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I bring a sort of "Damian is the only Robin who could technically be called a child soldier" vibe that nobody really likes
#forever shaking this concept like a fucking grogger#like#1. robin is about agency and choosing to make a difference#2. you cannot choose something with full informed consent if you have never experienced the other side#3. Damian has lived his entire life as a soldier. he was raised as one. he was taught as one. he does not know how not to be one.#4. he does not think he has value to his father as anything else#5. Damian cannot consent to not having a normal childhood because*he has never had a normal childhood*#like. this is TEXT. THIS IS TEXTUAL.#everyone loves talking about Damian not wanting to be Batman anymore once he's experienced vigilantism or not wanting to commit violence#once he realizes he DOESNT HAVE TO#and how he's gentle and loving and creates art and and and#no one is taking it to the logical conclusion?????#anyways Bruce was right to deny him Robin when he came to Gotham and Alfred (and dick....) should get so much shit from Bruce when he gets#back#mostly Alfred. because it was Alfred and the butler should know better
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Learn from who? Learn from you?
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit#OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros#and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember#ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene#and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc#the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won
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I hate the insistence in pushing Jason into the batfamily.
If he doesn't wanna go to dinner, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't wanna hang out with them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't want to see them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't even want to contact them, he doesn't have to.
It's so annoying to read fic and always see it presented as his Family Knows Better. Jason is just being silly by not realizing how much they love him and he just needs to let them break into his home and comms and life because they want him there.
#my dc posting#jason todd#red hood#batfamily#like genuinely how do yall write this shit n not realize how fucked it is#i hear jason say he doesnt wanna do something w his family and im like HELL YEAH ASSERT UR BOUNDARIES#him being strongarmed into dinner despite knowing its gonna be a shitshow n judged heavily if he doesnt show is like. a fucking staple#of fic and im SOOO done w it#do none of you think? really do you even think??#ig its the difference in perspective between viewing the batfamily as the Ultimate Good thing. the place they all should strive to be#instead of the mess of toxicity and stalking n abusiveness it is#and even in content where the batfamily is actually as healthy as they can be jason still doesnt have to do anything w em!!!#hes completely justified to not contact them. thats his fucking choice and boundary n writing his family prancing right past all that#does Not endear me to them sorryy!!#i once saw someone explain jason as low-contact and i was like. yeah. i love that. let me have that please#its not that i hate seeing him in the batfam. i just think it should be HIS choice
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even though shen yuan disdains wife plots, i feel it's because they're often so contrived and the wives are always damsels in distress, and when the system puts him in one it's against his will and he has no control over it, BUT, i think if he makes the choice to put himself in one on purpose and with a plan, he would excel at it, he would play into it so hard to get what he wants, he'd see it as his opportunity to cheat the system (pun intended!) and farm easy points
#''im not an actual damsel in distress if im just acting'' -shen yuan | damsel in distress#hed get the other peak lords to fuss over him so quickly#all wrapped around his finger#i think the biggest issue is really the control and agency of it#shen yuan doesnt like not having control over his own actions and choices#so when he makes the choice himself to play a certain role for his own gains he wouldnt care at all#(also i headcanon he likes getting fussed over once in a while)#(and being carried like a princess by big strong men)#''all the princes come to save the princess!'' <- shen yuan not realizing that princes fall in love with princesses#white lotus binghe would get sooo jealous too when liu qingge carries sqq home after a flare up#he cant wait to grow up so HE will be carrying shizun around#anyway just a random thought#svsss#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#scum villian’s self saving system#scum villian self saving system#scum villain#luo binghe#damsel in distress trope
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"I need to remember you." "Well does it work?" "...Once"
Bonus +
#werewolf by night#jack russell#elsa bloodstone#lissa russell#marvel#marvel comics#comic#werewolf#mcu#wwbn#wbn#mcuedit#marveledit#gifedit#tw: flashing gif#you CANT convince me that he was talking about ANYONE else but his sister in that moment#all of his other friends that have faced the werewolf either had mind powers or got attacked in some way#you CANT change my mind#and while we're at it#lissa is being INSANELY brave in this scene like no one else has ever told this guy to not be afraid#like once she realized its jack- she had no fear left in her body at all like he doesnt scare her and that is just insane to me#god i love it here
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utterly random late night panic thoughts but
if you read my zelda comic and like it i love and appreciate you but i really do need to be upfront about it being very much a self indulgent enemies to lovers story with a villain at the center that has done bad but isnt bad at his core and is struggeling to come to terms with the fact that he doesnt actually want to be the evil beast he and almost everyone else believes he should be
