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Billie x Sabrina
At one of her concerts, Sabrina dedicates a âJunoâ position to Billie. Billie decides to retaliate by dedicating âLunchâ to Sabrina.
do you know how to bend? - billie eilish x sabrina carpenter
word count: 916
warnings: gay
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sabrinaâs in the middle of her sold-out tour stop in los angeles. the crowd is buzzing, electric, screaming every lyric back at her. sheâs glowing, golden under the lights, her voice soft as she slows things down between songs.
âokay,â she says into the mic, breathless. âthis next oneâs kinda special.â
the crowd quiets slightly.
âi wasnât sure if i was gonna do this,â she continues, pacing slowly across the stage. âbut⊠thereâs someone here tonight. someone who means a whole lot to me.â
in the wings, billie freezes, water bottle halfway to her mouth.
âsheâs kinda shy,â sabrina smirks, âso she might kill me later.â
the fans scream. everyoneâs already guessing.
âbut iâm gonna dedicate this to her anyway.â sabrina smiles directly toward the shadows side-stage. âthis oneâs for you.â
billie just stares, eyes wide, as the first notes of juno ring out.
sabrina sings juno like she wrote it five minutes ago with billieâs hands under her shirt.
and billie? sheâs melting.
leaning against the speaker tower, hoodie pulled up, face half-hidden in her hands as sabrinaâs voice echoes through the stadium. she sways with the mic, hips slow, eyes flickering toward billie every few lines.
"have you ever tried, this one?"
sabrina gets on all fours and arches her ass straight toward where she knows billie is standing, as she bites her lip.
âjesus christ,â billie mutters.
finneas, beside her, elbows her hard. âyouâre so screwed.â
billie groans. âshe just came for my throat on stage.â
âshe dedicated a song about obsession and longing and sex to you.â
âi know.â
âyou gonna cry?â
âno,â billie mumbles. âiâm gonna retaliate.â
backstage after the show, sabrinaâs glowing. sweaty, giddy, smug as hell.
billieâs sprawled across the dressing room couch, hoodie pulled over her face.
âyou good?â sabrina asks innocently, dropping onto her lap.
âyou dedicated juno to me.â
âmhmm.â
âin front of eighteen thousand people.â
sabrina kisses her jaw. âyou blushed.â
âyouâre evil.â
âyou love it.â
billie peeks at her. âwhat if i did it back?â
sabrina blinks. âyou meanâ?â
billie grins. âoh, i mean.â
billieâs playing new york city. itâs the kind of show where every single person is on their feet, screaming, crying, shaking.
sabrinaâs watching from the sound booth, baseball cap low over her face, trying to stay subtle. (failing.)
billieâs halfway through the set when she pauses, water bottle in hand, lips curled into a smirk.
âyo,â she says into the mic. âquick thing.â
the crowd screams louder.
âsomeone i love very, very much is here tonight.â
the screams turn deafening.
âsheâs little,â billie grins. âsheâs loud. sheâs the most annoying girl on the planet and she also happens to be my favorite person alive.â
sabrina is frozen.
âthis oneâs for her.â
billie steps back, the beat drops, and lunch starts.
sabrinaâs jaw drops.
"tell her "bring that over here." you need a seat? i'll volunteer."
billieâs strutting across the stage, eyes blazing, hips sharp. the lights go wild.
the fans? they lose their minds.
and sabrina? sheâs sunk halfway into the booth, red as a cherry, both hands covering her face.
security guards are trying not to laugh.
billie catches her eye from stage and winks.
sabrina mouths: youâre dead.
billie mouths back: worth it.
post-show, sabrinaâs waiting in billieâs dressing room, arms crossed, cheeks still flushed.
billie strolls in like she didnât just air her thirst to thousands of people.
âhey, baby.â
âdonât âhey babyâ me.â
billie smirks. âyou started it.â
âi gave you juno, which is like, vaguely poetic.â
âand i gave you lunch. direct. honest.â
âexplicit!â
âaffectionate.â
âhorny!â
âaccurate.â
sabrinaâs eyes narrow. âyou really wanna play this game, eilish?â
billie steps closer. âoh, baby. i already won.â
theyâre making out before billie can even finish her water.
sabrinaâs on her toes, hands in her hair. billieâs gripping her waist, laughing breathlessly between kisses.
âyouâre such a menace,â sabrina whispers.
âyou love it.â
âi hate you.â
âyou love me.â
ââŠunfortunately.â
billie kisses her hard. âadmit it. you loved it.â
âi did not.â
âyou were blushing.â
âi always blush!â
âyou were squirming.â
âyouâre literally the worst.â
âbut iâm your worst,â billie grins.
sabrina groans and pulls her back in.
later, tangled up in bed, sabrinaâs scrolling through fan edits of the moment on tiktok.
âthereâs a whole compilation of your face during the first chorus,â she mutters.
âi looked hot.â
âyou looked unhinged.â
billie shrugs. âi was thinking about your thighs.â
âbillie.â
âwhat? the songâs accurate.â
sabrina flips over and climbs on top of her. âyou know what this means, right?â
âthat i win?â
âno. it means iâm gonna write something worse.â
billie grins. âcanât wait.â
âgonna make nonsense sound tame.â
âiâll be front row.â
the teasing doesnât stop.
billie starts calling her lunch in texts. sabrina changes her contact name to âmy juno girl.â
they send each other voice notes with stupid lyrics.
âriding you like a tour bus,â sabrina whispers in one.
âyou taste like bridge of emails i canât send,â billie fires back.
itâs all ridiculous and chaotic and weirdly romantic.
theyâre in love and completely feral about it.
and they wouldnât have it any other way.
sabrinaâs next show.
halfway through the set, she pauses.
âyou guys remember when my girlfriendââ cue massive screams ââdedicated lunch to me?â
she smirks. âyeah. iâm still recovering.â
she strums her guitar.
âthis is a brand-new one. not out yet. i wrote it to retaliate. itâs called breakfast, lunch, and dinner.â
the crowd screams.
somewhere backstage, billieâs already crying.
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hey, i just wanted to say i really admire the way you explain things â itâs clear but still emotional, and itâs helped me understand so much better.
iâve been thinking about starting to share my own thoughts too, but i havenât shifted or manifested anything major yet. i was wondering⊠how did you start? like where did you learn everything, or was it more just you figuring it out as you went?
not trying to copy or anything, i just really respect how grounded your posts feel and want to learn in a deeper way too. đ©·đ©·
iâm so glad you asked it like this, because it wasnât dramatic.
it wasnât epic. it wasnât even well thought out. it was just a moment. a regular ass thursday on september 15, 2022, where my algorithm threw me a post about shiftingâa boy crying about how he came back from Hogwarts, and something in my brain just went âoh. yeah. that makes sense.â
like genuinely⊠no hesitation. no disbelief. no ego about âprove it to me.â it was like the moment someone gives you the name of a thing youâve been feeling your whole life but never had words for. i didnât need a lecture, i didnât need a manual. it was just: this is real, this has always been real, and now i finally have a word for it. that word was âshifting.â
i think itâs important to mention this because sometimes people think they need years of prep, or full belief, or they need to shift first before theyâre âqualifiedâ to talk about it. but no. that day i learned what shifting was, i tried it. same night. didnât even wait. no techniques memorized, just went with what i saw: the raven method. i lay down, did it verbatim, counted, visualized, looped. i didnât know what the void state was, not really. i just knew something was⊠off. i couldnât feel my body. i couldnât see. i woke up in the most bizarre peace iâd ever felt. that night still haunts me in the best way.
like my soul took a nap in the universeâs palm.
seriously, the best sleep ever
so yeah. technically? first try, first void.
not because i was a master.
not because i knew what i was doing.
but because i wasnât trying to prove anything.
i just did it. no fanfare. no performance. i wasnât waiting for proof. i was just⊠allowing. i think thatâs the key to all of this, actually. i didnât analyze it to death. i didnât even know what âvoid stateâ was until days later when i kept seeing people describe the same thing i felt and i was like wait⊠WAITâŠ
after that? it spiraled. i wonât lie. i got addicted to researching. started on shiftok (awful place most days, but it was what we had, especially in 2022-2023 when things got slightly less cursed), and it just became a daily rhythm. wake up, scroll, save posts, take notes, rant in my head, piece shit together. not because i had a plan but because something in me was obsessed with understanding how the fuck this all worked. i was like a detective in my own reality.
i built a platform around memes, honestly just to survive. like i used humor to say âhey hereâs a dumb little joke BUT ALSO youâre a master shifter, actually.â it helped me ground it. humor makes things digestible. and as people started listening, i started researching more. like oh shit i better not just parrot what i hear.
so i went into science againâiâm a nerd at heart, always have been. i already loved physics and psychology before this, but now i had a reason to learn.
i fell into multiverse theory, started reading about quantum decoherence, got obsessed with the gateway process, studied the RAS, predictive coding, the hippocampus. i started connecting it all.
shifting became realer when i saw it reflected in science. when i could trace the logic and say âoh. my godhood isnât mystical. itâs mechanical.â
belief = perception = memory = reality.
thatâs what sealed it for me.
so to answer you: i didnât learn from one source. i didnât take a course. it was just me walking through fog with a flashlight i built out of curiosity, intuition, and spite. i wasnât waiting for permission to talk. i just started. because talking about it helped me understand it better. because sometimes sharing your perspective is what builds your belief.
and you donât need to shift first to share. you donât need to be a guru. you donât need a success story to be valuable. if youâve thought deeply, experienced deeply, wanted deeply, you already have insight. itâs not about copying. itâs about contributing. we all started by talking to ourselves. some of us just got loud enough for others to hear.
so do it. write your way into belief. share before youâre âready.â speak even if your voice is half-formed. youâll be stunned by how much you know once you start trying to explain it to someone else. you already belong here. you already have something to say.
and when in doubt? just remember:
your first step doesnât have to be big. it just has to be honest. everything else builds from there.
