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I wonder how many times Clark and the batkids + Alfred revived Bruce with the Lazarus Pit and just never told him abt it
#he pieces it together later but i mean. its so hard for him to miss now that hes looking back at it#like why is he always always always cold with a turtleneck on and heating blasting#why is his appetite so scarce? how come his sleep deprived body withstands hours - sometimes DAYS - of patrol#and functions perfectly? how come time passes by but he stays the same? why wont clark and dick stop giving gim#*him looks of loving grief?#why does harley slam her fists on her head when she sees him? ' no no no you're gone. you're GONE. I KNOW you are!'#why does selina smile at him with such heavy pity ' sorry bruce. i don't do ghosts'#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#batman#batfamily#clark kent#dick grayson#jason todd#bc they def exclude the cloning. they dont want another bruce. they want THEIR bruce. tim#like can you imagine jason getting up in tim's face and just ' if you're not gonna stand by us then stay out of our way'#dark bruce? tired. dark BATKIDS? sign me the FUCK up#batdad#text
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the worst day of their lives so far, but the night is quiet
#dounart#this case is so special to me like. can you imagine what they went through#it's phoenix's first trial on his own and hus second ever. he just lost his beloved mentor. she's been brutally murdered#and now somehow he has to defend her little sister in trial and going up against the only reason he became a lawyer#he wanted to see him again but this is the worst timing and he has to hold on for everybody#and maya just lost her remaining close family and discovered her body covered in blood#and now she's in a strange place where she doesn't know anybody and she could be executed for murdering the person she loved the most#and her only hope is this strange 24-years old rookie attorney who has no idea what he's doing#yeah...#aadoodles23#ace attorney#aa#ace attorney fanart#phoenix wright#mia fey#maia fey#doodle#art
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Had a lot of fun using the template by anikiri._.6 on insta and my most recent comm from @sunflowerpin to show off my baby more 💕
#our life#our life now and forever#olnf#ol2#ol mc#olnf mc#mc nova#i love her dearly my precious baby <3#also loooook at her art!! she's so beautiful and perfect and charming and sweet and-#her step 3 is just gorgeous too but I'm gonna wait until the full game comes out to make one of these for that age#sunny killed it as always 💕🫶🏾#the encyclopedia they're holding in step 1 is a ref to another comm from them!!#and of course she's a fucking nerd so they're holding journal 3 from gf and my fav hoo book in step 2 <3#one thing about me is I'll sneak in refs to my fav books games and shows whenever I can hehe 😌#yes their bday is during the step so she's actually 9/13/17 during the prologue and has their bday after 2 or 3 moments#imagine they skipped a grade or something idk. really I just wanted to give her my bday#and yeah i wrote chubby as their body type in step 2 bc I couldn't remember the word used in game and was too lazy to check 👍🏾#nobody say anything i swear... chubby is not a bad word!! it's just a descriptor and the word i thought fit best!
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I love to think that the real reason the members of the jury have to renounce their family and their past isn't because of some oath they take, no it's because when they take the power of the jury they start to lose who they once were. They forget those that they used to hold dear because of the powers their jury form lends them. They don't intend to forget and it's not instant, it's slow and gradual. Overtime it'll just feel like a dream, becoming unsure if there was anyone ever there to begin with.
This theory very heavily ties back in with Katelyn, why after the Irene dimension she wasn't too quick to go searching for her family, because at that point she had forgotten who they were a long time ago. She's no longer a member of the jury, no longer influenced by this memory fog. But it still lingers, throughout her time with aphmau and laurance she starts to remember little things, she knows there were people, those who she cared about. But she can't remember their names, who they were, who they wanted to be. She remembers feelings. It's why when she talks about her family in the later season she's so inconsistent, because she doesn't remember and it bothers her that she might never remember
#this is very katelyn focused but i made it up to try and grapple with her family ties in diaries#her and casey are close i cant imagine that not being the case in another world#also jeffory remembers abby because she was the family he started after he joined the jury#i like to imagine garroth is starting to forget his own family as well#hes a member of the jury now#that much power comes with a cost#he forgets the people that used to matter to him most#its why he was so quick to betray them all in season 1#he was starting to forget who they were#how much they meant to him#aphmau#minecraft diaries#mcd#mcd rewrite#jo9#jury of nine#katelyn the firefist#jeffory the golden heart#garroth ro'meave#you guys remember when i said in my rewrite katelyn accidentally kills kasey?#yeah well she only remembers him when hes dead#only when shes holding her little brothers body does she remember the smell of her childhood home
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Does leopard still have 3 lives in her final battle? Or was that changed?
