#obviously I do actually love all of Voyager

[muiromem]

Needed to make a version of this that encapsulated My Whole Deal

[lostyesterday]

As a visually disabled person myself, one thing I wish TNG had done with Geordi is show his disability actually affecting how he functions in his daily life. For example, I can’t remember a single time in TNG where Geordi is shown as needing accommodations in his work environment. You might say that’s because his visor means that he can basically “see” normally and so he wouldn’t need accommodations, but I find this explanation frustrating.

For one thing, real life visually disabled people absolutely require accommodations to do most jobs, so if Geordi’s meant to be any kind of accurate reflection of the experiences of blind people, he should require some accommodations. For me at least, it isn’t some kind of wish fulfillment fantasy to see a visually disabled character who can do anything a sighted person can with no accommodations whatsoever. Instead, it feels like a denial of everything that being disabled has meant to me over my life. Disabled people are disabled. We have more difficulty doing certain tasks than an able-bodied person would – that’s what makes us disabled. We require changes to our environment in order to function well.

Also, literally just based on the in-universe information given about Geordi’s visor, it doesn’t make any sense to me that he wouldn’t require accommodations. Geordi’s visor is not really described as simulating vision, it is described as providing completely different sensory information about the physical properties of the world around him. I like to imagine the visor’s input as a kind of enhanced spatial awareness with a precise knowledge of where certain objects are, what their shape is, and what they’re made of. As TNG mentions several times, Geordi’s visor provides much more information than human eyes do, but, importantly, in the few episodes where the details of how Geordi’s visor works are discussed at all, it’s never described as providing purely visual information such as the color or reflectiveness of an object. I think that if Geordi faces a mirror, his visor will tell him there’s a piece of glass in front of him and he’ll know about how large it is and what material it’s made of, but he won’t be able to see his reflection in it, because the visor doesn’t provide that kind of visual information. This distinction is important to me, because it means that Geordi is still functionally blind with the visor, and it should mean that he interacts with the world differently from a sighted person.

For example, I would have loved if Geordi had been shown to be unable to recognize particular people until they spoke. All his visor tells him is that there’s a person in front of him and about what size and shape they are, but this isn’t generally enough information to determine a person’s identity. He canonically perceives Data as looking very different from an organic person which makes sense because Data is made of fully different material. And maybe Geordi can generally tell different species apart based on different body temperatures or something like that. But I really wish that Geordi had been shown at least a few times to need the sound of a person’s voice or some other cue to tell him who they were.

I also think it doesn’t make sense that Geordi can apparently read text on computer screens. How can he read if the visor doesn’t really provide visual information? A computer screen should just register as a flat piece of material. Geordi should have required some kind of accommodation to be able to use the computer screens. For example, maybe Geordi could use the computer entirely through voice commands, something that obviously already exists in the star trek world. Or he could use some kind of tactile display. The Voyager episode The Year of Hell shows that computer terminals on starships are able to utilize a tactile display that I’m guessing is somewhat similar to braille. I loved this mention in Voyager of tactile displays, because it indicates that Starfleet ships are probably automatically equipped with such accessibility devices. Geordi needing an accommodation as small as this would have gone really far in terms of making him feel like a genuine representation of a disabled character, at least to me.

[cannedwyrms]

Spoilers for Shadow of the Erdtree but...

I'm gonna talk a bit about Miquella.

So, I've seen a lot of (what I believe to be) misconceptions about what we learn about his character in SOTE. I'd like to clear them up as best I can, although I'm no expert at the lore. Still, I think a lot of people are quick to discard him as an irredeemable villain too quickly, or believe that his character in the dlc is different from how he was presented in the base game.

Now, in the base game, I too thought Miquella was pretty cool. He had the rare honor of being one of like 3 characters to not be racist, he seemed to actually care for his sister and have a good relationship with his brother, and he just seemed like the only demigod with some kind of basic empathy.

However, while I believe all of those things are true, there were signs that there was something deeper going on.

Take the bewitching branch, for example.

It's description goes like this:

"The Empyrean Miquella is loved by many people. Indeed, he has learned very well how to compel such affection."

So, basically, we already knew he could charm people.

Here, I think, is the first misconception. Miquella does not brainwash or mind control people, he just has the ability to make people like him. "He wields love to shrive clean the hearts of men," as the honorable sir Ansbach says.

Shrive, by the way, means to confess, or in this case I think absolve.

So, while Mogh is absolutely the victim, it should be noted that he didn't abandon his original goal. He just factored Miquella into it. His plan went from "rule my dynasty" to "rule my dynasty with Miquella." Still bad, I want to stress, but I think people believe that Miquella can just turn people into mindless slaves or something. All he can do is make you love him and see his point of view.

Next, let's talk about him and Malenia. In the base game, he seemed to really care for her, going as far as leaving the Golden Order when he learned it wouldn't help her.

Now, though, people believe he actually never cared about her at all and even that she was brainwashed into following him.

For this, I'll actually quote Miquella's dialogue in the Consort Radahn fight. (We'll get to him, don't worry)

"My loyal blade, and champion of the festival. Both your deeds will ever be praised in song."

So, when he says "my loyal blade," he's talking about Malenia, right? You know, Malenia, the blade of Miquella.

It's obvious to me that Miquella did care about his sister. His actions in the base game reflect this, and he's the same guy in the dlc, so of course he'd still care about her.

I suppose he could also be talking about Leda here, but what I got from her arc is that she was always doomed by her own bloodlust to be a failure to her cause. In the end, she never truly understood Miquella, and he probably never even knew she existed.

But I'll save all that for another post.

Point is, Miquella definitely cared a lot about his sister, so much so in fact that, in the moment he was so close to achieving his goals, he praised her accomplishments.

But, there's more to his dialogue, which I will use to clear up yet another misconception.

Miquella also praised the tarnished here. "Champion of the Festival," and all that.

This is because Miquella doesn't hate anyone. He doesn't want to fight us. Consider his instant lose move, where he charms you. To me, this reads as Miquella looking for a peaceful outcome to your conflict. What does he say to you?

"I promise you a thousand year voyage guided by compassion."

And

"Lord of the Old Order, let us go together."

It's clear to me that he's trying for a peaceful solution.

See, I think a lot of people have begun to believe that Miquella is some kind of compassionless robot, but, as always with elden ring characters, it's more complex than that.

Miquella obviously has a lot of empathy for the world. Maybe even too much. Instead of him wanting to rule over everything as some kind of God, he simply wants to make the world a kinder place.

Like Marika, he sought godhood not for personal power, but for a cause. But, as we all know by now, to become a god in Elden Ring is to abandon your humanity.

Miquella literally does this, while I think for Marika it's a bit more metaphorical.

Elden Ring is about how people lose themselves in pursuit of their goals, and this is especially true in SOTE.

So, with that framework, Miquella is actually the obvious choice for the main antagonist of the dlc.

Think about it.

What better antagonist could there be for a game about purpose and cause being twisted than a highly compassionate person who became a monster? It's almost painfully on the nose. (In a good way)

Miquella might even be aware that he's done awful things, but as long as it's in service of a better future, he probably sees it as a necessary evil. Still evil, mind you, but necessary.

Normally, I'd just say that if he worked on making everyone be less being racist and mean, then no one would need necessary evil, but Elden Ring avoids this because, at the time out tarnished arrives back at the lands between, racism is literally a law of reality.

It seems like the only way to change that would be for a new god to write new rules.

I don't know, that's all mostly speculation on my part, but whatever. My point is, Miquella absolutely makes sense as the main antagonist of the dlc, but he is notably not the main antagonist of the base game, nor the story at large.

Personally, I'd argue those titles fall to Morgott and Marika respectively, but I digress.

Miquella is just one link in a long chain of people fighting for a cause they believe in. Really, his actions are no worse than Ranni's, but strangely no one is really as upset about the fact that she literally had Godwin murdered to attain her goals as they are with Miquella doing the same thing to Mogh.

Something interesting that I noticed is that Miquella is actually very similar to Messmer. Whether that was intentional or not is not for me to say, but I do think it's interesting that the oldest demigod and the youngest have a lot in common.

