#ok im gonna fix these tags later

[frecklystars]

Wow, 32 asks. Thank you guys so much 😭😭 last night was one of the worst shifts I ever had at work. I feel like i keep reverting back to a year ago when everything was fresh. it's been extraordinarily difficult the past couple of months but it always eases the ache when I read nice messages. it genuinely calms me down a lot when other people tell me it's gonna be ok. so thank you to everyone who took the time to do that for me ;-;

I'm gonna be honest, I feel super hopeless. I am not getting joy from anything right now. Drawing, socializing, watching movies, listening to music, I'm feeling *absolutely nothing*. I am triggered by the SMALLEST fucking things that I thought I was getting better at handling. I'm having trouble wearing skirts again. I'm flinching around the color pink when I was doing SO much better with it. For the last nine days, I haven't gone three hours without having a panic attack. I'm not sleeping. My flashbacks are lasting longer. I'm having out of body experiences again for the first time in almost a year. I feel so hopeless. I told myself one year ago "hey I feel like I'm dying right now my ptsd is so fucking bad but! hey! one year from now, I'll feel better! this will feel so far away from me!" but I don't. I don't feel better. I don't think it's possible to feel better bc I'm too broken. It's been over a year and I don't feel like it's possible for me to make progress.

My Barbie/Ken anniversary is coming up and I was excited for the first couple of weeks, but right now I just... feel absolutely nothing. I am so, so, so severely depressed and my anxiety is getting worse every day. I need help out of my unsafe situation so fucking bad dude it's just gonna kill me. I'm so scared this whole thing is gonna genuinely kill me. I wish I could talk about it but I don't want to scare people but at the same time, it's so bad and it's weighing on me so heavily and I am so fuckign tired of dealing with this every single day

I don't know if I'm gonna go offline or not, bc my problem isn't even online. so... I don't see how being offline would help much. I just feel like I'm supposed to do SOMETHING, literally ANYTHING to feel something. Going offline last time made me feel significantly worse, so maybe that shouldn't be my next step. But I feel nothing when I'm blogging right now. I tried making a Jacob edit the other day and I felt no joy. I want to be filling up my queue for the 21st, all of my Barbie and Ken photos and gifsets. I should be writing Barbie and Ken love notes. I should be making video edits again! but I feel nothing!!! This is the one and only anniversary that actually matters to me this year - sorry to the other 12 Ryan F/Os who have anniversaries but THIS ONE is THE most important one, because these two characters are the F/Os that have helped me the most with my abuse trauma/cptsd. They're the whole reason why I started self shipping again. I want to celebrate that. I want to be excited about it. I am just so fucking numb.

I NEED to feel something for this anniversary, I miss celebrating F/O anniversaries! I don't get to do that anymore since self shipping was ruined for me! Since my main F/Os were ruined for me! I deserve to have a good time with my new F/Os!! I am a good person and I am kind despite all the bullshit I've been through and I work really hard to try to heal from shit! I try to stay positive and I try to help people and I!!! Deserve!! To have a day where I feel good with my F/Os without reliving every single horrifying vile thing that someone did to me! but I feel so empty right now and it hurts! I was excited a couple of weeks ago when I was planning all the activities i was gonna do on the 21st, like a restaurant and a movie and baking and throwing a party with my friends, but now?? Nothing. Absolutely NOTHING in my heart. I feel so goddamn empty. I am so depressed. I really really feel like I can't get better. It's been over a year and I am incapable of healing from my trauma and I don't know what to do about it. I am trying so many things to heal!! I'm going walking, I'm eating way healthier and cutting sugar to see if that helps clear my head a bit more, I'm getting sun, I'm drinking so much water, I'm exercising, I've cut my screen time significantly and reading more often, I'm hanging out with my friends as much as I can, I am trying everything in the book and I feel like a zombie just sitting here and rotting to death, going through the motions and reliving my trauma in my head over and over and over and over and over and over again and I can't get any fucking peace. It's like everybody in the world is living their days while the planet is spinning but I am stuck in the same spot reliving the most horrific bullshit imaginable over and over and over. I feel like I've lost almost 2 years of my life to trauma. I don't feel like I've aged, I feel like everything happened yesterday. I feel like I'm stuck in one spot while everybody else is walking forward and I can't move.

Sorry to ramble I didn't mean to turn this into a vent post but idk what else to do. I don't know if I should go offline on my actual anniversary or maybe a couple of days leading up to it?? Or maybe I'm supposed to BE online and blog about the F/Os to see if that helps me feel better?? Being offline made me feel worse. But being online isn't helping me either. Dude I don't fucking know. I need to work on some crafts or something. I need to make a BarbieLand diorama and paint it. I'm gonna bake heart shaped cookies for the first time this weekend. I'm gonna invite my friends over and we're gonna have a party on Sunday and watch the Barbie movie together. I don't know what else to do but I have to just... keep trying I guess even though I feel nothing while doing these things, it's better than doing nothing

If anyone has advice or something, it's more than welcome. Or even just a "wow, that's rough, buddy". I'm sorry for being negative, I try to remain positive on this hellsite but it's so hard right now. Thank you again to everyone who wrote me a nice message last night when I was hurting. I'm sorry I'm gonna probably be asking for encouraging messages a few more times in the next few weeks bc supportive messages are the only things that have been effectively (affectively?) helping me lately

[hirokiyuu]

i mentioned on the dys>sol/nomi i was gonna be posting more of my fic backlog on here and then Did Not Do That..... until now! have some dys>sol>cal. 'you sure write a lot of dys>sol where sol likes other people' yeah. yeah. i won't lie to you guys tho this run does eventually end w/dys/sol but. u kno. takes a bit :)

aaaaanyways please enjoy this Unrequited Teen Angst WWWWWWW set during early year 16!

is that the sun i see (or am i just being greedy); 700 words

Sol’s weirdly moody on the transport. Usually even if he’s quiet, he’ll be fiddling with his holopalm or listening to music or something, but today he’s in the very back, just staring out at the scenery, and when their eyes meet for half a second he doesn’t even smile. Sol always smiles when he sees Dys, which honestly used to kind of weird him out but these days… does not do that.

Still, as the team files out of the transport and breaks off into pairs, Dys keeps an eye on him instead of scouting ahead like normal -- which ends up being a good thing, because after about fives minutes out by themselves Sol suddenly lets out an enormous groan and slumps over, hunched in over himself. And Dys can’t feel fear but his heart’s pounding anyways as he runs over, careful to keep an eye on their surroundings as he leans over and says, urgently, “Sol, what --”

The moment his hand touches Sol’s back Sol jumps, enough to send himself falling back on his ass in the dirt, eyes wide with surprise like he hadn’t heard Dys sprinting towards him. “Dys?” he sputters, before glancing around. “I thought -- I mean, don’t you normally go on ahead…?”

He doesn't look hurt at all, though on closer inspection there’s bags under his eyes Dys’s never seen on his face before. “I mean,” says Dys, who can’t bring himself to say I was worried about you, “you were acting weird, so….”

“Oh,” says Sol, before managing a tiny grin up at him. “That’s… that’s really nice of you. Thanks.”

“Whatever.” Ugh. He can feel his stupid face going red. The worst part is that he can’t even leave, not with how Sol’s smile is still wobbling at the edges. “...Are you okay?”

“Oh, well, um… I mean, that’s….” The smile slides off Sol’s face piece by piece, until he gives up on it all at once and sighs miserably, pulling his knees in close until he’s curled up on himself in the dirt. “No.”

Dys… can’t even pretend to be surprised. Slowly he sits down next to Sol, watching as Sol leans forward to rest his chin on his arms, for once not even fidgeting. “...It’s stupid,” says Sol, finally. “It’s really stupid, and you’re gonna think it’s stupid too. But… if I tell you… can you pretend you don’t think it is? Just for like, ten minutes.”

This already sounds like it’s going to suck. “...Okay. I won’t… say anything, I guess.”

“Thanks.”

The moment drags out. Dys picks a little at a hangnail, waiting. Finally, Sol sighs again, and doesn’t quite look at Dys as he says, “Cal and Tammy are dating.”

“...Oh.”

“He told me on my birthday.” Sol tilts even further forward, until his face is buried in his arms, and with a muffled voice says, “Like, he knocked on the door and she was there and he had his hand on her back. And she’d made me a cake, which was like, nice or whatever, but it was so unbearable just seeing them together and I just -- I just had to sit there and pretend I was happy for them….

“Apparently she asked him out during Glow? Like, after the attack? And I saw them together in the lounge but I didn’t even realize….” There is, horrifyingly, a sniffing noise. “Stupid… stupid Fennec Face. She’s not… she’s not even that cute, and she’s afraid of everything, and I… I….”

Another sniff. Dys is probably the person least equipped to deal with this in the entire colony, not in the least because he heard Cal was dating someone else and his first reaction was gratitude. “...Sorry,” he offers up, finally. “That… that sucks.”

