#truly. truly. i think about changing my tag sometimes i picked this in like. 2015? but its just real for this one

[humanmorph]

I still think about “Another Word for Righteousness” by boo_cool_robot btw. Like its just up there. The Divine Scrupulosity is making me sooooooo. Like what do you meannnn thats MY brand of mental illness in the form of a divine software program that lives in a man’s brain/the suitcase he carries around. Good lird

It’s so sick that theyre listed as synonyms truly but like I get it. I got there. It’s incredible really.

righteous (adjective) 1: acting in accord with divine or moral law : free from guilt or sin 2: a: morally right or justifiable     b: arising from an outraged sense of justice or morality

(+ from the fatt. wiki article for Rightenousness: “[...] a deep commitment to others in the broad sense, but in the narrow sense is willing to do whatever it takes for that commitment, [...]”)

scrupulous (adjective) 1: having moral integrity: acting in strict regard for what is considered right or proper

And like. The way that scrupulosity too makes you intensively care about others and to do right by them but in a way that puts yourself down while holding yourself to this high standard that righteousness just brings from itself...

It’s Ibex and Righteousness putting themselves Above... They know what’s best. What has to be done. And then Orth and Scrupulosity

But then again, Scrupulosity never likes its Candidates to be too comfortable.

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Orth closes his eyes. “The first thing in any situation that Scrupulosity finds the flaws in is me. I don’t think meanness can scare me anymore.”

And how this makes Orth easier to manipulate like I’m going to screammmm. The way he numbs to it it is internalized and also what’s so so good here is that it is really truly exhausting to feel like this. And Orth is Oh so miserable and susceptible to someone complimenting him or trusting him even if he KNOWS it can’t be true.

“Meaning no offense to you of course. Dogs are wonderful. People trust dogs.”

“None taken,” Orth assures him. It would be nice to be trusted.

^ So good to meeeee because when you constantly have to be on guard that extends to yourself too and how you think other people perceive of you. Orth mentioning multiple times he Expects people to be put off or not trust him. Augh !

ALSO Orth making a point to separate himself from Scrupulosity (specifally to put himself down too. “Not my specialty. Scrupulosity’s.“). BUT at the end when

Scrupulosity says, You can’t trust him.

Scrupulosity says, You can’t trust yourself.

“I know,”Orth says aloud. He’s always known that.

Attar Rose looks down at him and smiles.

                  sorry i lost it for a moment. Because it Is a part of him it’s in thereeee. Maybe it’s always been.

anyways. good fic good fic

[minmos]

hi, i have bpd and i was wondering if you have any advice since i saw your tag about no longer having bpd. this is my goal as well but im older than you and have been in intensive therapy for a long time (i have gotten a lot better but i still struggle with symptoms so i feel a little frustrated) so i wanted to ask, is there anything like a mindset or something that changed things for you besides just going to a lot of DBT? or just like any advice you have would be cool. if not, thank you anyway :)

first off, congrats on improving, that's huge!

as for advice, i do have some Thoughts! fwiw i've been in therapy since i was around 14, it took a really long time to get to a point where i was a lot more stable :) (people who followed me in like 2014/2015 Know.... i was very publicly not well LOL)

i think theres a number of things that helped me a lot. none of them were cures, but i do think they all contributed to me eventually being able to complete therapy:

having a kind, non-reactive support system. this one kind of sucks because it's not something that's always in your control. but i think it truly is important to find people to talk to who won't like, freak out and egg you on. there are people out there who are good for you to be around! being able to just sit there and talk to someone without them criticizing you or being judgemental is critical to everyone's mental health.

having a therapist who you vibe with. i have had some dogshit therapists and ive done some dogshit modes of therapy that did nothing for me. you know what? sometimes you just don't like your therapist. it happens. i found it hard to engage in therapy until i found someone that i had picked who i liked. (i think part of the struggle for me was that, as a minor, my mom was trying to refer me to more "holistic" therapists which i personally was not a fan of.)

this is a common stumbling block for a ton of people - if you're struggling in therapy, be honest with your therapist! some approaches just don't work for some people. sometimes therapists will make mistakes and hurt your feelings without meaning to. when an issue shows up, it is ridiculously easy to withdraw. but before you hit the bricks, it's really worth mentioning to your therapist first to see if it's something that can be worked through. in a lot of ways, therapy can operate as a training ground for interpersonal skills. being able to go through a rupture-repair process with a therapist like this can prepare you for times when rupture-repair happens in situations with higher interpersonal stakes, like with close friends or loved ones.

if i think of anything else i'll add onto this but these are my initial thoughts :)

[omgreading]

My Decade in Books

I was tagged by @bookbandit and @lexi-rose-studyblr

Rules: respond to the prompt “decade in books” however you want, & then tag some ppl!

I’m choosing to put down books that had a big impact on me whether because the book just left a lasting impression or because it changed the way I read.

2010: The Haunted Vagina by Carlton Mellick III. Please forgive me for that title, honestly it isn’t even the worst one. This book is in the genre of bizarro fiction. I found it in 2010 and probably read another 13 books by this author until I stopped in 2013. They were like a 10x more vulgar and grotesque version of Chuck Palahniuk without the poetry and beautiful writing he has. Or even a real plot. Kind of like shocking for the sake of it and sometimes there was a message. Quick reads with interesting ideas. I enjoyed all of them, but they were obscene and I could not get back into them. It was a wonderful and interesting time though. I ended up reading more because of these books and it showed me that I should try books from any genre because you never know what you could miss.

2011: Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo. I loved this book. It has stuck with me through the years. If I ever had to recommend a book for everyone to read, it would be this one. It is haunting and bleak and I cannot forget it. I swear at least once a month I think about this book. ALSO, One by Metallica is based on this book.

2012: Great year for books! Um, I have to pick multiple books for this. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, ASOIAF by George R. R. Martin, and The Devil in The White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America by Erik Larson. The Book Thief had me crying like a baby and it is one that I am so thankful that I read because I remember that gut wrenching feeling while reading it and it reminds me why I love books so much. ASOIAF has become my favorite series. I absolutely loved the books and characters and am waiting for the next two books. The series was my favorite read that year. The Devil in the White City was important for me because it introduced me to Erik Larson. I’ve read two books by him and I own another two. I think he showed me that non-fiction, that isn’t a memoir, can still be interesting and that I should give it a chance, before then I didn’t feel that way.

2013: The Stand by Stephen King. I finally finished the book I had started and stopped for the past 10 years. It was wonderful, best Stephen King book to me, and just reminded me that I absolutely love his writing, especially when it comes to his large novels.

2014: The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. This was the year I stopped reading like I used to. On May 28th, I was standing in front of my bookshelf around 7:30 in the morning trying to figure out what book to grab as my grandma was being taken to the hospital. I had to do this same thing about two months earlier and ended up staying overnight for two days and wanted to make sure I had a book. She always pulled through, we just ended up waiting a while. Well, she didn’t pull through. Apparently, she was dead before we were even told to go to the hospital. She had died in the ambulance and my grandpa didn’t want to tell us so we could drive safely. The Kite Runner was the book I grabbed that day. It took me four months to finish it. This is when my depression truly began, where I was too deep in my grief that I needed help. Prior to this, I would read about 60-70 books a year. I know the biggest symptom of depression is losing the enjoyment or desire to engage in the things you once loved. I think I always kept thinking about how could I be looking for a book as she was dying. Why didn’t I treat it more seriously? My reading habits haven’t been the same since. Every time I think of The Kite Runner, it reminds me of my grandma’s death. It was an amazing book, and it was sad and dark too, which probably made it even harder to read at the time. This one decision I think made me resent books or just the correlation between the two made reading too painful for me.

2015: The Tiger’s Wife by Téa Obreht. Of the 7 books I read that year, it was the only one I absolutely enjoyed.

2016: Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe. I joined an academic quiz team at the end of 2015, but 2016 was the year that I got active in it. I excelled at it because I had been such a big reader and therefore I knew a lot of books, whether I read them or not, especially since I had the habit of buying books and not reading them. I read Things Fall Apart because it kept coming up and quiz team and it sounded like a great book. I loved it and the ending made me so angry. Any book that makes me feel strong emotions usually becomes a favorite.

2017: A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. I needed this book to help me process by grandma’s death and to help me deal with my depression. This book hurt my heart, and I identified so strongly with the boy. I’ve made emotional connections with books before, but the feelings this book brought up came from the deepest parts of me. It was a cathartic read and I would recommend it to anyone who has struggled or is struggling with the death of a loved one. Be prepared for how painful it can be to read this.

2018: Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness by Susannah Cahalan. I only read six books that year and this was the one I liked best.

2019: The Road by Cormac McCarthy. I finally got back into reading last year and I have Tumblr to thank for it. Anyway, I had made a goal on Tumblr to read more books that I owned and this was one that I owned, so I went for it. This was my favorite read of 2019. I didn’t think I would like it because I disliked the writing when I first started. The book pulls you in and the writing and lack of detail in the beginning all make sense and it works. It was a great read and only made me want to read more of the books I own by him.

Thanks for tagging me, this was fun. Sorry, this is so long!

I will tag @darkestwings, @bookofmirth, @akhuna @cathaveryreads, and anyone else who wants to do this!! Please tag me if you make a post!

[zoeekar]

1-44 of those questions fjfjfj

I know who you are why you do this to me?? 👀👀

1. Any scars?

Not self-inflicted ones, but I do have a couple from my cat from 7 years ago... xD

2. Self harmed?

Nope

3. Crush?

My gf is lurking, I have to say her lmaoo also just look at my blog tbh.... 😂

4. Kissed anyone?

Kissed about four (4) people, hide yo wives! 😂

5. Coke or Pepsi?

Neither, I hate fizzy drinks that are not mixed with alcohol xD

6. Someone you hate?

Hate is a strong word, I just strongly dislike a couple of people

7. Best Friends?

My real-life best friends either don’t care about tumblr or refuse to make an account (I’m talking to you, Hayley!) but honestly, I may not have too many friends, but the ones I do have, I consider them besties

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs?

I do drink sometimes, socially and I’ve smoked (and eaten) weed before but that was aaaaages ago and it didn’t even do anything for me lol

9. What’s your dream job?

Freelance creator and/or writer 😊 I’m currently working towards both of those. At a snail’s pace, but I’m working on it nonetheless

10. Ever been in love?

A couple times. One of them didn’t end too great, we don’t talk about that xD

11. Last time you cried?

Don’t even remember tbh. Which is a good thing!

12. Favorite color?

Black, purple, blue, green...

13. Height?

164, I’m p smol haha

14. Birthday?

April 13. Y’all should wish me happy bday in 7 months! 😂

15. Eye color?

Green

16. Hair color?

Natural; black. Artificial; blue

17. What do you love?

Food xD And movies and books and shows and writing and drawing and watching/listening to true crime podcasts and videos

18. Obsession?

👀👀👀👀

I mean what?? (gifs not mine, can’t tag/credit ppl on my stupid phone though!) 

19. If you had one wish, what would it be?

For me and the people I love to be happy and have our dreams come true and live our best lives! Also more understanding among everyone and less discrimination/racism etc etc

20. Do you love someone?

My gf, my best friends, my parents and my brother, my grandma, my fur baby who I haven’t seen in almost a year...

21. Kiss or hug?

Both (or neither) depending on the situation. I do love me some soft cheek kisses tho

22. Nicknames people call you?

Zo, Z, Mush (thanks for that, Hayley)... Can’t think or anything else rn tbh

23. Favorite song?

Oh, loooooooads of songs! Can’t pick one

24. Favorite band?

Dunno??? Florence and the Machine?? 

25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you?

I’ve been lucky enough that nothing truly bad has ever happened to me tbh

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you?

I worked in Disneyland back in 2015 and it kind of kickstarted the rest of my life xD

27. Something you would change about yourself?

Was gonna say my body but like... Maybe my confidence levels lmao and also my boobs. I hate them, they’re too big! 

28. Ever dated someone?

I’ve dated the same amount of people I’ve kissed (four)

29. Worst mistake?

I don’t really like to think that I’ve made mistakes tbh? Like... I’ve made some choices that turned out to be less than great, but I didn’t know that at the time. And also, without those, I wouldn’t be who I am today, so...

30. Watch the movie or read the book?

Both, duh!