I'll be the first to admit that I'm no Messmer lore expert , but, for example, Messmer is often described as being very compassionate and nice, only taking on the burden of being the face of the hornsent genocide to spare his mother that shame. It's an interesting contradiction, to be sure, and one that is quite similar to how Miquella sheds his humanity to make a brighter future.

Perhaps Messmer is meant, in part, to mirror Miquella to make his seemingly "villainous" turn make more sense.

Again, maybe that's just speculation on my part, but what's important is that Elden Ring stresses again and again that there is no such thing as pure evil. Everyone's a victim in some way.

All that to say, I don't think Miquella is out of character in the dlc. I think everything we learn about him is perfectly in line with his portrayal in the base game.

Alright, it's finally time to talk about the big guy with a little horse.

So, I've seen a lot of people say that Radahn was charmed and used by Miquella, or that Miquella only saw him as a tool, but I really don't think that's true.

Let's take a look at some more of Miquella's dialogue.

"Aspiring Lord of the Old Order. If you have known sin, if you grieve for this world, then yeild the path forward to us. To I, Miquella, and my Promised Consort, Radahn."

Now, I don't know about you, but of Miquella only saw Radahn as a tool, then what's with all the "Yeild the path forward to us," and "To I, Miquella, and my Promised Consort, Radahn."

If he really viewed Radahn as just a means to an end, then why specify the both of them, unless Radahn was always in on Miq's plot?

Also, if Miquella really only wanted a big guy to ride around on and fight for him, why go through all the trouble of making Radahn a promise? Why not just bewitch him from the start and just force him to follow you?

I don't know why Radahn and Malenia fought. Maybe that was part of the vow, if Miquella could grant Radahn a warrior's death, then he'd follow him, or something like that. So maybe my theory isn't totally sound, but I do still think it's just as plausible as the bewitched theory, if not more.

Another thing I've heard people say as evidence of the bewitched theory is that Radahn wouldn't have gone along with it because Leonard wouldn't be with him.

But, like, you guys, that horse is dead. You killed it in your fight with Radahn in the base game. And Radahn is obsessed with warrior's deaths and all that. He probably saw that Leonard was dead, mourned him silently, and even resolved to take take revenge on the one who killed him, which, again, is you.

And, as a side note, Starscourge Radahn did not treat Leonard with any amount of respect. Did we even see the same attack animations. He was pushing him into the ground, standing on him, and definitely not feeding him. Leonard was described as scrawny, but when we see him, he's downright skeletal. And of course Radahn wasn't taking care of him. He was a literal zombie.

So, I don't think Radahn was bewitched. I think he willingly went with Miquella, once his soul was put into Mogh's body.

Miquella, at his core, is compassion without understanding. He feels for the plight of the world and its inhabitants without having the context necessary to understand why they are suffering. It's a very childish outlook, reflected in his design and curse, his outward childlike form representing his nieve understanding of the world.

That's why he can only see godhood as the solution to the suffering. Because it's all he knows. He was an empearyan, after all.

Of course, if he was a little more emotionally intelligent, he'd realize that abandoning everything that made him who he was is a bad thing, but he's not. He can't see past his own status, not in an arrogant way, it's more like he just doesn't know or understand there's an alternative.

He's that theme I mentioned earlier, the pursuit of goals turning you into a monster, personified. I mean he literally leaves his humanity behind. Can't get much more obvious than that.

Well, that's everything I have on Miquella, at least for now. I've just seen so many "Miquella is actually super evil" type posts and videos, and just a general increase in Miquella hate, which maybe is to be expected, but I still think a lot of people missed the point.

If course, everything I've said is subjective, and if Miquella being evil is what makes you like the character, then more power to you.

But if you, like, actively hate Miquella or misunderstand what we're presented in game, then I don't know. I can't stop you, I guess, but maybe I've managed to change your mind. I think the fun of lore hunting in this game is that everyone kinda has their own version of events, it's almost like we're historians debating ancient history. Idk, I just find that cool, so if your interpretation differs from mine, I think that's fine. Just don't be an ass about it, basically.

Tl;dr: if you took a shot every time I started a thought with "now" or "so," you'd be dead.

Okay, that's all, bye.

A brief adendum to this post:

So I've done a bit more thinking, and somehow completely forgot about the fact that Miquella appeared in Caelid after Malenia bloomed, to help the wounded.

This does, at first blush, come off as quite the dick move on Miquella's part, as he didn't think to help his sister, but I do have some thoughts and speculations.

What if he couldn't? Like, he's a small guy, it's not like he could've carried her all the way back himself. Maybe he trusted Finlay (Malenia's gf, it's canon) enough to let her do it. I mean, I guess it depends on how he got to Caelid in the first place, but like how does anyone in this game get anywhere?

No one uses ships as far as I'm aware, and the only transportation we see is like horse or giant drawn carriages, which are already pretty slow. Maybe Finlay asked to carry her back. Maybe Miquella could have used Torrent, but idk. This is all just speculation on my end.

Anyway, I also think this points to my earlier speculation about Miquella's character thematically. He saw only the wounded he needed to help, but ignored the one closest to him in the process. This interpretation lends itself very well to the idea of his childlike, naive ideas of compassion.

Okay, that's really it this time. I'll probably talk about Leda and the others next.

Bye

[asexualbookbird]

25 in 2025

Sigh. I've been bullied. I guess. I did a big swing and a miss on last years list, but I have a Plan this time. A Theme. A Goal. This will be mostly comprised of my Illumicrate books so I can decide if it is in fact worth it to keep my subscription going until the Alecto edition gets announced. If I don't actually enjoy the majority of the books in these boxes then what's the point, yknow?

So here's this years color key:

Green - Carry over from last year (not carrying over every missed book, which probably means I should just get rid of them huh)

Purple - Illumicrate books

Blue - I own these in physical form, but they're not from Illumicrate

Labyrinth's Heart by MA Carrick

The Faithless by CL Clark

The Art of Prophecy by Wesley Chu

The Jasmine Throne by Tasha Suri

City of Bones by Martha Wells

Witch King by Martha Wells

After the Forest by Kell Woods

Voyage of the Damned by Frances White

Of Jade and Dragons by Amber Chen

The Phoenix Keeper by SA Maclean

A Dark and Drowning Tide by Allison Saft

Until We Shatter by Kate Dylan

Mistress of Lies by KM Enright

Hammajang Luck by Makana Yamamoto

A Sorceress Comes to Call by T Kingfisher

The Bone Shard War by Andrea Stewart

The Last Hour Between Worlds by Melissa Caruso

The Spare Man by Mary Robinette Kowal

He Who Drowned the World by Shelley Parker Chan

All Those Explosions Were Someone Else's Fault by James Alan Gardner

The Tainted Cup by Robert Jackson Bennett

The Spellshop by Sarah Beth Durst

Can't Spell Treason Without Tea by Rebecca Thorne

In the Ravenous Dark by AM Strickland

A Conjuring of Light by VE Schwab

PHEW. Okay. A fw things to note. A Dark and Drowning Tide is an Illumicrate book, but I didn't pay for it. A friend gave it to me after I skipped that month because she wasn't interested. I always look up book spoilers and skip if I'm not interested and if I'm uninterested in any of the stuff I'll skip even if the book seems neat. That month the box was full of fandoms I didn't care about, so my friends said "here, take my copy" and I said "yay! Free book!"

The Last Hour Between Worlds I think was also an Illumicrate book? They do fanart for it so I assume it was at some point. I did not get it. This is not the IC edition. I was not thrilled about The Tethered Mage so I was going to get this out of the library. Then my mom bought it for me for the holidays. So yay! Free book!

I think I would also like to keep track of books I purchase this year. I'd like to cut down on buying books that I won't love. So I'd like to utilise my library more. Win win, I think! And that seems easier than a full out ban since yeah sometimes I do enjoy little treats! Books purchased for other people do not count, obviously.

There are also some books I'd like to reread this year, mainly The Bone Maker because I've been saying that since I read it the first time. And honestly, I've been chasing the same vibes and haven't been able to match it (Godkiller got close!).