“Yeah,” says Sol, as he burrows deeper into his arms. “I… I just… I really like him. Y’know?”

Quietly, Dys answers, “I know.”

In response Sol just lets out this big shuddering sigh, somehow burrowing even deeper. “Sorry,” he says. “I know it’s stupid. I… Sorry.”

Dys can’t think of anything to say to that, can’t think of a single thing that might make Sol feel a little better. Instead of trying anyways he just sits there like an idiot, keeping half an eye on the planet around them to make sure they don’t get eaten by anything, and next to him Sol doesn’t move for a long, long time.

[avocado-frog]

how am i supposed to live laugh love under these conditions

tldr for tags my mom found an old journal of mine and read through it so i accidentally outed myself to her lols

[lvebug]

superhero  :  does  your  muse  have  a  favorite  superhero  ?  if  yes  ,  who  ?  if  they  are  a  superhero  ,  is  their  favorite  themself  ,  or  a  friend  of  their’s  ?

andie is a really big fan of squirrel girl! they've never met and andie really only gets a little more information about her than the general public, courtesy of the superhero gossip grapevine, but from what she knows about her, squirrel girl is someone andie would get along with great. (im going to call her doreen so i dont need to keep typing out squirrel girl, but andie obviously doesn't know she's doreen)

doreen gives off kinda similar vibes as a young hero that andie does, being a little on the sillygoofy side but mostly just from the fact that she's so genuinely herself and make a large impact with her goodwill and positive nature. not so many other heroes come across as down-to-earth and genuine as doreen does. and yes, she's heard about the bout with galactus and yes she's in awe. it's inspiring to hear stories of heroes who save the day through non-violent means. overall it's someone that andie looks up to quite a bit. she'd love to get to work with her some day and would absolutely run her mouth about how cool she thinks squirrel girl is, which many of the heroes that andie does know find quite confusing.

[louisisalarrie]

Hey how are u? I really like your point of view so I want to ask you few things that my brain frequently think about.

I’m pretty sure that sooner or later bbg will be unmasked, so how they will handle this? They created Louis’ public image around this baby. They painted him like the perfect father who obv love a lot his child.

I think that the shitstorm where his fans will throw him in will be bigger than everything. You know what I mean his solo fans paint him like the most loyal person in the world who trust his fans a lot and would never betray them. So I’m quite sure that they will start to throw shit on him, plus they’re so obsessed over this poor baby and I see a lot of them saying that if louis is not the father they will leave him cause he is just a gross person who lies to fans.

So, how will they managed it without throw him into a very big shitstorm? Plus when it will happen definitely all will be connect to the Larry situation so: when they do it, will he do also a coming out?

I don’t see it happen without a coming out, because the speculation would be so much bigger than ever and everyone would start saying that Larries were right since the beginning and that he’s a horrible person using a child…

I don’t know I don’t see a easy happy ending :(

okie dokie anon, im gonna answer this in the best way I know how, and tag it a little differently to usual so everyone knows where to find my theories on how they’re gonna end bbg/what’s the best way to end it without ruining louis’ career. anon, welcome to the show sweetcheeks!

After the absolute shit show of a smear campaign that was pushed onto Louis in 2015, of clubbing and being a gross fuckboy taking a million girls home every night, they had to repair said image when they decided this kid was actually gonna be born (in my theory it was Belfast) because to continue on with fuckboy louis when he has a child on the way further down the pregnancy/child is born, it would’ve looked even more fucking worse for one d’s demographic and louis’ image would be irreparable. His image has always hung off family values and long term relationships too, so it’s not super crazy to think “oh, louis has had his fun and now it’s serious he’s gonna buckle down and be a great dad because of his upbringing/family values and he’s a wonderful guy” etc, ya know? Plus the vast majority of one d fans at the time were Larries, we saw through the bullshit and we saw this behaviour wasn’t louis. Mgmt were like “ok if we’re actually gonna see this through, if there’s actually gonna be a child in the picture, he’s gonna have to be a present and loving dad”. It just would’ve been too off brand for him to not be. Hell, the whole fuckboy Louis thing was off brand for him, but they started that, and then had to fucking fix it because an actual child was gonna be born into this mess.

Anyway so louis’ buzzing (looks like he’d rather set himself on fire) and we get heaps of baby content on Insta/from B and her clan etc to really bring it home that louis cares about this kid. This kid is his life and he will do everything he can to be there for it because he’s a good guy (which like… it this was real, they would’ve covered up this baby real quick and silenced the mother and that’s the biggest fucking fault they made in my opinion, shit makes no sense). So yeah, fake baby, happy dad, family values. Cool, alright let’s go.

You are very correct in saying they’ve made louis being a dad a major element in his image. He’s pretty private otherwise, but boy does he love this kid! Which if we base this on how it was meant to end in 2016 with a DNA test so he’d be out free, which didn’t happen for a few reasons, the kid is now older and a paternity test should’ve been taken far earlier and louis’ trying to figure out himself in a solo career and working hard on music and it’s all too much. Not to mention he signed his fucking rights away to SC and still had to deal with this all. But I digress. They didn’t end bbg then, and he didn’t want such a scandal to hinder the beginning of his career because that’s what he’d be known for when starting out as a solo artist. “Oh did you hear about that dude from one direction? His kid isn’t actually his! Holy shit!” would just be on repeat anywhere and everywhere and something like that doesn’t really die down that quick in the media. It just would’ve jumped him off the wrong way after dealing with the heartbreak of his mum passing etc., so things are a little chaotic for him to deal with that as well. (Then the bbg contract gets amended and SC gives him publicity with the X Factor etc, but I won’t get into the contracts side of it right now).

Cool cool cool. So. He’s gonna look like a shit dude for chucking this baby in the spotlight if he’s known for ages. Everyone’s gonna hate him for lying to them. He’s gonna lose his fans. He’s not gonna be able to promo himself for a while because he’ll be “devastated”. Now, let’s have a look at how this can end with fan and GP sympathy on his side, and how they can spin this in a good way.

Now, hear me out.

We’ve talked about a few ways, but the best way to dig him out of this shit show, is simply to go down the paternity route. It just is.

Situation 1: louis and b go to court over F. this works perfectly in his current no music or tour timeframe. It keeps him relevant in the papers while he’s off, and also gives him the excuse to grieve or whatever. This is 100% the best way to do it but it drags it out so long.

- Louis, who is now on break, wants to spend more time with his beloved son little lad, and wants to take him away from B for a while to live in the UK with him and his family for an extended holiday/spend some quality time. B is withholding his son from him and he isn’t allowed to be with him for extended periods of time because B doesn’t like his lifestyle (partying, smoking, etc.)

Or

- maybe B decides Louis’ doing really well in his career so she wants more child support money. He’s getting older, more expensive, and this was all louis’ doing. He took B home, he’s also a multi millionaire, he should be paying way more than what he is!

- maybe B gets married or a long term serious boyfriend and he wants to adopt F because louis’ lifestyle doesn’t allow him to be present as much as he wants to.

Or something else ridiculous that they go to court over. In this theory, they need to go to court 100%.

So, they’re in court over whatever, and B goes “hey well I was actually sleeping with someone else around that time too, I want a paternity test” (because she never pushed for one because she saw $$$) and louis takes one and BAM, he’s actually not F’s father. Holy shit.

So why did a multimillionaire famous boyband member in his early 20’s who was clearly loving partying not demand a paternity test early one? Well, he never bothered to ask because he trusted B. They’d actually been seeing each other for longer than initially thought (like some articles mentioned back in the day LOL) but didn’t want to introduce her to the public because he knows 1d fans would eat her alive and the whole Larry thing etc., so he trusts her. He’s also just a really good dude, sees the best in everyone, trusted her and copped it on the chin and said well yeah… im gonna help raise this dude because I’ve always wanted a son and I have big family values and I fucked up. I’m mature. I’m a good example of what women should look for in a man.

So then shit… the fans and GP find out and he cops the public sympathy and everyone feels sorry for him. This is heartbreaking, he loves that kid so much and now he’s found out he’s not really his dad. The fans are devastated, the GP goes “well it’s stupid he didn’t get one earlier on but this is still really awful for him, poor guy. He’s too nice for his own good, and he was just a kid. Maybe he didn’t think about it. He’s so brave to say this. Heart on his sleeve” etc etc like it’s really not hard to make the GP and fans feel bad for you, even tho some folks may think he was an idiot for not getting one earlier on (which like.. that’s how it was meant to end but it was extended), everyone who’s scrutinised bbg has thought the same at some point. So, anyway, you see what I mean here? This situation ends with him looking like just a silly loving trusting guy, with a big heart. Solos will eat that shit up. I promise you. Anyway, F fades into the background and we don’t see any more content of him. He just… disappears. No one’s gonna question that. F isn’t his son, and he wants to give the kid and B privacy now. A classic example of being a good guy.

