#obviously his (lack of) awareness would stay the same

[i-will-cry-you-a-river]

If Shen Yuan would have transmigrated after realizing his sexuality, SVSSS would have been even more unhinged.

Like, he already notices the beautiful men he is surrounded by, but now these beautiful men could be an option for him. Sure, not LBH because he is the protagonist of a stallion novel, he will get his harem of pretty flowers, but the others! After all, if all women belongs to the protagonist, maybe it wouldn't be frowned upon for the men to be cutsleeves. Right? His cute little white sheep will have all the peerless beauties, but the other men who also deserve love and appreciation and care will have no one and that would be a crime.

Now, he just has to figure out which one of his beautiful and handsome and reliable and strong martial brothers is open to have a... a closer relationship with him. I mean, one of them has to be at least a little bit queer, right?! That's just statistics!

[fanaroff]

DP X DC Watchtower Blurbo

*feel free to add on to it or use it

It's pretty well understood now that Danny can be a little shit and cause trouble just by existing. There's no way he wouldn't eventually fuck with the Justice League over time if they existed in the same universe. He probably came across the Watchtower accidentally at first and stayed invisible the whole time, scared out of his mind that they'd somehow detect him. They don't, so he gets braver about visiting over time. Danny would probably start haunting them in his off time and slowly ramp up what he does over time. A glimpse here and there, the room being colder than it should be. The only reason Batman may not have called in Constantine or Zatanna immediately upon noticing is probably because he doesn't think it's caused by something supernatural. In a building full of heroes with multiple powers and a proclivity to pranking, why wouldn't you think it was one of them rather than a ghost (that you may not believe in) that may have found your super-secret hero base?

One of the heroes may get the main brunt of Danny's haunting, whoever it is can be you choice. They'd be the first to point anything out, the first to ask "hey anyone feel that?' or otherwise. Batman may think they're the prank instigator.

This goes on and off for a few weeks before Danny makes himself fully visible in different places all over the Watchtower and suddenly every hero is aware that there is a child haunting the place. They don't know who he's attached to, but they are immensely sad that there is a child that couldn't be save and is now tethered to this world by their failures. This isn't the actual case, obviously, but I love the trope. He doesn't show up all the time, they can go weeks without seeing him.

Things change when Danny is immensely exhausted from whatever daily going ons are going on for him. Anywhere from lack of sleep, to multiple days of battle, Ghost Zone business, escaping the GIW, one or multiple of them. Point is, he's tired, exhausted, and most likely injured. So, rather than keep up with the haunting, he spies a nice comfy couch in an office of one of the heroes and naps.

Now he's fully visible, vulnerable, and in one spot for a long amount of time. A hero is going to see him inevitably. This could also be about the time Batman actually brings in Constantine or Zatanna to come take a look at the wayward soul haunting the place and see if they can't give the kid (and the others in the Watchtower) peace of mind. The three come in only to find a small crowd (or similar) of heroes standing around a couch. This is perplexing enough as it is until they see what's on the couch. To Batman, it's the kid that's been haunting the place. To Zatanna and Constantine, this is a demon of the Infinite Realms that is extremely dangerous, extremely powerful, and why the fuck hasn't this creature destroyed the Watchtower yet??! Edit because @thestarsofpines made a great point of Danny being a BABY demon of the Infinite Realms that I wanted it on the main post too.

[dottowos]

mea ventus foraminis.

synopsis: You always love running experiments on Dottore’s segments. The prideful and arrogant Omega is just another victim of your very important research.

includes: dottore w/ gn! reader

notes: You finger fuck Omega’s eye hole and he comes in his pants. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, just look up Dottore no mask. See this for wholesome thoughts instead. This may be kind of weird but we embrace that. Established relationship, finger fucking, licking, bondage (Omega is tied up), teasing, sub Omega, dom reader, reader uses no pronouns, there’s really not much to say here, it’s just freaky in another way. Minors DNI.

Instead of the usual red eyes you peered into with Dottore and his other segments, Omega had a very different facial structure. His whole upper face had been replaced by a metal plate. He had no proper forehead to kiss, no eyebrows to stroke, no fluttering eyes, and no eyelashes to brush against. Instead, you were greeted with cool metal, having to trace the fancy blue lines instead. And of course, more interestingly, a wide circle in the middle that held a curious glowing gem. Behind that gem was yet another hole, although it was mostly obscured from sight by the gem.

It had you completely fascinated. Although others probably found it unnerving, you loved it. Omega was still a very handsome segment, even if he lacked typical human features. And of course, with fascination eventually came curiosity which you just had to indulge in - playing with his mechanical upper face.

There were times when you got to briefly kiss Omega’s glowing gem, but coincidentally enough, he always managed to maneuver your direction somewhere else. The first time you thought nothing of it, the second time you raised an eyebrow, and the third time, your Omega radar was sending alarm bells at this discovery. You didn’t know what it was about that part of him that had him so guarded, but you’d find out.

… Which was why you currently found yourself smiling at your hard work, having tied the segment to the bed, although Omega seemed completely unfazed and relaxed.

“My, when you said you wanted to test something on me, I didn’t expect you to go to such extreme measures,” Omega hummed as he observed his current bindings, arms and legs immobile and restrained. “I would have stayed in place without all of this.” You only giggled, seeing as the poor man was not yet aware of your plan.

“I know, I know, but trust me. Without it, the results of this experiment could be heavily affected,” you nodded your head firmly.

“You are aware that if I wanted to, I could break out of these right now?” Your smile quickly turned into a pout as you immediately lectured him.

“Well, I know that,” you huffed. Obviously, there was nothing you could find that could manage to hold back someone with his power level. “But, do remember your promise! You said,” you then tried to deepen your voice in an effort to match Omega’s, “Who am I to deny a fellow researcher an opportunity, especially one of your caliber? Do what you please, darling. I look forward to seeing whether your attempts can garner the result you desire.” Omega chuckled when your voice turned slightly bitter at the end. 

“I still stand by those words, of course,” the segment reasoned, although it was obvious that his gaze bore into you, eyeing your attractive body. Oh, he had a little plan of his own - after you were done with this game of yours, he’d make sure you’d receive the same treatment ten times harder. Not that you knew that, of course. Omega preferred to let you have your fun first.

“Hmph… I know you will,” you sat on the edge of the bed, faced with his cocky smirk, his head tilting almost innocently. Omega watched as you crawled onto his chest, purring in satisfaction at the view. He may be tied down, but at least that meant he could focus on your pretty self. 

You scooted upwards and leaned down, pressing a chaste kiss on the segment’s cheek, a far cry from what your true intentions were. Yet you couldn’t help kissing Omega some more, running your fingers through his fluffy, blue hair. At least that was a feature all the Dottores shared. He seemed pleased, but as usual, he started up with his teasing again.

“I wonder, are you being so kind as to prepare me for what you have planned, or have you already lost to your self-indulgence? Or perhaps you like getting off track so easily?” Irked yet unsurprised, you pulled back. Omega was an expert at manipulating his words, managing to tease you in a way no other could pull off.

“I’ll make you regret that,” you declared, wasting no time pulling his mask off, revealing his radiant red gem. At your statement, Omega only grew more excited, sharp teeth gleaming.

“Well then, do walk me through your thought process, darling.” You smiled as you traced one of the zig-zagged blue lines on his face.

“I simply figured it was time to get you back for everything you’ve done to me,” you shrugged off the memories of all the times he’d fucked you to the point of tears. “But I figured no matter how much I touched you, I would never get a good reaction out of you,” you sighed in partial resignation. After all, Omega was an arrogant man, bowing down to no one - it would be hard to take control from him. The segment listened on with amusement, interested in what you would do next.

“So then naturally, I had to find another way to get you to submit. It was hard, you know. But then, it hit me,” your voice lowered to a whisper, thumb hovering over Omega’s eye gem. “Maybe this little thing could be the answer. After all, you seemed awfully defensive over it. Something quite unlike you, since you always like having me all over you,” you laughed as you gently stroked the glowing star, though it didn’t elicit much of a reaction from the segment.

“Is that all?” Omega drawled, as if unimpressed with your discovery. “If you were so interested in my face, you could have come out and asked instead of resorting to all of this.” The scholar appeared composed as ever, seemingly trying to make you rethink your hypothesis, but you would not be deterred.

“Oh, but that’s not all. However, I’ll save the rest after I finish playing with you.” You pressed down on the gem, not missing how his smirk faltered for a split second. “Hmm… I wonder, do you like it better when I go slow or fast? No matter, we have a long time to figure it out together,” you punctuated the last word with a smile. With that, you used two fingers to stroke the gem, moving up and down, carefully observing Omega’s reaction.

“For you to be so caught up with this, I have to assume you’ve been staring at me for quite a while, haven’t you? I would have never thought you’d be-” Before the scientist could finish his taunting, his breath hitched at the sudden change in sensation. Now, your fingers were edging along the curves of his gem, rubbing them back at forth.

“I think it would be more accurate to say I’d never thought something like this was hidden in plain sight, right in front of me this whole time…” you murmured in awe at how the segment’s teeth gritted. “I have so, so many questions Omega. Are the curves of the gem more sensitive? Or maybe these?” You moved your fingers to rub against the four pointy ends of the star, marveling at how his fingers dug into his hands. And of course, there was the circular dip in the middle of his gem that you traced.

“Ah, well that’s something I’ve also never seen before,” you observed. The red light from his gem was fluctuating in a way you’d never seen it, perhaps as a response to his gem being touched. To accompany it, was a quickly recovered Omega with a reassured smile back on his face.

“I suppose I have to admit that I am surprised. I didn’t expect you to go this far,” Omega’s breathing had returned to normal. “But do you think something this meager will get you anywhere? Although I do have… sensation there, I don’t believe it’ll give you what you want,” the segment easily bluffed his way through.

“Hmm… are you sure about that?”

“Quite positive, my dear. But, if you decide to be good, I can certainly give you something far more pleasurable. After all, your dedication is commendable, and you seemed to have enjoyed yourself already,” his voice held the promise of a mindblowing reward, one that usually you’d be happy to receive - but today, you wouldn’t let him tease his way out of this.

“Sure, I’d be happy to do that… but after I finish this up.” At that, Omega felt something soft press against his sensitive gem.

You were kissing it.

The segment would have gasped were it not for his excellent control over himself. Your warm breath added more pressure to the star, not to mention, your whole body was pressed against his as well, sometimes grinding against him. With a content sigh, you kissed the star again, murmuring praises which sent vibrations through the gem. 

“You…” Now that it was obvious you wouldn’t listen to him, Omega’s ploy of flustering you had come to an abrupt and unfortunate end. Still, he tried not to fidget through the restraints, remaining as still as he could.

“Relax honey, your secret is safe with me,” you reassured him, although it was of no comfort to Omega.

“When I am done with you-” Before Omega could finish his threat, you darted your tongue out to kitten lick the gem, effectively shutting him up. The heat from your tongue enveloped a good portion of the glimmering gem, and it was going to drive him mad.

“Come on, ‘Mega. Where’s your voice? I miss it,” you teased, fervently lapping and sucking at the bright gem. To be honest, these actions weren’t really giving any direct pleasure to you, but seeing Omega like this was starting to get you aroused. More importantly, seeing him underneath you like this was too good to pass up. The segment didn’t have a response for you, more so focusing on keeping his breathing steady - you could feel his chest fluttering.

After you were suitably satisfied, you pulled away, content with your work, although you were face to face with someone who felt the complete opposite. With a scowl, Omega’s previous calm demeanor had melted away into a somewhat of a mess.

“When I am done with you,” he repeated himself, “you’ll be the one regretting this,” Omega attempted to regain composure, although, with his reddened cheeks, it didn’t frighten you much.

“Oh, don’t say that. Just look at you!” You moved over a bit to give him a clear view of his bulge, hardened cock straining painfully in his pants. “I’m not the only one enjoying myself, clearly,” you cooed at his obvious excitement - well, between his legs, not so much with the glare he was giving you.

“Aww, don’t look at me like that either. I’ll make sure you come, darling,” you purred as you cupped his cheeks with your hands, placing kisses on the black metal. “Speaking of, if my prediction is correct… I could squeeze an even more delicious expression out of you.” At that, your hands got dangerously close to his gem again, and Omega unwillingly inhaled in anticipation.

