#all it takes is for their bus to be late and im stuck having 45 awkward conversations and explaining that im trans like a broken record

[vengeful4ever]

I have to fuckijg school today

[ireland-creates]

Why are so many writers traumatized? Anyway! No im not taking constructive criticism at this time. TW: Violence, Trauma responses, Swears, First person

"Why can't you just be a normal f:üç:ķ|ņğ kid and just do what you're told!" She shouts as her grip on my throat loosens and drops and I reach for my neck feeling the sting of the marks left by her nails "I'm sorry" I rasp out looking down to the floor with tears pricking at my eyes daring to fall. I drink down the lump in my throat trying to dull the ache and with that the tears dry and my mother scoffs and turns away to go out for a §møke. I lift my eyes just enough to see her dissappear out the door with a slam of the screen and I huff to myself before straightening myself out and continue to get ready for school as fast as possible forgetting the lunch I had started to make for myself behind. "I hope she chokes" I hiss to myself as I slam the rest of my cŕªp into my bag and leave 45 minutes early for the bus.

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The last bell of the day rings and I dread standing up to get on the bus home but remembering what happened last time I inconvenienced my mother like that I know better than to come home late again. "See you tomorrow ____!" I hear my friends say as they wave bye to me while walking out the door, I smile and wave back knowing they're just smiling and being civil because the marks left from this morning are noticeable enough to make people force themselves to be nice to me. "What fakes." I whisper to myself as I begrudgingly pick myself up from my desk gathering my stuff together and taking it out to my locker just to throw it all in there half-heartedly knowing its probably safer in the mess of my locker than anywhere near the tyranny my mothers about to wreck the moment I steo through the door today. I hurry my way through the crowded halls cursing to myself for not getting up sooner to make it through the bell rush with ease instead of getting stuck behind slow walkers and the western barbies and kens laughing at each-others barely put together jokes that I bet you anything they don't even understand themselves.

"Just f:ūć:ķıñ'ģ move" I hiss as I try to break through the slow group infront of me blocking me from getting down the stairs and out the door quicker. I notice one of the girls glance at me and I smile and nod towards her and she tries to open a path throught the group for me suddenly smiling as well and I step through thanking her and dropping my smile the moment I turn my face away "god this place is annoying" i mumble to myself and half jog to the bus stop and force my way through to the front where the bus normally stops. The bus pulls up the moment I stop and I climb up the gloomy grey steps and watch as the other striking yellow busses pull up as well "perfect" I say as I drop down onto the bus seat close to the front realizing that the bus ramp is going to be busy when we have to go to switch earning a tired sigh as my usual bus buddy sits next to me and pulls out her book. 'At least she's quiet' I think to myself and I lean against the wall and look out the window ready to zone out for the bus ride home.

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I make it home and toss my shoes off and notice that my moms sickening presence isn't nearby and I take the chance to try and sneak off into my room so we can miss eachother and I can just shut myself into my room for the night knowing she won't make dinner or do anything but watch her stupid TV shows the rest of the night until she goes to bed. I pick my shoes up and quietly make my way to my room missing every creak and groan in the floor having memorized them by now and quietly closing the door. I let out the breath I was holding and I listen as my siblings come through the door making as much noise as humanly possible, loudly making their way into their respective rooms completely ignoring me and my room.

I look around my dark room and leave the light off as I lay on my bed and breathe slowly taking mind of my breathing otherwise I might start to cry. I feel the crushing pain in my heart chest and shoulders start to lift and I close my eyes clutching onto my blankets and going onto my phone to read something online to try and pretend im there and not in my bed half tempted to cry for hours on end.

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A crash from the main room of the house wakes me up and I sit up in bed, startled. I look around and find my phone in the bedding and try to turn it on for a flashlight but no response to me pressing the buttons. I sigh and toss my phone on the bed realizing that the battery is dead, I get off my bed and look around my room and step through the mountains of garbage laundry and old toys "god I need to clean this place" i say knowing full well I wont do anything about it. I place my hand on my door knob and feel the pain in my heart and chest stab at me again and I take a breath as I open the door tensing up my muscles and noticing that the TV is on even though it's completely dark outside.

I step out quietly and go to turn the TV off knowing that whoever turned it on is probably going to get in huge trouble in the morning. I imagine my sister and shake my head trying not to think of what my mum will do if she found out. I turn away from the TV hoping she didn't notice it was on and look around the house not noticing abything out of place and rub the side of my head and head to the bathroom and look in the mirror. "Must've just been the TV" i mumble as I check out the marks on my neck seeing that theres bruises around the parts where her nails dug in but aside from that pretty much just the scratches. I feel my stomach growl and ache and I just sigh and continue to look at myself in the mirror. "Just shut up already" I say directed to my stomach as I use the bathroom and go back to bed.

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I wake up to my siblings fighting about something lunch related for school and I get up and out of bed grabbing my phone and charger wishing I hadn't woken up at all and just stuffing them in my pockets. I brush my hair and leave my room, my siblings saying hi but I just ignore them. I go into the kitchen and find my mother cooking something at the stove and she turns to me smiling. I feel confusion take over my entire body and stop directly in my tracks.

"Goodmorning sweetie! Would you like some eggs?" She asks and I stay still as if the stillness will trick her into thinking I'm not there. She stays still too and I glance at my siblings who are both looking at my confused, I clear my throat and reach my hand up to my neck as I look back at her and she practically hops and goes to the fridge "Thirsty? I think we have juice!" I feel my throat completely dry up and I back away and smile at my brother and sister before taking a breath in to try and say something "im.. okay... thanks" My siblings look at me and I nod towards her and they shrug and continue to get ready for school. "Well I made you guys some lunches for school, theyre in the fridge" she says sickeningly sweet. I grab my throat and start to squeeze where she grabbed the day before, feeling the bruises ache, I feel tears raise to my eyes and I watch her go back to making eggs.

A fit of rage boils in my chest and I go over to the fridge, ripping it open I see it completely stocked full of food causing the anger to boil over "what are you doing!?" I yell at her and she jumps back flinging an egg out of the pan onto the wall and she looks at me shocked "my goodness!" She says and I slam the fridge closed "after the s:hī:t that happened yesterday? Now? Now is when you want to pull the good mother card? What is this!? What are you trying to pull here!?" I scream at her as tears fall from my eyes and I feel my throat scratching and aching as I yell. My siblings quiet down and watch from the hallway "why are you doing this!?" I yell feeling my voice waver and I start to cry and she just looks at me confused and I grab at my neck feeling it close around me.

The silence rings through the house as the eggs on the stove sizzle and crackle in the background and she stays still as if shes analyzing the situation. "Is cps here again?" I ask through a whimper and she looks around and pauses on my siblings and she smiles at them weakly seemingly trying to convince them that things are okay. She moves towards me slowly and puts her hand on my shoulder which I flinch away from and step away from. She pulls her hand away and looks at me, I stare at her eyes trying to find even a flicker of the malice she typically has but I look away and storm out the back door letting the screen slam behind me. I pause and wait on the steps while listening to them and hear my siblings ask her why I hate them.

I feel the tears flow heavily as I start to hyperventilate while I listen to them have a good morning and then them leave to go to school. I listen as the bus comes, stops and then drives away and I get up off the step and walk through the yard to the shop in the back and get into the drivers seat of my dads car and sob. I hear the shop door open after a while and I hear some shuffling of papers while I try to get myself under control. I find a way to still my breathing and listen as she walks over to the window and knock on it. I pull the crank to roll the window down a little bit and she leans down to speak through the crack, "license and registration please" she half heartedly jokes and I turn away from her and the window. "Listen- I kno-" I glare out the window at her "Who are you" I ask firmly and she pauses.

"what?" She asks after what seems like forever and I turn towards her and open the door pushing her away, allowing me to get out. "Who. Are. You." I say again looking her up and down. "You look like her and you sound like her but... you're just not. So who are you" I demand and she sighs "to think id be found out this soon." She chuckles and I watch her feeling a twinge of anger prick at my body. I watch as the colour drains from her skin and her eyes flood to black, she crosses her arms while watching me for a reaction but I give no such thing.

"I thought this integration thing would be a lot easier, but you're good." She says and chuckles a bit " you spotted me. Just like that!" She says as she steps closer and I keep my eyes trained on her "its impressive really!" She says and I keep staring at her and we stay like this for a couple long moments before she goes to step closer "so what now? You chop me and my family up and eat us?" I ask and she pauses and I see a look of pure amusement light up her face "Im sorry,,, what?" She asks before laughing "no silly! We come to an agreement where I study your family for... hm... a month? Or so? And then I return your true mother and we continue on with our lives" she says and I freeze "no." I practically shout and she stays still and the amusement disappears from her face.

