#not neg but there is so much delusion tbh

[shakespeareduo-enjoyer]

Sunburn shippers I see you and I hear you, but Addisan does NOT feel romantically about Sarina. You can theorize about the past, but at most it’s sexual now. I know Sarina has a bad love life but cmon!

[theygender]

This has been on my mind for weeks and I talked to my therapist about it today and told my girlfriend about it too so now it's time for me to update the gay people in my phone: I may have schizotypal personality disorder

[uniquezombiedestiny]

screams

[krewekreep]

How He Would Really Be (or) Baby Daddy Red Flags

I might also name this Baby Daddy Red Flags 😂😭 I don’t know

Actually this is gonna be a lil fun text post series that’s slightly fan fic but moreso a Drabble that’s acknowledges our collective delusion. It comes from a tumblr experience I had I’ll elaborate on and link later:

First Off: Alucard (Hellsing / Hellsing Ultimate)

He’s an OG baby daddy tbh (I’m black I know I’m using og wrong, it’s been butchered beyond redemption. Oh well. 😭) he’s truly part of my “damn this type is not good for me in real life.” (LMAOAOAO)

I love yall but alucard (hellsing) is so overtly and dangerously yandare (one of my main men so im not judging) but I am amused by coding to him to be “mean to everyone but me” if he in character grew that true of a bond with you. 1. You’re never going outside or out of his site like actually 2. You could do whatever you want INSIDE but like don’t try to leave 😭 3. You’re literally never gonna be independent again like fuck him just eavesdropping all the time he’s gonna be lurching over you so bad your back is to his chest every other step 😭

I can absolutely see him getting “mad” at you when his affection INEVITABLY gets overwhelming. I could see Alucard wanting to dress you, bathe you, and while it can seem hot that’s pretty…👀 he also would absolutely put you in a situation you think he won’t save you from but does. Likewise any public outing requires hand holding the entire time. Don’t worry he’s strong enough to maneuver you as he needs but I get annoyed when men just use their strength randomly with me 😭 not negative but like okay big boy wtf 😂

He’d throw you to the wolves and have you likely in some real ass traumatizing fake dangerous scenarios to save you and make you that much more dependent on him. This is literally Vlad the Impaler (for those who watched Ultimate, plus that form is genuinely so fucking hot omfg.) he lowkey did this to Sera mind you 😭 he literally will let Anderson scare the fuck out of you cause they’ll both have the hidden agenda of mutual amusement (like their literally bros if they stopped being intolerant of each other LMAOAOA)

That is a man of overreaction, self indulgence, self righteousness, and performance…have fun. 😀

Again…you think he gonna let you have any freedom? Your choices will be faux independent my loves. You’re his and I imagine (me @ 12 Jesus I needed another baptism) you likely wanna be his 😭 but yeah girl all men are burdens he’ll just be a really parental, controlling one. Plus he old as hell and will likely wanna lecture your young mortal ways like ew shut up grandpa. Only way out is linking up with Sera and Integra. Sera will sneak you out and have safe fun with and Integra will be sure to demand Alucard leave you both alone. You’ll be supported and protected but def link up with the girlies to keep him in check.

(This actually literally amuses me so much and feels very sex in the city for no reason lmaoo) + who else is actually gonna be the worst to be with? (Gojo, all tea all shade)

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

anyway quick summary of what i think each character represents to isaacs psyche before i go to bed. regular characters are a part of him as a person and the tainted characters then reflect part of his trauma imo

isaac: obviously himself, but also isaac being a blank slate represents how he created so many personas to deal with his trauma/tainted isaac: the physical abuse isaac experienced and how he had to adapt as a survival strategy

magdalene: his love and admiration for his mother, to the point of wanting to be just like her/tainted magdalene: isaac's desperate need and latching onto any positive attention + his association of love with physical and emotional pain due to having shitty parents

cain: isaac feeling like he destroyed his family and the guilt that comes with that/tainted cain: hoarding

judas: isaac feeling like he’s betrayed both those he loves and his faith/tainted judas: intentionally acting out bc you believe you’re evil anyway

