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scenes i loved from Real Enough to Get Me Through by @marriedzukka <333 [ids in alt]
#zukka#zukka fanart#sokka#sokka fanart#zuko#zuko fanart#atla#atla fanart#avatar the last airbender#zukka fic rec#myart#yall. yall. dani. this FIC#first off it made me cry twice. not like 'oh im crying' internet speak no. like. eyes are too blurry to read let me stop this for a sec#it is SO GOOD#your prose? amazing#your insights on grief? life changing#THEM??? THEM their relationship and trust#'zuko looked at him and his world shifted on its axis'#ive been thinking about that line for WEEKS STRAIGHT#i can't tell you how many passages i screenshot just because of how beautiful or cute they were#the moment of seeing the painting of sokka's mom? how did you manage to make it so telling character wise--so sweet so PAINful AND so#cute with their relationship?!!?!#'oh so you think i'm beautiful too'#GOD#i had so many scenes i wanted to draw it was crazy#also#'Our loved ones leave impressions on us that can still impact our decisions and feelings even after they're gone'#fuck. had me crying AGAIN#seriously this fic is so wonderful and not just through a zukka lens. truly life changing you're an AMAZING writer#the fandom is so lucky to have you and i can't Believe it took me so long to get around to reading this masterpiece
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I was thinking... It seems to me that you mostly like the post-canon character states of Jayce and Viktor? I think you like the more confident and self-aware post-trauma Jayce (when he is present) and the more insecure Viktor, or... As if he has an enormous guilt to overcome.
Will there ever be something more naive from you with their more naive, hopeful and yearning versions?
Coming home (but not to you)
(also, i do have something planned for after my medieval au if the hyperfixation is strong enough and the fandom doesn't tire me out)
update im adding to this because i cant stop thinking about it do people find my coming home jayce... confident? i was very much going for an 'i'm sorry for my migraines' and 'when I'm in the airport in the security I think I magically have a gun' kind of vibe KDLFJHSDkl
also said this in the tags but season 2 didn't even start coming out until chapter 11 the full thing wasn't out until chapter 12 so if they came off post canon inspired that is very unintentional DKJFHSLDFj
#DSKFJHSDFKLJDSF#i also think viktor has much layered insecurities throughout arcane he's not the cool suave guy the fanom pretends he is#but coming home is definetly not representative of them post canon as season 2 didnt come out until after chapter 10#jayce in coming home though boy oh boy that is naive jayce#granted at the end of coming home i think they become very different than who they are on the show#this is intentional#as i feel they learn to develop something very beautiful#i also definetly wrote them as a bit different and more innocent than themselves throughout#as i felt there were ways that the modern world would soften them a bit#so i am surprised to hear this#granted. jayce in coming home does have a big burden of guilt#but id still say i based them on their season 1 selves as i did not have season 2 to go on#idk does that make sense?#i guess you're right in the sense that the other 2 i wrote are post-canon states by design#but by word count alone DKFLJSD#idk though this jayce in my medieval au is more hardened primairly because he's a knight and has seen way more death (and caused it)#but he still has his moments#literally first chapter he tries to hold viktors hand while high on pain medicine and his mom has to tell him to stop#hes not gonna be like.#completely devoid of his yearning traits#in fact id say the yearning for jayce in this one is very very intense#very i want to swear my oaths to YOU kind of thing#idk in coming home i dont find present jayce self aware especially at the start#he BECOMEs self aware but id stay he starts out quite in denial/silly/immature#sorry if this was sassy KDJFHSDKLFj#i just thought huh wow no i very much wrote coming home before there was any post canon to speak of#also jayce in coming home was NOTTTTT supposed to be confident lmfao so if thats the common perception that is very on me#in this medieval AU viktor's deal is pretty different im focusing on different aspects of his character#even with the mass amount of guilt and grief he comes off very witty and confident on the surface and its only through jayce being#obeservational that those walls begin to crumble
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chat i think im gonna be sick
(Powers of X #6)