"I mean," I pause and close the car door, clearing my throat "I meant to say..." I take a deep breath and wipe my tears away and look at her properly, she stays still. "If you stay, like, permanently- or at least until my sister moves away I won't say a word to anyone. Just keep,,, her,,, away." I say and the creature infront of me starts to nod slowly "Okay..." she says and steps closer, I look away as the colour returns to her and she goes to put her hand on my shoulder, "I think, I understand" she says as her cold hand gently takes my shoulder and slowly leads me into a hug. I take a deep breath and try not to cry, "It's okay now" she says as she gently squeezes me more into the hug and I feel my body uncontrollably break down in her arms.

The end! Thanks for reading I know it was long and probably really rough but it felt good to write so at least one person enjoyed it :)

Your family member has been abducted and replaced by an alien who is really bad at their job of pretending to be them. However, you don’t complain because the alien is still a vast improvement over the original

[marauder-exe]

AU list!

hi! These are a bunch of Au’s that i could write,and you could request! (reposting because it didnt work the first time)

General

Fake dating (My personal favourite)

Soulmates

Coffee shop

Modern Royalty

Rockstar

Running From The Police

Rebel Against The Goverment

High School

University

Law school

Delayed-Flights-And-Were-Stuck-In-The-Airport-And-Its-Like-2Am

Roommates

Road Trip

Arranged Marriage

Im-Arranged-To-Marry-Your-Brother-But-Were-In-Love

Amnesia

Tattoo-Artist-And-Coffee-Shop-Worker

Loved-Since-Childhood

Professor-Student (of age)

Met-On-Holiday

More detailed

21.You were singing/playing guitar/etc. in the park to protest the war and a policeman tried to dismiss you for 'disturbing the peace' but you argued that you were promoting peace and things got heated and next thing you know you're being arrested for assaulting an officer. You intrigue me, so I'm here to bail you out and maybe take you on a date?

22.the nice one who everybody loves with the grumpy and strict one that the students hate and the students wonder?????????how what the fuck

23.we just had a one-night stand but a massive storm hit so now we’re snowed in, hello awkward

24. i sit at the rental booth at our local ice rink and watch you teach children how to skate

25. alternatively, i watch kids teach you how to skate because you’re a terrible skater

26. i’m running late to an important interview/meeting and you accidentally spill your hot cocoa all over my outfit

27. you’re my hot ski instructor and i’m failing the bunny hill

28. i slip on some ice and you’re the stranger who catches me

29.  i gave my winter coat to a homeless person and come into your store to warm up

30. our friends rent a cabin to go skiing and we’re the only ones who stay inside

31. you’re the asshole of our group and we don’t get along, but then i find out you make soup for the local shelter

32.we’re waiting in line for the club when you complain that your roommate stole your gloves so let me warm your hands up with mine

33.my family invites you to join our holiday meal as an obvious setup and i’m so sorry

34.the power goes out in our apartment building, but i’m not prepared for this, and you come to check on me

35.i’m having a snowball fight with my friend in the park and i hit you instead

36.a storm is delaying our flight home and i’m afraid of thunder, please talk to me while we wait

37. we’re both in small claims court and i got into a huge fight with the person suing me but you stepped in to hold me back before security got there

38. i drove two hours to the closest video rental store that’s still operating and you were checking out the only copy of the movie i was after

39. i hit you with my car but luckily you’re okay, but we should still exchange information i guess

40. i was worried about buying something off of someone creepy from craigslist but oh no you’re hot

41. my friend talked me into playing a drunken game of spin the bottle even though we’re all adults and now we have to make out

42. we both decided to take a [yoga/fencing/cooking etc] class and we’re the only two assholes not taking it seriously and everyone else is giving us dirty looks but we keep grinning over at each other

43. my date just made a scene in public and got arrested and now i’m stranded in a city without a ride home

44. sharing a cab together

45. you’re trying to get me to sign a petition and i have no idea what you’re talking about

46. you’re drunk at this festival and dancing on the table and when you eventually fell i caught you

47. we both play this stupid game online and you keep beating me every single goddamn time so i called you out and you are pretty cute but can you not

48. im a bartender and you just came in here without shoes sat down and ordered a chocolate volcano and idk what the fuck that is and im scared to ask

49. we are neighbours and every night at 3:14 am you start yodeling for no fucking reason??? why???? is that you yodeling??? its been 2 months???

50.im a pizza delivery person and i just delivered a pizza to someone in the middle of a satanic ritual and they gave me their number???

51. i woke up this morning to find you sitting in my living room with a goat in a poncho??? who are you??? why is the goat wearing a poncho??? how did you get the goat in here i live on the 12th floor???

52. we work out at the same gym and you always look super legit but i know you sing hannah montana in the shower and you know i know

53. im a cashier and i saw you stuffing you pants full of potatoes and i would stop you but you already have 27 and i want to see how many you can fit

54. its 4 am and im drunk as fuck in a mcdonalds and you have been watching my trying to eat this burger for 30 minutes

55. i was playing beer pong with a coin and i accidentally threw it right into your eye at a party

56. i’m at the beach and some kids thought it was funny to bury me in the sand when i dozed off can you please dig me out

57. it’s unbearably hot and we’re both fighting over the last handheld electrical fan at the shop at the amusement park

58. hey i just met you, and this is crazy, but i get sunburned really easily so can you please help me put sunscreen on my back?

59. thunderstorm after a menacing heatwave and we’re both getting weird looks for dancing in the rain

60.i have no idea who you are but you just fainted right in front of me holy shit dude you need to drink more in this heat

61. we both chased after the leaving ice cream van like ten-year-olds and now we’re both out of breath and a bit embarrassed

62.i clearly reserved this deck chair by putting a towel on it why on earth are you lying on it who the fuck do you think you are

63. My friends bet I wouldn’t buy these three weird and questionable items and you’re my cashier.

64.Once a week I go visit the pet store just to stare at the cute kittens and puppies and you’re the nice employee who always lets me hold them and wait I think I’m going to cry hold on.

65.You’re the DJ of the University’s radio station and every time you give an opinion on a current event I have to call and argue with you because could you seriously be anymore wrong?

66.We both wait tables at the same restaurant and you’re always mad at me by the end of the night because I make more in tips

67.We have the same class and once a week you wear this graphic shirt I don’t understand and I really want to ask you about it.

68.We both work at the same craft store that literally has no customers so we have nothing to do and I’m always reading at the register but you always have to criticize my book choice what the hell?

69.I’m working the concession stand for this week’s home game and this is the fifth time you’ve come back for snacks wait are you flirting with me?

70. we’re at a bookstore and you and I seem to have similar taste in books have you read this one? How about this one?

71. you look like you need help and I’m a professional roller/ice skater but I don’t want you to feel bad about how much you suck but wow you suck

72. You ordered your food before me and they gave you a drink you didn’t want so you gave it to me

73. We’re sitting at adjacent computers in the library and I’m taking extra care not to look at your screen out of respect but what the fuck do you keep laughing at

74. as a joke I yelled out “happy birthday to someone!” in this store and you called back “thank you!” who are you

75. You heard me talking about a TV show in class the other day and now you’re passionately yelling at me about how good it is we’ve never actually spoken before

76. It’s 10:30 at night and I left my glasses at home so I can’t read any of these labels and you’re one of the only people in the grocery store and GODDAMMIT DO YOU HAVE ANY TOMATO SAUCE WITHOUT CHUNKS

77. We go to the same support group; I have social anxiety and you’re a kleptomaniac who sorta stole my heart

78. You thought you were alone at the bus stop so early in the morning so you started passionately singing Fall Out Boy but your Patrick Stump impression could use some work and I’m not really afraid to point that out

79. I’m an artist and you have a really nice face so would you mind if I drew you?

80. We’re rival up-and-coming singers and every time one of us releases a new single the other does a cover to try to make it better; we’re always trying to top each other and out-cute each other, but half our fans aggressively ship us; our agents use this to their advantage and decide we should do a duet because it’ll be popular; unfortunately now that we’re in the same studio and I’ve seen what you’re like I really wanna know what your lips feel like

81.PLEASE I REALLY CANNOT FIND MY CAT AND I KNOW IT’S THREE A.M. BUT NEIL CATRICK HARRIS AND I WOULD BOTH APPRECIATE THE HELP

82. We were both stood up for dates at the same nice restaurant so we decide to eat together and split the check but I dunno you’re pretty interesting aside from your distractingly enormous eyebrows

83. We met at a mutual friend’s cheesy masquerade party and we agree that the only good thing about this party is the masks so you can’t judge a book by its cover only now that we’ve been talking I want to see your face but I don’t know how to ask

84. You used to date my friend who absolutely hates your guts after a messy breakup and now you’re flirting with me and I really shouldn’t be so interested in you but I am

85.We pass each other every day while we’re biking on the same path so we’ve started smiling at each other and one day you’re stopped because you’re having an asthma attack so I offer you my extra water bottle and now we’re talking and now I’M the one who’s breathless

86.I lost my little sibling in IKEA and I need your help finding them

87.I'm a private detective hired to follow you, but you're endearingly boring and mostly I just like watching you and oops, I sort of find you adorable.

