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[gigglingauspice]

It fascinates me how “transfeminine woman who is Vriska to the point of typing quirk” is an occurrence common enough that I would run out of space on my hands to count before I ran out of Vriska transfems.

To be clear: I have nothing against vriska transfems. I am aware that a similar thing happens with strider transmascs. I just wonder why this is a thing.

[buruhas]

A wee witch, two on the road home, three birds, four magical girls

[martyrbat]

so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!

[autobahnmp3]

i am actually really angry that 2 people are suspecting 2 different people solely based on vibes it seems

[oatmilkappreciator]

im a transsexual's transsexual. everyone is welcome in my community of course but I will RIDE OR DIE for transsexuals, survivors of necessary medical trauma, those of us who stealth pass. when your body is irreversibly marked and changed its a different ballgame, you're reliant on the compassion of doctors for the rest of your life. furthermore hiding in plain sight of people who'd just as soon hit you with their car if they saw what's in your pants is not a privilege. plenty of people who transition young especially the dolls are forfeiting the ability to have a above board work history because they're living in their truth, making sex work the only option. you have no idea the toughness and integrity it takes for that industry not to eat you alive, at least where I live.

coming out and pursuing medical and legal transition is shaping your own world with your bare hands. I have respect for anyone who rejects conventions of gender, but my heart and soul belong to those of us who said fuck it, I don't care what I have to burn down and sacrifice, I'm on this path and I'll fucking walk it. those people are my lovers and family and friends, because they understand what I've lost and sacrificed too.

[silkysong]

👁️

[fira54funko]

God Loves Everyone.

But I Don't. 😈

[katyspersonal]

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

[why-fucking-bother-anymore]

I swear I've gone through every emotion known to man.... (And then some) today...

[ashyfurz]

wanting fucked up elements in your comic vs people have 0 media literacy and reading comprehension and will probably call it "irredeemable media"

[apenitentialprayer]

And when I learned the things he had done, things for which it might be said that despising was an inadequate response, I found it hard to summon back that youthful disgust; for by then [...] my own deeds had taken from me the right to be my father's judge.

Moraes Zogoiby (Salman Rushdie's The Moor's Last Sigh, page 170)

[lightningandfireinmybones]

An AU where aemond accidentally kills Jace after claiming Vhagar, grows up as a black sheep who already believes he’s damned and is completely unbound by duty or honor or the gods he believes abandoned him when he spilt that much blood on dusty stones

[yakult-kettle]

anyone else just have a whole Troy McClure monologue running in their minds while they cook? just me? ok....

[jestiamy]

art is fun except for the several times it's not

[br1ghtestlight]

i think some people are naturally kinder and more compassionate and some people need to work harder on that stuff but its work that you SHOULD do if you dont want to feel terrible about yourself for the rest of your life (speaking from experience)

[castielafflicted]

Please understand that I am kicking my feet in excitement every time someone new follows me or reblogs my posts!!! I haven't been active in an actual fandom in so long and even then it was never like this. It's a sense of community that I was too scared to feel at 17, but now am delighted in.