yes im one of those people ... fake villain fans or something ... i think .. i dont know the rules to that ... q-q
#ganondoodles talks#i thinks its in part the time thats making me suddendly panic about that#like i often see posts from people that are like fake villain enjoyers make the guy into a good guy#and real villain enjoyers are those that like him bc he kills people#or making fun of or generally seeming very agressive towards people that redeem villains#and i have no idea if id be counted among them bc im kinda doing it#yes he killed people but no he doesnt like it and doesnt want to#im one of those cringy softies that are like .. but what if villain ... good#of course im trying to make it make sense and with alot of extra written lore#like i made an entire world up just for demises backstory#but im undenialbly afraid that some people will tear my comic apart once they realize i made him not all that evil#again i have pretty much read no fanfiction and am unfamiliar with alot of common fanfic tropes and stuff so#i got no idea what is commonly understood as the wrong kind of villain fan or soemthing#I DONT KNOW THE CRINGE RULES I JUST HAVE LOTS OF BLORBO THOUGHTS#i need to go to bed
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I love ggy so much how did they accidentally make the most intriguing hypothetical gay romance ever
#also the book is just so fucking good#and tony becker is literally the best fnaf book protaganist ever once you understand his character#and how crazy the book writes him#like oh my god hes so tunnel visioned doomed by the narritave#any scenario where tony survives the attack is the best idea ever like fr#its just so fun and awesome to make stuff up with that very loose premise#like u can do anything#and the characters are likeable too because they have FLAWS#tony isnt a bad person hes just in a bad place and is an asshole without realizing#and also twelve#like how am i not supposed to become obsessed with beckory when tony spent the whole book#accidentally obsessing over gregorys evil side and then being so tunnel visioned by his own emotional baggage that it kills him#exactly how his father warned him#and his father is the reason hes even so deep into solving mysteries like#and u can put that onto gregory if tony ever survived the attack#like he wouldnt want to believe it the same way he didndt want to believe his dad did it and repeat history#by delving deep into ggy#like damn every relationship ever with gregory is so fucking interesting#ggy never stop being awesome#pandas.txt#obviously beckory isnt the only reason i like ggy but damn its a big reason#tony and Gregory are both so flawed and have so much going on in their head theyd be fucking crazy together#also expanding on the tony stuff i said earlier gregorys side has so much potential too like#even if tony died if gregory ever remembered hed mourn tony and have to deal with that#even if they werent even that close at the time and Gregory doesnt even like. actually have any memories of being friends with him#and if tony survived its like gregorys remembering this faceless nameless boy as the only connection to his past#like what if they both searched for eachother after surviving what then
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I need to watch Sharpay's Fabulous Adventure to reach my final conclusion on if she's even attracted to men
#girl help i keep thinking about sharpay and ryan being each others only friend growing up#theyre not very good at interpersonal relationships#romance is foreign to them. they dont care about playing romantic interests because they only view romance through the lens of theatre#fake. not real. an act to entertain an audience. so they dont understand why it would be weird#neither of them have ever kissed anyone#sharpay likes things that make her look better#because her whole life is a performance#so she wants troy because hes a shiny accessory to her#thinking about hsm 2 where once again when she tries to perform a romantic song (with troy this time and not her brother)#she still barely fucking looks at him#all of her attention is on the (nonexistent) audience#and ryan. ryan hm#ryan usually performs alongside sharpay#its usually an in universe performance. theyre on a stage. theres an audience#and all of his attention is on pleasing that audience#an exception to this is during the gay baseball song#where theres a different kind of audience BUT#ryan barely looks at them#most of his attention is directed solely to chad#talking flirting teasing being cocky and annoying but clearly addressing him directly through most of the song#first time this has happened with ryan. take that as you will#ANYWAY i can see sharpay as completely uninterested in romance but she hasnt realized that about herself#and she THINKS she wants it. because she sees it as glamorous#or maybe shes a lesbian i dont know#she might be a lesbian#the deciding factor is sharpays fabulous adventure#if she has chemistry with the guy in that movie then shes just repressed and clueless#if she doesnt shes aro#or possibly lesbian
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something that is like the baseline of amys entire character to me is that shes lonely. shes clingy and physically affectionate in a way none of her friends really are, shes always getting pushed aside and left behind. yeah, she helps out people she doesnt know because shes a nice person, but also, she sees part of herself in them. she wont leave someone else behind because she knows the feeling —and more importantly, hates the feeling. if she doesnt have somebody to stand by her and be there for her, then shes going to be that person for everybody else. something something her obsession with sonic is really just like a manifestation of that desire for closeness with someone, and she thinks that romance is the only way to get that. idk... this hedgehog can have so many abandonment issues.
