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written-mishaps · 18 days ago
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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCKKKKKKKK I JUST ACCIDEBTALLY DELETED MY PINNED POST ARE YOU KIDDINBGGGGGGGGG
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todayisafridaynight · 6 months ago
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sometimes i get nishiki i really do
#snap chats#like from an outsider perspective it is utterly hilarious watching everything go wrong for him#BUT GIRL NOT ME STOP HAVING THIGNS GO WRONG FOR MEEEEEE WHAT IS ALL THIS#this month its actually one thing after another if i start wearing white everyone needs to be concerned#you guys remember my bullshit roommates yeah well TLDR im getting fined for their messes im going to SCREAM#I HATE IT HEERRRREEE I KNOW IM EVIL BUT CMON#literally had such a silly night last night and now everything sucks again is this life is this what life is#its not its not what life is im just hearing my mom bitching in the other room and im letting her vibes ruin mine#everything going to be ok this is just a hiccup .... a small pinprick in the tapestry of life ....#i am incredibly annoyed though cause this is one of those situations where youve done nothing wrong but youre being shot for it#its just unfair but whatever we ball ..... im putting the hair gel away guys im not slicking my hair back just yet ....#i got a new friend last night so maybe ill just hang with them later and ill remember life is beautiful ..#heh ... jk ... i can remind myself life is beautiful right now ... im gonna go eat some tiramisu ...#jesus christ i really do love italian food what the fuck. pasta / calamari / tiramisu#i dont think calamari is italian but i got it from an italian place w/e we get the picture#its not my fault that italy has good food ... i would just never go there .....#ok bye ima go eat and drink water now. water will remind me how beautiful life is ...
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago
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#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the#best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b#like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional#control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood#weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start#crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way#not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things.#thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi#now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me.#working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning &#prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st.#task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in#this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do#moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an#then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose#things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the#picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to#absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal#away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i#still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop#switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping#would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is#but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually#unrelated#i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static#but focus is not a thing i cna control
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be-good-to-bugs · 2 years ago
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that-fic-girl · 1 year ago
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I'VE GOT A SCENARIO, ok so I saw the Monty doing Roxanne with reader being jealous and got a thought. Reader is dating Monty but cheats on reader with Roxanne. They cry to Bonnie for comfort cuz he's sweet bunny but little does the reader know his idea so comfort is something else 👀. Monty catches them and is fumming cuz he knows Bonnie's been pinning for reader the whole time. Bunny boi looking at Monty while pounding reader like whatcha done do? 👀🐇👀
your prayers have been answered my sweet in this, reader calls bonnie thumper as a nickname. I will STAND WITH THAT HEAD CANON UNTIL I DIE.
GLAMROCK BONNIE x READER
tw: NSFW THEMES, cheating, mentions of panties for the feminine ppl, not read over it just finished it off this morning, mentions of vaginal parts
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every day was getting more and more exhausting for you. Your pay check is slipping, your sink was leaking and your relationship was fading.
you would find yourself getting upset and just breaking down, the first person at your side would always be bonnie.
he would always hear to what you had to say, he gave great advice and if you need to cry in his embrace, hes happy to be there for you.
"its gonna be okay superstar, I promise" he held you and stroked your hair as you quietly sobbed into his bowling shirt.
"I-its not... hes going to leave me.. I-.. I just don't know what to do"
you knew deep down it was for the better. all monty ever did was insult you and ignore you. NOTHING about him screamed "caring" in any way.
"but... it'll be for the best." you stuttered, wiping your tears from your face.
you patted Bonnies leg and gave him a little smile, indicating it was time for you to finish on your check-ups with the other glamrocks. god how he loves that smile.
before you pulled the door he grabbed your waist from behind and hugged you.
"just one more before you leave, im gonna miss ya'" he said whilst resting his head into the dip of your neck.
"Awww, thumper. c'mere"
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the large thump of the elevator hitting the floor woke you up from your thoughts. remembering you have to finish off the last of the glamrock checkups and then your free to roam around for a bit until opening.
your first stop was freddy;
freddy noticed your tear stained face and questioned you about it but after you said it was nothing, he didn't want to push you into telling him. so he stayed quiet until you finished.
"alright! all done. you seem to be operating fine."
you gave the brown bear a smile, closing his stomach hatch.
"I best be on my way now".
and with that, you made your way to Roxy's greenroom but to your surprise, she wasn't there.
"that's strange... maybe she's in her raceway. ill check it later"
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you grabbed your tools and headed to your gators greenroom.
you where absolutely terrified, why wouldn't you be? he has a short temper and isn't really fond of you DESPITE you being his significant other.
as you where about to place your fist onto his door, you heard something.
"fuckkk..roxyy"
you heard grunts and several slurs mumbling all coming from monty's room.
you felt dread bubbling in the pit of your stomach.
without hesitation, you slammed the door open to reveal a heartbreaking scene.
"what. the. fuck" you dropped your bags to the floor and stood in shock.
"ah- shit babe! its not what it looks like!"
monty tried to cover Roxy whilst trying to put his pants back on, knocking over a few objects thrown across his room.
"oh so you weren't just balls fucking deep in Roxy then huh?! do you think im a fucking idiot?!" you frantically waved your arms around, your head raging at the thought of your best friend FUCKING your boyfriend.
"no I-"
"so this is why you where so distant from me. you where screwing around with her!" you cut him off.
monty was silent. he knew you where right and you could see it on his face
Roxanne stood up and moved towards you
"im sorry y/n-"
"I don't want to hear anything from you."
and with that you slammed the door shut, walking back to the elevator you came from. you where too distracted to go check on Chica or the others. you had one destination you where gonna go to and that was it.
you felt your anger slowly melt into sadness and the aching in your chest started to become more apparent. tears started to run down your face.
