#old hyperfixation has come back SWINGING

[sugar4tears]

What I had left here, I just held it tight, So someone with your eyes, Might come in time.

[6feathered6siren6]

Spiderverse KC! Dabbles and HCs

Authors note: This is mostly dabbles and random things I thought of while in my spiderverse hyperfixation(again), I've been also somewhat sketching on what they would look like. On request of my friend after fighting for a few hours(and to make sure she doesn't hate bomb), these do not follow spiderman canon stories or events, just some fun of if the Killer chat! Love interest was in the spiderverse. I might come back to this idea on a future thing. Btw, you can view these romantic or platonic, up to you!^^

Trigger warnings

Killings/deaths

Injuries

ooc?

Cringe(But i'm free)

You were shoved into one of the interdimensional portals, meeting back into the spiderman headquarters. Shoving your mask up as you walked around, grabbing a coffee from another spiderman who was a barista. Waving to a few acquaintances until you found an open window. Sliding out to the breezy wind and cool air, walking up the building. Humming softly until you get onto the roof. Sitting on the edge of it. Taking a swing of your coffee as you look out to the futuristic universe. This is worth it in your opinion. Worth fighting and getting back up. 

“READER!” Recognizing that voice, it was Misaki. Looking at them swinging up with the webs to almost tripping, or in their words, ‘landing gracefully.’ They plopped down next to you, looking into the scenery as well. She playfully punches your shoulder with a gleaming smile.

“Hey, Misaki.” You spoke as you smiled back. 

“So everyone is going to be late, something about having to help V with some crook. And left me out of it, can you believe it?” They spit raspberries as they looked grumpy for a moment until laying their head on your shoulder. Looking back to their playful self. “Well, they are missing out on ‘you’ time. I get you to myself!” 

You felt yourself chuckle. “I guess so. So how’s your universe?”

“Same old, same old. You already know all that boring stuff.” 

It felt such a small amount of time pass, but it was a few hours until the missing members came alone. 

“There’s the losers,” Misaki yelled out as they saw them swinging and landing onto the roof. “Can’t believe you left me out in a fight, I would love to punch a guy or two in the face.”

Angel sat next to you while V sat next to Misaki. You turned your body to face Ronin as he stood. “Yeah, yeah. Blame Mr. Serious over there.” He points to V as V glares at him.

“You were the one who lost track of him. I told you to watch him while Me and Angel chase the main perpetrator.” V didn’t look pleased, like one more thing will make him gut the devil looking spiderman. 

“Yeah, and whose fault is that?” Ronin leans down to V, a smirk that scream fuck-all. 

“Enough you two, we are here for a good time, not to fight. Wait until we spar, then you can throw hands at each other.” Angel spoke, the two listened, and Ronin sat next to Angel, wrapping his arm around her.

“That’s boring, we can always spill blood anytime and all the time.” Angel's response to Ronin was rolling her eyes. 

Sitting there, sure, they’re bickering, but felt like a place you belong. A place you can always go back to. A place like home. 

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Ronin(SpiderDevil)

Ronin has invited you to stay at his timeline for a bit. It was different from the time you're from, but you didn’t care. The anti-hero before you was dragging you through his city, swing after swing. Until he got to a high building, catching you when you fumbled the landing. 

“Do not tell Misaki, I will never hear the end of this if they know.” You groaned. 

“Don’t worry, Darlin’. I won’t spill your secrets.” His chuckle sent shivers down your back, but you ignored them. His grin might be sadistic but he was true to his word, he won’t tell them. At least, you hoped. 

Looking into his world, it was chaotic like him but a sense of calm. He was looking down, scoping for something, a bad guy? Someone to kill? You never know with him. 

Staring at his costume, his superhero persona looks, he mentioned that he made it himself, calling himself the devil. Having the world also call him the devil. 

“Staring too long will make me wonder if you have fallen for me, Darlin’.” He turns his head, smirking almost gleefully. “Shoving your aorta to the devil is something you can’t turn back on.” 

You rolled your eyes as you shoved your mask up, and smiled back at him. “Maybe I do, shoving my heart into your hands.” 

He whistles, before even making a comment back, a scream comes from nearby. He turned to the direction of the yelling, then back to you. Smirking sinfully, giving a two finger salute, putting his mask on as he falls off the building, using his webs to go see what it is. Most likely killing the person that causes a panic in the calm city.  

You swear he’s so fucking dumb, but it does make you feel something, you sigh as you shoved your mask on, and following him. 

—

Somehow, he got you bloody, your hero costume was stained red, a dark, dark red, and it wasn’t even yours. After getting blood out of it last time, which took you HOURS to do, you just decided to make another suit. One that would be so much easier to clean. 

His arm wraps around your shoulder. “Come’n darlin’, I didn’t mean to.” 

“Sorry doesn’t mean this suit would be clean in an instant.” You growled softly. After all that work, the hours to make it clean. Just to give up, the material is supposed to be hand cleaned.

“But I like this one now, screams of the damned, losing their life to me and you. That not all heroes are rainbows and sunshine.” 

You dropped your suit onto his couch, sighing. You need to get back to your universe, you have something to get done. You were still mad about the suit, but there was nothing to do. 

Ronin gives another apology before you dashed off, grumpy and wanting to strangle something for the hours you were going to have to put in later.

–

On your bed, there was a red box with a ribbon tied around it. Your room was locked, so there was no way anyone was able to put it there. Slowly, getting over there and pulling the ribbon, what laid inside was your suit. Clean and stitched up. Like the blood was never there, nor the holes. You knew who did this, you left it at his place. The devil does have a bleeding heart.

You hold the suit close, switching into the suit almost immediately and jumping out your window to do your routine patrol. The smile on your face was big enough that it just hurts to hold it for long, but it was so worth it.

— 

You didn’t expect your enemy to just shove some random injection into themselves, making them stronger. You can’t even get a punch in, the enemy was getting faster and faster with his hits. Dodging is all you can do, just trying to make sure you can survive another day. You heard in the distance a familiar sound, but you have to keep focus on the battle, the enemy. Well, until you see that same enemy being flinged into the wall beside you. 

“Heard you need saving, didn’t think the devil had to be the saving grace today.”  

You didn’t even have to guess who it was, you looked over to see Ronin, looking so smugged to save you. He walks to you, shoving his hand out for you to grab and pulls you up. He chuckles as he looks back at the enemy, see him get up. Cracking his knuckles, ready to finish the fight you were just in. 

-

Canon events are in every Spiderman's story, and losing that someone that was close to you… was heartbreak to say the least. You still find their death haunting your dreams, especially around their death anniversary. You couldn’t stand staying in your universe, the photos on your walls stare you down, it felt suffocating. 

Opening that watch, not even seeing where the other side goes, you need somewhere that doesn’t feel like your skin is crawling. Tripping onto something and landing onto something leathery. Taking a moment and looking at what you fell on, it was a couch, a very familiar couch. One that you feel asleep at before. 

You hear a snicker, and lifting your head you see Ronin, dressed in red and black pajamas. “Almost made me have a heart attack Darlin’. Didn’t know you wanted to take out the sinner earlier than his due date.” 

You stared at him, you didn’t think you would go to his universe, nor on his couch. His facial reaction shifted a bit, a smug bastard to something that hid his concern. 

“Move over, hero.” He started shooing at you, making you sit up on his couch. He grabs the remote and turns the tv in his living room on. “Wanna watch some shitty murder movies? Misaki left one of the movies from their time here. I thought it was shit and not enough gore. But she liked it.” 

You nod as you pull your knees to your chest. Taking your response, he puts it on, and the movie, in your opinion, was okayish. Ronin looked half bored throughout the movie, making comments about the killer. “That's way too much blood for that wound.”, “Guts don’t jump out like that.”, even judging how the movie murder was using a weapon wrong. Each comment from him, like he was teaching you about killing, was funny in your opinion. The way he was so judgemental for this murder that did their kills. 

You couldn’t help but snicker at this before laughing. He looked at you like you were the insane one in the room, but you did catch a pleased smile from him. One that was glad your mood had changed, he knew you were always down around this time. 

And if you wake up with a blanket on you, it was the spiderman that belonged into this universe, being ‘a saving grace’ to you.

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˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Angel(Spidergirl)(Spidersaint)(Pinkwidow)

You were at her place as she was changing the design of her suit again. She has to keep up with the fashion world, even as Spidergirl, she has to look her best. You were helping her sketch her newest design. With winter coming, she wants to be able to put a nice coat along with her suit, but also a new skirt design along with it. 

“How about a fluffy coat? One with the spider design with it.” You recommend, flipping your phone to show the coat idea.

She lifted her head and shook it. “That was last season, I can’t look cheezy either.” 

You hummed softly as you looked back into your phone. “What about a jacket, put a wings design on it?” 

“I had one when I was dating Ronin, we were matching. I rather not dig up that old thing.” She crumbled up a sketch and put it next to her. “Plus bring it back won’t be a good look for the fashionable spidergirl.” 

You were now thinking about what was in your closet, an idea popping in your head. “I might have an idea for ya.” 

In about a week, you need a magazine of Angel’s new suit. It had a skirt with a very familiar, matching jacket, with accents that glowed a soft pink that matched her suit. She adored it, along with her fans. Your magazine was autographed with a very personalized message. 

–

“Rest, Angel.” You blocked her window. She had been overworking herself, and easily you can see how tired she was. 

“I can go on patrol, Reader.” She took a side step and you followed her, blocking her path once more. 

“You look like one step away from passing out. And I rather not hear from the news here that, ‘Spidergirl launched into building unconscious.’” You kept your arms crossed, watching her.

“Let me take over your patrol for the night and you can rest. I’ll even pick up our food after I’m done.” 

The both of you were having a stare off, it felt like hours until she sighed. “Fine. You win. I’ll take a rest.”

You sigh in relief as you pull down your mask. “I’ll be back with your favorite comfort meal, then we can do whatever you want.” 

Just about 2 hours later, you arrived back from Angel’s patrol. There was only petty crime, so nothing too much to really worry her back. She was on her couch, doing her skin care routine. 

