#nothing i say is mine now
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Listen, this is a pretty hopeless vent below. i am rational and know things are going to keep working and laws are getting drafted, but a vent is a vent.
And I felt pretty hopeless.
Don't you feel terrified that even to your best abilities, AI can generate something arguably better, economically viable? Doesn't it make shivers down to your bones knowing your 20 or so years of efforts are now worth pennies, and the future you planned os now only the next 5 years until it's fully trained?
Doesn't it scare you that people who pay to use it are paying to have the privilege to train it and soon enough they too will be replaced? That artistry is one of the most ancient works, a millenary job, the expression of human existence, and it's now commodified with the blood and sweat of every artist that existed before? That those artists, the dead and alive ones, never ever and never would agree with their work being used like this? And that there's people who rejoice on the misery they feel?
That the joy of seeing a new art is dead because you have to make sure you're supporting a real person? That the smile is replaced with a double take, a zoom in on the features?
The complete destruction of the search engines that both show and spit out nonsense, for the untrained eye to be unable to know the reality they love in, as well of the past they'll never get to fully understand, because a machine who knows nothing generated some Greek art? Indigenous? Fake animals? Fake political mishaps?
Doesn't it make you cry that you'll never have money to throw at the problem because your enemy has more money alone than all of the 99% living humans on this earth at this moment? That they're happy never to ever hire an artist again? A voice actor? A designer?
That my dream was once to sell my art on DeviantArt and recently they congratulated the biggest seller they had, who's now an AI generator that makes ladies with big boobs.
That other people who don't know my grief tell me to "adapt" and "use it too" so I won't be forgotten?
To make me wonder how people once made the most beautiful lace by hand and now it's worth less than what I breathe and that's now my future?
That once art brought me joy and now it makes me wonder for how long can I keep doing it?
#its extremely negative#yo see friends and family share that stuff and they dont know#the fake facebook ads#the scammy “share my art” posts that are just content farms#the misery of everyone around me#it's everywhere#its on this fucking samsumg tab#its on thos fuckin phone#i uses my art and charges me for it#nothing i say is mine now
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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess
#ramble#ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so#i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion#i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party#i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is#basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft#like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering#and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it#i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear#but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them#and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs#but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT#and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird#idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it#like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going#recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know#maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel#hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible#i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.09
Karen arrives.
#Daredevil Born Again#ddba spoilers#Frank Castle#Matt Murdock#Karen Page#Daredeviledit#Daredevil Spoilers#Kastle#Karedevil#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#This show ACTIVELY fights me in photoshop#And I had to move them closer together in that 5th one because they were trying to not in the same frame and it was annoying.#I can understand they had limited time - limited budget - but STILL this scene and#the one preceding it with Frank and Matt fighting together... could there not have been more of THAT?#GIVE ME THE THREE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE (that you've not killed so you can continue to torture them) AND LET THEM HANGOUT FFS#I like that one swing from a building was the limit for Frank. Give him a gun. A knife. Something to hit people. He's awesome.#Throw him off a building so he can land on a nice soft car - no thanks.#And were they just going to walk home (to Franks's)? Or like steal a car?#And there was a guy in the car they landed on/next to and nothing happened there. Was he just a bystander?#Does Matt have insurance? And does it cover his secret lair/costume room?#Did Karen drive straight from the airport?#And Frank just STARING at Karen is perfection. Like he needs to drink her in.#And THIS is the moment I thought Matt first noticed something was up with their heartbeats - just the way he swung around to Frank#I'm picturing Karen moving her seat forward to give Frank some more leg room. Her eyes flicking up to the rear view mirror as she tries not#to grin. Coz they're injured. And on the run. She can enjoy being home later.#And I imagine Matt's slowly assembling some thoughts here about why Frank didn't say Karen called... when that would be obvious.#But also being slightly distracted about now being homeless.#And the relief of Karen being back.
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See, if I stopped fighting it, even for a second, I'd be gone.