#law of assumption#loa success#loassblog#loassblr#shiftblr#shifting blog#loablr#loassumption#manifesting#master manifestor#affirming loa#loa tumblr#loa blog#neville goddard#shifting motivation#shiftingrealities#shifting consciousness#shifting memes#shifting community#reality shifting
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#arden v#fhr#sidestep#fallen hero retribution#scribs#fallen hero rebirth#okay iâm finally adding my notes i posted right before i left the house lol#but AOOOOYYU !!!!!!! still kinda wippy i just didnât feel like rendering this all the way<- iâm lazy with personal art#but iâm very obsessed with muscle meat textures rn#my idea for the chest emblem was where the rat king resides along with a subtle note to heartbreak (heart shaped emblem#cracked glass and brain texture for the psychological ness of it
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i am on episode 9 in the dn jdrama and i have come to three conclusions about the people who made this drama: 1. they ship lawlight. an unhealthy amount. lawlight is their jam, the whole drama was created to have them together. 2. they think near is really neat :D like that is their boy !! their best friend near !! 3. they are so fucking in love with teru mikami, it's embarrassing.
#đ arian's shit#death note#lawlight#death note jdrama#teru mikami#near death note#the three ultimate conclusions#LAWLIGHT IN JDRAMA. IS WOW. they are canon idk what to tell you#âi'd havs wanted to be your friend foreverâ jesus christ why don't you two just fuck in that weird blue room#âthe truth is i guess id rather he be my friend ryuga than the detective Lâ#which of you lawlight shippers wrote this fucking show like what the hell#AND NEAR. NEAR IN THE JDRAMAAS#weird thing with mello like i wouldn't even call it weird#how. how do you even come up with that#they have got to high when they came up wth that#the doll. but he served not going to lie#BUT FUCK I HAVE HARD BEEF WITH WHOEVER HIS WIG DESIGNER IS.#WHERE DID THEY GET IT FROM. WHAT DUMPSTER DID THEY DIG THROUGH TO GET A WIG LIKE THAT#wig has seen stuff#and don't get me started with jdrama obsession with mikami#THEY LOVE HIM MORE THAN ME. THEIR LOVE FOR MIKAMI. LIKE THEY ALL WANT HIM CARNALLY#this needs to be a seperate post istg i have to say so much
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Light's wardrobe in the 1st half of the jdrama (ep 1 - 5) vs his wardrobe in the 2nd half (ep 6 - 11).
#I just knowww someone in the wardrobe dept was twirling their hair and giggling over this#death note#death note jdrama#death note drama#death note tv drama#light yagami#masataka kubota#flannel king#incidentally him starting to wear all black also coincides with the very first time he meets L#dare I say boyfriend effect#will also post the instances where the directors were just reveling in the black/white dark/light contrast between these two#sorry guys I'm obsessed and I learned how to screenshot from netflix so I'm forcing everyone to observe my observations
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#''bring it on'' :)#l lawliet#i dont have a caption idea for this. gestures vaguely#yes these are consecutive theyre just separated into two pictures because that second one is on the next page#weird to see him stand up straight#also the fact that he doesnt even think of showing himself to the task force as a way to gain their trust (which is what he claims to them)#but as a way of using himself as bait for kira#i like him so much. i don't understand him at all#death note#sure#wheres that post thats like the latent stage of character obsession where you have to fight the urge to post a jpg every five minutes#genuine regret and yet so very addicted to the challenge. digs himself in a deeper grave every day#remind you of anyone#from the drafts#<- yesterday. lmao
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just a few little bits from the past few days
#both the word count screenshots are from the same day - just different sections of the text. so that was like 4000 words in#one DAY.. huzzah!! (< making up for the fact that I did 0 words the 3 days before that lol.. so its not actually an accomplishment ghjjh)#In renpy I think you can have multiple separate texty cody whatever documents and still jump between them so long as they;re#labeled properly. Rather than like... having one extremely long 60.000 line file where in some places youre in a menu within a menu#within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu jhbhj#But that was the way I started doing it lke 5 years ago when I actually made the base of everything so I feel like it'd be too much#work to change it all that dramatically now. But that means I cant just get the word count for the whole document I just have#to jump around to the few sections I worked on and highlight them to get the word count for only that portion#.. the one tiny fraction of the whole monster text wall. Though it is of course spaced out and organized into#clearly labeled sections within that because otherwise I have trouble discerning text on a screen. still.#Resuming a project that's been basically abandoned for 4-5 ish years is just always finding weird stuff like.. why did I do this that way..#why did I write that... why did I organize that in this manner... what the hell am I referencing in this note... etc. lol#Anyway... also......................cat with plum on his head.#everyone point and laugh at mr. plum head boy..!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:3c#I've been obsessed with Calico Critters' social media presence from afar (like how I mentioned one of my possible dream jobs would#be to be the person that sets the scenes and arranges all the toy animals at a tiny little table and etc. to take the type of pictures they#post on their facebook page and stuff) and I see all their photos of them posing the rabbits as if they're in a swimming pool#or on a nature hike or etc. etc. BUT I have never really seen them in person. Recently I was at a store (in a KN95 mask and not staying#very long still of course. wastewater covid levels are still high where I live (and most of the US truly)) and it just crossed my mind#to actually go to the toy section and see if I could find any....wow.... Its like meeting a celebrity.. the Latte Cats....#Of course I didnt buy them because they're like... very expensive?? like $25 - $40 just for one little pack of a few critters like#what is shown. but.... I still got to see them................ my beloved.. I want their outfits... T o T#Oh and then lastly just a pot of purple clover looking things. I just think theyre neat lol#photo diary
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starting a darker shade of magic >:0
#bro idk if i wanna put reading stuff here or on my main bc thatâs where i wud like reblog reading stuff lol#but hereâs where i yap so#anyway im excited iâve owned this trilogy for so long and havenât read it đđđ#bc i was caught up in the b/ooktube commercialist sorta culture teehee as a young high schooler#and bought so many books but also where was i finding the justification to get all these box sets of books i hadnât read#actually i think its just this one and the shadow & bone series but like why do i own them LOL#when i havenât read them but anyway#iâm getting to it now đ«Ą#read 25 pages and iâm gonna go to the treadmill lmao đ but iâm very interested so far already#took out a goddamn post it note to write down some notes abt the distinctions btwn the londons#bc im fs gonna forget LOL#but yeah iâm already very excited and looking forward to it :00#i did stand in my room looking at time war for a hot minute trying to decide if i shud just blast thru a reread this afternoon#but idts im gonna reread that but later perhps#anyway yayyyyyy idk if i shud make like a tag for reading specific things lol#ill just keep it under the same one for now#jeanne talks#i be yappin over here#sorry to literally everyone who follows me bc u followed me for gIee and that has no presence here rn LOL or in my mind ngl#rip đ itâll be back at some point if i know me and my obsessions LOL
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Its so funny thinking about the different things people know me as in the yokai watch fandom. That one person who loves Babblong. The Roughraff guy. The one who drew way too much Casanuva at one point. The one with the goofy aus. One of the three (3) McKraken fans. Or when I used to be a Zote Hollow Knight/Captain Charlie Pikmin account (if you know me from those days DAMN)
#I have a new favorite guy of the week every week but ykyk#Being a tad hyperbolous there usually it's about two or three weeks but a few characters are certainly more prevelant!!#Drew R4wry a lot at some point aswell but that mightve js been on clockapp#Looking all the way back on this account won't get you the non yokai stuff bc that. Account was deleted for Reasons#On another note I'm so glad the yokai fandom is growing :) seeing people return to the thing that I've been obsessed with for over 8 years#Is fun sauce!!#Anyways. I'm rambling. Why did I make this post you may ask?#Bc I wanna. Aka I like yapping and just felt like it >u> it's too bad this place ain't like spacehey where there is a separate blog tab on#Someone's profile so i could filter this out#I do have a tag for that! Oh yeah; before I forgetâ#⥠yolo watch 2!#âposts from yomakai#†resident rambles#<<<aforementioned tag btw#My current GOTW (gen neutral) is Rongo Swirll bc he's so awesome#Omg PLEASE tell me if you have hcs for him or any of his friends/family#Well found family OR!!! WAIT!!!#IF YOU WANNA EXCHANGE BACKSTORY HCS THATS NEAT TOO....#AGGHH ANYWAYS....I said I was gonna be done like 12 tags ago does godlike
