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Bachlor/Bachelorette party
I walked out of the bathroom in just a towel to see Kelly laying on her stomach. Her ass on display her thong disappearing between her juicy cheeks. I knelt down and parted her legs. Pulling the thin piece of material to the side burying my tounge into her ass. Kelly moaned but was still scrolling thru her phone. After a few minutes she lifted her ass giving me access to her pussy as well. I slid my fingers into her wet slit. And continued to eat her ass. She stopped me and rolled over. I removed her panties completely. And licked and sucked her clit.
"You are so good to me" she moaned then grabbed my head as she succumbed to an orgasm. After she just tossed my hair and headed to a shower herself. I got dressed my erection settling on its own. Kelly fully dressed found me in the garage breaking down all the cardboard boxes for recycling.
"Paul, I have an important question to ask you" Kelly said. I stopped for a moment as she bent down on her knee.
"Will you marry me" she asked. I was stunned. I was suppose to ask her. And here now. Not very romantic. She held a small box. I took it and opened it. There was a diamond ring. It wasn't something I normally would wear.
"Kelly, shouldn't I ask you?" I said helping her up.
"No, I don't want that type of marriage" she said cupping her hand to my face.
"Yes" I replied and she placed the ring on my finger. She then took my hand and led me inside.
"We should talk about some things before you commit to me" Kelly said sitting me down.
"I don't want an equal marriage" she said. Holding my hand. I was confused. "I will be head of household" she stated.
"I don't understand" I said.
"I want a 1930 marriage but with me taking the husband role" Kelly explained. "You will stay at home, your job will be to take care of the house and me. Cook, clean, do the laundry and of course look pretty for me.
"Kelly, what would people think?" I said stunned
"That you are my little plaything" Kelly smiled. I frowned.
"Paul, I love you. But you have alot of short comings" Kelly told me. I knew she made alit more money then I did. But that couldn't be it. I looked at her quetionly. She grabbed both my hands ,looked into my eyes.
"You have no ambition, you are indecisive always waiting for me to tell what to do, you have little will power, and sorry but you are lacking in" she said looking down to indicate my crotch. I almost burst into tears.
"I love you and want always in my life" Kelly stated. "But this is how it would have to be"
"I understand" I said getting up. I went outside to think. I sat in the backyard and stared at the ring on my finger. I had always thought Kelly out of my league. But as I looked back. She had asked me out first. She was right I always just went along with what she wanted. Would much change, I wouldn't have to go to work. I already liked to cook. It had been over an hour when I returned and found Kelly.
"Yes I would honored to be your husband" I stated. She kissed me then pushed me to my knees she spread her legs. She wore no panties under her dress. Pulling me to pussy. I sucked and liked until she came again. I moved thinking we would have sex.
"Stop" Kelly said flatly. "I told you that you are lacking you have never satisfied me that way, have you?" I lowered my eyes. I knew she was telling the truth. "We will come up with a system in which you can.... release the presure" she told me. Seeing my face she softened.
"Since it is a special occasion" she opened my shorts and rubbed me thru my underwear.
"Please" I whined
"Want me to stroke it?" She teased. I shook my head excitedly.
"But my hand will get all sticky, I will make you cum if you clean my hand with your tounge" Kelly stated. I was stunned but she took out my dick and stroked me quickly. I came even quicker. She raised her hand to my lips.
"Good husbands always clean up their mess" she cooed, I hesitated but then stuck out my tounge. Kelly shoved her whole hand to my mouth. Bathing my tounge in my own cum.
"I would love it if everytime you cum you lick it all up" Kelly told me. Kelly had never even sucked my dick in the 3 years we had been dating.
Kelly had me quit my job the very next day. Told all our friends and family about the engagement. And for the next few months Kelly slowly explained what she expected of me. She would inspect my cleaning correcting what she didn't like. Picked out the menu I was to make. Even told me what clothes to wear. Gave me a exercise routine I was to look good at all times but especially in public. Kelly quickly controlled everything. My video games where gone. Our sex life became intense. With me orally pleasing her almost everyday. And her denying me or forcing me to eat my own cum.
