#not only do our hearts love each other
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Luffy would be the most perfect boyfriend bc whatever I canât eat, heâll finish for me and Iâd be the perfect gf for him bc I never finish my plate so heâll always have more food waiting for him
#we are so compatible#not only do our hearts love each other#but so do our stomachs#ËË°â˘*â⡠selfship: amiffy
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it probably is insane how much I wish I could express the thing about spones. the vibes about spones. Like there's the joking fun fandom vibes and I love them, I love to play with them, of course of course. but the THING. the CORE to me. i wish i could capture it and share it.
#like. the constancy. like the friction matters because it's hand in hand with the steadfastness you know? and it doesn't preclude tenderness#also climbing into the mind of the person you've been obsessed with understanding and being understood by.#and the fact that it's lifelong. and the teasing. and the fact that the growth is in the allowance of imperfections#allowing that imperfections exist in who you love allows you to love them allows you to love yourself#and i always love people knowing what you believe and bolstering it when you feel lost even when it's not their philosophy#(bones asking spock hope? isn't that a human failing? and him not allowing that#spock losing himself to emotion in all our yesterdays and bones reminding him how antithetical that is to him)#but even with all that seriousness - the TEASING. the plain fun. the constant reaching out regardless of their moods#the constant seeking each other out. the almost - given nature of the relationship.#it's not in some ways as dramatic as a Simple Feeling as the When I Think of You I Feel Shame.#it's bones growing into old age the human way one day at a time with spock#when people are like oh spock just put his katra in him because he was there - yeah. and he was always going to be the one who was there#this is why the earth moon sun metaphor works for the triumvirate so much better than sun moon stars imo#bones is the earth spock is the moon kirk is the sun#'the captain was indispensable'#the sun - a distant lifegiver to them and many others. they do revolve around it. have unique relationships to it#the earth revolutes the sun which brings it life. the moon has a face it only shows the sun#and the moon revolutes the earth. their gravity shapes each other. they reach out to each other. they formed in a collision outward#in some ways are entirely different but have the same stuff in them. spin the same.#idk it just makes so much sense for them all.#but even just getting back to them. again just the obsession with each others mind.#'i will never understand the medical mind' 'mathematically perfect brainwaves'#and then complimenting each other always so startlingly out of the blue with their own fields -#'you have a good bedside manner spock' 'perhaps if they had your ingenuity they would have'#the seeking each other's advice out even if it's just to argue with it lmao. the motif of their last words always going to each other#even wrath of khan - we know spock was talking to bones in his head. i do always wonder what was in their tsfs reunion scene#that shatner didn't want to happen.#I don't know and even this isn't the heart of it.#there's the families and the way they fit into each other's conception and value and weight of family#do i even tag this spones. this is just crazy rambling.
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Itâs so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they donât give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while Iâm at it I donât understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing theyâre perfectly fine and to them you donât exist#Iâm still in such a state of grief and I donât understand why time hasnât healed#it honestly feels like itâs gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I canât help it my brain wants me dead#itâs so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone whoâs your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I donât even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I donât even know if he still has her or if sheâs still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didnât appreciate me#not wasted. it wasnât wasted. we had some incredible times together#Iâll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i canât decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#itâs all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and itâs so fucked up#nobody read this Iâm so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if Iâll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me Iâm just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing youâre going to abandon them the second itâs convenient
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Dont be angry, Finnula said. Be smart.