As usual, I reserve the right to pretend this post doesn't exist, but I think I've set myself up for success here :)

I don't know who hasn't done this by now @logarithmicpanda ? Have you?? Consider yourself tagged >:3c

oh right I was bullied tagged by @bigcats-birds-and-books

[theonceandfuturequeenoftarts]

20 Questions (for fanfic writers)

Thank you for the tags, @cindle-writes and @izharmilgram! I'm procrastinating on other responsibilities, so let's have some fun~

Tagging @i-dream-of-libraries, @chaos-bear, @floatingdandelionseeds, @pitzer, @riverxsong-ao3, @tommarvoloriddlesdiary, @thefangirlibrarian, @hikarimeroperiddle and @blackseatwenty (no pressure, only if you want to! ♡♡♡) and anyone else who wants to talk about their fics -- consider this your tag! ♡

how many works do you have on ao3? 47

what's your total ao3 word count? 226,795

what fandoms do you write for? Harry Potter, Yuri!!! On Ice

top five fics by kudos: A long, hard road; Gone bananas; thrown into the nest; refuge from the miseries of life; unfailingly ingenious at having a good time (surprised the cat!Harry fics are so high tbh) Edit: I can't read... (:‚‹」∠) Top five fics by kudos are as follows: Gone bananas; A long, hard road; thrown into the nest; refuge from the miseries of life; and Coriander (not a big change, but it does explain why the cat!Harry sequel was so high...)

do you respond to comments? uhh... occasionally. Social anxiety kicks my ass and so I put my energy into writing fic instead. I love every single comment I get and reread them any time I need a pick-me-up, but I am a bad author who doesn't reply...

what is the fic your wrote with the angstiest ending? hmm... probably pyrrhic victory, but Capsized is also a contender

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? considering I write mostly fluff and crack, this is a surprisingly difficult question to answer... I'm gonna go with either if you like it, then... or thrown into the nest. Or maybe don't blame the stork? (Some lovely reader out there is shouting at their screen, "Flaky, you goof, it's obviously ____!!" and they're correct.)

do you get hate on fics? Nope, not really! Some readers express that they wish I'd done certain things differently, and a couple have said I ended a fic badly, but I don't think I've received anything I'd consider hateful.

do you write smut? uhhhh... sometimes. When it's the best way to tell the story I have in my head, then I'll write smut. But it's still a bit uncomfortable to do. I'd like to think I'm getting better at it?

craziest crossover? I'm not sure I've actually written anything that could really be considered a crossover, but A real voyage of discovery is kind of a mash-up of Harry Potter characters in a Star Trek-y world? And it has alien!mort, and I think he's nifty.

have you ever had a fic stolen? A couple of my fics have appeared on Wattpad without my permission, but other than that, no.

have you ever had a fic translated? Yep, a few! (ㅅ´ ˘ `)

have you ever co-written a fic before? Not yet -- I don't really know how it'd work, and I'm afraid to try (¬_¬") Intensely private about my writing before it's ready to post unless you're Jenny. But! I'm counting the Telephone and the Corpse (coming soon) because they're collaborative (in a way) and have been such a major part of my fandom experience!

all-time favorite ship? tomarrymort~ (honourable mentions to sefikura, madohomu, and viktuuri)

what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Fingers crossed I'm not breaking anyone's heart with this, but probably Let's Talk About Sex, Baby. I have some more written for it, but it's been a while since I've returned to it and other projects interest me more. I have every intention of finishing my WIPs, but... there are only so many hours in a day and my energy is, sadly, finite (´•︵•`)

what are your writing strengths? whimsical finger guns! Poignant fluff? Emotions. silliness, and dialogue, probably.

what are your writing weaknesses? Worldbuilding, continuous narratives (as opposed to short scenes without much context), plot-heavy narratives, description, writing the main characters in true opposition to each other, fleshing ideas out rather than keeping it (overly) brief... I'm sure I'll think of a bunch of other things as soon as I post this.

thoughts on dialogue in another language? I'd like to! I speak French reasonably well, and I'm lucky enough to have some fandom friends who speak other languages, so I'm sure I could beg their assistance.

favorite fic you've written? Hhhhhhh, why must I choose? I'll go with naïve melody, because it still gives me the warm fuzzies. I'm just so proud of the tone, and I really like how that Voldemort comes across.

[guardian-of-time-if]

Final Years with MC snippet: Naxok

Here is Naxok's snippet. It's a little shorter, but this one is actually sweet instead of sad.

Naxok once again found himself on his favorite rocky beach, looking out into the ocean. Even though he isn't sailing anymore, he still likes to remain close to the water. Being inside can be stifling. He tries to be careful about getting more rest, mostly so he can avoid being yelled at, but he can’t help it if he never grew out of his restlessness. 

He shakes his head and throws a rock out onto the water. The waves are too high for skipping rocks, but he does manage to get one bounce before the water swallows the stone. After tossing a few more rocks, he finds the base of a fallen tree to sit on.

“I should have known I’d find you here.”

At the sound of her voice, Nax turns to see the woman who’d been by his side for the last several decades, looking as if she hasn’t aged a day. He lets out a whistle at his lover’s approach. “I don’t know how it’s possible, but you look even more beautiful than you did when we met.”

She laughs. “I don’t know it's possible, but you’ve become an even bigger flirt than the day we met.”

He smiles back, and slides over to make space for her to sit next to him. She takes the offered seat, and leans her head on his shoulder. He reaches up to drag his hands through her hair. 

“If you’re going to hang on on the beach by yourself, you could at least pick a sandy one,” she teases.

“You clearly have not had the delightful experience of trying to get sand out from between your toes,” he remarks with an exaggerated shudder.

“I have,” she objects, giving him a playful nudge.

“If you miss the sand so much you could have gone to that beach without me.”

“Nonsense. What would I do at a beach without my pirate captain to protect me from getting carried off?” Naxok bursts out laughing, especially when she playfully scowls at his reaction. “Naxok, I’m perfectly serious. How can I be expected to defend myself from pirates? And what would happen if I ended up in the water. No, I simply must have you there.”

“As glad as I am to see you, I assume you have a reason for seeking me out?”

“I noticed you’ve been spending a lot more time out here, and I was starting to get worried about you.”

“Well, you don’t need to worry about me. I just miss the sea is all.”

“I thought you said you were ready to give it up?”

“When I that, I was, but now that it’s been a few years, I’ve been thinking more.”

“About?” She prompts, the earlier teasing in her voice gone.

“I always assumed I’d die young, either at sea or in battle. I never expected to live this long. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve grateful to have these years with you, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. I just…” He pauses to run a hand through his mane of black hair. “I’ve lived the life I wanted to lead. Despite the occasional nagging thought, I have no serious regrets, but now, I’m thinking about the way I want to die.”

“Naxok,” she sighs his name, wrapping her arms around him.

“I know it’s morbid, but I’m getting old, MC.”

“I know, but I don’t want you to go.”

He pats her hand. “You’ll be okay. We always knew this day was coming. The only thing to do is embrace it.”

She gasps, dramatically. “Is this the same man who once said, ‘when death comes for you, you kick him in the face, and go back to what you were doing’? If not, I’d like to know what you’ve done to my love.”

He playfully rolls his eyes. “I was young, and dramatic back then.”

“You mean you’re not dramatic now?”

“Oh, I’m obviously still dramatic, but there was a lot of life I hadn’t experienced yet. I grew up a lot after I fell in love with you.” He gives her a quick peck on the forehead before switching back to the serious topic. “The next time my old crew comes in, I’m going to ask them to take me back out with them. Before you protest, I won’t be acting as captain, those years are behind me. I just want one last voyage before I depart from this world.”

“Before you ‘depart from this world’? Nax, please tell me this isn’t a front so you can get yourself killed.”

“It’s not,” he promises, meaning the words with his entire being. “I know I have a history of impulsivity, but I’m not taking this trip just to get myself killed. I really just want to see the world one last time before I die. I’m even thinking about writing a book as I go.”