???: isaac's perception of himself after death/tainted ???: generally playing with feces is a common symptom of childhood trauma, which tainted ??? takes to an absurd extent.

eve: isaac's suicidal ideation and desire to self harm, along with internalised misogyny from his upbringing/tainted eve: self harming and suicidal behaviour

samson: isaac's anger and frustration/tainted samson: violent outbursts from trauma triggers

azazel: isaac's religious delusions of being the antichrist and his sins/tainted azazel: isaac's belief he needs to be punished and physically hurt for those “sins”

lazarus: potentially past suicide attempts/thoughts of suicide, and the religious implications of such/tainted lazarus: isaac's fear of purgatory and being unable to enter heaven due to suicide being a sin.

eden: the playfulness and silliness of like, a normal five year old, and isaac's maladaptive daydreaming/tainted eden: the fawn response, changing who you are to try and make what’s hurting you stop

the lost: again, isaac's idea of himself after his suicide/tainted lost: fear of being forsaken and abandoned again bc suicide is a sin and he’d be stuck in purgatory in his own head.

lilith: isaac's negative thoughts on his mother shifted to a “safe” alternative/tainted lilith: fear of sexuality and growing up

keeper: both again isaac's constant thoughts of death + a representation of his father, who he both admires and fears becoming/tainted keeper: indulgence and risky behaviours as a distraction

apollyon: due to the void representing delirium, possibly a reflection of isaac's own thoughts/reflections on his psychosis?/tainted apollyon: dunno tbh the later characters are less obvious and it’s 2 am

forgotten: isaac's idea of purgatory and what he thinks he deserves after his suicide, due to it being “sinful”/tainted forgotten: again, isaac's fear of being stuck forever due to that

bethany: isaac's idea of what he “should” be, being virtuous and holy where he feels he is sinful and damned/tainted bethany: clinging to his religion as a coping mechanism or rejecting it violently out of fear

jacob + esau: desire for a friend/sibling?/tainted jacob: impostor syndrome, feeling like you’ve betrayed/stolen from people around you.

again these are very simplified very tentative and it is 2 am so I cannot elaborate but. i think about this way too much.

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[eldritch-spouse]

Was re-reading some Adrul asks and got a thought...

What if- what if Queen acts like a friendly, airhead accessory, but actually she's a bit manipulative one who always keeps an eye on hell residents and slightly pushes Adrul towards some smart (and pretty harsh) ideas to make his grasp on Hell stronger? Not directly ofc, but pushing them through by cracking jokes, making random conversations, leaving some papers around, bc she believes he's smart enough to connect all dots later. She's not a genius strategist or smth, she just better at looking at situation from different perspectives (perspective of the weaker ones especially lmao) and turning her flaws, aka being disdained for her poor human nature, into her advantage in collecting info

And yeah, she doing this for a pretty selfish reasons... She's just lonely and wants to spend more time with her husband 😔

How fast Adrul will notice it? Will he overlook it until someone (ahem, Admin, ahem) will point it out? I feel like he will be a bit offended at first, lol- How weak he is to his Queen tears btw? She may need to shed one or two tbh

Thanks for your content! Have a nice day!!

Adrul is the son of both Krulu and Admin, who are two extremely manipulative individuals. And although they never put their son on the end of their schemes, Adrul has learned to be like them in the way he thinks and executes certain tasks. He's very reserved and plays on the defensive a lot, making sure that every move across the board is calculated in as much detail as he can spare.

Do you think you can pull the wool over his eyes?

Because that's not happening. Adrul is onto your nature likely before he even considers you to be partner material, but he doesn't see that part of you as something negative. Not at all, it's actually quite beneficial to his mission. Everything is easier when his lover can not only manipulate those around her in his favor (even if you're doing it for selfish reasons), but also go unnoticed as she does so. Adrul isn't offended. Even if you think you're outsmarting him in any way, or that he needs your help to put things together, Adrul will calmly allow you to keep living that delusion. Again, because it benefits him, and because you're not being disrespectful.