One night when we had a few friends over. Someone asked. How I had proposed. Kelly quickly corrected them saying she had asked me. And then stated I would take her last name. Everyone laughed. But I knew Kelly was serious. We had not talked about it but I didn't want to embarras her in front of our friends. But then Kelly made me show everyone my engagement ring. The guys all looked at me strange. Bit the girls cooed around me.
After everyone had left I was doing the dishes when Kelly came up behind me.
"I want to fuck you" she told me in a husky voice. I got excited immediately. "Like a husband fucks his wife" she continued grabbing my ass. "I have a toy, you will let me won't you?" I was terrified she intended on fucking me didn't she. She unbuckled my pants and pulled down my boxers. Her finger covered in something cool rubbed against my asshole.
"Kelly" I wimpered. She just pushed two fingers in.
"Umm" is all the noise I made as she started to work them in and out. She reached around my dick still hard.
"I knew you like this" she giggled. She bent me over the sink more and finger fucked me for several minutes. Before she let me stand up and fix my pants.
A few days later she came to bed wearing a dildo. That the other end was inside her pussy. She was forceful as she positioned me on my back and lubed my ass. Then shoved her cock into my ass. She fucked me with a passion and speed I had never witnessed. Not stopping until she had cum twice. My ass was sore when she pulled the toy out. I laid in bed and cried.
"All girls cry aliille when they lose their virginity" Kelly told me holding me tight.
In the morning my ass still sore Kelly was already up getting ready for work.
"Since you are a woman now" She told me. As she handed me a pair of panties. "These are much more fitting your status" I spent the whole day crying wondering what had become of me. But as soon as Kelly came home she rushed to fuck me again. After this she became even more controlling. Budgeting how much money I could spend. Even limiting how much time I spent on the phone.
A few weeks later it was my bachelor party. Kelly insisted I wear a cock cage she had bought just for the occasion. It felt odd but I was allowed to go out with some friends and celebrate. My friends took me to a private club. As we walked in there was Kelly on stage naked getting split roasted by my step brother and one of my old co workers. I wanted to cry but held it together as I was led to a front row seat. Only to see my best friend strip down and work his big cock into Kelly's ass. In the course of the next two hours I watched Kelly get fucked by two dozen of our friends. Then my best friend Alex led me on stage.
"Clean her up" he told me pushing my face into her used swollen cunt. He held me there until I gave in and started to lick up all of there sperm. Most had left by then. Kelly didn't let me stop until I had cleaned her ass as well. Kelly then took me home where she fucked me until I came in the cage.
Now on our 10 year wedding anniversary I am still locked in chastity and have been fir the past 5 years. I also wear a custom cage that only is 3/4 of an inch long. Kelly works as I raise our 3 children. Brad, James and Christine all named after their fathers.
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I Feel Bad for Feeling Bad and that getting in the way of of even streaming and things I need to do and I get caught between wanting to vent about it but also like Not wanting to be a broken record but also feeling like I'm just Lazy and Stupid because of it and also just not wanting to sound like i'm making excuses and knowing it must be annoying hgfdfgh
even just typing this all feels very!!! mmmmm bad. but still I type I guess.
#[ ;text ]#venting --#it's like. yeah i know i'm sick and have stuff going on#but one: couldn't get a diagnosis before covid happened and i aged out of my insurance#two: those issues also make it hard to really do anything job-wise so i'm like. unemployed. so no insurance there anyhow.#no job = no money = not helping with the household#no insurance and no money = no doctor = can't officially figure out what the fuck is up with me#no doctor to diagnose anything + no jobs = can't really get any official shit to potentially help me#also like.... living in texas#and i think i'm feeling worse about it this year because this year SPECIFICALLY fucked me up in different ways#like it feels Stupid and like an excuse saying the stress from the february stuff actually damaged me#and then my brother died in june and i'm realizing my body is still not over that#...and i know for sure it's probably just been made worse bc of long covid#and i'm just. HGHGHG.#anyway sorry i won't vent So Much here i'll be back on my working on stuff i'm just having a small moment
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Heyy commissions have been updated! Same prices, new look!
