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being fictionkin and also being semi active in fandom hobbies (mostly things thatre either general art related and/or things that end up directly related to my kintypes LMFAO) feels like i end up isolating myself from like a good chunk of ppl if i dont overly stress myself out to fit the discussions ppl be having HURHRBFHFHH
#sipping choccy milk#like i dont necessarily mind shipping either. esp when ppl use it as a chara analysis tool#i think that fandom and fictokind can coexist. its just that fandom spaces are not built around including fictokin individuals#personally i love using stuff as like character analysis tools#im not sure how exactly fandom could take into consideration that fictokin also exist#and some fictokin will be ok with things that others are not really as ok w#wait its just another case of curate ur own internet experiences again isnt it LMAO#all we need is the respect for fictokin ppl so we can go 'blocked this guy bc they made me uncomfortable bc i am fictokin'#and that be a widely accepted reason (even tho needing a reason valid or not isnt necessary to block someone)#anyway if u cant tell i have issues (i need to be validated and accepted)#ok im sorry ill stop rambling#tldr; fictokin need to be accepted into fandom spaces but that fact doesnt need to change the entirety of how fandom works#i think thats a decent summary of my thoughts lmao
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Chat have we discussed drunk chess with cherik cause i just think. That would be the darnedest silliest thing they could do
#xmen#xmen first class#xmen dofp#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#sorry still thinking about dofp and i reminded myself of the plane scene#the idea of drunk chess sounds so stupid fun i wish i could play drunk chess#‘snap how do you play drunk chess’ simple !!!! every piece you lose you take a shot#anyway i think itd be silly …….#id like to do something with that idea but i still have to decide on execution#omg xmen fandom hasnt seen my twelve million ‘i wanna draw this so bad’ tags yet#but yeah i sy tht a lot </3 so many things i wanna draw all the time#either that or write …. but i draw more#i love comic makin. and i blame these damned comics for gettin me into it what tha hell !!!#ok im done rambling i wish i had more to say but i dont#i lied i do. this doesnt have to be after erik apologizes on the plane this could be lit any damn time they play#i just live for the progression of them Trying to play semi seriously for a solid twenty minutes before they lose it#and now they wont stop giggling and being stupid asses#theyre still trying to play but ‘trying’ is doing a lot of heavy lifting#imagine it with me chat … itd be so beautiful i could cry frankly#ok my classes are done for today im gonna sit in my room and think of cherik#maybe ill TRY to draw this … if not then def somethin at least
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EVERY REASON (that i can think of) AS TO WHY TURBO/KING CANDY IS NEURODIVERGENT 💥💥
i would like to make a disclaimer first and foremost about the obvious, being that Turbo/King Candy is heavily implied to have narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) and antisocial personality disorder (ASPD). Very often, characters with these disorders are portrayed as villains, and Turbo is no exception to this. There's nothing wrong with antagonistic characters having said disorders, per se, but when the only representation available for people with these conditions are found in characters you're not supposed to root for, it can be really disheartening. i won't be erasing these parts of him because i feel it would be in poor taste to gloss over those core elements of who he is, but plz keep in mind that having any kind of personality disorder doesn't make anyone inherently evil!!!🌞 your ACTIONS make you, not your brain
Also if anyone has any suggestions or other ideas for his neurodiversity, i would love to hear them! please do share!! I LOVE PSYCHOANALYZING CHARACTERS AND HEARING OTHER PEOPLE PSYCHOANALYZE THEM !!!! YAY🎉 if u agree or disagree with any of my points I'd love to discuss them further :-]
without further ado... click read more to find out…😈 be ready for a lot of reaches
💥 ADHD 💥
STIMMING
Turbo's constantly moving around in some way; he's a very expressive character! even as King Candy, he can't seem to conceal his frequent giggling. it's a big habit of his; he seems to do it involuntarily to regulate himself, including when he's nervous or uncomfortable.
he seems to display other repetitive behaviors as well, like doing his iconic thumbs-up pose, sticking out his tongue, or hopping around gleefully. he is but a jovial court jester..
i personally like to think that his phrases, "Turbo-tastic!" and "Have some candy!" are vocal stims of his, although i equally really love the interpretation that these (and the aforementioned stims) are tics :-]
another headcanon; i think it would make a lot of sense for him to have an oral fixation of some sort (ignoring the whole sigmund freud part of the term ermm...); just lots of biting, chewing, needing to have something in his mouth. It would align with the whole idea that he smokes, too
HYPERACTIVITY
we can clearly see throughout the film that Turbo has a lot of energy, made abundantly clear by his mannerisms and general behavior. he's constantly moving, using exaggerated expressions and gestures to communicate + express himself. He's one of the most animated and bouncy characters in the movie, next to Vanellope! it's silly how a character not very grounded in reality is such a threat, but i suppose that's what makes him so threatening in the first place...
another factor in this is how he is very adrenaline-seeking, craving activities that give him a rush (sugar rush...😂😂). more on that in a bit!!