#Chapter 23#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Elide Lochan#Finnula#no spoilers pls first read along w me chapter spoilers in post & tags below w more annotations/quotes/notes/reacts/perspective 3 of 4#The City of Rivers⌠can Aelin get a City of Fire? cuz that would be cool & Elide already said âfear was another companion it canât be worse#IT WAS LORCANS SHIRTđ & he cared so much he lied so sheâd use it from Gavriel/Rowanđ OH ELORCANđđđ#Yet this place seemed like a paradise. WHATS REAL? is it a Maeve illusion⌠but it sounds lovely; like Rowan could just fly aroundđ#Pink and blue flowers draped from windowsills; little canals wended between some of the streets ferrying people in bright long boats.#And though a good dose of fear would aid in her cover too much would spell her doom. -smart clever spy gal Annabeth Chase would be proud#And this city Rowan had told Elide had been built from stone to keep Brannon or any of his descendants from razing it to the ground.#when u know ur evil cuz you had to build in a backup plan for the day Brannons peeps eventually come to shut that shit down⌠my poor Aelin#Elide fought the limp that grew with each step farther into the city--farther away from Gavriel's magic⌠or Lorcanâsđđđ¤đ¤¨#okay Elide I see your mirror mirror Aos moves with the berry listen and compact trick she can do it with a broken heart#cycle. She hadn't been able to find the words anyway. Not with what it would crumple in her chest to even think them. WELL NOW IM CRUMPLED#As if she'd been weeping for weeks⌠yeah that fits the KoA vibes#But it wasn't the reflection she wanted to see. But rather the square behind her. â BRILLIANT QUEEN â lol thx Lorcan for having a mirror#if only anything could be a witch mirror then they could all cell chat and communicate cause the travel time in this one is rough#she was merely staring into a compact mirror no more than a self-conscious girl trying to fix her frazzled appearance â she is the best spy#A girl trying to muster some dignity. Let them see what they wanted to see-A girl far out of her element in this lovely well-dressed city#cornflower blue ALWAYS THESE SHADES#her golden-brown skin shone with an inner light. Her eyes were soft with kindness. And concern.#had always made them foolishly off guard and eager to get away. To tell her what she needed to know. â funny 2 watch Elide do this after HoF#The sort of voice Elide had always imagined great beauties possessing the sort of voice that made men fall all over themselves.#Cairn. One of the males swore; the other scanned Elide from head to toe. But the two females had gone still. â agreed heâs the worst#the portrait of hopeâyeah childâs right cause noâElide always naming peâopleâIf you escaped Cairn don't go looking for him again.âtrue#Cairn is blood-sworn to our queen. Still makes him a prick TRUTH â doesnât need to be a far to catch the lie â WHERE IS SHE DAMNIT#She was about to do it again wheen⌠The dark-haired beauty from the tavern was standing behind her. â SHIT#Maeve was not in Doranelle. How long would that remain true? Had to make the next performance count. â how many had she done this already?đĽšđ
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Tag drop: Guizhong (don't mind me re-dropping this with the fixed ones, shh)
#tag drop#[ guizhong. ] many things only seem to surface beneath the moon's poignant glow. wherever its light shines; the heart is wont to follow.#[ guizhong: ic. ] wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains.#[ guizhong: inquiries. ] hmph. she always had a way with words.#[ guizhong: countenance. ] and because they are afraid; they try so hard to become more intelligent. this i understand.#[ guizhong: introspection. ] although she did not live to see the splendid sights of today: she was as much a hero as any other.#[ guizhong: etc. ] it took an elaborate treasure hunt to preserve the commandments that were once the lifeblood of a whole civilization.#[ guizhong: mortals. ] at their full potential; they could be her equal. a human who has as much to teach an adeptus as to learn from them.#[ guizhong: guili plains. ] as guizhong once said: âit takes every blade of grass and every flower to make a homeland.â#[ guizhong: liyue. ] perhaps she will look at the liyue of today and steal a smile when she sees the prosperous land that it has become.#[ guizhong: realm of clouds. ] a voyage to a sanguine sky.#[ guizhong: mechanical arts. ] in one's heart; i knew that she was indeed the superior talent in the mechanical arts.#[ guizhong: glaze lilies. ] they were far more abundant back then. entire fields would appear to the eye as a veritable sea of flowers.#[ guizhong: adepti. ] until the moon set and the sun rose. and only then would the banquet finally come to an end.#[ guizhong: morax. ] whoever it was that revered her so much was very clever indeed.#[ guizhong: morax. ] when our eyes meet; eternity is defined. [ delusionaid. ]#[ guizhong: xiao. ] if darkness comes; colors you with fear; be still and know that i'm with you and i will say your name. [ apocryphis. ]#[ guizhong: marchosius. ] who would dare snub the stove god and his wondrous creations? at the sight of him: we would drop any argument.#[ guizhong: streetward rambler. ] it almost felt like she was back again. sitting right there on the stone stool next to me; chatting away.#[ guizhong: cloud retainer. ] we each had our ideals; and neither one of us would yield to the other.#[ guizhong: osial. ] she would disrupt the silence around them with a hum; as if to sing to the harmony of the water. was this his song?#[ guizhong: sea gazer. ] he was quite the braggart when it came to those collectibles he was so fond of; he always loved to show them off.#[ guizhong: skybracer. ] to who lived by the mountain; he was their savior. in fact; they thought higher of him than the lord of geo.#[ guizhong: ganyu. ] if we planted flowers in the guili plains; do you think that one day we'd be able to recreate the sea of glaze lilies?#[ guizhong: v. descension. ] she descended whose dominion was over dust; and whose reach shrouded the skies for thousands of miles around.#[ guizhong: v. guili assembly. ] it's great to have it back but i want to go back to the world. and start with guili plains.#[ guizhong: v. archon war. ] they fought upon the plains; where black dust choked the heavens and a thousand rocks splintered.#[ guizhong: v. present. ] all wrapped up in a city that has existed for many moons to date. all these things: they are why people chase it.#[ guizhong: meta. ] her manuscripts lie unfinished in her abode. the blank pages give cause for contemplation on what might have been.