#maggy moment#artists on tumblr#artists of tumblr#art commisions#art comms#commissions#commissions open#this is a dangerous household please help me keep putting money in the house fund until i can find a job
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not to be another donations post but you may remember how over the summer we had massive amounts of plumbing problems and other unexpected moving costs? well. after proceeding to work every single hour available to me for six months, take no holidays whatsoever, and budget the hell out of every aspect of my life, I was actually on track to pay everything back and maybe have a little bit of wiggle room by the time summer came around!
and then we got a call from the vet about routine labs saying that if we didn't take Suzy in to an emergency specialty hospital immediately, she would die within in a week, she might die anyways if we took her there, but it was our only chance to have a few more months with her. after an extremely difficult household discussion, we decided that we needed to do as much as we could for her. she's been a beloved member of the family for 18 years. we were not going to abandon her in her hour of need.
with two days at the specialty hospital, the prognosis was better than we could have possibly hoped! the most important thing is she does not have heart problems at all, which means that we can treat her chronic kidney disease with normal IV fluids and with careful treatment she could easily be with us for years to come. the timely intervention also may or may not have saved her from acute kidney failure too, we'll know when we go back to the vet on Wednesday to get her blood checked where her levels have stabilized at.
two days at the specialty hospital means we are also down $3652 , and no longer are on track to pay back everything by July when it comes due unless a couple of uncertain things going forward Go Right, I do not trust everything to Go Right, and we're also still uncertain about what long-term treatment going forward is going to cost.
I still have my ko-fi and my patreon, but honestly, I'm aware that everything is tight for everyone always and there are also a lot of causes that need money right now and in the face of that "hey my family went super out on a limb to try to save our cat and would love some help not falling off" feels kind of shallow. but like. not to sound dumb or like a youtuber or podcaster, but, like. honestly I think the Most Helpful Thing that anyone could do for me right now is take a fucking HelloFresh link that will send you a "free" box for cost-of-shipping ($7ish?) if you Sign Up For An Account that you can then cancel Immediately After The Box Has Shipped and Never Give Them Any More Money Than That and get Six To Ten Meals Out Of It, and for getting someone to "sign up", they will give me a free box too. like. if 13 people are willing to take a link then I don't need to worry about food for the next three months. which would be. HUGE.
so I guess.... dm me if you want a link? otherwise expect to see a lot of promotion of my writing/ patreon as I scramble the hell to try to make this money up
#my life#pet sick for tw#donation post#sort of#yes I am aware that Hello Fresh is problematique / union-busting#they are also currently the only easily accessible source of Free Food that we can actually eat/use#honestly if anyone Wants To Help but doesn't really have the $7 for shipping#I will freaking venmo you back the $7 after I get confirmation of account credit#sending someone $7 for $60 of groceries still means you have Gifted Our Household with net $50 of food#at no cost to yourself#I'm not in As Shitty of a place as last summer bc my mother is also deeply emotionally attached to Suzy#and has agreed to spot us in July for a bit of the money if we pay her back in September#it's just!!!! really FUCKING frustrating!!!!!! we had the money saved!!!! I have spent the last six months KILLING myself to have the money#and now we are back to nearly square 1 except with six months instead of twelve months to make up the difference#so. free food would be much appreciated. as that would also mean that no matter what bullshit the next few months throws at us we at least#know that there will be weekly groceries shipped to us#me @ my job give me overtime hours#legit might destroy me again to work a 240hr month a month or two in a row#but three months of THAT would put me in the clear and they've got free coffee and energy drinks at work#however in lieu of my job giving me the ability to Not Practice The Best Self Care in return for Ungodly Amounts Of Money#'hi friends and mutuals can I interest you in a HelloFresh box' is the best I can do#I swear I will never start a youtube channel or start podcasting tho
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hate my sister's shitty good for nothing boyfriend. can you imagine being a 30yo man with two kids who won't even scramble an egg. Not for his kids, not for his girlfriend, not for himself. literally if my sister doesn't leave out pre-made meals when he's watching the kids he will rip up bread or pour them dry cereal or open a granola bar and make himself microwave dinners. like, lowest effort possible. but if i mention this to my sis, she'll be like "no he's definitely cooked for the kids! he scrambled an egg for them once! i watched him do it!" but it's like...so he scrambled one egg in the last five years. just to like, prove he can? at your direct insistence? should we all clap? like seriously. hate this guy. had to really hold back recently because he had someone over and he was interacting with the kids more than usual for appearances, and he had to keep asking me and my sis what the 5yo was signing because he barely bothered to learn his own son's primary form of communication. i was so tempted to say "that one means 'go home' but you wouldn't know that because you don't take them anywhere." so hard to hold that in. If I had to describe this man in two words they would be these: Low Effort. Not quite bare minimum, but JUST enough to convince my sister that it would be too much hassle to get rid of him. he's stupid as fuck, but just smart enough to quickly stop shit like screaming obscenities at the kids for doing normal kid things. and he once stomped on my headphones and broke them in a fit of rage, but gave my sister money to replace them so it was "fine." Like, my sister thinks that he's just struggling with his anger issues, because he had a bad childhood, blah, blah, and oh he would never actually hurt her or the kids. and like, good for you, but i don't trust like that. genuinely hoping he gets struck by lightning and dies instantly.