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head in hands i feel like my interpretation of mikami is kind of different from the average mikami interpretation,,,,,,,
#đ arian's shit#teru mikami#death note#<- maintagging only for blog related organization purposes#this post is too boring to be on the main tag though i think#i love mikami in a way that i enjoy every interpretation of him#all the yandere religious obsessive light-obsessed devout kami worshipper blind faith mikami are my best friends#not something i subscribe to but i just love reading about mikami in general#i even enjoy reading him in certain lawlight fics where he tries to be a homewrecker and is annoyingly obsessed with light#i follow very intellectual mikami scholars who have the same interpretation of mikami as me and teru mikami tag is inactive#aside from some of the said intellectual mikami scholars posting on it#so it's kind of jarring to see the Common Mikami Interpretation#it gets to a point where i worry that I AM THE ONE who has his character all along
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Istg theres this comfort character that i have thats just been like ruined in my eyes because of how downright weird the fandom is abt them
#sorry for venting#its juts like#how hard is it to keep stuff private#or tag things correctly#idk i kind of feel like certain ppl have#gotten too comfortable on the internet#nd the things these ppl are#trying to normalize r just....eugh#and they also mischaracterize said character#to a degree where they either make them sound like an obsessive stalker#or like make him completely disregard his beliefs nd work ethic nd all#sorry if i sound like a prude#it just kind of upsets me#anyway rant over sorry for all the tags#on a positive note i might post more pictures of my cat tomorrow :3
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anyway,,,,,,,,,
these r also great. theres always more panels than i think where vyrn is on grans head/shoulders LOLL
#stardust speaking !#i have proofreading to do but i am doing everything but that#which is not great. for a lot of reasons. i rly need to sit down & get all this stuff done this wknd#anyway i was looking thro akiras icons too. still completely obsessed with how they drew akira during the scene where figaro asks them for#dance. like the way akira ends up flinching when mitile calling for figaro brings them back to reality makes me soooOOOOOOOOO#CANT WAIT FOR THE ANIME assuming it rly is pt1. i want the entire budget on that scene. as well as shinos on the balcony. and rutile#telling off nicholas#the shino scene too.... 'shino where r u going' 'im going home' 'oh ure going ho- HOLD ON?!?!?!?!?!' -> akira holding onto him to make sure#he cant pull out his broom to fly away kjasbjkdbajksd#akira makes my head spin. 'ill make sure to become a great sage in order to help you get every castle you want'. to this kid they just met.#in a world they just arrived in.#mithra ch is soooooo close...................akira who read the previous sage write the 'maximum danger' note about mithra. proceeds to do#very silly things around him soooo fast#mithra in general is so fun cuz of the way he speaks so politely but hes.....mithra#srry for akira posting on the wrong blog. u can imagine how much gran posting i do on akira
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oh my god i fucking forgot they made her alive undead again
#oh my god this series truly gives me everything i want#i dont even have to pretend#SHES ALIVEEEEE#i mean she might be a ghost still im not entirely sure. ghost vampire who cares#oh my god two evil sisters playfully torturing laura forever and ever is ON THE CANON TABLE#post credits scene i skipped#post credits scene that sets up second movie possibilities#cant believe they did that movie teaser where they get the note thats like 'oh god oh god it laid eggs'#and then the whole movie is not abt that at all and at the very end theyre like#sike we didnt forget abt our teaser keeping our options open#OH GOD OH GOD IT LAID EGGS dfhkjghkfjghgjk#fucking love the plots in this show#SHES ALIVE#ROADTRIP TIME#oh my god can you imagine that roadtrip#poor laura#obsessed how she sneaks up all horror movie like and carmilla is like. unfazed 'hey mattie'#okay i need to adjust my fic timeline#carmillaposting
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initially this post had some commentary about interests right now. and then it turned into a ramble about personal healing in the tags. so the interest post is going separately.
#i have been possessed by my fourteen year old self.#except now i am *way* less ashamed of my interests#<- oh wow when you're in a place where all your interests that are unique to you are shamed constantly you stop enjoying them#there were so many things i hoarded as ''just mine'' because i was scared that they'd be stolen from me in one way or another#because either it'd be co-opted and i'd have to confirm to their view of said interest. or i'd be shamed and belittled for enjoying it#there are so many little things now (even wider than like. media interests. like literal aspects of myself) that feel wrong to share becaus#the only way to keep it safe was to keep it close to my chest#there are a few names i'd love to go by but as soon as i think about actually telling someone it i feel like i might#(and sometimes do) have a panic attack about it#which is stupid!!! the people around me now love me!!!! and i love them!!!!!#all that to say. being able to post about armand and dm is kind of like. a rebellion i guess#tvc and specifically armand were so important to me because back then i kind of saw myself in him? v. jaded and disconnected with the world#and seeking someone to bring them forward and into a new space to try and reinvent themself#and wanting someone to love them hard enough that it encompassed everything#i wanted to be what daniel was to armand and what armand was to daniel#<- very healthy way to think about the world and relationships btw <3 i was so normal and fine and this was not a sign something was wrong#god this turned into a bit of a vent thing huh.#i'm not like. feeling big feelings i should clarify. i feel like i'm examining them from a distance and taking notes like a scientist lol#it's a thing of like. knowing how unhealthy everything was and acknowledging that i'm healing. slowly; sure. but i am healing#i got to play a game one of them had tainted last week. it was hard and fun and i had big feelings when i was playing#because it was a little triggering. but i did it. i managed. i felt better for it.#i told my partner about one of my favourite bands back in 2021 and now they listen to them too and that's a little bit of joy#because it was one of the things that was deemed ''bad'' and that i can share that with someone now and feel safe to love it is good#and being able to be as obsessive and hyperfixated as i am right now without it being unsafe is really really lovely#and it is making me lean into it! i can engage with this without guilt! i want to fuck that old man!#it's silly and difficult and big and great and awful and complicated. but it's allowed to be. i'm allowed to be.
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tags via @numbuh424
My favourite L death note moment is when misa asks if heâs on âthat side of the fenceâ⊠and he says some shit like âIâm not doing this because I want to, Iâm doing this because I have toâ like what a bonkers way to dodge the question ?? youâre absolutely never beating the gay allegations. No you did not *have to* handcuff yourself to him absolutely berserk logic
#CRYINGGG#oh my god near and mello being Disgusted by Lâs Freak Nature & obsession w/ light is one of my favorite things of all time#death note#shoutout to that one fic where the entire premise was just near looking into L & lightâs relationship post-both of their deaths and being#like. Hm. đłïžâđđ€šâ#i can accept you being morally bankrupt and corrupt and evil. maybe even gay.#but does it have to be THAT man#n&m the fucking kids/younger brothers/whatever the fuck of L being Horrified by his fucking horrendous taste in men#conspiring in the background trying to figure out how to get rid of his boyfriend for good#OH MY GOD WAIT FIC IDEA#BYE
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Possession, Obsession, Devotion: A Study in Five Men
Nope, I havenât vanished. Super grateful for all your messages and the sweet support â seriously, thank you. Just swamped with work right now, so writingâs slowed down a bit. Still working on your requests, I promise! And Iâm knee-deep in a pretty massive, emotionally wrecking angst based on a Songfic prompt. While that oneâs cooking, I thought Iâd drop another batch of my random writer notes â all bundled up in one chaotic little post.
CW/TW: Headcanons, Possessive Behavior, Obsessive Love, Jealousy, Power Imbalance, Toxic Romance, Red Flags Treated as Romance, Intimacy with Control Undertones, Emotional Manipulation (Mild), Dubious Coping Mechanisms, Intense Emotional Dependency, Suggestive Themes, Mild Sexual Content, Unhealthy Attachment Framed as Devotion Genre: Romance-Infused, Erotically-Charged Drabbles with a Generous Side of Fluff Words Count: 8.6K
5 Petty Jealousies That Reveal Just How Much Calebâs Obsessed With You
1. You call another man âhandsomeâ â even as a joke. You were teasing. Flirting, in that harmless, breezy way of yours. Caleb laughed. Then immediately kissed you like he needed to reassert territorial dominance with tongue and body weight. Funny how your jokes always end with your back against the wall and his hand on your throat. Lovingly.