So like, this situation also upholds the idea that he’s straight. He’s had sex with a woman, it’s just this kid isn’t his. Anyway, sorted, case closed and we alll eventually move on. It does drag it out but my god does it truly spin some sympathy for him. But if he wants it over and done with quick, this wouldn’t be the way.

Situation 2: louis has known for a while, but him and B are really good friends so he’s helped raise F and helped with funds because the dad left and he wanted to be there for the kid. This brings out the lying factor though, but he truly does feel like a dad!!! He knows what it’s like to not have a father figure there, he wants to give the kid a good life, he’s taken on the role of his dad and he has the money to support B and F, so why wouldn’t he? You know, he has family values. So yeah, he wasn’t lying out of hate, and F knew all along he wasn’t his real dad either, but he gave this kid a great life. Anyway, B gets married or whatever, louis goes “im still gonna be there for F but I trust this guy and he loves F and my career is taking off even further and I can’t be there for him all the time and this guy really wants to be a dad, I’ll step back”. This also works well in terms of good guy louis, and he loves F so much. Public and fan sympathy, a little anger towards the lying but truly he’s just did what he could. He helped B out and now F has a strong and fantastic father figure in his life. Sorted, done. This can be done through an Insta live or a post of him and F explaining stuff, and F fades from the picture. Still upholds the sex with women, but he did get a paternity test ages ago, he’s just a good guy. Anyway, that also works.

You also have a spin on the above situation too though, to make it easier for a coming out. Louis and B never had sex. He’s just a long term good friend of hers and took on that role. He’s always been gay/he never fucked her. Having this onto it, really leaves it a bit more open ended. This is really the only kind of solution to say “hey I’ve been with Harry this whole time and bbg wasn’t a stunt” ya know? Still believable, a bit more murky, but if done well it ends it quicker than a court case. Still looks good for him. Plus, he can say how long he was with Harry and that they wanted to keep their relationship private because they were nervous to come out and yeah. Cool. That’s also done.

The fans might be angry about that one, but it still swings it well. I don’t think they’re gonna hate him. He might lose a few but… yeah. He’s always gonna when he comes out anyway. Yeah. The above is two birds one stone.

Situation 3: it was all a stunt. they just reveal absolutely everything. That’s it.

He’ll lose the most fans by doing this, but also… he’ll gain a lot of public sympathy. Whatever way they end bbg, he will be on the side of public and fan sympathy. He’s always gonna end up with some kind of hate when coming out, but so will Harry. It just… is what it is. Harry’s process has just been a lot smoother without a kid tied to him. But with the screaming of how shit the music industry is to artists, this will call a lot of attention to it all. Might actually make a change. But again, the hardest.

Now the thing with all of the above, right, no matter which way they take it, is that bisexuality exists. Also, sexuality can be fluid, so maybe he didnt figure out he was into dudes until later on in life and him and Harry reunited and it just kind of happened. He had to navigate queerness in a space of homophobia. He felt fucking lost as hell, and Harry helped him. Also public and fan sympathy, also works. Doesn’t put them from the beginning though, like situation 2 and 3 could, but yeah. The current conversation about queerness and how things can change is important and big right now. People would understand.

Both Harry and louis (more so louis) will and should expect fan and public hatred for lying and queerness. But it’s just something they’ll have to cop. They come out, go into hiding for a bit, and then put out a statement and they’re just gonna have to expect some hate. Hell, Harry already gets hate for queerbaiting. It just always will be affected.

To your last point, about using a kid, if they unravel everything then they’ll just shove that blame on SC etc, they had no choice! For the other situations, it may be a little scrutinised but yeah. He’s either silly and too trusting in situation 1, or does see F as his kid and is proud of him in situation 2. Those situations above are how I see a smoother end to bbg. They’re kind of the only way I see it ending. So, SC/marketing gods, if you’re watching, or if this is you, consider one of the above please and let’s end it fucking now.

So there you have it. These situations might seem stupid, but he comes out of it the most unscathed (except option 3 but again, sympathy from fans and public about being controlled like puppets). And I think in all those cases a coming out will happen shortly after, they kind of go hand in hand. But also they might let it die down for a while before announcing anything, but yeah. Speculation is gonna happen. They can’t escape everything.

Any questions or if anything doesn’t make sense because I haven’t had a coffee yet, let me knowwwwwww

Thanks for coming to the show!

[sugar-omi]

okay, so i've been doing some thinking. i've been scrolling through your blog and i stepped upon these "cheating on cove with Baxter and the other way around" scenarios. (i'm sorry, i wasn't able to read them, my heart couldn't take it ;-;) but!

what if mc was like, in a normal relationship with Baxter. you know, a couple, maybe married later and stuff, while of course still being besties with Cove. later mc and Baxter have a kid together, maybe still a small baby but! plot twist! Baxter gets into an accident or something and dies. (i'm sorry, he's my favourite man but i had to kill him for that scenario:'))

mc is completely devastated and also a little panicked, because what about the baby? and then Cove stepps in, deciding to help his best friend take care of the little one and basically becomes its father. i recently watched a video of a dog "helping" a cat take care of her kittens, and there you have it.

this one may be boring, so feel free to ignore, but i can't stop thinking about it.

ITS OK<333 I figured some ppl didn't read it bc angst n pain</3 trust me I skip over angst all the time

(I even have the tag blocked😬 sorry angst writers but I will read it and not be the same for months, I read a kiribaku angst fic years ago, and was devesated for 4 months afterwards LMAO)

okay i... I cannot expand too much on this bc OUCH

(eta now that I've finished. who am I fooling? I rlly said that like I haven't wrote a whole novel 💀 anyway <3 this clearly made me pop off more than I thought I would bc I read this at first n was devastated!!! I had no words!!!! well clearly I found them LOL)

ALSO BORING??? ANON PLEASE.. BORING WHERE<///3

n im gonna fix the format later but for now here is the bare minimum. I'm going to bed rn so nini everyone enjoy a bit of angst I promise its fluffy as well<333

tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

p/n = parental name, since I wanted to leave flexibility for all the readers here <3

but anyway yeah cove would so step up for you

will follow you to the end of the earth and do whatever you need to help you work through this and to adapt to this sudden and unfortunate change

if/when your relationship starts becoming something romantic, cove would absolutely put the brakes on everything and you'd go so slow...

I imagine he'd probably move in with you or you with him, and he'd stay somewhere else (if you're living in his house he will leave anyway, he's a gentleman like that fr) so that way you can figure out if it's not just bc he's doing all these things n you're mistaking admiration for love

you'd spend the first year going super slow, as if you've never known each other before

which technically you haven't, since you've never dated before. but cove would go so far as to find out your favorite color, song, animal, food.. all over again, even though he has it memorized and knows your likes better than his own.

once cove is sure you're ready for this (after much talk between the two of you and even with your therapist that yes you've made enough progress and are emotionally ready for this) does he finally put a label on it

now if you get married...

I imagine cove won't propose at all

like I think you'd have to talk n almost beg him...

in that case he would do a small but grande gesture to propose. or he'd propose to you before you've even left the bed for the day... no inbetween

but like 8 times outta 10, you're gonna have to propose to him

he'd cry and hug you n say yes of course.

and unless you want to keep this outta your wedding, I think cove would include baxter in your wedding.

first, ofc you'd have the picture to honor his memory

but I think he'd even go so far as to have smth in his vows. but to start, he'd say smth like:

"I know the reason we became closer was unfortunate, but I'm so happy to be able to call you and [Child] my family. and I hope I can be a good father and husband"

and "baxter will always have a place in our hearts. even though he and I didn't get along at first (watery chuckle)... I'm glad he got to love you, and I hope he trusts me to love and cherish you the same way as well.."

also if you don't want to give up your wedding ring from baxter, I think cove would even go so far as to suggest combining it with his.

!!! omg I was gonna say your and baxter's wedding bands would be black, but I have another idea

okay now, for YOUR bands, I imagine they're either black or silver and yk those infinity(?) bands? that has the 2 types of metal or whatever

that's what cove would suggest doing. and if you are worried abt people asking why your bands are different, he'd get the same twisted band but silver with say a black diamond or smth. just smth to make it look like it's intentionally different colors but same design or smth

(im overthinking a bit but it's an idea right?! I'm not crazy??<////3)

or if you don't wanna do that, I imagine you can just slip it on a necklace or leave it as is, whatever you want. he wouldn't mind even if you kept wearing it, cove would never ask you to get rid of baxter's image or memory in any way, not unless it was a real problem and your attachment to him/his things was unhealthy anyway.

now for baxter's band... well if you didn't bury it with him, I imagine you'd give it to your child

another thing I think you could do w your wedding band as well, and give them both your bands to do whatever they want with. or if they don't want it of course you're not forcing them to keep it

even though they didn't get to know baxter, the way you and cove still cherish baxter's memory does help them feel something of a connection.

