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Milo vs wanting to smoke a tobacco bowl vs not knowing if smoking will immediately undo any and all nausea progress or not
#I also wanna smoke a weed bowl but I am SCARED#on one hand this is like a baby mini tolerance break for me so that’s cool#but also. I wanna smoke so I can eat more willingly but if I cough and then throw up empty stomach mode again it will put me back a day in#progress so I think I’m gonna try to eat without smoking and then if I want to still after I get a little food down I can try to go smoke a#tobacco weed bowl outside#once it cools down a little
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i just be drawing things anyways i need to see gid tinker with stuff more let my boy have hobbies, let him fix up a watch here and there or something
additional doodle of a pestering husband
#once upon a witchlight#my art#gideon coal#kremy lecroux#coalecroux#ouaw#legends of avantris#himbo gideon is cool and all but think about mechanic gid fixing up little things he finds to wind down and relax think about it#i am so normal about him#he is also incredibly hard for me to draw i do not know why#definitely need to practice more
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I think Laois and MY personal favorite creature, The Simurgh, would get along :]
#based her colors off bearded vultures#cause theyre also cool#dungeon meshi#simurgh#tech shes shown once on the manga :>#laios touden#gonna yap down here :U#simurgh likes adopting pasty white boys#whole reason shes my favorite is the story about her finding this albino prince named zal#his dad the king had him abandoned in the mountains cause he was albino and she took him in#raised him w her chicks and taught him all the knowledge she had aquired in her long life#she had seen the world end and begin several times btw like shes an old lady#and anyway im just sayin ya know whos ALSO a pasty white boy who loves trivia??#that weird little fucker#know what else he loves?#chimeras and dogs#also hed def eat the whole ass elephants shes bringing home for dinner
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my greatest achievement in DA2 is maxing out Carver's friendship
and all it took was begrudgingly kissing a little templar ass in act 1 because Carver didn't want to plan a prison break if my Hawke got his ass arrested for being stupid.
#carver hawke#dragon age#dragon age 2#da2#well that and he didn't want leandra gamlen and himself to also get arrested for harboring an apostate but you get me#carver hawke loves his sibling and doesn't want them to get taken away that's why he's such an ass and approves of 'pro-templar' choices#in act 1 he's not pro-templar himself but kissing a little templar ass is how you avoid being arrested#'why yes cullen you are so right the templars are so cool and sexy' my hawke says through gritted teeth for that +5 friendship#look i love him okay he's my favorite and i will go the extra mile to make him happy and it's worth it for how much softer can be later on#honestly maxing out his friendship isn't hard if you're aware of what quests you're bringing him on and make him a grey warden#oh but you do need the legacy dlc otherwise you can't fully max friendship out... you can still get enough to change his dialogue/attitude#also like... we the player know hawke won't be arrested like they're not in any actual dangers from the templars as the playable character#but carver doesn't know that and neither does hawke so the templars *are* a real threat to them#and it's incredibly reckless to purposely piss off templars AND selfish because it's not just hawke that'll be arrested it's their family#for harboring them like we witness templars going after people hiding apostates soooo.....#i'm just saying that carver isn't irrational or just being an ass to personally annoy you okay he has cause#also once carver's a warden and ed has money and the estate THEN he's way more open about telling the templars to piss off#sigh one day i'll sit down and write an essay about carver.... one day
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when will eppie hawke and fenris meet tavish and astarion? (:
"And anyway, it won't be that bad. One last little Fade rift. We'll barricade it up as best we can, send a message to Skyhold, go home, and—"
One of the craggy footholds crumbles away beneath Hawke's foot, and it's only Fenris's quick hand that saves her from a plummet back down the side of the barren mountain. "Hawke, please."
"Please yourself. I said you didn't have to come."
Fenris throws her a longsuffering look, the flickering green lightning of the rift casting weird shadows over his eyes, but he doesn't let go of her arm until she's got both feet on solid ground again. "Just seal it and let this be done."
"My heart's only desire, lover," Hawke says, smiling, just as another pair of voices rises from the other side of the rift.