#xmen#xmen comics#powers of x#charles xavier#snap scans#snap chats#moira stronger than me like ik why we here we're gonna die if not and so that is why she is stronger than me she is committing#i woulda kissed him in this moment too tho she and i are family on that front im afraid i do find him very cute#also. SIDE TANGENT. i loved the art before this of charles slowly processing the horrors of moiras mind ...#EXCELLENT art i must eat it at once#the most devious part of this is after i finished reading i went to go to my brother to talk about What I Read#and the second i pulled up like 'his sad eyes Brother im gonna be sick' he immediately quoted this page I HATE IT HERE#thats why they had to put that dome over charles' eyes so no one could look at his sad eyes anymore#this is in fact something i love and always love seeing but it still hurts i will not LIIIEEE#cant wait to read bout how this all goes horribly wrong ....#while my bro and i were talkin we were talkin bout other in-between stories an i wanna check those out at some point ...#maybe ill check my comic shop sometime in the future idk. for now im gonna throw up !!!!!!!!!!#i will simply spend tomorrow watching the rest of 92 im almost done with it. relatively speaking i will feel healed then probably#i got like two seasons left which is basically the same length as season 3 and then its onto 97#thats just one season for now so ... should finish that quick ..#ok bye i have Being Sick to be
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tie tying doodles w ramblings on it in tags
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#angela lobcorp#benjamin lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#technically? never sure what and what not to tag#its cute.. the idea of benjamin showing her how to tie it. someone else probably dressed her in the first place before she woke up so she#likely didnt know how before. and you know ayin's ass isnt going to do that. besides the tie is reminiscent to benjamin as well#small doodle. wanted to do more i might depending on if i get motivated but her perception would allow her to process it and probably to it#first try. would there be pride? the pride she was able to pick up on such a thing quickly? a promise for later on down the line she would#be able to adapt? perhaps a hope? along with maybe a pride on angelas end for being able to do so. a small joy of able to do it first try.#even if her slower perception granted her a privilege humans didnt. it wasnt so sore of a thing at the moment. the wounds of time and pains#werent as of a all encompasing torrent as the hell she would he sprung into would be. the small joy or pride when she tied it later knowing#the reaction and knowing she got it first try. how capable she was. then for it to fade into monotony and a motion to do. a void of what#used to be there. no one to see and only to remember only to ever remember when she sees the tie that had been so strikingly like his#its like.. the feeling when you were so excited about something maybe you think of being a little silly later. but then it becomes so gutted#and devoid of what used to be there new memories maybe soiling the past experience. only to be left with what a void that you knew had been#filled with a positive light. its not there anymore. 'first try?' what a joke. were now on a try of countless repeats that have lost all#meaning and any ability to even ascribe meaning to.#anyways its only short doodles because im trying to find it in me to make a carmy angela piece and a yesod one rn. little scuffed but i#wanted to draw benj of men and angie#... at least i think she woke up clothed. no damn clue . would make most sense for her to be#it would be a little tortuous if she wasnt. either ayin doing it himself filled with rage and what was created with his own hands that#could never even begin to contain her warm but a mimicry and mockery done by his own two hands#then having to get close and even speak. or order or look at. but if it was in that situation benjamin wouldve done it actually with ayin#just staring through the glass not very respondent as benjamin has to help her into something or tell her what to do. having the man he#followed and was faithful to just... standing there and silent as he tries to help someone confused and only just beginning to become#concious open their eyes for the first time. all in all she was likely clothed before hand. still a bit disconcerting. not even awake or#begining to think at that point all but a body but not even one of flesh but one mechanical and man made - a Doll. given aspects and clothes#benjamin likely gave her a tie at that moment there if she were to be clothed. maybe a small marking of work or pass down?