88. You've been sketching me for half an hour now, and just shuffled up to hand me the finished product and it's TERRIBLE but you just wanted an excuse to talk to me.

89.  I'm at an art exhibit and I just badmouthed the art, because I don't get it, okay? And it turns out you're the artist. I'm so sorry, maybe I could get you coffee and you could explain what it was supposed to be?

90. We're the only two people who turned up to an underground gig and it should be awkward, but the band is amazing and you asked me to dance and hey, there's nobody watching but us.

91.  You live in the apartment next to me. We're not supposed to have pets, but I KNOW you have a cat. I'll make you a deal, I won't tell, if you let me pet it.

92.  I punched you because I thought you were insulting my friend, but it turns out you know each other and it was an inside joke and I'm so sorry, let me drive you to the hospital?

93. We both wanted to rent a bike for an hour but the only one they have is a tandem bike

94. I’m on a terrible date and you’re my waitor please help me

95.Our dick landlord just evicted us both

96.I’m your neighbor and I can hear you fucking someone who  shares my name

97. You’re sort of famous and we vaguely know each other through bumping into each other all the time but the media thinks we’re dating

98. Your roommate cheated on me and I just threw your laptop out the window thinking it was his

99. It’s 2am on the night of my 21st birthday and we gotta fix this fucking mess by morning or else we’re fucked

100.Fuck you and your bee farm I’ve had enough

Feel free to use any of these as your own! If you wanna request you could drop an inbox saying ‘ could you do ____ AU with this character’!

[skittles1229]

Old Expectations Die Hard (Dashie x Reader Fanfic)

Chapter One: Weird Circumstances

You know your life is complicated when the friend you always complain to says "you never have a dull moment do you?" I sigh as the weight of the world seems to make it impossible to breath. You see recently things have been rough. I lost my job and my fiance all in the same day, that itself was an unbelievable story. I was so upset and strung out on thoughts of what to do that once i got home early from work i didn't notice the extra car in the driveway. i stepped into my home and my own floors felt as if they'd given way when i saw the guy i thought i'd be spending my life with in bed, with my sister... my sister and i hadn't been on good terms for a while and for a good reason! The drugs she took either made her unreliable and selfish or crazy and murderous. He, of course, pulled the its not what you think, id never hurt you, it was a mistake, and honestly i could write a book out of the excuses i heard in the time of two minutes but maybe another time. Needless to say i left. I never thought about going back and to be honest my sister looked more hurt then i was. I took a job in California a few weeks ago and moved in with my friend (BFF Name). They always seemed to know what to say and honestly i truly believe They  knew me better then i know myself. 

California gave me the biggest culture shock I've ever had. I came from Mississippi, the bible belt and the most rural part of the world. California was sooooo different then what i was use to. The weather is awesome. There's lots of jobs for technical people, at least until you're 45 and then you're considered ancient and you can't possibly know anything when some 23-year old out of Stanford tells you that they know it all. (a little bit of sarcasm there) It's a great place to start a new company, money is available as is talent. The risk of starting a company is lower since you can always find a new job The politics are insane, if you aren't towing the progressive party line you should just STFU. If you even once say that Trump has done something positive, or that Obama did something negative prepare for the wrath. Read the stuff behind the recently filed lawsuit against google for a taste of what it's like. Seriously, don't say a word. The state if structurally bankrupt, although the finances look good because so much stuff is off of the balance sheet. The public pension liability dwarfs the "good" part of the budget, and some day it is coming home to roost. Watch out when it does. The cost of living is absurd, really absurd. I'm not talking just a place to live but gas, electricity, haircuts, milk, pizza, you name it. The traffic is absurd too. (can you tell i like the word absurd) The public transit, although usually on time, is a mess. People are pigs, they throw trash everywhere, the cars are overcrowded almost all the time. 

I've got to say, from how much it sounds like i hate California, i actually don't.  Mainly because its so far away from my original family, leaving really helped me start to grow up and feel like maybe i was getting a hold of my life again. Only problem has been getting to my new job on time. I work as a barista and a waitress at a brunch place a good minute away from the apartment. The money is good, otherwise i wouldn't waste my time with the commute everyday. i keep being late to work because i still haven't adjusted to how terrible traffic is and so my boss was "nice" enough to switch me to the later shifts. The hours are long and boring because my shift starts in the middle of rush hour to the slowest hours at the end of the day meaning you have to find things to keep yourself busy with. the only good thing is, we can wear pretty much anything we want as long as its black. all i wear is dark colors so i didn't have to spend any extra money on a uniform and i didn't have to wear the same thing everyday. Today i decided i wear a v-neck shirt that with an emperor waist (body forming) with black skinny jeans and my regular converse. i decided against driving to work and decided it would be far smarter to catch a bus to the nearest destination. My (hair color) hair was done is a fishtail messy braid, i always liked this style because it made me look like i had a head full of hair when in reality i thought i was going bald. 

My personality was a little odd, you see some days i felt like the beautiful nerd who has no confidence and wants to hide away in a hole. other days i feel like a model from Victoria secrets, of course those are the days i get the most tips. today was honestly a mutual day, where id rather be at home in my bed asleep, or listening to music. The bus finally stopped a block away from my job and i sighed obviously not wanting to go into work. surprisingly there wasn't nearly  as many cars as there usually is around this time but i wasn't complaining. i walk in to see that most of the downstairs was empty but whoever was upstairs definitely had a loud mouth. i walk to the back in order to clock in and i bump into melany ( the girl im shifting with). "wow you actually got here on time! Maybe the boss's mood will cheer up." i huffed a little. "yea, i dont know why i thought id need a car in California, say whats with the low level of customers? its NEVER this slow." she looked at me in disdain, "some guys reserved the entire upstairs and we had to make this huge table out of all our tables up there, glad im not gonna be the one fixing it later." i rolled my eyes, i hated when a huge family came in and they just had to move everything around because little johnny wants the sit next to suzzie and suzzie HAS to sit by her parents bc she likes to throw her food on the floor, all fake names but a real situation ive been in before. "well have they at least been fed so that i only have to clean up after them?" she shook her head while hanging up her apron. "nope, they've only ordered their drinks and they are getting those onto trays now." so today was gonna be like every other day. "guess i better go help them take those upstairs then, have a good rest of your day." i walk away and slip on my apron, grabbed one of the trays of drinks while another waiter grabbed the rest of the drinks. Once i got upstairs, that's when i met him...

Chapter Two: Last Will and Testament

          He was sitting on the far end of the long table of people laughing and joking. everyone seemed to be loud and all had their own inside jokes. This guy, he stuck out. i changed my attention to the task at hand, finishing this shift. i hated when people moved all the tables and seating around. all the waiters and waitresses have to go back behind them and look at the layout of the floor to put them all back exactly as they were before. it was a struggle and because of this nobody actually wanted that job so usually the manager gives it to her least favorite workers and i happened to be one. "who all had coke?" nobody answered me so one of the men bellowed out the same line and somehow was able to get a show of hands. i walked around handing  out drinks, catching the lingering smell of strong liquor. i could tell by the end of tonight they would all be wasted and loud. please, just don't make more of a mess then you have to, i thought to myself. i had one drink left on my tray, "sweet tea?" the guy i saw before at the end of the table waved his hand and i dreaded going over there, i always seem to make a fool of myself when it matters. 

     i make my way slowly down the table with the tray under my arm and the tea in my hand. i lean over to sit his drink on the table.."here's your t-" *CRASH* while joking with one of his friends his elbow crashes into my hand sending the tea flying all over me and the cup crashing to the floor, thank god i wore black. he turned around and looked more horrified then i did. "i'm sorry! i'm so sorry!" his voice was deeper then i imagined it'd be. "no, it my fault i'm sorry ill get you a new one." i turned away to hide my embarrassment and walked away really just trying to get away from the situation. i could tell from the silence behind me that all eyes were on me. i ran to the back where the lockers were for the service. i went to the bathroom and stripped the sticky clothes off throwing them aside. i sat on the toilet  trying to catch my breath, my social anxiety had struck me  hard. a feeling of worthlessness and dread fell over me like a blanket. after the past few months i've had just one day without something terrible happening would mean the world to me. i heard a knock on the door, it was melany, she walked in with a towel from the kitchen. "hey, i heard what happen upstairs are you ok?" i covered my breast trying keep myself as unexposed as possible. "oh yea im fine, im just cold, and sticky, and... covered in tea." melany and i made eye contact and both laughed just to lift the dread in the air. "let me guess, all the guys are getting a kick out of watching me fumble again huh?" i said a little less concerned and more annoyed. she rolled her eyes "they are boys, they get a kick out of picking their own nose. we both slid to the floor beside each other, she hands me the damp towel. i get most of the sticky off as possible, throwing my hair up to make it look less clumped together by the sugar. "i have an extra black t shirt in my locker but i don't know how it will fit you. your breast are at least a size larger then mine." i shrugged my shoulders, "who cares ill make do. thanks for your help melany." she smiled her weird anime girl smile and ran to get the shirt from her locker.