HYPERFIXATION
Turbo's fixation with winning is all-consuming for him; it's an obsession. he doesn't appear to care about much else, if anything besides it. this could be interpreted as a hyperfixation for him (or special interest if ur all about that autism lifestyle), as it overtakes all of his focus and impedes every process of his mind.
it's clear that racing is much more than a passion for him, and while that fact is due to how he was programmed, it's a major character trait of his regardless that could be correlated to neurodivergence.
HYPERFOCUS
There seems to be a big theme of "all or nothing" when it comes to Turbo. he will either be fully dedicated to something or brush it aside without a second thought. it can't be denied that he fully wraps himself up in what he wants, whether it's a conflict he can't let go of or a new pursuit he's hungrily chasing after.
ultimately, his dedication varies depending on if it is relevant to him and his interests or not, but this aspect of him still shares patterns with neurodivergent thought processes.
INSTANT GRATIFICATION
Seeing as he has a tendency to cheat in his use of code to spawn in whatever his heart desires, it can be assumed that this could do with Turbo wanting instant gratification to fill that bitter, empty void inside of him. while this could simply be brushed aside as greed and his belief that he is obligated to have access to whatever he wants, this trait is consistent with his generally dopamine-seeking behavior and wanting to be instantly rewarded by his actions. His obsession with needing to feel good directly relates to his need for another buzz, constantly after the next rush. (a sugar rush if you will☺☺☺)
ADRENALINE-SEEKING
Closely related to the previous speculation, Turbo always seems to be chasing his next high. he loves the thrill of action and being surrounded by crowds of people below him. it's why his big thing is racing! people cheer him on, he can do whatever he wants, he can go really fast and look cool..
it's possible that a big aspect of why he does this is to distract himself from any kind of pain, because pain = vulnerability. bro does NOT know how to independently cope with his own problems.. HE MAD AS HELLLLL!!! 😂😂
STRUGGLE WITH SELF CARE
(i know this is reaching but bear with me... 🐻) going off of his appearance and tendency to make poor decisions, it can be gathered that this man lacks skill in the self care department. his yellowing teeth and sunken eyes not only serve to complement his design, but also give way to the idea that he neglects himself in favor for whatever weird scheme he's up to.
of course, Turbo does prioritize himself above everyone else, but he doesn't strike me as the type to care much about how others think he smells. him being a bother to anyone isn't a concern of his. he cares about whatever gets him the most praise and attention from as many people as possible, which is winning and racing. Who cares about how clean he is when he's up on a podium holding a shiny, golden trophy, anyway?
It's likely that he had to step his game up when he went under disguise as king candy, which is why he looks well-groomed in comparison to his more corpse-like appearance. Ugly hoe. it can also be assumed that he's had more time to focus on himself because everyone loves him without question... Well, except for Vanellope, but who cares about her, right?
also, i know he makes a condescending comment to Ralph about how bad his breath smells, but it's made abundantly clear that Turbo is a massive hypocrite. his comment doesn't erase the possibility that he has suffered from such "halitosis" as well.
💥 ANXIETY 💥
GENERAL ANXIOUS BEHAVIOR
i know, i know, this could technically be chalked up to be "Turbo is nervously giggling and shit because he's scared of getting caught," but guys. g
even in the flashback scene, we can see how easily stressed he can become in an alarmingly short period of time. he is extremely insecure, therefore i am led to believe he is not only emotionally dysregulated, but also by extension, anxiety ridden.
yes, this is purely speculative, but who's to say that he wasn't like this before? being high-strung and intense are significant facets of his personality consistently portrayed throughout the film. as long as he is getting exactly what he wants, he is happy; the moment he loses even a blip of control, however, he immediately grows extremely tense.
if Turbo wasn't anxious about his disguise as King Candy before, he was anxious about how much attention he was receiving on a given day. if not that, then he'd be anxious over how he presents himself. He hates how he can't control how other people perceive him, which is why he is constantly trying to act like he's better than he is.
its why he justifies his behavior to himself, proudly making others refer to him as the "rightful ruler" of sugar rush and relishing in the attention of his countless underlings. Any secure and stable person would NOT ACT LIKE THIS!!!!😭😭😭
FIGHT OR FLIGHT
As we can see a handful of times on screen, Turbo's instinct to protect himself is very easily activated.
his fear manifests in anger and aggression. we can see at multiple points how easy it is to upset him or fluster him; his anger is one side of the same coin, the opposite end being his fear and paranoia.
