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ad-hawkeye · 10 months ago

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You came up on my recommended feed at the perfect time bc I have Artem brainrot rn AND YOUR ANALYZATION OF ARTEM’S CARDS ARE FANTASTIC! I’m one of the few players that avoids most CN server spoilers, and I’ve been abstaining from pulling most cards so I can pull for 3rd anni(which now I’m kinda questioning if I should LOL), so I missed out on a TON of content for all of the male leads. BUT, from the very few cards I had pulled this past yr, I did notice an odd shift in Artem’s personality. Although, I wasn’t too sure if it was just me being dumb or if it was a real thing that was happening. And after reading some of your posts I kinda want to re-read Artem’s Second Anni Card again bc I was so excited for the artwork from that event, that I didn’t pay much attention to the story LOL However, now that I’ve seen what you’ve said and what many other Artem fans have said, I’m sure my feelings weren’t wrong. And now I’m sad 😢

Artem was my favorite bc his relationship with Rosa felt the healthiest and was built on respecting each other’s boundaries, learning how to set boundaries, and working as a team, while also having a more traditional framework of a male leadership role(which I’m extremely fond of). Artem never restricted Rosa from spreading her wings as his work partner or as his life partner, he simply asked if he could come along beside her where ever she wanted to go. AND LIKE HIS ORIGINAL PERSONAL STORY IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF THIS BEHAVIOR! Rosa makes a reckless decision to go get evidence, without Artem, for a the domestic violence case they were working on and almost gets hurt in the process. After that, Artem scolds Rosa for being reckless and for not taking better care of herself. And Rosa doesn’t take it lying down either! They equally argue and get their grievances out in the open, feel bad about later, and apologize. (THE COMMUNICATION IS SO REAL 😩) FURTHERMORE! This incident leads them to learning and understanding how differently they work as lawyers. Artem learns that Rosa is a lot more personal with her clients and handles her cases with an empathetic approach, while he works more pragmatically, so through this case they learn to work to each other’s strengths as partners, covering for what the other person lacks. And the chapters this incident took place in solidified my growing love for Artem bc unlike Luke or Vyn(I’m not sure about Marius bc admittedly I haven’t read his original personal story 😅), Artem doesn’t hinder Rosa by being overprotective like Luke or push her beyond her capacities like Vyn tried to do in his original personal story. Artem allows a natural course of growth to occur in Rosa, while being a hedge of protection for Rosa BUT ONLY when she seems to REALLY need it, and the same can be said for Rosa towards Artem.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, sorry for ranting 😅

WAHHH YOU'RE TOO KIND!! ;_; thank you so much for the sweet words, it really means a lot!!! i'm so so happy you enjoyed my ranting and raving, honestly having a community of super awesome people to talk about this with has been such a comfort and ive made some awesome friends from my time here, even if we don't chat as much anymore!

and omg, do NOT ever feel bad for ranting in my inbox!!!! i've been ranting about tot in the main tag for two years at this point and i will Always be thrilled to read delightfully written meta such as yours!!!!!

i have to say, i entirely agree with all of this. and i mean ALL OF IT. his personal stories 2, 3, and 4 are my absolute favorites of his and gosh that's like. prime artem to me, i think. your ask reminded me of some meta i read such a long while ago about his second personal story (link can be found here, it's SUCH a good read)

i think a huge issue is that artem originally always felt like the antithesis to your typical daddy dom boss character. when you start playing tot, appearances wise, he looks and even comes across as one. but these initial appearances are quickly shattered.

he is absolutely inexperienced with interpersonal relationships. he fumbles the bag CONSTANTLY with rosa. he's terrible at holding conversation, he's constantly apologizing for being boring. he needs his own fucking boss to wingman (haha. wing) for him. he blushes if mc looks at him the wrong way. he's kinda strange. but he's earnest and genuine. he respects rosa's boundaries. he makes mistakes, but learns from them. he gives rosa time to think over her feelings for him so she can still say no to him if she changes her mind.

it's the contrast between this and his initial appearance that makes him interesting. what is extremely bizarre with artem's recent writing is it feels like someone who only read artem's introduction scene got some vague pointers and was like oh. your typical daddy dom boss guy. okay yeah i can write this. and then they did. which . defeats the whole entire point of what made artem compelling in the first place. he was compelling BECAUSE he subverted this trope. by just making him play the trope straight, you remove any and all intrigue from his character.

by not building off of older cards, you abandon all of the plot lines he had set up. they undid any angst in his stories. they dropped his issues with his parents. they downplayed neils impact on his life. he doesn't even grieve for him anymore. he doesnt even think about him most of the time. what happened to entwined fate? praying for neil's safety? what about neil being his father figure? neil potentially betraying the nxx? are we just going to ignore that now so we can watch artem be an insane freak who just apparently woke up with the skills of a sex god, forgot all of the lessons he learned, and doesnt care about consent anymore?

god, now IM ranting.... regardless. youre so right. i hear artem's newest cards are good so im praying those rumors are true : ((

EDIT: SORRY I MEANT TO TALK ABOUT HIS THIRD ANNIVERSARY CARD!!! it's not as bad as his second anniversary card. i know the bar is in hell but it's something. it's pretty contrived in the grand scheme of things (like why are they moving into a house...?) and has some weird moments, but is ultimately not as bad as it could have been in the slightest. i'd say its biggest crime is being boring as sin. holy fuck. i put that shit on 2x speed and i still found myself wanting to fast forward. like nothing happens at all???? it's so bizarre HAHA

#asks #tears of themis #artem wing #fifty shades of artem #sorry i know i sound bitter but i think its just bc i really adored artem so much (and still do LOL) and want better for him #ugh #long post

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elderwisp · 2 years ago

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Get to Know Me - Sims Edition

I was tagged by @happy-lemon Thank you very much this was a lot of fun :D

What’s your favorite Sims death?

- There was this one time I had a sim stargazing and completely out of a blue, a freaking meteor fell on them. I think this was TS2 but it was so random and honestly kinda hilarious so it’s my fave

Alpha CC or MaxisMatch?

- For TS2, I am a maxis match kinda gal. For TS3, I love alpha CC a bunch but clothing-wise, I like a mixture of the two. For TS4, it’s more a maxis mix but leaning heavily towards the maxis match. I guess I’m very open-minded to it all

Do you cheat your sims weight?

- Hecks nah

Do you move objects?

- All the time ALL THE TIME

Favorite Mod?

- Da pose player. Grateful 4 u everyday

First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?

- The Sim’s 2 Castaways. Mucho fun, I think I’ve played the campaign a solid 20-30 times

Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing

- NO WAIT this is news to me I literally am just like live mode I didn’t know that there was like an actual phrase

Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?

- AHHHH ah this is so hard but I have to pick to OK hear me out but Frances and Atlas are near and dear to my heart. It’s funny because they were apart of a RP but they’ve been around since 2015 (y’all wanna see a pic? it’s so bad). I feel like there’s just a lot of history there and it’s so cool to see an idea just flourish from there and they just kinda stick with you for a good while. I also love Icarus and Taryn to death but like the deep and endearing kinda love has to go to Frances and Atlas

Have you made a simself?

- yis

Which is your favorite EA hair color?

- I like black hair a whole bunch

Favorite EA hair?

- The short, choppy hair from Cottage Living or even the pixie from Get to Work! I love short hair

Favorite life stage?

- Teen! Especially in TS2, I feel like because of the extensive world building and all of the drama, it just makes it super enjoyable!

Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?

- Gameplay! I do like to decorate, but I’m not much of a builder

Are you a CC creator?

- I know how to make poses and some recolors but that’s just about it ;3; I also know how to skinblend in TS3 B) Sorta B)

Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?

- No, there’s one person I still keep in touch with back when I was more active in the community but she no longer has a simblr. I would however like to branch out when I idk learn how to talk to ppl 💀

Do you have any sims merch?

- HAH no

Do you have a YouTube for sims?

- HAHAHAH hah that’s literally how I got into posting the sims. I uploaded three seasons of a sim story as well as some machinimas ;___; I took it down tho because while I was very proud of doing something from start to finish, it is a lil cheesy

How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing?

- I feel like in the very beginning, it was very minimal. Like I did not know how to push my game. Now I feel like it’s a lot more authentic to me. I’m not gonna lie, I have a lot of fun prepping any posts, I feel like I don’t have to think as much. It also helps that there’s an arsenal of really sick CC at my disposal

What’s your origin id?

- Elderwisp :)

Who’s your favorite CC creator?

- I really like sunivva hairs or everything by sforzcc for TS4. Pralinesims is carrying the whole accessories and makeup team for both games. For TS3, rollo-rolls or even pocci and milla. ATS3/4 is really awesome too omg ok I’ll stop

How long have you had simblr?

- I’ve had this blog for six years but I had a blog prior to this since freshman year of high school (maybe earlier) but I deleted it because this person I knew, found out about it and started like pressuring me to show others and I was so freaking uncomfy 💀 Dawg she forced me to make her a simself ANYWAYS so prolly like ten years

How do you edit your pictures?

- It’s kinda simple, especially now that I have been learning how to utilize reshade. However, I like to add texture to my photos, maybe a transparent film border. I also like to add in shadows and highlights. Sometimes I’ll add soft/hard light or linear/color dodge. After that, I mess with the curves or exposure of a picture before finally sharpening and exporting the photo

I am now realizing this is a lot 😂

What expansion/ gamepack is your favorite?

- SIMS. 3. LATE. NIGHT. Bridgeport is EVERYTHING I love city worlds!

I'm tagging @raiiny-bay @pleaseputnamehere @percosim and honestly anyone else my brain hurt

Bonus content: Prehistoric Atlas jumpscare below

#about me

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gohaejoon · 9 months ago

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Thank you! There is a way to mute words in posts so the way you did kinda works out, but I meant tagging just like you add tags to posts like "my art" "(character name)" etc etc.! You can as well just writte in the post like "no home chapter 549430 spoilers" and put the review/comments under read more? Well, it's up to you how you do it. And if you want to post just in korean to make it easier to you that's fine as well, I really don't want bother you with it, but personally I do enjoy reading your thoughts about no home!!!! Specially since the international fandom is kinda small, so I'm always happy seeing more reactions and comments. It's just that sadly I don't speak korean, so I have to wait for the english fan translation (that is VERY fast btw!!! it just that until the earlier access paid chapters are avaliable for free they don't release it), so until I can read the chapter I want avoid the spoilers, but I would love read what you said about it once I catched up, you know? I followed you for your amazing art, but I really enjoy seeing the texts post as well :D

OHHH OKAY TY TY I WILL MAKE SURE TO DO THIS NOW :3❤️❤️🫶Oh yess the Eng translation is very good I always give it to my friends to read heheh it’s just very slightly behind yess that’s awesome I’ll definitely make sure to add the chapter number in that case for back reading purposes omg I’m learning how to use tumblr so much now omg. Tysm for the ask!! 🥹❤️❤️🫶

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oysters-aint-for-me · 11 months ago

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Hello there! thank you for responding to my excited tags. I'm glad to know that you're open to talk about the book. There is a lot of potential for spoilers in the Becky Chambers tag, so be aware of that if you look through it.

my favourite about the series is that rereading the books is very rewarding. I've found more details even on the seventh reread, and enjoy the connections to the other books very much.

