#the other ones arent fat....pls..

[otterpuppss]

my vet giving me the side eye because truffle is a chubby little fuck and I'm like please mam I don't spoil him he's got some other weird issue

[proton-wobbler]

I was gonna put this in the tags but I think it goes in comments. The points are a little scattered, so apologies there.

- Most importantly, a list of known poisonous birds can be found in this paper here: Poisonous birds: A timely review which was sourced from: Toxic Birds (Wikipedia). Note that many of these birds don't show any sort of warning coloration or that if they are brightly colored, it appears to be through both sexes.

Also--

- Most of the orange-and-black birds pictured are the males of their species. To be considered a warning against poison, it would make more sense for both sexes to be the same bright warning colors. Thus, it's much more likely that these birds are those colors due to sexual selection rather than any sort of warning.

- Red and yellow are common Bright Colors for songbirds because of the carotenoids found in their diet. This is a signal to potential mates that "hey! Not only am I good at finding food, but my body properly metabolizes it too!"

- In some birds, like American Redstart, only males who have lived two years or more will have that coloration as a way to reduce competition for mates, as the females are much less likely to choose a yearling male who's color matches their own.

- Tanagers lose their bright red coloration during the non-breeding season, likely to keep from drawing the attention of predators, or maybe to reduce competition. (Their non-breeding coloration is much closer to females and young birds)

Pardon me for speculating wildly in your general direction, but we all need to be out there, catching and stuffing small birds into our mouths for science.

[walnutcookie]

fandom can be awful sometimes so heres a few reminders for my beloved mutuals:

- do whatever you want forever. if its not harming anyone or yourself you are amazing and you should continue doing it if it makes you happy

- ship wars/discourse suck ass. if its not a proship its fine, if someone has a different ship than you or interprets a ship differently you dont have to fight with them.

- your ocs are the best thing on this planet and you should share them

- your oc x canon is so wonderful and lovely and you should share it

- the ocs you created to be family members of other characters are awesome and you should share them

- your headcanons and interpretations of characters are awesome and you should share them

- hit that character with the beam. you know you want to. make them trans, make them gay, make them poc, make them disabled, make them fat, whatever makes you happy

- if someone is mean to you blow them up (hit the block button)

- be nice to others. support their art, their stories, their ocs and headcanons and ships, even if you arent very interested in them. stay curious!! ask about peoples ideas, because most of the time they want to share just as much as you do

- if other people have different interpretations or ideas, you dont have to agree or disagree with them. its okay to appreciate others opinions without telling them that theyre wrong

- if anyones ships/ideas/etc make you too uncomfortable, block them.

- if someone is too annoying to see in the tags, block them.

- if anyone is mean to you, block them. especially hate anons

- write whatever you want always. draw whatever you want always. draw those girls kissing draw that enby covered in blood write about that man going to see the dentist

- draw them as furries, as dragons, as humans, as objects, whatever your heart desires

- your selfship partner loves you always

- people arent always right about characters. sometimes theyre way far from canon, and its not really your place to correct them. if it makes you too uncomfortable block them.

- some people choose to not follow canon. do what you want forever, you are always right about your blorbo. you are not limited to canon or what the fandom depicts the character as

- dont be the one to send anon hate

- its okay to be a hater and a lover. you can hatepost on your blog just as much as you lovepost. just dont main tag it (thats mean) and dont add it onto other peoples posts who like what youre hating on (thats also mean)

- if someone is hating on something you like, its best not to engage with it.

feel free to add anything i missed :] i love u mutuals you should tell me everything about your ocs and ships and headcanons forever. pls

[tojisun]

Sorry it turned into a depressing rant

Anon who asked about your fav studio ghibli movie here!

I love howls moving castle so much, I love the part when Sophie starts cleaning the house, I love how comforting it is

I love the sass from everyone, I love how kind Sophie is

I love howls line “I see no point in living if I can’t be beautiful” as much as it sucks I agree with him. I’m not smart so the only thing I can offer is my looks and personality to people I meet. If I’m not beautiful, then what’s the point? Sorry if it sounds shallow but when you have nothing to offer in this world, the only thing I can work on is how good I look and present myself. I know I shouldn’t think like that, it’s damaging

Beauty IS in the eye of the beholder, there will be people who find you attractive and there will be people who won’t. People you find attractive, others won’t, so sometimes I try not to think too much about it since we never know.

All my life I’ve been slow academically. My siblings are all smarter than me so I’m always the dumb one. I’m not skinny but I’m working on it, even tho it’s so hard, but I have to be skinny, my life will definitely turn around when I’m not too self conscious about my body. I know I’ll still have those negative thoughts and even after I’m skinny I won’t be happy but, as of now, I never leave the house, my anxiety about how I look keeps me from taking in person classes. I never want to leave the house unless I look good, because I don’t want anyone seeing me at my worst, I want everyone to see me as the best version of myself. So I never leave, my social skills have tanked since 2020 since that was the last time I took a in person class, and that was in high school 😭😭

I feel so immature and stupid, and people my age (19) are doing better than me. I just give up before I even try, and I’m so behind since I’m in my third year of college and I still don’t have an official major, I’m so behind, and last semester I didn’t take any classes cuz I was so depressed and embarrassed, since I failed two classes. It’s an horrible cycle of pity and dread and I’m scared I’ll never get rid of it. And I’m scared of talking to men, but I’m supposed to get married and have a kid before I’m 30 since you’re more fertile and it’s better to have kids young, and I’d love that but I’m scared my kids will turn out like me, disappointments. And I won’t know how to fix them.

So yeah… we veered off of howls moving castle.. my bad💀

re:

!! this got long im so sorry

first of: pls dont apologize! u are welcome to vent here in my blog, im happy to just be a bouncing wall to u guys (if my usually long responses arent what u guys wanted to see). thank u for trusting me (us) with this and im truly sorry for how late im responding

i do love those parts of howls moving castle! i never understood why howl was lamenting about his looks when i thought he looked beautiful w orange hair. orange used to be my favourite colour ^v^ it isnt one rn but i am still fond of it.

i loved orange even when howl didnt – u are correct that beauty in the eye of the beholder. beauty also goes a long way. it’s a horrible reality but when u grew up fat, u get told so many times about how much better life would be if u could just lose weight. i truly cant tell u when i stopped thinking so little of myself.

honestly love, its just so recent when i felt good enough in my own skin – blemishes n all. i never thought itd get better tbh; i thought itd stay this way but it got better. and im scared to promise to you a range of when it will get better, but i do know that it will.

u feel immature bc u are still young! 19 is so young so pls dont punish urself for feeling young, for thinking young, for not knowing anything past being young yet. as a younger sibling, ik for a fact im still so immature. it took me getting a job (during the weekdays) n going to uni for me to mature up, n i was 20 when that happened. so recent!

i also completed my associates slowly bc i was struggling in college! i once took a sem where i only had one class bc i was so overwhelmed that i had to slowly pace myself so i can keep going. high school babies u n then boom, u get hit w juggling responsibilities in college that kinda makes u wanna quit – but u didnt. u took a break and then bounced back!! my love, if that isnt resilience, then what is?

ive never wanted to settle down. i think its bc i thought id be gone by now that i just dont see myself having a family of my own so i apologize for not knowing how to empathize about the ‘deadline’ but u are just 19. before age 30 is so far away! u have sm to live for in between those years. sm to experience and to meet and to love!