I also imagine baxter would take lots of photo n video w the kid, even though they're young n just a babe, theres so many videos of baxter looking n acting so loving w them

and even a couple where he's teary-eyed n all "imma do you right by you. I love you so much.."

of course, if the kid doesn't feel that connected to baxter since they were too young to know or rmbr anything, and they don't feel anything much other than sympathy and the occasional sting when they see how much baxter loved them, you don't force it.

you both know that baxter was basically a stranger to them and even though they still respect baxter and he has a place in their heart, they don't feel like they're lacking anything.

"I don't really know what to say.. or how to feel... I see how much [P/N] misses you sometimes, and we have pictures of you, and they talk about you and stuff...

but I don't feel like im missing a dad. I hope that doesn't hurt your feelings, I wish I knew you too. sometimes I wish you were still here, so I got to know you as well, even though I'm still happy to have dad cove for my dad.

I just wanna know what you were like. I wanna experience what you were like. I... I wanna miss you like everyone else misses you too...

anyway, just know that dad is great! he takes care of me and [P/N] really well! he makes breakfast in bed, and he does/used to do this thing where he lifts me in the air before bed! he's so cool. I see how he makes [P/N] happy as well, so don't worry. although, [P/N] said you always thought cove was reliable and a good guy so maybe you aren't worrying anyway.

well... that's it I guess. i hope ill get to know you one day, and maybe you can tell me you're glad to see dad took good care of us. goodbye,

baxter."

pa."

cove happily listens to anything they have to say on how they feel abt baxter btw. he accepts any of their feelings, be it that they don't feel anything at all, sympathy for others, or they feel sad abt losing him.

if they do say smth like how even though it's unfortunate and they feel bad for everyone who mourns baxter (for example/especially you), they see cove as their dad and don't feel like they're missing anything and they're happy to have cove for their dad.

ofc he cries n hugs them n tells them he loves em and he's happy n he comforts them if needed of course

I also think cove is very scared abt being a father

especially in this way... even if the kiddo doesn't remember anything, or it's hazy at best, he worries about replacing baxter.

he'd probably worry abt not living up to baxter

baxter was always much more mature, at least it seemed that way most times. cove just worries about if he has the backbone and the ability to parent the child well and be someone they can look up to and/or appreciate for being a good father

cries if they call him dad btw

if they do it before you start dating, I imagine it's one of the catalyst that cause you to talk abt your feelings for each other. or if it's in the early stage..

cove prbly freezes and runs away to the other room n freaks out, definitely cries. if you don't talk to him like right after he calls his dad n cries n shares his worries n fear

either way, when you do talk he's biting his nails n trying not to pace around the room and he's like "if you wanna distance yourselves so that they don't call me dad any more I totally understand, I mean idk it's prbly weird for you-"

n he just rambles. like none of it makes sense n u have to physically shut him up. kiss him, yell, throw a pillow, hit him w the child's stuffed animal, throw a single lego brick at his back and watch him fall to the floor like he just got a nuke thrown at him

if it's later on n theres nothing to worry abt bc youve talked abt this or saw it coming or its just the otherwise most natural step, he cries of course

but he doesn't fall apart from being his in the back w a single fucking Lego as if it hurt 🙄🙄🙄🙄 (I hate this man he's DRAMATIC)

well... actually no he does

hit him, kiss him, hug him, run him over w a hotel wheels truck.... he just cries harder

adopts them like immediately basically

I imagine you do it soon, like maybe before the wedding just so that way you can have a private moment (just to save him some embarrassment from ugly crying in front of your families. in fact he just might faint fr)

n you + the kiddo surprise him w adoption papers (depending on how old the babe is at this point, they have like no idea what's going on but they know that cove is now officially recognized by the whole world (even by the unicorns n wizards n warlocks) as their daddy))

imagine laying in bed w cove n the kid in between you two

and when you wake up, cove is alrdy awake and was watching you two. he was petting the kids wild hair and he had pulled the two of you in and kept you under his arm..

and the sunlight is coming in, the day is just perfect. n the look on cove's face is full of so much love but also a bit somber this time

(cove feels awkward being here like this sometimes. during times like this you have to remind him it's okay, and you pull him back in. of course he does the same for you on those days.)

"I love you two. so much..." he whispers, tears sticking to his lashes

the kid flips over, curling into cove and they stop their sleepy mumbling now that they're tucked into cove's chest, feeling warm, happy, and safe.

you whisper equally as tender. "we were meant to be like this too."

also!! smth I just thought of...

imagine the kid looks mostly/very much like baxter. they act very much like cove's kid

like you would think cove n baxter had a kid together LOL

(if the resemblance is too much, they ask if you're the step parent </3 pls Ik it may not make sm sense but I just think it'd be so fuckin funny)

[tired-inyxe]

WIP - Batfam/Dc Tag Masterlist

This is ridiculously long so m putting it under cut, m gonna add more (YES MORE. THERES A LOTTA CHARACTERS OK???) tags when I feel like it but I wanna finalize my main master post later

#bat anatomy -batfam masterpost (and everything else dc)

#going batty -batfam analysis (typically angry)

#mailing pipe bombs -enraged at dc's writers

#honey im taking the kids -stuff about dc's poor treatment of the batkids (they're mine now fuck u)

#the bat -abt batman in all its forms (persona not a specific character)

#the bird -abt robin in all its forms (ditto)

#the shadows -abt every other persona in all their forms(because normal ppl dont know em)

#bernards pegboard -crack headcanons

#sandbox -headcanons

#my story now -my personal batfam timeline/story (because dc sucks at writing

#shoved in mahogany 6 feet under -wasted potential of any/all characters

#revived wings -my view of a bat characters true potential

#case files -panels/pages that I use for evidence abt canon

#bamboozled -fun canon comic panels that make me laugh

#goth cake -batfam art

#dysfunctional worms -batfam writing

#cave screeches -rambles, usually angry

#bats and birds -any and all posts that contain any of em

#batcape -anything Bruce

#disco girl -anything Dick

#pride and prejudice -anything Jason

#skateboards and spite -anything Tim

#kittens and knives -anything Damian

#dayshift -anything Duke

#potato waffles -anything Steph

#ballet shoes -anything Cass

#spot of tea -anything Alfred

#all seeing snark -anything Babs

#handmade guns and gender envy -anything Harper

#jaded red -anything Kate

#lack the worms dc edition -any character i dont know/care about enough to make a custom tag for (m sorry)

#revolving door -Rogues gallery

#REFORM THE DAMN JUSTICE SYSTEM YOU BILLIONAIRE -me complaining about dc's inability to make Bruce use his fuckin money and power to change the city, also any arkham/blackgate rants

#i stabbed him hes dead -anything joker

#bats and hounds -anything Harley

#eco friendly -anything Ivy

#shot him he's dead too -anything Black Mask

#strawman argument -anything Scarecrow

#your wife is dead -anything Mr Freeze (sorry not sorry)

#bipolar ableism but gay -anything Harvey

#scared of seals -anything Penguin

#neon green twink -anything Riddler

#broke b's spine -anything Bane

#leather catgirl -anything Selina

#back in the cell -every other rogue I don't care about

#god forbid a woman have hobbies -anything Thalia

#withering gamer -anything Ra's

#magic mountain dew -Lazarus pit

#assassin gamers -League of Assasins

#competent idiots -Justice League

#its just an s -anything Clark

#unbreakable porcelain -anything Diana

#retired at the speed of light -anything Barry

#zooming with the big leagues now -anything Wally

#h in adhd -anything the Flash persona

#neon green with a ring -anything Hal

#weak to yellow -anything Green lantern persona

#blowing bubbles -anything Arthur

#he stole the braincell -anything Jhon (theres an accent mark somewhere in there ill fix it later)

#batson but not yet adopted -anything Billy

#cigarette ash -anything Constantine

#fics favorite magician -anything Zatanna

#hijacked the mainframe -anything Cyborg

#signature chili -anything Ollie

#screech metal -anything Black Canary

#under the roundtable -everyone else in the Justice League

#every band eventually -og Teen Titans (they broke up)

#saltwater bubble blower -anything Garth

#tectonic shifter -anything Terra

#red threads and all -anything Red X

#i exploded him yw -anything Slade

#stronger than steel -anything Donna (might change)

#shapeshifting greenbean -anything Gar

#goth girls inspiration -anything Raven

#international incidents the team -Young Justice

#test tube baby -Anything Kon

#meep meep -anything Bart

#girlbossed zeus -anything Cassie

#rags to the grave -anything Greta

#arrows notched red -anything Cissie

#mosh pit winner -anything Anita

#panic at the disco -anything Slobo

again, theres still more. dc is an 80 year long series theres so many guys. also not sold on some of these so various tags may be subject to change

[shoezuki]

I beg you post your travellin mini fics onto ao3 as like an X/? fic or something. I so desperately need them in my library, they bring such joy. I also have tumblr fearing buddies on ao3 that I'd love to share them with.

