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technically-human · 1 month ago

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EEEEE!! I love your stobotnik art sm! If ur open to it id love to see some more art of the pair interacting with themselves/each other in the future? 👉👈

Anyways, (eats ur art)

Stone has some regrets and Robotnik is learning some stuff

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#ask ask ask #stobotnik #agent stone #doctor ivo robotnik #sonic movie universe #eggman is time traveling #oof tumblr really decided to murder the quality on this one #we're getting heavy into my personal headcanons here people #but yes i basically think stone blames himself for everything that has happened to the doctor #boy wishes he had been there in the mushroom planet with his boss #i think past stone blames future stone like #i would never let that happen to him. how did you fail so badly?#but stone oh stone you will. you can't stop robotnik #meanwhile robotnik is not even considering that stone might feel this way #sure he is not above blaming stone for bad stuff #but stone wasn't even THERE for this bad thing #stone was probably somewhere else following his orders #stone was following his program if you will. he can't be faulted for that #so this is something stone will always have to carry #since the doctor will never realize it's a problem #oh a happier note I love how fucking stupid the future versions look next to the past ones #they're clowns now

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corviiids · 16 days ago

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to this day i can't get over how stupid it was to remove the headphone jack from phones. now if you want to use wired headphones you have to use the charging port. and then they made a stupid little external adapter you have to plug in that sticks out of your phone and advertise it as Hey now you can listen to music AND charge your phone at the same time! what an innovation! if only we could have done that before! the thing i want most from these increasingly sleek and efficient shapes and designs is to have a bunch of external bullshit sticking out of it to make it as clunky as possible! next they will remove the call function from your phone entirely and in order to make phone calls you will need to attach it by a twirly cable to an external keypad that plugs into the wall, and to enhance the speaker/microphone you'll be able to set your nice neat rectangle into a banana shaped device that sits nicely against your ear and mouth. and that's what we call innovation

#tbis is not an elegantly worded post im sorry i am too grumpy to make this like a well formed joke #it's just stupid. it's just so fucking stupid #removed from what i personally want as an individual consumer it is just bonkers bananas to be like #oh we're trying to streamline our design and make it simpler and cleaner #so we've removed essential pieces and now you need external add-ons #isnt literally the entire point of creating a multifunction device that i need to carry less shit around to make it work #no. of course not. im stupid. the point is to sell as much shit as possible #you know new phones dont even come with a fucking wall adapter anymore #rookposting #old man yells at reasonable grievance

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violentdelightshavevioletends · 1 month ago

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“Dain is just an imperfect 21-year-old kid who trusted his dad, and is a little over-protective telling his chronically ill friend to sit the fuck down.”

#Rebecca Yarros #Dain Aetos #pro Dain Aetos #REBECCA SAID SO #The Empyrean #Onyx Storm #Fourth Wing #Iron Flame #Rebecca Yarros quotes #The Empyrean series #can’t wait for Empyrean 4 #look I get it I had my phase too #but by the end of IF I’m just sad for him #OS was cruel to all #and re-reads are just painful #and yes I love him with Sloane #but I never hated him (I liked him in FW & wanted to LOVE him but it wasn’t right in the pov lens at the time… he’s learning too & TRYING).#and IF he picks Violet & goes to kill Varrish. He leaves EVERYTHING for the right thing. Hell in OS he translated for the nightgown lmao.#and then you reread and I just feel for (well all of them) but him too #He got his slap the fandom had their feels as did Violet now let’s move on and see them as full characters; cause he’s a great one.#and now I’m full pro Dain #As the interviewer said: “We all have some Dain in us.”#And yes (being a chronically ill person) there are people we love that say “sit the fuck down” and were like “stop it!”#but it doesn’t mean we don’t love them anymore.#“& yes he invaded her privacy but so did Xaden & yall don’t seem to mind that— IS IT BECAUSE HE’S HOT?! Cause that’s a double standard!”#Also lmao whoever said Dain wasn’t hot; did you forget the almost friends to lovers hook? More importantly ENEMIES TO LOVERS #“Gods don’t I know it”?! … We sure the man isn’t a dragon cause that line is fire🤣#the only thing he did wrong was invading her privacy (and yes on rereads that hurts) but it was his dad; he didnt know; he carries enough OK #I love Dain! Rebecca said she LOVES DAIN!! “I LOVE DAIN!”#this post better age well & not betray me