also, not having a major yet is also fine! i declared a minor just this year – and im a fourth year already. pls dont worry. u have time – that is something i wanna keep emphasizing. u have time. it feels like the world is collapsing rn bc of fear and anxiety which, my old therapist told me, is a sign that u (and i) wanna keep going. that u wanna keep living.

and from what i could see, especially coming from me who wanted to just give it all up, that is enough. i know that the reasons behind u working on urself isnt a sustainable mentality, but hopefully one day u will wake up and own ur hard work for urself. not for others.

aaaa this got too long im so sorry, im being emotional on my end but i just want u to know: u are not a disappointment. u arent.

ur alive and ur making connections and ur trying ur best (even though it doesnt feel like that on ur end but u are!!) so how could u be a disappointment? and even if u dont wanna do anything, ur also not a disappointment. not even then.

ur future kids will be so lucky and happy to have u as their mom. and they too will be beautiful; they wont need any fixing bc there isnt anything broken to fix.

i love you. i dont know who u are but i love you. i love all of you.

[spikesbimbo]

Their kinks/ Turn ons

- Gao, Hirugami, Suna

Cw: Harassment, pet play furry shit, *!degradation!*, *slight* cnc

a/n: i wrote a lot for suna bc we’re the same person

18+ Minors DNI

Gao:

Doesn't have a specific one so its usually a combo of them.

And as confident as he is that doesn't necessarily mean he's also intense/rough. (tbh its gnna be rough no matter what taking his dick but he doesn't mean it, okay?)

Size kink, duh.

He also likes to see your face.

To be more specific seeing the way its twists and turns, sweat dripping down it, your baby hairs sticking to your forehead, the way your eyes can't stay open while he fucks you. 

Also lovesss kissing all over you because it gets you wet enough to take him.

-

“Shhh baby I got you, look at me” he cooed coming up to kiss your lips, lingering on them for what feels like forever. 

He started kissing down your neck, all the way down your body until he reached your core, slightly pushing his fingers in, making you let out a deprived moan. Your arms immediately reaching out for him, grabbing onto whatever they could get their hands on, them ultimately landing on his arms and wrists. 

“You gotta let go if you want me to make you feel good honey” he softly said, pausing his movement, his fingers now resting on your needy cunt. “Its gonna hurt without prep” 

You whined, not being able to voice your wants, instead just dragging his hands away, to which he let you, and scooting yourself up under him under you were pressed against his erection.

“You want it now baby?” he asked, already knowing how drenched you were just from kissing him. The effect he had on you made him gleam, just praising you could turn you into a puddle.

You quickly nodded, with him listening, steadily spreading your legs apart, inching himself inside you. After a few minutes he was almost fully in, you were a sobbing mess, already crying from overstimulation while he told you how much of a good girl you were being.

He started thrusting after you started rocking you hips against his, getting faster with each thrust. He was going insane looking down below him, you tiny little body accommodating his fat cock inside you, fuck.

 You couldn’t focus just hearing him whimper and moan “ah fuck” getting to you, hiding the embarssing look on your face with your hands, letting you feel special that you were making him feel this good.

He dragged your hands away from your face finally letting him see those oh so cute expressions you made while he was fucking you, making him get a little too excited as he fucked your harder until he came, him already doing the same to you multiple times. He went limp on your body, cum still in you, you wrapping your arms around him playing with his hair before he muttered  “fuck baby you drive me insane.”

Hirugami: 

PET PLAY

Pls, put on some animal ears and watch this boy go crazyyy. pls why do you tolerate his furry shit

You can use it to your advantage too

Let's say you did something bad, and now hes upset :(

Go up to him in your little outfit with some puppy ears on accompanied by puppy eyes and boy will forgive you right then and there.

Not without having a little fun first tho ;)

-

“Your such a little greedy slut” he said, tugging on the tail in your ass making you squirm. Your ass was still sore, littered by his handprints. “You want some one else to fuck you huh? Fuck you with me?” 

“N-no daddy.” you cried.  “j-just want you, only you” you whimpered trying to prove your innocence, and that the guy you were talking to was just your classmate and nothing more.

“Really puppy?” He said now tugging on your leash pulling you off all fours until your face was eye to eye with his crotch. Did he already know you were telling the truth since the beginning, yes. But he also loved to play with you, getting a high out of the way you were acting.

“Mhmm” you said, nuzzling your check into his thigh, ready to do whatever it takes to make him happy again.

“I only want you daddy, you’re the only one I ever think of.” You said looking up at him with your big eyes, red from crying earlier. God you were too cute, always being his good girl, trying your best to not to disappoint him.

You were such a shy thing behind closed doors, dressing in baggy pants and jackets outside but as soon as you were home all you wore was little frilly dresses, barely covering your ass, cute little aprons, tiny tops with equally tiny booty shorts; striving for his attention in the most roundabout ways.

He turned you around, still on all fours, until your ass was facing him again. Sliding his finger down your slit before shoving them inside you, making you squeal, rocking your hips back into them.

He wasn’t afraid to show you that he was wrapped around your finger, he loved taking care of you just as much as you did him. He continued fingering you, roughly thrusting his fingers in and out of you, while tugging on your tail, suddenly hitting your g spot bringing you to an unexpected orgasm. 

Your arms gave out, him grabbing you before you fell, whispering praise into your ear while dragging you into his lap, not caring about the mess all over you.

“L-love you gami.” you muttered curling your head into his arms. One of your puppy ears falling off, the other one sliding down your hair.

“Love you too puppy.” he responded, kissing your forehead, slightly laughing at the state you were in, before taking you two to the bathroom to wash you up.

Is it obvs im a gami fucker?

Suna: 

Ok bby boy is most likely into everything, but doesnt care enough/ too tired to try it out

Sooooo, you have to bring it up

And hell glady follow

But deep down he just wants to get his dick wet most of the time.

So idk bout yall but that screams vanilla sex

Just sliding it in you in the morning and rocking you back and forth>>>>> some intense ass long freaky session

But this post is about their kinks so vanilla isn't enough…. sooo restraining if def one of them that you two frequently use. 

He’ll either tie up your hands, legs, etc., with whatever he can find or he’ll use his hands.

But dont think his attitude will leave with it. *!degradation!*

-

“rin” you sleepily groaned, not wanting to be awake at the crack of dawn, his hands working their way up your shirt grabbing your boobs. “Lemme fuck” he whispers into your ear, his chest to your back with his erection poking your ass.

“Rin” you say this time, letting out more of a moan than a groan, him sliding one of his hands down your shorts, resting his fingers on your embarrassingly wet cunt, smirking at the way he made you.

“You have a wet dream bout me princess?” he teased, his breath in your ear. No you didn't have a wet dream about him, you were just… always needy. 

You'd hate to admit it, but your boyfriend was quite the sight. You always took pictures of him instead of staring, not wanting him to “bully” you any more. In fact you've even got off to his pictures, but you'd never tell a soul, especially not him.

“Fuck off.” you quickly said, slapping his hands away while scooting away from him, hiding your now flushed face.

He doesn't take that well and moves to grab your wrists above your head with one hand while shoving his fingers in your mouth with the other to get you to shut up, not wanting to hear any more shit come out of that pretty mouth of yours.

