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jasonsbones · 1 year

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I love when somebody who is clearly a child thinks they get what Emo is. It’s either lil baby bats in denial (like how I was vehemently in denial that MCR was Emo cuz I could only see Emo as ‘bad’ or ‘lame’)

or you get those kids that still think that people are ‘edgy’ when they wear all black. It’s a cultural movement, you know? And not to be too pretentious about it or anything, it usually involves emotional exploration involving complicated feelings that are more than just ‘happy’ ‘sad’ or ‘angry’.

That and there’s only so many times that you can be asked ‘are you going to a funeral’/ ‘it’s not fucking halloween yet, is it faggot?’ before you realize that actually you’re not the one hung up on clothing, but every person around you is. The 90s and the 00s were a wild time, but I strongly miss how powerful the emo movement of music was. You didn’t have the generally accepted hero talking about how his heart ached, how he struggled with addiction, etc, but “emo” music was extremely open about this stuff. And we reached openly out to each other. That, and traditional emos fucked with gender hardcore! People can be emo in white summer dresses and sunhats, after all. Many of us wore a lot of black because it was a rebellious statement and because it was a way to identify each other- lots of band t-shirts came in black, after all. We still are men in dresses and skirts and women in combat boots and buzzcuts and every gender outside and between! Emo and punk has a lot of crossover and cross contamination!

Can’t believe people still think all it takes to be ‘emo’ is to throw on a black jacket? Like, that just feels so high school.

#not tagging this so if you wanna bitch it's on you <3 #there's slurs in here but honestly I am a faggot so whatever #are high schoolers still throwing around 'emo' as tho it's an insult?#it's so weird that a character can be depicted in black clothing and suddenly there's people bitching about them being 'emo' like wow #brings me back a full fifteen fuckin years I tell ya hwhat.

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auuwmk · 2 months

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#most common answer i get is lgy or jhw #im a basic bitch so it was obviously lgy #sys isn't here </3 #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #mee polls #orv polls #i dont wanna tag them individually....#if you saw my deleted one earlier. no you didn't

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lightbulb-warning · 1 month

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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

#maiora garrulates #the maiora overthinks the process of writing dialogue saga continues!!!!!!!#im so tired. i have been overthinking this shit in circles i have not been making any progress in any which way lmao!#im bitching and moaning for funsies this is not that serious in the Grand Scheme Of Things i just wanna improve at my fav thing #and ❤️ Unfortunately ❤️ my favorite thing in the world involves learning MY MOST HATED *NEMESIS*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verbal communication. ew #words are fun! i LOVE words! toys!!!!! im using words right now and i didn't combust!!!!! wow look at that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#putting words in SEQUENCE? multiple times?? filtering THOUGHTS into SENTENCES???? sentences that a character would or wouldn't SAY???#AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER CHARACTER SOMETIMES???? AND THAT BITCH ALSO HAS THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS????? AND THEY ALL HAVE PERSONAL IDIOLECTS #AND TONES THAT S U P P O S E D L Y ARE IMPLICATED BY MANNERISMS AND VERBAL HABITS AND CIRCUMSTANCES (AND THERE'S WRONG ANSWERS! ALSO!!)#AND THEY'RE IN A CONTEXT!! AND THEY'RE INTERACTING WITH EACH OTHER AND INFLUENCING EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE CONVERSATION COULD VARY GIVEN ENERGY LEVELS WHETER OR NOT SOMEONE'S FOOT IS FALLING ASLEEP THE F U C K I N G WEATHER #“oh dialogue is easy just say it out loud to yourself until it 'sounds normal' ^^”#screaming crying throwing up NONE OF THIS IS INTUITIVE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!#ok dramatics over its out of my system! for now!!!#this is all easily explained bc i just. draw a lot more than i talk to people. so like. OBVIOUSLY i have more practice drawing #so drawing comes natural! talking does not! subsequently dialogue is Hard! No FUCKING Shit Sherlock!!!!! (affectionate)#so yeah. im using y'all (the tumblr void) as practice! hi!!! words at you!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah thanks for baring with me while passing by my corner of the internet #i do love self indulgence this is fun check out my navel gazing actually no do not look at my belly button #anyway i just think this is mildly interesting. some of my writer buds have the same “not good enough” allergy towards visuals #but they use it to be mean2me >:( same bitch that “omg i cant i suck at drawing i can't do this-” does the “uhm. just write? lol.” 2 meeee #we could have peace and love on planet earth and a common experience and yet you KICK miette for being bad at words!!!1!!! </3 heartbreak!!#what the fuck was i talking about even #oh yeah. perfectionism within creatives i guess. LMAO JK i am talking about NOTHIN!!!!G i am just putting Words Out Here ehehehehehe #its practice >;)c #all this bc ive been doodling comics for myself again and im V!! PROUD OF THE ART!!!! wanna share- but DIALOGUE!*⚡sfx!!*....... so! options #a) leaving it blank. no there are NO microphones in the budget. b) leaving blank *balloons* so that the Rythm is there. implied convo!!!#c) ...doing it badly. (tragic)(heartwrenching)(teeny tiny bruise 2 the ego) *dramatic single tear cleches fists * its the only way.........#...we shall see! literally none of this is all that serious i am procrastinating!! <3 playing with my tuoys!!!!!!!! silly time!!!#/all lh! am reaching 30 tags so that is all for THIS episode of the maiora bitches about dialogue saga thank you for joining me!!okilyBuhBY