What is important to know before starting the next books is that apart from one character each the other characters in the books are all new. Pepper is in books 1 and 2, books 2 and 3 don't have any characters in common. Ashby is mentioned in book 3, while his sister Tessa is a main character in book 3. Pei from book 1 reappears in book 4 and Ashby is mentioned again. so while they share the same galaxy, we get a new set of characters and places each time. Lots of people are sad that we don't get more about the Wayfarer crew, so if you don't know in advance that the further books are about other people, you might be disappointed.

There is a short story about the Sianat woman we meet when Ashby and Kizzy go down to their planet. It is part of a short story collection called "Infinite Stars - Dark frontiers" and I liked the story very much. Should you want to read it but not buy the entire book, I'd be open to scan the pages for you.

Have fun!

SEVEN REREADS?! omg that’s awesome that you can get that many out of it! im on book 2 now and have started rereading the first one by listening on audiotape and i’m already like OOOH that was FORESHADOWING and OOOH i get why that’s called that now! like for a very long time i had no idea why they called it “sib” or “the stasie” but now i get it! i really love how immersive the books are though, that it doesn’t necessarily explain every little thing to the reader, you just are kind of thrown in and you learn what something is if the characters need to learn something but otherwise it’s like you’re just thrown into this world and for some reason that makes it feel more real??

and yeah, i see what you’re saying about missing the wayfarer crew - i also wish i got to spend more time with them (esp. jenks and sissix and kizzy and dr. chef!) but i do think it’s cool to get other perspectives of different characters in this universe. i feel like maybe there might be some fanfic out there that could soothe the ache of missing the wayfarer crew but i haven’t looked into it much for fear of spoilers.

i would love to read that short story! i’ll have to find the book. (thank you for offering to scan but i don’t mind buying it, lol, i collect books and i’m just owning that now)

have you read “to be taught if fortunate”? it’s like a novella that is also sort of part of the wayfarer series - i don’t remember what it is supposed to be about, but i ordered it along with the other three.

(also sorry for not responding to this for a while - i am so bad at noticing when i get messages in my inbox because i have had my asks closed for like the last two years! 💜 i was very excited to see this message when i did check tho so thank you!)

#wayfarer #becky chambers

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rosheendubh · 1 year ago

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just as point in fact…no one ever paired Tywin Lannister and dad-bod in the same sentence…

—Just sayin’…a mid-60s/maybe early 70s, lean, mean, ruthless, pragmatic, cunning, disciplined, battle-machine. He walked into that throne room when Cersei was about to kill herself, and her son, with more presence than Filoni’s rendition of Thrawn (no fault to Lars, but he was both not well cast, and not well directed) could to an entire ISD hanger’s worth of Fart-Gas Zombies held together by red duct tape chanting his name…which is also quite out of character, whether from Legends/canon EU books. Thrawn’s characterization with Zahn is many things, but excessive displays of aggrandizing isn’t one of them (cue: the apologetics for “but 10 years in Exile”)…it also doesn’t help that none of the actors look like they’re taking their lines seriously (and with the over-long, melodramatic pauses, long-range 10000 yard stares, and ChatGPT level dialogue, who can blame them?—no honestly, I’ve seen ChatGPT dialogue that sounded exactly like that exchange between Sabine and Ahsoka on the ship, with her training…down to the actual tags/and descriptors), and move through the space around them so stiff and hesitant, you can tell no time was taken to smooth out scenes largely cast on green-screen between the production team, and the actors. Which is why, even the action bits appear awkward, and without much dynamism.

—To each their own, but this portrayal of such a pivotal character is definitely Filoni’s (horridly, but only IMHO) misconstruction. —and as for Ezra and Sabine’s reunion…*wah-wah-wah*—whaaaa??? Anyone recall Sansa and Jon Snow’s embrace after ALL THE ABSOLUTE SHITE they’ve survived over the years? I will still rewatch that moment—ya’ll should too. It’s very cathartic compared to Gazoo-moment everyone was rewarded with, between Ezra (“Hey, Girl, Waz’Up-Word”)-lost-boy-for-a-decade-SpaceAladdin, and Sabine (I’m supposed to be in my late 20s/30?-with the emotional maturity of a teen who just lost cell phone privileges-so flipping annoying-you wish Shin actually had gutted her and decapitated her…omg—how do people think she’s *sooo awesome*—and goes shrill on a Wolf-Horse for…reasons?? Oh, dramatic tension, she’s a very tortured and *fiery* warrior…I’m a woman, and a feminist, but this ain’t how ladies should be written…this is how fanboys think STRONGFEMALECHARACTERS act…take a pass, go watch EmilyBlunt in ‘TheEdgeofTomorrow*…).

—GoTs has A LOT OF ISSUES (mostly with S7/S8 of GoT, and its early Season1 episodes were admittedly…difficult. For a while, I called it LotR with T&A$$…but by that SeasonFinale, as Daenerys stepped out of ashes with 3 lil’Bebe Dragons, and Jorah kneels to her, vowing that line, “Blood of my Blood”—a line that could have fallen in flat-trope-tripe—hell no, hello, Drama Hook. We were on Team Dany…). —Genera differences aside, Team Filoni needs to take some lessons from what the GoTs writers/producers learned as they re-vamped (apparently, an even worse original filming of S1E1 of GoTs, that went back to the drawing board, it was so awful…so urban legend/DenofGeek alleges)—get fresh eyes to look at what you’re doin’ dudes…and maybe someone who’s read the actual source material. But isn’t in love with it—like Gilroy. I still think that’s why ‘Andor’ carried such a different essence—and a much needed sophistication for how science-fiction, and SpaceOpera ought to land. Fuck, go read some DeathStalker too, if you’re looking for bombast with tropes, and a good time. Watch bloody ‘The Expanse’. Someone mentioned, if Filoni required a lesson on how to communicate back-story as a balance between narration, and scene progression, to bring a largely uninformed audience up to speed on a Universe/World building Plot mythos with which most audience isn’t familiar, watch the first 15 minutes of ‘Serenity’. And maybe the entire Season of ‘Arcane’?. —which leads to the ultimate conclusion, Thrawn shouldn’t have been used by Filoni at all in ‘Rebels’. They needed a BigBad, and he ought to have just contrived his own generic Imperial of the Week. Which is what he did. And named it Thrawn. And yes, I know, supposedly he consulted Zahn. I’m more convinced, Zahn is diplomatic, and either felt (as he’d mentioned a few years ago), he was done writing Thrawn’s arc, and so, resigned his BlueManArtLovingAdmiral to the Disney drain of EU archives from which Disney borrows when it can’t be bothered to create its own original characters; or, he’s going to quietly retcon Thrawnius back into Zahn shape—given the rumors of recent months where he seems to have reconsidered revisiting Thrawn/Chiss arcs. Who knows? —My suspicion with ‘Rebels’ (of which, I completely can figure out the story-line, *secret*—it’s not that complicated for anyone who’s read any sort of children’s literature, or young adult books through their youth. Yes, I’ve tried watching episodes—it’s a cartoon made for kids—would’a loved as a kid…probably/maybe? As an adult, I’m wondering what other fodder people read and watch to consider this *quality*). I think what no one admits is, the animated series needed a big name from popular Lore to draw viewers, so there was computer-animated, cartoon-Thrawn…Filoni’s Disney Imperial. —okay, soap box rant done—we all have our OPs. I’m holding out for Andor/S2, but after that, cancelling Disney+. Actually, might even cancel before, and just renew when Andor/S2 comes out…

#Thrawn #not Thrawn #poor Lars #he’s now going to attached to this project for the rest of his career

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qqueenofhades · 4 years ago

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Hi. I’m curious. What did you mean by “women who read fiction might get Bad Ideas!!!” has just reached its latest and stupidest form via tumblr purity culture.? I haven’t seen any of this but I’m new to tumblr.

Oh man. You really want to get me into trouble on, like, my first day back, don’t you?

Pretty much all of this has been explained elsewhere by people much smarter than me, so this isn’t necessarily going to say anything new, but I’ll do my best to synthesize and summarize it. As ever, it comes with the caveat that it is my personal interpretation, and is not intended as the be-all, end-all. You’ll definitely run across it if you spend any time on Tumblr (or social media in general, including Twitter, and any other fandom-related spaces). This will get long.

In short: in the nineteenth century, when Gothic/romantic literature became popular and women were increasingly able to read these kinds of novels for fun, there was an attendant moral panic over whether they, with their weak female brains, would be able to distinguish fiction from reality, and that they might start making immoral or inappropriate choices in their real life as a result. Obviously, there was a huge sexist and misogynistic component to this, and it would be nice to write it off entirely as just hysterical Victorian pearl-clutching, but that feeds into the “lol people in the past were all much stupider than we are today” kind of historical fallacy that I often and vigorously shut down. (Honestly, I’m not sure how anyone can ever write the “omg medieval people believed such weird things about medicine!” nonsense again after what we’ve gone through with COVID, but that is a whole other rant.) The thinking ran that women shouldn’t read novels for fear of corrupting their impressionable brains, or if they had to read novels at all, they should only be the Right Ones: i.e., those that came with a side of heavy-handed and explicit moralizing so that they wouldn’t be tempted to transgress. Of course, books trying to hammer their readers over the head with their Moral Point aren’t often much fun to read, and that’s not the point of fiction anyway. Or at least, it shouldn’t be.

Fast-forward to today, and the entire generation of young, otherwise well-meaning people who have come to believe that being a moral person involves only consuming the “right” kind of fictional content, and being outrageously mean to strangers on the internet who do not agree with that choice. There are a lot of factors contributing to this. First, the advent of social media and being subject to the judgment of people across the world at all times has made it imperative that you demonstrate the “right” opinions to fit in with your peer-group, and on fandom websites, that often falls into a twisted, hyper-critical, so-called “progressivism” that diligently knows all the social justice buzzwords, but has trouble applying them in nuance, context, and complicated real life. To some extent, this obviously is not a bad thing. People need to be critical of the media they engage with, to know what narratives the creator(s) are promoting, the tropes they are using, the conclusions that they are supporting, and to be able to recognize and push back against genuinely harmful content when it is produced – and this distinction is critical – by professional mainstream creators. Amateur, individual fan content is another kettle of fish. There is a difference between critiquing a professional creator (though social media has also made it incredibly easy to atrociously abuse them) and attacking your fellow fan and peer, who is on the exact same footing as you as a consumer of that content.