“You gonna let me fuck you right now?” he questions, cupping your jaw with the hand that still has his fingers in your mouth, already knowing he was gonna get what he wanted. 

You couldn't respond, getting embarrassed again that this was getting you so wet, you only open your legs more letting him slide in, the burning feeling still happening even though you were dripping.

“Fuck, youre so tight.” he groaned rocking back and forth in you, his hand gripping your wrists even tighter making your whine, pushing your self back into him.

“Fuck, you’re such a little slut, arent you doll?” he said catching your movement, shoving his face into your neck. “Oh that's right, you can't talk because you were being a bad little whore earlier.” he continued shoving his fingers more down your throat making you gag, tears running down your face, your cunt swallowing him whole, being on the brink of cumming.

You body freezes, locking up as he continues fucking you, your cunt tightening around him making him groaning out a mantra of your name and curses. The both of you cum, his grip loosening around your wrists setting them free and his fingers coming out of your mouth wrapping his hands around your torso, borderline hugging you. 

You two lay there, seeing that the clock still says 6:35 am, both of you simultaneously deciding that you'll clean yourselves later, and the only thing you two want to do now is go back to sleep.

[haedgaf]

girllllllllllllll

i leave the enha fandom for a few WEEKS (wait im pretty sure it was like 2 months HELP-) just to focus on skl. i come back and see fat shaming choking the whole community like????????????????????????????? is this what we've come to in society??????????? AND NIKI?????? NIKI COME ON NOW??????? I WOULD'VE NEVER SUSPECTED HIM.

i absolutely LOST IT when he compared sunoo to baymax. im so done with kpop i fucking swear 😭 i need to stan viviz, i think i need to be severely humbled and be a solo stan for one grp,,, preferably a gg bcos these bg arent doing it for me.

-xi, who is just tired of kpop bullshit

PLS RIGHT IVE BEEN SO TURNED AWAY BY THEM BC OF IT. it was already bad enough that hs said the n word and jake for a sacred necklace for aesthetic purposes and danced with it, and niki can’t go a week without mentioning sunoo’s weight, IM TIRED OF THESE MAN AND IM TIRED OF THESE KPOP PEOPLE. i fr only like jungwon jay and sunoo in that group atp. also though ggs can be problematic maybe i should do that too, i’ve been getting into XG these days and im pretty obsessed with them.

tbh i think i’ve said this before but the only reason im still in this kpop shit is because of nct and seventeen once they’re done IM LEAVING. every group has disappointed me tbh but i enjoy the music a lot so 😭 so yh id say solo stan a group bc it’s better than having to go through the embarrassment other groups put you through.

[mymegumi]

cross my heart

pairing: iwaizumi hajime x gn!reader

genre: angst, fluff, hurt/comfort

word count: 1.0k words

warnings: selene plays fast and loose with past tense and present tense because some things are flashbacks and some arent (flashbacks are now included in italics for ease) no idk wtf is happening in this fic: also i don’t really condone what reader does in this fic pls do not follow in their footsteps

note: i’m probs gonna write a few fics based on SOUR and this is just the first one giggles <3 mwah love y’all

There’s a hole in your heart, you think to yourself as you stare at the sky. A suspiciously spiky haired hole that seems to cave and crash and carve itself into your skin with every second that passes before your eyes.

You remember a lot of your youth, unfortunately that means that you remember a lot of the stupid shit you’d gotten into before you had decided to get your act together and pick your feet up off the ground when you walked, instead of scuffing them and leaving your mark in the world. You remember the way you answered his every beck and call, the way you were attached at the hip, and the way that you had done anything to just be someone that could stand at his side.

It’s pathetic, really, when you look back at it now. There was something about the way his laughter would bounce against the walls of your room that made you want to hold him in your hands, to never let him leave. When he smiled at you, teeth showing and the slightly chipped front tooth from when Oikawa had thrown a football at his face, it made you think of sunrises and sunsets on a warm summer night.

“Do you think,” he had started with his head turned towards the star-speckled sky, “that we’re going to make it out of this town?”

The thought had made something close to hope blossom in your chest—the notion that it was a we and not just a me.

“I think, as long as the two of us stick together,” you responded, eyes tracing the curve of his nose and the slide of his cheeks, “we can make it anywhere.”

Looking back at it, Iwaizumi had looked forwards, towards the sky and towards what else the world had to offer him, while you had kept your gaze on him. It was always, ever on him.

When he left your small town, left the safety that the village offered to you and to the future you’d have, you weren’t surprised. You had been more surprised that he hadn’t even thought to take you with him.

You twirl a dandelion stem in your hand, watching the white puffs fly off of the stem. In a perfect world, where he had promised to love you and cherish you for as long as you both lived, you’d be sitting here with him at your side. Yet, you’re stuck in the small town you’ve grown up in, trapped and suffocated in a world that was too small for the both of you to flourish.

“Still stuck in this town?” Hanamaki had asked you, hand curled around a coffee cup. “Surprised, you seemed like you were too big and bad for us.”

You laughed into your own cup, one hand holding it up while the other one rested one the table lightly. If he noticed your fingers twitch, he said nothing of it. “Well, sometimes I think I’m still here because I’m waiting.”

“Still playing guessing games?” His eyes were filled with mirth, one eyebrow raised as he tilted his head towards you slightly. “I’ll bite, though—waiting for what?”

The look of amusement morphed into something softer around the edges, a bit more pitying and the sight of it makes your stomach turn. Turning your gaze away from him, you tapped your nail on the table as you sighed. If there was one thing you hated the most, it was the look of pity when people asked why you stayed.

“What I was always waiting for, Makki. I was waiting for him.”

You’re glad Hanamaki made it to the city. He’s too big, too bright to let the country life damper his shine. You think somewhere along the line, yours had been tamped out with a harsh foot, unforgiving and cruel in its hubris. As if mocking you for the want you felt in your chest, taking the hope in a careful hand before it crushed the life out of it.

The sun setting brings a different level of cooling, the breeze an effortlessly calming effect on you as you sit out on the porch in front of the house you’d inherited from your parents. All you could hear was the sound of your own heart beating, and the cicadas’ song that was the backdrop to the otherwise peaceful atmosphere.

The crunch of shoes on gravel isn’t even enough to pull you from your quiet reverie, instead content to let your head tilt back towards the full moon showering you in her love. The stars surrounding her twinkled, as if trying to let you in on a secret you couldn’t understand yet, and when Iwaizumi’s familiar weight made the porch creak and moan beside you, you start to think you have an inkling of what they were whispering to you.

“Hi.”

His smile is brilliant, as efflorescent and as breathtaking as the day you had said goodbye to him. The years had weathered his boyish charm, instead turning it into a rough sort of handsomeness—the fat of his face had faded to jagged edges and sharp lines.

“Hi.” You respond, turning away from his smile, for fear of being sucked back into him—back into the person you had been in your youth, that had followed him to the ends of the earth and back for a lick of attention. “Welcome home.”

“I think,” he starts, head turning back to the star-lit sky in your peripheral view, “that I finally am.”

There’s a lot being unsaid—years of miscommunication and radio silence, and yet now, you think there’s more of a chance than when you were a kid. A chance for something, anything more than the one-sided relationship you’d allowed to consume your youth. You’re older now—more worldly, if you will—and you think that instead of just giving, just offering all you have to Iwaizumi, perhaps this time there would be take as well.