Yep. I think she drowned her once, then Leopardstar lunges up refreshed, and she gets the upper paw on Mistyfoot with 2 lives to go.
(MAYBE tw gore, but I really did try to be tasteful about a head being smashed on a rock.)
On her back, splashing and thrashing furiously against Leopardstar's claws dunking her head under, Mistyfoot glimpses a wave breaking just over the tip of a stone-blue rock. Her only chance.
With a surge of power, her claws sink into her leader's golden shoulder and they tumble and roll to the right. Before the tyrant even realizes what's happening, she's yanked up, and then whipped backwards with a wet CRUNCH
And then again
And again
And again, until Mistyfoot can't even make out what's left of her leader anymore. All she can see is that it's a red, brown, and yellow blur, because her eyes burning with salty tears and her whole body is trembling.
She drops the corpse onto the stone and it slides into the water, lifelessly. After a moment it spasms aimlessly one last time, like an insect does after its head is bitten off, unlike the deliberate, agonized throes of Tigerstar suffering through his doomed lives. And then it's still.
There's only the tranquil sound of bubbling water, and Mistyfoot's frenzied panting. Her pounding heart makes it hard to hear either.
The blood is carried off by the shallow water in scarlet swirls, but the lake runs pale red as if it's washing it away. Some were aware of this prophecy, but Mistyfoot was not.
It isn't closure to her, or a fulfillment of divine decree. It's just blood that should be on her paws, slicked away by the complicit river. She wished it could feel like it's over, but she's smart enough to know the truth. Has been through enough terrible events like this to understand what comes next.
Her body will move foward. Her mind will need to consider her deputy. Her paw will come down on code-defying cats like Blackclaw and Greenflower. But her heart will stay here, next to the remains of Leopardstar, the same way another piece of it remains at Stonefur's side across space and time.
#Tw gore#Juuuust in case but I did try to stay tasteful#While also trying to write it as gut-wrenchingly violent as I imagine in my head#Because it's important that it haunts her#The kill wasn't pretty and clean. It was awful. She didn't want this. It wasn't heroic#'Why did you do this to me? Why did you make this so cruel?'#'Why was the last thing you ever did to me such a horrible command as a leader?'#'And why did I obey your orders until the bitter bitter end?'#'How could you turn my defiance into a new kind of cruel obediance? Did I not suffer ENOUGH for you?'#'And now there is no head to bury with your body. I am cursed with the last memory of your face. I alone will know how you looked at me'#'That the last expression on your face wasn't pain or confusion or realization.'#'It was all fury. For me.'#OF COURSE tho I will continue to make funny rock jokes until the day I die lmaoo#Duality of Bones#Hmm maybe when I get to this in BB!TNP I'll be quick and objective about it and save the Misty Emotions for like...#I miss how the field guides used to have stories told in 1st person.#It would be fun to have a BB!Mistystar Speaks#Because I do LOVE writing Misty's verbose and philosophical speeches.#As you can see from the tags lmao#BB!Mistystar#Better bones au
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(Based off of the reality of having a metal ring in your back as a constant reminder of your fate and how that affects you as a person set in the Switzerland arc)
“Does it hurt?”
Ava’s pressed face down into the pillow sleep curling around her limbs. She hums, she can’t remember what she says, she’s exhausted. Her arms are tangled beneath her pillow. She holds her fingers tightly between each other, her bones ache from the pressure but her hands no longer shake. Ava hasn’t experienced this before, a fear that haunts her at night. (She finds she cannot stop dreaming about dying. It’s stifling in the cover of night trying to figure out where she is.)