“Relax… that’s not my target this time.” Your finger barely rubs against the edge of the star, moving farther back and running along his circular walls. It doesn’t do as much as prodding his gem did, but it has him wondering what you could possibly do now.

“Ah, here we go,” you perk up as you see your goal. The circular walls with lines all met in the middle of a black wall, and in the middle of that wall was another smaller hole hidden in the back, a blue circle outlining it. It was hardly noticeable without careful study, and you just had to examine it further. As your finger neared the entrance of the hole, the segment tensed up, prickles of pleasure already coursing through his body for some reason - and that’s when he realized exactly what you were going to do.

“D-Don’t you dare-”

“Oh? Was that a stutter I heard, Omega?”

And so, without any warning, you pushed your finger into Omega’s hole, making the formerly prideful man let out a loud hiss. You paused as his neck arched, making your finger sink in a bit more into his eyehole, the sensation going straight to his cock. Sure, Omega had known his gem was sensitive, but he was unaware that the hole had similar sensitivities, having never ventured back there himself. Even though he loathed to admit it, he had been outplayed. He wondered, how long had you been eyeing him up to do this? Still, Omega had decided he’d had enough of your game. He refused to let you continue to have your way, just because you happened to get a big head from finding his sensitive spot.

At the unfamiliar yet arousing sensation, the segment lifted his arms as if he was going to break out of the restraints, before you quickly placed your hand over his.

“Are you going to go back on your word, and intervene while an experiment is ongoing? That’s quite unbefitting of a scholar, Omega. Of a researcher,” you clicked your tongue in false disappointment, shaking your head while your finger had just barely entered his hole.

Unfortunately for Omega, if he stopped you, he would be going back on his word as a scholar, and if he let you continue, you would witness him whining, pliable to your every desire - meaning his pride would be knocked down a peg either way. It was a clever trick you had him caught in, and it was clear you put a lot of thought into this…

“So, my dear, what will your choice be?” You questioned your lover as you continued to work the tip of your finger in and out of his hole.  It was obvious that the intention of the hole was not to stick anything in there of course, but the tip of your finger managed to sink in rather easily. However, it was as if Omega was struck dumb by your fingering. Opening his mouth in an attempt to shoot out something cocky spilled out as noises you’d never heard him make. Pitying him, you pulled out for a few moments to give him time to recollect himself, heaving chest speaking for itself.

“I’m waiting… unless this is your way of admitting you don’t want me to stop? Is it, Omega? Too proud to admit it still, so I have to fuck you dumb instead?” Still, the scholar did not protest to your words, only looking at you with flushed cheeks.

“… Well then, seeing as you chose this rather than your precious dignity, you must be enjoying it quite much. Now, stop trying to fight it, and let me hear some more noises of yours.” You plunged your finger back into his eyehole, making him let a choked noise of pleasure. Trying to fit the rest of your finger in was more of a challenge, however, but you’d make it fit. Omega, however, was seemingly struggling to accommodate you in his poor hole.

“You can take it,” you said, words identical to what he’d always sing to you. “I know you can. But perhaps next time I should use some lube… but then again, maybe you like the tight fit.” Slowly, you pushed your finger deeper each time, trying to fill Omega up completely, and he responded to your every movement, as if he could feel every drag and twitch of your finger. He probably could actually, seeing as how complicated and intricate this part of his body was. Soon enough, he suddenly bucked his hips, catching you off guard.

“Ah ah! You should know better than to push me while I’m so… deep inside you. Wouldn’t want me to accidentally mess up whatever goes on up here, hmm? But this is rather cute of you, Omega. In fact, go ahead and tell me how much you want me to touch your cock,” you paused, patiently waiting as his walls kept your finger warm. His metal plate was usually cool to the touch, unlike the other parts of his body, which he could control the temperature to his whim (often used to cuddle you). But now, the metal had become hot as it squeezed your finger.

Omega had never been restrained like this, unable to touch you, unable to touch himself, unable to tell you what to do…

… And yet his cock was pulsing at your smug expression.

“The faster you’re honest, ‘Mega, the quicker you can come…” you hummed, tracing his jaw.

“[Name]...” Your eyes flicked up at the call of your name. “Continue. Continue now,” it was aggravating for him to admit that, but he could not stand another moment of idleness from your finger lodged in his eyehole.

“That’s not very nice, considering you’re at my mercy,” you chuckled. “I could just wait here until I force a ‘please’ out of you, but…” you leaned into his gem one more, making him shiver, “seeing you fucked silly would probably be more fun.” With that, you fucked your finger in and out of his hole and sucked on his gem. The pace was so fast it was dizzying even for Omega, considering he’d never been touched here before.

“Slow… down…!” He forced out a plea, one that he never resorted to. Not only was the throbbing between his legs growing unbearable, his mind had become fogged and unable to focus, seeing as you were literally mashing up the inside of his head.

“Slow down? But you’re responding so well! Hey, I wonder if Prime even knows about this feature of yours. It has to be an oversight on his part. Who would have guessed that his genius creation would have a cute little fuckhole up here? Imagine that, the most advanced and strongest segment reduced to a moaning mess just by a little prodding!”

“You- you, ugh, ah-” Despite how hard Omega tried to bite down on his lip, incoherent words slipped through. His lewd moans were foreign to you and served to make you throb with need. You had to hold onto his shirt to keep yourself steady as he kept bucking his hips, wishing he was buried in your hole instead. He wanted you badly, but instead, he was here getting fucked in the most unconventional way, and he was enjoying it to top it off.

“Hah… you always talk about the other segments, but you’re just like them, aren’t you? A whiny brat who acts all confident, but loves getting humbled. What would all the others think if they saw this was the guy who bosses them around?” Your sharp laugh paired well with Omega’s moans, and he could not even construct a witty response to that, only spewing out your name as if it was some sort of prayer, begging for release, preferably sooner rather than later. Not to mention, his red gem was glowing furiously as if it were a warning sign for what was about to come.

“You’re close, aren’t you? I can’t believe you’re really going to come from getting your face fucked like this. Hardly even tried to resist,” you sneered, picking up the pace of your finger fucking and stimulating his gem as well. “Go ahead then, Omega, come untouched just by-” Before you could finish, his hips bucked one more time, letting out a strangled moan. His eye gem flickered from a blaring red to a soft glow now, and the metal around your finger had grown in temperature for a few seconds before it began to cool off.

Gently pulling out your finger and giving his eye gem a break, you turned around to finally unbuckle Omega’s pants. You couldn’t help but grin widely at the wet spots on his underwear, pulling it off to reveal his pretty cock dripping cum. Omega himself, although he had endless stamina, seemed a bit dazed - but that was only the start of things.

“Oh Omega, I am going to have so much fun with you. Can I use this vibrator on you next?”

[abigmessofablog]

I'm sure I'm probably not the first person to note this but the reason so many works derivative of The Hobbit and The Lord of The Rings fails to capture the magic of those works is the lack of the hobbityness

Tolkien was, obviously, entirely aware of he common fantasy and fairytale tropes he was playing off of and they're present in his work (placing the proper king on the throne, elves and dwarves, main character who's hesitant to start his heros journey, dragons, ext) but if need be, these elements will be sidelined to emphasize the Hobbitish philosophy about the importance of comfort and good food and so on and so forth. (Thorin's death speech, Frodo's "I can't recall the taste of food, nor the touch of grass" ext)

Warning; super long, barely readable meta rant written at 2AM below

I've seen people say in any other story, Aragorn would be the main character of LOTR and I can agree with that but I'd argue you can kinda say the same thing about Thorin. Aragorn has his whole "rightful king" plot not dissimilar to how Thorin has his "reclaim the homeland, fight the dragon" plot. In the movies our emotional involvement in Aragorn and Thorin gets beefed up a little as they get some more brooding to the both of them. Aragorn gets his angst over his ancestry, Thorin is taken more seriously (ie: his updated, much more dramatic introduction giving him an air of mystery vs his book introduction, movie Balin's speech about his loyalty to Thorin, the treatment of the whole "gold sickness" thing, Thorin's speeches being taken seriously rather than being lovingly made fun of by the narration, ext) You can easily see a version of these stories where these two kings are the main characters of the story but they aren't! but neither of these characters are our main characters. Frodo and Bilbo are, respectively. And Frodo and Bilbo are simple hobbits with simple likes and the desire to live their simple shire life before getting dragged into adventure by the narrative.

I do genuinely like that in the Hobbit movies Bilbo gets to decide to go on the adventure by himself instead of getting unceremoniously shoved out of the house by Gandalf. It gives him more agency and we get the fun adventure that is supposed to take Bilbo out of his shell. Thats the message most people took from the story (ie "the world is not in your books..." I love this message/interpretation as much as anyone to be clear. I'm very guilty of loving my "Bilbo stays in Erebor" fanworks) but it is worth noting that Bilbo returns back to the Shire after his adventure and he gets the big speech about how more people should value the simple things in life before Thorin dies. Bilbo positions himself as sort of an unconventional hero by modern standards. Bilbo gets out of his situations more often than not through his wit and cleverly talking his way out of it rather than any displays of strength. He talks his way around Smaug, he cheats at his game of riddles with Gollum, he stalls the trolls. Bilbo wasn't even awake for the big climatic battle that gets turned into a climax for one of the movies. Bilbo, while getting braver more capable and more accepting of the situation, is still a hobbit! He wants his home and hearth and if he is dragged on an adventure, he will very loudly let you know about it. Frodo is similar in the sense that his strength doesn't come from any physical strength but from his ability to shoulder the horrors™ and then accept help from the people around him (mainly Sam) because he shouldn't have to shoulder the horrors™ alone. Again, the entire time Frodo is going on his adventure he's thinking about how much he'd rather be home. Sam sort of acts like this beacon of what the home represents and he’s the only thing keeping him emotionally stable and tries to comfort him through keeping him tethered to those memories of home. There’s the obvious scenes where Sam straight up tells Frodo to imagine home but there’s also just things like Sam cooking and insisting on making sure Frodo is fed (please note that sharing food is basically the universal signal for closeness, domesticity and the idea of a family unit. Think Norman Rockwell) or them turning their traumatic events into stories that they (again mostly Sam) expect to tell to their family and friends in a very domestic setting and then have those stories be passed down in the “Samwise the brave”, “Frodo wouldn’t have made it far without Sam” scene

You can also use this theme to sort of track the change in tone between the two stories. Bilbo's craving for the simple comforts of a warm meal, his bookshelves and a comfortable are played for jokes a few times, it's ultimately validated by the narrative. Frodo's drive to get back home is ultimately very melancholic and downright heartwrenching and when he can finally go home, it's not the same. In Bilbos case this change is sort of implied through the way Bilbo is treated very differently and treated like the neighborhood crazy guy by his peers post-adventure and this is played for laughs mostly but with Frodo it's outright stated and it is played completely straight. He's been so traumatized, so changed by his journey that he's simply not the same person he was when he left and he struggles to enjoy the aspects of the home that were previously used as an attempt to comfort him. Hence, “the Shire has been saved, but not for me." And he ends up leaving the Shire for good. As much as we know Tolkien hated the war allegory, it does bring to mind a soldier coming back home with severe trauma.

I feel like so much of this is lost in works that try to emulate LOTR and The Hobbit because of the simple fact that action sells much better. I mean, that's why the third hobbit movie is called "The Battle of The Five Armies" isn't it? There's also the want for grimmer, darker stories, since so many people view those as more "realistic" Maybe it's just the result of more cynical creators and audiences who want to watch more of the killing the dragon and cool battles with the big armies and less of the writing about trees and the value of home. I dunno I'm tired

[chocopriski]

JAYVIK SFW & NSFW HEADCANONS

SFW

-Who cooks?: Viktor. Their house chores are meticulously planned around Viktor's condition. Jayce does the most physically straining ones.

-Who’s the messiest? The cleanest?: Jayce is the organized out of the two. His clothes neatly folded and hung on his closet. His side of the bathroom sink grouped by product type.

Viktor though, just throws his clothes into the closet and closes the door as quickly as he can. Like when storing Tupperware. This man somehow knows where he left that tiny little thing among a pile of stuff. It might look messy but he knows exactly where he left everything.