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gothsuguru · 6 months

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starting my curator!geto fic officially now! <3

#really want it to sound artistic bc obvi he’s an artist/art curator so i HOPE that comes through 😭#also finally got the name of the fic down! i was lamenting for ages bc i couldn’t think of anything that was art-inspired #and then i listened to a song and in the lyrics… There It Was… shining like a beacon of light <3 #(funny bc the name has ‘shadow’ in it)#also by alter-ego you’ll see what i mean once i write more of the fic i promise that part will make sense 😭#kenjaku exists in this fic almost like an Entity he’s not actually a person in this fic #it’s a no-curses au! just wanted to play w different facets of suguru’s personality is all :3 #why aren’t tags saving #oh now you save you bitch.#ANYWAYS.#editing me here: i’m already reworking this intro so it’s more descriptive and less choppy #but it’s hard bc i wanna use a bunch of descriptors but i don’t want it to be CLUNKY 😭 intro is beating my ASS rn #kenjaku has me against the ropes 😩🫦#ignore the lipbite or don’t… but omfg… maybe I’M the tortured artist 😳😳😳 suguru step aside #double edit: the newer vision is so much better omfg i’m kinda gagged…#snippets #personal

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 3 months

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hai guys :3

#my video lol #my audio lol #vocaloid cover #synthv cover #synthesizer v cover #genbu #genbu synthv #evil food eater conchita #i am forcing everyone to look at this. look at my guy ehehehhkjnjkhgmlb AFTER TWO WHOLE ASS YEARS FINALLY #i couldve probably put more effort into this but ITS BEEN IN HERE FOR 2 YEARS i wanna be done w/ it already 😭#so regardless if it kinda sucks a little bit; its wayyy better than the covers i made like ~4? years ago when i was first starting out #was the iku drawing i posted before this foreshadowing?? not necessarily but its rly funny to think abt in hindsight #also rip genbu in a dress that i was gonna draw for this originally 😔✌️ i'd really love to draw more stuff for these covers i make #but it usually never comes out the way i want it to and i figure editing some sorta visualizer like this is better #than keeping some things trapped in my files for so long purely bc my extra ass wants a cool pv. some day maybe but not now #some sick fuck unsubscribed from me after i posted this BYE BITCH i dont miss you at all. live laugh love genbu in this house /j #im not the most obnoxious genbu stan i'd say but you WILL respect him in my house i do not tolerate genbu slander i love that man your hono #yes im extremely based bc he (and eleanor) were THE very first vsynths i ever actually fucked around w/ programwise #but WHATEVER!! idc he is so dear to me i do not regret buying his full version at all (it was impulsive)#the only synth i'd actually consider myself kinda good at tuning LMAO ik people hate how he sounds and have issues w/ him but not me...#these tags are too long girl stfu. anyways tldr; look at silly thang i made w/ my silly man #i love genbu and i love songs about cannibalism <3 #Youtube

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dabideserveslove · 1 month

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I haven't been on in a fucking while, life's been crazy yo.

If it makes up for it at all I'm almost done writing a moderately (read: extremely) angsty & smutty ShigaDabi oneshot featuring trans Dabi that may or may not fall into the Light at the End of the Night universe (I haven't decided yet, we'll see what happens lmao) as well as most of the next chapter for the main fic.