"Careful—careful! It shocks like the entire Hells are in there. Where's Gale?"
"Wherever Karlach dropped him, I suppose, with that little sprained ankle of his. No, I see them, they're almost here. Come away, darling. No need to get so dramatically close."
"This, from you?" says the woman, just as she and her fellow voice round the far edge of the rift. "Oh!"
"Well!" Hawke says almost at the same moment. Two of them after all: a short, slim woman with auburn hair pulled back in a low tail, and a tall, lithe man with hair as white as Fenris's and eyes that gleam like rubies. The man has a dagger drawn already, a thin smile playing over his face; the woman's fingers rest on her sheathed rapier, but her gaze is open, friendly. Hawke plants her staff on the rocky ground in as welcoming a gesture as she can manage. "Fancy running into someone like you up here of all places."
"I could say the same," the woman says. The green rift, still hanging between them and stretching a good twenty feet into the sky, gives an ominous rumble. "Our wizard's been fretting about magical disturbances along the city's borders for weeks. He finally traces the source to this location, and here you are at the heart of it. I'd like to believe it's coincidence."
"Alas," Hawke says, "one of my greatest faults is a terrible habit of being around when things begin. Fenris can attest to that better than most." She lays a hand on Fenris's shoulder, but he's stiff as iron, eyes glued to the man's dagger, and he's reached back for the hilt of his greatsword. "I'm Hawke, by the way."
"Call me Tav."
"And I'm Astarion," the man says grandly, accompanied by a wholly unnecessary flourish of his dagger. "We're here to steal the world."
"Save it," Tav says sharply.
"Of course, my dear. Save the world. What did I say?"
Fenris makes a short, disgusted noise, but Hawke's pleased to see he's let go of his own sword. She doesn't think this Astarion is going to kill them—not easily, anyway—and she likes the look of Tav despite herself. Both of them quick on their feet, she thinks, both moving gracefully with an innate, self-assured balance. As Tav steps around the rift Astarion moves with her like water, without even needing to see where she's gone. It reminds her a great deal of Fenris and herself, actually, though Hawke would give an arm to trust her own feet that much.
Fenris, it seems, has come to similar conclusions, and he rolls his shoulders as he releases their tension. Even his voice has lost its nascent fury, which for Fenris is practically friendly in situations like this. "The rift is dangerous. We will guard it until the Inquisitor can seal it permanently. Be on your way."
"Inquisitor?" drawls Astarion with that same, thin-lipped smile. "Sounds like someone from dear Shadowheart's former enclave, don't you think?"
"I don't think they're Sharran," Tav says. "Are you?"
"What a speculative look you've put on," Hawke says, delighted. "I haven't the faintest idea what you're talking about. Unless you'd like me to be Sharran, in which case, I most certainly am and in fact have always been."
Both Fenris and Astarion roll their eyes—hilarious in its own right, but heightened by the clear antipathy still remaining between them. Fenris sighs. "Hawke—"
The rift explodes.
Green lightning shatters over the rocky cliff. The rumble bursts into a deafening roar; the faint breeze that had been dancing around them sweeps up into a hurricane. The air cracks and snaps with a sudden smell of ozone.
Hawke throws her hand over her eyes. She can't see—the wind tears her hair from its bindings and she can't see past the brilliant flashes of blazing green and she can't hear— "Fenris!"
Someone's fingers wrap around hers. She wrenches up her staff, calls for fire—for ice—for anything—but the rift has become a maelstrom and every scrap of magic sucks into the raging whirl before she can shape it. Her boots skid on the stone as she tries to brace against the inexorable pull, pebbles and rocks rattling along every step. She can't—the hand wrapped around hers has seized tight as a vise, but she's slipping anyway, and Maker, she can't—
A man's echoing voice, stripped bare of all artifice, wild with fear: "Tav!"
The wind dies. Not slowly, not gradually; it falls off like someone's upturned a glass over the rocky cliff, and Hawke's ears roar in the sudden silence. The wind is gone, and the rift is gone with it as if it had never been, the thunderous clouds that had been swirling above it already dissipating to glimpses of blue morning sky.