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justaz · 1 year ago

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merlin (immortal) giving arthur (pendragon) the only blade that could kill him

#they make me SICK #i hate them so much #if arthur had found out about his magic earlier and took it poorly…he’d be the only person able to kill him #merlin handing over the sword as a symbol of his utter trust in arthur #god imagine arthur finding out (au everyone lives) and being torn between wanting to cast the sword away but also wanting to keep it on him #he hates the weight of merlins life that now seems attached to the blade #he doesnt want it #but he cant cast it away bc what if someone gets their hands on it?? then merlins life is in their hands #he is BAFFLED that merlin would give HIM - uther pendragons son - the only thing that could kill him #he asks after days of fitful sleep and consideration and merlin is just like #‘its /you/ arthur.’ he says like its painfully obvious #NCJGSKSNSDIBSKSB TEYH MKAE ME VIOELTNT #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #excalibur #immortal merlin #merthur #im just thinking of percabeth when percy tells annabeth where his mortal point is and she is the ONLY person who knows #and she has to carry that tidbit of information around like its not the heaviest burden shes ever carried - more so than the sky #that one quote 'love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to'#idk you get it #arthur and annabeth being the only people who can destroy the one they love #merlin and percy having unwavering trust and faith in their other half that they place their life in their hands #literally #sorry im done

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burningcheese-merchant · 1 month ago

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Didn't Jack's reasoning develop Daddy Issus in him ??

You mean his extreme perfectionism? It contributes to it, yeah. Kind of a chicken and egg scenario tbh, hard to say which came first. Did Jack's fear of disappointing his father predate his perfectionism, and ultimately lay the foundation of its existence? Or was he born believing he always needs to be more than he is, and that impostor syndrome ended up creeping into his thoughts and feelings regarding his father? Who can say? He's not doing himself any favors regardless. In this situation, Jack is his own worst enemy. His feelings of inadequacy are like a perpetual motion machine. Always devising and "fulfilling" its own prophecies

If they would just sit down and talk to each other man-to-man, it would make a big difference. But Burning Spice hasn't been any good at talking to people in a long time (no matter how much better he's gotten as a person, there are just some things you lose that you'll never get back. Not after living a life like that), and Jack, well-intentioned little martyr that he is, never likes to talk about his problems. He buries them deep and focuses on doing right by others instead, all the time and forever. It's not healthy. It would hit a lot closer to home if his father sat him down, looked him in the face and told him he doesn't always need to put himself last, and he doesn't need to be afraid of not being good enough, because he is. He always has been.

#and i specify that Burning Spice needs to be the one to impart that wisdom to Pepper Jack over everyone else - including his mother...#...because of his past as the Herald of Change/History. Once upon a time BS wasn't so different. didn't think or behave all that differentl #feeling as though he always had to carry the weight of the world all the time. lest he let everyone down and be a failure.#Jack has it easier because he at least gets to be a normal person when he wants. BS was thrust into his role immediately. with no choice #so he understands that feeling. that pressure to perform. feeling like the world is watching you. expecting things from you. that was him.#it still is. but things are different now. He chose to accept the responsibility of co-ruling the GCK with his wife #he chooses to be a better leader to the Wild Spices than he was before. it wasn't dumped on his lap like being the Herald was.#he doesn't want his son to feel like he did then. he doesn't deserve to feel so much pressure. especially not as a child #the last thing BS ever wants is for his kids to end up like him. giving in to hatred and despair. he'd do anything to prevent that #if Jack would just open up about his feelings then Spice would try to help. reassure him that he loves him and is proud of him.#that he doesn't have to push himself so hard all the time. that he should be kinder to himself.#Jack has nothing to prove that he hasn't already proven just by being himself #cookie run kingdom #burning spice cookie #pepper jack cookie #burningcheese #goldenspice

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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago

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Social transition being seen (by some) as this super easy thing that isn't as hard as real transitioning (medical) is bullshit. Be critical of the idea that there are some trans people who just "have it easy" because they are trans or because they are trans in ways you may not be.