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"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple
#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ]#is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out đ#not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times.#i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions.#if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far#^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate#anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed#in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other đ#realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing#realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart.#need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me âźď¸#(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict)#realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve#which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning#it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after.#not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit#is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me#valentine notes#relationship posting
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the worst part about flapjack's death is that luz and hunter's friendship died right along with it lmao
#idk it's just funny. TTT goes so fucking far in order to say that luz and hunter have built a strong bond between them#to the point that luz calls him family#then luz is the only one who refuses to fight possessed hunter#she only gets close to him to hug him and do the 'this is not you!' middle school couple trope on him#not only that but flapjack entrusts his powers for luz when he sees what's become of hunter and THAT is what she CHOOSES to do#you know. flapjack who was caleb's palisman. who was there for the entirety of caleb and evelyn's romance to the point that belos-#-considers him a symbol of caleb's betrayal (his love for evelyn)#this is the same flapjack that looks at phillip trying to harm 'caleb' again and decides to literally put his powers in luz's hands#and ultimately his sacrifice means neither caleb or evelyn have to die again#which is kinda confirmed by the way hunter goes like 'there's a reason you and i are alive and here right now and it's because-#-it's our turn to defeat belos' like i didn't even have to reach for this. hunter says it himself#and this is all great and compelling and makes sense except for the fact that the show just forgets about this on the next two episodes#and so where the first episode establishes that luz and hunter are close friends FTF and WAD are like 'do they even know each other?idk idc#and i get to stare at the camera because OBVIOUSLY if hunter and luz were a couple this wouldn't be a problem to begin with#and flapjack's death loses meaning when it turns out that nothing about evelyn or caleb or the previous confrontations between belos and-#-the other grimwalkers has any bearing in the plot anymore#flapjack gave its life to preserve the love that changed the world back then but because it's just never acknowledged it's like. who cares#someone had to die and we can't kill one of the kids#shrugs#sorry i have so much resentment in my heart#but do not get it twisted. it's HILARIOUS to me that TOH is at its most compelling when the lunter/witteclaw parallels are at its strongest#and then shoots itself in the foot when they realize that they paired off both characters with other people#okay that's all i have to say by now#lunter#is this anything
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I just am obsessed with any story thatâs about people who love each other but cannot do justice to that love because they have a duty to something else first. That there is something else fundamental and demanding that they must choose over love every time. To be forced to choose one irreplaceable thing over another etc etc
#For Jiang Cheng thatâs his responsibility to his sect and to their people#and the burnt and fragile remains of their home#who are all counting on himâan orphaned teenagerâto protect and lead them#And as much as he might want to throw that all away to be by his brotherâs side#or as much as he might want to help wen qing and wen ning#they can never come first. because first he has to keep his people safe. he canât put them at risk#no matter how much he loves his brother#heâs not powerful enough yet for taking a stand to do anything other than get his sect burned to the ground a second time#and that turns into him standing in the burial mounds near tears as he tells his brother âI canât protect you anymoreâ#Which is its own bitter irony because you know wwx is thinking that itâs not his little brotherâs job to protect him)#(with no idea how much he already has)#meanwhile for wei wuxian his primary duty is to help the wens#because he protected his brother at an unspeakable cost and his brother protected the sect and theyâre going to be fine without him#(who only endangers them more by being around them)#which means now Wei Wuxianâs first and most important duty#is to protect this group of people who have absolutely no one else in the world who will stand with them#So even though it breaks his heart to leave his home and family he has to do what is right#Itâs why I liked wen qing so much too. she and jiang cheng understood this about each other#while i donât think jiang cheng and wei wuxian understand this about each other at all#because jc is standing there like when did i and my sister and our clan stop being your most important#and wwx is like I have already given everything I can give to you and I can only make things worse for you. but these people?I can help them#so i have to help them#as you guys can see. im not doing well#anyway watch black sails#the untamed
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once again on my frankenstein bullshit because iâm sure itâs a very nice bookend but it is baffling that so many fix it attempts for this story are built on frankenstein asking the creatureâs forgiveness in the arctic because like??? no??? the only time victor was ever in the position of âhey you should really say sorry to this guyâ is after he first ran away. everything else after that should be the creature fucking groveling and saying âhey sorry i murdered your brother and then framed your friend so sheâd be executed and then murdered your boyfriend and the murdered your wife which made your dad weaken and dieâ because in the scales of whoâs been wronged more, guy whose father was mean to him is very much trumped by guy who had everyone he loves wiped the fuck out because his son threw a temper tantrum.Â
sorry.