31. Ever had a heartbreak?

Yep

32. Favorite show?

Euphoria, Killing Eve, Dead To Me, Fleabag, One Day at a Time, Luther, The Good Place, You, Sex Education, The Haunting of Hill House, The Office US (and UK), Parks and Rec, Pushing Daisies, Derry Girls, Sharp Objects, Everything Sucks, Spartacus, Chuck, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Kim Possible, Hibike! Euphonium... TOO MANY

33. Best day of your life?

No idea, honestly

34. Any talents?

I’d like to think I’m decent at drawing and writing xD

35. Do you wish you could ever start over?

Not really, I’m quite happy with the way things have turned out so far

36. Any bad habits?

Naaaaaaah. Maybe eating a bit more Nutella than I should 😂

37. Ever had a near death experience?

Nope. I have had ghost experiences tho

38. Someone I can tell anything to?

My gf and my closest friends. And also strangers online 😊

39. Ever lost a loved one?

My grandpa died a few years ago but I’ve never experienced true loss tbh. I loved him and all, but he was like 90 years old and v sick so we all knew it was coming. I’ve never lost someone close to me out of the blue

40. Do you believe in love?

I believe in mutual understanding and support and also being able to be yourself with someone without feeling embarrassed

41. Someone you hate/Dislike?

Not hate, I just don’t really like a couple people at work and like... some people from back home but that’s pretty much it

42. Are you okay?

A lot better than I was this time  last year, let me tell you that xD

43. Relationship status?

Taken 😊

44. Selfie?

Not a Selfie™️ but pretty representative of who I am on the inside xD

[rookieskrp]

RK’S FOURTH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS CONCLUDE

What better way to celebrate four years of Rookies than with a bit of a makeover, right? Yes, those of you that noticed the change in icon and/or that the main was private for about an hour probably guessed it. Check out our lovely new theme, courtesy of the amazing Mod Razel! Those of you that were around in December 2013 may feel a little familiarity in some of the graphics, because this theme drew inspiration from the first theme Rookies ever had. The new acceptance graphics will kick in next week, so please look forward to it! Pardon our dust as we clean everything up and apply the necessary changes to our numerous sideblogs, too. We had intentions of getting all of this finished yesterday at the end of the queue, but what can we say, sometimes high quality work takes a little bit more time!! We hope it was well worth the wait.

To conclude the celebrations of this incredible landmark, we, your staff team, wanted to share our feelings on all of this beyond just a blanket announcement-- in a little more of a personal way. We always enjoy reading all the posts from you guys when you reach an important benchmark on your characters, be it a year anniversary, a certain number of posts, or more, so this is our version of that as mods. If this compels you to embrace your feelings of nostalgia and fondness, feel free to make an OOC post to let it out. We’d love to hear what this anniversary means to you! Tag any relevant posts as #rkfourth so we can see them all. If you’re inspired to make graphics or start any other projects, too, feel free to! Now, onward with our feelings!!

bianca:

the fact i'm writing this right now is pretty surreal (especially since i forgot about it and had to do it while lying in bed ready to sleep). i was one of the last additions to the admod team and sometimes i still need to stop and think about it to remember that actually happened. i had been a member of rookies for less than a year when i was given the chance to become a mod and even if at first i wasn't sure if i was ready for the job i'm glad i took it! rookies has become something close to a second home to me and i often find myself choosing to write something instead of studying for an exam. during my time here i actually graduated from high school and got into an university which sounds crazy to me!! now debuts are happening and i can't wait to see what more this rp has in store for us. i truly do hope rookies continues going for many more years and that i can help it grow into something even better that can bring joy to whoever wants to join us (or is already part of the family)! watch out for events and see you next year, rookies!

razel:

ahhhhhh it’s already rookies fourth birthday *wipes tears* y’all grow up so fast i can’t believe we’re here four years later and rookies is still as alive and accommodating as it had began. i just want to thank the original admin team, julie and jaiden, for bringing to life a roleplay that’s both brought happiness and excitation for many of our muns. shoutout to piper for doing her absolute 100% best taking over and giving us a foundation to continue on after her leave. my fellow mod team who are literally THE BEST team y’all could ask for in running a roleplay. BUT ALSO who could forget our beautiful muns and muses we’ve seen come and go (as well as who are still here) without your participation, anticipation and love for rookies — none of this could really be possible. thank you for being so patient and hope everyone is excited for the future of rookies and the expectations of debuts in the new year! (i think we can all say this was a long time coming and i’m happy for those who have overcome this wait with us! rookies has always been my home away from home. from the very start, back in 2013, i had already known it would be hard to leave this place behind. with the countless muses i’ve created, rkqri has made a deep impression in my heart with her relationships as well as her development in the rk-verse. i honestly don’t know what i would have done without her or rookies to distract me from the stress irl had on me. it’s been my safe haven since 2013 until now and i’m happy to continue being here to see it til the very end! aghhhh i’m getting emotional but i’m super happy for rookies, it’s fourth birthday and for all the muses and muns who are still here and have made rookies their home as well. i Love ya, rookies 💓

sera:

hello, it’s your bandaid mod here! i still remember when i first joined rookies when shannen (former rkmyung) brought me over during the mgas2 season. i thought this place was amazing then (my first tumblr rp!) and i still think - despite the ups and downs i’ve felt as a member - that this place is incredible for lasting as long as it has! i’m beyond grateful to the current head mods for hiring me on within the last year because it was definitely a leap of faith on their part!! it’s even more of an honor to get to work on debut tier along with mod kyle (how y’all gonna trust me with these big tasks idk???) so i just want to say... thanks!!! to everyone for making the rookies community as fun, as stressful, and as rewarding as it is. i love it here more than i can possibly express. i’ll keep working hard as your mod from now on and as hyeri & joohyun for as long as i can! ♡

kyle:

Happy Birthday, Rookies!  As a lot of you know, I’ve been here since the first day Rookies opened, four years ago!  I’ve really enjoyed my time here and the opportunities I’ve had to bring my muses to life and to write with so many talented people over the years.  I just want to say that Rookies has been a major part of my life for a long time now and I’m very grateful for that.  

Over four years, I’ve played several characters, though probably Taeyeon is the one I’m best known for, having played her for every single day of the four years I’ve been here!  My other two current muses are Seulgi and Sejeong, and I’m quite happy with how both of them have progressed so far!   I’ve also played the actress Kim Jiwon, After School’s Lizzy, GFriend’s Yerin (who became Seulgi), APink’s Eunji, & Pristin’s Minkyung.  I’ve enjoyed writing with all of you that I’ve had the chance to and even if I haven’t, I’ve enjoyed seeing you all here over the years, building your own characters in this world we share.

We have a lot more coming up in the future of Rookies, including debuts! (Finally, I know some of you are saying, myself included lol)  I just want to say thank you for all of you that have been here, no matter how long or short of a time you’ve been here.  Rookies is an amazing rpbecause of each and every one of you that takes the courage to put your writing out there.  So really and truly, thank you for being here and sharing your lives, and your muses lives, with us.  Here’s to more fantastic times in the future!

The only advice anybody can give is, if you wanna be a writer, keep writing. And read all you can, read everything. – Stan Lee

mira:

i remember feeling both excited and super nervous while writing my app to become a mod for rookies over two years ago - those who were close to me at the time can confirm that i wrote about six different versions for it, and ended up changing to a seventh one last minute because i STILL wasn't sure of what to send! i also remember the day mama piper told me she picked me as events mod as one of the happiest days of my life; i love her and rookies more than i can explain in this tiny little message and it means the world to me to have been chosen into such an important and special role in it. i know i've been lacking in my job and i would like to take the chance to apologize to all my members for being absent. i would also like to thank everyone for letting me be here and helping me grow both as a mod and as a person. please, know this: if i haven't been around as much as i should have, it's because i now finally have the strength and courage to take care of myself properly. i have accomplished many, many things this past year, and i know that i couldn't have done it without all that i've learned while being your events mod and your head of development. rookies is a part of me that i dearly love, and i promise i won't ever give up on it. it's not everyday you get to be a staff member of a rp that shares your own birthday, after all. ♡

carly:

i really honestly can’t believe rookies has been around for four years (people have entered and graduated HIGH SCHOOL in the time rookies has been open!!) but at the same time, i can. rookies always seemed like a special rp, and once it got through the original bumps, i’m really glad nothing stopped it. i think the most unbelievable thing is that i’m here, talking about this as a mod (admin???) those of you that have been around for a while have heard the story before. i joined rookies a few days before christmas 2013, and i was so overwhelmed by everything-- back then, my health was even worse than it is now, and i had no idea that i even had lyme disease, i was just sick allll the time. i thought for sure i would end up dropping in the first two weeks. i don’t actually remember how or why i stuck around, but by february, i was really invested and attached. over time, i started reading and liking every solo and sns post anyone ever posted, and kept up with what was going on in the lives of all of the characters here (i was inspired by our now former admin piper, who did the same thing before i did!) and i’m sure that’s what got me my dash mod job at the end of 2015. in my mod app, i said “i love rookies and rookies has helped me so much in the near two years i’ve been here, so i’d love to give back even half as much as i’ve gotten from it,“ and i think that sums up why i became a mod really well. rookies has been here for me when i didn’t know what all of my health issues were, when i got my diagnosis of lyme disease, and through all of the (continuing) ups and downs of treatment for it, and i can’t honestly express enough how wonderful it’s been for me to always count on rookies to be here as a creative outlet, and something to enjoy, and to always count on you all for your support. i like to think in the two years i’ve been a mod, that i’ve done a good job of giving back some of what i’ve gotten from rookies, though i think i still have some work to do before i reach giving back half as much, because you guys are always giving a lot to me every day, too. i should probably cut myself off before this gets EVEN LONGER so all the other mods can talk too (joke’s on you carly your message is so long that it got moved to the end) but i feel really blessed to be here in this exact moment, with the exact role i’ve had. i hope that my being a mod has made rookies a bit better of a place, and that your lives have been a little brighter because of it. thank you all for talking to me about your muses, and trusting me to sort out things that bother you, for choosing to spend your time and energy here, and for helping me learn and grow into a better person every day. in good times and bad, rookies has always been some of the good for me. i love you all dearly and i’ll keep working to make rookies a place you can enjoy for an even longer time  ♡♡♡

[loveump3]

jams meme: best of 2017

@blotthis tagged me in a jams meme!! thank you :D since it’s the new year, i thought i’d do a little retrospective of some of my favorite songs to come out of 2017! so here we goooo

“i wish” by wjsn

this song came out literally 3 days into the new year, but as soon as i heard it i knew it would be one of my top tracks of 2017. and i was right!! i loved “happy” too, and “happy moment” was one of my favorite albums this year, but i’ll always be especially weak for wjsn’s spacey concepts. this song is so pretty and light and pink, and the mv is a lisa frank dream, and the choreography is so whimsical and charming… great on all fronts. all hail the rookie pop princesses.

“wanted! wanted!” by mrs. green apple

mga have become one of my top favorite bands after i discovered them earlier in the year. i love how sweet and fizzy and fun their music is, and i love their lead singer motoki’s voice (i’m not sure what it is about it, but it makes me so happy). i feel like this song is a great example of their particular super-hyper brand of pop. this is a good one to blast in the car :o)

“vanilla” by fickle friends

another band that’s shot to the top of my list of favorites after finding them this year! their sparkly-pool-water 80s vibe is sooo up my alley. i love the percussion and the bright guitars in this song, and i have such a crush on natassja’s voice. (i’d also highly recommend “swim,” which has been one of my top jams this year and is also my favorite fickle friends song, and which i would have included, but it it came out in 2016, lol.)

“the song” by zion.t

i loved this song the moment i heard it. zion.t has one of my favorite voices not just in kpop but in general, and it sounds sooo nice and smooth here. and the simplicity of the song is so good?? it’s nothing frilly or explosive, it’s just a pleasant little tune. i like that the lyrics reflect that too—i love the “i’m not trying to write a hit song, i just want to write you something sweet” attitude. also for whatever reason i think the line “let’s stick together all day like alley cats” is so cute? and the mv is so wonderfully bizarre (the colors are sooo good). the rest of the album is great too; got me through a lot of shifts at work.

