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klugpuuo · 2 years ago

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For the Splatoon Oc questions number 7 and 15 for any Splatoon Oc you have.

im sorta insane so im gonna do. EVERY 7 and 15. ok

Do they take part in ink battles? What kind and how often?

tyr, mish and aro all participate in X-rank battles a lot, you'll mostly see them fucking around yet somehow retaining their rank in tower defense and splatzones!

zoa (an oc i drew Once at school and have never mentioned, for future me's reference) OBVIOUSLY doesn't participate in battles much, being an urchin, but she plays rainmaker with her friends sometimes

What is their main weapon? How did they pick it, and is it customized?

four mains the charger, just like her mom! her charger is covered in stickers she got from her friends over the years...

8.1 likes the blaster because of how reliable it is, while 8.2 enjoys using the splat dualies.

three and nu3 use a different weapon every DAY, they just can't choose! nu3 has an undercover brella that they customized, however, and they use it daily.

mish has no real main, but tyr mains the octobrush. he's constantly praising it whenever aro or mish are in earshot, they think it's cringey but kinda cute.

aro rolls a die every time they play to decide which weapon he should use...

Everyday skill they’re unexpectedly good at

for tyr that'd be cooking, although that's kinda just because he looks like he doesn't know how to cook ramen...

Their favorite way to listen to music? Headphones, radio, et cetera

8.1 and 8.2 like leaving the radio on while they work, it makes them feel more alive. they didn't have stuff like that in the metro, and most radios in octarian society were used for military purposes more than just plain music...

tyr uses his headphones a lot, being a music producer he kinda needs them, so they're the most comfortable for him

Preferred way of transportation; train, car, bike etc.

8.1 and 8.2 do not like trains. they also don't like motorbikes. they like regular bikes, however

three used a train to escape their home and move to inkopolis, so it's their favorite thing to be on.

their interests are...conflicting.

Favorite time of year? Why?

four LOVES autumn- THAT'S WHEN HALLOWEEN IS!!!

three likes spring, when the flowers are in full bloom... they aren't allergic to those, so they get to experience them in their full glory.

8.1 likes winter, because that's when it snows - and when all their favorite holidays take place!

tyr likes winter because salmon runs are closed due to frozen waters.

Have they ever Krakened before?

YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!! specifically 8.1! they managed to get a (barely legal) kraken weapon in splatlands and they use it constantly. they look so silly

otherwise, three's the only one...

Any prominent interests? How do they show?

all of them are autistic, so...

Do they have conversations in their head? What is their relationship with themself?

THIS QUESTION. OHKAY

well for eights it's. uh. pretty obvious! they're a DID system so ofc. their in-system relationships are mostly positive, even between the system at laerge and 8.TT (after splatoon 3's hero mode...)

uhmmmmm mm mm with four.. she just normally talks a lot. doesnt matter who's there, she likes talking to herself. sign, writing or otherwise

THREE. oh my poor child. they have TARTAR ! in their fucking head. like the first one. because of when they got gooped. it's so bad

they're a;so trans

How was school for them? Do they miss it or are they glad it’s over, if it is?

three is eternally grateful that they never have to go back to school ever again.

four misses school, she loved studying, and she's sorely dissapointed about how becoming an agent didn't help with anything but history (her least favorite subject)....

8.1 and 8.2 do not remember school

mishka was in a non-military school underground and learned a lot! she had a fairly decent time, as well as aro (although the latter Was in the miltary...)

tyr did not like school. he was a nerdy tiny kinda gross weird girl. he's a lot happier now

Any common thing they really struggle with?

SPEAKING. for nu3 and eights and tyr and three, speaking is SO hard.

adidtionally, four struggles walking without an aid sometimes. me too girl

Do they have a “signature” article of clothing or item that they treasure? How did they get it and why is it so important to them?

three. hat. grampa. love. they will never let go of it, never ever. it is warm even if it is sort of totally gross

four bought her firefin mask at the store just randomly, but now she rarely takes it off. keeps her safe from diseases AND hides her scars (which she finds to be totally ugly)

#thank u fort he ask im isnane tbtw #klug's ocs #klug answers #splatoon #i am manting

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arabnico · 4 years ago

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nico for the ask game... sorry to be predictable but ur nico takes are unmatched

don’t apologize, you know i love nothing more than to talk about nico shdh. thank you for humoring me !! also you’re too nice please 🥺🥺

nico!

sexuality headcanon: gay. not a headcanon obviously but one of those things in canon that i will always be adamant about and defend at all times.

gender headcanon: absolutely not. void. a spectrum that varies between I Revoke This and No. his pov/introspection in hoo really shows in my opinion that he would not be comfortable at all with any gender norm or role whatsoever. i mean considering all the traumatic experiences he went through... yeah. plus their obvious autistic coding that ensues a really unique grasp on/relationship with “gender”. transmasc, non-binary, non-passing and gender non-conforming. despises being perceived but when it occasionally happens goes by they/xe/he pronouns.

a ship i have with said character: i don’t really ship nico romantically with anyone because i’m really adamant on my “nico does not need a relationship subplot that messes up and throws in the trash his character development and arc but a support group that he will nurture with healthy friendly/fraternal relationships” agenda, but if i had to choose i’d say valdangelo has a really good meta and symbolism. plus the way my mutuals analyze/write them blows me away.

a brotp i have with said character: i answered that here ! (it’s very long. i’m so sorry.)

a notp i have with said character: oh boy. solangelo, any nico/girl ship, percy/nico (that’s. his brother), not really into jason/nico or frank/nico but they aren’t exactly notp’s i just prefer/see them more as friends

a random headcanon (i can’t pick one so i just threw in a few ajdj) : can easily speak and understand arabic but dyslexia makes it really hard to read and write it —they don’t give up on it though and work on it a lot. has matching friendship bracelets with reyna. is a stress baker/cook. tried to learn how to style hazel’s hair on their own and later went to reyna and rachel for extra details and help. listens to music in those old portable cd players or a record player. has a really tidy room. goes non-verbal a lot, especially after traumatic experiences/c-ptsd episodes. has a lisp and rolls xyr r’s. needs braces. their hands are never ever still. always speaks in an unvarying assertive but kind voice, and no matter the context, joking or serious, when he speaks you shut up and listen. has a confidence and an authenticity to him you want to drown in.

general opinion over said character: has been done so wrong over and over again in both canon and fanon. give xem a break. probably the character that means the most to me ever. has such a complexity and depth to him that i will never get tired of exploring and analyzing even only in long word documents buried forever in my computer. love him to saturn and back.

#i literally cannot make those brief i am so sorry #if you want me to shut up about nico i think you’ll have to physically restrain me #ty for the ask and for being so nice leaf <3 you’re an angel #nico di angelo #asks #leaf

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anaccessiblelife · 6 years ago

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I am autistic

Why is that important to declare? Because even though almost one in five people have a disability, most people know very little about disability, and that’s a problem. So, if you want to learn something new today, here’s your chance:

Being autistic is like my brain having a different operating system. It is no worse, no better, just different. There are some things it does better than “neurotypical” brains, and some things it does worse.