#personal#frankenstein#i myself love an attempted frankenstein fix it where these two can attempt to heal#or even something where they at least have a good moment before victor dies#but this idea that the creature is the only one owed an apology for the shit that goes down in the story is ludicrous#i feel bad for him i do my heart bleeds for our lil adam but like#what he went through 'at victor's hands' (and i say that with a big ole grain of salt)#is nothing compared to what victor went through at his hands. what victor suffered because of what the creature did.#like they both wronged each other enormously but there is a certain point where one kinda overpowers the other#for me i think that point came when the creature not only murdered a little kid but pinned it on an innocent lady for no reason#like am i crazy? am i dumb or something? why is 'abandoning the creature' worthy of constant self flagellation#but literally decimating victor's entire family and support system of people who loved him just something that can be brushed over??#like no if you wanna make it truly meaningful (and i'm not talking like fanfic here i'm talking literal reimaginings of the story)#then they both need to have a moment where they realize they fucked up and hurt someone who shouldn't have been hurt that way#i mean hell it's not even about the creature feeling sympathy for victor how about just ANY emotion#for the literal half dozen people whose deaths are on his hands!!! shouldn't that be a huge part of any arc or growth!!!#realizing that what he did wasn't right not just to victor but to the actual victims themselves who never did him any harm#god i'm once again mad at the people who have such a shallow understanding of this story
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the love of my dreams dropped me for another man and I now have a black hole in the pit of my stomach. this shit has been eating me from the inside out
#I canât believe Iâm telling a single soul this#and I would never do this for any person on earth#okay let me just give yâall some backstory#this woman weâll call Z#we met online in middle school over that trash kik picture board#you know the one#anyway we dated on and off through late middle to like mid-late high school#and we loved each other#but distance put a strain on our relationship#so we split and went our separate ways#this may have been like early-mid 2017#so a couple years later I see on her IG that sheâs getting married to a military guy#ripped. built ass abs youâd wanna nibble on them#find out some time later he was physically and mentally abusive to her#she told me about that like dec 2019#I was deeply sad for her that she was going through that#I donât remember much of that conversation#I had since deleted the messages because I read over them so much at the time#you would think Iâd remember them. I can only remember the feeling#my heart lit up in my chest#she said something along the lines of she yearned for me#or she missed me. I felt the same#we stopped talking#fast forward Valentineâs Day this year and weâre swiping up on each others stories sending each other stuff and talking.#I hadnât felt more free to be myself and talk ever since we were dating. Iâm still convinced sheâs the only person on earth that gets me#cont. on next post
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A writer friend told me something that broke my heart a little bit today; they're going to quit publishing their fanfic.
My instant thought was that they had been trolled or attacked or that something terrible had happened in their life because this person is so passionate about their writing. It wasn't any of that. Engagement with their works has been going down, as it has for many of us. Comments are like gold dust a lot of the time, and just looking through the historical comment counts on old fics on ao3 demonstrates this trend very clearly. It was not simply the comments dropping off which caused them to decide to stop posting, however.
My friend came across a discord server for their fandom (I should point out here that their fandom interest and mine diverged a couple of years ago, we stay in touch but don't currently read each other's posts because I'm not into their fandom and they would rather gouge their eyes out with a wooden spoon than read anything Star Wars) and specifically to share fic in that fandom. They joined, because we all love a good fic rec, only to discover that their latest multichapter fic, which has almost no comments and very few kudos, is being hotly discussed in this server as one of the best stories ever. Not one of these people has bothered to say this to them on the fic. When they asked, none of participants could see the point in telling the author of the fic they apparently loved so much that they love it.
This discovery has absolutely destroyed my friend's love of sharing fic. They share because they love seeing other people's enjoyment, and fic writers do that through comments and kudos/reblogs/likes because we don't get paid. There is no literary critic writing a blog post/article about how amazing the story is for us to copy and keep/frame. There is no money from royalties. All we have are the words of the people reading our works.
Those people on that server could have taken five minutes of the time they spent gushing about how amazing my friend's story was to other people and used it to tell the one person guaranteed to want to hear that praise how much they loved it. They could have taken a moment to express their opinion to the person who spent hours upon hours plotting, writing, editing, and posting those chapters. Instead, they deprived my friend of thing that keeps them sharing their writing, and in the process have killed their love of it. My friend now feels used and unmotivated.
I won't be sharing a link to their fic, they said I could share their experience but not their identity. I know they plan to post one final chapter. I know they intend to express their hurt at being excluded from the praise for the thing they created, and I know they intend to announce that as a consequence they will not be posting for a long while, if at all.
So please, I beg you, don't hide your love of a story from the writer. It's just about the only thing we have.