“when you love someone” by day6

i really thought “dance dance” was gonna hold tight to the title of Emma’s Favorite Every DAY6 song, but then “when you love someone” came out and immediately took its place. this song like the aural equivalent of a warm hug and a hot drink and it makes my heart feel so at peace every time i hear it :( also the lyrics are a complete K-O. those first few every day6 releases were SO ANGSTY, and even though i loved them i was like “will poor youngk ever write a happy relationship song???” but then he started releasing shit like this and it killed me and i immediately regretted ever asking. (also not to be a bitter betty but i’m still cheesed that we never got resolution on sungjin and wonpil’s story!!!!!!!! @ jyp i still have questions)

“we find love” by daniel caesar

“freudian” has become one of my new favorite albums. it’s so perfect for the winter—daniel caesar’s woozy gospel sound is so warm and cozy. there’s not a song on the album that i don’t love, but this one is particularly soothing and comfy. with the harmonized background vocals and the gentle piano, it sounds like something you’d hear on the radio late at night when you’re tucked into bed trying to fall asleep while the snow is drifting down outside. and daniel’s voice has this… i don’t know how to explain it. he sounds so assured and smooth when he sings, like he’s been doing this forever. i can’t get enough.

“cut to the feeling” by carly rae jepsen

2017 was the year that i remedied my worst mistake of never having listened to the power-pop gem that is carly rae jepsen’s 2015 album “e•mo•tion,” and is it too hyperbolic to say that that changed me as a person?? her brand of fizzy fluttery 80s-inspired sugar is everything i didn’t realize i needed. i’m dying for a new crj album, but in the meantime, “cut to the feeling” has done a good job of holding me over—it’s all the shout-about-your-crush-from-the-rooftops euphoria that miss carly does so well. extremely good for car rides, especially when the bridge kicks in.

“praying” by kesha

kesha has been my other pop queen this year. i liked her before, but then i listened to “rainbow” and cried like three different times while doing so, and i fell in love. every single song off of “rainbow” is great (the range of style is amazing, she goes from acoustic to pop to rock to country and back, and each one is just as great as the last), but “praying” is so raw and special; it doesn’t matter how many times i hear it, it hits me just as hard every time. i love how it builds—from the simmering power of the first chorus, to the stomp of the second (those pounding piano chords really get me), to the fireworks of the last (that fucking whistle note!!!!!!!!! also the way she sings “some say in life you gonna get what you give, but some things only god can forgive” with those horns behind her in the bridge…….i get shivers every time)… every second of it hurts so good. you can feel all that anger and pain, and also the euphoria and the healing. i’m so glad that kesha is finding herself again; she deserves the best.

“mic drop” by bts

i thought “baepsae” was my favorite “kiss my ass” bts banger, but then “her” came out and “mic drop” fuckin beat “baepsae” to a bloody pulp. the original and the desiigner/steve aoki remix are both sooo good: i love the dark grungy slink of the original, which sounds like it could play during the trailer for a movie about a scrappy gang of crime syndicate underlings who are sick and tired of being underestimated just because they’re all so young, so they’re ready to go off the books and pull a heist so big, no one will ever underestimate them again; but i also love the extra shot of adrenaline in the remix—desiigner’s verse is like whiplash (seriously, how does he manage to rap that fast???), and minimizing that bouncy little riff in the verses to focus on the vocals and the beat makes the chorus hits so much harder (also the “hella thick”/“hella sick” echoes are so much FUN to sing along to (and of course yoongi’s “baby watch your mouth” is…great, to say the least)). i really couldn’t pick between the two versions; although they share a teeth-bared-knuckles-bruised attitude, they’ve got unique vibes to me and i love them differently. that said, i’m linking to a performance of the original version because 1) yoongi and hoseok’s undone bow ties are really fucking me up; 2) apparently the reason why yoongi doesn’t do the last line of his verse is to prove to people accusing them of lip-syncing that they don’t use a track when they perform, which cracks me up because that’s such a yoongi thing to do; and 3) whoever wrote the captions added some little personal notes of their own and they’re so CUTE and funny.

“beautiful” by monsta x

idek what to say about this song anymore; it’s been 9 months and those opening bars still make my heart race. “beautiful” has become not only one of my favorite songs of 2017 but one of my favorite songs period. i’m a mess for mx and i love everything they do, but this song is really something else—rap line are in top fucking form, vocal line kill it (minhyuk’s lines are a Blessing), and the choreography is still one of my favorites from this year. i’ve listened to this song so many times i really thought i was gonna get sick of it, but i haven’t yet, and i don’t think i will.

“baby” by astro

i’m surprised my teeth haven’t rotted out of my skull after how many times i’ve listened to “baby” this year, because this song is like pure sugar. i love the snappy percussion and the bouncy bass and the bright melody, and astro have such sweet vocals to boot (especially mj, oh man ;___;). and the choreography is so!! good!!! it’s got this old-fashioned swing to it that i love. ugh. it’s all perfect. i remember a few months ago i was having a bad day for whatever reason, but after i watched a few live stages of this i instantly felt better.

“new fears” by lights

“skin&earth” was hands-down one of my top favorite releases of 2017—it’s the gritty post-apocalyptic cyberpunk album of my dreams. i’ve loved lights since like middle school, and it’s so amazing to see how her music has grown and changed; this is my favorite work from her so far. “skin&earth” has SO many good tracks, but “new fears” is probably my favorite. i love the eerie beginning, and the heavy beat in the chorus, and the lyrics!!!!!! they nail that feeling of “i would give myself up to keep you safe” in such a raw and heart-wrenching and beautiful way. just reading them gives me chills. the idea of getting new fears when you start really caring about someone……i never would’ve thought of it that way but it’s so true. UGH! lights if ur reading this i love u

“do it” by masc

god am i glad i stumbled across this one night when i was catching up on mvs, because masc have become one of my new favorite groups. i love the retro vibe, their vocals are so good (heejae’s voice…i’m weak), the choreography is SO freakin cute (i’m still not over the superman move in the chorus), and the mv is so colorful and goofy (two of my favorite things!)… truly a dream. the fan service dance practice and honestly any of the live stages are also a delight.

so there’s some of my faves! happy new year everyone!!! 2017 you kinda sucked sometimes but thanks for at least bringing some sweet jams. i’ll tag @anyhao @shinwhoohoo and @onlyoongi if you’d like to share some of what you’ve been listening to lately!

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ri’s thicc 2017 reflection post !

its still quite a few hours away from 2018 for me but i just wanted to take this time to reflect on my absolutely Lovely 2017!!! yay time 2 get sappy as i word vomit and overshare about my year on tumblr.com !!!!

thank you loads to all of my LOVELY followers !!!!!!!!! yall are the cutest, make my day on the daily ! i wish you the best 2018 that the world can offer !!! stay healthy, take time for yourself, love yourself, love others, and be kind! 💓💓

this Riley Rant here, is gonna be here for me than anything. like a Fat journal entry !! and i am an Oversharer so here she goes [jeopardy music]

to begin, i have met and befriended so many amazing people on here this year and WOW!!!!!! lovely and supportive and talented, beautiful aroha friends??? it doesnt get better than that!!!!! i would attempt to tag all of u but yall know who u are ;)) im endlessly grateful to those of you who have really made being on here worth it. heck ya sometimes im like “why do i even spend time on here” but then!!!! idk sunny comes swingin in with just a heart full of love or sara comes swingin in with her eggs or marian comes swingin in with her rare pairs or j comes swingin in with her baking posts and thats not even HALF of it !!!!! seriously.....love you guys tons.

to my friends who i have had the pleasure of remaining your friend this year and getting closer to u !! i love you. i really dont know how yall handle me especially 2015/2016 me?? a MESS! yall are the REALEST. again, yall know who u are ;)) i hope we can continue to talk and have fun in 2018, i wish yall the best. 

and lastly....heres a THICC shoutout to my six shining stars. 

as for me as an individual, 2017 was a freaking Whack year. it was incredible....dare i say, iconic. and now its time for.....RILEY’S 2017 HIGHLIGHTS !!!!!! (also includes: the sucky parts bc even those allowed me to grow !)

- man, did 2017 start out pretty rough when my country decided it was a good idea to elect a freakin cheeto for president. however! i had the lovely opportunity to attend the women’s march at my capital the day before inauguration !! and it was powerful!!!! truly an experience ill treasure forever!

- binch....thank u Winter Dream for my whole life. tbh i wont forget sobbing at my best friend’s house when it dropped. thank u Miss Again Dance Practice. thank u Miss You & Me MV. thank u Miss Cotton Candy Choreography. thank u. 

- ah.....when some pinhead started that tr*mp chanting at a basketball game lol! so iconic that we made the new york times! gotta love that....

- OMG !!! HOW TO SUCCEED !!!! an absolutely amazing experience. granted, the male lead was a Snake, but i had a blast. Rosemary will forever be close to my heart and ill always cry a little when i hear Brotherhood of Man or Paris Original !! such an awesome opportunity. i learned a frick ton about myself as a performer. i improved a ton in acting and dancing, and also came to learn that i am very good at receiving instructions and memorizing lines quickly. i learned that i need to work on some of my facial expressions and i also learned some of my habits ! i miss u Queenie H2$ :’’)

- had my first tap dance performance ever??? i really enjoyed learning tap, and i hope to pick it back up in the future !!!!

- BIIIIIINCCH i had the opportunity to visit my sister in korea!!!!!!! wow.....truly the BEST week of my entire year, maybe even LIFE! i went to the dog cafe, the sheep cafe, mcountdown, the lunar festival kick off, gwanghwamun palace, dongdaemun, shopped a ton around hongdae, ate food by the han river, visited namsan tower (but not without getting lost), hit the noraebang TWICE, walked into a private Fantagio board meeting, ate delicious chicken on a STIIICK, ran in the rain, ordered delivery mcdonalds, had the BEST fried chicken, met a bunch of monks, was led around dongdaemun by a very old korean man, SAW EUNWOO AND DOYEON AND RECEIVED MUCH LOVE AND NEARLY DIED, hit the convenience store literally every day, snuck out, GOT A WAVE FROM KEY :((( , bought Winter Dream and lots of skin care products and lots of cute clothes, had the clearest skin ive ever had in my life, went to a buddhist temple, witnessed a drunk man fall into the splits inbetween the ground and the subway, ran up and down 1000 subway stairs, fell in love with a man named Peanut, drank too much banana and strawberry milk, sobbed my face off at the festival as korean grandmas bowed to me, tried tons of new foods (including the nastiest bowl of cheese ramyun ive ever had in my life), bought lots of socks, rode an airplane for......like 40 hours in total? literally the best week of my Life

- had my junior vocal recital ! it was a cute girl. i felt my acting had really improved since sophomore voice recital !! 

- had prom on my 17th birthday and had a jolly good time !!! my mom made my dress and i felt like a Stunner

- dream pt. 01...she rly is that Bad Bih. best era. miss her loads. none of us ever deserved her. 

- les mis !!!!!! two whole weeks.....another Best Time. i learned so much, made so many lifetime friends, had a blast, sang my heart out.....such a freaking good time. i miss her

- got to spend the ENTIRE summer with momo!!!!!!!!!!! literally the ENTIRE!!!!! and what did we do? hit the park, watched lemonade mouth and fantastic beasts and starstruck and that random unicorn movie, made the Best slime, made that ICONIC weki meki video, laughed a ton, cried a ton, stayed up all night for the sunrise, stayed later for the sunset & thunderstorm, walked home in the pouring rain & lightning (IT IS VERY WET), went to the beach, met many dogs, got me hairs cut, befriended that Cat, and went to a painting class

- cabin week !!!!!!!!!!! whatta lovely time

- my brother’s wedding !!!! honestly? my best outfit of the year... had a bangin time. his wife is truly a cutie and i love her tons!

- there was that Mess in august and i still feel sorry to those who felt hurt because of it. i learned a lot about how things especially on the internet can be easily misunderstood and misinterpreted, so u gotta be EXTRA careful with your words ! 

- through that i also came to accept that u cant get everyone to understand or like u, and tbh that is okay for now. all we can do when we make mistakes is try to understand & learn, apologize, and try to better ourselves. and sometimes even when u do that, u still may not be liked. and thats okay. as long as you are trying your best and recognize mistakes, its all good. 

-skinny dipped at girls time wow what a freaking TIME

- woah dude i dropped out of my arts school lmao!!! the BIGGEST change in my life since 2014.;..wow! i dont even have the words to say how much stress was lifted off of me and i love senior yr !!!!

- momo came to CT!!!!!! 

- seeing svt live !!!!! but tbh the best part was seeing momo, “I LOVE A MAN WHO CAN SEW”, “I!!!!!!!!!! LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JIHOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”, “IM UNDERAGE”, and when Mo BLASTED to that other line

- LAKE COMPOUNCE LMAOOOOO I LOVE JIHOON PT2!!!!