She slowly opens her eyes and squints in the darkness. Beatrice is facing her a furrow in her brow that Ava knows she’s doing unconsciously. Ava’s lip quirks a smidgen, Beatrice looks funny. It’s a bit silly to her, Beatrice no doubt working out a solution to an unknown problem that Ava has yet to see in the middle of the night. In her sleepy state she wants to laugh at the imaginary cogs churning in Beatrice’s head.
Beatrice scooches closer and Ava panics, her skin can taste the dust of Bea’s forearm. She hoists herself up on her elbows, turning to face Beatrice. “Wha?” Ava’s shaking off bits of sleep from her mouth when Beatrice repeats herself.
“Does the Halo hurt?”
She doesn’t know if she wants to answer that. Ava peers over Beatrice squinting at the harsh light of the digital clock on Beatrice’s side. Ava loves it, it reminds her of the early 2000’s and the aesthetic of waking up to an alarm to go somewhere. The clock blinks an innocent 1:43 Am, and Ava debates on letting her head thump back down.
She turns her body on her side, she can feel the halo shifting in her back and it makes her want to throw up. The sides of the halo press against her shoulder blades and Ava resists the urge to yank it out. She grits her teeth and settles ignoring the skin of her back pulling tight to accommodate for the ring. Beatrice is still expecting an answer and Ava can’t lie to her, she pulls the covers of the sheet up to her chest hoping to bide more time for an answer.
"Everything hurts Bea," Ava smiles, "getting my ass handed to me is hard work."
Beatrice frowns displeased but looks at her through her lashes, it's unguarded, the stress and worries of the world stay out of their room in the dead of night. Her lashes are so pretty and Ava wants to curse the soft glow of the moon. There’s just enough moonlight to illuminate her eyes but overshadow her freckles. Ava swallows down the taste of defeat, she can’t win, she thinks.
Her gaze is soft, Beatrice is looking at her and it’s different yet the same. The same feeling in her chest constricting her lungs, the same soft gaze of Beatrice. Beatrice who likes what she sees in Ava when Ava can barely see where she begins. She doesn’t like to dwell on it, the truth of the matter being what belongs to Ava.
If she closes her eyes she can pretend just a little longer. She can give herself the hope of the future and what comes after all this. She can put down the fighting and the artifact and live. Ava doesn't want to think about it anymore, at least not tonight when Beatrice is here with her.
Beatrice is soft. She knows it from hours and hours of training. She's felt it when Beatrice corrects her form, in the way she talks. She speaks from a place of care like she has turned the harsh words in her brain over and over to soften the syllables spoken to Ava. And Ava doesn't linger on it, the meaning behind it, (Ava didn't think she'd make it this far, finding a person who cares quite like Bea does.)
And Ava's got it bad, she knows she's fucked because Beatrice doesn’t say anything about her language and Ava can't not tell her the truth. She looks down, her hand fiddling with the bed sheet underneath them.
"It doesn't hurt," if she thinks about it she can feel the fibers of the cotton between the pads of her fingers. "But it's very uncomfortable." She doesn't want to find the response in Beatrice's eyes, content to hear it from her voice. The soft British lilting accent that holds her just as soft as a touch.
She waits, she can picture Bea’s mannerisms with her eyes closed but maybe she should check just to be sure. Ava peers up at Beatrice and she’s suddenly closer. Her eyes really are pretty, there’s a depth to them that Ava wants to spend an ungodly amount of time studying.
“Can I help?”
#tko_writes#AND THEN THEY BANGGGG NASTY UGLY HARDDDDD#tenatively titled:#Do you think i'm kind?#in which i dump soup all over this google doc#soup being trauma#yeah this is ooc what about it#i need to go to bed right now#can u believe it i wrote something relatively normal#bleghhh#it wasn't as bad as I thought it would go#canon writing is boring to me personally but this wasn't too bad#it's just like blah blah imagine having a metal ring in ur back and how sleeping on ur side affects your body#just like body horror#and like the constant reminder of it because how do u escape something that's so uncomfortable sitting between ur shoulder blades but#helps you move and do all the things u dreamed of???#anyway got bonked with this idea talking with ard#everyone thank ard for this if u liked it#i was supposed to write more but i've gotta go to bed#Ava's thoughts are all over the place but i'm gonna say that's cuz she's sleepy#something somethign it's just all the trauma she's gone through because she's had the halo is present and she's constantly reminded of it#because it jostles inside of her and no one was really fit to house a halo#something something GET RID OF THE HALO BEARERS LET THOSE WOMEN LIVE THEIR LIVES#RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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When I grow up I wanna be like Yona. Just absolute devastation. Won’t take any bs from anyone trying to hurt her family.