The moment you get slightly disrespectful then he'll have a talk with you. Until then, all's well that ends well.

You know who's going to openly rat you out though? Adelo. He's got absolutely zero chill and does it in hopes that it'll spark a little spat between you. It doesn't. In fact, it earns him a few yanked feathers from his brother.

[fernlessbastard]

im the psychotic wilbur anon (forgot to note im paranoid schitzo and i see myself so much in him ANYWAYS) BUT CWILBUR BPD FOR THE WORLD. (< ALSO BPD.) hottest take is that him and quackity are bpd4bpd and a huge part of their relationship is a learning curve figuring out how to navigate communication with each other and each others splits and such. i also think that wilbur tends to black split on HIMSELF more often, and quackity tends to black split on OTHERS more often. i also think that wilbur white splitting on quackity would be a whole nother thing they have to deal with, with wilbur suddenly being like "you are literally god to me and the only person who loves and cares about and understands me you are the greatest human being alive please let me worship you i love you so much" and quackity just being like "woag dude" LIKE. also im so so so for real wilbur has so much paranoid schitzo swag i dont know how to explain that this man is fucking TEXTBOOK paranoia and he has so many paranoid anxiety habits that make me feel insane. i think he always makes sure to lock the door and check the lock like six times when he comes home and he cant sleep at night if hes alone in the house so he barely slept in paradise and didnt sleep right until he moved in with quackity, i think he has really severe paranoia about imposters and intruders and also barely slept and was constantly on high alert in pogtopia and he could only really sleep when quackity visited or if tommy or technoblade shared a mat with him, i think he also has delusions of grandeur that he has to deal with a lot and reality checking him can be really dangerous especially coupled with his bpd because he then SNAPS to black splitting on himself so hard he makes himself sick, ohhhh cwilbur my sickly man i adore you so sorry for being insane in your inbox

The first ask in question

(Ok so as a disclaimer obviously headcanons are personal and there's no wrong ones and you're valid for reading it this way)

With Wilbur I very much agree, but I don't see bpd in Quackity tbh. It more so looks like ADHD alongside shit like abandonment issues, being invalidated his entire life, being generally overworked and having no healthy outlet for his feelings, having trouble identifying said feelings in the first place, etc - all of which are very common in/characteristic of ADHD. I don't remember him ever splitting. His shitty love life makes sense with ADHD too - deficiency of dopamine makes it very easy to mistake the dopamine boost from "new person to talk to" for a crush (believe me). Hypersexuality is also common in ADHD, as well as emotional dysregulation, alexithymia (difficulty/inability to identify one's own emotions), overstimulation, shutdowns, etc, which can occasionally resemble splitting, but is very different, and works through exhaustion and frustration rather than delusions. Various types of paranoia as well as heightened irritability are also very common, especially when your senses are clouded by sensory/information/emotional overstimulation. And especially the splitting outwards part just doesn't sit right with me - maybe i missed a stream or sth but I haven't seen anything like that in him. Furthermore I'd actually say he generally points negative feelings/breakdowns etc inwards for the most part - and when ADHD is being pointed inwards it usually leads exactly to developing/heightening shit like paranoia, rejection sensitivity, hypersexuality, emotional dysregulation, alexithymia, etc. He can snap and isolate himself, but it's very different to splitting. ALSO - very important part - Quackity doesn't exhibit mania episodes. He occasionally exhibits the type of hyperactivity and excitement representative of ADHD, but it's never this state of delirium with feelings of grandeur, delusions, etc. Wilbur does exhibit mania episodes - pretty heavily at that - and the contrast makes it pretty apparent that Quackity's case is different.