#my sister and i do all the hard stuff and most of the easy stuff too tbh#cooking and cleaning and sorting out benefits and insurances and getting the kids to school and events#doctor's appointments and medications and dentist appointments and taxes#we get the groceries and care for all the pets and kids and household things#we both have jobs#i actually have 3 jobs#good for nothing boyfriend makes $12 a year plus some under the table cash as a “private trainer”#which means between that and selling his plasma and borrowing money from his mom he can...pay his super cheap tiny part of rent#and occasionally hand my sister like $20#he doesn't buy groceries or diapers or household supplies or clothing or toys or literally anything#literally the only household chore he does is fold laundry#that's it. and it's not “DO” laundry. it's just folding the clean and dry stuff#you know. the chore my parents would have us do when we were like 10 so we'd feel helpful#the 5yo is medically complex and we frequently make trips to a slightly distant hospital with him#and they literally asked us to stop bringing my sister's boyfriend along because he was disruptive and confusing#which was a polite way to say 'obnoxious and stupid as shit'#do you know how many times in one visit w/the same doctor he would ask 'so when does he get superpowers?'#he also obviously didn't know how to answer basic questions like 'how many times does he poop a day on average'#and 'how often has he been eating and what has he been eating day to day?'#like bro this man can go days without changing a diaper and will not even heat up a can of spaghettios to feed his own kids#he cannot answer those questions with any kind of accuracy#also i'm saying boyfriend because my sister desperately wanted to at least be engaged so she could say fiance in front of ppl#but just like marriage this was apparently a 'waste of effort'#not even the cheapest ring or the most underwhelming proposal or a courthouse wedding was worth his energy so...#yeah glad she hasn't married this waste of air. and i'll be praying for that lightning strike
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Man it sucks so bad that me and my fiancé just ordered our rings but I feel so little about it because we’re so strapped for cash that I’m basically solely focused on job and side gig hunting so we don’t spend the entirety of November in the red :/ christmas is gonna suck this year guys and it’s all capitalisms fault.
#like as someone who likes gift giving as a love language thing#krilling myself#not to mention december is going to be rough because I’ll probably be out of work for the most of it#desperately trying to scrimp and save and get a part time job to help with things but u gotta spend money to make money#doesnt help that my credit card got hacked and so we literally only have my bank card which SUCKS for an entirely new reason#apparently my parents have a college fund set up for me but imo it doesnt exist because it is not actively in my bank account#and also I was raised in a household where people would literally rather steal rhings from my grandmother than ask for money#thats how un-kosher it is to ask for money in my family like its just agghhh
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#I do this thing where I keep comparing myself and my life to other people my age who live like ‘normal lives’ where they live with just#their partner and work decent-ish paying jobs#and don’t live near family/have large family obligations#like I make slightly more than minimum wage#my health stuff had been getting worse#my fiancé is disabled/chronically ill and working her ass off so she doesn’t have excess energy#which leaves a lot of house work on me#which is fine and I don’t mind#and our household is me my fiancé my 23 yo sister and we’ve all lived together for like 3 years now and my sister makes a lot more money &#helps with house stuff#/maintenance#but my younger sister and her 9 month old moved in at the beginning of summer because her baby daddy is a scum bag#and she’s 20 and really mentally unwell#so a lot of baby care falls on me & my fiancé#along with trying to help my sister with her mental health#which is like not normal levels of unwell it’s like serious shit and she’s completely unmedicated and going through a real hard time and not#adjusting to motherhood well cause she was 19 and shouldn’t have had a baby#and like she knows that but what’s done is done#she can’t move back in with my parents because her relationship with them is too fucked#and like there’s also complicated stuff safety and bad ppl in her life so that’s a stress inducing factor#she’s unemployed and I’m not sure will ever be able to work and can’t drive#not her fault just the reality we live in#also we’re the ppl who live closest to my grandmother who’s health has been rapidly declining so a lot of that has fallen on my other sister#and me to manage#I also have to pet sit a lot because I need the money#and when I come home I have to spend all my time getting the house back in order#also I’m about to be losing a days worth of pay starting September cause the kids I nanny are doing two half days a week of prek#which means less money & with these grocery bills and two more mouths to feed is gonna fuck me in the ass#so like yeah I don’t have the time or energy for hobbies I spend all my damn free time trying to keep the house clean or taking care of#The baby & like it’s just the way it is but it’s not comprable to how all the ppl I knew in highschool r living rn