An autistic person may perform repetitive movements to regulate their concentration. They may experience noises more loudly and have a few intense interests. That same autistic person can also be a highly empathetic person and an Oxford student.

If the autistic operating system isn’t worse than the typical operating system, why is autism a disability? The social model of disability states that what creates disability is not how the disabled person differs from the norm, but whether society adapts to that difference. Society is adapted to a “typical” operating system, not a system like mine.

Think of it this way: If we had a society where everyone was blind and everything in society was adapted to blindness, then blind people would not be disabled in that society. Similarly, if we had a society where most people only needed 2 hours of sleep each night, and you needed 7, you would most likely be disabled in that society. It’s all about whether the society is adapted to your needs.

But why should society be adapted to anyone’s needs? Of course, you could argue that it shouldn’t be, but then to be consistent, you ought to exclude the needs of abled people as well. As a highly individualistic society we like to emphasise how self-sufficient we are. This can make it hard to see just how much people depend on society meeting their needs:

Just as wheelchair users depend on wheelchair accessibility, abled people depend on the city they live in having roads or public transport. Just as dyslexic children depend on having teachers that know how to teach dyslexic children, abled children depend on having teachers that know how to teach abled children. If you think that society should meet the needs of abled people, it is only fair that it meets the needs of disabled people as well.

Whenever we talk about differences some people want to say that they are blind to them – that they don’t see race, gender, age, size, sexuality, disability etc. But being blind to these differences is a problem because it means you deny 1. A part of someone’s identity. 2. The difficulties people face as a result of society not being adapted to them and 3. The prejudice people face because of their identity.

1. I am defined by my autism, just as I am defined by my shortness. There are advantages and disadvantages to these traits, but they are part of who I am.

2. Being blind to the things standing in my way will lead you to misunderstand me and be unable to accommodate my needs. An analogy: If you are blind to my height you might think I’m being lazy if I tell you that I can’t reach the highest shelves. If I ask for something to stand on you might be reluctant to give it to me, because you can’t see why I would need it. Similarly, people who don’t see a person’s disability often end up assuming that that person is lazy, incompetent or selfish.

3. If you are blind to differences, you will also fail to acknowledge when people are prejudiced against me. Discrimination or prejudice towards disabled people is called ableism. Often people see disabled people as being less autonomous and less competent, as being worth less or being defective. This leads disabled people to be treated differently, for instance having potential employers show significantly less interest in them.

Many people still don’t believe that ableism exists. It is hard for many to understand that disabled people can be oppressed. They might think that when disabled peoples’ needs are accommodated it is a kindness, not a right. And that when disabled people don’t get certain jobs it’s just because they are unable to perform them.

These kinds of attitudes only show how far the disability rights movement has to go. Compare with the now mostly forgotten attitudes that a university is very progressive if it provides women’s bathrooms or that women don’t get certain jobs because they lack the intellectual ability of men. In 50 years, I hope we look back at the attitudes towards disabled people today and feel that they are as obviously wrong.

The lack of recognition of ableism is a very real threat to disabled people. It is the reason why the people who were killed in the holocaust for being disabled were the last victims to be formally recognized, why hate crimes against disabled people are often not recognized and why someone like Trump can mock disabled people without consequences.

So what can you do?

If you’ve stayed with me so far, you may be wondering what you can do to help me and other people who have disabilities. As is often the case, the most useful steps are often the hardest, because they require us to look at our own harmful attitudes. Here are a few such steps:

1. Check your assumptions about disability and worth. For instance, even if it doesn’t accord with their values, people often speak as though a person’s worth depends on how much they “contribute” to society. This categorises those disabled people who are unable to work as lesser.

2. Respect people’s understanding of their own ability and needs – visibly disabled people are often treated as incompetent children; invisibly disabled people are often treated as lazy. If I tell you I am limited, listen, even if I haven’t declared a disability to you. Conversely, if I tell you I am able to do something, listen. Disabled people are not children, we know what we are able to do and what we need.

3. Notice inaccessibility. If you don’t see the ways in which society is shaped to fit abled people rather than disabled people, it is very easy to think that it is “unfair” that disabled people get accommodations. Notice when there are no ramps, when the music is too loud for many people to be able to carry a conversation, when your walking speed is adapted only to abled people. And notice all the ways in which you as an abled person are dependent on society too.

4. Believe disabled people when they tell you about oppression. We all want to believe the best about people, so when someone tells you about something prejudiced that another person did to them, it can be tempting to jump in and say that it probably wasn’t meant in that way. But the statistics show that ableism is real and denying that doesn’t help the disabled person, it just makes them feel responsible for the way they are being treated. Instead, validate the reality of the experiences that disabled people are telling you about.

5. Celebrate differences. Many disabled people wouldn’t choose to be non-disabled if they could. For many, the ways that they differ from the norm is a fundamental part of their identity. Celebrate and value disabled cultures as valid minority cultures, and emphasise the strengths that come with many disabilities, without denying the problems.

6. Normalize disability. As much as we understand intellectually that disabled people are just like everyone else, we will always be swayed by stereotypes until we have enough exposure to real disabled people. That is why representation matters. This can be achieved by disclosing your own disability, calling for better representation of disabled people in the media and/or hanging out with disabled people as people, rather than objects of charity or inspiration stories.

Thank you for taking the time to read through this, it means a lot to me. I leave you with a favourite quote by Audre Lorde:

“It is not our differences that divide us. It is our inability to recognize, accept, and celebrate those differences.”

#Actually autistic #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #disability #actually disabled #Oppression #equality #social justice #accessibility #accommodations

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cordiibus · 6 years ago

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HEADCANONS. Damien’s Autism

Again , I wanted to make a mass post regarding Damien’s Autism and how it does affect his life and how he handles from being overwhelmed. His Autism shows differently than Akar’s since its such a huge spectrum and I wanted to show that with Damien. Again, his autism isn’t all his character is, however still a vital part of him ! Though this list is not complete, I created some and hopefully as I keep educating myself and learning more will come or changes will be made. If theres anything I’m missing or you feel like I should include or fix please feel free to tell me ! I want to make sure Im writing him the best way I am !

Damien was diagnose with Autism much later than most children. Due to parents both being deployed into the Army ( as well as cultural stigmas ) , signs of autism were simply mistaken for Damien being more shy or simply learning to speak slower than other children/also thinking he could possibly be becoming deaf at a young age since deafness runs within his father’s family.

He began speech therapy and learning different ways of communicating. One of the ways is Sign Language because it uses his hands and was quicker for him to do as he was learning to speak as well. It was only after he began speech therapy that there were hints of him being autistic, however he was never properly diagnosed until around the age of 10 ( again cultural stigmas ).

As he began to learn how to speak, he also began immediately having an interest in language. Enough to begin grasping new ones as he began growing up. This was the first sign that his sensory traits will involve sounds, this one being more positive than it would be overwhelming.