I love her so much
#imagine being so cool at age 16#like I’m 19 and I’m not that cool#she already bodied a man in one shot and now she’s just taking names and collecting body bags#I love her so much#I’m rereading for the fun times#because right now it’s just pain#akatsuki no yona#akayona#yona of the red dawn#yona of the dawn#yona#princess yona#akatsuki no yona manga spoilers
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polly…….. maam…….. awwk🦜 gaaaaaauk🦜
#ace attorney#apollo justice#aa4#myart#acepostale#body hair is stupid hard to draw right. i will get better. this is my mission and my purpose#once read a fic w transfem polly and her description stuck so hard in my brain she was so beautiful that now whenever i imagine apollo she#pops in my head first#thanks to my friend yavuz selim. for calling me gay when i sent him this
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that body never belonged to you in the first place
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk 261 spoilers#megumi fushiguro#sukuna#itadori yuuji#gojo satoru#kenjaku#chat am i exaggerating or are the horrors of having your body possessed real#the amount of times that a character has been possessed or had their body used as a weapon makes me nauseous#itadori being the main example#it made me so sick when he had to come back to himself after shibuya and see everything that sukuna did#like yeah i would throw up too#also i can’t think about megumi without getting a little sick to my stomach#maybe i’m just exaggerating bc i get emotional like that but#imagine having to watch ur sister kind of turn into a monster after a year of her being in a curse induced coma#and then you watch your friend also get his body possessed by the king of curses which then leads into YOU getting your body possessed by#the king of curses who then fights and kills your sister … in your body …#like yeah i wouldn’t wanna go back on the battlefield either#also they’re like fifteen and going through all of this like goddamn#too much bodily possession in jjk…. now gojo’s being reduced reused recycled#for good cause of course#but still#this is heavy
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bard!riz is so important to me bc the kind of character he would be if the truth-fear balance tips all the way to fear esp. bc he takes so much pride in canon in the fact that his parents are brave badass people and he's following their footsteps. but also bc I have so much fun thinking abt bard!kipperlilly
#not art#she would suck SO much more it would own#sighs dreamily imagining influencer kipperlilly.... kinda love the idea that she's still like the ''frontman'' of her party#and so would still run for student body president#would be a full tossup with the bad kids for now tho. kristen's still a good candidate for the arc#bc (I did lock down sorcerer for her) something abt actively sharing her power that she kinda held onto as Hers rather than A God's#would be good for her. but also riz overcompensating esp. for a previous sophomore year and putting himself out there#esp. in a sense ''filling the seat bc someone else worse might“ and it burning him out#him coming up against Influencer Girl With 374927474837 Sponsors would be insane. he would hate it. he would also 100% do it#trying to think if any other bad kid would run.... fabian even after multiclassing would probs be like if you even Look at me. its on sight#fig does not subscribe to this power structure. adaine is allergic to sunlight and showing her face#gorgug.... he might be in. depends on how it goes for him in sophomore year#even proximity to that kinda popularity might still be scary to him but he Is great at conflict resolution#it would be fun if kipperlilly expectes to run up against someone playing her own game and instead got gorgug who is A Wall#ah...beautiful pictures in my mind.......
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h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work
unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion
#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad#because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid#i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back#i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades#i might be able to snag a short nap before work#but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen#WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE#well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway#OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal.#anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently#emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it#and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry#so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever?#and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this??#also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m#so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point#anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari#after escaping her british nobility life#and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course.#and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known#and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates.#and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time#also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w#but at least he’s still obsessed with her#this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either.#ml#anna rambles#asks
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Hey, so I know it's been a long time, but I suddenly felt inspired to make some Annie Cresta Picrews. So here you go & I hope you like her as much as I do.