"Andraste preserve me," Hawke says, loud in the quiet, and she looks over to see Tav still crouched against the face of the mountain. One of Tav's hands clutches a dagger she'd wedged deep into a stony crevice; the other is still wrapped tight around Hawke's wrist where she'd pulled her away from the tempest.
No sign of Fenris. No sign of the other one—Astarion. A long white scrape in the stone marks where Fenris's sword had sought and failed to find purchase, disappearing at the precise place where the rift had torn itself open.
Gone. Gone, gone. Her heart hammers in her throat, and she indulges in thirty seconds of agonizing grief before she sets it aside, turns, and pulls Tav to her feet.
"Well," Hawke says at last. "Looks like it's just you and me, then. Ready for an adventure?"
"Yes," Tav says, her grip on Hawke's hand like steel, and her eyes blaze. "You and me. Let's get them back."
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Everything hurts. Everything godsdamned hurts, and Astarion lets out a pained groan as he rolls to his back and drops his arm over his face. His ears ring like bells, and something twinges painfully in his left hip, and the inconvenient sun has decided to blaze right in his face and gods damn it, he'd known they ought to wait for Gale. Wretched wizard and his weak ankles. Wretched Tav and her complete inability—
"Tav," Astarion says, and sits bolt upright.
No Tav. Not even the dark-haired sorcerer with the wide smile. Just that taciturn warrior in leather and half-plate seated on a rock a few feet away, watching Astarion get his bearings, his greatsword slung across his knees and a deeply sour look on his tattooed face. The skies above them are clear and blue as a song.
No Tav. No Hawke. No rift. No plan, and no company besides an irascible stranger with the same sudden look of dawning horror.
"Venhedis."
"Shit."
#quark replies#Anonymous#dragon age#baldur's gate 3#quark writes#oh lord how to tag this#hawke#fenris#tav#astarion#tavstarion#fenris/hawke#then they go on adventures together and make it home again#eppie & tav are in baldur's gate btw & fenris and astarion are in thedas#eppie & tav have a GREAT time and fenris & astarion decidedly do not#but they end up very much respecting each other by the end#also there's a contentious series of scenes where astarion is starving and eventually is forced to explain to fenris#who thinks it's blood magic at first and flatly refuses to help#but eventually does hunt down bandits & boars & such for astarion to feed and once ONLY ONCE in very dire straits does he let astarion#drink from his arm#they never talk about it again but astarion does eventually tell him the story of cazador & fenris in some surprise tells him about danariu#there's a little disgust on both sides after i think#'you managed to get free from your master and you spent ten years RUNNING FROM HIM?'#'you managed to get free from your master and you act like THIS? flippant and cruel and petty and vindictive?'#anyway they kill a bunch of slavers and bond and by the time hawke & tav get with gale for an interplanar portal open they're cool#hawke and tav go to microbreweries and magic shows and tav steals all of hawke's money out of habit like four times
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hi after the Internet Archive and Vimm's Lair takedowns i conclude that copyright laws are legitimately a plague upon humanity's history, media that isn't being sold anymore should be free for all, and copyright enforcers should be held at the same standards as landlords (scum)
#your daily reminder that piracy is cool and epic#piracy is preservation#piracy is cool#kick your local copyright enforcer directly in the balls today /hj#im so mad about this dude#i know that once you take one site down 20 more will pop up but i think old media should be easily accessible.#for the sake of preservation and history i think it deserves to stay up#fuck nintendo#fuck their lawyers#fuck copyright#a little birdie told me that certain reddit communities are great for finding backups upon backups of games#but you didn't hear that from me ;)#justice for the internet archive#justice for vimm's lair#internet archive#vimm's lair
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in your fic you mention how falin has torn doors off their hinges accidentally and now i’m wondering how the others reacted lol 😭
i think she's like. reflexively gentle enough that she wouldn't actually end up breaking anything unless she was really putting her weight into it.
