#of notebooks and scrap paper

[erinsworld]

Saturday Snippets

What Happens In Vegas Doesn't Always Stay in Vegas - tag to 3x11, because you don't just walk away from what our boys went through

"He's in the shower."

Mac immediately stills his movements and snaps his head to look at his boss. "Who?"

"Jack," Matty says simply, looking directly at him from where she stands across his kitchen.

"I know," Mac answers. Too quickly and he knows it. He answers again, but even as he’s saying

the words Mac knows that he’s only making it worse. "Yeah? Oh, okay. Good. That's-that’s good."

"Mac..."

"Matty, I know what you're going to say, and I'm fine."

"You keep saying that. You both keep saying that. But it's been weeks now," Matty says gently.

“Jack is back on his feet, the fractures to his sternum and his broken ribs are completely healed and he’s been cleared by medical to be back in the field. Yet he still continues to live at your house."

"Jack usually always drives in the mornings," Mac excuses with a shrug of one shoulder. It’s a quick, twitch of movement, barely a motion at all; a physical outlet for the anxious energy thrumming throughout his body that he’s trying to contain and suppress.

He can feel her gaze on him, accessing, examining and Mac straightens up his body and slips his trembling hands into the pockets of the baggie hoodie that he's wearing, aware that the Longhorns logo emblazoned on the front is doing nothing to sell the words that he is saying. "So, we decided it’s just easier if he’s already here. He—"

"And how twitchy you get if he's out of your sight for even a moment?" Matty interrupts. A knowing look crosses her features, the question is not a question in the least. "Agitated. On edge. Your breathing getting quicker... Your eyes always on him even when he's in the same room or standing right beside you?"

"Matty—"

"The way Jack is even gentler with you than he usually is? The haunted, guilty look in his eyes that Jack, with his years of covert experience can't mask?"

Untitled - Some teen Riley and young Jack. This was for Cairo Week, this year? The year before? Prompt was "Tell me where it hurts "

Riley has seen enough. She and her mom’s new boyfriend may have an antagonistic relationship—okay, if she’s being honest with herself, she’s the one being antagonistic.

Jack is…

Riley sighs as she looks across the hallway and into the dim room at the man in question. Jack is sweet and caring, thoughtful, and patient, amusing and fun. Though, those last two she will never admit out loud.

Every single thing that her dad isn’t.

Riley just doesn’t know what to do with that.

And if she’s going to be totally honest with herself, she isn’t ready, or willing, to let down the walls that she’s so carefully constructed and fortified and let him in.

Yet, a distant part of her mind whispers.

That doesn’t mean though, that she wants to see him struggling and in pain.

She pushes herself away from the corner she had tucked herself into, her bare feet padding silently on the cool wooden floors as she crosses the hallway. He looks up as she slips around the half-opened bathroom door and into the small room, and if she surprised him, he doesn’t show it.

Then again, he never startles no matter the circumstances, always calm and controlled. Seemingly aware of his surroundings even when she doesn’t think he’s paying any attention. He’s a conundrum that she can’t figure out.

“Riley… Ri, hey…." Jack's soft drawl is apologetic and full of concern as he drops his right arm to his side and twists his body to face her. "I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you. It’s late, you should be sleeping.”

“It’s barely midnight, Jack, that’s hardly late,” Riley scoffs. There’s remorse, and something else she can’t name shining in his brown eyes and Riley feels the need to ease that guilt somehow.

“And you didn’t wake me,” she adds. The words are quick and awkward, but she hopes they carry the reassurance and sincerity she’s trying for. “I was still awake just doing some... reading."

[a-dream-deferred]

"i don't need to write it down, i'll remember it" LIES

"i'll remember where i wrote it down" MORE LIES

[figofswords]

i know ive made myself the #1 izutsumi stan in the eyes of all of my friends and probably some of you online people but what if i became a mithrun stan. there is something about him that compels me. i just want to *clenches fist* put him on the drying rack. lovingly stick him into a tupperware for later. make him into. a broth of some sort. do you understand

[florad0ra]

Was supposed to be finishing other projects but ended up playing with a triangle ruler and did foundation paper piecing for the first time. Was thinking about breaking up the pieced triangles with solid print ones (left pic) to save myself some headache but I don't like it as much as them all being pieced (right pic) 😭 time to make like 200 more for a quilt! 🥲

[maldemer]

collage meet-up with a friend

[saw-you-westerday]

@hatchetfieldhistoryteacher

Excuse me, Mr... Anderson, I think it was? I was kinda wondering, uh, if you knew anything about the Church of Starry Children? Well, besides the notes I already got...

[chirpsythismorning]

The only personal thing related to Mike we get out of El's letter, is that comment, 'you were right, it just takes time!'.

Like the idea of Mike trying to reassure El of something he's also having a hard time believing, it sort of hurts. It gives us this tiny glimpse into how he's feeling, but it also manages to mask the truth, with him reassuring her instead of opening up about how he's struggling.

Not to mention, El's letter very much read like she received a questionnaire. We don't get any comments about her responding to what Mike's doing, and it's probably because although Mike maybe didn't lie near as much in his letters to El as she did to him, I doubt he clued her in on what he was up to and how he was genuinely feeling...

It's not like he could talk about Hellfire, as there's a reason they had him go from Hellfire Club vibes to a complete different version of himself when they reunited. If anything it's a lie of omission situation, where Mike isn't really cluing her in on the things he cares about like D&D and how he's sad Lucas is pulling away and how much he misses her and how Hawkins isn't the same without Will and so he's very much struggling to even conceptualize how he can even deserve her when he's having all of this guilt festering, unbeknownst that she's going through the same thing practically.

And El's not really checking in with him on how he's doing, she's more so focused on keeping Mike interested by trying to paint this picture that she's super happy and everything is perfect, bc she thinks if she's her true self, he'll get bored and not love her anymore.

And I think while Mike has those same fears, that if they break up they'll lose each other all together, which is driving him to not be honest about his true feelings, he's also hearing El say all these amazing things and he's thinking damn, I don't want to bum her out by saying how shitty i've been and how shitty everything has been. So I'll just focus on asking her how she's doing and support her and also find out how the rest of the Byers are doing...

Like it's sooo sad, but there's a reason they opened up s4 to Mike reading off El's letter (WITH ELS VOICE), instead of having them talking back and forth on Cerebro like they could have been. Hearing El say, I'm so excited to see you, it's hard to breathe! Are you excited to??, only to get absolute silence (ALSO THE PIGGYBACK FORESHADOWING RIGHT THERE?? JESUS?????)

Intentional af. Dejected af. Something is off af.

[lost-decade]

Having a clearout and came across what I can only assume is a record of Nico Rosberg's movements in early 2017 😅

[berryesque]

one thing about me is that I will love a notebook

[selunesfavouriteprincess]

i started a new Durge playthrough and this is pretty much the dynamic so far

[evildilf2]

Eating paper as a kid resulted in me getting a blood test at least once. & then they were like no I don’t think this has anything to do with low iron levels you are just kind of peculiar…

[sysig]

Many months of paper review (Patreon)

[crvwly]

a fun thing about my writing tablet is i've been using it without charging for about two weeks now 😎 just plugged it in for its brief hour-long charge back to full battery and it'll be good for another two weeks

[mishkakagehishka]

How I dial my mother's number bc i need her to give me the recipe for the tortellini sauce for the fourth time because i forgot again and i can't find the paper i wrote it on

[crocodilenjoyer]

adventures in trying to figure out how the hell i want to draw this guy

[millialani]

Mini matchbox notebook