“Writing a book? I don’t think I've ever seen you read.”

“Hey,” he protests, with no real offense. “Just because I don’t hoard them like your mage prince doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy them.”

She laughs, and Nax can’t help but smile at the sound. He’d always been told he’d grow out of his childish antics, but the more time he spent with MC, the more he wanted to keep her laughing. If he was going to leave her soon, he wanted her final memories of him to be happy.

“I just meant to draw some maps, and make some notes of the coolest things I’ve seen during my time as captain. Few pirate captains live this long after all, I doubt it would be a bad idea to leave some notes, or you could keep it if you wanted. Have some of my favorite memories written by my hand after I’m gone.”

“I think that’s a wonderful idea.”

“I do have pretty good ideas,” he insists, mostly to make her laugh. “And I have one more.”

“Let’s hear it then.”

“I want you to come with me.”

“I think that is a very good idea,” she agrees before leaning in to give him a kiss.

[curio-queries]

I’m loving your production breakdown posts, they are so interesting and insightful.

I think you mentioned it maybe in the first ep breakdown but it was about expenses. I just thought it was interesting in ep4 when JK mentioned at the chicken place, paying in cash, and he solely has this conversation with Tae, not Jimin. Would there be an arrangement do you think? Or was that scene cut and he’d have asked Jimin too? I’ve noticed in comparison to Bv where they were usually only allowed a certain amount of money between them, with one usually being in control, or a sum for a task, in AYS, Jimin and JK have been whipping out their cards, be it their own or a company card, in Big Dicks store, in Walmart etc.

I just found it interesting

Hi anon,

The finance bits are interesting in the most boring corporate sense if that makes any sense. 😅 Trust me on this. Let's dive in:

In my opinion, it really boils down to two concerns: taxes and sponsorships. Taxes to insure the company receives every possible benefit for every dollar they spend. Sponsorships because some brands can have fussy rules about how individuals interact with their product and especially any competitor's products while they have an active agreement.

Obviously I have no actual insight onto how the finances and budget were managed for any of these specific shows and I know absolutely nothing of the intricacies of taxes in South Korea but in the US, there are many regulations when it comes to how companies can claim expenditures for tax breaks.

Every company that has had me travel for work has gone to a lot of trouble to insure that I was aware of exactly all of the requirements on my part regarding expenditures. I'm 100% sure all of the BTS members are aware of their requirements as well so I don't particularly think there's any motive other than as a cute convo for the moment between JK and V. Imo, the only reason it made it to the final cut was JKs endearing tone in his response.

Let's go through some examples though:

Receipts: in both AYS and Bon Voyage, we see the members be very specific in getting Receipts. JM and JK talk about it as they're leaving Walmart. In BV, it's all of the shenanigans with the money pouch they acquired in Malta and continued using in New Zealand. This is usually documentation required for any operation that's going to be claimed as a business expense for tax purposes.

Personal Spending: off the top of my head I can think of several clear instances where we know that the members are using their own money for purchases we see them make on the shows. In Run BTS ep.70 in Toronto, JK pays for the member's clothing purchases himself. In BV4, JM pays for the member's clothing himself a couple of times (remember the drama of his lost wallet? 😅)

Budget as Content: BV 1 & 2 mostly only include finances as part of the game-ification of the show. The members had to earn money as an allowance for the activities and determine the best ways to spend it. (I do vaguely remember some members wanting to negotiate for more when buying souvenirs? Was that just in the extra scenes? It's been so long, I've been holding off on rewatching until I'm done with my Run series).

Thankfully, the success of BTS has basically nixed the budget games. I think the last time we saw something like this were the Run episodes of a hotel staycation? But the prices were ficticious and not necessarily about real-world spending but rather determining the secret number to not exceed. (If I'm misremembering and there are more recent examples, please share!) Imo, it would just be too tone-deaf to continue portraying the members in that context. I know we all joke about them being broke millionaires, but there's a reason why celebrity game shows always make it clear that the money involved is for charity.

Anyway, back to AYS, the interesting bit to me is wondering about the inclusion of Taehyung from a budget standpoint. How was that reconciled? None of us can possibly know the answer, but it's interesting to think about. Some costs wouldn't have changed at all with one extra participant, like the house rental, or booking the climbing gym or yacht tour. But there were a few extra concessions, getting the extra mattress likely was more a logistics headache on short notice rather than an impact to the budget. And most Korean meals are served family-style so there honestly isn't a huge difference cost-wise. Except maybe the omakase. That I can imagine was noticeably more expensive with an added individual.

But really, the most expensive item per person would likely have been travel. Did someone say Tae was already in Jeju prior to filming? If he wasn't, did the show cover his flights like they would have JK, JM, and the crew? Or is the budget on these shows big enough that it was just another drop in a bucket? Also, the intent likely was for JK to zip around on the motorbike and JM to be on the scooter. I'm curious if they weren't logistically able to get another such vehicle with the short notice or if the budget/sponsorship constraint didn't allow for a third one the day. Or it could be that the scooter exists because of the 3 member count and production thought one of them could be JKs backpack. That bike has the space for it. But perhaps the difficulty to get coverage and/or converse wasn't appealing. Or maybe there just wasn't a third radio-enabled helmet prepared?

I know the various shippers are using this in their arguments. I'd like to firmly state that I am not building a case for either side here. Go do that on your own and leave me out of it. Lol.

There are so many questions and it's interesting to theorize how the finances could have impacted the development of the show. Maybe we'll get some more insight with the remaining episodes and bonus footage but I doubt it. Finances don't usually make for engaging content.

Thanks again for the ask! It's one of the points I want to discuss when I start doing my BV and ITS posts but who knows when that will be!

[loth-creatures]

Ahsoka series from my head is just Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End.

That movie just has the exact vibes I personally would have loved for the journey to find Ezra and Thrawn and there are actually so many parallels I'm having major brainrot about it. I've seen people bring up similarities to Treasure Planet but I raise you. Just Look.

Follow a magic map off the edge of the world/galaxy

Sail through uncharted waters

Sail through the dead

Plane of existence between the living and dead

Land of Exile

Recover your long lost guy who was sacrificed to whales one way or another

This has Ezra Bridger written all over it

The point here was that POTC did it better. One of my biggest issues with Ahsoka is that the journey to find Thrawn and Ezra felt so rushed and straightforward like what was the point of going to ANOTHER GALAXY if there is no journey. Its supposed to be a voyage, an adventure, but we spent five minutes in hyperspace and found our guys within an hour of landing on Peridea. And don't come for me saying there wasn't time lmao OBVIOUSLY. The entire show suffers from having needed at least 20 episodes to make any sense.

I'm saying we deserved better and I'm ranting about this in particular bc somehow POTC made the journey to find Jack Sparrow actually feel like a magical, mysterious, uncertain voyage despite having far more time constraint and I wish Ahsoka had managed the same. There was genuinely so much cool stuff in that show I WISH WE GOT MORE

I wish we got the adventures of Ahsoka and Sabine intertwined with the adventures of Thrawn and Ezra drawn out in excruciating detail and in the end their paths come together and I wish it felt like this image.

just OUHGGHG LOOK AT IT DO YOU SEE MY VISION

[black-swan-slaps]

Top 10 Sus Jikook Moments

There are way too many moments to possibly list, but my friend and I thought it would be fun to compile a list of sus jikook moments. 

10. 2021 Jimin Birthday Live

Cute and flustered Jimin calling Jungkook? Jungkook coming immediately to spend time with his boyfriend? Hobi calling out why Jimin was in Jungkook’s studio? So many questions.

9. 2015 Award Show Back Hug

Let’s be real, there are plenty of questionable back hug moments, but this one is particularly interesting. The fact that it was so early in their relationship. The fact that it took place at a public award show. The way Jungkook held onto Jimin and how they swayed together. The questionable looks from the other members. I see you jikook, I see you.

Honorable back hug mention is the BE live and the way Jungkook caged Jimin for an incredibly long time with their matching hair. Exuding boyfriend energy to the max.