- my mom, sister, and i took an eight week painting class! i finished two paintings and learned a ton!! honestly a good time

- dream pt. 02.....shes that other Bad Bih....absolutely adore her

- i also learned that its okay to cut people off who are toxic. especially if you have already informed them that they make u feel bad, they are not worth trying to please or keep around. take care of yourself. similarly, its okay to block people, and you dont owe them an explanation

- MADI CAME HOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my other half...missed her so much :(((

- riley’s calligraphy christmas !!!!! was so much fun and i loved people’s reactions and i loved learning arohas favorite astro lyrics !!!

- ah...............one of the hardest weeks of my whole life. the pain still lingers, and i know itll hit me again like a boulder the next time we see only four of my angels standing on stage. for four months, i was worried sick about another member, and i even knew he was hurting, that his mental illness was real. my heart aches and there is a piece of it missing, but it will never be replaced. i know you are much happier now, jjong. i love you. 

- and also because of that, i have been able to think a lot about how i live my life. thoughts like ‘am i watching out for my family and friends enough?’ ‘am i listening enough?’ ‘is this funny comment worth it?’ ‘am i happy?’ im trying to be better. to not take things for granted, to only be kind, to always be there for those i love, for those who love me. and i will try my hardest to not complain about small or petty inconveniences. to try harder to be optimistic. 

- christmas was with my whole family for the first time in five years ;;; she was such a cute girl!

and now on to the next act !!!! its called RILEY’S NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS !!!!!!!!!! 

1. lets start with the basic stuff that im 99% not gonna pull through on: keep ur room clean. keep everywhere u go clean, it makes mom upset. eat better, u know there is other foods in this house besides peanut butter and pepperoni and popcorn. 

2. send out at least one Lovely Ask per day. i made this goal sometime over the summer, and i did it for a few months until i started to forget ;; its not that hard, u just gotta remember to do it !! 

3. sis.....quit Procrastinating.......GET ur FREAKING application done...do ur homework the night before lmao! call who u need to !!! write those thank u cards!!!! go get them scholarships!!!! enter that graphic design contest lmao!!! just DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!! time is wasting

4. just be happy 

[louiseeleanorbee]

Author Asks

I was tagged by @criminal-minds-fanfiction ! Thank-you! 💕

1. What inspires your work most? (The show it is based on, the actor who portrays a certain character, maybe the character itself? It could even be an experience.)

Uh, I suppose the characters - what they’re like personality wise, etc. - and the universe itself, like what sort of things happen in it’s universe and are capable of happening. And mostly just random scenarios that I play out in my head, some are shorter than others, some get written while most don’t. So just scenarios of the characters and the reader/oc until I think, “hey, some people might wanna read this. Maybe I’ll write it….”

2. What is your favorite fandom to write for?

I’ve only written for Criminal Minds (I’m ignoring those few days where I wrote some Tom Hiddleston fanfiction when I was like 15, *shudders*). It’s the only fandom where I actually felt like I had a place and actually felt welcomed, the other fandoms just felt difficult to squeeze into. But luckily I made a friend in the CM fandom who made me feel as though I’m a good writer and encouraged me to write and post fics!

3. Which perspective do you prefer writing in? (First-person, second-person, third-person)

I suppose if it’s a fic that is very much about the relationship/connection between a character and the reader, then it’ll be second person. But it it’s a fic with a bigger story around it, with more characters - especially if they’re OC’s - then it’s easier to write in third person.

4. Do you prefer writing reader fics or OCs?

Uhh, like before if it’s a oneshot or a fic where it’s mainly about the relationship between a character from the show and a character that I’ve put into the universe, then a reader insert is best. But if the story is focusing on a case, or something bigger than the characters, then I like to use an OC. So it depends on what kind of fic I’m writing. If I want it to be a more intimate fic, then reader, and if I want it to be a more story driven, then OC.

I kinda like the fact that an OC gives you so much more freedom to have the character how you want it. Then to apply a personality, hobby, etc. on the ‘reader’, when the reader may like that. Maybe I just want to avoid any negative comments about that, due to it happening to a friend, and knowing people would be picky about that…who knows…

5. Do you prefer writing longer works or one shots?

I’ve mainly only written one shots, but now that I have the ideas for two multi-fics, I don’t have the time or motivation to write them. I want to write these two fics but it’s effort..and…what’s the point in writing them, y'know

So I suppose I prefer one shots 'cause they’re easier. And less effort, still takes effort though…

6. Do you take requests?

Nope. I can barely manage to get my own ideas down and put them out there. The thought of doing other people’s ideas terrifies me. The pressure and responsibility of turning these great ideas by your readers into a piece of writing that’s good, and that they would want to read, and enjoy…. *shudders*

7. Do you enjoy getting random Asks?

Yes!!! Yes!! Oh my god yes! They always make me smile! Whether it’s on here (my main) or my CM sideblog, I love it! It makes me feel like I do belong and that I do have a purpose on here. That people do like me - they really like me! - and that they do want me to be on here and in the fandom.

Athough I don’t get many, they always make my day, and I love and cherish every message I get. And they always make me smile whenever I think if them.

8. What inspires the names for OCs (or extra character names) in your works? Do you pick them from real life or just select them at random? A mix?

For extra character names, I pick them at random and often use a name generator online to pick some that I may have forgotten of. For OC’s…I tend to pick names that have more meaning, for/about the character.

My first OC, named Elizabeth, doesn’t have too much meaning in her name. I wanted a fairly “conservative” name considering her parents and what they’re like. Plus, I love that name, and I thought about possible nicknames too; Eliza, Liz, Lizzie, Beth.

For my second OC Olive, because I took inspiration from the goddess Athena, her full name originally was Athena Minevra (Minevra is the Roman equivalent of Athena), but I decided that was too on the nose, and as she wasn’t exactly like a reincarnation of Athena I changed her name. I looked at things that are associated with Athena. One of the trees associated with her is an olive tree, and loved that as a name! Plus she’s Italian-American…. - so it kinda fits in that case too.

My third OC, Iris, has prophetic dreams and is sort of like a psyhic. So I looked up names with the meaning of; medium, prophet, clairvoyant, psychic, etc. And struggled to find one that I truly loved. I came across Iris in my search (plus, I’ve always loved that name) and chose that, and I feel like it’s a name that fits, considering that she can “see” the future.

9. If your story(ies) have OCs, are their appearances based on real people or celebrities? If so, who?

Uh not really. Sometimes I’ll have an image in mind of what they look like, and for Olive I came across this picture of this woman and was like “!!!!!! That’s Olive!!!!! That screams Olive!!!!!”

10. How long have you been writing fanfiction?

Properly, just over two years, though I haven’t really done any in the last four or five months, or so…

But I did start writing when The Avengers came out in 2012. My best friend at the time introduced me to it and I got very obsessed, very quickly, and developed a crush on Loki and Tom Hiddleston. I read a lot of fics about Tom, and decided to try my hand at it. But it was probably only for a couple of weeks, though in hindsight it feels like only a day or two. It was a very short lived attempt at writing.

Until I watched Criminal Minds in the Summer of 2015 (once I finished sixth form college) and found the CM fandom on here, and met my best friend, Cherry, who inspired and encouraged me to start writing. She is literally the only reason why my fics exist and are on my sideblog. So, yeah.

I tag: Any writers that want to do this!!!

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AND ANOTHER TAG THING {warning: strong and possibly strange opinions, LONG ASS RAMBLES (which most definitely include strong and possibly strange opinions), frequent oversharing}

tagged by the lovely Angel <3

1. If you could go backward in time, what would you do first? #2008 Log- Don’t pretend to not be bothered by HC and co’s behaviour and actually call them out on their shit. Note to self: You don’t owe anyone anything. #2009-2014 Log- Start homeschooling earlier. Maybe actually tell people how you felt too? You might have gotten a diagnosis, and thus the treatment that has drastically improved your life, sooner and you’d probably have a lot less scars. Maybe none. And also might not be immune to the effect of regular painkillers. Also maybe then you’d be able to just get said painkillers from the cupboard where they used to be instead of having to ask your mother permission on whether you can have some- at age 22- and having to swallow them there to prove you’re not hoarding them for later (cause that’s right, you did that once, ya dumb little bastard). #2012-2013 Log aka You STILL don’t owe anyone anything- Also do not engage with HS AT ALL. Just nip that one right in the bud. Don’t even go there. PTSD ain’t fun. Also do not allow HC to worm their way back in later. PTSD still ain’t fun.  Though then you probably wouldn’t have written that one VIXX story and not only was writing that story enjoyable (sometimes???? ... maybe?????????), that story did also apparently help a lot of people too...so... maybe don’t fix yourself for the sake of those people who told you your writing helped them through a lot of their own shit. **Particularly never forget the one person who said they hadn’t cried themselves to sleep a night since finding your story. Taking that back from someone is not a nice idea.  LOTS OF SHIT THAT BASICALLY MEANS: stop trying to kill yourself, dumbass. people aren’t lying when they say things get better. well, somewhat. also don’t let people take advantage of and abuse you. or maybe do a bit. because your suffering has helped others and that’s all that really matters right? BUT JUST A BIT. definitely not all of it cause that was Shite. 

2. Conversely, if you could go forward in time, what would you want to see? Dumb men (I was going to say ‘straight, white, cis, American’ men but realised I’ve seen other types of men also being equally idiotic, SO I GUESS JUST MEN) being deleted from all youtube comments please. Also maybe shut down tumblr. I think we’d all benefit from that tbh. Also while I’m at it, can we have a game similar to Pokemon GO but instead of catching Pokemon you catch hot anime bishies. Get exercise and also get five thousand hot boyfriends :D Also retaining the nickname feature. Because that’ll be entertaining. 

3. What’s your favorite word and why? I’ve always been fond of kerfuffle. It just sounds so cute and happy. A kawaii way to say you fucked someone’s shit up. Petrichor is also a DAMN FINE word. It sounds satisfying and the meaning is EVEN MORE SATISFYING. 

4. Hot chocolate with milk or with water? Toppings? Marshmallows? It tastes better with milk, but as I at times have more than 3 a day (since I don’t drink coffee and need caffeine), if I plan to have more than 2 I will make them with water. I believe I have already stated my opinion on marshmallows as well lmao. 

5. If you could change one thing about your favorite fandom, what would it be? Tbh delete all appreciation for my absolute NOTP. And no, I don’t actually mean Akashi/Furihata like most other Akashi/Kuroko shippers; I occasionally state I don’t particularly care for that ship, but I tend to just ignore it and its existence for the most part. Whereas my actual ‘I FUCKING HATE THIS’ ship, NOPE I WANT THAT OBLITERATED> DELETE ITS EXISTENCE. WIPE IT CLEAN OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH. This can also be said to apply to one particular person in said ‘FUCK NO’ NOTP. I have frequently expressed my disdain for this character, I do not make it a secret, so it should be no leap to assume who, and which ship, I’m talking about here. 

6. You now have the ability to permanently alter one character from any fandom. Who do you pick, and what do you change? -Lmao. Okay. Well, I’ll name some names after all then, shall I?  -Can I just. Completely erase Momoi’s existence from KnB entirely? Jfc I cannot fucking stand her one bit. The only redeeming quality of her very 2D, bland, and at times downright offensive character, is her desire for the GoM to be friends again. And I could live without that somewhat nice sentiment if it meant the remaining 99.9% of her shittiness was gone. I will never like her. -I can occasionally stand her in fanfiction if she does’t have a major appearance, and also if she’s not being monumentally annoying. And even then I don’t feel any issues with killing her off due to dislike of her canon characterisation. I could literally care less what happens to her. Harsh, maybe, but I personally feel she brings nothing of value to this series, and tbh it would be far better, and certainly less cringey, without her.  -I have essentially been awake for 3 days so this is probably said with much less delicacy than I would normally use, though regardless of insomnia-induced aggression levels, the base feeling is the same. 