Damien is attracted to all kinds of sounds, the louder the better. He dislikes silence and dislikes when no sound can be heard/found. However, it becomes overwhelming when theres too many sounds coming from one specific enclosed area. Which is why you will always find him wearing headphones ( though it was a tip he learn from his cousin Oliver ), he uses his headphones and blast his own music to counter other sounds ( which at first was negative because of how loud he blasted his own music, however he was taught what proper volume should be used ). It also should be known that since he uses music -- that his genre of music is very loud. Screamo, Punk, Rock, Loud Jazz -- anything with loud sounds or vocals, strong vocals, are his favorite kind of music.

Damien also picked up on learning instruments that include: the Trumpet, the Saxophone, the Piano, and the Drums. ( he knows enough in each to be good but hes not particularly amazing in each of them. this was also just a special interest when he was younger that he grew out of having and then developed into something else ).

With addition to his liking of sounds, it also can be seen in other areas like specific sounds making him happy ( crunch noises like leaves/snow ), it also moved to being a stim of his to make noises be it clicking/popping his tongue or cracking his knuckles.

Another one of his stims is chewing as well. Growing up he would always chew on his shirts, sleeves, hoodie strings ( still does ) and found some comfort in chewing. With this he has an actual chew necklaces, as well as always carries around candy/gum. Its also why he paints/does his nails so he could stop biting on his nails.

Another stim Damien does when hes happy is also clapping and the flapping of his hands !

Another positive sensory he has is towards colors -- especially very bright colors. Though too much can be overwhelming and especially if he stares for too long. Bright colors are another thing that gathers his attention. Its why he also dresses in rather bright colors as well. Just really really likes bright colors. His art definitely portrays that as well. He also has synesthesia, which plays its part in this as well.

However, with positive come negatives. One negative sensory that he has is actually also through taste as well. There are certain textures in food that feel wrong in his mouth. Foods that are soggy and are non-solids, are the ones that fit in that categories. Damien will refuse to eat anything that fall into that category. Also chewy foods that aren’t gum ( fruit gummies ) also have the same problem. Also -- dietary restrictions are also a thing. Gluten is just out of the question for him to be eating. On top of that, certain smells are often avoided by him. More floral scents, are the ones that he often avoids which includes some perfumes and well as hygienic materials ( shampoos / soaps ). He does like scents that are more metallic -- sharpies, paint, spray paint, metal -- fit into that.

Though Damien is excellent in language, sound, and now speaking -- reading always proved to be challenging. Mix with being a auditory and visual learning, but add in his autism -- reading on his own with nothing else proved to be challenging when in school. If there was a book that needed to be read, he would spend hours looking for an auditory book or have his friend/parents read the pages to him. And when neither were available, it was trouble for Damien to completely understand what was going on in the book. Though he could read it out loud -- that was often looked down at and became annoying to others. So he found these courses to be more challenging.

Damien has trouble with empathy. Not that he doesn’t feel any, but he feels too much at times aka he experiences hyper-empathy. Depending on the situation, he can be overwhelmed by another person’s feelings and start feeding that into his own. If he sees someone crying, even if he doesn’t know them, he will most likely sit and cry with them solely because of how he picked up on the emotion. He is very good at telling people’s emotions, though sometimes does falter over how much they are feeling it.

Damien also experiences meltdowns very often, however has gotten really good at learning when theyre coming and will excuse himself with “i have a migraine” so he can properly take care of it without it going any further. Usually this means finding somewhere completely quiet and listening to his own music and just let himself sit in a ball. Before he had learned how to tell, his meltdowns were immediate shut downs of himself. Just no response from him.

Damien is often not seen as someone on the spectrum because of the way he behaves.Which is something he learned he really hated, so if anyone says that to him, they will immediately be met with a different Damien.

He hates being told what to do. Period. He always had a hard time taking instructions from someone, or being guided in a different way. Damien will fully refuse to do what someone wants him to do, which is something his parents learned as he grew up. There is obviously ways around this, which is just to ask him differently. Depending what it is just say “Damien, can you do something for me please ?” And already then his empathy wants to already help this person. but say it like “Do it this way” then hes deadass not going to do it.

Damien can drive !! He is very much able to drive, however under certain conditions that he realized himself. He cannot drive during night, because of all the bright lights -- nor can he drive in bad weather. Also he will always have his windows up and his music playing. He will never give up his AUX cord to anyone else, so don’t ask or even try. If you also tell him his music sucks, then he will have no issue kicking you out of his car too. He also has a white mini cooper because his dad wouldnt let him get the pink one.

Damien does his nails, yes already explained, another thing is that the collects nail polish, vinyls, and spray paint. All these things are very well organized in his room, just shelves, bins, and everything. Also hes very disorganized in every thing else.

His autism helped him in theatre in high school !! Being able to understand another person’s emotion and then reflect them back, really made him super good at acting when he was in Theatre. Some say it has to do with being a “chameleon” in being able to copy the traits of others. Though actually was more able to put himself in their own situation and feel what they were feeling because of his hyper-empathy. He really still loves the theatre too.

#( damien headcanons. )#( sldkjf i think im missing things tbh but #if anyone has any questions just def ask !! )#( queue. )

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unlessimwrongwhichyouknowimnot · 8 years ago

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Autistic Arthur Shappey (Cabin Pressure)

Cabin Pressure is a BBC radio show following the four members of MJN Air, an airdot (because you need more than one plane to have an airline) run by Carolyn Knapp-Shappey. Arthur Shappey is the steward of the plane and Carolyn’s son. Arthur is voiced by John Finnemore, the creator of Cabin Pressure who also wrote every episode.

Arthur stood out to me as autistic from the 2nd episode when he mentioned taking a course on understanding people. Because autistic headcanons are turning into a new special interest of mine, I decided to create this list of reasons why Arthur is very much autistic.

Martin Crieff, another character on the show, is also very autistic. You can find his list here.

The traits focused on were taken from this list of Inclusive Autistic Traits.

All the examples below were taken from transcripts at this website.

Social

1. Differences in body language and nonverbal communication (this is obviously extremely difficult to tell with Cabin Pressure being a radio show, but there was one instance of Arthur’s body language being described as atypical)

2x02 – Gdansk

MARTIN: Yes. Arthur, what are you doing with your face? ARTHUR: I’m winking. MARTIN: You’re only supposed to use one eye. ARTHUR: I know, but I can only do that if I hold the other one open with my finger, and I thought Douglas would notice.

2. Differences in verbal communication (Arthur struggles with not recognizing sarcasm, taking things literally, not understanding rhetorical statements/questions, struggling with metaphor, occasional echolalia etc.)

A. Different use of literal and metaphorical language

1x05 – Edinburgh

ARTHUR: Oh, I just, er, popped onto the roof of the plane. CAROLYN: The roof?! What the hell are you doing up there?! ARTHUR: Well, the picture on the rugby went all funny, so Douglas said I should shin up onto the roof and twiddle the aerial … only now I’m here, I can’t seem to find it. CAROLYN: Ohh, you idiot boy! This is “Go and water the window boxes” all over again, isn’t it? ARTHUR: Ohhh!