2. You go to someone else for help instead of him. You needed tech support. A charger. Help moving the couch. And instead of calling your six-foot-two, military-trained, emotionally unstable boyfriend â you asked Xavier. Caleb didnât say anything. Just stood in the doorway, watching, calculating how long it would take to move the entire solar system to make sure you never do that again.
3. You donât sit on his lap when thereâs clearly space.You chose the chair. Next to him. Not on him. Heâs not mad. No, no. He's just questioning the entire fabric of your connection and whether youâve lost all sense of instinct. And when you finally realize and climb into his lap? He sighs like a man being restored to life.
4. You post a photo where you're not touching him.Nice shot. Great lighting. Cute outfit. But why is he two feet away and not glued to your side like a shadow with military clearance? His arm belongs around your waist. His hand belongs on your thigh. And your caption? Shouldâve been his name, followed by a possessive noun.
5. You forget to wear his dog tags. He left them for you. Carefully. On your nightstand. The same tags heâs worn through hell. And you? Walked out the door wearing a cute sweater and nothing that says âbelonging to Colonel Caleb.â Heâll never say a word. Heâll just strip you slow the second you get home and fasten them back around your neck himself. With teeth.
5 Lies Caleb Tells Himself About You
1. âI donât care that she uses my toothbrush.âYou could take a fresh one. You donât. You reach for his, same as always â like that handle belongs to you more than to him. He mutters something about germs. Then watches you rinse with that smug little smile. And later, when you're asleep, he moves it back to your side of the sink. Right where you like it.
2. âShe can wear whatever she wants.âAnd you do. His shirt. His flight jacket. That tiny black top you swear is âpractical.â He acts unbothered. Says nothing. But the second someone else looks too long? He stands behind you. One hand on your waist. That casual kind of possessive that feels like a warning wrapped in warmth.
3. âI donât need her to text me when she gets home.âYouâre a grown woman. A Hunter. Youâve neutralized things with more teeth than common sense. You say âDonât wait up.â He says âSure.â Then checks his phone every ten minutes like it's a heartbeat monitor and he's waiting to hear yours again.
4. âItâs fine if she flirts. I know itâs harmless.âYouâre charming. Itâs part of who you are. You wink. Smile. Lean in a little too close. Caleb plays it cool. Says, âSheâs always like that.â Then grabs your waist in front of everyone and whispers: âTry that again, and Iâll fuck you so hard next time you wonât remember anyone elseâs name.â
5. âShe doesnât need to say she loves me every day.âYou say it once. In passing. A low little âlove youâ as you walk away, like itâs nothing. But he hears it like an oath. And that night? He holds your hand a little tighter. Pulls your body a little closer. Not because he needs to hear it again. But because if he doesnât touch you, he might forget how to breathe.
5 Things That Make Him Go Completely Feral (In Lust, Not Rage)
1. Your hair falls in his face. Leaning over him. Stretching across the couch. Just close enough that it brushes his cheek like it has rights. You donât even notice. But he does. Every time. He doesnât say anything. Doesnât move. Just breathes in and lets the world narrow to that one soft, smug part of you.
2. You chew on your thumb when youâre thinking. Not seductively. Not even consciously. Just a tiny bite to the edge of your nail while youâre mid-rant about your latest recon or trying to remember the name of a street vendor. Itâs nothing. Stupid. Barely a gesture. And yet â he stares. Tracks it like a countdown. Fists flexing slow. Jaw tight. Because that mouth should never look that innocent.
3. You interrupt him when heâs cooking. Heâs focused. Knife in hand. Half-distracted by heat and oil. And then you slide in behind him. Touch his lower back. Squeeze something you shouldnât. Say âSmells good, chef,â with a grin that makes his whole spine forget how to hold. He curses. Tries to shoo you off. You lick something off his finger. And now dinnerâs going to burn.
4. You try on his Fleet cap like itâs a joke. You lift it off the rack. Set it crooked on your head. Salute with two fingers and that smile that once made him fall off a training tower. âColonel,â you say. And heâs gone. He should laugh. He doesnât. He walks over, takes it off you slow, and kisses your temple like heâs reassigning you to a very different kind of mission.
5. You say âIâm yoursâ. Not in bed. Not in public. Just⊠casually. In passing. In that low voice you only use when somethingâs real. âIâm yours.âHe looks at you like you just disarmed a bomb with your bare hands. And then he ruins you for saying it so lightly.
5 Power Couple Moments That Made Everyone Else Jealous (And a Little Scared)
1. Youâre the only one allowed to fly with him in his military jet.Clearance denied. Protocol says no. Regulations triple-confirm it. And yet â youâre in the co-pilot seat, boots up, fingers tracing buttons youâre not supposed to touch. He doesnât stop you. Someone once asked why you get to ride with him when no one else does. He looked up from the cockpit and said, âSheâs my gravity.â End of discussion.
2. You only need to place your hand on his to calm him down.No words. No pleading. No strategic de-escalation. Just your fingers, settling lightly over his, when something in him starts to coil too tight. And just like that â his spine eases. The heat in his eyes lowers by a degree. People have seen him end arguments with three words. Theyâve never seen him go silent for anyone but you.
3. Youâre the only person heâll interrupt a briefing for.Heâs mid-sentence. Room full of officers. Tactical projections glowing on the wall. His phone buzzes. He glances down, sees your name â and pauses. âGive me five,â he says. And walks out without waiting for permission. Someone once asked who it was. He said, âThe only priority higher than this fleet.â No one asked again.
4. You walk in on his arm at the Farspace Fleet annual gala.Heâs in dress whites. Youâre in black. And the room â full of admirals, envoys, diplomats â parts like mist when you enter. He doesnât introduce you. He doesnât need to. Youâre not just his date. Youâre the one who makes him dangerous in silence. And everyone knows it.
5. You donât need words to communicate.One glance. A tilt of your head. A tiny shift in posture across the room. Heâs already moving. Already reading you like mission data. To others, it looks like magic. Intuition. Maybe telepathy. But for you two? Itâs just muscle memory â built from years of almosts, nevers, and finallys.
5 Times Caleb Was a Walking Red Flag But You Loved Him Anyway
1. He pulled the full personnel file on a man you once smiled at.You were being polite. Friendly. The guy asked something harmless, you laughed. By morning, Caleb had his record open on a secure datapad, scrolling like he wasnât reading a life â just calculating the risk factor. You asked what he was doing. He said, âI like knowing who wants whatâs mine.â And then kissed you like he hoped you never asked him to stop.
2. He showed up at your door at 02:03 AM. Soaking wet. Furious. Silent.You missed one message. One. He waited. Thirty minutes. An hour. And then something in him snapped. No threats. No drama. Just the sound of his knock like a warning shot. You opened the door. He didnât speak. Just stared. And then pulled you in with a grip like survival wasnât optional anymore.
3. He scared the hell out of a junior pilot for asking your name.The kid was fresh. Eager. Smiled a little too long. Said, âHey, what should I call you?â You started to answer. Then turned â and saw Caleb across the room. Expression calm. Stance neutral. Eyes loaded. The pilot apologized before you even said a word.
4. He slammed his hand on the table when you joked about breaking up.Just a joke. A throwaway line. Something stupid like âGuess Iâll go find someone less intense.â And his hand hit the surface before the words fully left your mouth. Not loud. Not violent. Just final. He didnât yell. Didnât argue. Just looked at you like youâd put a knife in his ribs and smiled about it. You never made that joke again.
5. He called you âdangerousâ â and meant it like a vow.It was late. You were arguing. You said something sharp. He caught your wrist and said it low, almost reverent: âYouâre dangerous.â But not like an accusation. Like awe. Like worship. Like heâd already decided to stay, even if you wrecked him completely. Even if heâd have to protect the world from you. Or protect you from himself.
