#not this feeling like covid life 😬

[mrs-monaghan]

Tbh I'm a jikooker, but I find it incredibly difficult to fit a healthy long-term relationship into the same timeline as all of jimin's solo work. It's not the pronouns or taking one lyric very literally, its the entire thing, plus comments from him and his producers. To me, you'd have to do some serious olympic level mental gymnastics to make that make sense. I don't doubt that jikook have a special bond, I've definitely seen things between them that definitely look like sexual attraction to me and things that surpass friendship boundaries, but I can't in good faith say that they're together in some official long-term way if I actually listen to jimin and his work.

I've seen some jikookers think they broke up for a while, but I have to question if those people have ever been through a breakup because the little bit of distance/separation/awkwardness we did see from them during chapter 2 is nothing compared to the type of tension that would be there if a relationship that intimate and intertwined had separated, especially considering the dark feelings jimin was feeling. He wouldn't have been cutely commenting on jungkook's lives and jungkook wouldn't have been asking to hang-out or getting excited to see jimin in his comments.

Idk, I'm sure someone could twist everything a certain way and only take certain things at face-value and then make everything else abstract, etc. to make the case that they are together, but I don't really see it. You look at face-off, alone, and just his general dark feelings during Face, then look at the creation of Muse and how him and his producers said he couldn't relate to the love-dovey beginning songs, which is how they ended up making Who (despite the fact that jikookers try to distance him from the song since he doesn't have writing credits even though he sat in the recording room telling them what he wanted and saying it felt like reading his diary). I think jimin could have very well gone through a pretty awful breakup along with the inner turmoil he was going through post-covid, but I don't think it was with jungkook if he did. I still enjoy jikook's bond either way at the end of the day, but yeah I don't really get how anyone can take an honest look at jimin's work and his words and think he was in a long-term healthy love-of-his-life relationship during that time or into chapter 2.

Not trying to change your opinion or anything, honestly I don't really see it discussed much in jikooker spaces (besides bad-faith stuff like tkkers stirring up shit over pronouns in lyrics which is just dumb) and when it is, some jikookers are pretty pick-and-choose about what they deem to be true to jimin's feelings and what isn't. Which I get being nuanced, but sometimes it does feel like a "well this fits my beliefs so clearly this is true to jimin and this doesn't so it means nothing because he didn't write it" or whatever. I honestly get annoyed with the bad-faith arguers because it prevents being able to have actual discussions about some of this stuff in our little jikooker corner of tumblr. Like "he said her, he's clearly straight! he danced with a girl, straight!" stfu.

I don't have much to say to you anon. Not really. Not anything that hasn't been said anyway. Which you've seen and decided its jkkrs doing mental gymnastics. "I'm a Jikooker but..." its never a great way to start a sentence. It just gives major insecure jkkr vibes which i just 😬😬😬😬😬😬😬 you either believe in them or you don't. There is no if, and or buts.

I will leave you with this; over the years, antis and (insecure) jkkrs alike have always found a way to conclude Jkk aren't as close anymore or they broke up or some other bullshit. But what happens everytime Jikook resurface and we see them together again?

NOTHING HAS CHANGED!!!

Nothing ever changes with these 2! They come back closer, more in sync, happier, more in love and their relationship more established than ever. This happens every👏🏽damn👏🏽time👏🏽 Everytime!

Then the insecure jkkrs will be like "jkk is real" again.

And then we will go without content for a while and once again we are back here with the jkk aren't as close argument. Once again. It is an exhausting cycle that I refuse to be a part of.

You can try and nit pick various reasons as to why Jikook aren't in an established rlship, but I will chose to focus on reasons why they are definitely 130000000% in a relationship. Like the fact that they are enlisted together rn, the fact that they could have done AYS with other members but chose eo. Or the fact that Jimin wrote his name on JK's chest with sunscreen and I dont even want to imagine how he did that. What position they were in that would justify people calling them brothers 😂

You do you anon. I'mma just be over here enjoying Jimin promote the hell out of his favourite JK song.

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Look at him so proud of his man 🥺🥺

[katy-books]

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Somehow managed to avoid covid for 4 years but I guess it had to happen somehow 🙄 - 2nd day of feeling ill, triple vaccinated and hardly any symptoms - the reason I knew something was off is actually because when I have a cold the 2nd day is normally waaaaaaay worse than this - my biggest worry is my agoraphobic brother with an eating disorder who is unvaccinated due to severe anxiety issues and who I live with - you try telling a grown man that his life is in danger if he doesn't get vaccinated when he obsessively lives in his own enclosed world - if this sounds like you please get help - you don't have to live like this.