-Who fixes the vehicle after a breakdown: Jayce. I mean, he's the engineer out of the two. Viktor just stays there with the excuse that he's there to help. He obviously just wants to see Jayce all messed up and sweaty. Jayce knows that, and he makes sure to give him a good sight then act completely oblivious to the fact.

-Living space has a leak! Who fixes it?: Same answer as before. Except Viktor will be ready to call someone to repair it for them in case Jayce has no idea what he's doing.

-Who buys the groceries?: Both, but mostly Jayce. Viktor is either working himself to an earlier death or sleeping at their place. If it's the random thing you run out of, Viktor will do it no problem. If it's all the groceries for the month, Jayce will do it. Again, to avoid straining Viktor's already fucked up body.

-Going out to eat: Who pays? Who orders the most food? And who has dessert?: Jayce pays. He never lets Viktor pay, he has the most money, I guess. "Oh, I ate more, I'll pay". Or saying he's going to the bathroom and paying so by the time Viktor asks for the bill, Jayce mutters "Who could've been the smart man that already paid?". Only Jayce orders dessert but Viktor always steals a bite or two.

-Would they go to the beach?: Jayce loves the beach. Viktor not so much. Viktor likes swimming, he enjoys the water lifting him and taking away most of the pain. But the sand, oh, he hates the sand. The times they've gone to the beach together are mostly because Viktor feels bad telling Jayce "no". Jayce is aware of this so he makes it worth it for Viktor by giving him a spectacle out of Baywatchers. Drying himself up as little as possible just to get a reaction.

-Who knows how to swim? Who doesn’t?: Both know how to swim. But Viktor enjoys just floating while Jayce goes "DIVEBOMB!" and splashes literally everyone and everything around him. Then just swimming for hours to then complain about sore muscles the day after.

-Any pets? Or plants?: Viktor has his own little garden. He treats the plants very carefully, even having a log of the changes in them and last time they've been watered. Every time Jayce even comes near them, he hisses like a cat.

-Baths or showers? Together or separate?: Jayce prefers a quick, cold shower to get off all his sweat (also I like to think that Jayce is the type to always be feeling hot while Viktor's the one that always feels cold, mostly due to his lack of body fat).

Viktor enjoys long, warm (boiling hot) baths to soothe his aching muscles. Sometimes he'll fall asleep and have Jayce walk into the bathroom all concerned about the amount of time he's been in there just to find Viktor sleeping in the bathtub with his finger pads all wrinkly.

They do their own thing separately. But sometimes doing it together doesn't sound so bad. When feeling all romantic they bathe together. However, when they're all warmed up from the inside out, shower it is.

-Can they stand silence? Who talks the most? Who talks the least?: They can stand in silence as long as Jayce doesn't start overthinking and asks Viktor if he's mad at him or if he's upset or if he's tired or... (anything). They definitely have a yapper/listener dynamic. Jayce could talk for days on end and Viktor would listen to every word.

-Who stays up late? Who sleeps the most?: Viktor is a chronic overworker. So, even at home he'll stay up late to finish up some notes he took home from the lab. Either that or the pain keeping him up. Which he never tells Jayce but he can somehow detect Viktor's in pain and happily massages whatever hurts. But whenever Viktor gets uninterrupted sleep, he hibernates. There was one time where he took a nap and woke up at the same time but the day after.

-Does the other have to force them to sleep/wake up?: Following the last point, Jayce always has to drag him out of the lab. And sometimes wake him up since there were times where Viktor was up at 5am and times where Viktor slept like a log.

-Who is the highest maintenance? Does the other mind?: Unsurprisingly, Viktor. His leg hurts, his back hurts, his wrists and fingers hurt, his neck hurts, his shoulders hurt, he has a migraine, now he has a coughing fit, now he gets a cold that somehow lasts a whole month. But Jayce doesn't care at all. He actually enjoys taking care of Viktor, a sort of intimacy that isn't matched by anything other than that.

NSFW

-How often do they have sex, if at all?: Whenever it fits into their schedule, honestly. Sometimes they get home after a long day of work and seeing the other so disheveled from work makes their gears start turning. Or sometimes when Jayce checks up on Viktor to see if he's had a break during work, they'll have some other type of break different to a cup of tea. Not in the lab, obviously. They go up to Jayce's office just for that. That desk has seen things.

-Who brings ideas? Who initiates?: Viktor doesn't care as long as it's good. And he doesn't consume adult content so he doesn't really come up with anything new. Jayce, on the other side, watches stuff while only thinking about Viktor, and when he sees something he likes, he brings it up whenever appropriate.

Jayce mostly initiates, being obnoxiously obvious about how he's feeling. And even if he tried to be smooth about it, the semi he's packing definitely tells Viktor all he needs to know. Viktor is either too tired or in too much pain for the idea of sex to come up in his head. But sometimes he'll be in the mood. Being way more subtle and smooth than Jayce, which consequently gets Jayce going.

-Oddest place they’d have sex?: The lab in the middle of research. Door unlocked too. One of the times where they couldn't wait to make it to Jayce's office. Also the time they learned that they needed to turn off the soldering iron before bending over the table. Viktor burnt his hand pretty bad.

-Favourite positions?: Anything that lets them see the other's face. Mostly Viktor on the bottom to, again, avoid physical strain.

-Dom/top? Sub/bottom? Any switches?: Jayce is a sub top. We all just know that. Don't act surprised. Viktor's a dom bottom.

-Genital headcanons?: Jayce is a bit above average girthy. Unlike Viktor, painfully average and on the thin side. Also points to the side whenever hard.

-Quickest turn ons? Immediate turn offs?: Viktor with messy clothes is one of the best things for Jayce. Or whenever he starts explaining some project that Jayce can't understand a word of.

Viktor goes feral over a sweaty Jayce. Whether it's because it's hot, he just finished working out, or anything related to the forge (including being covered in soot). Also whenever his hair is messed up. Jayce spends his sweet time every morning styling his hair, a million different products and techniques to give him his signature style. Whenever it's all undone, Viktor needs to stop himself from drooling.

-First to orgasm? Last to orgasm? Who comes the most? Does someone ever end up unfinished?: Viktor comes first, as much as he tries to hold it in to make it go for longer. Jayce needs his sweet time to come, that guy has some serious stamina.

Even though Viktor's the first, Jayce has a significant load when he finishes. Getting the most out at first and some small ones during the next few seconds. Viktor's is in small quantities but persistent.

Jayce sometimes ends up unfinished, taking way too long to orgasm but seeing how Viktor is too messed up to keep going. He finishes himself off.

-Favourite romantic gestures during sex/orgasm?: Viktor loves touching foreheads. Eyes closed as Jayce is on top of him and just enjoying the moment. Jayce will brush through Viktor's hair with his fingers and smile at him telling him how much he loves him.

-How are their afterglows?: Viktor is always disheveled by the end of it. But at least the pain went away momentarily, which adds to the pleasure. Jayce gets clingy, spooning Viktor or anything that involves continuing the physical touch.

-Who’s loud? Who’s quiet? Does one try to make the other louder/quieter? How?: Jayce is the loud one, that man grunts and moans. Viktor lets out some soft moans (which make Jayce want to somehow make a million babies) but he stays quiet for the most part unless they're talking.

Jayce pleads to hear Viktor, it gets him going and gets him closer. He literally just asks him, and if that doesn't work, begs him.

-Lights on or off? Do they look at each other? Or is someone embarrassed?: Lights on, they love each other and they love to see how the other comes apart. Eye contact is persistent all throughout.

[baseonezero]

Himbo bf - KJW

pairing: himbo!jiwoong x afab!reader

warnings: pet names (baby, honey, etc.), smut at the end, penetration (p in v), slight breeding kink

wc: 1.2k

a/n: i had to write for this beautiful man.

many people questioned your relationship with jiwoong. people all collectively agreed that he is super handsome but maybe you should be with someone in your range of intelligence.

you always quickly shut down those ideas, annoyed and over by the repetitive comments.

jiwoong is an amazing boyfriend. he always tries his best (even if his attempts failed), he lets you know when he is going to be gone, makes sure to not do anything that would make you uncomfortable when it came to modeling, and always makes an effort to do romantic gestures for you when he can.

realistically, nobody is perfect. jiwoong's biggest flaw— if you could even call it that— is his lack of social awareness and clumsiness. you personally never considered it a problem but others did. this obviously didn't matter because they aren't in the relationship. it's only you and jiwoong.

jiwoong was aware of these things so he put in extra effort to look extra good for you. he worked out often and occasionally had you help him keep track of what he was putting into his body, asking if foods had enough protein or too much added sugars. he thought as long as he stayed handsome, people would probably stop pestering you.

"honey, which one looks better?" he asked you, a black leather jacket covering one arm and then turning to show you the same jacket on the other arm but in brown.

you hummed in thought. "i think the black looks really good but brown looks great too... i say go with the black one." you decided, giving him a nod.

"mmm.. okay!" he took off the jackets and fixed them onto the hanger, taking your hand into his as he made his way to the cashier.

"hi, how are you?" the worker asked, taking the jackets from him and removing them from the hanger.

"im fine, thank you. uhm– can i only get the black one?" he asked, smiling.

"yeah sure thing!" she set the brown one aside.

"wait, actually can i get the brown one instead?" he asked which caused the worker's eyebrows to rise but she nodded, humming a small "mhm."

you looked up at him and he looked deep in thought as his eyes switched focus from each jacket.

"well— wait. let me get both. sorry," his smile returned and the worker seemed slightly confused but nodded once more.

another time, at dinner, he asked how much he should tip. 

“i think about fifteen perfect is the usual amount people tip.”

“so can i just write ‘15%’?” 

you giggled. “we have to find out how much that is.”

he frowned, propping his arm onto the table so he could rest his head onto it. 

“you know i’m not too good at math.” he pouted and puffed his cheeks, tapping his finger as he stared at the check. 

“baby, we can just use the calculator.” you reminded, pulling out your phone and opening the app. 

“oh! right.” he smiled sheepishly.

on valentine's day, jiwoong had given you money and told you to go out with friends. of course, his plan wasn't slick at all but you did it anyway. 

“be home by 7?” he asked, planting a quick, loving kiss onto your lips as he guided you out the front door. 

“mhm, of course, my love.” you looked into his eyes lovingly and smiled, kissing his cheek and admiring how the kiss left a stain on it. 

a few minutes past 7, you finally came back home. you got your hair and nails done nicely while being out with your friends and you rang the doorbell, waiting for your boyfriend to open the door for you. 

you pressed it again but it took him about a minute to get to you, opening the door to a dimly lit house. 

“hi baby, you look gorgeous.” he complimented as you stepped into the house, closing the door behind you. 

in awe, you looked around to see heart streamers decorating the walls and rose petals leading to and up the stairs. 

he wore a nicely fitted black button down shirt and black dress pants, taking your shopping bags from your hands onto his forearm and then your hand into his. 

“you made the house all pretty,” you turned to him and he nodded excitedly, looking into your eyes and then lips. 

“i did this all for you. i really tried,” he brought your hand to his lips and kissed it, then moving your hand to his face, leaning into your touch.

“thank you,” you cooed before turning your attention to the stairs. “let’s go up?”

he guided you up the stairs, making sure the rose petals wouldn't cause you to slip. 

before you entered the room, he placed your bags down in the hallway. 

“ladies first,” he gestured to the bedroom door and you nodded, giggling at him. 

he pulled out his phone and played a song but unfortunately for him, he misclicked and played a song that wasn't really romantic. “shit, im sorry–” he cursed and apologized before switching the song to the right one. 

you laughed a little but made your way inside the shared bedroom, gasping at the scene. there were candles that dimly lit the room, rose petals which formed a heart on the floor in front of the bed, gifts neatly placed on the foot of the bed, and a few heart balloons scattered around the room. 

jiwoong set his phone onto the dresser, letting the music play in the background as he approached you, his hands finding their way onto your hips. 

“aww, baby. this is all so sweet,” you pouted your lips, tears welling up in your eyes.

of course, this wouldn't be a proper valentine's day if you didn't treat him with your cunt. 

his face was hidden into the crook of your neck, planting kisses and painting your skin with hickeys as he got thrusted into you with all the love he had for you. 

“i love you so much,” he panted and looked up into your half-lidded eyes, your lips parted as you moaned and gripped onto his hair. 