She lightly chuckles as you put the take out food onto the coffee table, “Go change, then I’ll torture you.” She lifts the face mask package, with the most innocent, sweet smile, but you can tell there was darker intentions with that. But to get her to rest, you'll take the beauty pain. 

–

It was a relaxing day, there wasn’t even any petty crime during this patrol. You were keeping up with Angel, even playing games through this, just keep the patrol entertaining. Landing onto the sidewalk of a barely busy street, you cheer as you win the race. Angel chuckles as she watches you cheer, she is in the new suit that you and her design. Everyone in her universe loved the new suit and decided to make merch of it. Heck, she had to model in clothes dedicated to her suit design. When she told you about the photoshoot, she couldn’t handle her joy from it. 

As you calmed down from your celebration, neither one of you could see the paparazzi coming until it was too late. Each one was asking Angel about her suit and how she came up with the idea. Then asking more personal ones, and somehow, she took each question like a champ. 

“When will you reveal who you are?” One asked, pushing the recorder closer to her masked face. 

“I can’t spill all my secrets, if I do, I won’t keep all my fans' eyes on me.” Her softer voice enchanted with each reporter, making them want to get closer to her, to know more. “I want each one to keep guessing who I am, you’ll never know if I’m your neighbor or your friend, keep guessing my friends.”

She lightly taps your shoulder before webbing up onto a building getting away from the paparazzi, you followed her up, landing next to her as she walked away from the edge of the roof. Away from the cameras and eyes. 

“Didn’t think they would show up, nor ask.. Questions about your life.” You said looking at the direction of the reporters, walking towards her.

“It’s normal, they have been more… extra lately though, the news wants more Spidergirl.” She shrugs, “Though they have been getting into danger just to learn a little bit about me. Last week, I had to drag one out from a battle, they are getting more bold.” She shook her head, sighing as she recalled it.

“Yikes,” You cringed as you also remembered some of your world’s press. But it sounds like Angel got it worse than you.

She sighs again, “I’ll just figure it out, like always.” 

“Well, you got me to help,” You nudged her side with your elbow. “And Ronin, V, and Misaki. We are here to help. You don’t have to be alone for this. We can plan a fake face reveal, pretend it’s some random person. Maybe if we can convince Ronin to do it.” 

She snickers before laughing, you can probably see the image goes through her mind, seeing Ronin taking off her mask to see his face instead of hers. “That would be a sight.”

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V(Spiderman)(Short and simple but also called spiderdog by Ronin)

It was break time for you, no fighting, no work, no nothing. It was a time to rest, and to rest V invited you to hang in his universe. Which you accepted, you wanted to see all those animals he had. Plus it’s been a while since you held Cocoa, his rescue bunny. 

Going through the portal to his bunker, it was dark, so he must still be out. Turning on the lights, and laying on his couch as you wait upon him. Pulling out your phone as you wait for him, shifting through the latest news from your universe. “Spiderman saves children from kidnapping” and “Cops are still trying to arrest Spiderman, but horrible failing at their jobs to protect us.” 

You shook your head as V finally walked in, taking off his mask as he used his other hand to cover his side. You dropped your phone, rushing over to him. “Shit, V!” You gently push his hand to assess the wound. “Go sit, your first aid is the bathroom, right?”

He was shocked at first, seeing you there. “It is.” 

You went to get his first aid, and came out to see him sitting at one of his dining chairs. Grabbing another chair and peeling his hand away from his wound, seeing the damage. “It doesn’t seem too bad, what happened?” 

“One of them had a gun, I didn’t see it in time.” He tries to stay still for you to help patch him up. 

“Ouch, know how that feels.” It was a quick fix, and you put the first aid on the table after patching him up. “Do you feel better now?” 

He grabs the painkillers from his first aid kit as he nods. “I should be fine, we do regenerate faster, so this should heal in a couple days.” 

You let go of a breath that you didn’t even know you were holding. “Alright then.” You got up from your seat, smiling pridefully. “I’ll make us food then, how do you feel about–”

“No.” V interrupted you. “Last time you made food, you and Misaki burnt the cheap instant noodles from that gas station. By forgetting the one thing you need for it. Water.” 

“But-”

“Reader. No. I’ll order take out.” He sighs as he gets up and heads to his bathroom, getting out of his suit.

Well, can’t fight with some free, easy food.

–

It’s the day, the once a month event that you and the other 4 get together. The day you can beat each other up(with some rules because of certain people). Today, it’s you vs V. Angel, Ronin, and Misaki were watching the fight go down. Misaki was loud, cheering you and V on. No one here is in their persona suits, just lose easy fighting clothes. 

He threw the first punch, a swift crouching and aiming for his legs. He took a small jump back. You lift your arms up, ready to either punch or block, instead throwing a kick close to his head. 

It was his turn to crouch. Finally, one of you made contact and it was him, punching you in the stomach, making all the air in your lungs escape you instantly. Your eyes felt like they were watering, blurring your sights for a moment. 

Taking a step back, you took a deep breath in, steeling your body. You kept your eyes on him, watching his movement, taking a big step forward, punching. You throw your fist, blocking it, then using your other fist to make contact on his cheek. You hear him grunt slightly in pain.

The viewers were watching the fight, Misaki was screaming out advice that wasn’t heard by the two fighters. Ronin was enjoying the fight, making comments to Angel. 

Finally, Angel’s alarm hits, soft lyrics blast into the air. Making you and V stop. It’s been five minutes. You were trying to catch your breath, same as V. 

“Good match, you seem to be getting better.” He said, standing straight, lifting his hand out to you to shake. 

You take it and smile. “Thanks, and that was a good match.” 

“Come on, Ronin! Our turn to fight!” Misaki cheered out. Running onto the matted area. 

—

You were staring at your computer, stressed out by some work you were assigned. You let your head hit your desk as you groaned. You swear you feel your brain cells leave you. Lifting your head to look at the ceiling when you heard a knock on your window, looking over to see V in his spiderman suit. 

You felt your lips pull upwards, walking over, and opening the window. You chuckle, “V?”

“Hello, reader. I hope you don’t me dropping by.” You backed up to let the man in. 

“Nah, I needed an excuse to get away from my work. What’s up?” 

He lifted a bag. “You weren’t able to join us for lunch, so I decided to bring you something. This is what you ordered last time.” 

You gently took the bag and opened it. You felt your mouth water from the smell of the food. It was when your stomach growled when you realized you didn’t grab something to eat since you started your work. You looked up at him, feeling the texture of the bag, “Thank you, V.”

“It was no problem to get you this. Eat while it’s hot.” You nod, as you sit back down into your chair, V walks up behind you, seeing what you’re working on. While you were eating, he started helping as much as he could. 

It was a surprise visit, but a very welcomed one.

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Misaki(Spiderpop)(Spiderchoas)

“Shit, shit, shit! Reader!” Misaki slides down from the ruble, jumping down where you lay. You felt your body burning, and your back felt like it was being soaked. You couldn’t remember what happened, but you felt like you were run over by a truck, then a train, and they both backed up and crushed you again. 

You groan as you tilt your head to Misaki as they take off their mask. They seemed so scared, but like they were reliving something… but what? 

“You’re gonna be okay, like I’ll call for help. Shit, don’t move. Please, please pick up my fucking call!” You slowly grabbed their shaking hand, your mask was still on, unable to show your emotions, but you still tried and offered comfort. You hear her shiving breath, it shook so bad that it scared you. “Please stay awake, help is going to be here. I promise, I promise on my gear, my suit, hell, everything I own. Just stay awake.”

But everything turned blurry, and you could hear a heartbeat monitor next to you. Turning your head away, you could see Misaki there. She was typing away on their phone, it could be the slaughterhouse group chat. 

“Hey…” It felt like your throat was scratching sandpaper when you spoke. 

Misaki looked at you, and you could see how terrible she looked. Her eyes were red and there were dry tear tracks. “H- holy shit! You’re awake!” They ran to your side, and when you tried to sit up, they assisted. “Thank the gods you are okay, sheesh, like you are okay and awake, and the doctor said you were going to be fine. Like sure, you lost a lot of blood, and they had to do a blood transfusion, but…” 

They paused and their features softened, “You’re okay.”

You held their hand as they rambled, and nodded. “I’m okay.” 

“Good. Now, you are never ever, ever, ever doing that again! I was so scared, hell even Ronin was scared for a moment. Don’t do that to us, we are a squad, we have to stick together, and none of this self sacrificing bullshit you pulled. You do this speech to make sure none of us do that, but you pull it, it’s unfair.” 

“Sorry..” You felt guilty, now you remember why you fell, and how you were injured. Angel was about to get attacked but you pushed her out of the way and took the blow instead. Making you go through buildings, and nearly one collapses on you. If it wasn’t for the spider mutation, you might have died.

“Do you know how scary it was to see you just thrown into buildings? V said if you were a few inches to the side, you might have gotten a pipe in your stomach.”

You rub your thumb on her hand, hearing that, that you scared all four of them, made you feel so guilty for it. But you did save Angel from getting this badly hurt. “I’ll try not to do this again, but no promises. If I can save someone I will take it, Misaki.” 

“But it’s still unfair, also take care of yourself, you need to stay alive, or who else will be my chaos buddy, I need you to help me to annoy everyone.” Their hand shook in yours, the air felt heavy and suffocating. The guilt felt heavy, if this is Misaki's ‘don’t be selfless’ speech, you don’t want to know the others. You think it’ll be too much. 

-

You and Misaki took off your spiderman suits, dressed in casual clothing, walking around in the dimension. Finished up with a mission and both of you had some down time before having to go back to HQ. 

Misaki looked really curious, the spiderman from this world is stuck in another so helping him take down bad guys was needed, so she was wondering what this world is like. Pulling your hand along with them, pointing out options, before deciding to grab some fast food. 

Both of you were on top of a tall building, looking into the blue scenery. “Do you think we can convince V to decorate his suit? Like I like it, but it looks so boring.” 

