#not sure if over or under watering
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Omg my son (a potted plant) left a huge mess (a bunch of soil) all over the shower floor after he took his bath (I watered him in the shower) he is so grounded (I am ever so slightly cross w him)
#chatterbun#he’s a#kalanchoe flapjack#and he’s giving me trouble :/#not sure if over or under watering#so I watered the heck out of him#and if he gets worse he will be repotted into bone dry soil lol#I do not know how to take care of plants too well#I’ve had some that do amazing for me and other than just don’t work#having like 2 minutes of sun is also a problem lol
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Why do so many people unironically think the Fire Nation is the misogyny-less “girlboss” nation. What the fuck.
#avatar the last airbender#the fire nation#‘haha Zuko learns about misogyny’ he spent thirteen years around his dad I can guarantee you he knows what that is#like. the fucking weirdness of exalting the genocidal colonizer nation above all else aside#it’s just textually untrue?#Ozai kidnapped Ursa.#even if we don’t take the search as canon he still clearly has and wields power over Ursa#Azula becoming fire lord doesn’t mean Ozai is a guy supportive of girlbosses it just means he hates his son’s guts#and the title of fire lord he gave Azula was empty. it literally didn’t mean anything. like he pronounced himself Ruler of the World#and declared there would be no more nations it would just burn under him#like Zuko is not some enlightened feminist#like sure maybe we could argue that the fire nation in LoK is a lot better but also the Fire Nation is like…never talked about in LoK#and there’s something incredibly gross about all these headcanons about Enlightened Feminist Zuko (Fire nation)#showing the Evil Reductive Misogynists (water tribe) the light#like you realize how weird that is right#right.
155 notes
·
View notes
Text
horizontober 2023 | 27: redo | [original shot]
(original also below the cut if you want to compare them on one screen!)
#horizontober2023#horizon forbidden west#hfw#aloy#tenakth dragoon#a redo/reimagining of the shot that really started my creative vp journey#i mean i'd used photomode plenty before that one#but i hadn't *really* gotten into trying to coax aloy into weird positions/pausing mid movement to get shots#and since then i've tried out a lot more post-photomode editing - like my favorite of the over/under water split shot#also it was the first in the face(paint)s series - which i still need to finish T_T - and for a while that really pushed me creatively#i tried something different this time re: waterline and it was much easier#not sure it works quite as well? or would be doable on a different shot? but i'm satisfied#it would be a dream for guerrilla to let us do this in-game in H3...#hfw underwater
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore
#jack facts#people be banging on about empathy this empathy that#and like sure maybe people have a measurable capacity for it but i can tell you what#that sure as fuck don't mean any fucking one of them ever bothers to make use of it when it matters lol#and i mean on the other hand it's hard to conceptualize how you would feel going through something you've never experienced before#i just wish people would be AWARE of the fact they don't know!#or like that there's a difference between ''i can't afford anything but instant ramen'' and ''i can't get any food or water''#or a difference between being freaked out by spiders and having clinical arachnophobia#or a difference between ''my loved one is sick and i'm really worried about them'' and ''my loved one is dying in front of me''#etc etc etc etc etc#anyway the longer i live the more i'm convinced that empathy is a garbage concept#and actually a more reliable way to act with true compassion is through at least some capacity for relative objectivity#the ability to say ''i don't know how that feels and i cannot understand it through comparison'' and to be able AND WILLING#to take people's self reports on their feelings thought processes or lackthereof in good faith and with sympathy#and also the ability to acknowledge that doing a bad thing for good reasons does not negate the bad thing being bad#but also should and does change what consequences are appropriate and/or most effective#and also like............... things people do in desperation or other irrational states do not represent Who They Are As A Person#or what it's like to hang out with them in a day to day situation#another thing i keep getting more and more aware of is like. if y'all can't even handle an irrational or impulsive choice that does harm#done by an otherwise ''good'' person under short term desperate situations#that they then do their best to reduce the harm of after the situation is over#i can not even imagine how absolutely unforgiving you must be of anyone who has delusions#and i mean real delusions and real psychosis not the hyperbolic babytalk version lol#like i don't think most of you even know what the fuck a delusion even is the way you act about things as simple & straightforward as like#fear. hunger. pain.#absolutely fucking exhausting
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
shoutout to brian may for constantly coming through with all the Inexpressibly Fucking Melancholy songs we could ever need. long away '39 all dead all dead some day one day leaving home ain't easy... hell even his demos. listen to you know you belong to me and water and tell me you don't feel like ben affleck on bench with cigarette dot png. every band needs one member who is just so sad All the time and Will make it the entire discography's problem and i am so serious
#queen band#sure freddie roger and john have their share of dramatic sad songs too#but brian's oeuvres just really hit the existentially terrified child inside me#the one who's constantly sitting on a beach at night looking up at the stars. good shit#take heart my friend we love you though it seems like you're alone a million lights above you smile down upon your home.#in the year of 39 came a ship in from the blue the volunteers came home that day#and they bring good news of a world so newly born though their hearts so heavily weigh.#don't you hear my call though you're many years away don't you hear me calling you.#all dead all dead but i should not grieve in time it comes to everyone#all dead all dead but in hope i breathe of course i don't believe you're dead and gone all dead and gone.#i'm all through with ties i'm all tired of tears i'm a happy man don't it look that way?#when i was you and you were me and we were very young together took us nearly there the rest may not be sung#so still the cloud it hangs over us and we're alone but some day one day we'll come home.#leaving home ain't easy but may be the only way.#i have to stop and think sometimes let the water roll a while let the days go by under my feet....#you know. lyrics like that. i go fucking INSANE.