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Thinking about the inherent intimacy of dissection
Thinking about how ritualistic it is to slowly take apart a creature piece by piece
Thinking about how reverential it is to methodically pin back skin to reveal organs and membrane
Thinking about Charlie Dowd
Thinking about how the only time The King in Yellow showed any sort of tenderness to Charlie was when he was under the knife
Thinking about how the only time The King in Yellow was in any ways gentle towards Charlie was when he was tearing him open and causing him pain
Thinking about how the only time The King in Yellow could resemble kind was when Charlie was at his most vulnerable
Thinking about…
#Im really normal about this as you can tell#it may just be me who sees dissection this way but i always find that there is something very ritualistic and reverential in it#yes it would be a vivisection in this case since charlie is probs alive for this but that doesnt sound as good in the post#this is something ive been thinking about for ages and have only just been able to put into words#i am writing a fic around the concept at the moment however!#1000 words already and no ones even been eviscerated yet :((#charlie dowd#malevolent#malevolent podcast#noel finley#noel malevolent#detective noel#kiy#kiy malevolent#king in yellow#detective noel malevolent#the king in yellow#spine speaks
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oh, how you drive me crazy!!
#back to the future#bttf#bttf fanart#bttf musical#back to the future musical#lorraine baines#marty mcfly#kit does an art#yeah that’s right it’s absolutely none of my other ideas i said id continue and a completely new unrelated one! yk how it is#every so often i gotta remind you guys i don’t just make silly doodles of dog men all the time#i can lock in on occasion!#this took super duper long so if you could look at it for a little longer that would be appreciated :]#me and my ten thousand blend layers of purple#i love this song there was a point in time where i’d just loop it over and over again like 10 times at least#and it never gets old!#at some point in the future when im no longer animating ten thousand frames i may consider giving some other songs this cover art treatment#but we’ll see#i already have enough art ideas i don’t need more at the moment#no thanks waiter! i’m good (he keeps bringing more to the table despite my request) im. i’m good-#yeah i could’ve waited until valentine’s day to post this but i don’t think it fits considering. yk. that is his mother#speaking of. i better see absolutely no one be weird about this one ok. i have the spray bottle. be normal
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#p4g#persona 4 golden#p4#persona 4#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#ok ok this scene gets to me so bad actually#because yes on the one hand hes playing up that big brother role again#reminding kanji of HIS role as nanako's big brother as well#but its also reminiscent of yosuke's tendency to hide his own sadness and put up a front for others so they wouldnt catch on#i think in this moment its not necessarily a bad thing and yosuke was kind of right (imo anyway)#keeping their spirits high would be a more comforting sight for nanako#who wouldnt want to see them worried#i think its such a strong reflection of yosuke's consideration towards others#part of me is like yes kanji is the one that said it but hes just voicing what everyone else was also thinking in that moment#and yosukes response isnt just for kanji but also for the team and esp Yu#because of them all Yu is the one that undoubtedly looked most heartbroken considering how protectice he was of nanako#even though we cant really see it in game it's very clear how his reaction is like in p4u when he thought nanako might be in danger#anyway yu didnt have a speaking line in this scene so i could be delulu but im pretty sure it was about him as well#he's good with his queue
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having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!
#persona 3 spoilers#minato arisato#hc and au nonsense#lizzy speaks#happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳#i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at-#him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know?#and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^#something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls#you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations#and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4#and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are...#that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!)#the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES#objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written#but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently#specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship#it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc#it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but#eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses!#regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself-#into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here.#the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go#“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons#anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍#have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙
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sits up in bed. so lana and ema definitely thought they were responsible for edgeworth "choosing death", right?