You snicker as you ate a fry, “You already tried to alter his suit, he was a disco ball for a week. He, literally, was shedding glitter.”

“Hey! Hey! That was just a failed attempt of my glitter fabric, just watch, I’ll put something snake related for him. Him and his love for symbolism.” They yelled at you before taking a bite of her burger. “But he won’t let me within a mile radius of his suit, soooo…” She leans their head on your shoulder.

You luckily groan, “Fii-ine. I’ll help.”

“Knew I could count on my chaos buddy.” Lifting her head to drink her soda. 

“You’re just lucky that you got pretty privilege.” You remarked, as you slightly nudged their shoulder with your fist.

“Damn right!” They yelled out, almost throwing her burger out of their hand. 

–

Misaki took your hand, dragging you through HQ. She was giggling as they did. To keep everyone senses up, V sparked up an idea of hide and seek. Which V wanted to cheer Misaki up, so asked about this game to you so see if it will help them. And from what you can tell with her laughter, they were. 

“Com’n, I got this perfect spot! Ronin won’t find us!” Ronin was seeker this round, and you can expect him to dramatize it. Which, can you expect of him any less? Misaki seemed to be in a higher mood now. 

Finally, they pulled you into her spot, a room that no one remembers, at least you can tell with all the dust in the room. You can hear the soft buzz of her mechanical legs, lifting their body up. “Now we can’t be found.” 

Their smile was infectious, making you smile as well. You were glad that V's plan worked. Misaki webbed your chest, making you almost yelp when they pulled you up with them. Now hiding with the open rafters. 

Misaki was kicking her legs as they watched the door. “I didn’t expect this to be so fun.” You felt your head nod in agreement. “And I didn’t think V and Ronin would try and find each other first. Poor Angel is gonna have to deal with them, because there is no way they will find us here.”

You laugh as you think of them bickering. “We can apologize to Angel once we get found, the poor girl is going to have a headache dealing with them.” 

“Angel our beloved, so sorry for making you deal with this.” They said, as they put their hands together, like they were praying. 

You rolled your eyes as you looked at the door, and no signs of them. Misaki seemed to be back to herself again, glad, that V had a great plan to help them.

It was about 30 minutes until V found the both of you, which he was very lucky to see in the room and look up. Seeing both of your shit-eating, win smiles. And if Misaki ran ahead, to see a glimpse of V’s smile, one to see he was happy to see his friend was back to themselves, it was your secret. 

–

Together(somewhat) Headcanons

Misaki has mechanical parts in her suit, shaped like spider legs. A part they like doing is using them to get taller than the others and T pose, showing off dominance towards the others.

Surprised hangouts and sleepovers are usual, so just jumping into another's dimension to see the others is practical. 

Each one has a nickname/code names because calling out spiderman won’t be confusing, though V just sticks to being called spiderman.(Each nickname/code name is next to their name)

Games and sparing always happens in Spiderman HQ, and anything with fighting will always be settled on the mats

Because Misaki glitterify his suit once, V has started keeping it close to him or locking it up and hiding it. 

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Can’t think of other hcs at the moment and I'm going to bed, hope you enjoyed it! And sorry if some parts seem less motivational, I want to get birthday content for myself done.

[madnesshyperfixation]

hii!! is it open to request for jebediah christoff?

General Jebediah Christoff Headcanons 

Holy shit first ask AAAA! Thank you for asking I was jittering in my seat from excitement writing all this out for u!  

5’10” – 6’ probably 

I highly doubt Jeb’s body is wholly his after being stitched back together by 2BDamned after Apotheosis, there’s a least a few chunks of him that are really Hank’s body parts, same with Hank in return, what? You think 2B would really go and sort through all their body parts? Nah 2B mainly separated what was easily identifiable and seemed to match. 

No matter how much this dumbass denies it he has some similar mannerisms to Director Phobos. Ex. Posture, embellished speech patterns. 

Has resting bitch face that has only gotten worse over time. 

Ough chronic pain from being an old ass man with loads of scars, least it’s not as bad as it could be because of the Halo/Keystone Fragment. 

He has always known how to use a sword since his time at the Nexus, imagine that on your job resume haha. 

Living in a functioning city in the past leaves it’s marks on how he lives in the present, mainly on small things, I mean, imagine living in a well-functioning city, having lived there your entire life having access to things like sugar and seasonings, luxuries in plain sight, and then going to nothing. Stuff that was once seen as commonplace and normal is now a rare luxury like it was in the far past. (Sorry if this explanation is bad) 

He likes his coffee drowned in creamer; he seems like a creamer guy. Sad that creamer is hard to come by nowadays. 

Jeb discovered the plush Hofnarr had of him, Hofnarr never knew why Jeb suddenly started to be a little nicer to him. (I beat canon to death behind a Waffle House) 

His sunglasses are prescripted.  

His eyes used to be brown before they turned red and black from exposure to the dissonance in Halo/Keystone Fragment. 

His hands are stained with a purple gradient and spider veins from his constant use of dissonance with his hands. 

In the early years of working at the science tower Jeb and Crackpot used to get along surprisingly. 

The Binary Sword really wasn’t meant for people his height even with his amplified strength from the Halo/Keystone Fragment, so he uses some telekinesis to help swing and thrust the giant thing around. 

Having a small hammerspace at will allows him to pull out thing from thin air, I like to think he usually reaches behind his back or into his lab coat when pulling something out despite the fact he can just hold out his hand and the item he needs will just pop or drop into existence from his hammerspace. 

Speaking of hammerspace, the size of his hammerspace is about the size of a small closet. 

He is mentally incapable of forgetting what he’s stored in his hammerspace, anything he stores away in there is automatically ingrained in his mind until he removes said object. 

While he is immune to his own lightning he still becomes staticky after using it. 

Ok I didn’t think I'd have a lot of Headcanons for Jebus and was planning to apologize for the lack of headcanons but turns out I did, the magic of hyperfixation lol, anyway I hope all you Jebus fans and the lovely asker enjoy! 

[sometimesnat]

hello writers :3 once upon a time i dipped my toes in the writeblr waters as 'wordsbynathan,' and after taking an accidental multi-year break i am back and re-introducing myself! in my absence i started streaming on twitch (though i am currently on hiatus to focus on writing lol) under the name SometimesNat; that's come to feel like the most natural way to 'brand' my online identity, so i'm adopting the name here as well!

about me

as implied, i sometimes go by nat or otherwise by nathan! 27 years old, writer, streamer, walker, currently hyperfixating on magic the gathering. my pronouns are they/them and he/him with a slight preference toward the former until we are at least somewhat acquainted <3 i love music and movies and gaming and long naps and space and cats (sorry i'm a millennial on my mom's side). and i live in the US...unfortunately...

my writing

anybody who has spoken to me has heard about burned, my years-in-the-making fantasy WIP that i've written and rewritten more times than the bible has been translated. i'm currently working through the FINAL (so help me) version of burned to be queried. burned is about a superhuman who is essentially kidnapped from his normal life and thrown into a magical college where everybody lowkey hates him. there, he starts to pick apart the mystery of his mother's untimely death. he is very normal about all of it! i have another fantasy/sf novel called antisocial angels alliance which is a little bit stranger things, a little bit degrassi, and VERY gay. currently in the revision stage, i have been ignoring her for Some Time but will hopefully have a polished version finished by the end of this year. AAA is about a group of teenagers who have been genetically engineered by a religious cult to become god warriors for the military. they are super normal about all of it!! finally, on the backburner is a horror novel that is for the moment called dust bunny. an mfa student falls in love with his thesis advisor, but as he continues to write his thesis he feels something strange brewing in his body. the more he writes, the weirder shit gets and the looser his grip on reality becomes. as you can guess, he's incredibly normal about all of it!!!

and that's all for the moment! it's gonna take me some time to get back into the swing of things on tumblr, fix my blog theme, reconstruct a tagging system and all of that, but until then i'm just very happy to be back in the writing headspace after a Very Bad writing year in 2024 :)

@seasteading here is a tag for u twin

@atelierwriting here is a tag for u bestie

[warrior-kitty]

hi! we don't really talk; but just recently, i thought about your old smash bros fanfics and wondered how you're doing nowadays. i used to constantly roam around ff.net during the smash 4 hype days and i was a big fan of your works! they were always a fun read and i always got excited whenever you update.

i'm super shy when it comes to sending messages like this, but the main thing i wanna say is you're a really cool and creative person and i hope life has been treating ya well!!

djdjdjsksksks

First I wanna say thanks! It’s honestly really great to hear that you enjoyed my old fics, it really means a lot!

In regards to where I am nowadays for fics, it’s kinda tricky to answer honestly. I’ve been wanting to rewrite some of my old Smash fics for a good few years now, due to learning more about a lot of the game series represented in Smash that I previously didn’t know much about and having ideas spring up because of them!

It has been a little harder though to sit down and plan out these ideas and then eventually write these fics because my hyperfixations have just drifted to other things over the years so I’m not as laser-focused on Smash Bros like I used to be back in the Smash 4 years. ^_^’

So it’s simply just been more difficult to put my focus on fic writing is all, plus I also tend to not have as much time like I used to due to work and all (._.)

But! I really do want to get back into the swing of fic writing again! Getting into KH and then Sora being in Smash brought along a new stream of ideas that I’ve been playing around with so hopefully I can get to working on those ideas some day! Who knows, maybe I could be able to when KH4 drops and gives us more incite on Quadratum, since a lot of my ideas have been rotating around it!

But thanks for dropping in! Again, it really means a lot to know that you liked my old works! :D

[chiotri-loves-davekat]

here are five poorly drawn Homestuck OCs of mine

Crazy long infodunp v

F.I.N.N. (Friendly Imaginary Nonverbal Nanobot) is a robot that Niki made when she was 9 cuz her guardian was neglectful and she wanted a babysitter. She made them 16 cuz that's what age Nickelodeon main characters usually are. F.I.N.N. like best friend things. They like pizza (can't actually eat it) and drawing! They don't have a mouth so they draw it on with chalk.

