#none of it is fair
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Angsty one shot with Elias adopting Arabella shortly after Daniel's death and i--
#survivor's guilt with elias#he always expected daniel to outlive him#only to be crushed with reality#he got to grow old whereas daniel died at 28#none of it is fair#but so is the tragedy of the walker family#sapphire speaks
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I’ve seen a lot of stuff this week that was vaguely triggering regarding religious trauma, etc. I’m not entirely sure how to classify my response to it. There’s been a lot of sudden nausea and tears and general sadness over the things I was taught growing up.
But the conclusion I keep coming to, over and over again, is that it’s so devastatingly heartbreaking that growing up religious means growing up hearing how you are-- from birth-- damaged and evil and broken and in need of saving. That you and your very existence are fundamentally flawed and in need of forgiveness and redemption and salvation from the source that decided all of this in the first place.
The foundation of a lot of my anxiety and distress in life comes from the feeling that everything about me is somehow a little bit wrong, a little to the left, off kilter somehow, and that I am-- at all times, knowingly or unknowingly-- wasting everyone’s time and unworthy.
I am on a constant quest to earn love and loyalty, and it’s gut wrenching to know that one of the earliest creeds imbued into me was that I am unworthy and fundamentally evil, but if I make the right decisions and say the right things, I may earn forgiveness and love... but I’ll never deserve it.
And then it was made my job to make others feel this way, too?
How horrifyingly unfair.
#rambling#personal#exvangelical#former christian#just...#I'm just heartbroken#what horrifying things to tell a child#none of it is fair
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The weirdly competent Doctor
So! The Watchtower's Medical Bay is a hub of constant Activity. With the number of Heroes who work under the Justice League, there are always injuries, health check-Ups, and illnesses that need healing.
But with the amount of Variant Biologies that those Heroes have, it's always a guessing game as to how to help them best. Some Metahumans react positively to penicillin, but others react like it's their Kryptonite. Some Aliens have anatomy similar to Humans, others are so different you can't tell the Stomach from the Bladder.
So when they hired a New Doctor for the Medical Bay, they had to run him through an entire Course on Variant Biologies and how best to treat specific Heroes. It was long and difficult to remember fully, but it was necessary for him to know.
But then the new Doctor started correcting Them.
"Actually, Martian's react better to the Syrup of Eucalyptus Plants better than Penicillin, since Eucalyptus is very similar to a medicinal plant from Mars which they used in many of their antibiotics."
"I don't think just pumping double doses of sedative is the best way to calm down a Speedster, that could have adverse effects on their body. Perhaps try Psychic Intervention? Their minds move a Mile a Second, but if you can calm them down their bodies will follow suit."
"Of course you use Micro-Doses of Kryptonite to operate on Superman! What else would you do?! I don't know, maybe ask JLD to enchant your Equipment to make use of Kryptonian suseptiblity to Magic? The Kryptonite is just gonna give him Cancer!"
Of course the Doctors didn't take kindly to being rudely corrected by a newbie, and Fired him on his first day.
Then a few days later their usual Treatments don't work, and they decide to give those strategies the Quack Doctor gave them out of desperation.
And Lo and Behold, they work! Martian Manhunter is fully healed and feels much better than the previous times he has needed surgery. Apparently they used a different Antibiotic that worked better with his Biology. Which was incredible, how had they figured it out?
Another Doctor you say? One who was experienced on Martian Biology and Medicinal History? He would very much like to meet with the man!
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What do you mean you fired him for talking back?!
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Danny is a Doctor#Danny is the best Doctor#He is more experienced with different biologies since he studied under Frostbite and worked in Amtiy for so long#He had literally operated on Martin's and Speedsters before#When Batman hears about this he's gonna lose it#They had a Doctor who had extensive knowledge on the biology if dead races and they FIRED HIM!?#For talking back!?#Sure he was a little rude about it but to be fair you guys were using Kryptonite on Superman to Operate#Did none of you consider his other Big Weakness? Magic?#Oh as men of science you don't value magic do you?#Well he does apparently so bring him back here Now!
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HERES MY DOODLES W OUT MY RAMBLES HEHE
#my art#ffvii#ff7#zack fair#genesis rhapsodos#zack fair ffvii#Sephiroth ff7#sephiroth#angeal hewley#angeal ff7#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#NONE OF THIS IS SHIP they are just sillayy
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my sister texted me smthing going on at home thats making me sad but im trying not to think about it and stay whimsical. its fursona friday..... its fursona feidayyyy...