"shit.."
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bonnie was sat on foxy's stage, head in his hands and dying of boredom.
"why didn't I just tell her, kiss her.. or DO ANYTHING! god she's gonna get played by that dick-"
"b-bonnie.."
his head instantly turned.
"o-oh my sweet thing, what happened?"
he quickly ran to your side, putting your head in his hands.
"monty he...he.. I think he grew fonder to Roxanne.."
bonnie gave you a sad look, cupping your cheek in his hand.
"aw darlin'... im sorry you had to see that"
his hands ran down to your waist, pulling you into his chest.
"its going to be alright, love"
you wiped you tears and sat down, putting you head into your hands. Bonnie lifted your face up to meet him, giving you a soft smirk.
"I can treat you better than he ever could, y'know?"
your eyes never left his, getting lost in the sight that was in front of you. you felt your insides bubbling in excitement.
you knew there was always something there between you two but you always thought it was a misunderstanding. but now you realise that hes always been the one there for you, always been the one to keep you company on lonely night shifts, always been the one to understand and listen to you, hes always been the one.
"do you want me to treat you better?" his hands slowly slid up your thighs, rubbing the inside of your legs.
"y-yes..please" you stuttered, you heart was beating so fast. you couldn't actually believe this was happening.
"atta' girl" he said with a soft melodic tone.
NSFW UNDER THE LINEEE
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bonnie's hands started to wonder all over you whilst he kissed your neck, touching all of your sensitive parts.
he was a bit hesitant a first but the noises you made encouraged him to feel more.
His hands tugged at the waist line of your pants, eagerly wanting to see the beauty between your legs.
"you sure you want this sweetheart?" he gave you a look of concern, making sure that this was the right moment for you.
"I am positive my little thumper, you're too sweet"
his foot pounded lightly in the floor from the little nickname you gave him. he felt as if he was under your spell, no matter what, all he could think about was you.
he pulled your pants off, revealing the laced panties you wore.
his hand glided over the heat between your legs, feeling your wetness and admiring the state that you where in. the state he caused you to be in.
"my, my baby. you look so adorable" he purred, his head going closer to your lower regions
"and you're all mine"
he pulled you panties off, staring down your dripping mess between your legs. his hands caressed your inner thighs, making your heat throb in anticipation.
even in such a desperate situation, he still made you feel special. it still made your stomach bubble butterflies.
"please just fuck me bon... I need you"
That lit something in him. Within seconds he’s picking you up and placing you on top of his lap, kissing your shoulders whilst his hands roamed the bottom half of your body.
You’re body was warm, soft, his hands gave you such a euphoric feeling. You knew in that moment that he’s what you want, your face grew redder and your heart beat increased.
You felt him slowly lift up your body as you felt something poking at your puffy core. A few whimpers left your mouth as you felt him enter inside of you.
“Fuckk, hon…”
His voice sounded so melodic, filling your stomach with butterflies, making you feel as if you’re a teenager again with a high school crush.
Your head naturally fell onto Bonnies shoulder as he started to bounce you up and down on his cock. He was slow and passionate. Not rough or mean like Monty was.
Your hands wrapped around him as your mouth opened, letting out the sweetest of noises, sending him over the edge, he was loving every second of it and you could tell.
“..’feels so good Bon..”
He smiled, he loved hearing you, especially like this.
“I know sweets, let Bonnie take care of ya’”
And with that, you’re riding up and down on him, filling your senses with a euphoric pleasure as he fucked you right to the edge.
By this point your legs had started to shake, you was clearly close and he wanted to get you to finish, all he wanted was for you to feel good.
His hands move as he moves one of them to your lower back and the other one straight to your puffy clit. As soon as his fingers made contact, your head flung back as the overwhelming feeling whipped straight to your core.
“O-oh my goddd… Bon..’mgonna cum..”
You mumbled as your body grew limp.
“That’s it clover, feel good on me, please”
And with that, you both felt your gummy walls tighten around him. Your body heaved as your clenched your fists and screamed for him, gifting him a small smirk on his face.
He pulled you off of him, not caring that he hadn’t finished, more of that he needed to take care of you. Pulling you into his chest, he moved a strand of hair from your face. You smiled at him. God. He loved that smile.
“God.. be mine hon, please”.
Sorry for the fact that it was rushed, its 3:56 and I’m tryna get all my drafts finished and I know y’all are back on the FNAF band waggon again so why not throw a few out there for you guys, love ya <3
Also please give me more requests, I’ve got no inspiration 😭
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isa-ah · 4 months ago
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yea yea yea yea yea
i was laying in bed yesterday around like 7 trying to warm up under my blanket when it started dragging off of me and over the foot of the bed. i assumed my cat had come in and started pulling on it so i sat up after a few seconds of tugging and looked over the foot of the bed like ??? cause i couldnt see him. got up and found one cat on our catio outside and the other dead asleep in my mother in laws lap. ok sure.
well i can be hospitable. so i went back to my room and said hey look, its not dark out yet so if you want to hang out thats fine. ill put something on the tv for us to watch. and i cleared the whole lower half of the bed and sat up by the head of it while i browsed youtube.
now that can be written off to my specific brand of grew up on granny magic crazy. thats fine. except a few minutes later nicole comes back to my room with my cat in her arms so she could lock him up while she got groceries off the porch. she puts nubi in my arms and as he turns around to face the foot of the bed he shoots 3 ft vertical out of my arms and over the side of the bed. this scared the shit out of ME bc hes never done that to me before.
so im like ????? watching him slink around and then slowly and cautiously, he pokes his head over the foot of the bed where its all cleared off for my guest to sit and sniffs like crazy. pauses. sniffs again. then ducks down and hides under the bed. like. oh okay.
not much to say about after that. when i got up to go pick my husband up from work i asked it to leave for the night and got that little 6th sense tickle that it went out the front with us as we left. nothing weirds happened since or anything, i just thought it was interesting.
