#not to psychoanalyze myself but

[television-overload]

Thinking about "Content, but are you happy?" and the fact that Ziva gets to be happy now

[brigatebajor]

pt2

bonus:

[choose-your-own-dentistry]

a show introduces the most pathetic wet dog comic relief character and i immediately latch onto them like a lamprey. let me bathe the Torbek

[xxplastic-cubexx]

what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

[buffandbrainless]

I love forcemasc as someone who isn’t out but presents masc- like it’s painfully obvious to everyone else that I’m a faggot, but I’m too stupid to realize it myself. So I need a little mentorship, some push that I don’t even know is there. I don’t question the changes, don’t resist them, and maybe I should—but I’m not mad about it.

[starscelly]

miro and chirping (+ roope's input)

[rexisan]

I am seeing.. a pattern in my two newest ship hyperfixations.

I really enjoy an unhealthy amount of possessiveness. One taking to their knees and saying "I am yours. My heart in your hands. You can slit my throat and I will worship as my blood stains your boots."

And the response. "I have hurt you so terribly and yet still you look at me and willingly put the heart I've crushed in my hands like I am worth it. I will do everything in my power even rend cities if it means you're unhurt."

And I'm here rotating Jaytim and Dreamling and just. Mkay. This is fine.

[thermodynamic-comedian]

i am actually so insane about arkayne in a way i have never been insane about jonelias in and i don't know why. i don't know why

[mandyzoe]

PETEY LORE!!!!!!!!! according to some of gary’s cut dialogue, pete was born out of wedlock and implied to have separated parents. they could also still be together and just umarried, or have since gotten married after he was born, but gary implies he’s sensitive about it so it’s more likely that they are not together and possibly not on good terms.

assuming this lore hasn’t been completely nullified since its removal and could still reasonably be considered canon, it adds a little more context to his chronic loneliness issues and validation seeking, especially when considering he’s also an only child. if he only ever lived with one parent at a time, didn’t have any other siblings or friends, and was thrown into boarding school as soon as possible, it’s reasonable to assume he didn’t get a lot of attention in early childhood which now manifests as insecurity, clinginess, and fear of rejection/loneliness. peter kowalski i know what you are (mentally ill)

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[shimmershy]

I absolutely love your artwork with Asriel, Chara, and all of those flowers; (the one where Flowey says “what made you wake up”)!

Forgive me for asking this, but I am interested to know the meaning behind this or what is this representing.

Is it representing the feelings of resentment and regret that Asriel and Chara feel?

Is it just siblings being siblings?

Again, sorry for asking, I just love to know (more about) the meaning behind it.

Thank you very much!! :) It's mostly representing the first thing you said. Mostly the guilt/regret/self-directed anger on Chara's side and resentment/frustration on Asriel's side. I was going to draw Asriel with a more complicated expression, like closer to concern or sadness rather than anger, but I think I ended up leaning more into the idea of like. The image of him being affected by how Chara feels about themself. Like, he must be so angry, he must hate them because of what they did and because they're such a horrible person, from their perspective etc. If he were there in front of them he'd have nothing nice to say etc. (But also he probably did feel some anger towards them, whether he let himself feel it or not, so it's not necessarily an inaccurate representation of him.) Whereas in the background, he's kind of contrasting that idea. He had been calling them, wanted them back, so he must not hate them as much as they think.

Overall I feel like it was supposed to represent the heavy negative emotions that both of them experienced, but with a bit of a gentle undertone, with the flowers and the reminder that Flowey/Asriel still cared about them and hoped they'd come back despite everything. Maybe a kind of undertone of hope that things can be okay again.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Hey reminder just because I post about being mentally ill that does NOT give you the right to act like a shitty psychologist in my notes

[chronotopes]

my whole 'disproportionately distressed by the loss of small meaningful-but-replaceable items' thing may seem like a trivial quirk but it is straight up one of the worst things about being me

[cloverlyartist]

Being aroace and a hopeless romantic has to be the weirdest experience lmao

Like ME doing romance is meh. But other people doing romance is uwaaaah adorable theyre so cute

I think that being aroace (+my experience growing up in a dysfunctional household) has made it so that i idealize healthy romantic relationships. Logically i know that relationships have disagreements but imagining any romantically involved couple arguing at all puts me back in my childhood with all the constant arguing and toxicity. So i can only imagine healthy relationships as having ZERO conflict, which is certainly not healthy either, but in my head conflict = bad, so zero conflict/disagreements = good.

Probably says some crazy shit about me lmao

[summertimemusician]

Linktober Day 7

Sky(loft)

*throws rose* For the First lovers.

Soft and sweet drabble with just the barest hints of tragedy, and more set on Skyloft than anything but I'd say it counts.

This chapter was brought to you by me getting emotional about the First Hero and his fate again due to the rain, the fact I believe all Links deserve to have love and appreciation but specially him. And the fact I think it's an absolute CRIME that we don't get anything more on him and that he and Sky don't get to have what Time and Twilight have, no I'm not bitter Nintendo I just want to talk, y'all can't just keep giving us like four Links before the actual heroes and then expect us NOT to want to elaborate with the crumbs we are given. If you ask me First and Sky deserve to interact and for First to have closure.