Social transition is just as difficult, hard, and rewarding as medical transition. Maybe it is not as hard for some, sure, but that is not the same as thinking that social transition is inherently easier or lesser. If you're socially transitioning, your voice still matters.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #not to mention that so many people DO want to medically transition but *can't*#so it can be even harder for some when they feel social transition is their only option when they don't want it to be #but social transition carries its own risks and challenges and again rewards #and i've seen this idea plenty where it's like 'oh you don't GET my struggles because you're SOCIALLY transitioning'#and while yes i am different than some trans people to say i'm struggling *more* if i'm the only one medically transitioning is??? huh????#i don't buy into this idea that social transition is never scary because you don't have the boot of the medical system on your back #(though non-med or pre-med transitioning people still face issues in medical settings so even THEN we aren't seperate)#like there's very few ways you can separate my issues as a medically-transitioning person and the issues of somebody who isn't...#...and by that i mean there's few ways you can separate our issues so that mine trumps theirs or that i'm seen as like... trans but More #does that make sense?#medical transitioning is important but that doesn't mean it is *more* important or that only *it* is important #you can support us who are medically transitioning without erasing the experiences and struggles of other trans people #and plus... so many of us who are medically transitioning NOW are the people who socially transitioned THEN #and dare i say i despised social transition more because of how hard it was? medical transition has been (more or less) easier...#...in that i can just *be* now

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demi-pixellated · 2 months ago

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Elves of Nalur

#Chronicles of Cassendenia #Kassier #Shan Halren #Grisha Onesh #OC #CoC ref #MSPaint Draw #less character ref and more general worldbuilding #and very not so secretly - animal practice #Nalur is made up of several ethnic groups and I wanted to -firstly- narrow down what the groups actually are #and -secondly- try and design them more visually distinct from one another and not just differentiated by their seals #so like what animal features carry over in their natural state (tails/wings/etc) and designing mostly unique ear shapes for each group #and then thinking also what carriers over when they've shifted which is mosty piercing and small accessories #their clothes are enchanted away and reappear as they shift back and forth #Bc i personally think it's annoying to have shapeshifters disrobe and redress themselves whenever they change #not inherent tho - Nalur magic is centered around shifting so young elves need to learn how to bend the magic to include their clothes #i have another group kicking around in Nalur but their broad enough to merit a separate post #but i also might add one more to the lot - i don't know to draw bears let's learn :D #now how all these groups work as a “country” that's for future myre to figure out...

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screechingfromthevoid · 8 months ago

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nothing (besides everyone ignoring Orym's deal) has made me angrier than watching Dorian keep up this facade. Dorian Storm has always been a type of mask he's worn. At first he called himself a liar because of it. The happy go lucky bard was a way of escaping for him. He was escaping Brontë so he created Dorian. He didn't believe he was Dorian. Until the Crown Keepers made Dorian real. And for a while, he really believed he was Dorian. That he has this new family and new life and he could be who he truly wanted to be.

And then his brother came back and made his problems Dorian's problems. Until he had to put Brontë back on. Because even if the Crown Keepers + Cyrus called him Dorian, he was Brontë. He had to be who his brother thought he was.

When Cyrus dies, the thread to Brontë had snapped. He was going to see Orym, back to the Bells Hells, back to Dorian Storm. But the foundation of Dorian had shattered. Dorian was created in order to run from his place in life, family, Cyrus. Now he was gone. The Crown Keepers had fallen apart. His friends fell through his fingers and he couldn't do anything to stop it. He was once ready to side with a betrayer god for these people and now they're in the wind.