#me posts#amy rose#sth#sonic the hedgehog#and this is not to say at all that romance is the only way to have 'real' love or anything#just that yknow part of her breaking free of that would also be realizing that she just wants closeness with someone and it doesnt-#-have to be romantic#aroace amy could fit this i suppose and she just doesnt know it yknow. thats not my hc but i support their beliefs if that makes sense#she wants to be loved and she wants to love and she doesnt really get a big outlet for that so she shares it with everyone she sees#also i didnt wanna jam up the post but GAMMA!! this is partially abt gamma she helps him find out how to love and how to find joy in it-#-bc its what she wants for herself. she sees him and sees how completely alone he is and she wants to help him. idk idk something something#-when she was locked in the cell she saw part of herself staring back at her#gamma parallels to amy is SLEPT ON i stg i could make a whole other post about it#idk.. whenever im writing amy or just thinking abt how shed interact with others its always from the lens that she craves closeness with-#-others. she wants people to just stay for once.#does this make any sense. idk man im rambling here#my worst nightmare is characterizing her wrong its such a fine line and sometimes the words do not come out of my brain right#btw this is NOT me dissing amy i love amy. she is like top three favorite character.#important context: im typing this with amy firefox theme rn ok. ok im an amy fan.#she points at the minimize button like shes telling me to log off#jesus christ i just scrolled back up i love to put a whole other post in the notes dont i
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*cries* olly, they could never make me hate you
#you people are forgetting he's FOURTEEN#HE IS JUST A KID#HE DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING#HE'S A BABY#HE JUST WANTS TO BE SEEN#YES HE SHOULD PAUSE HIS EXCITEMENT AND ENERGY AND ASK PAISLEY WHAT SHE WANTS#BUT THATS THE OTHER PART!!!#ITS NOT JUST OLLY!!! PAISLEY DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE HER PROBLEM WITH HIM BECAUSE SHE DOESNT WANT TO LOSE HIM!#ITS LIKE HALF THE PLOT GUYS#OLLY THINKS HE'S HELPING PAISLEY DO WHAT SHE LOVES#BUT THEN HE GETS CAUGHT UP WITH THE IDEA OF FAME AND *BOTH* OF THEM BEING SEEN#AND PAISLEY DOESNT WANT THIS#ITS FUN EVERY NOW AND THEN BUT SHE DOESNT WANT IT ALL THE TIME#BUT SHE HAS A HARD TIME SAYING THIS TO OLLY BECAUSE HE'S SO EXCITED AND HAPPY AND SHE DOESNT WANT TO LOSS HER BEST FRIEND#cmon guys its A KIDS SHOW#both olly and paisley are just kids#they dont know nothing much#i swear the second paisley confesses to olly she doesnt want to do all this ley-la stuff he'll stop it right away once he realizes he hasnt#asked for her thoughts on it.#you guys are forgetting that they're best friends!! and they have been since they were LITERALLY BABIES!#they're just kids#lego friends#lego friends the next chapter#lego friends olly#lego friends paisley#dont attack me please
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shanks, four years younger than mihawk, is usually granted the "starry-eyed crush on the cool older boy" trope (with good reason!), so i was thinking it'd be cute to grant that dubious pleasure to mihawk in an age swap au instead.
mihawk, scrappy nine year old, gets picked up by roger for a trip on the oro jackson to the next island (roger just wants to feed the kid lol), and gets sweet talked into it by dangling a duel with rayleigh, the current world's greatest swordsman, as bait. when mihawk gets there, rayleigh says mihawk has to be able to beat his apprentices first, and gets his ass summarily handed to him by a thirteen year old shanks, who both impresses and embarrasses mihawk, as shanks beats him without even trying but he's so cool when he does it.
and so mihawk declares himself shanks's rival, and when he wins, shanks will have to listen to a request. and years and years later, when mihawk finally does win, that request--which he's never changed his mind about--is permission to start formally courting shanks. charmed, and absolutely having seen this coming after years of observing an obvious crush and slowly warming up to it as mihawk grew and changed between their meetings, laughs and just kisses mihawk straight-up.