“mfuuckk— i love you too-” you managed to get out after each thrust. 

“i love you i love you i love you.” he whined. 

he was soo pussydrunk and it was soo cute. 

you giggled, and brought his face to yours, kissing him and muffling your moans with his mouth. 

“m gonna give you my babies,” he whispered and cupped your cheek with one hand, his thumb sliding over your smooth and soft skin. 

you nodded, breathing heavily as his cock hit your sweet spot over and over again, practically abusing it with his tip.

he sat up onto his knees and pulled you closer by your legs, throwing your leg over his shoulder before leaning foward and fucking you dumb. 

your hands gripped onto the sheets as you cried out your moans, shutting your eyes. 

“mm.. s-so pretty for me,” he watched as your tits bounced with the force he thrusted into you. 

after a while, you lost count on how many times you came around him and how many times he had stuffed you with his load but you weren't going to complain. 

you love your sweet himbo <3

[mari-lair]

Something I found especially interesting after this chapter was the difference in views between Teru and Akane. More specifically I think it’s interesting how Akane claims to hate supernaturals, just like how Teru does but he still goes out of his way in this chapter to defend Mirai and Kako… Obviously we’ve seen in the court arc that he clearly does care for them but still I just think it’s interesting and was wondering if you had any good thoughts and analysis on it (after all your so good at that kinda thing :))))

Akane has a reluctant soft spot for the clock keepers, deep down, but I'm a firm believer that his lackluster attempt to defend Mirai and Kako wasn't born from a place of faith or care, it was out of fear. He shares the same fear as Teru. I talk about why I interpreted it like that here.

But the chapter still show a very interesting diference in view between Teru and Akane when they learn Yugi Amane used to be a teacher.

Akane is the one who calls this teacher a murderer. Teru's focus is on how he is an adult here.

Teru also calls him by name. Consistently.

Usually, he only refers to supernaturals by their role or their seat position. Doesn't matter if he is happy, angry, or neutral. It's never by name.

This shows Teru is still separating one timeline from the other. It's hard to say if he believes Amane is a bad person or not, but Teru does seem to have decided Amane Yugi is a person, not a supernatural.

He brought up Amane's happiness to make Nene reconsider staying in this world, 100%, but I do think there is a hint of honesty to this question. I wonder what he think of the idea of a ghost, a doomed being, having an actual life, with a job, and such.

It contrasts with how Akane is treating this timeline as a reality. deciding 'Hanako is still Hanako so he is a murderer' despite not knowing anything about Professor Yugi, and 'Aoi is still the same Aoi at heart. I love her' even after seeing her differences from og Aoi.

Akane is just following his program. ("Aoi is doubting my love!" -> "I will reassure her she is the only one for me.") Which falls on their old pre-severance routine, since the original Aoi main issue used to be her lack of belief she is lovable and while the New Timeline Aoi was acting differently, she still displayed the same possessive and insecure behaviors as pre-severance Aoi used to, not wanting Akane to be too close to a girl. Still, Akane has no way of knowing if this engaged Aoi is the same as the og one. He is just assuming based on the old timeline.

(unrelated but it's interesting that Akane went from "I'll love you my whole life" to "I'll love you my whole life... No, even after that" cause he is the last person to think about becoming a supernatural. It makes me wonder if part of him is aware each timeline is a completely different world, a different life... but I don't have enough insight on him yet for that, is just food for thought/headcanons.)

The main gag of this chapter is Akane treating others like their old selves while Teru treat them as separated from their old timeline counterparts.

Teru is being a brat here, but he is right. This Aoi has none of the experiences Akane has. Akane needs to adapt.

Similarly, when he talks about the person Nene fell in love with, he isn't talking about a teacher Nene never met, he is talking about the ghost murderer we are familiar with.

I think if I were to put the difference in their view (not their approach just their view) in a very simplified box, I would say Teru sees supernaturals as unsavable and dangerous, while Akane sees them as unforgivable and dangerous.

[mirror-and-mind]

Some thoughts on the two Medicine Sellers and Karakasa's themes

Based on what we know so far, the big theme of Karakasa seems to be the destruction of individuality for the sake of integrating with a group. This is what Nakamura-san said the movie would be about from the start, and we're seeing that play out already in the many trailers that have been released. The women of the Ōoku are initiated from their first day there in the water ritual, which requires them to sacrifice things they value to O-Mizu-sama. Thereafter, they're trained to serve the Ōoku, even to the point of denying their true feelings.

That this ultimately requires the sacrifice of their individuality we can see pretty clearly in the maids who are already "integrated"—they appear again and again with featureless faces, marked only by a spiral shape that's reminiscent of swirling water.

Freaky.

This loss of individuality isn't just treated as a virtue; it's treated as necessary and sacred.

This is a lot like the Buddhist concept of "no self." It's often taught that to attain enlightenment is to attain no-self, or the "true self" beyond the individual. In Taoist terms, this means reaching the origin of birth and death. The latest lore document discusses these concepts a bit.

This idea that "no self" is equivalent to enlightenment can lead Buddhist disciples to the idea that the ultimate goal of practice is to let go of all ego forever. Again from a Taoist perspective, that effectively means returning to the origin and staying there.

Like integration into the Ōoku, this is a kind of conglomeration. To die to the self and return to the origin is to lose individuality in an indescribable "void" that's considered to be the true nature of all things. But this void is also the origin of birth and death, and one isn't meant to remain there. Staying in the origin is death without birth; it's clinging to an unnatural separation of "oneness" and the individual. Obviously, this separation isn't really "oneness." Hence other Buddhist teachings that say clinging to the idea of no-self is the same as clinging to a self.

From this perspective, the O-Mizu worshipping practices of the Ōoku are in no way sacred. They're leading the women to spiritual death, which in the end may become physical death, or at the very least leave them hollow shells. Without a sense of self, there's no life.

Then there are the Medicine Sellers. They embody a higher state of awareness, or a state closer to enlightenment than that of the humans. From the perspective of true oneness, they may embody true enlightenment, the meeting of the divine and the individual. This isn't just because each of them is a fusion of god and human wherein they and the god retain their own personalities, but also because each of the Medicine Sellers is an individual themselves.

Grumpy and Happy.

While the humans try to achieve an ideal state by "virtuously" sacrificing their egos, the Medicine Sellers are already in some higher state without making any such sacrifice.

Their stories illustrate the value of their individuality in the service of humans. The first and second Medicine Sellers are opposites because they have opposite goals. Each group of humans they guide has gone to an extreme state of "separateness." The first Medicine Seller's humans show the reason for the "no self" teaching: They cling to identities that have become toxic, effectively prisoners of their own minds. This is a long-established behavior for us. We define ourselves based on what we're taught is right or safe, and then we stick to those self-definitions even when they hurt us.

So the first Medicine Seller is detached from humans. He doesn't get drawn into their identities. He's not driven to protect them; he's driven to destroy them. His, as Nakamura-san puts it, lack of interest in people even to the point of apparent cold-bloodedness doesn't mean he doesn't care about them. It means he knows that returning them to the "origin" is the only way to save them.

But the second Medicine Seller is dealing with an opposite, and arguably a more modern, problem. The humans in Karakasa are exclusively seeking "no self." The Ōoku's women have abandoned their individuality and demand that Asa and Kame do the same, ceasing to value themselves and each other.

These bitches gay.

So the second Medicine Seller is more "interested in people" and protective of them. His goal is to sustain individuality and help people stay in the world. It's not the identities he's dealing with that are toxic; it's the glorified conglomeration that threatens to swallow them up.

Obviously I haven't seen Karakasa, and I'm extrapolating all of this based on what we know. But from the perspective of what we do know, this makes sense. Karakasa is about individuality, and it's here that Nakamura-san decided to reveal to us that not only are there multiple Medicine Sellers, but they can have personalities so different as to be, at least in some ways, opposites. And he told us what they are: the I Ching's 64 hexagrams, elements vital to the functioning of the world. Their individuality is vital to the functioning of the world.

And if beings more "conscious" than us need their individuality to keep the world turning, then so do we. Throwing it away doesn't lead us to enlightenment. On the contrary, it moves us farther from the sacred.

[body-face-words]

DT/GT

Video sent by @ingravinoveritas !

Quick 9 second video of David and Georgia posing for the press.

First lets go with what they are saying:

"I want you to ????" I think he said smile, but I could be wrong.

"I know."

For pictures, David always slants down to Georgia. He put his hand on her back, and she stays standing upright without touching him, leaving her arms by her side.

David has his picture smile as he speaks to Georgia.

Georgia, before she answers, her smile looks asymmetrical. Obviously forced because pictures are being taken, but more in a sneer. Her right upper lip is raised and her right cheek is also puffed out. Compared to the Film Awards, she doesn't seem happy.

A sneer means contempt, disgust, disobedience/disrespect to authority figure, or feeling of superiority. In this case, I would say she's annoyed at David or in some way tired of him. In an early post, we could see how she was being left behind and no attention was being put on her.

After she says 'I know' she snaps her head to her left, away from David. Maybe to move her hair and go back to the press. Snapping of the head is also anger. When something is said or we see something we don't like, some snap their heads to the opposite side to not look at what cause our anger. She raises her right hand as she speaks, emphasizing she does already know what to do. "You don't have to tell me that. I already know what to do."

In visibly inhales. Reasons for that is loss of air, because she felt David inhale (we tend to copy others around us unconsciously) or to calm herself.

At the end she licks her lips. There are many reasons why people lick their lips. In this instance she could have done it to calm herself down. When agitated, we feel our lips/mouth dry so we lick our lips. She also turns her head and put her left hand on her waist, raising her shoulder, to show empowerment.

David, when Georgia answers, his smile becomes longer. It goes more horizontal, not up. Again, both have forced smiles for the cameras.

He continues looking forward while smiling. He inhales a second before Georgia does. Same reasons as above; lack of air or to calm himself down.

As the second go by, his horizontal smile starts to fall.

Overall, they're both in their own world and not so content with each other. Being stiff for pictures isn't out of the ordinary, but compared to the Film Awards, they are much colder towards each other. I don't think their face are because the sun is hitting them. Their in the shade so that wouldn't make sense. Georgia is being ignored, more than before, and David is most likely aware of this.

[ask-postcrash-curly]

hi curlster!

this may send late and you might have already gotten your answer?

i thought the word was familiar. esquizofrenic seems to mean schizophrenic in another language, google translate’s saying it’s from portuguese and when i look it up it just gives schizophrenia articles. i have this disorder!

i didn’t really want to bring him up, and i’m very sorry, but, i’ve never heard anything about “Jimmy having schizophrenia” up until that ask. i’ve only heard about like, you guys experiencing psychosis symptoms and whatnot, which could be from many different things, right? i don’t know much about what goes on over there other than what you’ve told us. does he have it?

err.. um. hmm.

circling back to the disorder. something funny. ish. forgive me, this is personal, but in this moment i hold no shame. a few of the symptoms i experience are “thought insertions and thought broadcasting”, which are self explanatory- i believed thoughts were being sent to me from external sources, and that my thoughts were being, well, broadcasted. it used to be like, really bad, but i’m medicated now, so it’s not as prominent and i’m much more aware of what’s going on.

on occasion, when i see other people communicating with you, i get a very strong sense of deja vu. particularly when people send you things you don’t like. and sometimes the funnier ones. i get “sent” really awful things and the thought stays very prominent in my mind. it’s awful that they do that to you.

anyway, like, for the actual funny thing, i do still experience these symptoms, though i’m aware they’re delusions. so, as an inside joke with myself i tend to quote you in response to these thoughts, or just think about you, and i feel better about it. so like. thank you. genuinely.

i know our situations are very, very different, and that the messages you are receiving are very real, but i say all this because i want to give you context for my gratitude. you have helped me a lot. [AND THANK YOU MOD AS WELL. love this blog. makes me smile forever.]

moving on, i did want to ask you something. i’ve been trying to draw, uh, landscapes? places. instead of people. i’ve been drawing people too much. if you can, could you describe to me a place you want to see? anything you want. i’ll try to recreate it. can’t promise any accuracy. it’s gonna be in this pixely-vector style, if you know what i’m talking about. a friend told me it reminded her of some of the first 3d vector games.

above here is this ask’s Mind Object. this is my friend. i have made myself acquainted with this friend very recently. and today you can get to know them as well.

how do i conclude these? they always feel incomplete!!! whatever.

yours truly, nonsensechemicalsster

Hey, Nonsensechemicalsster!