So Dorian shows back up to Bells Hella and he's completely broken. The foundation of both of his lives has been thoroughly rocked. No brother. No Crown Keepers. The two things that forged Dorian Storm. He wears that mask so fucking well. Because he still wants to believe in it. He said it live on stage that he should "believe his own backstory". The one he made up. The one where he was a bard.

He wants to be Dorian so bad. He spends all his money on Orym, he spins the bottle so he can kiss his friends, he flirts, he blushes and giggles at compliments. Exactly how Dorian would, should.

But he wears the gold of the heir. He has a festering animosity inside his chest. He doesn't sleep. He's thinner than he was. He doesn't sleep. He sicks abominations after their creators. He talks to God's without an ounce of self preservation, daring them to strike him down. He does not acknowledge them as they taunt him.

The god of beauty and magic calls him beautiful and he does not smile.

#silver sending stones #cr spoilers #cr 3 e 107 #dorian storm #got carried away in both the post and the tags again #this was supposed to be an add on from those tags yesterday #but i went off the fucking rails so hard im gonna have to make another post #and listen.#i know people are ✨ multifaceted ✨#but i think its interesting to peel apart the layers of dorian storm.#because i do think all of this is just dorian.#like the rest of us he would not be here if not for his family. his brother. the crown keepers. bells hella.#he is informed by the things that happened in the past. none of these identities could have happened on their own #but if we're looking at the arch as a whole #theres the bronte era. the dorian era. and then era where they got very muddy. and the era now.#i dont feel like he's suddenly a secret third person now #but you know how we all look at the past versions of ourselves and wonder how theyd feel about us now?#dorian just has names for them #and because there was a mixing of both his lives i think dorian is having a hard time reconciling into one #he tries very hard to be both himselves #the man contains multitudes for sure #and idk i just keep picturing him as a little bronte. and exu dorian is smiling and singing with him. he tells him all about their friends #and current dorian looking at them. afraid to approach. afraid theyll ask about their future. afraid to tell them.#but theyd probably figure it out. hes wearing gold after all.

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chanelle-lize · 1 month ago

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I used to have a really hard time bringing up the fact that I graduated from high school a year late without feeling the need to explain why and insisting that it wasn't my fault while simultaneously kicking myself for how much I sounded like I was just making excuses for something I should take responsibility for.

Then I watched Dimension 20's "The Seven" and suddenly I could simply say that I was a super senior.

The first time I heard the phrase "super senior" was in reference to Antiope Jones, a Black girl who had been held back a year after getting kidnapped and imprisoned by members of a fundamentalist cult, and like, girl, same.

So, since then, instead of anxiously spinning out any time I tried to tell a personal high school anecdote, I could just say I was a super senior, and then my brain would auto complete that statement with "like Antiope Jones" and I'd feel good about myself because Antiope Jones Is That Bitch.

That's what the problem had been the whole time. I wasn't worried about how other people would perceive me; I had been struggling with how I perceived myself.

Thanks, Aabria.