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I wish capitalism was a tangible object I could bite and claw at I start foaming at the mouth like a rabid dog when I think about it gwrrwhrwgwwrgwr
#my mom shouldn't have to have a job she is busy all goddamn day every goddamn day taking care of her mom and her 6 year old child#and she takes care of me and my brother and her husband this woman is exhausted#and she makes us breakfast and dinner every day and she watches all the neighborhood kids and and and#she is already fulfilling an extremely valuable roll in society!! why the FUCK should she have to have a job too!!#not even going to say 'outside the home' because her job IS OUTSIDE THE HOME she contributes to this whole damn community#It's BULLSHIT it's UNFAIR she deserves justice#and it's also bullshit and unfair that a household with three workinh adults cant afford a 4 bedroom family home.#We collectively make enoigj money that we lost our fucking health insurance and are being kicked out of our subsidized housing#But there are no homes anywhere near any of our jobs that we can afford so WHAT THE FUCK#and every part of it is capitalism and I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it#Is the purpose of life not to find and be with wnd care for loved ones?? are humans not born to love and be loved and help one another??#what went wrong? why did we let it get this far? why are we taking a mother away from her 6 year old daughter so she can afford#both of their medicines that they need to live healthy lives???#A caretaker away from a disabled elderly woman? A safe person to leave your children with away from the village? Why the goddamn divide??#sorry there was ten minutes begween that tag and this one because I had to cry I am calmer now#still heavily anti-capitalist tho
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I’m having such a fun lil thought spiral today. Today has been going so well and I’m totally okay and fine and normal about it :,)
#I’m not aching I’m not aching everything is fine#I was so ready to take on this week and my mom has me changing plans and now I have to#take even more time off of work when I have so much to do. I have so fucking much to do and I wanna kms about it#I wish I could just quit my job but I can’t afford to without having a backup#I can barely afford to live as-is bc my household relies on me so heavily#I solely find groceries and weed and basically anything we need that isn’t a $20 purchase and I’m so tired.#and even when I ask for help supporting things it’s usually sorry I’m broke I don’t have money#my roommate has more fucking K-pop books than I have dollars in my bank account but she can’t help give me money for gas or groceries#I’m so tired I’m so sick Rickey I’m shattered and I want to cut someone but I know I shouldn’t#I just want to light a building on fire#bc simultaneously we are collectively ignoring a genocide and I’m so fuckin stuck like how am I supposed to keep living when all of this i#happening like why am I at work when bitches don’t even have clean water I should be terrorizing my local polaticians and s#doing literally anything else I’m so fucked it’s fucked fucks fucked#but ya know…. staff meeting at 2pm !!!!!!#personal
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//uhHh gunna go on a small hiatus due to not having internet+other (ill expln in the tags c/tw vent/rambling)
#// i owe like 300+ for my internet ($200+ to reactivate) reason i havent been able to pay it was due to paying rent/bills/groceries/gas#and medication(for my partner) and weve applied to a better job but we need funds to pay for the livescan to continue/finalize the hiring#process but sadly we wont be able to pay rent this month due to some circum's sothats sm ;u;#and aside from all that both of us going thru heavy depression and mental fog#we want to hang out w irl friends but feel like we cant cuz were always broke (our friends still live w their parents/have a safety net) an#we feellike a buzz kill cuz we cant pay for our own meals or afford to go out in general just feeling left out causing us to be depressed#and not wanting to go out/be invited out#we had one friend lecture us abt money when its like dude you&gf pay $200 in rent to ur parents; we live together(w my retired/disabled MIL#and we pay rent household bills groceries gas car stuff medication we get paid bi weekly so like first/ending monthweek checks are for rent#and the mid week check we have to save accordingly for rent but were cured w the pharaohs curse cuz whenever#we have money that we plan to get alil smth for ourselves something goes wrong w the car#like we cant do shit and honestly it feels like someones praying on our downfall or smth