#rei rambles#mishanks#one piece#dracule mihawk#akagami no shanks#red haired shanks#akataka#shanks#there's more but that's the gist lol#actually in the half-drabble half-outline i have going rn rayleigh makes mihawk fight buggy first (also four years older)#and after mi loses it leads into a haki lesson that shanks teaches and *that* ends in a tiny duel where mihawk falls in love#there's also prob a part later where shanks says mihawk is just blinded by his childhood hero worship#and mihawk says it was never hero worship and explains that he's never once put shanks on a pedestal.#he never expects shanks to be great and he doesnt make excuses when he isnt. shanks is just the only man who's always exceeded expectations#always challenged him and made him feel like he was basking in the sun.#he's been traveling for years now and has never met anyone else like shanks.#also i was thinking of keeping roger's death at mihawk's age of nineteen making shanks 23 when roger gets executed.#and mb having a scene inspired by james blunt's 'monsters'#i digress#the other optiom is keeping roger's death at when shanks is fifteen and mi having to cope w the realization that love is hard#and that u cant always be what someone needs no matter how much u want to be. and he'll learn it at the tender ag of eleven.#and then he'll find buggy and bully him into taking care of shanks in only the way an annoyingly arrogant fifth grader can.
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I'm just gonna say it. Ulysses is a far better written ex-Legion character than Joshua Graham is
#i really think hes more interesting#the way he hates caesar for what he does but is sympathetic towards other legion members bc he knows the brutal ways they get pulled into it#and his moment of realization of how all hes doing is continuing the cycle#whereas joshua feels like there is absolutely no point in his legion past. hes just there#he turned to religion and all but like. thats it lmao#he doesnt really give any good insight into that stuff like ulysses does and acts like it doesnt bother him despite. everything#idk. i feel like he probably went through a lot of revisions and it sort of dulled him a lot#whereas ulysses feels more like they built him up more with every new look at his character#ill actually talk abt this in depth later once i drag myself through honest hearts so i have more recent insight on it#vinny rambles#fallout new vegas#ulysses
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been thinking abt. linebeck with cat-like mannerisms
#this isnt a joke post hear me out down here#like unconscious or not hes got some mannerisms similar to cats#which line up a bit with him bring paranoid; like around someone he doesnt trust he tends to keep his eyes on them#and avoids them slightly but once he trusts + feels safe and whatnot he watches them less and hangs around#like i imagine midway through ph he starts just like. chilling on the ship around link more#as opposed to specifically either staying in his room or only being in the same room if necessary#the watching thing isnt 1:1 cat behavior ofc but it is also with him just. avoiding eye contact a lot and eye contact putting him on edge#which is also just. autism. i figure he likes cats and grew up around them and that mixed with an uh. abnormal. childhood led to like.#mirroring cat behavior a bit#he does hang out in a box canonically#salty talks#linebeck#he probably does the slow blink thing without realizing. i actually did that for a bit without noticing#ive said it before ill say it again. as a kid he was probably the type to roleplay warrior cats at recess#i just like him having like. subtly strange mannerisms and mannerisms that like. Mean Something if you pay attention yknow
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for others who disliked adams greywaren ending, what do you think about the part of his ending with transferring schools?
Personally, i can see arguments for transferring (in terms of adam not having his fantasized perfectly linear path to success), but i want to see him stay and deal with his lies and mistakes. ik that sounds mean, but i intend it in the kindest way possible. like it could be helpful for him to distance himself from the person he invented at harvard and try again, but i want him to contend with that and reconcile his invention with the person he really is; i don’t think they are mutually exclusive!
maybe this comes down to your opinion of his crying club- whether you think theyre really his friends or not- but to me, i don’t think this effort to build community was wrong, even though it was unhealthy that he had to lie about his background to do it. i think adam needs to think about why he had this drive to create a friend group and why he felt like he couldn’t be the same person he was in henrietta. i want him to feel like he can be honest with the crying club, or at least that he can his genuine self with people outside the gangsey. he doesnt have to suddenly dump the whole truth on them, but i wish he could slowly let himself trust them, as they have trusted him with their troubles.