Going off of this point, have you noticed that Turbo is either satisfied or furious without much of an in-between? how the second something isn't under his manipulation, he lashes out and fights back? I'm led to believe that this is how he responds to fear (AAUAAYAUUUUGGHHH 🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡🐡). This guy is so against the idea of being vulnerable, that even when afraid, he will utilize violence to regain his dominance over the situation at hand.
CONTROL + PARANOIA
Turbo's always trying to writhe or fight his way out of uncomfortable situations, unable to exist outside of his comfort zone for seconds at a time.
his defensive, paranoid, and controlling behavior are all reflections of how deeply insecure this man is. He feels such an intense need for everything to go exactly how he expects it to go that the moment he senses any kind of threat, he instantly jumps to defend himself and what he feels that he has "earned," regardless of whether there truly is a threat or not.
this could potentially be a coping mechanism for his anxiety and sense of stability; can't forget to mention how territorial he is!! he jumps to conclusions about what others' intentions are before they even get a chance to reply, as seen with his first encounter with Ralph in the movie.
the racer is so internally discombobulated that he seeks any sense of stability on his environment, including on those around him. his sense of self is so warped that he copes with constant distraction; being under the spotlight, being actively racing, having to be showered with attention, having others make him feel good because he doesn't know how to do it for himself. he needs to feel like everything is under control, lest everything falls apart.
"...if there's ONE thing I can't abide, it's ANYTHING out of order!"
💥 NPD 💥
INFLATED SENSE OF SELF IMPORTANCE
Turbo's most in-your-face trait above all else. It's made more than crystal clear in every scene he's in that his arrogance is a determining factor in how he interacts with others. This is exactly what drives him to desperately crave admiration, to chase after others he's envious of because he thinks he is obligated to take what they have.
he seems to genuinely think he is entitled to get whatever he wants, just because he is inherently "special" or "better" than everyone else. Why else would he have made himself a king, a step above princess?
EXCESSIVE NEED FOR ADMIRATION
Turbo's self worth is COMPLETELY dependent on the opinions of children and teenagers. I think i don't need to say any more than that, but i will. (Evil).
As cartoonishly massive as his ego is, i think that it's fair to assume that Turbo has a very unstable sense of self, distorting his perception of his own worth down with it. his near-constant flaunting and need to be the best is a dead giveaway to his deeply-ridden self-doubt. The foundation of his stability is built around how "good" he is (at racing and winning), how powerful he is, whether or not he is being prioritized above everyone else, whether or not he is the absolute best, etc. etc.
The racer outright manipulates others to shower him with admiration and undeserved appreciation. He is incapable of forming a true sense of internal value, instead heavily and codependently relying on others to form it for him. if he isn't the best, he may as well just be nothing.
INTENSE JEALOUSY
He reacts so severely to what he perceives as others taking away what is rightfully his that it only goes to solidify my previous points even further. the second someone else is getting more attention than him, Turbo will bend over backwards to rip back the praise he believes he so rightly deserves.
being extremely competitive, he will one-up against anyone he thinks of as a threat, dedicating himself to taking them down to the best of his ability, and making sure they STAY down to top it all off.
INABILITY TO HANDLE CRITICISM
if we really dissect the entire one-off joke with Turbo insisting that his stolen pink castle is actually "salmon," along with all of his other domineering behaviors, we can garner that he is very persistent in how he wants others to view him. i wholeheartedly believe that this would translate into him not only being defensive over his supposed "ownership" of Sugar Rush, but also over himself and his own insecurities.
He needs to feel good about himself or else he will die and quite literally try to kill everyone.