8. Cute Feet During PJ Run

Honestly, this is just one of my favorite moments that makes me feel giddy. How comfortable they are resting on one another. The way they’re playing with their feet. Jimin’s surprised laugh when Jungkook plays along. And let’s not forget the special photo of Jungkook spooning Jimin.

7. “Let me give you a hug” Dance Practice

Am I the only one who has watched this clip over and over? We get to see how even during work they are always having fun together. But how can we not swoon over Jungkook’s smitten face as Jimin fails to lift him, and the way his smile grows brighter when he lifts Jimin like it’s nothing. Jimin tries to lift him one more time, but fails and instead hugs Jungkook and nuzzles into his neck ever so slightly. 

6. Jungkook’s Snow Gift

We should all know this moment. Bon Voyage season 4 in New Zealand. This is the beginning of Jungkook really doing whatever the hell he wants, and he disappears one morning to go on a mountain hike and returns with a chunk of snow, much to everyone’s confusion. He specifically waits for Jimin to wake up and excitedly shows and gives it to him. Jimin is, understandably confused, but we all understand the intent.

5. Malta Room Sharing

I’ll be honest, finding out about this speculation was what thrust me into the world of jikook. (It doesn’t seem to exist anymore, but I had wandered across an analysis video a few years ago). Obviously, we don’t know anything for sure, but there are enough clues here, as well as in many other occasions, that make it possible jikook were room sharing.

(And let’s not forget their cute Malta date)

4. Osaka Live

Similar vibe to number 5, but cranked up to 100. I don’t need to go in depth into this, because we all know, but my two cents is that Jimin was in that room. (Just as he hid in Jungkook’s room during the 2019 NJ live). What were they doing in a dark hotel room with sensual music playing? Eating bread, of course.

3. GCF in Tokyo

Enough said.

2. MAMA 2018

What I would give to hear everything the man sitting next to them heard. Something was truly in the air that day. They were all over each other and incredibly lovey dovey. While we can’t know for sure what they actually said to each other, the look in Jungkook’s eyes speaks volumes.

1. Rose Bowl

Are we surprised this is my number 1? There are so many moments that exist, but all jikookers come back to this one. There are so many questions about why. Why nibble the ear? Why confess his love? Why give a kiss? (We all know why). But the emotions are palpable, as they would be at the end of a high intensity concert. Jimin was emotional, and Jungkook went to console Jimin, as we know he usually does. Hanging onto Jimin’s back isn’t out of the ordinary, but Jungkook took it a step further. And put Jimin’s ear in his mouth. My assumption is that he was saying something, but ultimately decided actions would speak louder than words. To be clear, he says something first, pulls back, and then goes back in, catches Jimin’s ear, and then delivers a clear kiss to Jimin’s head. There’s no mistaking it. Jungkook was taking care of his baby. 

Honorable Mentions:

Rainy day fight

“I was with Jungkook [at 4AM on his birthday]”

That award show moment where Jungkook is singing a love song to Jimin and Jin is staring at them lovingly. (There is a video somewhere, but I can’t find it. Please, someone find it. I think it’s from the melon music awards)

Jungkook waking Jimin up on In the Soop season 2.

Jimin breaking Jungkook’s mosquito net on In the Soop season 1. (And the spooning that occurred the next day.) 

Black Swan Lift

Honestly, there are too many moments to mention. Please share your top sus moments!

[emilinqa]

(all said with the caveat i still haven't finished s6 or 7) ive been consistently frustrated with the cognative dissonance regarding b'elanna throughout all of voyager but i feel like it really came to a head in barge of the dead because it seems like the closest they come to finally overcoming the whole b'elanna acts like that because shes klingon and klingons are biologically prone to violence and short tempers but it doesn't seem like it actually....means anything in the long term for her character? again, said with the caveat i have not finished voyager

but i mean, the episode's conflict mounts with her surrounded by her crew and her mother, breaking down and screaming at all of them "what do you want from me? the perfect klingon? lover? starfleet officer? maquis?" (paraphrasing here) which seems to me to finally be a proper acknowledgment that her lashing out is obviously externalization of insecurity and anxiety, esp concerning everyones (often racist) expectations of her and how she will or will not act. which is something voyager rarely offers her -- (aside from a few small moments with chakotay throughout the series) her "klingon temper" is pretty much always posited as some kind of biological symptom rather than a product of her upbringing and the conditions of a world that is constantly hostile to her existence, no matter what she does. it's honestly refreshing, and i think though with its faults a really good episode that comes much closer to bringing to the surface a real and generous understanding of her character without the bioessentialist bullshit of her "overcoming" her innate klingon violence and hostility. it explores her frayed relationship with her mother without falling too much back on portraying miral as violent, unreasonable, inherently combative, etc (though perhaps somewhat overly preoccupied by tradition/mythology). and it ends with all the people she loves saying that they don't want her to be anything aside from just herself, and a somewhat bittersweet conclusion with the vision of her mother.

but i just can't shake the feeling it doesn't actually hold any weight for her character beyond the bounds of the episode... its a consistent frustration ive had with voyager that they really nip character arcs in the bud before they get the opportunity to go anywhere, which is especially true concerning the characters of color. like in the next few episodes we go back to the oh belanna and her klingon attitude careful she might bite jesting kind of banter and it just feels cruel at this point lol. i have higher expectations for character continuity that are unfortunately not met by voyagers writing half the time

[trillscienceofficer]

I think Star Trek: Voyager is (as always) wishy-washy on assigning specific roles and competences to the engineering crew but it's interesting to consider the role of chief engineer specifically as a systems engineer, ie someone who has to make sure everything plays nice together, both on a human(oid) side and a technology side. Many systems engineers think of themselves as jacks of all trades, who know enough about every system in a project to be aware of how they communicate with each other and how they can be optimized, but who usually leave the actual process of optimization to the people who have the specific role and knowledge to do that. And as a result, you also have to be able to listen to, talk to, and direct people.

Thinking specifically about B'Elanna, I think "Parallax" makes the case that Chakotay pushed her forward for the role of chief engineer mainly because her technical knowledge and abilities. B'Elanna is absolutely a jack of all trades, sometimes even too good at everything to be believable, but honestly I don't begrudge this as the usual lazy Trek approach to anything regarding science and technology. There are people out there, even now, who can jump from disassembling and reassembling car engines to repairing delicate electronics to writing code from scratch for functional drones. Space travel is obviously much more intricate and complex than internal combustion engines or three-phase electric motors, with so many more systems that need to solve specific issues, but I can definitely suspend my disbelief enough to imagine a world where spaceships are as commonplace as electric cars are nowadays. Anyway, my point is: B'Elanna is that type of guy who can do everything and do it well, Chakotay obviously knew this because he'd seen it firsthand, so she is the obvious choice for THEE system engineer on the USS Voyager.

A systems engineer has to interact and guide people a lot too, though, and I don't think Chakotay would've imposed an ultimatum on Janeway if he'd had doubts on B'Elanna's people skills. Thinking about Chakotay knowing this about her, it makes me somewhat understand the tough attitude he has towards her sometimes (ie "I know you can be so much better than this and it's pissing me off that you're choosing to go low now"), though I don't necessarily love how often it happens. He must've known that with a bit of patience and understanding B'Elanna can fill in a leadership role and do it well, despite her not always displaying good judgment (eg with Dreadnought). He was right that Janeway just needed to give her a chance. I'm sure Chakotay had gone through a similar process of getting to understand how B'Elanna operates (and how to best utilize her skills) in the Maquis.