Obviously it was important for him and his character arc to leave henrietta and for him to want to leave behind the person he was there (and the fact that everyone there knew he was poor and a victim of abuse), but i’d like to see adam stay in place somewhere and work through who he is there. I feel like if he leaves and starts somewhere new, he’ll still have that instinct to leave behind this old version of adam and reinvent himself.
what do you all think? i know we all hate the adam becomes a fed thing, but wasnt sure what opinion is on this part
#i think people see a lot of themselves in adam#ive seen people HATE that he goes to harvard and advocate for him to fully drop out#which at least in one case has related to poster not following traditional academic success#me on the other hand- i also really dreamed of going far far away for college and experiencing academic and personal success there#so i resonanted with adams dream of leaving henrietta for prestigious school#anyway. the scene that lives in my head goes like this#adam gathers the crying club to tell them hes tranferring#he says ‘i have to tell you all something.’#he opens his mouth to explain hes transferring and for some reason instead what he says is#‘im a psychic’ . theyre all like??#and suddenly he has to explain this statement. and kinda explain that he lied about breaking up w ronan#he doesnt tell them about abuse right away. but slowly truths start to come out and the lies slow down#and slowly realizes that once again he has friends that love him for being adam. not some phony perfect version of himself.
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ok siiince you asked for requests for demon boy castys… the tongue cut out + gag seemed like such an adorable situation for him <33
Giving you that and a little extra because I wanted More Whump 💕
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Ingredients: manhandling, a lot of unsexy noncon touching, slight dehumanization, partial nudity
Castys wasn’t sure if he slept at all that night, but after what felt like an eternity, Neteri reappeared wearing different clothes under her white coat.
“Good morning, Castys!” She sat on one of the stools from last night and motioned for him to do the same. “Get up, I’ve got wonderful news to share!”
Castys opened his mouth to retort, but he found he couldn’t form the words. His tongue was still…he looked away, swallowing, and sat up while remaining on the floor.
“You’re going to have to start listening to me, you know. Because,” she broke out into an excited smile, “I get to keep you!” Upon seeing Castys’s glare, she just laughed. “I figured you wouldn’t be excited, but trust me,” she held up a finger, “you’ll be much better off in my hands than if you were sold as a pet to some bored aristocrat. I’m sure they’d beat that personality right out of you, and I don’t plan on doing anything of the sort. As long as you cooperate with my experiments, you’re free to be yourself. You can even hate me as much as you like!” Castys raised an eyebrow at her final statement. He’d see about that.
After rummaging in her bag for a moment, she pulled out a little silver medal and moved to crouch next to him on the ground. “Hold still now,” she ordered as she started to bring it towards his neck. Castys wasn’t sure what was happening at first, but after a moment, it clicked, and he decided he’d rather not listen, leaning back. Neteri just sighed. “You’re not off to a very good start.” Well, it’s not like he wanted to be.
Suddenly, Neteri changed tactics, shoving him down on his back and straddling his waist before he could try to sit up, pinning his arms down with a knee on each elbow. Castys cried out, the wounds on his back from the whip lighting up in pain, and that combined with her full weight on him kept him from moving. He bared his teeth as her hand came closer, daring her to get within range, but she just curled her other hand in his hair, yanking it back and keeping his head firmly in place. Great. He was once again powerless against this tiny lady, forced to keep still as she attached that dumb little tag to the collar and sealed the metal shut with the same spell that kept him from taking it off.
“There,” she said once it was on. She tapped the tag, cold against his throat. “Property of Neteri Crozien. Whether you like it or not. Now,” she grabbed his chin, “are you going to let me put some new restraints on you or should I call the guards to manhandle you? Your resistance is pointless and only delaying the inevitable, exactly like every other time. Just nod if you’re going to cooperate.”