     ill have to admit, she was right about the size thing. it was far to small around the chest area but the rest fit fine. after the incident my boss stuck me down stairs wiping tables and sweeping the floor, i dont mind though because i get to experience the day coming to an end with a beautiful sunset over California. i secretly kept the the window to watch as the sun fell from the sky. the sky seemed to burn and darken while the clouds began to glow with the last bit of sunlight left. the sky filled up with burning Burgundy and faded orange and yellows, the tallest buildings seemed to reach for the skyline as if it were a sunflower moving to the last drip of sunlight. moving here had been hard, and this had become one of the things i looked forwards to. living in the apartment with my friend was nice, buts its not the same as coming home to someone you use to lay with every night. sleeping alone seemed so much colder and emptier then i remembered from childhood. my mother would be so disappointed in the way i turned out, in the places id gone and the decision to spend my life with someone who was most obviously the wrong one. she would have told me to slow down and to take my time, that growing up wasn't everything. she would have said love isn't something you just wake up and have, its something you make. i wasn't anywhere close to where i thought id be by now, and i could see that. it tears at my heart everyday, not being able to see her or any of my family. sometimes it felt as if they'd all died in the fire that night. 

     i suddenly heard a boom of voices making their way down the stairs, i hadn't realized how close to closing time it had become. all of them walk out stumbling and laughing at their own jokes, seems they all got a good bit of drinking in, all except one. The guy i ran into on accident seemed as sober as ever, designated driver i think, he was much taller now. he seemed muscular but in such a fitting way for his body. his teeth sparkle because their so white, his smile complimented him best. his high cheekbones made his chocolate brown eyes his best feature. His skin was glowing with a sweet honey hue and before i could notice that i was staring he turned his head. his eyes met mind before i could think twice and that's when i felt the heat rise to my cheeks. weather it be from embarrassment or silly school girl shyness i didn't know . i turned my face away but it was too late, i turned my face a little just to catch a glimpse of him before he made his way out of the door and that's when i noticed his cheeks had gone from a burnt caramel to a rosy color. i felt my body shiver at the thought that maybe, just maybe he found me as attractive as i found him. i shook the thought from head realizing they had began locking the place down. as i helped close up shop and wash dishes i couldn't help but to let my mine wander to all different kinds of thoughts, funny thing was they always fell back to him and his rosy  cheeks. i couldn't help but smile as i felt my heart race at the thought of him, even though id made a fool of myself today i was glad i hadn't ruined my chances. Even if he'd never get with me or i wouldn't ever see him again, i'd still take it as a compliment that he even looked my way. 

     before long we were all outside laughing and talking about today. The manager locked the doors and said his goodbyes. i turn to walk towards the bus station when i see a man standing aside awkwardly between the restaurant and the parking lot. suddenly my eyes adjusted and once they did, the joyousness butterflies came back and the blush suddenly reappeared on my cheeks..

There are lots more chapter after this if you are interested you can find them here

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[i-need-to-stop-stanning]

Stray Kids Reaction To Meeting You For The First Time (Hyung Line)

Each member has a different scenario, this is my first reaction. Hope you enjoy!💜

Bang Chan/Chris

Chan has decided that the boys needed to get out of the house and unwind a little. So he did what any rational father of 7 would do, and got them all a day off from practicing to go to the amusement park. The 00 line, and Jeongin we’re having the time of their life, being able to embrace their childlike side for a day, and Changbin and Minho were enjoying the food that was offered. Chan wasn’t really big on rides, so he decided to sit on a bench in front of the ride that the “kids” had dragged Woojin to this time. He had such a genuine smile on his face watching his hardworking younger members get to have fun as a reward for all the work put into the comeback. While Chan was engrossed in his thoughts, he didn’t even notice the person sit next to him. He was brought out of his thoughts by the sigh of the girl sat to his right. He turned his head to see the prettiest girl he has ever laid his eyes on. Her H/L H/C flowed in the wind and looked oh so soft. He wanted to pet her. Her big E/C eyes shone behind her glasses as she sunk in on herself, practically drowning in the jean jacket, far too big for her. She was staring intentivly at the ride in front of her. He decided to ask if she was okay. “Oh yes im fine thank you. I just got out of going on that ride with my friends. Gosh I would have died.” He chuckled at her hyperbole. “My names Chan, what’s yours?” He asked with a shy smile, showing of his dimple. “I’m Y/n” she replied equally as shy. “Wanna go find something we can do together that doesn’t involve scary rides, Y/N?” He stuck his hand out for her to take and she placed hers into it. He drug her off to find something to do that would be fun for the both of them.

Woojin

The 00 line had dragged him to karaoke in the late hours of the night because they weren’t allowed to go anywhere after they had caused chaos from sneaking out on their own for snacks. Woojin was sat on the couch in the back of the room as Seungmin sang to a BTS song and Felix proved he knew the choreography to it. Hyunjin and Jisung were playing a game on their phone, since they were waiting for their turn. As he began to drift off due to his lack of sleep he heard something. Something beautiful. Someone beautiful. Someone across from them was singing Voices and they were killing it. All the boys froze as they realized the familiar melody and Woojins normal high note being sung perfectly. Felix was the first to exit the room in order to find which room the music was coming from. The music was muffled through the door of the room at the end of the hall. Felix knocked, and waited until a girl about 5’6 opened the door and went wide eyed. “Oh my god, y-you’re Fel-lix le-ee” he gave her his signature smile and asked if they could come in. The girl, still shaking a bit, opened the door wider and they all came into the room as the other girl finishes the song. She turns around eyes closed and a big smile on her face as she practically screams “ Y/F/N, I got 100 dude. Yasss. I’m so happy” she began to jump up and down, and finally opened her eyes. She stopped. Her jaw fell slack as she looked at them. Her eyes on Felix, then Seungmin, Hyunjin, Han, and finally me. We locked eyes and I finally got a good look at her. She was maybe even more beautiful than her voice. Her E/C eyes were so entrancing behind her bangs that looked as though they needed trimmed. Her H/C castcading off her head in loose curls. Her extremely soft looking lips in an O due to her shock. Once she calmed down a little they all introduced themselves, even though the two girls already knew they names of the boys. Her name turned out to be Y/N. Was their anything about this girl that wasn’t pretty? The answer was no. They talked for a while when jisung and her friend began to sing a song they put on. The night was coming to an end, and Woojin knew he couldn’t let this beautiful girl walk out of his life, so he got her number. On the walk him the boys teased him, but Woojin didn’t care. All he could think about where those eyes.

Lee Know/ Minho

Minho was the one to order the take out tonight. Oh how he hated the day when it was his turn. The whole gang had decided that they wanted pizza after getting home from dance practice and when looking at the chart they had on the fridge, it was indeed Minhos turn to call. He dialed the closest pizza place that was still open and waited till someone picked up. “Good evening, this is the Bake n’ Take, how may I help you?” A cheery voice spoke into the monitor and he wondered if she knew It was not evening but midnight. “Ah yes can I please get one large supreme pizza, one large pepperoni, and one medium cheese please?” “Will that be all sir?” She asked in a friendly tone “that should do it” “that will be 35,000 won sir, and it should take about 40 minutes to get to you, have a nice night!” He hung up after saying the same to her, and went into the living room to watch the movie with the rest of his group. About 45 minuets into the new incredibles movie the doorbell rang and everyone pointed at Minho to answer it. He reluctantly got out of the crease he created in the sofa and trudged to the door, grabbing his wallet off of the island in the kitchen. He opened the door, and was greated by someone so beautiful they took his breath away. Her H/L fell perfectly under her bright red baseball cap that had the logo of the ‘Bake n’ Take’ on it. Her polo shirt overtop the black long sleeve shirt had the same logo embroidered to the right side of it. Her hands filled with pizza boxes up to her nose and you could only see her glistening eyes. Minho could have swore he could see the stars swimming in her smiling eyes. “Sir, did you order three pizzas? Supreme, pepperoni, and cheese?” She asked as she read the reciept on the top of the box. “Yeah that’s me.” He said smiling at her. “That will be 35,000 won please.” She handed him the pizza boxes and gave him a warm smile as he got the money from his wallet. When he looked up, he caught sight of her name tag. The small golden plate read “Y/N” in black letters. He gave her the money, thanked her and watched as she descended the stairs, back to the grand lobby and off to give more pizza to other people. He would have to order from them again.