cuz its every fkn time we cant catch a break#so yeaa gunna go on hiatus dunno how long tho but wont be too long but i will still be drawing so maybe expect some art dumps#ily guys thank you for putting up w me i dont ghost on purpose im just always depressed and need to be distracted or else the urges comebac#trying to be okay but its hard but i need to grow up#//i have my parents but theyre going to financial hardships too so they cant help and my sisters cant help cuz older sis started a family#amd my twin sis lives w my parents#my mom started working but hadda stop due to having a grapefruit sized tumor on her ovary (which is the other main reason4 my depression#and dad could care less abt my moms condtion (hes the reason for her suffering but ahe refuses to leave him#vent post#sorry went off on a tangent#but istg if i lose my mom im going to fkn hurt him cuz i already lost my dad (my FIL) and i will not be able to mentally recover#like i was there when we got the phone call (couldnt be at the hosptial due to covid reg.) i dont ever want to go thru that heartache again#edit if youd like to help me out i have comms open and i have a cshpp if ur feeling generous ;; $altereghost
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god im so excited guys aaaaaah! I have work on monday. living in a society where I have to work to survive sucks but oh boy is my sense of self worth tied to whether or not I can contribute financially to my family. yikes
#like yeah having money to buy like. games or crochet supplies or cake or whatever is nice#but if I don't help my parents pay for rent and water and all the necessities I feel like I deserve to die and it's. not great#but literally just working 2 days a week is enough for me to feel like a good person#is this healthy? fuck no! probably I should address this shit in therapy. however. it is also my reality#ALSO.#why can I not be my own household for food stamps until I'm 22. what's that about#like. I promise nothing is going to change between now and february like. wtf just let me apply man#can't apply now bc I count as just part of my parents' household even though if I was 22 I could be my own household instead#and my parents haven't been on foodstamps in years bc they hate having to do the paperwork#literally my dad got a job after being unemployed for years bc my mom told him he could handle the paperwork that year lmao#so trying to get them to do it now would just be. no#but I know I would be fine to do it for myself and I probably will end up doing it as soon as I turn 21#22*#but for now I guess I just have to deal with $600/month or less :/#which is literally like. well $400 of that goes to my parents. I'd like to save at least $100#so less than $100 for personal expenses. like food and entertainment. ugh#which like. that budget has been $0 for the last couple months so I know I CAN do it if I have to but it just sucks#with my last job I spent more like $100/week on food and entertainment#but alas#I won't be going out to eat much. maybe twice a month if I'm frugal or get extra hours#ugh it'll be tight. but I'll make it work
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need to eat but What to eat is the question
#ingredient household ass.. but ive got cereal and milk so that might be it for today boys#need to start packing up kitchen stuff but its 8:30a and i dint wanna wake my bf up. even tho he should be helping too.#but w also 'dont have any boxes' bc hes scared theres bug eggs in the ones we have. which is fucking annoying bc we spent good money#on those boxes and its such a WASTE. UGH#anyway i can get some from work thank god but its just annoying yknow like i want to use the stuff we ALREADY HAVE#but for fear of contamination.. we cant. UGH!!!!!!!!!#but we still have to break them down and take them to the trash which will be kind of annoying but. whatever man#that can be his job bc what the fuck else is he doing to help#talk tag
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I have an UTAU WIP for Patreon that I'm gonna post today, but I'm rly trying to figure out something art or writing related to post, too 🤔
#it doesn't help that I'm still slightly on edge about posting anything HiB#I could post a poem but like I want something to show for the bigger projects I'm working on#I've been doing more writing than art lately but more applying to jobs and doing household chores than either of those lol#I've yet to make a Janus (Bouquets of Carrion) drawing I didn't give up on instantly; I could try to do that#I just wanna post stuff that feels worth people's time and money (yes even though I have one Patreon member and it's my friend lol)#I wasn't supposed to run into this problem bc I had a backlog of HiB concept art and stuff to post but now. UGH of course I can't post it
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i've been in a state of "if one more minor thing happens i'm going to fucking snap" for about five to six months now and i just haven't been able to. like logistically i should be burnt out, transmogrified into a beast, and/or dead, but none of that is an option for me. you know?