I really appreciate everyone who has been so patient with my sporadic updates and I'm gonna go through my asks and answer some of them today, too.

#forreal tho shit has been rough #go ahead and skip out on the tags if you dont wanna hear me bitch about my life lmao #it feels safer talking about it in the tags idk #anyway #pregnancy tw and miscarriage tw for the rest of the tags #you've been warned #the husband and i have been trying for baby no 3 #which wasn't even a thing we planned until i got pregnant on accident #and we decided we were like hella happy about adding to the family #and then i miscarried #and then i miscarried again #and again #total of 4 fucking times with no idea why despite many dr appts #finally managed to hold onto a fetus for longer than 16wks tho and the chance of a miscarriage is very small now so yay

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hamartia-grander · 7 months

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So funny how quickly my spite overrides literally every other emotion. You cannot do anything to me because once I launch Spite.exe everything else gets force shutdown.

#Personal #Kinda #I was really disheartened and discouraged from writing because someone reported my silly ao3 tag as “harassment”#And just the fact that someone out there hates me so much they'd do that over a very obviously facetious tag is just. It hurts.#And I was like aw man I don't wanna write anymore bc someone hates me so bad :'(#And then my Spite was like bitch someone HATES you. Now you have to give them a reason to.#To whatever bitchass misogynist reported me I hope you know you've only served to increase my drive to write #To make your life miserable #No but fr how fucking childish can you be. Block me mute me whatever. But reporting a stupid joke tag is literally fucking insane #I'll return your pettiness in kind don't worry <3

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sparky-is-spiders · 2 months

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Y’know the whole “Peter and Elias are constantly marrying and divorcing” thing well consider: Jonpeter on-again off-again toxic affair.

#help why does my ipad wanna correct ‘well’ to ‘we’ll’?? like my Guy. my Friend. that is a real word already #like bro What Are You Doing?#they love each other but are both allergic to expressing their emotions #(and also jon’s sad loneliness from having his one (1) close relationship be this? tasty as hell)#also jon is a bitch and peter is constantly showing up late for dates or ‘forgetting’ to do things or leaving without warning for months #(btw when i call jon a bitch it is with nothing but love in my heart. he’s so special to me.)#so they fight a lot and it’s a whole fucking Thing #elias tolerates it in the hopes that jon will get marked but has made it Crystal Clear to peter that he better not pull any shit with jon #it’s a matter of institute gossip #jon and peter are both very private however they do not do Subtle.#if they get invited to a gala there’s a 1 in 3 chance someone catches them snagging in a hall #a 1 in 3 chance they’re caught having a vicious fucking argument that’s theoretically about peter not doing the laundry #(but really about jon feeling neglected)#and a 1 in 3 chance they’re caught doing both. sometimes at the same time somehow.#it’s a fucking mess ever since they started having an affair they can’t handle being at the same institute event #elias had to permanently ban them from attending together (which mostly meant jon cause the lukases are donors)#will put this in the #jonpeter #peterjon #tags. but not the main tags #obligatory no martin or j//mart please and thank you #i’m gonna level this is just self-indulgent nonsense

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sakiyaki-sashimi · 5 months

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Saki Enoki Sashimi ⁉️⁉️⁉️ posting furry art on main ⁉️⁉️⁉️

More likely that u think….

@spacingoutwards

#sakis zatsudan #art #art is mine #furry art #yes I named her after a prison what of it #her nickname is cat #which is haha goofy funny bc she’s a dog GET IT #I’m so fucking cringe LOLLL who cares tho I’m free #I’ve made other furry characters (fursonas they’re called right? idk I don’t embody them but whatever)#but they’re either lost to time or so bad I’m not showing you LOLLL #there was an anglerfish one and then a cow one and then a rubber duck one #but they all looked awful lolll and they were made on sketches so now they’re forever trapped in my old iPad where they can starve alone #anywayyyyy #she’s 17 and she’s a bitch bc when drawing her I was thinking of class of 09 LOLLLL #anyway there’s too many tags on this thing #drop questions abt her if u wanna :3 #byeeeee

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camping-with-monsters · 1 year

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Kind of a rant with full offense but I genuinely despise all the hate Geeta gets as a champion. Yes her battle was a pushover. You have exactly 1 fire type which could totally be your token “overleveled starter” and she’s basically done for. But as a character? She’s not that bland— not from everyone else’s standpoints. Specifically the gym leaders.