Changbin

3 Racha had decided to go busking since they hadn’t in a while, and to get out of the dorm. They packed up some mics, speakers and all the Necessary cords to plug everything up, before getting dressed to look their best. They got on the bus to the busy street near all the shopping centers. They set up there station and began their first song, Matroshkya. A crowd began to form around them and some Stays spread the word, the crowd becoming quite large. As For You began to play it began to drizzle. Oh how Changbin loved this weather. He began his verse when he looked up and saw you. The cutest thing he has ever seen. A beautiful girl was smiling happily as you moved to the music. Her H/L H/C bouncing in its place. The bangs styled on her forehead blocking her eyes slightly, but not enough to block the orbs behind her round glasses. She was smiling right at Changbin. Orbs meeting orbs. He smiled back and continued his verse. She had stayed the entire time, and had clapped after every song. While they were packing up, she decided to go up and thank them for their performance. Changbin has been left to clean up all their equipment while Chan and Jisung decided to get them all some food, because they were drained of energy. While Changbin was bent over stuffing cords into one of the backpacks they brought, he heard small steps growing closer. He stood to his feet, only to see her. The one he couldn’t stop looking at the whole performance. “You were great out there, thank you for coming to perform” she spoke with a shy smile pushing a bit of hair behind her ear. He blushed a crimson color and returned her smile “thank you, I’m glad you enjoyed it...” he trailed off waiting for her to give him her name. “Oh, Y/N, my name is Y/N” she said chuckling slightly. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, Y/N.” He kissed the back of her hand causing her to giggle. God, could this girl get any cuter? Changbin thought. “How about I give you my number and i can tell you when we will be back again?” He asked hopeful. “Oh yes, of course” she fumbled with her phone and gave it to him. He plugged his number in and named himself ‘baby Changbinnie💕’ before handing her phone back. “I hope to get a text from you cutie” He spoke with a playful wink before running off to find CB97 and J.ONE. They would be shook that SPEARB got himself a cute girls number.

[lesbitchka]

alright, so i worked as a guide for one of the choirs at this competition for choirs from different parts of the world. three other people and i were assigned to the turkish group, which amounted to somewhere around 140 people, because along with the choir kids came their parents and a family run travel agency of 3 people

the choir by itself would have been perfectly fine, but the parents and the agency were set on treating the event as a personal holiday rather than an organized competition, and that’s where majority of the conflict arose

THURSDAY

one other guide and i are going to prague (300+ km) by bus to pick up our half of the group. the dispatcher wrote down the wrong times, so we were running an hour late. the other bus is on its way from germany and hits traffic

my bus driver tells me that he doesn’t like tattoos on women and asks me if it’s true that tattooed women are hornier, slaps my ass, keeps asking tmi questions

we’re an hour late, the other bus is two hours late. we inform Aysen, the lady from the travel agency that’s coming along with our half, together with her son. Ali, the husband, is in the other half of our group that arrived in the morning and went on to have a prague tour

both Aysen and Ali keep calling the respective guides every 10 minutes, asking when we’re gonna be there (Z - the other guide - and me in Aysen’s case, K and D in Ali’s). K and D’s buses weren’t even late or anything

“how much longer” “we’ll be there in half an hour soonest, 45 minutes is more likely” ..... 10 minutes later ..... “where are you” “half an hour away”

finally we arrive and while Z stays to wait for the other bus, i go back with the first bus and the first batch of people. it’s 15:30. the second bus wont be coming for another hour. the opening ceremony of the competition is at 18:00, more than 300 km away (a 4 hours long drive by bus at best)

Aysen demands we stop at the first gas station and wait the hour until their bus catches up. i refuse - the choir is on my bus, we’re gonna try to get to the ceremony

the second bus (with Z and Aysen on it) leaves the airport at 16:30. the ceremony is starting in an hour and half. traffic is bad that day. Aysen announces, that they are gonna make it. “I don’t want to hear any ‘buts’!”

my bus passes by a recent accident on the road, about halfway through. we’re lucky, the road isn’t closed yet, but the police are about to stop traffic. my bus driver calls the other one to inform him of the situation, so they can take a different route instead of getting stuck in a traffic jam for who knows how long

Aysen shoves her phone screen in front of the 2nd bus driver’s face. “why are we going this way? google maps shows that going this route is faster”

this route being the blocked one, of course. this happens three more times

“one child needs to pee” says Aysen. Z explains that there’s no gas station on the way and won’t be for a while and asks if stopping by a tree or bushes is okay. “one child. one child” repeats Aysen

they stop by a cluster of bushes. the bus door opens, five children and four adults get off the bus. “where are they supposed to go here?” Aysen asks

the ceremony ends at 19:30. their bus arrives to the hotel after 21:30

FRIDAY

it’s the day of the competition. there are too many people to transport at once, so we’re going in two halves by two buses. the first half is mostly parents and some children. the other half is most of the children, who are practicing at the hotel still, we’re told they’re gonna leave at 9:00. the children were assigned a changing and rehearsal room at the competition venue for 10:00-10:15

the first bus is ready at 8:30. there are about five people in front of the hotel, standing around and ignoring the bus completely. we finally leave a few minutes after 9

the entrance to the venue is from the main square. the square is pretty spacey, and as soon as we arrive to it, adults and children alike run in all worldly directions. we need them to stay together and get into the building

Ali is part of this half. we tell him to gather everyone and quietly follow us into the building. “okay” Ali says and walks away. everyone scatters even further

other choirs are already competing when K, me and our turks get there. one performance takes about 15 minutes

“parents can go to the competition hall and watch” parents and children both pour inside. the children were supposed to stay in the lobby and have the rehearsal at 10. they can’t leave the hall during performances. it’s 10:10. half of our group is inside the hall, the other is still on the way. another choir takes the rooms

back at the hotel, at 9:00, Z and D tell Aysen to gather everyone and get on the bus. “one more song” she says. the same repeats at 9:15 and 9:30. finally, they agree to get on the bus. one of the parents forgot something at the hotel and runs back inside. at 9:50, the bus hasn’t left the hotel

finally, they arrive to the venue. i grab one of the choir teachers and tell him to dive into the hall and grab the children. they won’t be allowed to compete if they’re not all gathered in the lobby at 10:20, which is when they’re to perform. the teacher is confused, but does what he’s asked. he’s one of the few reasonable people there, but communication is hard, since his english is mostly basic

finally, all the children are in the lobby, all the parents are seated inside. the teacher asks “why all children here? can they not watch?” i explain again that all the children need to be in the lobby if they want to be allowed to compete. we’re all operating on the assumption that all of the children are one choir group. the teacher is confused. i’m confused. finally, we find the root of the problem

“there are two choirs. some children sing in 4 hours in a different cathegory” this is the first time anyone is hearing about this. we had no idea and neither did the management. i let the teacher take the currently not competing children to go sit inside while the competing group gets on stage. they use the wrong doors to both enter and exit. i befriend the doorman and other staff. they sympathise with my misery

we have a lunch reservation for 12:00 for the first third of the group, 12:30 for the second third and 13:00 for the last. i tell Aysha to divide everyone into three groups so we know who’s who, so that we can arrive in time

“we’ll make groups at 12″ she ignores me when i explain that we need to already be seated in the restaurant by then

in the end, the first group are the youngest children along with the choir teachers and Ali + Z and D, second are the older children, Aysen and some parents + K and me, third are the remaining parents + K and D

Ali tells us to move the reservation to 11:30. the restaurant staff tell us that we can arrive whenever, so at roughly 11:15 the first group arrives

a tour of the city was scheduled with Z and D for after dinner and the other half of the competition, so after 14:30. Aysha insists that K and I, who are not prepared for a tour in the slightest, show the second group around

the third group of parents meanwhile scatter everywhere, and they’re due to meet at one spot at 13:00. which is some time after they’re supposed to already be post lunch with the new lunch times

we arrive with our group to the restaurant at 11:40. the first group is still eating. they’re still eating at 12. i ask Ali to speed things up. it takes 10 more minutes. D and Z take the group to visit two local churches

the reservation is inside the restaurant, but everyone gathers on the terrace, which is for other guests. the children are blocking the waiters’ path, children and adults both are taking up tables. then the first group joins in and there’s even more chaos while the staff get the inside ready again. i manage to send the first group off the terrace, but all our children sit down and take up even more outside tables

finally we can go eat, but Aysha and her group of adults refuse to move from the outside table. “our reservation is inside. you wont receive food here” i tell her. “dont organize” she tells me in a crude voice. organizing is literally my job. i leave to have my lunch and tell the staff to not worry and ignore them. they arent getting food unless they go sit inside. the staff are very friendly to me and K and we see the pity in their eyes