(the rest of this post was supposed to go in the tags, because it's not very well organised or written, but it got too long so. here are the slightly edited tags for your reading pleasure (or otherwise)):
i was going to make this solely about ema because she's the obvious one with her open adoration of edgeworth, but the thing about rfta is that it goes to great lengths to emphasise the connection between lana and edgeworth as well.
the sl-9 incident showed that lana grows attached to people deeply, hence angel starr's comment on how, when neil marshall died, 'she (lana) felt like her own brother had died.' with edgeworth, i think it was similar but worse. because he's not just a coworker or subordinate who's dear to her. he saved her life. and it cost him his own.
at the beginning of the case, edgeworth says he was mistaken for thinking that lana was always looking out for him post sl-9 (a statement interesting on its own because that's when everyone else says she grew distant), and, later on, he brings ema fingerprinting powder because lana asked him to. then, of course, there's the 'lady luck' comment he makes.
similarly, on lana's side, you obviously have the end of the trial when she says he did well, but there's also that additional moment post-trial where she's the only one to notice — in a group comprising her, ema, phoenix and gumshoe — that he's 'hiding', listening to their conversation. point is, there's enough to suggest that she might have been the nearest thing edgeworth had to a mia; his 'chief prosecutor' to phoenix's plain 'chief'. they're as close as two people can be in a relationship where one of them is constantly lying and the other is von karma's star pupil.
rfta is pretty straightforwardly depicted as the case which solidified edgeworth's resolve to do what he did; i don't think i have to prove that. rumours about him have reached new heights, his car and knife were involved in goodman's murder, he makes an unprecedented mistake in court by failing to connect the evidence room and carpark incidents, thus forcing the chief of police to enter the trial to do so himself, and he's publicly revealed to have relied on falsified evidence to secure a conviction in the sl-9 case, all of which only happened because of lana. jake marshall even claims that from the beginning — that if you trace edgeworth's rumours back to their source, you end up meeting one person: lana skye.
and it gets worse because at the end of rfta, she thinks he's fine!! she literally says, 'i was afraid the pressure would break you, but you rose above it,' and reminds him he's nothing like gant because he's not alone. she leaves the case thinking he will be okay. and then, what, like a week passes, and she finds out that he wasn't, and that he's gone, and it's her fault. even after she was freed from gant's control, even after she had finally stopped lying, she couldn't prevent herself from claiming another life. so much for 'lady luck', i suppose.
and the game reiterates this multiple times. gumshoe states at the start that edgeworth's ties to those higher up in the department have made him the subject of constant rumours, and phoenix says (in front of ema) that he shouldn't be held responsible for the forged evidence because that was all lana's doing, which then leads to edgeworth commenting (again in front of ema) that he feels as though 'something inside him has died.' it all goes back to lana. we can argue and say that it was technically gant's doing that caused all of this, but lana still took actions that led to it. even her complicated friendship with edgeworth isn't spared; it's that closeness between them that exacerbated those rumours. how could she not feel responsible in some way?
and with ema, it's rather obvious, isn't it? if she hadn't gone poking her nose into things, none of this would have happened or come to light. and, of course, she'd never choose anyone over her sister, not for anything in the world — it's simply not a question, but that's the problem, isn't it? it's not a question. it's not some hypothetical moral dilemma. it just is. she may not have killed neil marshall, but she still has one king of prosecutor's blood on her hands. and now she has to live with that. she just. has. to live with it. no matter if he chose otherwise.
moving on from that a little, i think it's actually wild how much of ema's journey to becoming a forensics investigator is paved with bad memories. neil marshall's death and her subsequent inability to testify are what drives her to begin pursuing it, her first proper investigation results in her idol's "death" and when she finally graduates, the person who saved her sister has been disbarred, and she can't even help because she isn't allowed to. all that pain and constant pursuit of her goals, and she's still the same ema skye, still that girl shrouded in darkness, always one step behind the truth, one step a little too late. no wonder she was angry in aa:aj. i would be furious.