#fanfiction#fanfic#ao3 writer#ao3 fanfic#writing is hard#fanfic writing#writer stuff#archive of our own#ao3#this isnât about me#my stuff still has great interaction from readers#although I would never say no to more#but please please please don't hide your enjoyment from us#they feed the gremlins in our heads which give us the stories
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but i would give anything for just one day spent in the life i had when i was 15. it may not have been perfect but i felt like i belonged somewhere. and i didn't worry so goddamn much about the big picture
#sighhh i miss when my biggest worry was my crush liking me back#i was such a typical teenager in hindsight bc of that#it seems a lifetime ago but it was only 4 years#2 years since we broke up thats crazy. everything changed i built my own life from nothing#im a completely different person#figuratively and literally though i will not use that to excuse my past actions haha#discord was like my whole damn world my center of the universe talking to my friends on there the highlight of my day#we had plans we had goals we had all thse big ideas and things we could do in our free time#now we go days without really talking to each other#in 2020 i said 3 more years and then we meet irl now 2023 is over and i am sure i will never see you. i wouldnt want to see you#i guess adulthood caught up to all of us. okay. most of us#i am just so sentimental#things had purpose back then and i wasnt this afraid#and i loved them#and i had someone who loved me#its fucked up how you dont even realize it wont last forever until its over#i wish it had ended differently. the whole friend group.#sometimes i wish we wouldve stayed friends. but thats just hopeful thinking because in my heart i know there is no way#were too different and theyre too committed to fucking up everything they have always#it makes me sad. makes me think they truly dont feel like they deserve happiness. i am kind of that way too#but i dont complain about losing the people i push away. so thats how were different lol#and i also dont suibait my mentally ill followers every other day because of some drama that only 15 year olds care about#so in that regard thank fuck i grew up. but also. thinking of them reminds me of simpler times#when this petty shit mattered to me. it really doesnt matter to me anymore and i cant get myself to care about anything that happens online#maybe its time for me to leave the internet behind for good. i dont know what its doing for me anymore.#i dont have anything im excited about on my laptop anymore lmao i have to desperately cling for straws for things i could do#to avoid sleep and being alone with my thoughts
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Bading ding! Ding ding! Bading!
#IDK why iâm coming back to this blog after so long. i kind of made it as a joke after finding an honest to god failure fandom and wanting i#as much as i love failure it was never a hyperfixation/special interest for me. i just kinda had to be obsessed with it#because that was the only way i could cope with how much of a disaster the production process of our show was#in short we got a new director that was leagues behind our previous one#and this show is ambitious as hell for a high school so idk what he was thinking. glad i graduated#but still the clocks especially are near and dear to my heart. our clock family was trauma bonded fr#iâm not really close with most of them#and i only keep in contact our Cuckoo an Grandfather but when we do see each other it feels like weâre still a clock family yâknow??#I injected some of their personal characterization of each clock into my human versions as well as the tumblr roleplay editions of the char#Samâs juxtaposition of nervous and elegant energy in Wall Clock; Eddieâs stern and tired but caring demeanor as Grandfather Clock;#the sheer and heartfelt cuckooness of MQâs Cuckoo Clock; the inherent charm of Erle to contrast with the abrasiveness of his Counter Clock;#and the Cog Siblings (Anna and Ashe) who were unique to our show and were the babies of the family.#even if theyâre not canon to Failure. theyâre irreplaceable in the Clock family#to me at least#well thatâs enough yapping from me lol#failure: a love story#fail front door#failure a love story#front door#a peek behind the curtain#also my birthday is tomorrow! happy birthday to me đ
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Heated Waters
synopsis: being married is hard, being married without seeing each other is even harder.
â content: Hiromi Higuruma x F! Reader, nsfw, bathtub sex, fingering, Hiromi neglects his wife, but boy does he make up for it
â wc: 1.9k
âYeah we do it pretty much every day.â
Satoru said, taking a leisurely sip of his water. His pale face alight with mischief, a shit-eating grin across his lips. His three coworkers stared at him in (jealousy) disbelief.
Suguru was the first to break the silence, wanting to save face âEveryday is a bit much, isnât it, Satoru?â
Satoru chuckled, his blue eyes glinting with amusement as he watched his friend squirm. "What about you guys? How often do our married friends get it in?" His gaze flickered to Nanami, who cleared his throat and adjusted his glasses, his eyes fixed on the steam rising from his coffee cup.
âTwice a week, I supposeâŚâ
Satoru's smile widened, clearly entertained by the responses he was drawing out. He then turned his attention to the oldest among them, Hiromi Higuruma, who was carefully straightening his tie, a subtle attempt to avoid eye contact.
âWhat about you, Higuruma?â
âYour wife, (Y/N) is a little younger than you, right? Câmon Higuruma-SanâŚShe a total freak?â Satoru teased.