10 minutes before we’re supposed to be clearing out, Aysha&co finally find their way inside. when we have about 2 minutes left, i tell the children to go wait outside. i also tell Aysha that their table needs to clear out so the third group can come eat. K had gone to get them. “we leave when we’ve finished eating” says Aysha. i tell the staff to feel free to kick them out. they do. they also find out that we’re coming back for dinner and they wave me goodbye, terrified for me and them both

of course, everyone outside gathers in the middle of the terrace, blocking the path yet again. i tell them to leave. the children listen, but Aysha is ignoring me and an adult sarcastically asks me if she’s allowed to stay as a paying customer and have a coffee. they laugh

im going to meet up with our boss now and i call K that he’s clear to bring the third group inside. K is standing by the meeting spot, but he’s all alone. “guess they wont have lunch then” we’ve resigned

my boss fears whats gonna happen tomorrow, which is when i’m supposed to go to vienna with the adults by myself. so am i. she’s great and stands behind us in everything, already scheduling for us to meet with the director and main manager of the event so we can re-tell everything and see what can be done

then i come back after the second half of the competition to find out that while D was showing the kids feat. Ali the first church, the slovinian choir was inside, singing christian songs. they had it arranged with the church

but in the second church, our turkish bunch decided that they want to sing too. Ali asks D if they can do that, but when she’s explaining that they really can’t sing non-christian songs and wave the turkish flag inside a christian church, the kids have already gathered and are doing exactly that, and filming it on their phones. “one more song” repeats Ali and cheers them on. they sing for a good 15 minutes, while D stands outside, torn between yelling at them and crying

the city is the seat of the archbishop by the way. he’s literally one or two streets away from the church our entitled bunch of morons just desecrated

our boss nearly cries too when D calls her

we let everyone walk freely around the square for the next hour, while we wait for the awarding ceremony to begin on one of the stages standing in one of the square’s corners. we’re fearing dinner, and we have to get everyone to the hotel and back before that starts

Aysen asks about the buses when all four of us guides are standing by and waiting for everyone to gather. i start to answer. “i’m not talking to you” she bats her hand at me and drags K away. we’re all stunned

walking to the bus is a huge problem. we have two buses, so the first one has to drive the first group and come back for the third after. the nearest parking place where everyone can wait is a 10 minute walk away. Ali bitches constantly about the distance. he’s in the first group supposed to get on the bus, but everyone stops about 4 times and drags their feet. they stop traffic while crossing the street twice

in the end all three groups arrive to the parking lot at around the same time. Ali complains that only one bus is ready. there’s no space for the other bus until the first one has left

we plan for dinner differently. we only have one bus at out disposal now and we plan to send it out in 30 min intervals, so the groups aren’t in the city too early. we go over the schedule with Ali and Aysen, who write down the times and leave, saying nothing

dinner is at 18:00, 18:30 and 19:00. 19:00 till 20:30 is an open air concert at the square that everyone wants to go to. the first bus, which i’m coming with, is ready to leave at 17:45, but no one’s getting up, despite some children sitting in the hotel lobby. they tell me that they aren’t supposed to be leaving until 18:00, which is when the teachers who are coming along are coming down. the bus leaves at 18:20 and it’s past 18:30 when we get to the restaurant

Ali comes running to yell at Z when the second group is supposed to be getting on the bus that “everything is fucked up and everything would be great and perfect if he and Aysen were the ones organizing everything”. nor he nor Aysen remember agreeing to our time schedule, or that there was a time schedule

the waiter approaches me as soon as we arrive. Aysen and her table didnt pay for their beers and stuff they had at lunch

the second and third group insist on going right away and then complain that they have to wait on the square while the children finish eating. D joins me with the choir conductor and her right and left hand men, who were meeting with the jury. they help me get the kids seated, pick their food and finish it and leave the restaurant within a reasonable amount of time. they were hanging out with D for about an hour and bought her a perfume to “have something to remember them by”. we love these guys

the second group moves to lunch and my (and now also D’s) group arrive to the open air concert that had already started. the kids are supposed to depart to a children’s party at 20:00. i ask one of the right hand men if we can go there, since it’s 19:50 and the children are standing around and playing, bored. he tells me that the children are tired and won’t be going. i call Z, one of our group goes to talk to Ali

then Ali arrives and commands me to immediately take them to the bus, that everyone’s too tired to attend a party and that everyone’s going home right away. which, hey, good, we don’t have to stick it out with them and drive them to the hotel after the party, but the bus driver wasn’t expecting us to call so soon since we’d be going to the party on foot and so he takes half an hour to arrive for us

Ali is furious again that everything is taking too long and we had to walk too far meanwhile, even after i convince the driver to pick us up at a bus stop closer than the parking lot 10 minutes away

we meet with our boss after sending everyone to the hotel, and after telling her everything, she takes us to the main office to retell everything to the director and main manager. they are furious and leave to yell at Aysen, who stayed behind at the restaurant after dinner. we have no idea how to survive the remaining two days. K is coming to vienna with me

SATURDAY

Vienna

we already know that there’s gonna be a problem, because the travel to vienna is 4 hours. Aysen wants to leave at 16:00. the closing concert and absolute winner competition is at 19:00. there’s no way we can make it, but that’s what’s written in her itinerary. ours say to transfer back at 15:00. we dont care at this point. we’ll tell them that they can either stay longer and miss the show or follow our schedule and they can do whatever the fuck they want

the bus to vienna is supposed to leave at 7am. no one’s even outside the hotel yet. we leave at 7:30. we stop at a gas station before the borders. a ten minute break turns into another half an hour delay. Aysen&co sit inside the station by tables and drink coffee and have breakfast. we have a lunch reservation at Gutenberg at 12:00. they dont care

both K and i try to sleep on the way. at one point i hear Aysen say my name, start talking, then see that im sleeping and leave. when i open my eyes, she’s already gone and i have a tepid chuckle. she comes up again some time later. the driver is having none of it and tells her to go sit the fuck down. she hurries away. we have another tepid chuckle

i’m supposed to give the group a tour of vienna, we’re guides after all. an hour before vienna Aysen shows up again. K is sitting by the window, so she leans over me, totally ignoring me, and shows him her phone. “we have to pick up a guide in vienna. do you know this address?” explaining that she has to show it to the driver and ask him if he can even get there (and stop) by bus takes five minutes

the guide gets on. a woman goes to the front of the bus and asks the driver to stop somewhere. she leaves the bus and never comes back

when we get off the bus at 11:30, we tell the guide that there’s lunch reserved for us at Gutenberg at 12 and that it’s up to the group if they want to show up, but if they do, it has to be on time

Aysen is the one that cooperated with the main manager and our boss on ordering the lunch reservations and meals. she says she has no knowledge of a lunch reservation. the group decides to go

the guide gets us to Gutenberg at 11:45. we cant believe it. we’ve never managed to get anywhere on time with these morons. then the guide tells us to arrange with the restaurant and that he’ll take the group to Stephansdom and come back. we warn the waiter to cash in all additional orders right away so that the paying situation from yesterday doesnt repeat. other guests want to sit down at the reserved tables. the waiter gives us looks of both sympathy and annoyance. the group is 15 minutes late

all the food reservations were pre-paid by vouchers for the main course and one soft drink, anything else has to be paid for by the individual people. except in vienna, where they don’t accept vouchers from foreigners, so we were given cash to pay with after

we give the waiter a tip. he turns on his heel and commands the barman to pour us two shots of homemade strawberry vodka. “we’re gonna need it” we say. it’s delicious and the manager talks to us about the recipe. so far, the staff everywhere we’ve been has been amazing and i wish we could give out more tips. they deserve it for dealing with our shitfest of a choir

the guide asks us to come along, even though he is going to lead the group straight to the meeting place and even though i tell him that i know the centre and we can get there without him showing us the way. we’re stuck awkwardly standing around and listening to Vienna Sights 101 in turkish for the next hour

only half of the people are on the meeting spot by maria theresa platz at 16:00, which is when they decided to go. the bus is picking us up behind the naturhistorische museum, which is like 400 metres away. there’s a bus zone in front of the platz, but it’s for VIP vienna tour buses only

K asks Aysen if everyone’s ready to get up from the grass and go to the bus. she says that they will be once the bus arrives to the bus zone. K tells her that either they’re going or they’re staying in vienna. im proud

the bus arrives at 16:05. it’s only allowed to stand there for 10 minutes. we don’t have everyone until well going on 16:30

we sleep on the way back too. fuck them

there’s a car parked in the bus only zone in front of the hotel. it was there in the morning and it’s still there when we get back. the bus driver wants to call the cops. one of our turks gets off the bus and opens the car door. the bus driver goes off on him, yelling in czech. the man is terrified

“i didnt know” he insists. there’s a giant “BUS ONLY ZONE” sign at the parking place

Castle + nearby caves visit

Z and D are going with the rest of the turks to a nearby castle and caves. the whole thing was organized by Ali and Aysen, technically Z and D dont even have to be there. they were told by boss to go sit in the bus and leave them at it if they continue to be unmanageable

the caves manager said that if they’re not on time, they wont be getting a tour. there’s an hour and a half long delay before they even get to the castle

the reserved tour of the castle had passed and the group cant get one for another hour. Z begs the cashier with terror in her eyes. she knows she’ll be eaten alive by Ali, even though it’s his fault. the cashier agrees to give them a tour in 20 minutes after all. Ali is furious that they have to wait 20 minutes. “why cant they give us a tour now???”