Obviously, again, this doesn’t mean that you can’t call out people who are engaging in actually toxic or abusive behavior, fans or otherwise. But certain segments of Tumblr culture have drained both those words (along with “gaslighting”) of almost all critical meaning, until they’re applied indiscriminately to “any fictional content that I don’t like, don’t agree with, or which doesn’t seem to model healthy behavior in real life” and “anyone who likes or engages with this content.” Somewhere along the line, a reactionary mindset has been formed in which the only fictional narratives or relationships are those which would be “acceptable” in real life, to which I say…. what? If I only wanted real life, I would watch the news and only read non-fiction. Once again, the underlying fear, even if it’s framed in different terms, is that the people (often women) enjoying this content can’t be trusted to tell the difference between fiction and reality, and if they like “problematic” fictional content, they will proceed to seek it out in their real life and personal relationships. And this is just… not true.

As I said above, critical media studies and thoughtful consumption of entertainment are both great things! There have been some great metas written on, say, the Marvel Cinematic Universe and how it is increasingly relying on villains who have outwardly admirable motives (see: the Flag Smashers in The Falcon and the Winter Soldier) who are then stigmatized by their anti-social, violent behavior and attacks on innocent people, which is bad even as the heroes also rely on violence to achieve their ends. This is a clever way to acknowledge social anxieties – to say that people who identify with the Flag Smashers are right, to an extent, but then the instant they cross the line into violence, they’re upsetting the status quo and need to be put down by the heroes. I watched TFATWS and obviously enjoyed it. I have gone on a Marvel re-watching binge recently as well. I like the MCU! I like the characters and the madcap sci-fi adventures! But I can also recognize it as a flawed piece of media that I don’t have to accept whole-cloth, and to be able to criticize some of the ancillary messages that come with it. It doesn’t have to be black and white.

When it comes to shipping, moreover, the toxic culture of “my ship is better than your ship because it’s Better in Real Life” ™ is both well-known and in my opinion, exhausting and pointless. As also noted, the whole point of fiction is that it allows us to create and experience realities that we don’t always want in real life. I certainly enjoy plenty of things in fiction that I would definitely not want in reality: apocalyptic space operas, violent adventures, and yes, garbage men. A large number of my ships over the years have been labeled “unhealthy” for one reason or another, presumably because they don’t adhere to the stereotype of the coffee-shop AU where there’s no tension and nobody ever makes mistakes or is allowed to have serious flaws. And I’m not even bagging on coffee-shop AUs! Some people want to remove characters from a violent situation and give them that fluff and release from the nonstop trauma that TV writers merrily inflict on them without ever thinking about the consequences. Fanfiction often focuses on the psychology and healing of characters who have been through too much, and since that’s something we can all relate to right now, it’s a very powerful exercise. As a transformative and interpretive tool, fanfic is pretty awesome.

The problem, again, comes when people think that fic/fandom can only be used in this way, and that going the other direction, and exploring darker or complicated or messy dynamics and relationships, is morally bad. As has been said before: shipping is not activism. You don’t get brownie points for only having “healthy” ships (and just my personal opinion as a queer person, these often tend to be heterosexual white ships engaging in notably heteronormative behavior) and only supporting behavior in fiction that you think is acceptable in real life. As we’ve said, there is a systematic problem in identifying what that is. Ironically, for people worried about Women Getting Ideas by confusing fiction and reality, they’re doing the same thing, and treating fiction like reality. Fiction is fiction. Nobody actually dies. Nobody actually gets hurt. These people are not real. We need to normalize the idea of characters as figments of a creator’s imagination, not actual people with their own agency. They exist as they are written, and by the choice of people whose motives can be scrutinized and questioned, but they themselves are not real. Nor do characters reflect the author’s personal views. Period.

This feeds into the fact that the internet, and fandom culture, is not intended as a “safe space” in the sense that no questionable or triggering content can ever be posted. Archive of Our Own, with its reams of scrupulous tagging and requests for you to explicitly click and confirm that you are of age to see M or E-rated content, is a constant target of the purity cultists for hosting fictional material that they see as “immoral.” But it repeatedly, unmistakably, directly asks you for your consent to see this material, and if you then act unfairly victimized, well… that’s on you. You agreed to look at this, and there are very few cases where you didn’t know what it entailed. Fandom involves adults creating contents for adults, and while teenagers and younger people can and do participate, they need to understand this fact, rather than expecting everything to be a PG Disney movie.

When I do write my “dark” ships with garbage men, moreover, they always involve a lot of the man being an idiot, being bluntly called out for an idiot, and learning healthier patterns of behavior, which is one of the fundamental patterns of romance novels. But they also involve an element of the woman realizing that societal standards are, in fact, bullshit, and she can go feral every so often, as a treat. But even if I wrote them another way, that would still be okay! There are plenty of ships and dynamics that I don’t care for and don’t express in my fic and fandom writing, but that doesn’t mean I seek out the people who do like them and reprimand them for it. I know plenty of people who use fiction, including dark fiction, in a cathartic way to process real-life trauma, and that’s exactly the role – one of them, at least – that fiction needs to be able to fulfill. It would be terribly boring and limited if we were only ever allowed to write about Real Life and nothing else. It needs to be complicated, dark, escapist, unreal, twisted, and whatever else. This means absolutely zilch about what the consumers of this fiction believe, act, or do in their real lives.

Once more, I do note the misogyny underlying this. Nobody, after all, seems to care what kind of books or fictional narratives men read, and there’s no reflection on whether this is teaching them unhealthy patterns of behavior, or whether it predicts how they’ll act in real life. (There was some of that with the “do video games cause mass shootings?”, but it was a straw man to distract from the actual issues of toxic masculinity and gun culture.) Certain kinds of fiction, especially historical fiction, romance novels, and fanfic, are intensely gendered and viewed as being “women’s fiction” and therefore hyper-criticized, while nobody’s asking if all the macho-man potboiler military-intrigue tough-guy stereotypical “men’s fiction” is teaching them bad things. So the panic about whether your average woman on the internet is reading dark fanfic with an Unhealthy Ship (zomgz) is, in my opinion, misguided at best, and actively destructive at worst.

#long post #anonymous #ask

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seungly · 2 years ago

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Hello wonderful person,

I noticed your blog somewhere in the SKZ tag (no idea how I did but ehh here we are 😅). And then I started scrolling… 🧐 But wow, if I understand correctly you’re 1.) not from South Korea and 2.) with Seungmin as your bias. So true bestie, that’s pretty unique bc apparently Seungmin by far isn’t as popular as his “lovely ew members” outside of South Korea. So you must be a treasure to him.

Anyways, as for me, I am Thel, from 🇳🇱, and I’d like to refer to myself as a “granny Stay.” In the sense that on the one hand I am a baby Stay but on the other I’m 27 years old…pretty old to be a beginning K-Pop fan. 😹 So, ehh, “granny still has a lot to learn.” Anyways, my absolute bias has to be Han Jisung (suffice to say I recognise a lot from myself in him; not his ridiculous talent obv but the mental health issues issues and other tribulations he’s faced), and I listen to “Alien” at least 3 times a day. 🥲 But my biaswrecker is definitely Kim Seungmin, because the man flows over from talent, has an inspiring work ethic and deserves more recognition. (Also, I love an underdog so the fact that his awesomeness is not recognised internationally made this an even easier choice for me 👌).

Talking about bi-as, I read somewhere that you recently came out. 💗💜💙 So…

CONGRATULATIONS!!! 🥳

Apologies for this random ambush on your inbox! <3 Have an amazing day! ^^

Love,

— Thel. 💚

Omg hello, Thel !! 😭💞

I was so surprised to receive this aaaa but v v grateful huhu

Indeed, I'm not from South Korea or Korea in general and I am very much a Seungmin stan. A treasure? Stawpp hehe 🙈

Sorry if I'm wrong but that's the Netherlands flag, right? huhu, and a granny stay you say? Oh how I love teasing Stays that are older than me, but I'll let you pass for now cause I just met you hsjwbdjsns

Ooohh a Han biased !! He's a part of my bias line too, he's such a safe place :(( I'm sorry to hear about the mental health issues, I do relate as well. Alien is such a comfort song too, makes me sob every time.

And rigghtt?? Seungmin is such a great idol– person even but he's so underrated, it's sad how people don't really notice him much but oh well, more love for me 🤺🤺

AAAA THANK YOU !! This ask really made me smile, I'm glad you were comfortable enough to share with me <33

Have a lovely day/night, and pleaseee, you're just as wonderful ☹️💞

#seungly #talk to sunny #📬;ask

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mousedetective · 2 years ago

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My Top Posts in 2022:

Help A Queer Single Mother Pay Her Bills In September?

Hi! We got our rent paid (thank you all for your help!), but I have no money left to pay bills and I also need to rehome my son so we have a chance to keep our lease.

I currently live in a 55+/disabled community, and my son is not allowed to live on the premises with us. We’re looking into safe alternatives for housing, but we may just need to put him in a hotel for a while and we don’t have the money for that. Tomorrow (9/7/22) we’ll learn more about options from the YMCA but we’re running out of time to get our lease renewed. There’s an Econo Lodge near our house we can send him to with his X-Box and some food, but for one week it's $117 a night. It’s the only inn in the area, and we might be able to get a voucher for my son, but I’m not sure.

We also have bills to pay. It totals $434.43 for all of our bills for the month, ranging from electricity and internet to catalog orders. Any help we can get paying them would be huge. The first bill is due in one week, and that’s the electricity bill.

If you want to help, here’s how:

P - https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/penaltywaltz

V - @penaltywaltz

C - $afteriwake23

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UPDATE: So yesterday (9/8/22), management at my apartment complex decided not to renew our lease. Our rent check hadn’t cleared yet so we took out money to buy groceries and things we needed to start packing and look for a new apartment. Management wants an extra $220 a month for a two month month-to-month agreement on top of our rent. We don’t know if this is legal but we’re not paying it just yet.

We are about to overdraft my mom’s account by $1200 if the check goes through and we need to cover that. Or we can cover my account, which is only overdrawn by $400. Either way, we have a lot of overdrafts and we don’t want to take out loans if we need to have an apartment complex run a credit check on us.

Any help is huge. Even $5 would make a big difference. I just want to get into housing somewhere else and not be homeless again because my disabled body just can’t take living in a car again, especially if we can’t secure housing for my son before we have to leave.

484 notes - Posted September 6, 2022

WE NEED HELP WITH RENT!!!

My mom and I had to take out a bunch of loans to cover expenses and now we have nothing for rent. My mom is $600 overdrawn and I'm $140. We'll be getting our monthly payments soon but it's all going to be eaten up by loans that still need to come out.

I need to come up with $1,300 (which is rent plus PayPal fees) by August 3rd. This is an emergency, as three disabled people live in my apartment and there is no way we can survive homelessness again.

637 notes - Posted July 30, 2022

Queer Single Mom In Need Of Help With Rent & Groceries - Please Read!