This gif will be me for the next week 😬 😅 - if I don't laugh I'll panic.

[marengogo]

3 YEARS WITH BTS 💜🙌🏾🎉

THIS IS BTS on Spotify. On Random starting from VIBE.

[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]

–🐺–🐺–🐺–

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,

I’M SO GRATEFUL TO BE ARMY~~~💜,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I will NEVER FORGET how I was like “Damn they are trending uh? … let’s see what they got?”, I clicked on the following link and THAT WAS IT FOR ME.

though I became obsessed with that particular performance of ON, which brought me to check out ON KINETIC MANIFESTO, and got me to add ON as a favorite song on spotify, which I listened to everyday as I went to work. I still couldn't imagine the me of today. 

I then decided to listen to the whole of “Map of the Soul 7” and not gonna lie, I would have the following songs on repeat, every day:

ON never the SIA version, sorry SIA 🙏🏾

Black swan

UGH

Filter

It even got to a point where I would listen to only Filter on repeat 😬😬😬 … Mind you I still didn’t know who any of the members were by that point. Eventually I decided to take a look at the members and I started and ended with the leader 😂. We seemed to have so many things in common: English not being our first language, love for anything intellectual, reading, etc. I couldn’t get past RM. So it was MoTS + RM for me. But nothing serious yet, life still proceeded as normal.

Full into COVID, I had the worst sleeping pattern still do, but that is a different story. So I just so happened to be awake when on August 21, 2020 Dynamite premiered. I had no idea what a comeback was, or anything associated, I just watched as the seconds counted down and then watched this colour video: I WAS SHOOK 😂😂😂. I also remember very clearly that I made my very first BTS gif out of that video, which was Tae at the very end not sure where the gif I made is now but the scene was the following:

So then I got into Tae, I was like “Who is this Cali-looking handsome thing?”. In the same fashion, through reactions, music videos, interviews, RUN BTS, etc, I started being obssessed with each member at a time, for different weeks at a time 😂😂😂. Eventually having to admit that, even though given the chance I'd marry Kim Seokjin 😂😂😂, I actually loved all of them.

As life kept going on, I had a whole series of firsts (photoshoots, reactions, RUN etc) but it took me up to some time in January 2021 to realise that I indeed hadn’t spent a single day of my life since February 25, 2020 without consuming any BTS related content. OF ANY KIND AND WILLINGLY. From that realisation I then happily dove into the rabbit hole, but also came up an amazing journey of mental health recovery:

I OWE THEM SO MUCH.

Because I can feel getting sappy, and in all honesty I want keep enjoying my ARMY birthday with a smile on my face, I’ll stop here. I guess in a way I need to thank Jimmy Fallon uh 😂😂😂?

LOVE YOU MY BOYS, MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW 💜 The following was the ever first BTS photoshoot that came across my timeline.

Always so gratefully yours 🫰🏾💜,

Marengo. 

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

https://www.instagram.com/stories/ponprincess/3394102924874995903?igsh=aGRrdmVreDl6dG1j

Does her post have anything to do with Evan and Nat?

I know it’s nothing serious with her post. But I feel that she is still childish and very sarcastic.

Now I know if Evan chooses a woman who is more stable and a little mature (especially for online behavior). Nat is very different from Fran.

And the second story of her (if it’s true that she’s comparing her to nat), nat has a stable job in NY as digital strategist. At least, she has a stable income from big agency, means that she’s talented. But sorry to say, what is Fran's exact job? only makes amateur videos and as far as I know, she has really struggled to be financially independent since being with Evan, maybe even before being with Evan. Not typical woman with stable job.

i honestly don’t know who fran is lashing out at here, i don’t follow her life.. but that’s a pretty extreme cope either way 😭 remember, frances was the one whose online persona was “i don’t want to work, i shouldn’t have to work, i need a sugar daddy, i’m railing against rich people because i hate being poor” so no one is ever going to buy into her being “proud” that she’s an independent woman paying her own way. because fran herself hates that and resents it; she desperately wants a wealthy man to find her beautiful enough to fund a luxurious lifestyle for her. she was just in her IG stories telling everyone her new man funded a vacation for them, but he’s obviously not very wealthy because fran’s life isn’t upgraded yet and i know that frustrates her.