Oh, no, I hadn't gotten an answer to that one. So thank you for that! ...Why does the dragon know Portuguese?? I have to admit I don't know that much about schizophrenia. Or why Jim would have it, honestly. If you're willing to share I'd like to hear. Only if you're comfortable.

No, it's okay. I mean, I brought him up too— Right, time delay. Yeah, uh, I saw the video of the game, and I know it... looked like he was hallucinating. Not sure if it was meant to be real hallucinations or, what do you call it, a narrative tool. Not like I can ask him... Ha, ha... He's never been diagnosed. I would have known if he was. But I've never been diagnosed with insomnia and I've definitely got that, so not having a diagnosis doesn't mean shit. I don't know. I'll never know now.

Hey, c'mon. You don't have to ask forgiveness for that. Honestly, I'd like to know more about you. You're an interesting character, you know? I think this is the longest I've heard you talking, uh... Saying "normally" sounds bad, but for lack of a better word, that. Not that I mind how you usually speak! Was just taken aback to hear you talking so differently from that. ...Okay, uh, thought broadcasting... I know the feeling. Not the same, obviously! But, you know. Glad it isn't as bad for you at least!

Ah, jeez, sorry if this is bringing back any bad memories. ...Thank you. I'm sorry that you can relate. The bad things... Once they're gone from my mind, I still remember them. So in a sense they never leave. And while they're there, not thinking about them is impossible. Can't look away, can't make it stop. It's all-consuming and I hate it.

Hah, really? Thanks. I'm... That's actually very nice to know. I'm glad I could help in some way after how much you've helped me.

Yeah no you've helped me a lot too. The things you tell and show me are unpredictable and frankly often bonkers, but I can count on them to be sincere, friendly, and never cruel. That means a lot. You'd always bring a smile to my face if my face still had the ability to smile.

That's a very kind offer. Let me think of a good one...

Got it. Here goes. Hope I can do it justice. There's, uh... My sister and I went to Alaska once with a couple friends. (Jim among them.) We did this dogsledding thing on a glacier. Completely brilliant time. The ground was all white and snowy in every direction. Seemed to go on forever. Aside from the dogs' footprints, it was really smooth, too. Absolutely freezing, only the sky was this really bright blue. Nearly cloudless. And there were these mountains on either side, huge dark cliffs and chunks of rock doused in even more snow. Practically glowing in the sun. Everything was so damn bright. (Luckily, we were warned to wear sunglasses.) But it... it wasn't like this room, you know? All white and bright, but not painful. Not empty or lonely or awful. It was really, really great.

Thank you for asking.

Hah, wow, I love it. Thank you so much for the mind object. I love your friend and look forward to getting to know them.

Again, thank you!! Talk soon!!

[sincerely-astra]

Could I please have some Celeste x trans-masc reader please? ^^ I'm starving for some fluff Celeste content-

☁️Celeste Ludenberg x Trans-Masc Reader🌧️

⚠️Mentions of transphobia!⚠️

The two of you met when Celeste was in middle school, well, not Celeste actually. You met Taeko Yasuhiro.

You were a new transfer student, something that only happened because of the harassment you got from your old school for being trans, and the teacher had placed you next to her.

You both weren't exactly quick to become friends, Taeko wasn't a person who really stood out to you and Taeko wanted little part in her peer's lives anyway. For a good few months, it remained like this, you both did eventually become acquaintances where you'd at the very least say hi to each other in the morning and ask questions about the material to one another, but again, you weren't friends.

It stayed that way until a cold morning when you had made it to school early and practically ran to your classroom to get somewhat warmer from the heater and you saw Taeko sitting at her desk reading a really thick book. The pages were obviously old and clearly taken from the back of the school's library. Normally you wouldn't have acknowledged this, you had seen her reading from time to time so it wasn't anything new, but for some reason, this book seemed to catch your interest.

Swallowing your initial awkwardness, you leaned over to gaze at the book and ask, "What are you reading?"

"...European history." She finally spoke up after a long pause, her eyes narrowing at you as if to see if you were worth sharing this information with.

And luckily, you were.

You both got to talking, mainly about European culture and history, and you got to learn a lot about Taeko and her obsession with Europe. It was hard not to be mesmerized as she went on and on in excruciating details of different periods, it really got you interested in it too, albeit, not on the same level as her.

You'd occasionally chime in with your thoughts every now and then and Taeko would take them seriously, treating you as an equal to her.

Taeko would have been lying to say that she didn't enjoy talking to you and that she wasn't eager to become friends the moment you expressed interest in something so dear to her. Despite her own restraint in not wanting to scare you away, you both became friends really quickly and talked way more than before.

This being said Taeko was also quick to pick up on you being trans. Not specifically being trans, but she knew you were different from others, she had always been quite perceptive after all.

She noticed the baggier clothes you wore, the way you would spew out excuses at the teacher if they had wanted you to do any kind of physical activity, your lack of appetite, everything you might have tried to hide from others, she knew.

Granted, Taeko was pretty subtle about the whole thing, not really letting you in on her knowing only asking questions that were vague enough not to detect you. She really wanted to know what was up with her best friend, but she wasn't going to push you if you weren't ready! ...She is impatient though.

When it comes to Taeko's gambling talents, it is the one thing she likes showing off, especially to you.

You both make bets all the time, usually just betting on a snack or something easy, and Taeko has yet to lose... She technically has "lost" before but that was only because she felt kind of bad and let you win.

When she started to really let her gambling flourish and started going to some more shady places, you always insisted on going with her out of concern. You both were aware of how dangerous these places can get and with Taeko just being in high school, there wasn't a lot she could do if things got messy... It's not like you are the strongest person out there, but it makes you feel so much better knowing she has someone there just in case.

Even if Taeko acts like it's annoying, it melts her heart knowing you care so much.

Being in the place in Japan where you were born and raised, it was extremely obvious that it was not the most welcoming place when it comes to being trans or part of the LGBTQIA+ community in general. The more you thought about this and your identity itself..., you were reasonably hesitant about coming out to Taeko.

You did want to tell her, don't get it twisted, but you were just so terrified to lose one of the only friends you had.

It had taken months of preparing yourself, multiple breakdowns, and so much overthinking before you could bring yourself to ask Taeko to meet you at the park. It would be there where you open up and tell Taeko why you had been so distant lately, that you were trans, and what that involved.

Taeko being Taeko, was not surprised by the development at all, she did act like it though out of not wanting to hurt you. She gave you a warm congratulations, a hug, and made sure that you knew you were loved no matter who you wanted to be.

Taeko will probably be the quickest when memorizing your new name and pronouns, same goes for who you are okay with saying your new name to. Literally your number 1 ally and supporter!

She will definitely help you in researching for a binder and Testosterone, keep in mind though that she will be teasing you when she feels necessary.

Also, when it comes to you not having the best eating habits and skipping meals to make your curves less noticeable, she will be putting an end to that immediately. She understands why you are doing what you are doing, but not eating is not gonna make that any better. She will be making sure you feel fine with your curves whether you like it or not.

In the last months before your graduation from middle school, Taeko too starts having some changes...

It was really sudden but she came into class one day looking very different from how she usually did, her hair was longer with the addition of two twin drills in her hair, her eyes were red from the help of contacts, and her attire was barely fitting the uniform dress code with its laces and eccentricities. It was all so strange and so sudden that you couldn't help but have your mouth agape slightly at the sight...

Then she insisted on you calling her Celeste Ludenberg. That one really made you pause with how different she was.

It's not like you actively protested these changes, she had been there for you when you didn't feel like yourself so why shouldn't you be for her? You called her Celeste, you got used to her new attire, you got used to her accent, you got used to her new and improved "backstory", and you got used to her shift in personality, but it just made you wonder what caused such a change.

It was like she was playing a character, someone from those European history books she loved so much. She was not Taeko Yasuhiro, in her own words, "Whoever is stuck with such a name must be truly pathetic. A name like that with no flair is no name for me."

There were still moments when her old personality would peek through, and it wasn't like she was totally different with how she still fawned over European culture. That at the very least gave you some solace.

In a way though, it was like your friendship restarted, like you were just meeting someone completely new and not the girl you had known for the last few years. It probably didn't help that you weren't always the fondest of Celeste and her attitude...

There was always something so condescending in her tone and the way she carried herself like you were nothing more than a pebble in her shoe and it just aggravated you.

You guys would get into fights more often..., sometimes over the pettiest stuff. Your relationship was deteriorating swiftly as the days went on and it was emotionally devastating for the both of you.

Celeste was accepted into Hopes Peak Academy.

When she got her admission letter, her first thought was that she had to tell you right away so you both could celebrate, but as her hands grabbed her phone and excitedly texted you, her eyes gazed over last night's fight... Reading over the nasty words you both sent to one another, all for something she couldn't even remember, it really did sink in that going into Hopes Peak might be the breaking point in your relationship if she didn't fix this.

She didn't want that, there was no way she could just let something like that happen, not when you were... you. You, her best friend since forever, someone she so deeply cherished and always wanted by her side, you the person she loves-

...She loves you so much.

She has to fix this.

Celeste has always had a really hard time admitting she's in the wrong, it's what comes from being a stubborn person, so she knew very well that this was just gonna have to be a hard pill she had to swallow and in all honesty, she didn't even know where to start... She would scroll through both of your messages, trying to find where the whole issue started to begin with. It was really bittersweet reading through all of the years of good memories you both had with one another..., Celeste really regrets letting you go like this.

She also wasn't surprised to see that she was the one really pushing everything at the start. She wasn't Taeko Yasuhiro, of course, she was going to act differently, but she knew there were a lot of things and actions she had done/said that really shouldn't have been even thought of. Looking back on it, she even found her behavior a bit repulsive.

Gaining your trust back was going to take a while, but Celeste was fully prepared to make that sacrifice if it meant getting you back.

She did everything she could think of, she bit back whatever insult or passive-aggressive thing that tried to crawl out of her mouth, she made more time for you in her busy schedule, she tried to help more with your transition or at least made you feel somewhat less gender dysphoric, and she cut back on the gambling a little, all for you. There were times when she would occasionally snap back to her old ways, but she apologized after and that was the big difference from how it used to be.

It's hard to stay mad at someone when they go through so many lengths to make it all up to you..., you weren't any different in that regard.

It was soon after this that Celeste also happened to find out her feelings for you.

Although your relationship had mended, you both didn't want to push each other's boundaries quite yet, meaning your once lively sleepovers and hangouts had been momentarily postponed. So, when you finally worked up the courage to ask for a sleepover and were met with acceptance, it was hard to not be a little giddy.

You both did the usual thing of going to her house after school (she always insists on 'hosting' the sleepovers), talking for a while, playing some games, making popcorn, and watching a movie, and you were both getting ready for bed. This was the part Celeste was hesitant about... She knew it was dumb, but in this new persona she came up with, she never exactly turned it off around you. When she's home alone, she obviously never acts as extravagant as she does everywhere else, so you never get to see that side of her.

And that was terrifying in its own right.

But it also still had to be done, you were sleeping over after all. Celeste took off her drills, put some pajamas on, and took a quick breath before slowly opening her bedroom door to see you sitting on her bed, scrolling your phone. Her heart was practically gonna burst out of her chest from how anxious she felt as you looked up, a smile growing on your lips as you asked if she was ready for bed.

...That was it? No questions or feelings of repulsiveness? Celeste barely held back a confused expression as she nodded and went to sit by your side, nervousness dying down by the minute.

And then those words came out of your mouth..., "You're really pretty, you know." Those words singlehandedly made her heart stop as if it too were just as shocked as her. She truly did try and remain as calm as one can be in this situation, but it wasn't hard to see how uncharacteristically soft she had become.

She was sure of it before, but god, she loved you.

Celeste was pretty quick to confess after that. She wanted to make sure everything was just perfect for it to be, she asked you to go to dinner with her at this new place she had been wanting to try, acting nonchalant and not giving anything away all evening, and her plan was to confess at the end of the night when she would invite you for a little midnight stroll. It was going to be perfect!