Pre games
Parade outfit
1st Interview
Training
Games
Victory interview
District 13
Post war
#she looks paler in most of them because while I've started to like the headcannon that she could be of asian descent#i don't think the Capitol is above colourism & therefore could tottally see them doing something to Annie's skin to make it lighter#even though she's naturally tan from being out in sun a lot back in District 4#she's pale in District 13 as well but that's because after winning her games she didn't go out as much#& then obviously she was kidnapped & held hostage by the Capitol#she gets her tan back permanently after the war#also yes the cardigan is Finnick's & no i will not confirm weather she's just borrowing it or if it's her's now#god suzzane just let me live in a world where odesta are happy & safe where nothing hurts#i put all the picrews together because I'm still not sure how popular annie is (especially when not in connection to Finnick)#thg#the hunger games#picrew#annie cresta#annie cresta picrew#djarn picrew#the hunger games picrew#thg picrew#also i made her look for her victory interview lacklustre on purpose#as after her breakdown in her games i think pretty much everyone just wanted things to be over#so they could send her back to 4 as quick as possible so they could forget about her#lastly i made her face rounder to show that she is more healthy#& like she had a baby so even though i imagine she's still pretty fit due being an almost Olympic level swimmer#her body is bound to change after that#the turtle neck in the 'games' picrew is meant to be a swimsuit (similar to what the tributes wore in CF) but idk if that came across lol
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Okay guys, hear me out:
Sea Serpent Hobie!!!
Sea Serpent Hobie who sinks any superyachts he comes across!
Sea Serpent Hobie who uses harpoon spears meant to kill him as piercings! And old anchor chains as jewelry!
Sea Serpent Hobie who attacks big commercial fishing boats that are destroying the ecosystem by overfishing
But also benign Sea Serpent Hobie, who aids those lost at sea!
Who helps smaller local fishing buisnesses with sustainable fishing
Who looks out for this small fishing community and in return they warn him whenever hunters show up in the area!
Sea Serpent Hobie who is huge but still manages to hide perfectly in the kelp forests!
Who has bioluminescence and uses it both to terrify enemies and as a way to calm down people in distress, as a way for him to signal goodwill - and to show off when he feels like it!
Who can change his pigmentation similarly to octopi to communicate his mood and feelings! Or just to blend in with his surroundings (also as a nod to the way he changes filters in the movie!)
Sea Serpent Hobie who's frequently seen swimming with whale pods- Orcas being his favourites to hang out with (they sometimes go on yacht sinking trips together)
Sea Serpent Hobie who likes to give people a show and will show off by breaching right next to unsuspecting boats
DO YOU SEE MY VISION?!??
SEA SERPENT HOBIE!!!!!!💙💙💙
#god I really wanna draw him now!#alas my artistic skills are not great to say the least lol#the idea just won't leave my mind!#idk in my mind he kinda looks like a mermaid crossed with a serpent a whale and an eel#he still has a mostly humanoid face and upper body but with features of the creatures I mentioned above#and also I imagine he's pretty big lol#like meduim to large whale sized big#at least that's how I pictue him but I'd love to hear you guys's interpretation of him! <3#I love this au so much already it's such a fun concept for him!#I'm sure you could expand on it and fit other spider people into this au as well!#like maybe Gwen is the daughter of a fisherman and Hobie saves her after their boat capsizes or something#but lemme know if you guys have any ideas for this au as well!#this is a brand new au that I literally just came up with so it's not that well developed yet#so any input is very welcome! <3#there are so many cool possibilities!#I'm unironically so hyped about this ngl!#I keep comming up with more ideas as I write this but I'm gonna try and limit myself for now lol#sea serpent hobie#hobie brown#spider punk#spiderverse#across the spider verse#atsv#across the spiderverse#across the spider verse au#spiderman across the spider verse#my post#my au
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Caldera (on left) and Deci (on right) are the same person, just alive and dead. I wanted to do some physical comparison between them. She/her for both Caldera when she's alive and Deci when she's dead.
More info below
Height: Caldera has bad posture and stands shorter than 5'5 when hunched VS Deci who is stretched like taffy. Deci can be anywhere from 6 to 7 feet and usually floats.