3x06 – St. Petersburg

ARTHUR: Here you are, Skip. Nice hot cup of coffee. MARTIN: Oh. (He takes a sip.) Aww! It’s cold! ARTHUR: Nice cup of coffee. MARTIN: It’s horrible! ARTHUR: Cup of coffee. MARTIN: I’m not even sure it is coffee. ARTHUR: … Cup. How’re you feeling?

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DOUGLAS: Alas, an exhaustive search of St Petersburg airport duty free has yet to turn up anything in the shape of a Toblerone. ARTHUR: Triangular.

4x03 – Vaduz

ARTHUR: Wow! It’s an actual castle! DOUGLAS: What did you expect Vaduz Castle to be? ARTHUR: I dunno. World of Leather was very disappointing.

4x05 – Xinzhou

ARTHUR: Er, Mum? CAROLYN: Yes? ARTHUR: A quick question: you know those small chickens you get where everyone has one each? CAROLYN: Yes. ARTHUR: What are they called? CAROLYN: Poussin. ARTHUR: Oh. Not ‘baby chickens’. CAROLYN: No. ARTHUR: Oh. Chaps, you know how we were talking about mistakes? MARTIN: What have you done? ARTHUR: … and how they happen to all of us and it’s just one of those things? CAROLYN: What have you done? ARTHUR (frantically): It should have made it clearer! When I was ordering the catering, there was one called ‘baby chicken’ and I thought they’d be those little ones, and I love those because you feel like a giant! But they didn’t mean that! It-it meant these. CAROLYN: So … the catering you have laid on, Arthur, for four people trapped in a plane overnight, is two jars of chicken-flavoured baby food? ARTHUR: No! That’s not all. There’s two lamb-flavoured ones as well. DOUGLAS: What did you think ‘baby lamb’ was? ARTHUR: Well, all lambs are baby lambs.

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CAROLYN: Arthur. Say something. ARTHUR: Ooh! Okay! What shall I say? CAROLYN: Well, anything, just so I know where you are and I don’t tread on you getting back to my seat. ARTHUR: Oh, right! (Half-singing) ♪ Here I am, don’t tread on me. Here I am, don’t tread on me. Here I am, don’t tread on me. Here I am, don’t tread on me … ♪

4x06 – Yverdon-les-Bains

HERC: You can have something more interesting if you like, Arthur. There’s, er, there’s guava; mango; dragon fruit … ARTHUR: Wow. Dragon fruit?! HERC: Help yourself. ARTHUR: Thanks, Herc! (He takes and eats a piece.) HERC: So, what do you think? ARTHUR (with his mouth half full): Yeah, it’s quite nice. Mmm. It’sh not really what I was expecting. I-I thought it’d be a bit more, um, I don’t know … HERC: Dragony?

Zurich – Part One

CAROLYN: It is a happy ending – just not a fairytale ending. We can’t expect that. Real happy endings are never simple. ARTHUR: Yes they are. Like in ‘Finding Nemo’ when they find Nemo. Or in ‘Casablanca’ when the woman gets a go on the plane. CAROLYN: It’s not! ARTHUR: I suppose maybe ‘The Jungle Book’ when you’re meant to be happy that Mowgli goes off with the boring girl to the human village instead of hanging out with Baloo and Bagheera. That’s a kind of sad happy ending.

B. Different use of speech (Echolalia)

4x05 – Xinzhou

(Arthur, Carolyn, Douglas, and Martin are having to sleep on the plane. Arthur has claimed the aisle to sleep, and sings his song when the others are moving past him in the dark so he doesn’t get stepped on. When he’s the one moving, he still sings the song.)

ARTHUR (tiredly): ♪ Here I am, don’t tread on me. Here I am, don’t tread on me. ♪ CAROLYN: It’s you moving!

Zurich – Part One

(Arthur has turned a small moving van into an ice cream van and created his own “ice cream chimes,” which consists of him repeating the words ‘ice cream’ repeatedly.)

ARTHUR (dramatically): The chimes. I’ve done my own ice cream chimes. Listen! (He inserts a cassette into a player and his own voice starts to play from it.) ARTHUR’s VOICE (singing to the tune of ‘Greensleeves’, with no musical accompaniment): ♪ Ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice. Ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, ice cream, get your lovely ice cream. ♪ (His voice goes very off-key at the end.) MARTIN: Er, yes, that’s … ARTHUR’s VOICE (straining for the high note at the beginning of the chorus): ♪ I-i-ice cream, i-i-i-ice cream, i-i-i-ice cream, i-i-i… ♪ (The cassette is turned off.)

Differences in interactions and relationships (Arthur has a very distinct way of speaking to passengers, struggles with knowing how to communicate with others, and gets flustered easily in conversations. His mum sent him on a course on understanding people in Ipswich.)

1x02 – Boston

ARTHUR: Good evening, sir, welcome on board today. Good evening, madam, welcome also to you today on board. Good evening, sir, welcome to being on board to you today. Ooh, er, sir? Excuse me? MR. LEEMAN (American accent): Yeah? What? ARTHUR: Er, may I inform yourself that MJN does run a fully comprehensive non-smoking service, and as such as a result of this, all cigarettes, cigars and cigarillos must be extinguished upon embarkation, and retained in a state of extinguishment until termination of disembarkation. Thank yourself for your co-operation. MR. LEEMAN: I’m not co-operating. ARTHUR: No, not yet, but I’m sure you’re going to in a minute, and then, thank you! MR. LEEMAN: Do you know how much I paid to be on this flight today? ARTHUR: I bet it was loads! MR. LEEMAN: Yeah, good guess. It was loads. It was so much that it seems to me that, uh … (he takes a drag on his cigarette) … I can pretty much smoke where I like, okay? ARTHUR: But … it … it’s very dangerous to smoke on an aeroplane. MR. LEEMAN: No it’s not. ARTHUR: … I don’t know what to say now. MR. LEEMAN: How old are you, sonny? ARTHUR: Twenty-eight and a half. MR. LEEMAN: Well, I was smoking on airplanes for twenty years before you were born. Why do you think the No Smoking signs go on and off? ARTHUR: Actually, ours don’t, mostly; although one of them flickers. And there’s one we can’t turn on at all because it makes the cabin smell of fish. MR. LEEMAN: Well, that sure gives me confidence. So, uh … (he takes another drag on his cigarette) … we’re all done here, right? ARTHUR: Yep! MR. LEEMAN: And I can smoke. ARTHUR: Er …

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MARTIN: Shut up, Douglas! Now, Arthur, we’ve already had one fire scare on this trip. We can’t afford to take chances, and since we know that Mr. Leeman has been fully informed of the policy and therefore certainly won’t be smoking in the loo again … ARTHUR: Actually, I think he might. MARTIN: No, Arthur, he won’t. ARTHUR: Hmm. The thing is, though, Skip, with all due respect, but what I’ve got that you haven’t is that Mum sent me on a course on understanding people in Ipswich. MARTIN (slowly): And if I ever want the people of Ipswich understood, you’ll be the first person I call. Meanwhile … ARTHUR: Yeah, yeah, but it means I can now read people – you know, like a book. DOUGLAS: Have you ever read a book, Arthur? ARTHUR: Yes, actually! White Fang. Twice. Anyway, bringing my people-reading skills to the table, I’m able to reveal to you now that Mr. Leeman didn’t show any of the five indicators of true resolve to change his behaviour patterns, and therefore, in a nutshell, I reckon he might smoke in the loo again.