THAT BEING SAID I don't have bpd, so for a perspective from someone who does, here's a rant from @octobre-ackedia: <<On so many levels, Quackity doesn't show bpd symptoms. Not all abandonment issues are borderline personality disorder. I don't think I need to say it, but bpd takes over the entire life of a person, it's not just trauma. And I don't really have much to elaborate on with the ask, mostly showing Wilbur's bpd traits but that's for an entirely different rant, and I need to chill out. Quackity doesn't black split on others. It was not shown a single time. He slowly loses trust in people, he builds walls, but that's not splitting. He doesn't start to irrationally hate everyone around himself, think that people are just cruel and bad, and more importantly don't care about him, suddenly becoming aggressive towards them. He backs off a little bit more with each disappointment in people around him, ending up not so much hating, as avoiding human relationships. And he doesn't have a favourite person, not even Slime who was just so perfectly there to be an example of that. Quackity learnt how to trust the guy, building a friendship, but never became truly "obsessed" with him. He grieved his death, tried to save him, but FFS, that's not a favourite person, that's how human relationships work (or more so, hybrid relationships haha). He doesn't get manic. You could say he becomes strongly confident, hypersexual or overworking himself, but the important part in it is the reasoning. He doesn't start believing he is some sort of a saviour for the world and can build a perfect country, or that he doesn't need anyone for that. He starts a project and might go overboard with it, but it's never this... aggressive as with bpd. With the 9 most visible symptoms, he has maybe 3 of them, which are all clear reactions to specific situations. Unstable relationships? Schlatt became an abuser, Karl and Sapnap abandoned him, he never really influenced any of that happening. The abandonment issues and feeling of emptiness are simple reactions to that trauma. His moves are calculated, he doesn't really show any mood swings, he has a quite clear image of himself, he doesn't experience any suicide ideation or shows extreme examples of self harm/putting himself in danger. And what about the part of splitting when he pushes people away after getting scared of becoming too close? He always stays, in the end. Even when he tried so hard not to get attached to Slime. Where's the white splitting? Where's anything, really. I still stand with the headcanon of them having to navigate a hard relationship, with both of them experiencing severe mental issues, but it's not bpd4bpd. Q is my depressed ADHD bitch, who struggles with trauma.>>

Also I'd say Wilbur's heavily autism coded too - as a bonus it does frequently "strengthen" bpd cause of the type of trauma autistic people experience. Q I see as very much ADHD but I also low-key hc him as somewhere on the spectrum too, though I'm not as heavily set on that

Tldr while Wilbur absolutely clearly has some severe mental issues, Quackity's seem (to me at least) to be more easily and consistently explainable by a combination of ADHD (maybe low support needs autism) and some (pretty damn severe (canonically - looking mainly at all the abandonment + sa hints)) trauma

[theyinapluralway]

having DID and schizophrenia is a blessing and a curse tbh. two of us in the system (out of 8) have it

on the blessing side of things—our positive and negative symptoms got split right down the middle. so one of us (host) experiences the positive symptoms and the other (me, one of our protectors) experiences the negative symptoms. i see the logic behind it. the way our brain was like, hey. experiencing the full spectrum of schizophrenia is Too Much™️ so let’s make this a lil easier.

another blessing is that that means there are headmates of ours who don’t experience schizophrenic symptoms at all. they get like… a chance at “normality.” it fucking sucks for us two because like. we drew the short straws in terms of experiencing such awful symptoms (not that the others don’t have their own things going on, but def not like this). but it feels like a labor of love/sacrifice in a lot of ways and i can find peace in that even though i feel a LOT of jealousy and sadness around it. another blessing—our headmates without schizophrenia can help ground us in reality. whether that’s with delusions or hallucinations, they can help us “verify” reality with what our brain is telling us if they’re co-conscious. i’ve had headmates hold me through psychotic episodes that were super scary and i would’ve otherwise been alone during.

it was such an interesting experience figuring out the difference between the “good” voices (other alters) and the “bad” (delusions/hallucinations). at first i thought my headmates were just part of my delusions. but over time i managed to figure out how they differ.

i’ll have to make a separate post about the curses about it bc this got long lol

[sol-consort]

I know my dumb ass would think nothing bad would actually happen to me if I swallowed turian cum (prolly cause I have like the opposite of self-importance, like if somethings gonna happen why would it happen to me?) and that's how I would find out if it's toxic or not, do or die and I'm probably gonna die but at least I would die while getting play 🤷‍♀️

You're describing cognitive bias, it's a normal human instinct. Much like how most people think they'll never get into a car accident yet are optimistic about winning the lottery despite the statistics claiming otherwise.