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think I'm starting to pinpoint why things have become progressively harder for me in my program.
So much of psychology doctorate school is learning why we do certain things and avoid other things, especially when we hold others' lives and well-being in space. It starts out simple: administer this test, score and interpret it this way, learn these diagnostic criteria, practice these basic interviewing skills and internalize these theoretical ways people conceptualize clients. After a while, though, the reins get let loose: okay, now apply these things to real people(!!!) and make sure not to hurt them while you do that.
Great. Cool. It's part of the program process, so just don't worry about it, it's FINE.
All oversight is then shifted toward making sure we're doing things the "right" way, whatever supervisors think that looks like. There's liability on the line, and so very often it becomes "how do I keep you from getting me sued while doing this work for me?" instead of "how do I help you develop into the clinician you're meant to be?"
At best, you get a supe that will provide constructive feedback in a warm manner, taking into consideration that this is literally your first or second year of doing therapy. At worst, well...you get my supervisor from two pracs ago (he's now on a blacklist for all doctorate programs in the Chicago area). But when you look at the totality of things, there's something big missing.
"Good job!"
Unadulterated positive feedback, praise that isn't nearly immediately followed up by some other critique or criticism of the work.
I KNOW these programs are here to push us, help us grow, and give us the best tools possible to make the most helpful and ethical choices when working with people. That's great, that's part of what I signed up for in all this, in fact. But at the end of the day, I've spent going on 9 years now pretty much not hearing any unmitigated compliments about my work. Despite the long nights and long semester cramming this information in my exhausted cranium and the years of training I've put in (and had to redo for reasons unrelated to my actual performance).
It almost feels like self-flagellation at this point. Which is to say, it's starting to really hurt.
I DON'T expect my supervisor to give me only praise, but I'm certainly not getting it from anywhere else either. And it's not the same coming from people who are otherwise not involved in my training somehow. The incentives and motives for positivity are different in a pretty significant way.
And it's leaving me progressively more tired with each passing semester.
#Long Post#Xayk Hates College#Honestly I Know This Site Jokes About Praise Kink But Also I Don't Think We Acknowledge How Important Being Praised Actually Is#Like...On A Basic Personal Level#If You Don't Receive Any Positive Feedback -- Just The Absence Of Negative Feedback -- How Are You Supposed To Know What To Keep Doing?#I Simply Haven't Gotten An “Attaboy” In So Long That I've Forgotten What I'm Actually Doing RIGHT#Being Complimented On Being “Resilient” Really Doesn't Help Me Because Like...Great I'm Glad You're Happy That I Can Pick Myself Back Up#Have You Stopped To Consider That That's Maybe Not A GOOD Thing And That I Need To Be Reminded Of Why I Started This Shit In The First Plac#I've Been Doing This For ALMOST A FUCKING DECADE Please Consider What This Is Doing For My Physical And Mental Health#Because I'm Barely Treading Water Over Here And When I Go Under I'm Not Sure Anyone Will Be Watching It Happen#They'll Just Be Adding Another $3k Of Debt On Top Of My Head To Make Sure I Can Never Come Back Up For Air#Anyway That's How Paperwork Is Coming Along
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
sure I may overthink things, but on the upside, this gives me something to work with art-wise that isn't just the same oc 5 times in a row
#ramblings#nothing wrong with drawing the same oc 5 times in a row- i've done it before and I'll do it again#anyways did you know that the Kurrajong bottle tree (Brachychiton Populneus) takes about 30 years to fully mature?#it's native to australia but does well in any warm climate with drought seasons- you're only supposed to water it deeply every 2-3 weeks#apparently it's a popular choice for city planting#and the one in my parents' front yard fell over. it was just under 30 years old. likely a combination of high winds and root rot#at least im pretty sure it was a Brachychiton Populneus. its cousin Brachychiton Rupestris doesn't match as well visually#all I knew up until today was that it was called a bottle tree and it was real tall and skinny and it had clusters of hard brown pods
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I wish contact tracing was still a thing AND they were tracing every major contagious disease rn. Would love to scream in the left ear of the rotten pig who didn't wash their hands and gave me norovirus
#I'm suspecting it was food born illness#i had takeout the two nights before i had to go to the hospital#but there wasn't enough proof at the time to be able to report it#I've been checking iWasPoisoned and so far no one else or the health dept have cited either place as an outbreak for anything#why is hand washing so goddamn hard for people to figure out#step 1) wet hands. warm to hot water is best but if all you have is cold water then that's better than nothing#step 2) apply soap#step 3) lather the soap all over your hands. make sure to get underneath your fingernails#step 4) continue lathering the soap while your hands are under the water stream for twenty seconds. sing happy birthday or something to time#step 5) dry hands on paper towel if avaliable or hand blower if not. DO NOT WIPE HANDS ON CLOTHES IF YOU WORK IN FOOD#voila you just saved another immunocompromised person from suffering from a preventable infection!#you're a goddamn hero!