For now, you’re both looking at each other, as opposed to the moon herself.

[sachirou-senpai]

hello 😼😼 can i request atsumu, sakusa and komori w a chubby s/o who is constantly bringing herself down and j overall super insecure,,, im not sure if ur okay w this but if u arent then pls ignore it im sorry!!

i loved the kitty emoji hehe 😼😼

this is a very wholesome request,,, be prepared for wholesomeness.

okay, you ready? buckle in!!

atsumu

he's smitten omg

prolly meets you at a party or something

he's like "oh shitttt, okay"

definitely tries to hook up with you lmao

if you're not comfortable, he wouldn't care, he'd just go at your pace

he's just a guy with a crush, he'll do whatever for you

and then he spends more time with you

and then it's not a crush anymore

because he's in love

very rushed and flustered confession

thank the Lord you accepted, he was very nervous

but now you're dating!!

yay!!!!!

atsumu probably wouldn't get it at first

but if you told him? oh my god, he's gonna be your personal hypeman

like, he was already your hypeman before

but now he's a lot more specific

and endearing

and it's like really cute 🥺🥺🥺

he wants to show you off to the world- and he does but he always makes sure that you have the final say in what everyone else sees, he never wants to make you uncomfortable

he literally never makes fun of you, ever.

he's joking, sure, but like i said, never wants to make you upset and uncomfortable

fuck he's so cute with you

body worship?

mmhmm.

surprisingly sappy dirty talk?

mmhmm.

cute love confessions before bed?

mmhmm.

he's a lil dirty, so he always wants you to ride him because he fucking loves seeing you on top of him.

oh, and you're sitting on his face, he doesn't give a fuck how chubby you are

and he always holds ur hand.

wherever u are

he likes being attached to you. 🥺🥺

he's real cute smh

sakusa

literally does not understand fatphobia.

yeah, he knows what it means and is pretty well versed in the subject, but he just doesn't get it

why the fuck do people think fat people aren't pretty?

aren't gorgeous?

stunning?

sexy????

he literally thinks you're the hottest person he's ever met omg

(he's biased, but only cause he's head over heels in love with you)

was absolutely starstruck the moment he saw you

probably stopped walking for a sec lmao

atsumu was like "Omi? You coming? What's up- oh. Oh. Yeah. They're hot as fuck, okay, damn. You gonna go for it?"

Sakusa just nods once.

And the rest was history

Anyway, he notices you're insecure pretty quick. You don't even have to verbalize it for him to know.

I firmly believe Sakusa's love language is acts of service, so he'd show you his love for you and all of your body by doing things for you.

will buy you the clothes he sees you eyeing, but not buying because you're not sure if you'd be pretty enough for them

will still get you your favorite foods to cheer you up

once he literally brought you a puppy to hold when you felt super insecure

cause like, puppies don't know what insecurities are

and they'd love you anyway.

wait, here's how the interaction goes:

"Omi, why'd you bring me a dog?"

"What's that saying people use sometimes? Talking about dogs and men?"

"All men are dogs?"

"Yes, that. Anyway, see how he's all over you? And see how I'm a man?"

"Yes?"

"Well we're the exact same. I'm all over you."

"Omi-"

"Not literally, but emotionally, yes. And I try to show it in other ways. Does it work?"

"Omi?"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

cue a big dopey smile from sakusa

"I love you too"

komori

komori notices you right away, and oh my god

he thinks you're perfect

literally perfect

he must get to know you

literally walks right up to you and is super friendly and introduces himself all nice and then just..

can't

his brain is a string of

"ohmygodsoprettyhelphelpohgodwhatdoidoahhh"

help this poor boy, please. please.

he thought absolutely nothing through. just was like:

WOOOH PRETTY PERSON OKAYYY GOTTA TALK

anyway, he barely managed to ask for your number, which you gave him, and a few dates later y'all were dating!!

he's such a cute boyfriend omg

(i just hc him as a really insecure person)

he gets the insecurity

and tell you it's okay, it's valid, and that he loves you so, so much.

he's the one to not try and fix it, just be there

when he complements you, he makes you look him in the eyes every time, because he wants you to see all the love in his eyes

he gives you lots of compliments and they're all so sincere

will hold your hand in public if he notices you getting fidgety and closed off 🥺🥺

oh my god, he's literally so in love with you what the hell

it's unreal

the love in his eyes?? so, so, so sweet and so so so pure

hhhng you're the love of his life and damnit he's gonna treat you like it

also i think he's really into chubby girls? and boys? and nb people?? he just, ugh, loves them.

this is so cuteeeee

i'm not a fat person myself, so if i said something offensive, first of all, pardon my ignorance, and second of all, CORRECT ME, I'LL CHANGE IT

taglist: @warmbearhugs @beanst0ck @your-local-abyss @oof-she-needs-therapy @tendouthighs @oyasenpai @senkuwu-chan @lovetsuki @kuroos-babie @keijination @multisun @sstardusty @lilidrawz @bbakougo @samwrights @crocyoota @currentconcern @nekxrizawa

+ @sckusa cause sakusa is in this and i know you're a simp

[earthh2jadee]

me ranting about loki episode 4 because wtf

you guys can totally disagree with any of my points, this is all my opinion and we all have different ones!

spoilers ahead! beware...

alright marvel this is the last straw im going to eat you

the amount of times i had to pause the show and rant to myself in pure anger is immeasurable

first of all, selfcest? are you fucking kidding me?

i am in denial and thinking that maybe im wrong and marvel ment this to be platonically but nope. with the way this episode went its definitely going romantically and i hate it

bestie there was a bunch of other ways you couldve taken this

you couldve made sylvie a female version of the greek god hermes, another trickster god, and maybe they could fall in love idfk. wouldve been a lot less weird

^^^yall can totally disagree with that point i just made it up rn out of anger

pls i hope they arent gonna further this whole thing

make it platonic! platonic somewhat-sibling healthy relationship! thats fun and good! not this! this bad!

holy fuck i actually feel really bad for sylvie, her life was fucked up because of the stupid tva

i also have a feeling that ravonna saying that she doesnt remember sylvie's nexus event was a big, fat, petty lie

if it is im gonna eat her kneecaps istfg sylvie deserves to know it

and even if it isnt, the fact that she doesn't remember EQUALLY SUCKS

the scene when loki admittted he was a narcissist and didnt want to be alone, wow that hit me like a truck

and sif? sif making it worse? i almost cried

i wouldve cried in the scene where mobius was pruned but i was fucking sPOILED RIGHT WHEN I GOT ON TUMBLR but it still hit me hard

and in front of loki?

loki's reaction was probably the saddest part, mobius was the only person who believed in him ;,((((

and literally the fact that mobius wanted to see his own life, brb crying

the tva is bullshit! absolute bullshit! horray!!!!

fuck the timekeepers and their animatronic-ass bodies, put them back in fnaf where they belong

loki getting pruned, right in front of slyvie. holy fuck. Them kissing was the worse thing they could’ve done and marvel was like “nope, we doing the SECOND WORSE THING”

hey, this is probably wrong but maybee ravonna was the one who made the tva?