I thought the negative health consequences for staying up for more than 72 hours were made up...because they sounded made up. So I stayed up for almost 4 days, thinking nothing important would happen. Surprise, surprise, the hallucinations and delusion visions kicked in, and I ran to bed. Permanently fucked my brain and lost the ability to stay up for more than 24 hours afterwards, I just pass out.

I don't think you'd die—even then, isn't death what any quarian risks all the time for even less? A simple kiss is more than enough to spell their doom, yet they presist nonetheless—but you'd have to get a very uncomfortable doctor visit afterwards.

Same for turians tbh, our food, bacteria, microbes, and everything is kinda of deadly to them. Smooched a turian after you just had lunch? Emergency Blue Talon Hospital visit. Bit them during sex? They need an allergy shot immediately.

And this goes for so many species. It's what makes the asari so special. I absolutely adore how incompatible so many of the species are with each other, yet they still fall in love and have sex all the same. It makes sense. It's very realistic for species evolved on different planets to cause all sorts of problems and false immune systems alarms to each other's biology.

But would I ever include it in my smut? Nah. Realism isn't my goal, fun is. I don't want to worry about logistics or take them into consideration for more than a passing quirk. Bioware does the same in its Mass Effect sex scenes, and I respect them for that. They do understand the importance of sweeping lore under the rug when it's time for indulgence.

This is a story at the end. All the species are just puppets, fictional dolls we get to play with. I want it to be entertaining. The toxicity and deadlines aspects of each species only become relevant when they're plot points. Otherwise, do kindly cast a blind eye to them.

Aka I will go down on a drell anywhere anytime

[borderlinereminders]

Sorry if this is too much. I think I might have bpd partly because I think I maybe have some sort of delusions or skewed perception of my interactions with other people? Like i get told that I overreact or misinterpret interactions negatively a lot. That or my whole family has been manipulating me forever but that seems less likely tbh since it's a consistent issue with me specifically so like, occam's razor suggests i'm the problem. Do you have any advice for dealing with this

Again sorry if this is too much. I am aware i should be in therapy I just don't have access to it right now.

It’s not black and white, but here’s an article I wrote about manipulation. When it comes to figuring out whether someone is being manipulative/you’re misinterpreting is to use a third party. After an encounter, write down word for word the exchange if you can in case it gets muddled later and then try asking a neutral third party.

It is possible it’s not manipulation. I just think people with BPD are extra vulnerable to it and I want to cover that.

That said, if it is you misinterpreting stuff my advice to you is to learn to walk away from a situation to gather your thoughts and figure it out. If you feel yourself getting worked up, or are upset about an interaction, walk away. Use a skill like urge surfing if you need to.

Once you’ve walked away, you can use a couple different skills. The one I recommend the most is “check the facts”. Being able to calm yourself can also sometimes allow us to see things from a different perspective.

Sometimes it still isn’t clear to us, and that’s okay. It’s completely valid to ask for clarification in a non accusatory way. “Hey. Can you clarify what you meant by …”

There are times where we realize the other person did say/do something wrong and in these cases, it’s still best to be calm and non accusatory. Using a skill like DEAR MAN to deal with conflict can be helpful. It’s really easy to get hung up on “who is right” in a conflict but usually that’s not helpful. I try and focus more on how we can resolve the situation instead of trying to prove I’m right.

Remember that your feelings are valid. I wrote a post on “how do I know if I’m overreacting” here. It talks about ways to figure out if your feelings fit a situation, mostly for your own benefit of working through them. But at the end of the day, your feelings are your feelings. “One of the first things I do is remind myself that even if I am overreacting, my emotions are still valid and allowed.”