1x03 – Cremona

ARTHUR: Might I ask yourself at this time if yourself would care to partake of the enjoyment of the in-flight entertainment system we do provide on the aircraft today? HESTER: What? ARTHUR: Shall I put the telly on?

2x04 – Johannesburg

ARTHUR (into cabin address): Ladies and gentlemen, as you can see, our onboard transit process today has now reached its ultimate termination. CAROLYN: He means we’ve landed. ARTHUR: Yes. So, as yourselves prepare for disemboarding, if I could kindly ask you to kindly ensure you retain all your personal items about your person throughout the duration of the disembarkation. CAROLYN: He means take your stuff with you. ARTHUR: In concluding, it’s been a privilege for ourselves to conduct yourselves through the in-flight experience today, and I do hope you’ll re-favour ourselves with the esteem of your forth-looking custom going forward. CAROLYN: … No idea.

4x02 – Uskerty

ARTHUR: No, no. I just think it would look good. And then, Douglas, we should be saying things like, you know, “Hey, you guy. The dames, eh?” “Yeah, the dames. Stupid dames. You had any luck with the horses?” “No, the horses are all … idiots. You know, between the dames and the horses, sometimes I don’t even know why I put my hat on.” That’s how they talk in bars, isn’t it? DOUGLAS: … No, Arthur. That’s not how anyone talks, anywhere. ARTHUR: Oh, right. So … how-how do they …? I mean, I’ve never really been to a … What sort of things do they say?

DOUGLAS: I don’t know. You just ask about each other’s lives. ARTHUR: Oh, okay. Right. Er … So, do you miss your ex-wife? DOUGLAS: What?! ARTHUR: No! No! DOUGLAS: You don’t … not like that! ARTHUR: Sorry, sorry. DOUGLAS: You don’t talk about anything. You-you just … I dunno – you-you joke. You moan about sport; you-you tease each other. It’s terrific. ARTHUR: I don’t know about sport. Um, I could tease you, though. I’d like to be better at teasing. DOUGLAS: Well, you can’t just … ARTHUR: Honestly, Douglas, you silly great … man. Look at you with your hair all … straight. … It’s not easy, is it? DOUGLAS: Apparently not.

~*~*~*~

ARTHUR: I ju… I just don’t know the sort of things people say. DOUGLAS: Yes you do. You’ve heard me tease Martin hundreds of times. ARTHUR: Oh, right, okay. Er … I notice Sir isn’t terribly tall today. DOUGLAS: … Yes. That’s better. Of course, I am quite tall. ARTHUR: Oh, damn! It’s-it’s just really difficult with you. There’s-there’s nothing to make fun of. (Silence.) ARTHUR: What? DOUGLAS: I’m a fifty-seven year old first officer with three ex-wives and I’m drinking sodding pineapple juice. ARTHUR: I know. So? DOUGLAS: Nothing. You know, I think maybe you should give up on teasing. It’s not really your thing. ARTHUR: Okay. DOUGLAS: If it helps, you are excellent at being teased. ARTHUR: Oh, really? Am I? DOUGLAS: Oh, first rate! Second only to Martin. He’s the master. ARTHUR: Aww, thanks, Douglas! And-and maybe if I practise, I could get as good as him. DOUGLAS: As good as Martin? I’m afraid not. He always goes the extra mile. The man just phoned me from up a tree.

Sensory

1. Differences in sensory sensitivity (Arthur prefers certain sensory experiences as shown below)

1x06 - Fitton

(When discussing whether it’s possible to be perfectly happy, Arthur provides sensory examples to prove that he’s often perfectly happy.)

ARTHUR: Like, for instance, when you get into a bath quickly and it’s just the right temperature, and you go … (blissfully) … “Ohhhh!”

~*~*~*~

ARTHUR: Like when you realise your knuckles are ready for cracking.

2. Strong enjoyment, desire, or need for certain types of sensory input. Demonstrated by stimming (self-stimulation) behaviour.

1x06 – Fitton

ARTHUR: This – tossing an apple from hand to hand. It just feels really nice. I could do it for hours. Try it.

Cognitive

1. Strength of focus and rigidity (Arthur will attach himself to certain topics and learn a lot about them in a short amount of time. He plays the game of “Yellow Car” every time he’s in a car and gets upset when the rules of the game are changed.)

A. Intense focus and interests

1x03 – Cremona

Hester Macauley

ARTHUR (excitedly): Hester Macauley?! The Lady of the Lake?! In my cabin?!

ARTHUR (high-pitched with excitement): She was Griselda, the Lady of the Lake – in-in Quest for Camelot!

ARTHUR: Right. I see. Still, though, I just want to say, I am your biggest fan. HESTER: Oh really? ARTHUR: Absolutely!

3x01 – Qikiqtarjuaq

Polar Bears/Bears (plus bonus Egypt!)

ARTHUR (almost bursting with excitement): What?! Are we?! Polar bears?! We’re gonna fly over polar bears?! And see them and look at them and be with the polar bears?!

CAROLYN: Oh, if you’re online, Douglas, look up ‘polar bears’ or ‘exploring’ or something. DOUGLAS: Why? CAROLYN: Because one of you will have to give a lecture on it. Unbeaten Track’s thing is that the crew are all experts on the region and they give lectures. ARTHUR: Can I give a lecture on polar bears? CAROLYN (instantly): No. DOUGLAS: What do you know about polar bears, Arthur? ARTHUR: Polar bears are … brilliant. DOUGLAS: You might want to pad that out with some PowerPoints.

ARTHUR: And this one’s a koala bear. Uh, that’s not actually a bear, in fact. This one is a panda bear. That’s not actually a bear. Honestly, it’s like nothing’s actually a bear. MRS COOK (Canadian accent): I’m sorry. I’m confused. Why are you showing me this? ARTHUR: It’s interesting about bears and things. Don’t worry: it’s all part of the service. It’s not extra. We’re all experts on stuff today, you see? I’m the expert on bears. And Egypt, actually. In Egypt, they used to pull your brains out through your nose with a hook. And that’s not even something in this book – that’s something I know!

ARTHUR: Hello. Uh, we didn’t meet properly. I’m Arthur. I’m the steward and bear expert. For instance, the sloth bear eats half its own body weight every month.

ARTHUR: Right, because I just know an awful lot about bears – at the moment. Uh, so if you ever need to, you know, borrow me, well you’d have to sort it out with Mum but I’m sure it’d be okay.

(Flight deck door bursts open.) ARTHUR: BEARS!! (Martin yells out in surprise.) ARTHUR: Bears, bears, bears! Polar bears! Look, on the ground!