Of course if it's too much effort then forget I asked, I'm mostly jus hear to tell you that I adore your writing and each new fic gets me genuinely excited! <3

hhngghGNNG. ANON. i am on one knee i am proposing now. Hold my hand. This is us

Thankyou so much anon im so fucking glad u dig it ok ok im gonna tell u a secret. Shhh ok. I been plannin on postin em on ao3 eventually but After i finish my doctor fic because they are technically set after my doctor fic like the Epilogue to that fic. It started w me wantin to make up planets that sampo would talk bout wantin to take gepard to in doctor fic n then i was like 'wait he WILL take gepard to these planets' and voila

But fuckit ya ill post em individually in a series later today when im. Not in the middle of class bsskfbdh. The sa.mpard tag on ao3 has been sad lately i shall fix it

[unagrancantidaddepanes]

(THE VIDEO WAS BROKEN BUT I FIXED IT NOW YIPPEE)

THIS IS AN UNFINISHED ANIMATIC FOR THE FIC THE QUEST FOR SNUFKINS MEMORIES !!!!!! (there are no spoilers <3)

THERE ARE ALSO STORYBOARDS !!!!!! (for parts not included in this clip) storyboards for later in this animatic storyboards for another unfinished animatic for this fic

(today i have found out i can only put one video in each post </3)

GUYS OK ITS MY FAVOURITE FANFIC EVER IM BEGGING U TO READ IT ITS SO SWEET AND COMFORTING IVE READ IT 3 TIMES AND RECENTLY IVE BEEN HEAVILY CONSIDERING READING IT A 4TH

i made this a whole year ago and havent continued it since then so im probably not gonna continue it rip

PLEASE READ THE FIC PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE AND THEN MAYBE EVEN TALK TO ME ABOUT IT IF U WANT TO, WE CAN GUSH ABOUT IT TOGETHER ASJHAKSJJASHKJ

oh my god if anyone else posts about this fic TAG ME PLS I BEG

SPOILERS (context for the animatic): look guys ok ive read it 3 TIMES ALREADY obviously OBVIOUSLY i have personal headcanons ok ASJSHKHASJHKJ also THIS IS AN AMNESIA FIC SNUFKIN HAS AMNESIA

ok brilliant anyways in the fic moomin and snufkin (who turn out to be married) use ribbions at their wedding and theyre kept in a box throughout the fanfic, i dont really know how the ribbons were used by them it wasnt really explained i dont think lol, so i headcanoned that they wear them like wedding rings. i normally draw snufkins sleeves with tied puffed cuffs at the end so i headcanoned that he replaced one of the strings that ties the ends of his sleeves up with one of the ribbons after the wedding, so like he threads it into the sleeve of his dress. anyways yea this is why theres a ribbon in one of snufkins sleeves and why moomin has one tied to his tail. this is such a long explination when i literally could have just given snufkin a tail and put the ribbon on that lmao.

anyways, directly after this part of the animatic (this happens in the fic lol) moomin takes snufkins dress as its too ripped up and has blood on it (from snufkin being being injured at the very start of the fic), so because of these headcanons i have about the ribbons i planned to make it so that directly after this part of the animatic moomin would cut the ribbon out of the dress sleeve, remove his own then keep the ribbons in the box, where they r kept the whole fic. yes i have headcanons that go THIS deep, ALSO this is the part in the fic where moomin gives snufkin a new dress to replace his basically unwearable old one, im assuming its suppose to literally be the same green dress bUT THE COLOUR IS NEVER SPECIFIED SO ITS RED BECAUSE I SAID SO <3 i will take EVERY excuse possible to think about snufkin in a red dress, can u guys tell i spent literal MONTHS basically a whole YEAR just thinking about this fanfiction constantly, BECAUSE I DID, THIS WAS ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT FOR SO LONG AJHASJGJHJ

[himynameis4]

@bottomlessabyssposts @andiwriteordie ok ive tagged my pjo ppl.

Guys. Guysguysguys. I’ve had this, like, long-running headcanon that Bianca is in Tartarus. Idk. Could be totally batshit. Do you ever look at a character who’s not exactly problematic in canon but other people don’t UNDERSTAND or APPRECIATE them enough and if they could just see the character from your perspective they’d see that actually they’ve never done anything wrong in their lives ever? (Couldn’t be me w/Mike, because Mike has never done anything wrong in his life ever, he is a smol bean, & i stand by this).

So, for Bianca, in my head, I have a very specific lens I view her through & many, many justifications for her decisions & elaborate headcanons on potential powers, etc, based on canon. & like. Miss Girl wanted to Live Her Life, & also she Loved Her Brother. Would—would it not make sense for her to be the one calling him?

Think about it. Doors of death are open. You need someone to deal with that. How would you get someone to fix it? Who could you get?

Death mist is great & all, because you can’t see ppl. So… if somebody’s already dead…

Would Bianca di Angelo not be a really good choice for this? Espec since Hades has a thing about wanting his kids alive again? & she’s got huntress powers, etc? If she makes it to the doors, she has free reign to slip through them, make her way out. She can come back to life—the way she clearly wanted to, if the whole resurrection thing is to be believed.

She learns about the doors, passes intel along somehow. Intel Nico would later find. But either she spread a lie or Nico makes assumptions—she’s been “reborn” no she fuckin’ hasn’t. But her brother was willing to trade his life for hers when he was eleven (nico telling minos he tried to trade his soul for bianca’s in TBotL & Minos being like your dad doesn’t want you dead dummy kill MY enemy instead)—she’s not going to risk him following her to hell. Better that he doesn’t know where she’s gone—if she can come back to life on her own… well… maybe they could talk then. Fix things.

(He does anyway. He just doesn’t know she was the one to blaze the trail).

No but i have so many elaborate/ridiculous headcanons ab the di angelos that i’m so attached to ive done actual research these are ridiculously fleshed out im so attached to them i canmt. Soon tsats is gonna come and destroy these hc but as long as its a good book i can accept it ig.

But. Ppl were speculating ab maria di angelo being the “voice” calling to nico. & like. Idk i’d love to know ab her & wtf is up w/ that bc i have my Thoughts on the matter but i’d much rather it be bianca.

Forever a bianca di angelo apologist idk i love them sm.

[mimiri22-6]

I had so much to say halfway through the last episode, I was going insane, I had to walk away because it was so insane like twice. I was Prepared to say Everything that was on my mind afterwards but then BUT THEN THAT HAPPENED AND NOW IM JUST-

If I was more hydrated I would be BAWLING

Don't get me wrong, I'm gonna say everything I thought in another post, but I'm gonna do it later to give people time to block tags, but also seeing as we are literally #1 trending Hours before the season was officially supposed to drop, idk if there's anyone that HASN'T seen THAT yet. Also THAT is also already gifed and at the top of the page so like. Dear fucking God I am SO glad this actually came out early because if I only watched 1 ep every night for the next few nights there was NO way I wouldn't have been spoiled and been Absolutely Shocked and whiplashed

Anyway @neil-gaiman I'm devastated and now I have to go to work in a few hours after I wake up and I am Not gonna be able to think about fucking Anything ever again until this shit is Resolved.

I'm reading Every fix-it in existence after this.

I'm in shambles

I'm inconsolable

THERE'S A FUCKING CRACK SHIP THAT'S CANNON AND DOING BETTER THAN THEM IM NOT OK TTTOTTT

I have to stop typing now or I will never stop

[house-of-slayterr]

Daddy’s Home!:

Tag: @howl-fantasies @flaysthings @keffirinne

Basil’s POV:

I was entirely annoyed at this point. Maggie had gone on far too long pretending she was ok. You think after we had to learn the hard way about Miss Pepper, she’d learn to come to one of us by now. But she was still keeping her secrets. The front door open and I saw a familiar figure come through the door.

“How’s my favourite little puppy?” Y/N greeted condescendingly.

I rolled my eyes.

“Ooo, someone’s in a mood today. Do tell! Who does mommy have to kill this time?”

I laughed lowly.

“You can’t kill this problem Y/N. Im afraid you have an attachment to her already”

“Ugh are you still worried about Maggie? She’s a big girl Basil, she doesn’t need to sit in a circle and talk about her feelings.”

“Has she, or has she not been more jumpy recently?”

I knew it was unwise to talk to Y/N like that? But I’ll deal with the consequences later. She raised a brow at me before she answered.

“I suppose.”

“Has she not been avoiding everyone and always at her store?”

“That is true too, boy spit it out!” Y/N warned.

“She has a habit of hiding things that she thinks she can handle, but she really can’t. I have a feeling this is one of those things.”

Y/N spun a knife around in her hand, fidgeting with it. She seemed to think over my words.

“Is it really bothering you that much?” She finally asked.

“Yes.”

“Well then, get your coat.”

I didn’t like the look on her face. It was never good for anyone when Y/N was focused on something. Once she had a goal, it had to be reached. Obviously I didn’t hesitate, when Y/N tells you to do something you do it. I followed her out the door and outside.