LACK OF EMPATHY
He appears to have a fondness for making jokes in very poor taste. Turbo has a big sense of humor, but it's always at the expense of others. Be it a pun about a "fungeon," or jumping to protect himself with a joke about "hitting a guy with glasses," he has a tendency to take serious situations very lightly. It's not that he's unaware of the weight of it; he simply doesn't take it Seriously.
its admittedly impressive how he was able to feign empathy so well for Ralph; it goes to show how he is very capable of understanding that what he's doing is wrong, but ultimately does nothing to change his behavior because it doesn't impact him personally.
i would like to honor this part of him, because even in the possible alternate path of a redemption arc, his struggle with empathy can be explored in a variety of interesting ways :-] he can understand complicated emotions and situations on an analytical level, but he doesn't feel for them unless it has to do with him specifically. (this obviously doesn't make him inherently evil, his ACTIONS make him evil)
💥 ASPD 💥
LACK OF REMORSE/GUILT
One of Turbo's core characteristics is just how far he is willing to go for his own self-interest with lack of regard for how it impacts everyone else. he has absolutely no concern for how anyone else feels besides himself, willing to go so far as to attempt to mutilate a 9-year-old to achieve his petty goals.
Turbo is shameless when it comes to how he goes about getting his way. While I'd like to believe he isn't fully incapable of feeling regret, he doesn't showcase feeling it in the movie itself. The most regret he'll feel is when he slips up and exposes himself. anything else is the fault of everyone else; he is untouchable in his eyes.
DECEITFUL TENDENCIES + LYING
Where do i even start with this one.
well, first of all, let's acknowledge the... erm, horse? in the room? 🐎😅(Please someone help me there is a horse in my room help helphel) being that Turbo went under disguise as King Candy for at least a decade. Even before this, there's a good chance that he's already had plenty of experience with lies and manipulation. i'd be willing to bet on this!!
one of his specialties is being proficient in manipulation, be it the code of games or the minds of people. theyre basically the same thing to him, anyway... I'm sure you all know the scene where he uses 16 manipulation tactics against Ralph and wins. this was Obviously not the first time he'd done this.
REPETITION OF HARMFUL BEHAVIORS
Time and time again, Turbo can't seem to help himself when it comes to poor decision-making. he never internalizes that his bad choices aren't JUST bad for others, but also for himself, continuing to escalate further and further into very dangerous behaviors until he literally dies.
Here's a list of bad decisions he has made! (at least, that we know of)
Pinning himself above his peers
Harassment + stalking
Carelessly charging through GCS with his car, endangering countless civilians
Attempting to take over a game that isn't his x2
Vehicular manslaughter
Implied mass murder + attempted murder, attempted mutilation
Mass endangerment
Breaking and entering, theft, usurpation, plagiarism
and more!!!!!!!
AND HE LEARNS FROM ABSOLUTELY NONE OF THIS!!! with some of the items listed here, he's attempted to do multiple times! Absolute buffoon.
RECKLESS DISREGARD FOR SAFETY OF SELF AND OTHERS
Considering how he was willing to charge into a game that wasn't his own with the awareness that it could permanently kill him, going as far as to recklessly crash into another car (albeit it's possible this was unintentional), it's easy to gather that he doesn't seem to consider anyone's safety at all in the spur of the moment.
IMPULSITIVITY
his impulsivity and disregard for safety both go hand-in-hand. When it gets to a certain point, Turbo's emotions will boil over and blow up in a cold rage, thus causing him to spiral and act on impulse, becoming a detrimental force to himself as well as everyone around him.
What's interesting is how much restraint he is capable of; he typically is very strategic in how he orchestrates his plans! but once he reaches his breaking point, he snaps and leaves all of his hard work behind in favor of something that calls for his immediate attention.
💥 ETC. 💥
extra tidbits i didnt have enough energy to fully delve into :-]
BPD
Fear of abandonment
Blurry sense of identity
Feelings of emptiness
Self destructive tendencies
Emotional instability
Explosive anger
ODD (oppositional defiant disorder)
He seems so infatuated with his own autonomy that he gets to the point of being resistant and defiant
Resisting against the rules of the world that he directly caused as a result of his own actions, being that one shouldn't "go Turbo."