#the wheel of time#wot s3#wot edit#wot on prime#rand al'thor#moiraine damodred#wheel of time season 3#mygifs#mine: wot#I've given up attaining anything with the Rand scene#look I have theories about where this is leading but that might be spoilery#for now I'll say this: we've seen Egwene once and Moiraine twice call out his name to bring him back#except that last time Moiraine had to touch him to help him get back#it is gradually taking more to do so#and again there's nothing as chilling as understanding that this is what Moiraine was talking about from the start of the season#he will go mad#that is a terminal prognosis#and both Aviendha and Egwene were chatting about prophecies not fully grasping what it meant#I'd wager the finale will show us exactly what it means and I'll have another nice gifset parallel to make#Rand sees Moiraine as trying to help only the Dragon not Rand#but he fails to accept he IS the Dragon#it's not a Doctor Jekyll/Mister Hyde situation#the madness will get him just as surely#if the Forsaken gets to him it won't be only the Dragon who loses#it will be Rand al'Thor and everyone he cares about
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Okay swinging completely from the horror crossovers: Dead Boy Detectives/Mary Poppins crossover
We tend to compare it to a Bag of Holding, but Charles’s backpack is clearly more directly based on Mary Poppins’s carpet bag. (Mary Poppins even pulls out a large mirror from her bag at one point, that she then uses to do magic things with.)
Also, Mary Poppins (the movie) is set in 1910.
So may I propose Edwin having had Mary as a nanny at some point in his young childhood? He dismissed everything when he got older as some sort of childish imagination, until at some point - maybe as a distraction in Hell, maybe once he got out and started learning magic - he realized it was all real.
He recognizes the look of a potion she gave him once, and stirs a spoonful of sugar into the cauldron even though the book doesn’t say to. (The potion works much better than the book thinks it should.) He remembers her bag, and how it felt to what he now recognizes as magical senses when he touched it, and when he finds a backpack on a case he hands it to Charles and tells him what it does. He’s never quite been able to get Mary’s snap to work to tidy up the office, much to his dismay.
And perhaps someday, a woman comes to the office, and Charles starts to turn her away - sorry, ma’am, but we don’t take mortal clients, may I recommend you to Constantine? I can give you the address - and she says “Oh, but I’m really nothing so simple as mortal, I’m afraid. You can ask Edwin, if you’d like.” And Charles turns around to see Edwin’s jaw hanging darn near to the floor.
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#charles rowland#payneland#at least in the tags lol#mine#sometime in 2025 Edwin half-remembers something he was told once -#‘one night I said it to me girl and now me girl’s me wife’#and mutters under his breath a word that sounds like nonsense#Charles says ‘what? was that Sumerian again?’ and Edwin says ‘nothing’#but a month later…
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#mine#doctor who#dwedit#david tennant#doctor who unleashed#:'))))#ok i've been making gifs on and off all day today#i should stop now lmao#my first weekend in a while where i have had nothing to do and nowhere to go#and i can finally just think about dw in peace!!!!!!#anyways i love him!!! and i love dw unleashed!!!!#i hope my work week goes by quickly and then it'll be saturday again woohoooo#but then that also means saying goodbye to the doctor and donna again....... ;A;
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Marty McFly + 5 songs that I associate with him:
"I Can Survive" by Triumph "Never Give Up" by Sammy Hagar "Finally Found A Home" by Huey Lewis & The News "Summer of '69" by Bryan Adams "I Wanna Go Back" by Eddie Money
#back to the future#bttf#marty mcfly#now. time for some proper tag ramblings#first of all hi everyone#I know I haven't posted anything substantial in a long while#and I just want to say that I'm still here#my life and my free time and time spent doing something creative have just been so weird lately#but I am not dead#second of all#why am I so weirdly picky about making character playlists?#I started off with twenty options and nit-picked them all to death#so instead of a playlist I give you a very small and elaborate list of song suggestions#third of all#I can't shake the feeling I've used this layout before#I already checked my old posts and there's nothing in common except for color palettes#I think I had an old draft from long ago that resembles this one but never actually got posted#fourth of all#my folder entitled ''Marty - faceless'' has patiently been waiting months for this moment#and finally#I know that “I Wanna Go Back” was originally performed by Billy Satellite#but I prefer Eddie Money's version for this#mine
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Is there anything more weak than the attempt to shut down all media analysis and critique by appealing to a "everything is valid and different! Stop making it a pissing match," point of view? Either the stories are "too different" to compare and contrast, or they're "ultimately all fma so why should we fight". Maybe some people can't get it through their heads, but disagreement, venting amongst those who feel similarly, and critique are not inherently a fight.