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maxe-murderer · 1 year ago
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I've become attached to the cowboy aesthetic gotta make the most of it ig. No fucking clue how I'm gonna find this fabric. I s2g if I gotta dye fucking suede. Rip to the historical coat idea for this summer lmao
i am become spider
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thesilentlands · 1 year ago
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Chapter 7+: Volts Upgrade
-dont worry, if he does anything bad to you let me know.
Volt could only reply with a simple "OK" before his message systems where blocked by the block chip. The chip also blocked his ability to move so hes completly imobile now only able to see and speak.
Volt then was placed on a harness and he waited for something.
-Hello? - he spoke out in a scared and confused static voice, then Frank came in to the room, wearing a diffrent shirt and a diffrent robotic arm.
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-hello volt - Frank said in a calm voice, slowly aproching a table where verious mechanic tools where located
-why are you doing, this? To me? -
-listen buddy since you guys moved hire i wanne do a good thing by cheaking you out-
-but but you cant, youll wont like what youll find-
-bealive me, i find many bad things inside bots that where traveling for a long while-
-but um UM-
-you dont have to worry about anything Volt- he said, walking twards Volt with a mear chair
Frank then removed Volts forgead plate and pulled out his "brain", this was a pretty tipical thing to do, but Volt was nerwous.
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-are you gonna kill me?- he asked
-why of course not, your not ready for salvage yet, hehe..-
-...-
-i think i know why your worried-
-whats that?-
-your from a bunker, arent you?-
-?!- Volt was shoked at what he heard -How you know???-
-well i know that your kind of model orginated from bunkers, plus your main chip is inscribe with bunker numerals-
-huh, so you knew from start?-
-yup, but i was kinda suprised when i first saw you walking on two legs-
-weard habit of mine-
-alright im gonna upgrade your system now, and maybe do some modification to improve you, your gonna black out-
-fine, alright, just do it-
As Volt said Frank did, Volt now couldnt see, hear or feel anything, he was completly surounded by darkness. Frank took some time wail reparing Volt, his systems where old and really out dated, he took 4 hours repeplacing, updating and modifing Volt. When frank was finished he removed the block chip and waited untill Volt woke up
Volt waited untill all his limbs where usable then he woke up, he looked around and saw Frank working at his desk, he then barked in a much better voice, he was suprised by this. Then Frank looked back at him and let him off his harness.
-soo, how do you feel?- Frank asked
-it feels odd, i can see everything better and my voice is better, im better-
-yeah bud, ive replaced your voice box with a new one, updated your system, and ive also removed your upper mouth plate where your lens was-
-wheres the plate now-
-dont worry, ive put it in on the top of the shelf, you know its risky-
-right, what else have you done to me?-
-alright, go to that mirror over there- he points at a mirror
Volt walks over to the mirror and looks at him self, he notised that at the bolts that hold his jaw there where a sturdey pieace of wire sticking out.
-did you broke me??-
-no no, just open your mouth and youll see-
Volt slowly opened his jaw and the wire was starting to split into many more and then a holo projection with a faint yellow color appered.
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-wo!-
-yeah i had a spare part that did this, when you scream youll then flash band someone your faceing, so be carefull-
-ok! Anything else?-
-ive instaled some small solar panels on your back-
-nice, anything else-
-thats all volt, you can leave now if you what-
-Frank?-
-yeah?-
-would you like to know something, i can anwer it-
-uhh, let me think... To who did you give the lens? If there was a lens in the first plac--
-to mike, he found me in my weakest and helped me, so i repayed him-
-alright then, thanks for shareing that-
-you wont tell anyone?-
-i wont, i promise-
-alright, ill be leaving now-
-later bud, see you in the morning-
Then Volt left, he was suprised and kinda happy that people dont judge him nor mike, he then went up stairs, quietly to not disturb the other, he walked up to the door and he could her Micheal and Vanessa talk.
He chose to not disturb them, he returned down stairs and layed on the couth he then entered his sleeping mode and sleep the night away, happy that he didnt need to hide his orgins
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woolieshubris · 1 year ago
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"hey windows powershell, i wanted to try running this new program… its called emacs.." ">thats not new its from the 90s. why the fuck would you want to run that we have notepad.exe right here" "but its coooooool :(" ">and you come to me to install it? there isn't like. a wizard or something that can do it for you?" "i mean its from the 90s…" ">fuck you" "woah woah heyyyyy-! lets work together here, it shouldn't be too hard." ">no i don't want to do this." "awwwwww my friend python would love to help" ">i fucking hate that guy" "i dont know why, hes the best" ">here. does this make you feel better." pulls out cardboard cutout of python ">look its like he's right here" "theres a sticky note attached saying 'not here right now, come back later..?'" ">yeah." "it's in your handwriting…?" ">nooooo." "fine, ok. ill respect ur wishes. ill make someone else help u with installing it" ">what. you have more?" "yeah. ill call up my buddy choco" ">Hey hey. you need a warrant to do that." "oh shit really? how about this." shows paper that says "I own this whole building" ">fuck you. ill call this number i guess." someone knocks on door "oh choco!! hi dude!" "HI! WHATDA NEED?" "heard you got a fresh install of doom emacs ready to go?" "YEAH. GIVE ME A MOMENT TO GO GET IT" ">you're the worst." ">i can't stand you." "dude you aren't even doing anything." "HEY. FOUND IT FOR YOU." "cool cool, yall have to work together now. get that installed properly." ">fuck you ill do it but im not going to make the PATH for it." "ok. ill do that myself. you have a wizard whos job it is to do that one specific thing you know." ">i hope you die" "yeah yeah just let me know when ur done + where you put it" ">fuck you im not telling you that" "oi choco, where are you putting this?" "THE USUAL- C:\USER\NAME\APPDATA\~\EMACS" "cooooooool. thanks" ">fuck you fuck you fuck you"
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iamindebt · 1 year ago
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GAY AU
Ok so chapters 1 to 4 stay the same
Chapter 5 is basically the same until the part where spharas supposed to lore dump about tess aract as an earthquake hits (or so they THINK HAHAHAH) and everyone decides the lore can wait until later
Everyone makes their way inside the cave and to the rift of light where tess is yelling cause ouch and everyones freaking out
I also have this headcanon that people associated with the void or have void related elements (im thinking like pin magic) can get seriously hurt from light magic/ balance(???? My hc dont worry abt it) and being the god of the void dosent exactly help your favors. And besides it seemed like tess was in pain before so why not now?