Niki is a brilliant mechanic, and has been her whole life. She is obsessed with femininity, and loves Nickelodeon TV shows. She has frequent and severe mood swings that F.I.N.N. was made to help her with. When she named F.I.N.N. she was 9 and didn't know the word mental, so she used imaginary instead for F.I.N.N.'s name and now her friends think that they are her imaginary friend.

Erin is the John Egbert of this session. We start with Erin and circle back to Erin, it always ends up Erin somehow. Erin like videogames. He's a dork. He doesn't have any friend except online friends. Everyone debates about whether he is a boy or a girl, little do they know that he is both! He tends to use he/him pronouns but really has no preference. Erin's glasses are always a bit crooked. His passions include 100%ing games, and speed running games. Erin is pretty good friends with Niki and Ross, but he is pretty sure that F.I.N.N. is some weird AI thing that Niki created based on her imaginary friend. He thinks Glen is weird but puts up with him.

Ross is this sessions Cool Kid™. He constantly over stresses about being cool and not cringe. He *hates* cringe things. Ross has a (not so) secret cringe past. Under his mask is a permanent cat mouth (like the 3 in :3). Ross tries not to ramble and hyperfixate, and has thrown out all of his old cringe interests and habits. The only thing he lets himself obsess over now is pirates, as he's deemed them cool. Even though Ross is always concerned about being cool, he wears twinkle toes. He is also very angry and confused when anyone insinuates that twinkle toes aren't cool. Ross is dating Glen, but this is a post troll planet and so they have quadrants and Ross and Glen violently vaccilatate between kismesisitude and matespritship.

Glen is ***cringe***. That is his entire personality. He comes from a very rich household, and has not one but two guardians. You name something stereotypically cringe, Glen likes it. He's a bit entitled but not on purpose. Glen uses tamagotchikind because his parents just keep getting him tamagotchis and he doesn't know what to do with them. He loves/hates his stupid/cute boyfriend. Glen and Ross are neighbors.

[aislingangel]

What do you think about Old World Blues?

I HAVE SM THOUGHTS ANON

I think its really interesting as a story concept and each of the doctors stuck out to me for different reasons I love them all.. my fav is actually 8 LOL I also enjoy dala a lot. They're such an odd cast yet I feel like I can see all the love that was made when designing them + their personalities. I wish there was more images of them pre-robot, I stare at that group picture of them all as humans sm. I REALLY wanna redraw that so maybe I'll get on that when I have the time.

Also real talk their lore is so fucking sad? It's perfect in a fallout way. I'm cutting myself off here for now because I need to brush up on it but let me just say the symbolism of it all is SO GOOD.. plus lore implications of their actions like the cazador I might make a whole post just chewing on that idea the effects of their actions specifically are INSANE and people need to be more crazy about this I think (I just realized I was gonna stop talking and then proceeded to type ANOTHER paragraph the autism is too strong)

I remember laughing so so hard when I played it for the first time because of all the really dumb and silly jokes. I expected it to be really serious and then they stole my brain 💔 (as if I really had one to begin with) and I LOVE the Ulysses Christine interaction it's so wholesome?? + i can't forget the appliances, muggy and toaster my beloved. This dlc in particular brought me a lot of comfort n it always has a special place in my heart hehe

Thank you for sending me a fallout related ask!! IM SO SORRY I didn't answer it sooner I'm super busy irl atm but I will answer all asks I get eventually that is a promise to my beloved followers (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ I love fallout sm but because I'm not actively hyperfixated on it rn I just don't talk about it as much. But I am still very interested and I love talking about it, I can't wait til the show comes out expect the fallout hyperfixation to come back full swing LMAO

[jooniperbonsai]

I love these prompts and how everyone always has an answer prepared 😂.

I think for my date with Joon, I would personally avoid museums as the first date and that’s mostly because while I love them I both have worked in art museums/currently work in arts administration, and I want to level the playing field without him and I trying to one-up each other on what we know 😂. I’m really stubborn too and a huge bratty smarty pants which can be really fun and hot I’m sure but on the first date idk if dude will be able to tolerate putting me in my place yet.

I would probably wear my chucks with a dress and t-shirt and my tote bag and Jean jacket and I would load up my bag with snacks and a notebook and poetry book and I’d just want us to go for a walk somewhere kind of quiet where we could be distracted by the flowering buds or trying to identify what kind of plant something is and giggle while eating snacks and sharing ideas and life philosophies.

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With Jin, I’d definitely want to go play tennis and let him kick my ass as I bicker with him and he mocks me like “I thought you said you were the mpv of your high school team” and then I’ll huff and remind him how old we are and we will eventually just put on our loose comfy clothes and go get really good food since we worked up an appetite

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Yoongi, I feel like I would also need to keep him somewhere quiet so he doesn’t feel like a deer caught in headlights. He’s so private about things but also he and I need to be in a room for five minutes and suddenly the pages of Wikipedia he has memorized in an adhd hyperfixation needs to come forth and then we are just back and forth info dumping. So I could see us going to a tea house or like a nice restaurant but our food is cold and we are just drinking water or he’s drinking his whisky and I’m drinking my silly fruity little drink and am all flushed and going “omg did you knowwwww” until the place closes lol. And I think I would also be dressed down around him too? I could see us in t shirts and jeans and baggy sweaters and then being like “hey we forgot to eat let’s pound this down and then go somewhere else to finish our conversation” and next thing I know the sun is coming up.

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Hobi I feel like I would love to do one of those brunch dates in a cool neighborhood where we start off getting coffee and cruffles or whatever viral food is out there and then afterward letting the day take us places whether it’s exploring fun places like shops or small art galleries with obscure abstract art that we can just look at and go ah hmmm cool! I would probably be dressed a little more fun that day, putting on some loud colored coat but professional pants and doing my makeup all fun.

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Jimin I would start the date with at a bookstore and end at a barcade. Getting a mixture of quiet, more tender opportunities to spend time together before opening up with lots of giggles and some healthy competition for skee ball. I could see us trying really hard to win each other prizes with the crane games or tickets, us ending up holding the other’s drink while we shout at the machines and then ending the night with shared custody of the one plushie we won. For that I am purposely not wearing a coat. He will give me his so I don’t get sick 😈

Alternatively I also want to take a pole class so he and I can do that and then I can basically just watch him do it while I suffer.

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Taehyung and I are going to a classic movie screening like Casablanca or the Philadelphia story. We will leave quoting lines or trying to do a transatlantic accent. I’m from a family that loves golden age Hollywood which he tries to emulate a lot so it would be really fun and refresh its to play into that for a day. I could also see us doing a swing dance lesson and because I have two left feet he’s trying to throw me around on the dance floor but he’s so good at it that he’s having the time of his life. We can end the night with dinner and drinks at a piano bar, which he will be slightly disappointed by when it’s not just jazz but also I’m sure he will find it super fun. This would be the time I really enjoy getting glammed up for. It really leans into the classic ideas of formal dates and that can be nice

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Jungkook and I are going to one of those places that has mini golf and ropes courses and go karts. We are going to be head to head in competition and the sore loser has to buy the other one snacks from the concession stand. And then we will go drive somewhere to eat our snacks and watch the sunset together and talk more about things. I could see myself in one of my mesh tops but making it casual with ripped jeans, just something to remind him of my great boobs while we are being bros 😂.

we haven’t talked in a while and that’s on me so i’ve come with a question that just popped into the dome, one of the tannies asks you out on a date, it’s your first one, where you going and more importantly what are you wearing??? 🎤 the floor is yours

i’m literally about to head out the door but i had to ask this before i left i will expose myself when i get back so be thinking about it while im gone!!!!!!!!

[brakingpoint]

Idk if you have seen this question go around twitter and tiktok, but i have seen a lot of people discuss "if the 20 drivers on the grid were in the hunger games, how would they perform?"

I would like to hear your take! :)

thank you SO much for sending me this... i would not call myself a hunger games connoisseur because i put all my energy into hyperfixating on the prequel instead but i AM a hunger games enthusiast and i spent far too long thinking about this in the shower. also i'm doing the 2022 grid bc i don't have the vibes of the 2023 newbies totally locked down yet

(also i'm doing this as everyone roughly competing in individual games as opposed to against each other. bc i think that is more fun)

max: adjusting for inflation (how old he was when he started f1 vs the age you have to be to do the hunger games) he is like, a career tribute in training from district 2 who jumps up and volunteers when he is about twelve and then effortlessly wins the whole thing. gives an insanely nonchalant victory interview, does the victory tour like he's being held at gunpoint, and then is never seen again

charles: finnick odair if he kept almost getting murdered by other people's poor decisions. receives the most strategically pointless gifts from sponsors. literally put him in a desert arena and he will inexplicably be sent raincoats by the dozen

checo: ceo of coasting his way to the final like, three or four tributes based on a combination of luck, occasionally clever moves, and mostly just getting forgotten by everyone. his downfall comes when he overestimates the loyalties of the tributes he's in an alliance with and they stab him in the back (literally) with no remorse

carlos: objectively promising, great scores when he does his little demonstration, capitol haircare brands are tripping over each other to do a deal with him when he wins (because surely he will) but in practice he's another one who mostly just shithouses his way to the final three/four by being in the right place at the right time

lewis: scarily good. wins 75% on strategy, stealth, and speed and 25% by occasionally lashing out and murdering someone off the face of the planet but somehow avoids blame for it. also you know he somehow manages to wear the fuck out of whatever heinous fit he gets put in to ride in those chariots

lando: almost inadvertently starts a revolution because from the second he shows up in the reaping he gets such a devoted nationwide teenage girl fanbase that there are legitimate riots when he dies through an objectively silly unforced error in the final days of the games. also almost inadvertently gets assassinated before the games even start because he says something landogate worthy about the president in his interview. he was just having a laff

esteban: is genuinely just sort of having a nice time camping out in the trees and avoiding all the drama. it is just very unfortunate that in some idk quarter quell gender ratio fuckery he managed to get reaped alongside his childhood bestie pierre who has devoted his entire time in the arena to murdering esteban and esteban specifially