CAROLYN: Goodbye. Goodbye. Thank you for flying with Unbeaten Track. ARTHUR: Goodbye. A female bear is called a sow. CAROLYN: Goodbye, madam. Thank you for flying Unbeaten Track. ARTHUR: Goodbye. A grizzly bear can strip a deer’s carcass in six minutes. MRS COOK: I beg your pardon? CAROLYN: Farewell bear facts, madam, courtesy of Unbeaten Track.

4x01 – Timbuktu

Timbuktu

ARTHUR: Oh, and I, er, I found that book you wanted, Douglas. DOUGLAS: What book? ARTHUR: About Timbuktu. DOUGLAS: Oh, right. Yes, well, you hang on to that for now. ARTHUR: Oh, okay. It’s about all of Africa really, but there’s a chapter on Mali and a page on Timbuktu. I’ve nearly finished it. MARTIN: The book? ARTHUR: The page. It sounds amazing. I can’t wait to see it!

ARTHUR: Don’t mention it. I read the whole page of that book. I’m basically an expert on Timbuktu now.

ARTHUR: Er, no, Douglas, you’re thinking of France. Mali was in the French Empire. DOUGLAS: No, Arthur … ARTHUR: Yeah, no, definitely. It was in my book.

ARTHUR: It’s just, my book was saying that most transport is still camels and donkeys, but I haven’t seen a camel all journey!

ARTHUR: Well, it is a bit surprising, Mum, because the book was saying the Sahara’s one of the flattest places in the world!

B. Preference for routine and sameness (Arthur has a certain game he plays every time he’s in the car, and he gets upset if someone changes the rules.)

The Official Rules for Yellow Car

3x04 – Ottery St. Mary

ARTHUR: Yellow car. DOUGLAS: What? ARTHUR: Nothing. Just “yellow car”. MARTIN: Why did you say “yellow car”? ARTHUR: There was a yellow car. MARTIN: But why did you say “yellow car”? ARTHUR: You’ve got to say “yellow car” when there’s a yellow car. MARTIN: Why? ARTHUR: That’s how you play Yellow Car. MARTIN: I’m not playing Yellow Car. ARTHUR: You’re always playing Yellow Car.

4x01 – Timbuktu

ARTHUR: … Yellow car. MR. BIRLING: Can’t you do something to stop him saying that? CAROLYN: Trust me: there is no power on Earth.

4x03 – Vaduz

MAXIMILIAN: Green truck. That counts double. ARTHUR (indignantly): What?! No, no, that’s not how you play! MAXIMILIAN: It is in Liechtenstein. ARTHUR: No it’s not! MAXIMILIAN: It is, because I’m the King of Liechtenstein and I say it is. A hundred points to me! ARTHUR (frantically): There aren’t any points!

2. Difference in cognitive abilities (Arthur struggles with executive function and has been shown to have a slower processing speed. He needs multiple prompts to do things and struggles with multi-step directions.)

2x06 – Limerick

CAROLYN: Arthur. Arthur, it’s an intercom, not a chat line. You’re supposed to be putting the dinner on. ARTHUR: Oh, right. Sorry, Mum.

~*~*~*~

ARTHUR: Is it valuable? CAROLYN: No! Of course not(!) A client just chartered a plane and two pilots to fly a packet of crisps halfway round the world(!) Arthur … you remember when I told you to put the dinner on? ARTHUR: Yeah. CAROLYN: Did you, in fact, do that? ARTHUR: … No. No, now I think about it, I got mixed up and made coffee. CAROLYN: Then perhaps you could have another crack at it now. ARTHUR: Right-o! What are we having?

~*~*~*~

CAROLYN: Arthur. Why is there a half-cooked Admiral’s pie congealing in the microwave? ARTHUR: Oh! I forgot about it. It was just having its little rest in the middle, because otherwise it goes all bubbly at the edges and you have to … CAROLYN: Yes, thank you, Heston Blumenthal. Just sort it out. ARTHUR: Right-o.

3x04 – Ottery St. Mary

ARTHUR: Here we are, chaps … er, chap. Coffee for you, Douglas, and coffee for you … to maybe have a bit later on, Douglas. DOUGLAS: Did you by any chance forget Martin wasn’t flying today, Arthur? ARTHUR: No, I didn’t, actually. It’s just, I only know the amounts to make coffee for two people. DOUGLAS: You could just have made half what you usually make. ARTHUR: Well, I couldn’t because I’d only know what to make half of once I’d made it, and once I’d made it, I’d made it.

~*~*~*~

DOUGLAS: Give me strength. The address on the envelope you picked up from Martin’s pigeonhole at the airfield. ARTHUR: … Right. Now … I know how you’re going to be, but remember you also asked me to pick up the van keys. MARTIN: Arthur … ARTHUR: Half the job was picking up the van keys, and that part I did brilliantly!

3x05 – Rotterdam

DOUGLAS: It’s certainly biggest. All right, Arthur, in your own time. (Pause.) ARTHUR: Who’s saying ‘Action’? DOUGLAS: You can say ‘Action’. ARTHUR: Action! (Pause.) DOUGLAS (tiredly): And go.

4x01 – Timbuktu

MARTIN: Actually, we’re fine, Arthur. We-we’ll be landing in twenty minutes. ARTHUR: Oh, right-o. Oh, and a message from Mum. Er, she says how long until we land? DOUGLAS: … Right.

3. Difference in thinking styles (Arthur thinks and learns in an atypical manner.)

1x01 – Abu Dhabi

CAROLYN: What time is it? ARTHUR: Six fifteen … Oh, damn! CAROLYN: What? ARTHUR: I’m trying to train myself always to talk in twenty-four hour clock, like Martin, but I keep forgetting. CAROLYN: Well, what should you have said? ARTHUR: Well, six fifteen. But not the six fifteen I was thinking of. You see, I was thinking of the one there’s two of, but when you do it right, there should only be one, and what I was … CAROLYN (interrupting): Arthur, Arthur, Arthur, light of my life, do please shut up.

2x06 – Limerick

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MARTIN: Arthur? ‘M’. ARTHUR: What? Ooh! Er, Mountain. Moccasin. Magma. CAROLYN: What’s this now? DOUGLAS: Arthur’s trying to learn the phonetic alphabet. He favours the spot-check method of revision. None of the above, Arthur, no.

ARTHUR: Er, Molecule. Mongoose. Mosquito! MARTIN: Shorter. ARTHUR: Mosque. CAROLYN: It’s a name. ARTHUR: Macnamara. Michinson. Moon! DOUGLAS: A first name. ARTHUR: Er, Martin, er, Maggie, Milly, Molly, Mandy, Matthew, Michael … CAROLYN: Nearly! Shorter. ARTHUR: Mickey! Mick! Mi! Muh! MARTIN: No, Arthur, the phonetic alphabet version of the letter ‘M’ is not ‘Muh’. It’s ‘Mike’! ARTHUR: Oh! I was close, then.