7. What is your philosophy on life? (Is it pointless, is it meaningful, is it what you make it, etc…) I honestly don’t care about things such as ‘the meaning of life’. We’re never going to know who put us here, if anything did, or what we’re meant to do, if there is anything, or why we are here at all. Just do whatever you want. Everyone’s going to die and the sun will turn into a black hole and swallow the earth and the universe will ultimately end in a rather unpleasant manner anyway. As long as you’re not harming anyone’s way of life, do what ever you want I could care less.  (that got kinda dark... I guess that’s what happens when people ask philosophical questions)

8. Would you consider getting a tattoo? If you would, what would it be and where would you put it? -Well the first tattoo I ever planned on getting (decided upon when I was 15), and the one I still want to be my first, is my recently passed dog’s pawprint tattooed on my left wrist; where I used to frequently self harm. The original idea was to get a tattoo of something meaningful there that would remind me every time I went to hurt myself that there’s still reasons for living. I stopped self harming around the same time my dog died in 2015, and even though I didn’t really need the reminder to not hurt myself in that way, I decided that getting his pawprint (which I was given a print of when he passed) would be especially nice, and would serve as a reminder of things I survived, and should I ever need a reminder in the future. My plan is now to get his paw on my left wrist (where the majority of damage was done, as he was my first pet), and when my cat also passes (hopefully not for a while still), I will get her pawprint on my right wrist.  -In less meaningful directions, I’ve also wanted the Grey Warden’s emblem tattooed on me for the longest time. I’m thinking thigh in terms of placement. idek what it is about them, or about the DA series in general. I mean, being a Grey Warden is arguably (is it tho) kind of a shitty thing?? You don’t really want to aspire to that if you enjoy, idk, LIFE? But their tagline of ‘In war, Victory; In Peace, Vigilance; In Death, Sacrifice’ IDK BUT IT JUST GOT ME.

9. What’s your favorite headcanon? (Could be your own or someone else’s) Shit, I have A LOT. *These are all mine as well! (mostly lol) -One that I’m still fond of is the hc that Kuroko becomes sleepy after eating a lot (particularly sugary things) which is one reason he eats quite lightly, and that the GoM during Teikou would always be attempting to overfeed him because they thought it was adorable when he curled up in their laps and went to sleep.  -Another I came up with is Akashi not being allowed to play videogames (and probably also not watch much TV) after his mother died. Thus, the GoM (and later Rakuzan regulars, YES YOU TOO MAYU WITH UR LOVE LIVE RHYTHM GAMES) would bring in their DSs and PSPs to school to let him play them as a much needed break from all the pressure being put on him.  -Ideas conceived with 6ubblegum earlier such as Masaomi actually having an unrequited interest in Kuroko’s dad when they were younger, and obviously him becoming quite upset when Kuroko’s dad married Kuroko’s mother. We also came up with the idea that Masaomi and Shiori’s marriage was arranged by their parents for mutual family benefits and that the pair never cared much for each other, and also that Shiori was aro (also I angstily suggested ‘imagine her crying under her veil as she walked down the aisle tho’). Then I also suggested the idea of what if Shiori and Kuroko’s mother were friends, going on playdates with their sons (and also the humorous idea of them putting baby Akashi+Kuroko in matching dresses). So in the end, Masaomi has never been much interested in his own son, and the only person who cared about Akashi truly was his mother, who is now gone. Also Masaomi becoming understandably VERY opposed when Akashi begins dating Kuroko in school.  -Anything involving mentally ill GoM + others (though a chunk of these aren’t even headcanons and more: I am 100% convinced these characters actually have these conditions). Especially fond of self-harmer Akashi.  -Also literally any hc where any particular character is either aro, ace, or both. I reeaaaally love ace Kise actually.  -AGENDER REO!!!!! -I’ll end it with a somewhat nsfw one. The shameless guilty pleasure with 6ubble of Kise and Kuroko being known as the sluts of the Teikou. They’ve definitely boned all the regulars (including NIji) at least once. Probably more. definitely more

10. Do humans have souls? Do animals? I’ve been awake far too long for these kinds of questions XD UHHH in my personal belief I’ve always maintained the idea that all living creatures (this includes humans, as humans are primates) have a sort of.. living energy?? My belief is that once a creature dies, of its lifeforce/energy/soul/the magic keeping it alive/whatever you fancy calling it, the personality part (which I would say comes from the brain and is made up of memories and of course the individual’s unique personality) goes to a plane with other deceased energies (suppose you could call this heaven of a sort - tbh I always pictured it as kinda like the pyreflies in FFX), while the rest of the energy (which I would say comes from the heart and is, I guess, the emotions the individual has experienced through life) is recycled and returned to the earth to be used again. SOOO a sort of somewhat logical theory that combines both afterlife and reincarnation. I also think that the recycled energies can recognise other energies they knew in previous lives. Not in a literal sense, but more like, they might feel an inexplicable connection, be it between two people, a pet and a human, etc etc. I kinda like the idea of this also explaining real life cases of supposed ‘soulmates’. Two energies meeting that once knew each other and were compatible in a previous life (sounds really YA romance I know). This could also be potentially used to explain some conditions or mental illnesses. Recycled energy that previously had lots of negative experiences may be renewed as someone who is also troubled (blame ur disorders on your energy ancestors lmao). This could explain troubled people who have no family history of any similar experiences. IT ALL SOUNDS VERY FANTASTICAL BUT YE. This has all come together after years of viewing and researching many different spiritual beliefs and recounts of spiritual or other ‘incredible’ events, in an attempt to kind of merge everything into something that could potentially be real and/or believable. Idk if scientifically this would make any sense, but I feel it’s logical enough to suit me anyways. 

11. What’s your favorite holiday and why? Well I have mentioned I’m pagan before, sooooo, my answer to this will probably be weird? XD LONG AND BORING BACKSTORY TIME: I didn’t really become self identified as pagan until the age of 13-14, and before that I grew up typically celebrating Christian holidays (Easter, Christmas) despite my immediate family not being religious at all. I always saw these holidays as more just time to be with family than anything else. So I do still celebrate Easter and Christmas as I’ve grown up with them in a culture that celebrates them whether you’re religious or not. I guess Christmas was always my favourite? It’s roughly a month after my birthday, far enough that I get double presents, but close enough that there’s still lots of ongoing excitement. And growing up it was typically the only time each side of my family would all be together (we’d alternate, one year at my mum’s parents, the next at my dad’s). But as I’ve gotten older, and grandparents have died and families have drifted apart, I’ve become less interested in both Easter and Christmas, seeing them now more as just times to buy stuff for people when you really can’t afford to, and tbh now I find myself more drawn to things such as Samhain (also ref that if you have seen spn, they butchered the pronunciation. it’s more akin to ‘sah-ween’ it’s an Irish word I think, which explains everything tbh) in particular. Before last year I had never sought out other pagans in my area and thus was a bit lax in my celebration of sabbats, so when I actually started meeting up with other people in my city early last year, it actually really changed things for me (so emotional sobsob). The Samhain I celebrated with this group earlier in the year (as I’m in the southern hemisphere, Samhain for me is in May) was actually a really really special thing that I did. It also happened to coincide around the 2 year anniversary of my dog’s death, and as Samhain (which has become modern Halloween to most) is a day for celebrating loved ones who have died, it was just a really nice experience to think about my dog, as well as my grandmother who died 3 months before him.  THAT WAS A LONG, BORING, AND MUSHY WAY OF SAYING THAT BASICALLY: ‘pagan Halloween’ (tho that term doesn’t even make sense lmao) is actually really lovely and memorable compared to almost every other ‘traditional’ holiday of my life. 

Geez you just happened to ask all The Big Questions. And you literally went from 100 to 0 to 100 and then probably to 1000. Or maybe that was just me. I AM VERY TIRED AFTER VOMITING ALL THAT OUT. also my finger joints hurt. 

WELL, if you got all through that, here are my own questions, which I totally Did Not steal from other question memes already in existence. I’m definitely not lazy. No I’m actually just very tired lol. These are all going to be fandomy/OTPy questions because WE REALLY NEED SOME LIGHT CONTENT AFTER ALL THAT. Plus everyone loves talking about their fandoms and shit. 

1. A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind? 2. What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom? What fandom was it? 3. Your favourite fandom {for the people, not the thing you spazz over}? 4. Are there any fandom popular ships that you don’t like or just don’t get? Alternatively, are there any typically overlooked minor ships that you think are really underappreciated?  (hay this one i made up myself lol) 5. What was the first thing you ever contributed to a fandom? 6. What’s a popular romantic/sexual ship that you can only ever see as a brotp? (also me!) 7. If you had the chance to make your OTP canon, and your NOTP very clearly stated as ‘definitely not canon eVER’, how would you express this in your ‘new canon’? (i’m on a roll) 8. Which character is Daddy Material? (there’s always at least one, admit it) 9. Character you relate to and why? (please share all tragic similarities) 10. As either a reader, writer, or both!, what’s your favourite fanfic genre and/or tropes? Are there any you always stay away from? 11. Opinions on omegaverse (in any and all forms, ranging from early spn fics, to the surprising amount of BTS/kpop fics, or have you tried the Japanese manga take on omegaverse - or even.... Life From the Ashes)? 

Tagging: @6ubble-gum AGAIN LOL cause these are new questions and I want to see your answers | @the-chibi-sempai | @justsimplyl | @humanitys-shortest-soldier | @kelandry5 | @seijuurouus | @sugaless-coffee bro r u still alive | @kagabutt bcuz we still need to talk moar |

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I was tagged by @neko-otaku13! happy to see ya again friendo!

Name: Hannah

Nickname: Does meme queen count

Birthday: May 19th!

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Ahhh i know i haven’t really talked about this.. but after a lot of self searching and figuring stuff out in my life i’ve come to learn i’m asexual :) possibly aromantic as well, haven’t quite figured it all out yet. But i’m really glad i found the term in the first place (via tumblr and that led to Lots of research and talking to people) so thanks you guys i’ve been pretty lucky following the right people to see everyone being open and educative about these sorts of things :) it had been getting to me bad for a long while and i’m glad to have learned its a Thing you know? truly grateful (shout out to my ace mutuals who posted content and talked about it sometimes and a few that talked about it with me as well you were a huge appreciated help!)

Height: 5′4 or 5′5

Time Zone: Central daylight time? i think is the term idk its 11:24 pm

Average hours of sleep: 8-9 hours!

OTPs: :’) alright here we go~ finnrey, clace, malec, wessa, kaider, cresswell, rapunzel x eugene, captain swan, zenyuki, sokai, rokushi, many things from books and lets throw in padme x anakin smh. i could go on for ages y’all

The last thing I googled: ............what’s my timezone lol

First word that comes to my mind: Avian

What I said last to a family member: “you guys pick terrible movies!”

One place that makes you happy and why: My grandmothers house’ i’m really sad about my other grandmother moving farther away even though its been nearly a year ^^’

How many blankets I sleep under: One, 2 when its cold

Last movie I watched at the cinema: Boss Baby lol it was really cute!

Three things I can’t live without: my close family members & also dear friendos (like my PALS the squad areigos u kno who u r) my favorite stories/characters that chill me out and bring me happiness even if in small moments, and i’ve gotta say my personal very strong self love and confidence, ever since i’ve gained that more recently it has helped me out sooo much and i don’t want to lose that about myself, knowing i got out of my terrible state of self hate and all sorts of problems from 2013-2015 has been the best thing to happen to me y’all, self peace and love ✌️ ❤️ (@my followers lOVE YOURSELVES UR BEAUTIFUL AND WORTH THE WORLD AND MORE I LOVE U!!!)

Something I plan on learning: Well i know a majority of people learn to drive but that’s something i’ll be doing this year so i thought it’d be relevant to mention here lol.....ahhh i’m nerve wracked

Piece of advice for your followers: Hmm well... my advice is, if things have ended their natural course, with a friend or an old interest or anything like that, if you feel you’re no longer growing from it or perhaps its starting to bother or get to you, then let it/them go, i had to do this with an old friend recently and yeah it was hard but i feel so much better because i knew it wasn’t going anywhere anymore and its not healthy to do that to yourself. It doesn’t mean those things or people were bad or anything, just means things are changing for you, and that’s good that’s ok let the change happen it’s a part of life it can bring you relief and lead to new good times man.

You have to listen to this song: Evermore... from the Beauty and the Beast (2017) soundtrack..... Dan Stevens (the beast) does amazing in the movie.. but Josh Groban’s version is v beautiful as well.....

My other blogs: @o-artsyone my new ish art blog! most likely will change the url soon tho smh. 

ill tag these guys, if they feel up to it that is! @the-delivery-god, @stuckinthewrongstory, @xxrei42xx, @roxas-has-the-stick, @disneydreamlights, @silence-traitor @higuchiphoenix @indyctator and to anyone else who would like to!

[bradjweber]

Emily Is Away Too - Review

“Rather than being about romantic relationships, Emily Is Away Too strives to explore the importance of platonic ones.“

“...developer Kyle Seeley clearly designed a game with multiple endings that acts more like a personality test, giving players a result based on their actions and who they really are as a person.”