Scriptliss tries to help tess and get to him, but he gets his arms held back by lanter and otempes so he doaent do anything stupid and hurt himself
The rift of light still gets sucked up and tess passes out and starts falling n everyone freaks out because if tess gets to the ground hes becoming a pancake
wiscara uses her scissor magic tk teleport tess to the ground and oooooo scriptliss catches tess in his arms and tess kisses him n passes out and its so gay and angsty and 👍👍👍👍👍👍oooo
I have some dialouge for this bit so ill have this explain itself.
...tess? TESS?!
*otempes walks over and put his hand on his arm
Hes fine, he must have passed out after everything, though he should be fine once he gets rest.
...
Sphara: Well thats a relief... *yawn*
*the void star clinks onto the ground
Er... So now that scriptliss's friend is safe, what do we do about the void star?
Here! *the protagonist puts it in their bag
Lanter: ...Well now that everythings ok-ish, we should be returning to the surface.
*cave starts rumbling
...does anyone hear that?
Hear what?
*cave starts rumbling but more
THAT!
The cave must be collapsing! We need to get out of here!
Well you dont need to tell me twice!
*wiscara makes a cut portal leading to the enterance and everyone hurries out before the cave collapses
Ok so the story changes in a few ways, the main one being that the antagonists aint so lax about you anymore now that their void god powerhouse is on the heros side.
Chapter 6 changes in one key way, instead of Ronzanda just handing you the scissors, she challenges you to a duel for them. Before any real damage is done wiscara figures out your missing and goes searching, eventually cutting open a portal right as your about to fight.
Chapter 7 goes wild because pink I actually decides to detonate the bomb, but most of the harmonians and base cleph get away before anyone can get hurt, buuut theres a couple of people with minor/serious injuries :((((
Tess is asleep for like two chapters. Btw
AAANNNDDD I NEVER FIGURED OUT AN ENDING I JUST WANTED GAY LOVERS
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scatterpatter · 1 year ago
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Mnnngh art vent under the cut
I really miss when art was easy for me. It used to come so, so easy, even though I'd say my art wasn't as good as it is now. Like I'd def say I've improved, but its so much harder to get art out now than it used to be
I look back at the art I used to make and I seriously lament how easy it was. Even if it was just doodles, I could get so many out, I remember back in like 2019 i could often get at least one doodle out a day and it felt great. It was my outlet, my way I connected with others, the way I shared ideas and made stories, and now I feel that outlet has been practically severed and it really, really hurts
Artfight def hurts the worst. I was so excited for this year, so ready to reconnect with a lot of my friends and bond over silly AF attacks, and it was genuine! I didnt have any big plans this month other than just doing my job so I was so happy to do this. July last year was awful, I was in a horrifically abusive situation and that abuse reached its peak last July, I was in a bad bad place. But I've completely cut that abuser from my life and I'm in a much better space, so I really thought this July would be me turning things around
But as soon as I got a lot of attacks, I just- fucking shut down. I kept thinking on how much "make up revenges" I'd have to do and it got to the point where I'd get overwhelmed every time I picked up my tablet. What became "Hehe can't wait to make art for my friends!" Quickly spiralled into "Oh god I need to do so many revenges I cant keep up", and it just made me catatonic and I hate that. And the worst is that I know no one's exepcting me of anything, I dont have to revenge everyone, its all for fun- I know its just this expectation im putting on myself and im the only one disappointed in myself but I just cant stop how catatonic its left me and its really tough to deal with because ive only done 1 attack so far. Ive spent the entirety of July going "shit i need to work on attacks. Its ok ill do it later." And now its July 31 and ive only done one. I set a goal of doing at least ten. I thought ten wouldve been manageable, but I just cant do what I used to do and it really really hurts
And I keep being told that Im having a hard month. That works been stressful and working 40hr a week leaves me with significantly less free time than I had back in college, so of course i have less time/energy for art, but it still hurts because I dont. Feel like work has been that bad. Yeah its been bad but ive dealt with horrific stress before and ive handled it fine. I feel like if I go "its been a rough month" ill be saying that every month. And i dont want that. Im really healing and im getting in better places, I feel like still struggling this much doesnt feel "right". Hell my therapist just told me that i might be in remission or partial remission for my major depressive disorder. Like I have a professional telling me im getting better but I still struggle to do something that came so easily and it hurts really really badly.