#representation matters #especially absolutely batshit and (hopefully) unintentional representation because bitch what the fuck #antiope jones #aabria iyengar #dimension 20 the seven #dimension 20 #WARNING: Religious trauma/parental neglect/trauma-induced mental illness beyond this point!#no I'm serious I wasn't joking about the whole identifying with getting kidnapped and imprisoned by fundamentalists thing #shit's fucked; you have been warned #ok so I didn't get kidnapped but I did spend my entire childhood cloistered against my will by my fundamentalist parents #I was home-schooled from grades K-8 and then went to Christian online school from grades 9-11 #homeschooling isn't neglectful but my neglectful parents wouldn't have been able to isolate me without it #by grade 11 my mental health had deteriorated so much that I spent most of my time in bed dissociating and stopped doing any schoolwork #my parents correctly assumed the isolation was finally getting to me and enrolled me in a local private Christian school for grade 12 #it should have taken me more than a year to complete all my grade 12 classes + a handful of incomplete grade 11 classes & a grade 10 class #but as it turns out I am in fact also That Bitch and did it all in one academic year #I still genuinely thought I was lazy until quarantine showed me that EVERYONE gets fucked up after years of social isolation (wild huh)#Tags! Now with MORE BONUS TRAUMA! (brace yourself haha; Teeth CW)#it's important to me that Antiope is tall because the effects of the isolation and neglect were so pervasive that they stunted my growth #I'm of reasonable height for an adult at first glance (5'3) but I would have been a hell of a lot closer to 6'2 that's for damn sure #if you stare at me for too long I start to look like an animated scale model of a much taller person (because I kinda am lol)#everything about me is teensy except for my absolutely massive teeth #I had to get four extracted because they couldn't all fit #not wisdom teeth just four straight up regular healthy adult teeth had to be extracted due to a painful lack of space for teeth that big #I'm not sure if my teeth are the only thing that grew to normal size or if they're extra big because of some other pituitary fuckery #and yeah being tiny isn't that weird but people have always made a big deal about just how weirdly tiny I am #like kids younger than me used to carry me around like a doll #and now decades later I've learned about Psychosocial Short Stature and it all makes sense haha oop #anyways #told you shit's fucked

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st4rstudent · 10 months ago

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bugthinker but I just did whatever to him

bonus slop

#clemart #this hardly qualifies as toontown anymore #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #prethinker #brian ttcc #sorry the text is really small again i got carried away with notes #i have like 3 doodles where i just do whatever to his build for fun. this is the only one ive posted #personally speaking i think doing a build that plays more into the nervous-system (brain) aspect would probably be a bit more fitting #i dont have any ideas on how to do that right now other than just making him wires. which im not opposed to.#i need to send him through horrific experiments and see what it turns him into #color placements could be better but i did this without any other references other than a real life centipede so oh well #looking at this after i finished i realized it looks like his body is clumped together... its supposed to be wrapped around each other #screw ym stupid baka life #i think i once saw someone mention centipede brian. if they are out there... this is partially inspired by that #the other inspiration is just that i think the idea of characters being able to wrap around themself is cool

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degenerateshinji · 2 months ago

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LONG POST!!!⁉️

happy birthday to me and by proxy happy 4 years since i've (more or less) started digital art!! i've never talked too much about my art journey on here but i thought it'd be fun to share a few of my pieces over the years to showcase my growth

2021

i literally did not DARE draw without reference. I hated drawing characters with their eyes open because i never knew how to draw them exactly, and i hated drawing hands more than anything cause i just couldn't get them to look right. My colours weren't horrible, but they definitely weren't always great.

2022

aaaa!!! colourful!!!!! i started doing more anime fanart! i was kinda afraid to do it beforehand since i was worried i couldn't get the characters looking right since i didnt really have an anime artstyle and was mucchhhh more comfortable with more realistic proportions, which is why for the pieces here i also mostly used reference and then just plopped the characters' designs on top. my faces & hands were definitely improving, but not quite there. Also ocs!! i love my ocs!!

2023

welcome to the year of sskk and also the year i finally started posting comics!! (we ignore my webtoon that i definitely didnt have in 2022) im trying not to post too much art i already have up on my tumblr here but you can look up the sskk tag on my tumblr you can see how insane i was!! in fact, because of how much i drew them that year, i think i very rapidly improved at my anatomy and expressions AND hands compared to 2022. crazy what a hyperfixation does to you

2024

getting daaaangerously close to tumblr's image limit and also 2024 was probably my most active year on tumblr to date, so it's all here anyways, but here's some of my favourites for my overall improvement. i'm not sure i drew a single background all year.