because she seems to pay close attention to the online chatter and obviously evan’s crazier stans go out of their way to inform her.. i do believe that due to stuff she’s said herself, it would bother frances that her and natalie are essentially the same age, and one is wayyy more accomplished than the other. natalie has a stable and solid career established, and seemingly surrounds herself with friends who are on her level - creative, fashionable, with careers of their own. but fran is still making low quality home videos she calls art, not making it as an influencer, in what’s likely a low level data entry type job that requires her to work remotely even while she’s on vacation 😬 meanwhile natalie just got the upgraded girlfriend package covid-era fran was denied; wined and dined in italy, front row at the fashion show on evan’s arm, while wearing a prada outfit fran will never be able to afford.

yeah, this one is gonna hurt for a while. pray for our girl. she’ll be alright! 🙏🏼

[hussyknee]

hi! would you happen to know any communities (tumblr, discored, something along those lines) for people with autoimmune disorders? not like a i hope we all get better toxic positivity thing because we arent going to get better and neither a place that kinda sends you into a spiral ig? i'm looking for a community where i would be able to share my struggles with people, listen to theirs, and ultimately just exchange tips on how to make life better for ourselves.

Hi. I just usually followed the #chronic illness, #ableism, #cripplepunk, #disability, #spoonie tags and also @thebibliosphere and @naamahdarling. @compassionatereminders is a general sort of positivity blog by a disabled person, I also follow @cbspoons

To be honest, nearly all my mutuals are disabled and mentally ill in some way so I've never felt the need to go out and actually find anybody? 🤔 I've stopped actively following the disability tags on here a while ago because I was so angry and depressed that seeing other disabled people in the same boat started to depress me more. And if I want info on something specific I just search the tag on here. Goldmine of info I swear.

If you want information however, you really can't beat Disability Twitter. It hasn't gone anywhere, Muskapocalypse notwithstanding, and it's been a huge convergence point for information sharing and advocacy for Long Covid in the West. Iman Barbarin would be your starting point, she's @crutchesandspice on Tumblr but more active on Twitter. The Fat Doctor is also an essential follow (except their tweets are protected so they have to approve your follow request) and so is Kivan Bay. Honestly there's a huuuge overlap between Trans Twitter, Fat Liberation and Disability Twitter because they all come under the disability justice umbrella. Downside as always is that it's all very US-UK-focused.

You can follow me too if you like (Inflammatory Bowel Disease, chronic fatigue, arthritis, bipolar, salad bar of mental illness), but fair warning, I am extremely suicidally depressed rn, even though I've been getting a lot of help finally. I put all my downspirals under a cut and tag the shit out of those posts, but this blog might not be the best for your own mental health just fyi. 😬

Followers feel free to add any blogs you can think of!

[youremyheaven]

For anyone who's starting or want to how the ketu dasha will be , here's my experience cuz I just finished it a week ago

Born in Saturn MD ( alot of health problems my parents were worried that if I can even make it to the next day doctors gave an ultimatum about me living only for 13 yrs but hey I'm still thriving I'll be 26 this year) . I have a debilitated retro Saturn in 4th 😬

Teenage in mercury MD - alot of confusion, crushes left right , conservative in my approach towards guys , I was basically an air head 🙂 , no strong ambitions or goals but was above average in my studies, fear of abandonment, a super crazy girl wanting a lot of attention from my friends n teachers , I was friends with all but as they say " a friend for all is a friend for none." I had some awesome memories and some sad ones that's life . I don't know why I listened to my elder cousin who was going through some rough times say " every personal decision regarding your life please try to take it after you turn 20/21 yrs " I could've ignored it but it stuck with me ever since and I'm glad I did. My mercury is retrograde in ashlesha btw , even I had a dream that one day I'll marry a good man have lots of children like 6 of which 3 will be the one's I give birth to other 3 will be adopted and we live in a suburban house filled with laughter and happiness with a dog will all my 6 babies oh my! I still smile and feel for my younger naive self but anyway. I cherish my younger self so much and I listen to this song that I dedicate to her is 'so my darling by Rachel chinouriri ' I imagine myself singing this to her who will always be there and I'll be there for her always.