5 Petty Jealousies That Reveal Just How Much Zayneâs Obsessed With You
1. Someone else bandaged your scratch. Just a graze. A stupid piece of shrapnel across your forearm. A colleague wrapped it up. No big deal. You came home smiling. Told him it barely hurt. He nodded. Quiet. Then excused himself to the kitchen. Five minutes later, he returned with antiseptic, clean gauze, and the words: âTake it off. Iâm doing it properly.â  You didnât argue. Neither did he. 2. Someone at work lent you their umbrella. A man. It was raining. You forgot yours. He offered. You accepted. Zayne didnât say a thing when you mentioned it over dinner. Just hummed. Neutral. The next morning, you found a new umbrella in your bag. Carbon fiber. Windproof. Labeled discreetly with your initials. You didnât ask how he knew the exact weight your bag could carry without straining your shoulder. 3. You asked the waiter to recommend a wine. It was harmless. Polite. You were curious. But Zayne was sitting right there. He didnât blink. Just looked at the waiter, then at you. Then took the list back. âActually,â he said, calm as glass, âshe prefers reds with less acidity. Iâll order.â You nodded. The waiter nodded. And somewhere between the clink of glasses, you realized that wasn't about wine at all. 4. You didnât invite him to your morning training. Heâd had a night shift. Surgery ran late. You wanted him to rest. So you left quietly. He woke up to an empty bed, your gym bag missing, and a silence that felt like a closed door. You came back to find his routine disrupted, his pulse still too fast â and a protein shake mixed just how you like it, chilled and waiting on the table. He never mentioned it. But now, if you decide to âlet him restâ again⊠your training starts later. And doesnât involve clothes. 5. You called another man âsmart.â It was a game show. Trivia night. Some stranger on-screen made a clever move. You smiled. âWow. That was actually really smart.â Zayne didnât look up from his tablet. Didnât even shift. But ten minutes later, you found yourself in a very precise debate about probability, strategy, and why that move wasnât that brilliant after all. You didnât argue. You just leaned closer. He didnât smirk, but you felt it anyway.
5 Lies Zayne Tells Himself About You
1. "Iâm just your cardiologist during exams." Itâs clinical. Professional. Necessary. He listens to your heartbeat, takes your vitals, asks you to breathe deeper â deeper. You unbutton your shirt. He doesnât flinch. Doesnât look. Doesnât feel anything. Except for the part where he adjusts his gloves a little too tightly. And maybe takes one extra second to remove the stethoscope from your skin. 2. "Lunch tastes the same without you." He orders the same thing. Same cafĂ©. Same tea. But the pastry tastes off. The space feels louder. The table â emptier. He tells himself itâs fine. Then brings the leftovers back to his office. Doesnât touch them. Just leaves the box where your hand might find it later. 3. "I donât need to pick you up." Itâs logical. Youâre a professional. Your job runs over sometimes. So does his. But your message was short. The streetlights are on. The buses are unreliable. He checks traffic cams. Weather. Public transit delays. Then sits very still, staring at his phone, wondering how to offer you a ride without making it sound like panic. 4. "Iâm not checking. Iâm sleeping." You once left while he was asleep. You thought it was kinder. Quieter. Now he says he âneeded waterâ or âhad a dream.â But every night, at 3 AM, his hand reaches. Just to feel your back. Your wrist. The smallest proof that you havenât disappeared again. 5. "Short skirts are inefficient." He says theyâre impractical. Not suited for cold weather. Definitely not for terrain with hostile wanderer activity. You raise a brow. He adds, âYouâre not seventeen. Dress like it.â But the second no oneâs watching, his hand is already sliding up your thigh under the table. And when you raise a brow at him, he just says, flat: âChecking for circulation.â Youâre not fooled. Heâs already failed the mission.
5 Things That Make Zayne Go Completely Feral (In Lust, Not Rage)
1. You straighten his tie. Youâre not thinking about it. Just reaching out, adjusting the knot, smoothing the line down his chest like itâs second nature. He stays still. Breath held. Eyes on your face. You step back. He doesnât. Because now all he can think about is using that same tie to bind your wrists to the chair in his office â and how many minutes he can steal between appointments without compromising your breathing. 2. You dip your finger into the frosting of his pastry. You donât ask. Just lean in, collect a bit of cream with your fingertip â and taste it. Oblivious. Innocent. Distracted by something else. He watches. Silently. And now the fork in his hand feels criminally unnecessary, because his mouth is dry, his mindâs gone blank, and heâs halfway to pulling you into his lap just to return the favor â with interest. 3. You take off your bra without removing your shirt. Itâs casual. Automatic. Youâre talking about your day, laughing, and then â One arm out. Then the other. The strap slides through the sleeve and vanishes into your laundry bag like it never existed. His brain glitches. His hands twitch. And he will absolutely spend the rest of the evening pretending to listen while picturing every technical step of reversing that maneuver with his teeth. 4. You imitate him. Badly. Youâre wearing his lab coat. His glasses. Sitting at his desk, brows drawn, lips pressed tight. Your impression is awful. He should be annoyed. But instead â he watches. Sharp. Quiet. And when you finally laugh and start to take it off, he gets up. Takes the coat from your shoulders himself. And tells you, too evenly, âYou forgot the gloves.â 5. You trace lazy shapes on his wrist while talking about something unrelated. Youâre saying something about your neighborâs cat. Something trivial. But your fingers are moving in a slow, absent pattern across his skin. And Zayne â who has operated on live hearts under pressure, who has held lives in one hand and death in the other â is currently struggling not to grab your wrist and drag you onto the desk. Because apparently, nothing in this galaxy has the precision impact of your fingertip.
5 Power Couple Moments That Made Everyone Else Jealous (And a Little Scared)
1. You have a keycard to his office.Not a guest pass. Not a shared access code. A permanent, personalized, high-level card to a room most staff canât even knock on without permission. You walked in one day mid-shift, casual, spinning the card between your fingers like it was a hairpin. Three nurses saw. One dropped her tablet. Rumors started before you even closed the door. Zayne didnât correct them.
2. When he received a prestigious award, the first person he thanked was you.Best cardiothoracic surgeon of the year. Cameras flashing. Applause rising. Everyone expected a speech about innovation and responsibility. Instead, he said: âIâd like to thank the one person who keeps me alive enough to do this work. My partner. My favorite interruption.âThen he looked straight at you. The auditorium melted.
3. Youâre both dressed like weapons. And everyone notices.He wears tailored coats, precision-cut collars, charcoal palettes like a tactical signature.You? Heels like blades. A suit that redefines âcombat-ready.â And when you walk together â sharp, silent, side by side â people stop talking. Someone once tried to photograph you. The headline read: Unknown dignitaries arrive. Security does not comment.
4. You donât argue. You duet.Someone crossed a line. Loud, drunk, smug. Zayne responded first â clean, cold, just one sentence long. The man blinked. Started to retort. You finished it for him. Elegant, sharp, no profanity required. He left. Fast. And you turned back to Zayne like nothing happened â while everyone else tried to recover from what could only be described as a linguistic orgasm.
5. He opens doors, buttons coats, and moves chairs like itâs instinct.Not performative. Not flashy. Just⊠precise. He adjusts your sleeve without thinking. Helps you into the car like itâs always been his hand. You barely register it. But the woman across the street? The one who saw it all from behind her coffee cup? Sheâs still texting her group chat about âthe man in the long coat and the woman who ruined my standards.â
5 Times Zayne Was a Walking Red Flag But You Loved Him Anyway
1. He gets live data from your heart monitor.Your Hunterâs Watch sends updates to the cloud. Zayne rerouted the feed to his private tablet. âJust in case,â he said. Now he knows when your pulse spikes. When youâre injured. When you donât sleep. You never gave him access. You never had to. The first time he called mid-mission to say âslow your breathingâ â you realized he wasnât tracking. He was watching over.
2. He absolutely hates when you drive. Always.You're capable. Fast. Efficient. And yet â every time you take the wheel, something in him shuts down. He doesnât argue. Doesnât protest. Just goes silent. And stares at the road like it personally offended him. He says, âItâs fine.â But he holds the dashboard too tightly for that to be true.
3. He freezes every time you say âI can handle it.âYou mean well. Youâre strong. You are capable. But when you brush him off with a casual âIâve got this,â he doesnât nod. Doesnât smile. He just stops. Eyes unreadable. Hands still. And when you come back later â even fine â thereâs already a backup plan on your datapad. Three versions. In color.
4. He never replies to emotional messages right away.You send: âI miss you. A lot.â His read receipt appears. Then⊠nothing. For two hours. And just when you start to spiral â he sends a photo. Of your favorite pastry. Waiting on his table. With one word: âSoon.â You hate how well it works.Â
5. He spoke to the man flirting with you like he was reviewing his autopsy.It was harmless. A drink. A joke. A compliment. You laughed. Zayne didnât. He stepped in, shook the manâs hand, and said: "Tell me, has anyone ever checked your prefrontal lobe for impulse control irregularities?"The man left. Quickly. You rolled your eyes. Zayne didnât apologize. He just took your hand. And changed the subject. Completely calm. Fully satisfied.