Im gonna see what i can do for last minute attacks. Might not be great attacks, but i want to see if i can get something, anything out. It just hurts because i had so many ideas for my friends and I dont know what Ill be able to do for them and I feel horrible. I feel severed from them and from my main outlet of connecting with others.
And i know its just a sign of burnout or art block or mental illness or what the fuck ever. But I feel like ive been making too much progress in myental health to be struggling this hard. I love making art and i love artfight and sharing art with my friends but as soon as I try, I go completely catatonic and its really really hard because i used to be able to do this so easily and i want it to be easy again but I dont know what im doing wrong to still be struggling this hard
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nihiltism · 2 years ago
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since ive been too College to have enough art for any sort of summary im just gonna put a general year end rundown of what i feel i did best on this year!!
i think every year since i figured out that i dont need to use pens to line has just gotten better art wise for me. FUCK lining. pencils are my best friends forever and ever and can do your job better than you ever could. anyway apologies for some of these drawings being crunchier than others, i only recently got a scanner and Cannot be assed to scan my old art for this post rn.
also the first art here is a hatoful boyfriend spoiler. i mean i guess the last one is too but its vaguer i think. anyway. none of these are actually analyses of what i learned with each art im just braining
april 5th-
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you guys know this one i REALLY like it. why in the goddamn were my best pieces this year hatoful boyfriend. anyway i uh. hey did you know that i didnt do the notgeki with graphite because i like mixed media. i did it because i have not owned a grey pencil for my some-teen years of drawing ever. i only JUST got a grey pencil like. a couple months ago. i mean im good with graphite i would have done it like that anyway but. yeah. anyway this was abt the height of my beginning hatoful fix and Also indirectly what got me to meet like a bunch of my mutuals here!! i did. not know there was a hatoful community. and because That i actually started using tumblr so!! hey thanks hitori. i need to do more birdform art.
april 15th -
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this motherfucker! ill be. completely honest i dont have a lot of feedback for a lot of my graphite art bc ive Been doing this. ok actually yknow what i will say. there is a limit for how dark something can be with graphite and i Very much remember going over the inside of the cloak So Much. this was my pet project during my weekly 3 hour long lecture so god bless it. also i do still like how i did the eye. can i draw eye guys exclusively please.
july 3rd -
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not really Art im proud of but!! holy shit i dont design often and i dont hate this!! this is at least in part thanks to my gf. my gf knows how to clothes better than i do so i did ask them for help. also i really need to scan this one. or maybe draw her a new ref. anyway (holds up celine) look at her. look at the silly.
september 6th -
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this one was a trade for my friend raicatty and. also something i probably should have scanned. but its fine. anyway this one did teach me something and its To Line Your Damn Pieces Darker. lining with the color that youre going to be coloring in is kind of Asking For Disaster if it overlaps with others and u can. see that. this is a bit imparseable. but its also pretty. and thats all that really matters. a fun fact for when i ever do commissions is that being allowed to use this purpley pink pencil i have will make me really happy. its so pretty.
OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE
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OERSHRIMP INTERLUDE
november 13 -
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forgive me for including a sketch in this but YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DRAW HUMANS. like. NEVER. much less in an actual decent pose. (god bless adorkastock) im So very delighted by this oboromaru and hes!! like!! one of my least favorite characters!! (not to say i dislike him hes just lower). i dont know what happened here!! if this wasnt at the very back of my Sketchbook I Just Put Away Because It Was Falling Apart id say id finish this one later. rip. he and that dark daroach sketch i had there can just vibe i guess.
aaand the big one. december 8th -
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things i learned from this one! 1. the scanner did not pick up the red lines very well! 2. scanners are good! 3: NEVER do a full page project again! buuut i do want to say i am like. insanely proud of this one. its the first art ive done i can really say has any sort of Composition and im so delighted that it turned out just as cool as it looked in my head. also this took forever and i could have easily messed it up Multiple times in the process. so god bless.
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dimosar · 2 years ago
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a lot of people have wondered what Sheev Palpatine's ultimate plan was.
Sheev's Plan:
get elected to senate for naboo
start new sith order
work republic and separatists against each other. recruit evil guy to lead separatists.
(this jedi kid is wicked strong!)
get jedi in deep with clone army. (save some clone jars for later? just in case...)
PIVOT: Make the jedi kid evil. dont need separatist guy anymore. got a new evil guy.
make my evil guy kill his jedi pals when they come to arrest me. ill finish em off with my lightning attack
(fucking guy used his sword to bounce my lightning back at me! honestly my fault. takes a minute for the lightning to wind down and he got my ass on the bounce. fair play. now i look like a leather couch but its fine. can blame jedi for THAT too)
Use the clones to kill the jedi, have my evil guy kill the seperatists, keep the army, spin into empire
GALAXY NOW UNDER MY CONTROL
chill as emperor for a while. humiliate Vader for a laugh. make death star.
Endgame achieved.
(Vader's kid blows up my death star)
PIVOT: get new young apprentice by turning him evil once he kills his dad, or maybe make Vader cooler by making him kill his gay son. either way its a win-win for me.
(thrown down hole and killed.)
PIVOT: good thing i kept those clone jars!! make new clone body to inhabit. takes time to get right. need something to do until then
build enormous fleet of big spaceships, each with their own super death star laser. keep em on the down low... why use em? they lose half the value as soon as you fly them off the lot
(clone son runs away but its no biggie. its fine. have loads of clones at this point. whats one clone son?)
create a DECOY fascist empire. put one of my weirder clones in charge. Not giving them any of my ships though. can build his own shit. dont look at me. get a bank loan
let failed clone recruit vaders grandson (will explain why later)
let those guys take over the galaxy with a different super death star. assume they built this one themselves. very cute!