Did he want to get manhandled again? Not particularly. He’d had more than enough of being grabbed and held still while chains were taken off and put on. And it’s not like he was resisting out of pride or something stupid, he just fought back when it was something he really didn’t want to happen. Which was most things in the past couple days, but, hey, if new restraints meant he got to leave this boring-ass cell, he was okay with it. Her grip on his hair had loosened enough to allow him a small nod, so he gave one, praying she’d get the fuck off of him now.
Neteri smiled brightly at his cooperation. “Great! Although,” she got off of him and stood, thinking, “maybe just stay laying down. I don’t really trust you not to try and run at the moment, so just roll on your stomach and I’ll take the chains off.” Castys sighed in annoyance but complied, gritting his teeth as his weight went from his injured back to his burned chest. The cold stone floor felt a little good on it, at least, but it was a small consolation as he watched Neteri walk back over with a key and a coil of rope.
She squatted down and-fuck, that was a knee on his back, not her full weight but enough to make him gasp in pain. Paying him no mind, Neteri unlocked the manacles around his wrists, and he could barely enjoy the feeling of not having anything around them for a moment, just wishing she’d tie him up and get the fuck off of his back. It didn’t feel like she was going particularly slow as she pulled his arms behind him and wound the rope around his wrists, but the seconds still dragged by at an agonizing pace.
Finally, she finished tying the knot and took her knee off of his back as she stood. “There we go!” Castys just groaned, rolling on his side. “Oh, stop being so dramatic. It’s not like I was hurting you.” Castys’s glare deepened, and he awkwardly used his bound hands to pull up the back of his shirt enough to expose the bandages wrapped around his torso. Neteri’s jaw dropped slightly, and she just stared at him for a second before worry took over her features.
“I…I’m so sorry I…I completely forgot. That you were hurt. I wouldn’t have done that if I remembered.” Her head hung slightly. “I’m really sorry, Castys.” Her apology seemed genuine, but how the fuck did she forget he got whipped and branded yesterday? She looked back at him again. “Let’s just hurry and get you to your new home so I can heal you up, okay?” Wait, new home? She was taking him somewhere else? At first the idea was scary, but then Castys remembered that he’d never particularly loved living in the castle, so whatever. It was probably just going to be a different prison cell, anyway.
With ridiculous difficulty and a lot of groaning in pain, he managed to sit up, using his elbows to help him do it since his hands were kind of useless. By the time that was done, Neteri was standing above him with…a chain? He was already tied up what the fu-no. No fucking way. He growled as her hands moved towards his neck, baring his teeth once more.
“Seriously, Castys? You said you weren’t a dog yesterday, but you sure are acting like one.” Yeah, sure, whatever, but since he couldn’t fucking talk, he was forced to resort to other means of protest. He honestly wasn’t entirely sure where the growling came from himself, and, yeah, it was a little animalistic, but that didn’t mean he deserved to get put on a leash. “This is happening either way, so just give it up already.” Her hand was moving closer, closer, the clasp at the end of the chain open, ready to-
Once again, instinct took over, and before he knew it, his teeth were buried in the flesh of her hand.
Neteri cried out, jerking her hand back and dropping the leash. “Lyte! Seriously?!” She winced as she dabbed the wounds with what smelled like the stingy liquid from yesterday and used her magic to close them up, during which Castys couldn’t help but smile smugly. Once she was done healing, she pulled on her leather gloves and grabbed a couple rolls of bandages from her bag. “I figured you were going to be difficult to keep in line, but this is just ridiculous.” Castys took pride in being ridiculous, so he’d take the compliment. What he didn’t want to take were the consequences of his actions, but he was a little bit helpless at the moment, so there wasn’t much he could do as Neteri shoved a wad of bandages in his mouth and tied a strip around his head to keep him from spitting it out.
“There. You’re just about the only person who’d need to be gagged when they can’t talk.” Castys just looked away, feeling his face grow hot as she clipped the leash to the collar. She gave it a tug, but he didn’t budge. Now he was just resisting out of spite. Neteri’s expression grew even more frustrated, and it looked like she was about to say something before she stopped herself and took a deep breath, calming herself down. She crouched down to look Castys in the eye.
“Look, I’ve been going about this the wrong way. I hurt you when I didn’t mean to, so I’m not going to punish you for biting me. We’ll just call it even.” She paused and held up a finger. “The gag stays until we reach our destination, though. Just for safety’s sake. But I’ll tell you something about my plans for you. If you come with me, you’ll have a tongue again by the end of tomorrow. Does that sound good?”