Hello! I’m the queer single parent to a bisexual son and one of the main providers for my household (which also includes my disabled mother). Due to some financial screw-ups I am going to be short on my rent and I really need to cover it (I know I have another post going around, but my overdraft is going to drastically change amounts by the 3rd of March so I’m taking it off, my phone bill got paid and our electrical bill debt is going into a special payment program as of our next bill).

What I desperately need now, by March 3rd at the latest, is $400 to cover my share of the rent and $257.97 to cover loans my mom took out to cover bills last month. This will help me keep a roof over the head of myself, my mother and my teenage son.

I could also use a little more help with groceries. My mother no longer qualifies for pandemic assistance food stamps in the middle of the month, and my son is eating us out of house and home. Plus extra groceries I can get for my mom before the 28th would be great, as she’s having extensive dental surgery and we don’t think she’ll be able to eat solids for up to a week.

I also need cat food and cat litter for my cats, if anyone can help with that. I have a Amazon wishlist up here if anyone can help with that.

If anyone wants to help, here’s some links:

https://cash.app/$afteriwake23

https://www.venmo.com/u/penaltywaltz

https://ko-fi.com/A034IPX

(EDIT: I owe PayPal $200 for some reason so this above account is my mom's, which will ensure the donations for rent get through)

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I know I still have loans to cover for my mom and myself, but we are in DESPERATE need of food. It's five more days until we get our food stamps, and we're out of milk, almost out of meat and cheese for sandwiches, and I need cream of mushroom soup and sour cream and evaporated milk to make at least three meals with. My kid is eating us out of house and home but I can't just not feed him. If I can get $50 that would be a HUGE help.

My P*ypal is [email protected], my C*shapp is $afteriwake23 and my V*nmo is @penaltywaltz.

810 notes - Posted January 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Queer Single Mom Needs Help With Bills - Please Read!

Hello! I’m the queer single parent to a bisexual son and one of the main providers for my household (which also includes my disabled mother). We got the rent covered (thanks to everyone who reblogged and donated), but it took all of our money and we can't pay our bills this month. We need to raise money to cover things like car insurance, our electric bill, the storage unit we rent, and my overdraft with my bank and a few loan repayments. Our storage unit is the most pressing, since if we don't pay the $294 by the 10th it goes up.

I included a list of everything we need to pay below. I can get proof for all of it if anyone has any questions on validity. I'm hoping after I get this month and next month taken care of I won't need to ask for as much help; I'm in a debt relief program for my credit cards and some loan debt, and most of the loans I'm left with will be paid off by May 1st, which will free up $400 a month to put towards bills. I'll still need some help until my debts are paid off, but it will probably only be for one or two bills.

If you can help, here are some links to use:

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/penaltywaltz

https://cash.app/$afteriwake23

https://www.venmo.com/u/penaltywaltz

https://ko-fi.com/A034IPX

Here's what we owe money on:

Storage Unit - $294 PAID!

Car Insurance - $189.20 PAID!

Electric - $85.74 PAID!

Internet - $49.99 PAID!

Bank Overdraft - $58 PAID!

Loan Repayment 1 - $25.97 PAID!

Loan Repayment 2 - $105.99 PAID!

Loan Repayment 3 - $290.97

Loan Repayment 4 - $326.97

Phone Bill - $57 PAID!

Credit Card 1 - $65

Credit Card 2 - $35 PAID!

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gojosattoru · 2 years ago

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hi ana! ♡♡ i believe this is my first time sending you a message and im not really active on here besides to rb while i make gifs but i just wanted to say how elated i am to know we’re mutuals! i didn’t start taking making anime gifs that seriously until i started getting really into it recently and I’m SO happy and lucky that i found your amazing blog filled with so much of your talents. when i learned that you also do it for work with the cute story time you shared i was in awe?? it led me to look at your cute icons and your past themes and omg ur such a sweet and talented soul. i kept forgetting to send an ask and seeing your latest text post gave the biggest reminder to also tell you that slumps or times that can feel like one is creeping up on you are not forever! i know that feeling of being overwhelmed with so many ideas and projects coming while having a huge load to finish but i always try to remember to focus on whats happening now than the past and especially future! and i srsly second what hyu said, isn’t she the best!?! <3 and it really helps to ground yourself in the moment - even taking frequent breaks like solo dates at a cafe or walks to find that spark back again. idk how many times I’ve felt super overwhelmed with everyone and reminded myself to go back to basics that can be as simple as taking a walk :) ILYSM!! remind yourself that you’ll be okay, easier said than done but remember that your unfavorable thoughts will never be true - they are not you! the real you is strong, SO LOVED, and can get through anything unscathed. i adore you, your energy, and art. 🖤

awwww sweetheart this literally made me tear up! honestly you are so so sweet and i felt so speechless when i saw your message darling!! ; A ; gosh i'm overwhelmed!! thank you very much for coming and send me your support too darling!! like you said we are recently mutuals and seeing a message from you to give me some of your comfort and love made me burst in joy bby! i adore adore ADORE your gifs and i was so happy you used my tracking tag hehe that gave me the opportunity to know you, see your awesome content and have the pleasure to meet and speak with you bby! *hugs* i'm super grateful to know how you enjoy my edits and icons, it's super super delightful darling really appreciate your love for them!! ; u ; and don’t worry sweetie, you can always send me a message whenever you have time ^^ this made the end of my week so much enjoyable i really thank you for that bby! it’s been tough and i’ve been trying to focus on what i have been working but my boss is always saying to stop what i’m doing and start on the new ideas so that’s why it made me feel so stressed lately... i just hope she won’t do this so much right now cause i really want to finish everything so that i can work on the new stuff in the future!! to start to sell merchandise we need to have enough stuff to begin our business that’s why i want to work on the projects she gave to me in the beginning and then when we have enough of it done, we can do the new ones.. *sighs* that’s why i am bit overwhelmed with ideas and feeling a bit tired.. but like you said i will rest this weekend and try go outside and go for a walk and enjoy myself! hopefully on monday i will be completely recharged and keep on doing my work 100% ^^ thank you once again for hearing me out, for sending me your lovely message and for being so kind darling! hope we can talk more in the future to know each other better hehe ^^ really will take your words to my heart and think on them whenever i feel down bby! ilysm too sweetie!! this means a lot to me seriously!! *smooches you all over* wish you a wonderful weekned and can’t wait to see more of your works <333 hehe take care too my love thank you again! this was so precious ; U ;

#reply #lovely messages #friends #byuntoro

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wangxianficrecs · 4 years ago

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I’m in the mood for a fic where… I’m pretty terrible at the asks wherein someone requests fics that fit specific (or general) parameters, and I’m tired and grumpy today, so I didn’t even try very hard. I know y’all will do better.

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1. hi! can you recommend more fics about hanahaki, please? thank u!!

Here is my tag (which goes to my AO3 bookmarks because that always finds more).

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2. Hi there :) Do you happen to know any Mafia AU wangxian fics?

So Full Of Love (Wouldn't Know Where to Start) by witchupbitch (M, 51k, wangxian, WIP)

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3. Good day to you, fellow Cultivator! [Stop making me laugh, omg, you’re too cute.] I wasn't sure if this is the place to ask but maybe, just maybe, you (or anyone in this blog) would happen to know of a fic where Lan Zhan doesn't immediately recognize Wei Ying? What if he were to fall in love with this Mo Xuanyu guy, plagued by guilt over betraying Wei Ying only to later learn it was the same person all along?

I have read two fics that kinda play with this idea and I'm just STARVING for more: remember me when i'm reborn by RedLipped (T, 11k, wangxian) and things we're all too young to know by someitems (T, 11k, wangxian) - @hairi-esh-mooncake

Love Song In Reverse by timetoboldlygo (T, 82k, wangxian, WIP)

focal, filler, and line by bosbie (T, 27k, wangxian, WIP)

By Any Other Name by ShanaStoryteller (not rated, 32k, wangxian)

Where You Fell by Sweet_William (M, 54k, wangxian)

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4. hey! so i just read a fic where Wei Wuxian was brought back into Lan Wangji’s body and it was really good but also really sad so i was wondering if there were any more? the fic is called for you, all for you 「给你, 都给你」 by headBONDmeLWJ (T, 4k, wangxian) btw! ty mojo :D

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5. Hey Mojo! First of all: this blog--and obviously you as well--has been a godsend this year, thank you very much!! [You’re very welcome!] I just wanted to ask if you happen to know any fics that deal with the juniors dealing with wwx's old body and being shocked by the difference to mxy's? Or something like that!! If yes, that would be awesome since this was an idea that's haunting me for weeks now!! If not, no problem and thanks anyway! Have a happy new year and I hope everyone stays safe! [You as well!]

Transcend by covalentbonds (not rated, 8k, wangxian, WIP)

Saw My Life in a Stranger's Face by timetoboldlygo (T, 27k, wangxian)

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6. Hello!! First of all, thank you for existing- wangxianfic has been getting me through the lockdown😅 [I’m so glad!] I was wondering if you knew of any angsty (but with a happy ending ofc) fics surrounding breaking up/having arguments or something like that???? I seem to be craving emotional hurt/comfort lmao

there's no promised goodbye here by Anonymous (T, 54k, wangxian)

❤️Love wakes me by dea_liberty (E, 46k, wangxian, my post)

An Ocean Between Us by feenwitch (E, 11k, wangxian)

the necromancer's fairytale by iliacquer (E, 17k, wangxian)

Tempo Rubato by Spodumene (E, 108k, wangxian, my bookmark)

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7. Do you (or anyone) know of any fics where its brought up that Sizhui had a sister?— I’m in the mood to cry apparently

the thread may stretch or tangle but it will never break by RoseThorne (E, 41k, wangxian, WIP)

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8. Hey! Love your blog. Do you know some work where Lan Zhan become a demonic cultivator with his Wei Ying? I'm very interested on this matter since i saw a fanart and really don't know where to search or how, can you help me?

in the face of cruel fate by sunlaozu (T, 10k, wangxian, WIP)

Echo, Murmur, Dream, Here by bluerainmist (M, 51k, wangxian)

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9. Hi! First, thanks for all your work! Second, are there any recs with wangxian, with lan qiren being an asshole?

Here’s a quick search through my bookmarks for the phrase ‘Lan Qiren is a dick’ which I’ve apparently used 6 times.

Scenes From Three Winters by LtLJ (G, 12k, wangxian)

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10. (sorry for anon, I actually don’t have a tumblr! I come here every day exclusively for you ❤️) Hello dearest Mojo! Thank you so much for all the incredible work you do on this blog. [Wow, thank you, that’s so flattering!] Do you have any fics of LWJ helping WWX deal with resentful energy during or post canon? Or, in the same vein, WWX having to deal with resentful energy again post-canon! Thank you, much love!