Enjoys upsetting/getting a rise out of others. this is more speculative as i am going off of the assumption that he thinks pissing people off is funny, based on his other behavioral patterns. (cruel sense of humor, wanting to feel above others via control & manipulation, enjoyment of inflicting pain onto others)
Forcefully defends himself and refuses any kind of criticism
Lashes out when he feels slighted
Excessive persistence despite all odds, whether it's beneficial to him or not
ok bye!! thank you if you managed to read this far ^^ peace and love take care of yourself! all in all turbo is so neurodivergent ok please Okay <3 get this thing his meds
#flashing lights#<- ??#eyestrain#smoking mention#obligatory i don't support disney ⚠️#ITS FINALLY DONE OHHHH DEAR GOARD!!!!! I DID IT#i am COOKING SO hard#I HATE TURBO.#you have no idea what kinds of agony i had to undergo to make this post. i went thru more than the average veteran#accidentally posted this entire thing THREEEE TIIIIMES before it was finished and lost the drafts in the process. we persevere....#the people need to know about why turbo is neurodivergent(IMPORTATNT!!!)!!!!(!!!!!!!)#yeah yeah he did a lot of bad things but turbo is neurodivergent it wasnt his fault! its ok guys!#watch me kin him and ship myself with him at the same time#long post#character analysis#turbo#turbo wir#turbo wreck it ralph#king candy#king candy wir#king candy wreck it ralph#im melting him with a magnifying glass on the concrete until he is but a small grimy stain#Gyys start licking...... we can still save him#Hes a chew toy to me. Or stress toy.#Sorry ok ok ill stop rambling he just makes me sillayy🤪#ok i lied. whenever i think about him too hard i start shaking#churning him into a thick paste to spread onto a sandwich of sorts. tastes like old gummy sweets & diesel fuel with a hint of cigarette ash#i love being long winded and going on and on and on about stupid little assholes liek this guy#the countless essays i have written about him. u have no idea#wreck it ralph
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"so, that was fun"
#YAHOO YIPPEE#i drew each of these in like 2 mins and i can do like 50 more the amount of energy i have rn is !!!!!!!!!!!!#GAH im not normal im so sorry#WHAT A GUY#sth#doodles#sonic frontiers spoilers#frontiers dlc spoilers#IM GONA RAMBLE ABOUT THE MUSIC HERE because idk where else to do it#the new im here version ??????? SO so good what did they put in this song !!!!!!!!!!!#specifically. it fits the new super form so well. it sounds more electronic and theres less focus on the traditional instruments in the bg#which is so cool!!!!!!!!!#but the bit that gets me is the new vocal line that plays in the instrumental part right near the end. the higher bit#THATS SO PRETTY . AND IT PLAYS RIGHT AT THE CLIMAX#then it fizzles out and ghhhh the visuals ...... ... .#sorry i cant focus on what im writing im still listening to the ost and the instrumentals on undefeatable are INSANE#the melodies you couldnt hear before are incredible. ill just stop here💥#but anyways. please talk to me about the dlc im ALWAYS up to talk about the dlc ok bye
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sooo like finals r over now
thank god its xmas break now
#hello! uhhhh yea#had to shut myself out from tumblr because i cant lie. my academic grades gone to shit and it was really upsetting#and SOMEONES monitoring my grades ykykyk#unfortunately i dont think i improved that much. combined with my worsening mental health to be honest but... life is life#i dont know. ive been such a mess lately and i didnt want to project my negative emotions hard here so i just stopped posting#i dont like venting here as much and i try to limit it because i dont want to put my irl vulnerability out there#at least i dont have to dwell on it now. for NOW at least#i dont think im venting? right now? im just explaining how ive been i 'spose#i was in bluesky during my absence here and its going ok. idk when ill redownload tumblr app but ill try to pop in here more often#i'm sorry for acting very cold for awhile - its just been difficult for me#~ rambling#but at least i can focus on less stressful things now
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played cyberpunk for the very first time yesterday! and i may or may not hv played 14 hrs straight in one sitting
#its so fuun i wanted to stop and take more pictures but i was so immerssed! i suck at fps games tho so most of it was me dying#the simmer in me is dying to dl some cc so i can make my v look cuter but i fear ill get carried away lol#the next game i rlly wanna try is bg3!! i dont hv any money so maybe thatll be a christmas gift idk#im really wnjoying branching out and trying games that isnt the sims tbh i always prefered watching my bro play games-#mostly bc i find video games tht arent sandboxes to be pretty stressful but its alwys cool to try smtg new!#ok im rambling sry#nonsims#also sorry if these look like shot i eidted and uploaded them from my phone bc i was too lazy to open ps
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There really is something special about stories where how ultra talented people decide that rather than shine above the rest, they would rather be a spotlight for those they love
#this is specifically about iori and banri#oh I DID have a fly away shooting star post here#but yeah....something about how iori and riku gave each other what they needed most...#...but they both clash as well because their communication styles are so different#its kind of a contrast to mezzo who clash fundamentally and dont really do communication properly#and pythagoras trio which is...'no secrets and healthy communication' 'lots of secrets and ok communication' and...#...'secrets everywhere what is communication?'#but yeah....iori knowing he is good at things but that not really sparking anything in him....#....until it became useful to help out his older brother and then riku#its something ok?#idolish7#fandom spamdom#note's notes#and i want to be clear that this CAN apply to female characters but that its usually not done very well#(im sorry my support/healer women....you deserve a storyline like iori's too)#(by the way this doesnt apply to fma's women who are 'support class' dnd players)#ok ill stop rambling now
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anyways im on ducktales season 2 :D finished the episode where della reunites with the triplets its so !!!!!!! 😭😭💕
#shot me in the heart multiple times#omg#this show is literally amazing#might sound kind of random but the characterization of each of the brothers is so dear to me#ill never stop thinking about them#i hear that some people dont really like della but i think its pretty cool that shes not perfect and cant fit in immediately#kinda neat from a writing stance if u catch my drift#idk what im saying#the way that scrooge refers to della as one of the kids is also really funny LOL#ok tags getting too long sorry#ducktales 2017#rambles
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man ive GOT to make something!!!!