Young adult to Adulthood in ketu MD 😅 for a nodal girlie - depression, lost interest in studies, some how got myself out of it for the sake of my parents who are worried and couldn't do anything about ( I'm so sorry mom & dad , you did what you could . Thankyou for staying patient with me🥹🙏😇) , my father got me an admit in a university which was close to my house , made friends ( found my bestie ) , full of energy, got good marks , garnered attention towards me ( in my university all the faculty still knows my name ) , got into makeup n fashion but would feel empty even when I'm dolled up it was just a momentary happiness and poof!! , out of the blue my bestie one day eloped her longtime bf who's a member of some gang and she faced a lot of hardships, she got to know true side of him and wanted out . After 3 months she contacted me and it took me three days to make her sense n comeback home to her parents who were devastated. Fast forward She's good now 😁 , during my final year I failed almost all my subjects it broke me , later I cleared all of them, family quarrels, I got a complete makeover cut my hair short , got a ton of piercings, got into spirituality , almost lost my father to COVID and my grannies to brain stroke but THANK GOD! Both of them are doing well, shaved my head twice , took all of my piercings out , had an Outer body experience, got into astrology , my father was bankrupt, we lost everything, my granny had a second stroke and hip replacement surgery and now she's completely bedridden and I've been taking care of her 24/7 for 2 yrs , my dad left the house without any information, I'm clearing his debts ,my mom n me are barely make it happen, lost my hope & faith, diagnosed with BPD ,lost interest in men & dating & anything related to love , got rejected 3 times while trying to go abroad to work , got myself out of too much of spirituality, religious things like I was way too deep that I lost myself etc later I understood BALANCE IS THE KEY .

I always remind myself that I'm here on this plane just for my HUMAN EXPERIENCE. so be it . No god , no devil , no right , no wrong , NO more black & white thinking. faith is an important aspect of living it doesn't have to be a god , it could be in you. That's what I did .

Now I'm at a state where nothing phases me anymore. If I get an obstacle or any kind of hindrance on my path I don't cry (too much just a little) but I try to look for the best possible solution and work on it ASAP.

So , this is what I've gone through . So many lessons and many more to come 😁 currently in my VENUS MD

You're soooo strong and sooo resilient 🫶🏼 I admire your tenacity sooo much. I feel like we all live such complex lives and experience such highs and lows that it wouldn't make sense to someone looking from the outside. You've lived 20 different lives already and you've moved through them with grace. I hope going forward you have more prosperous times and make a lot of happy memories 🫶🏼

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I hope your words comfort and inspire others 🫶🏼

[alexbkrieger13]

I’m against writing fanfics about real couples (I think it’s intrusive and creepy) but I have to admit, M&Ps story would probably make a great basis for an AU fan fiction for Clexa, Supercorp, or other prominent WLW fiction ships. Not so much in telling their exact story with the same details but in having two players on the same team, one of them with a bf, getting closer as friends, the one with the bf catching feelings and maybe not really knowing what’s going on since she thought she was straight, breaking up, confessing feelings, etc. There’s actually quite a few woso couples that have love stories that seem straight out of fan fiction- two that come to mind are Frida Maanum and Emma Lennartsson, Caitlin Foord and Lia Wälti moving in together during COVID and falling in love (they���d just need a happier ending than they got IRL 😬).

Oh yea there are several kind of stories where you're like if we just swap out the real life people for fictional characters this will make a great fanfiction

[lovelyelbowleech]

HELLO!! HAIR ANON HERE!!! I’m SO SORRY this was delayed but I have been crazy busy. Mostly with good things (like graduating and getting my MA [🎉], and working out the details of starting my next MA program!!), but most recently with covid LOL. BUT THE LAST TWO CHAPTERS OF WAR GAMES HAVE BEEN KEEPING ME SANE. Or causing me to lose what’s left of my sanity (that last chapter especially). Honestly probably both at the same time 😂

Bc OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH my GOD that last chapter. I feel VINDICATED. I feel FEVERED (and not just because of the covid lmaooo). I feel YRIEIFOWHFOWHDOWUDOWHDUD. I don’t even know how to describe how I’m feeling other than CHAOTIC and OVERWHELMINGLY POSITIVE. My brain is fuzzy but I needed you to know this was the most hyped up I’ve been about something fandom related in over a decade. I’m glad my gf wasn’t home bc I’m not sure I would want to explain the multiple screams I let out, or the multiple honest-to-god flails that happened.

IN HONOR OF THAT some of my favorite lines:

“Zuko’s eyes were bright, even in the dim light. ‘No,’ he said. ‘I just wanted to be normal. So I went with it.’” GOD. GOD. GOD. GOD. THE IMAGE THIS PAINTS. LIGHTING SOMETHING ON FIRE RN

“No, that wasn’t true. He had plenty in his head. Things like the fact that perhaps, just between him and himself, he could admit that maybe there was an attraction that he had been trying to convince himself was something else, like envy or admiration. He did maybe stare at Zuko’s muscles a little too much, and find the blushing and the way his hair was starting to flop very charming. Cute, even.” THIS…. INVENTED ROMANCE?? THE NOISE I MADE WHEN I READ THIS WAS SOMEWHERE BETWEEN A SQUEAL AND A WAIL