#and then like a year later they find out edgeworth's fine and if that happened to me i think i would kill him fr#WKSHDKAHDKS#lana skye#ema skye#miles edgeworth#the skye sisters' relationship with one dramatic depressed prosecutor is something that can be so personal...#ive literally never thought this much about lana or ema ever. they never occupy my thoughts but somehow.#everyone else: man edgeworth's vanishing must have had a real impact on franziska and phoenix. me: what about these 2 side characters who#technically only appeared once in the whole trilogy. in a dlc. what about them.#it's actually so interesting how much lana is set up to be important to edgeworth. phoenix even says she reminds him of mia and when i#first read that i was like ??? bc of the scarf? there's more to mia than a scard phoenix. but then you pay attention to how she interacts#with edgeworth and it's like oh. i see it now. and then she disappears forever.#mind you i dont think she or ema were like. destroyed by the news of edgeworth's supposed passing. not in the way phoenix was anyway.#for better or worse both lana and ema are shown to have a tight hold over themselves emotionally speaking. lana keeps a lid on them for#years and ema is told she might have killed neil by accident and is functional after a brief faint and recess. like those women are strong.#but i do think it would have had a deep impact regardless of how well they were able to cope. like i've said i dont see how it wouldnt.#anyway this concludes my rfta moment. time to go back to being unable to say a thing about susato-san even though she occupies my every#waking moment. if you read all this ily <3#it's also past midnight so if this is all a bit everywhere im sorry
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oh mona ft. lxl shikishi how i miss you so…
#i don’t think i’ve ever mentioned it (till now) but… this is the last surviving image i have of this shikishi#idk if it vanished during the move™️ or if my mother threw it out by accident while i was quarantining in my ‘c-19 for daizo’ era#or if it just sprouted wings and flew off to become top idols one day… but it’s gone :(#im forever glad that my past self decided to use it as the profile image for the tl account bc otherwise it’d be *gone* gone#thank you past me for the courtesy… i still think ur a dumbass for not keeping the shikishi safe in the first place in a memorable location#but thank you for at least giving me a little trace to remember it by…#…anyways profile image on there is now asumona shikishi~~~~ got a cleaner pic of them while i was cleaning out the drawer so~~~~~#my miserable shikishi bonus count remains at 2… sighssss#missed out on vol 1 bc i bought from am.jp like a dumbass instead of checking for bonuses… vol 2’s vanished… and vol 3’s just didnt arrive#(which. incidentally. is also. like. a cautionary tale of why u should wait for bonus announcements before placing preorders…)#(<-was dumb enough to preorder vol 3 the moment it went up [note: before the bonus announcements] and was shocked to receive no bonuses)#(idk if it was just a one time thing but i’d rather not risk it y’know~~~~~~ proxy fees add up~~~~~~)#im just glad that i could buy vol 4 at ani.mate in-person (by chance)… though it did make my family think i had bought bl manga instead…#…anyway that’s enough 4-5 am babbling for one day…#throwing this ‘promise’ here: if i can get up by 1pm im finally gonna clean the rest of the idolsengen chapters… no more procrastinating…#perhaps. maybe. idk. no guarantee.#either way nghy canon u agree y/y#<-cant stop shillin’ nghy (sorry <3)#t h o u g h speaking of nghy i found. like. 6 nghy stickers in my drawer (the one from the 4th charasong album kuji)#so i trimmed the cheki-esque borders off one of ‘em and now it’s sitting nicely in one of the card slots of my phone case~~~#cute lil’ portable nghy that i can just flip up to look at whenever i want~~~~~~~
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ah! so jolly 🎄🕊
#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#v1#v1 ultrakill#christmas#ultrakill art#ultrakill fanart#gabv1el#gabriel#id included#i spent an ungodly amount of time on this one#but seeing new blood post santa dress gabe motivated me enough to keep going#no clue what posessed me to fully render this but christ im satisfied with the result so whatever#anyway. for the caption i almost typed something that might've contained a phrase no unlike ''v1 rides gabe"#but luckily i caught that on time because i would not have heard the end of it. not my proudest moment#speaking of. shout out to my friend for motivating me to keep the full drawing and not crop it to save time#thanks to him you get to see the thigh high boots#edit: thinking back on it now. why the hell did i draw the cross on his helmet as a plus sign. hwat.#i usually draw it as a proper cross#arttag#galadraws
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i don’t talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.