“Seems Maggie will just have to take an early lunch today. She’s her own boss, don’t see why she’d say no. And if she does well-“

I knew she didn’t mean to insinuate she was going to use the knife on Maggie. But wouldn’t she? Wasn’t she capable of that? She’d been rough with me before, not that I minded. I had super human healing. But Maggie wasn’t so lucky. It didn’t take much for normal people to piss of Y/N Zsasz. But she considered us Family, whatever that meant to her. She wasn’t so quick to physical rage with us.

But I would never let it escalate to that, even though I doubted it would. We walked in silence the rest of the way, sneaking in through the back door of the flower shop.

“Oh Maggie Dearest, Mother is here.” Y/N said in a sing song tone.

I rolled my eyes.

“Normal people don’t break in through the back, during business hours.” Maggie said nonchalantly.

She was rushing around the store. There were a few customers, but once they saw Y/N they cleared out.

“And now you’re scaring off my customers, fantastic!” Maggie huffed.

“Don’t get short with me little miss.” Y/N warned.

It was then that Maggie seemed to finally notice my presence, she sent a small wave and smiled. She knew better than to ignore the woman, so she walked behind the register and sat on her stool. Turning her attention to us.

“Did something happen? Is everyone ok?” She asked worriedly.

I have a quick nod.

“Little Basil here wanted to have a little.. chat.”

Maggie swallowed, understanding the purpose of Y/N’s tone.

“Have I done something wrong?” She asked me.

“Maggie I’m worried about you.”

“Please, Basil, not this again. I told you I’m fine.”

“But you’re not! Everyone can see that! Even V is worried about you now.”

She fidgeted with her hands.

“What are you not telling us?”

“Remember your promise little florist.” Y/N warned.

She sighed.

“It’s not something anyone can fix so can we just drop it? Wants the point of bringing it up? You’re only gonna get mad at me.” She pointed at Y/N.

“Is it something worth getting mad about?” She tested.

“No, but you’ll think I’m stupid. Maybe I am.”

“Well then my opinion of you wouldn’t change.”

Y/N was very good about getting under people’s skin. Pushing them where she knew it hurt. Maggie frowned, plucking petals off a bouquet in front of her.

“Just promise you won’t yell , ok, scold me all you want but I really can’t handle that right now.”

I glanced to Y/N. I hardly ever raised my voice so I knew the question wasn’t pointed at me.

“Fine. Now tell us.”

“Have you guys heard of Scarecrow yet?”

“The new villain who recently popped up and terrorised the narrows. Yeah I’ve heard of him.” Y/N said nonchalantly.

“Well I’m was there at the time. It wasn’t his fault-“

“Stop trying to defend villains Maggie. You do realise we make a conscious choice to do what we do right? What is it Bob Ross says about Happy accidents?”

I just stood, listening intently. Glad Maggie would finally tell us what was wrong. Maybe she didn’t think we could help, but we always found a way. We protect our own.

“It wasn’t his fault!” She snapped.

I was taken aback. Maggie wasn’t one for yelling. She sighed, lowering her tone once more when Y/N raised a brow at him.

“He’s just a kid, and I don’t want either of you threatening him ok. That’s why I didn’t tell you.”

“You’re still not telling us.” I pointed out.

“My minds been frazzled ok. I’m falling apart at the seems and it’s not going away. So I’m doing the only thing I know how to do, pushing forward and pretending like it’s not happening.”

I frowned. Sure we would all be considered crazy by any of the citizens of Gotham. But from the perspective, Maggie was the most sane out of us. And to hear her sound this scared, broke my heart. As much as it could break.

“He used his fear gas on you didn’t he?” Y/N asked.

I would have to research this kid. Figure out what he was doing and how it effected the human body. Maybe there was a way to reverse it.

“When I went to get Oswald’s gift, he thought I was gonna hurt him. And according to him he gave me “too much” he offered to “fix” me but I don’t think I want that.”

“He has a solution to fix you and you said no?” I asked wearily.

That didn’t make any sense to me. But with the sleep deprivation, I wasn’t surprised she wasn’t thinking clearly.

“And what was his solution?” Y/N asked.

Before she sounded bored, but now she actually sounded concerned. Angry even.

“Give me more. Overwhelmed my system until the need for fear is obsolete.” Maggie said. “But you don’t understand, it was awful. It still is awful. I can’t do that.”

“Maggie, you’re stronger than you think. But I think you made the right call. Not about, not telling us, but about avoiding this. I’m sure Ed could come up with a different solution.” Y/N said rationally.

“Would it be so bad?” I asked.

Maggie scoffed.

“Of course you would at that Mr, I don’t have feelings. People need fear, I need fear.”

“And what are you so afraid of if you don’t?”

“Basil, I’ve already made incredibly morally incorrect choices since moving here. But I get it, that’s just how Gotham is. If I lose this, I’ll end up another nameless face in Arkham. If I don’t have fear to hold me back I-“

“You’ll lose control.” Y/N finished.

She reached into her bag, pulling out a cigarette. She offered one to Maggie and I, but we both declined.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I thought it would have wear off more by now, fade with time, but the nightmares won’t go away. Even when I’m awake.”

Y/N and I both knew it. Maggie had Great potential, but that was dangerous. If she got into the wrong hands, she could be the downfall of Gotham, instead of helping to uphold it. And from her past, she was easily manipulated. It’s why we kept her far far away from people like Jerome. People who were genuinely insane. Jerome could not run Gotham, he can’t even lead his gang of faceless goons.

“Then we make you not afraid of the nightmares. A new fear arises it, we squash it. Simple.”

But that wasn’t simple. I didn’t know everything about Humans but they weren’t simple creatures. My sister knew that. Maggie laughed.

“Sure. Why not. What have I got to lose at this point.”

“Only your sanity, but I think that’s overrated anyway my dear.”

Maggie rolled her eyes.

“Please you’re the most sane person in the mansion. Your the only one besides me who can talk some reason into Oswald.”

Y/N laughed something fierce. Placing her hand on Maggie shoulder.

“Maybe you should close for the day, we could go back home.” She offered.

“Why the hell not, no one is coming with in a mile of this place if they think you’re in the area.” Maggie joked.

It was nice to see them throwing little jabs at each other, getting along. Nice to see Maggie smiling even if it was only for a few seconds. Y/N waited out back for us, seemingly calling Tabitha me Butch with the limbo. And I followed her around the store, helping with little closing tasks.

“B could you move that big plant in front of the door?”

“Sure?”

“It’s to keep people out.”

“It’s a glass door Maggie they can just break and it come through.” I said bluntly.

She laughed, throwing her head back.

“Go on Basil, get your hand near the actually flower of the plant and tell me if you want to break into my store. Carry it it by the pot, always!”

Curiosity got the better of me and I stuck my hand out to the plant. Little tendrils reached out toward my warmer skin. Probably how this specific is of plant hunts, must be carnivorous. Similar to a Venus fly trap. I was hardly surprised, we had things like this on my planet. And Maggie had ordered from a new service now that Ivy had been struck down. I pulled my hand away as one of the tendrils swiftly cut a Knick on my palm. Maggie placed a hand on my back.

“Awww, he likes you. The delivery boy accidentally lost two fingers but I patched him up and gave him a $100 tip, I mean I did warn him.”

It was funny how casually she could say stuff like this now. She wasn’t nearly as shy and timid as when we first met nearly a year ago now. And she was nothing like the girl Y/N had first described to me. So scared and naive and seemingly innocent. But at the time I knew better, Oliver had mentioned Maggie had a hard life growing up.

“Like they were just gone, or did you put them in a little sandwich baggie to take to the hospital, to get put back on?” I joked.

“Basil Merlin Zor El, did you just crack a joke?”

Her smile was contagious now, seemingly having forgotten all about the heavy conversation we just had. It would have been much worse if Y/N had done this alone.

“I can’t be funny fuck you very much!”

“You still correct everyone’s grammar in the group chat even though people don’t talk like that.”

“Sorry I like my texts to be literate.”

“You mean your paragraphs?”

I rolled my eyes.

“Your impossible you know that?”

“Learned from the best! I mean you know how stubborn Ollie is, and don’t even get me started on Thea. Speaking of which, how’s that going?”

I had shot Y/N a quick text, telling her I wanted some time alone with Maggie first. She just texted back a coffee emoji, seemingly heading to her favourite shop. And just told us to meet her back at the house.

“How’s what going?” I asked, shoving my phone back into my pocket.

“You and Thea.”

She squinted her eyes slightly my way, as if she was testing me.

“Thea and I?”

“Are you correcting me or asking a question?” She laughed.

“Both.”

“Please, B I know you like to pretend you can’t fathom human emotions, but you do have them. You like her.”

“You’ve never seen us interact.”

“You know I still talk to her right? Of course, I didn’t know it was you until recently. But she would always text me about this cute boy who Oliver would call in for help. And tell me about how you got to work together on mission. Thank you, for protecting her by the way. I’m not educating pleased Oliver dragged her into his little Vigilante scheme. But she’s 18 now, she can do what she wants.”