Hiromi's jaw tightened, a flicker of irritation crossing his features as his grip on his coffee cup tightened. He took a slow, measured breath, his voice strained but controlled when he finally spoke.
âPlease donât talk about my wife like that.â
But Satoru, ever the instigator, didnât back down. âItâs just us guys riiggght? And I canât lie Higuruma, youâre one lucky guy. (Y/N) is a catch.â
Nanami nodded in agreement, as did Suguru, though both seemed to sense the discomfort growing in Hiromi. The older man could only sigh, his shoulders sagging under the weight of the conversation.
It was trueâyou were everything he could have ever wanted in a partner. Beautiful, intelligent, kind-heartedâhis perfect match. If heaven existed, Hiromi was certain youâd be the only one worthy of it.
But long nights in the office, and early mornings preparing for court would take a toll on any relationship. The truth was⌠Hiromi hadnât touched you in over a month. By the time he came homeâyou were fast asleep, and weekends were spent running the mountain of errands you couldnât get to during the week. You loved each other of course, but it was hard. A month without feeling the warmth of your husband's hands all over your skin was starting to weigh heavily on both of you.
âYou donât have to answer Higuruma-san..â Nanami chimed in, sensing his elder colleagueâs discomfort.
âOver a month.â Hiromi exhaled, the truth slipping out before he could stop it.
The room fell silent, the weight of his words sinking in.
âWHAT?â Gojo audibly gasps. âYour wife looks like THAT and you havenât fââ
Suguru swiftly cut him off with a well-placed elbow to the chest. âSatoru⌠leave Higuruma alone.â The long-haired male warns. âStill, that is surprising.â
âI know I know..â Higuruma pinches his bridge. He wanted nothing more than to have his wife under him⌠on top of him. But the endless stream of work kept him trapped in a cycle of exhaustion. âIâve been so busy I canât even remember the last time I actually spoke to her properly.â
Suguru offered an apologetic smile. âSounds like you need a break.â
âSounds like you need some pussââ Nanami quickly elbowed Satoru in the chest before he could finish his sentence.
Hiromi shook his head, letting out a dry chuckle as he ran a hand through his dark locks, clearly frustrated with himself. âI appreciate your concern, guys, but I donât see how I can take a break right now. I have so much work to do, and Iâm the only one who knows how to handle all of it.â
âHiguruma-San. Satoru will take care of the paperwork for you.â Nanami suggested with a deadpan expression.
âHUH?â Satoru blurted out, clearly caught off guard by the sudden assignment.
âYeah,â Nanami continued, ignoring Satoruâs protest. âItâs not like he actually does any work around here anyway.â
Suguru smirked, nodding in agreement. âThatâs true. You might as well make yourself useful, Satoru.â
Before Hiromi could protest, the trio moved in unisonâSuguru grabbing Hiromiâs briefcase, Nanami steering him toward the door, and Satoru sighing dramatically as he resigned himself to the task.
âAre⌠are you boys sure about this? I donât want to burden youââ
âNonsense! Go home and take care of your wife!â
Hiromi placed his briefcase by the door, his tie feeling suddenly too tight around his neck. He loosened it with a sigh, running a hand through his hair as he glanced around. The familiar scent of home greeted him. It was comforting yet bittersweet, a reminder of all the moments he had missed. The living room was tidy, the soft hum of the dishwasher running in the kitchen. You had clearly been busy, taking care of the house as you always did, even when he wasnât around.
âHoney?â Hiromi calls out to you, his voice echoing slightly in the stillness.
Frowning, he shrugged off his jacket and draped it over the back of a chair before making his way down the hall. As he approached the bathroom, he noticed a faint light seeping out from under the door, accompanied by the sound of water gently lapping against the tub.
He hesitated for a moment, then slowly opened the door.
The sight that greeted him made his breath catch in his throat. There you were, reclining in the bathtub, your eyes closed, head resting on the edge as steam rose around you. The soft glow of candles illuminated the room, casting a warm, serene light over your features.
You looked so peaceful, so beautifulâthat it almost hurt to look at you. The tension in his shoulders eased slightly as he took in the sight, but the guilt and longing only deepened. How long had it been since heâd taken the time to appreciate you like this? Since heâd been able to just⌠be with you?
You opened your eyes, gaze meeting your husband as he leaned against the door frame.
âHiromi?â you murmured, your voice soft, almost questioning, as if unsure whether he was really there or just a figment of your imagination.
âHey HoneyâŚâ his voice equally soft, as he took a tentative step closer. The warmth of the room seemed to wrap around him, melting away some of the dayâs stress.
âYouâre home early.â You muse, looking at him as you rested your arms on the tub. He doesnât respond, just walks towards you with purposeful steps.
Hiromi stares down at you with half-lidded eyes.âThe guys decided I need a break.â He paused, his breath hitching slightly as he continued, âCan I join you?â A playful smirk tugged at the corner of your lips.
