#no one asked 😅

[moni-logues]

I have sat on this because, tbh, idk what to say (I also, if I'm actually being honest, need a medication review because I do not think my brains and feelings are normally calibrated rn lol, but that's a whole other thing).

(putting this under a cut because WOW it got long and I'm so sorry that this is such a self-indulgent ramble but I've been thinking about all this for ages now)

I never set out for this to be an angsty fic, or a fic about mental health, or a fic that needed actual trigger warnings. Believe it or not, the first conception of this fic was a little drabble or one shot about how cute and fun it is to have a crush on someone 🤣🤣

Somehow, it became what it is now! And idk if it's because there is some of me in this and I have sometimes been reader and/or yoongi, but I genuinely didn't think I was doing anything. I didn't think the things I was writing would matter or would hit people or would be remarkable in any kind of way. This is... This is just life, right? ☠️ (See above re: medication lol)

But I was also a little bit worried about it. Especially That Chapter (that one). Because people wouldn't believe it and they'd think I was doing it just for the drama and they'd think I was making light of something or using pain for entertainment (which, actually, yeah, technically cause this writing IS entertainment but their pain is fictional. Soooo). And I just thought maybe it would come out like a telenovela and not as someone trying to write a Real person going through shit?? Or sth idk

But you're not the only person to comment in the way you have. And I honestly never really know what to do with it. Because it's unbelievable to me that something I created can be cared about; it doesn't seem possible that people can read my story and be moved by it or see themselves in it or find meaning in it. Because it's just my silly little story right? And I'm also sad because I never want anyone to feel the way the characters do.

And I feel like there isn't a response from me that does justice to it. How can I just say thank you for reading and I'm glad you enjoyed it and I hope you don't feel that way anymore and just.. that's it? Idk. It makes me happy, personally, that I have created something that means something to people and that the things I throw out into the void sometimes hit people square in the chest yknow? That does mean something to me but none of it seems to matter more than what matters to you? Does that make sense?

I guess it's like, you post a fic and relinquish control of it (death of the author and stuff I guess) and if no one reads it, it becomes abandoned somehow, orphaned, so when people do read it, that sustains it, and when people like it, when they take it into their hearts, it gives them another life somewhere else to live and it's a kind of shared private life where we have this connection to other people who enjoyed it (and to the person who wrote it) but we also have a private relationship with the fic and what it means to us specifically, individually.

And that's connection, right? That's what we're here for, that's what we want, as people , as humans, that's how we survive. And I'm terribly forever alone and traumatically independent and love to isolate myself from everyone but also... I post this shit and I put some of myself into it, and effort and heart, and there's always a little bit of your soul in everything you make because the above might be true but I am still human and I DO want connection, desperately, secretly, on the inside, and so like

This sort of comment is hard to compute because I want it to be true but I also can't believe it because I'm just Me and nothing I do is worth anything. Except when you guys tell me that it is. And I guess that's healing too. And I guess I need my own journey like I've given reader. And I guess you sharing this and taking the time to tell me what this thing I wrote means to you is part of that journey.

So when I say thank you for reading and thank you for reblogging, like... I really mean that shit. It's not perfunctory; it's not politeness. And sorry for using your reblog for all this introspection and shit you didn't ask for 😅 but thank you ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Kintsugi [Masterlist]

Pairing: Yoongi x reader

Genre: strangers-to-friends-to-lovers, non-idol!au, angst, smut, eventual fluff

Summary: In a fit of spiteful, post-break-up self-improvement, you sign up to a baking class. Yoongi, in a bid to appease his demanding girlfriend, signs up, too. Determined to make him your friend, you end up with more than you ever imagined.

Current word count: 98.5k

Content: alcohol consumption/drunkenness, language, Yoongi and reader are both depressed, some very bad mental health, lots of glib comments and jokes about death and suicide, reader tries to make herself sick (NOT food/ED-related, does not succeed), mention of a suicide attempt, Yoongi has a depressive episode, reader has a depressive episode, self-harm (cutting), death (Yoongi's grandfather), a little bit of vomit (alcohol induced)

Smut: protected sex, fingering, semi-public sex/sex in a public place, oral sex (f. receiving)

Specific warnings will be posted for each chapter and this list will be updated as I go.

Chapter One - Peaches 5.5k

"Not everyone wants more friends. Some people just want to get through the day and make it home."

Chapter Two - Rebound 8.2k

“Well, maybe we’re both good at hiding it.”  

“Maybe we are".

Chapter Three - What doesn't kill you makes you wish you were dead 11.1k

“No one’s ever... No one’s ever taken care of me before.” 