It would have been until this absolute piece of work that was serving you two began harassing you just as you were both about to leave. Saying things like, "You aren't fooling anyone you know," and, "You will never be a real man." God, the way your face fell as you practically dragged her out of there made her want to tear him apart. Celeste was so close to just absolutely ripping that server to shreds, the only reason she didn't was because she never got the chance to when you were trying to get out of there as quickly as possible.

The rest of the night was spent with her trying to comfort you even when you would tell her that you were fine and this was a somewhat normal occurrence for you... She felt so horrible that she had chosen that restaurant over the countless others in town, all of which had the chance to not make such a wonderful night end like this.

You shouldn't have to get used to something like that, you were in no way inconveniencing him just by being trans and you being okay with this made her stomach turn into knots of so many different emotions.

As your footsteps fill her ears, her feet suddenly stop on the pavement underneath her as she watches your moonlit form unintentionally leave her behind. Celeste couldn't stop herself from letting it all out right then and there. Yelling out her love for you as you whipped around, also stopping in your tracks as she rambled on and on about how much she adores you, how much she wants to be able to help you through these horrible things, and how she loves you.

Looking into her deep, blood-red eyes... This wasn't Celeste Lundenberg, the cold gambler who was deemed, 'the queen of lairs.' This was Taeko Yasuhiro, the same European-obsessed girl you met back in middle school.

So you know Celeste's ranking system? How it goes from A-F, F being her enemies, and A being something no one has achieved. Well skipping over all of that, you have been officially promoted to S-tier! Meaning you are the love of her life and she will never let you get away. :)

She loves dressing you up in her gothic Lolita style, she finds it absolutely adorable on you and will even try to branch out and try other styles on you.

Celeste has to use the money she gets from gambling to good use and the only way she can really think of is by spoiling you. Not only are you gonna get a ton of trinkets, snacks, and whatever else you show interest in, but you are also gonna get a lot of gender-affirming items! This consists of clothes, hormones, binders, whatever you need, you will receive.

Now that you two are in a relationship, Celeste will slowly start showing the other sides of her, ones that she keeps away from everyone else. It's hard for her to stop hiding Taeko from her life, but you being there certainly helps.

Her cat loves you, like, it LOVES you. Celeste lowkey gets a little jealous because Grand Bois Chéri Ludenberg is literally all over you when you go over to her house. She's jealous of not only you but the cat as well.

She wants kisses too. :(

Celeste might not be the most outwardly affectionate person but deep down, she is so needy. She wants your attention so badly but she also doesn't want you to know that-

She's going through it.

When I say that Celeste is the ultimate transphobia shield, I mean it. It could be anywhere, anytime, and coming from anyone, whatever transphobic thing that even comes into your vicinity will be taken care of by her sharp words.

And if someone just doesn't get the hint, she isn't opposed to yelling at them to get it across.

Celeste also tries to be so well informed with the trans community since she wants to make sure you feel comfortable and safe.

If one of her friends ever dares to misgender you repeatably on purpose or make you feel unwelcome, she will drop that person so quick. You don't deserve to be treated like trash and she will make sure you know that!

Celeste loves her trans-masc boyfriend so much.

[annci]

Headcanons that fit bosnia, or atleast i think so‼️‼️ (i know what im saying, trust)

Help im sorry that it’s so long, i had a bunch of stuff that i wanted to writef

1. Is genuinley the stupidest person alive. Once when srpska was younger he asked for help with his math homework, bosnia couldn’t solve it and they both began to cry

(Mind you, srpska was 10 back then)

2. Has changed names way to many times. He went by Stjepan during the Bosnian kingdom, changed it to Husein during the ottoman empire, but then he settled with Enis once ww2 started

3. He was a partisan

4. Genuinley HATES it when herzegovina begins to talk. since he’s afraid that she will outsmart him, which she obviously will. But also since he thinks that her accent is ”weird and to complicated”

even if it’s not

5. Same thing goes for sandžak, he genuinley can’t stand sandžački

6. Which is the stupidest opinion ever because he speaks Sarajevski. He uses “ba” and “bolan” a lot, he thinks that it makes him look smart but it doesn’t

7. Has a short temper, will genuinley tell you to kill yourself if you breath to loudly next to him

8. Still proud over the Bosnian uprising, even if it didn’t achieve anything other than losing the autonomy and getting betrayed by his own people.

(When Husein kapetan got betrayed by Ali paša rizanbegović)

9. loved turkey during the early stages of the ottoman empire since he got pampered by him since bosnia was considered a beg.

But that changed once turkey confiscated his property. (A beg is a noble person, who owned a shit ton of land)

10. Swears that hes a devoted follower. But yet he smokes, drinks and rarely goes to the mosque at all.

11. Which is funny because he got imprisoned for preaching about Islam when he was younger, during 1946. But he grew less and less religious as he got older

12. Smokes a lot, like genuinley a lot. It’s a surprise that he hasn’t gotten lung cancer

13. Got his ass beaten by the Imam once when he was a child. Ran home crying and got his ass beaten at home for crying, and for getting in trouble with the Imam

14. I genuinley don’t know how to explain his voice, but imagine him sounding like dražen žerić

15. I see sandžak and bosnia as a father and daughter duo. Even if he finds her annoying, since they don’t understand eachother due to the accents. She has a mix of ijekavica and ekavica (sandžački) while he uses ijekavica. She uses words like Hastal and Hadalj, which he dosen’t understand

(And because the majority of the people are ethnic bosniaks)

Bosnia would start to find her annoying after WW1 due to him spending so much time with her. He was there with her from the Bosnian kingdom, eyalet of Bosnia and until ww1.

16. He knows how to play the šargija, he’s surprisingly good at it

17. He absolutely ADORES safet isović and himzo polovina. He thinks that he can sing as good as them (he can’t)

18. Got pretty fucked up after the yugoslav wars, it’s clear as day that he has some sort of PTSD but refuses to admit it. Because he’s stubborn as hell

19. Weird ass headcanon, but I truly believe that he has some sort of cabin in Bjelašnica and he sometimes stays there during the winter, with his little hunting rifle that he has

20. He’s actually quite alright at cooking, he’s not the best but his food is edibile

21. Lacks emotional awareness and empathy

22. probably whooped srpska’s ass once or twice when srpska was a child and visiting bosnia’s house with herzegovina. Bosnia got his ass beaten by herzegovina when she found out

23. Which is funny since he was great towards sandžak since he saw himself in her, but saw either serbia or herzegovina in srpska

24. Belongs in a fucking mental hospital and should never be allowed to see sunlight

These things are canon because i said so and im literally Alija nametak

[dr-futbol-blog]

Inferno, Pt. 3

It seems that Sheppard has then returned to Atlantis to report on their amazing and serendipitous discovery while leaving McKay to continue his work on the shield generator, possibly with Ronon and Teyla staying back with him. Sheppard seems anxious to return to where he had left off on the planet, which we can tell by the way he seems to have already given the pertinent parts of his report while Weir had been walking him back from the gate to her office, filling her in on the way. By the way Sheppard is explaining it, we can also assume that he had at least briefly gone over their discovery with McKay before leaving the planet, another scene that we did not get to witness. Weir sits down as they come to her office but Sheppard has no time for that, not even for sitting down on her desk like we have seen him do a few times now.

Sheppard: It's an Aurora-class warship. Obviously the Ancients built more than one of them. Weir: Why didn't we become aware of it at the same time our sensors picked up the Aurora? Sheppard: It's damaged, probably from the war with the wraith. Weir: Beyond repair? Sheppard: I don't know. Their scientists, or at least the folks who call themselves scientists...

Sheppard does not park himself in front of Weir's desk facing her but to the side, figuratively already having one foot out the door. Note that Weir is asking Sheppard questions that McKay would have the answers to and Sheppard is basically answering her as though he is channelling McKay. This is especially noticeable in the disparaging way he describes the scientists of the planet, basically agreeing with McKay's assessment of them, having picked this up from the way McKay had been unable to finish his sentence "I'm sure I can learn...," very obviously thinking that there was nothing he could learn from them.

This tells us two important things: first, Sheppard respects and appreciates scientists and their expertise, which is something that we already know. Scientists had provided the military the A bomb, like he had pointed out at the end of the previous season, and most of their other toys besides. The second thing is that he seems to have no more respect toward Norina, their chief scientist, than McKay does. He is full on dunking on the scientists of Taranis, openly displaying his disdain toward them, not even making an exception for her. This is not what a man that is attracted to a woman would do. A man attracted to a woman would somehow find a way to show her in an exceptional light and to work her into the conversation, the superfluous insertion of their name just because the attracted person wants to speak their name, wants to feel what speaking their name feels like on their lips and in their mouth, being one of the clearest signs of attraction. He is not feeling that.

Sheppard: ...have been working on it for years but it's way out of their league. They know how to turn things on and off, but as far as fixing problems... Weir: Well, Rodney should still have the technical specs you brought back from the Aurora mission. Sheppard: I told him to take a look at them but first I want him to fix the shield generator, build some good will with these people. Weir: Good idea.

Sheppard tells Weir that he had told McKay to take a look at the warship (he says "take a look at 'um," which is technically plural and hence parses in reference to Weir's mention of the technical specs but it is clear that he was speaking about the ship here) which confirms that there had been a scene where Sheppard had spoken with McKay between them leaving for the tour of underground tunnels and this moment that we did not get to see, and it seems like that scene had done very little to quell Sheppard's urge to keep an eye on McKay.

What is more, Sheppard is making it obvious that he thinks McKay is "out of their league" here, which is an interesting way to describe their lack of expertise as compared to McKay, and Sheppard is making it clear that he thinks of McKay as a real scientist who knows not only how to turn things (like himself) on and off but who also knows how to fix problems -- and let us recall that McKay's willingness to fix not just his own mistakes but those of other people is one of the most endearing qualities about him to Sheppard. He is also contrasting their scientists, who cannot fix things with McKay who he believes can fix things. Also, let us put a pin on the fact that Sheppard says that he wants McKay to fix the shield generator first to ensure their good relations with the people of this planet because that is not what he tells McKay when he returns to the planet. This just confirms that Sheppard is saying counterfactual things to wind McKay up, which seems to become one of his favourite hobbies over the years.

But let us note again that in Sheppard's mind, Norina is someone who knows how to turn devices on and off, which is not a very charitable descriptor of someone we are meant to think he is attracted to, again confirming that he does not have a lot of respect for her as a person. It appears as though Sheppard views her as a tall dumb blonde woman, and that is a problem for him. Sheppard may think that McKay is way out of her league (as in, McKay is too good for her) but because McKay is likewise a petty and jealous man, he had tried to make Sheppard feel reciprocal jealousy by making him think that he finds blonde women attractive. And Sheppard had been reminded of this very fact through being forced to think of the Aurora and what they had experienced on the warship, and as nonchalant as he had tried to appear then, he did remember it. But let us also note that although Weir basically tells Sheppard the same thing here as she did in Coup d'État (S02E17), complimenting his acumen, Sheppard makes no reference to Mensa this time because he had not been thinking about his time in the underground chamber with McKay like he had then. The way Sheppard associates thoughts just shows us how McKay is constantly on his mind.

Weir: Hopefully we can establish an alliance with them. A ship like that... Sheppard: ...would come very much in handy now that the wraith are probably on their way, I know. I'm gonna get back there now... make sure he's not distracted, so... Weir: Distracted? Sheppard: Ah, well, the lead scientist, she's very...

And so we get to one of the most explicit confirmations of the subtext that there ever was. Sheppard is visibly uncomfortable, basically squirming as he tries and fails so hard to make himself appear nonchalant about wanting to return to the planet right away. Sheppard is anxious to return, and it is clear that he thinks that there is something going on there that he needs to be around for, that he wants to put a stop to. The mainstream reading is that he wants to make sure that McKay does not "get the girl" -- not that he gets the girl but that McKay does not get the girl. Even for the mainstream viewer it is obvious Sheppard does not care about Norina. Note that he does not even say her name to Weir, merely describing her as "the lead scientist" -- and let us just reiterate that if he was attracted to her, he could not wait to get to say her name, he would look for an opportunity and then would insert the name in places it would not even belong (like we have heard him say McKay's name over and over and over again, mentioning him at every available opportunity).