#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!!#addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted:#- no i don’t care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious.#she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it#- yes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t possibly ruined eloise’s life#- similarly: eloise isn’t (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her#so have many other women including marina#- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing#(and she’s probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family)#- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh#- pen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesn’t mean that she’s innocent or right!#- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao she’s alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship#she has no idea how to manage society by herself#(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family)#- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like she’s keeping an eye on her or smth#- eloise didn’t just ignore anything pen said and that’s why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didn’t speak like lw to hide it#the moment she did eloise was like huh that’s weird she doesn’t normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out#- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret#but she hasn’t told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal#- also pen clearly wasn’t that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao#side note but no i don’t think the queen is going to name her the ‘emerald’ or anything because she’s suddenly in the spotlight#eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad)#a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition#tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill#eloise bridgerton#bridgerton
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do you guys ever get emotional about the fact that someone (a character) is Out There, Somewhere. like it's ok that i don't even know them but it makes me happy to think about the fact that this person's in the same reality as me (again, in this case). Like whether in a kintype situation or a fictive or some combination or whatever. They're Out There and i hope to god happy. maybe they even have friends from the same source and they found each other again. Shout out to You for existing wherever you are
#to me this post is specifically about swerve. if you're out there buddy lmk how you're doing -rodimus#but also any fictionfolk can take this to heart.#does anyone else ever think about this? like? sure I get the whole “oh i'm so sad i might never find so-and-so again”#but i get these moments where i could cry happy knowing that person's out there and happy#or hoping at least#who knows. maybe it's an “it couldn't be going worse keith” situation#if anyone reads this you can tell me off or on anon how your Situation is going#especially if there's any transformers that follow me that i'm not already friends with#if you're a fictive how are you liking system life! did you see a bird today!#if you're fictionkin are you happy here! do you have friends from your source! did you see a bird today!#and if you Are an idw swerve im gripping your arms i hope you're happy i hope so fucking bad you're happy and surrounded by friends.#if you know one tell them to hmu if theyre interested in saying#god i hope all these tags post in the right order i wrote them all out of order#froggy speaks
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There's something about scar... idk what it is but whether it's the fanon designs of his character or the irl person he's just so. Handsome. Cute. Everything. He's just the man. The only man ever actually.
He's so cool. I hope he knows it.
#i mean this in the least parasocial way possible: i love this man so much#HES JUST. HE#YOU GUYS GET IT RIGJT#NSDJDJSM#JUST. SCAR. ALWAYS ON THE MIND.#HES SO KIND. HES FUNNY. HE RAMBLES ON ABOUT THE STUFF HE LOVES. JUST HE#im sorry#simp moment for me here#HE PUTS A SMILE ON SO MANY PEOPLES FACES#HIS BUILDS ARE INCREDIBLE#HIS ART IS SO COOL AND I WISH HED SHARE MORE OF IT#JELLIE#I THINK THAT ONE SPEAKS FOR ITSELF#ACTUALLY? NO. IM NOT SORRY.#I APPRECIATE THIS MAN SO MU H#HE MANAGES TO MAKE ME SMILE WHEN I FEEL SAD WITH HIS SILLY JOKES#I JUST. I NEED EVERYONE TO KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE HIM.#stiff talk#gtws#GOODBYE EVERYONE. IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW. I HAVE 2 HOURS TO SLEEP#IM SO TIRED#AND IM RAMBLING HERE ABOUT A MC YOUTUBER#YOU GUYS BETTER BE SUBBED TO HIM#GET HIM TO 2 MILLION#HE DESERVES IT#fuck i need to sleep
