#now everyone else has to suffer as well

[snootlestheangel]

Oh no! How? How could you “fix” it and stick to canon story line?

If you’re crying. I know I’m gonna be too!

I'm fuckjng sobbing right now, Tats, it's bad

Major Character Death warning for below the cut

So, I don't know if it's just me but the main reason Soap's death just sucked in like a bad storytelling way is that it felt so anticlimactic? Like, there was a bit of emotion but it was lacking and just felt weird and out of place. And then the scene with his ashes? Just like did he not have family? Was this something after an official funeral for him? That scene also just felt really fucking awkward.

Anyways, yeah I "fixed" those issues. In other words, I'm here with proper storytelling to make it hurt like it was supposed to.

When Ghost and Gaz are coming in, just after the bullet is fired, all Price can hear is the broken, desperate way the lieutenant screams for Johnny. After the bomb is defused, and they're all standing there when the realization hits. Ghost is already on his knees, hands hovering just over the bloody wounds on either side of Soap's head. For a moment, the only sound is the ragged, heavy breathing from Ghost as his whole body trembles.

Price can't even get the words out to update Laswell. Can't force himself to use the proper terms. Just manages to blurt out with a broken cry that "Soap is gone". And those three words are daggers to their hearts. Gaz lets out a small whimper and he turns and looks away because he just can't bear the gruesome sight before him. And Ghost lets out a sound so unlike him, no one really knows what it was. A growl, a whimper, a plea, a confession?

The quiet, mournful whisper of "You're supposed to be with me" doesn't go unnoticed by Price and Gaz.

In the plane, heading back to wherever, Soap's body carefully concealed and hidden away. And Ghost finally speaks. Tells them of a private conversation the pair had before everything kicked off. How Soap told him he'd want a proper funeral, nothing fancy but a send off nonetheless.

Ghost tells them how Soap wanted him, Simon, to go to the spot in the mountains overlooking the water and spread his ashes.

To let him go.

By the time Soap's family is notified and arrangements are being made, Ghost is nowhere to be seen. He's disappeared, vanished like the specter he's rumored to be. And Price is doing his best to assist with the arrangements, doing his best to notify those he'd think deserve to know that John "Soap" MacTavish is gone.

And Gaz is struggling. He feels he's lost two best friends. He feels like he's mourning alone, lost without the lieutenant there.

Lost without Soap and Ghost, Ghost and Soap.

It's the funeral now. Soap's family is a wreck, yet just like him, they're facing the dark with mournful smiles, not letting the darkness of the day chase their light away.

Laswell is the first to approach his parents. She praises their son and how well they raised him; saying he was a good man and a good soldier. Saying he died to save hundreds more. That they should be proud of how selfless and brave a man their boy was.

Price is the second. He apologizes. He never expands on why he's so bloody sorry. He can't. He can't bear to tell them that the bullet should have been for him but Soap took it instead. That Soap sacrificed himself for him. Because Price doesn't believe he deserved to be saved like that.

Gaz is the third. He tells them he'll miss his "brother", that he wishes they were all meeting under better circumstances. The conversation doesn't last long; Gaz walks away before he loses composure.

Alejandro and Rudy are next. Alejandro tells them of how Soap saved his life, how he is eternally grateful for the man. He tells them they should be proud, and yet that it is still okay to mourn the loss of a hero. Rudy prays with Soap's mum.

But the one person to never approach them is Simon Riley. He stands off to the side, looking lost yet emotionless all the same.

Soap's mother asks Price and Gaz something: "What about him?"

Price tries to deflect it, tries to say she shouldn't worry about others, this is her son's funeral after all. But she stops him. She tells him that "while he rarely spoke of you all, he spoke highly still. So I ask you, what about him?" And Price doesn't have an answer.

Gaz tells her "He's dissociating really bad. He's just not coping well at all."

And Price speaks on how special the two were. How they survived some serious shit together, just the two of them. How they were an unstoppable duo, a perfect pair on and off the field. That "wherever Simon went, Johnny followed."

The procession is rough on everyone. Price and his father take the front end of the casket, while Soap's brother and Gaz take the back. And as they walk down the aisle, the reality sets in for everyone there, and there's not a dry eye.

All except for Ghost. Who remains at the side, expressionless and slightly unfocused.

A candle is lit for him, and a line forms before his casket. Alejandro, Rudy, Price, Ghost, and Gaz.

Alejandro salutes first, and Rudy follows.

Price's arm raises firmly despite the quivering of his breath.

Ghost's arm raises slowly, like he's moving through water and his face ever so slightly twists with an almost confused pinch of his brow.

Gaz is the last to salute, eyes squeezing shut as tears fall down his cheeks.

But in that moment, something changes. Simon sees Johnny smiling at him. He hears himself ask "Are you with me?" only to hear the distant whisper of "Always, Lt."

But Johnny wasn't with him.

Johnny never got to know how much Simon loved him.

And Ghost broke. His hand dropped as his knees buckled, a painful cry worming its way out of his chest. Sobs rattled him as he put his head to the ground, the cold stone of the church floor seeping into him. He cried and sobbed and wailed, kneeling on the floor with his head to the ground. And he begged, he pleaded, he confessed

You're supposed to be with me

[cluescorner]

I cannot imagine being a Damian stan right now. You've got both Zdarsky's bullshit (where he clearly doesn't give a shit about your boy) and The Boy Wonder (where Juni Ba clearly gives so many shits about your boy) coming out on the same day. The whiplash must be insane. I hope y'all get some nice warm soup for your efforts jfc

[eddis-not-eeddis]

I am the most hopeful of pessimists

[just-another-obsessed-fangirl]

2 am and my npmd rotted brain is even more incoherent than usual but like... max explicitly saying that he views grace as "forbidden fruit", and while not said out loud, that is clearly also how grace views max... in christian doctrine, adam and eve ate the forbidden fruit and became sinful and unintentionally doomed the rest of humanity with original sin... grace having sex with max, tasting her forbidden fruit and becoming sinful and taking it upon herself to doom the rest of sinful humanity (well, dirty dudes, but she clearly doesn't have extreme qualifications for who could deserve that title)

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)

but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!

so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"

....

my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!

SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!

[thats-a-mood-gabriella]

"Shout Out to My Ex" by a Little Mix is a Verosika & Blitz song and I hate that I'm right about this but also I will hear no arguments otherwise.

[fantastic-mr-corvid]

im writing up the [long overdue] look at wotr Cecios childhood and pre game life now ive actually played through most of his run, but have a [somewhat] quick post about jjba him post Celias death and his relationship with Rametto/a<3

It would be an understatement to say his relationship with Rametto/a is one of his healthiest bonds with anyone. Its somewhere between siblings and old friends, them both united in their distance from the core of Celia & co- Celia, Tesoro, Conficcare, and the lingering memories of Elena. Coming after, they will never quite share that groups bond and will always be slightly on the outside due to not being the same age. that is to say they're both younger siblings, closer in age to each other than to their own siblings, and share the bond that those similar experiences form.

Cecio was for so long the youngest, the one coddled and protected, that he was partially glad when Conficcare brought a young Rametto/a to the flat and said they were both living there. the three years between them felt so little compared to the nine and six respective to their older siblings, and they soon got on well, partially because they would complain about overbearing and stressed older siblings.

Cecio was always protected by Celia, shielded from his actions, so the great thing about Rametto/a was he wanted to be a good friend to them, wanted to be able to comfort and help them, wanted to help them not feel so alone and disconnected from family. Cecio took on the role of the older brother, took on that responsibility, tried to be good for them. Cecio was very driven by a desire to help Rametto/a have a happier life, and its the one thing where he isn't primarily a selfish asshole preying on those weaker than him.

When Celia/Muro dies Cecio is devastated- for so long he had thought of them as untouchable and everlasting. But as much as he would love to wallow in his grief and lash out at the world, Tesoro and Conficcare also died, hes now the eldest, and hes the only person Rametto/a has left of her found family. So he steps up, he looks at who Muro was, at who Tesoro was, and makes a new mask, makes a new story, and swears his undying loyalty to Rametta. He could lose himself in his grief, but his little sister needs him- just like he needed Celia all those years ago.

Its hard. Looking in the mirror with his new shorter haircut, every time new memories of young Celia resurfacing, him seeing them with new eyes, with understanding he only has now. His understanding of Celia deepens, the lengths she would go to, the cruelty she could say was for the best- and the pride in her eyes, the hard earned smiles, the joy at quiet mornings, so hard won, even harder than he could imagine back then.

He does it for Rametta, for her smiles, for the confidence she holds, for the little sister that always pulled him out of his gloom. She doesn't need him, in many ways. if he died he is fully confident she could do it all, and do it better, but he hates the idea of her having to do it all alone, no-one she can trust to cry on, no-one she can share the joy she feels at being herself, the grief that the rest of their family will never see it.

He may be a selfish bastard, but when it comes to his little sister? he will do anything for her.

[ratcandy]

I have been mentally repeating the exact same scene for fwct in my head every day since I started writing it .and with every repeat it drives me more insane that I'm not writing that scene instead of literally anything else

[bibiana112]

Girl are you okay? Cause you've been looking through the "My lesbian experience with loneliness" tag again

Well the short answer is no :D

[menlove]

being a ✨historian✨ on the internet is hearing the worst most god awful fucking takes you have ever seen by ppl that have never actually studied history beyond youtube videos and tiktoks and maybe some trending half fiction half conspiracy book and just want to say smth they think is like earth shattering and edgy but is really just completely ahistorical and vaguely offensive but you can't even say anything bc you will get called an elitist and you kind of just

[perenlop]

havent read tbc but i think its so funny how shadowsight seems to be popular to the people i follow just because “the narrative treats him like all the female characters do so hes an honorary girlie”

[thotslayerdio]

hmm. this show is hitting a little too hard.

[forthedancingandthethriving]

"Wahahaha!"

Rolling with laughter, spitting onto unfortunate fellows!

"Gyahahaha!"

A light brush-off, a hymn of love loaded with compassion!

"Wahahaha!"

Get a taste, please, the status quo is boring.

"Gyahahaha!"

Tasteless superiority, this is the "answer." Have any complaints?!

Life or death, sink or swim.

A calculating life, a gambling game,

just keeps going up without folding.

Even exposed in the rain, even as I was crying alone..

The accompaniment track rings out..

[dingusships]

bigass vent over general life things

things in general are really not great i don't really have any optimism for the future or making a life for myself. like i don't really have any drive or ambition to look forward or work towards anything good/meaningful because as time goes on there are going to be really bad life events that i just don't think i can keep facing anymore. and theyre going to be worse. i'm just dragging along life solely on the basis that i was plopped here to just Exist and that's my task at hand that i'm reluctantly upholding. just exist until it's over

[samwisefamgee]

At this rate I’m pretty sure every day is starting with something new that makes my life permanently more shitty until god kills me

[eimearkuopio]

New model of organised religion: combination rehabilitation and education system, no longer a criminal trial.