~*~*~*~

ARTHUR: Sorry. Mum, did you say one minute, three minute, one minute? CAROLYN: Oh, for goodness’ sake! No! Of course not! What cooks for one minute and stands for three? It’s three, one, three. ARTHUR: Oh, right. Okay, actually that’s easy to remember, because I’ll just think of 433 Squadron, only remember to swap the first two numbers and take three off the middle one! CAROLYN: Arthur, are you insane? That’s the stupidest way to remember anything I’ve ever heard! MARTIN: Also, it’s not 433 Squadron, it’s 633 Squadron. ARTHUR: Oh, yeah! Thanks, Skipper. So first, I’ve got to add two to the squadron I think it is to get the real squadron and then swap … CAROLYN: No! Don’t do any of that. Just remember it. Just use your brain and remember the three numbers. ARTHUR: Yes! Sorry. Three … three … CAROLYN: No! Oh, come with me.

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Chekov, obviously! Please! Also Sulu, maybe?

Ah, I guess I’m just supposed to do all of them? I’m doing them for Chekov right now because I need some time to think about the ones for Sulu.

1) Chekov doesn’t mind his Starfleet uniform because it is soft and made to be not very noticeable, but he prefers heavier clothes (it’s cold in Russia!)

2) He stims by rocking at his station, kicking his legs, and chewing on anything that Sulu sets down for two or more seconds.

3) Chekov prefers not to be touched unexpectedly or by strangers, but if he knows a person he doesn’t mind being touched by them–especially deep touch.

4) He likes dense foods and chewy foods because he stims by chewing. People sometimes complain about the texture of replicated food in that century, but he likes it.

5) He hates hard foods that get stuck in his teeth (such as coconut, peanut, almonds, etc.)

6) He likes to listen to music while he works sometimes. Normally he listens to softer music while working and saves louder music for when he needs to stim, but sometimes loud music helps him focus if there is a lot going on around him.

7) Talking about his special interest (Russia) calms him down when he is upset. Also, helping Spock with experiments and calculations at the science station.

8) Chekov knows he is autistic. He was diagnosed as a youngish adult some time before joining Starfleet.

9) He isn’t self diagnosed, so this is N/A.

10) Sulu and Uhura are his closest friends, but he is friends with everyone on the bridge crew. Everyone is accepting and tries to be as accommodating as possible. Sulu loves to talk about special interests with him and Uhura is the best at helping when he is overstimulated, but surprisingly Spock is often the most patient with him when he gets overwhelmed or needs help.

11) Chekov is typically hyper-verbal with idiosyncratic speech. He does sometimes go non-verbal, and then he communicates with a PADD.

12) He gets overstimulated by sound and light really easily if he is stressed out, tired, or upset.

13) His main special interest is Russia (obviously), but he also loves science.

14) Everyone on the bridge crew (plus Doctor McCoy and Scotty) know, but he doesn’t usually discuss it with anyone else on the Enterprise. He doesn’t necessarily avoid it, but it just doesn’t usually come up.

15) I don’t really ship him with anyone. His two best friends are Sulu and Uhura, but they are just platonic.

16) Same as the last question

17) Chekov’s hair falls into his eyes a lot because he forgets to cut it sometimes. It’s a sensory issue when it’s in his eyes, but he still has to be reminded to cut it. Sometimes Uhura cuts it, but more often than not, Jim does.

18) He is well-kept as far as hygiene, but he usually doesn’t remember to do things like brush his hair or match his socks.

19) Literally the planet from A Piece of the Action, but instead of their society being based off of Chicago, it’s just Russia in space.

20) Everyone on the bridge talking at once with nothing to focus on. Which happens more than he likes, but usually Sulu finds something for him to stim with when that happens.

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Everything that used to trigger me

gap year clean up operation

by topic 1) family 2) internet 3) habits 4) education 5) music 6) relationships 7) sex 8) ambitions 9a) people being triggered by me 9b) people liking me (both + takeaways) 10) exam failure from 'narcissism' 11) my happiness 12) happiness in relationships 13) self sabotage/not reaching full potential 14) peak culture 15) mania/bipolar 16) attitudes against mainstream/dissatisfaction 17) trolling 18) lack of pride in myself or friends 19) being an alpha male 😈 20) dysfunctional behaviour 21) fake false flags to reinforce a victim mentality

1) family trigger points . My mum plays jazz fm loudly in the kitchen. shes insensitive to my desire to practice the piano in peace in an environment that facilitates my development. My dad hates me. My brother hates me. I had a sexual relationship with a boy who was the son of a family friend at 14 and his mum found out by walking in and told my mum. She loves me yet as Christians she's appaled as is my father who is a priest. I feel too ashamed of my sexuality and having sex which negatively impacts my life. My mother is a lovely personality but is stressed and anxious. My father ditto, I find him ignorant, he can't communicate or manage interpersonal relationships. His disjointed mannerisms derive from social anxiety. In my mothers view, the family is ruined because of my younger brother. He'd always run around the house disinhibited, and come onto my mother, strangers, etc (he's autistic so doesn't understand). Obviously the family is fucked beyond repair. My parents only mission in life is posting shit on Facebook as would be activists for a free Russia or some bs. Most of their friends are online, they have low functioning lifestyles, don't understand love and see the world through a 100% academic worldview. None of my acheivements were ever good enough for them, etc

2) im an addict more or less. my desire to use twitter originated in pay per click advertising. i was broke i got followers etc also i was mad at 'clout' people then i went to some events in canary wharf reinvented the operation as real estate based in the city from a virtual adress it functioned perfectly got retreats from battersea city council, other quite well respected accounts found it fascinating how it was taken seriously went a bit far starting using the medium to solely communicate with a network and reason with them while triggering everyone else with no immunity. the inspiration was my inner child whom by all accounts was quite egotistical then use ig for girls and friends i guess ig would trigger me because the clout is fake linkedin for visualisation tbh i got caught up and it started accumulating power etc used fb for piano tuition fucking triggered by fb, useless imo . 3) habits awful bad diet, water, no gym, sports no piano no part time job no relationships not seeing anyone just addicted to online . 4) triggered by being educated as it was outside my model bathed in ignorance disputed with maths and french and music and piano . 5) i want the coolest most developed chords i dont even care for the expression spontaneity creativity i just want the most edgy/advanced chords i don't even reason out part writing or experience inherent joy from it . 6) dysfunctional anxiety ridden ignorant non sexual not transparent no social events no shared values no mutuals . 7) ashamed as said im gay? perhaps pansexual no clue im not attracted to girls it feels forced im gay i admit it logistically hard parents might cut off if they found out . 8) ridiculously huge delusional not funded by enough money weak networking . 9a) Yasmin girls all classes sixth form exam boards teachers . 9b) yomi sees potential and feels contrived sympsthy for me same with mutazz both dont truly know me but love for them etc ditto w al dhillon knows nothing about me no friends know anything about me, I'm a loner by choice to protect myself . 10) couldn't deal with being in the same room as people i thought were less then me was angry took out on exams lol . 11) no clue how to be happy love? . 12) non existent no clue