um the post credits scene is confusing me way too much i need to lie down

ok im done

[def-not-hecky]

here it is!! the fabled wc jojo fic!! enjoy!! (also pls note that this is a draft and i’m gonna fix spelling mistakes and stuff like that in the future, i am also always up for criticism, so if youve got things that will improve my writing skills don’t hesitate to talk to me!)

bruno shuttered as he awoke, the early light of the sun filtering through the small holes of his den. Almost immediately he remembered the dream he had the night prior. “Only the blazing star can blunt the claw. Seek of the cat with the sun in his pelt and the arrow in his paws.” he stretched and exited his den as he strolled into his makeshift camp,still thinking about the strange dream. Narancia and mista were sitting on his tree stump, but they quickly scrambled away when they saw him approach. ‘well even if im unsure about the dream i still have to investigate what polpo was talking about..” the spotted tom hopped onto the stump and let out a loud yowl. quickly and sluggishly, abbacchio and fugo rolled out to their dens to hear what the capo had to say. after settling on the tree, bruno began to speak. “ leaky eye luka has been killed,” he started, drawing his paw over his ears to clean off the fur. “ And so polpo has asked me to investigate for him.” narancia seemed to be the only one suprised about this. “i think he deserved it.” mista said as he turned over to narancia. “always sticking his nose in another tom’s business…” he got knocked over by the black cat as bruno sighed, raising to his paws gracefully amd walking past the other cats. he shot fugo and abbacchio a glance to let them know they were in charge before bounding over the brambles.

bruno could say with confidence that he had never lived in twoleg place, unlike the others in his team, he had always grown up a rouge. his heart lurched with nervousness as he stepped into twoleg place. there werent many cats around to tell him he couldnt pass, so he pressed on, keeping a close eye on the cat that was trailing behind him. he sniffed around, polpo had only told him to take a see around and tell him if anything was suspicious. so the only thing he could really do was take a look. he didnt even realise the stranger had managed to get ahead of him, washing himself as he sat on a brick wall. something immediately set bruno off about the tom, which is why he didnt approach further. the way the morning sun outlined his figure instantly made his eyes widen with suprise. ‘this cant be’ he shook his head before scrambling up the surface to sit with the young cat. he eyed him closely, noticing the fresh scars on his nose and chest. ‘oh yeah he definitely knows something.’After a moment the golden cat stopped licking himself, shifting uncomfortablely at the strange cat sitting next to him. suddenly, a fat bird flew into the gate they were sitting on, but bruno caught it before it could fall. “say..” he started. “if you found a heap of fresh kill, what would you do?” he questioned. instantly the golden tom perked up at the question. “id keep it! finders keepers if i say.” he responded, sharpening his claws on they frayed wood. bruno purred in delight. “but what if that fresh kill belonged to a lion? then what would you do?” he pressed. “Easy! id take half and leave the rest for him, a cat’s gotta eat you know.” he smiled. The black cat forced himself to laugh, “y’know i really get the sense that you would! at least you didnt lie!” he chuckled “ ive got a special knack for finding out when people are lying, and i usually don't make mistakes” he confessed. “ have you ever noticed when you lie that your ears often twitch?” bruno excitedly flexed his claws. “but what’s important is your scent,” his nose quivered with anticipation.

“alright,” the fluffy cat stood up. “ who are you?” he questioned. soon the friendliness turned to suspicion. “Leaky eye luca got his eyes clawed out by his own paws and was found near the outskirts of the twoleg place.” he snarled, following the golden cat on the other side of that gate. bruno leaned in closer. “ its critical and its looking like he’s never going to make it.” he glared harder. “And ive been sunt here to seek out the culprit! so lets..talk.” The tabby flicked his tail absently, definitely considering making a run for it. “ No cat in the slightest even has an idea why he has on that side of twoleg place. But a young she cat told me that a tom named Giorno Giovanna was around there. So if you dont mind id like to have a chat about that.” he sat down, keeping a safe distance from him. “ Just a chat huh? are you apart of the no tails or what?” Bruno lashed his tail in irritation. “Luca wasnt just some rouge, he was a mafioso, and many cats had reasons to do away with him. He actually had a gift for being hated. But that is not how my boss is electing to see this situation.” he unsheathed his claws, pointing at giorno. “A member of the family has been slain, and what honor he had has been traded off. Thats why he has chosen me to find the unlucky cat who did this, and sort out anything around this mess..” he inched closer. “so make this easy and cooperate, understand? Did you meet up with leaky eye luca at the airport?”

“leaky who? ive never heard of him.” the world seemed to still as they both started at each other, like a fight was gonna break out. but in the end, bruno backed off.”You're ears arent twitching. All right, I'll believe you. That does it for my questions. Sorry to have bothered you, Giorno Giovanna.” bruno turned on him, padding back into the labyrinth that was twoleg place. Giorno sighed, turning his attention on his paw, that was unusually clenched. as he unclenched it, he came upon a horrific sight.

[hadeestown]

i watched the heathers on riverdale episode and listened to the soundtrack on spotify and i have a lot of things to say

FIRST OF ALL @ riverdale fandom dont freaking attack me for saying these. just being frank with yall

also the only actors whose names i know of are kj apa, cole sprouse, lili reinhart, camila mendes, and casey cott

BEAUTIFUL

- CASEY COTT,,,,he saved this song he should’ve just sang it alone - they made it so PG they didnt even include the fREAK SLUT CRIPPLE HOMO HOMO HOMO - okay camila sounded okay - kj apa,,,honey youre cute but pls stop singing - josie can sing but like,,,not for musicals - can everyone pls get the emotions right in this song thEYRE LITERALLY SINGING ABOUT HOW HIGH SCHOOL FREAKING SUCKS AND THEYRE ALL "just not today! :D" or "just not today *seductive wink*" - the autotune in lili's verse knjkACN - cole's voice is so deep he sounds like he wants to die - "why do i act like such a creep" whoever sang that im sorry but youre terribly fla t - so many wasted harmonies - "aHhh HEAther hEAther aNd hEATher" why falsetto - "lets make her beautiful" rip harmonies "okAY? okay?" rip falsetto uGh - cheryl can sing but i dont know something's wrong,,, probably autotune - "you hope you dream you pray ANd you GEt yoUR wAY" autotune count: ive lost count - The riverdale producers giving casey cott the high veronica notes is one of the few things they got right in this episode

CANDY STORE - heathers 101 lyrics knAKJCNJA i want to die - they can say biotch but not dick huh - the orchestration's weird,,,but okay - GO PLAY DUCK DUCK GOOSE - ICE CREAM - the first verse was okay then autotuned kicked in - the verses are pretty okay - i want more emotion pls just,,, sound bitchier - "SEE YOU DONT HAVE IT WATCH THIS" HACKNASCKJA IM CACKLING - rip harmonies in 2nd chorus,,,,those were great but they probably didnt find a person who can do the crazy mcnamara notes huh - DOORKNOB - cheryl youre struggling with the bridge - "kEEP ON TESTING ME *lower octave* and end up like her" oof whERE ARE THE HIGH MCNAMARA NOTES - i didnt understand the chandler riff what was that about - rip harmonies aGAIN this song had a lOT of amazing harmonies and they,,,threw it away