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I’m not deep enough in the yttd fandom to really know if this is a controversial take to have but. I think soushin is interesting. I don’t think this in a “omg wow they’re soooo in love and I want them to be together” way, not at all lol. But I think to act like it’s impossible to see a romantic/sexual aspect of their relationship is really fucking stupid. I try to refrain from acting like there’s a solid truth to their relationship cuz the game isn’t finished yet so there’s always the likelihood that we’ll get more information later, but the thing that always gets me is when ai shin mentions that hiyori claimed to be an older student at his school but he later learned that wasn’t true. It sounds so eerily like a grooming story and the way we see human shin retreating into himself In reaction to that hits really hard, like he’s embarrassed it ever happened
Then there’s stuff like the detail that hiyori would always take pictures of shin without consent and would hang them up, or the fact that hiyori kept a personal shin ai for himself that he had control over, or the way that maple is supposed to parallel shin. It all just sounds like they had a relationship that blurred the lines a lot in a way that was very uncomfortable for shin. Moments like the shin ai sobbing and Hiyori saying “no don’t be like that show me your cool side shin!” and shin reacting to that, it’s like hiyori is trying to praise shin while hurting him. Seems way too much like a common occurrence
I think also (but maybe im just projecting) that shin is pretty queer coded in a lot of ways (hot springs scene, soft-natured personality that he tries to smother, his relationship with hiyori paralleling a romantic one, etc) and I think this plays into his relationship with hiyori a lot. Because of gender roles and toxic masculinity bullshit, i really doubt shins soft personality was allowed to fly under the radar for most people, so he was isolated a lot. Hiyori probably made him feel special at first with the way he seemed to like this about shin, but it becomes pretty clear that hiyori loves to fawn over shin and treat him like a cute baby and really only loves shins personality cuz he sees it as easy to take advantage of. I think it’s really easy to imagine a scenario where shin is a closeted teenager who finally has someone he feels he can confide in and hiyori blurs the lines between romantic and platonic a lot and shin latches onto this because he wants to feel like he can be loved by another boy and thinks this is his only shot. It’s way too common and all the pieces just fit right into place, you know? And I’m aware of the line where shin says hiyori is like an older brother to him but imo I think these two things can actually perfectly coexist cuz again, theres blurring of lines going on cuz this is an abusive relationship and feelings are being toyed with constantly
Basically all this to say, I very much think it’s likely that there was a romantic and sexual aspect to this relationship going on. I wouldn’t say they were labeling themselves as boyfriends or anything, more like it was a vague mess that hiyori refused to elaborate on. I don’t ship these two cuz I think it’s pretty clear shin wants out of this relationship, but I think inherently being mad someone wants to explore the idea of them having this kinda relationship is really ignorant and is only gonna result in only shallow ass takes about abusive relationships being allowed
#yttd#shin tsukimi#sou hiyori#i feel like ive made myself way too clear here lol i just want to speak my truth 😩#maybe no one cares but just from what ive seen ppl have been like IF YOU MAKE ANYTHING RESEMBLING ROMANCE FOR THESE TWO YOURE EVILLLL#like its annoying when ppl make completely ooc shit trying to make this pairing cute cuz idk they want boys to kiss#but to act like no one can pick up on something more to their relationship like this is fucking stupid#im not saying their relationship couldnt be strictly platonic and still abusive cuz thats not true at all#im just saying hey. lets ease up a bit and allow some damn nuance#side note i hate when ppl write hiyori as comically evil in the relationship like yeah hes creepy as fuck but like#these two were close enough to be practically living together and shin kept his scarf and everything#and this is the game arguing everyone is capable of good so like. i think hiyori had normal moments too lol#ldk it just irks me when ppl write abuse as like some black and white perfect victim/evil abuser shit cuz thats unrealistic and boring#and we dont know everything that went down between these two but sometimes shin is getting brutalized a lil too much in these fics#maybe im wrong maybe he was getting strapped to the electric chair every night lol
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