit of energy and buzz around ya, and then kind-of momentum takes you a little bit further but unfortunate[ly], I missed that opportunity but I don't regret a thing.

[...]

The opportunity was there, I just—unfortunately, for whatever reason, the Hockey Gods said not yet." (Ryan Lomberg reminiscing over his first NHL game/fight) (x)(x) (please go watch the second link to see lombos giant smile as he tells this story jfc)

and other genuinely bonkers things to say about a hockey player in your first fight... like why did this need to be said like that...what

[tiredqueermushroom]

Dorian Storm they could never make me hate you!

[impossiblepluto]

hi this is random but since you enjoy the dynamic between jack and Mac so much I thought you might enjoy the dynamic between two characters Ty and Jack from a show called Heartland. it is a horse show but it’s very wholesome and they have one of my favourite dynamics in the whole show

Ahhh! Okay, so! A while back, probably like 4 years ago now, there was a gifset that I think was from The Curse of Downer's Grove and because I have never once scrolled past a gifset without being seized by the fatal need to drop some angsty, fic-adjacent thoughts in the tags, I rambled on about troubled teenage Mac who ends up in Jack's care on the ranch.

After the latest round of fights and explosions, Mac is looking at spending some time in a detention center. Grandpa Harry (with probably James pulling strings behind the scenes) is able to make an appeal and send Mac off to a ranch in Texas with an old friend, Jack Dalton Sr who has experience working with at risk youth. However, prior to Mac's arrival, Jack Sr. passes unexpectedly and Mac shows up about the same time Jack Jr. comes back to Texas for the first time in over a decade.

Jack has no plans to stick around in Texas after his handled his father's affairs, and he certainly isn't about to take responsibility for some punk kid from California.

Apparently there are quite a few similarities to Heartland! And I have now seen a couple of episodes. It's also sort of similar to "Bravetown" and if you check out the tag "bt in texas" on Anguish's blog, you'll probably find some gifsets the capture the vibes

Anyway, that's more than you were expecting but I should probably check out Heartland again and maybe that will spark me into finishing this idea because realizing that it's 4 years old kind of makes my heart hurt a little bit

[minban]

𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 ?

kaveh, in this haunted house you are the father —

You’ve made mistakes. You see them play out on an endless and nauseating loop whenever you close your eyes. If you could just interfere! Somehow pass on what knowledge you now possess to the person you were then. Of course, now you know, you know, YOU KNOW. But what’s done is done, leaving you behind, holding the shards of what you broke in your bleeding and calloused hands. They look at you differently now, so you smile bigger and hope it reaches your eyes. It’s okay though, because you’re going to make it better, you have to. And god knows you can’t be wrong again, you simply won’t allow it, can’t even entertain the idea. When doubt creeps in, you’ll stamp it down. When things begin to go wrong, you’ll turn a blind eye. There isn’t room inside of you to hold any more wrong.

tagged by @halovien thank you 💕 tagging @yeonban, @furiaei, @aguilareye, @lunaetis and you !

[the-chattering-tower]

I don't know what it is about this weird mess of a baby that Pirkad and Miyasi hatched the other day but I can't just not keep him (I also feel a bit bad for intending to cover him this hard in apparel but I also really like the walking second hand store look on him)

[requiemforthestars]

One thing that I have decided for my DA canon worldstate is that all of my player characters have ended up punching Cullen in the face at some point. As a treat.

[apoloniaspiegelgold]

All my life I've been told by all kinds of people that they can never really tell what I'm feeling or what's going through my mind because apparently I'm always just hiding everything behind a smile so that I've become rather unreadable. And then he just. Takes one look at me and goes 'Yeah. I know that face, oh here we go again, she's about to unleash her thoughts. She's gonna bash that theory I just showed her so hard. Where's my popcorn?' I hadn't even said anything yet and he was already laughing.

And to be honest. It's quite nice to be known, actually.

[autisticlancemcclain]

not a question but i feel like matt would be the type to call mint toothpaste too spicy

he one thousand percent has the dorky strawberry stuff for kids bc he can’t handle the grown up mint and he is mocked every day of his life for it

[deus-ex-mona]

worming out of awkward conversations l i k e

[juliareed]

Fandom: Alias Relationships: Sark/Sydney Song: Spiracle by Flower Face Content warnings: Blood, death, violence, spiders, insects, flashing lights

[jiatiful]

when hyunjin said that he went one day to wod and saw minho dancing with his team from soul dance in 2016 before minho joined jyp and then they met in 2017 (jyp) and when seungmin said minho probably wouldn't have met the skz members if it wasn't bc they're in the same group now and minho said he would've met hyunjin. soulmatism.

[moe-broey]

No context but I got So distracted. I did not set out to do All That today. I don't even know where the fuck I am anymore. It was all an impulse decision and I didn't even write down the second distraction because it was So Strong. In my mind. But then a second distraction hit my two braincells. I have no idea whwre I am anymore. I was just gonna whip up a shitpost doodle and then go back to my main project. I never even got to the shitpost doodle. 🧍