GALAXY NOW UNDER MY CONTROL (only via proxy tho. not done yet)
let(??) vaders grandson ("ben"?? ok) usurp failed clone and rule galaxy. wants to “kill the past” but whatever. can still make this work. NEED to keep this kid in the mix (will make sense when we get there)
drop the big news. Im not dead! Fortnite. awesome moment.
lead kylo ren to my base using complex scavenger hunt. puzzle knife.
tell him he’s always actually worked for me. big reveal. big moment. He's my lackey now. a little traitorous and unreliable, but this will pay off later trust me
use death star ships to take over galaxy even more
GALAXY NOW UNDER MY CONTROL (awesome... but not enough. something missing)
let kylo ren lead clone granddaughter to home base using complex scavenger hunt (?)
taunt her into killing me so i can possess her un-janked body.
Endgame achieved. (??)
(kylo ren betrays me)
PIVOT: Possession stupid plan anyway. Instead, use ben and reys Horny Essence to make my nasty old body normal again…might as well pimp my robes out a bit while im at it...i deserve a treat
throw ben in hole (grandson purpose revealed)
destroy resistance with lightning powers. shooting spaceships down with magic lightning basically a solved problem at this point.
GALAXY NOW UNDER MY CONTROL
kill the granddaughter actually. dont need her anymore. lightning powers classic for a reason. ive got this thing in the bag as long as she doesn't bounce the lightning back at me off her fucking laser sword
Endgame achieved.
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trueduelist · 2 years ago
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Holy fuuuuuuuuck i felt like a hostage tonight. Started my day 15 unpaid minutes early to ensure i will have enough time to enter the food order even if 10 things go wrong. Finished that, begin setting up my station but we get busy right away so i have to wait, get a tiny bit of prep done, busy again, repeat for four hours.
Ok everything done and im off now.
Hmm but of course the AM fry cook didnt run the filter cycle and i need that oil to last one more day. Guess ill hang around 10 minutes to get that done. Oh shit i just remembered i didnt put the last shipment of buns away and im expected to that so gonna get that done quickly. I break down the cardboard and remember there's empty boxes in the walk in still. Gotta deal with those. Suddenly 30 minutes have passed. Oops.
OKAY NOW IM DONE. Got my street clothes on, just gonna pop back on the line and grab some food. Oh shit its busy. Like REALLY busy. It's shift change so there's only two cooks working right now and our bill times are gonna be ridiculous. Can't leave it like this so i guess i'll help out.
20 minutes later and done. Got my food. Got my coat on. Lets get outta here. Say bye to GM and im about to reach for the door when he says "hey actually do you think you can stay 3 hours just to make sure theyre ok?"
FUCK
"no problem im on it! 😃" Is my immediate reply however
Back in my clogs and whites and im thinking ok this is fine im just here for the dinner rush and then i go home. My hours were cut this week so at least i can get a few back.
HOLY. SHIT. We got destroyed, annihilated, pulverised, whatever. I got put on expo and i have never seen such madness. It was somehow worse than a friday night. We only had about half the covers we do on friday but they were concentrated into one single hour of pure hell.
My PM fry cook didnt want to be there and refused to do half her job (make fries). She tried to pawn her shift to me immediately and got upset when i said hell no. She also snapped "dont tell me what to do when you havent helped me at all!" when i said to her "please you need to help me blanch (your) fries because we (you) are gonna run out in about 10 minutes!!" meanwhile i have 12 entrées that are piling up at my station and im communicating with FOH to make sure things dont get run to the wrong table which prevents me from walking away and oh yeah cooking fries is YOUR job. One of the takeout servers heard us and actually ran into the kitchen with a box of fries 😭😭😭😭 new favourite server
Anyways then while shit is still fucked she walks out of the kitchen to talk to the MOD and i see them talking and tbh i think oh fuck shes telling her she cant work with me. Then the guy on desserts walks over and starts dropping baskets so im like oh okay they wanted to swap. But THEN he says to me ok im going back to desserts now btw and im like !?
So now im watching fryers as well and im wondering where the fry cook is. After a while i finally say WHERE IS SHE and one of cooks says oh... She went home sick. Forgot to tell you.
WTF
Okay actually im super tired n ow so im not even gonna finish my rant but the the main point is that i wanted to fucking go home after this shit and all those cunts inthe kitchen guilted me and bullied me into staying. They all claimed they didnt know how to clean the fryers which i find hard to believe. I got upset and then they were like ohh no.... You can go home. Totally. We wont hold this against you and make your life worse or anything. Like WOW awesome.
So thats how i worked 12 hours today on 0 food and a single can of monster because i didnt even have time to get water.
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knapsackcat · 2 months ago
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Here it is my undertale one shot fan fic I'm sorry in advance!