âOnly if you take off your clothes this time.â
A dry chuckle escaped his lips as he unbuttons his dress shirt, letting each article of clothing fall to the tile floor. As he finally sheds his boxers before settling behind you. You exhaled softly, the tension youâd been holding onto for weeks dissipating as you sank into your husbandâs embrace.
Hiromi didnât waste a moment, his lips finding the sensitive skin of your neck, placing lazy, lingering kisses along the curve where your shoulder met your throat. His breath was warm against your skin, his kisses slow and unhurried, as if savoring every second, every inch of you.
His hands werenât idle either, tracing gentle patterns along your stomach, moving upwards to cup your breasts with a tenderness that made your breath hitch. He nipped lightly at your earlobe, his voice a husky murmur, âIâve missed you⌠more than you know.â
âMissed you too âRomi..â Your voice trembling as the almost foreign heat began to pool in your core.
Deft fingers teased your nipples, rolling and pinchingâeliciting a soft moan from your lips as your body arched into his touch. Your hand reached back, tangling in his dark locks, pulling him closer as his lips traveled down to your shoulder, his other hand snaking under the water to your aching cunt.
âahhhh⌠s-shitt..â You cry out as Hiromiâs fingers slowly circle your swollen bud. His touch light, teasing.
âThirty-two days⌠Iâm so sorry mâlove.â He mumbles into your shoulder as he slips a slender digit into your entrance. Your walls flutter immediately around the intrusion, as he gently pumped into you.
He adds another finger, curling up to the spot he had neglected all those weeks. He extended his thumb to rub your clit. You arch your back against him, feeling his cock twitch against your ass.
âHiroâŚâ you moan, reaching behind for him, but he bites down lightly on your shoulder.
âNot yet, pretty girl, want you tâcum first okay?â
He whispers as he feels your gummy walls clench around him.
He speeds up his ministrations, digits stuffing your cunt as your pussy throbs and squelches. Your whimpers echo around the tiled walls, water lapping around your bodies.
You feel the pressure building as each thrust of his long fingers brush against your g-spot.
âg-gonna cum!â
âCum f��me sweetheart pleaseâgod⌠need it so bad.â Hiromi mumbles as he pumps even faster.
âa-ahh!â you cry as you reach your high, walls clenching as you cum on your husbandâs hand. He removes his fingers from you, moving to gently circle your clit as you come down from your orgasm.
You both stay there for a moment, your heavy breathing the only sound occupying the space, mingling with the gentle slosh of water against the porcelain tub. Hiromiâs arms wrapped securely around your waist, pulling you closer.
Slowly, he lifted you, the warm water swirling around you both as he maneuvered you to face him, settling you on his lap. Your legs instinctively wrapped around his waist, your knees pressing against the cool sides of the tub.
You straddled Hiromi, your bodies now fully aligned, chest to chest. Your husband's dark, half-lidded eyes bore into yours, his expression a mixture of raw need and unspoken tenderness. He let his hands rest on your waist for a moment, thumbs tracing gentle circles against your damp skin as he took in the sight of you.
âI donât know how Iâve stayed away from you for so longâŚâ his voice breaking slightly as if the admission pained him.
Your breath hitched as you shifted slightly in his lap, feeling the tension between you intensify. Hiromiâs hands slid up your sides, his touch deliberate and slow, leaving a trail of heat in their wake as his lips finally found yours. The kiss was deep, full of hunger that had been simmering between you both for far too long.
His grip on your waist tightened as he deepened the kiss, his tongue sliding against yours in a dance that left you dizzy with need.
Breaking the kiss, Hiromi leaned his forehead against yours, his breath coming in shallow gasps.
âI wonât make that mistake again.â
Without a word, he rose from the tub, lifting you effortlessly into his arms. Water cascaded down your bodies, pooling at your feet as he carried you toward the bedroom, his lips trailing wet kisses down the side of your neck.
He laid you gently onto the bed, your back sinking into the soft silken sheets, but Hiromi didnât waste any time. His gaze darkening as he climbed over you, his body hovering just above yours, his eyes drinking you in like a man starved.
âIâm going to make up for every second Iâve missed.â
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It's OK if youâre not OK right now. Iâm certainly not. Mothman isnât. Weâre devastated. Thereâs a hollow crater in my chest where my heart ought to be. Iâm sick with worry. But I canât let it consume me. So weâre going to allow ourselves to grieve and then find actionable ways to counter what lies ahead.
That will look different for everyone, but one thing that will be universally required in the days and years ahead is compassion and an unshakable commitment to kindness.
We will help each other through this. We will find ways to help other people. We will protect the people we love and even those we donât to the best of our abilities. Because thatâs the only option we have.