Crack of Dawn by Shinocchi (E, 91k, wangxian)

Until It's Dark by suzvoy (M, 121k, wangxian, my post)

build me no shrines by occultings (microcomets) (M, 55k, wangxian, my post)

wide enough and wild by impossibletruths (E, 64k, wangxian, my post)

Ghost of the Past by Shinocchi (E, 27k, wangxian)

An Eye For An Eye by Shinocchi (E, 38k, wangxian)

#wangxian #mdzs #the untamed #wangxian fic finder #in the mood for a fic #i haven't read these unless noted #crowd-sourcing #fic finding #fic finder

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makeste · 4 years ago

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Open for movie speculation? :) The new key visual was released today and if you don't want miniscule spoilers then I'll gladly spend the time asking how you're doing in these times and how you light up my saturday with your posts that never cease to make me laugh haha. I do hope you're doing well :) So here's the wee spoiler (or should I call it a spoiler?) the antagonist(?) is called "Flect Turn", hope you have a nice week :)

so as usual, I'm late in responding to this, but I just wanted to clarify that my "no spoilers, please" policy pretty much only applies to the new BnHA manga chapters, and that's specifically because of the weekly reaction posts. I know part of the appeal of a liveblog is watching someone else's reactions to all of the surprises and twists and wtf moments, and so I try to preserve those each week. if I wasn't liveblogging the series I would probably be reading the leaks along with everybody else to tell the truth lol.

so that said, feel free to send me spoilers about the upcoming movie! out of respect for those who do want to avoid being spoiled, I'll tag those posts (and this one) with "bnha world heroes' mission spoilers" and "bnha movie 3 spoilers" so people can blacklist those tags if desired. but I personally have no objection to them; back when Heroes Rising came out I already knew all of the plot points and had read detailed spoiler summaries well before I finally got the chance to watch it myself. it definitely did not take away from the experience at all, and in fact I'm kind of glad I knew about the end twist ahead of time because I was able to devote more mental energy to analyzing and appreciating it rather than still being all "!!!!" from the shock lol.

so yeah, I've been trying to stay up to date with the news about WHM as well. here's everything I think we know so far:

the movie will take place during the Endeavor Agency internship, as expected.

the bad guys are a terrorist organization called "Humanize", who believe in the Quirk Singularity Doomsday Theory we first learned about during the Remedial arc. as a refresher, basically the idea is that as quirks continue to evolve with each new generation, they'll eventually grow too powerful for humans to control and will destroy the world or something lol.

anyway so Humanize hears about this, and they're either like, "man that sucks, we should just kill everyone with a quirk so it doesn't happen", OR they're like "man that sounds awesome, we should totally expedite that." like, I'm really not clear on this part lol. but either way, they apparently come up with a plan to cleanse the world of quirk users by planting magical plot bombs called Ideo Trigger Bombs, which make people lose control of their quirks.

as mentioned, the bad guys' leader is named Flect Turn for god knows what reason lmao. I'm guessing it's some kind of weird play on the word "reflect" (especially given his character design), and based on that, as well as the Ideo Triggers, I suspect this guy has the ability to somehow turn people's own quirks against them. you can see him at the bottom of the key visual anon mentioned, here.

anyway so the heroes are all "hmm, pretty sure the end of world = bad" and so they all decide to band together under this "W.H.A." umbrella (which I'm still assuming stands for either World Hero Agency or World Hero Association or something like that) to deal with the bombs.

as shown on the key visual, in addition to the Endeavor Agency trio, the movie will also feature the kids from Ryuukyuu, Fat Gum, Gang Orca (who has Jirou and Shouji interning under him for anyone who lost track), and Hawks's agencies.

the movie will also feature a new character named Rody Soul, who's this weird steampunk Dickensian urchin-looking guy with a ponytail lol. he apparently teams up with the trio following one of the bomb incidents.

most of the movie will apparently take place in a fictional country called Oceon (this is why nobody could quite place where that bridge in the trailer was from lol).

at some point Deku gets framed for murder idk. just Deku things.

and last but not least, as usual there will be a special manga tie-in release, in this case titled "Volume W(orld Heroes)". looks like the initial release will be exclusive to theater-goers in Japan, but I'm sure someone will get their hands on it and post it online, and Viz will eventually release it in English as well (they did the same with the previous two tie-ins). it'll include behind-the-scenes sketches, a new Horikoshi interview (probably the part I'm most looking forward to), and of course, the new movie tie-in chapter. as with the previous tie-ins (Volume Origin and Volume Rising), this will be written and drawn by Horikoshi himself. I'm hoping that it will feature the trio, but the other movie tie-ins featured All Might and Nine, respectively, so it's probably more realistic to assume this one will focus on Rody. ah well.

I think that's it. I haven't really done much speculating about the plot either tbh, though what we've learned seems pretty straightforward. Deku probably either gets framed for one of the bombs, or gets caught up in one of the blasts and loses control of OFA. or maybe they'll save that part for his fight with Flect at the end. god, if we get a scene where he goes on a Blackwhip rampage with a big screen budget I will lose my whole damn mind. especially if Kacchan and Shouto have to work together to stop him. can you imagine omg. but I should really rein myself in before I start getting way too hyped up over a bunch of wild hypotheticals. this is why I try not to speculate lol.

#bnha #bnha world heroes' mission #bnha movie 3 #bnha world heroes' mission spoilers #bnha movie 3 spoilers #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #makeste reads bnha #asks #anon asks #also thank you very much anon; I'm doing well and I hope you are too!

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hypers-omniac · 5 months ago

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Omg this is awesome tysm for the tag !!!

Do you have a pet?: I do have pets ! Two dogs (a Great Dane and an Australian coolie) and two cats!

Comfort food?: Comfort food… probably sushi. I love any and all sushi. Second choice is the bread from long horn.

How many languages do you speak?: I only speak one language, but I’m working on learning French. I’ve taken multiple classes in person and am taking an online class. I also know enough Spanish to understand memes that come across my fyp on insta (same for German lol)

Random fact about me: My favorite color is yellow!! Specifically a pastel yellow. It’s such a pretty color. Obsessed with all things bees and sunflowers.

Something im proud of: I’m a licensed CNA and pharm tech. Working rn on completing my premed program. I’m also certified in BLS and CPR, and know how to intubate !

Passing it onto.. @void-my-warranty, @soaps-mohawk, @glossysoap, @soapskneebrace, @swordsandholly, @poohkie90, @sheepdogchick3, @inkarmatqq, and @library-fae

(Not all of these people are moots, but I figured it would be fun anyways ! No pressure at all (: )

Tag game because I want to know you better !

-Do you have a pet ?

-Comfort food ?

-How many languages do you speak ?

- Random fact about yourself

-Something you’re proud of

To begin this little tag game, I’ll tag @ebony-reine-vibes @freddie-77-ao3 @newobsessioneveryweek @thehaikuman and @miraclesnail

I hope the questions aren’t boring and love you all 😘

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captainsspnanon · 3 years ago

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C3E1 - reaction liveblog

I hate that I’m not going to be able to watch all of this tonight, BUT I AM READY!!!!!!!

What the funky ass mushrooms???? I LOVE IT, PLEASE BE A PLACE THEY GO TO

Pre-stream art is showing a lot of non-Marquet stuff though, so maybe not. :( SAD I WANT TO SEE IT

Some of these locations though, omg

Wait, Gilmore with a dude. Is that from ExU? Dammit, I haven’t seen it because I assumed it wasn’t going to be campaign canon, bu I guess it is. *sigh* I’ve seen the Narrative Telephone with the cast, I’m just worried it’s going to be TOO chaotic for me. The NT episodes WERE, and the first hour or so of ExU that I saw didn’t seem like my speed. WELL, we’ll see.

Several art with VM, but no M9 yet…

Downside of watching live? Can’t skip through breaks and can’t watch art reel at faster speed (‘cause I love the art and don’t want to skip it, but at the same time don’t want to spend so many minutes on it)

And HOPEFULLY I’ll be watching live each time now! Or at least during the day on Friday, if I can’t stay up late on Thursday.

More VM art…

I’mma try to make my C3 reactions spoiler free for C1 and C2, but I’ll tag as necessary if I think I say something too risky. NONE OF Y’ALL PROBABLY CARE, but I’m doing it for the non-existent followers I’m pretending I have.

Desperately hoping my basically dead laptop doesn’t die, because I’m using it to type and I won’t be able to recapture these thoughts if I lose it. As long as I don’t try to use the internet, it SHOULD be fine, ‘cause that's what caused it to keep dying before…..

AAAAAAAA

Liam and Laura sitting together!!

Sam in a suit! Not doing the shirt bit, I guess.

YES THEY KEPT “IT’S BEEN A WHILE”

Travis and Marisha together again too

OH GOD THE SET

I’m only starting to look at the set now, that’s incredible!

Eeh, cutaways for ads. Not a huge fan, even though the ads are fantastic!

Fuuuuck, reminder that Sam is tall as shit.

Also, sorry, but bearded Sam is hot AF.

The thing that I am sad about the cut aways is I can’t see their reactions.

Marisha hot AF

Ashley looking hot AF

I want M9 dice! PUT OUT M9 DICE PLEASE

new opening time!!!!!

...tf? I’m hoping that means that we have one ready with the new characters in it, because that wasn’t an opening.

NEW PLACESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Ooooooo, awesome starting setting!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!

EXITING ALREADY??????

ACCEEEENNTTTTTT

Laura sorcerer!! Human? Low strength again

WHAAAATTTTT Warlock/Sorcerer and what the fuck is she????? OMG High charisma though!!! Excited!!!!

Kinda sad that the rest of the cast isn’t there for the descriptions though….

So spellcasting for both, but limited spellcasting

This set is so fucking good, though I’m sad there’s not more behind Matt. Maybe he’ll have more projections behind him?

This setting is so fucking awesome I need to see fanart and also keep learning it!! Too complicated for me to learn on first watch.

GOD THIS SET with everyone else gone I can’t help but stare!

Want the other cast to come in soon!!! Not sure how I feel about it starting to separate and the beginning.

Oh god I need to learn the new names!!!! That’s gonna take a bit! Imogen and Laudna? Think I got it.

FIRST ROLL

...why do I feel that Laudna’s gonna kill me this campaign? Like, maybe it’s just ‘cause Marisha’s HOOOT right now that it’s adding to character appeal.

Subtitles have errors, but that’s okay

Mindreading feature??? Overwhelming minds?? OMG

Lots of new races being brought in, unexpected to me!

Sam put on the shirt omg

ASHONT!!! Tal’s character! WHO WHAT GIVE ME ART

He/They Earth Genasi!!! Barbarian!!!! Oooooo. Low charisma, that’ll be interesting.

Fuuuuuck this is a cool looking character. Did he make the teenage asshole character that he played in the Critmas oneshot?

Also, multiple NPCs tied in to PCs now already….does this mean West marches campaign might be an actual thing? Hate that I’m kinda worried about this….I should trust CR, but I don’t want a campaign where they’re not all together.

WAIT WHAT

Fresh Cut Grass??? Letters??????? OH GOD HE DID GO WARFORGED. Cleric!! Damn, which means no Liam Cleric, sads. BUT HOW TALL IS HEEEEEEE

Tal has no real accent, Sam is strong AF

Oooh, this is going to be interesting characterization for FCG

Kinda hope Sam doesn’t continue the shirt bit the entire time, but I feel like he will. Ah well.