fernando: absolutely fucking terrifying. they have to stop showing his murders on tv because he's a little too gory even for the central thesis of the hunger games as an institution. he's just chill about it though. cracking his little yokes

valtteri: builds up so much pure boiling rage from being constantly ignored compared to the other tribute from his district that after a week or so of surviving because everyone kept ignoring him he finally snaps, swings through the forest on a vine tarzan-style screaming TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN, FUCK YOU, takes out four career tributes in the space of fifteen seconds, and then slams right into another tree killing himself instantly

daniel: crowd favourite going into the arena. makes a little joke at the reaping, serves in all his silly little outfits, gets great scores, secures the most sponsors, has the most charming interview in the history of the hunger games. and then when he's on the little platform waiting for the games to start he gets a bit too excited, starts doing a little dance, and gets blown up immediately

seb: another unlikely child prodigy victor with a polarising but highly effective tactic of utter ruthlessness paired with being very charming and also crying a lot. he is at his most powerful and dangerous, however, when he moves into the mentoring side of things because not only is he just an objectively good mentor but he does it while plotting to take down the capitol from the inside at the same time. the hunger games trilogy vs the hunger games trilogy if katniss had sebastian vettel for a mentor

kevin: impressive scores from the gamemakers (voted most likely to have a bit of a katniss moment during the evaluation; fok smashes door on his way out?) but doesn't really do a whole lot during the actual games. makes it pretty far and has a couple of genuinely impressive kills but is let down by a lack of sponsors and getting a little too invested in his vicious rivalry with nico hulkenberg

pierre: bit of a rollercoaster ride. impressive pre-games energy, good scores, looks hot in the interview, but tries to hang with the career tributes very early on and nearly flops his way to an early grave. not to be discouraged, he strikes out on his own and makes it impressively far as a free agent, but keeps putting himself back in danger by focusing too much on a) regaining the respect of the careers who really couldn't care less and mostly just want to kill this guy every time he shows up and b) taking any opportunity to slaughter esteban. killed around the time of the cornucopia feast (yuki's fault)

lance: exceptionally dangerous but not intentionally so. at first the general commentary take is that he's very good at making his kills look like an accident, until they finally get the right camera angles and it transpires that all of his kills are in fact total accidents that come about through his own recklessness and stupidity. unlikely fan favourite due to his perpetual exasperation with his mentor (brad)

mick: the son of a fearsome victor from days gone by but largely underestimated due to his nice guy reputation. attempts to leverage this by taking a kind of johanna mason angle and appearing utterly unthreatening until the last minute when he plans to brutally and efficiently kill every other remaining tribute, but his tactic backfires dramatically due to the incompetence of his mentor and sponsors and he starves to death in the middle stages of the games

yuki: gets unexpectedly far due to his small stature making it easy to hide and by forming an alliance with pierre that charms the crowds and prompts widespread speculation about whether there is a romance brewing in the arena. unfortunately he gets them both killed with his reckless enthusiasm about the feast at the cornucopia

zhou: yet another one who gets really far mostly by being ignored. once he gets into the arena, that is. the entire buildup to the games is defined by his rapid ascent to capitol fashion icon. he wins the whole thing through a combination of laying low and getting sweet sweet sponsor gifts and then is permitted to stay in the capitol where he enjoys a prosperous career as stylist for future tributes

alex: he either dies in the very first brawl at the cornucopia OR sneaks his way to the final handful of tributes and wins the whole thing, no inbetween. if he does make it to the end he has at least one dramatic near death experience due to overestimating the kindness of the careers he forms a brief and tentative alliance with but he gets excellent medical care from his sponsors who are mostly supporting him because they saw a really cute video of his cats back in his home district

nicky: again he either dies immediately OR he coasts to the end by being a bit mid and forgettable foxface style and when there's around four tributes left he attempts a raid on their encampment to get food and somehow, in a series of events that no number of replays have ever successfully put into a logical sequence, blows up half the arena and everyone in it, leaving the games without a victor and setting into motion a series of events that lead to the downfall of the capitol, the destruction of half of panem, and a dramatic coup. after all this max verstappen finally looks out of the door of his house in the victor's village in what remains of district two, where he has been playing sim racing games for the past ten years, sort of shrugs his shoulders, and goes back to hanging out with his cats

bonus nico rosberg: district one career tribute, runner up, mostly remembered for the intense psychological warfare between himself and lewis after they formed an alliance in the first hour of the game that got so deeply homoerotic that the gamemakers were like full time on the phone to president snow like hey man. we might have to allow two victors this year or people are gonna be really mad. but luckily nico and lewis solved that problem themselves by turning on each other when they were the only two people left and engaging in a like three-week long increasingly toxic cat and mouse chase that had the entire nation glued to their televisions 25/8

[bottledkriegmen]

talk about your rtc headcanons please.

YES I WILL AHAHAH THANK YOU

i have a note open on my notes app full of hcs >:]

(some of these will be pretty ship centered, but they could probably be seen as platonic!)

~~{☆}~~

Jane/Penny

• bites people. out of love. i think

• autistic because i said so

• new special interest every week

• long-term hyperfixation on doll collecting

• like girly has a terrifying amount of dolls

• she/they/it/doll/star pronouns fuck you

• forgets what her own voice sounds like sometimes so randomly she'll just.. start talking to himself.

• has a pet axolotl

• queer platonic relationship with ocean

• has an old galaxy note phone but it's kept it pristine condition

• can beatbox

• has really good rhythm!!

• soprano 1

• devilishly good at escape rooms

• along with mishca, the choirs bodyguard

• isn't allowed in the kitchen without supervision

• stims by just... riffing

• yk that riff in tbojd? that.

• favorite time if the year is Christmas, specifically for the carolling

• takes the choir to carol with it all the time

• cannot spell for shit

• cosplays with ricky constantly

~~{☆}~~

Ricky

• had a nightcore phase

• SCENE KID <3

• makes the most killer hot coco ever

• teached the choir asl after the accident BCS THEY ALL COME BACK IN THE END FIGHT ME

• every year for the different choir members birthdays she draws them as a cat. (he gives them fursonas i dont make the rules here).

• uses all pronouns

• named a cat after each of the choir members but refuses to tell them

• genderfluid as fuck!!

• has one of those samsung phones that can fold

• makes cat stickers for fun

• her mobility aids are covered in stickers and has little trinkets that dangle

• had a warrior cats phase

• got noel into warrior cats in middle school

• has 3 hairless cats

• obsessed with the Labyrinth

• gets high with mischa weekly

• fucking pro on an electric guitar

• has a baseball cap with cat ears attached to the top

• jazz hand stims

• makes the choirs halloween costumes every year

• excellent seamstress

• also loves tf outta Halloween

• she gets to dress up as a swinging space age bachelor man and wouldn't get judged, ofc she loves it

• stims by.. meowing and purring?? for fun??? its fun try it

• has a lifetime pass to any cosplay convention that happens in Uranium ( idk if thats a real thing but it is now )

~~{}~~

Ocean

• horrid asthma

• avarage glee watcher

• IS gossip girl

• they/she user

• neurodivergent as hell but is undiagnosed because their parents SUCK and don't believe in that stuff

• asexual lesbian real

• has to use either Constances or Mischas washing machine/dryer to wash her clothes.

• hates the beach

• they sunburn so easily

• sibling relationship with both mischa and noel

• has a yellow iphone with an otterbox phonecase

• keeps little Polaroid pictures of her and the other choir members in a journal she has

• she likes taking pictures I said so

• was the last one to grasp asl, but she is trying!!!!

• cuts her hair themselves and as genuinely good at it

• soprano 2

• has horrid OCD

• loves deer sm

• loves Christmas time <3

• hot mocha enjoyer

• her and noel have kareoke night every friday

~~{☆}~~

Constance

• vocaloid enjoyer

• pumpkin spice latte drinker

• mom friend. keeps bandaids, candies, an inhaler, toothpicks, waters, and koolaid packets in her bag at all times.

• pansexual queen <3 i love her

• she/her pronouns, but doesn't mind they/them

• her family has threatened to adopt literally every single one of the choir members - noel and ricky

• listens to 90's rock music

• love language is physical touch!!! she loves holding everyones hands and gives the best hugs imaginable

• wrote pjo fanfiction in middle school

• it's still on ao3

• fandom junkie

• has a dark green motorola phone with a pastel blue case

• alto

• really good at crochet and makes sweaters for choir during their birthdays

• makes small sweaters for rickys hairless cats during winter

• K-pop stan

• has asked noel to dress up as a k-pop idol before

• adhd haver

• has hundreds of little lists for random things

• favorite holiday is Christmas and she loves giving the choir gifts

• giving love language is giving gifts fight me

• has a pet frog named Jeremy

• sometimes she just spins around as a stim

~~{☆}~~

Mischa

• HATES coffee, claims it tastes like dirt

• languages master ( teaches noel french bcs duolingo isn't helping at all)

• dad friend

• menace in the kitchen

• HIM AND NOEL HAVE MOVIE NIGHTS YES!!

• talia is real and they're in love... fuck you

• mischa "two hands" bachinski

• is the reason the choir room has a swear jar

• loves bearded dragons

• unreasonably terrified of snakes

• bisexual king

• He/They supremacy

• can and will down an entire bottle of straight vodka

• very proud of that fact

• transmasc real!!!!

• talia helps pay for their T shots and after hearing about noel being trans too she buys her a binder <3

• so in love with noel and talia both he has too much passion

• brotp with ricky they're brothers your honor

• only one besides noel that can drive

• made vines

• works at a haunted house with penny during halloween

• his adoptive parents are rich as fuck

• can tell you the history of rap if you asked him to

• love language is words of affirmation bcs i said so

• sometimes he just carries around the other choir members (usually ocean) on his back for fun

• body heater

• has a red iphone with a clear case

• it has so many cracks

• godly at stick n pokes

• has a pet hampster his adoptive parents know nothing about

• has gotten a lightbulb stuck in their mouth twice

• has the most batshit insane ideas

• really into pop music but will NEVER tell anyone

• he has autism btw

• really good at critiquing movies

• baritone/bass what's the difference

• carries ricky up and down stairs even if it isn't needed

• giving love language is physical touch fight me ( him and constance are always touching eachother in someway, either by holding pinkies or leaning in eachother. platonic or not, take it as you please)

• its a real struggle with talia but they make do

• movie nights in his basement happen every Tuesday after choir rehearsal, usually only him and noel are there but ricky and penny join every so often!!