We will do it angry, we will do it sad, we will do it terrified. But we will do it.
Please be gentle with yourself. Please donât do anything to harm yourself. The world needs your light. It needs your anger and your hope. It needs you.
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lets continue our talk about situationship!Simon, where this bitch grovels for monthssss
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situationship!simon starts sending you text messages. before you could expect something like "you up?" or "come to my office.", but after you broke things off with him, simon started sending you heartfelt text messages, apologizing for his past behavior. âiâve been thinking a lot about what happened between us,â he texted one night. âi realize now how much i hurt you, and iâm truly sorry, love. i understand if you need space, but i wanted you to know how much i regret everything.â
along with his messages, simon started sending you small but meaningful gifts. he remembered how youâd joked about his tea obsession once and that youâd mentioned you only liked chamomile. to your surprise, he found the best brand of chamomile tea and even packed it in a nice box before delivering it to your room.
he even started to open up more. during a late-night phone call, where you could clearly hear that he was drunk, simon said that he started seeing a therapist. âiâm workin on understandin my issues and changin for the better. i want to be better, not just for you love, but for myself. i hope you can see that iâm tryin to change.â
when you asked him to stop calling you love, he refused. âi canât help it. youâre mine in a way no one else could be, and i donât want to pretend otherwise.â
as simon keeps showing up with gifts and heartfelt messages, you canât help but wonder if heâs being real or if heâs just trying to win you back before breaking your heart again.
you still go on dates with other people, and simon is tormented every time he sees you leaving the base in those pretty dressesâdresses he wishes were just for him. he follows you, quietly lurking in the corners of the restaurants or bars where youâre out with your dates. oddly enough, most of the guys you go out with either get transferred to another base or stop calling you after just one date, and youâre doing your best not to blame simon for it. but you know it's him. and he is not sorry at all.
almost every day, simon texts you, asking you out on dates and planning special things for the who of you. all you have to do is say yes, but each time, you refuse. it breaks his heart every time, but it also makes him more determined to try even harder. he knows he deserves this treatment from you.
back when you and simon used to train together on base, it was a special routine you both enjoyed. now, youâve started asking other guys to help you with exercises, and it drives him wild with jealousy. watching their hands on you makes him see red. after your training sessions with them, simon invites these guys to spar with him. it quickly becomes clear that heâs using these sparring matches as a chance to take out his frustration and anger, landing a few extra hits just to make his point.
despite everything, you still wonât budge, and itâs only making simon more frustrated. the truth is, itâs becoming harder and harder for you to resist him. his persistence is wearing you down, and the more he pushes, the more you find yourself struggling to stay strong.
simon invites you to one of his therapy sessions, saying his therapist thinks it would be helpful for him and his progress. during the session, he opens up about his struggles and insecurities, laying everything bare. as he talks, you start to feel sympathy for him. itâs clear heâs determined to change and work on himself, and you see how genuine his efforts are.
one night, you were preparing tea in the kitchen when a girl you know from the base asked for simonâs number. she mentioned she was interested in him, which made you jealous. you snapped at her, making it clear that he would never be interested in a girl like her. simon overheard the whole thing and couldnât help but smirk to himself. it was clear you still had feelings for him, and he took a bit of satisfaction in that.
later that night he sent one simple message to you: "that's my girl. i belong to you, and you only."
after that message, simon stepped up his game. he started sending you lots of sweet texts and little gifts, and even took care of some of your paperwork. it was hard to ignore how much he was trying, and you found it tougher to resist him as he kept showing you how much he cared.
a few months after managing to ignore simon as best as you could, you caught a nasty cold and were stuck in your room. you only texted price to let him know you needed a few days off because you were sick, and got back in your bed trying to sleep that cold off. a few hours later, as you were still trying to fall asleep, you heard your door open. simon walked in, carrying a bunch of bags, a worried look on his face.
âi came as soon as I could,â simon said, worry in his voice. âi brought you soup and medicine.â
simon didnât leave your side for days. he only went back to his room to grab more clothes and shower. he was insistent on helping you with everything, even assisting you with your showers in the most respectful way possible of course. heâd sit in a chair next to your bed, and you felt a pang of guilt seeing how much he was giving up for you. you even tried to convince him to go get some rest, but despite your protests, he somehow ended up in your bed, gently spooning you as you slept.
simon would whisper sweet things in your hair, thinking you were asleep. you heard every word as he softly talked about how much he missed you, how sorry he was for everything, and how he wanted to make things right. even though you were sick and exhausted, his words touched you deeply.
once you were feeling better, you found simon sitting alone in a common room, lost in thought. you approached him quietly and gently kissed the side of his face. with a soft smile, you whispered, âtake me on that date you promised.â
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