FIGHT FOR ME - josie honey youre terribly autotuned - kj apa kjnSCJNKANCKJA why - everything's so autotuned i dont even know what's real and what's not - i kinda like the end harmonies,,that's it tho

BIG FUN - okay orchestration's great - again with the heathers 101 lyrics jNCKSNAJC dont do heathers if you arent bold enough to curse on tv - rip harmonies,,,,,,,,,nobody did like the high notes jesus christ - convenient that they have a character named "Veronica" in the show - i dont know if thats camila's real voice but it did sound nice,,,however, i still believe it's autotUNED - once again, they gave casey cott the high veronica notes "i FEEL LIKE BONO AT LIVE AID" - "take a picTURE I'LL NEED PROOF" who the hell said that he sounded so monotone and emotionless like he forgot at the last minute he had to say a line - awkward silence for the part "i broUGHT SPARKLING CIDER :D" - no context "danG DANG DIGGITY DANG DANG" hAJKCSJNAC me initimidating my enemies - once again, akward silence for the dialogues - dang dang diggity dang dang everything's so autotuned - thE INSTRUMENTAL'S SO LOUD probably to mask the fact that most of the cast werent *cough* vocally trained

DEAD GIRL WALKING - what THE HELL IS UP WITH THAT TINY HARP SOUND AT THE INTRO OF DGW ANKCSJACI CHOKED - a u t o t u n e d  girl walking - the instrumental got better - i see they went with like pianos and shit and not mostly electric guitar for the guitar solo riffs - "ALL HOPE IS GONE IM A DEAD GIRL WALKING IM ON YOUR LAWN" gurl,,,youre in school,,,and there is no window lock,,,,,,, - heATHERS 101 lYRICS KASNKCJANSCKA - "had to see yOU HOPE I DIDNT WAKE YOU" bitch youre all awake in school - i cant listen to this song anymore without hearing the weird hair swishes and sound effects - "that works for me" yall monotone as hELL like yall dont wanna have intense sex just,,,okay sex - "hoWD YOU FIND MY ADDRESS" none of the lyrics make sense bc uhm,,,,theyRE IN SCHOOL - "i think you tore my mattress" gurl is chill as hell where is the concern over the mattress AHAHFANKCC - at least the guy sounded a bit hornier than the other girl - goodbye intense barrett notes - AHAHAHHAA they yeeted away from the G#5 - it's just like G#4??? - the other girl doesnt sound shes enjoying the sex huh - the guy who did the jd riff at the end,,,,hMMM pretty good but is it auTOTUNED??? the question remains - i can tell the whole song's like,,,autotuned but if just a little bit, toni sounded actually great

OUR LOVE IS GOD - the cult girl is not showing any emotion,,,,she's like reciting the lyrics hDJCKAJ - casey cott sounds great but autotuned ruined his voice - harmonies sound great actually - the instrumental is inTENSELY loud as HELL again - "they die becauSE THEY SAY THEY MUST" no context bc jD did not kill anyone in this scene - the ending harmonies were great

SEVENTEEN - fuck me i liked this the first time i heard it - im biased probably bc i love seventeen knKSCAJ - intro instrumental sounded a bit off key - cole pls dont sound dead - lili sounds great - SEVANTEEN - cole redeemed himself in the harmony chorus - is this shit autotuned???? bitch - SEvANTEEN (Cole Sprouse, 2019) - okay one thing's for sure, the tonight part is dEFINITELY AuTOTUnED - the toni girl is intensely autotuned wtf

LIFEBOAT - WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS INSTRUMENTAL - IT SOUNDS LIKE A NEW SONG LIKE LIFEBOAT WHO?? - I HATE IT - camila you dont sound oppressed - where's the emotion,,,,,elle mclemore who???? - i think the high notes are autotuned???????????????? whats new - I THOUGHT I WAS CAPTAIN - okay lyric change to fit the plot but,,,weird nonetheless - again,,,fuck this instrumental

SEVENTEEN REPRISE - in the episode, it looks weird as hell bc like random cast members are singing it when VERONICA and MARTHA should be singing it - hello??? chandler kurt and ram should be dead yet theyre still on stage???? fully clothed??? singing with everyone else????? - the producers DID NOT watch the musical - "martha are you free tonight?" - the girl playing veronica sawyer sings as she stares out into the audience and not at martha bc riverdale isnt about to cast a fat girl and give a fat girl some screentime on their show - KJ APA PLS - also cheryl,,,pls - a u t o tu n e - the song doesnt make any sense anymore bc it's taken out of context to fit the plot,,, - theyre all singing to an invisible martha - at least the harmonies sound decent fiNALLY - hello head voice - "TAKE oFF OUR SHOES AND DANCe" - the ending "BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL" i could not hear the girls bc they were all. singing. in. head. voice. or was it falsetto??? - im so done with this

OVERALL - what's the point of doing a heathers episode if yall aint gonna stick to the musical - i get that it has to be aligned with the show's plot but,,,,okay you do you - the people playing JD and Veronica were totally ignored bc like some songs meant for them werent even sung by them lmaooOOOO what is this - to summarize: AUTOTUNE - heathers kidz bop version by riverdale (2019) - im honestly just thirsty for new heathers content so i forced myself to live through this - costumes look cute tho - ALSO in their heathers promo poster, josie is wearing her veronica sawyer costume,,,,i dont recall seeing her wear that except for the last scene in seventeen (reprise) - basically seventeen (reprise) was a mess,,, - im judging them so much as if i can do better,,,,,,,,but whatever

IN CONCLUSION - they shouldve learned from their carie episode that musical episodes arent meant for riverdale - at this point, i dont even know what's autotuned and what's real

[saitolover]

🩸finished van helsing’s route!

thoughts under the cut bc it became a bit long than i thought it would be

one thing id like to say first is that wow! playing through the routes is going much quicker ever since ive finished the common route lmao felt like i was playing it for a week, while each route is taking me a day or two (thanks to binge playing now). didnt mind though tbh, i loved the common route. this game has become one where i can smile stupidly at my screen while looking at my fav 2d characters <3

so onto my thoughts about van helsing’s route, yay! i loved the angst and the drama that was going on in it. it was great (and extremely heavy and dark) to hear about van’s past AND LITERALLY how aleister was just. controlling him. i had my suspicious of him after seeing some of the bad endings, and how cardia or someone else would be like, “why are you doing this/why are you here…?” etc. but never expected him to be conditioning van wtf. also was interesting to see more abt finis, im wondering more on what his secret really is!

a little note: ive always been a fan of the more “colder” charas in otome games. cue my username, though now that im thinking abt it, my favs arent always like that lmao. okay ignore this ramble

but that aside, wow. the romance had me mad. not that pressed lmao but there are times where i wanted to shake my screen and yell at van for always pushing away cardia and being so mean TT i think i get it tho, man is completely afraid of losing another person he cares about. trauma! so i was finally so happy when he was like, okay fine i do love you cardia. but then he knocked her out oml. so glad that cardia came in and honestly i want to date cardia i have a fat crush on her. she cared so much about van and was willing to sacrifice herself (which is kinda a reoccurring thing, i noticed. makes me kinda sad bc i want her to value herself more too <3 which makes me happy when she says she and her LI will survive together no matter what. cardia is a fighter and she wont go down!!! love to see how she realizes that she’s capable of love, and that she isnt a monster <3 getting validated by others and starting to realize her emotions!) okay let me shut up now before i write a whole essay about cardia bc this is a van post ???