5 Petty Jealousies That Reveal Just How Much Rafayelâs Obsessed With You
1. Someone comments âđ„â under your photo â and you like it.He sees it. Of course he does. He sees everything. You think itâs harmless. He thinks itâs appalling that someone dared mark your beauty with an emoji better suited to grilled meat. He says nothing. But that night, you get a charcoal sketch of yourself in your favorite pose, signed with a tiny flame in the corner. When you ask about it, he hums. âOh, just honoring your admirersâ creative input.â
2. You linger too long in front of another artistâs painting.Not just glance. Linger. Eyes soft. Head tilted. That thoughtful little breath you take when something moves you. He stands beside you, perfectly still. Smiling. Then leans in and whispers, âCutie, if you start weeping, I may need to challenge the gallery owner to a duel.â You're not sure if heâs joking. Youâre also not sure you want him to be.
3. You talk about a beautiful place you visited⊠without him.Youâre glowing. Describing the light, the air, the view. He listens, nods, even asks questions. Then: âAnd did the sun taste the same without me there?â You pause. He smiles, all charm and cheekbones. âIâm just wondering how it dared rise, knowing we werenât together.â
4. You send him a photo â and thereâs someone elseâs hand in the frame.You didnât notice it. He did. He stares at the image like itâs a crime scene. Zooms in. Later, he replies: âBeautiful composition. Fascinating use of background tension. Would love to discuss the symbolism of that wrist â whose is it?â You laugh. He doesnât.
5. You say some actor is âexactly your type.âHe doesnât flinch. Doesnât blink. Just goes very still, then casually asks, âBefore or after makeup?â Later, you find your datapad background changed. Itâs him. In perfect lighting. Shirt unbuttoned just so. The caption reads: âStill unsure who your type is? Look into my eyes. Youâll remember.â
5 Lies Rafayel Tells Himself About You
1. âI didnât paint you. Itâs just resemblance.âHe insists itâs a study of emotion. A symbol. A face from memory. But the tilt of the head, the mouth, the birthmark near the collarbone â theyâre all yours. You ask, teasing: âIs that me?â He blinks. Smiles slowly. âCutie,â he says, âI wouldnât paint you without permission.â And then changes the subject. Very deliberately.
2. âI don't reread your old messages.âHeâs far too elegant for that. Far too composed. Except on quiet nights. On long flights. In museums where the silence scratches at his skin. Then he opens the archive. Just for the rhythm of your words. The accidental poetry. The way you once wrote âcome home soonâ like it meant more than time and place. He says itâs for âemotional reference.â He lies beautifully.
3. âI don't watch your mouth when you talk.âHeâs an artist. A visual thinker. Of course he looks at faces. But not like that. Not at yours. Not like heâs memorizing the shape of every syllable just to feel them later against his throat. Not like heâs fantasizing mid-conversation about shutting you up with his tongue and tasting the sentence off your lips. No. Never. Heâs listening.
4. âI havenât memorized your scent through every season.âHe claims not to notice. But he knows the spring version of you â soft rain, citrus skin, the aftershock of lilac. He knows the winter version â leather gloves, cinnamon breath, quiet wool. He doesnât name them. Doesnât chase the memory. But when you walk past â his eyes close. Briefly. Automatically. Like heâs gathering air before going under.
5. âI don't imagine your name with mine.âHeâs not that romantic. Puh-lease. Marriage is a construct, surnames are politics, and love is beyond paperwork. He says all that with a flourish. And yet â thereâs a notebook. Tucked under his mattress. Full of signatures. Yours. His. Just to see how it would look. Just in case.
5 Things That Make Rafayel Go Completely Feral (In Lust, Not Rage)
1. When you eat something juicy. Fruit. Fingers. With zero awareness.You bite into it slowly, distracted. Something sweet. Ripe. Juice glides over your lower lip, and your tongue follows without thinking. He watches, motionless. Not breathing. Not blinking. You glance at him. He tilts his head. Smiles. Says lightly: "That peach is about to become my personal enemy." You laugh. He doesnât. Heâs too busy wondering how itâs possible to be jealous of the fruit.
2. When you kiss his hand instead of his mouth. He leans in, expecting lips. Contact. Heat. And instead â you take his hand. Press a kiss into his palm. Soft. Deliberate. His breath catches. His throat tightens. Because that wasnât affection. That was submission. And now heâs wondering just how far youâd let him take it. 3. When you tease him with your voice. Not the words. The tone. The whisper. You say his name like silk sliding over glass. You ask âYou think so?â like it means âprove it.â You laugh â not loudly, but just enough to make his chest hurt. He could diagram it, break it into sound waves, prove the seduction in math. But instead, he just steps closer. And says, low: "Say that again. Slower." 4. When you sit on the floor, barefoot, flipping through his sketches â looking like you belong there. Youâre humming something. Knees tucked up. No shoes. No guard. You tilt your head, study a piece, murmur: âI like this one.â He doesnât even remember drawing it. He just remembers the way your hair spills over your shoulder and how the studio feels suddenly too small for how much he wants you. He doesnât touch you. Not yet. He just watches like a starving thing. Memorizing the moment in case he dies of it later. 5. When you say âmore.â In any context. âMore sugar.â âMore time.â âMore.â Thatâs all it takes. One syllable. One open door. You never mean it the way he hears it â but he takes it as a promise. Like permission. Like a match tossed onto something already too dry to survive. And the next time he touches you? He makes damn sure you say it again.
5 Power Couple Moments That Made Everyone Else Jealous (And a Little Scared)
1. He painted a self-portrait â with you reflected in his pupils. Not your full form. Not a shared composition. Just his face. Direct gaze. And in both eyes: you. Looking at him. Always. When the painting debuted in the galleryâs main hall, critics called it âa study in obsession.â He called it accurate. 2. In an interview, he said youâre the only one who gets his sketches. The host asked who his work goes to first â gallery, agent, press. He smiled lazily and answered, âHer.â The room stilled. âThe raw ones. The incomplete. The brutal drafts no one else deserves to see.â He didnât say your name. He didnât have to. The moment he said it, you were already trending. 3. He delayed his own exhibition opening because you werenât there yet. The venue was full. Lights ready. Guests murmuring. But he stood at the entrance, fingers laced behind his back, perfectly calm. âSheâs on the way,â he said. âShe had a prior engagement.â No one questioned him. Later, when you finally arrived â graceful, composed, in a deep sapphire gown that matched the evening â only he noticed the tiny scratch on your knuckle. The faintest shadow of something darker, just beneath the perfume. You smiled. He took your hand. And the doors opened like theyâd been waiting for you all along. 4. Someone flirted with him. He looked at you. Then said: âIâm already spoken for. Permanently.â It was charming. Playful. Someone touched his wrist, laughed softly, leaned a little too close. He didnât pull away. Didnât react. Just turned his head toward you. Found your eyes. Then said it â quietly, cleanly, like a closing signature on a finished masterpiece. 5. At a charity auction, he sold a painting titled: âPainted Between Her Breathing and Mine.â The crowd didnât know what to do with that. Some laughed nervously. Some applauded. The bidding started high and ended astronomical. But as the winning guest walked past you, holding the canvas with reverent hands â he still glanced back. At you. As if to say: That canvas holds the image. But I keep the original.
5 Times Rafayel Was a Walking Red Flag But You Loved Him Anyway
1. He can disappear for three days and return with, âI just needed to stop being jealous.â No warning. No calls. Just silence, like he fell off the planet. You panic. Rage. Rehearse five speeches. And then he walks in â composed, scented like night air and oil paint. âSorry,â he says softly. âI was being irrational. Had to⊠recalibrate.â You want to scream. Instead, you breathe him in like heâs home. 2. He destroyed the career of a critic who called your photo âpoorly lit.â It wasnât even a real insult. Just a throwaway line in a blog. But Raf read it. Once. And within a week, that critic was blacklisted from three galleries, publicly corrected by five curators, and accidentally misquoted in a viral controversy. You found out much later. He just looked at you and said, âNo one calls shadow a flaw when it falls across you.â 3. He faked an illness so you wouldnât leave for a mission. Nothing dramatic. Just a cough. A warm forehead. You hesitated. Postponed. Stayed. The next morning, he was radiant. Healthy. Annoyingly smug. You narrowed your eyes. He only shrugged, kissed your wrist, and whispered, âI needed one more night. Forgive the performance.â You did. Of course you did. The guilt felt almost like foreplay. 4. He left your clothes wet in the wash so youâd wear his shirt instead. Accident, he claimed. Timing. Cycles. But somehow, your entire outfit was still in the machine â cold, damp, and useless â while his favorite linen shirt lay folded neatly on the bed. You put it on. He watched you button it. And smiled like he'd won a silent war no one else even knew was happening. 5. He reads your messages without asking. Calmly. You know it. He knows you know. He doesnât deny it. Just traces your jaw one evening and says, âYou donât hide anything from me. Thatâs why it doesnât count as intrusion.â And the worst part? Heâs right. You stopped hiding a long time ago.