so the first time it happened it was probably when she was helping everyone clear out the castle. she's downstairs in the cellar while everyone's just upstairs poking around. she comes across a rusted door that won't budge on her first try, so she really heaves it and then just
Marcille: Falin?? Is everything okay?? Falin: Everything's fine! [knocks over 20 different dusty barrels and boxes and shit trying to swing the door back into the frame]
Everyone comes downstairs to see her like. Frantically trying to fix it before giving up like a guilty puppy. Reactions are what you'd expect. Marcille is freaking out trying to figure out if this is a symptom of something really bad or some complication with her resurrection. Laios immediately experiences childlike wonder and jealousy and wants to start testing just how strong she is by getting her to break different things. Yaad and Kabru are just kind of like "huh! i hope we don't need that door."
meanwhile Falin's just dying bc "oh shit i broke something aaa" + "marcille is just grabbing me everywhere again and she smells nice" + "this is too much attention"
#asks#a little creature#dungeon meshi#once she gets to calm down tho. she's super down to just spend an afternoon breaking stuff with laios#bc THEN it sinks in like oh wow this is super cool!!!!#marcille just crying in the background like. please can we be more concerned about this#answer: no. it's sick as hell and falin is immediately going to start climbing shit and lifting big rocks in the forest#is this also lowkey an attempt to shill the power rangers movie? yes#it was good you guys. it was cheesy as hell but it was GOOD cheesy cmon
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Hear me out:
Kotoko adopted Es, and Fuuta went ballistic.
Rip Fuuta... he can never catch a break... Asdfsdf thank you for this, it was a blast thinking of all the ridiculous ways this could have played out! (One possibility I toyed with was Fuuta's competitive instincts take over, he fights her for Es, only to realize too late "*I* don't want to be responsible for a whole child WAIT") It's a similar format to the last one, with a knock-at-the-door reveal, but I still think it works 😂
“Don’t fuck with me, Es.”
“I would never.”
Lying brat. Fuuta knew they would every chance that they got. It was the reason he was so relieved that Es decided to find somewhere else to live after Milgram’s end. Fuuta had nothing left to fear from his former warden, but the others’ suggestions that Es become his new roommate still made him shudder. Three interrogations in a closed space with the rude kid were enough for him, thank you very much.
However, it wasn’t all a relief. He couldn’t help feeling concerned about who they’d gone to live with. Given how cryptic they were being, Fuuta would have been convinced they walked into the woods to find a furry family of Jackalopes or something to raise them –except, they showed up for this walk with clean clothing and internet access.
“I don’t believe you. You’re fucking with me right now. Why can’t you just tell me who it is?”
“It isn’t any of your concern. Hey, I thought you swore to stay out of others’ business. You turned over a new leaf and all that?”
“Tch. I meant other people’s business. You’re different.”
If Es had vanished off the grid like some of the other prisoners, Fuuta wouldn’t have cared. But they were here, near enough to arrange some lame meetup, which meant they were going to remain in his life for a while longer. And that meant, as the model citizen that Fuuta was, he felt responsible for ensuring they didn’t get themselves kidnapped by some creep.
He asked, “how much do you know about them, anyway? I mean, what kind of person can house a random weird kid on incredibly short notice? That’s definitely suspicious.”
Fuuta pulled the mask up on his face as they turned down a more crowded street. He knew people were going to gawk at his eye anyways, but it still helped him feel like he was blending in. With his thoughts on the injury for a moment, he was glad that bitch Kotoko was one of the prisoners who had gone off the grid. Good riddance.
“I promise, she’s fine. Not weird with children at all. In fact, she’s really good with them, which is why she could help me on such short notice.” They muttered, “but it’s not like I’m that young…”
“That’s still not normal. Is she some old housewife or something?”
“Ah, are you trying to do the interrogation this time? Actually, I’d say she’s around your age.”
“It’s just you two living alone? I’m still worried about Milgram coming looking for us again – can a girl like that really protect you?”
“Is everyone supposed to live with a big, strong man, like you?”