As ur Leaving the ruins and started the Walking through snowdin ur stopped by sans and his brother paps "hey (y/n) are u coming over to our house later ? We are gonna teach rock a new trick" sans says "ha ha ha yes of course Sans! I wouldnt miss it" u say with a smile they both smile at u and sans looks at u intently before saying "well we are going to get some nice cream with alphys and undyne right now though do u want to come (y/n)? U get excited but deflate just as fast before u say " oh no i cant i promised muffet id help her bake for todays bake sale but ill come to ur guys house as soon as im done" ^stupid responsibility ^ u think to urself and remeber u wouldnt have seen ur crush Sans today if u hadnt agreed to help ur friend papyrus inttrupts ur thoughts "Human im sorry but we must go so we arent late" papyrus says happily and instintanly "oh heh yea better get going see u later (y/n)" says sans as he waves and turns around the brothers walk away before u even have time to choke out a respone u kick urself for being really uncool and head on to help Muffet
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U knock on the brown door to the skeleton brothers house and wait for an answer instead u hear knocking back u smile and call out "whos there?" Sans playful voice rings out "nobody" u reply "nobody who???" As the door swings open u hear a loud "Nobodys home" and see sans greeting u with a smile and a hug u luagh and follow him in when he puts u down he walks ahead of u as u put ur stuff down and say " hey i dont have a cerfew tonight and torriel said if i wanted to stay the night i could as long as ur ok with it" u finish putting ur stuff down and sans says "im ok wirh it now ill have someone to eat all of this spaghetti paps made" u smile and ask "speaking of paps where is he wadnt he supposed to be here with us too?" Sans comes from the kitchen "oh Paps decided to spend the night at alphys and undyne so he could train and watch trashy anime after" ^ so papyrus is training with undyne which means im all alone with sans just the two of us^ "oh ha ok i guess thats cool well since its just the two of us do u want to watch something?" U ask and hopw ur voice doesnt sound too nervous and shakey "sure let me just leave another note on the sock" u watch him scrible something on a note and put it on the sock that he just wont ever pick up but u watch his movments carefully had sans always been this hot or was it just this massive crush u have gottwn for him u didnt know but soon u realize ur staring too late though he caught u "my eyes are up here" he jokes u chuckle embarrassed "ha i just spaced out in ur direction i didnt mwan to" u hope tht he buys it he shrugs and grabs the remote to put on something its werestling Hulk Hogan vs the BIG show u both move to sit on the couch and u accidentally loose ur balance and u land right on his lap u look at eachother and u blush a bit "u ok kid? Getting a fever or something?" Sans asks with a bit of concern u get off his lap and sit next to him instead and insist tht ur fine ans u guys watch fhe match in silence for a bit with all the tension in the air before he is back to making jokes and bold statments "i bet i could do tht" he says refering to the indian death lock "pft u could not" u say back and pushing his arm a bit "if u can u should just prove it" u joke with him but his eyes tell u he will accept ur challenge "ok he says and he reaches for u and gets u in to the position very quickly ur hearts poundinv and u are ingnoring the slight discomfort and the i told u so of sans because how can u focus when he is almost right up against ur butt was this really to prove something or did he feel it too did he know how u felt no he didnt i should just olay along " say uncle and ill stop" sans says u smile and get out of the postition and try to pin him but he is too strong and he ends up pinning u instead after a bit of a struggle
Sans Playfully teases u becuase of the wrestling "do u want to have a bad time because this is how u have a bad time" u sundenly realize how close to eachotehr u guys are and can feel his breath on u as ur bodies are pressed togather he notices that u have noticed u stare in eachothers eyes his starting to glow with determination u blush and try to move ur face away but he grabs ur chin and stops u and he kisses u soft at first then rough and u can feel his bone getting bigger and poking ur thighs but u just keep goinv uts making u burn hotter and just when ur about to wrap ur legs around him he pulls back and hurtidly gets off u "shit i. Im s . S. So sorry" he starts to panic a bit and is on his knees in fromt of u still laying down " i wasnt going to u just looks so beautiful (y/n) and i ah what am i saying" ^ im not going to lose this chance^ u think to urself and u get uo fast and kidd him hard toopling the two of u over on to the floor we embraces u and u kiss like tht for a while u can tell his boner is fully erect and ur ready for it u tug at his black shorts and his blue jacket and he takes them both off with our breakinv the kiss u take ur clothes off too and he pulls away from the kiss again " wait are u sure u want to do this ???" He asks with a look on his face u cant read "do u not want to?" U ask "of course i do but isnt this ur first time(y/n)?" Shit u forgot itvwas ur first time u had been so excited to Jump His Bones u didnt remever about urself " y-yes its my first time" u say shyly how could he bring up that ur a loser virgin with no experience and how could u tell him now that when he kissed u it was the first tome anyone ever has he sighs a breathy sigh "hey ur first time should be special and im just not the guy thats gonna be able to make this special for u im so-" u cut him off "this is special because im doing it with u and i think thts enough u dont have to do anything special or different tell me what u want me to do and ill do it" his eyes widen and he smirks "u will do anything i ask u to do huh? And u really dont mind me taking ur flower?" U nod and look at him hopeful he sighs and puts his head in his hand "well (y/n) if u really want to do this we can but u have to do everything i say understand slut" ur surprised at him calling u a slut but u soon feel ur insides heating up as he grabs ur face to kiss u again before u can answer him u melt and when he pulls away u nod blissfully " ok yes ill do whatever u say" he smirks and stands but ur still on ur knees now he gets in front of u "good then suck it" his dick now very hard just from kissing u start trying to do what he asks but u arent doing a very good job u can tell and he barks another order at u " open ur mouth wider u have time to get better at this for now im just gonna fuck ur throat " and with tht little warning u open uo wider as he trusts in to ur mouth hard he holds ur head in place so it doesnt move and he keeps going and he says "im going to cum in ur mouth and ur going to swallow and if u dont ur gonna be punished do u understand" u look up at him with no way to response since ur mouth is full of cock but it looks like he understokd anyways and he takes both hands and puts them on the side of ur head as he thrusts one more time and u can feel the warn thick cum filling ur mouth and throat he trusts a couple more times for good meassue befkre taking ut out he shuts ur moutn for u gets down to ur level looks u in ur eyes and says " now swallow slut" u do and it doesnt taste very good but u do it anyway he smiles at u and pats ur head "good girl" u cant believe u finally got to do something like this with ur crush ur so happy and even happier when he says "hey lets go to my room"