And I'm sorry, but "breaking the cycle of violence" is a shit trope to tack onto a plot that uses a genocide and ethnic cleansing as its foundation, with heaping layers of "those poor little war criminals, stop being mean to them" to add insult to bad storytelling.
#now that being said when people say some out of pocket shit then they better be able to handle talkback#yes this is a vague post#yes i'm bored to tears seeing endless appeals to ''leave mangahood alone'' from broho people especially#your fave media isn't untouchable and some of us simply won't treat it that way rip#i don't care if someone likes 03 too or is chill with 03 enjoyers because! critique! is! not! an! attack!#mine#wait i'm not done#y'all have a very rosey view of the supposed tranquility of the broader online fandom#because 03 people largely have to stick to discord or other smaller/silo'd avenues to talk about the show#without having unending shit dished at them for simply liking 03 (even if they say nothing about or against mangahood)#and listen: analyze/dislike/critique 03 all you want. that's not the problem#the problem is how a lot of mangahood fans treat anyone who even dares talk about 03 or thinks dislikes their fave show/manga#yes this is all ridiculous but you lot are identifying the wrong things as the problem!#vent
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Oyster, origami, one square of paper. Loosely modelled on the black-lip pearl oyster.
#mine#origami#oyster#oystermash#original model by Roberto Morassi you can find the diagram in#Modelli di Roberto Morassi p. 35#I say loosely modelled bc his own is just I suspect one of those generic 'pearl let loose on a scallop shell' type of imagery#now i have nothing against bathroom decor tackiness (evidently)#but I did want smth a bit closer to nature#I chose this type of oyster specifically bc I needed one with a round shell given the model I have and this one happened to be there#also I saw a cool picture of the flesh inside it so I had to recreate that with the additional folds created by the pearl#anyway enjoy! personally I think this fucks
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jonghyun hasn’t been talked about this much since almost a decade ago.. what it does to me is indescribable
#i feel so disarmed that’s more than i ever could’ve hoped for#what do you mean he wrote and composed the track. what do you mean he’s included in the entire process start to finish#what do you MEAN one of my favorite guys. part of my soul. he’s getting celebrated and talked about and honored in a GOOD way#to be honest id been getting sadder and sadder in terms of making peace with the fact we’d only ever get crumbs.. a mention of his name#here and there.. a fun story told by taemin or a reminder of love from key.. but nothing more than a fleeting moment#and it felt kind of almost like shouting into the void making my jjong posts or like. trying to dig a mine with a spoon#and now it feels like. idk. it feels like golden daylight after a LONG night#like im so taken aback idk what to say like. happy doesn’t cover it happy sounds silly in comparison to how i feel
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silly doodle for my fursona since i made her 11 years ago today :-)
#my art#YAAAAY KADEN BIRTHDAY#featuring her new design bc i keep forgetting to update her ref#ive been a furry for 11 years. isnt that something LMAO#im on fall break now!!! doing a lot of recharging bc the few days before break have been making me wanna eat my keyboard#< nothing crazy bad going on its just the work im doing being super annoying + dealing with a weird bout of imposter syndrome#BUT ANYWAY!!! happy birthday kaden. kissing his big head#i have a couple of things i wanna do for my next tattoo/its just a matter of committing but i Do want to get a cat#< I DO WANNA NOTE kaden and i have dif birthdays :-) mine was at the end of october hehe#but i do draw kaden on my birthday bc he is me but he is also Not Me . but he is. yk LOL#tattoo somewhere to honor kaden. just a standard shorthair/nothing that necessarily reads that im a furry#or the cat having her design bc it changes every now and then bahaha#AND LIKE IM VERY CERTAIN I WANT A CAT TATTOO FOR KADE LOL shes been a staple of my life for Eleven Whole Years#and shes helped me accept parts of myself. bc if i gave her the traits i had/have and i still loved her. then i could love me too#and that has drastically helped with So Much and my therapist says thats actually#a great therapy tool. forget the exact wording but the idea is there#everyone make a fursona now. ur homework is making a fursona and loving them. and then loving urself
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Well anyway...I finished Once Bitten Twice Dead.