“Wha–!” Fuuta’s cheeks burned red. “That’s not what I –!”
“I’m only teasing. It’s cute that you care about me.”
That only agitated him more. “It’s not cute! I’m being realistic! One of us has to think about your safety while you’re just distracted by some pretty girl.”
“What makes you think she’s pretty?”
“Well, why else would you be so careless in deciding to live with her?”
All of the sudden, he saw it in Es’ eyes: that spark of mischief that Fuuta had come to loathe. He could never tell what they were plotting, but it was never a good sign.
Es held up their hands in mock surrender. They put on a ridiculous, overdramatic voice. “Ah, you caught me, Fuuta! I’m hiding her identity because she’s the most beautiful, capable woman in all of Japan, and I want to keep her all to myself!”
He groaned, but they weren’t deterred. “She’s got everything, I couldn’t risk you falling for her! She’s quite capable of defending me. She’s very strong, with protective instincts much like your own. She understands our situation like no one else could. She’s got intense eyes, and you wouldn’t believe her singing voice. She enjoys deep conversations, she’s a dog person, she –”
“ – now you’re being the creep! Just shut up, I get it already...”
When they finally had the decency to pull it together, they reassured him. “It’s all true, though. So there’s no need to worry about me. I’m in good hands.”
Good hands, his ass. In only a brief conversation, the caretaker had gone from sounding a little suspicious to sounding way too good to be true… meaning she was extremely suspicious.
“Maybe someday I’ll introduce you, if you’re lucky...”
He turned his eyes away. “At least let me run some background checks on her first.”
(He would just stalk her on social media, but that still counted.)
“You’re just going to stalk her on social media. That doesn’t count.”
“Eh? I have legit methods!” He hid deeper under his mask.
Even after the topic was dropped, after he and Es parted ways on an awkward goodbye, Fuuta was left thinking about this mystery woman. It took a bit of digging (and maybe a tiny bit of social media stalking) but at last he found where Es lived with this stranger. Contrary to what they may believe, he had turned over a new leaf. There would be no more hiding behind screens or letting others do the confrontation for him. Now that he was a changed person, he’d do the healthy and normal thing with this information: he’d march on down there himself and confront her like a man.
He made it all the way to the front door with his chin high. He knocked with confidence.
Then he began to shift nervously. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t get the woman’s description out of his head. Sure, he was here to check on Es, but if someone happened to check him out at the same time, it was only right to be prepared… He straightened his shirt collar. He ran his fingers through his hair. He wondered if he should have covered up his eye to look more presentable.
The door swung open.
The surprise on Kotoko’s face was nowhere near the amount on Fuuta’s.
“Oh, for fucks sake –!”
From somewhere behind her, Es’ laughter rang out.
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#es#kotoko yuzuriha#the informal narration voice was a bit more than i usually do - i hope it wasnt too cheesy because i thought it was a ton of fun aasdfsdfs#in the first one it was cool to write kazui as avoiding naming shidou for pretty good reasons (he doesnt want to make amane upset and he#genuinely has a hard time talking about liking men after so many years of secrecy)#however. es has no such reasons. they are a little troll and their favorite activity is messing with fuuta. this is the most fun theyve#had all week. they actually hoped they could keep the lie up for a little longer.#i picture kotoko has chilled out a lot post-milgram BUT upon finding out fuuta once again tracked down a childs address she chases him off#(with es still dying in the background)#i firmly believe that bisexual fuuta my beloved would Not be immune to the idea of kotoko......#thank you for the request!!! adfsdf i hope you enjoyed#it took a hot second to write down but i was cracking up thinking about it the whole time#for the other adoption idea i figured i could spin it so fuutas government-job father had connections to help him get custody paperwork#but he doesnt come out and say what he needs it for so his dad just thinks his son is finally getting his life together and helping#someone else in need -- and fuuta himself doesnt realize right away that he just adopted a whole ass kid out of spite 💀#drabbles
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you and Binah having a heated argument, maybe not a small one. spending a few hours apart to cool off, to think. making up in the middle of a reception, apologizing, compromising, covered in blood.