5 Petty Jealousies That Reveal Just How Much Xavierâs Obsessed With You
1. You nap on the wrong side of the bed.You nap on the wrong side of the bed. Not wrong, exactly. Just⊠not his. Youâre curled up in the late-afternoon light, peaceful, quiet, unaware. He doesnât wake you. Doesnât move you. But when you stir, thereâs a weight in the silence. His side of the bed is untouched. Pillow perfectly aligned. No warmth. No scent. And your blanket â tucked just a little tighter â like a quiet reminder that even when youâre here, somethingâs missing. Something heâs not sure how to ask for without sounding ridiculous. Like: your perfume. On his pillow. Where it should be.
2. You tell him about a dream. Someone else was in it.You describe it absently. A mission. A flash of danger. And a man â not him â at your side. He listens. Nods. Doesnât blink. But that night, when he kisses you, his hand stays on the back of your neck longer than usual. And his mouth says I want you, but his grip says: you donât forget me, even in sleep.
3. You keep something old, worn, unnamed.A keychain. A patch. A folded slip of paper. Nothing dramatic. But itâs always near. He asks, once: âWhat is that?â You smile. âJust something from a long time ago.â He nods. Never brings it up again. But two days later, he leaves something else beside it. Not to replace. Just to match the weight.
4. You let the barista choose your drink instead of him.You smiled. Said âsure, why not.â Took the new coffee without hesitation. He was beside you. Holding your usual. You didnât notice. But when you left the cafĂ©, his own drink sat untouched. And he walked a little faster. A little quieter. As if recalibrating the fact that maybe someone else knows your taste. Even if itâs just in coffee.
5. You close your laptop too fast when he walks in.âJust a movie,â you say. Too quickly. He doesnât ask. Doesnât tilt his head. Just nods and sets his gloves on the table like he didnât notice the flicker in your tone. Later, while checking your tabs, he sees the paused frame â teeth on skin, hands holding wrists, someone begging. Silently. His breath doesnât change. His expression stays neutral. But when he finds you, hours later, he doesnât speak. Just pins your arms above your head and kisses you until you canât remember what the scene looked like â only what it felt like when it became real.
5 Lies Xavier Tells Himself About You
1. âIâm not jealous of whoever taught you how to fight like that.âHe knows it doesnât matter. Itâs skill. Itâs history. Efficiency passed from one warrior to another. He tells himself itâs irrelevant. But when he watches you move â precise, lethal, beautiful â something coils in his chest. Not because of the technique. But because someone else saw you become this version of yourself. And he didnât.
2. âItâs logical to sleep apart sometimes.â You need rest. Space. Post-mission decompression. He understands. Itâs healthy. Statistically sound. But the first night you say âIâll sleep in my own apartment,â the bed feels wrong. His internal balance off by degrees he canât quantify. He tells himself itâs fine. Then stares at the ceiling for hours, heart syncing to a rhythm that isnât there.
3. âIt doesnât bother me when you keep things to yourself.â Youâre independent. He respects that. Boundaries are natural. But you say âIâm fineâ with a smile that doesnât reach your eyes, and he catalogs ten micro-expressions that say otherwise. Still, he nods. Doesnât push. Then replays your words in his head for the next three days, trying to solve you like a puzzle that refuses to open.
4. "I could walk away, if it ever came to that." He tells himself heâs rational. Detached. If you chose something else â someone else â he would adapt. But deep down, he knows: heâs already memorized your weight in his arms, the way your name fits inside his silence. If it ever came to leaving⊠he wouldnât walk. Heâd stay exactly where you left him. Quiet. Waiting. Ruined.
5. "You wouldnât lie to protect me. Would you?" You say âit was nothing,â âIâm just tired,â âI handled it.â And he accepts it. On the surface. But his mind starts building alternate versions. Safer ones. Worse ones. Ones where you bled and said nothing. He tells himself youâd never hide real danger. But he still checks your vitals in the logs. Every time.
5 Things That Make Xavier Go Completely Feral (In Lust, Not Rage)
1. You walk in wearing a bright yellow duck kigurumi. Absurd. Fuzzy. Zipped up wrong. You yawn, mumble something about tea, and pad across the room like comfort incarnate. He looks up. Blinks once. And forgets what he was doing. The beak hood. The bare ankles. The way you scratch your neck, half-asleep. None of it should be seductive. But now he canât look away. His gaze tracks you like threat assessment â only it's not danger heâs calculating. Itâs proximity. Access. How long he can pretend he's unaffected⊠before you end up against the wall. Still wearing the duck. For now.
2. You adjust the chest plate of his armor. No rush. Just fingertips over matte metal, sliding a buckle, pressing a clasp. Your hands linger longer than they need to. You donât even realize youâre doing it. But he does. Heâs counting your seconds, your pressure, the exact placement of your thumb. If anyone asks why his next shot missed the center by half an inch, itâs because you touched him like a secret no one else was allowed to see. 3. You peel off your combat gloves with your teeth. Itâs efficient. Quick. Practical. But the way your mouth closes around the strap and your fingers flex once, twice, before theyâre bare â Heâs staring before he knows he is. Processing nothing but the curve of your jaw and the memory of that same mouth around his length. The second glove doesnât stand a chance. Neither does he, honestly. 4. You wear a thin black choker. No explanation. No warning. Itâs not part of your gear. Has no field utility. But itâs there, snug against your throat like a promise no one else knows about. He sees it once and looks away. Sees it again and swallows too hard. The third time, he doesnât look at all â he just shifts in his seat like everything in his world needs immediate recalibration. 5. You say âlaterâ when he leans in. Just a little. Enough to feel the pull. And you smile, soft, apologetic, not teasing â just... not now. He nods, like he understands. He always does. But from that second forward, every calculation, every breath, every cell in his body becomes attuned to the moment you say now. And when you finally do â he doesnât wait. He doesnât ask. He just takes, like patience was never part of the equation to begin with.
5 Power Couple Moments That Made Everyone Else Jealous (And a Little Scared)
1. You moved in perfect sync â without saying a single word. In the training hall, you didnât say a word â but moved like a mirrored code. You shifted, he adjusted. You reached, he passed. No signals, no commands. Just two bodies in absolute sync. Someone watching whispered, âDo they rehearse this?â Someone else muttered, âNo. Thatâs just them.â And suddenly, no one wanted to spar with either of you. 2. Someone called him âtoo quiet.â You didnât let it slide. It was a throwaway comment ââHeâs so silent, itâs weird.â You didnât even look up from your drink. âThen youâve never heard him breathe next to you.â The room went still. Xavier didnât react. But you felt it â how he went still too, the way his attention locked fully on you. As if your words changed the temperature. 3. He braided your hair for three weeks while your wrist healed. At your desk. Between reports. No comments. No hesitation. Just practiced hands and quiet efficiency, like it belonged in the schedule. And maybe it wasnât romantic. Or loud. But after that, no one ever looked at you the same way â because somehow, without trying, the two of you had redefined what closeness looked like. 4. You didnât ask for his jacket. You didnât have to. A shift in the wind. Goosebumps on your arms. No complaint, no drama. He just stepped behind you, slid his cardigan onto your shoulders like it belonged there, and said nothing. The couple walking by paused. Stared. You didnât. You were already reaching for his hand. 5. Thereâs a photo of you on his desk. Just you, caught mid-laugh, in natural light. Among tactical reports and encrypted drives. He never explains it. Never acknowledges it. But everyone who enters that room sees it. And no one ever asks if he's serious about you. They already know.
5 Times Xavier Was a Walking Red Flag But You Loved Him Anyway
1. He monitors your meals like itâs a clinical trial. âYou didnât eat enough protein today.â âThat pastry had no nutritional value.â âAre you hydrating?â He says it softly. Calmly. Like a doctor. Like someone who cares. And yet â youâve seen him survive three days on black coffee and whatever snack bar was closest to his hand. You mention this once. He pauses. Then says, âThatâs different. Iâm used to operating under stress. Youâre not.â End of discussion.
2. He didnât argue. He made the argument disappear. You disagreed about something small. Nothing dramatic. Just opposing views. He didnât push back. Just nodded, quiet. Said, âIf thatâs what you think.â Later, you realized the entire issue â schedule, person, condition â was gone. Resolved. Removed. Replaced. No apology. No discussion. Just silence... and a solution that left you with nothing to win.
3. He never asked where youâd been.Not once. Not even after you were late. Not even when your message came hours too late. He didnât accuse. Didnât guess. He already knew. Tracked your path, logged your signal drift, checked your pulse history. All without a word. And still held the door open when you arrived.