“She’s texted you about me? She thinks I’m cute?”

This was news to me.

“On Oswald’s mother, how can you be both the most observant and oblivious person I know? You beat Jim in that department btw.”

“I beat Jim in every department.”

I scoffed. Going around and making sure all the lights were off, except for the lights in the back room that helped her plants to grow. I’d only helped out in the shop once before this, but I remembered all the steps.

“Jim’s a nightmare, that’s not exactly something to brag about.” She laughed.

“Yet you’re the one in love with him.”

She turned around, sending me a glare and I raised my arms in mock defeat.

“I am not ‘in love’ with him, we haven’t even talked since the tea party. Stop trying to turn this conversation back to me!”

I rolled my eyes.

“Maybe if you didn’t make getting to know you like pulling teeth…”

She sighed heavily.

“I am sorry about that Basil, if it really bothers you I’ll try to remember to open up more. I’m better at taking care of others-“

“Than you are yourself. We know! How do you even find time in your day to do all the shit you do?” I asked.

“I just roll with the punches. Schedules are not my problem”

“To answer your question. I wasn’t aware there was anything going on between Thea and I. I can stop it right now if you want. I don’t really want to see Oliver after that stunt he pulled.”

“Oh, you mean humiliating me on my birthday, and then revealing he’s slept with Y/N in the past? That was a shit show wasn’t it? Let’s hope V and Your birthdays go much smoother. But no, I think it’s cute. Friends or anything else, I don’t mind at all Basil. You need people to talk to that aren’t in Gotham. Speaking of which, I was thinking maybe we could take a trip National city soon, maybe take V with us.”

“Why the sudden interest in National City?”

“Change of scenery, everything is chronically chaotic around here.”

“By change of scenery do you mean avoiding Jim?”

“I’m not avoid him Basil. He made his choice, or un-choice I guess. He still had feelings for Lee but she’s getting married. If he wants to figure his shit out, he can be my guest. But I’m not just gonna sit around and wait for him.”

“Good, you deserve better. I suppose I’m long overdue for a visit with Kara. But you know I hate staying long, she has a way of-“

“Prying the things out of you that you don’t want to say?” Maggie’s raised a brow at me.

I’d never really noticed the similarities between my sister and I. My cousin, Super-Man and I were nothing alike. He was that friendly neighbourhood macho man, with a soft spot for damsels in distress. I believe he was still with that Lois girl, I didn’t care much for her. But I didn’t care much for my cousin either.

But my sister. She was fine. I loved her like any brother loves his flesh and blood I suppose. But personality wise we were so different. She was soft and bubbly, and always laughing. He had a contagious personality that made her the life of the party. But she also had a strong sense of justice, that I simply did not inherit. If she had any idea what I was doing here in Gotham, she would lose her mind. Training with a skilled assassin and running mob hits to protect Oswald’s claim to his “throne.”

“Earth to the Kryptonian?” Maggie snapped her fingers in front of my face.

“Oh, sorry. What were you saying?”

“I’m going to be transparent-“

“Please don’t let me stop you.” I laughed.

Maggie rolled her eyes.

“Alex has been asking me to come visit again.”

It took two seconds to pick up what she was insinuating. And I groaned.

“Magnolia blossom, please tell me you didn’t have sex with my adopted sister!” I teased.

I wasn’t really mad about it, anyone would be better than Jim. And Alex was alright, she was more willing to do harm than Kara. Which made her more level headed in my book. Alex was loyal to the mission, Kara was loyal to her heart. Maggie cringed, offering me a half cocked smile.

“When did you even have time for that? We weren’t even in town a full 24 hours!” I was more than amused at this point.

Studying Maggie was my favourite hobby. There were so many sides to her I didn’t understand, but I wanted too. Just like I wanted to understand Y/N and Thea, and V. These women were fascinating. Surviving in the most inopportune conditions, and almost always coming out on top. When so many women like Miss Mooney, Miss Falcone and Miss Pepper have fallen. Becoming history with the town, however important their memories may be. Gotham had a rich history, and the “hero’s” weren’t part of that.

For every Jim Gordon, you had five or more of us. You wound up with cops like Harvey, willing to turn the other way, wether for their benefit or the greater good. Forming alliances with the enemy just to survive another day. Some may consider him a Coward, but he’s a hell of a lot smarter than his younger counterpart. I wonder if that’s how Maggie was when she first got here. Bright eyed and ready to make a difference. On her, I might not hate it much, her similarities to Kara make it palletable, but on Jim it was vomitous. He too would fall to this City one day, and I wasn’t going to let him drag Maggie down with him.

“The reception-“

“I’m gonna stop you right there Maggie, sometimes I swear you’re worse than Y/N and Victor. The reception was three hours.”

“It wasn’t even my fault, Alex is, you know what, you don’t wanna know that. She initiated, that is my point.”

I let out a huff through my nose, shaking my head.

Maggie crossed her arms over her chest and pouted like a child. I observed her for a second longer, and noticed her tense her muscles in a slight tick. Was one of her nightmares starting to sink in? It was only midday, it must be as bad as she says it is. I moved the conversation along, suggesting maybe we get coffee as well. Wondering if the stimulation would drive the hallucinations away or make them worse. I was prepared for either outcome, we’d be home soon.

“If you really don’t want me to hang out with Alex, I won’t. I don’t even think it will be like that, I think it’s just nice to be around someone outside of your usual circle. She’s been going through a lot recently and, well you know how Kara is. Her solution to every problem is all peaches and rainbows, and Alex isn’t that kind of girl. Not all the time at least.”

“It sounds like you two have been really talking.”

“We have, it’s been nice. I’m sorry I kept it from you, I was just worried you’d be upset with me. I know I don’t have the cleanest reputation, but I am attempting to grow up.”

I have no idea what compelled me to verbalise this thought in the moment, but an intrusive thought slipped past my lips. A tell of my age I suppose, at least how the humans viewed it.

“Killing two people will do that to a person.”

Her eyes widened as she sipped her coffee, and she stopped her footfalls, almost choking. My smirk was quick to disappear.

“You’ve been spending too much time with Victor, pour l'amour de dieu et des anges!”

Her accent was smoother when she spoke French, much like Y/N. In fact, I’d wager both women sound far more dangerous when they speak it. But there was a major difference in how they both used it. Y/N stops speaking English when she’s angry, the words rolling off her tongue with vitriol and bite. She speaks like a queen who has been wronged by her subjects.

Maggie however, was more sporadic. I suppose it was any time of more intense or sudden emotions. The few times she’s needed to comfort little V, she spoke it to sooth her. She’d use it for exclamations of joy, love or surprise. Or mumble it under her breath when she was angry. But never loud or threatening in a shout like Y/N. Another one of my favourite differences between the two women.

“Why are you being so… human today? Did my favourite little kyrptonian grow a heart?” She teased.

Ah, another trait she’d gained from Y/N in the eternal nature Vs nurture debate.

“You’ve been floating in and out of analytical daydreams all afternoon.” She pressed.

It was infuriating how she could demand information from me, but I had to corner her to get her to talk. But these were the roles we played, willingly or not.

“Perhaps I have been around little V too long.” I answered plainly.

“Awww, Little B and Little V bonding.” She ran a hand through my hair, messing it up “that warms my big sister heart.” She grinned.

“Maybe you should be in Arkham, I think you’ve actually lost it.” I teased back.

One on one time with Maggie and I was rare. I didn’t want to risk ruining it, by bringing down the playful aura. I pushed the front door open, letting her walk inside first as always. If my Earth father and mother taught me anything, it was how to be the perfect gentlemen. Only few people got that persona earnestly.

Maggie’s POV:

I don’t know what I was so worried about earlier. Basil was an enigma but he’d never been cold to me before. He pretended to be more mature for, well I don’t know whose sake. But he had his childish moments just like the rest of us.

Today has gone much worse in my head. Probably made more vivid by the constant fear and random spikes of adrenaline. But I could handle it, I had to handle it. There were people who depending on me now. No matter how unsettling their purposes for me were. Gotham had that effect on people. Assigning roles that you just had to roll over too. Everyone played their part.

I followed Y/N voice to the living room, ready to hear whatever plan she’d come up with. I was sure it would be long and awful, but what needs to be done, needs to be done. The sooner we got this over with, the sooner like could go back to normal. As normal as like could be in Gotham. Basil was hot on my tail, so much so he nearly ran into me when I slammed on my heels. As I rounded the corner, my heart stopped.

“Oh, Children! Come say hi to a new friend.”

Y/N voice may have been light and cheery on the surface. As it always was when she was playing good little house host. But that wasn’t a request. Basil stepped to my side to get a better look at the man sat a crossed from her on the couch. Before anyone could get a word out, our guest turned to greet me.

“What’s wrong child, you look like you’ve seen a ghost?” He smirked wickedly.