in the middle of the tour, one of the adults goes up ahead. he’s nowhere to be found. the castle guide and Z both are desperate and looking for him everywhere, including closed off zones. they find him later, in front of the castle. he went for a smoke

they’re late to lunch. Z has to reschedule for a later time. 4 times. when they get their meal at last, the kids start throwing potatoes at each other. Ali doesnt care

no photos allowed in the caves. the choir is allowed to sing inside. after, they show Z videos they took of their singing

no touching of the walls or structures in the caves. we joked the day before about someone inevitably trying to break off stalagmites. it almost does happen. the cave guide sees the creeping hands and yells

Ali demands 140 seats for all the turks at the closing event. the director calls Z to ask how many people will be coming after all. Ali says: “probably no one” when D asks again later to be sure, he insists that everyone is coming. eventually, he tells Z to announce around 50 people

Ali and his pointer finger aimed up are infamous by now. it’s his go-to reaction. “okay” he says and walks away. nothing is okay

Back Again

there’s an after party for the choirs and the guides/management that night. everyone walks up to us with pity in their eyes. “you’re the turkish guides, right?” they ask in a solemn voice

“what did the turks do?” those who dont know, a minority, ask. “what didnt they do” we say, every time

thailand won the competition. none of the turks show up to the party. no one wants them there

SUNDAY

60 people are going to prague to have a tour before heading to the airport, the rest is going straight to the airport

the day before, Aysen asked how long we’re gonna need to get to prague. the travel is about 4 hours with good traffic, and the driver needs a 45 minute break on the way by law. Aysen moves the go time from 8:30 to 8:00. the other group is to leave 15 minutes earlier. at 8:00, no one’s outside

there’s space for two buses only. the group going straight to the airport has to leave first. several people keep coming up to us, asking where the bus going for prague tour is and why cant they get on one of these buses

all four of us guides are sitting in front of the bus. Aysen comes up to K with her phone. “we need to pick up a guide on this address” she tells him. K is not going with her group, i tell her. she turns to Z, ignoring me entirely. the conductor hugs us goodbye

at last, it’s time for the first buses to go. K is on one of them. Aysen points at me and the second bus, “you can get on too”. i tell her im not going with those. she looks furious. im happy i ruined her day. K and D leave with their buses a little after 8:30. we only have one 65 person bus. we’re ready to go around 8:45

we make a stop halfway through and i announce the obligatory 45 minutes.

Aysen bitches about the long stop, despite having known about the obligatory stop a day in advance. “it’s your fault we’re running late” she says when we’re on the way again and we say that we wont make it in time for our 13:00 lunch reservation. we explain yet again the obligatory pause

“the driver said the doors are open and we can go in any time” yes. he left the door open while people went out to buy stuff, they could go inside and outside the bus any time. Aysen tells us to do nothing about the reservation. “don’t worry, i’ll organize” she says

we want to call ahead, because it’s polite in the least, but we need to know the time for the reschedule. the driver told us that it will be another hour and half until prague, but then we still need to pick up the guide and we don’t know where he’ll want to take them and how long it’s gonna take to reach the restaurant from there. one of the adults sitting next to us, who until now was pretending he didnt know english, practically yells at us to ask the driver how long it’s gonna take

Aysen comes back a few minutes later, voice all honey. “i talked to the guide and he said to reschedule lunch, so call them” i want to point my finger and say “okay”

one of the women comes up to us to ask for the keys to the bus fridge to get a drink. we explain that the driver has to unlock it. she can’t just take the keys. in the end the driver gives me the keys and i go to unlock the fridge. one bottle costs one €, the woman asks if she can pay in CZK. i say that i’ll have to ask the driver, and she asks how much CZK one € is. a man sitting there says 26CZK. i say that it’s anywhere between 25-28CZK and again, i’ll have to ask the driver. he makes a hand talking gesture at me. im livid

we get off the bus where we picked up the guide. we remind him to take the group to lunch in time. “what lunch?” he asks

Z and I go off on our own and meet the group in the restaurant. they arrive on time, probably because it’s raining hard. after food, people start clearing out and going outside. Aysen is still sitting there, so i ask her what the plan is and where everyone’s going. “we’re meeting the guide in 10 minutes and he’ll take us to the bus” there’s no one outside when we step out

“what are you going to do?” asks Aysen. im confused and tell her that we’re also going back to the bus. “you’re going with us to the airport?” she asks, bewildered and disappointed

we drop them off at the airport, at long last. a few adults thank us and several say bye. Aysen’s son stops to say that he had a great time and to look him up on social media. Aysen pretends that she doesn’t see us, turns on her heel and walks away without a word

overall - dont bring in parents and a travel agency, because they’ll treat an organized competition like a holiday and fuck up the entire schedule. next time i want the thai choir

[jaydamybaby]

250 reason why I love you ❤🐘

1. Your smile 😊 2. You’re such a breath of fresh air. You’re your own person. A beautiful person, inside and out. 3. Your laugh 😘 4. Your eyes 😍 so beautiful and brown, they convey so much emotion, I could stare into them for an eternity ❤ 5. Your cute little freckles 6. When you get all shy when I compliment you. 7. Your baby voice 8. When you whine all cute when you dont want me to leave. 9. When you call me randomly to tell me you love me. 10. When you came to the back of the bus to cuddle with me after the state duels. One of my favorite memories. 11. How easily you give me butterflies. 12. How much you love fruit rollups. 13. When you get dressed up for our dates. 14. When you call me a little nasty 😏 15. When you lay on me. 16. You’re so patient with me. 17. Always pushing me to do better, to be better. 18. You’re my biggest supporter. 19. I know no matter what you’ll always want the best for me. 20. You’re so understanding. 21. You’re an amazing person. 22. So passionate. 23. So goal oriented. 24. You’re a little badass 😎 25. You’re my princess 👑 26. You think its cute when I cry. Which is quite frequently. 27. You’ve stuck with me through some really tough times. 28. You’re an amazing kisser 😗 29. Your lips are so soft 😩 30. And you’re a little nasty too 😏😏😏 31. 👅👅👅 32. Lets not forget about the booty 🍑 it gets 10 reasons 😂 42. You love Beyoncé 🍋 43. Your love of music 🎶 44. When you sing 😍 45. When you lay your head on my chest 😩 46. When you do that cute whiney noise when I stop rubbing you. 47. Youre cute little giggle. 48. When you wear the ring I got you ❤ 49. Its pretty cool that I can say my girlfriend is a 4 time state qualifier 3 time state placer and national champ wrestler 😏 50. You’re so respectful 51. You know how to check people when they deserve it. 52. You love pitbulls. 53. You’re going to be an amazing mother. 54. And an amazing wife. 55. When I kiss your forhead and nose. 56. When you told me you liked me and you threw yourself on the floor like an adorable baby elephant 🐘 57. When we went to see Beyoncé together 🍋😊 58. When you play music at night in my car and you lay your head on me 😩 59. When we go on dates. 60. Im comfortable when im with you. Im 100% myself. Im not able to do that with many people. 61. You made me believe in love. 62. You aren’t just my girlfriend you’re my bestfriend. 63. When you say my name all sarcastic when I make a dumb joke. 64. When we went to house of torment. 65. You’re the first person I had Mcdonalds with. 66. Our fight nights. 67. SUPLEX! 😂 68. You know my deepest secrets and my innermost thoughts. 69. You can always make me smile. 70. When you do your nails 😍 71. Your passion for makeup. 72. Your drive to make youtube videos. 73. How you want to be your own boss and start a business. 74. You cuddle me back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night. 75. Cuddles in general 😍😍😍 76. Our hands fit perfectly in each others. 78. When you’d visit me after work and see me and we’d make out in the bathroom 😏 79. The car ride from state 😏😏😏 80. When we’d go on movie dates. 81. You’re my Ele 🐘 82. When you rant to me on the phone. 83. You made my senior year so great. 84. When we’d walk together everywhere in the halls. I’d be late every day 😂 85. When you came to project grad. 86. When you snuck me into your room at Cyfair twice lol 87. That day out on the field listening to Jhene Aiko. 88. Its your face that I wake up wanting to see every morning. 89. Youre my baby. 90. When you pluck my eyebrows. 91. You know my story. 92. We get along so well. 93. I never get tired of seeing your beautiful face. 94. When I was sad on my birthday and you sang happy birthday to me over and over again.