4. He always calls via video when youâre in another city.He never misses a day. Never just texts. Always video. He says he likes seeing your face. That it âgrounds him.â And maybe thatâs true. Maybe. But every time the screen lights up, you notice how carefully his eyes scan the room behind you. How his voice sounds different if thereâs movement. How he never quite hangs up until you say, âIâm alone. Itâs quiet here.â Only then does he relax. A little. Maybe.
5. You told him, âSometimes, you scare me.â He said, âGood.âIt slipped out. Low. Uncertain. Not a joke, not an accusation â just the truth. He didnât deny it. Didnât soften. Just met your eyes and said, calm as ever, âGood. Then youâll stay alert.â And for a moment, you werenât sure if he was warning you⊠or protecting you from something only he could see coming.
5 Petty Jealousies That Reveal Just How Much Sylusâs Obsessed With You
1. You didnât tag him. He made sure the world knew anyway.You posted a photo. Cute. Stylish. Perfect lighting. But no mention of him. No tag. No trace. He reposted it within minutes. Same photo. New caption: âCorrection: mine.â It got five times the reach. And suddenly, everyone knew better.
2. Someone else made you laugh. Sylus didnât.The waiter was charming. A little too witty. You laughed â loud, unfiltered. Sylus just raised a brow, pulled out his wallet, and handed the man $2000. âFor your last night in customer service,â he said. He smiled. You choked on your wine. The waiter never came back.
3. You called some man a friend. Sylus ran a background check.âHeâs just a friend,â you said. Lightly. Barely thinking. Sylus smiled. Tilted his head. âIâm just a man with access to his tax history.âAnd that was the end of that conversation.
4. You said another man had a nice voice. Sylus gave you no air.It was innocent. Harmless. âHis voice is kind of nice.â Sylus said nothing. Just waited. That night, he read you poetry in three languages, one line at a time â mouth against your neck, breasts, stomach, thighs â until you begged him to stop. Not because you wanted him to. Because you physically couldnât take more.
5. You forgot to wear his ring. He didnât forget anything.It wasnât intentional. You were rushing. Distracted. But he noticed. Of course he did. He said nothing all day. Then, that night â when you were breathless, undone, on your knees â he took your hand, kissed your finger, and slid the ring back into place. Slowly. Deliberately. Like sealing a deal you forgot you signed.
5 Lies Sylus Tells Himself About You
1. âI didnât pick your outfit to match mine. Mustâve been the stylist.âIt was just coincidence. That your lipstick matched his cufflinks. That your dress followed the same line as his collarbones. That when you walked in together, people paused â like royalty had arrived. He didnât say a word. Just looked at you once. And didnât look away for the rest of the night.
2. âIâm not furious that I wasnât your first.âHe says it doesnât matter. Shrugs. âIâm not a teenager.â And yet, the thought of someone else touching you before him? It coils in his chest like smoke that wonât clear. He tells himself you chose him now â and thatâs what counts. But the next time you moan his name, he fucks you hard enough to make sure no one elseâs ever mattered.
3. âI donât answer your messages instantly. Iâm just always holding the phone.âHe just⊠saw it. Right away. Just happened to be holding his phone. Just happened to pause mid-meeting, mid-deal, mid-war â to write: âBe safe.â You tease him for how fast he replies. He teases back. And never mentions the part where your name makes him drop everything.
4. âIâm not obsessed with the way you say my name when youâre annoyed.âYou do it without thinking. That exact tone. That breath. That syllable dipped in heat. He rolls his eyes. Says, âWhat now, kitten?â But every time it happens â he shifts closer. Hears it again later in his head. And stores it next to the version you whisper when you want him most.
5. âI wouldnât beg. If it came to that. âŠBut only for you. And only once.âHeâs not that man. He doesnât plead. Doesnât bend. But when he thinks of you leaving â really leaving â something dark and fragile coils behind his ribs. He tells himself heâd let you go. That he wouldnât chase. But even in the lie⊠heâs already halfway down the hallway.
5 Things That Make Sylus Go Completely Feral (In Lust, Not Rage)
1. You ask him to zip your dress. Then donât wear anything underneath. Itâs casual. Innocent. âHelp me?â You turn your back, lift your hair, and wait. He moves slow â almost reverent. But when his fingers meet bare skin where silk should be⊠he doesnât finish the zip. He turns you around, steps in close, and says, âYou came dressed for trouble. Good. So did I.â 2. You say âdonât be gentleâ with a smile that promises youâll say it again, louder. He always controls the pace. The heat. The rhythm. But when you lean in, lips brushing his ear, and whisper those words â something in him fractures. He doesnât ask if youâre sure. He doesnât give you time to change your mind. He just obeys. And makes sure you feel the echo for days. 3. You use his tie to pull him into a kiss. He likes power. Centered, composed. Collar straight, voice cool. But when you grab that perfect silk tie, wrap it around your fingers, and yank â he stumbles into you like a man starved. You kiss him once. He kisses you back like vengeance. 4. You say âyes, sirâ in a tone that means the opposite. You drawl it. Sweet. Defiant. Like you know exactly what it does to him. He doesnât argue. Doesnât smile. Just leans in, voice low against your throat, and says, âKeep using that tone, kitten. Letâs see how long you last when I take it seriously.â You donât last long. Not that night. 5. You put on his ring and ask, âSo what does this buy me?â Itâs a joke. Almost. You twirl it on your finger, playful, reckless. He watches. Then smiles slow, wicked. âThat?â he says, stepping closer. âThat buys you a night where I donât stop until you forget your own name.â And just like that, you do.
5 Power Couple Moments That Made Everyone Else Jealous (And a Little Scared)
1. The earring incident at the casino. You dropped it. Somewhere between the blackjack table and the bar. Nothing dramatic â until your face shifted. That quiet flicker of loss. Sylus didnât sigh. Didnât scold. Just raised a brow. And a dozen seasoned criminals began crawling across the velvet floor. They found it in twenty minutes. You wore it for the rest of the night. He wore the look of a man whoâd moved the world back into place. 2. The arrivals are always his favorite part. You come back from missions â tired, sore, alive. And there it is: his sportscar. Engine humming. Heâs waiting with a bouquet of roses so rare you donât recognize half the species. The entire terminal watches. You donât. Youâre too busy smiling. He says, âWelcome home.â And just like that, the war disappears from your shoulders. 3. The seat at the head of the table. It was a high-stakes meeting. Old money. Dangerous names. Sylus led you in by the hand â then pulled out his chair. You blinked. He said nothing. And while you sat at the head, calm and poised, he stood behind you like a king who knows exactly where real power sits. No one even dared raise a brow. 4. The auction. Your hand. His silence. He gave you the paddle. Not instructions. You bid on instinct â numbers rising, tension thick. The item? A rare protocore with blackout-level clearance. Sylus didnât flinch. Not once. And when the gavel dropped â he leaned in, lips brushing your ear, and said, âYou can spend my money however you want, kitten. Just make sure they see you doing it.â 5. The moment the room lost him to you. It was mid-negotiation. Tense. Crucial. Every word counted. But across the table, your fingers tapped. Your eyes glazed. You were bored. Sylus watched. Then stood. âDealâs done,â he said. âYouâll take our terms.â And somehow, they did. Because the only person in the room whose attention he wanted â was already drifting.
5 Times Sylus Was a Walking Red Flag But You Loved Him Anyway
1. He knows whatâs in your delivery before you do. No one told him. But every time you order something â clothes, tech, vitamins â itâs re-screened. Not stopped. Not blocked. Just⊠âverified.â You only noticed when your favorite moisturizer showed up improved. New formula. Better scent. Hand-selected. Of course. 2. He said heâd put you on IV if you skip another meal. You were busy. Distracted. He asked what youâd eaten. You said, âDoes coffee count?â He laughed. Once. And muttered something about installing a medical station in your apartment. He was âjoking.â Until you saw the discreet courier bring an IV stand the next day. Just in case. 3. He took you to dinner at a place you hadnât been since Academy. You didnât realize where you were â until you saw your ex across the room. The one who cheated. Sylus just smiled. You were in a dress that made people stop breathing. He ordered champagne. Lobster. Left a four-digit tip. And made sure your ex saw everything. Including the way you kissed Sylus on the way out. 4. He froze your accounts. Just to prove a point. You said you didnât need his money. You insisted on âindependence.â So he waited until your card declined at the pharmacy. Then texted: âYou have my black card. Use it. Or stay home.â You gave in. He sent flowers. 5. He apologized like a storm front. You fought. It was ugly. The next day, a gift arrived at HQ. Then another. Then six more. By day four, your car was full. You marched to his door, furious. He opened it, leaned against the frame, and said, âTook you long enough. Come yell at me. Iâll pour the wine.â
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