Castys could be stupid and stubborn and petty and shake his head and sit here and then end up getting dragged off to wherever, or he could just suck it the fuck up and get the ability to complain back. Complaining would be nice...After weighing his options he nodded, and Neteri broke into a smile. “Good. Let’s go, then.” She helped him stand, and she seemed to do her best not to pull on the leash as they walked along. Soon enough, they had reached the teleportation stone, and Castys…he couldn’t help but be a little excited to leave this stupid place. He knew he was a fucking prisoner now, but he was basically a prisoner in his old life, too, minus the chains and plus a comfy bed.
At least he was going somewhere else.
The other palace was pretty cool, at least, the short glimpses he got before he was pulled into the lower levels, down halls and through doors until they arrived at his lame little prison cell. It did have a bed, though, so that was an upgrade. And a private bathroom?! Why did the prison cells in his family’s dungeon have to suck so much ass? He only spent two nights there, but still. If he was ever in charge of a dungeon, he would make sure it was at least a little comfy in case he got thrown in there.
Neteri clamped a manacle around his ankle, which was whatever, because that meant she untied his wrists and took that stupid leash off. And then, true to her word, she healed his wounds. The brand scarred, of course, which was…the symbol was kind of cool, but since it meant he was “property” or whatever he wasn’t too excited about it being on his chest for the rest of his life. At least shirts existed.
After that was done, Neteri instructed him to clean himself off and left him alone for a bit. He wandered into the bathroom, chain clinking with every step, and paused in front of the mirror. He looked pretty much the same as always, just a little more tired and blood-covered than usual. Oh, and the stupid collar around his neck. Neteri was fucking delusional, it didn’t look the slightest bit “cute” on him, it just looked…He didn’t want to see it anymore.
Once he was clean and dressed in some slightly comfier clothes, Castys tried out his new bed. It was nowhere near as nice as his old one, but it was way better than the floor, so he’d take it. Just as he was drifting off to sleep, Neteri poked him in the face.
“I’m back, Castys, get up and take your shirt off.” Castys sat up, but didn’t take his shirt off, instead just crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow. His wounds were healed, so what the hell did she need it off for? “Come on, I’m just going to examine you and take some measurements. Nothing painful, I promise.” Not painful, sure, but probably still not pleasant. Even so, he didn’t really have much choice but to listen, so he pulled off his shirt and stood, hoping this wouldn’t involve too much touching.
His hopes were in vain.
It started off fine, her measuring his height and a few other things with a strip of leather, but then she started running her hands all over him, poking at him, moving him this way and that. He couldn’t help but flinch every time since he hated being touched, and Neteri was clearly getting annoyed by it. His full-body recoil after she ran a hand down his spine was the final straw. Wordlessly, she clamped a manacle around one of his wrists before shoving him down onto the bed. He tried to stand back up, but she basically fucking tackled him, pinning him down on his back for the second time today. And, to top it all off, she managed to loop the chain around the top of the cot before cuffing his other wrist, leaving him pretty much helpless.
“I wouldn’t have to do this if you’d just kept still,” Neteri sighed, seeing his frustration. Well, it was a little fucking hard to be still when someone who’s basically a stranger is running their hands all over your bare skin. He considered trying to kick her, but she’d probably just chain him up more and keep going, and he’d rather this bullshit just be over with already.
Being chained down on his back somehow made this infinitely worse. There was nowhere to run, nothing he could do, Neteri looming over him as she put her hands all over him, touching his chest, his brand, squeezing his arms, grabbing his chin, pulling at his eyelids, gloves on now, hands in his mouth, poking at the stump of his tongue, feeling his teeth, gripping his hair to turn his head from side to side, his skin was crawling, crawling, his muscles tense, breaths coming short, fast, he just wanted her to get off stop touching him examining him taking notes reducing him down to just numbers just a body not a person not someone who got boundaries or personal space no just someone who gets touched and touched and touched-
“Castys! Hey, hey, just breathe.” Neteri was standing over him now, fiddling with the cuffs on his wrists, releasing him. Castys hadn’t even realized he was hyperventilating, but he tried his best to calm down as he scrambled to the other end of the bed, as far away from her as he could get. Neteri watched him sadly. “I…I was making you uncomfortable, wasn’t I? I’m sorry, I just thought you were trying to be a nuisance.” No shit he was fucking uncomfortable, how the hell did she misread that?! At least she looked upset by this, but it was way too late for that. Castys still felt like there were bugs crawling all over him, and he could feel his heart pounding out of his chest.