First of all, everyone forgets she’s not even the final battle of the Victory Road storyline. Second of all, the fact that in the post game when you rematch all the gym leaders, many of them seem to react somewhat brashly thinking that you are Geeta (as far as I remember. Cause like. I think they’re supposed to have some sort of meeting I guess but Geeta sends you to take care of matters instead.) Many of them mention Geeta having a weird aura— a bewitching aura even (quote taken specifically from gym leader Tulip.) and she seems to rub a lot of the gym leaders the wrong way mentally. People seem to forget that she’s blatantly supposed to be a character shrouded in mystery but everyone and their mom wanna pin the blame on the rock flower she sends at the end of her battle for why she’s a bad champion. Y’all are focusing on the wrong material. Yes, her battle is pretty decently hyped and is a let down because yeah, she’s got a weird ass team and doesn’t use Kingambit or Glimmora’s ability the “right way” and that “Gamefreak doesn’t know how to make a good game” as if most of y’all weren’t crying at the mere concept of Arven’s whole motive for his storyline. Y’all ain’t slick.

Glimmora as her ace is genius. Not because of the battle standpoint— in that regard, it’s of course used very poorly considering it’s hazard setting gimmick. This is introducing the importance of this Pokémon and the lore of Paldea as a whole. Glimmet and Glimmora have something to do with the origins of Area Zero. The way it’s found in large abundances— the emphasis on the Pokémon in general in the endgame. It’s supposed to display it’s importance and not much else. Maybe even give way to whatever is going on in the DLC. It’s called “The Hidden Treasures Of Area Zero” for goodness sake! I firmly believe that when the DLCs come out, we will be getting some major answers to some questions. Why does she battle so carelessly? Why does she emit such a bewitching aura? Why is Nemona oblivious to this? Why is Geeta just… like that? What! Is! Geeta’s! Deal!?

Geeta is a character with so much opportunity for open speculation. She is a character we are supposed to be theorizing on. She’s a character we are supposed to be learning more about as time goes on.

But all y’all wanna focus on her easy ass battle. Hmph.

#The Kiwi Speaks #warning I’m about to be so fucking brutally honest in the post and the tags #/ neg #FULL offense but Geeta is a really solid character BECAUSE of the speculative opportunity #People are so unnecessarily mean to Geeta like.#WE STILL GOT 2 WAVES OF DLC MY GUY #GET OFF HER ASS MAN. LET THE WOMAN BREATHE DAMMIT #“we’re so sorry for bullying you diantha wahhh”#STOP FUCKIN CRYING BITCH. WAH WAH WAH. I DONT WANNA FUCKIN HEAR IT /ref #okay genuinely just. I really like Geeta okay #I think she has a really interesting concept behind her #we have a champion who doesn’t know how to be a champion #and thinks she knows exactly what she’s doing when she doesn’t #but is still considered top champion #and you’re left to question what happened #WHY DO PEOPLE HATE THIS CONCEPT SO MUCH????#I’m sorry but I will DEFEND Scarlet and Violet and DEFEND Geeta whether you like it or not #y’all jump on the hate bandwagon so fucking fast. can we please for the love of fuck let the DLCs happen #sorry but Pokemon Fans make me mad sometimes <3 #why do people choose to relentlessly hate a character for not living up to expectations #she’s not even the final battle man #I promise you—you’ll hear it here first I guess— that I think her battle is like that on purpose #Pokémon #pokémon scarlet and violet #pokémon scarlet #pokemon scarvio #Pokémon violet #Geeta #geeta pokemon #Pokemon Spoilers

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whysamwhy123 · 4 months

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Ain't done this in a while but it's sorely needed because I have had A Week. So, if anyone has any spare serotonin lying around and would like to share, through the form of asks, it would be greatly appreciated.

#Distract me from everything please?#I'll take whatever you got - questions headcanons good news something that made you happy today - anything #Because it's Sad Bitch O'Clock in this household and booooooooooy do I feel completely and utterly alone #And I don't have my usual coping mechanism of writing and silly AU ideas because my motivation has gone all *explosion noise*#Since I'm not into anything AEW's putting out right now so I've got no inspiration #And I can't make myself write any of my OrangeHook ideas since no one cares about them anymore #And my ol' standby copium of that self-indulgent Chricky AU I was writing isn't going anywhere I have made no progress as of late #Because it looks like it's gone from ''Maybe two people will read this but we'll have fun with it at least!''#To ''Nobody is going to read this and I'd just be embarrassing myself so what's the fucking point?''#And of course there's soooooo much non-fic related stuff going wrong currently but I don't feel like boring y'all with any of that shit #...honestly I probably shouldn't have gone a big ol' rant here because come on Sam #If you read all these tags...jeez I'm sorry 😬 But yeah if you wanna help distract me for a brief moment it'd be much appreciated <3 #In the meantime I'll just be over here listening to Interpol and questioning all life choices that lead me to this sorry state