"’The Avatar is not a baby,’ Zuko said faintly, his eyes a little wide. ‘Not all babies are bald.’ He looked like maybe his brain had stopped working.” THIS MADE ME GIGGLE SO HARD SJDKSJDIWID ALSO THE WHOLE SCENE WHERE THEY WERE FIXING THE TENT!!! Toph, Katara, and Zuko had me in HYSTERICS, also I’m SO PROUD of Zuko’s angry stitching, good job, buddy

ALSO!!! Tu’s section was so sad and so good and so beautifully written??? I’m so worried about what’s going to happen to him and the freedom fighters. But as someone who loves your writing I’m also VERY EXCITED to see what happens with them. 😂 And omg YAY SUKI AND SHEN SURVIVING! And Shen *GETTING SOME*! I think I actually said, “YEAH, GET SOME” out loud when Shen rediscovered his dick. Good for him, man. He fucking deserves it (pun only half intended). Now I’m just desperately curious about what Azula is going to be up to in the next chapter, and which of the four groups we’re following are going to meet first 👀 I’M SO EXCITED TO FIND OUT AHHH

Thank you thank you thank you THANK YOU as always for sharing your amazing writing and story with us!! I am having the time of my life reading this and I am so grateful that I get to. I’m so excited and am waiting very patiently for the next chapter. I hope you’re feeling better, and thank you so much for sharing, again!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖

Well done for graduation and getting your MA! Sorry about the covid though, that sucks. I hope you are feeling a bit better!

Glad you enjoyed the chapter 😂😬

"also I’m SO PROUD of Zuko’s angry stitching" > I have such a strong image of what those stitches looked like, and all the rage and frustration that went into them. I might have been projecting a bit 😂

Poor Tu is really going through it, his sections are very short at the moment, but I always pack a lot of suffering into them (like Katara's were before she met back up with Sokka, lol)

Shen's been though a lot, he deserves a treat. Good thing Suki is also there to keep ragging on him and making sure he doesn't get ahead of himself 😂

Thank you once again for the amazing comment! I am glad you are still reading and enjoying! And I hope you are on the mend from the plague! ❤️❤️❤️

[tillman]

Hey Tillman! Bad news 😬 The Internet Archive lost against the 4 publishers that sued them at the beginning of covid in 2020 when the IA lent out unlimited books. There's a very real possibility that the site could go down and I know you love archiving so if there's anything on there you don't already have downloaded now would be the time to do it. I already let the Guilty Gear archive guys know and we're all mass downloading things but the more copies out there the better

literally the worst news in my entire life. i feel like patrick bateman. i have to go download many many books.

[destinyc1020]

It's nice that Ashley has kept her support for Austin despite also being a friend of Vanessa. I just think that if Austin was nasty to Vanessa, Ashley would not be supporting like she has been

I think their friendship is sweet too Anon 🥰

And I agree with you.... The fact that Ashley is still friends with BOTH Vanessa AND Austin gives me the impression that the Aunessa breakup is probably not as "scandalous" as some fans are trying to make it out to be, because if he had really done Vanessa terribly wrong, I think Ashley would have had a hard time still being friends with Austin, and at the very least, she wouldn't still be showing her very PUBLIC support for him.

Remember, Ashley was the one who hooked Vanessa up with Austin years ago.

So yea.... that's just my theory. 🤷🏾‍♀️ Idk what happened obviously, but it's pretty clear that he broke Vanessa's heart.... (based on how salty she's been acting lol 👀). I don't think she dumped him in other words. I think he broke things off. But it may have been just that they were growing apart or had different goals in life. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I honestly don't know. 9 years IS a very long time to be with someone though, so I don't blame her for still being hurt.

With that said, now that I know more about Austin (before he was just known as "Vanessa's bf" rofl 🤣), I kind of find it weird how long they actually stayed together.

Look, I love Vanessa and all (she's sweet), but no offense, but she's always come off as being kind of ditzy to me? 😬 👀

I'll also never forget her very tone-deaf and insensitive comments during covid surrounding Coachella where she was basically doing a video on IG saying that "yea people are gonna die, and yea it sucks, but it was kind of expected?" 🥴 (very loosely paraphrasing)

I was like..... Ummmm.... people have lost LIVES.😤 One of my friends lost BOTH of her parents to covid within a WEEK of each other! I don't know... to me Vanessa's comment just came off as so flippant, insensitive, ditzy, and very unaware of the world.... and Austin strikes me as so different from that?