#not unexpected just like. transphobia. u know the deal#her bf came to visit and my family wont call me my name which is what he knows me by#so now she has to like explain to him that im trans....#she was trying to be respectful and let me do it if i felt the need to#but basically texted me distraught like 'im so sorry i dont know why they cant just be respectful to you its not fair'#i love my sisters i wish that none of us had to go through this anymore#her bfs chill too like he knew me as 'allies gay older brother' (#(close enough) so i dont think this will b an issue for him Or them ots just like. Man.
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i think if dean had just taken an am i gay quiz he would’ve figured it out
#and would’ve saved us a lot of heartbreak!#needed claire to get dean to take one#or charlie#it’s honestly criminal that none of the dean-coded lesbians in supernatural thought smth was up#well to be fair i think charlie knew but wtv#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#destiel#dean winchester is bi#bisexual
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13 y/o adrien agreste looked at his dumpster fire life and said “middle school would fix me” and he was right
#to be fair he also became a superhero which he didn’t plan and that also aided in fixing him#and to be even fairer none of it actually fixed him. but the point still stands i think#has everyone ever thought abt everything that happened to adrien when he was thirteen.#(i’ve been thinking about it)#imagine your mom dies and you’re like i have to go to public middle school right now or else i’m going to explode#what a guy. okay i have to fr do my work now#ml#anna rambles#thirteen
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Siffrin plays Disco Elysium AU: Featuring backseat gamer Loop.
#in stars and time#ISAT#Siffrin#Loop#disco elysium#digital art#When I first thought of a crossover I went from 1) 'ISAT Disco AU but Loop is all of the skills'#To: 2) 'Loop is in the mindspace alongside the skills#To my magnum opus: 3)'Loop is sitting next to Siffrin backseat gaming him the whole time.'#Loop beat Disco Elysium ages ago and repeated it to the point they know all the vision quests and dialogue variables.#Siffrin just started playing and Loop keeps ruining the fun by using their meta-game knowledge to try and help.#Also let's be real. Siffrin's stats are 100% completely focused into motorics and nothing else.#If we can't Savoir Faire ourselves of this situation - we will explode. Endurance? Call my insurance instead.#Thinking skills? None. Emotional intelligence and morale? A failed social interaction canonically feels like death to them.#I might have bumped Phys up but...Siffrin's Electrochem stat is like -10. And Pain Threshold is emotional durability too.#Unused part of this joke is that I set their signature skill to Drama.#Both these games made my brain melt so now I get to combine them! I have that power!#This joke made me laugh the entire 3 hours I sat down and drew it and that is what creation should be about.
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#ravioli#raviolink#ravioli ship#ravioxlink#ravio x link#legend of zelda#legend of zelda link#legend of zelda ravio#loz#loz link#loz ravio#a link between worlds#a link between worlds link#a link between worlds ravio#albw#albw link#albw ravio#It's an AU I just don't know what the AU is yet#I- as I was drawing this- ever so softly told my SO “Fashion is my passion”#because I knew exactly what I was getting into deciding 'hey let's design some loz outfits!'#in all fairness - which is to say none at all - this only happened because I really like the Vidow Bad End au#And I wanted to make some angst-centered aus for my other faves
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toodeee
everything is transient. only an easy to draw guy is forever
#gorillaz#2d#stuart pot#gorillaz 2d#admin draws#fanart#needed a palate cleanser from my current fixation. came back to my roots#lore that i dont really get to talk about a lot outside of dms is that gorillaz is like a cornerstone of my art lol esp post 2018#ive had 4 main inspirations which are gorillaz phases 2-3. soul eater. homestuck. and a friend of mine. he knows who he is.#come to think of it 2018 is in some ways the year i really started drawing. 3/4 inspirations walked into my life that year#bc of this when i went to make a separate blog for art it became part of my username. slav-hewlett#ive had several dreams in which jamie hewlett just is there and gives me art advice and a few kind words. damon is usually there too#theyre a pack deal do not separate etc. those dreams are always really nice.#contrary to how much i draw 2d mudz is my favorite. its just that dear ol stu is very fun and much easier to draw#i should give murdoc a fair shot though. now that ive got the chops. theres been attempts thru the year but none were posted
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ppl dont assume tom cruise is in the closet like they used to
Like have we lost recipes this badly….there’s an entire chapter just on him in the David Ehrenstein book “Open Secret (Gay Hollywood 1928-1998)” … Gregg Araki openly called him the “Rock Hudson of the 90s” in Totally Fucked Up (1993) … he’s alleged to have worked at Studio 54 when he was 17 … he’s had pretty substantial gay rumors surrounding him since the early 80s including more than a few that have made their way into my DMs from people who knew … everyone should read the 1999 piece “Cruising Cruise”
#for the record based on people who know people#it seems like he’s actually Out in his private life and everyone around him knows#it’s just not something he wants to share with the public#which is also why he hasn’t publicly dated in over a decade#none of our business to him#and that’s fair to me. I mean I think people forget that he came up in the 80s in Reagan’s America at the height of the AIDS epidemic#and after being raised by an abusive dad who beat him for ‘not being tough enough’#a very different world than the post-obergefell one we live in now
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to continue my tradition of mdzs height posting, another character besides mo xuanyu who is routinely and unjustly described as tiny: Wen Qing.