He does not view her as Norina, unique and individual, wonderful woman. He views her as "the lead scientist," basically the chief of the "folks who call themselves scientists," the queen of the idiots. She is not even a person to him, she is a concept. She is a concept that he fears is distracting to McKay. He needs to get back because he is afraid that McKay is being distracted by their lead scientist who is very... distracting to McKay. And he does not want McKay to be distracted. Over the course of the show (and even later on in this very episode) we have seen how important it is to Sheppard that McKay is not distracted while he works. McKay had to develop a skill to be able to work while Sheppard is talking his ear off because it is so important to Sheppard that McKay is never distracted from his important work of fixing things that are out of the league of the folks who call themselves scientists on this planet.

Let us also make a note of the fact that Weir can immediately tell that Sheppard is acting strangely here. She clocks that he is being cagey about something because he is failing so hard at not letting his discomfort over McKay potentially being distracted by their lead scientists bleed over even as he stands here talking to Weir. Sheppard's voice goes up an octave as he starts his unnecessary explanation of why he needs to get back there immediately which, as we have noted, is a sign that someone is lying. Adding superfluous details is what often betrays a liar. He is not lying about his need to get back there, his need to get back is very obvious. He is lying about his reason for going back, though. He is not going back to make sure that McKay is not distracted from his work, he is going back in order to distract McKay from their lead scientist. And again, it is obvious that Sheppard does not want to leave McKay alone with her, not that he does not want to leave her alone with him. That is what he explicitly says here.

Weir: ...hot? Sheppard: I was gonna say attractive. But McKay is acting very... Weir: ...smitten? Sheppard: I was gonna say pathetic. Weir: Wait. I should head back with you and begin negotiations with the Taranan leader.

So, let us start with the fact that it is confirmed here that Weir simply is not interested in Sheppard like that. What ever Weir thinks about Sheppard with regards to this woman or McKay, who Sheppard fancies or does not fancy does not concern her whatsoever. What this scene establishes beyond the shadow of a doubt is that there are no romantic sentiments between Weir and Sheppard, neither one of them is pining for the other. His interest is clearly elsewhere, and we are led to believe it lies currently on the planet of Taranis, and her reaction to this information is basically "Good for him -- as long as it does not jeopardize the operation."

Now, from everything we have seen so far it seems like Weir thinks that Sheppard is gay-gay, and she seems to be teasing Sheppard here over his rather obvious jealousy. The fact that Sheppard is jealous and that Weir is poking gentle fun at him over this is basically the mainstream reading of this exchange, only they attribute his jealousy as being over McKay currently spending time alone with a hot blonde that he would like to have for himself when the last part is pure interpolation based on a heteronormative presumption. But Weir also likely thinks that it is McKay who is bisexual based on the fact that she has known McKay for a long time and has been witness to him being more than vocal about his interest in dumb blondes like Samantha Carter and Kate Heightmeyer, two beautiful and brilliant blondes he has zero actual desire for.

McKay has intentionally made a performance of his attraction to women -- so long as another man has first pointed out to him who the attractive women, like the Hoffan Perna, are because he seems to have real trouble deciding that for himself. Also, McKay seems to be oblivious to women being attracted to him and when he is made aware of this fact, he seems to want to avoid their company and certainly does not want to be left alone with them. He was blackmailed into participating in a dinner date with a woman that had been pursuing him, and he is textually "creeped out" by the beautiful blonde woman he knows most intimately. He canonically lies about his interest in hot blonde women, and has told people he is "seeing" a beautiful blonde that he is not and never has been going out with in The Gift (S01E18). His best friend also definitely seems to think that McKay lies about his interest in women. But yes, McKay has definitely said that he has a weakness for dumb blondes so Weir is well within reason to take him at his word. And because it seems to be obvious to her that Sheppard is jealous of McKay paying excessive attention to this hot lead scientist of the Taranans, she tries to communicate to him that it is not such a big deal. Weir is aware that Sheppard cares about McKay deeply, she had been there when he had thought that McKay had died. She has eyes on her head. Sheppard's affection for McKay is not a secret to her.

So, Weir suggests to Sheppard that "hot" might be an apt descriptor for their lead scientist and he amends this to "attractive" -- but note that this, her being attractive, is what Sheppard see as the problem with her. It is his issue that she is attractive, not something that he is personally excited for. Also, Sheppard is basically saying that he does not find her hot here, hot is not the word he would have used. He was looking for some other word but settled on attractive to counter Weir's suggestion, and note that he is trying to be polite here. How he describes her in his mind and what he can say in polite company, to his boss, about the representative of a government they are trying to forge good relations with may be very different, and would definitely be coloured by the jealousy he so clearly feels. Words such as hussy, floozy, hoochie, skeeze, man-eater, low down dirty homewrecker etc. might have come to mind which is why it seemed to take him a while to find the right word for it. He knew better than to say the first thing to come to mind to her, or even the second thing.

The way he describes McKay is likewise interesting. Weir again suggests a word when Sheppard is still searching for the right one, going for the fairly innocent "smitten." Note that the same word is used by her to describe Beckett's mancrush on Lucius Lavin later in Irresistible (S03E03), and the kind of devotion that Beckett shows toward him is not what we see McKay display here whatsoever. McKay is not "simping" for her at any point. Sheppard settles for "pathetic," which notoriously has two very different meanings: miserably inadequate and arousing pity or full of pathos, emotion, persuasion that appeals to the emotions of an audience. The implication is that Sheppard means the former, that McKay's "game" is so poor that it is embarrassing for him to watch. He wants to save his good friend from making a fool of himself, to keep him from demeaning himself in front of a pretty woman. He is just doing him a favour by removing the distraction by intercepting her attraction for himself. The thing to note, however, is that Sheppard is projecting here.

Yes, McKay was briefly at a loss for words when unexpectedly complimented but mostly McKay was perfectly cool and collected, he was not fawning over her or making a fool of himself to get her attention. He felt awkward getting attention from her, he never sought for her attention. If anyone was acting pathetic during their previous scene, it was Sheppard. He was trying to win the attention of a woman whose "eye was drawn" elsewhere, and here he is, antsy and bouncing on the balls of his feet to get back to intercept the attention she seems inclined to give him -- Sheppard is acting pathetic, and he is projecting this on McKay. But because we are used to seeing him as the kid who is too cool for school, some viewers will have trouble reconciling this with the space mack we have been invited to interpret him as. Women throw themselves at John Sheppard. Surely that is also happening here. She is throwing herself at him and McKay is jealous about it because beautiful women never throw themselves at him, that has to be how it is.

But let us note the gesture Sheppard does with his hands when he is thinking about McKay and what he is being like, almost like he is playing an invisible accordion. He is wiggling his fingers and making a rounding motion with his hands that would have been better suited describing the hot and curvaceous woman that he would like to get his hands on -- only his body language indicates that it is not her that he seems to want to put his hands on. Hand gestures suggests that there is emotion connected to his words, to his thoughts in this moment, his body doing a lot of talking here for him.

We can also point out that McKay does a lot of talking with his hands and we have seen that Sheppard often mirrors him, e.g., when he did the finger gun immediately following McKay in Critical Mass (S02E13), so it is possible that as he is thinking about McKay, he also physically channels him here, evidence of a deep connection between the two of them. And again we do not know what Sheppard was going to say originally, before prompted by Weir, countering her "smitten" with "pathetic." But we know that what ever way Sheppard thought that McKay was behaving, it was displeasing to him. He was behaving some kind of way toward her that bothered Sheppard. And because we did not witness McKay behave out of the ordinary whatsoever, it again tells us that Sheppard is projecting here.

Weir: What's he like? Sheppard: Oh, you know. He's a guy. Didn't pay much attention. Sorry!

This, the way they wrap this scene up, is extremely important. Note that Weir continues teasing Sheppard here. He described their lead scientist as hot and she is basically asking him whether he thought their leader was someone that she might think was hot, whether he might be someone she could be interested in. There is a lot happening here. Now, some people indubitably take this as a textual confirmation of Sheppard's heterosexuality which is ironic given the lengths this episode goes in establishing the opposite of that. Sheppard tells her that he did not pay a lot attention to the Taranan leader, which is true. His attention was elsewhere. He also tells her that he is a guy, which is also true. People draw the conclusion that he did not pay attention to him because he is a guy, which is strictly speaking not what he says. He says two things that are factually true: the leader is indeed a man and Sheppard was not paying a lot of attention to him. The causal link between these statements is implied, and it is his intention to imply this very thing to Weir, but that is a far cry from the writers attempting to "No homo!" anything here.

To start off with, the lady is definitely protesting too much. Sheppard manages to make this awkward in a way that was completely unnecessary. Weir asked him what the Taranan leader was like and as an officer in the military who has seen his fair share of leaders, he could have described him any old way. His whole purpose of going over had been to gather intel and establish good relations with their people, so he could have replied to her by telling her something useful, something that she could use in negotiations, his impression of the leader's trustworthiness, level of smarminess, any number of characteristics that would not have implied any sexual interest on his part whatsoever. He could have described his physical characteristics in a neutral way, compared him to someone. He had met the guy so obviously he had some kind of an impression of him, if only by way of threat assessment. Only, that was not what Weir had been asking and Sheppard caught on to this.

As mentioned, Weir thinks that Sheppard is gay-gay. She thinks that she is onto his secret and that she is in his confidence. She has been trying to let him know that she is fine with what he does in his private life and that he can trust her to keep his confidence, to side with him. They have skirted around this topic at least since Hot Zone (S01E13) when Weir had first brought up the topic of trust between them, and we have seen Weir make all manner of jokes and innuendo toward what she believes is his sexual orientation. The thing is that during DADT these discussions necessarily had to happen through innuendo and implication because it was against regulations for them to talk about it openly. This was the only way such discussion even could be had at the time.

And Sheppard understands what Weir is asking here, she is asking if he thought the leader was hot. That if McKay thought the chief scientist was hot, did Sheppard himself think that the leader was hot. And in this, she is in violation of Directive 1304.26 that forbids a superior from initiating an investigation of a service member's orientation without witnessing disallowed behaviours. She is not allowed to ask him this. What is more, homosexual and bisexual servicemen had been instructed not to disclose. Even if sharing it had been something that Sheppard wanted to do with her -- which it is not because he is an extremely private person even outside of what or who he does for recreation -- the policy discouraged servicemen from volunteering that information to anyone, even if asked. The policy had two sides: they do not ask and you do not tell.

But here Weir is basically asking him like they were two girlfriends out having brunch or he was her gay best friend, asking him to dish out the hot goss, to tell her if he thought the Taranan leader had been cute. Sheppard is not saying that he is heterosexual here. He is not saying that he does not like guys, want guys, fuck guys, has never had a homosexual thought in his life. He is not saying that he prefers women, let alone that he is only and solely attracted to women. He is not even saying that he did not find the Taranan leader attractive (let alone his hunky bodyguard, as he had most definitely noticed his bodyguard who had also very much noticed both Sheppard and McKay, and not just because it was his job to size people up). Sheppard is reminding Weir about the policy here. He is a guy so Sheppard cannot help her with this. He cannot be that for her because even though she is not military, she is his superior. His "Sorry!" here at the end is flippant, not necessarily at her but toward the policy. As long as he serves in the military, that is the only kind of answer she can expect to get from him on this.

It is not Sheppard's intention here to lie to her. He is not even strictly speaking lying, and the reason they name-check Star Trek a few times in this episode might be in reference to Spock's "It is not a lie to keep the truth to oneself" in The Enterprise Incident, which seems to have been one of the episodes they were calling out to. What Sheppard says may be true but he does end up lying by omission. And we should also note that what he says here very much cannot be generalized. He is not saying that he does not pay attention to what guys are like because we are demonstrated that this is not true about him in this very episode. Later on he tells Norina emphatically, "I hate when he does this!" which demonstrates that he knows what McKay is like both when he is like this and when he is not like this.

If someone asked Sheppard what McKay was like, he could go on describing him for days. No one knows McKay better than Sheppard does and no one has observed him more keenly, marked down and made mental notes about his attributes more diligently. Sheppard knows how many goddamn cups of coffee McKay has in a day. This episode is notorious for having a lot of telling in it but to balance this out, it also does a whole lot of showing too. And in several places what we are told is in diametric opposition to what we are shown, and it is up to the viewer to decide which they believe. There are few scenes that make him look less like a straight guy than this one. The reason he feels compelled to say this to her is because he realizes he was being way too obvious about his feelings both toward McKay and toward this attractive lead scientist even when he had very obviously tried to be careful in choosing his words and seemed to have some choice words to describe her with that he could not use in polite company.