#personal#vent#i thought shit with my stepmom was actually getting better bc i'll finally be gone soon but nope#she's still either scrutinizing my every move and decision#or telling me what to do with my health and my body and telling me to go to a doctor when she never talks to me#and she ignores my suffering and scrutinizes me for the symptoms of illness she's telling me to seek help for#when doctors have done absolutely nothing to help me up until this point#but most of her time is spent questioning my every move#how many hours i work. why i dont work more hours and make more money and why i stopped working two jobs#why did i purchase new bedding for my place? why did i purchase pots for my place? why aren't i moved into my new place yet?#i didn't clean my french press the way she wanted me to. i set my drink on the counter for ten minutes and to her the world is on fire#because im ruining her vision of a perfect and tidy household when OUR FUCKING COUNTERS ARENT ATTACHED#AND OUR WALLS ARENT PAINTED#AND OUR FLOORBOARDS ARE COMING UP#AND I HAVE NO FIRE ALARM AND NO VENT AND NO CLOSET DOOR AND NO OUTLET COVERS IN MY ROOM#BECAUSE OF THE CHOICES YOU HAVE MADE THAT HAVE RUINED ALL OF OUR LIVES ESPECIALLY MY DADS#WHO BY THE WAY YOU ARE INCREDIBLY CRUEL TO FOR THE MAN YOU HAVE BEEN ENGAGED TO FOR OVER A DECADE#she only wants to spend time with her fucking girlfriend which is fine. whatever. but my dad isn't your fucking indentured servant#who is supposed to construct everything in the house and clean everything and do your bidding all the fucking time#why are you so fucking mean to us#i know you hate me but if you hate him why are you still here#the only reason im not at the bottle of the sibling food chain is because my brother managed to be slightly more of a disappointment#but im still pretty fucking low on the list of how much my family cares about me#im done im so fuvcking done im literally out of here in like two days but it wont be over#because ill still be coming over for dinner and i have no idea if she's going to treat my dad any better once im gone#and the past year has been fucking killing him and im being made to feel that that is my fault#jesus christ.#and i cannot express any rage or frustration to them because nothing fucking works they DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND OR CARE ABOUT ANYTHING#because i didnt graduate early and i didnt move out at 18#im going to have a fucking aneurysm i cant do this
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genuinely it is amazing that i am able to even get out of bed because these past two months have been some of the worst i've had in like a decade. genuinely in a perpetual state of "why is this happening to me" and "how are things going to get better after this" and "how will i ever have a future" like shit just keeps happening one thing after another i can't rid of it
#still don't have therapy; having what may be the last appointment with my current psych of three(?) years#because my clinic basically wants to take everything away from me and kick me to the curb#now my cat won't eat or drink which is like the sixth time she's had a health scare in the past two years#other cat has a genetic mouth disease and needs teeth pulled which costs so much fucking money#my mom decided to quit her job at the worst possible time as well#i can't keep up with household maintenance i can't even take care of myself#can barely shower can't make food for myself#if someone doesn't make something for me i just don't eat because it's too much effort#everything is too much effort i'm tired#been thinking of killing myself just out of spite to my clinic#since some of them seem fucking convinced i don't need help anymore apparently#this is why people end up dead i'm being fucking failed by these people#still don't have a job still can't drive can't do this can't do that#i'm fucking coming apart i don't want to Think anymore#what's going to happen to me#i need help i need help in so many ways help is being refused help is becoming farther away#i'm stuck in life
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Things the Biden-Harris Administration Did This Week #32
August 30-September 6 2024.