[prisoner-000]

Here's my Trial 3 MILGRAM Cover predictions! The MILGRAM cover songs are usually picked from DECO*27's popular lineup, so I tried to limit my picks to songs from his catalogue that are a little more well-known! They also tend to me more from his modern era (post-2016) so forgive me :(

Haruka: Honestly: I have no idea. Haruka's been pretty random with his covers. Just to have guessed something, maybe 118 due to its instrumental. If you've got any better guesses feel free to add onto my post!

Yuno: I feel like Yuno will likely cover more love songs/songs about relationships - My guess right now is Love Words III (any of the Love Words songs could do tbh, but this is the one I think might fit her the most) Rabbit Hole (for the more sexual relationship theme) or Heart a la mode (just because).

Fuuta: Fuuta's covers tend to be kind of random tbh aside from them all being hugely popular deco songs LOL. My current guesses go to Chimera (for the like-share thing. social media.. yknow...) and considering its popularity, maybe even Dilemma. doubt it tho so dont take my word for it

Muu: Muu's cover theme is kind of hard to pin down, so I just went with a song I think might fit her voice. Theory of Negativity would fit her vibe tbh. It's kind of self-depreciative, kind of very much not self-depreciative.

Shidou: Okay, here's a super basic pick: Ghost Rule. A lot of characters get assigned GR as a future cover because it's probably the most well-known deco song that hasn't been covered yet. I think Shidou's covers would fit its theme of lying and the energy that he brought to Liar Dance and Delusion Tax.

Mahiru: Wouldn't you know it, her cover songs are all based around unhealthy relationships... My current guess goes to Zombies. I personally think Mahiru's VA and a more sickly sweet synthpoppy sound could really fit this song!! Another option would be Pseudo-Hope Syndrome which is a little less upbeat than Zombies and more mellow, but who knows what T3 Mahiru might look like. TONS of DECO songs are about unhealthy relationships, it could really be anything.

Kazui: I know a lot of people would like him to cover songs about the topic of lies but that's already Shidou's thing... Neo-Neon and Coward Montblanc are both breakup songs, so it's either another breakup song for him like Fakery Tale or maybe a song about failed relationships like Relationship Scramble (which i feel fits him very well)!

Amane: Another character I find extremely hard to have a guess at. If we're going with the more innocent theme, I can imagine Yume Yume... is it because of the MV? Yes. I feel like however Amane develops will really influence her covers like we saw with her covering Animal in T2.

Mikoto: Kind of also at a loss here, so here's a shot in the dark: (Not A) Devil with Mikoto's duality motif seems fitting. I'd love to hear his voice on this track!

Kotoko: Since Kotoko's second trial song hasn't been announced yet, I have no clear lineup to go off of :-(. Probably something more energetic like HIBANA. I think it'd be super cool if she covered Undercover, actually! Though that's probably not happening.. one can dream

hope u enjoyed heart emoji if you have any alternate guesses feel free to share them! would love to discuss :-)

[alun1r]

Rare Alu Rant About Fandoms bc I never say shit:

Sue me, but getting into a fandom just for the intention of becoming popular is so weird to me.

Like sure you want a lot of people to see what you make. Because making something for the fandom should be seen! That’s dope as hell.

But you’re gonna lose inspiration real fast when you find out content creation takes a lotta work but more often than not comes with little reward.

I hold firmly the belief that Fandom is for making content for the pure reason of just because you can.

✨the joy of free will to bring your delusions to life so others can indulge in their delusions as well✨ Kinda vibes? Yanno?

I never started making HL content with the idea in mind that I’d reach 9k followers on tiktok. And I ain’t gonna lie it’s daunting for me. Specially as someone whose always just made shit for whatever reason without even posting it. But The videos that got me views and followers on tiktok, were made because I was high and wanted to laugh. And I’d figured “what the hell, this made me laugh….Maybe it will make someone else laugh.” And I’m glad it did.