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todayisafridaynight · 11 months

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GORGEOUS case bro I've never seen one with a continuous design like that and the embossment itself is so tasteful... always happy to see Mr. Dunkulous too <3

ALSO AYO YOU WATCHED MONDAY? How was it? Either way you're almost done with the Sabu Tsutsumi catalogue then... that's epic... I'm glad you liked Destiny too, it really is such a cute movie

Also I'm pretty sure PS4 preloads are open too BUT I'm still salty Xbox gets it a day early </3

Its one of the first designs i ran into while looking up wallet cases LMAO lucky me me thinks…. Its very pretty <3 mr dunkulous here to stay and keep me company lest i totally lose my mind <3<3

AND I DID i mentioned so durin stream yesterday ! i REALLY loved it, sabu keeps putting ttm in terrible situations and it makes me giddy seeing him panic 🥰 AND DESTINY WAS ADORABLE it was so cute….. really wholesome and what my soul needed….

OH PS4 PRELOADS OPEN ? Ill check it out when i get home later……. Why does xbox get it a day early thats rude me thinks…..

#snap chats #cancelling a post i was gonna make to bitch in the tags of this one <3 #anyway on this day this monday we remember the words of our king ryuji goda #A Real Man Oughta Be A Little Stupid DO YALL WANNA KNOW HOW MAD I AM.#HOW I JUST SPENT A FRACTION OF MY FOOD MONEY ON A STUPID CARD #WHEN MY FUCKING ID WAS UNDEE MY TABLET. CAN YOU IMAGINE MY RAGE. MY ANGER.#I TORE UP MY ROOM ALL WEEKEND BUT NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UNDER MY FUCKIN TABLET #its a lilfunny….. im tryna make the most of it ok GODAMMIT IM SO MAD THO I CANT #$20 is like $5 in todays society everything is twenty fuckin dollars i cant live like this #at least my deadnames not on my id anymore… and it doesnt look like its falling apart ig…#STILL HAVE THIS TERRIBLE PHOTO AND ID RATHER BE DEADNAMES AND HAVE $20 THAN NOT HAVE $20 #NO ONE TALK TO ME ANYWAY kinda funny. hang on.#at least i dont have to get a new sticker… i just scalpe the old one from my oher card.. lol… knife came in handy…#was leaving to Waste Twenty Dollars when i ran into one of my roommate’s boyfriend for the ninth time this semester #and we both clamber into the elevator and he like ‘ive seen you a lot lol so uhh whats your name :)’#and the struggle i had… do i say Aforementioned Dead Name do i say my Thinking Of Changing First Name do i say Last Name….#the safe answer is always last name so thats what i did but god i floundered..i stared at him for a second longer than i shouldve #today sucks. at least i dont have a night class today…#i’d stream y0 but streams dont go well when i stream them at 5 #plus i have to work on a comm… ouugg lemme cap it here before i rant for thirty tags straight LMAO #anyway. love my new case. destiny was cute. angry jealous frog ttms funny and sad at the same time. monday made me giggle 🥴#this was a good post to make while making sure my cars battery didnt die LMAO ok bye <3

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b0ne--r0t · 1 year

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I got called annoying once today by my favourite person in the whole world and they said it so gently too they were literally just like; "oh hey (name) sometimes this thing you do irritates me can you please try to stop? It's kinda annoying."

And now I hate everything, I hate myself, I hate my life I'm convinced they're gonna leave me because I'm so fucking annoying an ruin everything and I'm crying over my past trauma. And I just really wanna carve myself to shreds to punish myself for being so stupid and horrible and for feeling this way too.

I'm so fucking dramatic oh my god.

I wish I was fucking normal.