what was i talking abt again. oh right, anyways! stop it game the amount of angst in this route… im in pain. so i was happy when these two got their happy ending. it actually feels kinda weird now to see van kinda being in love now lmao bc he’s always been so cold and hid his emotions. we get blushing sprite of him and him being more romantic and flirting with cardia and im like. whoa who is this guy HAHA but im not complaining. his extra was great too, cardia was so cute and i felt embarrassed for her as well lol.

and i think that is pretty much what i have to say about this route! played the last couple chaps when i first woke up and am writing this immediately after i finished them so yeah! and one last note… i cannot believe they were robbed of a kiss LIKE ???? pls dont tell me everyone else is missing a kiss too 😭😭 im sad. i want them to hold hands and kiss too okay. that is all!

small update: omg i forgot to mention delly 😭 im so glad that van helsing’s route talked more about delly, his feelings, and how much he’s really been suffering :(((

[deathbydenial]

I didnt count cals today but i binged yesterday and today so yeah thats a 5 day binge streak yall. Literally kms. I havent sh in a long ass time but i might resort to it again if i cant stop this shit. I should have control. I should be able to resist. Its literally one of the only things i can control in life but i cant even take the oppertunity. Im supposed to be anorexic, im supposed to be skinny and fragile. But instead im addicted to food and the feeling of eating. I wish i was addicted to the feeling of hunger but its so hard to start. Instead im fucking fat. I DONT EVEN HAVE A THIGH GAP ANYMORE. I know what your thinking, "ew, what a fat fucking bitch she cant control her emotions enough to say no to a fucking oatmeal cream pie." THEY ARENT EVEN THAT GOOD. THEY HAVE 330 CALORIES FOR A SINGLE FUCKING ONE. WHY???? I DONT FUCKING KNOW. Its all so meaningless. This disorder. I mean what good is it doing me?? None. Im not even skinny. I wish i could have the disorder that made me small and cute. I know i wouldnt be able to see it but others could and they would feel concerned and upset by the sight of me. Not disgusted. If i was skinny do you think they would love me? My parents i mean. My moms fat but she has the excuse of "oh i had kids". What excuse do i have? None. Exactly. I shouldnt even need an excuse. I should just take action and id be skinny in a month. Less than 1000 cals a day and just brief exercise would make me thin. Why does the idea of 1000 cals scare me yet i eat it so easily? I could eat that in a sitting. It seems like so much and so little at the same time. I dont even know what to feel at this point. I dont want to die but i dont want to live. I dont want to keep doing this shit but i do. Its so addicting, the idea of a frail, small, thin lifestyle of "oh, im not hungry, i ate last night" and "wow this mug is so big, if i put it in my lap it would fall through my thigh gap" like doesnt that sound so... Nice but also terrifying at the same time? Like you might read that once and think, wow thats dumb but in the back of your mind you find yourself longing for it, yk? Idk what im talking abt pls do not read this whole thing like wtf is wrong with me.

[shatteredheart-girl-blog]

hey... just if you have time... I want to tell you my storie...

Val is a girl who had been in trouble looking for love, well not trouble but it has been hard for her.. her first experience with lesbian loe was good yeah but the girl didnt stay and started to behave in a crazy manner, so she had to left "there she goes, I lost a friend too" she hated herself. She tought that probably because of her age at that time was like this... maybe when she get older could be someone there. She remain lonely... Years later she met a girls in a party, like a love movie, Val was staring at a girl and the girls stared at Val too, both smiled. Val got so blushed and nervious like always, she was a shy girl but she always tried her best to not be.  At the end of the party the mysterious girls came closer to her to say good bye... none of the girls to that with her (of course not) only her and Val tought that could be a signal. Two months later she would see her again at the beach and hang out with her but one day when they were talking the phone of the girl rang "oh sorry its my boyfriend" heh.. Val just smiled a little and tought "yeah... it was so much beautiful to be true...". She remain lonely again... Years passed, at that time Val didnt care about lond distance relationship, she always tought that she could save money and travel or move there and stay with her partner (if she had one...) She met a beautiful person in a art site, her name was Hannah, she was funny and direct but just when Val tought "I could ask her if she wants so be with me... or " she was taken. "Well... isnt weird I was expecting that, she is cute... but I have her as a friend at least" he talked to her daily until one day Hannah stopped. And She remain lonely again... Val had a online friend who was in love of her for a long time ago, Mar, she live a little far than Hannah and she had tried to tell Val, her true feelings but Val its really dumb to noticed. Years later (at 2015) Mar told to Val her true feelings. Val admire her friend and love her in a specific way (friendship) but also tought "could this work? we have different tastes in everything but...could this work right?" Val say yes and both started a long relationship... It was her first relationship... long distance but it was, until the true self of Mar started to appear. They were friends from 10 years... but Val didnt know this side of Mar.Mar started to get mad about everything, cricitqued Val in everyway, her job/career, her tastes, her games or movies, the way she lived... she wanted to change her so bad and it made it... Val accepted everything thinking "I gues...this is how it works right" she loved her but at the same time she felt so lonely and without trust.. even for herself"no, you cant watch these kind of movies they are for kids you are an addult, no you cant go with your friends, they are toxic, that career you took only will give you less money, switch, do this.. do this, I love you and couples do this.... it got worse... "you dont have friends... those dont exists.. you use people, at a job nobody gonna be your friend.."Val got so hurted... Val hurted Mar too trying to defend herself but it always was Val's fault, "I dont want someone like you, who plays and watch animated movies with me, a person who dont do anything for herself, a person that cant remember anything" Val got so depressed, she couldnt listen to her toughts, she was trapped and she couldnt escape..."this is how it works... why it does hurt" she was so submissive... for Val when you love someone it doesnt matter how they think or what they like, she would accept her gf and never gonna try to change it... but Mar doesnt accepted her.. Val started to feel so afraid of telling her how was her day "she critique everything I do.." Does something good came from this? yes a little, with Mar, Val could learn a lot of things, Mar helped her with other stuff but this, the injuries marked Val forever...Val stopped trusting in herself, had doubts about everything.. One day Hannah appeared again, she had left that partner and had another. Val felt a little sad again but it was specting that...Two years later Val finnally left that Toxic relationship.Mar tried to convince her to not but Val just run and didnt wanted to listen... she was in a cage...trapped and now she started to feel free... "come with me... please I would change, I would do it, If you came back you can go out with your friends" At that time Val felt she hadnt friends... she never came back, her injuries still open and hurts sometimes bc when someone told you that you suck at everything, that you are fat, lazy, cant stand in a job for more of a week it hurts, that you cant remember anything, that you are the worst person ever that you arent capable of remember anything... it hurts it hurts a lot... for like a week Val cried a lot in silence and remain lonely and depressed for so long... She was so afraid.. so afraid of everything, she even started to think about suicide (she still thinks about suicide) until one day Hannah told her that she left again her partner...and they talked more and more. Val felt happy just talking to Hannah, she become more happy and for a momment her injuries were fine, she started to recover from the depressed state. Hannah told her "I am interested in you and I got a little jelaus when you told me that you were in a relation ship... " Val almost started to cry again because she was so interested in Hannah too... She WOULD save mone to be with her that doesnt matter, she did the same with Mar but...she never took the flight and she lost ll the money... its only patience... Every day that passed, Val talked with Hannah and she was so happy... so happy...until..One day Hannah told her that both of them just went from a horrible relationship before and told to Val to take her time, she wanted to be alone for a momment before start another relationship.. Val understood... and didnt say anything back, "y-yes...we need time.." and she walked away... it passed 1... 2....3....days.... 2 weeks... 1 month.... 2 months.... Val remembered Hannah's texts "I like you too... " and then "We need time to be alone for a momment"... Val tried to contact her again... just to discover that Hannah started another relationship with someone just 6 days after ask for time to Val......Val's Heart shatered... her depression came back, that hurt... came back, her bad toughts cae back too "you are uselesss, you are so inmmature, lazy, good for nothing..." "why... why did you to this to me... Hannah you ...you told me to wait and I wait... I  was saving money I was... I wanted to be with you since I met you, I wanted so hard, you told me to wait and I waited for so long and you just got another partner.... " she cried when she text her, tears in her eyes... nothing could stop it... crying in silence trying to not be heard by anyone... "you hurt me... you broke my heart...  I cant believe it... but okey... its... fine" "I didnt wanted to hurt you" Hannah said "Im sorry this... it happened... it just happened" ...Hannah told her "...just happened... you told me that you like me...  you made me feel so happy... I am hurt and I still hurt... but its okey... I get it.. I wish the best for you... be happy with that person... " and Val remain lonely, broken...depressed again... This is how I been living for almost 6 or 9 years since I was 16.... I am Val... I feel everyday this pain, my injuries from my first relationship still there.. hurting me... "you cant support or give advise to a person pls dont do it" "yeah... *sarcasm* the best gf of the year" ..... "fatty.."   still hurt... a lot I cry at night... a lot I always think that I would never be able to love someone or... maybe yes but I would never find someone then...Hannah and I ...we still being friends... last time she told me that she left that person... but yesterday she told me that they come back...   *sigh* ......  I been trying too to met someone via Apps... but I feel its like "yeah lets see the Meat Cathalog, lets see who wants sex" I dont want just sex... I want to meet someone... a girl who likes videogames like me.... who wants to watch movies (animated or not) with me.... who likes hugs...  and doesnt want me to change...  the sex will come later really ....I feel so lonely since I have memory I think... its its hurt for me... to wath a couple.. bc I feel I will never had a partner...I want a hug... I want to cuddle and sleep with ...a girl, ...a girl that would tell me "calm, everything its okay... nothing is gonna happen Im not going to hurt you.. I love you"