#thinking about all the stories i wanna tell but dont start bc im scared of being cringe#SOMEONE TELL ME TO STOP BEING A PUSSY AND WRITE/DRAW IT BAD!!!#AS LONG AS IT MAKES ME HAPPY IT SHOULD BE FINE BUT IT DOESNT MAKE ME HAPPY BC ITS NOT PERFECT🙃🙃🙃#BUT NOTHINGS PERFECT EVERYTHINGS SUBJECTIVE#BUT ALSO THE WHAT IF IM CRINGE 😭#im fine. im fine with being cringe. im fine with being cringe it is ok to be cringe#hrrrrrrrrgggggggghh#sorry wverypony 🥲#i think i just need to move out tbh#BUT I HAVE NO MONEY. yet#and even then i have student loans n i need to learn how to drive bc this place is NOT walkable#my goal is to move out sometime in or after the fall. i dont think its gonna happen this year but ill keep on trying#anway if u read through my whole tag ramble you lost the game#hrrrgh#but rents so expensive here… its so complicated :(#well see what happens…#I HAGE BEING AN ADULT :(
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I PROMISE I'LL FINISH THE SQUISH MINI COMIC BEFORE NEW YEARS
Anyways sneak peek with the background!!
#im SO clsoe but i keep on procrastinating#its just like 9 pages long nothing important but im too proud of it to let ot go#just two more pages left 🥺#also haven't done squish content in a long time and my brain is gonna implode#GAHHH#(also this is a pod & basil comic im sorry for drawing them again i prommy ill draw something else afterwards okay!)#anyways imma sleep#cherry talks#cherry art tag#squish#squish super amoeba#note: pls dont think Basils character doesn't revolve around Pod nonono#i have something planned for Basil and his character but pod is one of the factors for his growth#he will have his interactions with Squish again and it'll be very important i promise#it just sometimes my brain comes up with ideas for those two silly microbes and i must draw em together#BUT this comic kinda illustrates to his growth and what character hed grow into or at least a glimpse of#what i have in mind for Basil#ok i should stop rambling and sleep
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getting asks makes me so happy, thank you guys for trusting my input and for taking the time to send asks!! 🥺💖
i have a feeling i'm going to be online quite often this week, so if anyone has any questions about astrology, spiritual stuff, healing, anything, i'm always here!! happy to answer asks about certain placements (ie: gemini moon traits, mutable dominance traits, etc), compatibility (taurus x scorpio sun compatibility), astrology topics (what do the planets mean, what are the houses, etc), take requests for posts (ie: what does saturn in the signs mean), etc!!! <3
#luna.txt#i'm going through some stressful weird life stuff rn#and it's nice to come back to tumblr again and talk about astro and take my mind off the bad 💕#i feel like i'm in a whole new healing girl era but like still kinda in my endings painful girl era#im having feelings and thoughts and as a scorpio u can understand how stressful that is for me#JLKFDJFKLDFJ#anyway<3 love u guys#hope ur all doing well#pls send as many asks as u want#(i just cant read ur entire chart im sorry!!!)#anyway i was supposed to sleep early tonight bc i have so many work meetings tmrw#but now my brain is just like on Go mode and stress mode so#perhaps ill stay awake going thru old asks and answering any new ones i might get!!!!#and also.. staying awake for le sserafim comeback omg.. my fav gg (along w purplekiss) im so excited#ANYWAY!! im happy to talk anytime even if its not abt astro#feel free to come yell at me abt ur problems or ur wins or anything<3#im always happy to give older sister advice too.. or younger sister advice if ur older than me..#also always happy to talk about girl groups or genshin or myg or exo<3#ok ill stop rambling now.. its been a while since i treated tumblr like a diary oops
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it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent
#xmen#xmen comic#krakoa#cherik#snap chats#until the divorce of course but until then its actually so funny#how you really couldnt go a page or two without one or the other and the other one was close behind#ice climber ass duo over here. the delightful children from down the lane kind of proximity what the fuck was their PROBLEM#i feel like if one of them was teleported the other would just materialize right next to them thats how close they were#fuuuck what was the issue where sabretooth and co are in like. Brain Prison or something#and victor imagines charles but everyones like 'wait its weird if its just him where's magneto'#ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY and i NEED to know what issue that was .... to add it to my collection ....#also killed me how in immoral x-men issue 1 charles was yappin bout erik bein gone#and- God Bless Who i forget i think it was hope- was just 'can you please shut up about your dead boyfriend im begging you'#moira stronger than me if i had to deal with thing 1 and thing 2 on a daily basis i woulda snapped sooner frankly#ig when you live ten times through The Most Bullshit ever youre numb to most things but still. my god theyre so obnoxious#sorry im cackling at the bit in HoX where charles is about to announce krakoa to the world and erik's putting his hand on his shoulder#and you justs see moira in the back like dawgggg right in front of her .... can you two get a room#GENUINELY no im GENUINELY surprised they dont share a bedroom#im not even talking sharing a bed im taking my shipper goggles off im actually baffled they dont sleep in the same building#obvi id be lyin if i said i didnt love it tho To Be Real .. genuinely love seein them work together as a team .. until they werent </3#in every timeline they WILL divorce each other that's just the rule. actual canon event it cannot be changed or stopped its integral#ok ramble over. but not really not in spirit cause ill never be over this ill die before i am#im gonna go eat now i think i think thats something i As A Human has to do at least once a day
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Y'know I'm not big on shipping so sometimes I'm like: "Man, why is it all Kazumaji." when searching for fanart but then I am on Twitter and... I think I am fine with Kazumaji on Tumblr.
i don't know the further implications of this and the diff between twit and tumblr kazumaji but Personally to me it just isn't my cup of tea and i don't really get the pairing
#snap chats#maybe its cause its popular and i have popularitis or something idfk i just cant see the appeal#or. i CAN but not personally yk. i understand why other people like it is what i mean it just doesnt do it for me for some reason#like Sorry Everyone Trying To Scroll The Kazumaji Tag Rn In Peace but ima spit#nvm i forgot what i was gonna say. never mind i remember#anyway it just doesn't do anything for me#like it's not wholly established and there isn't even a lot of in-text reasons to like it which . Hasn't Stopped Me Before#but like i don't have anything to go off of... like the pairings i like i have something to point at and go 'ah there it is mental illness'#and ig with kazumaji there's SOME things like Again I Can See Where People Are Coming From#but it's nothing that makes me go Ah.. The Brain Barnacles Are Here#we been over this but it's been a while but kiryu and majima's relationship really does just feel professional after a certain point#like y3 the earliest but ESPECIALLY after saejima comes into the picture#idk im rambling about something that WILL get me shot but i'm speaking my truth on my blog#moving on. watched the first half of tonbi today..... crying...#i have to update my Top Cutest TTM Charas list now...#but i gotta do these comms first ok bye#then im watching the second half if these dont take me all night..
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I still think about “Another Word for Righteousness” by boo_cool_robot btw. Like its just up there. The Divine Scrupulosity is making me sooooooo. Like what do you meannnn thats MY brand of mental illness in the form of a divine software program that lives in a man’s brain/the suitcase he carries around. Good lird
It’s so sick that theyre listed as synonyms truly but like I get it. I got there. It’s incredible really.
righteous (adjective) 1: acting in accord with divine or moral law : free from guilt or sin 2: a: morally right or justifiable b: arising from an outraged sense of justice or morality
(+ from the fatt. wiki article for Rightenousness: “[...] a deep commitment to others in the broad sense, but in the narrow sense is willing to do whatever it takes for that commitment, [...]”)
scrupulous (adjective) 1: having moral integrity: acting in strict regard for what is considered right or proper
And like. The way that scrupulosity too makes you intensively care about others and to do right by them but in a way that puts yourself down while holding yourself to this high standard that righteousness just brings from itself...