you consider yourself lucky that both of you know when you need to step back, silence enveloping the room after Binah raises her voice for a moment. she rarely yells. it's enough to make both of you pause, quietly agreeing that you need space, and the door softly clicks as you leave. even when upset you refuse to slam it. the noise bothers you, and Binah as well. the Patron Librarian of Philosophy is left alone, sipping her cup of tea, to think
it's what she does best, after all
it does help, having time alone. by the time you're inevitably pulled into a Reception, you're much calmer, swinging your weapon with practiced precision. Binah observes the battle as she always does, gaze occasionally flitting to you and nodding subtly in approval. emotions are a good thing- you taught her that- but during a fight they can be troublesome. in exchange for you loosening the closed knot in her heart, she told you how to ignore everything but combat around you. you're doing well. you'll be fine. if you can be so stubborn during an argument, you can be stubborn in battle. she won't step in this time. she won't
in a second, your footing slips, and the opponent's blade slashes deeply across your chest
the handle of Binah's teacup snaps
when she looks at you again you're both covered in blood, the head of your enemy ripped from their body as Binah breathes deeply, gathering you into her arms with thinly veiled concern. she cups your face, a hand pressing against your wound before her arms snake around you and hold you firmly. her pinkie grasps for yours and hooks on, the rest of her fingers gradually lacing with your hand as you closely listen to her rapid heartbeat slow, minute by minute. you hug her back and only then does she look at you with a web of regret strung together, smearing blood on your cheeks
"I'm sorry."
"Me, too."
Binah kisses you that day, in front of everyone, and not once does she care about the flabbergasted looks of her colleagues
#project moon#lobotomy corp#library of ruina#binah#binah lobcorp#binah library of ruina#you both get angry at times#but work together to find a solution once you've cooled down#in a way you tell her you're happy about it once you've made up#she's spent years suppressing everything#a little anger now and then is healthy
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Hi good evening /morning !
This is a request but only if you feel like it ! Have you thought maybe about fem Ryoken x Yusaku and separately other version with Ryoken x Fem Yusaku ? Got this idea about them being genderbent and can't get it out of my head XD it would be cute to see it . 💝
Hello! This has been sitting for longer than I meant for it to and I apologize, I think it broke something in me. I hadn't really had any genderswap vrains thoughts yet but when I realized I could make so many alternate designs for an AU... I wound up drowning in ideas and basically only remembered why I was doing this in the first place recently (oops). I'm still failing the assignment because I'm swapping everyone at once but I'm really liking how cute they are like this too 💖
#datastormshipping#I do love them in all variations <3#genderswap#(?)#idk if that's the best tag but I'll be using that for future postings along this vein#honestly at first I was like 🤨 is this my thing? but then the possibilities hit and then I was lost in the sauce.#always been weak for messing with designs so this was untapped potential for further insanity I guess#will probably post a sketch dump later once things have cooled down a little jsdkfj#couch arting
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Listened to a song so good i drew a scary little guy
#its so strange how i can only draw superior when i listen to a song and never when i sit down and try .. i just gotta load up my playlist#anyway this is him in my scary little#uhh#sorry this was me being silly with poses but i promise theres lore here ☝️ its the uhh spiderman spirit taking over <-what is she on#☝️trust me i posted abt this once ✨️^_^#superior spidey#superior spider-man#superior spiderman#superior spider man#oh i should draw his web pattern more cuz its so cool and we need to draw more of the uneven crazy pattern..#its ok^_^ next time#isa's art#spiderverse
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#semi out of context twitter repost but#listen i was mid convo and i had a revelation#new buzzfeed quiz just dropped how deep are YOU into the queer vintage anime pit of doom???#yes this is how i got into it (stage 0 and 1)#kawoshin is a retro anime mystery busting gateway drug#im on like level 16000 but that's like. literally beginner level i am a single celled organism who knows nothing#layer 2450 is looking up old shojo magazine covers and shuddering saying 'oh...its blonde blue eyed white people all the way down'#and layer 2457 is trying to figure out what to make of that information and exercising nuanced internal criticism of it#layer 0 can also be 'eva akira and utena are THE retro anime it doesnt rly go back further i think maybe unless its a popular long shonen'#not that all those onions would be expressed at omce#layer 7329 is remembering your kuroshitsuji phase and awkwardly side eyeing the alois kid once you watch the kazeki ova#actually some of these are sooo poorly scaled listen i wasnt planning on making a huge metaphor cut me a little slack#anyways its definitely like slipping down a massive hole but like a cool one like in alice in wonderland#and it smells of old books in both a pleasant way and a spooky way#i need to get mentally better to clear floor 45000 and become jp fluent to clear floor 65000 im a noob