President Biden announced $7.3 billion in clean energy investment for rural communities. This marks the largest investment in rural electrification since the New Deal. The money will go to 16 rural electric cooperatives across 23 states Alaska, Arizona, California, Colorado, Florida, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Kentucky, Michigan, Minnesota, Montana, Nebraska, New Jersey, New Mexico, Nevada, North Dakota, Ohio, Pennsylvania, South Dakota, Texas, Wisconsin, and Wyoming. Together they will be able to generate 10 gigawatts of clean energy, enough to power 5 million households about 20% of America's rural population. This clean energy will reduce greenhouse emissions by 43.7 million tons a year, equivalent to removing more than 10 million cars off the road every year.
The Biden-Harris Administration announced a historic 10th offshore wind project. The latest project approved for the Atlantic coast of Maryland will generate 2,200 megawatts of clean, reliable renewable energy to power 770,000 homes. All together the 10 offshore wind projects approved by the Biden-Harris Administration will generation 15 gigawatts, enough to power 5.25 million homes. This is half way to the Administration's goal of 30 gigawatts of clean offshore wind power by 2030.
President Biden signed an Executive Order aimed at supporting and expanding unions. Called the "Good Jobs EO" the order will direct all federal agencies to take steps to recognize unions, to not interfere with the formation of unions and reach labor agreements on federally supported projects. It also directs agencies to prioritize equal pay and pay transparency, support projects that offer workers benefits like child care, health insurance, paid leave, and retirement benefits. It will also push workforce development and workplace safety.
The Department of Transportation announced $1 billion to make local roads safer. The money will go to 354 local communities across America to improve roadway safety and prevent deaths and serious injuries. This is part of the National Roadway Safety Strategy launched in 2022, since then traffic fatalities have decreased for 9 straight quarters. Since 2022 the program has supported projects in 1,400 communities effecting 75% of all Americans.
The Department of Energy announced $430 million to support America's aging hydropower. Hydropower currently accounts for nearly 27% of renewable electricity generation in the United States. However many of our dams were built during the New Deal for a national average of 79 years old. The money will go to 293 projects across 33 states. These updates will improve energy generation, workplace safety, and have a positive environmental impact on local fish and wildlife.
The EPA announced $300 million to help support tribal nations, and US territories cut climate pollution and boost green energy. The money will support projects by 33 tribes, and the Island of Saipan in the Northern Mariana Islands. EPA Administer Michael S. Regan announced the funds along side Secretary of the Interior Deb Haaland in Arizona to highlight one of the projects. A project that will bring electricity for the first time to 900 homes on the Hopi Reservation.
The Biden-Harris Administration is investing $179 million in literacy. This investment in the Comprehensive Literacy State Development Grant is the largest in history. Studies have shown that the 3rd grade is a key moment in a students literacy development, the CLSD is designed to help support states research, develop, and implement evidence-based literacy interventions to help students achieve key literacy milestones.
The US government secured the release of 135 political prisoners from Nicaragua. Nicaragua's dictator President Daniel Ortega has jailed large numbers of citizens since protests against his rule broke out in 2018. In February 2023 the US secured the release of over 200 political prisoners. Human rights orgs have documented torture and sexual abuse in Ortega's prisons.
The Justice Department announced the disruption of a major effort by Russia to interfere with the 2024 US Elections. Russian propaganda network, RT, deployed $10 million to Tenet Media to help spread Russian propaganda and help sway the election in favor of Trump and the Republicans as well as disrupting American society. Tenet Media employs many well known conservative on-line personalities such as Benny Johnson, Tim Pool, Lauren Southern, Dave Rubin, Tayler Hansen and Matt Christiansen.
Vice-President Harris outlined her plan for Small Businesses at a campaign stop in New Hampshire. Harris wants to expand from $5,000 to $50,000 tax incentives for startup expenses. This would help start 25 million new small business over four years.
#Thanks Biden#Joe Biden#kamala harris#climate change#climate action#wind power#Russia#human rights#politics#US politics#america politics#worker's rights#road safety
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