Eyes: Caldera has bad insomnia and has noticeable eye bags VS Deci's eyes are wide and she doesn't blink. (the second of Caldera's eyes there is the color pallet her eyes get after a demon deal)
Expression: Caldera is usually tense and easily disgusted and annoyed VS Deci got rid of all emotional facial expression. Reading faces sucked during life so now no one gets to read hers. (when Deci isn't centered her face/body get more abstract with anger or mania)
Hands: Caldera struggled with nail picking (Onychotillomania) all her life. It eventually evolved into general ocd about having nails. Attempts have been made to cut them out completely. VS Deci has no nails whatsoever and no toes at all. Deci's hands are also elongated and spidery to match her new look.
Chest: Caldera has tits. Deci got rid of them. (indulgent on my part heheheh. autism sensory nightmare both Caldera and I shared..)
Clothes: Caldera would wear one pair of clothes out completely before having to buy another. Picking out clothes was a annoying. VS Deci's default form is both nude and clothed at once. Convenient.
Caldera was a miserable genius when she was alive, in death Deci is free from society and anxiety. Deci thinks all humans are trapped in their gross flesh bodies with things they don't need. Since she's smart she knows this better than most people and will kill and/or lobotomize others to help them. Smart ones turn into ghosts like her. Ones that pass on should still be grateful.
She is a fun villain to have around other mentally ill characters.
#my art#my ocs#woe lore drop upon ye#i imagine that deci's design will change a little in a year or two#Once i understand how i want to stylize her face.. make her blank but ominous#her being more stretched like taffy is to emphasize her stress.. pulled tight. She says she's free but she's just anchored#without a body nothing keeps her mind in place you know?#i wish i had put in more thought with my naming them. the design and name came first and then the story. and now the names don't fit as wel#caldera and mascon were names i came up with in middle school (named for moon features) and i thought they'd be cute sibling names#so when i figured out i wanted deci's human self to be a sibling .. i already had old names saved that could embody some life into them
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I often think about all the people who were forced to go through their periods before reliable painkillers were invented. I just had period cramps so bad, I was frantically googling ‘how to tell the difference between period cramps, ovarian cysts, and a cute appendicitis’ while waiting for the painkillers to kick in and trying not to throw up from the pain. And how period cramps were probably the least of their problems. Absolutely insane. How did we survive as a species.
#cecil blogs her life#period mention#period mention tw#like I was genuinely trying to do the pressure test for appendicitis but I was in so much pain I couldn’t tell the difference#I know that morphine and so on has existed for ages but like. imagine you’re a Victorian trying to get thru your cramps bc you already have#11 kids to manage by taking Ye Olde Totally Safe Concoction (70% morphine 20%alcohol 10%cocaine)#and oops now you’re addicted to morphine#if you don’t accidentally overdose#or you’re a hunter gatherer without running water and your options are ‘try these berries/mushroom/bark’#‘you’ll either forget you have a body or die instantly problem solved in either case’#and you’re sitting there try to remember if those were the berries/mushrooms/bark that killed Kenneth last week#and so on and so forth
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#So rn my parents are overseas at this gathering with family friends#And one of them got married + had a kid 11 weeks ago#All of this in the span of less than a year btw#And he’s 15 years older than me but rlly fun etc the kind of guy that feels at most 6-7 years older yk#And it feels wildddd cuz he was the rlly like mischievous (?) Kind of guy in our friend group#and it felt a bit weird to know he was expecting a kid since I found out a few months back but today my mum told me her name and everything#And I’m feeling super weird again like I can’t imagine him as a serious responsible dad buckling down yk#But also he can be serious when he needs to be so that coupled with his sense of humour means he’s going to be a great dad in sure#But it’s making me rethink whether or not I want to have kid(s)#maybe it’s just vanity but I feel like pregnancy would rlly wreck my body both looks and health wise#Like that is 9 months of commitment idk if I can handle it 😭😭😭#but sometimes i daydream abt what it would be like to have kids with the guy im 90% sure I’ll be marrying in like 7 years#and it makes me feel soooooo. like I want to do all that with him#and I feel like he would be level headed enough to help me through wtv insecurity or anxiety I’m feeling now#Idk idk#personal
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