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U followed sans to his room its a bit dirty but u don't mind he looks at u and asks "(Y/N) do u trust me to please u?" Ir flushed and u say " yes i do why" he smirks and leads u to the bed which is really just a matteress and guids u to lay down u watch him walk out of his room and ur now naked on his bed ur mind is racing and just not sure what will happen he comes back in the room wth a box and asks again "do u trust me" u respind "yes sans od course i do why?" He smirks and pulls out rope and silk ties and blindfolds before u know it Ur tied up and gagged nervous about whats about to happen and shaking with excitement at the same thing sans chuckles "i guess with all the tension this was BOUND to haopen huh" he says with a small laugh but its diffrent then usually its more nervous u smile at least as much as u can with the gag in ur mouth he nervously moves to the bed ^how cute he is nervous to finally take me for himself bevause he doesnr want to make me feel badly about this^ he slowly carreses ur leg and trails up to ur thighs and breathes a deep breathe he opens ur legs for u and starts to flick his tounge inside u and u struggle at the feeling it feels good but its weird because u havent ever felt it before and he keeps going until it feels so good u stop thinking then u start to cum and try to tell him to stop ^its too much^ u think and try to say but ur gaged and its just muffled noise mixed with moans he drinks ur cum and comes back up with his face dripping u get embarrassed and blush and turn away quickly he takes ur chin and gentlely makes u look at him "loom at how wet u are" he teases u try to mive ur head away again but he keeps a firm hand onur chin "are u ready for me to fuck u (Y/N)?" Sans asks ^finally^ u think but u nod eagaely to him and he ungags u u take a full breath of air in " i want to hear u moan for me while i use my dick to please u so make sure ur nice and loud" he says as he adjusts himself between ur legs he rubs his hard cock on ur juices to get lubed up and says "i knoe since its ur first time i should be gentles but i wont be" he shoves it in and u feel electricity in ur body he is thrusting steadily and making small gruntinb noises ur moans and ur still tied up and cant do anything but let him keep fucking u like this it feels good and ur losing ur head in the moment suddenly he stops and u feel tugging at the rope and ur hands and legs are free and he orders u again "get on ur hands and knees im going to fuck u from behind now" u listen like the good slut u are and he sticks it in quickly and keeps fuckinb u he slaps ur ass hard u let out a yelp wirh ur moans and he says "fuck yes keep make noises like tht for me and im gonna cum" u feel urself tighthen around his dick as u cum all over it and he cums too deep inside u and fills u with his determination and u both collapse in bed next to eachother with his cum pouring out of u he leans over and kisses u "u did great for ur first time (y/n)" u weirly look at him and say " i love u" he kisses ur forehead and says "i love u too (y/n)
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zarafey · 9 months ago
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one again, vent incoming
its my birthday and im sitting here crying because god beware i get a little bit sad and or mad at stm my mom did.
Yesterday she offered to cook my favourite meal today for lunch, very nice, really thoughtful, i was looking forward to it a lot. i asked if we could eat lunch at 2pm (we usually eat rather late at 3/4pm). Since i also have to finish my bachelor thesis by the 28th i dont really have a lot of time for celebrating or anything, but i did have a plan for today. We eat lunch by 2, finish by ~2:30, and I take my adhd meds (need a bit longer to work after eating, but the side effects are much more manageable). they usually take around 1h to fully work so theres a window for chilling a bit and having some cake. I get to work at 3-4pm, work til 8-9pm (using my most productive time of the day as well), day done, all is well.
... by 2:30pm i went upstairs to see what's going on, i find my mom in her office, she was still working, the food hasn't even been started. well, she forgot the time, bit unfortunate but ok, i do the same often enough, sure i was already really hungry (since i ate a bit less breakfast bc i was looking forward to lunch), and i was getting pretty stressed (my whole plan is getting pushed back), but the food isnt that elaborate and needs like 30-45 minutes, so eating around 3 is still alright, we ate at 3 yesterday and that was fine.
at around 3:30 i started getting nervous again. I go upstairs, food still needs another half hour, my mom already feels extremely bad and was so hectic that she cut herself, after calming her down, preparing the rest, and putting it in the oven i go to the toilet, to cry, bc fuck my whole day is starting to fall apart. eating by 4 means i really need to speed through eating bc i need to take my meds as soon as possible, because the later i take them the later i can get to sleep, the less sleep i get for tomorrow. so i cry, let it all out and stuff bc god knows i cant actually express any of that frustration in front of my mom by then she will feel even more horrible and then i can play emotional regulator again and i really dont have the brain for that when im already very stressed and frustrated. So that will just lead to me being an ass to my mom and then she will feel bad and i will also feel bad and its all around not a good time.
so i have my little cry at the toilet, meanwhile the food finishes cooking. I put it all back down again, go to the meal, my appetite is already gone but hey its still my favourite so ill enjoy it, i take a bite, its horrible, way too many spices, i cant even taste the zucchini. pretty much the last straw, so close to breaking out in tears right there at the table. ofc my mom notices, asks whats wrong, starts the whole self loathing shit and the endless apologies i was trying so hard to avoid. lunch is pretty much ruined, i eat quickly and in silence, i go down and take my meds, start crying and writing this post to get it all out. My mom comes in and starts the whole "im so sorry, i ruined everything, is it very bad that we ate so late? is it still gonna be ok? im so sorry etc etc etc" and fuck i just do not have the brain to do all the calm reassuring she is asking for so i snap, say some shitty things, now im crying even more and feel like a complete ass.
Like damn what tf do i do now bc i cant seem to calm down but i still need to fkn work on my thesis and i just wanted to have a nice birthday and some cake.
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