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
the heels of my pants are wet !!
#just me hi#are they called heels ?#doesn't matter- now they are >:)#anyway i have found a love for big pants#i am short so feedback says i look silly. but i wanna be silly anyway so!! i'm winning :D#but anyway that Does mean that some pants that fit me also Don't fit me lol#they're too long. so the cuffs are on the ground + under my heels#and it's raining outside and i had to grab a christmas gift and i forgot to tug them up and now i have to roll them up-#and beCAUSE i can't just. sit on the floor i'm sitting criss-cross and the wet. is on. the inside bend of my knees#this is like. the worst thing on the planet fvhsdhc#but it's okay .....#i like water water is cool!! but also come On dude hfvsh#//also i got earbuds for the first time in... years actually lol#so i'm trying to remember how to use them comfortable hfsfvh#i miss my noise-canceling headphones.. auhhhhhhh.........#they were super cool and the only reason i stopped using them was because the cushion fell off of one (still used it though (painful (i put#a sock over it Lmao))) and then the wire eventually severed itself :/#like i had those since i was 13 and i had to get them replaced i think 2 years ago#the replacements since have been. okay hfshcdh#idk maybe i just blasted my ears out or maybe i'm just putting a rosy film over some memories or maybe i'm RIGHT but i'm pretty sure the#sound quality on every one after that has been kind of worse lol#/tho you know what these earbuds aren't too bad from the perspective of the headphones i've been using#like i have the volume on 4 and it's a nice mid-volume and Clear#with those chunky headphones (and i mean Chunkyyyyyy headphones) i had to put them on 20 to get any good sound + you could Hear It from lik#2-3 feet away fvshdc#these are silent...... hecka nice..............#//anyway it's not spooky season but it feels like it lol#merry christmas happy holidays!! hope these following days treat you kindly :)
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
:( i think i just accidentally boiled a spider to death
#i usually do a quick sweep to be sure there's no spiders or centipedes in the shower but i was distracted#forgot my soap and razor too lol#and so i thought with my glasses off that this solid inch long black grass(?) spider was a hairball#because there are a couple of those in here and i only clean them out sometimes#alas. when i leaned over to grabthe shampoo the poor guy got sprayed real solidly with steaming hot shower water#i like my water to be like tea hot. like hot enough to hurt#so like he naturally started scrambling away like he'd been burned on account of i think he had#crawled onto my roommate's soap so i scooted him to the dry part of the shower#*bathroom sorry#and as soon as he was away from the water and calmed down he slowed Way down#now he's sitting sort of half under the bathmat#i think he might've come here to die anyway because it's about that time but still#very sad to see such a magnificent beast in such a state#man is huge#at least by the standards of the spiders i otherwise see here#and clearly a breeding male I've literally never seen such big boxing gloves on a wild spider in my life#...though to be fair he was like dragging himself along by them outside the shower bc i think his legs weren't working#poor guy. gotta be a miserable way to die#eta i took another peek and now he's atop the mat....but four of his legs are visibly not bending right#so yeah one way or another i've killed this poor guy#i'm gonna take him outside after i get dressed so he can at least be a snack for something else instead of just expiring on my bathroom#floor and jumpscaring my roommate in five hours
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
🙃
#I’m going to redo this cause my mind is all over the place and I want to idk organize my thoughts#so I’m still sick (mainly dealing with a brain fog right now)#and my roommate comes in and screams my name and wants to tell me all about the perfect date she just went on#no offense but I really don’t care right now#I’m going to call my roommate G right now#so G is rich she has a rich family and she’s working under her mom (who owns the fucking company)#for example her car broke down the other day and her mom instantly got her a new one#idk about you but if my car breaks down I’m FUCKED I’m walking literally everywhere cause I don’t get a new car#but the part that just gets to me (and it really isn’t her fault) but she gets to order food like every single day#when I’m sitting upstairs trying to figure out if I have anything or if I’m just going to have toast again for dinner#so she’s rich and she’s pretty and she has a wonderful love life#and I’m broke as fuck and ugly and lonely cause no one wants to be with me hahahahah#I’ve been cleaning up after myself and my ex all day (pretty sure he’s the one that got me sick)#and then she comes home and tells me all about ‘green