• the choirs bodygaurd

• he's friends with the detention teacher

• has the second highest gpa out of the choir

• special interest: RAP

• DRUMMER

• listens to imagine dragons unironically

• halloween enthusiast

• always dresses up as some cheesy horror movie villain

• sometimes, mid conversation, he'll just start speaking in Ukranian. he won't realize until the person he's talking to mentions it.

• has a pretty bad lisp

• flappy hand stimmer fight me

• ambidextrous

~~{☆}~~

Noel

• starbucks employees know him by name

• stereotypical gay tbh, he drinks tf outta iced coffee

• tries to learn french through duolingo but fails miserably

• he/she noel supremacy

• always steals food from taco bell before a performance to give to the choir

• introduced rocky horror picture show to the choir and now they all wont stop quoting it

• TRANS MAN

• mlm/wlw hatred solidarity between her and ocean

• but in a sibling way

• unreasonably obsessed with peacocks amd doves (specifically white doves, they're so pretty)

• literally so oblivious to mischas crush its hilarious

• hates his job. so. much.

• her favorite stim is just repeating lines from the Blue Angel in a french accent. she knows it's a german film, but french accents are just too fun man

• she's autistic too btw ive decided

• hyperfixated on french history

• and scented candles

• holy shit she has so many scented candles

• has those fake candy cigarettes but absolutely hates how they taste

• has a notebook of little shirt stories of moniques life

• absolutely has thought out entire movies with Monique as the main character

• really really bad abandonment issues

• love language is quality time <3

• she is genuinely so angsty i have so many sad hcs for her

• has terrible eyesight but refuses to wear glasses

• instead, wears shitty contacts

• musical theatre nerd

• paints his nails so he would stop chewing them but it doesn't work

• purple iphone user, has one of those square cases with the gold accents please know what i'm talking about

• has an old cat named Nyxl and she is treated like a got damn queen

• token tenor

• has a notebook full of poetry

• has a book full of edgar allen poes stories

• she loves them

• picky eater picky eater picky eater picky eater

• has to be chewing on something to even exist

• usually a toothpick, since she got scolded by ocean once because she bit a hole in her lip

• favorite holiday is valentines day

• he'll say he hates it but absolutely loves the romantic aspect of it

~~{☆}~~

thanky ou for indulging me i needed yhis <3

[konnfusion]

You've tagged so many cool posts with Odessa that I'm officially intrigued, I would love to hear about her!

I hope you're okay that I posted this publicly because you're the first person to ask about OC lore in quite some time, and I am ECSTATIC!

I will put a "read more", however, as I tend to ramble, and will mostly assume anyone reading this knows something about Doctor Who.

so a brief tldr; primer is that about a decade or so ago, my now-husband and I were intensely into Doctor Who and did a very cheesy, self-indulgent (pretty poorly-written but fun) RP here on tumblr with a companion character I'd created traveling with the Tenth Doctor. cut to now in 2023, and he's fully back into DW (classic and new), and dragged me along with him. I'd been reworking this character I'd created off-and-on for years (changing her name, her faceclaim, backstory, everything; I just felt like she deserved an update as my writing developed and improved!), and now that the hyperfixation is back in full swing, so is she.

pinterest board for vibe check // story pinterest board with working title for extra vibe check // said posts I've tagged with her name

basically, Odessa is a young woman living in an isolated cottage in the countryside following personal turmoil (including the mysterious and untimely death of her parents and possibly leaving a man at the altar, her neighbors are unsure about that last part; she's a little bit of a "champagne problems" gal), and barely has any contact with anyone. she's just chosen to shut herself up for whatever time she has left on Earth, and tend to her garden and books and be alone until she dies.

but, on her way home from a trip to town one day, her bike runs into a big blue police box that definitely hadn't been on this rural dirt before, and there's man nearby who says he's investigating some strange, not-of-Earth communication signals in the area. I won't give all the details since we're intending to publish portions of this at some point (I hope!), but she decides to help The Doctor find the source of the signals and hopefully stop whatever's going on before it can hurt anyone. it turns out the mystery is linked to her and to the death of her parents, and shines a new light on the tragedy and on her decision to live an isolated, quiet life alone. so, when they've deal with the threat and The Doctor invites her to travel through time and space with him, she agrees. might've been a little bit of a "Getaway Car" situation in the beginning, but developed into something so, so much bigger.

we've been planning lots of original adventures with her, as well as some stuff that adds her into canon episodes, all going through the end of Ten's run, through Eleven's, and into Twelve's and beyond. and, yes, she does get to find romance because I am a romantic at heart, so how can I resist?

there's so much I love about her that I wish I could put into concrete words, but I recently realized that the arc I'd been writing for her was seeing her start as someone who decided to lock away her love because all she ever did was lose the things she loved; to grow into someone who forged this huge, time-and-space-spanning family that she could love unabashedly and wholeheartedly. sort of a coming-of-age out of linear time, and one that she never got to have because she just always felt stuck in the same place (derogatory). she gets the chance to fight to protect the things she cares about, and be openly who she is without fear of judgement or shame--and feel like she matters in her own life. (I do like to joke, though, that she locked away her love because, for her, all love does is end, but then she fell in love with someone who is functionally immortal, so did she really ever unpack that fear? it's sweet, though, I promise.)

it's been fun morphing her into a character that sometimes is just so unapologetically weird, too. I mean, to travel with a centuries-old alien through all of time and space, you have to be a little weird, but I feel like I just poured all my wonderful weird into her and let her run wild. (and this is the first post I tagged her in during this little revisiting, SO. this somewhat references a plot point that my husband doesn't even know about yet, but that will be deliciously angsty and link back to Odessa and The Doctor's very first meeting.) it's been really satisfying to rework a character I've had in my back pocket for a decade and feel like she's more fully-realized, even if just in my own head. less of an avatar, and more of an actual character with needs and an arc. (an actual character who has a proclivity for going after Daleks with a baseball bat and relates a little too hard to the bridge of "Mastermind", but I digress.)

it's also been so gratifying revisiting a story that my now-husband and I were working on in the very beginnings of our friendship, and develop the romance plot from just romance to eventually a marriage between two characters we both really love. hell, we've already formed a spin-off AU, and one-off adventures with different incarnations of The Doctor outside of their shared linear timeline. (one of my husband's creations is a story where she's put on trial for perceived "crimes" against the known universe, and for being accessory to "crimes" committed by The Doctor. we love a chaotic woman wanted for multiple violations against the space-time continuum. ✨)

as I'm re-reading this, it feels kind of vague for how much lore I have in my brain, but honestly sometimes it's like when someone asks what your favorite movie is, and you suddenly forget every movie you've ever seen. 😅 I'm always so, so happy to talk about my characters (and their pinterest boards and playlists and such), please feel free to ask me to elaborate on anything if you're still curious!!! 💕 Odessa is a constantly-shifting, ever-developing, total-failed-misanthrope-beause-her-heart-is-just-too-big, time-traveling madwoman in my mind, and I love her so, so much and love that you reached out to ask about her!!!

[scifrey]

"Do you imagine I did not already know?" Morph says with a smirk, as Hob leads him into the church and up the trancept.

Hob squeezes his hand three times - I love you.

But out loud he says, "Know-it-all."

"Stories are stories, my beloved." He gestures with one moon-pale hand at the way the sun shafts through the stained glass. "This story celebrates the birth of printed books on this island I now call home. And you were there twice. Once as the apprentice in truth. Once as the model for your own trade. Of course I knew."

"Aye, couldn't help it, could I?" Hob says, tugging his ear with gentle embarrassment, swinging their joined hands between them. "Didn't want anyone else's mug up there when I'm the one who did all the hard work. I'm the one who stayed up late, and burned the ends of my fingers, and reeked of rotting ink. So I thought, should be my face up there next to his. A man's allowed his pride, isn't he?"

"Indeed," Morph says. He releases Hob's hand only to cup his jaw between slender palms and bestow a cool, sweet kiss on his mouth. "And proud you should be."

"I'm glad this one survived the blitz," Hob says when Morph pulls away.

They both look at the window. Hob slides a hand into Morph's back pocket to hold him close.

"I do as well, " Morph says.

They bask in the syrupy golden light coming in through the window for a few minutes longer. Hob is just about to suggest lighting a candle for old Master Caxton when a bevy of tourists tumble in the back door and laugh their way up the church.

"Hey!" one of them shouts, face flushed with the British chill and the excitement of recognition. "Look guys! It's the Witch Knight!"

Hob braces himself for a mob of what sounds like American history nerds descending on them, but when he turns to face the crowd of love-struck college students are staring up at the stained glass.

"Jeeze, Megan, your hyperfixation is showing again," says one of them, shoving the girl who originally shouted playfully. "That is just stained glass. Sir Robert Gadlen the third has been dead for, like four hundred years."

"And Robert Gadlen the sixth is already married," Morph calls out to the tourists, flashing his left hand with proprietary smugness.

"You bastard!" Hob laughs, yanking Morph into an undignified run down the aisle, toward the door.

"The actual Witch Knight!" Megan shrills.

Hob skids to a halt at the door, just long enough to throw over his shoulder: "We are not calling me that!"

I was watching some "Reading the Past" videos for research, and learned about this piece of original 18th century stained glass in Westminster.

HOB?!?

Is that you wrenching that press tight, bruh? Were you having a laugh when you posed for the sketch for this window 400 years later?

[jackhammerhim]

My life the past couple of months figuring out my neurodivergence:

Me: what is wrong with me

Me: I'm going to research neurodiverse things

Me: wow this is so cool.