-Val

[coconut-cluster]

you know on this note yk what other kinds of characters i’d like? 

side characters who actually have their own problems that get addressed (i have a whole other post about this one bc im very passionate abt it)

fat characters who arent a joke

adhd/autistic characters who arent a joke

female characters who are absolute screw-ups

characters who are absolute screw-ups who know they mess up a lot and it’s actually a plot wherein they resolve feeling like screw-ups by being surrounded with people who support them and are patient with them because to err is human

female characters who have bold flaws like being too loud or arrogant or reckless or stubborn without it being centered around their sex appeal or childlike naivete 

abuse survivor characters who are good and kind despite their trauma 

^^^^^while still acknowledging that they have boundaries, recovery is a process, and they don’t have to be 100% okay to be okay 

basically less abuse survivor characters who become irredeemable villains pls

characters who genuinely question their sexuality on-screen/in-book. why does every character always know exactly what/who they like. it’s very often not that easy. who is doing this

anyway thanks for being forcibly brought to my ted talk with no request or forewarning

more characters should just be nice. not nice purely out of self-interest, or for manipulative reasons to be dramatically revealed later in the story, just. nice. kindness is a virtue and i just wanna see characters do things because they genuinely enjoy making people happy yknow

[rip-pinecest]

In response to the anon who asked me my salt with voltron:

please take in mind this is my opinion and only that, and that maybe i didnt phrase things properly so pls ask me if u want me to correct or explain anything to u

its kinda long so pls bear with me

I dont have complains in season one bc it really wasnt bad and it really set the characters roles very well and their personalities and shit, altho it did have weird pacing, but something about season two made me feel uncomfortable about voltron

like, firsts of all, the #NotAllGalra bs, it really set me off how they wrote the whole "keith is half galra" bc it not only made Allura's distrust in him as something bad (EVEN THOUGHT ITS VERY UNDERSTANDABLE?) but they also somehow watered down the horrible things the galra did (like, i dunno, imprisoning ppl, keeping slaves, killing and destroying planets, to name a few), they go into the "dont blame an entire group for the bad actions of a few uwu" territory despite the galra being literal colonizers, thats such a white concept, yeah SOME galra are good, like the galra who helped them and also keith who only just found out about it, but just bc of that we arent gonna have the narrative turn into some weird "Accept Everyone" propaganda and make characters like allura, who lost everything to them, feel bad about not liking them and not being able to accept them. the show actually acknowledged that allura needed time to process it but then right away went and had her APOLOGIZE (for no reason) to keith, which is, again, a very white concept. not to mention that kallura was also pushed, they had the character have lowkey romantic moments and it was pretty annoying to watch, considering none of them showed interest in the other and that keith is a galra

Another one is Hunk, I fucking love hunk, but the way he was treated in the series is very....disgusting.....being the only fat character he is reduced solely to fat and food jokes and being "dumbed" so pidge can look intelligent, despite both of them being equally intelligent and capable? like, i really hated how he was reduced to comic relief, even though he is so intelligent and capable and has so much potential, all his characteristics just got reduced to jokes and its so annoying, i want intelligent, charismatic, funny, interesting hunk back, now he is just the dumb food and its so annoying

TALKING ABOUT COMIC RELIEF, i also hate how lance was also reduced to this, and how he was just simply ignored and shoved aside throughout the series, like??? he has so much potential for being a leader, and they even had an scene with lance feeling like he doesnt matter and it was completely shoved aside?? like i hope this gets resolved in s3 bc if it doenst I WILL RIOT. also another thing that made me mad was the way lance was shown as "hyperactive" and being a very bad representation of a character with ADHD, and im saying this as someone with it, idk if that was their intent, but either way the way lance acted this season was weird and very out of character, and also a lot of these "hyperactive moments" shiro and pidge look at him judgingly, which is very shitty. i also hate how lance and allura's interactions are reduced to lance flirting despite both of them having potential for a good friendship, i really wanted to see lance and allura bond over missing their planet and their family and shit, like i know coran had this kinda bonding moment with lance in s1 but i do believe he could have something similar with allura, i just want the "flirty fuckboy" image lance has around allura to go away and...i want them to be friends and have good team interactions

i also kinda disliked shiro in s2, i must admit he was never my favorite and i had a hard time warming up to him and stuff but this season they really showed us that shiro doesnt know how to be a leader: he doesnt listen to his teammates, makes bad decisions overall, plays favorites, doesnt really know how to or try to make better relationships with his teammates. like, really the scene where lance tell shiro that keith would be a bad decision, even though it was for the "blade of mamora" thing to happen, shiro ignoring lance's words made me so mad, esp bc they somehow sparked his insecurity and feelings of not being enough, which i can relate. I really hope this also gets called out next season and we get all the unresolved stuff