And now I float around just making stuff. I still make whatever I want tbh. I do my best to give credit where credit is due in what I make. And yeah I’ve done some fan service videos and writing here and there because hey it’s fun for me.

I see so many posts or peoples bios saying that they’re working towards being popular in fandom and then their posts are what other people said or made on Twitter or tiktok or Vice versa and there’s often times there’s no real credit to original creators.

Don’t get me wrong, if it’s properly credited, AWESOME. Usually it’s not though, and that’s just wild to me. Because how are you expecting to get popular under your own name when you’re just reposting stuff.

That doesn’t make you a content creator.

A historical collector guess?? Because you’re like idk collecting all the stuff people made and what not onto a new page.

Idk dude. I just miss authenticity I guess. People making stuff and just being excited to show it.

Don’t get me wrong though it’s not all terrible on here and everywhere on the internet for fandoms. I’ve made close friends with other creators who feel and see fandom much the same. Just here to vibe and escape.

I’m not saying I don’t think views and followers and likes and notes or what have you, matter. I know they do. I get a lil confidence boost when something I make pops off. I feel proud.

But man it’s the intention of “ Im trying to be a popular creator” that rubs me the wrong way. Make stuff because you like it. Not because other people will. Doing whatever to get you likes wont bring the same satisfaction. And in more cases than not I see it backfiring and causing drama because, like I said it’s usually shit that’s copied or reposted.

Who knows maybe I’m just old and don’t understand bc I also see fandom and the work I’ve contributed as something I wouldn’t like boast about in real life. Because the reaction wouldn’t be positive. Like just for enjoying Hogwarts legacy I get teased in my daily life from acquaintances. It’s not totally negative. Buts it’s enough for me to know that YEAH 9k followers on tiktok don’t mean anything in the real world LMAO because at the end of the day, offline, I am still just a nerd whose daydreaming in her bedroom to escape reality.

I’m 24 dude. And I work in news. Shit is exhausting. Read a headline and you’ll see what I mean. And I just wanted to rant about it because it’s been bugging me since I joined fandom again last year.

But due to, idk my follower count and whatnot I always felt like I can’t or rather I shouldn’t speak my mind so much for fear of SOMEONE coming for me for something. And man I hate that feeling bc this bitch has opinions and I dislike the idea of feeling like others have control over it. But tbh eh. I wanted to rant. Just speaking into the void of the internet.

If you decide to send anon hate for my opinionated rant be ready for a meme bc I don’t have the mental capacity to take anything other than my IRL life responsibilities seriously lmao.

[video-game-kids-tournament]

MEET YOUR CONTESTANTS!

TW for religious trauma, child abuse, and suicide under the cut

Name: Isaac Moriah

Age: “Implied to be rather young, school age”

Gender + Pronouns: “Canonically genderfluid, implied to be gay, commonly uses he/him but may be any pronouns (due to other playable characters also being Isaac at their core which means she/her and they/them are also canon pronoun sets)”

Video Game: The Binding of Isaac

Victims Taken: Cuphead (Cuphead)

Backstory: “Isaac has extreme religious trauma from an abusive mother that manifests as the rather brutal videogame. His father was not the greatest either (implied to have a gambling addiction) and divorced Isaac's mother after a particularly massive fight. Isaac canonically kills himself by suffocating to death in a toy chest due to seeing himself as evil and irredeemable from the religious trauma.”

• “(tw for abuse, child death, and bad religious stuff) Isaac comes from a broken and heavily religious family. Their father gambled all their money and left, and their mother is a religious fanatic who believes all the televangelists she listens to. Isaac was also bullied as a child due to liking to dress up as their mother (among other feminine attributes). At some point Isaac locks themself in their toy chest to hide and suffocates (at least, this is one interpretation. The lore is kinda nebulous on exactly how and where Isaac passes away.) In the gameplay itself, Isaac (or his other personas/alters[?]) has to navigate a warped version of their basement that slowly becomes more and more church or underworld-esque.”