Anyway, as always can be read as romantic or platonic, up to y'all, and can be read in or outside and LU context, I just use Sky and First for simplicities sake but if you don't gel with LU then feel free to interpret this as something else, this is all highly self indulgent before I pass the heck out lol

If there was any place in Sky’s Hyrule that you could confidently say you adored with all of your heart and soul, Skyloft would be the most likely pick.

Even so high above it all in a way that would have you catastrophizing had you think too hard about what could happen if anyone ever accidentally fell from the isle even with all of the knights trained to not allow that to happen, you’d be lying if you said that it’s a wondrous mix of empyreal beauty and the comfort of safety and the wonder of touching the sky, a true breath taking haven that could soften even the hardest of hearts with time. Fitting of the warmth of the reincarnated goddess in Sun and the vast nature of Sky’s kindness, for all you knew he could be as frigid as the title of Godslayer demanded.

Looking at the way First let himself be tugged along the isle as soon as they’ve arrived in Sky’s land in a tour just reinforced that notion, you couldn’t help but chuckle a little. First was one of the harder Links to read, even more so than Time or Warriors, but looking at the way the stars of his azure eyes brightened with the fire of life hearing Sky talk about life in his home and about the many people made you feel so, so warm, like finding a nice sunny spot for a afternoon nap.

What could you say? First was such a wondrous person, calm and charming and perfectly polite and oh so kind in the way you knew all of your boys were. If there ever was someone who embodied chivalry and the ideal side of knighthood, he’d probably be the one to come to the forefront of your mind, and you’ve been insatiable for his happiness ever since.

When he first arrived to the Chain, he was as cold as the howling blizzard winds, heart a cold fort left in ruin and remade as best as a single man could for the sake of remaining kind, to do the right thing no matter what, it was a sentiment you knew far too well in your other boys, but specially so in First, who tried so, so hard to distance himself from getting attached. But who you knew loved the sight of the sky, as cold and numb it was in it’s distance, whom cared so so much he would driven himself into an early grave just to make the Surface a safer for the people who’d shunned him, whom after a long, long period of adjustment and effort from the Chain, allowed you to hold him close as he shaked from nightmares at night, allowing you to chase away memories of being held up by cold chains until the impression of them became one with his skin and subconscious, of being entombed and imprisoned in uncaring stone and iron to starve alone, being bitten at by hungry, crawling rats all because he wished to keep his people safe, made sure he could tell that your presence was tangible and real through telling stories from your world and singing him into dreams even through the fortress’s that was his stubborness. Trying your best to make lilies bloom on what looked like a most hopeless winter.

The day he actually chuckled and smiled, safe and healthy and alive in the presence of the Chain felt like the biggest victory you’d ever had.

He deserved to know love and to be loved as much as any of your boys, something real and tangible and that was actually properly reciprocated rather than used to justify an end. So seeing him being able to visit Skyloft with his descendant with a whispering, hidden smile was more than enough for you. And you can’t blame Sky for being equally animated about it, bless his heart, always wanting his people to be happy, always so, so kind, wanting to bring some solace to the older hero but being carefully attentive so his mood was still good

After all they went through they deserved it.

“Oh! There you are, I was just about to show First to the waterfall, want to come with?”, Sky snaps you out from your thoughts, touching your shoulder with a gentle smile.

“Unless something is ailing you, you did look quite deeply in though.”, added First, soft as the warm breeze on the isle in the sky.

You shake your head, smiling as you take First’s offered arm, an instinctive motion when he wished to be close but wasn’t quite ready for any other touch yet, and Sky’s hand in yours, which he swings with a hum, ears twitching, how precious. “Not at all, lead the way.”

As Sky leads you along, and you catch the ghost of a smile in First’s otherwise stern countenance and you take in the warmth of the late afternoon sun in Skyloft and the soft, eternal spring breeze. You think there’s quite a bit you’d give to keep witnessing these moments indeed.

The road to recovery was long and arduous, but you’d be there, and you knew the Chain would do their best to be there too.

[yinyuedijun]

Realizing that the reason you got attached to both Aventurine and Dan hang despite their superficial differences is because they both have been denied their cultures in very traumatic ways in childhood and the pain of that loss still echoes in their characters in adulthood

Are you okay ?

well I'm a second gen chinese diaspora who is largely disconnected from their family for traumatic reasons and in addition to nearly forgetting my heritage language for the purposes of assimilation, it also nearly died out due to political repression . so do with that knowledge what you will 💀

[moonstandardtime]

its funny im not particularly anxious rn. given the occasion. im just that good at detaching my emotions from the curcumstances so wholly that i no longer feel any sort of substantial pressure or fear that isnt the result of an immediately pressing (whether actual, possible, or percieved) misstep on my part. probably why im so bad at school. i dont know how to fix it. im going back to watching gravity falls tiktoks now