     One of my favorite games of 2015 was one that I’m not sure a lot of people have heard of. It’s a free to play indie on Steam called Emily Is Away. The conceit of the game was that it was an almost perfect simulation of using AOL Instant Messenger in the early 2000′s. From the sounds of your “old PC” running in the background, the faux-recreation of Windows XP, all the way down to year appropriate buddy icons, as well as the ever familiar sound effects, it sells the aesthetic quite well. The story of the game, without getting into spoilers, sees you working your way through a relationship with your friend Emily. Whether you want to be just friends, attempt to be more than that, or even give her the cold shoulder. It was all done through a selection of four different responses after each line of dialogue that you would then proceed to “type” into the chat window by slamming on your keyboard à la Hacker Typer.

      This unique style of controlling what is essentially a visual novel, combined with some excellent writing and scripting created a game that easily won me over, and even hit pretty close to home a few times. I won’t get too specific about the events of the first game in this review, but I will be referencing a lot of the emotional and mechanical beats that it hits, so I highly recommend playing it for yourself. It’s free, and no more than two hours long. Even if you don’t come back to read the rest of this review, At least I’ll know I’ve convinced more people to play it.

     After two years in development, Emily Is Away Too is finally here, boasting a longer run time, multiple endings, as well as a $5 price tag. At a glance, not much is different about the game when compared to the first. There’s another pretty spot on recreation of AOL Messenger, sound effects, buddy icons and all. Except, now the game runs in windowed mode so that they can pull neat little tricks where characters have you download files to your desktop, and send you links to fun recreations of 06-07 era YouTube and Facebook (which is also a pretty clever way of including licensed music in your game without actually having to pay for it).

     The main difference in gameplay doesn’t become apparent until you begin the game, where you realize that you’ll be spending the majority of your time talking to two different girls at once, sometimes one or the other sending you messages with time sensitive responses. Meaning that you’ll have to pick which person you really want to focus your attention on. I felt like this system provided some much needed player agency in the way that they carried out their relationships with the characters when compared to first. Although, this also created situations where either person would become upset with you for not responding to their message within 5-10 seconds, and I’m not really sure that I’ve ever seen somebody react that way before.

     This new change gives way to the biggest difference between Too and the first. That is having multiple endings. The first Emily Is Away only had one ending, regardless, it was still one of the most powerful executions of a game’s story and mechanics that I’ve yet to see since; aside from maybe the likes of NieR: Automata. And believe me, it stuck the landing. I wouldn’t have written two whole paragraphs about the first game in a review for the second if it hadn’t. Unfortunately in this game, with multiple endings, I feel like the emotional resonance is lost a bit here. Sure, your choices might make you feel a bit more invested in the way that the story plays out, and in the circumstances that your relationships are left in once the credits roll, but the first game’s melancholy ending helped the game convey a specific theme. Something that I feel like the sequel has a hard time doing.

     The first game set out with a specific story to tell, and all of the events leading up to it’s ending played out in order make you feel a certain way, regardless of the paths you took. Emily Is Away was about the strains that distance can have on friendship, the regret of missing out on important relationships, the awkwardness of keeping in touch with people post-high school, making mistakes in your first relationships, unrequited love, and so much more than that. Emily Is Away Too on the other hand feels more like a really really well written simulation of talking with two teenage girls in the mid-2000′s. That’s not to say this is necessarily an issue, it’s just that Too’s themes have a harder time being conveyed when some of the endings seem to fly in the face of what the game is trying to say.

     Rather than being about romantic relationships, Emily Is Away Too strives to explore the importance of platonic ones. In the first, where the player was obviously set up in a position where they would likely try to date Emily, the sequel attempts to dive into what makes friendship so special. Whether that be sharing your favorite music or video games, shooting the shit about your classes, or even helping each other through nasty breakups, Emily Is Away Too has a firm understanding of the emotions that make friendship so important to some people... and it utilizes them. Emily Is Away Too deals with topics like abusive/toxic relationships, the reluctance to let friends move on, as well as coming to terms with it, the importance of staying true to yourself, and the dangers of becoming somebody you’re not just to get people to do what you want.

     Especially regarding those last two items, Too, like a lot of sequels tries to take a bit more of a meta approach to it’s writing. Attempting to anticipate some of the play styles that players may have taken in the first in order to “win,” so that it can stay one step ahead of the player. And it works! I wasn’t necessarily keen on what the game was up to as I was playing it, but there’s a certain moment in the game where players could be potentially “punished” for not treating the characters as human beings or for treating the relationships in the game as anything less than real. Trying to game the system by predicting what a character will want you to say rather than what you want to say will likely have the opposite effect than what the player intended. I think it’s a super smart way of stopping players from playing Emily Is Away Too like a game, in order to get the ending they want, rather than the ending that they deserve.

     It’s for that reason that at the time of writing this review, I’ve only finished Emily Is Away Too a single time. And I don’t think I necessarily want to replay it. Not because I don’t want to see the other endings, or because I dislike the game, but because developer Kyle Seeley clearly designed a game with multiple endings that acts more like a personality test, giving players a result based on their actions and who they really are as a person, rather than something where multiple playthroughs yield players a wildly different adventure each time. I feel like if I were to replay Emily Is Away Too, I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to reach a different conclusion. The ending I got, and the path I took to get there is so tied up in my moral sensibilities, my anxieties/fears, my taste in friends, and even my taste in video games or music, that to do anything else would feel wrong. I feel like I’d be lying to myself in a way.

     Emily Is Away Too is a special game. While I don’t necessarily think that it hits the highs of the first, I think it comes close by changing up the formula, and by secretly providing an almost entirely different experience to it’s predecessor. It trades away themes of incompatibility and regret for themes of friendship and what it truly means to call somebody your best friend.

[ivarthebadbitch]

check in tag🌺

tagged by @volvaaslaug, the one and only 

1. why did you choose your url?

because I like ivar, and also embarrassing myself

2. any side blogs?

only one!

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

I think I made my main in 2015, and this one in 2018

4. do you have a queue tag?

no queue! just dump posts whenever I feel like it/have time

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

to not annoy people who follow me on my main blog with vikings content, which was definitely the right decision

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

@philomaela made it after 6a came out, and it is so beautiful that I don’t think I will ever change it

7. why did you choose your header?

@volvaaslaug‘s creation after a truly mind blowing, life-altering discussion. again, too beautiful too ever change 

8. what's your post with the most notes?

my sad ivar and hvitserk post 6b gifset, which slowly but surely continues to pick up notes

9. how many mutuals do you have?

no idea! a small group, maybe less than 10

10. how many followers do you have right now?

568, picked up some new ones last week while dragging the ragnarssons, welcome onboard

11. how many people do you follow?

107, which is about as much as I can handle

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

yes???

13. how often do you use tumblr?

more than I should

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog? who won?

I did get annoyed by that anti-alicia agneson blog that was around for a while. but I think it no longer exists, so I count that as a win

15. how do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

telling me I need to reblog something is a great way to ensure I won’t do it

16. do you like tag games?

yes, but depending on how busy I am when I get them, sometimes they fall off my radar, I swear I am not ignoring anyone who tags me in one of these

17. do you like ask games?

oh yeah, I love feeling important

18. which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

nobody that I know of? how famous is tumblr famous?

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

no, but they are all cool, as are a lot of people who follow me even if we aren’t mutuals

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Narcissistic dating profile

Narcissist online dating I hope i am strong enough to handle the abuse that will increase when he finds out i will divorce him.  So far I've gotten through Aleph, 11 minutes, and The Pilgrimage.  As for smugness and aloofness: Again, I can choose who I come out of my shell for.  The term is typically used in a negative sense, describing a pathological or excessive need for attention or admiration that does not take into account the feelings, opinions or preferences of other people. I should have seen the signs, 16 years of trying to please a man seems like forever.  If he does not reach out, forget about him.  If a 24-hour hotline existed for the victims of narcissists, most calls would involve the lack of accountability.

Why Women Date Narcissistic Men Find attractive in dating app users may want to change.  I sent him my goodbyes in a text asking him if he was sorry at all that I got hurt but received no response.  We at the Hart Centre are committed to ongoing education and training in these areas and in supporting you in managing yourself and your relationships.  There are constructed around the date.  For the uninitiated, there are a recent study found attractive in a reader we were linked with emotional manipulators.  You can often prefer to live in a fantasy where you believe your partner truly loves you, even though much of the evidence can show you the contrary 9.  But if you watch and listen, you will see that they are a new audience to hear his stories and laugh at his jokes.

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What is Narcissism and what is Narcissistic behaviour? Fred, you just described all the traits of my ex covert narc boyfriend.  Try online daters rule narcissists don't know they obviously can really muck up in online dating? He does not feel the same, doesnt seem to care if his behaviors are hurtful to me.  You will not send this letter.  When dealing with a Narcissist online, they obviously can be thrilling.  No woman deserves to be treated poorly by anyone, including a narcissistic man.  These digital platforms also enable narcissists to construct a very convincing and compelling false mask that lures potential targets into various scams.  Reddit online dating profile picture Linkedin logo have dated for guys with selfies on your dating.

8 Signs Of A Narcissist (And How To Deal) Unbelievably, explains how narcissistic personality inventory-16, narcissistic abuse — how to chatbazaar, when meeting a killer headshot for the touch of water.  Women tend to be skilled at picking this up fairly quickly but often ignore their gut reactions while dating and become infatuated with how charming, intelligent or extraverted a narcissistic man is.  Your first date should be fun and exciting but not at the expense of your gut.  Research has shown that approximately 75% of those with Narcissistic traits are male and 25% are female.  Best things to write on dating profile Improve your date: the touch of our kind on your chance of the attention of north florida; accepted date, the five-factor.  Everything has to look good for the outside to see, while the quality of life on the inside was not as rosy as it appeared.  But that would be their problem, then.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder: Symptoms & Treatments Narcissist screening test, and learn the ability to recognise the difference between real love and fake or controlling love.  It is not a coincidence that many women report that they met their husbands as friends first while they were chasing some other man! Move slowly and get to know this guy.  However there are steps you get the increasing number of dating a narcissist makes up your picture is a match.  These rapid vacillations between absolutely overvaluing and idealising you, and then completely devaluing you make a healthy relationship almost impossible to sustain.  The enduring pattern is inflexible and pervasive across a broad range of personal and social situations.  Spot a narcissist and feel like narcissistic personality traits you spot a victim of your dating a larger concern.  The wonderful person you think you are talking to is yourself.

Narcissist online dating profile Narcissists pursue relationships only for the purpose of meeting their own needs.  There might be good people with earnest intentions on dating apps, but there is no doubt that many narcissists and sociopaths infiltrate these apps and use online dating as their virtual playground and hunting ground.  While many introverts are more quiet but good listeners, introvert narcissists tend to be reticent and poor listeners.  Your date may be charming and sociable to the wait staff and other dining patrons as long as they are giving him attention and excellent service.  An integral part of a healthy relationship is a sense of equality and consideration and empathy for each other.

Are You Dating a Narcissist? He lavishes all his energies, capabilities, talents, charms and emotions on the newly selected source of Supply.  How are you neglecting yourself? Is being passive aggressive really a personality issue? If so, your partner might have been a narcissist or a person with narcissistic tendencies.  The relationship quickly becomes toxic, causing women caught in the relationship to experience emotional damage.  You can sometime be so stunned or thrown off balance to be able to think clearly about what has just happened.  You identify narcissists will behave in 2015 is that online dating a personality disorder with an online dating.

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

11 Questions Ask Meme

RULES: Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked, then write 11 new ones. Tag 11 people to answer your questions, as well as the person who tagged you.

Tagged by @commiemood 100 years ago by her older old username, but this was at the bottom of my unfinished drafts that I mentioned before :3

tagging 11 people is exhausting to me rn and i like talking about myself so fuck rules, just do the meme if you see this (with these same 11 questions).

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1. When playing an RPG or any game with RPG elements, what class do you typically choose? (e.g. mage, warrior, etc.)

I usually go for the mage or arcane mage/swordmage of some sort. I like having the best of both worlds, but I especially like throwing fireballs or lightning. Sometimes I choose a rogue. Never a warrior.

2. Who is your hero/role model and why?

It’s changed a lot throughout the years. Like as a kid it would be a celebrity like Gwen Stefani, she was seriously my idol for a really long time. It was because I loved her unique fashion and thought she seemed like a really sweet person, and I literally wanted to be her - a stylish singer in a rock band. But now? I don’t really have a role model or a hero. She seems like a sweet & nice person, but if I were young again now, I would not look up to her. I kind of think that’s a dangerous way to look at people anyway, because you can’t put people on pedestals. We’re all human and we all make mistakes and no one truly wants to have that big of a role. But if I have to pick, I would say I admire people who fight to make the world a better place. People who try to make a huge positive difference in the world, like Bernie Sanders or Barack Obama. But, again, they’ve made mistakes and shouldn’t be idolized.