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head in hands like "maybe i should have realized this about myself sooner" as i am surrounded by neon flashing signs that Very Clearly Indicate the thing i should have realized about myself sooner
#anyway i'm just mulling about the 'tism skdjfhgljhdfg#thinking about how i've been having a hard time on site with my internship because i struggle to make small talk with my superiors#and everything is uncomfortable and terrible all of the time and i feel so so out of my depth#but talking with my university superior about the methodology of our profession#has me feeling like i'm playing just dance on extreme and i'm nailing every single beat w#like quite literally is like one of those rhythm games where when you get a combo it plays a cool sound effect#and i'm playing so well the sound effects are overlapping and the screen is just an explosion of stars w#so yeah i am. very comfortable talking academics and theory and things but. shit in social situations.#when i don't have that to rely on whoops#anyway it's just another thing on the incredibly long list of things i have building in my mind of#'why i should have realized i'm probably on the spectrum sooner'#the thrilling sequel to 'how did i go 20+ years without realizing i have ADHD' w#(speaking of)#(the way my ADHD has been leaping into the spotlight this week)#(biggest highlight was being jumpscared not once)#(not twice!!)#(but THREE times by food i had bought for myself)#(put down briefly)#(and then forgotten about for upwards of 30 minutes to 5 hours)#(like the other day i bought myself a little pastry on the way home as a congrats for surviving another week)#(and i put it on the table when i came inside)#(but i. forgot i did that. and went like 4 hours without even thinking about it)#(until i got up and left my room and saw the bag and went '! ! ! ! ! ! ! OH MY GO D MY PASTRY NOOOOOOO')#(the adhd and the autism . . . . they are attacking my ass . . . . . )
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i have done...an absolute deep dive into blues and folk music tonight. it was 100% one of those blink and three hours have passed type of deals. worth it though.
#be warned if you go into the tags i will explain how this all came up. educational but long!#so it started with two questions. mostly because i live in the ozarks i wanted to know and secondly i like music if you haven't caught on#(btw i am so giving you guys the quick and easy version if you are reading this at all)#anyway. the first question was 'why does the ozarks have such a country influence but also bluegrass but also blues but also folk but al-'#because while i grew up in stl i am now like. living living in the ozarks right? right. and i for sure can see how we are the like...#the little sibling of the appalachian mountains. and i thought it was just cause aw cute mini mountains (highlands people)#but instead its cause there were settlers from appalachia! which makes a ton of sense now seeing influences and culture etc etc#so we cleared up that. we know why the ozarks is the way it is (or at least part of it)#btw anyone who says branson is a “true reflection” of the ozarks is out of their damn minds.#that shit is tourist central and just drives me up the wall. they are playing a parody of themselves is the best way to describe it#caricature maybe??? point is. “h'yuck h'yuck we're the country jubilee!” is not uhhhh ozarks and never was?#like it was but they took it a step further. so. anyway#can you tell i'm fixated on this right now? moving on! question 2 was quite literally 'what genre is this song'#it's 'fault line' by black rebel motorcycle club (which i highly suggest everyone listen to)#but i was like hmmm very bluesy harmonica but just fingerpicking guitar so that's more folksy#so! i went on a deep dive of what technically considers blues blues and what folk is. and guess what! the ozarks play into this too#because! the thing is that the ozarks is weird. st louis is technically not in the ozarks but on the outskirts. and stl is influenced by...#the mississippi delta! therefore blues music which led to rock and roll etc#(that's a whole other tangent for another day on stl and blues and rock and roll)#but anyway it makes sense that once you have folks from stl area coming down to the ozarks then you also have that combo of...#mississippi delta and appalachia music. so then we go back to “fault line” right?#i have declared it folk mostly because it definitely doesn't follow traditional blues progression or call and response.#so anyway. deep dive tonight was basically what is this song's genre and how does that wrap into where i live!#which also. brmc is like...usually listed as a “rock” band from san francisco which hey! awesome.#but like. from the songs i've heard and especially causing me to do this deep dive...they do not strike me as a californian band#music is cool! regions are cool! culture is cool! i just like to see how it's all spread out ya know?#if you've read this far gold star! i hope you've learned something tonight from reading the ramblings of a fixated person#i'm rambling again aren't i
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man writing is so silly and fun i cant believe i get to write dust being offered horror paps's human spaghetti while horror is having a grand old time and i DONT have to put in the effort of drawing 😁😁😁😁 this is joy!!