95. When you kiss my hands while im driving. 96. Hugging you from behind. 97. I love curling up and watching movies with you. 98. I cant wait until we move in together. 99. You like when I put my hair in a bun. 100. When we went to the graffiti wall and put our initials on the elephant. Its like it was meant to be ❤ it just happen to be there that day. 101. You always call me to tell me when something happens, whether its funny, sad, angering, or it makes you happy. 102. Our morning mcdonalds runs. 103. When we hang out during your off periods. 104. When I put my hand on your thigh while I drive. 105. When you ignore me to watch youtube 😂 106. When you cuddle with Ele when im gone. 107. When you wear the necklace I got you when I first asked you to be my girlfriend. 108. When we went the the moviehouse and eatery. 109. All those rangertimes we skipped to hang out in the back of the parking lot in my old car 😏 110. When you cut weight and your abs pop like crazy 👅 111. When you wrestle and kickass its sexy as hell. 112. When you went to St. Louis and got be the poster and goody soda and the dream catcher. 113. When we went to the wrestling banquet and we both looked bomb 😉 114. All those bus rides home when we cuddled. 115. The first time you held my hand my heart felt like it was going to burst. 116. When I went way too far our first Christmas and got you everything you’d ever said you liked too me lol 117. When I lost at capital classic and you asked if I wanted to cuddle to cheer me up😍 118. I know youd support me no matter what. 119. I trust you no matter what. 120. You’re my first and hopefully only love of my life. 121. My heart beats your name. 122. When Id come home after working at Bjs and your face would light up when I knocked on the door. 123. When you called me your girlfriend on snapchat. 124. When you gave me our ring from James Avery. 125. When im sleeping and you kiss me awake. 126. In the middle of the night when you snuggle up against me. 127. How your butt looks in nike compression shorts 👅🍑 128. When we bought the vibrator together 😂 129. When we discovered 1431 cafe. 130. You made me believe in true love. 131. I dont want to meet anyone else, I dont need to experience anyone else I dont want too. I found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. 132. Im so excited to start our future together. 133. Its you. when all my dreams come true the one I want standing next to me. Its you. 134. When me, you, Elena, Lauren, and Caleb played cards against humanity. 135. When I went to Japan and thought about you the entire time I was gone, wishing you were there to experience it with me. 136. Your moan 😩😏 137. All our future travels together 🏖🏝🏞✈ 138. You’re loyalty. 139. You’re everything and more I want in a girlfriend. 140. All those amazing sleepovers we had. 141. I wouldnt have made it if you werent there when I broke my elbow. You really made everything better. Everything. 142. You took care of me so well. Got me medicine, made sure I ate, etc. 143. That was the weekend I told you I was in love with you. 144. Our pluckers date 😍 you looked so sexy. I love dark lips on you. 145. When I took care of Cheddar and made him fat lol 146. Our kiss in the wrestling room. 147. When you gave me our baby Junia 😙 148. When you gave me Ella the elephant. 149. This christmas when you bought me the coolest presents I got. Those vans 💯 150. When I sit there and watch you work hard and cut weight. 151. When I wanted to see you wrestle at Cyfair so bad I came home early from Japan and watched from the very top. 152. When I tried to teach you how to swim. 153. When Id come see you at Longhorn and we’d eat together. 154. When I scored that touchdown on you at Powderpuff! 😏😏😏 skillz 155. As soon as I’m in your arms again I can finally breathe ❤ 156. Your hair 😍 157. Sorry I have to mention the booty again 👅😩 158. When we’d cuddle in the locker room. 159. Our carmel frappe addiction (its slowly dying down lol) 160. Your love for those who care about you. 161. Your sense of style. 162. You instantly make a bad day, a good one. 163. You’re independent. 164. You always take my clothes and wear them, but I love it. 165. Your smile after I kiss you. 166. How you call me boob and boobie head. 167. When we used to fall asleep on the phone because neither one of us wanted to hang up. 168. When we used to drill together during wrestling practice. 169. Halloween and you being a cute baby deer. 170. Your senior photos 😍 171. Loving you is something worth fighting for. 172. My love for you has never and will never faulter. 173. If we can get through what we have already gone through than we can get through anything. 174. Texas State! 😁 175. When we went on that college tour at Texas State with Mama. 176. When we saw The Secret Life of Pets 😂 177. When you made me watch Greys Anatomy a million years ago. 178. All those times you were at my wrestling matches yelling from the coach’s seat and giving me advice right before. Calming me down when I was nervous. 179. You are the sunshine of my life. 180. You are the apple of my eye. 181. All your cute snaps and stories. 182. All your nicknames for me i.e. bootyhead, boob, boobie, boobiehead, knucklebutt, baby, snickers, love. 183. Our love for baby kitten 😊 184. We are independent individuals, but when we are together, we’re inseparable. 185. You make me feel special and loved. 186. When I hear your voice in a noisy crowd of people, I can recognize it immediately and that makes me feel peaceful and the happiest person in the world. 187. You always give me your honest opinion. 188. Even when you’re angry or gloomy, you’re still adorable 😘 189.   How you would stroke my fingers when we hold hands. 190. How we cuddle when we watch scary movies ❤ 191. I love looking at your childhood pictures and listening to stories about your childhood and imaging how you were back then. 192. How hyped you get at sports games and nervous when we might lose. 193. I love how when I dream of my life partner, the only person that I can see is you. 194. We’re going to Texas State together 😍 195. When you call me at night because you need attention. 196. When you get all scared about our future. 197. Your crush on Amber from Ambers closet. 😒😂 198. How you look in your Longhorn work clothes 😍 199. How much you like Trey Songs lol 200. The way you liven up a room just by being in it. 201. Your muscles 💪 202. The amazing new experiences that I’ve shared for the first time with you and only you. 203. The fact that you were willing to take a chance on me. 204. The fact that you are the first and only person I’ve ever loved and the first person who ever truly loved me. 205. How cute and adorable you can be. 206. Every little single detail about you that makes you who you are and the fact that you are the best girlfriend in the whole world. 207. When we’re video chatting and you hold the camera right up to your mouth and talk. 208. Look at them legs mama 😋😂 209. You have the cutest nephew in the whole world. 210. 7.4 billion people in the world and all I need is 1. You. 211. Your ability to control the rooms emotion. If your happy everyones happy. 212. I love showing you off. 213. Those few and far between snaps 👅 mmm 😏 214. When you call me just to say you love me 😊 215. This is a long one, but my grandma just celebrated her 48th anniversary with my grandpa. I asked her if she were to offer one piece of advice what would it be. She said God usually puts opposites together, and that we are, but in the best way. She said to be flexible and quick to forgive. Dont be judgemental, be understanding, and listen, listen, listen. We arent perfect but I think we already do this very well. We’ve only been together one year and our communication I feel is amazing and only bound to get better! I love you! 216. When you came to project grad. 217. Them dark lips mama 😗 218. When you said you were gonna cuddle with Sam after the State Duels last year and I got jealous 😑 219. The butterflies I got when you held my hand. Or when you traced me face 😍 220. Our aquarium date 🐠🐡🐙 221. When I couldn’t help but come home early and suprise you at school. My cute girl was calling my name 😩😩😩 222. Youre always looking out for me ❤ 223. You were cute even at your awkward middle school moments. 224. Our lunch dates during your off period. 225. You want to get your nose pierced with me. 226. And our elephant tattoos 🐘 227. I dont mean to scare you when I tell you how much I love you. I just really want you to know. I want you to know that you only deserve the best. You deserve the world. Anything less isnt enough. If we dont work out, the next person better treat you right, like you’re the princess you are. 228. You’re my one true love. The kind of love that people search their whole life for. The kind that people write books about. You’re the woman I write a book about. You’re the woman that Im in love with for the rest of my life. You’re the one that gets away. 229. I want you in the bluntest way. I want your lips, your hands, your arms. I want you the way the ocean wants the shore, constantly reaching and running back. I want you the way the rain wants to fall, the way the sun wants to shine, the way words want to be read. I want you to infinity, to the millionth degree, no amount of rain can douse the fire I have in me for you. 230. Youre sleeping on the phone right now as im writing this ❤ 231. As much as you want this perfect relationship, you’re mine. Youre my love story, and you make it so perfect. 232. You’re my solace. 233. When we read The Great Gatsby together. 234. I never want to stop making memories with you. 235. Im always proud of you. 236. I love to show you off, you make me look good 😏 237. You have me forever. 238. Sometime I just need to hear your voice, it makes everything okay. 239. God put you in my path for a reason. This chain of events that lead me into your arms wasnt a coincidence. I know that. I know that you changed my perspective on love and life. I know that you made me believe in love. It wasnt an accident. 240. We’ve been together for 365 days ❤ 241. 365 days of love. 242. 365 days of happiness. 243. 365 days of laughter. 244. For 365 days, I have been with the love of my life. 245. For 365 days, I had the most important job in the world, to make princess Jayda happy and treat her like the royalty she is. 246. For 365 days, I’ve had the privilege of calling you my beautiful girlfriend. 247. For 365 days, I’ve been the luckiest woman alive. 248. For 365 days, you’ve made me a better person. 249. For 365 days, you’ve given my life a purpose. A meaning. 250. To one year my love, and to many more to come ❤🐘