according to the officially released heights, she and jin guangyao are roughly the same size. about five and a half feet tall.
which is on the small side for a man even in china, though not in medieval china, and is ofc loads smaller than the ridiculous giants making up most of the cultivator elite, but is not actually a small person.
that's statistically above average for a woman even in the modern US; in modern china it is often hard for women that height to find off-the-rack clothes. in a historical chinese setting she is mildly gargantuan. five foot six is a positively unmaidenly height.
wei wuxian (as i've previously discussed) is slightly over six feet tall at his original full growth, which is stupid tall even when you're an aristocrat who didn't starve as a child. wen qing is, in turn, too tall for wei wuxian to hook his chin over her head, even if he stands on his toes, unless she ducks.
he's got maybe more than half a head on her. she could headbutt him in the nose from a standing start, as could most adult men because he's a freak.
wen qing would walk among a group of normal-in-context women like a turkey among hens. she is not tiny.
i know cql kind of made her look that way, but in fairness their version of lan wangji is a stick of no great height also. and even on cql she's not particularly small, just exceedingly pale and slim with big eyes. i truly do not know why it's so popular to conceptualize her as teeny-tiny, except maybe for the contrast value. it's not even hornyposting.
#hoc est meum#mdzs#meta#wen qing#no sleep posting yay#averages#modern people run a lot taller than historical people on average#this is generally not because of any changes in the genestock you dig#it's because modern people statistically eat more consistently#get way more protein#and are way less prone to serious childhood diseases that if survived often stunt the growth#idk how much of the cultivator gigantism should be attributed to disease resistance and wealth#and how much to selective breeding#but wen qing is getting full measure of all these advanages#wwx gets none but is still huge which is the subject of#other posts of mine#fandom has no sense of scale#but in fairness neither does mxtx
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Red tornado had the correct response to yj98 annoyance and then he set up parent teacher conferences only to attempt to help but those teenagers did not listen at all
#Yj98#thinking about the parent teacher conferences#Like why did he do that#Most of their mentors were in their absentee era#To be fair none of them listened to any other adults#red tornado#okay I know why he did the conferences#But also it was just so silly#Didnt dick end up going for Bruce?#Like that’s doubly not that kids dad
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm too harsh with making Hunter a little bit dumb and oblivious.
And then I rewatched episode one, and he asks, "Don't you have a family somewhere? Parents?"
And Omega says "Parents?" as if that's the stupidest thing she's ever heard and he's the dumbest motherfucker she's ever met.
And I can rest assured my headcanon of himbo Hunter is correct.
#the bad batch#hunter#to be fair none of them figured it out except tech#but the face she makes at him is amazing#let's not forget when he was told the trees have a plan#he was all 'cool the trees have a plan let's listen to them'#like babe most people would have some follow-up questions#but not him#there's not a damn thing going on in that pretty head of his
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Feeling cute, knowing my s/o would be all over me, but having no one in this reality that appreciates it :(
#so many people in my dr who would tell me i look good#none here#how is that fair#shiftblr#shifters#shifting community#reality shifting#shifting blog#shifting#shifter#shifting antis dni#desired reality#quantum jumping#shifting diary#shifting thoughts#shifting realities#shifting rant
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ok, if we get a second season (we better), I expect to see Sanji flirting with EVERYONE, not just Nami and Zoro (but them especially)
#just because i’m a sanami shipper doesn’t mean i can’t appreciate the charms of zosan#besides considering that oda has said (multiple times) that none of the crew members will be getting jiggy with each other anytime soon#it’s only fair that we AT LEAST get to see ol’ vinsmoke ‘blackleg’ sanji flirt his ass off at everyone he comes into contact with#i want to see sanji flirt with his whole chest AND his whole p****#one piece#one piece live action#one piece netflix#op#op live action#opla#sanji#black leg sanji#zoro x sanji#vinsmoke sanji#nami x sanji#one piece sanji#op sanji#sanji x nami#sanami#zosan
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