...Can I be real with you all?
I kinda really liked it.
More under the cut, maybe some spoilers:
Yeah, just from an objective standpoint, the book is decent. Definitely very YA, but the writing is good, the story is interesting, and the characters were written very well. It did really feel like I was watching a genuine MH movie in my head at certain points. And while I don't love certain choices made, I was kinda impressed with some of the plot points the author came up with. Very bold of her to kill of Dracula in such a way.
The beginning was probably the weakest part, mainly because it throws so much at you at once, and it's a lot to take in, but it all comes together pretty nicely in the end. And maybe this is giving the author too much credit, but it kinda puts you in the same headspace as Draculaura who is dealing with a lot on er plate immediately.
This isn't to say I don't have some major issues with it. I'll never agree with the decision to break Draculaura and Clawd up to pair her with a mediocre normie dude, however, I think it was clever that the author drew parallels between their romance and Dracula and Draculaura's mom. I myself am also not a huge Lala fan (she's genuinely my least fave of the main ghouls) so reading a book focused pretty solely on her was gonna be a challenge for me anyway. That being said though, ghoulie went through it in this novel. She for sure pissed me off at points, but she had a lot of character growth that we never really saw in any of the movies. (Closest would be Frights Camera Action, but this book is more like if Draculaura actually did accept being Vampire Queen and taking charge) If you're a huge Drac fan, and you don't care all that much about her relationship with Clawd, then this book is for you.
You can really tell that the author was either an actual fan of Monster High, or at the very least did a lot of research. She managed to fit each main ghoul into the story in a way that felt natural and in character, which yes sometimes means being over the top (Cleo) Not to say they were featured a whole lot, after all Drac spent a majority of the book avoiding the hell out of them, but my favorite parts of the books were the ones they were in. Oh, and we got another Cleuce break-up!
The normie dude was fine. His and Drac's relationship was cute enough, but his name pissed me off. Poe. Dumb ass name. It was only ever used to compare how much he isn't like Edgar Allen Poe, like whatever man. And spoiler, but they ultimately don't end up together by the end.
Tbh the synopsis of this book does it a disservice. So serious that it's hard to take it seriously. Was it technically accurate? Yeah, but the story never got super dark imo. Darkest thing to happen was probably Dracula's death.
And honestly??? The snakestone thing was hilarious! I genuinely laughed out loud. The entire ending scene was so fun tbh. Deuce was also pretty good in this.
Anyway, if you have the means, I recommend giving the book a chance if you're interested. It's really not as bad as we all thought it would be. I promise its infinitely better than the Ghoulfriends books, and easily comparable to the Lisi Harrison novels (well the first 2...the last 2 are garbage.) And lets be real, as much as I love them, those books haven't aged the best, so there's definitely an argument that OBTD is better. All comes down to personal taste.