Another NPC. Yeah, I’m worried and hate that I’m worried.

Lol Sam’s already falling out of the accent.

The other cast aren’t in another room, good. Just heard Liam laugh. Bleh, wish they could have been on camera then. It’s one of the things where I feel like they’re playing to the camera versus playing for themselves, which makes me a bit sad.

Looooots of NPCs

Sam is quite small, apparently, continuing the trend!

Marisha and Sam, favorites so far!

Over an hour, still missing PCs, and no interactions with the group.

Robbie! ...Fuck, I don’t want a west marches style campaign….

Wait is this literally the ExU cast

are you shitting me

I haven’t seen ExU

I have many many MANY mixed feelings right now

Yeah…...worried as shit now. I don’t know how I feel, I really don’t

….I do love Fearne’s voice at least, though I didn’t get to know her because I haven’t seen ExU

Fuuuuuuck Orym’s voice is way too hot AF

Chaotic fucking Ashley, omg. FEARNE. I did like them from what I saw at the start of ExU! It’s just that I didn’t continue after the first hour or so……

Interaction??? ARE WE FINALLY GETTING INTERACTION???? An hour and a half in.

Like, I’ll be fine with this if Robbie is a permanent if it’s still all the cast being together. But if it’s splitting them up, I’m going to at least start off disappointed.

Also I hope Travis is actually going to be here?

SET GOING SUNSET AAAAAAAA and everyone freaking out I love it!

Oh god yes they’re getting together thank god. Let this not be a west marches campaign and I’ll be happy.

But no Travis.

No TRAVIS

But Robbie is kinda shifted over? So it seems like there’s room for him?

What the fuck is this amazing initiative??!?!?!?

..Oh man, Cap. I’m gonna need your thoughts.

I want to see the minis up close

What the fuck Marisha this is amazing

Wild Magic Barb for Tal????

YES TRAVIS YES

WAIT WHAT OLD MAN, I WANT TO SEE THE ART AND STATS BUT THE BATTLEMAP IS OUT

...I hope they don’t to the HDYWTDT for every kill, but maybe because it’s the first battle?

Hmmm….almost Fjord voice. I hope he starts differentiating it more later on.

WAIT BERTRAND BELL

SAM WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT A GAS CAN

So Travis is level 5, ExU cast is level 3, what are the others? 3 or 2?? So will this be exp or milestone?

Tal (Archon? Ashton? I FORGET) already lying and pickpocketing. Okay, we’ll see how I end up being about this.

So. Two sorcerers, two fighters, bard, barb, cleric, druid, and warlock. Alright, gonna be interesting

Break now. Man, I already want a Talk so bad!!! I have so many questions! Why use the ExU characters? Why bring back Bertrand Bell? Why different levels??? I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS

I should be going to bed now, but I don’t want to. Why do I think I’ll be staying up the entire time and FUCKING REGRETTING IT IN THE MORNING

OH GOD ASHLEY WHAT IS THIS DURING BREAK

You know I hadn’t thought of it, but I feel bad for people starting with C3, because they HAVE to know stuff! They have to know ExU! And the one shot for Bertrand Bell! Which means VM!

Alright, Bertrand’s voice has aged a bit, so now it sounds more different from Fjord.

But Bertrand is really speaking like he wouldn’t be a part of this, which makes me nervous again for west marches style

FCG really spilling backstory here

Mmmm, don’t think I like the night effect, it really washes everybody out

WAIT THERE ARE STARS IN THE BACKGROUND AAAAAAAA

Yeah, I can’t see Travis playing this character long term, its’ way too much of a silly one shot character.

Interesting that Sam’s starting his character off as a tag-a-long again like Nott.

Rollies?

Okay good, they recognized we were all confused

I LOVE seeing Ashley making bold choices this campaign

Lots of rolling against each other so far

I’m much more quiet in the second half as now I’m just watching it play out

Okay, I cannot WAIT to see how Fresh Cut Grass is going to be halfway through the campaign and by the end

Why do I feel like the Lord dude is just Scanlan in disguise

Fireplace is cool, but it turns on the night sky. They might need to fix that

…...weeeeird ending

Mixed feelings overall. Wish I’d have a good idea of how the campaign is going to go, at least in terms of everyone playing at once, or broken up into teams

Interesting start! Looking forwards to seeing how it goes

@suicidallyreckless

#critical role #campaign 3 #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #positive with mixed feelings #stream of thought

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ghost-bxrd · 1 year ago

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*GASP* are you trying to beat me with my own weapons? I’m shocked! Impressed, but also shocked!

On that note:

Once more the tags are trying to hide some of the best parts ksksks

But yes absolutely, Bruce having flexible morals would, objectively, turn everyone’s world view upside down. Bruce? Ok with killing? Doing the killing HIMSELF!? Well, obviously! While we all love and adore Alfred, I think it’s safe to assume that he didn’t have a good idea on how to handle Bruce’s grief and destructive behavior after his parents’ death. Yes he loves Bruce like a son, but he never truly allowed himself to become the parental figure Bruce so desperately needed and instead remained a butler more than anything. (An awesome butler who would absolutely burn the world for Bruce, but still.)

Jason has no such qualms. yes, the kid lost his parents a couple months ago and the amount of trauma he’s been through is nothing to sneeze at, not to mention the anger issues, but Jason is also someone who adores kids and isn’t afraid to demonstrate it with hugs and endless patience and home cooked meals etc.

The beginning of their acquaintance is an absolute roller coaster, but Bruce quickly learns that Jason is now his one, irrevocable constant in life. And it helps that his new adoptive dad guardian knows how to disarm someone pointing a gun at them in .1 seconds flat. Jason is now his role model.

And Jason, who would absolutely die thrice over to keep this kid safe, the kid who curls up beside him on the couch like a skittish kitten seeking affection, who asks him to teach him self defense—- the moment Bruce expresses his desire to rid the world of the Joker permanently, Jason just blue screens.

On hand— this is what he wanted. This is all he wanted since the moment he woke up from his dip in the Mountain Dew of doom. On the other hand it’s all wrong, because it’s the wrong Bruce trying to avenge him.

“So what? You can barely sleep at night. You almost got knifed because you lost sight of me during patrol for two minutes and thought the Joker had me. This needs to stop. We’re making him go away for good.”

(And on that note I’d like to tell you how much I loved the “this is an intervention, let’s go kill the Joker ourselves” part. Like, peak dialogue. Genuinely delighted.)

Jason, who is not gonna let his kid within twenty kilometers of the clown, goes to Arkham and shoots Joker and that’s that. It’s not what he wanted when he came back, but he finds that just the knowledge of one incarnation of Bruce willing to kill for him is— enough.

Also let’s add Mini!Bruce deliberately antagonizing his older counterpart during patrol. He’s furious on Jason’s behalf and he needs an outlet. Batman telling him that “it’s ok, we can keep you safe. Hood won’t hurt you anymore-“ and mini!Bruce just roasting Batman so hard the Anakin-on-Mustafar situation seems like a light sunburn.

Also, Robin and mini!Bruce rivalry. That’s all. Need I elaborate?

Omg ok this turned into an entire rant I’m so sorry 🪴

Prompt:

Jason gets booted to another dimension and adopts a recently orphaned Bruce Wayne.

Whom he also takes along for the ride when he’s pulled back into his own dimension.

#omg also NIGHTWING #another vigilante who adores children #absolutely FURIOUS that Hood would force a child to help him commit crime and murder #basically a anti!robin #he’s so mad #and so worried for the kid #said kid finds he loves screwing with Jason’s old family #“hi you’ve had your chance but he’s MY family now #possessive little Bruce #him and Damian will get along like a house on fire

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onceuponastory · 4 years ago

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Coming Back Home: Chapter Seven - Whistle For the Choir

“Is it out of line if I was to be bold and say "Would you be mine"? Because I may be a beggar and you may be the queen I know I may be on a downer, I'm still ready to dream” - whistle for the choir: the fratellis

Plot: Based on a prompt by @orphicodysseywrites

Tag List: @shinydixon, @baker151910, @silverwings1999 and @thesundrop. Let me know if you want to be added!

Warnings: Some mentions of alcohol and anxiety. Also a few tiny sex mentions/references but nothing smutty. Notes: Wow. So it’s been a while since I’ve posted for this fic, hasn’t it? I’m sorry about that. BUT I love this story, and I intend to finish it. This chapter is more of a filler one before the wedding in the next chapter or two, so Y/N and Nick’s relationship isn’t a huge focus, but I hope you all enjoy it regardless!

Read the other parts / Read this story on Wattpad!

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Nick or his character! I just used Nick bc he’s the only character of Dacre’s that fits this prompt. Aside from Nick being in this, this fic has NOTHING to do with The Broken Hearts Gallery. But you should all see the movie if you can, because it’s adorable!

Softly groaning, I wake up. For a moment, I feel something on my waist, and almost scream, until I realise I'm still in Nick's arms. He's still fast asleep, his chest slowly rising and falling with every breath. I smile, watching him sleep for a while. He looks so content...so peaceful. Is this what it's like to get a proper nights sleep? But as soon as that thought crosses my mind, another replaces it. I didn't have a nightmare last night...did I? I had a proper nights sleep too. Frowning, I wiggle out of Nick's arms, trying not to wake him. Once I've done that, I roll over to where the clock beside my bed reads 7:47am. Oh my god. I slept FULLY through the night for one of the first and only times in my life. I sit for a few moments, trying to decipher what it was that helped me sleep so well. Is it because I’ve been drinking less wine? Or is it because I’ve been eating healthier recently?

“You idiot.” I tell myself. “You know why you slept well, and he’s sleeping right beside you.” Nick grunts, and shifts a little in his sleep. Looking back down at him. I smile again. He's beautiful. And he likes me. Me. Despite my anxieties, my awkwardness and well...everything else, Nick likes me just for myself. Kissing him again wouldn't be so bad. Maybe just a small cheek peck? But Nick soon starts mumbling to himself as he wakes up. As he looks around the room, his blue eyes focus on me looking down at him, and a soft chuckle escapes his lips.

"Were you watching me sleep?" He asks, his voice husky. It takes all my willpower to not kiss him right there and then.

"...Maybe. But you looked so peaceful. Who could blame me?" Instead of replying with words, Nick leans up and kisses me again. God, if this is still a dream, I don't ever want to wake up from it. Nick sits up, and his arms go around my back as the kiss deepens.

"Good morning." He whispers once we pull apart. The look he gives me sends my heart into backflips again.

"Morning." I smile. But before we can say anything else, a knock sounds on the door.

"Y/N, are you there? I'm coming in! Just checking if you're okay after yesterday. Nick's not here, so I don't know if he-" The two of us spring apart just as Katie walks into the room. Her eyes go wide as she takes in the sight in front of her...her big sister in bed with the best man.