flag guy’ and how perfect he is and the date went#and I want to SCREAM i want to be there for her and be a good friend#but every time she says something good going on in her life I just want to sob cause my life is so shitty compared#and the worst part is I’m just STUCK here. idk how to get out of this shitty position anymore#I’m lucky my sister sent me money so my bank isn’t negative anymore but idk what I’m going to eat tonight or how I’m going to pay water bill#I know I know I shouldn’t compare my life to someone else’s it’s just SO hard when I see it every day#it’s hard to ignore the door bell whenever she orders food or the smell when I’m starving#I just wish my life was different and I know I can’t take it out on her cause she didn’t do anything wrong#idk what the point was to bitch about all this I’m just stuck#I’m starving and want to eat something but I have nothing to make#I don’t even think I mentioned the whole date thing…. like I get it she wants to tell me about her date cause we are close#but DUDE I haven’t been on a date in *years* and you go on dates like at least once a month#I wanna say my last date was in the beginning of our relationship and we went to some restaurant#which was nice but we dated for 5+ YEARS and only went on like 2 dates#and she’s going on dates left and right and I just want to cry#ignore me I’m just bitching and hungry and stuck#shut up rosie
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm feeling very emo about herculaneum rn bc of that statue post btw
#i'm reading more about it bc i was never taught about it in school#it's a city that was just about 13km away from pompeii and was also buried in the eruption of vesuvius#but it got buried under 5 times as much volcanic ash as pompeii so it was really difficult to excavate#and bc of that because pompeii was easier to get to that city became more famous#real excavation on herculaneum only seriously began in the 1920s and real preservation only began in the 1980s#the city was architecturally and artisticallly beautiful on rival with pompeii and we've retrieved a number of gorgeous statues#but there was a city built near the excavation site that really damaged a lot of the building foundations through water runoff#and a lot of the remains we've found have been sadly damaged by the elements as well on top of being not very well preserved to begin with#so in the 80s italian authorities basically said “start protecting this shit we can't lose this” and officially halted all excavation#to focus instead on preserving what we had already discovered rather than finding new things#and if that isn't just the perfect example of why i love archaeology and sociology#it's not all about what you find and how you find it but how you care for it as well#how are you gonna take this beautiful ancient city that's been gifted to you and say. i'll protect you.#i'll make sure you don't get hurt. i'll make sure your foundations are strong. i'll make sure you're still beautiful.#i'll protect the citizens who called you home once. i'll make sure they're taken care of in death.#i'll make sure that you're respected.#reaching your hand back two thousand years and caring for those people and the things they loved.#fuck man i'm fucking crying over this rn
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#Been taking my meds as prescribed and have been on the edge of a panic attack for nearly 2 weeks now#My body is in a tremendous amount of pain#but I gotta pretend I am okay just to have people quit asking if I am okay. I am not but there is nothing to be done about it#the pain docs dgaf the bone docs dgaf the specialists dgaf#I can't even take mj to feel better because I am so allergic#and speaking of allergies I have been having what look like HIVES starting to appear randomly over my face and chest for these 2 weeks#istg if this is another fucking reaction to allergens I am just going to go meet the hatman and claim squatter's rights in his house#woke up from another passing out episode to be ravenous and had to make myself some eggs and rice#I added kimchi because there needs to be more daily veggies in this diet#Most days the meals have been a tsp of peanut butter; an applesauce or string cheese; whatever noodle; and eggs or tuna...sometimes chicken#But still they want to tell me I am eating too much daily somehow#I do also drink a fuckton of water daily#I am just so tired of these 8year experts seeing a short fat thing and immediately equating all my problems to fucking weight#something is wrong and nobody wants to look further into it#In the meantime I am going to be mentally unwell because my body feels like shattering glass under electrified water every waking moment#But sure! let me take on the responsibility of teaching 44 other households how to open an rtf file in a damn word processor#HOW TF do you get over 50 and have all problem solving skills drop out of your ass. God forbid I write simple instructions#and some asshole put out fliers on ageism near my apartment#Telling someone that they need to actually have the correct information before moving forward to do something is apparently disrespectful#I literally don't have to do anything for any of these people but they feel entitled to my time and energy because I am 30+ years younger#And they've been having kvetch sessions about who knows what in a room literally on the other side of my bedroom wall#I got shit to do in the morning so I hope to wake up somebody else tomorrow#wish me luck