But hey, they were much younger back then when they were dating each other lol, so who knows lol 😆 🤷🏾‍♀️

I guess all l I'm saying is I'm not shocked in the least if over time he kinda got tired of the rlshp. 👀 Wasn't he like 19 when they first started dating? I'm sorry, but her baby voice ALONE would drive me insane and up a wall lol 🤣

I've always said it's best to be honest and let the rlshp go if you're not feeling it anymore, or if you're heading down a different path.🤷🏾‍♀️

Again, I'm not sure what went down, or if he's at fault and did smthg bad, but it seems like V wasn't quite ready to let the rlshp go. Again, this is just my own personal speculation based on how triggered she still is even though she and Austin have been broken up now for over 3 years, and she's been dating another man now for a while lol. 😂 👀

The fact that she's still subtly throwing shade after it's been like 3 years since their breakup makes me go hmmm..... 🤔

But then, at the same time, they still have mutual friends, and she supposedly is still keeping his deceased mother's dog?

So guuuuurrrrl....idk lol 🤣 😂

It's so strange lol 😆

I just wonder what Cole thinks about all of this "stuff" lol 👀👀

[itshyuka]

I think I'll use this little guy as an emoji 🦜

First off!! What did you think of do it like that? It still hasn't grown on me 😭

This is gonna be a long ask 😬

How did you get covid?? Glad to know you're better now!!

What courses you failed? Was it because it was hard or it was getting too much? I think I'll become a villain if/when I fail 🦔

That talk about immune system reminded me of a cousin who was working in a kindergarten and she was telling about the kids coughing in hers and the teachers face 😭

Didn't know you are from Australia!! The accent is everything! I hope that in the future I can visit there, after I (hopefully) graduate and start working.

True!! Life truly is full of surprises

My crushing life always sabotages me!! For real. So the first one is from my class 😶 and he's super smart, really cute and is into this one thing that I'm really into too!! How fantastic! But after watching him I saw that he wears a ring and after, you know, some stalking yeah he's definitely taken.

The 2nd one is from another course. Now, I remember seeing him during the first week there and thinking damn he's really cute!! After making some friends in class this other girl, my colleague, was talking about her crush on him to our group slsjskks and I was like well not like I was gonna make a move anyway. But!!! Turns out he's taken too 🫠

There's probably a lot other more, there's this one so far I have only seen twice, at the bus stop. He wears glasses /actually all three of them do!!/ And god such a cutie, no idea if he's taken or not, but with the way my lucky works if he's not he's gonna be soon. All the guys I end up liking get a gf after some time.

Don't know if this is worth noting, I feel like a teenager but I'm actually over 21, and definitely a late bloomer, still waiting to bloom!

🦜

hahaha that’s okay, love a long ask in this house 😌 also ahhhh i'm so sorry this is like a 3 month old ask HAHAHAHHA

anyway to summarise really quickly! do it like that was okay, it wasn't my favourite. the recent collab though! that's a bop. also i think i got COVID on the flight back home from a holiday asjdfh it affected me for like a solid two weeks after i recovered as well 💀 also yes to loving the australian accent hasfjkashjkf i love having it even if mine isn't the strongest.

i completely failed one of my tax courses and then i bungled a finance exam or two hahahahahah it was all becoming too much at this point bc i KNEW i didn’t want to be an accountant anymore, so my motivation to study was blah. but i’d already committed 4 years, what was one extra year…. so i decided to just finish it and move on to a masters 🥲

ANYWAY THE IMPORTANT PART!!! I saw your update about ring guy being actually married which sucks but oh well. it's always the cute guys that are already taken zzzz HOW ARE ALL THE OTHERS????? I'M IN NEED OF UPDATES 💖 also it's okay to be a late bloomer!! i wish i was single more in my early 20s askdjfh (but i feel like that also comes from a wacky place of privilege to some.... maybe...... either way wholesome authentic friendships are also AMAZING relationships too!!!! i'm only now realising how important friends are to me vvv late in the game)

[thebibliosphere]

#I have so much to do#why must my body keep doing this?#I mean I know why#I got my diagnosis for the thing that was killing me a week before the pandemic hit and got NO medical care until late last year#but still#blegh#I just want to work

I'm actually just going to reply to my own tags because I'm having a Moment, and I think I need to write it down before I start yelling out loud.

So to summarize: I got a life-saving treatment a year before the pandemic hit. And then, I got several other diagnoses that explained the almost dying thing a literal week before the pandemic hit, and all my follow-up appointments got shut down. But having explanations was not the same thing as adequate medical care.

I was left for three years to self-care after almost dying because the medical facilities around me were collapsing (they have still not recovered) and were not safe for me to be in. The risk of covid to my condition(s) was deemed too high, and I was told to hold out on my own for as long as possible until I was able to be vaccinated or we reached an endemic stage. And while we're in those stages, it's still a struggle to get care because of the backlog.