"Um....morning sis." I smile awkwardly, and Nick gives a small wave from beside me, trying to cover some of his body with the quilt.

"Oh. My. God."

~~~ "I need details immediately. What happened?" Katie asks, eyeing us both as she takes a bite from her toast.

"Katie, I swear we didn't...do it-" Nick begins, but she cuts him off.

"Not you, I mean Y/N." She states. My cheeks flash red.

"Well, uh...Nick came to see I was okay, as you know. And well..." I don't know why I'm so nervous. After all, Katie had said she was okay with me acting on my feelings for Nick, which I had done. And yet, I didn't want to tell her what happened. Maybe because she walked in on us, rather than us telling her ourselves. "We kissed. That's all." She raises an eyebrow.

"That's all? I found you both in bed together at 8am. I mean, you were both fully clothed, but still."

"We just shared a bed, we didn't do anything else." I tell her. I'm not sure if she believes me, but she nods anyway, before going back to munching on her toast. "Anyway. How are you feeling after yesterday? Is everything okay?" I ask. She reaches over the table and takes my hand.

"I'm feeling much better. Thank you for being there for me Y/N. And you Nick. Adam helped too of course. I think I'm starting to put it out of my mind." She smiles. "What, with the wedding and all." Suddenly, her eyes go wide, and she drops the toast onto her plate. "Oh my god. I'M GETTING MARRIED THIS WEEK!" She squeals. I can immediately sense her anxiety levels rising. "I'm...what if...we-" She begins to panic. "And there's the rehearsals and the dinner, and omg I still have to do this and-"

"Hey, hey, hey. It's okay. We're here to help. And besides, everything's ready to go, we just need to take everything over to the hotel and to the venue before the big day."

"You sure?" She asks, and I nod. Katie takes a deep breath. "You're right. I'm calm. Everything will be fine. We'll show our Dad. We'll make it a party he'll regret missing! I mean, can you believe he wanted to miss it? Idiot." A smile grows on her face, and Nick and I give each other a look, both sensing something is off.

"Uh Katie, are you sure you're okay? We can talk about it if you want." She shakes her head.

"I'm fine. Water under the bridge."

"Katie seriously, if you're still upset, we-"

"NOPE. I'm fine. How could I still be upset when I have THIS!" She waves her arms at us. "Two of my favourite people have found each other and are finally happy! Man, I love love! I love weddings!!! Best time ever. Now come on you two. We have work to do!" She announces, getting up and leaving the room, taking her plate with her.

"Uh...Is she okay?" Nick asks as we watch her go.

"I have no idea. I better keep an eye on her. I'll see you later, okay?" I ask, and he squeezes my hand for reassurance. It's going to be a long day.

~~~

"Seriously sis. I'M FINE." Katie tells me again as we load the garment bags containing our gowns into our bags. "But enough about me. What's Nick like? You know..." I gasp. "Not like that! I mean kissing wise. Was it nice?"

"Yeah, it was really nice." I answer, feeling my cheeks flushing slightly. Katie smiles.

"Maybe we'll be planning your wedding next. Will it be as awesome as mine though? We'll have to see." She winks, organising the bags. Frowning, I open my mouth to say something, but she cuts me off again. "Right, time to load these into the car. Come on sis, let's go!" She calls, picking up a load of bags and walking out of the room with them. I watch her go again. For a moment there, it almost looked like Katie's smile dropped, but she replaced it before I could say anything.

Something definitely isn't right with her.

~~~

As the day continues, and Katie and I finalise final bridal preparations, I can still sense something isn't right. But I don't want to prod her too much, so I let her go on and on about how great the wedding is going to be, and how it's going to be the best party anyone has ever been to. If she's ready to talk to me, she will.

And soon, she does. As we’re carrying boxes to the car, a centerpiece slips out of the box she is carrying, and it lands on the driveway. "I'll get it!" I call, bending down to pick it up. Before I even get back up however, I hear a sniffle from beside me.

"Just leave it. It's stupid anyway. This whole thing is stupid." I snap my head up.

"What do you mean?" I ask, rushing over to her.

"Look. There must be a reason why Dad doesn't want to come to the wedding. Even if I make it a great party, he still won't come. Maybe it's stupid." She sighs, wiping her eyes. Anger rises within me. Our Dad already made me hate myself for twenty one years, and I won't let him do the same to Katie.

"No. It's not stupid. The only reason why Dad doesn't want to come is because he expected us to welcome him back with open arms after what he did, and make him part of our family. And we didn't! He's just too proud to admit that his daughters don't care about him or what he thinks anymore."

"But...I do." She sniffs, and I pull her into a hug. "Even if he doesn't care about me."

"I'm sorry sis. But trust me. He is not worth it. He is not worth ANY of our tears. Years of therapy and trying to learn how to love myself taught me that. And look at us now! We're both happy with people we love and care about around us, and yet he can't even get his two daughters back because we know what a piece of garbage he is. He means nothing to us. If he cared a single iota about us, he would've shown up long before this. And he would have stayed for your wedding. But he didn't." Katie looks up at me, her eyes glistening.

"Maybe you're right about that..." She trails off.

"I am right. Trust me. He is not worth any of your pain. And no. Your wedding isn't stupid. Who was the one who specifically wanted a vintage shabby chic theme for your wedding, even when your planner said it is one of the most basic and popular choices?"

"Me."

"And who has constantly picked things she wanted without letting anyone else change her mind...even Caroline and the bachelorette venue? Or me and this town?" Katie sniffles, and giggles.

"Me!"

"And who's going to have a PERFECT wedding, all by herself, not giving a single fuck about whether or not her Dad is there?"

"...Me?"

"That's right! Because you and Adam picked out everything to please yourselves. Nobody else. So you don't need to worry about pleasing our Dad or making him jealous, because pleasing others is never what you wanted to do. All you ever wanted to do was celebrate your love to Adam. And you'll do exactly that. Dad or no Dad." I tell her. "And besides. I think these centerpieces are beautiful. After all. I helped make them, so I might be biased." Katie laughs again at that, this time a proper, happy laugh. It makes me smile.

"Yeah...yeah you're right. I'm sorry about that. I was probably letting what happened yesterday and my nerves get the best of me."

"It's okay. Hey. How about when we get back home, I give you the number of my therapist? You don't have to go...but maybe it'll do us both good to talk about it with a professional. It’s been really helpful for me so far."

"I'd like that."

"And until then, you know I'm always here for you right?" Katie nods, and we hug again. We both load the box into the car, and head back towards the house. I slip my arm around her waist and pull her in close. Another crisis averted. For now anyway.

"Wait, did you just say that you're in love with Nick?" Katie asks, her eyes wide.

"I said nothing of the sort." I mean, I didn't...it just slipped out. I don't even know how I feel about him. I mean, I like him, of course I do, and I want to see him again after the wedding is over. It's just...I don't know if he wants to see me again. And love is a strong word to use when we only kissed yesterday. And this morning. Still though. It's too soon. "You idiot." A little voice in my head says. "Of course he wants to see you again. He wouldn't have kissed you otherwise. He's not the kind of person to kiss someone and then just ditch them....at least I hope not."

"Look at you blush! You totally did say that!" Katie grins, pointing at my face. "Are you going to tell him?"

"No! Katie I don't even know how I feel yet, or how he feels. And besides, it's not like I have time to think about it, because we're literally leaving the day after tomorrow to go to the wedding rehearsal and the rehearsal dinner, and then we're staying in the hotel with the rest of the bridal party the night before, remember?"

"Yeah, you're right. But you should give it a think." She says, and I nod. She was right, of course. But I didn't want to think about it. I wasn't ready to consider the possibility that Nick was going to leave me, and that I'd be alone again. I already have to deal with what feels like losing my younger sister to her new family, I can't handle losing Nick too. I mean, I was happy for Katie, of course I was. What kind of monster would I be if I wasn't happy for my little sister getting married after the shit childhood we had? But it had just been the two of us for so long. We lived together for so long, spoke everyday on the phone when we were at university, and we even live about an hour away from each other by train. But now I have to come to terms with the realisation that she might not be living so close to me after she gets married. I know I can't protect her for the rest of her life, and I don't want to smother her...but actually coming to terms with that was hard. God, is this what parents feel like when their kids finally leave the nest? Cause it's shit.

~~~

That night, as I finish packing up my things to take to the hotel before the wedding, I spot a picture of Katie and I the night of her senior prom. Smiling fondly, I pick it up and sit down on my bed, looking down at the picture. There's a knock on the door.

"Come in." I call. Nick opens the door and sits beside me.

"Hey. What'cha looking at?" He asks.

"This is Katie and I the night of her senior prom." I let him look at the picture.

"Oh my god, her dress looks like a marshmallow."

"Hey! I helped her pick that out! It's a very pretty marshmallow. Even if it's bright pink and sparkly."

"Is her dress like this?" He asks.

"No! You'll see it on Friday." I sigh, looking down at the picture. "God, this feels like it was just yesterday, and now she's getting married..." I trail off as tears start to fill in my eyes. Fuck. I can't cry in front of Nick.

"Hey, are you alright?" Nick asks. He gently presses a soft kiss to the side of my head. And that is what sets my tears off. Shit. I mean, Nick has seen me at some of the worst points of my life, and still stayed beside me, but it doesn't mean that I like being so vulnerable in front of him.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I sniff, wiping my eyes. "It's just been tough, realising that she's growing up and won't be my little sister who's just across the hall from me or an hour away from me anymore. It's dumb, I know. This was always going to happen, I just never thought about it until now." Nick smiles softly.

"I understand. It's not dumb." He gently takes my hand, and I look over at him. God, how is he always SO nice? I swear it's not normal. As I look into his blue eyes, I realise that I’m not ready to say goodbye to Katie...and I’m definitely not ready to say goodbye to Nick either. I’m not ready for this change. "Maybe you should talk to her about it though. I mean, she is your sister, I'm just a friend of hers.”

“Easier said than done." I sigh. “She’s focused on only the wedding right now, and then she’ll be away on her honeymoon early the next morning, so I don’t think I’ll have any time to.” Nick gives me a small smile, and gently rubs my arm.

"Well I hope you do get to speak to her. It sounds important.” His face lights up with remembrance. “Oh! By the way, when you get a chance, can we talk? About...this? About us?" He asks. My heart sinks. This is what I've been worrying about. I can feel my separation anxiety is about to rear its ugly head again. Maybe Nick does want to leave me after this wedding. And then Katie will be gone too, and I’ll be all alone again.

"I mean, we can try, but given that the wedding is literally in four days, it might be too hard to do that." I laugh awkwardly, hoping that he doesn’t pick up on my nervousness. Thankfully Nick chuckles. “We could, uh, talk about it now if you want?” I offer. Nick shakes his head.

“Sorry, but I can’t now. Adam needs me to help sort some stuff in like ten minutes, and then I’m booked and busy for the rest of the week.”