Continued in Pt. 4

[circeyoru]

Is the Collector capable of feeling romance? Sorry if you've already answered this or something similar😅

I know it's our choice, but i would like to know from the writer's perspective.

This is for {Collection of Overlords}, check MASTERLIST for the work

If it's something similar... I think it'll be the ask about if the Collector/you are ace or like Alastor when it comes to romance and relationships, the main answer is here and the add-on is here.

But, in my perspective, the answer to your question is yes. You're capable of feeling romance and do feel such things. Now why it was never explored in the story up until now is because you take your standing into consideration.

After Part 7, you're set up as one of the sides of the universal balance. So pretty OP (overpowered), just not a top-of-the-world type of deal since you share this same title with Trick. BUT you are the top person in Hell, so yeah.

The closest 'romance' you have of feeling is towards Alastor. Remember you healing him? Yeah, you didn't need to show yourself to him to heal him nor do you need to make your appearance known in the hotel. You being out in the open is a way of showing that you care. I mean, you even stayed and started a new project of yours. Your favouritism is 'love', but I didn't show it as obviously because the focus group this time included other Overlords.

Your love language here is Acts of Service. If it's not obvious enough. Cause you treasure your collection and their uses. You'd be in love with what they do in your name, like someone is killing for you or growing strong for your attention. Are you a narcissist? Not really. You're not that self-centered or arrogant, nor do you lack empathy and consideration for other people. You're just more selective in your care and attention. That's how you got your collection in the palm of your hands.

Yet you can't help but give more favouritism to Alastor because of his over-the-top devotion to you. But, not sure if anyone noticed, Alastor's not the only one to submit to you as quick, Zestial is the other one. (a bit of lore here) The reason why Zestial and Alastor got along was cause they have that in common. Now why you favour Alastor more? Because Zestial is not as active as Alastor when it came to his services.

While Alastor hunts down unworthy and self-proclaimed Overlords for you, Zestial collects information and assesses the situation with his wisdom. See, Zestial doesn't actually do much to be frank. He as the oldest in the Collection is good to you when it comes to teaching new souls that enter your collection, that's all. Not to mention, he holds unspoken power when you aren't present in meetings. Like in episode 2, everyone quiets down, listens, and agrees with Zestial. It's cause Zestial is seen as another you.

Why not Alastor? Because he's just seeking your attention, he doesn't care for leading the group on or helping the others, he doesn't care about others or giving them a chance to gain what would be his attention and favour from you. Alastor is well aware that the collection has such a variety of demons and personalities because you want demons with different talents and focus. Most of the other Overlords knew this too, there's a hierarchy that I won't explain here.

Oh, Alastor's not the only candidate for your 'love'. There are bits of romance towards Carmilla and Rosie, if you prefer that. Otherwise, see it as platonic~

These are my thoughts. In the end, you're the one interpreting the story and 'you'.

[holybagelsstuff]

Trinity and Agent Brown

What could possibly make them get along? Knowing what it's like to be left behind.

1. Trinity

Not much is known about her bluepilled life, but I can assume that before Morpheus found and helped her to wake up, Trinity's lifestyle was similar to Neo's. A lonely hacker who has figured that something is off and is now looking for answers. Trinity is well-known in her underground, but here's a thing. When people hear her name, they think it's a man. Hacking into the IRS database sounds like a man's work. Being skilled in programming as a whole sounds like a man's work. Even Neo is surprised to see that she's a female. Nobody ever took Trinity seriously until she joined Morpheus. That was when she learned what it's like to be seen as equal. Morpheus and Co. don't care about stereotypes, they admire her skills and her as a person. That's what Trinity needs the most.

2. Brown

Agents are sentient enough to blend in with humans, but they're not self-aware. For the sake of this idea, let's pretend that Brown does have awareness. From what I see in M1, he's usually given the most "mundane" tasks:

Smith sends him after a woman. She's stronger than all the Bluepills but is obviously inferior to Agents. Trinity would last less than, let's say, Morpheus.

He gives Morpheus an injection, but doesn't participate in the interrogation. "Perhaps we're asking the wrong questions." – but did he even ask something? It seems like Smith was the one conducting the interrogation while Brown and Jones were there for intimidation.

Brown is obviously designed to be the youngest Agent. His appearance and voice speak volumes. This can possibly mean that he's looked down at by his associates. They see him as someone who lacks experience and can't be trusted with serious tasks. Sure, Jones is acting just as passive most of the time. They both are there to carry out Smith's orders. But it's Jones who's fighting Neo and Trinity on the roof, while Brown is nowhere to be seen. Possibly told to stay where he is not to mess anything up. And if Brown has consciousness, he might as well hold a grudge against Smith and Jones for underestimating him.

3. Both

Programs can discriminate. Think Smith who called Trinity Neo's bitch or the Analyst who had pretty much the same view on her. And if Smith and Jones are considered ageists, that means both Brown and Trinity know a thing or two about being repressed. They've been familiar with each other for a long time already, since Trinity is said to escape the Agents many times. The Agents have been watching her, like they'll watch Neo later on, so Brown had plenty of time to learn more about Trinity. To his own surprise, he found himself respecting her as a rival despite what his directive is telling him. To kill the rebels. No buts whatsoever. But he couldn't help it. She intrigued him, a female able to surpass plenty of males. Brown just couldn't let her die.

Trin knows that one-on-one with an Agent is a suicide. All Redpills can do is run away and pray to God they don't get shot from the back on their way to the phone booth. So she escapes every time. Until the day when instead of holding her at gunpoint, one of them offers her a hand to stand up and says "Run". He lets her go. Trinity is perplexed, but she rushes to the ringing phone as she's told. It's not a trap. An Agent actually helped her. She spends days thinking about it. Not sharing anything with the Nebuchadnezzar's crew not to alarm them. They'd say it's some kind of a plan made up by the Agents to fool her. But Trinity listens to her heart first. And it's telling her that the Agent didn't lie.

When they find themselves in an abandoned house, he drops his gun and fights her properly. Almost on equal terms, if it wasn't for the fact that he's still much stronger and faster than her. Trinity collapses on the floor eventually, defeated, but he lends her a hand again.

"Call your Operator. I'll report that you've escaped before I could terminate you."

Trinity can't believe what she's hearing. He knowingly lets her escape twice.

"Why are you helping me? We've always been enemies."

The Agent keeps a stoic face.

"I don't have enemies. I have targets to get rid of."

"Then why haven't you gotten rid of me yet?"

"I don't want to."

The answer is simple. Too simple, even for a program. They're going to have all the info on Neo. They're going to start searching for him. And yet, he left her, an accomplice, alive. Trinity takes out her cell phone, ready to dial the number.

"... You know who we're looking for already."

"Yes."

"You will kill him."

"Yes."

"We won't let you have him. Do what you want, but you won't get your hands on Neo. Never."

"We will take action."

"So I will be your target eventually."

He is silent for a brief moment.

"You won't be harmed." Another pause. "Not by me."

Trinity's lips part as she's about to say something else, but she holds herself back. She knows what she would say. Her heart doesn't make mistakes. But what would he, a machine, know about a heart? She dials Tank's number.

Morpheus isn't wrong. They all look the same. But she has to ask him.

"At least tell me what your name is."

He's still standing completely still as he answers.

"Brown."

[mydearestbeloved]

*Me seeing the idea of a bittersweet ending where reader implied to sacrifice herself and jinwoo ended up with haein instead*

I pretend I do not see /hj

now, I will try not to sound patronizing and I’m def not telling you what to do with your own fic but while I love that you try to stay consistent with the fic theme and how in-character it is for tp!reader to put others’ happiness above her in this hypothetical ending, if you’re gonna make jinwoo end up with haein in this “bittersweet ending”, I feel like you should give jinwooxhaein as much development as jinwooxtp!reader because I can’t bring myself to buy that jinwoo can be with anyone else but tp!reader after reading 20-ish chapters of jinwoo and her bonding with each other and sharing a deep connection unlike with any other characters and I haven’t even mentioned all the sacrifice tp!reader has made for our mc and how intense he reacts to anything that concerns her. It’s just not… believable? At least on Jinwoo’s side. Of course this is probably the case of being canon compliant but it feels like a lazy excuse and canon jinhae is already the definition of lazy writing to me.

All in all, making jinhae a thing in that ending feels really unearned and it makes the supposed “bittersweet ending” feel more bitter to me than sweet bc I believe in earning your own happiness. Obviously this is more of a "me" problem than you but I’m going to try and see what you plan to cook here.

Also did you know that the author originally wanted jinwoo to stay single but changed his mind near the end bc he wanted to attract more readers? It’s a sus information but it does make a lot of sense considering the lack of dynamic and development between jinwoo and haein.

I completely agree with your point—it is the more logical approach, and I have considered giving Jinwoo and Hae-In more moments in the story. However, I’ve been hesitant for a few reasons. First, I’m basing this story primarily on the manhwa, and my knowledge of the webnovel is limited. From what little I know, Jinwoo and Hae-In’s development in the webnovel feels more complete, and I don’t want to take away from what already exists out of respect for the source material. That’s why I’ve avoided webnovel-specific JinHae scenes—I feel like I wouldn’t do them justice because I haven’t read the novel. For the same reason, I’m hesitant to add entirely new JinHae scenes of my own because I’m honestly at a dead end when it comes to creating something that could stand on par with the relationship-building I’ve done for Jinwoo and Trial Player!Reader. Even trying to make it second place feels difficult. I’m still cautious about possibly butchering the story by forcing too much of something that might not fit naturally.

As for the bittersweet ending—it’s still very much an idea, a rough concept. The term bittersweet isn’t set in stone; it’s just something I used to refer to that particular ending idea, a placeholder. I realize now that this term might have caused misunderstandings, and I apologize for that! If we go by my original concept, this ending is indeed more on the bitter side but not entirely a bad ending per se.

So where’s the sweet part? Honestly, thinking about it now, I’m not entirely sure either. 😅 At the time, I envisioned it more as a cliffhanger—something that feels incomplete, where readers are left asking, How did this happen? This doesn’t make sense. That unresolved feeling was the vibe I was aiming for. That’s where the continuation idea comes in: the Guide AU in Solo Leveling: Ragnarok, which, if I ever write it, will bring the story to a sweeter conclusion—not just for the new main leads (Sung Suho and Guide!Reader) but also for the Trial Player AU’s main leads (Sung Jinwoo and Trial Player!Reader).

Even so, I’m fully aware of the challenges with this route too. For one, there’s the issue of Jinwoo and Hae-In’s marriage—how their relationship would be affected by Jinwoo’s bond with Trial Player!Reader. Jinwoo’s character doesn’t fit the mold of someone who would abandon a committed relationship, which would clash with the intense connection he has with Trial Player!Reader. There’s also the matter of Hae-In and Trial Player!Reader’s relationship and how they view each other. And so on. That’s not even touching on the complexities of developing a compelling romance between Sung Suho and Guide!Reader, not to mention how their predecessors’ history will affect them.

There’s so much that could go wrong with this initial direction, which is why I’ve chosen to focus on the current Trial Player AU and let things unfold naturally. Hopefully, as I continue writing, I’ll figure out a clearer path for the future. Maybe I’ll discover a new direction that resolves these issues—or maybe not. That’s why I’m calling this ending idea a rough concept that will remain buried until I feel more prepared to tackle it.

I honestly didn’t expect so many of you to take such a deep interest in the bittersweet ending concept. I’m genuinely flattered by how invested everyone is! Your speculation, honest feedback, and differing opinions mean the world to me. I’m so grateful—thank you so much for engaging with this story so thoughtfully. ❤️

P.S. Wait, really? Are you referring to the webnovel? Are you a webnovel reader, by any chance? It’s totally fine if not, but I’d love to hear more about how Jinhae’s story is portrayed there! If any webnovel readers among Trial Player AU fans don’t mind, feel free to share details about their romance. Not that I dislike reading novels—it’s just that I haven’t had the motivation to read the entire thing, so I tend to look for specific differences between the webnovel and the manhwa (which, let’s face it, are a lot), and that doesn’t make my situation any easier. 😅