Neteri reached out a hand in a misguided attempt to comfort him, but after seeing how Castys flinched and bared his teeth, she backed off. “Okay, okay, I’ll leave you alone. Well, I’ll go get you something to eat, and then I’ll leave you alone. Until tomorrow, and then you’ll have a tongue again and you can complain all you want and yell at me, okay?” Castys would rather never have to see her stupid face ever again, but that’s not how this was gonna work, so he just nodded silently, not relaxing until she’d left the room.
He almost wanted to take a shower again, just to wash the feeling of her hands off, but it was starting to subside, so he just pulled his shirt back on and hid under the covers. What was that, exactly? He knew he didn’t like being touched, and he’d never let anyone do it remotely that much, so maybe being touched for so long in such an invasive way had been too overwhelming. Castys had thought he’d be a little tougher than this, since the thought of pain didn’t really scare him, but apparently being pinned down and touched was too much for him? Kind of…pathetic. Maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad if he could talk, protest, fight back a little bit with his words. Maybe he’d be okay once he could talk again.
He just hoped Neteri wasn’t lying about giving him his tongue back.
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#i wrote something#whump-queen#whump#castys#neteri#castys & terror au#thanks aki enjoy sorry it took a bit but i think it turned out more fun because of that hehe#okay DISCLAIMER: neteri forgot he got branded and whipped because i forgot#and wrote her like pinning him down and shit#and then i remembered that he had other injuries#so instead of rewriting everything and cutting out all that sexy shit i just made it her fault so you're welcome#she really does feel bad about it tho#sorry if the gagging wasn't as whumpy as you wanted 😔 once she gagged him neteri simulation was like ''what if she was nice''#because she realized her approach wasn't going to work and she can tell castys is really upset about his tongue#so there it is the way to make him cooperate#he wants to be annoying soooo bad#yeah idk why he started growling. feral fucking man#he is just 19 he is so so young here so the defiant streak hasn't mellowed much aka he bitey#he also hasnt really been touched that much against his will and when it happens oh no :)#idk if it was a full blown panic attack but def a mild one#neteri is afraid he might have been sexually assaulted based on his reactions and she feels really bad about it#she will ask once he can talk again and he can tell her no he just doesnt like being touched
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you. yes you 🫵. spare three fun facts about howie.
1. he really likes super dark chocolate (87%+) and after he quits drinking, he ends up eating a lot more dark chocolate instead as his kind of replacement. he doesn't really love chocolate baked into other things though, just the straight up chocolate bar experience for him
2. he can come off as kind of quiet and gruff but he'sreally just an awkward butch with muscle & a masculine voice so people think of him as dark and cranky instead of what he really is: a very shy and soft guy who should have been a philosophy major if he wasnt born in the early 1900s and evil-married during the great depression. he should not under any circumstances be at the club but more than anything he should have been at university. (his voice claim is hozier!)
3. with the other prophets (remi, skylark, wicker, and technically mimzy), howie had chance encounters with everyone before Zephyr tethered them as prophets to the narrative, except remi. he used to date wicker like 50-60 years ago, and he met skylark when she was a younger model like 15-20 years ago and then returned to work for her as she runs her syndicate, and he's seen mimzy in various places overlapping when she was very small, and after her parents were killed & she went missing, whoever did it was put on Mama's bounty board. remi just crawled out of the woodwork once everyone had been tied together and started throwing things at him though. i think this is why howie & remi tend to have the hardest time getting along in the group.
#also hes so funny. identity wise?#98% of the time i use he/him but a she/her here and there where it feels right ... <3#hes a butch. but also not a lesbian. but also not not a lesbian. but also when wicker realized HE was a lesbian he left howie abt it#but ALSO howie didnt know being a butch was an option at that point#and generally doesnt have time to figure out his identity. frankly.#i know he uses she/her once in a while. i know hes butch. he doesnt know anything and never has#text#asks#howie#oc asks#gurathins#red you are the light of my life
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