Like, no wonder I'm still sick. No wonder I'm backsliding so drastically. No wonder it feels like I'm spinning my gears and not getting any work done.

I needed medical care for the last three years to prevent things from getting to this stage. And I did not get it. Would I tell anyone else in this situation it's their fault for not doing more? God, I'd hope not.

Meanwhile, I'm still berating myself daily for not getting the things I want to get done. And like... yeah. I need to work to make money so I don't bankrupt us again (I have no idea how we're going to afford the next round of medical bills. We're already on a payment plan😬), but, like... this isn't my fault.

And I think I'm only just now realizing that.

Like... they just straight up left me. I was having unexplained megaloblastic anemia 9 months before the pandemic that damaged my nervous system. And I was just expected to deal with it...

I...

Staring at the 5 different Word documents I have open at the moment and muttering, "Once my body gets out of survival mode, it's over for you bitches."

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Aww :((

Half of my family suffered and suffers from awful long covid so this one kinda hits hard xd

Ope :O

SHAUN you can't just barge in like that xD

Let the man liiive

Idk I mean I guess you could just do the test it's not like a big hardship or anything but I do think Shaun's overreacting a bit xd

Uh oh

I mean you both deserve a life

But ultimately it is her choice

Girl you're allowed to feel bad about having to stay

Like she can make her own choice but do let her know how you feel

UH OH O.O She's having a seizure

Awww :'((( I'm so sorry girl :'( it sucks

But that means they need something else 😬

(forgot to put this earlier lol, I'm a few minutes behind)

Ope still busy xd

Uhh ohhh

Thiiis is gonna be difficult guys, with you being in charge lol

Less because of favoritism or anything more bc she's gonna have frustrations

I do hope they manage to work it out though :(

XD Asher lol

SKFKGHDHDJLDS L I M

Ahh "What Would Shaun Murphy Do" XD

Didn't know what it was but I figured he was more talking about like a break or smth xD

Ahh he's pulling a Claire :D

Like back when Shaun was unconscious in season 2 I think it was :))

SLFKGJKDHLS nope you can't focus enough XDD

ASHERRR YOU'RE TOO GAY FOR THISSS

XD well he tried lol

Ohhh yeah that might work :o

Doesn't sound like a great choice but it's what we've got xd

Hey guysss :DD

Aww no one else is here yet xdd I think they're stuck on cases

Yuuup xdd

Awww, I'm sorry :(( <3

But hey y'all can have fun :D

Shaun noo XDD

Dang 11 months ago already 😬 those were some times alright xD

Aww Lim 😭😭❤️❤️

I mean yeah though you have to think about stuff

It sucks having to do that though :((

Aww y'all xdd

Bye y'all lol

Oop more advice from Jordan?

Aww Kalu :((

He's trying xd

:O Oh no she ain't doing well

[percyjacksonfan3]

I just read all of the orchard verse (currently stuck at home with covid orz) and i am absolutely astounded. It is so good, so profoundly well paced and thought out.

So many moments when I audibly said "THORIN NO!! THORIN!!!" "5 YEARS THORIN JESUS!!" And so on lmao im really feeling like im there with the company through all his idiocy

I immediately gobbled up all the bits you've written for it and am so excited for the next installment aka the barduil bits.

I've never read fic for them before but it is so GOOD AH THE TENSION!!!! JUST MAKE OUT PROPERLY ALREADY AND BE DONE WITH IT FOR CHRIST SAKE

Also THE NECKLACE THING WAS CANON OH MY *GOD* OH MY GOD?? TOLKEIN BRUH THATS SO. I thought that was just some brilliant story telling on your part, but Its REAL??? That is so fucking gay good fucking christ

ANYWAY yeah ur an amazing fic writer and I've been having a blast reading ur fics!! Sorry for the long message akddjfndmd

This has been sitting in my inbox for a while because I've kept coming back to it over and over, that's how happy this message has made me 💖

You know, as a fic writer it's one thing to receive compliments for recent works, but when I get stuff like this about my older fics I just... 🥰 I'm so beyond words, all I can say is I'm so glad you like that verse, it holds such a special place in my heart and it's something I continuously come back to and work on in between hyperfixations. Tolkienverse stuff is such a comfort fandom for me, the only other similar one is BBC Merlin, so I'm glad you like my little contributions 😁