“Deathstroke” Basil’s voice came from lowly beside me.

I was sure he figured it out already. Basil was a smart boy with a nasty habit of stalking his interests. He probably knew more about me than even Victor or Y/N. And he’d had intimate access to my old home for months before anyone knew. Oliver was hell bent on killing this bastard, and it was never in my plans to stop him. This was going to be a disaster, no good things ever happened when Slade Wilson surfaced from his little island.

“Hello Father.” I spat coldly.

An: and cliffhanger! Now we finally know who Maggie’s real father is. The Queen Family is an odd breed. Oliver being the only true Queen, whilst Thea is a Merlyn, and Maggie is a Wilson. She’s been a lot of things in her life, A Maddox when she got adopted then her family decided she was too much trouble. Some would have considered her a Mathias under Dollmakers rule, but that’s what she got the monicker Blossom. Then she became and honours Zsasz, but she will never consider herself a Wilson! She has too much pride for that. It’s clear blood relations do not matter to her.

[the-ultimate-pie-family]

"Blood was fighting an old foe a thing he killed centuries ago." Come on, son, hit me harder, "discord bloods father yelled at him. " Come on, son, show your daddy what you got."Discord snapped his fingers, launching blood, but blood stood his ground as his fake skin got cut." You're a strong one. I'll give you that, but are you strong enough to stop me? I'm strong enough discord. I'm your father blood call me dad, "Discord chuckled, mocking his son." You are not a father of mine. That hurts, son, but maybe your girlfriend is corrupting. You embrace your chaos, magic going through your bones, son. Never discord, I'm not like you in no way, shape, or form!!!!! "Blood ran for discord summoning magic fist." Die!!!!!!! "But discord held out vanity by her throat." Vanity? "Blood stopped getting mad." Leave her out of this discord it's between me and you, not her. We'll you see son she's dating you so she has the right to know who brought you in this life. Blood kick his ass you got this, babe. Shut you god slut "Vanity shot one of her fangs in discord left eye has he dropped Vanity" ahh you bitch "discord snapped his finger turning Vanity inside out she dropped half dead" as long im standing she will die son good bye Vanity "discord went to kill Vanity by stomping on her heart" ahhh!!!!!!!! "The ground started to shake as blood chaos, magic, started to spark around him, making change his form to his true form, the forbidden dead god draconequus." That's my son now, "discord fixed Vanity to her normal self, then he stabbed Vanity in her heart with his claws." Vanity!!!!!!!!! "Blood then went full dead god showing nothing but bones and the chaos magic surrounding them as god got launched out of blood." god heal Vanity, i got him."god slid to vanity healing her"

~the battle against a dead god and chaos god will be legendary~

"Blood and Discord fought till discord was dead as god healed vanity completely." That's gonna be sore later. God, how long can blood survive without inside him? Not long, but his chaos magic is in rage mode. Discord won't last long

"Blood was blasting discord in his face nonstop till he was dead vanity got up and hugged blood telling him to stop amd he did stop and fell to his knees" are you ok babe? "Blood asked, worried." I'm fine, babe, thanks to you,"Vanity kissed blood," and by the way, babe, you're looking smoking in this form "blood chuckled" now I can twist around you miss vanity "Vanity blushed as they teleported to their room for a few hours"

Mod pie: god damnit blood you had to lose you cool and change to your true form damn you to heaven. Blood short story is not related to the others for vanity, but blood is now his draconequus form now which I'll have to fix that now

Blood: i wouldn't yet

Tag: @vanitythevantropist

[mewsrys]

I dont havw anything productive to say about the new malevolent episode. I might relisten again lol it may be one of my favorites. Already.

spoilers under here for 33 But i dont think i’ll be tagging this anyways because im scared of pwople reading it

I felt such a sense of dread all throughout the episode. jesus christ. somehow the scene where john n arthur were trying to find oscar, and opening all the doors in the hallway was . Almosr more suspenseful than later parts. Im kind of a pussy (Deathly afraid of jumpscares especially)!anyways idk how i can handle this podcast man. If oscar makes it out of this alive im gonna be surprised, like almost everyone that’s helped arthur and john so far has not ended up very . Well.

And the last few minutes… i could talk about that for so long. Incredible!!! The way that all these different things started piling up, with daniel saying he left a message at the hotel, the phone call, and all at the same time as arthurs trying to speak to oscar over the phone, the KNOCKING ON THE DOOR!! How arthur tried telling daniel not to open the door as he realized who it was. and he died anyways . Man. I was having trouble keeping up with everything going on but in the best fucking way possible! It fit the moment so well. and arthur callinf daniel dad… minutes before he died…… Im Not Okay. Like the shouting winded down, and they started having more conversation, and then shit just hit the fucking fan from then on. AGGHDDHDEHEXHDJJXJE

Ok and the last part, i loved the way that the audio was done there. This podcast is literally the best ive listened to in manh ways especially how i feel like i may as well be watching a show with Visuals. i know this entire post is just me acknowledging things that were literally Intentional for this epiaode, but INCANNOT GET OVER IT! i could Really See especially in the last part as if the “camera” had been in a fixed position as arthur ran away, and the butcher became closer to the “camera” before going after him. Idk i know thar was the intention but i fucking love when shit loke thar happens in podcasts cause i feel like its not that common n if it is it usually isnt that easy to See

Thar may be the wnd of my thoughts for now… Hi future self rereading my posts

Nobody call me stupid i already know and im acknowledging it so that i dont make a fool of myself!! if you read this pretend you didn’t

[phoenixdaneko]

Ok im done searching for stuff today, tomorrow I'm definitely gonna use the mass post editor to add the general SB tag to all the other posts I missed and then I'll fix them and add Emojis on my phone afterwards

my everything hurts so I'm giving up for now and then I'll draw later when I don't have my cats taking up a bunch of my bed space

[majorbaby]

okay im back for another round....

@cocktailpolitics i'm not sure why i can't tag you bc you haven't blocked me as far as i can tell? but you said: #I've always loved Mulcahy and Sidney together 🥹🥹🥹#i just think they'd be super sweet to each other i haven't thought about them much but i have no objections! @scoobydoo-ghoulschool you also said mulcahy x sidney too! and im curious about the fic you mentioned in your tags

@mybluehappydays said: #not rare in the sense of people not liking it#but VERY rare in the sense of actual content#trapper/ginger#there is a Sweetness there that i would like to see explored :(((

huge YES from me on this one. they have two really sweet moments on the show and yeah. more ginger content in general but i'm super down for trapper/ginger!!

@ikthus my friend ikthus! you said: [redacted] trapcahy (noottt sure you wanted me to say the whole thing lol) and tbh. you've convinced me of this one and you did it in such a horny creative way in your fic.

there's some interesting potential there to do something with mulcahy's priesthood and trapper's almost-priesthood maybe they were roomies at the seminary iunno

@thebreakfastgenie said. - hawkeye/bigelow - charles/donna - hawnk - hawkeye/carlye counts I think - trapper/oliver - hawkeye/lyle - hawkeye/scully - margaret/lorraine

right on all accounts!! i was about to list which ones i was super into here but the list of ones i'm not really into is much shorter: hawkeye/lyle not because it isn't real (it so is) but because i was distracted from his plot by klinger's marriage. god springtime is such a good fucking episode... @bipolarhawkeyepierce agreed with most of thebreakfastgenie's ships above and also mentioned henry/klinger + charles/hawkeye, both of which i am amicable too. also thanks for hawnkpilling me.

@hawkeyes-boy said: #ok i love radar/sparky#and radar/klinger#but i also love henry/klinger#trapper/klinger would be excellent#trap and marg were fuckbuddies idk if that counts#because i dont necessarily ship them#i also think a single night with trapper would fix mulcahey but i also dont ship them#also i need someone to find the perfect ship for eddie becayse i love her and she deserves love again... these are all correct. and btw i would suggest margie/eddie as the true solution to eddie's problem buuut i also think klinger/eddie could've been sweet. i can't remember if he's included in the draw? need to re-watch Edwina.

@charleshawk4077 ... does what it says on the tin! i admire the commitment to the bit and so would hawkeye. charles/hawk is my later-seasons ship and one day i'm gonna write something for them, i just need to think about it for a long time because i really want to do it right and right now i don't think i have the writing chops to get their dynamic down right. @henry-blake-offishial linked their hawk/henry fic and you are NOT invading, this post is for you! haven't read this fic but i will soon. i can be into hawk/henry, they flirt a lot on the show. and tbh i would have watched 11 seasons of henry whereas i would've been okay to let trapper go around 8. henry carries 1-3 on his BACK just as much if not moreso than the HawkTrap duo and mclean stevenson was funny as fuck. justice for henry!!!

@morewyckedthanyou also said hawkcahy, which i talked about earlier on :) i hope you are enjoying the recent boost in hawkcahy fics on ao3!

hit me with your rarepairs MASHblr!!! i wanna know!

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