0 notes
Text
cancelling alkaline trio the band because my night has been ruined by 3 alkaline batteries
#i woke up with a cracking sound next to my ear and thought mhh now my headphones distortion noises have transferred over to my actual ears#nope just a dying battery#and in my panic i followed the 1st advice i saw online which was just to use a paper towel#then i had weird stains on my hands#im fine i just spend 2 1/2 hours putting my hands under cold water#not sure my skin will be fine but i had 1 hour of sleep so i really need to sleep now#this happening the night before enrollment for the next academic year starts is so peak me luck#in the middle of the night while already fatigued and sleep deprived 😭#personal#sage posting
0 notes
Text
I was punched and pepper sprayed by cops that my university administration set on student protesters yesterday. Including once where a cop ripped my mask off my face, grabbed my jaw, and sprayed pepper sprayed straight into my mouth. The university sent out an alert in the middle of our protest canceling classes for the rest of the day, only citing “adverse conditions”. After protesters dispersed under threat of even more violence and three buses of riot police from all over the state with rubber bullets and bully sticks parked in front of one our school’s famous landmarks. I staggered over to a couple of friends who were watching on the sidelines. They gave me water and an apple and held a bag of ice on my very pepper spray irritated face. As they were walking me back to my dorm we ran into one of their roommates. She had taken cancelled classes as an opportunity to get crumbl cookie with her friends. Standing in front of her, happy in a floral blouse with her box of cookies, in my pepper spray and water soaked tshirt, keffiyeh sadly hanging off my shoulder, holding an ice pack to my mouth, felt like a slap in the face.
After putting my pepper spray soaked clothes, shoes, and keffiyeh in a plastic bag and taking an extraordinarily painful shower, a friend and I went for dinner just off campus. There we had a pot of green tea and ramen to soothe pepper sprayed throats. We got ice cream after (shared a cup with chocolate and raspberry pomegranate with strawberry pieces on top, it was very good). From our spot outside the ice cream place we watched a steady stream of groups of sorority girls in matching jeans shorts and blue bikini tops walking back to their apartments after some apparently raucous parties. The cognitive dissonance was insane. I really felt a little like I was going crazy.
Even this morning, waking up to the smeared sharpie of the National Lawyer’s Guild’s phone number on my arm, a black and blue chest from where a grown man straight up clocked me while I was held up by two other protesters in a wall, and a still sore throat and eyes from the pepper spray, life goes on like normal. I still have final papers to write and a math exam to review for.
I’m not sure I really have a point. But, this feeling only makes me want to fight harder for a free Palestine. So, fuck Israel for being an apartheid state and all of their crimes over the last 76 years. Fuck university administration for not disclosing their level of investment in Israel. Fuck university administration for not divesting from this genocide. Fuck Joe Biden for actively supporting this genocide. And fuck the police.
19K notes
·
View notes
Text
THERES SO MANY LITTLE DETAILS???
hey guys
#i live this#so much#screw it im gonna name all the refrences i see cause why not.#slefie jay took in the house on Zero#Dark puckerd hole (i assume) under the desk#a very hidden black rose next to Gills barrel#goobleck seeping through the ceiling#poker chips behind gill#pretty sure that dart board has Niklause on it out of frame lol#breifcase of holding that has the rose sitting on iy#chips stupid heart underwear#dungeon meshi book???#niklause symbol on the wood#fein pin on desk#chip necklace hanging over hamock#the literal map of mana#HATSUNE MIKU!?!?#jort storm drawing#might be lighting might not but the barrel water looks red.#thats a refernece to me wether intentional or not#single coin under hammock. could be random. could be Arlin's ifk#conch shell#sleeve of jacket? idk i know they got a jacket with roses on it at some point#anyways thats it lol#sry the brainrot is real and ive used this as a picture search lmao#VERY VERY COOL ART#if you read this far down lol#jrwi#reblog#this is the last tag im allowed
2K notes
·
View notes