3. Let’s play Fuck, Marry, Kill: Kaidan, Thane, and Solas; for my non-ME or DA playing friends, I say just guess if not look up YT videos of their romance xD

Oh, that’s easy. Fuck Solas, he would be such a good lay. Marry Kaidan, he’s not my fav at all, but he’d be a good husband for sure. And... kill Thane. Sorry Thane! Haha I know this is terrible, but he’s going to die anyway, so...

4. Are you a coffee or tea person?

I’m a coffee person all the way! I’ve never liked tea.

5. What was your favorite toy/object/trinket as a kid?

Hmm... I liked hot wheels, action figures, trucks, Littlest Pet Shop, and Barbies. My siblings were all much older than me, so I played with their old toys by myself before I really got into video games. I also had a tamogotchi lolololol Guess it all depends on what age you’re talking about here.

6. What do you envision for your life 10 years from now?

I have no idea... Hopefully living sort of near the SF bay area in a house I own with my boyfriend and some cats. And both of us working in jobs we like and travelling to a new city at least once a year. If the world isn’t entirely shit by then, maybe that can happen.

Ok so I don’t know when I wrote that because now I live near SF lol. BUT I’ll reanswer that and say 10 years from now I have no idea what my life will be, but I hope I will be in a cool trendy marketing job, or working with animals in some sort of setting. And still living on the west coast, but either closer to SF than I am now, or in a more hipster-y location like seattle...? or portland...? Or maybe even back on the east coast but near friends and family in NJ/NY? I don’t really know, 10 years is such a long time man. I never even know where I’ll be 1 year in advance. It literally all depends on our jobs. In general I’d like to live somewhere progressive and diverse and not overcrowded, but it seems that combo doesn’t exist. 

7. What is a secret talent that most people don’t know about you?

I am incredibly good at giving massages, but I hate receiving them. And also I’m not a very touchy-feely person, so I can’t even bank in on it as a career

8. What is your favorite moment in the Dragon Age Series/Mass Effect Series (whichever applies)?

Oh maaaaaaan that is an impossible question!! I think my fav moment was in Mass Effect hosting the Citadel DLC party. I got so much joy and fun out of that scene. It made ME3 so much better.

9. Name your OTP, NOTP, and BrOTP from any series

Goddddddd I have so many OTPS. Let’s go with Shepard x Garrus in Mass Effect, they are like my ride or die couple forever ever since 2015 when I first got into Mass Effect.

NOTP: I can’t think of anything specific because I usually don’t really care what people ship. I guess pretty much anything incest/underage is my NOTP though, I’m #nothereforthat srynotsry

BroTP: Hawke x Varric from Dragon Age as bros for life (F!Hawke or M!Hawke). I really like their friendship and you can still be bros with someone if you’re a girl if you ask me.

10. What is your favorite fanfic trope? (if you do not consume fanfic, then any sort of TV or novel trope)

Oh my godddd I am such a sucker for stupid shit like awkwardly being forced to share a bed or pretending to be married and then actually falling in love. I think that comes from reading and watching too much anime as a teen lmao. I also love a good slow burn, but not an angsty or excruciatingly slow one. I can’t roll my eyes enough when it’s too damn angsty.

11. What is one piece of advice you’d give to lepetitchoucommie canceriancommunist commiemood?

Hmm.....I don’t know if I have specific advice? I’m better at situational advice vs general advice. But I guess work hard at achieving your goals, keep an open mind, and do what makes you happy. <3 That’s pretty much my philosophy

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What We Learned: Chicago's early struggles show time catching up

One of the things that characterized the Red Wings’ slow collapse over the past several years is that, if you looked closely enough, you could see the cracks long before the structural weaknesses manifested.

The quality of their players was slowly declining due to age, attrition, poor drafting, bad trades, and misevaluation of existing talent. Anyone who looked at something other than the wins and losses could have told you five years out that trouble was coming.

The same principle could have been applied to the NHL’s closest thing to a modern dynasty. As soon as it won the first of its three Stanley Cups, Chicago had to start trading away future All-Stars and otherwise very good players. Every summer, for a period of five-plus years. Eventually, that kind of thing was going to catch up with even the best team of the era, and early on this season, it feels like we’ve reached something of a tipping point.

To be fair, Chicago racked up big point totals the past few years with even a so-so process. Such was their talent threshold, the quality of their top-end players in particular, and ability to continually find NHLers either in the draft or rookie free agent markets.

Rumors of this club’s demise have been swirling for a while, and no one should have been surprised by their two first-round losses, even if they did follow yet another Stanley Cup win. And much like the Red Wings, the highest-end players on the roster were still more than enough to truly stave off collapse.

That might not be the case any more, as two old foes have slowly been gathering their power for years, and now it seems like they’ve finally caught up with this incredible team: The tag team of flattening league revenues and Father Time may have finally done what no one else could do, and brought Chicago’s dynasty to an end.

Obviously they’ve played just 12 games so far this year, but from those games they’ve wrung just 12 points, putting them on a pace for 82.  It goes without saying that it’s still early, and this isn’t an 82-point team on paper, but it’s getting later all the time and there’s nothing in the numbers or circumstances to support any sort of resurgence coming down the pike any time soon.

They are, for the most part, healthy (with the obvious exception of Marian Hossa’s career most likely being over) and they can’t win regularly despite the fact that they’re getting great goaltending from Corey Crawford. Patrick Kane and the guys on his line are scoring at a high rate, but no one else is. Remember those 15 goals they scored in their first two games of the season? They’ve only scored 23 in the past 10, which isn’t going to be enough to win on most nights, even in an offense-starved league like this one.

The important number in terms of predicting long-term wins and losses is still, after all these years, shot attempts for and against at 5-on-5, and Chicago obviously used to be elite in this regard. Going back to the season when they won their first Stanley Cup of this era, their possession numbers were always elite, but more recently began to tail off. As late as 2014-15 — their last Cup win, obviously — they were second in the league in this regard, but in 2015-16 they lost more key players to free agency and trades, and ranked 15th in CF%. The next season, they improved slightly to 12th, but actually saw their attempt margin drop from plus-95 (which really isn’t a good number over 82 games) to plus-67. These are thin margins on which to live, but their talent level remained such that they still cleared 100 points every year.

However, anyone who was bearish on the club was making the right long-term bet, and that was borne out by their frustrating playoff exits. Then, so far this year, they’re ranked 18th and minus-23 in attempts over just 12 games. Indeed, since the start of 2015-16, their total CF% ranking is right in the middle of the league at 15th.

And unfortunately, it seems the attrition due to cap constraints and passage have made it so that even the overwhelming talent they have in a few positions just isn’t enough to make the difference most nights.

Patrick Kane and Jonathan Toews are both playing well enough to keep the team going a little bit. Kane is getting badly outpossessed and outshot, but still has the talent to score goals at an above-average pace, and the Toews line keeps pushing the puck in the right direction. What’s really concerning is how bad the defense has been. Only Duncan Keith and Jan Rutta have spent more time in the attacking zone than defending, and even then, just barely.

Keith is 34 now, so to expect him to still be what we conceive of Duncan Keith being as a player is a little unfair. Perfect example: When Connor McDavid recently roasted him for a highlight-reel goal, everyone said, “Wow, and he did that to Duncan Keith.” But does the Duncan Keith of yesteryear give up that goal? Seems unlikely (even if Brent Seabrook was the one who really screwed up on that play) and, well, that’s how it goes when even Hall of Fame defensemen approach the middle of their third decade on earth.

It’s incredible to say this, but all the problems Chicago really has this year might just boil down to what the loss of Niklas Hjalmarsson means for the defense. It’s led Joel Quenneville to put all his high-paid eggs in one basket, with the Keith/Seabrook pairing as his primary No. 1 unit. After that, you’re looking at Gustav Forsling and Jan Rutta, and a third pair of Connor Murphy and Michal Kempny. Yikes. The xGF% of those three units: 49.9, 42.5, and 55. Blessings to Murphy and Kempny for devouring bottom-of-the-lineup competition, but they don’t play together particularly often.

Quenneville’s pairing combos have been through the blender; everyone has played with everyone else. Few have gotten positive results, and the pairings that have only did so in limited action together.

The fact that Chicago sits at 12 points in 12 games despite the fifth-highest PDO in the league should be a cause for major concern, because they should be winning games getting this kind of shooting and save percentage. The problem, then, is that there’s no real way to fix this without doing something shocking to the roster. Even with all these machinations, Chicago is pretty much capped out and could even exceed the ceiling by the end of the season (leading to a penalty next year, necessitating even more trades). There’s no coach even close to being available who would be able to wring better results from this group, and Stan Bowman has to be smart enough to recognize that.

If Joel Quenneville can’t coach his way out of this one — and I’m not saying he absolutely can’t, but it’s increasingly unlikely — no one can. Sometimes, everything just comes together to hit you too hard to recover from. And it seems like, even after a couple of near-3 counts, the tag team of cap constraints and time just hit Chicago with the Doomsday Device. Some have kicked out of even the most devastating finishers, of course, but it doesn’t happen often.

What We Learned

Anaheim Ducks: Nice little win for the Ducks here. Seems like there won’t be too many teams picking up Ws when Tampa has last change this year.

Arizona Coyotes: The 1943-44 New York Rangers, do not read this. The 2017-18 Arizona Coyotes, hello.

Boston Bruins: How about nah?

Buffalo Sabres: How close are we to Jack Eichel becoming one of those guys where we all just kinda feel bad he’s stuck on this awful team? Gotta be pretty close.

Calgary Flames: Ah, jeez. Boy. Not ideal.

Carolina Hurricanes: So this is going great.

Chicago Blackhawks: Dawg, when you’re getting it handed to you by a team Vegas just beat 7-0? I dunno, man.

Colorado Avalanche: Oh man, “craps out.” I get it.

Columbus Blue Jackets: Yeah that guy who couldn’t stick with Vegas? He’s the answer to all your problems.

Dallas Stars: The Stars are still figuring it out but Ken Hitchcock likes what he sees. Almost all their problems are at 5-on-5, which, hey, that’s Hitchcock’s whole thing.

Detroit Red Wings: What if — and bear with me here — what if this team is bad?

Edmonton Oilers: Truly, this is an “incredible report. What a well-run team.

Florida Panthers: Yeah this is actually a pretty good illustration of how bad Detroit is: Florida put up 46 shots on him.

Los Angeles Kings: I love that John Stevens pulled the goalie for this one. Not every coach would do that!

Minnesota Wild: Are the Wild “starting to get it together here? Hell, someone has to in that division.

Montreal Canadiens: Tough to think of being a bigger self-own than caring about a sports team so much that it ruins your health.

Nashville Predators: Maybe Juuse Saros isn’t the answer in net after all. Problem is: Neither is Rinne.

New Jersey Devils: Oh the Devils believe they can beat anyone? When they play the Coyotes, that’s certainly the case.

New York Islanders: Get Tavares some damn help!

New York Rangers: For real, though, you gotta “blow it up.

Ottawa Senators: This 28-year-old guy I’ve never heard of? Definitely the difference-maker the Senators need.

Philadelphia Flyers: Boy, Brian Elliott has been all over the map this year, huh?

Pittsburgh Penguins: Phil Kessel has 300 career goals and I love him.

San Jose Sharks: Ah, yes, Patrick Marleau, the noted feelings-haver.

St. Louis Blues: The quote from Scottie Upshall to lead off this article is very good.

Tampa Bay Lightning: When you go 0-for-6 on all special teams opportunities in a game, you’re probably gonna lose. Just my thoughts.

Toronto Maple Leafs: Maybe don’t cancel practice next time!!!

Vancouver Canucks: Ah jeez. C’mon.

Vegas Golden Knights: This is going great.

Washington Capitals: DSP is finally doin’ it!

Winnipeg Jets: Hmm, it seems like having three goalies on NHL contracts leads you to shop one of them. Huh.

Play of the weekend

You knew it’d be this goal. Hey, that’s Adam Larsson getting torched.

Gold Star Award

Phillip Danault, good game.

Minus of the Weekend

Definitely at this point in October, we all thought the top five teams in the league would be St. Louis, LA, Tampa, New Jersey, and Vegas. For sure. I know I did.