Barduil was actually my first ship in the fandom, Bagginshield I fell in love with through fic and they kind of took over, so I'm especially glad you're liking their fic! It's turned into such a monster I'm debating splitting it into more parts, I'll have to see where it goes since I'm still not done 😬

(Also thank God you said that about the necklace thing because right? Right?? Barduil's whole relationship is just... so good, so much potential, and the films brought them to life in such an amazing way)

Thank you for being patient with me! I know the 'verse isn't done, I have tons more planned for it, and many things are half written and plotted, I just need to get some time to write them. It will be complete, hopefully in the near-ish future, so I hope you're still with me then 😊🥰

For now, I hope you're feeling better and feel free to just message or rant to me about these characters because I am always down to fangirl over them, disasters that they are

[emcon-imagines]

what would daily life in the post-snap world look like?

life in the post-snap world thoughts/ideas (that i’ll definitely be using when i get to that part in my oc work but i wanted to post now askdf) also if anyone feels inspired by this tag me lol i want to read!!

Weeks go by where you don’t know who survived and who lived. You call hospitals. Check social media. Text friends. 

Months of confusion as supply chains are disrupted. Blackouts. Trash collection stalled. Storms come and no one is around to clean up.

Gathering names through word of mouth, writing the names down in a notebook, a page for those that lived and a page for those that didn’t

You spend weeks searching for someone who witnessed your friend get dusted just so you have closure and know they’re actually gone

And reconnecting with acquaintances who lived and becoming closer simply out of survival and a need for connection

People posting under the tag #stillhere on social media so loved ones know they’re safe

But it’s eerie how quiet social media is, people’s pages just going radio silent, their last post overwhelmed with survivors’ grief in the comments

A hotline is set up but it’s immediately overwhelmed and 911 is practically defunct

And government response is partial at best. They try to get a census out, but there’s not nearly enough organization for it to be helpful.

Entire blocks of the city covered in missing persons posters. You try to memorize the faces, but there are too many.

Going on a ton of long drives, just to see other people and other parts of your city

Your college takes forever to put out a statement, some students just up and leave in the meantime

So many people just pack up and leave. You have no idea where they plan to go.

If you’re in high school, school just sort of ends for the year. You return a few weeks later to gather your things that you left behind on the day of the Snap.

Showing up to work the day after the Snap, realizing your boss isn’t there, sitting at your desk for a few minutes while other coworkers shuffle in, and then collectively deciding to go home

Visiting your friend’s house just to sit on their front porch and pretending like they’ll be out any minute

Not opening the last Snapchats they sent to you because you don’t want them to disappear

Of course you’ve heard of the Avengers, and though you look to them for guidance, they seem to be as lost as you are

All your favorite shows and sports teams have gone off the air

Some sports leagues pulling up players from the minor leagues, but it’s not the same without your favorites

And it’s so hard when shows go back on air and shows have to explain the loss of half of their main cast

Lots of tough tribute episodes come out of that era of television. Tons of cancellations are announced.

Two months after the Snap, SNL returns to air once, also a tribute episode. You cry.

Two days later, Sesame Street airs an episode on "adapting to change." Half of the cast is gone. Mr. Noodle is without his brother. Elmo misses Big Bird. You cry even harder when you see your little cousin that's moved in with you post-Snap watching it.

Seeing commercials on TV and wondering how many of those people are gone now

The quiet, the quiet is the worst part. The highways, the skies, the airwaves, everything is quiet.

Hangouts with your remaining friend group, where mostly everyone just sits in silence around a bonfire

Or driving around, walking in the woods, talking about the friends you lost

Substance abuse out the wazoo

People you went to high school with posting crazy conspiracies on Facebook

When school does return in the fall, it’s hard to tell how many were Snapped and how many couldn’t bring themselves to return

For high schoolers, the grief is tangible in the halls on the first day of school. Classes are tiny, the lunchroom is only half-filled. Your school comes up with a stupid motto like “Stay Strong” or something that makes you feel even worse

High school seniors are pushed to start applying to college and so many end up just deferring for the time being

And tons of colleges have to change their application packet because things like the SATs and ACTs are still unorganized and aren’t administered

Homecoming feels like a funeral that year and the homecoming game is super emotional

Using “with everything going on” as an excuse for why you didn’t do your homework, or make it to work, or forgot a responsibility and people understanding exactly what you mean

Lots of people living with relatives or friends in makeshift households

The New York Times putting out an entire edition that’s just the names of the lost

Lots of local newspapers following their lead

It becomes a regular section in newspapers as stats are updated

fucking charity concerts man

[orcelito]

For each person I know who gets covid, the feeling of inevitability for myself only grows

I. Do not want to get covid lol.