Me: do I have adhd

Me: no I can't have adhd, I'm not hyperactive and i don't have all of the symptoms

Me: I think I have adhd

Me: I don't I need to stop pretending

Me: I've researched this a lot, I think I definitely have ADHD

Me: Maybe I am autistic too? No I don't relate to all of this, only some of the symptoms, plus I don't really have any sensory issues I don't think

Me: maybe I'm just faking having ADHD

Me: I have ADHD

Me: Maybe I have a sensory processing disorder? But I don't have nearly as much problems with texture/smell/sound/taste as the other people I've met with sensory processing disorder though

Me: I think I have an auditory processing disorder. Yeah. I do. It makes so much sense.

Me: do I have ASD?

Me: pretty sure I'm just ADHD and APD

Me: oh. I think. I think that response to anger. I think that was a meltdown. Do people with ADHD have meltdowns? Hmmmm... Are ADHD and ASD meltdowns the same?

Me: wait there's sensory seeking too

Me: I'm a sensory seeker

Me: maybe I am autistic

Me: but there's sensory processing disorder too

Me: there's the routine thing too.

Me: but ADHD makes me not be able to do routine and then feel guilty about it

Me: but when someone else is enforcing the routine I follow it and freak out if it changes and I don't know about it beforehand

Me: what if they're masking eachother

Me: I do have some sensory issues and have some foods I still can't eat because the texture still makes me want to throw up after almost a decade. Sometimes sounds hurt. Like plastic crinkling and the door banging even softly. You do the tiptoes. Loud noises are stressful sometimes. You get sensory overload kind of often. But you're not a picky eater for the most part. Tight clothes are hell. Lights give you headaches. You can hear the lights and sometimes it makes you cry.

Me: but I think I am pretty good with social cues most of the time

Me: but I can't tell when people are fighting or playing and couldn't tell that two kids were fighting fighting because I thought they were just playing. And most of the time when I'm in a group of neurotypicals I don't understand the cues

Me: maybe I think I understand social cues because all of my old friends are nd because we flocked to each other, like how we all slowly came out as LGBT because we attracted one another with our vibes

Me: I'm pretty good at doing social cues

Me: but when I'm too tired to/don't want to mask my ADHD I also don't really do them unless it's just talking or thumbs up. Maybe some laughing and smiling.

Me: and I don't understand sarcasm very well unless it's from me or another nd person

Me: I stim a lot. But is this kind of stimming the ADHD or the ASD stimming. Is there a difference.

Me: have I been masking this entire time and actually don't get social cues

Me: I don't know what the truth is anymore

Me: I don't think I've ever really had a special interest

Me: was that year long Pokemon obsession where the only thing I thought about was Pokemon and the only thing I drew was Pokemon and the only thing I talked about to the people I trusted was Pokemon and all I watched was pokemon. Was that a special interest or an intense hyperfixation. What about the snakes and the bunnies. Those both lasted years.

Me: what about Minecraft

Me: that went on for a few years and has just died down a bit for a while and has come back full swing again this year

Me: but

Me: what

Me: what is the truth

Me: I don't

Me: what

[addminds]

Hello! I remember seeing a post on hyperfixations on here like last year, and I’m coming back to it because I’m applying to college and it puts into words so well! (Dw, I am not plagiarizing it! Just hitting the points) I was wondering though. I have both ADHD and autism, and when I asked my therapist last year, she told me special interests are more of an ASD thing? I was wondering how that all worked.

Old ask, I wanna post some stuff to get back into the swing of things. So sorry to original asker, but this is a good question!!

Honestly, a lot of terms used online in adhd and asd spaces don’t really have clear definitions, hyperfixation being one of them. Special interests are more well understood from what I can tell. A lot of the time, in more online spaces like tumblr, these two terms are used to describe similar experiences between adhd and asd people depending on what the person has. I personally only have a diagnosis for adhd( though I have questioned possible asd on my part a lot as well) so I call the experience a hyperfixation.

A lot of people, especially it seems people that have both adhd and asd, consider hyperfixations to be shorter term fixations, while special interests span a much greater amount of time. Special interests generally don’t seem to disappear quite like hyperfixations often do.

My own hyperfixations are usually pretty long term, and I have quite a few that haven’t disappeared at all which kinda messes with my whole point here, but still a lot of them can die out in a few weeks or months.

So, in general, it kinda depends how you’re using the terms. Some people see them as interchangeable between the two, just describing the same experience between two groups in which hyperfixation fits with adhd people and special interest fits with asd. Other people see hyperfixations as changeable and differing over time, while special interests are pretty consistent, even if they grow in number over the years. Hyperfixations seem to come and go more.

[bittermuire]

A (long) analysis of Azriel,

+ a bit of discussion about Gwynriel vs. Elriel at the end.

Lately I’ve seen much discussion surrounding Azriel, and there seems to be a lot of hazy gray area. We know he has a terrible past, carries a lot of trauma, is both mentally and physically scarred, and has disturbingly possessive habits. But why? That’s the question.

I think most of Azriel’s character can be filtered into three sections: his anger, his possessiveness, and his self-loathing. Altogether I believe these form his crippling sense of emotional immaturity, which ultimately shines through most every action he makes in the books.

So yes, I firmly believe Az is a child in the body of a 500 year old Fae. But is he treated as such? No. No, he is not. In fact, he’s treated as the exact opposite, and that can’t be doing wonders for his mental health (which is already in shambles. Off to a cheery start.)

Let’s take a look at his past. He was both mentally and physically abused for the majority of his childhood. Then he was thrown into an unforgiving culture that both mentally and physically abused him as well. Then he was essentially bullied by Cassian and Rhysand for quite a while... until they randomly decided to like him, which is a choice he didn’t seem to play a hand in. And then he became a professional torturer. All the while falling madly in love and becoming obsessed with a female who can’t love him back. Not to mention he’s been ostracized his entire life.

(One big thing though, that I’m going to reference frequently, is Azriel’s constant chase of “happiness.” Kind of like my friends with ADHD. We squeeze all the serotonin we can get out of one thing and then fall into a listless, depressed haze until we find another. I honestly think Azriel does the same thing with people--he latches onto them and lets his mood swings rely on how much attention they do or do not pay him, and whether it is positive or negative.)

So I’m going to go through his relationships with pivotal characters and try to explain what I think is really going on with Azriel.

Regarding Mor:

He was obsessed with her for most of his life. He was incredibly possessive of her and fell instantly in love upon seeing her. Do I think it was love? No. But does Azriel think it was love? Yes, and that is so important. It shows how desperate he was for human connection.

This “love” spiraled into centuries-long obsession that we’ve all seen play out throughout the series. But why is it obsession, and not love? Well, I’m going to go ahead and say that Azriel doesn’t know how to love. He’s never been shown genuine love and so he doesn’t know how to show it to others in the way he intends. He’s basically a baby.

But right after he falls head over heels, Mor sleeps with Cassian, and then Cassian plays the role of the buffer between the two of them all the way up until the events of ACOSF. This is where I think Azriel’s anger comes into play. He can’t get to Mor. His best friend, his brother, is blocking him from her. He can’t touch her, love her, feel her, and he’s so desperate to. But he literally has no way to communicate it because he doesn’t know how, and so he responds in the one way he’s able: anger. And jealousy. And intense protectiveness that eventually begins to translate as possessiveness.

Again, he lets his happiness rely on Mor because he can’t make himself happy, and so his lack of emotional maturity ends up revealing him as desperate and unable to communicate his feelings of inadequacy and frustration. I’m not trying to justify his behavior, not at all. But I think this could be a decent explanation.

Regarding Cassian and Rhysand:

I mean... I kind of hate the way these two have treated Azriel. They all have their fair share of trauma, but Cassian and Rhys also bullied him and ostracized him, and then basically said, “Oh, we like you now.” Which completely leaves Azriel in the dark as to where he stands with them, and strips him of awareness regarding how his friendships with them will operate.

And then he becomes the head of espionage for the Night Court, which involves lots and lots of torture. What kind of message does that send? You’ve seen dirty things, Az, so you don’t mind doing the rest of the dirty things for us, right? That’s the only real message I can get from this. Which then plants the message in Azriel’s head of: Not only do I do dirty things, I myself am a dirty, disgusting thing. Thus, furthering his already deep-seated sense of self-loathing.

Plus, the IC generally operates with a pack-like mindset. One person’s method of healing is everyone’s method of healing. It worked for one person, so it worked for everyone. It’s a very naive mindset, and very toxic as well, so it’s not surprising that literally everyone in the IC is colossally messed up despite preaching themselves as having overcome their demons.

So Azriel never really gets to understand himself and mature as a person. He’s stuck pretending to be perfectly fine underneath Rhysand’s oh-so-benevolent and compassionate hand. Rhysand and Cassian recognize Az as being a little... odd, by seeming to think things like “he’s the quiet one” and “he’s the serious, scary one.” But do they attempt to understand him? No. They leave him to his own devices and let him figure it out himself.

That’s the issue. He’s not ever going to figure it out himself, so long as he’s surrounded by the people who’ve been unwittingly suffocating him for most of his life.

Regarding Elain:

Azriel’s infatuation with Elain, in my opinion, comes as a direct result of his detachment from Mor. Just like one hyperfixation fades quickly from an all-consuming thing to a passing thought, Azriel has shifted from one obsession to the next, in order to keep his spirits on a high.

But I think his feelings for Elain reveal a lot of what Mor did not. Why does he view Elain as so holy compared to him? Why is he so hesitant to touch her? Why does he put her on such a pedestal? That’s his self-loathing coming through again. He hates himself so much that he has to place her above him.

He wants to touch her and love her, just as he did with Mor, but again he is unable. It's a repeating pattern that he can’t get himself out of.