For all that the show forgets very often about the source of B'Elanna's prickliness, I think her "worst" interpersonal trait is that she can't suffer fools, and that makes her irrational and immature in the eyes of many, because of course women of color setting high standards is tantamount to anathema and cannot last. It's pattern that imho repeats in her relationship with Tom, where B'Elanna obvious affection for him and willingness to bridge any gaps to continue being with him erodes any standards she might've had, bit by bit. But this only shows that, again as a pattern that repeats in her personal life, she is actually very willing to sacrifice her ego in order for the boat to not rock too hard and keep sailing, and especially in order to keep people from leaving. So I've been wondering for a long time if also being a chief engineer on the USS Voyager, a systems engineer that has to make everything work together as smoothly as possible, also didn't mean for B'Elanna a slow erosion of her sense of self, subsumed entirely by the need to keep everything running or else everyone dies. Don't get me wrong, I still think Chakotay was right and this is a role that B'Elanna was meant to assume, and she fulfills it incredibly well. That being said, I think neither Chakotay nor B'Elanna realized the personal cost it would impose on her. Obviously being lost at sea is a particularly fraught condition in which to assume that much responsibility, but I think B'Elanna also has trouble separating her identity from any role she occupies, be it chief engineer or girlfriend etc. This is... I don't know, maybe something that's expected of (fictional) women, "nurturing" and all, but honestly it's not a trait that I would consider at all positive though the show seems to think that B'Elanna should be more like this for some fucking reason.

So I wonder, what is left of her obvious passion and enthusiasm for technology once back in the Alpha Quadrant? What would it mean for her to keep working for Starfleet afterwards, part of an even larger and much more impersonal (without any equivalent to Janeway's or Chakotay's approval) machine? I don't think that without either her former passion or a deeply personal component B'Elanna could be happy in such an environment, to be honest.

[stitching-in-time]

Voyager rewatch s6 ep19: Child's Play

This one really packs a wallop. I don't rewatch it very often because it's kind of a lot, but it's extremely well done- while I wouldn't say it's one of my favorites, considering what happens in it, I still think it's one of Voyager's best episodes.

(Spoilers ahead- for anyone who hasn't seen this one before, I'd recommend watching it first- the ep won't hit the same if you know what happens going in.)

Seven's relationship with Icheb was honestly the thing that made me really care about her at last, since it was the first time I truly felt like she loved someone. In this episode, especially, you see how Seven's experience of being a parent to Icheb brings up her trauma over her own parents, but that also gives her a path to heal it. Her desire and need to do better for this boy than her parents did for her is very raw and heartbreaking, and Jeri Ryan's eyes subtly show us the entire struggle going on in Seven's mind throughout this story. I think it's one of her best performances. (Though I noticed they were putting a lot of soft focus lenses on her close ups in this ep, which they usually do when they're trying to make female characters look pretty and romantic, and it seemed a very odd choice for an episode with such dark subject matter. Women don't have to be beautiful when they're processing trauma, dudes.)

It opens with an adorable Voyager Science Fair for the children in the mess hall- I love that Naomi has other children to play with now, and I love that the Voyager crew has embraced the Borglets as their own and come up with activities like this to make them feel important and valued as part of the ship's community. Janeway, Chakotay, and B'Elanna are the judges, and it's cute to see them interact with the kids, especially B'Elanna, who doesn't get scenes where she's able to be soft and lighthearted often enough. It's also cute how proud Seven is of all her charges- she's obviously made progress in loosening up the reins to let them explore and create things on their own, and is now reveling in their creativity like a proud mama. Icheb's project is a device to help Voyager scan for wormholes, and Seven tells the captain that Icheb wants to join the Voyager crew one day in astrometrics. Janeway has to burst Seven's bubble and tell her that isn't possible, because they found his parents, and they have to bring him home.

Seven is shaken by the news, and can't even bring herself to tell Icheb at first. When she does, he doesn't want to leave any more than she does, but she tries her best to put a positive spin and be stoic for him.

When they arrive at his home planet, they find a farming community that has weathered many Borg attacks, which goes to great pains to disguise what little technology they have left, so as not to attract Borg attention. They shot the planet scenes on location, and they look great. The matte painting of the settlement inside a big canyon, surrounded by the ruins of an advanced city, is very cool. I'm not sure if they actually filmed in a canyon, or if they added cgi later, but the outdoor location shots all look like they're surrounded by the canyon, and it looks amazing. The grand, sweeping scale of it is really beautiful, and gives a wonderful sense of place.

Icheb meets his parents, but he remembers litle about them. He's unimpressed by his homeworld, since he wants to explore the stars, and they barely have a handful of space-worthy ships left. He asks to go back to Voyager, and Janeway lets him, but she's determined to help him reconnect with his parents. Gradually, as he spends more time with them, he begins to remember and reconnect with them and their community, and becomes interested in their genetics and biotechnology expertise that they use to farm the inhospitable land. Eventually, he decides to stay with them.

Seven is heartbroken, and angry at his parents for staying on a planet so close to a Borg transwarp conduit, which puts Icheb in danger of getting reassimilated again. She doesn't believe they're doing enough to protect him, but she has no choice but to accept Icheb's decision to stay. Voyager leaves, and she tries to make peace with it, but when Mezoti tells Seven a different version of Icheb's assimilation than his father did, Seven becomes suspicious. She investigates the Borg database from the Borglet's former ship, and finds out that the Borg's records of his planet don't match his parents story. She tells the Captain that something is wrong, and Voyager turns around to find out what they're hiding, and why.

The next scene is one of the most horrifying twists in any Star Trek episode, ever. Icheb's parents play out an awful MacBeth-like scene of going back and forth over whether they should just keep Icheb, or use their son as they planned to- we don't know what it is they have in store, but we know it isn't good, as they rationalize the necessity of giving up their child. An unsuspecting Icheb walks back into the midst of this conversation, after having been out happily playing a ball game with the other teenagers. It's honestly a little hard to watch as his mother attacks him with some sort of injection- he asks his father for help, only to be held down by him to help her sedate him. (There's lots of discourse about who the worst parent in Star Trek is, but I think Icheb's parents win, hands down, no contest.)

Voyager arrives at the planet to question Icheb's parents, but they've already launched the unconscious Icheb in one of their transport ships- Voyager detects the ship en route to the Borg conduit. They learn that Icheb had been genetically engineered to produce a pathogen that kills Borg- that's why all the adult drones died on the cube they found him on. His parents had intentionally sent him to be assimilated as a child, to destroy the Borg and protect their planet. They rationalize it with tearful excuses to Janeway, but Janeway rightfully condemns them, and ignores them to go save Icheb from an incoming Borg cube. They manage to get Icheb out of the Brunali ship, and explode it, which damages the cube from inside, letting them escape before the explosion catches them.

Back on board afterward, Seven finds Icheb analyzing his DNA in the astrometrics lab. He seems unable to engage with his parents betrayal on a personal level, and instead regards their act as an impressive feat of bioengineering. He wonders if he actually was destined to destroy the Borg, and if that would have been better for everyone. Seven, in a marvelous role reversal from when she first came on board, is now the one to assure him that his free will as an individual matters more than any collective goal, and that his life is worth fighting for. He can still fight the Borg in the future, in a way that he choses. It's a really beautiful moment. Bittersweet too, because Seven only has Icheb back because of the horrific negligence of his parents, on a far worse scale than even Seven's own parents managed. But despite having their lives almost stolen by their parents and the Borg, Seven and Icheb have each other now, and the Voyager crew. They have a family who loves them, who they matter to, who will fight for them to the end. In the face of such evil and horror, love and hope still wins out. It gets me every time.

(And I'm not even going to go into the absolute garbage fire of that episode of Picard, except to say it's bullshit, written by people who didn't give a damn about Voyager or it's characters. How anyone could see this episode and want to just throw this relationship in the trash, and spit on absolutely everything this episode was about- it just makes my blood boil. But more than that, I'm just sorry they missed the entire damn point of what Star Trek is about. That show cannot even hold a candle to Voyager, and it will never be canon to me.)

Tl;dr: A truly heartbreaking story, with maybe the most diabolical plot twist in all of Star Trek, but one which ultimately affirms the triumph of love over evil. Beautifully acted, written, directed, and designed. Top tier all around.

[lostyesterday]

My top ten favorite B7 scenes

B’Elanna/Seven is my current favorite Star Trek ship, so I wanted to make a list of my personal favorite scenes featuring the two of them in Voyager. These scenes aren’t necessarily good (although I do think some of them are), and they’re not necessarily the scenes that provide the best “evidence” for B7 as a ship (which isn’t something I care about all that much to be honest). These are just the scenes that I personally enjoyed and have thought about the most.