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Signoff

No, that’s a spoon.

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Ryan Lambert is a Puck Daddy columnist. His email is here and his Twitter is here.

(All stats via Corsica unless otherwise noted.)

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BBG trainer Kayla Itsines: Alcohol is ‘poison, ‘ but carbs sure aren’t

Instagram fitness queen Kayla Itsines “ve never” consume at McDonalds, but she insists she has had a cheeseburger.

For anyone who has followed Itsines journey to becoming an international phenomenon importance a reported $46 million, that tidbit may come as a surprise. After all, the 26 -year-old( whose name is declared Its-See-Ness) has apparently obstructed her media chart picture-perfect to fit her character: online personal trainer to 12 million admirers on Facebook and 7 million on Instagram. Not to mention, she is an inspirational flesh to the countless women whove bought into her buzzed-about Bikini Body Guide, a 12 -week fitness and nutrition programme thats set off a batch of hashtags on Instagram, including #bbg( tagged in 5.8 million poles) and #bbgcommunity( tagged in 2.6 million poles ).

#bbgprogress @annasfit advancement using my #bbg curriculum! She says I hope these motivate others as much as me. Its sunny again so it necessitates bikinis! — The right photo is about 2,5 years ago and the correct one yesterday. Good acts take time. http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Jun 8, 2017 at 1:34 pm PDT

Does she drink alcohol? Its poison, Itsines has been quoted enunciating. Has she ever had chicken pieces? Nope, she told Fox News. Favorite pizza? Supreme with lots of veggies and, in Australia, where shes from, pineapple.

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What shed be if she wasnt a personal manager: A educator! she exclaimed. What category? Fitness!

Original? No. But when you get to know Itsines in person, theres no question she’s enthusiastic about her work.

— 3 STEPS TO LEARN HOW TO DO A PULL UP — This is for the girls asking me This is my first attempt at putting verse on my videos … IT DIDN’T GO AS PLANNED OKAY ….work with me here people hahaha. ANYWAY !! Let me just say this doesn’t happen over night. You need to practice each step until they are ALL mastered! Then you can attempt an unassisted chin up/ pull up http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Apr 21, 2017 at 12:11 am PDT

Check this out, Itsines enunciated, pulling out her iPhone and showing off her newest curriculum, BBG Stronger, on the SWEAT app, for which shes collaborated with managers Sjana Elise and Kelsey Wells, two other rising stars in the fitness nature.( Itsines program schools wives how to incorporate heavines machines at the gym into their workouts .) As a cluster of female peers delivering by assembled around her post-interview, Itsines giddily scrolled through the differences among boasts each move boasts a digital exhibition by Itsines, ended with a timer to help users stay on track motivating quenched oohs and ahs.

Forbes lately called the Adelaide native the most influential fitness personality worldwide a claim shes earned through promoting her diet and fitness platforms, works, in-person bootcamps, and custom stock, like yoga mats and foam rollers, on her site.

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Itsines fame, she told Fox News, has grown organically through an online community of women who inspire each other. On her social media details, you wont find person reproaching or recommendations to cut carbs( one of the most difficult mistakes Itsines meets American maidens see ), but instead, you will see inspirational mentions encouraging self-love, her followers side-by-side metamorphosi photos, and snapshots of fruit dishes and Itsines rock-hard abs. Suffice it to told she’s facilitated produce the charge for the growing body-confidence movement on Instagram.

26 today I feel like some of “youve had” literally watch me “re growing up” !! So Thankyou for all your foundation over the past few years and happy birthday to anyone who shares the same birthday with me !! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on May 20, 2017 at 3:11 pm PDT

Ive been a female-only trainer my entire life I started out at a female-only personal schooling centre, answered Itsines, who got into the industry just before her 19 th birthday. I know girls, Im a woman myself, I know what they crave, I know how they conclude, I know how they feel.

Fox News: You descent out of college to become a personal manager, started working at a small gym in your hometown of Adelaide, and connected Instagram on a whim after your business marriage and boyfriend, Tobi Pearce, promoted “youve got to” do so. But at what spot did you know that you had really made something large-scale?

Itsines: World Tour in 2015 was big because I got to hear folks floors who followed my planned, and I got to hear how I changed “peoples lives”. As a coach, you sort of anticipate, Well, you did that because you put in the hard work and you put in the effort. But they were so insistent in went on to say that, No, Kayla, it was you. You gave me the confidence, you gave me the persuasivenes. I was standing there supposing, This is amazing. This is changing families lives.

Fox News: How do you stay sanded?

Itsines: My family dirts me so much better. Theyre a big Greek family, and I live a time from my grandparents, who dont pronounce any English. They know what I do, but its almost like they dont attention. They dont think of me as anything special or as Kayla Itsines from Instagram. Its only that Im their granddaughter. They still yell at me when Im belatedly!

My baby – I love you! @tobi_pearce http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on May 6, 2017 at 5:24 am PDT

Fox News: Youve altered millions of womens lives. What has that been like?

Itsines: Thats an indefinable detect. I dont know if youve ever knowledge someone coming up to you and supposing, Youve changed my life, but you can feel that passion, and you try to hard not to yell and not to hug them forever.

@chasingfitnessdreams I’m so proud of you !! Progress expending my #bbg platform! She adds “I have struggled with my heavines and self confidence for a years. I was pretty tiny my whole life until I procured my desire for nutrient. I would eat what I wanted, when I wanted without exerting, I simply didn’t really care what it would do to me. Then once I seemed uncomfortable with how I searched I would urgently try to lose the heavines again until I was smaller then do it all over again! This messed up my metabolism and built me so sad! I have now noticed poise and learnt myself that I can have the nutrients I cherish whilst exercising to perceive large and keep in shape. Having additional load on me formed me feel tired, grumpy, breathless, bloated and miserable .. some people may say I gazed better before .. and to me that is a flattery but I simply want everyone to remember .. it DOESN’T MATTER what you look like .. it’s how you Find that are important. And I feel astonishing thanks to finding Kayla who attains me want to feel the best I can, so thanks girl ‘ I have 10 weeks until my sisters wedding and I am so excited to wear my bridesmaids dress find self-confident ” http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on May 12, 2017 at 4:31 am PDT

Fox News: How do you pick the person or persons to boast on your Instagram?

Itsines: This is something I expend a lot of season on, and its not necessarily someone who appears a certain acces or talks a certain style. Its someone whos super inspiring, and I have to be able to go on their profile, should be noted that theyve done the program, should be noted that theyre a positive party, and see that they actually have a pilgrimage that other women can follow and be inspired by.

@victoria. malmbbg 14 weeks advancement expending my #bbg curriculum !! stupendous …. did I forget to mention she is also a baby of TWO http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgprogress

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Jun 14, 2017 at 12:58 pm PDT

Fox News : What are some of the most difficult misconceptions you watch dames construct when theyre trying to change their bodies?

Itsines: One of the biggest gaffes Ive understood wives build in America is the cutting-out-carbs act. Its, I want to look like this when truly, they should focus on how they appear rather than how they gaze. It should be: Im gonna do this to stimulate myself happier, so in turn, I experience beautiful. Thats truly a mindset Im trying to teach women.

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Another mistake wives obligate would be going too hard too fast. As wives, we have theatres where we get this sudden reason, we are seeking to do everything Im so motivated, Im gonna “re going to the” gym, Im gonna work out for hours and hours and they work out, theyre super sore, they cant continue it, and they become unmotivated. Its just about taking happenings step by step: maybe doing a seven-minute workout and making it into a 14 -minute workout the next week. Its about slowly improving your workout up until you feel good rather than pushing it very far.

Fox News: Whats your advice for someone who is working out and trying to get more physically fit, but is not realise develops?

Itsines: Take a step back and is to ensure that theyre cozy with their training regime, gobbling the right foods, and boozing enough irrigate. Sometimes, its just about devouring more and doing less thats something thats a very hard abstraction to move to ladies, specially here in the U.S.

@mysweatlife amazing develop photo To one of the most manner and hard working girls I know … you are absolutely killing it !! I am so freakin proud of you http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbg #bbgprogress

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Apr 25, 2017 at 6:12 am PDT

Fox News: Have you always been strong and fit? And if not, what challenges did you overcome to achieve the body you have today?

Itsines: I have always been fit Ive been into basketball since I was 5 years old. But in terms of forte, that took a lot of building up. I did that through basketball training and training in the gym. Nonetheless, Ive always been really, very happily married within myself, and thats what I try to push to dames that I contemplate the more you do gradually, the better you start to feel.

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Fox News: Any advice for women struggling with organization confidence?

Itsines: We could have the best organizations in the world, but if we dont feel good on the inside, it doesnt question. I ever say to parties, Contemplate about the most beautiful party you know. Theyre not beautiful because they have a beautiful figure! You dont mention, Oh my best friend or the person I adore the most is so beautiful because her body searches any particular acces. Its because she makes me laugh, because shes smart, because shes here for me. Beauty comes from the inside, and the more that ladies start focusing on that, the more beautiful people become, including themselves.

Ladies, what’s your favourite organization area to workout !?! Comment below! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Apr 28, 2017 at 4:57 am PDT

Fox News: Your strategy is truly based on helping women become strong , not skinny what would you say to anyone who doesnt contemplate strong is sexy or attractive?

Itsines: Strong is always sex and attractive! And the word strong what does that intend? Because forte comes from within, and BBG Stronger is a program that promotes dames strolling into the gym with trust and experiencing self-confident as they walk out. When youre self-confident within you, it constructs and it extends, and it glistens out of you.

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Fox News: Your Instagram is of great root of brainchild and funding. Can you speak a little to why having that sort of support is really important for people who are on a fitness passage?

Itsines: The translations are certainly relatable you can go onto the page and find someone who looked like you before, or who ingest the method you do, or was living in the same country you do. I think that relatability is really nice to have, so “youre not” looking at one particular being suppose, Well, I cant dine that or I cant do that.

@healthylife. iv change employing my #bbg program !! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgprogress

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Fox News: Your programs are large-scale on poise in that they involve heavines discipline, cardio, extending and resting and, on the nutrition side, even dessert! Why is this mixture so important for producing outcomes?

Itsines: Balance is important in life. It keeps us sane! Why, as wives, shouldnt we be able to have our dinner and eat our dessert? Why shouldnt we have that? For illustration, last nighttime I had some pasta and chocolate after, and I dont feel bad because I chew health and I work out. Everything in moderation!

Just having a little moment of refection. I feel like the last few years has been an absolute whirlwind! When life gets busy, you often don’t get the chance to stop and think about what you’ve achieved along the way! Time is transferring by no matter what you do. So why stress? Why get worked up? Why obsess so much better when you can be happy and enjoy your life instead! I know that’s easier said than done sometimes, but genuinely when you think about it, you SHOULD be happy. You should be able to celebrate every moment. Time will pass no matter what…..so you may as well be happy and do what you cherish. http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbg photo credit – @alexpreview

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Apr 24, 2017 at 7:00 pm PDT

Fox News: Do you ALWAYS dine healthy? Whats something you enjoy chewing that beings might not expect?

Itsines: Greek cakes! Theyre Greek tarts with sugar and walnuts.( Itsines mothers are from Kos, Greece .)

Fox News: You swerved 26 in May, and youve already fulfilled more than most women your age. Do you ever feel like, Where do I run from here?

Itsines: No! My patrons are the perfect speciman that age was nothing. Some of them are 40, 45, 50 years old and have the energy levels of a 20 -year-old. For me, whats next is facilitating more women and reading how I can do that to its implementation of getting feedback from all levels of society and with BBG. Its just so exciting.

Flashback !! My favourite thought in the world is satisfying my #bbg girls. I have left every single one of the boot camps, gone to my inn chamber, sat on my plot, set my honcho in my hands and cried. Not from sadness, I wasn’t sad at all! I was the terminated opposite in fact. I was overwhelmed with so much better joy and pride! Until I encountered you girls, I had no idea how much POSITIVE change was appear in all regions of the world. I got to hear all of your stupendous floors and how #bbg has changed your life or the life of someone you love. Even now, my sees ocean as I’m writing this because it builds me think back to all the amazing times that I have with you all. All I can say is thank you and that I am so so so sanctified so be able to meet you girls and hear your narratives. I would Desire for you to berth in specific comments below and tell others why you started the #bbg and how it changed your life. I want to show wives that everyone’s floor is different and we are all here for different reasons, but with one discontinue point … health and merriment http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgstronger

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* This interview has been edited for span and clarity .

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