• “Abusive religious mother drove his loving father away and then proceeded to abuse Isaac and, eventually, scare him into locking himself in a small chest. The game is presumed to be his imagination running wild while he slowly suffocates and dies in the chest.”

• “isaac lives alone with his mom, who, as a result of the stress of her husband leaving her, starts having religious delusions. isaac absorbs all of this negativity and starts to blame himself for his dad leaving, thinking he's a sinful child. the game is you fighting against all the awful stuff in his brain. it does not have a happy ending.”

• “ok so his mom watches christian broadcasts and tries to kill him with a kitchen knife but he finds out and hides in his toy chest which locks on him and the game is basically his hallucinations as he suffocates to death. also you can shoot tears from your eyes at poop monsters to kill them”

Why should they win the tournament?: “Isaac deserves another chance to make it tbh”

• “i mean cmon. they need a win here”

• “Just a baby that deserved so much better. Very creative and sweet. He just wanted to be a good person.”

• “he deserves to win something, somewhere :(“

• “bro has been through so much already give him a break”

[defrostedvertebrae]

None of my posts really breached containment to get reality checks until now.

"your body isn't a disguise it's just your body" yeah,, that's kinda the purpose of the disguise.

Even if one had that much free time as to even care enough to comment, it's not affecting me or anyone negatively, and even if it is a delusion, so what. So what? It's an enjoyable non-paranoid delusion for once lol /lh

Adding the "possible delusion" bit back in my pinned just out of spite tbh.

[cosmicjoke]

At this point why do people keep complaining about E/L shippers. I don't get it😭 It's becoming redundant tbh. It's not like they're going to change. On the contrary, at Twitter they just keep growing in masses. We're letting them occupy Levi spaces too often.

I know it's not your fault because you don't control what anons ask. I'm sure you're tired of talking about it too lol

I feel like tearing out my hair whenever I see Erwin's name and I don't even have anything against him🖐🏽💀

I'm really glad you said this, because this is exactly how I feel. I keep getting asked about it, over and over, and it's driving me nuts. That's why I pinned my post about Levi and shipping, to try and get these people to stop bugging me, lol. Instead of asking me about Levi, or wanting to just talk about Levi as his own, separate character, people keep coming to me complaining about Levi/Erwin as a ship and how awful the shippers are, and I really, really just don't care. I don't care about the ship, and I don't care about the shippers. I want to talk about Levi, not about these people and their delusions, lol.

The problem I feel, is I get why people want to complain about it, but by complaining about it constantly, and focusing on it, instead of Levi himself, they're letting these people win. They're letting the shippers dominate the conversation surrounding Levi, so that instead of actually discussing Levi as a character, they only ever talk about the ship of him and Erwin, whether it's to complain about it or not, you're still ONLY talking about it.

Like, damn, there's so much to talk about with Levi as a character. So much to discuss and analyze and understand. But I would say 95% of the questions I get are either people complaining about how much they hate shippers, or coming and telling me about some negative bullshit some idiot on twitter or ticktok said about Levi (when I've said repeatedly that I don't go on those platforms specifically to avoid seeing that shit, and yet they tell me about it anyway). It's like they want me to reassure them that what some moron said about Levi isn't true. You can figure out it isn't true on your own just by reading the manga or watching the anime. That's all you need to counter these fools. Nothing they say should matter or bother you, because the canon completely undoes whatever mad claims they want to make.

Anyway, yeah, it's getting to that point for me too, whenever I see Erwin's name, I feel irritation, because almost every time, I know it's going to be someone asking me if Levi cared more about Erwin than humanity, or accusing Levi of caring more about Erwin than humanity, or asking some dumb fucking question about "the vow" and completely not getting that it wasn't FOR Erwin, it was for all his comrades that gave their lives that day in Shinganshina. It's fucking stupid. Why are people so insecure about Levi's character? They shouldn't be. Levi's character speaks for itself. He doesn't need defending, because he's a genuinely good person and a hero.