Chapter Four - Someone old, someone new 8.1k

"Years of counselling and it turns out nothing makes you feel the joy of being alive like when you really fucking like someone."

Chapter Five - The other shoe 7.2k

It hit you at that moment: you would always be you... You'd always just be... this.

Chapter Six - Yoongi, after all 6.4k

You smiled, grateful to him, as you often were. Always were.

Chapter Seven - You! Me! Dancing! 6.1k

Come hell or high water, it would be fun.

Chapter Eight - Nostos 9.4k

You would love, value, and forgive him enough for the lot of them.

Chapter Nine - Crush 6.2k

"You said it yourself: your feelings are bloody loud."

Chapter Ten - Impasse 8.3k

"You know someone has to go first, right?"

Chapter Eleven - The mountain 5.4k

... it sounded like you needed closure. As if you didn’t know that already. Didn’t everyone?

Chapter Twelve - Peaches pt.2 3.2k

It was not every day that you ripped yourself open and placed your fluttering heart before them, hoping, praying that they felt the same.  

Chapter Thirteen - Damage Control 7k

"He can want me and tell me or he can want me and not tell me, but if he doesn’t tell me, he can’t have me."

Chapter Fourteen - Me, too 6k

“Me, too. I haven’t wanted anyone else since the day we met.” 

[sunglassesmish]

buck + hands

[julesart04]

[mobius-m-mobius]

👻🎃Trick or treat!🎃👻

Treats all around lovely 🥰🎃 Just wanted to make a little something in your style in honor of the endlessly hilarious posts you put together for the fandom, no one gets these characters like you do and it's always a delight looking forward to seeing you on dash 💖

(fate's really twisting his arm on this one 😂)

[rampantram]

I would like to begin this ask by saying, Hi, firstly I absolutely adore ur art, how is it so clean and expressive ohmygod- second- ur lamb makes me go feral his muscles are just so ajbznsbzbsbbs

I'm glad my lamb is causing some of you so much distress, not gonna' lie.. 😂 They'd be super active on social media, though, for sure (actually got me thinking about like...how Devotion could be combined with social media to give the Crown Bearers their power and all that).

And thank you so much, I appreciate that! 😭💕 Besides drawing for most of my life, a kneaded eraser is my primary tool for keeping my sketches nice and clean~ (maybe, if I have the means to do so anytime soon, I'll try to set up an art stream so I can show you guys)

[vivalgi]

Some of the former staff from PB have already founded a new narrative game startup.

[aurorangen]

Like my first love that September

Transcript & Context:

[The trial was an eye-opener for us and we shouldn't be afraid to reach out to help cope with trauma. We both went to therapy, my mum felt brave enough to open up about her mental health and I went to talk through my fears and distress and how to gain control of it. In the end, we decided to move to Henford-on-Bagley]

[The countryside promoted healing and we were less likely to be triggered by places or people. It was really an escape from the big city. Settling down was easy since my grandparents lived there. It was also my first time visiting the family farm and I loved every single moment in that house]

[Most importantly, I felt more relaxed in Henford-on-Bagley. No more pestering reporters or prying eyes of the neighbours. No more trouble sleeping or flashbacks to all the difficult times. Instead, it was a warm welcome from the villagers, who did not ask too many questions, well most of them anyway]

[Our wellbeing improved and we immediately fitted in with the community. It was a new beginning here which meant a different school, routine and people. And one person in particular stood out from everyone else]

[Henford-on-Bagley was where I met Nancy Montford. She was my first love]

The remaining story parts (the first love and the one after 👀) are the ones that I have most been looking forward to! And look who is his first love...Nancy (tjolc)!!! It is perfect with her cooking roots and how city detective also explores food. I've mentioned that Vincent likes cooking and you will find out how it came to that. Now the two legacies link 🤗 One more thing is Oscar has NO RELATION to Strangerville even though I initially created him to be the mysterious guy.

[daily-smol-silm]

If you are taking requests / suggestions / whatever to call it: smol Ungolianth biting into a dandelion (which is comperatively big)

But if you don't feel like it, no pressure!

Day #67 - Accomplice

Two problems for the price of one :0

Bonus extra big dandelion:

[hellonerf]

the first one isn't a request it's just for my own sick enjoyment. everytime i think about ame's fear of ghosts i get a headache(thrill). nine eleven ends in an hour for me

[yourdeepestfathoms]

i love your meadowlark headcanons sooooo much😭😭

if you’re looking for ideas for more headcanons, may i present:

the lark and their love languages

the lark coping with stress/upset

what an average day around the home/sanctuary looks like for the lark!

the lark and their most surprising talents and weaknesses

the lark and their favourite things; foods, animals, seasons, etc!

don’t feel any pressure btw!! <3

thank you!!

there’s a lot here, but i’m an overachiever SO

The Lark and Their Love Languages

Cole- Quality time! They love to spend time with hers and engage in their hobbies!