“Same here. But we’ll talk. I promise. You better go help Adam.” I reassure him. Smiling, Nick pecks my lips, and leaves the room. As the door closes behind him, I sigh, trying not to let my anxiety get the best of me. Nick likes me. He keeps kissing me, after all. He must like me. Right? He obviously wants to tell me he wants to see me again. At least, that’s what I hope for. Ever since I was young, I’ve wanted someone to love and to love me back. Someone who wasn’t my family. Someone who wouldn’t leave me...and even though it might be too soon, I think Nick might be that person for me.

I just hope he feels the same.

~~~

Three Days Later: The Night of the Wedding Rehearsal and the Rehearsal Dinner. One Day til the Wedding.

“THAT’S Nick?!” Brooke gasps, pointing over at where Nick is standing, talking to some other groomsmen. “He’s even more attractive in real life.”

“Yup. Isn’t he dreamy?” Katie sighs fondly. We all look over at her. “What, just cause I’m getting married tomorrow doesn’t mean I can’t have one last look. He is nice, isn’t he Y/N?” She asks, wiggling her brows which almost makes me choke on my champagne. All of the bridesmaid’s faces turn to me, some frowning at me. “Oh, didn’t she tell you that she and Nick are totally a thing now?” My mouth drops open, along with the rest of the girls.

“That’s not true, we haven’t even spoken about-” But before I can finish, the officiant clears their throat, encouraging us to take our places for the wedding rehearsal. As Katie and I walk to the beginning of the makeshift aisle, we pass Nick on the way.

“Hey.” He smiles, and my heart almost stops. God he’s gorgeous. He’s wearing a suit, just minus a tie. I can see part of his chest poking through his shirt. If this is how I feel seeing him now, how will I manage to see him in his full suit tomorrow? And the fact we haven’t even managed to speak about our feelings for each other yet wasn’t helping either.

“Hi.” I whisper.

“Good luck with uh...you know. This.” He says. I raise an eyebrow.

“With...walking?” Nick’s face flushes pink, and I hear Katie snigger from beside me.

“Y..Yeah! With walking. And heels and stuff. Don’t want you to break your ankle before tomorrow or anything.” I start giggling, and even Nick lets out a small smile. Even if it’s a bit awkward, it’s still cute, and I appreciate the sentiment.

“I’ll try. Thanks Nick. See you soon.” We both nod, and Katie and I take our positions. Katie is still giving me a look, and I frown. “What?”

“You and Nick! Look at you. It’s so obvious that you two have the hots for each other. Anyone in this room can see it. Even Adam’s parents.” Now I start blushing, and I hiss:

“Okay, we are not talking about this right now, especially not at your wedding rehearsal dinner of all places.” Katie just gives me a wink, and the two of us don’t say anything else as the bridesmaids and groomsmen start to walk down the aisle together. Soon, it’s our turn to go. As we walk down the aisle together, my eyes wander towards Nick. He’s staring at me. Why is he staring at me? God what if I do fall? Shit. Okay Y/N, think of anything BUT Nick.

Nick’s POV

“Why are you staring at her like that?” Adam whispers.

“What? I’m not staring at anyone.” I lie. Adam rolls his eyes.

“Come on man, it’s pretty obvious.” He retorts, before turning back and walking up to receive Katie from Y/N so they can be married. Y/N smiles widely as she mimes handing her sister over to be married, and her smile makes me feel all warm inside. It’s a beautiful smile. It fits her perfectly. Y/N takes her place beside the other bridesmaids, and her gaze catches my eye again. She gives me a small smile, and I smile back. She looks stunning. She’s in a navy lace dress that hugs her figure perfectly. And I just want to rip it off of her. God, I hope she likes me back too. Even though we’ve kissed each other, I still can’t be sure. Y/N’s such a great person, and she deserves someone who can tell her that everyday. And I want to be that person for her. But before I can think of anything else, Adam and Katie suddenly cut into my thoughts:

“And then this is when we get the rings from Nick and do our vows.” Katie explains, and I nod. God, my best friend is getting married to the love of his life tomorrow and all I’m thinking about is how I want to make out with the maid of honour. I need to talk to her about my true feelings as soon as possible. The wedding rehearsal finishes up pretty quickly, but before I can talk to Y/N, she’s swept up by Katie and the rest of her bridal party who leave the room, clearly ready to go to dinner together. I sigh as Adam walks up behind me.

“Come on loverboy. You can talk to her later.” He says. I frown, about to ask him how he knows what I’m thinking about, but he doesn’t respond, and instead gives me a knowing look. “Come on lover boy, we better go.” He orders, walking away with the rest of the groomsmen. I sigh. Hopefully he’s right, and that I can talk to Y/N soon.

~~~

A few hours later

Y/N’s POV

“So.” Vanessa begins, sipping on her wine. We have finished our dinner, and Vanessa, Sam and I are hanging out with each other. “You and Nick, huh?” She raises an eyebrow. My heart rate speeds up, and I gulp down the rest of my wine, already feeling the familiar buzz of becoming tipsy. God, I wish I brought more.

“Uh, what about us?” I frown, trying to feign innocence. Unsurprisingly, it doesn’t work. She and Sam scoff.

“He’s been staring at you for the whole night. Actually, babe, is he still looking at her?” She asks Sam. Sam’s head whips around, not subtly at all, and my cheeks flush red.

“Yup, he’s still looking.” She confirms, and goes back to sipping her beer like nothing major was going on. My cheeks now feel like they’re on fire. “Awww, young love.” She smiles. “I remember that feeling, don’t you babe?” Vanessa nods.

“Why don’t you talk to him? He obviously wants to talk to you. Either that, or he’s trying to win a staring contest.” I splutter.

“I can’t talk to him! For one, my sister is getting married tomorrow, so that takes priority, and I don’t even know if he likes me in that way, despite our kiss.” Sam and Vanessa’s eyes go wide. Now I remember why I don’t drink wine. Because I can’t shut up when I do.

“YOU KISSED?!” They gasp in unison. I quickly shush them, but they continue. “Okay, you definitely need to talk to him. Now.”

“But-”

“But nothing. Katie will understand. And don’t be silly, of course he likes you in that way.” They reassure me, gently pushing me in Nick’s direction. “And if he breaks your heart, we’ll deal with it.” They wink, giving me one last push. Why does it feel like I’m being thrown to the wolves? Nick sees me, and he smiles, relief flooding his features. My heart rate speeds up even more. He’s so beautiful. I can do this, right? I just have to go up to him and say:

“Hey, I think you’re extremely attractive, and I want to know how you feel about me, even though we’ve kissed a lot these past few days, and I was wondering if you wanted to be my boyfriend?” ....Okay no. No wonder I’ve been single this long if this is what I think classifies asking someone out. Maybe I should just talk to him? Even though it’s easier said than done. I take a deep breath, steeling myself, and start the walk over to him. It might be easier said than done, but I have to do it.

But just as I’m about to reach him, a voice from beside me calls:

“Oh Y/N, dear!” Adam’s mother walks up to me. Oh great. Just what I need. I’ve only spent time with Adam’s mother a few times, probably less than ten times, and she was lovely all those times, but I have more important things to do.

“Hi, it’s nice to see you again, but I actually-” I begin, before she links her arm with mine, and pulls me in the direction of some more aunts and uncles. Oh, this is not good. “Actually, I have to do some-” I start, but she cuts me off.

“I wanted to introduce you to some people. Adam’s great aunt Agnes actually has a question about tomorrow, and I thought you’d be able to help, because you and Katie have done such a wonderful job so far.” That’s nice, but I don’t know what I’m supposed to be able to fix before tomorrow. And I have more important things to do. I look back over at Nick, mouthing the word sorry to him, and he nods, but still looks disappointed. I sigh. There goes that chance to clear things up. Meanwhile, Adam’s mother is still chattering away, and hasn’t even noticed me looking at Nick, or my half assed replies or nods. Thankfully, Katie soon appears in front of us both, announcing that she needs me for important maid of honour duties. I sigh happily. Thank god. “Wait!” Adam’s mother calls before we leave. “I just wanted to say...I know you girls haven’t had a mother figure in your lives for a while, and I just wanted to say that you both have one in me. Even you Y/N. Your sister may be marrying my son, but I love you both as if you were my own. And besides, after tomorrow, we’re family!” She smiles, pulling us both into a tight hug. As she squeezes me tightly, I feel tears stinging at my eyes. Now I feel bad for trying to escape...even though it was so I could confess my love for the best man. “If either of you need anything, I’m here for you okay?” She asks, and we nod. “See you tomorrow.” Katie and I wave, and she leads me away.

“Thanks for saving me.” I whisper. “Now, where did Nick get to?” Katie frowns.

“Nick? He and the rest of the groomsmen left to go back to the house a while ago.” My heart sinks. Dammit. “I was actually coming to get you. It’s time for us to head over to the hotel, and I gotta give you girls your presents!” She squeals excitedly. She leads me outside to a limo, and we get inside, being greeted by the others. Sam and Vanessa look at me expectantly, but I shake my head. They look disappointed, but say nothing. As the car sets off towards the hotel, everyone starts to chatter excitedly and pass around glasses of champagne, while I just stare out of the window. I know my mind should be focused on my sister, and I am excited for her, of course I am...but I just want to see Nick.

~~~ In the Hotel

“Okay, so these are your robes to wear while we’re getting ready tomorrow.” Katie explains, passing them around. “Aaaaand, there’s these too. There’s a little note in each.” She hands each of us a little gift bag. Soon, the room fills with a chorus of ‘awww’ and ‘thank you’. I reach into my bag and pull out a bracelet with a little heart charm. My initials are engraved into the charm. “Read the note.” Katie tells me, and I open it.

“Dear Y/N, aka the best big sister in the world. I just wanted to say thank you for everything you’ve ever done, and continue to do for me. I know I say this to you a lot, but it’s true. I hope to one day repay the kindness you’ve shown me over the years. You’ve been the only person who has supported and loved me throughout our lives. Even though I may not be able to see you as often as usual, I’ll always be there for you. You’ve been the one constant in my life, and our bond is unbreakable. I’m not going anywhere any time soon, and I’m not letting you go either!

Lots and lots of love,

Katie xxx

P.S. Ask Nick out. Please. He won’t shut up about you and to be honest it’s getting annoying.”

With tears stinging my eyes, I immediately pull Katie into a huge hug, which she returns, squeezing me tightly. “I love you so much.” She whispers, as we both start crying in each others arms, and the other girls comfort us as best they can. I was worrying for nothing. Katie was right: our bond is unbreakable, regardless of where we live, and who we’re with.

Whatever happens, she’ll always be my sister, and my best friend.

~~~

The Next Day: Wedding Day.

Small lines of sunlight come through the windows and into the room. The room is silent, aside from a few snores and the occasional mumbling as the girls turn in their sleep. Soon however, the peace is shattered with an excited squeal.

“I’M GETTING MARRIED TODAY!”

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