#monster high#monster high gen 1#monster high books#once bitten twice dead#i have more issues but i mostly wanted to focus on how not bad the book is#i was so pleasantly surprised#this is another story that claims that draculaura was turned at 16 which bungles her aging#one major gripe of mine is that it felt really ooc for her to just not have any feelings about her breakup with clawd#there was just one throwaway line about it and that was it nothing about the aftermath or even how she felt#i know damn well her ass would have been devastated even if she initiated it she has big feelings#i also want to say please dont feel pressured into reading it if it genuinely doesn't seem like your thing#im very used to books with similar vibes to this but i know their not everyones cup of tea#hell even i try to avoid YA if i can nowadays#but i was expecting this to be actual dog shit plus i only paid $5 for it so imagine my surprise when i liked it#now i just gotta get my hands on the original gen 1 comics and the new scaremester ones#text post
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 3#yakuza series#yakuza 3#yoshitaka mine#snap sketches#i was thinking about all the weird mine variants that exist and theres more than i thought there was#i JUST wanted to do suit variants tho none of the extra okinawa and new year rggo cards. and a bare variant#because i can ...... also cause i needed to exercise the knowledge that his plushie's undies are white SOMEHOW#funny enough the only time i like properly assembled mines colors was on my kirin mine sheet so yay for a semiproper color sheet#anyway. the grey suit's inspo'd from the date scene in y3- that shot with him and kanda#i chose a brown tie to act as an in-between transition from blue tie to gold tie#the rggo cards are forever funny to me but while i was drawing these i remembered that for some reason#with the newest card mine's sleeve is. white ???????? its white .#i only realized this after posting these to twitter so if you saw this there first and are like 'girl his sleeve changed color'#Thats Why <- literally no one is thinking that#ok i have nothing else to say probably im gonna eat one more bowl of pasta then go to bed#i keep mentioning kirin mine so maybe ill doodle one of my things with that tomorrow ..#if not i have stuff i wanna draw tomorrow so if im not tired after grocery shopping Theres That To Look To#ok bye its pasta time <- has decided to make pasta my personality for june#oh my god wait its june now jesus christ. yeah happy pride month ive finally drawn mine again#ok bye bye pasta's calling my name
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nobody warns you about the cold takes your brain will come up with when you're even slightly self conscious about your art/writing. it's like "hey this stranger has a story that has [element 1] and [element 2] in it, which basically just makes it the story you came up with, but better. and everyone is going to ignore your story and only engage with this other one because it's better. and yours sucks by comparison. so you shouldn't even try. btw have you considered never creating ever again?" like okay maybe I'll just never interact with people or the fandom or anyone else again ever because that's a sane and rational way to cope with this. ok.
#muzz mumbles#UUGHGHH#i know it's a delusional mindset i know it is a fear founded in nothing at all and rooted in my own self esteem issues#but goddamnnnnn does it make creating difficult#because now my brain is like. well what's the point of writing your story in the first place#and i'm like BECAUSE IT'S MINE. BECAUSE IT'S SPECIAL TO ME#BECAUSE I WANT TO READ IT#AND I WAS PROUD OF IT ONCE. I WAS PROUD OF IT BEFORE.#and my brain goes ''Did someone say something? no? must have been the wind. anyway back to wanting to kill ourselves''#punching holes in the walls and eating through the drywall LET ME OUT OF HEREEEEEEE#vent#delete later
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sigh i hate days like today
#checking on all the homies with bad mothers or no mothers#i’m currently avoiding mine because she’s been arguing with me about nothing since she got back home#i’m glad i’m not on the sales floor anymore bc wow we are a very busy mother’s day place and it makes me cry like once everytime#a lot of ppl my age i know are new mothers too and im so happy for them but im just seeing that it is possible to treat children with#kindness and love and it isn’t hard and then i go on a whole spiral about how i specifically am evil and awful and unloveable and have been#since birth. the spirals are worse now that i’m off meds today should be so fun can’t wait to see how this goes.#anyways if u read my depressing tag rambles that’s ur own fault#i need to get up and shower but i maybe have the energy and strength to crawl to the bathroom + lay on the shower floor#ok anyways let’s pretend i didn’t say anything and im super normal and good and healthy and fine
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Let me start by saying hi I have physical nerve damage and couldn’t handle the recoil of any firearm probably and I literally don’t have a 3D printer or a license for firearms. I think more of these bastards should be scared of the potential consequences of their accumulated blood money. I’m crippled as fuck with nerve damage in my good arm and a bit in my neck just to be clear so legally and genuinely physically speaking I ain’t doing shit & I also have literally no firearm training, never paid for any training, and cannot get access to it as far as I know anywhere locally. I just like seeing rich people as scared as we are every god damn fucking day; it’s like a breath of fresh air in this capitalist Hell hole.
#just putting that massive disclaimer in there because it’s true and I also gotta get my hand checked out for a weird thing going on#with the skin of my palm that hasn’t spread but ya a weird texture and I’m like mmm :/ it’s not going away like it did months ago damn#anyway eat the rich#Luigi mangione isn’t the actual shooter this is all one big setup and framing with planted evidence#free Luigi and the Florida woman! they did nothing wrong!!#love people saying we should get a Luigi for this even though it’s not the same guy it’s just a fun thing to say now#mine#op#uhc ceo#united healthcare#current events#2024#c slur#tw c slur#cw c slur
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