Clémentine- Physical touch ofc! They’re SO cuddly and snuggly. I believe it’s also been stated that they like to give kisses, so they are the CEO of forehead kisses to everyone!

Kingsley- Being a nuisance lol

Perrine- Also quality time! I don’t see her as the type to be only affectionate or to use terms of endearment, but she likes to spend time with the others whenever she can, doing whatever they like to do.

The Lark and Coping With Stress

Cole- Singing and songwriting. You know how some people make vent art/writing? I feel like they would do that with songs! They write vent lyrics to get out their feelings.

Also aggressive scream-singing in the middle of the woods!

Clémentine- I feel like Clémentine is the only one who actually sits down and talks about their problems like a normal person. They don’t like to keep things bottled up and when they try, they just end up blurting it out eventually.

Kingsley- Might be a bit strange, but Kingsley gives me the vibes of someone who runs to get stress out. Like, he’s just like “i’m gonna go for a run” and then just prances around the woods.

The forest calms him, and he likes sitting among the trees when he’s upset to just breathe and be my himself.

Perrine- Compartmentalizing lmao

Average Day

Perrine wakes up first and goes downstairs to make breakfast for the others. Clémentine is usually up next, then Cole, and then Kingsley, who likes to get his beauty sleep.

I feel like they don’t all spend every waking minute together, so after breakfast, they all chill, doing their own things.

They try to do some rehearsing at some point, but usually SOMEONE (mainly Kingsley) won’t focus, and they end up doing something else entirely.

Sometimes Perrine makes lunch, other time she lets them fend for themselves. She makes dinner, though, make days! Otherwise they have leftovers.

The Lark and Their Favorite Things

Cole

Animal: Cat

Color: Yellow

Season: Spring

Weather: Sunny

Clémentine

Animal: Fox

Color: Yellow

Season: Spring

Weather: Rainy

Kingsley

Animal: Frog

Color: Green

Season: Summer

Weather: Sunny

Perrine

Animal: Crow

Color: Purple and blue

Season: Autumn! Unlike the others, she really loves the cooler weather and the pretty colors the trees become.

Weather: Snowy

[f1-stuff]

Bahrain GP '24 // Ferrari Team Radio Snippet (1/?)

Xavi: "Brake situation still stable." Charles: "You mean, it's still shit, right?"

[wombywoo]

hello! do u draw the maps and diagrams in the backgrounds on ur art by urself or do u use pre existing images or smth :0?

(like the map in ur most recent gaz work)

Haha, hell no! I could never have the patience or skill for that 🙆‍♀️ Most of my backgrounds for the latest COD art have been collage work. So for the Gaz one--I found a bunch of images through google and rearranged them how I wanted through mostly trial and error. yeah, if I had to draw a whole map of London by hand..💀

All these ones have backgrounds made through collage:

[infinite-beginnings]

My George video!!!

In case you were curious about the latest book he has read and his go to hype song.

Also DBDA Fandom, we have a job to do now 😅

I also shared with him that I lost my grandfather to Parkinson's Disease recently and he had some really really sweet words to share (I didn't include that part of the video but I just wanted everyone to know how kind and thoughtful he is)

[hailsatanacab]

Your Favourite Author's Favourite Fic

in no way is this me sneakily trying to get fic recs out of people, but here's my new tag game!

Rules! When tagged, reblog with the fic you've written that you love the most

Not the fic with the most kudos, or the most comments, or the most hits, but the fic that you're the most proud of. I'm talking about the story that kept you up at night, the one that you still think about, the one that you wish more people would read

So, it's time to show off! I strongly encourage - in fact, I demand - that you give yourself some compliments, a well-deserved pat on the back, and tell us all the reasons why it's your favourite!

Then tag five people and make them go through it, too 🥰🩷

I'll tag @wolfjackle, @tourettesdog, @gilbirda, @die-erlkonigin6083, and @thewritingowl to get us started, please and thank you!!

[valentinejaes]

Kai Solos 1/? — KAI (开) Countdown to Jongin's Birthday: D-3

[azuneekun]

HI I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW SHANE (AND THE OTHERS BUT ESPECIALLY SHANE FOR I TOO AM WHIPPED) have you ever thought of making a portrait mod at all? Sorry if that's a dumb question but I'd be all over your portraits if you ever did OK LOVE U BYE

im sorry.....................im really not strong enough to make it