10. Someone to Watch Over Me

This episode is terrible, but given how much I’ve thought about this particular scene, I couldn’t not include it. This is the Voyager scene that most clearly demonstrates how obsessed Seven is with B’Elanna and particularly with her romantic relationships. To me personally, this screams oblivious gay crush taking the form of jealous obsession. Obviously, B’Elanna is right and Seven is stepping way out of line here. This is probably the worst thing Seven ever did to B’Elanna and she’s so justified in being mad about it.

9. Survival Instinct

I really enjoy this scene because it’s an example of both B’Elanna and Seven trying to change the adversarial nature of their relationship. B’Elanna is trying to help Seven here even though she has difficulty with her. Seven immediately regrets her defensive response to B’Elanna’s attempted helpfulness. I think it’s interesting to see how the two of them have fallen into a pattern, responding defensively to each other because they’re used to their dynamic being adversarial, when they both theoretically have the capacity to understand each other better than most other people understand either of them.

8. Infinite Regress

The infamous cheek bite scene. Is this scene good? No, probably not. Has it lived in my head rent free since I originally saw it? Yes, absolutely. Technically, you could call this the only intentionally sexually coded Seven/B’Elanna scene in the show. Mostly, the thing I can’t stop thinking about is the two of them joking about it afterward. B’Elanna jokingly asking if this qualifies as their second date… I will think about that line forever.

7. The Voyager Conspiracy

I love everything about this. Seven immediately calling B’Elanna as soon as she thinks she’s found a problem with the ship’s systems regardless of how early it is in the morning. The tone of B’Elanna’s response implying this probably isn’t the first time this has happened. B’Elanna actually investigating the problem even though she’s rightfully irritated at Seven for being so annoying. I love them.

6. Course: Oblivion

It’s so, so easy to interpret this scene as Seven being jealous of Tom’s relationship with B’Elanna. Me when the person I have a crush on just got married: Monogamy is stupid, and it would make way more sense and be better if everyone (you) would have sex with anyone they want to, whenever (me, right now).

5. Human Error

Ignoring my issues with this episode, it’s so interesting how one of Seven’s major attempts to become “more human” is to try to connect to B’Elanna in this way. I think she chose B’Elanna here because she’s someone Seven genuinely wants to connect with at this point in the series, but she still struggles with how to make that connection. Also, I cannot stop thinking about Seven thinking in detail about how B’Elanna does her hair. Given the rest of the scene, I think it makes sense to say that she didn’t choose this question/compliment/terrible flirtation randomly and has genuinely just admired B’Elanna’s hair a lot. Which sure is something. And of course I love B’Elanna’s confusion here. She can tell Seven’s trying really hard to be nice, which is so not like Seven that she can hardly believe it.

4. Message in a Bottle

I love how these two scenes represent both the adversarial tension between B’Elanna and Seven, and the potential ways they could relate to and understand each other with time. B’Elanna is clearly deeply frustrated with Seven, and yet she still tries to explain to Seven why people (not just B’Elanna) are reacting negatively to her. And B’Elanna can obviously relate to being perceived by others as rude, which makes her statement that she doesn’t expect Seven to change overnight, with the subtext that she understands deeply how difficult this situation is for Seven too, really fascinating. Seven initially appearing to ignore B’Elanna and then later saying thank you to her compliment is also great. Also, B’Elanna’s reaction to Seven shocking that guy is so fun.

3. Extreme Risk

This is a short interaction, but it’s so interesting. Seven initially tries to engage in their ordinary adversarial back and forth, but when B’Elanna doesn’t respond in the typical way, immediately asks if something is wrong. I love that Seven is the first person in the episode to notice that there’s something wrong with B’Elanna. It’s so interesting that Seven seems almost disturbed by the lack of any hostility in B’Elanna’s responses and by B’Elanna immediately putting Seven in charge of something she was going to do. I think that, in a way, Seven has grown comfortable with her adversarial dynamic with B’Elanna because it’s familiar. Maybe B’Elanna has grown comfortable with it to, to a certain extent, and her lack of willingness to engage in the typical verbal sparring of their relationship in this episode comes from the same place as her lack of desire to participate in the normal routines of her other relationships. I guess I’m suggesting here that maybe Seven and B’Elanna are both more important to each other than the show explicitly portrays.

2. Hope and Fear

The iconic “we’ll be outcasts together” scene. This is probably the single scene that best illustrates the parallels between Seven and B’Elanna – how both of them have been treated like outcasts and deep down expect to continue to be outcasts forever. How both of them feel deeply ambivalent about belonging – desiring it desperately and yet pushing away from it because they believe they can never have it. Also, B’Elanna’s defensive excuse that she was “joking” two seconds after she realizes she was accidentally way too vulnerable is so good.

1. Imperfection

Thinking about this scene makes me want to scream incoherently, but I’ll try to summarize my main thoughts concisely and analytically. This is probably the scene where B’Elanna and Seven genuinely connect and relate to each other most strongly. B’Elanna understands better than anyone else in this episode what Seven needs, and Seven trusts B’Elanna of all people to ask these questions to, to be vulnerable with in this way. B’Elanna saying that Seven’s made an impact on every member of the crew is… a lot. B’Elanna truly listening to Seven here and understanding what it is that’s bothering her and saying the exact right thing in response. The whole framing of this scene with the close-up shots on faces, the softness in B’Elanna’s voice. Fuck.

[the-oracle-of-the-lost]

Seven and Jadzia :) for the bingo

yesssss two characters who deserve so much better than shitty 90s sexism

Seven:

i love Seven so much. i told a Trekkie friend that i was going to watch all the series through a few years ago and the first thing they said to me was "oh you're going to really love Seven of Nine" and they weren't wrong! i was definitely a Star Trek fan before watching Voyager but my love of Seven (and Voyager in general) really prompted me to rejoin tumblr and be more active in fandom stuff. the way she's written in Voyager is so full of ups and downs with obviously some horrible objectification but still managing to be such a deep and multi-layered character despite all the sexism thrown at her. and as uneven as the writing in Picard might be, Jeri Ryan's performance & a lot of Seven's character beats are absolutely excellent and makes me want to explore the character further which is really the most i can ask for when getting attached to a character.

Jadzia

i really like Jadzia!! she has so much potential as a character and i always get sad about how little focus she actually gets in DS9 (particularly when thinking about Jadzia versus Dax in general) and how she's written off (as much as i do love Ezri). i love it when she gets to be fun and devious (constantly thinking about that scene where she pranks Odo by breaking into his quarters and moving all of his furniture a few inches). she has such a wonderful love of life in every regard which is so hard to sincerely find in a character especially in the darker moments of something like the Dominion War. i haven't specifically taken a lot of time to try to write her or think of many headcanons about her but i feel like she'll attain that status one day.