2025

anyways!! we're all caught up now! These two have been my favourite drawings from 2025 so far (one of which im techincally not supposed to show yet, oepsie) and i hope i can make hundreds more that i'm proud of! i've never really set up my art and looked at it side by side, so seeing how far i've come in the last four years is actually kind of heartwarming. thank you so much to everyone who's followed me and supported me & my journey! im getting sappy now so i'll stop jaja

#crazy to think i first got my art tablet 4 years ago its been so fucking long bro ive been at this for forever #was drawing on an ipad before that now THAT art is cooked #i did do digital art before but like i used to be a gacha life girlie like it was not actual people drawing #it just mostly got me used to colouring and nothing else #i learned pretty much all my anatomy in the past 4 years so i do consider myself only really having started once i started drawing on pc #happy 4 year old birthday to my wacom intuos S LMAO #that thing has been with me for forever that thing will continue to be with me for forever i am in fact never getting a new one #art #digital art #art journey #art improvement #art milestone #digital artist #original art #original characters #ocs #my ocs #my art #fanart #angel beats #saiki k #sk8 the infinity #bungou stray dogs #charlotte #chainsaw man #genshin impact #link click #<< feels weird to fandom tag a personal post but. like its fanart what else am i gonna do #anyways shoutout to pinterest for paving literally all of my art in 2021 half my art in 2022 #shoutout to my autism that bsd hyperfixation absolutely carried my 2023

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frogaroundandfindout · 10 months ago

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As a child, Dick liked to tease Bruce by dropping his voice as low as it would go and mimicking the Batman voice.

As an adult, Dick stares at the tattered cowl clutched tight in hands crusted with his fathers blood and thinks of how much it used to hurt his throat.

Why does it always have to hurt with Bruce?

#implied context now made explicit: Bruce bleeds out in front of dick and dicks hands are bloody from trying to stop it with no supplies #in his last moments Bruce gives dick his cowl in an act dick interprets as Bruce passing on Batman to him #he doesn’t want it and hates that he feels like this #views it as Bruce’s final act of love and cruelty in their relationship #he does it anyway because no matter what has happened between them he’s always loved and been loyal to Bruce #Bruce meant it as a symbol of Batman being laid to rest with the one person he trusts to do it: his first Robin #the one person who truly knows its weight getting rid of it for good #a tattered mask taken away and given to dick in the same way dick gave his Nightwing suit to Bruce in Nightwing vol one #for safekeeping and out of love and remembrance #not a desire for it to be carried on #dick grayson #dc #nightwing #Batman #bruce Wayne #I make myself sick actually #angst #I’d be mad but I was the one that thought of it #dc comics

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philsdrivinglicence · 3 months ago

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It's midnight! I officially see Dan and Phil. TODAY!

My big 26 year old self is going alone to a city an hour away to honour little 11-16 year old me who lived too far away and couldn't afford any of the previous tours. I'm so fucking excited I could cry.

#you ever wish you could actually speak to your child self and just excitedly geek out about something with them?#like i see a lot of art and literature about resturning to your younger self to console encorage or motivate them #but what about just fucking drawing cat whiskers on each other's faces and scream laighing at dnp video's together #despite it all its still you etc etc #i've been a fan of these goobers since 2011 and i never even knew anyone else on my real life that liked them #still don't #i feel like she is the one person i'd love to share this moment with and i know i carry her with me still #and i will be letting her to the front full force tomorrow night I can't WAIT!#i'm very happy with my life but i often worry my younger self would be a bit bummed to see where i'm at right now #as a lot of my grand ideas haven't happened (yet) but I know for certain she'd freak out if we could switch places tomorrow #and i intend to honour that #shamelessly #dnp #dan and phil #in my philosophical bag #might make a personal post about this tomorrow #we'll see #yapping #phan

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ang-li · 3 months ago

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does anyone ever think about how rachels post gm lifestyle is basically as taylor described to her when they met up in new delhi and taylor never got to fulfill her side of it.. but a part of her will always be in rachels life because it was taylors care and companionship that helped rachel forge this life for herself and build a community that supports her.....