#AND ITS SO EASY TOO BECAUSE I DONT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING FANCY!!!!#I DONT EVEN WRITE FANCY OR COOL LIKE THE OTHER BETTET WRITERS!!!!#its so easy to pump this out because i can just put myself in the mind of dust or horror and write every little thing they think!!! THATS IT#but man at least i get to make phantom papyrus throw up because oh my GOD#this is for my stupid mtt meets eachother little fic. because i can and i want to#dustttt this is aaaaall your fault smh if only you hadnt pressed that button you wouldnt be here in that situation#im so nervous to get to the killer section but also so excited i wanna make him SO foreboding#dust and horror simply dont fight because of the presence of their papyruses#when they meet killer they IMMEDIATELY fight him. not even a hello is exchanged before he squares up#this whole thing is supposed to explain why and how i think the trio would not only meet but STAY with eachother#i've already got dust's reason down and i know horror's REALLY WELL#(even though you'd expect him to be the hardest to rationalize leaving his AU bc he's got things to do there#but i'll be honest i've got a pretty good reasoning in my eyes for how i think he'd leave his au and stay with dust n killer)#amd then erusghhhh killer's reasoning is..... certainly SOMETHING!! i guess. we ball untik we reach that section#if worse comes to worse i can just liiiike throw canon out of the fucking window and come up with some fanon bullshit#but even though it is DEFINITELY not canon i wanna keep it KINDA canonish#if their personalities aren't canon i can guarantee their dynamic will be. thats all i need to be happy#tricule rant#i love writing. maybe once i get to when dust and horror go to something new i'll post it#and then i can finish killer's after i post it on ao3#this is why i've been quiet all day btw :3 i'm currently horrordust maxxing in this fic#DAY 5 OF THE HORRORDUST STREAK BABY YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
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I love my best friend so much literally want to chew that girl and swallow her so she resides in my intestines like fr
#riv rambles#we randomly talked once and deadass have been talking every single day since then#I could tell her the grass is pink and she’d be like no ur right I think it’s been looking a little pink too#jk we’re not that delusional but#literally she’s so cool so funny so smart like so smart you guys don’t even know how smart she’s so genius that brain of hers is huge and#so lovely and she is just. the coolest. the coolest. I mean it she’s the coolest#and I love her I want to squish her into a ball and bounce her does that make sense#and#idk#I just love that bitch#she’s my fav human ever ever ever ever and I never get to see her bc she lives states away but she is my person you guys don’t even know#so crazy how I went my whole life without her until just a few yrs ago#if she got no fans I’m DEAD#6 feet under#if she’s got 0 lovers I have been erased from existence and deleted from the universe’s records of life forms#and sometimes she’s horribly naive and stupidly bad at putting her foot down and my hair starts balding but#I will rock the bald head for her sake idc#that’s my girlie literally soulmate we are true soulmatism
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