[phantoms-autistic-hands]

HERE'S THE OUTLINE ABOUT THIS BRAINWORM

i haven't rly thought of a name for my OC so i'm just gonna use the placeholder name jean for now [after Jean Vic. don't @ me on this]. he might not even end up french tho we'll see…… anyway he was a sailor (don't ask me for further details, it's blurry. it's Real blurry) and he just got back from a voyage but he was discharged from the navy.

what happened during the voyage was he got into a relationship with a higher ranking officer and they were close but was pursuing their relationship knowing that when they get to land they won't be able to continue it (not if the officer wanted to stay in his social circles) buuut it was kind of an open secret on the ship. then there was an Accident, in which the higher ranking officer died (yes i'm going down the dead lover cliche pathway--shhh it's for the plot later). so when the higher ups were looking into the death, they found out about their relationship, which is why the discharge from the navy [[listen. i think at this point france has decriminalized homosexuality but i have no clue what it's like in the navy. so i'm assuming it's the don't ask don't tell thing. so don't @ me on this. or do, i would Love to know if anyone knows]]

so heartbroken and out of a job jean found a job vacancy of being a stagehand at the opera house. his job would be way down below the stage or way up above stage, and the job requirements reminds him of finding his way on a ship, so he's doing just fine with this. he does his job well enough, keeps his head down, tries to be friendly when he can.

after a while of doing bits and pieces here and there and he's established himself, the new chief stagehand gives him the main job of maintaining the area on the mezzanine floor where joseph buquet was killed (i'm smooshing leroux canon and alw canon together here btw. canon is toy blocks for me to pick and choose) since a lot of stagehands avoid that place like a plague. it's not out of malice, it's just that they all realize that jean doesn't rly believe in superstitions or ghosts so they're all like why not? he's knows about the stories but since he doesn't believe in ghosts (and thinks that anything about phantom as an actual dude is an exaggeration of events to attract patrons) he's like eh, alright.

all this happens while jean suspects that he's definitely traumatized by the events that happened during his voyage, obviously. he knows of stories of what happens to people who's traumatized enough. at this point in time he's given in to talking out loud to his dead lover when he's alone, so this is how one day erik heard him through that trapdoor into his home (/torture chamber). when erik tries to scare him off by speaking to him in a disembodied voice, jean Naturally thought that his trauma has given him auditory hallucinations. he at first breaks down about this because he thought he was doing better mentally, but this is a sure sign he isn't doing that great actually.

erik, absolutely confused about this reaction, decides to show himself physically after some time, just to prove to jean that he's not Actually having auditory hallucinations. but jean first mistook him for a lost patron, and is like sir u can't be here without supervision?? and jean's worried he'd lose his job if someone catches a patron wandering down here with only jean watching him bc he sure as hell ain't qualified to give patrons a tour below stage. but erik would mysteriously disappear any time anyone comes close to them. cue a whole bunch of meetings like this bc erik's lonely and this man new to the opera thinks he's a patron and treats him like a normal man and he's been starved of company ever since christine left and the mob hunted him done and he stopped bothering the opera

so they get closer. jean's half worried that erik's a hallucination, since he disappears a lot and is never seen by anybody else but jean, but he seems so real……

they get to a point where erik tells jean of christine and they bond over having lost someone they loved. erik speaks longingly of his dreams of being married and having a wife to go on sunday walks with

at this time jean is a little (a Lot) in love with him and gets his heart shattered into pieces bc god damn it he wants a wife Of Course he'd want a Wife...........

and then somehow erik finds out that jean is in love with Someone and he asks about it (somehow feeling something like Rage and Something Else because jean? in love? WHO WOULD CAPTURE THIS MAN'S ATTENTION? WHO DARES? WHO DESERVES IT?) and jean is like its of no matter (because he thinks erik wouldn't reciprocate. he's not the exactly right gender)

then jean spends a long time thinking it over and realizes that even if erik doesn't return his feelings, erik seems like someone who would benefit from being told that in this world Someone does loves him, even if he [erik] doesn't love jean back. so he tells him and it takes a while to convince erik of it but then erik remembers that jean said his love for erik is "no matter" and goes batshit about it bc does this mean he doesn't matter to jean????

and jean tells erik that it does matter. it matters to him a lot. erik matters to him a lot. but he can't give erik what he wants, their relationship would not exactly be an open one. it would be some secret thing, at the very least half hidden from society. he won't impose that on erik when he knows erik wants his little walks in the park with his lover........ erik's showing the 404 error code.

anyways idk how it goes from here but they'll get together. i swear

[tinypinkmouse]

WIP folder tag game

Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Tag as many people as you have WIPs. People can send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then post a little snippet/preview or tell them something about it!

Thanks for the tag @flamingwell. I know you suggested I just do a selection, but I have a list! Everyone will suffer the full list! (okay it's actually missing things like current exchange stuff and whatever I've been too lazy to add, but it's nearly the full list of WIPs)

weilanzun somno

deaged SW

arranged marriage yohe

cuddle the enemy

SW stalker

ZYL memory loss

I just had a dream

Mass Effect xover?

amnesia au

monster!ZYL... prequel?

android au

AC crossover

soulmate au writing

another soulmate thing

serum time travel

wish

android sci fi au

Shen Xi and Shen Wei

Parallel

this nice AU

amnesia

time travel fix it - ye zun

Dance, dance

so what happened in YOHE

sequel - he had a name

cohabitation

surviving

chronic pain

arranged marriage

blind?

tiny dragon

sequel? yohe

sequel seeing shadows

wants

Hell 

Shen Xi and Shen Wei

mirror!Ye Zun

Skyrim/elder scrolls fusion

quantum leap au

blue haired SW

weilanzun timetravel

but winter

Fringe AU

Somekind of eldritch AU?

AC fusion thing

undercover cop au

dragon au

So like, SW and HPS different people

DA fusion thing

da xover

Monsters in the jungle

yohe sex injury

fake dating

Untitled document

sw/zyl/hps

marriage proposal celbrity au

knitting

kidnapping

bear

dragons. for fucks sake. I cry

enemies to lovers

what do you mean by expected?

space farming

Shen Wei is not a disney princess

daemon au

another au

teaching cat

wolf cubs

hostile alien race?

chatfic

cyberpunk(ish) au

broken time

neigbours

shen wei/zhao yunlan/ye zun????

the world never touched me

assassin!au, I guess

dark fic?

 hps dream thing

haunted house sequel

guo changcheng

hive of two

ye zun?

Sequel - in the shadows

wind is cold

the future

ot3 kissing

possession ZYL-KL

grooming

AC reincarnation

same

SW and HPS different

imperial au

yet another soulmate au

FFVII xover

naruto xover

another ac crossover I guess

Zhu Hong time travel

voyager vorik/ye zun

voices

AI

tiny soulmate

YZ/DQ

somnophilia

Planet drop

Weilan Jurassic park

weilanzun monster au

vacation

help

SW wakes up as a woman

genderswapped!zyl

Weilan Jurassic park 

soulmate au

Sword!YZ

baby animals

sequel life's a little weird

other soulmate AU

more au

sequel k15 - it's complicated 

vampire

Gifts

Star Wars xover

monster

ZYL time travel 

memory

acquiring ZYL

lake dragon

tiniest dragon sequel

space pirate AU

he-man x-over

imperial harem au

mermaid love triangle in the forest

bb!SW modern

SW and HPS different 

ot3 arranged marriage AU

alone

in this thing together

weizun I suppose

let's go back to yesterday

tradition

voyager xover

marriage

Luo Qingeng/Han Chen

Jiang Yang/Mao Hou

Luo Fusheng/Jiang Yang

Yang Xiuxian/Xun Xu

Jiang Yang/Xun Xu

Jiang Yang/??????

sequel - unexpected turns

Luo Fusheng/Jiang Yang?

Jiang Yang/Han Chen the AU fusion version

Jiang Yang/?

a journey to love

gangster/stripper au somewhere after BY/LYN

porn au 0.5 or something

handcuffs sequel

Luo Fusheng/Jiang Yang Star Wars AU

Meng Shaohui/?

Mao Hou/Lin Dayu

Chen Yiming/Lin Dayu

Cheng Musheng/Jiang Yang

Luo Qingeng/Chen Yiming

Han Chen/Mao Hou

Jiang Yang/Han Chen (the worst idea)

Xun Xu/Luo Fusheng

Luo Fusheng/Chang Dong/Ye Liuxi

Ye Liuxi/Chang Dong/Hua Wuxie (?)

Chang Dong/Ye Liuxi/Jiang Zhan (also not derivative obviously)

Chang Dong/Gongzi Jing sequel

gangster/stripper au 44

porn au

sequel look at me?

sequel wake up

Yang Xiuxian/Xun Xu 

Han Chen/Clown

bank on me

Luo Fusheng/Jiang Yang 

Chen Yiming/Han Chen

Luo Qingeng/Jiang Yang/Luo Fusheng

Clown/Yang Xiuxian

Mao Hou/Lin Dayu

Jiang Yang/Han Chen/Luo Fusheng (android thing)

Han Chen/Mo Sanmei 

So, uh... I don't know that many people to tag. So if you're reading this consider yourself tagged. That probably doesn't cover 182 people, but what can you do?