#one thing ward was good for was getting me really emotional over rachel lindt and how far shes come #sometimes i spontaneously remember her letter in worm and get nauseous #'being around you wasnt simple or quiet but things made more sense' lets all go kill ourselves right now.#taking the puppies round taylors place to show the kids... and she continues that years after. cause its fun for both her and the kids..#dont even get me started on #'your minion with the dark hair says we need to be around people but im around people and still feel somethings missing'#i will blow this whole building up. i mean it #they loved eachother so much and though taylor was too busy killing herself to remain with rachel #the time they spent together shaped rachel as a person and she carries taylor with her in that #ive spent like the last 30 minutes writing and rewriting this shit through tears theyre really getting to me #parahumans #wormblr #wolfspider #to be loved is to be changed and whatnot

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shikai-the-storyteller · 3 months ago

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It's taking me ages to write this chapter because every time I look through old VODs / notes to check something, I come across moments like this that make me want to lie down face-first on the floor:

[Context: Pac commits to the idea of taking the Happy Pills so he can create a cure. He's about to write a note to Cellbit to explain his plan.]

Pac: If Cellbit puts himself in this position, it's worse for everyone, because Cellbit is smarter when it comes to coming up with strategic plans, so he is the thinking mind of the Favela Five group, so if he no longer has the mind, he’s not capable of solving this whole problem, you know? But if I put myself in this position to help Cellbit so he can get the cure... You understand? It's better if I'm the bait. Right? I can't- I can't carry things alone guys, I've already lost Mike [...] if I lose Cellbit and I alone had to carry things, I won't be able to. But I think Cellbit can manage better. He is more independent, and he has Roier. He has a husband. I'm trying to– to be lucid here, understand? That's all.

Date: September 11, 2023 || Timestamp: 03:10:10

#i talk #qsmp talk #Oh Pac... :((((#I know the Happy Pills arc is soured for a lot of us (for valid reasons) but I still love it because of how vital it is to Pac's character #This arc is what solidified him as my favorite character. He was so brave and he's so full of love and grief #Aghh. Those self-worth issues man... :(((#Pac cubito I carry you in my heart forever and ever and always #fic talk #I don't know if it's funny or miserable that whenever I fact-check myself thinking #''Am I misremembering this / misrepresenting this? Is this too grim?''#The answer is no I hit it dead center #I love Pac's dynamic with all the Favela members but Pac and Cellbit's relationship dynamic has so many layers #it's fascinating to explore #Especially since in the stream before this he had a complete breakdown because he was terrified Cell was going to come back #Love and fear and friendship and anger and hate and healing...#So many layers #The murderer who once mauled him who he left to die #Now a dear friend and co-parent of his son #It's fascinating #What breaks my heart is when Cellbit finds out Pac took the Happy Pills a few days later and they have a confrontation #Cellbit tells him ''You were my only hope- the only scientific person who could create a cure; how are we supposed to save you?''#''We still had one another and now I'm alone!'' <– As always please take my translation with a grain of salt #But man. MAN.... Pac saying Cellbit will be fine he can handle things on his own and he has Roier #vs. Cellbit having the same fears of being left alone #I wonder if; even for a moment; he remembered what it felt like when Pac (e Mike) abandoned him on that Island after Fuga #Obviously he realized / later learned why Pac took the pills but AGH!!!!!!!!!! It hurts.#I wish they logged on at the same time more frequently I WISH we got to see them interact more #I can't really explore this too much in the Fit Pac fic but I am delving into it in the Pac fic #I don't think I'll go as in-depth with the Happy Pill stuff as I'm doing in this fic though. This has been exhausting. It's a heavy arc #(Stream date: September 13 2023 || Timestamp 1:34:00 for Cellbit's POV of that conversation btw)

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innocuous-gnome · 6 months ago

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so i read the infinite noise last week

(to clarify i fucking loved it i just had a lot of emotions)

#joe speaks #joe rambles #the infinite noise #the bright sessions #my entire brain has been the bright sessions recently this is all sarah's fault #caleb and adam are sooooo precious to me and thats partially bc they hit really close to home bc adam is basically me #i would like to personally thank lauren shippen for ruining my life (/pos)#i could write a fucking ESSAY about adam and how similar we are and how much he makes me feel seen #i have now read the infinite noise two and a half times in one week #been carrying it around in my bag like a safety blanket

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