#tw sh implied #self mutalition #i hate myself #actually mentally ill #actually traumatized #for some reason i get really fucking attatched to one person for long periods of time no matter what they do and then they leave #and like im not okay and will try to kms when they leave and stuff and i will be not okay until i find another person to obsess over #i am so fucking toxic omfg #this is why everyone leaves you dumb bitch #Im so mentally fucked #that if i do one thing to upset my friend then my immediate solution is suicide because im truly an awful person #i just wanna scream man oh my god when does it end #im so stupid stupid stupid!#why am i like this im fucking insane and horible #please ignore me ranting and bullying myself in the tags <3

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nat-20s · 1 year

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so uhh i think i am also taking May off from working. Teehee?

#i wanna go visit family #(and the beach)#for like a week or two #but i'm going up with my dad #and due to schedules i don't think we'll be leaving until may 10th anyway so. lol.#why be a layabout for one month when you can be a layabout for TWO months???#i have enough money saved specifcally for doin Whatever with that that's not a concern #insurance is a concern but tbh i might just email my therapist and be like 'hey im gonna take a few weeks off bc insurance is a bitch'#and they'll be like deuces let me know if you need me to commit light insurance fraud #FOR LEGAL REASONS THAT LAST TAG IS A JOKE #and if i get my prescriptions filled right b4 my current insurance expires #i'll have Time to Sort Shit Out #anyway i love to be a layabout and freeloader <3

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skyjynxart · 4 months

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#hmmmm #vent cw #dont read this #no seriously i warned you im being a whiney piece of shit #I should probably be worried about the 3-day long panic attack ive had going on #the physical symptoms really are rhe works- the swimming vision the dizziness the tight chest feeling that is uniquely 'anxiety'#and then you add the inability to think for more than like 5 minutes about any given topic #the stress to the point of wanting to cry when things go slightly wrong #but ironically i cant seem to summon any actual anxiety about the anxiety #juat a blank numbness there #really do need it to stop tho as i think its destroying what little appeal as a human i had left at this point #and its seriously hampering my ability to get work done #which i absolutely need to be doing bc if i dont finish my work i cant take on more work #and if i dont take on more work i will officially no longer be paying my bills next month #'sky this seems like talk for a therapist not hidden tags on the tumblr dash' yeah I dont think sitting on this for a month will work #'talk to a friend about it then' hahaha no at least here anyone who reads this fuckin chose to #putting up with me normally is a big ask putting up with me when im needy & anxious & breaking down bc its Too Fucking Much?#lmfao hell no i like my friendship INTACT thanks #a bitch is not about to be a drain on emotional resources when said bitch cannot contribute fuckall of value thats how you make it all worse #and then a month later the therapist cancels so i just keep adding tags to this post bc no one will read them #but i feel like im “talking to someone”#the panic attacks stopped but i have no idea why #i mean im still feeling unusually heightened anxiety 24/7 but its not causing physical symptoms #not like it was anyway #and at least now being anxious makes sense #its a bunch of small to medium shit id probably feel better about if i talked more #but the less i talk and just observe people from a distance unseen the happier people i care about seem so #im literally a fifth wheel so the least i can do is not squeak and alert others to my presence #i really need to get better at art and get faster at working so i can have SOMETHING to offer #oh wow theres a tag limit apparently guess i have to find a new method bc making a new post is begging for attention & I don't wanna do that

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archivist-the-knight · 6 months

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i truly do love speculative biology for fantasy, like if i sat down and actually put time into it i could make a series exploring how different fantasy races would work. but it would genuinely be so long with me just explaining how i'd think the worldbuilding would work it's crazy

#eden mrraps.#and plus i genuinely cannot talk about society worldbuilding without first explaining #1: all of the humanoid races we see likely evolved from the same few ancestors. think like we didnt kill our fellow neanderthals in the #stone age because of uncanny valley #2: culture. oh my god culture and perception of others its so fucking important you have no idea #i can ramble on and on but it would just fucking sound like the first song in the normal album with vampire culture bassboosted #3 that most fantasy races are terribly underdeveloped and racist as hell. sorry the drow have “darker than dark” pruple skin because they #were weird about darker skinned people and didn't wanna properly explore what an underground society of nature loving elves would be like #surrounded by a whole new fauna. yeah the whole “their skin becoming dark” thing i dont think bilogically makes a lot of sense #only because. 1: hoooww would that happen. 2: bitch are they the radioactive frogs from cherynobl. is the fucking underdark radioactive.#thats the only thing off the top of my head no prior research to it that i can think of that'd cause their skin to go darker. radiation #poisoning.#<- also i proved my point. i love speculative biology #writing tag #nerd tag

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