It’s Ibex and Righteousness putting themselves Above... They know what’s best. What has to be done. And then Orth and Scrupulosity
But then again, Scrupulosity never likes its Candidates to be too comfortable.
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Orth closes his eyes. “The first thing in any situation that Scrupulosity finds the flaws in is me. I don’t think meanness can scare me anymore.”
And how this makes Orth easier to manipulate like I’m going to screammmm. The way he numbs to it it is internalized and also what’s so so good here is that it is really truly exhausting to feel like this. And Orth is Oh so miserable and susceptible to someone complimenting him or trusting him even if he KNOWS it can’t be true.
“Meaning no offense to you of course. Dogs are wonderful. People trust dogs.”
“None taken,” Orth assures him. It would be nice to be trusted.
^ So good to meeeee because when you constantly have to be on guard that extends to yourself too and how you think other people perceive of you. Orth mentioning multiple times he Expects people to be put off or not trust him. Augh !
ALSO Orth making a point to separate himself from Scrupulosity (specifally to put himself down too. “Not my specialty. Scrupulosity’s.“). BUT at the end when
Scrupulosity says, You can’t trust him.
Scrupulosity says, You can’t trust yourself.
“I know,”Orth says aloud. He’s always known that.
Attar Rose looks down at him and smiles.
sorry i lost it for a moment. Because it Is a part of him it’s in thereeee. Maybe it’s always been.
anyways. good fic good fic
#(ALSO There’s something to it re: Ibex and Rightenousness and how in my mind they are so intertwined. where do they blend into each other)#(when does it stop.)#take this with a grain of salt btw its been 2 years since ive listened to counterweight. OK#im also extrapolating a lot sorry about it but again thats MY brand of mental illness in the form of etc etc.#not that sorry . im having fun#(i put the adjective definitons from merriam webster bc for the nouns its just like. 'the state or quality of being xyz')#i almost quoted animorphs btw (the bright clear line from a to b my beloved) but thats about ruthlessness.#it doesnt quite fit in with what im talking about here but it IS stil a great quote for ibex imo.#someone get on this i know im right#and then im also obsessed with the worldbuilding notes at the end GOOD LIRD ORTH. ORTH#oh its so much worse for him. lovely i love when divines are so horrible#also entirely off topic but the sokrates description of 'a whirl of blue braids and long skirts' is so. <3 hiiiii#truly. truly. i think about changing my tag sometimes i picked this in like. 2015? but its just real for this one#ill tag this in a reblog sometime dont quite Need my rambling to go in the actual tag#also all this aside orth/ibex just fucks. that too#rosa talk
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Btw I've finally watched and finished trigun stampede and.... yea I didn't like it all that much
#all the characters have been watered-down#the redesigns are eh definitely prefer the og ones#i really and i mean REALLY did not like the op song like its just bad and it doesn't fit#the ost in general is pretty bland (sorry i just really love and find the og ost iconic and a banger)#i know this is a reimagining but damn did i bot like most changes#also the new mentor character was really just a trope walking with no personality of his own huh#and Meryl got the newbie babyfication treatment#im at least happy Milly is coming back#and in general i am happy Vash has his og hair back#oh i forget one important thing that really made everything worse#the writing#like holy hell its bad haha#but yea if someone still enjoys the series thats totally fine#but to me it doesn't earn its emotional beats (like its really trying to be sad and stuff but its so badly paced)#also there is like no mystery they just blow their load almost immediately so my investment in the show really suffered from that#at least i liked how the fighting scenes looked like and i also the Wolfwoods flashbacks artstyle#ok ill stop rambling now haha#m
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I have to fuckijg school today
#im gonna cry if theres other schools kids at my bus stop#too many of them think they onow mw bc we went to primary school together#bro its been 3 years and i cut them all off and have never reached out#youd think theyd understand that i dont wanna talk to them by this point#all it takes is for their bus to be late and im stuck having 45 awkward conversations and explaining that im trans like a broken record#but ill be fine#i can just put my headphones on and act like theyve got the wrong person#its worked beofe#anyways#ramble in tags#jinx's hijinks#ok to rb#im so sorry if you read all of this i love you
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