13) im gay so thats a start haha self sabotage my public portrayal amongst close friends Sabotage my own education bipolar/mania lol Sabotage my musical expression Sabotage my popularity (for being woke?) lol annoyed at fake insta clout annoyed at how friends like sam saw me as an outsider instead of the other way round lol eh nah take that back different cliques much love . 14) i listen to crap instead of 'high culture' such as Beethoven symphonies idk my piano repetoire

15) legit manic episodes bipolar i consultation indefinitely . 16) im a legend in terms of my perception yet im embarrassed I'm not confident i dont follow through a gap year basically failure to aaa probably Warwick mfl when i could have been Oxbridge (with hard sincere work) eh . but then again It is all about me the self styled maverick Benedict gets the mission a shit uni would be a troll gp shit/aaa/ Russell g/ucl i mean it would look better but interpersonal perception and communication are so manipulated i could probably make an Oxford degree on ms Paint and pass it off or be the bossman of rcm or Warwick mfl/adjustment I guess lol like e corp guy im the most powerful guy in the room but i fucked it bc hussey has superior expertise and i kinda need to be subservient to the exam boards loool whoops . * Im too strong willed pass off as bipolar a*aa hope for the best through adjustment keep interpersonal communication doctrine calm af . 17) i have trolled before it was nasty but im past that perhaps some light sarcasm thats all kindness love . be honest about my mischief it can't be made up so will get away with it . 18) not good have pride in al yomi mutazz everyone so far in my life endless relationships andthe future . 19) loool i don't buy that shit . i believe were the sum of our choices nothing is definitive only the present moment defines us in my opinion so failure in the past generally speaking is irrelevant never judge

20) not working etc doing the work for a*aa bc the perfectly valid reasoning was being rejected by me as it fell outside my model . 21) yeah i make excuses not to be accepted and respected as expected (flourish) because i like being the victim .

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So I’ve been a little different from everyone I know since I was little. I didn’t think much of it, didn’t see a problem with having only a few close friends, not liking certain textures/flavors, not liking to socialize. I thought I was just an introvert, and that was that. However, recently, I got curious about stimming (as I have stimmed for as long as I remembered, particularly flapping hands) and discovered Asperger’s Syndrome.

There’s gonna be alot of me thinking, so I’ll put it under a read more.

The main thing I will say here is this: Though I can function in society mostly fine, the “mostly” is the kicker, because I do have issues socially, and I’ve learned/taught myself to be better. That’s what makes me realize I’ve probably got Asperger’s. If you’re curious as to why I say that, go ahead and click keep reading below.

Upon intensive googling, I found I matched a lot of the common characteristics, both strengths and challenges Aspies have/face. It was actually new to me that Asperger’s/Autism have strengths too, as I had very little knowledge.

In terms of strengths, anything that involves writing I’m good at. So things like vocabulary, focus for long periods of time, imagination, all things up my alley. I also have special interests which shifted from when I was a kid (horses were my jam) to things I obsess over in the fandom world now. I’m also obsessive with plants at the moment (see my growing shelf or my plant side blog, adapted-gardening).

I enjoy being alone for sure. I’m also open-minded, despite my upbringing in the church and close-mindedness of my family, and definitely like animals more than people. I enjoy repetitive tasks like putting papers in envelopes for an hour, sorting bookshelves, weeding, things like that.

As for challenges, I don’t really meet the motor ones (besides stimming) probably due to me playing basketball since I was 6-7 years old, and being active ever since. I do match some social, sensory, and perception ones though.

I don’t initiate conversations, don’t like small talk, can forget to read people’s expressions while I’m talking about something I like, used to not do very good eye contact, get exhausted after extensive socializing. I can do group work, but I seem to be either completely submissive or completely controlling if no one steps up as leader, though if I’ve got the option, I’ll work alone. Phone conversations...well I’ve gotten mildly better thanks to previous jobs requiring them on a daily basis, but I still have anxiety talking to strangers, and even with people I know I commonly don’t realize I need to respond and they think the line dropped or something. I don’t communicate my feelings to many people unless it’s someone I know/trust, and even then unless it’s really bothering me to the point of distress, I won’t say anything, or I’ll play it off as non-important.

As a kid I had bad aversion to some vegetables and fruits to the point of gagging, didn’t like the slimy feeling of lotion, but also would get quite sensitive to dry skin after taking baths, and sometimes tactile sensations get too much. For the most part I’ve grown out of both the vegetable aversion and lotion thankfully.

I never felt like I fit in (as a kid I legit imagined I belonged in the Star Wars universe and just needed to be picked up...Star Wars was a special interest for a while). I never really felt like a girl either, hence my self-discovery of non-binary.

If I’m on a train of thought, it can be hard to get off it, which can make things like going to sleep or switching tasks hard. I don’t like it when things come up unexpectedly in my schedule (and yes I’ve got my life quite regimented in my calendar and head). I tend to use the same things, order the same food, do the same routine as much as I can, listen to the same music for different tasks. I tend to over analyze anything if I don’t stop myself.

At first I was like “yeah this is totally what’s up with me, I’ve got Asperger’s.” But as my anxiety kicked in, I started doubting myself because I didn’t have an official diagnosis or anything, and I can function mostly fine in society. But that’s the thing, I “mostly” can.

Obviously socializing is hard. I don’t talk to my professors unless I need help, and I don’t go get help unless I couldn’t google it first. That can make recommendations tough to get. I’m great at making “awkward silences” because I don’t respond to things. I’ve taught myself how to read people a little, and I realize now I’m taking psychology to basically help myself learn how other people think and act.

I prefer my routine, but I won’t die if it gets messed up, it just annoys me a lot. I stim (hand flapping, tensing muscles, tactile stims, finger tapping, leg jiggling, and some others I’m probably forgetting), and I found stimtastic.co and got myself a spinner ring which is amazing (I’ll post a gif later of it). I can get really focused on stuff, which can make switching from something like writing, a thing I care a lot about, to homework, something I may not really be interested in, hard to do. It can also keep me up at night as my brain keeps making stories.

I did go to the counseling center on Friday at my uni, and after deciding I was wanting more an explanation/confirmation of why I do things, the counselor suggested I look over my insurance and he’d refer me to a specialist for assessment. That’s all fine and dandy, but I don’t really have money, and my mom’s one of those that see autism as people like a childhood friend of mine’s brother, who my mom would clearly call “autistic,” so my mom won’t help me either, or even approve of me getting assessments done.

My insurance requires me to pay the $320 deductible and 10% of the cost, so I don’t know if I’ll get go diagnosed until I’ve got more money to my name. It’s not like it’s gonna go away, and part of me is like “to hell with official diagnosis, you know you best” but the other half is like “you can’t be sure till a professional says so.” There’s also the question of “why get a diagnosis if you’re not gonna seek therapy or accommodations at school?” It’s a valid point; why spend that money when I essentially know already?

So this is me processing. Who knew the last couple of years would be so much figuring myself out? I’d say college had a lot to do with figuring this out, because I suddenly changed social environment and woo, had to do friend-making which has been a slow, but steady process.

If anyone else stumbles on this, I hope it helps you. I know seeing other people’s experiences helped me figure myself out, so it’s my turn to contribute.

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