Let’s also look at the way Elain and Azriel’s friendship/relationship began. He had to take care of her, and treat her with utmost respect. She looked at his scars or his siphons, both monstrous looking things, and called them beautiful. Let’s remember that he’s basically a child who’s rarely known genuine love. The minute he gets a glimpse of it, he’s going to grab it by the neck and crush it to his chest. Plus, the fact that she’s the last sister left unattached and he’s the last brother left unattached is probably even more convincing for him that he and Elain are meant for each other. When he’s denied this love that’s come nearly close enough to grab, he responds in the only way he’s able: anger. And jealousy. Just like he did with Mor.

But moving on, that glimpse of potential love comes from Elain. That’s why he’s able to let go of Mor; a relationship with Elain suddenly becomes possible. He’s terrified of ruining this potential love and is incredibly drawn to her all the same. Best of all? She wants him too.

BUT. Azriel knows how fragile Elain is, so he walks on glass around her, coddling her, putting her first like he’s put everyone else first since being a part of the IC. I think he wants to save her from becoming like him. He essentially plays the role of her white knight, entirely losing his sense of self-preservation (not that he ever had one), and thus loses any chance of letting Elain help him mature in return.

Regarding Gwyn:

Now, Gwyn is a different story.

We know Azriel likes her. Maybe not in a consciously romantic way, but he likes her. She makes him smile and laugh, and he finds her amusing. He doesn’t have to walk on eggshells around her.

The big thing, I think, is that he doesn’t have to take care of her. At least, I think that’s what makes him so comfortable around her. With Gwyn, he can relax, and he doesn’t have to watch every move he makes. She treats him like a regular person and he treats her similarly.

Now, is it a bad thing that he doesn’t put her on a saint-like pedestal like he does Elain? No. Definitely not. I think this ordinary friendship signals a much healthier relationship than his festering obsession with Elain. Gwyn simply being his friend and not someone that he feels he has to be perfect for is a good foundation for Azriel growing as a person.

Gwynriel vs. Elriel (the necklace):

Honestly, I’m scared for whatever SJM decides to do, because Azriel has a shitload of trauma to move past and years worth of emotional growth needed before he can be a steady partner in a relationship. Both Gwyn and Elain’s character arcs are definitely not finished and so I think that no matter which way his narrative goes, it’s going to be disappointing in some aspect or another, unfortunately. I don’t think that either one of the females’ arcs really fit well with Azriel’s.

But I’m going to take a closer look at the necklace, because I think it’s a telling narrative point.

For Azriel, the necklace for Elain and Gwyn herself, are both “thing[s] of secret, lovely beauty” to him.

By describing the necklace for Elain as such (instead of Elain herself), Azriel unconsciously reveals his more idealistic view of Elain rather than his love for Elain herself. I kind of get the sense of Azriel giving offerings to a goddess, or something like that. He seems to be more preoccupied with appeasing Elain than actually loving her.

Now, this probably comes from, again, his self-loathing and his emotional immaturity. I’m just repeating myself at this point. He doesn’t know how to love himself and he doesn’t know how to love anyone else.

But then he describes Gwyn as such. Gwyn, the person. In my opinion, this demonstrates a potentially much healthier relationship than what he has with Elain. Azriel, instead of wanting to be perfect for Gwyn and wanting to appease her, is simply made happy by the thought of her. It is Gwyn whom he is taken with, not the idea of Gwyn loving him. And so that takes off so much pressure for him, and introduces the hope that he might be able to mature as a person in a friendship or romantic relationship with Gwyn.

Closing thoughts:

Azriel is a blundering, hormonal child desperate for love with no idea of how to get it, in a 500 year old Fae’s body. He’s also surrounded by people who refuse to address his clear issues... his future’s pretty dim, and I think he realizes it. Which is why whoever SJM chooses to be his romantic interest is going to be very important.

In short, I’m scared for what’s to come. But fingers crossed that his incredibly complex character is done justice.

[mxtchups]

hihi! could I request a romantic matchup for 'The Arcana' (′▽`〃)?

i use they\them pronouns and I'm pan^^

my mbti is intp. I'm a very shy and reserved person in public, I try not to cause too much attention but also express myself openly. I suffer from anxiety ( I don't take meds or anything so I'm usually on edge) and overthink about people/other things. If you get to know me, im a huge extrovert and cheerful person. I love making jokes and laughing <3 I'm airheaded and clumsy, I hit my head or trip on air too much smh. I'm a very random person too, more eccentric for sure. I do the most offwall things because I'm bored ( like jumping off things or asking off-putting questions). I love talking! About anything I'm hyperfixated on atm ( as in old interests or new ones!) and I can go on for hours tbh. I'm pretty childish, but mature and mother like when I need to be. I love physical affection (even tho I say I hate it) anything like hugs is nice for me! I'm a caring person and mostly a listener. Very sassy (which people say it's "cute" from me) and sarcastic, with a whole lot of blunt. I'm a flirt too, but anything flirty from someone else gets me shy (like Julian lol). I get very bad mood swings and it is causing trouble for me to make friends or keep them, since I'll just isolate myself from them- I also have insecurities regarding my looks (particularly my body) so I get v sour when I think about that. Alot of the times you can tell when I'm in a mood bc I get quiet. ANyway I'm a lazy, procrastinater and plainn lmao.

my interests r playing the piano, reading/watching anime, romance novels (love triangles are my life), alternative/gothic fashion and music, hard rock and metal, stuffed animals and playing videogames!!

if it helps I pursued Julian to the very end ╰_╯!!!

hello! first of all, thank you sm for requesting, you are the first person that asked for a matchup so I hope I do it well. I don't want to leave you disappointed.

soo I ship you with Muriel!

Firstly, if anyone would understand your need to withdraw and not always be surrounded by people, it's Muriel. If you want to spend time alone with him, not doing anything in particular, he's there for it. If you don't even want to be with him and want to be left alone, he can understand that too. He won't get mad, offended, or sad, he'll just know you need some you time.

But in case you completely cut contact with him suddenly and isolate yourself, at first, even though he'd be worried, he'd think that maybe it's best he leaves you alone, and let you come back when you want to. But I feel like his worry would get the best of him and he would definitely check up on you. If you let him in, perfect, he now knows what he needs to do. If you don't he would truly not mind you coming back after a few days, weeks, or months and continuing where you left off.

With Muriel, there would be fewer reasons for you to overthink and panic about his true intentions or thoughts as it would be clear he sees you differently from other people. Although his ways of showing love wouldn't be the most open ways, definitely not always conventional they would be clear. If he loves you, you know it.

Also, I feel like both of you wouldn't like public displays of affection, but when you are inside, alone, you would get as much physical contact as needed. Both you nor Muriel aren't someone that would outwardly ask for cuddles, even though both would want it, so at least at the beginning of the relationship, you would be the one to initiate it.

Neither of you would get into a relationship without knowing someone well beforehand, so your extroverted side would definitely come out by the time you were dating, and he'd love and understand that one just as much as the introverted one.

The first time in what felt like a century since he laughed, it was on one of your jokes. Since then you probably would try to make him laugh as much as possible.

It's good that he has good reflexes as you said you were clumsy, but don't worry he's there to catch you every time you trip on air, or put a hand between your head and a cupboard, or guide you through a big crowd.

Your off-putting questions would at first surprise him and he'd never know how to answer them, but I feel like you'd always find a way to get the answer out of him. By the time you are deeper in the relationship he'd get used to them, and usually was able to see them coming and is more open with his answers. Though sometimes you'll still see him blush and take some time before spitting it out.

He'd also like the fact that you can talk for hours, and for all those hours he'd listen to you intently. Sometimes he's not sure if he's interesting enough for you as you have so many things you like and are good at whereas his past stopped him from that. But there you come in with your long talks teaching him about this and that and introducing him to so many wonders of the world. That would definitely be one of his favorite things about you.

Regarding your looks, he'd just never really think about it until you mention you are insecure about them. From the moment he met you he saw you as stunning and beautiful, so hearing that you don't like it came as quite a shock for him. He'll probably at first express his love for your body physically but he knows words are needed too, and he'd put in all the effort to find the right ones to explain to you just how gorgeous you are in his eyes. He knows that won't make your self-image go away so he'll make sure to compliment you more in the future, till you start believing him. You are the one that made him see good in himself so he'll make sure to at least return the favor.

He'd love you being blunt. He's not always good at interpreting the hidden meaning behind someone's words so just saying it how it is would make it a whole lot easier for him. And if you always say it like that it would also make it easier for him to express himself.

He is not good at flirting, and he'd get super shy every time you openly flirted with him. Before you dated he never knew if you were joking or if you'd actually want to have something with him, but either way it'd leave him a blushing mess.

And AAA I can already see you playing the piano and him sitting on the stool next to you, slightly leaning towards you, scared to do it fully so he doesn't interrupt you in any way and end the alluring music. He'd love it every time you play and once he's relaxed he'd often ask you to do it for him.

OMG, I CAN ALSO SEE YOU READING TO HIM. Imagine laying in bed, cuddled up, you with a book in one hand, the other hand in his hair, gently playing with it as you read to him. He's scared to fall asleep, so you don't think you bored him but once you tell him it's okay it'll be the best sleep he's ever had.

And as he knows you are reading romance books he might think you have big expectations as to what couples are supposed to do, or are simply more knowledgeable than him in this entire matter, so he'll consult one of your books and try doing something from it to win you over.

He'd adore the way you dress, and do your hair and make-up. And once he trusts you enough, which is pretty fast compared to how he feels about other people, he'd let you do his hair sometimes or put some makeup on him.  

He'd make you stuffed animals and then like leave them somewhere in your house for you to find or like on your porch because he'd be too shy to give them to you in person, but you'd know whose it's from.

In any way, you'd make each other feel comfortable, safe, and cared for. The roles of the caregiver and care receiver would be equally divided and would switch.

Regarding you and Julian I can also see that, but to me personally, I see it more as friendship.

I can see you two dressing in romantic gothic fashion together. Being dramatic together. Having all sorts of fun. He'd definitely like listening to your stories and having a myriad of his own to share. Imagine introducing him to metal! That'd be super fun. He'd still flirt with you, but most of the time it would be jokingly, he'd just like to see you get all shy.

I really hope this is okay, once again thank you for requesting!